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dysfunctionaldogdude · 21 days ago

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Boundaries / Triggers

Pt: Boundaries / Triggers

We have the right to unfollow people as we see fit - especially if you push our boundaries and patience

We also get panic attacks sometimes and might unfollow people we're afraid of upsetting - if that's the case, don't worry, please just talk it out with us :)

General Boundaries

Tagging us in tag games is preferred or in something we like [Fandoms, animals/theriotypes, kins, etc]

We love gifts!!! SEND THEMM!!!

We love asks!! Send them!!

Awards and chain asks please don't send them they're a lot of pressure to do [and the bomb ones legitimately stress us out]

Do NOT DM us unless you're a mutual or asked to DM [even if we've DM'd before]

We're fine with vents and love to help our friends, but please ask or warn us since sometimes we can be prickly

Mentions of SA, r*pe, and grooming is a BIG trigger for us. Please always trigger tag anything about it

We have extreme scopophobia, so please tag with #tw scopophobia or our trigger tag for anything with eyes looking at viewer or mentions of being w-tched

Please tag our collective triggers with #sirius go away

Triggers may update - We don't always remember

Trigger tags for mutuals if you're not a mutual don't worry about it

Wilhem ☆ "Will" ☆ Rowan

Please don't "touch" without permission. I'm very touch adverse and sensitive

Don't pry into information I don't want to share - you can ask always!! Just please accept the answer given

Please don't flirt with me :( only people with special permission can and usually only as a joke is allowed

Don't fakeclaim me please. I will literally break down and spiral cause of a lot of problems I have with reality distinction and trusting my brain/myself

Treat my characters like real beings, please, and thank you

While this isn't a trigger, please tag negative things towards my more "villainous" fictokins [Bill Cipher, Joker, etc] and bad talk about any of my kins [I see this with Twi a lot]

Certian kin mischaracterizations DO trigger me [i.e. twink Will, twink human bill, basically twinkification and straightification of my kins] so please tag

Also Billford - while source is fine please tag it with specifically #billford look away - since I have unpleasant memories of my canon Ford [mixed with my exes in memory] even if source is fine I still like to be warned

Anything about "Gods Love" or mentions of Yahweh [God] being loving or such is slightly triggering for me due to being a Lucifer Dietykin and having specific religious trauma

Please tag Hoyoverse/Genshin [specifically] stuff - Specifically Venti, I have nothing against the character nor the game/devs really I just have gross memories linked with the character [Don't have to tag Hoyoverse/Genshin really but DEFINITELY tag Venti stuff]

My trigger tag is #will go away

Phyce ♤ Icarus

Sensitive about romantic things [Does feel romantic feelings but its a bit hard on him] and doesn't like sexual things unless discussed beforehand in private

Do not flirt with him unless he's given permission - Never joke about it

Don't ask about his scars unless we're comfortable with you :)

Trigger tag things to do with negative things towards dæmons and shades along with other Greek spirits since he is one

Trigger tag negative things about The Big Bad Wolf - He has a lot of unpleasant memories [with scars to remember them by] about his deaths and treatment

ALWAYS tag the 3 little pigs NO MATTER WHAT he is EXTREMELY triggered by it that specifically tag it with #wolf go away

Trigger tag is #phyce go away

Hailey ♡ Hazel

Fine with flirting!! [ONLY FROM LESBIAN ALIGNED PERSONS - Mpsec included :3] - But only as a joke since she's currently not interested in out of headspace relationships

Pretty forgetful, so please don't get mad if she forgets something

Triggers include syscourse and anti mspec lesbian / anti lesboy [NOT Straightbians] - mostly cause it angers her and gets her heated

Please tag Pink Diamond hate under the trigger tag too - She's really sensitive about it since what she remembers is not like how people are talking about Pink

Please tag syscourse - While I'm [Will] fine with it she's not - it gets her upset even if she's pro endo she doesn't want that interaction

Please tag Spinearl [Spinel × Pink Pearl] she can currently only view them as her Pink [Penny] and her Spinel [Espinela] and Espinela was like a daughter while Penny was one of love partners

Trigger tag is #hailey go away

Zippy ♧ Clubs

Loves LOVES gifts and interacting with others a bit shy, but ze REALLY wants to :)

Not sure about flirting - They have not expressed anything about their romantic/sexual orientation for now, let's say no flirting

Trigger tag anything regarding scene or alt culture as "cringe" xey are scene and while xey have never encountered something like this I know they won't like it

Trigger tag stuff to do with emetophobia they seem to have it, and even the word v*mit makes them nauseous

Trigger tag is #zippy go away

Pearl⬯

Please don't flirt with her, she doesn't seem super comfortable with it unless it's from Hailey

Don't try to talk to her about Rose Quartz she doesn't really remember a Rose in her canon [Other than Rose and Hailey/Pink were two different people]

Would love questions about Garnet and Amethyst [Along with questions about her F/O - Pink Pearl (shared with Hailey)]

Likes gifts themed around the beach and snow!! [Not really a boundary but they asked me to put that there]

Prefers being connected to fencing over ballet so please don't share/tag her in anything with ballet

Trigger tag anything disrespecting her sexuality [i.e. Greg x Pearl, or any straight ships]

Tag anything with Pearl hate or Pink Diamond hate, she doesn't want to see bad things about herself or her partner

Trigger tag is #pearl go away

Laz 𓄼

Asks ONLY mutuals interact with them, they’re not a fan of strangers

Strangers MUST call hym Lazuli, hy refuses to be addressed as anything else if they don't know you

Trigger tag anything implying Lapis [source] as a girl since hy doesn't want to be viewed that way [Mostly includes source with more of a chest]

Trigger tag is #laz go away

#💫🐾#the sirius constellation #boundaries #trigger tags

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prpfz · 2 months ago

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🪐💫;21 y.o looking for anyone 18+ and literate to write some Honkai Star Rail or Genshin Impact threads on discord

I’m particularly looking to write as Aventurine or Sunday from Honkai Star Rail AND as Neuvillette or Venti from Genshin! I have other muses but these are the ones I’ve been itching to write! ♡

I’m open to any male characters and male oc’s! I just really want some mxm threads right now. Whatever pairing we decide on, I personally love to explore the developing relationship rather than diving straight in. Honestly, the messier we make it the better. I’m happy to write something canon compliant, canon-adjacent, or an au! I’m also down for extra fantasy elements and a/b/o. Overall, I really want some dark and spicy stuff, so please be open to discussing your kinks and limits ⊹₊⟡⋆

Like this post and I’ll be in touch! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

give a like and anon will get back to you

#honkai star rail roleplay #honkai star rail rp #genshin impact roleplay #genshin impact rp #fandom roleplay #fandom rp

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genericwizard · 4 months ago

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Venti :3

Ehe... under the read more for space

How I feel about this character Venti makes me unwell, he also makes me want to live so it all works out. He was my first love in Genshin and also my strongest. He is my forever favorite, even if I accept other characters may do more, be more, he is my one and only clown husband. I cried when I had to leave Mondstadt without him (and rejoiced that we'd never be apart once I rolled for him three months later). He inspired me to leave my shitty job. Character of all time to me.

All the people I ship romantically with this character I am the KaeVen CEO for a reason....... this is the only ship for the character that matters to me because I see so much intrigue. There's the mortal/immortal aspects of it but also because they are very similar characters IMO. They're both "outsiders" in their own home. People don't trust them because they're hiding behind their smile. Neither like taking credit for their good deeds or that their reputation precedes them, etc. I like the drama of "how could they ever forgive me for what I've done?" "am I worthy of being loved/ allowing myself to fall in love?" "I didn't think you of all people would understand me". And they've had more substantial moments in canon together than frankly any other Venti ship, but who's counting?

When I don't have brain worms I actually like exes zhongven a lot, I think they had a longstanding relationship that doesn't work out for various reasons, and they probably know each other quite well, or at least they used to. I also like RosaVen in a genderweird way, Rosaria realizing she thinks he's annoyingly cute and doesn't know what to do about it is fun. I also like one-sided Venlumi and Venti/Vanessa, because I know he longs for powerful women who don't reciprocate in that way... sigh.

My non-romantic OTP for this character One no one will mention- Miko + Venti friendship is S tier, I love that he gossips with her over drinks. I also prefer platonic XiaoVen, they're close but not in that way to me. As mentioned I also like Venlumi, and I'll take platonic KaeVen too since I eat crumbs. Historically I care about his relationships with Vanessa and NB but I am fixated on Venti in the current timeline so I don't think about them much.

My unpopular opinion (s) about this character Hoo boy. Well for one I actually don't like his archon design very much. I kind of dislike some of the elements that I think don't make sense on his body and also were only shown in the comic depiction, like his glowing anemo tattoos or w/e, I don't really get the point of those so I omit them in my writing. His archon design and all the discussion around it bleeds into my dislike of people who label him a tr*p or something similar/worse. Despite this, very pro Venti as a sex-haver, I don't think there's anything wrong with sexualizing him, I just have my own icks. Also pro Venti having weird gender, even if I still prefer he/him pronouns for him.

I guess I dislike that people distrust him so much. It's like, sure, he's withholding info from us, but to assume that means he has ulterior, evil motives makes 0 sense to me. I also don't like corrupted Venti for the same reason. He's fine. He just has the usual kinds of despair, from the existential crisis of his existence, perception of time, and all the loss he's faced that drive him to sleep for hundreds of years at a time. Far more tangible reasons to be "corrupted" to me than "ooooh the abyss made him Evilllll" Besides, Celestia made all that is forbidden evil, even if he is full of abyssal knowledge/power that's not a good metric of someone's morality when Celestia is our main antagonist!

I guess thinking Kaeya is his best ship is unpopular, but that's redundant ATP.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

Carmen Dei: Chapter II. Or really any new story/event appearance where he's allowed to be more than a glorified emcee / convenient plot starter.

#talking point #genshin impact #venti #don't really need this in main tags but i do need it tagged for my blog sorry others #i dont need to wish for kaeven moments in game bc theyve done several yipee #asks

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pink-tk-a-latte · 6 months ago

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LOVELIES (ෆ˙ᵕ˙ෆ) and yuckies (O_O)

Welcome to my chocolaterie!! And what can I do for you on this lovely day?

(Wowow it’s like I’m a real sfw tickle blog— Here's what to know when requesting or interacting!!)

❆ Please don’t tap the glass!! It scares the ice cream 🍨 (interaction etiquette)

All of these SFW!!!!!!! If you talk to me about s3x I will throw up on you <3 Otherwise be as outlandish as you please!!

Questions and chit-chat? ✅

Loredumping about OCs? ✅

HCs? ✅

AUs? ✅ Will write for them if given information!!

RPing? ✅ If it's among friends and just for fun then sure!!

Non-fandom tk thoughts? ✅

Teases? ❌

Irl tk gifs? ❌

Photos/art with nudity? ❌

Uncredited art reposts? ❌ (I will find you)

Hate and harm? ❌

I encourage you to request rarepairs (or at least pairings with less content on here) and wlw ships or pairings with women ehehehe!!!!

Requests will likely be full-length fics (~1-1.5k words) unless a drabble is specifically asked for. Depends if the muse is right :] Please leave requests in inbox, it’s the most convenient and fun way!!

❆ Smells fishy… (OFF THE TABLE!!)

Any s3xual, nsfw, k!nk, f3tish, non-con content

Proship/illegal ships

Old people lees, around 40+ (I’m sorry…) (excluding immortal characters who appear young)

Real people??

X Reader/OC x canon (unless it’s platonic? Or OC x OC)

Gore??????? (In- In a tk fic??) /jj

Open to discussion about most of these (except for those in red). If there is something I am uncomfortable with writing that is not listed here, we can talk about it!!

Some of my favs!!!!!! ♥︎

I’m up for writing basically any character or (legal) pairing/poly, all I ask is for a mood and any thoughts on the ship + a scenario if you have one, but here are my favorites!!! Pretty much any platonic groups welcome!!!!

All favorite ships listed here can also be platonic!! Sorry if you don’t know the ship names I made some of them up tehe

Bolds are the favs of my favs, pink is my fav of the favs of my favs!! If no pink, it’s probably bc I couldn’t choose. Starfished are the fandoms I’m most obsessed with/know the most about!!!

NOTE: I will include children and animals, but please keep in mind I do not think of them in a romantic, nsfw, or necessarily tickly way.

Genshin Impact 𓇼

Unfinished :( Started Sumeru. I don’t think the ships are accurate at all 😭

Kokomi, Ayaka, Miko, Gorou, Ei, Heizou, Yoimiya, Kazuha, Lumine, Venti, Amber, Fischl, Albedo, Razor, Noelle, Klee, Sucrose, Bennett, Furina, Sigewinne, Navia, Freminet, Lynette, Lyney, Chiori, Yanfei, Shenhe, Beidou, Ganyu, Hu Tao, Chongyun, Xingqiu, Xinyan, Childe, Columbina, Arlecchino, Nahida, Collei, Cyno, Nilou, Kaveh, Layla, Faruzan, Dehya, Wanderer, Mualani

Basically anyone with Lumine or Kokomi… Kokorou, Ayalumi, Venlumi, Eimiko, Shenlumi, Beiguang, Yantao, Bennefischlrazor, Xingyun, Albecrose, Arlebina, Cynonari, Haikaveh, Scarachilde, Mikokomi, Ganqing, Neuvifuri, Furinavi, Clorivia, Chilumi, Xiaother, Kazuscara, Kazuhei, Aember, Eulamber, Jeanlisa, Yunyan, Kokosara, Kokoayanilou… and probably more

Fontaine Siblings, Albedo and Klee, Lumine and Aether, Collei and Amber, Collei and Cyno and Tighnari, Nahida and Scara, Childe and fam, Beidou and Kazuha and Ningguang, Ganyu and Shenhe, Lisa and Razor, Xingqiu and Chongyun and Xiangling, Kokomi and Childe (lol)

Toilet-Bound Hanako-kun 𓇼

Up to date with anime + manga!!

Nene, Hanako, Kou, Mitsuba, Aoi, Mei, Sakura, Yako, Tsuchigimori, Sumire, Tiara, Mokke

Hananene, Mitsukou, Kounene, Hanakou, Aoinene, Sakunene, Terukane, Aoiaoi, Sumihaku

Minamoto Siblings, Yugi Siblings, Tsuchigimori and Hanako, Mitsuba and Nene

Project Sekai 𓇼

Up to date with main story, not caught up on events.

As much as I love the vocaloids, I prefer writing for the human characters. I also probably won’t write for NPCs.

(I love them all 💕) Saki, Ichika, Honami, Shiho, Shizuku, Minori, Airi, Haruka, An, Kohane, Toya, Akito, Emu, Tsukasa, Rui, Nene, Kanade, Mizuki, Ena, Mafuyu

Polyneed, Shizumino, Minoharu, Shizuairi, Polyjump, Anhane, Akitoya, Antoya, Polyvbs, Emukasa, Polysho, Polyniigo, Mafuena, Kanaena, Mizukana, Mizumafu + Fond of literally any non-unit romantic pairing except for Shizuku or Tsukasa with Leo/Need (they’re siblings): Honakana, Mizumino, Shizukasa, Ichikana, Mizurui, Minoshihokoha, Mizukasa, Honaemu, Airiena, Mizuan, Minokana, Akimino, Kanakasa, Shizumafu, Haruan

Tenma Siblings (including Toya ofc), Hinomori Siblings, Shinonome Siblings, Leaders!!!!!, most of the above pairings

Bungou Stray Dogs 𓇼

Not as familiar with Cannibalism + Hunting Dogs arcs (I actually know nothing about the Rats in the House of Dead lmaooooo)

Have also read Dazai, Chuuya, Age Fifteen and BEAST

Atsushi, Dazai, Kyouka, Kenji, Haruno, Kunikida, Chuuya, Higuchi, Gin, Kouyou, Q, Lucy, Louisa, Poe, Margaret, Twain, Aya, Sigma, Nikolai, Bram, Mizuki, Agatha, Teruko, Tecchou, Yuan

Atsulucy, Akuatsulucy, Ranpoe, Soukoku, SigSkk, Siglai, Sigzai, Higugin, Marthorne/Hawmitch, Suegiku, Loulu/Montcott, Kyoukenji (in a wholesome crushy way)

Atsushi and Kyouka, Atsushi and Dazai, Kouyou and Chuuya, Chuuya and like all of the kids, Aya and Bram, Tachihara and Teruko, Poe and Karl, Fukuzawa and Ranpo and Yosano, and all the factions (ADA and Guild especially)!!

Bocchi the Rock! 𓇼

Up to date with anime!!

Bocchi, Nijika, Ikuyo, Ryo, Seika, Kikuri, Eliza

Polykessoku and every pairing in it

Bocchi and Kikuri, Ijichi Siblings

Lycoris Recoil 𓇼

Up to date!!

Chisato, Takina, Kurumi, Erika

Chisataki, Eritaki, Sakufuki

Everyone in Cafe LycoReco

The Disastrous Life of Saiki K 𓇼

Up to date!!

Pretty much all of the Saiki Kusuo ships are qprs bc I do see him as aroace!!! 🖤💜🩶🤍💚

Saiki, Toritsuka, Aiura, Akechi, Yumehara, Kaidou, Hairo, Kuboyasu, Mera, Rifuta, Suzumiya

ToriSai, PolyPsychickers, SaiAi, SaiKechi, ImuTeru, SaiKai, YumeKai, KokoMiko, ChisaMiko, YumeAi, KuboKai, KuboKoko, KokoNen, KuboMeto, SatouHii, HaiNen

Saiki and everyone, Saikis, Saiki and Rifuta, Kaidous, Kokomi and Hairo, Kokomi and Saiki, PK Psychickers, Toritsuka and Aiura, Aiura and Akechi, Mera and Saiki, Saiki and Yuuta

Buddy Daddies

Up to date!!

Miri, Kazuki, Rei

Kazurei

Kazuki and Rei and Miri

Nana

Unfinished :(

Nana Komatsu/Hachiko, Nana Osaki, Nobuo, Reira (I don’t support her being a p3do tho /hj), Shin, Yasu, Mai/Misato

NanaHachi

Shin and Hachi, Hachi and everyone, Yasu and everyone

Skip and Loafer

Unfinished :(

All of the characters!!!!

MitsuShima, Yuzumako

Six of Crows 𓇼

Up to date!! (Only for the SOC book trilogy tho)

Kaz, Inej, Jesper, Wylan, Nina, Matthias

Polycrow, Kanej, Wysper, Ninej, MatthiNina

Murder

Shy

Watched Season 1!!

Teru, Iko, Stigma, Piltz, Keheheh/Kufufu, Shrimpy, Pepesha, Mingming, Ai

TeruIko

Teru and Pepesha, Andreanova Family, Teru and Shrimpy, Mingming and Teru and Pepesha, Kufufu and Tzveta

Pokémon 𓇼

It’s gonna get way too complicated if I try to list every character I like… I’ll just say the games I’ve played

Ultra Moon, Sun, Y, Legends Arceus

XY and XYZ, Journeys

MoonLily (yeah I’m obsessed with them), SereShauna (games)

Little Nightmares

The kids :))

Mono and Six

Avatar: the Last Airbender

Up to date!! I’ve also watched TLOK and I love Korrasami!!!

All of the main kids :)))) Aang, Katara, Ty Lee, Zuko, Suki, Azula, Yue

Kataang, Mailee, Sokki, Maiko, Zukka (eugh… flashbacks)

The Gaang, Zuko and Aang, Iroh and the kids, Zuko and Azula, Sokka and Katara

She-Ra and the Princesses of Power

Up to date!!

All of them :)))) Scorpia, Entrapta, Melog LMAO

All of the canon ones :DDDD Catradora, Glimbow, Scorfuma, Entrapdak, Spinetossa

Best Friends Squad, Super Pal Trio

The Owl House

Up to date!!

I like… all of them!!!! No like actually I like all of them (I like the Collector a lot)

Lumity, Huntlow, Raeda

Owl family, Noceda family (includes Hunter and Vee ofc), Blight siblings, Collector and the kiddos

Alien Stage 𓇼

Up to date!!

Mizi, Sua, Hyuna, Ivan, Till

Mizisua, Ivantill, Mizitill but in an unrequited love way lol, Hyuluka (one-sided on Luka’s side and toxic but Hyuna cares for him like family but also loathes and almost fears him—)

Any and all platonic pairings!!!!!

Kimetsu no Yaiba

Unfinished :( But I already know the rest of the story lololol

Tanjirou, Nezuko, Zenitsu, Inosuke, Kanao, Mitsuri, Shinobu, Giyuu, Sabito, Makomo, Urokodaki, Rengoku, Muichiro, Aoi, Tamayo, Kanae

Zentan, Zennezu, Tankana, Inoaoi, Inozentan, Kananezu, Shinomitsu, Obamitsu, Sabigiyuu, Zenkana

Zenitsu and Kanao, Kamado family, Kamaboko squad, Kocho sisters, Urokodaki children, Hashiras, Tamayo and Yushiro

Honkai Star Rail

Unfinished :( Up to date with main story!!

Stelle, March 7th, Robin, Firefly, Himeko, Ruan Mei, Huohuo, Bailu, Sparkle, Fu Xuan, Black Swan, Misha, Yanqing, Dan Heng, Acheron, Argenti, Boothill, Yunli, Asta, Serval, Gepard, Sushang, Topaz, Sunday, Screwllum, Kafka, Clara, Seele, Bronya, Lingsha, Tingyun, Siobhan, Baiheng, Jiaoqiu

Danstarch, Stellefly, Robinhill, Bronseele, Kafhime, Acherswan, Robinstelle, Robinfly, Pelalynx, Astarlan, Aventio, Caikong, Yunqing, Marchfly, Bronpaz, Guishang, Ruanstelle, Robinabi (THAT’S WHAT THEY’RE CALLED??), Tingmei

Astral Express Family, Landau Siblings, Sunday and Robin/Oak Siblings, Yanqing and Jing Yuan, Stellaron Hunters and Stelle, Guinafen and Sushang, Clara and Svarog, Xueyi and Hanya, Yunli and Yanqing, Lingsha and Yunli, Jingliu and Yanqing, Yaoqing Trio

Latest Update: 9/12/24

#tickle #py is turning pink #it’s about time I made one of these!!#sorry for how long and incoherent it is 😭#i’ll prob add more later #what… what is my theme actually

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gold-rhine · 8 months ago

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hc + 😶 for kaeya, hc + 😨 for neuvi, and hc + 👎 for furina! - @zhongscara

hc + 😶 for a headcanon about a secret they know of / keep

asdfghjkl idk whats left there to headcanon, kaeya canonically has\keeps so many secrets, not only his own, but hes de facto mond spymaster, he keeps tabs on everybody. kaeya's relationship with secrets is very fraught, on one hand he longs to be known and he keeps slipping hints and metaphors, talks in riddles and jokes that sound ridiculous but in fact true if you know context, esp thru stories\performance, like his improvisation in hang out theatre play. but he also knows power of secrets, of getting ppl to tell you smth like that, his information gathering in the tavern, keeping literal lists of treasure hoarder blackmail, etc.

but also he can respect other ppl's secrets, like i thought the venti branch in hang out was very cool, with them both not only tacitly showing each other than they know the other's secrets, but also being supportive without ever actually spelling it out loud.

hc + 😨 for a fear-themed headcanon

i dont think neuvi has fears for himself, with how nonchalant he is in discussing bringing skies down if needed, but hes obv very anxious and protective of melusines, bc. well, his people are gone, i dont think he knows about hydro vishaps trapped in enka bc it's closed off from teyvat. he sees melusines as future of hydro vishaps, and they are his weak spot

hc + 👎 for a headcanon about things they dislike

furina doesnt like crowds or being center of attention outside of clearly designated sace, i.e. stage. she hates working on projects shes not personally interested in, where she doesn't have an auteur take, smth special to bring to the table. is she ate smth spicy, shed die. she doesnt like asking ppl for smth bc she doesn't know how after hundreds of years of performative ordering and demanding, and bc she has severe fear of rejection

#rhine talks #idk what i can even say said rhine and then wrote 2 paragraph rambling asdfghj

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spumonibones · 6 days ago

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Chasing Wings: Memoria, Chapter 21

Pairing: Xiao x Venti

First Chapter (Ao3)* ; First Chapter (Tumblr)

Previous Chapter | Next Chapter

Lore/Story Notes

Chapter CW: None

Update Schedule: Currently on Hiatus. But!! "Chasing Wings" just hit over 100 Kudos on Ao3, and wanted to celebrate with TWO chapters!!!! This is the second chapter released *today*!

*Ao3 chapters are locked due to a shady site creating issues. Registered users can still read, but chapters will be posted on Tumblr for those who aren't. : )

CW: Xiao canon compliant references of abuse; implied past partner abuse (never specified what kind, it will always be left to reader interpretation); two ace characters discussing sex like adults (in a way far tamer than most PG13 movies); mentions of past addiction

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It was possibly a mountain that rose even taller than those in Liyue. The sort that reached into the sky and seemed to pierce through it, a circle of permanent clouds that wrapped around the mountain’s tip like a ring. Venti had looked up to find an end to the mountain, taking a few steps back to take in the sheer size. But at the mountaintop, gleaming within the perpetual blizzard, was a sight that made him shiver. All long his arms and legs skin rose gooseflesh, his hair standing on-end. Whatever it was, it made Venti feel nauseous just looking at it. Tried to ignore the unsettling familiarity it had, like a nightmare he was always trying to forget but never quite could. Not entirely. From the corner of his eyes, Xiao was watching the way Venti tensed when he spotted the remains of the Heavenly Nail in Monstadt. Hoped that the bard didn’t understand or recognize what it was. Simply was a person reacting to the instrument of Celestia as humans often did. Although… Mortals usually reacted with fear mingling with awe. Venti’s visage was closer to that of horror. Slipping his hand into Venti’s, the adeptus ran a soothing thumb along the back of Venti’s hand. “Venti?” He called. “Oh… Sorry.” Blinking rapidly, Venti forced himself to look away. Gave a hard swallow, as if the action would push all those feelings that thing created within him back to wherever they all came from. Put on his best smile, but couldn’t lift the corners enough for it to reach his eyes. “What is it?” “Do you… Know what that is?” Xiao hesitated in his inquiry, but forced himself to get the question out. Much as he wanted Venti to be Venti, and nothing or anyone else… If Xiao refused to see everything there was about the bard, to see only what he wanted… Then he was only attached to an idea, and not the Venti he was holding hands with. “I…” Venti found the words being lost on his tongue, eyes watching Xiao with a multitude of emotions. Should I tell him? Is it safe to…? If there was a time to tell the adeptus, it was now. The pair were alone, standing in the grass still within the boundary of Liyue. The chilly breeze from Dragonspine wasn’t the only cause for Venti’s shivering, and if he really wanted to he could just walk over to the snow that tried to breach from the land of wind into that of rock. No one else was around to overhear. No part of Venti thought that Xiao would tell a soul if the bard asked him to keep it secret. If he were honest with himself, Venti trusted Xiao with every piece of himself. Trusted the yaksha in ways that, perhaps, Venti wondered if he really should. Knew that the safety he felt with Xiao was one he could trust. Licking his lips, he tried again.

Venti’s words started out shaky, telling Xiao from start to finish. No, he didn't know what the 'start' was. But equally, he wanted to try. To be open with the yaksha about every part of himself. So, Venti told Xiao what he did know, and from where he started. How he found himself awake with no memory outside of his own name. The realization that Deaconess Erne was not there to bring back a god, but to groom a tool for her own purposes. The bravery of the knight that helped him sneak out, got him far enough to make the trek to Liyue. All the way to the Riftwolves, the unnatural terror they brought him. “…And then, when I called for help… You came.” The bard finished, eyes downcast the whole story. Instead, kept his gaze focused on their hands. Didn’t see much point in relaying what happened once he was in Liyue. In some ways, he suspected Xiao knew more than he did. “Sometimes I get these… Sensations. That something is familiar, but I can never figure out why. Little things come back to me. The small moments, seconds from days I can’t recall. Not enough of anything to say I know what I was doing before waking up in Monstadt.”

As he listened, Xiao maintained a stoic expression. Didn’t dare let any reactions slip through, as he wanted to hear everything Venti had to say. Couldn’t risk unintentionally scaring or shaming the other, despite the agitation blooming in his chest at the audacity of a mere mortal trying to create a god. Did she not fear Celestia? Five-hundred years had passed since the Cataclysm, but even if most of those horrors had faded from human memory, that fear now flowed in each of their veins. Furthermore, a Deaconess of Monstadt’s very church was trying to birth a false Barbatos? If there was a time for the Anemo Archon to make another of his surprise returns, this was most certainly it.

Gold eyes briefly, regrettably, glanced at Venti when he thought of the Anemo Archon.

The anger in his heart tightened into something he knew to be fear. All Xiao could do with those feelings was keep them inside. The shame that he now hoped Venti wasn’t Barbatos, despite how much it would mean to Zhongli if he were. Because if Venti were Barbatos… It was only a matter of time before he left, disappearing as the spring breeze did when summer’s heat came in. The Anemo Archon was not known for staying around for long, for any reason.

“I’m sorry.” Venti murmured, eyelashes quivering in tune with his mouth. Mouth pulling down as his brows pressed in together. “I don’t know anything about my life before. What I'm forgetting or if I'm leaving anything behind. But looking at that mountain… I think I feel sorrow and hate, and I don't understand why.”

“That’s…” Xiao wasn’t sure what to say. At a loss for words, he pulled Venti into a hug. Tightly wrapped his arms around the bard, and felt the hold be reciprocated. The Heavenly Nails were equal parts blessing and curse, but each represented the extent of Celestia’s habit of abandonment. Every region suffered the damage from one of the Seven Nails in different ways, but in all of them it was the mortals who suffered the most. There was a reason humans now favored praising the Archons, who could be touched with their hands, over a Celestia that left so many of their civilizations in ruins. Xiao didn’t know every cruel act performed, but learned and heard enough from Rex Lapis to understand why the ex-Geo Archon used contracts. “I don’t think there’s a wrong way to feel about it.” He finally settled on. “If you need to hate it, hate it as much as you need to.” He continued, garnering a small laugh from the other.

“I didn’t say I hated it… There’s just… I can’t grasp it.” Venti sighed, leaning more into Xiao. Feeling the added weight, little as it was, the adeptus straightened himself and secured a better hold. Couldn’t stop the smile as Venti pressed his nose against the yaksha’s cheek. “You I can grasp, though.” The bard pointed out, laughing as he was picked up by the other with feet kicking out behind him. Eagerly moved his arms around Xiao’s neck, nuzzling into the yaksha’s hair with deep inhales. There was always so many scents on the yaksha, that each sniff was a different one. A hint of the qingxin flower, only for the next to be an earthy smell - like getting a nostril full of mud. Then, what could have been laundry? These clothes didn’t have any blood on them, so it stood to reason these were clean.

“You can. Much as you want.” Xiao said, focusing on the bard. The way he felt in his arms, the warmth that spread from the nuzzling into his hair all the way down to his toes. “Call my name. I’ll always be there if you call.” It was a promise he meant with all of his heart, would repeat every chance he got. Never wanted Venti to forget that Xiao was there for him. At that, Venti stopped. Wriggled so he could be able to look into the yaksha’s gold eyes, the natural glow hidden in the light of day.

“I know.” Venti said, smile small upon his lips but wide in the curve of his eyes. Put both hands on the sides of Xiao’s face, leaning down to kiss the other in one of many languid dances. Pulling back just enough so he could speak, but pressed their foreheads together. “If I’m calling your name, it’s because I want to see you. So don’t rush away from saving someone else if I do. Okay?”

“…You’re safe here.” Rather than letting the conversation deviate, Xiao kept on topic. At no point would Xiao cease in the middle of saving someone. Equally, he wouldn’t just ignore a call for help if he was already saving someone. At times juggling helping the people of Liyue was troublesome, but the other yaksha were adept at ensuring such situations never happened. He trusted the others implicitly. But it confused him that Venti seemed worried that Xiao would just leave in the middle of performing his duty. Was that… The sort of impression he had given the other? No matter, those were musings and a different conversation for another time. “I just want you to feel safe.”

“I do. Mostly.” Venti said, one finger curling around some of the longer strands next to Xiao’s face. “I still worry that she’ll send someone over, but then I remember they couldn’t make me leave. I have a very important reason to stay. Pretending to be a god just isn’t in my schedule, you’ve got me quite booked.” Venti teased, eyes crinkling as he spoke.

The words were reassuring, and with a sigh Xiao rested his head against Venti's chest. Closed his eyes, felt the bard’s heartbeat. Could feel how it fluttered because of him, couldn't suppress the smile that knowledge gave him. Even if Venti wasn't as obvious as Xiao was, it was nice feeling they affected one another similarly.

Minutes passed before Xiao put Venti back down, with some regret. Settling into the grass, Venti patted the spot next to him. Turning his head slightly, Xiao listened for any calls within Liyue. Silence, save for the birds and the rustling of the wind. Happy to indulge further in the peace, Xiao sat next to the bard. Did nothing to stop Venti from swinging his legs over the yaksha's, simply wrapped an arm around Venti's waist as easily as he breathed.

“This would have been such a nice day for a picnic.” Venti commented, leaning his head on Xiao's shoulder. Nestled as closely into the yaksha's neck as he could when feeling the weight of Xiao resting his head atop the bard’s. “I really should learn how to make almond tofu.” He added, as if Venti knew how to make anything other than ratatouille. Or at least Xiao assumed. With a slight frown, there was a sudden self-consciousness. Could the bard cook? Xiao had never really asked. Knew the other loved apples and apple-based foods. And alcohol.

Xiao was grateful the bard was cutting back. It would have been nicer if the choice was based in Venti's own health and not because Xiao wouldn't kiss him when he reeked of alcohol. Small victories regardless.

“You don't have to. I only eat it for the texture anyway.” Xiao admitted, startling a bit at how easily he said it.

“You a texture guy? Like soft and fluffy things? Should I be worried for my thighs?” Venti asked, tone playful. Laughter left him as Xiao muttered something, burying his face into Venti's black hair. “My thighs are in danger! Oh, but now I don't have to cook at least!” His laughter was full of mirth, and delightful to Xiao's burning ears. In hopes of retaliation, he used his free hand to squeeze one of the bard’s thighs while he was distracted. “Hey!” Venti squeaked, before more laughter tumbled from his mouth. “You better not bite them!”

“Then don't tempt me to.” Xiao retorted. Partially to get back at the other, but partially because… Well, humans had a tendency to associate biting with a more sexual connotation. It wasn't something he worried about with fellow adepti, but Xiao wasn't sure if Venti would recognize the act as simple affection. The comment at least worked, the bard stumbling over words before finally huffing. “Fine. You have my thighs for our picnic. What do I get to eat?” Venti finally said, a hint of a pout in his words. Too much? Xiao worried. Mulling over it, he wondered if he could make it better with… Taking the question seriously? Pressing a kiss into black locks, gold eyes moved up slightly to take in their surroundings. “If the snow gets thick enough, we can eat it?” He suggested, voice genuine. There came a short laugh, before Venti wriggled to look up at the other with wide eyes. The two stared at each other, Xiao's brows furrowing as he tried to make sense of what was funny. “Oh. You're serious.” Venti said, his blue-greens almost the size of saucers as he realized it. “...Yes…” Xiao lowered his voice, moving into a quiet contemplation. Was it memory loss as to why Venti would think it was a joke, or had humanity simply finally became sustainable enough the past hardships had become forgotten by all but a few? “During times when food was scarce by flood or drought, compacted snow was a good way to satiate the pains of hunger.” “Hmm. And now it's a snack you can put flavors on.” Venti mused aloud. “Is that… What they do in Liyue Harbor now?” Xiao inquired. Humans never ceased to amaze him. Especially those in Liyue. All the ways they found to protect their past, while still moving into the future. Who would have thought snow, once a salvation, was now a treat? A slight smile tugged at his lips, eyes softening at the pleasant shift. “Yup. I'll get you some when we're there.” Venti promised, brushing hairs behind the yaksha's pointed ears. “Is snow a texture you like? Seems… Crunchier than your normal?” There was no way for the bard to know the weight of what he asked. Simply watched Xiao with curiosity, his focus not once having shifted away. Xiao was glad the other felt safe enough around him to ignore any strange sounds. The yaksha was also more familiar with what was normal and what was concerning, and Venti trusted that Xiao would only react if there was a need. Clenching his jaw and shoulders briefly, Xiao made a conscious effort to relax both again. Saying no was an option. Venti knew when to pry, and when to respect a refusal. The bard wouldn't push if Xiao kept his silence.

Centuries had come and gone, changes both great and terrible with every cycle of seasons. A slow, shaky exhale left the yaksha as he leaned to more comfortably press their foreheads together. Maybe, just this once, it would be safe to share those memories with someone.

Especially if that someone had very round, squishy, and perfect for nibbling cheeks highlighted by beautiful orbs of greens and blues just above.

“I wouldn't say I like it.” Xiao began slowly, trying to find the best way to navigate how and what to say. It had been so long since he spoke with anyone about it. Not a topic he enjoyed recollecting, let alone sharing. “Two-thousand years ago, there was something called the Archon War.” He knew he needed to proceed under the assumption that Venti didn't know. Even if the bard had all his memories, this was a history few of the mortals were aware of. Liyue had a better understanding than most, but Venti was from Monstadt. Far as they knew, anyway. “Gods competed to take one of the Seven Thrones, and Liyue had a lot of gods vying to win. One of them…” It was hard to get out, to say. His tongue got too heavy as his heart dipped into his stomach, cold and painful. A hand soothingly rubbed his shoulder, the simple act grounding Xiao back into the present.

There had been no kindness or affection back then.

“Don't force yourself.” Venti said, his voice soft and reassuring. Safe. The yaksha pressed their foreheads together again, and tightly shut his eyes.

“I want to.” Xiao hadn't even realized how badly he wanted to tell Venti. Not until the words left his mouth before his brain could form a sentence. The caresses from the bard made it easier, kept him in a present to see the past more objectively. To see more as a distant past than a ghost that still haunted him. Taking shaky breaths, he pressed on. “There was a god that took the names of other adepti to control them. None of us had any say in what we did. Many of them died as shields, the god using us as weapons and fodder for his own safety. I remember every single thing I did, every crime I committed. He thought it was… Fun, ordering me to consume dreams of humans. To watch those very people lose the ability to look forward, to lose the core of themselves. When Rex Lapis freed me, I promised I would never consume another dream.

But it's hard to stop something like that. I had grown so full off of them for so long. It was like an addiction. I had fevers that I fought through. I thought my teeth would fall out from how hard they chattered when the chills came. My insides felt like fire, burning me up from within. It got to the point that I had to avoid humans, because I was so frightened I'd lose myself like so many other adepti and hurt them. Streetward Rambler and the Stove God… Helped me. They taught me the trick about eating snow to feel full, and the Stove God gave me Almond Tofu to trick my mind into thinking it was getting what it wanted. Over time, it ebbed the urges, the need. I can look at humans, and not want. To no longer need like I did back then.” When had he last spoken so much? Venti's comforting hands had maintained the same steady, soothing pace the whole time. Not once faltering in spite of what the adeptus confessed to.

The two were quiet, and Xiao kept his focus on the pressure of Venti's forehead pressing into his own. On the warmth of hands that caressed his shoulders, offering the occasional reassuring squeeze. Small reminders that the silence was to offer the yaksha a chance to collect himself.

Would more react the same way Venti had, or was the bard unique in his understanding? Suddenly, Xiao realized how far he had drifted from the people he loved and lived to protect.

“…Are you scared to take me to Liyue Harbor?” Xiao asked, chest tightening as the fear slipped from his thoughts and past his lips. The memories, distant as they were, still carried their weight. The hands rubbing his shoulders gave him another soft squeeze, and the blue-greens eyes he stared into curved softly as Venti gave him a gentle smile.

“No. I'm excited to take you back, especially after what you told me. I think you'll be amazed at how beautiful it's become. When were you last there?” Venti's words had the effect of a lullaby, easing the tension and fear out of Xiao's heart to let him relax. A short laugh left the bard, feeling the heat from Xiao's relieved exhale. “If you're willing, I have an idea of some things I'd like you to try.”

“I've… Never actually been. You really want to take me, all of us, there… To eat? Wouldn't it be better if we asked Smiley Yanxiao to make it?” Xiao asked, hesitating about the motive. Thought this had been for all the yaksha to see humans as they were?

“Oh? Are you fantasizing now? About us in my bed, surrounded by treats, feeding each other?” Venti teased, one brow quirking upwards as a mischievous smile spread across his lips.

Heat flared across Xiao's cheeks and ears. “I… I wasn't…” He stammered, sliding his forehead off of the other's so that he could bury his face into Venti's shoulders. Shoulders that were shaking from laughter, that bard wrapping his arms around Xiao's back so that he could rub it.

“Aww, I wasn't trying to embarrass you that time!” Venti said, fondness punctuating every word. One hand moved itself up into teal strands, tousling the hair. “I'm sorry. Do you not want to? I was thinking that would be nicer, and it'd be less stressful for you. Large crowds will be too much for you, right? Oh! Maybe after all of us go to Liyue Harbor, the next time can be just us two! Trying new things would be way less stressful with just us!”

Xiao very much doubted Venti lacked motives with his initial wording. The bard made flustering Xiao a habit by this point, and the yaksha was growing more determined to do the same to the other. It was just… Difficult. The few times he saw Venti blushing came with a flood of emotions and urges. What if he acted on one and went too far? Such as hugging the bard too tightly and injuring him? Pushing those particular concerns aside, Xiao nodded his head. His cheeks flushed at the idea of it being just the two of them for the next time.

Used the motion to shift so he could press his nose against Venti's neck, and breathe in his scent with every inhale he made. Felt the way the other shivered from it, and instinctively tightened his hold on the other's waist.

“Xiao…” Venti gasped, stiffening at the grip. The yaksha immediately eased it, fingers massaging over waist and hip in apology. Sometimes the bard made him ache with foreign desires. The need to kiss him until his face was red and his eyes struggled to focus on anything but Xiao. To whisper to the other all the ways he was safe. To destroy Venti's figurative demons the way he destroyed Liyue's real ones. “…Sorry…” Venti murmured, as if he had anything to apologize for.

“Don't. I didn't mean to grab you so hard. Are you all right?” Xiao asked, nose nuzzling against the soft spot just behind the bard’s ear. Hoping to maybe tickle him, to hear those little laughs again instead of that meekness.

“You didn't hurt me.” Venti assured him, tilting his head to the side to let the yaksha roam across his neck as he pleased. A little chuckle did leave him as the affections did begin to tickle, Xiao smiling against the other's skin when he heard it. “I'm just… Not used to this.” The bard explained, fingers still combing through teal hair. “There's a lot I don't remember. But the bits that come through… I don't think anyone's been as kind as you. And it surprises me sometimes, even though I know it shouldn't because it's you.”

There were a multitude of ways to interpret what that meant, and just as many ways to feel about it. Anger, worry, happiness that Venti felt safe with him, sorrow that there had been anything other than kindness. “Do you need… Space?” Xiao ventured, worried the other was overwhelmed.

“No.” Venti laughed, warm and sweet. The sort the yaksha imagined the kind of sound he'd want to fall asleep to. “This is perfect.” Venti promised, and that was something Xiao could agree with. To lie in the grass, breeze washing over them both, arms and legs tangled together. Xiao couldn't think of anything better. “Xiao?”

“Hmm?” The yaksha hummed, letting his eyes close as the warmth from the sun and Venti eased his body in relaxing.

“Would you… Ever want more? Than this?” Venti asked, pausing between words. When Xiao reopened his eyes to look at the bard, saw Venti bite his lower lip nervously while brows knit.

“I don't understand?” Xiao asked, frowning at the question and the anxious way it had been asked.

“Intimacy more than… Kissing or holding.” Venti attempted to explain, floundering about as he avoided asking explicitly what he meant as cheeks burned with shame at ruining a perfectly good moment. But the timing seemed right, and he knew he couldn't avoid asking forever.

“There's more?” Xiao asked, eyes widening in surprise, curiosity, and hope. But the way he reacted, the bard realized that Xiao genuinely had no idea what he was implicating. Was just getting excited that there was a Kissing Level Two that he never knew of, and now probably wanted to know.

Venti couldn't fault him. If someone suddenly told him there was a more advanced version of kissing Xiao, he would also be thrilled.

“Well. Yes. But.” Venti stumbled, losing his metaphorical footing as he tried to not laugh at himself. “Not what you're thinking. I mean…” He had to steel himself before saying it, easing when Xiao returned those comforting squeezes that the bard did moments ago. “I'm referring to sex. Is that… Something you'll want?”

“Oh.” Xiao's disappointment that there was no Kissing Level Two was evident in both tone and the droop of his shoulders. If Venti hadn't loved the yaksha already, that would have sealed his adoration. “I've never really thought about it.” The yaksha admitted, resuming resting his head atop Venti's as he considered it for the first time. “Do you?”

“No, but if you did…” Venti trailed, fingers playing with the other's hair again, more to distract as his heart clenched and hammered as he realized he was doing what he always had done.

“Then it doesn't matter if I do or don't.” Xiao decided easily, as if the conversation was that simple and required no further discussion.

“But Xiao, what if you-” Venti blurted, moving to sit up only to be gently pulled back down and held in a ginger hug.

“If you don't want to, then I don't want to. I never want to do anything that you don't want. If you change your mind, we can talk about it again.” Xiao spoke with surprising firmness, mindful of his hold to remain gentle. To not hold the other too tightly and risk hurting or trapping Venti, especially as Xiao's mind raced with a sudden, protective fervor.

That anyone would ask Venti to do something he didn't want was enough to fan the few flames of anger that Xiao had. It didn't even have to be Venti, if he really thought about it. Being asked to do anything someone didn't want to went against the yaksha’s core, had been a nightmare he lived too long with. Xiao wouldn't let anyone else live like that, not if he was around.

“Xiao.” Venti murmured his name, stilling in the hold. Could feel his eyes water, tears full of relief and joy flowing into his cheeks. Returning the hug, Venti buried his face into Xiao's chest. “Thank you.” He whispered, gratitude blending with love in his words. Felt his hair shifting beneath the kiss Xiao pressed to the top of his head. “Xiao?”

“You're safe. I promise.” Xiao said, and at that Venti finally settled. Accepted that just as much as he needed that reassurance, Xiao needed to know the bard felt it.

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penny for your thoughts regarding the fatui, how they're portrayed and how you'd adjust them?

thank u…. every penny counts…

I find the Fatui pretty frustrating, honestly. The Harbingers are difficult to get invested in - I find their lore overly complicated and tedious, their storylines don't use the characters effectively and lack punch, they're no fun as villains and - worst of all - their boss battles suuuuuck. I think Childe and Dottore get off the best of all of them, and when Dottore's Biggest Moment so far is when killed off all his clones off-screen when we barely got to see him utilise him that's… not… great.

(memorable boss battles are important for memorable antagonists, and action RPGs. HYV has very bad sense for when they should include bosses - or has crippled itself with its mat boss/trounce domain system - and relies on spectacle over fun and challenging boss fights.)

IMO, HYV dug it's own grave when it decided Genshin needed minimum 2 separate villain factions, the Celestia mystery AND all the regional lore… on top of also needing to seed several brand new characters that are all going to be likeable charming allies that are literally going to be products. That's a lot to cover and not a lot of time, especially when they're so averse to having characters be relevant to each other on-screen for extended periods of time. And you don't want loads of dialogue in a videogame anyway...

Anyway, not fun. I like kooky villain squads but the Harbingers just ain't it, chief.

As for my plans, assuming you meant the rewrite by 'adjust'...

I've been thinking a lot about how to manage the Fatui. My plans are loosely based around my expectations for how Genshin canon will handle the Harbingers going forward - I think there's going to be a civil war that will divide the 'sympathetic' well-intentioned extremists/playable Fatui (Tsaritsa) and the 'unsympathetic' irredeemable villains/non-playable Fatui (Jester/Pierrot), and the two sides will come to blows (the Traveler siding with the Tsaritsa in some capacity). Genshin loves its factions.

I plan to stick to the rough shape of that, though I want to cut as much bloat as possible;

Jester's Faction will be connected to/allied with the Abyss Order. Pierro wants to restore it, destroy the modern world and overthrow Celestia.

Tsaritsa's Faction also wants to rebel against Celestia to free humanity, but the ends justify the means as far as she's concerned. She will still be a villain, but she'll be the 'lesser evil' compared to the Abyss Order and Celestia. I imagine her gracefully entrusting the world to the Travelers once her plan is foiled.

I'm going to make the Harbingers from each region more relevant to the overarching plot, but I'm going to focus on some more than others. Some one-off bosses, some will be connected to the party.

I'm going to cull a lot of unnecessary lore, or reassign some elsewhere. I really only want to keep what's necessary. I might even merge some Harbingers with other characters to streamline things - e.g., I'm probably just going to upgrade Pierro's relevance by making him one of the 5 Sinners of Khaenri'ah, or merge Enjou with one of the Harbingers.

It's easier to plan for the Harbingers I've already seen than the ones I haven't, haha... I do have some specific plans in mind, though.

Childe is easiest to discuss; he's loyal to the Tsaritsa and is a sometimes-enemy-sometimes-ally to the Travelers + rival to Lumine. He's my tentative pick for the party member that joins in Snezhnaya, likely on the Tsaritsa's orders after she's defeated. I want him to get stronger alongside the party - like Lumine, who has to start caring about Teyvat/only cares about finding Aether and bouncing, Childe will also grow into a more responsible person and leader/only cares about FIGHTING. (@ the arlecchino stuff down below)

La Signora - she's vindictive, hates Mondstadt specifically and has an axe to grind with Venti. She'd be defeated in the second Mondstadt arc, not Inazuma. I think the idea of reversing time to redo the war against the surface/Celestia is very appealing to her, so she falls in with Jester. She doesn't give a shit about anyone else - she just wants to save Rostam.

Arlecchino - To cut down on redundancy, I'm going to merge Peruere with Crucabena as the cold and uncaring head of the House of the Hearth. Lyney would kill her during the events of the Fontaine AQ and take her place as Arlecchino. I'm a bit torn on Peruere's loyalties; on one hand, I'd like to use the Crimson Dynasty stuff re; the way she raises the kids in the House of the Hearth, on the other I think this is a great place to put the Tsaritsa's "ends justify the means" ideology to greatest use. Childe will probably end up stepping up quite a bit here.

Scaramouche - a piece of Kazuha's character arc; these two will be developing around each other quite a bit. The "become god" plan will stick around from canon, but I plan to end Sumeru with him going on the run from both the Fatui and Celestia with the Electro Gnosis in his possession. He'll show up (much) later as an ally, though he won't join the party.

Dottore - Team Jester. is just here because this entire venture sounds fascinating and he wants in. For science. I like the idea of being able to fight and kill him multiple times. I'll be positioning him more as an enemy to Collei and by extension Nahida than Scaramouche, bc when I said I was simplifying lore on GOD Scara is gonna be one of them. I have got to figure out what I'm doing with Irminsil...

I need a Harbinger aligned with the Abyss to swing a bat at Zhongli to kick off the "Zhongli Dies For Real" storyline later in the game that's going to seriously fuck up Xiao, and my current prospect is Pantalone. I'm seriously considering chopping up Enjou's narrative role between Childe and Pantalone. It'll either be Pantalone or Sandrone anyway, though I'm really not a fan of the "Sandrone is Guizhong!" theory.

At the very least, Kathryne will be Sandrone's eyes and ears.

Capitano - Tsaritsa Faction. I... don't have much, he's really uncompelling. I'm debating cutting him from Natlan and moving him somewhere else, I really gotta see 5.3 first. Might be cool if Dainsleif was his commanding officer back in the day?

Man, Mondstadt, Inazuma and Sumeru are the easy ones. Liyue, Fontaine and Natlan are gonna be.... ugh.

I have my own plans for Celestia if we don't get anything from HYV any time soon (or if I don't just like it), so the specifics regarding the Tsaritsa will have to wait...

#replies #ac plays genshin impact #genshin rewrite

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sunblossxm · 10 months ago

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Hello everyone, it's been a while since I've written anything on here. So yeah. This isn't meant to be a romantic pairing, but a friendship pairing given how these two are friends in game canon. Part of me wondered how Venti initially reacted to the news that Rex Lapis had "died" before he realized that it was faked. Also timing may be weird, but just roll with it

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To Learn of a Friends Passing

(Cross-posted to my Wattpad AgentKenobi, eventually to AO3)

CW: mentions of death, perhaps poor writing, maybe a bit OOC?? Idk. Short, like 700 words.

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"Did you hear? Liyue's archon fell from the sky during the Rite of Descension. They say he was murdered."

Venti stopped in his tracks as he overheard the conversation between the two people near Mondstat's fountain.

'Murdered? Morax was murdered???' The thought alarmed Mondstat's archon. How could one of his oldest friends suddenly turn up murdered, and at his own custom too. 'There's no way.'

Venti lingered nearby, pretending to tune his lyre while leaning on a railing, as he hoped to hear more about what happened in Liyue. After all, if what they claim is true, he must know more. Morax was one of his oldest friends, if he lost another friend…..

"Yes, I did! And the Qixing say that the Honorary Knight is responsible for it!"

'The traveller?!!' Venti stiffened slightly, 'but that does not make sense.'

"Ah, the Qixing don't know who actually did it, I don't think the Honorary Knight would actually pull such a feat. They only blamed them because they ran away from the scene. Rumors say they're heading for the Adepti to tell them what happened."

The pair of civillians meandered off, leaving the bard to his own thoughts. Pushing off the railing he was leaning on, the anemo archon made his way towards the city gaits. He would go to Liyue and find out more about what happened to his dearest friend himself.

‘It would have probably been at minimum two days since these events had happened,’ Venti mused as he used the wind currents to travel towards Liyue, ‘word between Liyue and Mondstat takes time still. This would have given the Traveller time to meet with the Adepti.’

If the Adepti were like he remembers them to be, they would first consult with each other before deciding on a course of action. He suspected they’d choose to go to Liyue Harbor and demand answers……or retribution. The wrath of the Adepti would not be good for the people, especially when the matter they are upset about is their beloved god and friend.

The thought made him urge his current to move a little faster.

He landed by one of the Statue of the Seven sharpened after the Lord of Geo. From where Venti had landed, he could see activity on the docks of the Harbor. Mountain Shaper, Moon Carver, Cloud Retainer, and the Conqueror of Demons stood on the dock, discussing something with the Traveller and the Tianshen of the Qixing.

‘What have I missed? What had occurred down there?’ The bard wondered as the Adepti started to leave the docks, headinn towards their mountain and inn homes.

“Hello old friend,” a familiar deep voice spoke out behind him. The bard whipped around, eyes widening for a second in surprise as he registered the man before him.

“Is that you, Rex Lapis?” He asked, staring at the very god who had been said to have died. “The word that came to Mondstat was that you had died!”

“It is me, yes, I go by Zhongli now. I hear you go by Venti, am I correct” the amber eyed man paused to let the bard nod before continuing, “for all intents and purposes, Rex Lapis is dead to Liyue. I have decided to retire as the Geo Archon, to live amongst my people as one of them.”

‘Zhongli now huh?’ Venti noted before he opened his mouth, “Well, I’m glad to see you’re not dead, you old blockhead. You gave me quite the scare for a second.”

Zhongli only chuckled before motioning to walk down the path towards the mountains of the Adepti. “Come, let me tell you what has passed during the last few days.”

#genshin impact #genshin #xiao #genshin impact xiao #zhongli #venti #genshin venti #genshin zhongli #not a romantic ship #zhongven #my writing #probably shit writing #genshin fanfic #genshin writing #genshin drabbles

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sunnysunray · 2 years ago

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Genshin RP Request <3

hiya! i’m sunny (they/them), 20, and i’m looking for long term 18+ rp parters who will do some genshin impact ships with me. my timezone is GMT (in the uk) if it matters.

nsfw is welcome but not necessary! (i’d like to start doing mild omegaverse tbh)

i write in 3rd person and literate (sometimes novella type) style so i’d prefer to rp with someone who matches my writing style. i don’t have a whole lot of plots in mind as it depends on the ship, but both canon compliant and aus (especially zombie apocalypse type shit hehe) are good with me!! though angst plots (with a good balance of fluff) is the key to my heart. let’s brainstorm some stuff together and discuss what we like >:).

i also love making friends with my rp partners so ooc chatting is appreciated <3. i totally understand when life gets busy and you aren’t able to reply, although a little heads up will always be appreciated :).

the ships that i’m into are:

- zhongli x tartaglia

- xiao x venti

- cyno x tighnari

- kaveh x alhaitham

- thoma x ayato

- beidou x ningguang

- ei x yae miko

- tartaglia x lumine

trans headcanons of these characters are also loved and appreciated

i also like other ships, so if you have any in mind, let me know what they are and i’ll let you know why i think of them!

just a heads up, i do prefer rping on discord.

feel free to DM if you’re interested or like this so i can shoot you a dm instead!! <3

#zhongchi #discord rp #mature rp #roleplay #rp request #mxm #fxf #kavehtham #haikaveh #tartali #genshin impact rp #genshin impact #xiaoven

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lyon-amore · 2 years ago

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'Three Days Before' Extra Oneshot

Oneshot that I have always wanted to write of how I imagined a scenario of three days before Hannah's disappearance, both as the canon of the game, as the 'What if...?, I hope you like it 🤭

Sorry that everything is so separated, I have passed everything from the phone

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*Macie POV*

If there's one thing I can't stand, it's having to be the girl from the café: 'Macie, bring me a cappuccino', 'Macie, bring me a venti', 'Macie, have my macchiato', 'Macie, a lungo for me' , etcetera etcetera… And of course, who pays for those coffees? Exactly: me. As if it hadn't been hard for me to save for the blouse I've been wearing today. I have to divide the money between the house, Henry's needs and my subscriptions that keep me going in these chaotic days. Sitting on the couch… Turning on the TV… And watching the romance between Elena and Stephan, and Damon's sexy smile. If it weren't for them, I don't think I would survive.

And last night I needed it after that date. I have to let Lian introduce me to the boys, but of course, if she was lucky to meet such a lovely man, why trust her?

Or maybe it scared them when I look at them closely, as if analyzing them. Although thanks to analyzing them, I found out that one of them was hiding the fact that he was married. Ugh… It's sad that I now use these skills to find a boyfriend. Why can't I use it at work as well with some news? “Also because I'm too picky… “ I comment as I carry the coffees “Well, this was the lungo, this was the macchiato…” I say as I walk. The phone rings and I stop walking, answering. “Hello?” “Connors, there’s another coffee order” my superior says, speaking quickly “, bring me an Americano. “What?” I put the phone on my shoulder, to press it against my ear “But I'm already halfway there!” “Then it’ll be okay if you turn around and buy another one.” “But Mr. Jones-“ When I was about to continue the discussion —or try to, because he's my superior—, a guy pushed me, spilling the coffee beans on my blouse. My blouse! My €75 blouse! “But what are you doing?!” I yelled, glaring at him. “I am sorry!” I see how he takes out some coins and leaves them in my hand “Goodbye!” He runs off as if it cost him his life. "This costs more than a few coins!" Came back! He yelled, watching her leave. I tried to get his face, but he was wearing a mask and hood. I only kept his eyes. And with that, I can't do much. But would they really take a complaint for ruining my blouse? “Great...” I look at the blouse and finally, the coffees “No, no... They're going to kill me... My money...” “Hey!” I look up, seeing a policeman approaching me “Have you seen…” he takes a breath as if he were hungry, tired “Have you seen a guy in black and carrying a big bag?”

I stare at him, unable to speak. He probably doesn't remember me, but I do, he was one of those who messed with me in the past.

I open and close my mouth, wanting to answer. But the words don't come out.

I press my lips into a thin line. Nervous. "He's gone" I say, raising my hand "over there." I point to the opposite side, automatically. As if I wanted to ruin his job. Make him look ridiculous. “Thank you!” He is going in the direction I told him. I take a deep breath. I can't believe what I've done. I look down at the coffees and sigh. This doesn't look good and I don't have more money for more coffees. I have to get money from an ATM and I'm going to be late. "This day couldn't get any worse...”

I had bought me an ordinary T-shirt. While the blouse, I left it at the dry cleaners. I had bought the coffees again. How I hated it. “Where have you been?” Lian approaches me, nervous “They haven't stopped asking about you” she walks next to me, taking little steps “And the blouse? Why do you get a smiley cat t-shirt?” "Because I need something to cheer me up right now" I reply quickly, while I am taking almost leaps and bounds ”. I'm sorry, I'll tell you right now." I walk away from her, going to the meeting room. I knock on the door and wait for them to order me in. I keep waiting, until they finally open the door for me, almost as if they were going to throw it down. “Where were you?” Christian asks me quickly. “They threw the coffees at me and-“ “I asked you where you were, not to tell me what happened” he takes the coffee trays and closes the door for me. I close my eyes, taking a breath to calm myself from going in and yelling at him. “You’re welcome.” I reply, walking away from there.

I return to my desk and see the latest news messages to post on the website. There is always a lot of work and they pass everything to me. Someday I will have something good to tell. Of that I am sure.

Maybe twenty years from now.

I am in charge of decorating the page a bit, following the instructions. Lian walks over to my table, grabbing a chair. "Details, now" she tells me authoritatively, "have you met the boy from last night?" Is that why you have other clothes than this morning? “No, an idiot who was running has thrown all the coffees on me.” "Oh! Just like in romantic movies!” Lian gets excited and I return to the computer, not really wanting to talk “And? What happened? Has he given you his number? Have you given it to him?” “Coins.” “What?" “He gave me some coins, he said ‘I'm sorry’ ” I put on the most pitiful voice I can do “and he ran away. And it's not like I saw his face, he was covered.” "Have you checked to see if you've been robbed?" "No, he hasn't robbed me" I sigh exaggeratedly “. I hope I never see that guy with bad manners again or if not...” “You’re going to kill him for destroying your blouse.” My blouse… my precious blouse… I put my hands to my head. It's better not to tell Lian what happened next, because I don't even know why I did it myself. Why did I help him after ruining my clothes? <<His eyes… he looked quite desperate.>> "Earth calling Macie" Lian snaps her fingers, waking me up from my thoughts "And the boy from yesterday? What happened?” “Well…” “Well?” I shrug. I hadn’t gotten to have that special connection I’m looking for. Maybe Lian is right and I’m too picky. "Maybe it's time to accept having a rabbit farm or… Do you think Klaus will still be free?" "No" she holds up a finger "don't drag yourself into the past Macie, but don't try to find everything wrong with the guys you know, okay?" “I don’t, it’s just-“ “But what exactly are you looking for?” I start to think, what do I want? I want someone who will impress me when he speak, someone who will make me feel like before. A man who when he speaks makes me think: I want to hear you forever even if I have no idea what you're talking about, but I find your emotion adorable. I don't know. A man who makes me sigh because of his way of speaking? That his way of thinking is surprising? "Someone I can get into when we thinking and we can… I don't know, have fun with the smallest things we can." I tilt my head, continuing to think. “And if you're looking for that so much, why do you reject them after one date?” Lian places her hands on my shoulders, shaking me “Where is the second date to meet him?” I laugh and carefully stop her. Not wanting to hurt her because of the pregnancy. “Because my instinct tells me that it is not what I am looking for.” “Your instinct fails” she moves away little by little “what are you waiting for? The guy you've been waiting for so long to send you a message without him having your number?” I roll my eyes, with a smile. Chosen my future: I will have a rabbit farm.

As night falls, I stretch out on the couch with a bowl of yogurt and chocolate cereal. Henry jumps onto the couch, coming up next to me. "Why do you think the police would be chasing him?" I ask Henry, remembering the guy from this morning "Maybe he's stolen something? He was carrying a rather large bag and seemed heavy…” I start thinking about him. My curiosity can me, it's in my blood. But then I remember what he did and I'm mad at him again “. Let's leave it. Choose Henry. Today we have the next chapter of Vampire Chronicles or we see Twilight?” Henry ignores me, as usual “Yeah, maybe I could start watching something else.” I start to eat and decide to saw 'Fallen', today we will change the fangs for the wings.

*Jake POV*

I had arrived in the city earlier than I expected. I had managed to evade police surveillance at the station again. Blending into the crowd had worked. I always had to choose the time when there were more people, It is easier to be invisible and for no one to pay attention to you, they are so absorbed in their thoughts that I do not exist for them. I am just a shadow, a figment of the imagination of someone who thinks they have seen a person. I'm nobody to pay attention to.

I look on my cell phone the way in which to get to some buildings in the area of the university. There are always too many people there for them not to remember me. An area where every day there is always someone new. They have been abandoned for a long time because the construction company made them with unreliable materials, so when the town hall found out, the guy who was in charge of building them fled. I think it will be good for me to spend time there. I have to save a little, I have already paid enough for the bus ticket. And I have to take advantage of the fact that at the moment they are not going to knock them down. I look up from my phone, seeing a guy steal a lady's purse. <<Do not get in mess.>>

It is what I think. It is what I want to do.

<<Shit.>>

I silently approach the thief and doing his same trick, I manage to get the purse without him noticing. When I want to stealthily return it to her, she gets ahead of me, screaming. “My wallet!” She yells, looking at her pockets “I've been robbed!” I groan under my breath, tossing the small object into her hands. “The thief! He is!” She yells just as I run off. It is the last and only time that I helped someone. Never again.

I run out, being careful with the bag in which I have all my equipment. I jump down the stairs, from one railing to another. I hear the policeman from a long way away say to stop.

I keep running and look back for a moment, to see if he is still following me. I notice a strong blow, I have collided with something.

No. It is worse.

With someone. “But what are you doing?!” The young woman yells at me. I see that I have spilled several coffees on top of her blouse, but what happens today? “I am sorry!” I quickly took out the coins that I had in my pockets, to give them to her as an apology “Goodbye!” I run again, getting away from there. "This costs more than a few coins! Came back!” she yells at me and I mentally apologize to her several times.

This was not what was planned.

I am running into a dead end. I curse under the mask. I remain silent, listening to the conversation. “Hey!” I peek carefully. The policeman has stopped the girl “Have you seen…” he speaks with difficulty, I have made him run more than he can stand “Have you seen a guy in black and carrying a big bag?” I see she does not answer. I am worried. I have pissed her off enough, surely I have given her a good reason to give me away. "He's gone that way." I frown when I see her pointing to the opposite side where I had gone. Isn't she going to give me away? Why? “Thank you!” The policeman leaves in the direction indicated by her and I stay looking at her quite strangely. <<I better not be tempted by curiosity again, we already know what happened last time.>> I wait for her to leave and go out. People are my camouflage again.

Arriving at the buildings, I see a couple of cats in front of the back door. “Go away” I tell them quietly, gently brushing them aside with my hand “. Come on, do not make me angry.” The gray cat rubs between my legs. Too weird, they usually do not trust people. Maybe someone takes care of them. I enter the building, looking for the electrical panel. Locating it, I pull out the voltmeter to check the electricity in the building. <<Perfect, seems to work.>> It is better to use this method than having to turn on the lights to get attention. The first few months I used to not be careful about it and I always ended up running away from the place.

I climb the stairs until I reach the top floor. I prefer to have a view from above to see who is approaching the building. I take out the lock picks and begin to open the door. I had to learn a bit about vandalism, not that I wanted to, but it is necessary if sometimes I canot afford to stay in a motel to save a little and not spend too much.

As soon as I enter, I look at the floor. It is small, a student. It has furniture. They really had it all figured out to want to rent them out. I lower the blinds, but not before checking again to see if anyone followed me. I put the backpack on the ground and start to open the travel bag. I check that my equipment is correct after running off like that. "Okay, looks like everything's perfect." I mutter, beginning to pull out the computer tower and screens. Sometimes I feel like I had to bring too many things, but It is all I need to feel safe. If I destroy everything... maybe I would go crazy. More still can.

As I assemble all the equipment, I start thinking about that girl again. Why did she do it? She is supposed to tell the police that he is chasing a criminal where he has fled to. "Or maybe I am thinking about this because I do not have anything better to think about." I comment as I continue to run the cables. For years I have been careful in everything I do and just today it seems like everything went wrong. It is as if life laughed at me, knowing how paranoid I have become with the fear of believing that they are watching me all the time, following me.

I finish putting it all up. I turn on the computer and put the protection programs. I leave the backpack in the room and go to the bathroom. Luckily there is no mirror to look at my face. It is not like I dared to do it either. Do I deserve it? So that? To know what I judge myself for what I did? I knew what I was doing, but I never thought it would go to that extreme. I check the water, unfortunately, no hot water comes out. Luckily the showers I take are quick so as not to waste time.

I dress quickly, frozen. Although the cold does not bother me as much as before, I have had to sleep on the street at times because a motel was full.

Night falls and I see that I get an email notice. It is been years since I used that e-mail and I stopped using it because of a person. Only one person could send me a message to that email.

I read her message and worry invades me. For her to ask me for help after so many years after having cut all connection with her is strange. Due to the situation, I make an exception and call her by video call. “Hannah!” I exclaimed as soon as I saw her. She sighs in relief, even smiling at me. “Jake!” Good thing you called! “What happened?! Where are you?!” I ask worried. I try to look around, but everything is very dark. I manage to see something similar to a house and trees. Where is she? “What has happened- Ah!” A gloved hand appears, pulling her closer to her mouth, covering it. "Hannah!" I exclaimed nervously, beginning to not be able to breathe. The cell phone falls to the ground, revealing her shaking feet “Leave her! Leave Hannah!” It's stupid to yell that, like it's going to work. I put my hands to my head, worried, what do I do? What do I do, what do I do? I can't call the police!

I have no alternative.

It is to risk or not to do.

I return to the computer, trying to get some of Hannah's contacts, like Lilly. They have to know. They have to know!

I open a chat and add their friends. A boy named Thomas answers. ---------------------------------

Thomas Hello, stranger ----------------------------------

What am I doing? This may be too risky for me! I bring my hands to my head, thinking again about what I am doing. This is for Hannah. Come on Jake! --------------------------------

??? Hannah is in danger.

#duskwood #duskwood jake #duskwood mc #duskwood jake x mc #duskwood everbyte #duskwood game #everbyte #everbyte studio #duskwood oneshot #oneshot #duskwood fanfic #fanfic

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babochkas · 2 years ago

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i'm putting this post under a read more because it's long & i'm sorry it's related to the drama but, i really need to clear up the situation on my end:

to start with, i've never sent anyone anon hate. i don't support that at all because i know how shitty it is to get it. my post today was absolutely a vague, but not about anyone in the rpc and i specifically stated it was related to twitter lesbophobes that spread into the tumblr community (NOT THE RPC COMMUNITY, i never specified rpc & my wife clarified in their post as well it was not the rpc) and specifically mentioned seeing topics of conversion. this post i made didn't even specify if it was about bronseele. i never mentioned their names. but because i posted it on seele, my current main blog, it's tied to that. accusations of anon hate and biphobia. it was absolutely horrible timing, absolutely looks suspicious, but: i had no way of seeing this because i don't follow. i do not keep tabs on the people i block and avoid them from my radar entirely. i never talked nor judged anyone's portrayal or interpretation. people are making accusations STILL because of a matter of shit timing and coincidence related to someone ive had blocked. i want to say clearly, i did not send the anon that was received. i did not even know of it, nor the post that prompted the anon. i have not ever sent anon hate, and have not vagued about anyone in the fandom's portrayal.

again, my original post was kept vague in wording because i woke up (around 3pmest, i have bad insomnia so my schedule is weird) starting my day seeing people on twitter erasing the canon rep of my favorite characters (i'm not talking just up for interpretation characters, i mean seeing people straight up talking about leona/diana in league - excuse vulgarity - "taking dick to cure their mind.") & then while looking at fanart on tumblr shortly after, saw more of the same with other ships i like art of. of course, as a lesbian, i am very passionate about these cases of rep, and of course very triggered by seeing the lesbophobia i was seeing on twitter (the conversion i mentioned in my post, which i followed up with by saying i was seeing more of it on tumblr) not the best wording & def should have clarified but, i just woke up for the day, i was tired, and my brain hadn't fully kicked into gear so i opened my tumblr app to check my notifications and make a quick vent post. it had nothing to do with bisexuality, nothing to do with a bi interpretation, nothing: it was about the disgusting and harmful conversion posts and discussions i was seeing. i had no idea about what was going on hours before because i was asleep. i was logged in on seele, so i just made the venty post (again specifically about conversion therapy comments) and didnt think anything of it because i didn't know what was going on, basically until i started finding out about the accusations.

i do want to note again, i did try to unblock to send an IM clarifying before everything really blew up, but IMs were off & i was already being told of more being said by others so i did make a heated post. it isn't deleted, though i did make it private because i don't like leaving drama up. as with rule updates, they're tagged as "tbd //" and later removed.

on a related, but separate note:

people who talk to me and know me, know the kind of person i am. i have been in way more fandoms than hi3, hsr, or even genshin. i've been on this site a long time and multiple people have known me for years. they know that i keep to myself a lot of the time & only seem to get dragged into drama when it relates to setting boundaries. as stated in my rules, i am exclusive and not dupe friendly. this often leads to me blocking simply for comfort. otherwise, i have only ever blocked people for breaching my rules. breaching my triggers. have i always handled my blocking in ways people prefer it to be handled (via a DM beforehand, knowledge of why first, etc?) absolutely not. especially not when it's related to my triggers, as i state in my rules, seeing those untagged/unfiltered sends me into a trauma response. i have, in the past, contacted people prior to softblocking or hardblocking to let them know why - and these instances have ended in things varying from my mental health being invalidated, being called names (bitch, most often) & often, honestly, end up escalating to something worse.

aside from trying to defend myself, i have only ever, ever said anything about drama in relation to someone harassing me, making violent threats, calling names, etc. i've kept to myself, blocked these people to keep my distance, and it's still somehow a problem. they are still coming to my accounts to keep tabs or, if they deem fit, find ways to stir the pot again. i know people were keeping tabs on my posts, because these people who i've had blocked for years now were making posts about mine. not even knowing what it was about. honestly, after being told of some of the people who have been known to stalk and harass the blogs of myself and other mutual friends, i got paranoid. because it was not only just straight up block evading me, but these people i've been avoiding have harassed, have made violent threats, have called names and been disrespectful when i tried to end on peaceful terms. i won't say names because it doesn't matter. i'm not here to start a witch hunt, and on the same note, i'm not wanting a target on my back when i've already had problems of varying degrees with these people.

that brings me to my dni. in regards to my dni additions, i did add a new group on there due to a prior callout, and this situation: namely, because i felt this was on a level of baseless accusations as a previous callout mention and it did heavily upset me after seeing what i was accused of because of this. my dni does not change according to fandom, and has remained the same (with minor updates) since my time in the league fandom. the recent update including the lesbian erasure dni rule was added as it was in my original rules on my caitlyn blog (my caitlyn carrd can be found here, the last rule being established as i also have a diana, and planned to write neeko - canon lesbians to the league universe. it's something i've been vocal about there as well.)

i am a very firm believer in curating your own space of comfort. write what you want with who you want, but my rules and dni are for my space. to explain why i do not want to engage with certain topics or people who have made me uncomfortable, often due to situations that are related to my triggers and ocd. regardless of this, i do not condemn anyone for who they decide to write with, because at the end of the day this is just writing. i wouldn't accuse or try to instigate drama between two people without first talking. just wish i had been extended the same courtesy.

#drama //#last post and im leaving it up because i need this to be known.#tw drama

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