#but like in my defense my mom is in her 40s (46) and she's my reference for an adult that likes vera bradley

[emotargaryen]

just remembered when i was talking to my mom yesterday and i said "when im an adult" and realized i had half a second to rethink bc she would be like 'hello you're almost 27' so i quickly added "like a real adult when im in my 40s or something." nailed it 👍

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

17 April 2023 monDay lunes getsuyoubi 10:47 pmpdt

incubus attacked me with a big smelly 👃 nasty 😷 bomb 💣 while I was in the shower 🚿 and I had diarrhea so it was not great. He didn’t like me disagreeing with him about the car 🚗 situation. But I argue, why show me you control me subconsciously to pick a specific parking spot next to a 🚗 car of similar color? And show the choreography of same colored cars coming together in traffic? If you didn’t want me to think 💭 we were friends? And that any subconscious thought 💭 I had was Bcz you wanted me to think 💭 it? Only to turn around to fake me out? That’s sh*tty. So naturally me thinking 💭 he would stop 🛑 the pedestrian 🚶‍♂️ for me was probably originally from him. So he did it so I would be in a weird situation? Set me up 🆙 to fail????????!!!!!!! Not cool 😎!!!! You’re so not cool 😎!!!!! Otherwise, DONT show me!!!! So I won’t be manipulated into thinking the wrong thing!!!!! 10:54 pmpdt incubus is NOT cool 😎. Especially after that move in the bathroom 🚽. Awful. 😞😫😖😭 right shoulder pain 😖😢 nausea 10:55 pmpdt I will never drive again. I think I’m missing half a brain 🧠 possibly!!!! So I’m in a losing position in reality. He wants what he wants. And he doesn’t care by what means he gets it. 10:56 pmpdt 10:57 pmpdt

11:48 pmpdt incubus and Scott simply put they’re not nice. He could have been nice about it but I believe he likes to prey on people who have addiction problems. Alcoholic anonymous people would probably know best. Know to stay away from David Scott cano. 11:50 pmpdt all women should stay away from him, too. 11:50 pmpdt Bcz he comes from privilege so they aren’t going to see things the same way we do Bcz they probably didn’t have it as rough? 11:51 pmpdt they probably have everything! Stuff that a lot of people don’t. 11:52 pmpdt so I don’t think they truly are sympathetic/empathetic. They fake it. 11:52 pmpdt

11:54 pmpdt I admitted I was wrong to do what I did. But some reason my mind went that way to thinking 💭 he was going to do me favors so that’s why he showed me what he showed me. Wishful thinking 💭 too much. 11:55 pmpdt stupid.

12:01 am pdt 18 April 2023 Tuesday I think 💭 I can’t think of any special reason that I would owe Q my life. She didn’t set me up 🆙 with the love 💗 of my life. I don’t recall her saving my life. She wasn’t sympathetic when I told her I had s*x with Scott. Automatically she said it was my fault. I don’t think 💭 I told her (pain sharp right shoulder 12:05 am pdt) any details when she decided to tell me that. And she admitted to me after we had s*x? That she didn’t date him Bcz her mom said don’t date guys who wear hats 🧢. To which I replied stupidly what if they have a bald spot and their head is cold 🥶? Defensively probably Bcz I knew some people who wore hats 🧢 for that reason. Scott had a lot of hair so he wore it probably for fashion? Or maybe some other reason. 12:08 am pdt I should have took it more seriously when she said that. I was stupid. 12:09 am pdt as in more analytical 🧐.

12:40 am pdt I get it now! Incubus was trying to copy me! With what happened with Scott! Bcz he’s his bro 😎! It was revenge!!!! Bcz Scott blames me for us having s*x, and I had told him “I don’t think we should be doing this” that’s like the incubus saying stuff last minute trying to tell me that I should not go hinting he wasn’t going to stop 🛑 the pedestrian 🚶‍♂️ for me. It’s almost mirrored!!! Incubus was setting me up 🆙 to fail as revenge! For his bro 😎 Scott! WOW. That’s dirty!!!!! NOT Cool 😎. 12:45 am pdt incubus punished me in the bathroom 🚽 for a thought 💭 I had so I’m not sure 🤔 if I should repeat 🔁 it he ate the inside of my head with acid again. 12:46 am pdt 12:47 am pdt. Incubus definitely sides with Scott. That’s why he is eating my brain 🧠 with acid. So I think 💭 I’m not going to ask anyone for help anymore bcz it’s futile. I already told a doctor 👨‍⚕️ on the phone ☎️ but I already wrote it here he decided to pretend he didn’t understand so there’s no order? For the things he said he was going to do. I think 💭 it’s Bcz I mentioned Scott and he took offense to it. Maybe 🤔 they’re friends but he wouldn’t say???? It’s hard to take care of myself. Doctors 🥼 ignored it and when they don’t they try to walk all over me. 12:51 am pdt they scare me. Incubus is scaring me saying I should not say that. You made me scared 😟 to talk about Scott and now look 👀 at me. I’m dying 😵 and he knew it was going to happen. Incubus also made me scared 😱 after I wrote about (cramps 😖😣😭😞 12:53 am pdt) right hip bone 🦴 pain) solar panels (left rib pain 12:54 am pdt $ in airplane ✈️ windows 🪟 inside. 😱 what is going to happen?? Is it a bad design. 12:55 am pdt I’m not an engineer 👷‍♀️. 12:56 am pdt 😤🥵😤🥵😤🥵😫😞

Le <-incubus? 8:56 am pdt

heart ♥️ pain minute ago. Probably going to have heart ♥️ failure 😞 by the time they’re done ✅ taking bone 🦴 while I’m alive. They have already stabbed it/inserted things and burned 🔥 it. Exhaling hot 🥵 air 8:58 am pdt. It’s not nice 🧸 toying with me with false promises. Autocorrect: gal falling. 8:59 am pdt it was a lie. They’re all d*cks and *ssholes. Last year I thought 💭 they stole my panties and returned a few after I thought 💭 it. Now extra toothbrushes 🪥 are missing and they made me afraid 😱 to use my new one I started using. They’re setting me up 🆙 again to fail. Real bad people they are. To clarify more of what I started writing ✍️: incubus showing me he controls traffic and my thoughts 💭 to control me into parking nxt to a car 🚗 not consciously realizing the decision I was making until I started? Decided? To park nxt to car 🚗 of similar color, that’s like me kissing 😽 Scott and rubbing my butt into his crotch. And then for me to say we should not have s*x is the incubus equivalent of being in my thoughts 💭 a head voice that almost blended into my other thoughts 💭 but it did strike 🪧 me as strangely slightly different Bcz if it’s strength? Timing ⏱? Content? But he did not come out and say this is me I am god talking to you 9:08 am pdt he’s threatening to cut off my legs 🦵 now with accidentally typing 💬 8:08-> bob. For him to say but what if you should not? I forgot the exact words but it was words that probably should have stopped me but I rebuttaled “god will stop 🛑 him so he will let me through.” But the head voice rebuttaled my rebuttal. Am I using this word right? 9:12 fart 💨 (accidentally typed 9:11)(acid throat pain 9:13 am pdt). And then without waiting for verbal permission on without condom and without any prior reply from him on what if I get pregnant 🤰? He inserts w/o condom and I yell again I don’t think 💭 we should be doing this! As he pumped in out into me. This was incubus revenge for me getting angry 😤 at Scott for the s*x w/o protection and for it entirely (left butt cheek burning 🔥 feels sting 🐝 of acid too 8:17 9:17 am pdt) this is so you know incubus Adam Noah Levine is an a sshole and a dick and Scott is the same as him. It’s not a con. They set me up 🆙 to die. I’m dying 😵 now. That’s who they really are. So now you know. 8:18 8:19 9:19 am pdt

9:22 am pdt Scottservo@aol.con com 9:23 am pdt servo has to do with control/slavery. 9:23 am pdt taking advantage of people with addiction problems. Etc.

what is it that incubus do so kings can continue to do “kingly” things? So they don’t have to fear consequences from rape? 10:11 am pdt

7:55 pmpdt 7:56 I am in the wrong 😑 for doing what I did. Drive safe always. Don’t be desperate. Don’t make stupid decisions. I should not have went to that bank 🏦. I put myself in a stupid vulnerable position for a stupid reason. A reason I wish I never had. Why why why (right shoulder bone 🦴 pain. 7:59 pmpdt 8 pmpdt

[tabloidtoc]

OK, June 29

Cover: Heather Locklear Just Married 

Page 1: Big Pic -- Grey’s Anatomy alum Melissa George loaded up her bike before making her way around the city of Paris 

Page 2: Contents 

Page 4: Katy Perry ready for baby -- mom-to-be Katy is counting down the days until she meets her little girl 

Page 6: Jimmy Kimmel’s life as a dad 

Page 7: As filming for Avatar 2 resumes in New Zealand star Kate Winslet is considering living there full-time, Jessica Alba was already stressed out trying to manage her billion-dollar business The Honest Company while parenting her three kids but now that her acting career has been revived she’s finally hit her breaking point, it’s been almost two years since Justin and Hailey Bieber tied the knot and Justin’s mom Pattie Mallette couldn’t be more grateful that Hailey came into her son’s life 

Page 8: In a recent interview Prince Harry’s ex-girlfriend Cressida Bonas spilled the tea on how their romance affected her life and it’s got the royal family sweating bullets that she’ll spill even more, Brad Pitt takes his sober life seriously and he’s found a real kindred spirit in Lena Dunham who’s on roughly the same timetable of recovery as he is and the pair have become so close that Brad intends to reunite with Lena on screen sometime in the near future, though Lea Michele’s first pregnancy should be one of the most exciting experiences of her life she’s more stressed than ever as her colleagues continue to air her dirty laundry -- she’s so upset and has been crying a lot and she thought some of her respected pals like Jonathan Groff or Ryan Murphy would have come to her defense by now but that hasn’t been the case 

Page 10: Red Hot on the Red Carpet -- bright yellow -- Catt Sadler, KiKi Layne, Sandra Bullock 

Page 11: Zoey Deutch, Mindy Kaling 

Page 12: Who Wore It Better? Demi Moore ✅ vs. Holland Roden, Joan Smalls vs. Candice Swanepoel ✅

Page 13: Nicky Hilton Rothschild vs. Scarlett Johansson ✅

Page 14: News in Photos -- Hannah Ann Sluss (full page) 

Page 16: Dorit Kemsley took out the trash, Wells Adams goes for a jog, Melissa and Joe Gorga working out at home 

Page 17: John Legend resting his eyes while daughter Luna watched Harry Potter, Dakota Fanning gets out of her car, Isla Fisher on a bike ride 

Page 18: Winnie Harlow in Big Bear Lake, Elsa Hosk on the beach, Heather Graham and pal Odessa Rae at the beach 

Page 20: Adam Sandler relaxed at the beach with family and friends, Kim Zolciak-Biermann and husband Kroy Biermann 

Page 21: Ariel Winter in her pajamas running errands, Brigitte Nielsen and daughter Frida at the park in L.A. 

Page 22: David Beckham with his kids Harper and Cruz and Brooklyn and Romeo, Kevin Hart with son Kenzo, Cristiano Ronaldo and Georgina Rodriguez threw a costume party for twins Mateo and Eva with siblings Alana and Cristiano Jr. 

Page 23: Scout Willis back in L.A. with her rescue dog Grandma, Lucy Hale cuddles her dog Elvis, Colin Farrell on a walk with his dog and his sister Claudine 

Page 24: Inside My Home -- Patrick Schwarzenegger is selling his home in West Hollywood for $3.35 million 

Page 26: Ellen Pompeo and Chris Ivery calling it quits because they grew apart and have been living separate lives for a while 

Page 27: Denise Richards and Aaron Phypers’ relationship is beginning to crack as her RHOBH costar Brandi Glanville continues to claim she and Denise hooked up, Single Parents costars and real-life couple Leighton Meester and Adam Brody have found a silver lining since their comedy got the ax: they’d both been working so much they didn’t have a lot of downtime but now they’re finally able to enjoy family life, though Kourtney Kardashian and Scott Disick haven’t officially rekindled their romance the parents of three are discussing the possibility of having another child together 

Page 28: Kendall Jenner and Devin Booker are more than just a summer fling: she’s crazy about him and sees a real future with him, Kelly Clarkson filed for divorce from Brandon Blackstock, Love Bites -- Jordana Brewster and husband Andrew Form split, Bachelor in Paradise’s Derek Peth and model Saffron Vadher dating, Ryan Murphy and husband David Miller are expecting their third child 

Page 30: Cover Story -- Heather Locklear’s incredible journey -- a year after hitting rock bottom she has made a total turnaround: beating her demons and finding true love

Page 34: Suri Cruise speaks out -- Suri may be ready to lift the lid on her mysterious world and how she really feels about her famous dad Tom Cruise 

Page 36: Carrie Underwood’s big plans -- she’s telling friends she’s ready to try for baby no. 3 

Page 38: Reality TV’s strangest shows -- I Wanna Marry “Harry,” Farmer Wants a Wife

Page 39: Splash, Who’s Your Daddy, Scream Queens, Joe Millionaire 

Page 40: Interview -- Elle Fanning keeping it real -- the actress dishes on growing up in the spotlight, working with her famous sister and starring in her new series The Great 

Page 42: They’ve Still Got It -- the hottest singers from the turn of the millennium spill their secrets for staying in age-defying shape -- Jennifer Lopez, Brandy 

Page 43: Jessica Simpson, Britney Spears, Mandy Moore 

Page 46: Style Week -- Alexa Chung has just been named the first-ever global ambassador for the U.K. beauty brand Code8

Page 48: Share the love during PRIDE month with brands that support the LGBTQ+ community -- the cast of Pose celebrates last year’s Pride Parade in NYC 

Page 49: Mini Magic -- these tiny purse-perfect beauty saviors keep you glam on the go -- Reese Witherspoon 

Page 50: Stylish Summer Essentials -- Kourtney Kardashian and Kendall Jenner 

Page 52: Road Trip Traveling -- Nina Dobrev 

Page 54: Entertainment 

Page 55: Q&A Tamra Judge 

Page 58: The Class of 2020 -- Ludacris and daughter Karma Bridges, Pierce Brosnan and son Dylan Brosnan, Jerry O’Connell’s daughters Charlie and Dolly O’Connell, Laura Dern’s son Ellery Harper, Julianne Moore’s son Caleb Freundlich, Maci Bookout’s son Bentley Edwards 

Page 60: Hollywood Heat Meter -- after racially insensitive remarks resurfaced Max Boyens and Brett Caprioni and Kristen Doute and Stassi Schroeder were fired from Vanderpump Rules, Lady Gaga’s Chromatica became her sixth consecutive No. 1 album, Ben Affleck’s secret Instagram account has been discovered, Ryan Seacrest may move back to L.A., Secret Bundles of Joy -- these parents managed to keep the births of their kids hush-hush -- Drake and Sophie Brussaux, Iggy Azalea, Rashida Jones and Ezra Koenig, Cameron Diaz and Benji Madden, Enrique Iglesias and Anna Kournikova 

Page 61: Sound Bites -- Kelly Ripa on working with Josh Duhamel on All My Children, Keanu Reeves on why he signed on for The Matrix 4, Beyonce giving a speech to the class of 2020, Kristen Bell on homeschooling her younger daughter Delta 

Page 62: Horoscope -- Cancer Mindy Kaling 

Page 64: By the Numbers -- Sophia Bush 

[lovemesomesurveys]

1. If you found a baby turtle on the side of the road, would you pick it up and keep it? No. 2. Did you and your mum ever have a big fight that caused you to move out? Nooo. 3. Has the last person you kissed ever been to your house? Yeah, a few times. 4. Have you had a good day today or was yesterday better? It’s only 3 in the morning. We’ll see. I have a doctor appointment this morning; though, so it’s not going to start off great. 5. Do you have any plans for the upcoming weekend? Nope.

6. How about you, do you have a bf/gf? No. 7. Could you date someone very attractive, but who thought they were better than everyone else? Absolutely not. I wouldn’t give a shit how attractive they were if they were like that.  8. So do you have a best friend? Yes. 9. What would you do if your best friend kissed the last person you kissed? My mom would never do that. 10. Do you dislike anyone? No one I know. 11. Did you message your best friend today? No. I’ll see her later on, we live together. 12. Do you think you will be in a relationship two months from now? Nope. 13. Do you always feel like you’re making mistakes? Always. 14. How do you feel about your hair right now? I love the color since I just got it done a few weeks ago and it looks healthier since I got it trimmed, but still I hate that I don’t do anything with it besides throw it up in a pony tail. I’ve never been good at styling my hair, it never comes out good. I have long hair, it would be nice to actually do something with it. 15. Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it? Well, I’m sure there’s people with “Stephanie” tattooed on them, but not anyone I know. 16. Who did you last see shirtless? An actor on TV. 17. How would you feel if you got the person you liked? I don’t like anyone in that way. 18. Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months without cheating? Yes. 19. Do you like to make the first move? Noooo. 20. Do you think you will ever be married? No. 21. Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? I’m a big disappointment to myself and everyone else I feel like. 22. Is it possible to be single and happy? Yeah. I mean, I’m single and unhappy, but it’s not because I’m single. 23. Was the first person you talked to today male or female? It’ll be male (my brother). 24. Do you remember who you liked on New Year’s? No one. 25. Are you a morning person or a night person? I’m barely a person. 26. Could you go the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? I’ve gone 7 years so far and have no desire for it. 27. Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough? I’ve always felt that way. 28. Is there anyone who likes you? Not in the romantic sense. 29. If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else, would they be mad? Ha, no. They wouldn’t give a single fuck. 30. Do you understand football? I get there’s touchdowns... that’s about it. ha. 31. What’s the first thing you heard this morning? It’ll be alarm. D: 32. Who last called you beautiful? My hair stylist did after she finished with my hair.  33. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? No. 34. How many kids do you want when you get older? Zero. 35. Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/girlfriend every week? Uh, no. I’ve been single for 7 years and haven’t even talked to anyone in that way in 4. 36. Ever been called a jerk/bitch? Yes, playfully. 37. Do you have feelings for anyone? Not romantic ones. 38. If you fell pregnant to the last person you kissed, what would you think? “Fell pregnant.” I’m a virgin and can’t have kids anyway, so. 39. What’s your full name? Stephanie is all you need to know. 40. Are you young or old? I’m old. 41. What’s the gender? I’m a female. 42. How’s your heart been lately? Physically, it’s fine.  43. Why aren’t you in bed? I am. 44. Did you do laundry today? No. 45. What kind of computer do you have? A MacBook Air. 46. Are there always other fish in the sea? So they say. 47. What can your tongue do? I can’t curl it or make a clover or anything. 48. What do you think your mum does when she goes out? My poor mom doesn’t do much outside of work, taking care of my family, especially me, and caring for a family friend. She hardly gets any time for herself.  49. Do chickens have feelings? Yes. 50. Do you think the body is the most beautiful thing that was ever made? We’re made in God’s image. I need to learn to love myself and my body, though, cause I definitely don’t. 51. So how are you feeling today? Blah. 52. Where is your sister right now? I don't have a sister. 53. Name five things you did today? So far just YouTube and surveys. 54. What kind of phone do you have? An iPhone XR. 55. What are you listening to? An ASMR video. 56. What do you smell like? Like me. 57. What colour are your eyes? Brown. 58. Have you ever done a Chinese fire drill? No. 59. Do you know someone named Betsy? No. 60. What colour is your mum’s hair? Black. 61. Do you have a dog? Breed? Name? Yes, a 3 year old German Shepherd/Lab mix named Princess Leia. <3 62. Do you remember singing any songs as a kid? Yeah. A lot of Barney songs, especially. 63. Are you married? Nopeee. I’m very single. 64. When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings? Last night.  65. Do you play an instrument? I played some piano back in the day. I regret not keeping up with it, though. I wish I took it more seriously. 66. Do you like fire? I like bonfires or fire in the fireplace. I love that autumn fire smell. However, you’ll never catch me lighting a fire. Not even a candle. I’m a big scardy cat. 67. Are you allergic to anything? Tangerines. 68. Have you ever been to a spa? Nope. 69. Do you miss someone? Always. 70. Views on premarital sex? I’m just waiting to be in a loving committed relationship. Someone I’m very comfortable with. He’ll have to be someone very patient and understanding. 71. What is a noise that you cannot stand? Eating sounds--slurping, smacking, sucking... I CAN’T. 72. Do you know how to do a cartwheel? I can’t do that. 73. What is the most you are willing to spend on a pair of sunglasses? I don’t wear sunglasses as someone who has to wear glasses because I’m basically blind without them. I’ve had the transitional glasses in the past, though. I don’t have them currently cause I didn’t want to pay for that. 74. Does your mum vacuum early in the morning while you’re asleep? No. 75. Do you shower naked? Uh, yeah?  76. Does wearing glasses really make people look smart? It can. Doesn’t make me look smart, though ha. I’m not fooling anyone. 77. Are you ADD or ADHD? No. 78. Do your band-aids have cartoons on them? No, we just have the boring plain ones. 79. Have you ever kissed someone you shouldn’t have? No. 80. In one word, how would you define yourself? Disappointing.  81. Tell me about a dream you had recently? Nah. 82. Who’s the funniest drunk person you know? I haven’t been around drunk people in a long time. 83. How did you feel when you woke up? I haven’t gone to bed, yet, but I know I won’t be happy when my alarm goes off. I have a doctor appointment in the morning. :/ 84. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? It’ll be “ughhhhh I don’t want to get up.” 85. Name something great that happened on Friday? I don’t know, it’s Thursday. Ask me tomorrow. 86. When was the last time you saw your father? Last night. 87. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now? No. You know... it’s weird. I heard from Ty out of the blue yesterday for the first time in almost 5 years and it didn’t stir up anything in me like it would have in the past. 88. Have you ever been kissed by a person whose name starts with J? Yes. 89. Do you crack your knuckles? Yeah. 90. What were you doing twenty minutes ago? This. 91. You’re thinking about someone, aren’t you? I am now cause of that question where I talked about Ty. 92. Have you held hands with anyone in the past twenty-four hours? No. 93. What would you do if your partner still kept pictures of their ex? I would have an issue with that. 94. What if your partner went through your cellphone? I don’t want that kind of relationship. Like yeah, we should have nothing to hide, but still there’s just no reason for it. 95. What if your partner was flirting with another girl/boy? I’d most definitely have a problem with that and would say something. 96. Ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with? Yes. 97. You want someone/something? I’m already looking forward to lunch. 98. Is there really a difference between Coke and Pepsi? There absolutely is. Coke all the way. 99. Is there any emotion you’re trying to avoid right now? I’m hungry, but it’s 330 in the morning and I’m not going to get anything. I’ll get something later after my doctor appointment. 100. Are there any mistakes with your recent ex you wish you could have changed? It really doesn’t matter anymore. 101. Has anyone ever been with you while you were throwing up? Yeah, my mom many times whenever I was sick. That’s even still to this day as an adult. One of my former friends was with me a few times after getting sick from a littleee bit too much to drink. :X 102. Background on your computer? Alexander Skarsgard. 103. Have you cried recently? Yes. 104. Who has hurt you the most? Myself. 105. Are you happy with where you are relationship-wise now? I’m perfectly fine with being single. 106. What language do you want to learn? I want to be fluent in Spanish. I should start practicing again, it’s been yearsss so I’m definitely rusty. 107. Your ex’s car breaks down and they ask you for a lift. Your response? I don’t drive, so I’d be of no help. 108. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? I’d only hit someone out of self-defense.

[esotheria-sims]

50 OC QUESTIONS - Marcus Blackbird

Got tagged by @thepathofnevermore, whee! :D Thank you for the tag, dear, this was fun! ^-^

01. How old is your sim? My headcanon is that he’s 15 at the start of the BaCC.

02. When is your sim’s birthday? June 28.

03. What is your sim’s zodiac sign? Cancer.

04. What is your sim’s ethnicity? Neo Margitavillean/human with magic ancestry.

05. Does your sim have any nicknames? Mark, and his sister Annika calls him Marky sometimes when they play-fight and she wants to annoy him. He pretends to be awfully offended by the nickname, but it’s more a running gag than anything else; he actually doesn’t mind it at all.

06. Do they have a job? Not at the moment.

07. Where does your sim live? Wyvern’s Bay since recently, Neo Margitaville before that.

08. Who does your sim live with? His dad Gabriel and his little sister, the aforementioned Annika.

09. What environment did your sim grow up in? (strict, loving, cold etc.) He was brought up in what could be considered the ideal familial environment - a friendly, safe neighborhood, a snug and cozy home, parents who doted on him… But his mom passed away when he was only 6, which came as a huge shock to everyone in the family, Marcus most of all. He managed to bounce back from the loss eventually - his dad was a huge source of support for him and his baby sister proved to be a wonderful distraction - but it took him a good amount of time to process it all, and even though he’s fine now, he still misses her dearly and feels her absence.

10. What is your sim’s favourite food? Pizza… and Watcher, what he wouldn’t give for a slice right now. Did you know that Wyvern’s Bay doesn’t have any pizzerias??

11. What is your sim’s favourite drink? Water.

12. If they have one what is your sim’s favourite color? Blue.

13. Does your sim believe in any clichés? (love at first sight, etc.) He firmly believes that “a bird in the hand is worth two in the bush”. And before anyone asks, no, he’s not the most ambitious of sims. :P

14. What is your sim’s sexuality? Heterosexual.

15. What is your sim’s gender identity? Male.

16. Is your sim type a or type b? Uh, what the hell is type A and type B…? Next question!

17. Is your sim introverted or extroverted? Introverted.

18. What is your sim’s favourite woohoo position? The kid’s still a virgin, so who the hell knows.

19. Is your sim a pet person? If so what is their favourite animal? Yes, he loves animals! I think he’s more of a cat person than a dog person, though he likes both well enough. He’s also very partial to small birds.

20. Does your sim have a best friend? His sister Annika, and since he came to Wyvern’s Bay, Phillip Gladwyn.

21. What is/was your sim’s favourite school subject? Back when he went to “regular” school it used to be Art, Biology, and Literature, and after Dominick Irving took him and Annika in for tutoring, his favorite lessons were in Robotics and High Elvish.

22. Is/was your sim a high, mid or low achiever in school? He was an overachiever in both elementary and high school, but due to unfortunate circumstances (read: a hoodpocalypse) he was forced to cut his education short. Now that Mr.Irving has taken him under his wing, though, he continues to excel in his studies. Once a nerd, always a nerd! 😁

23. Are they planning to go or have they already been to college? If so, what would be or what was their major? 

He’d really love to be able to go to college, but the way things are now, it’s highly unlikely that’ll ever happen. :/ Wyvern’s Bay doesn’t have a university of its own, and any other universities are completely out of his reach. But if he could go to uni (dreaming is free, right?) he’d probably major in Biology or Art.

24. What are your sim’s political beliefs? He doesn’t have much of an opinion on the matter.

25. What is one thing your sim wants to do before they die? Just one thing? D: Marcus is so young, there’s so much he wants to do with life! Like find the love of his life, get married, start a family… it’s a long list!

26. Does your sim have a favourite TV show (cable) and/or movie? He doesn’t have any particular movie or show he considers his favorite, but he generally enjoys comedies, superhero films, and documentaries about ancient civilizations. Or well, used to enjoy. He doesn’t get to watch much television these days…

27. Is your sim a Netflix viewer? No.

28. Does your sim like books? Yep! He’s a complete bookworm!

29. Does your sim enjoy video games, if so what is their favourite one and do they play on PC or console? He’s not a hardcore gamer by any stretch, but he used to love playing video games as a kid and younger teen. He had a PC at home that he’d play on, and one of his friends from school (who had a console) would sometimes organize game nights. When he played on his home PC, it’d usually be single-player offline games, and when he played with his friends on console, they’d go for multiplayers.

30. What is your sim’s personal style? He’d describe it as “comfy & casual”, but these days it’s closer to “wears the same old rags every day and will continue to do so until the clothes literally fall apart”. It’s not easy to be fashionable when you live off grid, in the wilderness.

31. Does your sim have a lucky charm? Not per se, no… but he used to dry press four-leaved clovers whenever he’d come across them. He called it his “lucky collection”.

32. Is your sim religious? Nah. 

33. What kind of music does your sim listen to and who is their favourite artist? He doesn’t have a strict preference re: music genre, but he likes ballads, anything with an acoustic guitar in it, and also rock, when he’s in the right mood. His favorite bands are The Beatles (got the love for their music from his dad) and The Police.

34. Is your sim a festive person? If so what’s their favourite holiday? If asked he’d probably say that he is, but to him it’s not so much about the holiday itself as it is about having a chance to get together with friends and family.

35. What is your sim’s favourite type of weather? He doesn’t have a preference, he enjoys all sorts of weather: warm, sunny, rainy, snowy… As long as it isn’t anything extreme (e.g. rainstorms, overly hot, heavy snowfall), he’s happy.

36. Does your sim prefer to start fights or finish them? He’d like it best if there was no fight to begin with!

37. Does your sim have a dream job? A professor, researcher, or any similar vocation that is intellectual in nature and allows for acquisition of new knowledge. As a kid, he’d always say that he wanted to become an archaeologist when he grows up… and while this isn’t necessarily something he’d consider his “dream job”, he probably wouldn’t mind being a stay-at-home dad.

38. Does your sim have any siblings? I’ve probably mentioned her like, what, ten times by now? Annika, his younger sister. He loves that kid to bits.

39. Does your sim get along with their family? He does, yes. His dad and sister are all he has left and he cherishes them above everything else.  

40. What is your sim’s favourite hobby? Fishing! He started doing it out of bare necessity after his family got stranded in Wyvern’s Bay, but he really came to enjoy it as a hobby as well.

41. What does your sim look for in a romantic partner? Kindness, respect, loyalty, and above all, a lot of love and affection. Marcus’ ideal partner is someone who isn’t afraid to shower him with love and who will, in turn, allow him to love them just as much.

42. What is a secret about your sim? He cries like rain to sad movies, which is why he avoids watching them in the company of others… he may be a certified softie, but he still has his dignity. 

43. What is a wish your sim has? For his family to find a safe place to live. That’s all he asks for, really. ;_____;

44. What is a flaw your sim has? He’s very emotional and tends to let negative comments get to him a bit too easily… He also has a tendency to get overly defensive when he’s been hurt.

45. How do others generally perceive your sim? Very nice, soft-spoken, a bit shy.

46. Does your sim have a greatest achievement? Surviving the total annihilation of your hometown, surviving a shipwreck, AND surviving in a fiendish new environment is a pretty big achievement, I’d say.

47. If they have one, what is your sim’s greatest regret? Not spending more time with his mother while she was still alive. Or rather, not making the most out of the time he had with her.

48. Does your sim have a favourite emoji? Long gone are the days when he used to have a phone for texting… but back when he did, his most used emoji was a plain old smiley face.

49. Does your sim use simstagram? No electricity, no social media. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  Though he was never much of a simstagram user even when he had the necessary equipment… he only had an account because all the other kids had one.

50. What is the last text your sim sent (and who did they text)? “I’m gonna b late. Sorry” - sent to a classmate he was supposed to do a school project with. Needless to say, they never got to meet up for that project…

[navpike]

cry out what you need to: chapter 4

“Okay, so, you know my partner, Amy Rohrbach? She died, on Sunday. And she had a daughter. She’s five years old and she had no other family and they were going to put her in the system and I just felt so--” “Dick, did you adopt the kid?” “I adopted the kid.”

Or, the one where Dick adopts a child, learns to balance parenting and superheroing, and falls in love, not necessarily in that order.

Chapter Four: so i’ll beat the drums and scream at the sun [on ao3]

Steph stays for dinner Monday night, and drives off on Dick’s motorcycle when they’re done. He gets Rona showered and put to bed, quickly as he can, and retreats to his own room, sitting on the edge of his bed with his head in his hands. It’s the first moment he’s had, his mind not addled by exhaustion and concern for Rona, to sit and truly process the past week.

Amy’s dead. She’s gone, and when Dick goes back to work next week, he’ll be assigned a new partner, and life will move forward, even though Dick doesn’t want to. Rona has no mother now, no real parent, and as much as he can be there for her, and as much as he knows Steph, Cass and Babs will provide strong role models for her, Dick doesn’t know how to pick up the rest of the slack. He just started packing away his partner’s life, his closest friend outside of the superhero life, and in another day or two, it’ll be like she never existed at all, nothing left but a memory and a house for sale.

Dick does the only thing he can think to do.

He calls Wally, and he cries.

He cries out what he needs to and tells Wally every concern he has about his sudden parenthood and how worried he is about Rona and his lack of ability to take care of her properly and how he doesn’t know what he’s doing and how he feels like he’s unprepared to go back to work without Amy by his side because she was his friend goddammit. She was more than just a coworker, more than just his partner.

He takes a deep breath when he’s done unloading everything, and lets it out very shakily.

“Sorry. That was a lot.”

“Holy shit, Dick.”

“Sorry.”

“No, shut up, don’t say sorry to me! You’ve been packing that all away ever since Amy died? God, I’m surprised you’ve-- you Bats and your fucking-- Dick. Dude, you’ve got to talk about these things. If you have a kid to worry about, you can’t be worrying about falling apart yourself. God, you worry me sometimes. Just. You gave me the okay to tell the group chat what’s going on with you, and I did. Roy’s obviously no stranger to unusual parenting situations, and the rest of us are more than happy to listen to whatever you’ve got to say. Just talk to us, Dick. You’re not alone. You’ve got us, you’ve got your family, and Babs and Steph. Don’t think you have to be Mr. Strong and Silent. You’re not Bruce.”

It’s kind of like a smack in the face, but it’s just what Dick needs, really. He can always count on Wally for that. Something warm blooms in his chest and he has to actively fight to stamp that far down and way back. Now is not the time for this quasi-crush to be rearing its ugly head.

“I just hate bothering everyone,” Dick tries, but he knows it’s a thin excuse and he knows Wally will call him on it.

“Shut up. Talk to your friend like a normal person. I’m gonna hang up now, and you’re going to text the group chat. If there’s nothing from you in the next ten minutes, I’m going to drop everything and run to Gotham, got it?”

It’s just the right amount of guilt to get Dick to agree. He can imagine the smug look on Wally’s face as he mutters out his assent. Wally hangs up with a laugh after Dick calls him something very unkind, and Dick takes a deep breath. He doesn’t know if he can really handle the full force of all of his friends right now, but he trusts Wally, so he’ll go along with it.

He double checks that Rona is soundly sleeping in her room, steps in and smooths the wrinkle in her forehead with his thumb, and just as his ten minutes is up, he sends a text to the group chat he’s had on mute for the past week.

[from bird boi, 9:32 PM]

hey guys

[from wallington, 9:32 PM]

nice to see you listened to me

[from dad bod, 9:33 PM]

nice of you to let us know youre alive dick

[from mom, 9:33 PM]

I can’t tell if you’re saying his name or insulting him but either way.

Doesn’t matter.

Nice to see you’re not dead.

How’s the little one?

[from bird boi, 9:35 PM]

thanks donna.

she’s asleep right now. sorry i’ve been absent lately, it’s just been kind of a crazy week

[from mom, 9:36 PM]

You’re welcome.

And don’t worry about it. We understand. Just let us know what’s going on with you. Kind of sucks to have to learn you’ve become a father from Wally instead of from you.

Dick winces to himself, where he’s tucked himself into the corner of the couch, wrapped in a blanket. He let Steph tell Tim about Rona, and he let Alfred and Bruce tell Damian, and while it was necessary because he’s been so busy, he feels bad that he couldn’t sit down and have a conversation with either of them, especially Damian. He really kind of wishes that he had waited, let the ten minutes pass so that Wally would have come to Gotham, so that he could just have someone there with him, because feeling bad on his own makes it even worse.

[from bird boi, 9:40 PM]

i’m really sorry.

i’ve been kinda freaking out about all of this and the kid and i had to make funeral plans for amy.

sorry, not an excuse

being a parent is hard

[from dad bod, 9:42 PM]

be less hard on yourself dick, surprise parenthood is rough

just dont be stupid you asshole, tell us whats going on with you every once in a while

also, lians pissed off that she hasnt gotten to meet her favorite uncles kid so you have to deal with that now

[from bird boi, 9:43 PM]

that’s the scariest thing that’s come out of this week

side note: wheres garth in all of this?

[from mom, 9:44 PM]

Garth’s got Atlantis business most of this week, he’s going to be in and out.

But unlike you, Boy Blunder, Garth told us what he was doing so we’d know he was okay.

[from wallington, 9:45 PM]

okay, okay, ease up on dick, hes had a bad week.

[from bird boi, 9:45 PM]

thanks walls.

[from mom, 9:46 PM]

I’m done now.

I’m sorry about your friend Dick. And I’m sorry we haven’t been able to be there for you. Soon as that little girl settles in, you’ve got to let us come visit her. I didn’t think we’d be getting a new niece so soon. I can’t wait to meet her.

[from dad bod, 9:47 PM]

seconded. lian thinks she’s got a new built in best friend

and i’m sorry about your partner too

Dick smiles to himself, clutching the blanket wrapped around his shoulders closer to his chest. There is a deep, aching sadness still weighing heavy in his chest, making his ribs throb with it. Now that he’s thinking about it, that’s likely the month old rib injury he’s just beginning to really get over. But, he’s wallowing for a moment. So he’s going to be dramatic about it.

Sue him.

[from bird boi, 9:49 PM]

thanks guys

i’m going to try to finish clearing out as much of amy’s house tomorrow as i can before rona gets out of school. i did a lot with steph today but it’s harder than i thought it would be

[from dad bod, 9:50 PM]

jesus dick, that’s brutal. i wish i could lend a hand but i promised i’d help ollie with something tomorrow

[from mom, 9:51 PM]

I’m sorry I can’t help either. I’ve got meetings all day tomorrow.

[from bird boi, 9:51 PM]

no guys, don’t worry about it!

[from wallington, 9:52 PM]

shut up and let us worry about you.

youre our friend and we care about you and youre having a really shitty week.

[from dad bod, 9:53 PM]

yeah shut up jackass

[from mom, 9:53 PM]

Hey now.

[from dad bod, 9:54 PM]

sorry mom

point tho: youre not b, dont act like it

[from bird boi, 9:55 PM]

you know, wally told me the same thing.

[from wallington, 9:56 PM]

its the red hair, we all share a brain cell

[from dad bod, 9:59 PM]

i was gnona get mad but jesusnfuck walls i just lost it at that

[from mom, 10:00 PM]

Good lord you lot are like children.

[from wallington, 10:01 PM]

you know it and you love it wonder chick

[from mom, 10:03 PM]

You’re all insufferable and Garth’s my favorite now by default.

[from bird boi, 10:04 PM]

HEY! i haven’t even done anything!

[from mom, 10:05 PM]

Nope, you’re guilty by association because you’re here for all of this, you’re a part of this. Now I’m going to get a good night’s rest for once in my life, no one disturb me unless the world is ending, I have early meetings tomorrow morning, good night, heathens.

Dick turns his phone off with a grin and wraps it in his hands, close against his chest. The profound sadness that Dick had felt crushing through his chest feels a little less crushing now that he’s talked to his friends. They never fail to lift his spirits.

His phone buzzes again and he glances down at it to see a single message from Wally.

[from Walls, 10:10 PM]

good luck tomorrow, dick. we love you buddy. let us know when you think the kiddo can handle some new people and we’ll all come over with lian for dinner. you’ve got this daddy-o.

Dick almost cringes at the terrible nickname, half a wince and half a hysterical grin, and texts back a smiley face. He turns off his phone, and, checking in on Rona one last time, he heads to bed. He’s out like a light as soon as his head hits the pillow.

Unfortunately, he only gets a couple hours of sleep before he’s woken up by a tiny body kneeling on the edge of his bed. There’s a moment where he instinctively grabs for a weapon, for something to defend himself, before he pauses, thinking about what might actually be happening. The thought takes a moment to make its way through his sleep addled mind, but it does, and in the span of a few seconds, he goes from searching for some defense to his hand coming to rest on a tiny, trembling wrist.

He looks up, and Rona is kneeling on the edge of the mattress, her eyes shining in the low light filtering in from the small night light in the hallway outside the half open door.

She doesn’t say anything, just sits there, clutching Zitka the stuffed elephant in her other hand, and Dick sits up, gathering her up in his arms immediately.

“Hey, sweetheart, what happened?” he says, the concern evident in his voice. “Did you have a bad dream again, honey?”

She nods miserably, hugging Zitka close to her chest, and burrowing into his arms.

When she doesn’t say anything further, Dick settles down into bed a little further, holding her close. “Come on, you can stay in here with me tonight.” She nods again, her hair tickling the underside of his chin, little flyaways catching in the few days’ old stubble there. “Do you want me to tell you a story?” Another nod. Dick situates himself, half sitting, half lying against the headboard, getting Rona nestled into his side, partially draped across his chest. Her tiny hand curls into the thin material of Dick’s shirt, her face pressing into his side as she tries to stifle a sniffle.

“I miss my mommy,” she says, almost inaudibly.

Dick’s heart cracks.

“Well, let me tell you a story. Once upon a time there was a little boy, and he could fly. He and his family could soar through the air just like birds, and people came from far and wide to watch them put on shows. But then one day, while they were performing at a fair for a prince, the little boy’s parents had an accident. While they were flying around for the show, their wings stopped working, and they fell to the ground.”

“This story is too sad,” Rona sniffs miserably, and Dick holds up a finger, poking her on the nose.

“But it’s going to get happier, just you wait. The little boy didn’t have his parents anymore, and that was terribly, terribly sad, and he thought he would never be happy again, because he missed his mommy and daddy very much. He was all by himself for a little while, until one day, the prince who they had been performing for found the little boy. The prince went up to the little boy, and offered to give him a home. Now, the little boy was worried about going to live with the prince, because the prince couldn’t fly, you see, and the little boy thought that the prince would try to make him live on the ground all the time. He thought the prince would take away his magic, and take away everything that reminded the boy of his parents. So the boy was very afraid. But he didn’t like being alone, even more than he was afraid, so he went to live with the prince. And when he got to the prince’s castle, the prince was very formal, and had a butler and it was nothing at all like what the boy was used to. But after he was there for a while, the prince did not take the boy’s magic away, so the boy took a chance, and he started flying around the castle, because he missed it so much. He was flying around the castle one day, and the prince caught him, and the boy was afraid the prince would be mad, but he wasn’t mad at all. In fact, the very next day, the prince had set up an arena in the castle, so that the boy could practice his flying and get better at it, and get to be stronger, so that the boy would never have his wings stop working like his parents’ had. And the boy said to the prince, ‘I thought you were going to take away my magic, so that I’d be more like you. I thought you’d take it, so that you’d be my new dad.’ And the prince told the boy, ‘I’d never take your magic from you. You’re special to me because you’re different from me. I am going to take care of you as best as I can, and I will love you like my own, and you will be my family, but I will never try to replace your parents. We’ll be family in a different way. And it will be just as good, but it won’t replace what you had with them.’ And the boy kept his magic, and later on, when the boy got brothers, and a sister, he taught them his magic too, and the prince even tried to learn the boy’s magic too. And they all became a family, and they were much different from the boy’s parents, but he loved them very much nonetheless.”

When Dick looks down, Rona is drifting off, no longer looking so upset. He presses a kiss to the top of her head, and settles a little deeper into the bed.

“I’ll never take your magic from you, little one,” Dick mutters, and before he knows it, he’s drifting off too, cradling Rona close to his side.

[wildfangz]

@liliithvatore tagged me in that simself thing thats been goin around DAYS ago but here it finally is! also thank you for the tag this was fun :-]

I tag @slythersim @thelurgoyf @seoulchii @weicyn @solitasims @daisydezem @raha-plays-the-sims if they want to do it & anyone that just wants to do it in general! message me and I’ll even @ u directly if u want. 

anyway lets DO THIS shitload of questions under the cut u’ve been warned!!!

1. what is your name?

julian

2. what is your nickname?

jewel, jules

3. birthday?

oct 26th

4. what is your favorite book series?

percy jackson and the olympians will probably always own my heart & soul

5. do you believe in aliens or ghosts?

yes & yes. tho i do think a lot of alien sightings and conspiracy theories and what not are bullshit

6. who is your favorite author?

maggie stiefvater probably? also cornelia funke but its been years since ive read anything by her so i cant be sure BUT i loved inkheart & the thief lord so much

7. what is your favorite radio station?

ummm when i listen to the radio at all i kinda just switch between two rock stations and our popular music station.

8. what is your favorite flavor of anything?

blue raspberry !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tasty and i love a blue tongue

9. what word would you use often to describe something great or wonderful?

cool. or bitchin’.  i play it simple

10. what is your current favorite song?

hands like houses - revive

11. what is your favorite word?

roulette and inhibition which i never get to use either as much as i want !

12. what was the last song you listened to?

emarosa - givin’ up ! its a bop!

13. what tv show would you recommend for everybody to watch?

the new she-ra on netflix its so good. and gay

14. what is your favorite movie to watch when you’re feeling down?

moana. its also like the only movie i dont have trouble getting thru despite how many times ive already seen it

15. do you play video games?

16. what is your biggest fear?

idk... being inherently unlovable i guess n ending up alone? also spiders !

17. what is your best quality, in your opinion?

im fairly open-minded and laid back. Unless someones being like, purposely nasty or something I generally don’t get defensive or aggressive. also a lot of little quirks that piss others off dont bother me im very u do u as long as its not actually harming anyone and ive had people tell me this makes it easier to open up to me so thats probably my best quality....

18. what is your worst quality, in your opinion?

....at the same time though i do get very sensitive when faced w/ criticism even if its of the fair variety when its not phrased really gently for various reasons and i dont like that. especially since I have a tendency to not even talk to people about it. I’ll just immediately start distancing myself. also other than that i think overall I have a really high tolerance lvl but if you cross that line I hold a grudge like a motherfucker

9. do you like cats or dogs better?

cats! dogs are good too but cats are a lot easier for me to handle...and quieter generally but even when they’re loud cat sounds dont get to me quite as much as barks do

20. what is your favorite season?

autumn but im starting to really like summer for some reason? wack :/

21. are you in a relationship?

nope

22. what is something you miss from your childhood?

the lack of responsibility, probably. that sounds real bad lmao but for me its like...I know I’ve grown in various ways over the years but I also feel like so many of my experiences, my trauma, my mental health has held me back and I don’t think I’m mentally where I should be for my age. so all the responsibility of adulthood is just..really overwhelming for me sometimes, even though ive been given a pass from certain aspects of it and the rest is pretty simple its the idea!!!!

23. who is your best friend?

my ex

24. what is your eye color?

25. what is your hair color?

26. who is someone you love?

my mom

27. who is someone you trust?

not really anyone rn unfortunately...would like 2 work on that

28. who is someone you think about often?

are my OCs a fair answer because i am always thinking about my babies.....

29. are you currently excited about/for something?

my favorite webcomic (that also has two of my all time favorite characters in it) just came back!! the artist disappeared back in 2015 like the day after I binge-read the whole fucking thing & i was so disappointed but its BACK and 2018 has been redeemed

30. what is your biggest obsession?

sims probably! i could talk about anything relating to it for hours

31. what was your favorite tv show as a child?

there were so damn many its hard to even think and figure out the most notable ones...i really, really liked teen titans though?

32. who of the opposite gender can you tell anything to, if anyone?

my ex, again

33. are you superstitious?

not terribly so but somewhat. I take certain things as signs and I mean I do believe in astrology & such to a degree

34. do you have any unusual phobias?

i used to be afraid of mirrors but thats all i can think of and its not even a thing anymore...the only other thing is tornadoes but i dont think its unusual. but it definitely sucks for me ‘cause i live in tornado alley!

35. do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it?

behind it....like taking pretty pictures and dont like ppl capturing my image 2 film

36. what is your favorite hobby?

sims.....also singing!!! and drawing!!!! video editing!!!!!!!!! the works

37. what was the last book you read?

The Dream Thieves....havent finished it though because last time i went to read it a spider was lying in wait and im traumatized

38. what was the last movie you watched?

coco i think???

39. what musical instruments do you play, if any?

drums, various other percussion instruments, and violin mainly

40. what is your favorite animal?

ferrets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

41. what are your top 5 favorite tumblr blogs that you follow?

uhhhhh @bratsims @liliithvatore @cabsim @wildlyminiaturesandwich @keysims pls dont feel bad if i didnt include u these were just the first to pop into my head and ive been following some of them since I first made my blog!! and have kept up with their stories completely and enjoy them etc check them OUT !

42. what superpower do you wish you had?

shapeshifting!!! dysphoria? gone. ugliness? gone. want to morph into a fucked up clown and scare people when they realize all the classic clown features are a real actual part of my face? possible!

43. when and where do you feel most at peace?

chillin’ at the pool in summer during the part of the day when no ones there.... swimming is always relaxing 2 me then i love just resting under the sun and drying off afterwards especially since we have a little pond nearby and i can hear the water! its nice

44. what makes you smile?

always and without fail? interacting with anyone i have a crush on. i’ll look like a dope the whole time

45. what sports do you play, if any?

i used 2 play basketball a lot. Like not seriously but it was a thing

46. what is your favorite drink?

dr pepper and monster energy (original flavor) pumps through my veins at this point. we love a carbonated beverage

47. when was the last time you wrote a hand-written letter or note to somebody?

two years ago for my ex and I’s first year anniversary... I never got it mailed but I did at least take a picture of it (with included caption because my handwriting is atrocious). i was very up front about being a romantic and see heres the PROOF

48. are you afraid of heights?

nope! very excited by them actually

49. what is your biggest pet peeve?

i cant stand passive aggressive behavior. my stance is either get over it or quit acting like a bitch because otherwise im just going to ignore you thats the scorpio way (in all seriousness I really, really do recommend not putting up with it and ignoring it until they decide to be up front with you. it can be exhausting constantly reading into conversations and its not healthy for you or them. if they have something to say they need to learn to talk about it properly, and that lack of social skills is not ever on you)

50. have you ever been to a concert?

yep! i think about....six or so? i love them...which is really funny im autistic and EVERYTHING about them should freak me out and they do in other circumstances but at a show i just live for it

51. are you vegan/vegetarian?

nope! ive thought before id like to go vegetarian...but i couldnt do it with my health problems. also i love shrimp too much

52. when you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up?

ive always wanted to do something creative! when i was rlly young I thought a lot about singing and acting and writing in particular...all things im still interested in.... also i wanted to be a dictator ages 4-7 because i told my mom i wanted to be president of the world and make people do what i say and she said “honey thats a dictator not a president”. i then made that known at school and that turned into a situation!

53. what fictional world would you like to live in?

pokemon universe or bust. 

54. what is something you worry about?

never being able to do things i want to do or catching up with others because of my disabilities

55. are you scared of the dark?

yes but a reasonable amount i think

56. do you like to sing?

yes :]

57. have you ever skipped school?

yes i used to play sick a LOT and as my parents caught onto it id even go all out to convince them. i was good at school but i hated it so much

58. what is your favorite place on the planet?

dunno! malls maybe i love shopping and looking at material objects i wish to own

59. where would you like to live?

oregon! portland in particular thats been my dream for a few years now

60. do you have any pets?

a cat! he lives with my dad & grandma though...hes grown up there and likes going outside so I felt bad about taking him with me when i moved out but anyway this is him hes fat and stupid and i love him his name is coffee

61. are you more of an early bird or a night owl?

night owl because my rhythm is all fucked up but in my heart....an early bird...if i get a good nights sleep i’ll be up early yacking your ear off and so excited for the day

62. do you like sunrises or sunsets better?

sunsets are prettier...but sunrises feel more refreshing

63. do you know how to drive?

nope ! im gay !

64. do you prefer earbuds or headphones?

headphones. better sound quality also discourages people from talking to me slightly more

65. have you ever had braces?

nope! but i need them

66. what is your favorite genre of music?

post-hardcore maybe?

67. who is your hero?

every trans person living their truth and being open and loud about who they are past present & future. the worlds not particularly kind to us and our existence alone is considered a radical act, so its always given me hope to see others refusing to pretend to be someone they’re not in this environment and I’ll always have mad respect for that

68. do you read comic books?

i read manga and webcomics...ive always wanted to get into superhero comics but the amount of issues and different versions is ridiculous and makes it inaccessible 2 me 

69. what makes you the most angry?

i mean its hard to pinpoint what makes me angry the MOST...but a contender is definitely how some people feel free to treat others with cruelty and think its their god given right to deny or attack someones existence in some way, & how acts of kindness, even the most basic are branded as liberal bullshit or whatever....it goes against everything i was taught growing up

70. do you prefer to read on an electronic device or with a real book?

real book! electronic device can be easier but....rough on the eyes after a while and nothing beats the real thing for me

71. what was your favorite subject in school?

language arts...at least when we did creative writing stuff

72. do you have any siblings?

two older sisters & an older brother that passed away years ago but. still my brother u kno

73. what was the last thing you bought?

mocha frappe baby!!!!!

74. how tall are you?

5′4″

75. can you cook?

a little bit....not as much as id like to though but im learning

76. what are three things that you love?

storms, cheesy breadsticks, and cat purrs

77. what are three things that you hate?

unnecessary rudeness, being talked down to or generally treated like im stupid, grapefruit which is the worst thing on this list

78. do you have more female friends or more male friends?

female i think?

79. what is your sexual orientation?

im the big bad promiscuous bisexual your parents warned you about

80. where do you currently live?

oklahoma. gofundme campaign to get me out

81. who was the last person you texted?

my friend jojo! just Now!

82. when was the last time you cried?

yesterday afternoon but im a changed man now thats behind me. i will cry about different things soon

83. who is your favorite youtuber?

the mcelroy brothers. also super best friends play. matt, pat & woolie are all great tbh

84. do you like to take selfies?

depends on whether i feel ugly or terribly dysphoric that day or not

85. what is your favorite app?

ummmm....love live school idol festival ive been playin for years its an addiction

86. what is your relationship with your parent(s) like?

dad = bad mom = okay. theres some issues that strain it but its not too bad

87. what is your favorite foreign accent?

i have no idea what the fuck australians are talking about half the time but i dig it anyway 

88. what is a place that you’ve never been to, but you want to visit?

Italy, Greece, Germany, Japan, Mexico, various other states (ive only been out of state three times. twice to texas and then once to kansas. for five minutes)

89. what is your favorite number?

6!! 26 also

90. can you juggle?

ive always wanted to but alas.... :-[

91. are you religious?

i suppose...but im rlly not into organized religion

92. do you find outer space of the deep ocean to be more interesting?

space probably theres so fucking much of it man!

93. do you consider yourself to be a daredevil?

not to brag but sometimes i eat my mcdonalds hamburgers cold from the fridge so you can figure that one out yourself B)

94. are you allergic to anything?

pecans. not deathly allergic though so catch me eating turtle pie anyway! 

95. can you curl your tongue?

nope :[

96. can you wiggle your ears?

nope :[

97. how often do you admit that you were wrong about something?

usually as soon as i realize....unless someones being real smug and annoying then i might be stubborn about it

98. do you prefer the forest or the beach?

ive never been to the beach but i love her!!!

99. what is your favorite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you?

probably that you have to look at your accomplishments differently when you’re disabled or just struggling, to not be so down on yourself because its a fact that what might be a mole hill to someone else is a mountain to you and you have to judge yourself accordingly. Like maybe you weren’t able to clean the whole house, but washing the dishes and tidying your desk doesn’t usually get done but you did it. That that should be celebrated because while it would also feel good if you did more, you still did something and thats great all things considered.

100. are you a good liar?

sometimes, really depends what im lying about and if im like....into it at all. If my guts against it for whatever reason I’ll have trouble

101. what is your hogwarts house?

i always get slytherin or hufflepuff! usually with like 1 point difference

102. do you talk to yourself?

i am talking to myself right now as i fill this out

103. are you an introvert or an extrovert?

extrovert mainly! i used to think i was more introverted but now i think a lot of exhaustion when theres any comes from me just going the extra mile and actively trying to read people and pick up on social ques.... if I just chill im fine

104. do you keep a journal/diary?

nope...ive tried but i just cant keep up with it so i do the next best thing. shouting into the void on the internet to a bunch of strangers

105. do you believe in second chances?

depends on what you did the first time. Some people just don’t deserve taking that risk imo...but i can be a little guarded so maybe thats a bit too harsh

106. if you found a wallet full of money on the ground, what would you do?

turn it in, unless there was no identifying things in it & it was found somewhere kinda random. Then I’d maybe hold onto it unless my gut challenged that

107. do you believe that people are capable of change?

absolutely. i mean thats all we do throughout our lives is change and evolve...that being said I think extremely drastic changes are maybe not entirely impossible, but extremely rare, and the residue of the former self usually sticks around in some form

108. are you ticklish?

yes, dangerously so

109. have you ever been on a plane?

nope

110. do you have any piercings?

one day hopefully!

111. what fictional character do you wish was real?

asra from the arcana.....even if he wasn’t my boyfriend thats just a dude u could chill and eat some pomegranates with u know. Before I downloaded the app my friends kept telling me he was made for me and he really was he ticks like everything on my Favorite Characters Feature List except villain but he has that particular allure & attitude i like so much in villains so thats not a single point off hes perfect

112. do you have any tattoos?

nope...one day! hopefully!

113. what is the best decision that you’ve made in your life so far?

accepting my genderqueerness and bisexuality definitely. Self Love hasn’t been perfected just yet but that was such a huge step in the right direction

114. do you believe in karma?

yes! she doesn’t get shit done as much as id like however

115. do you wear glasses or contacts?

glasses. not contacts yet because my eye doctor is a bitch

116. do you want children?

I do....just not sure if id be a good parent. Its really important to me if I had a child itd be for the right reason and I could raise them well in a healthy environment & be able to take care of all their needs yknow

117. who is the smartest person you know?

probably my friend jojo

118. what is your most embarrassing memory?

one time i looked outside and the sunset was really pretty and i wanted to get a photo of it so i walked out.....and stood like right by the street so there weren’t trees in my way...and then i realized mid-pic 1) i am not wearing pants & my shirt is full of holes 2) id been depressed for days so my hair was a tangled mess. I tailed it back inside so i didnt even get a nice pic it was blurry!

119. have you ever pulled an all-nighter?

120. what colour are most of you clothes?

black i didnt even have to think about that one

121. do you like adventures?

they are pretty swell

122. have you ever been on tv?

a few times when i was little. always photobombing the news reporters 4 what i thought would eventually lead 2 fame & fortune

123. how old are you?

21

124. what is your favorite movie quote?

this is technically lyrics to that lil song in moana at the end but

“ They have stolen the heart from inside you. But this does not define you.”

hits me hard every time! emotional impact? i know her

125. sweet or savory?

sweet!!!!!!!! gotta balance out my bitter somehow

[she-wolf-of-highgarden]

I was tagged by the amazing @buttercuparry

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people

— what was your last…

1. drink: ginger ale

2. phone call: my mom

3: text message:  literally everyone

4. song you listened to: play it again by luke bryan

5. time you cried: last night

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: nope, i

7. kissed someone and regretted it: yes

8. been cheated on: nope

9. lost someone special : yeah

10. been depressed: maybe? I have an anxiety disorder and the symptoms can be similare

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope...i thought i was going to, though

— fave colours

12. aqua

13. light pink

14. black

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yes

16. fallen out of love: no

17. laughed until you cried: yes

18. found out someone was talking about you: yes...kind of...does a whole class count

19. met someone who changed you: yes...maybe

20. found out who your friends are: yea

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: no

— general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: im not even sure

23. do you have any pets: i have had a cat since fourth grade (im a senior in college) and his namee is Buddy

24. do you want to change your name: no, but it’s annoyingly common

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i had a family dinner at an irish restaurant 

26. what time did you wake up today: 10:30am...in my defense i flew back home yesterday

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: talking to my stepmother 

28. what is something you can’t wait for:to graduate college

30. what are you listening to right now: Thee Return of Superman is playing in the background

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes

32. something that’s getting on your nerves: the way my nieces nephews talk 

33. most visited website:tumblr

34. hair colour: medium brown 

35. long or short hair: its on my shoulders

36. do you have a crush on someone : nope

37. what do you like about yourself: i’m empathetic 

38. want any piercings:  i’m good

39. blood type: A...i think

40. nicknames: meggy, nut meg, puppy, mooch

41. relationship status: single

42. sign: libra

43. pronouns: she/her

44. fave tv show: the office 

45. tattoos: none

46. right or left handed:right

47: ever had surgery: yes 

48. piercings: my ears 

49. sport: ...figure skating

50. vacation: just got back

51. trainers: like shoes or like people? If shoes then yes, if person then no

— more general

52. eating: not at the mo

53. drinking: not at the mo

54. i’m about to watch: more return to superman

55. waiting for: summer

56. want: more money

57. get married: one day  

58. career: ambassador or diplomat 

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses:  hugs

60. lips or eyes: eyes

61. shorter or taller: taller

62. older or younger: older

63. nice arms or stomach: stomach

64. hookup or relationships: relationships

65. troublemaker or hesitant: depends on the circumstances

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger: no

67. drank hard liquor:yes

68. turned someone down: yes

69. sex on first date: no

70: broken someone’s heart: no

71. had your heart broken: no

72. been arrested: no

73. cried when someone died: yes

74. fallen for a friend: yes...if we count grade school crushes

— do you believe in

75. yourself: i believe im trying

76. miracles: yes

77. love at first sight: no

78. santa claus: no

79. angels: yes

— misc

80. eye colour: hazel (the brown green, not the blue)

81. best friend’s name: Shyanne

82. favourite movie: Heathers

83. favourite actor: Ellen...Melissa McCarthy...Sandra Bullock

84. favourite cartoon:none at the mo

85. favorite teacher’s name: Jason Singh 

Sorry for tagging anyone who has already been tagged!

@k85world @gendrie @sassypato @iceandgreys @steelwinterroses @twhiddlegirl @eurongreyjoyy @fearcutsdeeper @hola-pepe @lijee @ivoryqueensansa

[mullersturtleneck]

Sticking with the Schuylers (2:1)

Happy birthday, Alexander Hamilton!

Welcome back, and thanks for your patience with my little hiatus! As a birthday celebration we’re starting back with the currently untitled Book 2 of Sticking with the Schuylers, which I’ve decided to do because this series has so much more life in it. 

So I hope you enjoy, because I have a lot of fun plot coming this time around! (There will be a masterpost of Book 1, don’t worry. I’m not about to have a paragraph long list of links on every post)

1  2  3  4   5   6   7   8   9   10   1112   I  13  14   15   16   17   18A  18B   18C  I19   20   21   22   23   24   25  26   27  28   29   I  30  31  32 33 34  35  36  3738  39 40  41  42 I 43  44  B 45 46  47 48 49  50

Tagging: @linsnavi  @workworkbae​ @adothoe @oosnavi​

Warnings: This story is pretty heavy on mentions of both physical and emotional abuse

               “Angelica is the sister everyone wants, but I’m not sure if it’s because of her actual talents as a sister or the fact that she has the ability to scare off anybody that messes with us with a single glance.” There’s laughter; John Church halts his coffee cup before it can reach his lips, Peggy choking down pancakes through her own giggling. Eliza‘s eyes roam around the table, the blissful faces whose eyes are rimmed with sleepless energy, hysterical and bright. The plates are white and the mugs mismatched, the food overwhelmingly fresh although it seems that the diner itself is stuck in a time warp away from the rest of the world. They’re nearly the only inhabitants of the little shack-like building, tucked over in a woodsy stretch of land just on the Canadian border. The only other guests have been larger men, made of muscle and beer bellies and the stark contrast of shepherd’s pie plates and coffee, sugar-drenched French toast and beer and their big rigs parked over multiple white-lined spaces. It’s the Schuylers and their company who are the loudest guests, however, laughing and hollering and stretching their limbs over the table to reach each other’s’ food.

               It was near midnight when they’d stumbled in after the day’s drive and the late afternoon vows, the sunset cruise and dancing under the stars with the pleasant crashing of the falls surrounding them. It was near midnight when, just the night before, the sisters had been sitting on the floor of Angelica’s old bedroom packing her bags for Oxford. They hadn’t wanted to start the process, stalling with a livestream and late night snacks, watching home movies on the larger living room television and reminiscing. Angelica sat behind each of her sisters in turn and played with their hair, styling shower-wet locks with the gentle precision they’d known since childhood. She made them sprawl their feet over old towels while she painted their nails, brushing back piles of folded clothes that had been organized for suitcases and abandoned on her bed. While Eliza had begun the stalling with the insistence to make cookies together, and Peggy had continued it with the livestream, Angelica was the worst of the three. She found ways to fill their time in smaller things; conversations and silence, toying with her phone and listening to the chatter of their parents as they headed to bed. The house was quiet, then, with only the occasional soft-spoken words of the sisters or the settling of the house’s old bones to keep them company. The room glowed with a soft, golden warmth that illuminated gentle smiles, then wide eyes as Angelica’s shadow made its way to her closet.

               Eliza was the first to look up when their oldest sister came back into view. Her jaw dropped.

               Angelica had always seemed to Eliza to be someone with an unattainable air, someone who had drifted through her life on an endless cloud of effortless power. It came along with the title of older sister; the way Eliza had admired her through rose-colored glasses, envied her undeniable confidence, had been something instilled in her from the moment she’d joined the Schuyler family as an infant. It would be hard to see Angelica any other way. In her mind, her older sister is radiant and unapologetic, and always willing to take charge of her own life. As children she’d been Eliza’s defense system. As teenagers, she’d been the one to pick her up after she’d fallen. Throughout their lives Angelica had been the voice of reason, the advice and the knowledge and the power to make everybody believe that she was nothing short of dynamic.

               There was a proof to Eliza’s lifelong theory as Angelica flourished a brilliant white garment in front of her sisters. The fabric was thicker, a satin which rustled as it bounced along on its hanger with a balletic sort of rustling. The grin that played on Angelica’s lips only turned their corner, but reached her eyes with a glint of childlike mischief typically assigned to Peggy’s more playful nature. The younger sisters sat on the edge of the bed and of their curiosity, stared between each other and the dress with raised eyebrows and a lack of the excitement Angelica had been trying to propel toward them.

               “What would you say if I asked you to come to Niagara Falls with me?” The oldest Schuyler whispered, jostled her head so that her hair fell over one shoulder and away from her face. Before her company could answer she floated to the mirror, holding the white silk dress over her thin frame and adjusting its sleeves, the dressing of a paper doll come to life.

               “When?”

               “Now.”

               “Why?” It was Eliza who asked. It was Eliza who’d been staring, taking note of the way her older sister had transcended their world, gone into her own thoughts and disappeared into shining eyes staring longingly in the mirror. It was a face she’s never seen, a dream-like trance that had captured her and kept her in the moment. It created a soundproof bubble, for Eliza had to repeat herself twice before Angelica whirled around, draping the dress over her arm and bounding back to the bed.

               “For my wedding.”

               Whatever noise had been in the room before Angelica had spoken was immediately sucked away, along with the oxygen. Peggy stared, the turn of her facial features the only way of knowing that she had heard what their older sister had said. Her straight-lined lips curved up into a wide smile, wild and toothy. The same glint of mischief sparked her eyes and opened them wider, spread through the organic energy of her gasp, capturing the moment in all of its concentrated excitement. And as that excitement spread though Peggy it traveled from her face. It ran through her hands, which flew to the bed as a crutch to hoist herself up, bound across the small distance to hug Angelica. Her shorter stature was not noticeable, as her voice was loud and her actions boisterous. Peggy held her sister’s hands, squeezed them as she drew out a vision that played though her mind in rapidly paced descriptions of their destination.

               Eliza sat on the edge of the bed. Her hands played with the soft netting of an old blanket, twisting it back and forth just as Angelica had done to her hair just an hour before. Her heart found a rapid pace, her eyes solely on the beautiful garment her sister still held. She was radiant; it’s a fact undisputed in her mind, and one that would surely be accepted by anybody given the chance to live in this moment. She watched as Angelica accepted Peggy’s excitement, let it spill through the silence and fill the room with a glittering yellow jubilation, a pure and unfiltered carbonation of emotion. The bed was comfortable where she sat. The scene was like a movie, playing out in front of her just as it had the entire night. She wasn’t ready to be without her sister for a semester. She wasn’t ready for her sister to take this leap. But then, was their fairness in any of her hesitation?

               “You’re going to elope? As in, mom and dad have no idea that this is going to happen…” She’d let the sentence trail off, an unbelievable notion drifting away, over the cliff of disbelief and into something she could not quite place. Angelica nodded, countered with a sparing glance at her dress before she draped it over the ornate armchair kept by her window. It had been even more stunning by the glow of the moon, illuminated and mystical. But the light could not transfer the mystical, impulsive nature of the night to her, and as Angelica took a place next to her on the bed Eliza shrugged away the hand on her shoulder.

               “Mom and dad are going to be heartbroken, Ange.”

               “Mom and dad will get over it.”

               “I thought you didn’t even want to get married,” She hadn’t meant it to come out as cold as it had. She hadn’t felt anger, or betrayal. The pit of her stomach had been curled into itself all night, the space behind her eyes filled with a soft sort of stinging she’d been blinking away. And with this admission, the filter she’d been hiding had gone away.

               “Mom and dad will be fine.” Angelica repeats the sentiment, eyes brimming with honesty and the talent of making each possibility feel like a guarantee. “When you think about it, isn’t it time we got married? We’ve been together for nine years, Betsey. Nine years tomorrow. We’re getting married here, we’ll be married when we go to London. Do you know how much easier that’s going to make things?”

               “Did you get your paperwork?”

               “He has dual citizenship and I’ll be on a student visa when we’re in London, we won’t have to deal with any separation.”

               “What about a passport? If your name changes are you going to be able to get it processed in time?”

               “Already looked into it-it’ll be okay, Bets. John and I talked about this for a long time before making our decision. Everything’s set in place. I just need you guys to be there, that’s all I want. I don’t want the big wedding they’re going to make me have. I don’t want the publicity, or the need to entertain dad’s friends and all of our old relatives who don’t care about my relationship. I don’t want that at all. I want to be John’s wife, and I want to do it my way.”

               They left just after two in the morning with bags of provisions in tow. Angelica had made them special, one for each of the sisters, and included a new dress for each of them to wear. They picked up John first, who’d been waiting at his and Angelica’s apartment with another small suitcase and a garment bag he hung in the trunk. The girls shuffled their seats to let him drive, and just before the overhead light dimmed Eliza caught the warmth of deep affection in his eyes. It was a moment that felt private, and she turned her gaze to the window as Angelica blushed.

               She hadn’t expected to see the familiar row of buildings; a florist’s shop, a deli, a little bench with just a touch of snow brushed off by an older woman’s habit to feed the birds. She could nearly see Alex’s building, the eighth floor apartment where he’d undoubtedly be the only one awake, sitting at his desk working on another busy caseload. Eliza found her phone in the pocket of her jacket, typed a message to his messy ponytail and restless feet.

               “Okay, now you have to go get Alex.” They’d stopped at the front of his building when Angelica issued her order, pulled Eliza from her own little dream. She gestured to the car door with a nod, as if they’d been notified of each step of this plan beforehand.

               “You’re inviting Alex?”

               “Let me remind you, dear sister, that he was my friend before he was your boyfriend.” She teased her, reaching a hand back to pat Eliza’s hat-clad head. “I wanted a witness who cares about this relationship, someone who likes us and cares about us past the material things we have to offer. John seemed to think he’d be a good choice.”

               “John did?”

               “Well, I did too. And it means something to me that you’ll get to have him there.”

               “This isn’t about me.”

               “Oh, I know that. Why else would we have dragged you from the warmth to travel somewhere  that’s probably at least five degrees colder than the city in the middle of winter?”

               “Angie,”

               “It’s my night, and if I want you to have a little something then I think I should be allowed. And it’s not like it’s weird-he’s going to be my brother anyway, I figure I might as well start treating him like one.”

               Eliza reddened at the prospect, one she’d thought over many times. The streetlights made a job of keeping her diminutive anticipation a secret, although she’d been sure Angelica could see through the shadow of her face turning back toward the window. They were nearing his building, slowing to a stop with the car just barely kissing the sidewalk. Each of the car’s passengers turned their head toward each other, stealing furtive glances at the time and the temperature and the lowered sounds of an acoustic slow song playing through the radio.

               “Treating Alex like a brother means waking him up at three in the morning for a road-trip?” Angelica laughed, a surprised sort of cackle friendly in nature as her dark hair shook along with her head. She pulled out her phone, putting the call on speaker with another wild grin.

               “Oh no, you’re going to wake him up. You know more than any of us that he’s probably still awake anyway-oh, and he is. Good morning, Hamilton.”

               “Are you okay? Why are you calling this late?” Eliza just barely made out the beginning of their conversation as she darted from the car, running to avoid the cold that bit at the exposed skin on her cheeks. By the time she made it to the entrance he’d buzzed her in, and she took her time climbing the stairs to the eighth floor. The sound of his voice on the other line ran through her head, spread its familiar warmth in its crackled morning tones. It was a key to just how late he’d been working again. She decides on the fifth floor to make him sleep in the car, get back some of the vivacity he’d lost through natural remedies instead of the coffee she knew he’d beg to stop for.

               She only had to knock once before the door was open, Alexander standing in the threshold with a toothbrush between his teeth and a garment bag slung over his shoulder. There was an unzipped backpack on the floor by the couch, and Eliza passed by Alex with a kiss on his cheek to shove its contents inside. Her boyfriend was a flurry of motions, running back and forth on tiptoeing feet and throwing miscellaneous items toward Eliza. She’d examined them in turn, wondering exactly where he thought he’d need a Swiss army knife and two Moleskin journals in the duration of this trip. She packed them anyway in a gesture of both knowing and accepting the strangely wired inner workings of his mind. He retreated to the bathroom and came back in a second, this time with his toothbrush in a case and a real kiss for her lips.

               “An elopement?” He was still whispering as he locked the apartment door behind him, taking her hand. He had the same sort of excitement as her sister had, a childlike abandon that wrapped her immediately in its static energy. Suddenly, it did not feel like she’d pulled an all-nighter. As they made their way back outside, the chilling winds woke her further.

               “They wanted to do it before they leave for Oxford. They didn’t want to wait any longer.”

               “I get that.” Alex shrugged, keeping his eyes trained on the door of John’s car as one side of his lips curled up in a smile.  He opened the door for her, flinging his belongings into the trunk and climbing into the window seat. He was greeted as the best man, ‘you know, as far as best men in elopements go’ and the music was blasted, changed to an upbeat pop song from their childhood that had them singing along for the sake of nostalgia.

               “Wait a minute, if you wanted to let Eliza have something for this moment then why couldn’t my something be taking this to the islands? I mean, Niagara Falls in January? Really?”

…

                 Niagara Falls had been an idea born of idyllic pictures and scenery, as well as a sort of secret fame as far as places of elopement Angelica and John had researched. They’d taken to the idea because of its location, still in New York but far enough away that it could be considered a different world than the city. They’d made sure the trip could be done over a weekend, the work and school schedules too hectic to have any other measure of spontaneity. It was also the staff of the chapel who had sealed the deal; Angelica had driven pieces of her more brash and demanding side into them and they’d complied without a single change in timbre. They’d called her when she asked to stop emailing back and forth, worked hard to ensure that they’d have their privacy, and made sure that she was happy with each bit of their service. Driving up to the falls, Angelica held these details at the front of her mind.

               Keeping the positivity was the least she could do to entertain herself during the six and a half hour drive.

               Their passengers had been noisy at first, singing raucously to the music and cheering when they left the city limits. After an hour Peggy had sat with crossed legs in her seat, asking how long it would take to get to the falls.  She wasn’t happy with the realization of a five hour span of time to pass, and insisted that they stop at a drive-through for coffee and donuts. Her smile had been cheeky and bright, and she tapped on the car window with an impatient rhythm born from sitting still far longer than she ever had. John and Angelica both laughed, but John looked into the rearview mirror with an earnest glance and promised they’d pull over as soon as something was open.

               “You know, as a celebration.” Her smile had been cheeky and bright. John pulled into the nearest café while Angelica shook her head, rambling about her future husband’s pushover tendencies as they slid into seats by the window. He wouldn’t let them eat inside the car, so the café had been the next best thing. And at four in the morning, warm donuts and coffee and bathrooms were not a decision any of them regretted.

               At hour three Eliza fell asleep, her head on Alexander’s shoulder and one foot propped over Peggy’s legs. The smooth rolling of tires along the sparse expanse of highway was melodic, as well as the acoustic sunrise playlist John had chosen. Somewhere between a John Mayer song and a guitar duet, there was a rumbling from the backseat that made Alex jump slightly, jostling Eliza’s head. His hand had flown up to keep it on his shoulder, not wanting her to wake up. Peggy began to laugh, a boisterous noise that only worsened as she tried to quiet it. It ended up as a sort of growling, an evidence to the actual laughter stuck in her throat. Alexander soon joined her, unable to fight the infectious nature of her laugh and the humor that came along with trying to keep himself still while in this fit. Angelica, completely turned around in her seat, shushed them both, “on bride’s orders, because lord knows Betsey needs her sleep.”

               But the rumbling happened again, and all four waking passengers couldn’t contain their immediate reaction to Eliza, snoring like a man twice her age and four times her size. Peggy pulled out her camera and grinned, her voice a gentle narration to the scene before her.

               “Happy wedding day to Angelica and John! It’s been three hours in the car and would you look at that, Betsey’s already the life of the party! Three and a half hours to go!”

               “Well, eight until the actual ceremony.”

               “Eight hours and we’ll be married.” John’s words came out in a sigh, content and laced with anticipation as he leaned over to brush a short, sweet kiss on Angelica’s lips. Peggy captured it all, the videography job her consolation prize for being dragged into the cold and on a long car ride on such short notice. She turned the camera to her own face, rolling her eyes and scrunching up her nose in feigned disgust.

               “Let’s hope we can get there without much more of this.”

…

               They had brunch at a buffet restaurant right off of the highway where they stacked plates full of indulgent foods Peggy once again claimed as ‘celebratory.’ She’d taken to the word as a beacon of the trip, tagging it onto anything the others didn’t seem like they’d wanted to do. This included two extra celebratory bathroom stops, one of which where Eliza had still been sleeping. They’d tried to wake her up but she’d mumbled and curled up on the seat, and so they’d taken turns staying with her in the car so their legs could be stretched.

               Niagara Falls was vastly different than any of them had expected; being dragged there once as younger children hadn’t left much of a memory for the sisters, and neither John nor Alex had been there at all. Getting out of the car at the falls was like being transported; the barrier of sound that came from the water was melodic, and could be heard before it could be seen. Their footsteps swept freshly fallen snow out of the way, crunching under boots as they left even tracks in their wake. They were one of the few groups of people who’d ventured out into the cold; mid-January on the Canadian border brought winds that painted their cheeks pink, brushed away the softness of their skin and the moisture from their eyes. At the ledge closest to the falls, water erupted and fell like drizzing rain upon the ground and made quick work turning into a sheet of thick black ice. The landscape was dressed with snow-dusted pines, and through the mist the silhouette of Ontario stood out dark against the winter whitened sky.

               They were quiet for a moment, even as Peggy had her camera out. The falls were a thundering mass of power and beauty, and their little spot against the railing became a respite from the long drive. Although their breath was steam against the bitter cold, and their belongings were still in the car, they stood stagnant in their peace.

               “I think I get it now.”

               “Get what?”

               “Why you chose Niagara Falls.” It was John who’d broken their moment. With Angelica leaning on his thinly built frame he can only tip his head down to catch a glimpse of her. She was a piece of a painting, bundled in a vibrant wool coat, the bursts of green and orange in its color blocking took away from the falls, he’d thought. It drew attention to her dark eyes, the way they were trained on the rushing water with silent contemplation. She turned her head to face him and gave him a quizzical stare, her lips already scrunched and turned up into half of a smile. “There’s almost as much power and raw, unfiltered beauty here as I’m about to get married to.”

               Angelica sighed and shook her head endearingly at John. And although she was not prone to public displays of affection, she had already kissed him several times that morning.

…

               The afternoon went by quickly, and their prolonged, exhausted contemplation by the falls had them scrambling to get ready for the ceremony. Angelica, Eliza, and Peggy shared a room of the hotel. There, they sat one last time on the edge of a bed to do each other’s hair as three Schuylers. It wasn’t something they’d thought much about; although the wedding had been on their minds for the duration of the road trip, the implication of losing the Schuyler name hadn’t hit any of the sisters until Angelica had gone to get her dress.

               As the three sisters stood in front of the mirror, Angelica in the middle, a rush of emotion came barreling through the room. Peggy held her oldest sister’s arm tighter. Eliza gasped, the tears that she’d  been holding in finally spilling over as she caught a full view of Angelica in her dress. She was both simple and extravagant; where her dress lacked in baubles and additives, she herself made up for it with her brilliance and her light. Her smile revealed pearl-white teeth, a happiness to match the occasion and the garment. She wore a statement necklace covered in diamonds, a gift from John for their final anniversary as an unmarried couple. The diamonds were arranged in teardrop shapes one would find on an Indonesian tapestry, lain in neatly arranged layers that filled a slight expanse of her neck with a snow-like shimmering. Her sisters were on either side of her, framing her white silk dress with deep black. Peggy’s was straight-lined and simple, hugging her shape and flowing down to her knees. Whether by her hair done up in a bun or her makeup a bit darker and more labor intensive than usual, Peggy looked much older on this night. She took out her camera to record as Eliza wiped another set of tears from her eyes, squeaking.

               “I’m almost done crying, I promise.” She laughs as she holds a hand over her eyes, turning to rest a head on Angelica’s shoulder. She’s careful not to get any of her makeup on the beautiful silk dress, using the squeeze of her arms to appease her rising emotions and the sore lump in her throat. It isn’t until Peggy starts talking, describing the day and the journey they’d taken to get to the falls, that Eliza is able to compile her crying into soft sniffs and only a thin layer of moisture brimming her eyelids. She runs her hands along the buttery fabric of her own dress, soft and black with pleats that jut out from her waistline. It’s a vintage cut that suits her well, and the black coloring allowed her to match with Peggy without seeming too alike to go anywhere else afterward. They’re gifts from Angelica, who’d been planning this much longer than she’d let on. Side by side, the three stand in front of the mirror of their small room at the inn, squished between a wall and the bathroom door and holding each other close.

               This is how they came into the chapel; side-by-side. Eliza and Peggy walked with Angelica down the aisle, each of their eyes roaming across the near-empty room. There was a charm to the building that seemed like a gift; it was a thin white building no bigger than a schoolhouse, with small curved windows and a bell tower more akin to a tiny bell house. There was only enough room for one person to fit through the door at a time, but the room itself felt spacious. There was a row of simple mahogany pews on either side of the chapel, each being able to seat only two people comfortably. It was something of a dollhouse, a replica of the pretty ceramic chapels their grandmother had collected and stored on a long bookcase in her living room. As they entered the tiny room Eliza ended with her eyes on Alexander, in a suit of grey tweed that had undoubtedly been a gift from John. He wore a matching suit, but his was accompanied with a burlap bowtie of a rich, reddened mahogany. Alexander met Eliza’s immediately; he’d been watching her from the moment they’d made their entrance. His own heart beat against his chest with restrained anticipation, a sensation he’d recognized as misplaced. He was not the groom, yet the music swept into his soul as his own Eliza, clearly dressed in black, made her way down the aisle. His eyes scarcely left her as Angelica and John said their vows, keeping it as quick and simple as their plan to marry had been. They left the chapel as briskly as they’d come in, it seemed, and Alexander kept Eliza on his arm on their way back up the aisle.

               They were led by Mr. and Mrs. Church to a looming boat which was to take them closer to the falls. Peggy took the poncho she was given with ease, throwing it on over her dress. Angelica and John were donned in blue as well, grinning and laughing as they followed Peggy. As Eliza was putting on her own protective covering, she noticed Alex’s shaking hand and twitching smile. His initial expression read joy and excitement, but behind the first lines of defense she noted the stiffening of his posture, the way his voice inflected slightly at the end of a sentence and he could not stand still to get his poncho on. Eliza shook her head then, taking her poncho off of her arm and clutching at her stomach.

               “I don’t think I can do it, I’m already a little nauseous and I really don’t want to throw up on your wedding day.”

               “Eliza,” It was Alexander who spoke then, his voice reserved and tight between his teeth. “I’m sure you’ll be fine.”

               “I don’t want you to get sick, Bets.” Angelica moves to grab at the plastic of her poncho, but Eliza holds her hand in place.

               “Don’t skip the tour because of me, I’ll be fine. Alex can stay and keep my company, and we’ll see you when the tour is over. It won’t be that long.”

               Angelica kissed Eliza’s cheek, blinked in a silent wish of good luck as she flattened her poncho against her white silk dress. Alexander and Eliza watched the boat depart, pointing at the passengers and attempting to decipher which might be Angie, John, and Peggy. When they’d gone out of sight Eliza led Alex to the car, unlocking it so they could get in the back seat. She blasted the heat in an attempt to thaw out the cold that lingered from the outdoor air. She leaned in one corner, her back against the door and the seat, and propped her tight-clad legs up on the driver’s seat armrest. She brushed Alex with the back of her hand, somewhere between a tap and a caress, so that he’d stop staring out the window. She gestured for him to come closer, and guided his head to her lap. As she took out his hair, ran her fingers through its soft brown locks, the tension he’d been holding in his shoulders sunk through her lap and away from his body. She felt the release too, sighing as they sat in contented silence. His eyes were closed, his lips drawn in a line of indecision until he parted them to speak.

               “I’m not a fan of boats. Just…with my mom, and everything that happened…all of that open water,”

               “I know.” She closed her eyes too, concentrated the rest of her thoughts on his well-being. She knew that he wasn’t outwardly frightened so much anymore, but the irregular pace of his breathing and the slight croaking in his voice were more than enough to keep her fingers running gentle combs of her nails through his hair. It was almost peaceful, the two of them lain out in the back seat of John’s rented car. It was an escape where he had clearly needed one, and he had provided that for her a countless amount of times. Being on the other side of things had felt right, as if a balance were being achieved by holding instead of being held. He still protested, though, and although he did not get up Eliza could still feel the immediate sense of guilt that washed over him.

               “You should’ve gone with them.”

               “It wasn’t an option.”

               “It’s Angelica’s wedding.”

               “It’s your well-being. She understands.” Alex let the rebuttal hang in the air, lingering in his mind as the events of the day replay in his mind. It had been a beautiful ceremony, short and heartfelt and private. And now he would be addressing things to Angelica Church, a thought which made his head spin. He was undeniably happy for his friend, who’d been at the helm of helping Eliza for a long while. This big happiness was something she deserved, something she needed in order to feel better about leaving. Seeing Angelica and John so happy left him in a state of blissful exhaustion, which translated to his closed eyes and his head on Eliza’s lap.

               “You know I think you’re perfect?” She hummed in contentment; although Alex often and earnestly dusted the air (or paper) with his sweet, adoring words, Eliza often found it difficult to take the compliments as fully as they were given.

               “I’m serious, I do. I don’t think there’s a day that goes by that I don’t think you’re perfect for me. You make me want to be a better version of myself.”

               “You already are, Alex.”

               “And I mean, you could do so much better,”

               “Hey,” It was almost stern, the way her word clipped at its end. Her hand stopped in its tracks, her fingers separating from his hair and moving to his face. “I couldn’t do better than you because you’re you; you’re kind, and passionate, and smart…I don’t want anybody else.”

               “God, I would marry you right now if I could.” He wasn’t sure if he’d meant the words to come out-he doesn’t realize what he’s said until she’d stared down at him, eyes widened and mouth slightly agape. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean-I don’t want to rush you, I shouldn’t have said that,”

               “-You would marry me? Right now?” She was grinning, her reddened cheeks lifted and her eyes brimming with tears again.

               “If I weren’t so traditional, I would. Right here. But I know that family is as important to you as it is to me, and this wedding with the tiny chapel and the road trip? It’s not you, and it’s not an accurate representation of us. Don’t get me wrong, I do intend to marry the hell out of you. But it’s going to be done our way.”

               Eliza captured both sides of his face between her hands and kissed him until they heard Peggy’s voice and three sets of footsteps approaching the car. Sitting in the back seat on the way to dinner, she holds his hand. Then, she felt as though they had their own little secret within this surreptitious elopement.

               They spent dinner at a tavern down the road, one where live music and dancing were held more important than the food itself. They ate sporadically throughout the night, refilling plates of fries and burgers and drinks that kept their bodies warm. They danced until the tavern closed, still in their suits and dresses, and took to the car to find a place to continue their party.

It’s near midnight when they finally come across a tiny diner a bit away from the falls, still with a view of them from one large row of windows on the back wall. The skyline of Ontario is lit as a beacon across the river, an artful architectural installation adding brightness to the wintry sky.

               Eliza is warm and happy when she taps her fork against her kitschy green sheep adorned mug. She kneels on the booth, and with eyes that have expanded to saucer-size, she looks upon her company. The year before had begun as frigid and lonely as the winter in Niagara Falls had felt; Eliza had gone through hell and back, and the people at this table had been there to help her begin to find her way. Now that they’re all here, in another January and with the brink of a new start surrounding them, Eliza’s heart fills, spills into her grin and her hand squeezing Alex’s, and into the clinking of her mug as she gathers everyone’s attention.

“Angelica, you’re the kind of person everyone needs to have in their life. I know I’ve been a little selfish-don’t deny it because I know that you will. I’ve been taking a lot of your time lately, and it hasn’t been fair to you or to your relationship. It’s been hell for all of us so far this year, but you’ve made that hell a little easier to live in. And John,” She’s nearly crying now, looking down at the slightly bearded blonde and pulling the bottle of champagne from the middle of the table. “You’re the brother I never had but always wanted, and I’m so lucky to have you. I love you both so much, I want nothing but your happiness. Cheers to Mr. and Mrs. Church!”

The company clink together their mismatched mugs with a resounding cheer. Eliza passes the bottle of champagne, each person taking a long sip before passing the bottle on. Peggy’s rolling her eyes over her camera teasingly, her complaints of not having enough notice to write her own speech rolling from her tongue and paving a path for a slew of jokes centered on the elopement. It’s short notice, and it’s over before it seems it has even begun. Angelica stares down at her newly-ringed finger each time she goes to take a bite of her food, letting the light catch its grand, ovular diamond. The exuberant grin that stretches from cheek to cheek does not fade.

[attraversiamoadesso]

New Years Resolutions

I decided to make a list of everything that I want to accomplish and work on in 2018. As I complete each item, I will mark it off.

1. Make my mental health a top priority this year. / HA HA HA

2. Continue therapy. / HA HA HA

3. Attend group therapy. / HA HA HA

4. Go to the psychiatrist and get on meds for depression and anxiety. / SUCKING AT THIS

5. Finish my god damn thesis project. / ACCOMPLISHED

6. Travel somewhere out of state once a month (prior to moving to Poland). / ACCOMPLISHED

7. Finish each Polish language application with time to spare. / ACCOMPLISHED

8. Make the move on someone that I really like. / ACCOMPLISHED

9. Stop dating men who don't appreciate me. / ACCOMPLISHED

10. Dye my hair violet. / NO

11. Visit Warsaw, Poland. / ACCOMPLISHED

12. Visit Łódż, Poland and meet Amanda. / NO

13. Visit Ashleigh in DC. / SHE VISITED ME AND I SAW HER IN PITTSBURGH

14. Fall in love again./ TO BE CONTINUED

15. Learn how to not be so god damn defensive. / ACCOMPLISHED

16. Wear fun outfits that are different, like I used to. / ACCOMPLISHED

17. Downsize on my closet and valuables. / KIND OF

18. Go to a Christmas Market in Europe. / ACCOMPLISHED

19. Stop spending so much money on shit that I don't need. / YEAH

20. Do yoga every other day. / NO

21. Read one book a week for pleasure. / ACCOMPLISHED

22. Drink more water. / STARTING TO? / NO

23. Cut down on soda and unnecessary sugars. / YEAH

24. Cook and bake more often. / NO

25. Quit smoking cigarettes once and for all. **(Sorry to all who are disappointed to learn that I started smoking again through this list...but I'm slowly cutting down to one cigarette a day if that!)** / OOPS MAYBE 2019?

26. Become a kinder person. / SEMI-ACCOMPLISHED

27. Be more honest and open about my feelings. / ACCOMPLISHED

28. Stop wishing for things to happen--instead, MAKE them happen. / ACCOMPLISHED

29. Get all A's in French, my advisor's class, and my Polish language classes. / GOT A IN EVERYTHING BUT FUCKING FRENCH

30. Yell at the french motherfucker who broke my heart in french. / WE ARE OKAY NOW

31. Visit New York City. / TECHNICALLY YES

32. Visit Munich, Germany. / NO

33. Visit Prague, Czech Republic. / NO

34. Play in a proper snow fall in Poland. / NOT YET

35. Learn to live in the moment. / ACCOMPLISHED

36. Get the flower/rose quarter sleeve tattoo on my right shoulder and arm that I have always wanted. / ACCOMPLISHED AND IM SO PROUD

37. Get the "other people feel this too" tattoo on my arm. / ACCOMPLISHED

38. Exercise three times a week. / YEAH FUCKING RIGHT LMAO

39. Hike Max Patch and watch the sunrise. / NO

40. Hike the Tatry mountains (Poland). / GOING IN 2019

41. Visit Gdańsk, Poland. / 2019??

42. Get a tattoo of the coordinates of my mom, dad and Mary, and nana's houses on my rib cage. To always remember where home is. / 2019??

43. Pierce my tragus. / NO

44. Pierce my daith. / NO

45. Journal every other day. / HA

46. Become better at time management. / HAHAHA NO

47. Try to be more on time to things (lol). / OKAY A LITTLE

48. Keep a clean car and home space. / CAR EXPLODED LMAO

49. Take better care of my skin. / KIND OF ACCOMPLISHED?

50. Love others without hesitation. / WORKING ON IT

It is quite the feat, but I hope to achieve most of these goals.❤️

Amanda xx

[courageousfaolan]

92 Statements

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people. A warm thank you to @kirarahu for tagging me! :)

Last:

1. Drink: Water

1. Phone Call: My mother

3. Text: One of my closest friends

4. Song I Listened to: Push by Matchbox Twenty

5. Time I Cried: Last month or so.

Have You:

6. Dated Someone twice: Never dated or been on a date.

7. Kissed Someone and Regretted It: Never kissed/been kissed.

8. Been Cheated On: No relationship so no. Unless you mean being cheated or taken for granted by others. Then yes.

9. Lost Someone Special: Yes 😞

10. Been Depressed: Off and on. Mainly in the Winter.

11. Gotten Drunk and Thrown Up: I don't drink. And getting drunk sounds awful anyways.

List 3 Favorite Color:

12. Light Blue

13. Purple

14. Green

In The Last Year Have You:

15. Made New Friends: Yes! 💚

16. Fallen Out of Love: I don't know. I don't know.

17. Laughed Till I Cried: Yup

18. Found Out Someone Was Talking About Me: Yeah. Usually positive. Sometimes negative. People judge me. And they don't really know me. So...

19. Found Out Who Your Friends Are: Yes. Even though I sometimes have doubts that they really care. But I know they do.

20. Kissed Someone on Your Facebook List: Nope

General:

21. How Many of My Facebook Friends Do I Know in Real Life: I've met each of them in real life. Friends and family. And some acquaintances or people I've gone to school with.

22. Do I Have Any Pets: Yes.

23. Do I Want To Change My Name: Sometimes.

24. What Did I Do For My Last Birthday: I forgot.

25. What Time Do I Wake Up: Depends.

26. What Was I Doing at Midnight Last Night: Either listening to music or going to bed. Or might have been watching a video.

27. Name Something I Can’t Wait For: January.

28. When The Last Time I Saw My Mom: about 30 mins ago.

29. What Is One Thing In My Life I Wish I Could Change: Pick one? There's too many.

30. What Was I Listening To Right Now: No music currently.

31. Have I Ever Talked To a Person Named Tom: Maybe?

32. Something That is Getting on My Nerves: ...way too much at the moment.

33. Most Visited Website: Tumblr, Youtube, Facebook & Twitter.

34. Moles: A few.

35. Marks: A few scars. Who knows how many. I'm a bit reckless 😂

36. Childhood Dream: I've never really had one. I finally have one. But it may or may not be from childhood.

37. Hair Color: Dirty blonde (literally what it's called)

38. Long Hair or Short Hair: Long. And I NEED a haircut. So preferably short.

39. Do I Have a Crush on Anyone: No...

40. What Do I Like About Myself: Myself. Mainly my willpower, courage, eyes and ability to see who people truly are.

41. Piercings: Ears.

42. Blood Type: A or B?

43. Nicknames: Ghost, Kat, Tiger, Swift, Star, Dash

44. Relationship Status: Single (and happy that way).

45. Zodiac: Cancer (but you wouldn't know that at first glance). 

46. Pronouns: She/Her (but I don't mind being called dude or bro).

47. Favorite TV Shows: Stranger Things, Once Upon a Time and a few others.

48: Left or Right Handed: Right.

49. Surgery: Not sure.

50. Hair Dyed: Closest being highlights.

51. Sport: Soccer and sometimes Football. I've lost track of it though. Recreational? Swimming.

52. Vacation: Every summer to see family and travel 💜

53. Pair of Trainers: Yes.

More General:

54. Eating: Nothing

55. Drinking Tea: Was

56. I’m About To: Go to bed. Probably listen to music first to de-stress.

57. Want: To get back on my feet again. I've been stuck for WAY too long.

58. Get Married: Maybe...who knows

59. Career: Still trying to figure that out. But I know more of my interests now.

60. Hugs or Kisses: Definitely hugs.

61. Lips or Eyes: Always the eyes.

62. Shorter or Taller: Tall, but I wish I was shorter. Stick out too much.

63. Older or younger: Older. Brother is the youngest.

64. Nice Arms or Nice stomach: What does that mean? I got lean muscles because I run and I also carry heavy boxes for work. But I don't put much emphasis on mine or anyone else's physical appearance.

65. Sensitive or Loud: Sensitive. But I can be loud. Only as a means of defense. Or out of anger.

66. Hookup or Relationship: Relationship. If those are the two options. Because hookups are so...I don't know. I don't get how people who do not truly love each other and trust each other can just....ugh. No. Relationships. Just without the compromise option. And all the attachments and wearing masks. Either openness and vulnerability and loving each other unconditionally. Or not at all.

67. Troublemaker or Hesitant: Depends on the situation.

Have I Ever

68. Kissed a Stranger: No.

69. Drank Hard Liquor: No. Occasionally wine.

70. Lost Glasses/Contact Lenses: Used to wear glasses. So yes, one of the reasons I now wear contacts.

71. Turned Someone Down: Yeah. A lot of creepy guys in junior high.

72. Sex on First Date: Absolutely not.

73. Broken Someone’s Heart: I wouldn't know. I've rejected people with crushes on me. They didn't/don't know me and vice versa. They were just drawn to the mystery.

74. Had Your Heart Broken: Yes (but I don't believe having your heart broken is only done by a gf/bf or significant other. People such as family or friends whom you trust can break your heart). Anyone who can get too close can be capable of breaking your heart. Also in my opinion a broken heart is more of someone disappointing you.

75. Been Arrested: No.

76. Cried When Someone Died: In real life? Yes, but days later (was too shocked at first).

77. Fallen For a Friend: No...

Do I Believe In:

78. Yourself: Umm...debatable? It really depends. I believe we are limitless and we create our own lives. We are powerful beings. But sometimes I struggle to even believe in that.

79. Miracles: Yes! 😊❤

80. Love at First Sight: Maybe. Not so sure anymore. Need more clarification on what this even means.

81. Santa Claus: In a way. Yes.

82. Kiss on First Date: No. I do feel there may be an acception to the rule if this is someone who you love no matter what. But then again. What do I know about love.

Other:

83. Current Best Friend: Someone very blunt and honest. An amazing soul who I am so grateful for.

84. Eye Color: blue/green

85. Favorite Movie: A lot of movies. Since December is coming up. I'll put: How the Grinch Stole Christmas (Jim Carrey version).

I tag (If you want to): @igrabbedthemoon , @annoyingcatbanquet , @thebikeandthehat , @thedamnqueen-001 , @kasutoshi , @rejobo92 , @mistyisbae , @band-aids--dont-fix-bullet-holes , @xbroadwayrosex , @imaginemydragonite and anyone else who would want to! 💚

[fyeahwynonnaearp]

Wynonna Earp Questions I Want Most Answered (UPDATED)

I shall keep a running list of questions throughout the season and I have a feeling it will get extensive. There’s a good chance that there’s gonna be spoilers so everything will be under the cut.

As usual, if you got answers/opinions, leave a message or let’s discuss over at https://discord.gg/yaAdGGT

UPDATED: 02 August 2017, 17:23 EST

From S1

1. Gooverly: Evil or Nah? I’m still NOT completely sure, but The Goo™ wants to have fun (S02E04). Evil, pretty sure. Because how can it be so freakin’ mean to Nicole?!? (S02E05). 2. Is Waverly really an Earp (or will she be a Haught instead **wink**wink**)? 3. Does Waverly tell anyone about her being “not an Earp”? Yes. Nicole :) (S02E02). She sent DNA sample but no confirmation seen yet (S2E08).  4. Where did Peacemaker send Willa? 5. Juan Carlo, what art thou? Who art thou? STILL don’t know but he helped bring Dolls to the Earp Homestead (S02E04). He also has been helping/guiding The Order™ (S02E05). A priest in Purgatory who helped capture the Widows the first time and one of the seal keepers (S2E08). 6. Dolls, what art thou? Some type of human/demon hybrid created by Black Badge (S02E01). He can breathe FIRE!!! (S02E04). Is he a dragon? 7. Who and WHERE is Mama Earp? According to Waverly’s old scrapbooking gone wild board at her old Shorty’s apartment, Mama Earp’s name was Wendy Rosie (Thanks, @cm0999). But where did she run off to?!? 8. So, Constance the Stone Witch is just chilling in the salt flats? She’s coming back isn’t she? NOPE. That little Tucker found the Stone Witch and beheaded her (S2E06). 9. So...the whole “Keeper of the Bones” thing is done right? Because Waverly done destroyed the skull and Constance’s sons are dead-dead? 10. Who did Waverly shoot at? The new creature, Hala, a Bulgarian devourer of souls (S02E01). 11. What will happen to all the revenants now that Bobo is gone? Not at trailer park anymore. They’re all scattered. (S02E02).

Start of S2

12. Will Doc get a new hat? Yes. He stole one :) (S02E04). 13. Wynonna, how are you really feeling? Well, crappy enough that The Goo™ was able to possess her pretty easily (s02E04). 14. Dolls. Are you gonna be okay? Well, he’s breathing out fire. So, yes? (S02E04). 15. So...are Chrissy and Waverly still friends? (Kinda want a Waverly-can’t-help-but-gush-about-her-girlfriend-to-her-friend-who-is-clearly-over-and-tired-of-this-coversation scene) 16. Gus, where art thou? 17. What is up with Black Badge? Are they still doing human experiments? They’re not the totally good guys anymore...are they? So Black Badge Division, Ghost River Triangle branch is no more. According to Moody, it wasn’t even a government agency in the first place (S2E06). 18. Lucado is definitely getting demoted, right? Yup. She’s stuck at Purgatory until they collect every last supernatural entity that entered the Triangle. (S02E02). 19. What does Nicole think about her girlfriend’s new voice? Did she hear Waverly say “At least, not today”? She didn’t know Waverly was possessed, but will shoot anybody for her. Should I find that sweet and adorable? (S02E05). 20. Does Jeremy question how Waverly scared the “devour of souls”? NOPE. As of S2E06, it never came up. Doubt it ever will since Mictian/Mikshun is gone. 21. What did Dolls tell Doc? To create his serum? Not, entirely clear on that, but I think it is (S02E03/4). 22. Does the BBD blood oath/contract come into play later? TBD as of S2E06. 23. When does Nicole get a new uniform and why? (based on S2 pictures) Because she hates khakis and Nedley wants her to be sheriff when he retires. (S2E03). It’s gonna happen on Episode 5, based on promo pictures. THIS IS NOT A DRILL. 24. When does Wynonna find out about Gooverly? S02E04. OH S H I T. 25. Why does Waverly take the bell from the police station? Gooverly is hoarding shiny things. (S2E03). 26. Dementors in Purgatory? Or Willa is somehow back (again)? The two Women in Black were the ones that escaped from BBD when it blew up; Lady Gaga hand. (S2E03). 27. Hellmouth?! Well, some asshole broke through the asshole-of-a-seal (S02E04). Well, there are three seals and two are broken by the Widows/Ladies in Black (S2E06). Keeping Sheriff Clootie locked away (S2E08). 28. Does Doc know where Dolls is? Making preparations to create his meds (w/ Rosita)? No. Doc didn’t know where Dolls was but is working on making his serum. (S2E03). 29. *whispers* Could Nicole be supernatural as well? Because I have theories that I will not get into and I still don’t know how I feel about the possibility of non-human Haught. 30. “I like you”?!? Waverly, what happened to “I love her?”? Everyone is just casually saying that they love each other but WayHaught hasn’t said it to each other (S02E05). 31. Shouldn’t Wynonna know whether or not Waverly is biologically related to her? Because she’s six years older and would remember if Mommy was preggers. Or does she call Waverly “baby girl” because when baby!Waverly came to live with them she didn’t have a name yet and Wynonna being the Earp girl who didn’t hate the new child took care of the baby and (due to lack of name) just called her “baby girl”. Remembers when they brought Waverly home from the hospital (S2E08).  32. When did Doc have time to meet people (i.e. Rosita)? Wasn’t he stuck in a well for like...forever? 33. So...any more future private shows for Officer Haught? I need to know, for science. And, role playing? 34. What came first: the trophy or the Marzaniok? Or did Wynonna just assume that it came from the trophy because Perry never said that it did, just that it came out of the trophy case and that they were pretty high when it happened. 35. Why or what does Rosita need protection from? 36. Why do they need ‘pure’ demon blood to make Dolls’ serum? Apparently, Doc’s blood doesn’t work? 37. What was Lucado’s ‘personal matter’? I’m guessing it’s trying to get back to BBD HQ’s good graces (S02E04). 38. How many times have Waverly ‘gone on patrol’ with Nicole? Just, for science, again.  39. What’s with the random snacks Gooverly?!? IDK but based on a promo, Goononna is worse. We’ll probably never know... (S02E05). 40. Why did Mama and Papa Gardner leave most of their fortune to the town? Yes, they’re rich. But, is that all why the Gardners are a big deal in Purgatory? 41. Because Waverly doesn’t remember when she’s being Gooverly, does Gooverly implant memories when taking over? Because I think Waverly would be concerned if she’s blacking out. Finally acknowledged that she’s missing time (S02E04). 42. “Not in uniform, okay? Not in public.” Will we see more sexy times in uniform in Officer Haught in private? 43. “Not good enough.” Does that mean Waverly just wants to jump Nicole every time she’s in uniform or does Gooverly have a crush on Nicole? Because Gooverly does kinda come in defense of Nicole when Tucker was being his creepy, homophobic self. Fandom things The Goo™ was trying to possess Nicole, but didn’t work. Though, I strongly believe (and it’s my headcanon) that The Goo™ has a crush on Nicole (S02E04). 44. And what is up with Tucker Gardner, Town Pervert? Tucker “wants a girl”. It could either be Waverly or Nicole. I think he wants Nicole because he’s starting to be fixated on her. Thin line between hate and obsession? (S02E04). Why did Nedley compile a confidential file on him? Because Tucker has always been protected by his parents/money and has past criminal behavior (S02E04). 45. Will Wynonna and Nicole be bros again? Wynonna apologized to Nicole (S02E04). They both acknowledge Waverly is being weird but Nicole might think it’s the whole “not being an Earp” because she immediately tells Wynonna she won’t betray Waverly’s trust. But I’m gonna need some bro scenes in the future. 46. Where did Waverly disappear to when the gang went to contain the Marzaniok? Next we see her is in Shorty’s and then at the barn. Even Nicole pointed out, “I thought she was with you”. Must be important if it was mentioned. 47. How did Tucker know where Waverly would be when he cornered her? 48. Was Tucker’s bracelet that Gooverly take important/significant? Probably not important, but the metal was for a DIY lightning rod (S2E05). PS: It looked like a medical bracelet. 49. Will there be no consequence with Wynonna’s wish because it was the demon that made the deal with her and not the other way around? 50. Why did Nedley try so hard to specifically recruit Nicole to work in Purgatory? I double that it was just because she was “top of her class”. 51. “Non-werewolf” citizens? 52. Nedley said “they could use your instincts” to Nicole. So, does Haught-stuff have really good instincts (maybe almost supernatural levels)? She does heal rather quickly....(jfc, these non-human Nicole theories, I’m torn about it). 53. Nicole from the Big City? When will we have more Nicole-backstory? Ooh...Nicole-flashbacks? 54. Why were the Women in Black at the Gardner residence? (and RIP Mercedes?) They STOLE Beth and Mercedes’ faces!! (S02E04). They were attracted to Tucker’s darkness...his “prowess”. ew.  55. Gooverly doesn’t seem to hurt Dolls, based on Dolls being okay in the promo for episode 4? (See Question #1) Well, we don’t know what Gooverly was gonna do with that knife (S02E04). 56. Where’s Nicole’s hat?!? New uniform. New hat, apparently. She now wears a baseball cap (S2E06). Will the stetson make a return appearance though? 57. Why does Wynonna smell Mommy’s perfume around the Women in Black? 58. Doc’s horse, where art thou? (anon asks) 59. Dragon!Dolls?!? According to Wynonna: tiny, sexy dragon (S206). 60. Is Jeremy torn between Doc and Dolls? Will we get a flashback of Dolls helping Jeremy with that one chin-up? What is the connection between Jeremy’s mom and Dolls? 61. Will Tucker go after Nicole? Perhaps. But his obsession with Waverly reached new heights (S2E06).  62. Does Nicole have a gluten and lactose problem and that’s why Waverly is excited about being “this close” to getting that vegetarian restaurant for her girl? Asking, for science. 63. Will anyone tell Nicole about Gooverly? Sorta? They don’t really go into the whole “BTW, Waverly has been possessed for the past few weeks”. I really hope Waverly talks to her about it in future episodes (S02E05). 64. Rosita/Doc, is that gonna be a thing? Confirmed sexual relations (S02E06) but not in a relationship. Lovers (S2E08). 65. Will anyone find Waverly’s hand in Ba-Ding Ba-Ding? Probably not? But now we know you can get The Goo™ by severing it’s host and melting it down (S02E05). 66. What is up with the Purgatory Fair commemorative plate? Is Edwin Earp gonna be relevant this season? Why is it so important? So, it’s important to The Order™ dudes and it had their sigil. This will probably play out in the future and may have connections to the asshole seal (S02E05). 67. GOONONNA?!? Well, that was scary and short-lived. But damn! Goononna is uber mean to Nicole. Can we stop being so mean to Nicole? #StopBeingMeanToNicole2k17 (S02E05). 68. (Based on promo pictures) When/Why/How does Gooverly come back? Plus, Andras had said in an interview, we will see more The Goo™/tentacle powers. Waverly being a self-sacrificial cinnamon roll (S02E05). 69. (Based on promo picture) Is Officer Haught protecting Gooverly in her new outfit?! Does she know?!? Protective!Girlfriend!Haught will still love you and shoot anyone for you (S02E05). 70. What is coming?! Are the Women in Black connected to it? BIG MAYBE. We know the Widows are after the seals and probably will unleash something (S2E06). Widows breaking seal to release their husband Clootie demon (S2E08). 71. Are real!Beth and real!Mercedes just faceless, but alive? Because at least one of the bodies were still wiggling. Safe to assume they’re dead (S2E07). 72. Where in the world did Officer Nicole Haught get a gluten-free, lactose-free pizza in almost-have-a-vegetarian-restaurant Purgatory?!? 73. What’s with The Goo™ hoarding all the metal? Does Nicole get her utensils back? The Goo™ made a lighting rod to fuse more permanently to Waverly. Like...that’s super-extra. Does The Goo™ know you can just order one online? (S02E05). 74. Why was Waverly hit with a tranq dart on her way to band? And bandnerd!Waverly?! Yes. What instrument did she play? 75. Pregnant Wynonna! This is NOT a drill! Who is the father? Everyone pretty much accepted that Doc Holliday is the biological father (S2E06). 76. Goocado. Where did the body go? OFFICIAL: Lucado is RIP (S2E06). 77. How will The Squad™ and The Order™ team up? Isn’t The Order™ just focused on The Goo™? 78. WHAT IS WAVERLY? The Goo™ teased that she had ‘dark corners’. Somewhat hinted she is part-demon/part-Revenant (S2E07) and the theory is believed by many Earpers. 79. How does Waverly feel about Nicole’s new outfit? She likes it. Very much so. (Based on Purgatory Case Files text) 80. How does Wynonna really feel about Nicole? ‘Queen Brisk of Bossy Town’ (S2E05). Hang out at strip club, Pussy Willows, and talked about effects of The Seven (S2E07). 81. Is Wynonna’s baby okay? Because, yes she’s been drinking and eating rats and has been possessed?!? It has a strong heartbeat and grew during sleeping spell despite the fact that it shouldn’t have done so (S2E06, S2E07). 82. The Plate™, The Women In Black, The Order™, The Asshole Seal™ are they all connected? How are they all connected? The Widows are after the three seals to break it (S2E06, S2E07). 83. WTF Happened to Black Badge? The place is now empty?!? They’re ghosting the Ghost River Triangle and apparently isn’t a government agency, never was (S2E06). 84. When will we see where Nicole lives? I hope it’s not a motel room. 85. And what about Nicole’s cat? 86. Is Wynonna’s pregnancy supernatural/paranormal-related? Is it human? It grew even though it wasn’t supposed to (S2E06). Possibility of baby being half-Revenant (S2E07). 87. The Ghost River Triangle is also called The Sanctuary, what is it actually protecting? 88. What are the (three) seals for? To keep Sheriff Clootie locked away (S2E08). 89. Is Doc now mortal since the Stone Witch is dead? He was shown coughing; he had tuberculosis and the curse ‘stopped’ it (S2E07). Juan Carlo also assumed to be dying from gangrene (S2E08). 90. Is Baby Donut/Earp affected by the curse that was placed on Doc by Constance? Doc might not be the biological father (S2E07). 91. Where is Tucker now? What is he planning? Tucker is MIA (S2E07). 92. Being Hypno’s daughter, is Poppy fully demon or a hybrid? Will she also have time manipulation powers? 93. Jeremy brings up an important point, who is paying The Squad now? Will Waverly need to work at Shorty’s again? 94. Would Doc continue having sex with Rosita? Yes. They’re “Lovers” (S2E08). 95. Will Jeremy and Nicole be gay BFFs? 96. Do the Widows and Constance Clootie share a husband? YES (S2E08). 97. Are the Widows witches? 98. Why does Widow!Mercedes hate Wyatt Earp? Was he the one who killed their husband? 99. The Widows and The Squad are both after Tucker, as a police offer, will Nicole have to protect him from the Widows? 100. With Doc being “I am all in”, how will the Wyndolliday dynamic change? Dolls and Doc are supporting Wynonna/helping her out. They kidnapped a doctor for her (S2E07). 101. Who are the Powers To Be™ in Black Badge Division? 102. Why does Moody say BBD was never a government agency? 103. Is the rumor of a Revenant/Human hybrid baby true? 104. Since Wynonna is moving on and not planning to do genetic testing (based on interview by Emily Andras), will we ever find out who the bio baby daddy is? 105. The Ghost/Phantom Marshals, do they exist to police humans turned supernatural based on treatment of Doc? 106. Are the Phantom Marshals under Black Badge or just regular law enforcement? 107. Is Rosita from Doc’s past? If so, she isn’t a mortal human. What is she? 108. Why did Nicole have to build a temporary shelter in a flood zone? What the hell was her life? 109. Waverly’s origin story? Wynonna remembers when she was brought home from the hospital (S2E08). 110. Based on S2E08 sneak peek, why does Wynonna have trouble remembering her childhood? Waverly may have thought it was Wynonna that pulled her out of the water, but it was really Bobo (S2E08). OR (if the vision quest does affect the timeline), it was Wynonna originally. IDK. Who knows. 111. Based on S2E08 sneak peek, Wynonna says they were going to name her ‘Welcome’ and Waverly said that Wynonna gave her her name. Willa’s diary also mentioned “why does she get the pretty name?”. Because Time Travel is apparently possible based on the sneak peek, did Wynonna give them the name before returning to proper timeline? Wynonna gave the name ‘Waverly’ to Bobo when he asked for his angel’s name (S2E08).  112. How was Dolls able to touch/punch Ghost Marshall Reeves considering he just said he can’t be touched by something in this earthly plane? 113. Did the vision quest change the current timeline? Specifically, will Bobo and Wynonna’s relationship be different now? 114. Will the Clootie demon need to be re-sealed? If so, will the keeper of the seals also have immortality as a side-effect? 115. Is there anything supernatural about the Purgatory Sheriff’s Department? 116. Who tasked The Order to protect the Triangle from demons? 117. How does Ewan know about BBD? 118. What makes Wynonna special/different from past Earp heirs? 119. How did the Widows end up with Black Badge? 120. Why is Bobo the only revenant back? 121. Wayhaught angst. It’s not a question. Jk. Would they finally have a serious talk about protecting each other? Also, Nicole backstory needed...so much. 122. Earp baby’s accelerated growth. Why?  123. Will Bobo’s obsession/relationship with Willa come up again? 124. While dying, Robert Svane says “...I’ve caught glimpses of you my entire life”. Hallucinating (because, you know, dying) or Wynonna goes on future vision quests? 125. Robert rang the bell in the past/vision quest. Why did it happen in the present?

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Thank you for the tag @readerdreamer007 <3

Rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people 

THE LAST

1. drink: coffee

2. phone call: my cousin

3. text message: Simee !!

4. song you listened to: Be the one - Dua Lipa

5. time you cried: Uhmm... I cried watching La La Land two days ago

6. dated someone twice: yes

7. kissed someone and regretted it: yes

8. been cheated on: no

9. lost someone special: Yes

10. been depressed: last month was truly sad around here

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: iugh no

3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

12. Magenta

13. Light Green

14. Navy Blue IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. made new friends: yes

16. fallen out of love: no

17. laughed until you cried: yes

18. found out someone was talking about you: no

19. met someone who changed you: yes

20. found out who your friends are: yes

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: NO

GENERAL

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: All of them, except for like 5 people 

23. do you have any pets: no :(

24. do you want to change your name: YES! but I haven’t cause I don’t know which would be my new one 

25. what did you do for your last birthday: I have some days to celebrate with my family, having dinner and stuff and other day with my friends; we went bowling, diner, drinks and my friend wanted a tattoo so we went to get that too

26. what time did you wake up: 9:00 am

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: chatting

28. name something you can’t wait for: Thor Rangnarok

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: I really don’t remember

31. what are you listening to right now: Sugar, we are going down - FOB

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: no

33. something that is getting on your nerves: So many bad things happening all over the world. ( I mean I’m not miss universe but just STOP)

34. most visited website: Tumblr ofc 

35. hair colour: brown

36. long or short hair: looong (71 cm haha I find out about it, today)

37. do you have a crush on someone: if celebrities count, then the limit doesn’t exist 

38. what do you like about yourself: That when I like something I get really obsessed (...what? what do you mean that’s not a positive thing?)

39. want any piercings: no

40. blood type: that’s a weird question ... next!

41. nickname: Chris

42. relationship status: Super Single

43. zodiac: no idea

44. pronouns: she/her

45. favourite tv show: can’t answer that but definetly F.R.I.E.N.D.S 

46. tattoos: no

47. right or left handed: both (I got stitches on one of my fingers of my right hands so I had to learn to write with the left)

48. surgery: that one counts like a surgery?  ^

49. piercing: none

50. sport: watching: American Football (GO PATS! ... terrible defense this year, tho) practicing: I use to love basketball (and i was good)

51. vacation: I’m dying to go to the beach but plans keep getting posponed (Damn it!)

52. pair of trainers: no

MORE GENERAL

53. eating: nothing

54. drinking: chamomile tea

55. i’m about to: make an edit I have in mind

56. waiting for: the next song of this playlist 

57. want: to finish the edit, but I haven’t even started!!

58. get married: Sure!! but no kids

59. career: business administrator 

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: hugs are delicious  

61. lips or eyes: lips 

62. shorter or taller: taller

63. older or younger: older but not much 

64. nice arms or nice stomach: nice stomach 

65. hook up or relationship: relationship

66. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant! No more troubles, please

HAVE YOU EVER

67. kissed a stranger: no

68. drank hard liquor: no

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: no

70. turned someone down: I guess 

71. sex on the first date: no

72. broken someone’s heart: yes :(

73. had your heart broken: yes

74. been arrested: no

75. cried when someone died: yes

76. fallen for a friend: yes, always

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

77. yourself: yes

78. miracles: yes

79. love at first sight: no

80. santa claus: YES OFC

81. kiss on the first date: no

82. angels: yes

OTHER

83. current best friend’s name: I can’t choose a best one, it has always been my problem 

84. eye colour: Brown

85. favorite movie: The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring 

I tag: @prince-consort-erik , @lightinggirlxredqueen , @eadlynmydear , @starsofinfinty ... 

[miss-ilera]

again @jadeontumb1r who stole all my softklass crew but feel free to do it if you want!! these things are fun just remember to tag me.

THE LAST 1. drink: Strawberry and Kiwi Kool-Aid Jammer
2. phone call: Lego Grandman
3. text message: weirdo ((@wesley aka mystery man))
4. song you listened to: All Star - Smashmouth
5. time you cried: last night
6. dated someone twice: nope!
7. kissed someone and regretted it: nope!
8. been cheated on: i was the other girl 😬
9. lost someone special: my grandfather
10. been depressed: not depressed, just slumps
11. gotten drunk and thrown up: never thrown up!

3 FAVORITE COLORS 12. green
13. yellow
14. purple

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. made new friends: SOFTKLASS, KINKKLASS, NEW UNIVERSITY 
16. fallen out of love: yeyeye
17. laughed until you cried: every day
18. found out someone was talking about you: wesley talks about me to his friends in a good way
19. met someone who changed you: YEAH for the better at that!
20. found out who your friends are: exact same as theyve always been
21. kissed someone on your facebook list: nope thats pretty much all family

GENERAL 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all
23. do you have any pets: two cats named abby and bitty and a good doggo named max
24. do you want to change your name: nah
25. what did you do for your last birthday: watched food network and ate a bunch of icing
26. what time did you wake up: 9:30am
27. what were you doing at midnight last night: watching Going Seventeen 
28. name something you can’t wait for: THOT7, my next physics lab. 
29. when was the last time you saw your mom: Sunday when they dropped me off. 
31. what are you listening to right now: nothing
32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: one
33. something that is getting on your nerves: when people cant appreciate others
34. most visited website: youtube
35. hair colour: brown
36. long or short hair: long
37. do you have a crush on someone: DEFINITELY plus a small superficial one on Taylor from physics. 
38. what do you like about yourself: that I managed to change positively so much in just over a year. 
40. blood type: idek
41. nickname: smash, mama ilera, VVUEEN, THE queen, mum
42. relationship status: single-ish
43. zodiac: capricorn
44. pronouns: she/her
45. favourite tv show: Forensic Files
46. tattoos: a cute cat one on my left shoulder
47. right or left handed: right handed
48. surgery: never
50. sport: im a slug who is good at volleyball?
51. vacation: where do i not want to visit?
52. pair of trainers: ??? .... what the heck are trainers

MORE GENERAL 53. eating: skittles
54. drinking: strawberry and kiwi kool-aid jammer
55. I’m about to: watch some sf9 stuff i guess
56. waiting for: THOT7 and jade to stan astro
57. want: the package deal, husband kids steady job and a nice house
58. get married: DEFINITELY 
59. career: Crime Scene Investigator

WHICH IS BETTER 60. hugs or kisses: hugs
61. lips or eyes: eyes
62. shorter or taller: taller
63. older or younger: one year younger max but older is more lenient so older a guess. 
64. nice arms or nice stomach: idgaf
65. hook up or relationship: relationship
66. troublemaker or hesitant: .... i was the other girl but i am the most hesitant person ever, in my defense i didnt know he had a gf.

HAVE YOU EVER 67. kissed a stranger: yeyeye
68. drank hard liquor: yeppers
69. lost glasses/contact lenses: no
70. turned someone down: yeah
71. sex on the first date: yes if that counts as a date
72. broken someone’s heart: multiple but with damn good reason
73. had your heart broken: dont think ive ever been attached enough for that
74. been arrested: nope
75. cried when someone died: like a little bitch
76. fallen for a friend: HEY SAM WHO IS STILL MY BFF

DO YOU BELIEVE IN 77. yourself: depends 
78. miracles: no
79. love at first sight: love at first impression 
80. santa claus: until i was 7
81. kiss on the first date: ye
82. angels: DAMN RIGHT SOFTKLASS AND KINKKLASS EXIST

OTHER 84. eye colour: hazel 85. favourite movie: Train to Busan, Megamind, Spirited Away, Scouts Guide to Surviving the Zombie Apocalypse

[go-redgirl]

Warren tells Native Americans: 'I have made mistakes' The Hill ^ | 08/19/19 | Julia Manchester - OPINION:  Sure, These Democrats Will Tell You Anything To Get Your Votes.  Why Didn’t She Admit Her Mistakes Before She Decided To Run for The Presidency? Native Americans Should Tell Her, Too Late Ms. White Lady!  You Blew It Big Time.  No Vote From Native Americans Her? ___________________________

INDIVIDUALS/COMMENTS/POSTS:

To: yesthatjallen And she continues to make ‘mistakes’. She has lied about being an Indian, and she lied just a few days ago, calling an innocent cop a murderer. Never trust a presidential candidate who makes excuses for lying while continuing to lie.

21 posted on 8/19/2019, 2:43:11 PM by norwaypinesavage (Calm down and enjoy the ride, great things are happening for our country) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To: yesthatjallen No problem, just drink a bottle of fire water and stream live - problem solved.

22 posted on 8/19/2019, 2:43:36 PM by 1Old Pro --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To: aMorePerfectUnion LOL!

23 posted on 8/19/2019, 2:43:55 PM by yesthatjallen -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To: yesthatjallen She should simply say, “I forgot I was not really and indian.”

In the immortal words of Steve Martin: “Two simple words. Two simple words in the English language: ‘I forgot!’ How many times do we let ourselves get into terrible situations because we don’t say ‘I forgot’? Let’s say you’re on trial for armed robbery. You say to the judge, ‘I forgot armed robbery was illegal.’”

https://youtu.be/zXmQW_aqBks

24 posted on 8/19/2019, 2:44:26 PM by Bubba_Leroy (The Obamanation has ended!) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To: yesthatjallen Me fukum up big time

25 posted on 8/19/2019, 2:44:33 PM by al baby (Hi Mom Hi Dad

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To: yesthatjallen Not accepted. Now, the scalp.

28 posted on 8/19/2019, 2:46:32 PM by grobdriver (BUILD KATE'S WALL!)

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To: yesthatjallen “Hey. I screwed up. So SIOUX me.”

29 posted on 8/19/2019, 2:46:36 PM by smvoice (I WILL NOT WEAR THE RIBBON. I'm. AN ANTI DEMITE)

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To: yesthatjallen Umph, Fauxcahontas not smoke meat whistle for peace.

34 posted on 8/19/2019, 2:49:46 PM by gathersnomoss (Welcome to North Mexico, Gringo's it...)

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To: yesthatjallen Yet another tiring Faux Apology Tour.

36 posted on 8/19/2019, 2:51:33 PM by gathersnomoss (Welcome to North Mexico, Gringo's it...)

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To: tennmountainman

Elizabeth Warren Takes a DNA test

“Ms Warren, we have the results of your DNA test.” “How much aboriginal ancestry do I have?” “Well, there is good news and bad news.” “What’s the bad news?” “There’s no Indian blood. You are 20 percent Irish, 33 percent German, 47 percent Roma gypsy. You are hot-headed, bent on world domination, and completely untrustworthy.” “Damn. What’s the good news?” “You’re in the correct line of work.” 37 posted on 8/19/2019, 2:51:53 PM by sparklite2 (Don't mind me. I'm just a contrarian.)

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To: yesthatjallen Aside from cheating lying and stealing?

39 posted on 8/19/2019, 2:55:02 PM by RightGeek (FUBO and the donkey you rode in on)

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To: yesthatjallen Claimed racial minority status on TX state bar application under penalty of perjury!

40 posted on 8/19/2019, 2:55:10 PM by northislander

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To: yesthatjallen No Fake Squaw...you speak with fork-tongue!

44 posted on 8/19/2019, 3:03:15 PM by Artcore (Trump 2020!) ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To: yesthatjallen The statement, with a dose of reality: "I am sorry for harm I have caused. I have listened and I have learned a lot, and I am grateful for the many Reservations we have had together," she added.

45 posted on 8/19/2019, 3:05:27 PM by C210N (qui) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To: yesthatjallen The tribes will gladly forgive her in exchange for piles of cold, hard Federal cash.

46 posted on 8/19/2019, 3:07:17 PM by Buckeye McFrog (Patrick Henry would have been an anti-vaxxer.) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ To: yesthatjallen Had Liawatha not made that “mistake” she'd still be at the University of North Central Colorado teaching Ambulance Chasing 101. 47 posted on 8/19/2019, 3:10:32 PM by Gay State Conservative (A joke: Brennan,Comey and Lynch walk into a Barr...) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To: yesthatjallen Warren tells Native Americans: 'I have made mistakes' AND AT LEAST $400,000 by claiming to be a Native American.

48 posted on 8/19/2019, 3:15:04 PM by The Sons of Liberty ('DEPLORABLE' Member of The Vast Right Wing Conspiracy & Biden Dreg and DAMN Proud of it!.) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ To: yesthatjallen “Mistakes were made” defense. Next...”What difference does it make?” Then...”Russia Russia Russia”

49 posted on 8/19/2019, 3:21:40 PM by Zathras ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To: relictele I forgot that one. The first line of Clinton Defense. “Old News”

50 posted on 8/19/2019, 3:22:52 PM by Zathras ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To: yesthatjallen and with that move America can put the pin back in the grenade. She is toast now. 51 posted on 8/19/2019, 3:41:02 PM by Mouton (The media is the enemy of the people.) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ To: yesthatjallen “Like anyone who’s been honest with themselves ...”

That takes 90% of the “apology” out of her apology.

Furthermore, her problem is honesty with the American people, not herself.

52 posted on 8/19/2019, 3:42:44 PM by cymbeline ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ To: All So, does this mean no new edition of Pow Wow Chow?

53 posted on 8/19/2019, 3:42:45 PM by FirstFlaBn

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To: yesthatjallen YEP. Liz Warren made a few mistakes. = Her first mistake was LYING about being “part Indian”, when she KNEW that she was a FRAUD.

She has NO N-A blood whatever. - Not even a single drop according to the DNA test done by a certified lab & paid for by the MOHAWK NATION.

“LYING LIZ” WARREN & (the fired for LYING former Colorado State professor) WARD CHURCHILL are about the 2 “whitest people” in the USA. = BOTH are of solely English-German ancestry.

57 posted on 8/19/2019, 4:03:12 PM by TMN78247 ("VICTORY or DEATH", William Barrett Travis, LtCol, comdt., Fortress of the Alamo, Bejar, 1836)

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To: caww FYI, we REAL Amer-Indians (I’m only a “part-blood” & direct descendant of the REAL Pocahontas, the youngest daughter of DEEP STREAM & LITTLE FAWN, with the DNA test, Church of England records & tribal roll card to prove it.) will NEVER forgive her for her KNOWING LIES and taking one of the FEW “reserved faculty positions” for A-I scholars, no matter what apology that she offers to us.

Fyi, we A-is are “slow to forgive” a LIAR & NEVER forget what the LIAR is.

Yours, TMN78247

63 posted on 8/19/2019, 4:26:44 PM by TMN78247 ("VICTORY or DEATH", William Barrett Travis, LtCol, comdt., Fortress of the Alamo, Bejar, 1836) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To: yesthatjallen I think she meant, “I am a mistake.“

64 posted on 8/19/2019, 4:29:53 PM by DennisR (Look around - God gives numerous, indisputable clues that He does, indeed, exist.) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ To: TMN78247 Warren got caught lying, using and abusing the American Indians rightful heritage in the worst way possible.....she’s not sorry she’s just upset she got caught....or she’d still be pushing her deception and lies.

65 posted on 8/19/2019, 4:34:41 PM by caww ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To: caww I cannot say what she is saying as of today but as little as 2 weeks ago she once more LIED about being “Part Indian” at a political gathering at the Iowa State Fair.

I often refer to her as, “Speaks with forked tongue”, as she would very much like to have a “colorful” A-I name.

Fwiw, my Navaho friends her in TX routinely refer to her as a “COYOTE” & that is certainly NO compliment.

Yours, TMN78247

66 posted on 8/19/2019, 4:46:11 PM by TMN78247 ("VICTORY or DEATH", William Barrett Travis, LtCol, comdt., Fortress of the Alamo, Bejar, 1836) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To: yesthatjallen Elizabeth Warren, since you are so honest with yourself, how about being honest with us:

Had you not used a false claim to obtain minority preferences to advance your career, would you be in a position to be a Senator or run for President now?

How can you ask minorities to vote for you, knowing you ruthlessly stole their job opportunities, and threw them to the back of the bus?

67 posted on 8/19/2019, 5:16:59 PM by Chewbarkah -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

[motherfuckingbrotheroftheye-blog]

1. Real name : Zackary

2. Nickname(s) : Zack, Shinji

3. Fav. color: Green

4. Male or female : Male

5. Nursery/Kindergarten : Kingdergarten

6. Primary School : Mont Vernon Village School

7. Secondary : Souhegan High School

8. College : Nashua Community College (for like 2 months)

9. Hair Color : Brown

10. Tall or Short : 177cm (5′10″) so like average height?

11. Sweats or Jeans : Jeans

12. Phone or Camera : Phone

13. Health freak : Not really, I work out occasionally though

14. Orange or Apple : Oranges

15. Do you have a crush on someone : Always

16. Eat or Drink : Drink

17. Piercings : Had my ear and septum pierced

18. Pepsi or Coke: Coke, unless it’s cherry Pepsi

19. Been in an airplane : Yup, a few times

20. Been in a relationship : 2 years ago, for like 3 months.  Only one though, need more, people should hmu tbh.

21. Been in a car accident : like 3 technically, only one was bad.

22. Been in a fist fight : A few, used to get in fights a lot in 7th grade and 8th

23. First piercing : Ear

24. Best friend(s): Harry and Tiffany

25. First award : 3rd place in model car race for boy scouts

26. First crush : Kindergarten, got a kiss from her then started crying.

27. First word : dunno

28. Zodiac Sign: Aries

29. Last person you texted : My step-mom

30. Last person you talked to: Grandmother

31. Last person you watched a movie with : My ex-girlfriend

32. Last food you ate : Plain bagel with veggie cream cheese

33. Last movie you watched : Get Out

34. Last song you listened to : Move Along - All American Rejects

35. Last thing you bought : A bagel and a Vanilla Chai from Dunkin Donuts

37. Fav Food : Hawaiian Pizza or Spaghetti

38. Fav Drink : Cherry Dr Pepper

39. Fav Bottoms : Jeans

40. Fav Flower : Lilies

41. Fav Animal : Snakes and Kitties, and Puppies, and Birds are cool too.

42. Color/s : Green, Gold, and Red

43. Fav Movie : Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 

44. Fav Subject : History

HAVE YOU EVER:

(Put an X in the brackets if yes)

45. [x] fallen in love with someone. 

46. [x]celebrated Halloween.

47. [x] had your heart broken.

48. [x] went over the data on your cell phone.

49. [x] had someone like you

51. [] got pregnant.

52. [ ] had an abortion.

53. [x] did something I regret.

54. [x] broke a promise.

55. [x] hid a secret.

56. [x] pretended to be happy.

57. [x] met someone who changed your life.

58. [x] pretended to be sick.

59. [X] left the country.

60. [X] tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it.

61. [X] cried over the silliest thing.

62. [X] ran a mile.

63. [x] went to the beach with your best friend.

64. [x] got into an argument with your friends.

65. [x] disliked someone.

66. [x] stayed single for 2 years since the first time you had a boyfriend/girlfriend.

CURRENTLY:

67. Eating : Nope

68. Drinking : Yeah, water

69. Listening : Head Over Boots - Jon Pardi

70. Sitting/Laying : laying

71. Plans for today: work in a few hours, should get lunch after this...

72. Waiting for : tomorrow, I have a date.

YOUR FUTURE:

73. Want kids : Yeah

74. Want to get married : Please

75. Career : No idea, I want to be a famous athlete, or a police officer, but manager at my work is okay too.

76. Lips or eyes : I plan to have both my lips and eyes in the future, yes.

77. Shorter or Taller : Being taller would be cool.

78. Romantic or spontaneous : Probably more romantic, I like having a plan.

81. Hook-up or relationship : relationship, though I wouldn’t turn a hook-up down if I knew the girl and she was cute.

82. Looks or personality: Both, but personality is more important...usually

HAVE YOU EVER:

83. Lost glasses/contacts : Nope

84. Snuck out of a house : Nope

85. Held a gun/knife for self defense : Nope

86. Killed somebody : Nope

87. Broken someone’s heart : Not intentionally

88. Been in love : Yup, it’s a bad idea, don’t recommend it.

89. Cried when someone died : Beth, from the Walking Dead...does that count?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

90. Yourself : Haha, nope

91. Miracles : Nah

92. Love at first sight : Not really

93. Heaven : Eh, don’t know actually.

94. Santa Claus: unfortunately not

95. Aliens: Maybe, would be cool if they aren’t assholes

96. Ghosts : No (but they still scare the shit out of me)

TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you really want to be with right now : Haha, yeah...

98. Do you know who your real friends are :I guess? I have friends.

100. Post as 100 truths : sure.

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