#but kipperlilly being batshit insane is so important to me because

[highfiveheroes]

Your tags really get at something I've been saying a lot about KLCK and specifically the pure maddening Lovecraftian horror of realizing you're in a narrative but not understanding it, like at least in the literal Neverafter sense you can grasp that's how things work but to recognize those narrative walls without comprehending them it's like the universe is gaslighting you.

YES exactly like. i think it must be more common than i think because when i was a kid i thought something was wrong with me for expecting everything to run like a tv show. like there are supposed to be plots and threads and characters you root for that don’t fundamentally change. and i think kipperlilly is aware of that, and at some point she became aware she was someone nobody in the audience even noticed, and instead of deciding to make a spin off she went straight for the throat (whoops) and decided to take the spotlight by becoming the antagonist, because fuck her personal life if she gets to be top bill on the show right?

except that’s not how life works, because there’s no author and no plot and no viewers, and sometimes you’re just average enough to not get accolades and other people are extraordinary enough to become literal heroes and gods, and it’s hard to compare yourself to that when you know there’s nothing you can do to change it. you can’t make an au for yourself and give yourself better backstory and better advantages. sometimes you’re just a fucking person and when you want the glory bad enough it will drive you fucking insane.