#but like my 11th grade lol not the actual artists i went to school with

[ionlylikemycat]

tfw you know enough about art to know you’re fucking bad at it perspective never fuckin heard of her

why can’t i make the things look the way i waaaaaaaant like i know how this is supposed to look i know the angles it should follow and in a critique i could point those out to the artist but fuck me bc no matter how hard i try i can’t make a fucking thing

[zeinovie]

2018 Year in Review

Rules: answer the questions about 2018 and tag some people!

(asdgffddhfhomg i’m tagged in something. ok, keep calm, keep calm)

I was tagged by @kellythepitiablefangirl​, thank you :3

I’m tagging... Ughh, i guess, i’m not much very close with most of my mutuals. Ummm... @stardustlavender​, hun?

Top 5 films you watched in 2018:

The Disaster Artist (me, the person who read the book in like four days 1 month before the undergraduate placement exam, watched the movie almost a year after it’s release? Scandalous.)

Sarusuberi: Miss Hokusai ( It's about Katsushika Oi, daughter of Katsushika Hokusai and am ukiyo-e artist in her own right. Aaaaaghhh, the visuals are just gorgeous)

Incredibles 2 (Perception vs. Reality? Baudrillard? In my animated superhero movie? Yes, please.)  

The Shape of Water (I saw this... this year? How long was this year?!)

I'm also still going trough Universal’s Classic Monster Collection (My favourite unnecessary sequel was Dracula’s Daughter, lol)

Oh also Kubo and the Two Strings (i watched it this year too, huh)

Honorary Mention: Sigh, Mamma Mia 2: Here We Go Again

Top 5 TV shows in 2018:

Castlevania, All Seasons (no need to explain i guess?)

Brookyln 9-9, All Seasons (Huh. It turns out it was good as everyone told me.)

ACS: The Assasination of Gianni Versace (Never thought Darren Criss could unsettle me this much but here i am. Scared but impressed.)

Masters of Sex, S1 and S2 (Randomly stumbled, not disappointed. M. Sheen, sir, you are a very capable actor, you really are. What did you do in New Moon and Breaking Dawn, sir?)

Mindhunter (Huh. I stayed up all night watching this one at the time.)

Top 5 songs of 2018:

Mr. Blue Sky - Electric Light Orchestra (and not because of GOTGV2, will explain)

Soundtrack of Elisabeth, das Musical (Then came the German-musical phase. Suddenly, i can understand German again! Mine, girl, stop grinning, i know you do.)

Soundtrack of Mamma Mia 2 (For.Three. Months.Straight.)

First Burn - Rachelle Ann Go, Lexi Lawson, Shoba Narayan, Julia Harriman, Arianna Afsar

Stay Frosty Royal Milk Tea and Twin Skeleton’s (Hotel in NYC) - Fall Out Boy

Us, Blue Lips and While My Guitar Gently Weeps - Regina Spector

(ok, thats way more than 5. eh.)

Top 5 Books you Read in 2018 (Ugh i did awful in reading department this year):

Portal: Blue Sky by wafflestories. (Does Fanfiction count? Eh, anyways. This one is book-length anyway. It single-handedly pulled me back into fandoms, fanfiction ad tumblr after a long period of denial, prouder than ever)

Tuck Everlasting by Natalie Babbitt (We don’t read this in school, so it was really a hidden gem for me)

The Well of Ascension (Mistborn #2) - Brandon Sanderson

(Nothing else really. Nothing else that i completed. Nothing that i remember. This year wasn’t very good)

Five Good/Positive things that happened to you in 2018:

How long this year felt. Mean, I almost forgot that i went to Budapest in January. It was also a nice bonding trip with my sister.

I actually drew illustrations for a literary magazine monthly form March to August. It was, in a way, my first real job? The magazine closed down, thou, for financial reasons. Dommage.

A fact about me: I was an exchange student to Japan after finishing 11th grade, 4 years ago. This year the family that hosted me came to Turkey for a visit and tour. Well... You don’t know how much you have missed someone, till you see them again.

For the first time in my life i’m staying in a house of my own. Not a dorm. Not a shared flat. My own apartment. Small, affordable, nice. That lease has MY name on it! It’s something!

My acne healed, finally. After 3 years. I'm in my 20s, why it had to be acne?!

[trustbigbang]

Sacrifice comes before success

At your age, have you already felt the need of having the sense of independence? I mean, yes it does not start with living on your own but you can begin it with doing little things. As a young woman who is near to her twenties, I have already reached the point wherein I should be the one who is fixing my things, buying stuff on my own and learning not to spend too much and just save it for something that is more worth it. Speaking of saving, I started it when I was in 7th grade. I know it would not be easy so I started it with saving twenty pesos a day. I was so happy that in a week, I managed to save one hundred pesos, for me, that time, it was already big and satisfying. My savings got bigger and bigger as my allowance also increased.

In my 11th grade, there was an announcement that Dong Youngbae also known as Taeyang from my favorite K-Pop group, Bigbang, will have a concert here in the Philippines. I already saw it coming for he released his full-length album and we all know that artists who release an album have a higher possibility to perform and have various tours in order to promote their music. That time, my little savings were supposed to be allotted for other things such as stuff in school, and money for a guitar that I really wanted to buy (yes I tried to be musically inclined back then lol). But, anyways, those savings were not enough. It’s already August 19 and I only have 400 pesos which is obviously not enough for a 3,000 worth of ticket. So the date of ticket selling was decided and announced that it will be on the 9th of September. Everything was rushed, I really hate its company organizers up until now for they feel that we are a bunch of rich kids that can easily produce money and buy tickets despite of the late notice. So going back, I chose not to complain because it won’t even bother the organizers’ decision. I have twenty days left before the said ticket selling and this frustrates me because weekends are not deducted yet, when we will do so, it would be only 16 days for me to save up. Everyday, my parents give me 150 for my daily allowance and if you will multiply 150 to 16, it would be 2,400 plus my aforementioned savings which is 400, a total of 2,800. It would be quite enough but I was not sure that time if I can really manage to save my whole allowance because it sounded easy but it’s actually not. Upon saving up, ofcourse, there are several factors and things that tempted me to spend my money and also, there are people who discourage me to save money for they believe that I should not waste my money into “nonsense things” as they said.

There are times wherein my group of friends will invite me to eat or have merienda after school and I think, that was one of the biggest distractions I had to face. There was one scenario, they asked me to eat with them in Nepo food court and I said no but I realized that I was also hungry and want to eat so bad so in the end, I joined them there. When I got home, I began to be frustrated and anxious for it does not happen the way I wanted it to be. So the thing is I had to fill the day wherein I haven’t saved any money because of those stupid temptations!!!! There was also a situation wherein my parents got mad at me because they caught me saving up for a concert by checking my closet and pouch. They said that I should not be crazy over nonsense things and have the sense of discipline and focus on my real priorities. I don’t know but this is not just a “nonsense thing” because it is one of those factors which saved me from experiencing loneliness and depression. September 4, five days before the ticket selling, I am about to panic because I already missed two days and they cost 300. I was about to quit when suddenly my grandmother called and told that she wants me to drop by at her house. She let me in and eats her homemade dish. She also asked if I’m fine with my studies and chosen path. We made a little bit catch up and one of our conversations was about the concert I wanted to attend. She said that she can offer the allotted money for ticket however I refused to accept it not because of pride but I think it is included in adulting stage wherein you do not want to bother or disturb anyone and choose to grind on your own instead. Because of my refusal, grandma just suggested if I could work a part time tutor for the kids she’s currently mentoring, the salary was 200 a day. So, I immediately agreed for I really need it and it doesn’t even overlap with my school stuff.

When it was already September 8, a day before the ticket release, I already arranged and organized the money for it and ask my parent’s permission to go to the concert. At first, they were skeptical and hesitant to allow me because of so many things to think of like transportation for they can’t accompany me to Araneta because they have a wedding event to attend to. The other thing is that there are so many rumors which say that concert areas are the target of different rebel groups. But in the end, because of me being irresistible, they had no choice but to allow me. The next day, I geared up earlier than my any other days in the past. I went straight to SM Clark to line up for the ticket. I was already there at 7am and the ticket will be available at 12am (yes, things I do for K-POP hmm). So when the mall has opened, we started running up to the second floor and lined up to the ticket booth. After a couple of minutes, they announced that Gen Ad is already sold out. At that point, my mind and soul experienced a breakdown. The next seat after Gen Admission is CAT 3 seated which costs 5.5k and that is so far to 3,000 which I afford. So, I have decided to just go home and refresh the SM Tickets’ site. After several hours of refreshing, IME officially announced that Gen Ad is already sold out. The time I have read that, I started crying endlessly, who would not? So I informed my parents about it and they tell me, maybe it is not my chance to see Taeyang. But still, I did not quit checking the other possibilities. So it is already September 11, CAT 3 seated was still available but my current money is only 3,200 pesos, again, too far from 5,500. So I tried to still save my allowance, then September 17, five days before the concert, with 3,700 in my pocket, rumors spread which says that they will open Gen Ad at the Araneta itself. So I was shocked and my hope arised again. September 22, the concert day, I took the risk and went to Araneta despite of not having a ticket. I rode a bus which leads to Cubao. The fascinating situation is I got there at 45 minutes before 8pm, which is the start of the concert. I checked the counter and they said that I was already late and the extra Gen Ad tickets are already sold out. So I started approaching other people and asked them if they are selling extra tickets or they have known one. Fortunately, as in extreme call of fortune (!!!),  the two girls who I approached next are selling CAT3 tickets with the price of 3,500 for they are also rushing to sell their tickets because they have to attend a meeting. They accompanied me to the security to assure me that it is not a scam. And, tadaaaaa here I come, Taeyangggg, as I said when I walked through the stairs going to the venue itself. But of course, I did not forget to show gratitude to the sellers. And yes, I managed to watch the concert, YAY!!!

With this long and rough journey of saving for something that I really want, I can say that it is not really as easy as I thought it would be. However, I realized that it is satisfying and fulfilling to see that there is still a good result from all the hardwork, problems and temptation that I met and at the same time, have to endure. I am not encouraging you to skip your meals just to save your allowance but I am persuading you to think of any strategies that might help you in saving, such as bringing snacks from your home and choosing to eat in the house rather than have merienda in the malls. I sweaaaaaaar, if you will be consistent with this, it will be all worth it!

[sideeyedkinks]

Answer these then tag 10 followers you’d like to get to know better!

Tagged by @starkerfangirl. o/

1. have you ever been in love?

Yes.

2. who is your favourite artist?

Probably Cher

3. what is your favourite music genre?

Pop/top 40, classical, broadway

4. have you ever had a penpal?

Nope

5. are you single or in a relationship?  

Single

6. what colour are your eyes?

Brown

7. what is your favourite word?

Ennui. I dunno why, I've just always loved it

8. do you play any instruments?

I sing? Like, took lessons from an opera singer, not just shower singing. lol

9. what is your favourite colour?

Purple!

10. do you have any nicknames?

Yup, yup.

13. do you have any pets?

I have a cat, Adonis, and live with my sister who has two cats, King Louie and Ash

14. have you ever travelled outside of your home country?

Supposedly I went to Canada as a baby, but that probably doesn't count.

15. what language(s) do you speak?

Just English. I recognize a few words in Spanish or French or Japanese, but not enough to actually speak them.

16. who was your first crush?

A boy named Colin, in fourth grade. *sigh* I had a thing for him for years.

17. do you wear glasses?

Yup

18. what is your favourite pastry?

Hmmmm… Fresh danishes

19. do you prefer swimming in a pool or in the ocean?

Pool. I like my water clear and chlorinated

20. bright, dark, or pastel colours?

Like in general, for clothes, what are we talking here? It varies.

21. what is your favourite social media app?

Discord

22. what is your sexuality?

Demisexual.

23. do you have any siblings?

One sister

24. what is your favourite scent?

It was a Yankee Candle Co candle called Storm Watch

25. where do you want to travel to?

Just about everywhere.

26. what is your favourite film?

I have too many!

27. who do people say you look like?

Well, when I hurt my back, my sister said I waddled like a penguin.

28. who is your best friend?

My sister

29. what is your dream job?

Paid vacationer. I guess a travel reviewer of some sort.

30. do you know how to drive?

Yes, but I hate it.

31. who is/was your favourite teacher?

11th grade English. He was fantastic.

32. are you a feminist?

Yes

33. what is your zodiac sign?

Gemini.

34. do you enjoy reading?

Hahahahahahahaha. That's almost all I do

35. do you have any hidden talents?

I can makes balloon animals.

36. have you ever dyed your hair?

Yes. It's about time for me to redo it, but I'm not sure what color I want.

37. what is your favourite thing in your bedroom?

My stuffed rabbit, Bun Bun

38. what is your biggest fear?

Being completely alone in the world

39. can you whistle?

Nope

40. do you make your bed every day?

Nah

41. do you have any tattoos and/or piercings?

Nope

42. have you ever been on a roller coaster?

Yup

43. surfing or skateboarding?

I can't do either

44. are you a dog or a cat person?

I love both!

45. what is your favourite animal?

God, I dunno. I love so many…

46. do you have a skincare routine?

No

47. what time do you typically go to bed at and what time do you wake up at?

I have no set pattern. It kinda sucks.

48. what is your favourite memory?

My sister and I went on a real vacation together as adults for the first time a couple years ago. It was incredible.

49. how tall are you?

5'8"

50. what is the best gift you’ve ever received?

It may not be the best gift, but the best experience getting it was the Nintendo Wii.

51. do you have a garden?

No

52. do you like bugs?

Theoretically, sure

53. what is your natural hair colour?

Brown

54. what is your favourite food and drink?

Tacos (americanized version) and Cherry Coke

55. do you want kids?

Never

56. what is/was your favourite class?

English.

57. what colour shirt are you wearing?

Blue ombre

58. if you could time travel, what year would you go to and why?

Sometime in school. Not to do better in school, but so I could get fully tested and diagnosed before turning 18, instead of years later.

59. what is your skin colour?

White

60. hugs or kisses?

Uhm… Neither? I'm not really a touchy-feely person

61. have you ever drunk alcohol?

Yeah, I'm not a fan

62. have you ever done drugs?

Nope

63. netflix or youtube?

I like both! I don't have cable, so I use both on a regular basis.

Tagging: @spooky-crybaby, @starker1975, @honeystarker, @starkerwhoops, @sleepystarker.

[llamaloydwp]

OUAT Ask Game.

I was told by @storybrookesims to just do all of them. So Here goes! XD 

Snow White – Can you keep a secret?

Yep. 

David Nolan – Are you good at finding things?

I think so. 

Regina Mills – Do you like horses, and are you a good rider?

I like to look at Horses from far away, being up close with them makes me nervous though because they are so big, and I am a freaking Hobbit. 

Henry Mills – Did you ever have to wear a school uniform?

Nope!

Belle French – Name a favorite or treasured book.

This is silly, but I had this book when I was a kid.. and I absolutely loved it. It was called Piggy Pie. I still have the book, but its pretty torn up its in storage. 

Rumplestiltskin – Are you good at sewing or other textile skills?

I can’t Sew, and I have no idea what a textile skill is. So... probably not? 

Gideon Gold – Did you attend college or university?

Nope. 

Ariel – Do you have a collection of oddities?

I like to collect smaller versions of objects. If that makes sense. Like.. I have a tiny bucket and a fork. I’ll attach a picture if I can figure out how. XD  (and yes that is a tiny peter pan in the bucket too. XD)

Cruella de Vil – Are you good at handling animals?

Yes! Animals love me. except Chickens.. evil bastards. 

Captain Hook – Have you ever traveled the ocean?

I went on a Dolphin Cruise in Gulf Shores. Does that count?

.August Booth – Ever ridden a motorcycle?

No. :( 

Mulan – Ever dressed like the opposite gender?

Yes.

Aurora – What’s the longest you’ve ever slept at one stretch?

When I was first diagnosed with Graves Disease, I once slept a full 20 hours. Thats when I realized something was wrong because I had gone all my life sleeping 2-3 hours a night. 

Grumpy – Ever been known by a different name?

Yep. From 8th-11th grade I hated my name (Haley) and went by a completely different name. Teachers even called me by my fake name. So everyone literally thought thats what my name was. And then in 12th grade I switched back to Haley and everyone felt betrayed LOL It was great.. (I may like chaos a little too much.) 

Ruby Lucas – Do you pay attention to the phases of the moon?

Yes, I’m kind of obsessed with the Moon, and space. 

Emma Swan – Have you ever owned a leather jacket?

Yes. 

Ursula – Do you have a good singing voice?

Hubby says I do. I don’t agree. 

.Granny – What’s your specialty entree that you cook really well?

Manicotti 

.Alice Jones – Do you paint, draw, or do anything else artistic?

I used to draw, until Graves Disease. I can’t really draw anymore because I get hand tremors. Same with Photography. But I write. 

Tiana – Do you bake really well? What’s your specialty?

Pumpkin Cake 

 Robin Hood – Ever tried to use a bow & arrow? How did it go?

YES. at the Renaissance Festival. and I actually did really well. 

  Elsa – Do you have sisters? Older or younger?

2 one Soul sister @quidditygenesis  and 1 step sister. both younger than me. 

Anna – Do you wanna build a snowman?

I’m from the North. I ALWAYS want to build a snowman :D 

Maleficent – Ever reconnected with someone after many years apart?

Yes, but not face to face. my bestie from WA and I reconnected years ago on Gaiaonline and I was so happy that we did. <3

.Aladdin – What would you do with three wishes?

Health, Happiness, moneys 

Jasmine – Describe something that went wrong your first day at a new job.

I. walked. In. (My most recent job) 

.Merida – Do you have brothers? Older or younger?

2 bio brothers. One older, One younger and 3 step brothers all younger. 

.Jacinda – Describe a bad boss you’ve had.

Oh! There were so many! My most recent one, bag o dicks he was. 

then there was the one at the previous job, real twatwaffle. 

and then there was the douche canoe of a boss that threw a salad bowl at my face when I was a waitress. 

I’ve worked for some Class A assholians thats for sure. 

Lucy Mills – Recount a very good or very bad birthday.

My 18th birthday was pretty cool went to Branson saw an actual Magic show. It was neat.

my 21st birthday was pretty nifty too. Got wrecked and played just dance all by myself.

.Drizella Tremaine – Do you enjoy wearing short skirts?

Never. My parents had to fight me to “Dress like a girl” 

Dr. Whale – Ever colored your hair?

I haven’t seen my natural hair color since I was 14

.Baelfire – Ever been bitten by a snake, or anything else venomous?

Nope.

.Jefferson – Do you wear hats?

When its cold. 

Zelena – Do you look good in green?

I’m a Syltherin. so Yes. :D 

Merlin – Did you have a treehouse as a kid?

No. hated/still hate heights 

Robin Mills – Ever been on a bus that broke down in the middle of nowhere?

Nope 

Archibald Hopper – Do you own a dog?

There is 3 dogs in the house, but only one is mine. I have three cats. 

Roland Hood – Were you an adorable Hobbit child?

I was a hobbit child. Adorable? No. 

Geppetto – Can you carve or build things from wood?

I once made a box in wood shop. :) 

Graham – Ever been hunting?

No.

[surveys4ever]

26.

Have you ever been in weather below 0 Fahrenheit (-17 Celsius)? ...yes. Literally every year. There’s usually a week or two in January when it gets down to -50 to -75 F. 

Have you ever been caught outdoors away from shelter during a thunderstorm? Maybe when I was a teenager? I’ve definitely been caught in the rain, not sure about a thunderstorm tho.

What’s your favorite macaron flavor? I’ve actually never had a macaron! But I don’t like meringue so I don’t think I’d enjoy them.

How often do you have friends over to your house? Literally never.

Have you ever had a boss who acted unprofessionally? YES. The assistant manager at the last job I had was insane. She tried to tell me that I wasn’t allowed to leave town on the weekends in case they needed me. LOL girl bye.

How many times have you stayed at a hotel in the past year, and where? 0, covid.

Have you ever done a flip on a trampoline? Noooo.

What about a flip off of a diving board? I’ve never even been on a diving board.

Are you embarrassed by your school yearbook photos?  I believe in the 10th or 11th grade I hated them but I was on the yearbook committee so I finessed some new ones to put in hehehe.

Who taught you to tie your shoelaces? I believe I learned at school.

Currently how many pictures are on your cellphone? 9,008.

Do you think dimples are cute? Oh hell yeah.

Would you rather chew fruity or minty gum? Minty.

The last time you went to the mall, who did you go with? Beebs!

What’s something you used to collect when you were younger? Rocks and lip balm.

Have you watched a movie today? Yes! We went to see Dracula.

Aside from your own, whose house did you last set foot into? We went to an indoor garage sale a couple weeks ago.

Do you love soft pretzels? They’re alright. They smell better than they taste in my opinion.

Who was the last person who cried around you? Why did they start crying? Was it unexpected? Does my dog count? Bc she’s just a drama queen and I wouldn’t expect anything less from her.

Are you more likely to like someone before you really know them, or do you feel you like them more after you know a lot about them? True love is when you like them a ton before you actually really know them and then like them even more after.

Do you buy people cards on special occasions, or do you prefer to make your own? I honestly think cards are a huge waste of money so if I do give one, I made it. But I have a Circuit and I’m pretty creatively inclined so it’s pretty easy.

When was the last time you were being hypocritical? It sounds pompous but I honestly think I'm too self aware to by hypocritical.

Where on your body was the last cramp you had? Why did you have this cramp? My hip, because I was sitting weird.

What is the weirdest name you’ve ever heard? Someone I know named their kid Emanda. Unsure if its pronounced ee-manda or just regular Amanda. Haven’t wanted to ask. Another named their kid Albrea. I just call her Algebra. And another named their kid Annekke, pronounced Anika. She will forever be a-neek-ee to me.

Do you get embarrassed when people hear you sing/compliment you on your singing ability? Bold of you to assume I ever let anybody sing.

Are you good at comforting people when they’re upset? I’m the big sister to like a bajillion children. Yes I’m good at it.

Do you have any exercises you do everyday? Newp.

Do you own one of those singing fish? Do you think they are silly or funny? Hahaha I don’t but I literally just saw a Billy Bass at a thrift store yesterday. They were funny then and they’re funny nostalgic now.

Has anyone ever accused you of being bipolar or any other mental disorder? Do you really have any mental disorders? I have a pretty severe anxiety disorder but no one’s accused me of having it because like...it’s pretty obvious? 

Did you buy the last thing you bought with your own money? If not, whose money did you buy it with? Haha yes! We bought movie tickets, a drink, and peanut butter m&ms.

Do you like to put your feet up on the dashboards of cars? Do you parents yell at you if you do that in cars? Our car is too short for that but yeah, my parents always yelled at me for it when I was young.

Which Beatle is your favorite, or do you love them all equally? I wouldn’t say I loved any of them but John Lennon is absolute hot garbage.

Do you enjoy classic rock? If so, who are some of your favorite classic rock artists? Uh...not really?

Did you ever own a Tamagotchi? Yes! They were all the rage in the 6th grade.

Are you more of a dog or cat person?/ Dog, definitely.

Have you ever failed math? I very, VERY narrowly passed the last math course I needed to graduate and I did the math and because of the mark I got on my final, I should have failed by 3% but I got 1% over what I needed to pass. Pretty sure my math teacher just didn’t want to deal with me taking the course over so he passed me BUT my math could have been wrong, haha.

Skittles! What's your favorite color? Lordt. I haven’t purchased skittles in ages. I think I remember red being my favorite?

Have you ever had a dream of stabbing someone? Yeah, actually.

What would you want your last words to be if you could choose them? I would just want my husband to know how much I love him and that I’ll be waiting for him in whatever form of afterlife there is.

Can you sleep with the light on? If I'm dead tired.

What’s the most bizarre horror movie you’ve ever seen? I mean...Dracula is supposed to be a horror movie. The only thing horrific about it was the acting.

What band can’t you stand listening to? I honestly can’t think of one right now.

Would you ever take a lie detector test for your significant other? I mean, if I had to? But we trust each other 100% and I’m brutally honest about everything so he would never require that from me.

What is your favorite Mystery/Crime/FBI related show? Murder, Mystery, & Makeup Mondayssss! Sha na sha sha na sha sha na sha sha sha na shaaaaaaaa!

Would you ever have a bird as a pet? Absolutely not.

How's your relationship between you and your grandparents? I love my mom’s parents to bits. My grandma is one of my absolute favorite people in the world and my grandpa is very quiet but he has a lot of really sweet moments. My dad’s parents are awful fuckin people. My grandfather died like 5 years ago and I really had to try hard to feign sympathy about it to him. My grandmother is still kicking it but we haven’t spoken in over a decade for good reason. She also changed their joint Facebook account to just her Facebook account less than a week after he died loooool. She hated him as much as I did I think. And then my bio dad’s dad is dead but he was also a piece of shit but his mom is a sweetie. We facetime every so often and she holds the phone a grand total of 6 inches away from her face the entire time and tells me the same stories over and over. Bu

Ever had a forbidden love or lover? Newp.

Have you ever had to speak at a funeral? No, thank god.

Do you know someone who’s been cremated? My grandma’s dog.

What is your current problem? My eyes are blurry because I’m tired.

Do you like canopy beds? Tbh, canopy beds are the epitome of glamor in my eyes.

What is your favorite animated movie? Onward.

Would you rather live in a small town or a big city? I like medium cities. You won’t get mugged walking down the street, traffic doesn’t absolutely suck, and you can get clear across town in 15 minutes.

If you could summon any animal to come to your rescue, what animal would it be and why? Uh? Why am I in trouble? Why can’t I call a human? What’s happening here?

Have you ever watched The Golden Girls? I tried watching a couple episodes but it didn’t pique my interest.

Did you ever like the Ninja Turtles? Noooo. Beebs loves them though so he tries to make me love them and it’s just not happenin, buddy.

Last alcoholic drink you had? No idea tbh.

What are you known for? For being talented and having big hair.

Has anyone ever threatened you? Oh yeah. There was this one guy who was constantly sending me really graphic messages about how he wanted to put a gun to my head and kill me or he hoped I would get XYZ and die. I tried to block him but he would immediately make 3 more accounts to send me the same shit.

Have you ever gone frog hunting? Noooo.

Do you ever suffer from dry skin? Yessss. My body is the Sahara.

Do you still sleep with a stuffed animal? No, I sleep with a husband.

What’s the weather like right this moment? It’s rainy!

Do you bite on straws, lollipop handles, or ice cream sticks? Nah.

In what type of area was your first sexual encounter? Beeb’s bedroom. His stepfather interrupted and made him come outside to talk to him for some reason and then very weirdly pointed out his half boner? V. uncomfortable all around.

Where is your mother’s side of the family descended from? Somewhere where white people come from idk.

What do you occupy your time with on flights? iPad games usually.

Do you dog-ear pages in books? No, I’m not a heathen.

What’s a made up word of yours? We call pickles ‘pickies’ and hamburgers ‘borgers’ or ‘borgs’ because we’re gross.

Do you use Q-Tips? In my ears? No. To clean out tight spaces of things I've thrifted? Yes.

Ever gone out with somebody you didn’t like? Noooo.

What hero or heroine do you most relate to in history, fiction, or song? ....No.

What makes you dizzy? Getting up too fast usually.

Are your parents liberal or conservative? Bleh, conservative. If you have liberal parents, consider yourself blessed.

Do you like your teeth? Did you have braces? I got away with having just an appliance/Invisaligns but I still don’t like my teeth. They’re perfectly straight and white enough but I have body dysmorphia and for some reason I think they’re atrocious and I hate them??? I can’t explain it.

Are you happy with your height? I’m 5′11 and I wish I was shorter sometimes. Hugging my husband would be easier.

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god katie, fInE (but thanks, cherie, love yo

1. if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?

Read Les Mis, watch Game of Thrones and Voltron, listen to folk rock (especially Phillip Phillips and Mumford & Sons)

2. have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? if so, who?

Never really thought about that, but the writing styles of Dickens, Doyle, and Austin always stick in my head so i guess them???

3. list your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with.

katie NO, that’s TOO MUCH. so i guess i’ll just give examples of the ones that i have actually thought about relating to:

Katara from A:tla was like THE strong female character of my childhood. Guarantee that she made me a feminist

Lance from Voltron because i spent way too much time like 4th grade through 11th worrying that i was that “seventh wheel” and thinking that i didn’t have a lot of skill and i wanna support my friends so yeah

Yuuri Katsuki from Yuri on Ice. look what the world did to this guy - he’s got anxiety

Ennoshita Chikara from Haikyuu because BOI I ALWAYS GET SHOVED INTO HAVING TO LEAD PEOPLE BUT IT TOOK ME YEARS TO UNDERSTAND IT

Sugawara Koushi from Haikyuu. i am the Mom Friend and i will fight you

4. do you like your name?  is there another name you think would fit you better?

i do like my name. my parents almost named me Colleen - which i don’t think fits, but then again i believe that we all grow to fit our names. i hated my last name as a little kid because no one would say it right (an issue that exists today too) and like when i started elementary school i straight up kept the spelling of it on a piece of paper in my pocket so i wouldnt mess up. now i love it and i think my name flows really well and if i get married i might not change it.

5. do you think of yourself as a human being or a human doing? do you identify yourself by the things you do?

well i call myself a human being. and while my actions are important to me, thinking too much about what i do and what i couldve done gets me freaked out so instead i sit and just be. i’ll think calmly and exist

6. are you religious/spiritual?

im agnostic - raised Roman Catholic (but even then we werent strict about following it but i did do ccd and my sacraments so yeah). i want to believe that there is something but there just isnt enough solid evidence for me to be comfortable and if there is some god or force or something, i am a minuscule piece of the massive universe and that god wouldnt give a shit so why should they influence my decisions? i love religions tho. they have fascinating history and i love seeing all the similarites because it just shows how so many humans are all so similarly spiritual and through seeing those similarites it makes me feel more spiritual because i know my catholic upbringing shaped me as a person and i know that there has to be a deeper meaning behind the world’s religions being so connected

7. do you care about your ethnicity?

yes. im fifty shades of white, but the larger pieces of my background are the cultures that my family celebrate still today and they are what i identify as. im italian-irish-american with a polish last name and i will eat my cuisine and wear the Callahan family crest and hopefully make it to Avelino someday

8. what musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime?

i was raised on billy joel and elton john so their music is built into me with such a powerful level of nostalgia that i will feel like im back in my house before we repainted it and replaced the furniture and im dancing like an idiot to crocodile rock at age 4 again. PP and M&S hit my emotions hard since i first heard them, but M&S’s Sigh No More album will forever equal driving to chicago because we played that album and only that album the. whole. time. except at night because thats when billy joel comes out

9. are you an artist?

at the most basic definition yes. i make art for fun and relaxation through music and writing and doodling and crafts

10. do you have a creed?

i just want to be content with my life when i die. i want to know that i loved and supported people the best i could. so i guess always put the family first (family being whoever i deem to be in that category). and don’t be an asshole.

11. describe your ideal day.

not too hot or cold, like the temperature fall shouldve been. hiking a trail or mountain with changing leaves, watch some of my favorite shows, go to one of my favorite small restaurants.

12. dog person or cat person?

cat.

13. inside or outdoors?

inside

14. are you a musician?

yes

15. five most influential books over your lifetime.

stoppppppp. Tale of Two Cities, Catch-22, Pride & Prejudice, Night, To Kill a Mockingbird

16. if you’d grown up in a different environment, do you think you’d have turned out the same?

nope. i grew up 30-60 minutes from some of the most important locations in american history. went to them way too many times as a kid so then when i was a teen i just snapped like “wait some people only come here once in their lives and thats why we have so many annoying tourists! because this kind of stuff ISNT NORMAL?!” and now im a history major so yeah

17. would you say your tumblr is a fair representation of the “real you”?

almost. i cant really be fully myself because that involves way too much of my personal life and im scared of accidentally pissing people off on the internet so there is a little bit more filter here

18. what’s your patronus?

i actually dont know because i lost my pottermore login forever ago so i never actually did that quiz

19. which Harry Potter house would you be in? or are you a muggle?

im ravenclaw with hufflepuff as my secondary, so im a ravenpuff, but ravenclaw is totally my main

20. would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else?

Hogwarts or the world of Avatar (not the blue people one) - like after war when everything is chill and magical

21. do you love easily?

when i get attached to someone, good luck getting rid of me, im here for the long haul, so yes

22. list the top five things you spend the most time doing, in order.

listening to music, thinking about fictional stories i want to write, reading, watching videos, actually writing (whether that be my journal or my fiction or hw)

23. how often would you want to see your family every year?

as much as possible

24. have you ever felt like you had a “mind-meld” with someone?

as when i felt perfectly in sync talking to someone? yes with my history prof and with my father

25. could you live as a hermit?

im an introvert but id miss my loved ones too much

26. how would you describe your gender/sexuality?

im cis female and im asexual (somewhere on the spectrum), my romantic attraction is something im still figuring out

27. do you feel like your outside appearance is a fair representation of the “real you”?

katie considering you figured me out basically on sight, yes

28. on a scale from 1 to 10, how hard is it for someone to get under your skin?

5 or 6?

29. three songs that you connect with right now.

“Africa” by Toto because it’s still in my head. “Float On” by Modest Mouse. “Sound of Change” by Dirty Head.

30. pick one of your favorite quotes.

“I am the one thing in life I can control. I am inimitable. I am an original.” - said by Aaron Burr in Hamilton

katie i shouldve been finishing my essay

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