#but its actually 4:57 pm lmao

[lostwriter--xx3]

no I don't want to listen to harry styles with you and match pfps but can you please tell me about your goals and aspirations and motivations and fears please please please rely on me someone I'm not the useless promise

[usaigi]

Marc, Jake & Steven

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Continuation of Birdy calling their dad, Marc finds out

CW: referencing past suicide attempts and past suicide idealization (does not go into detail), discussing mental illness, joking about mental illness

Birdy Spector Tuesday – 3:12 PM

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I made the powerpoint when we first started seeing our therapist but some of the information has changed. At the time, I only knew about Marc, Steven, Jake, and myself. 

Steven and I made another document with some info about the others 

I know SMJ made another document that’s like a history/timeline of everything we’ve been through but they won’t show it to me 😒

Which is bs because I literally have all the trauma for trying to unalive ourselves but they think I can’t handle it 

Elias Spector – Tuesday 5:26 PM

Thanks. Is it ok if I show this to my therapist? Also, I finished reading two books you recommended, we can talk about it next time you can call. 

The cat is very cute. 

Sorry to ask but

Since leaving home

Did you attempt again?

Birdy Spector – Wednesday 11:32 AM

Yeah, that's fine

Not me, just Marc I think. He’s doing better though. 

Probably lol 

Jake’s really good at keeping us safe

He;s funny, Jake made him a jar and now Marc has to drop a dollar every time he makes a joke about dying lmao

Also whenever Daniela is mean 

or anyone says someone mean about themselves

Although

It’s less funny when he makes me do it 😒

Elias Spector – Wednesday 12:57 PM

I’m just glad you’ll are safe now

I understand you dislike labels but just for my comprehension, is it safe to say that you didn’t have BPD and/or Bipolar disorder? Was it just different alters fronting?

Birdy Spector - Wednesday 4:46 PM

Not sure 🤷🏼 

What gets confusing is that while yes we are separate alters and all but we do all share the same brain, body, hormones, etc. And even when we’re not fronting/co-con, we can still have influence 

So its hard to tell if we are acting a certain way because of another disorder or if its related to DID

Steven and I were reading about how childhood trauma shapes dna, brain development, how bodies react, etc it’s wild ngl

Maybe depression with mixed features? We’re testing out some new mood stabilizers to see if they help. Not everyone is good at logging the effects/side effects Steven and I are the only ones that are super consistent but I don’t actually front that often. It’s sooo exhausting trying to get everyone on the same page 😩   

And it’s not that I don’t like labels, I justthink it was super frustrating how doctors would keep throwing whatever label at us and just hoped it’d stick

I felt like I was hoarding mental illnesses lmao like damn lunar sys leave some for everyone else

U know anyone who wants some? Currently got a buy one get one free special lmao

Elias Spector - Wednesday 4:48 PM

I imagine that’s difficult. How have you been doing otherwise?

Birdy Spector - Wednesday 4:50 PM

I joined Steven and Marc for some sessions this week. Three times a week is too much. since I was there we talked about the stuff that happened when we were younger. Jake was also there, but he only watched

EMDR is terrible, I hate it so much 

But…

It’s easier to open up to the psychologist after talking to you about it first

But I’ve been fighting with Marc less so that’s probably good. Although he still won’t tell me about what he remembers and he even forbid Steven from telling me too. Jake has always been weird about it and Daniela is still pretty scary

Can you please tell me?

Elias Spector - Wednesday 5:05 PM

Be patient with Marc. I don’t want to overstep any boundaries, I think it’s best if you talk to the others about it. 

Marc isn’t scooping, he’s totally fine with his alters having boundaries and privacy. He just happened to come across Birdy’s email account–which she stayed signed into–and stumbled across a chat thread with who else but Elias Spector. 

His vision turns red, scrolling through dozens and dozens of messages, images, and call receipts. The earliest message is dated just over 6 weeks ago, although the first couple of messages imply that they were already in contact before then. 

‘Steven. Steven! Steven!!’ Marc yells out internally, hoping to wake Steven up from wherever he is in the inner world. 

‘What?’ He says grouchily, slowly stepping towards the front. 

‘Look at this shit. What the hell was she thinking? Did you know she was in contact with our dad?’ Marc says as Steven takes control of the body to look at the screen. 

‘Marc, you need to calm down,’ Steven says, still working his way through all the messages, he can feel Marc in the headspace making trenches from pacing around so much. 

‘How dare you tell me to calm down? I can’t even trust my own fucking alters to not go behind my back. This is fucking Khonshu all over again!’

‘What’s going on, are you doing something dumb?’ Jake jumps in, suddenly appearing in the front conference room, as if he appearing out of thin air. He must have sensed their stress level rise. 

‘Respectfully Jake, go fuck yourself. This isn’t about you.’ Marc snaps back, irritated he had the nerve to stick his head into this. 

‘It looks like Birdy has been a messaging dad. Talking on the phone too, I think.’ Steven tells him, essentially ignoring all of Marc’s wishes. 

‘She what? ’ Jake asks in disbelief, getting closer to the front to get a better look at the messages in question. 

‘That sneaky little bra–’  

‘Marc, stop it. I’m mad too but I won’t let you talk about her that way.’ Jake interrupts him in his tracks. 

‘Oh of course you’re on her side. She’s always hiding behind you. And we all know you’re an expert at making decisions behind our backs, aren’t you? Tell me, what other secrets have you been hiding from us? Was it actually you that got me kicked out of the military?’ Marc rages with an exasperated outrage, arms wrapped around himself, taking careful steps backwards. Keeping his back against the wall. 

Jakes glares at Marc over that comment, standing his ground, he shouts back, ‘Ok fine! Maybe this is my fault! Sorry I didn’t have the heart to tell her the truth about our childhood! You don’t think it hurt me when she talked about how nice and protective her dad was when my dad failed us?’ 

‘Maybe we all need to take some deep breaths, yeah? I can make us a cuppa–’

‘Steven, your endless optimism and desire to make everything ok is exhausting sometimes. Can you please just shut it?’ Marc says, in a low bitter voice. 

In response, Steven shut the laptop close, dropping his head to his hands, ‘Fine! Then I guess I won’t share what I think!’

‘What do you think?’ Jake asks with a heavy sigh. 

‘Maybe… we should reach out to dad, it’s obviously helping Birdy. Looking over at his messages he seems accepting. And it looks like he’s in therapy too.’

Marc's knees buckle as his breathing rises, ‘I can’t believe this. Steven, what happened to system cooperation? I can’t believe you’re siding with her.’

‘I’m not siding with anyone.’ Steven replies calmly. 

‘Marc, stop it. You’re acting like our mother.’ Jake states sharply and it hits Marc like an asteroid. Marc's mouth opens in shock, his eyes glare, almost as if he's going to attack back but he doesn't. His eyes, rapidly flashing from betrayal to anger to disgust to shame to fear. He slides down to the ground, wrapping his arms around his knee, dropping his forehead onto his forearms. 

Even Steven tenses up at that comment.

Exhausted, Jake pulls out his chair from the crescent conference table, pulls out a cigarette from his jacket, and places it between his lips. This is all fake– all of this is happening inside their head, but somehow, the smell of tobacco fills the body’s nostrils.    

Jake lets Marc recollect himself for a bit before saying, ‘There are no sides, we are a system. If you yell at her, all the work we’ve done to get her to open up will be for nothing. Tell me, who does Birdy remind you of?’ Jake asks in a stern but calm voice. When Marc doesn’t reply, he says, ‘She acts like we did at that age. Time has always been fuzzy for me but I remember feeling like I had no control over anything. Like adults were quick to dismiss all my problems. I’m guilty of this shit too, I’ve fed into her delusions about how great our dad was and how our mom was too sick to visit her in the hospital. I kept telling myself I was protecting her innocence but maybe I fucked up. 

‘I still do that shit with Kid. I know he’s confused but I can’t explain it to him. Maybe I am protecting him, or maybe I’m just trying to protect myself.’ 

The three of them let words seep, processing Jake's words and the situation. It feels like all the hard work that Marc has done to try to heal, not just suppress, has been for nothing, he still felt like a scared child, abandoned by his parents.

‘Maybe...' Steven says, once some of the initial tension calms down, 'we should think about how our alter didn’t feel comfortable talking to us first before sneaking off to talk to dad. Be honest Marc, how would you have reacted if she asked you for permission?’  

‘I would have blown her off…’ Marc mumbles, still hiding his face in shame. 

‘Yeah, and I wouldn’t have been any better…’ Jake sighs. 

‘Steven, I know you want to talk to dad, I know you don’t see him like I do. But his…indifference almost killed us,’ Marc says softly. 

Steven pauses, before warily saying, ‘I think… there’s no growth living in the past and maybe… closure would be good for us.’

[theycallmegothboy]

1-100 >:DDDD REVENGE!!!

FELIXXXXXXXXXXXX >:(( 1. Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?  -spotify  2. is your room messy or clean? -it’s pretty messy i guess  3. what color are your eyes? -blue and grey

4. do you like your name? why? -yeah it’s fine 5. what is your relationship status? -single 6. describe your personality in 3 words or less -certified intrusive thot 7. what color hair do you have? -brown and rn it’s red 8. what kind of car do you drive? color? -i dont have a car 9. where do you shop? -hot topic, goodwill, target 10. how would you describe your style? -comfy emo 11. favorite social media account -of mine, probably discord or youtube 12. what size bed do you have? -twin >:(( 13. any siblings? -i have 1.5 brothers  14. if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? -probably vancouver, idk canada seems lit 15. favorite snapchat filter? -i like the one with devil horns and a tail but its cute 16. favorite makeup brand(s) -i dont wear makeup 17. how many times a week do you shower? -i used to shower every day, but i dont do anything that gets me dirty so like maybe 3 times but if i leave the house then i shower 18. favorite tv show? -stranger things 19. shoe size?  -8 or 9 20. how tall are you? -5′6 with shoes >:(( 21. sandals or sneakers? -sneakers wtf 22. do you go to the gym? -lol no 23. describe your dream date -making some pie or something together and then eating the pie and then sitting on some rooftop looking at stars 24. how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? -quite a bit actually but i’m saving up for a phone lol so soon it will be like maybe 10 dollars lmao 25. what color socks are you wearing? -not wearing socks but the ones i had earlier were white (ankle length) 26. how many pillows do you sleep with? -just one but it sucks 27. do you have a job? what do you do? -NO BUT IM TRYING TO GET A JOB BUT THE FUCKIN PEOPLE THERE ARE GHOSTING ME AND WONT REPLY TO MY EMAILS SO LIKE SBJHBJS 28. how many friends do you have? -like 4 lmao 29. whats the worst thing you have ever done? -idk nothing super bad but i do a lot of small shit that makes me feel guilty when i realize what i did 30. whats your favorite candle scent? -juniper rosewood 31. 3 favorite boy names -leo, clay, charlie 32. 3 favorite girl names -ivy, uh... idk thats all ive got 33. favorite actor? -no clue 34. favorite actress? -no clue 35. who is your celebrity crush? -not a celeb but i’d smash danny phantom 36. favorite movie? -nightmare before christmas or edward scissorhands 37. do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? -no, but my fav book is probably the prince and the pauper? idk 38. money or brains? -CASH MONEYYYY jk probably brains but if your entire personality is being “smart” like fuck off lmao   39. do you have a nickname? what is it? - a bunch of people call me son (see #49, #100), some call me rat, dumdum, goth boy

40.how many times have you been to the hospital? -just once i think when i was birthed. i also went once with my brother cause he kicked some scissors i left out on the floor and it sliced his toe the fuck open and he needed stitches and i watched him get the stitches and almost passed out :/ 41. top 10 favorite songs -please dont make me do this i dont have it in me 42. do you take any medications daily? -yea i take 20mg of vyvanse but i need to get it raised to 30 cause 20 is Not Enough 43. what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) -i got some dry fuckin skin yall dont even know 44. what is your biggest fear?  -it depends. the dark is a pretty constant one though 45. how many kids do you want? -like 2 or 3 eventually 46. whats your go to hair style? -in my face, looking stupid 47. what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)  -it’s pretty small 48. who is your role model? -i dont fuckin know lmao  49. what was the last compliment you received? - “i belive in you, my son, you’re an amazing human being“ (same friend mentioned in #100, not actually a parent of mine) 50. what was the last text you sent? -”no it’s a raccoon“ YOU GET NO CONTEXT LMAO 51. how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? -i dont think i ever hardcore believed in him, maybe i did though i remember sleeping under the tree one christmas eve waiting for him but i was like “oh yeah that makes sense“ i guess 52. what is your dream car?  -i honestly dont give a shit as long as it actually fucking works 53. opinion on smoking? -cigarettes? fuck no that’s nastyyy. weed? that’s fine i guess but wait till you’re like 18.  54. do you go to college? -no. am sophomore n highschool 55. what is your dream job?  -musician/palentologist 56. would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?  -fuck the suburbs lmao, but also im tired of rural, so like.. semi urban?? 57. do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?  -no but i take the little soaps >:)) 58. do you have freckles?  -yes 59. do you smile for pictures? -awkwardly, yes 60. how many pictures do you have on your phone?  -dont have a phone but i have like 12 on my computer currently. 4 are of me, the rest are of my cat or random shit 61. have you ever peed in the woods?  -yes 62. do you still watch cartoons?  -cartoons these days kinda suck but like if they were good fuck yeah i would like gravity falls can come hang yknow? 63. do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? -i had nuggets from mcdonalds today so i guess them? i dont really care 64. Favorite dipping sauce?  -i got sweet and sour but i dont like it that much. that schezuan sauce was great 65. what do you wear to bed?  -wouldnt you like to know? ;))  66. have you ever won a spelling bee?  -NO ive only been in two. the first one i misspelled the word “turmoil“ cause i had never heard it before and the second one i spelled the word “owed“ as “ode“ cause i was thinking like ode to joy and then i felt like a big Fool afterwards :(( 67. what are your hobbies? -lol what hobbies 68. can you draw?  -i am physically able to draw, but not well, no 69 (haha). do you play an instrument? -yeah i play a few 70. what was the last concert you saw?  -i saw Chicago in either georgia or tennessee i cant remember in like 2016 71. tea or coffee? -hot coffee, iced tea. NOT the other way around. (i love both though) 72. Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? -starbucks 73. do you want to get married? -sure why not 74. what is your crush’s first and last initial? -dont have a crush 75. are you going to change your last name when you get married?  -idk maybe 76. what color looks best on you?  -i dont know but i wear black a lot and that’s pretty dope 77. do you miss anyone right now? -yeah  78. do you sleep with your door open or closed? -closed 79. do you believe in ghosts? -on the fence. not 100% “oh my god look at these gHoSt oRbS i need to sage my house!!!“ but i accept that there’s some things i wont understand about the world and that i have no answers to. i wouldnt be surprised if there are, and i wouldnt be surprised if there aren’t. 80. what is your biggest pet peeve? -whatever my adhd decides i viscerally hate with a firey passion right at that moment  81. last person you called -my brother (the 1 of the 1.5 from #13 and the one who sliced his toe in #40) 82. favorite ice cream flavor?  -chocolate is dope 83. regular oreos or golden oreos?  -regular double stuff. if you say golden, mint, peppermint, or thin oreos i’m gonna have to euthanize you, i dont make the rules.  84. chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? -rainbow cause it’s prettier  85. what shirt are you wearing?  -queen shirt from hot topic 86. what is your phone background? -i didnt get a phone between question 60 and now but my computer one is some mountains with the moon in the background 87. are you outgoing or shy? -really depends on who i’m around 88. do you like it when people play with your hair? -YES FUCK AAAAAAA (this girl played with my hair literally once in middle school and i was like oh shit and i had a crush on her until the end of middle school true story,,, so ashley if you’re out there-) 89. do you like your neighbors? -to the left they’re fine and their dog is nice but idk what happened to the horses so that’s sus but that’s where our cat came from so they can hang  guess, behind me they’re fine but their boys are loud, to the right they’re fine, and even further to the right are the dope neighbors and waaaaaaaaaay far to the right is a llama and he’s dope as hell 90. do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? -whenever the fuck i remember to/have the energy 91. have you ever been high?  -i dont think so but i wouldnt put it past myself 92. have you ever been drunk?  -not that i can remember, no 93. last thing you ate?  -sloppy joe from a can 94. favorite lyrics right now -”not gonna waste my life, cause i’ve been fucked up“ 95. summer or winter?  -fall. fuck you 96. day or night?  -night but i like it when it’s actually night and it doesnt get dark at like 4 fucking pm cause that makes me depressed 97. dark, milk, or white chocolate? -dark is good, milk is fine, white is only suitable for fancy stripes on chocolate covered strawberries 98. favorite month?  -i vibe with september 99. what is your zodiac sign -sagittarius (was almost a scorpio but i was holding out >:))) 100. who was the last person you cried in front of?  -in person, my mom like 6 months ago, on a discord call, my friend (i love you by the way, you’re the best,,, i dont think he has tumblr but im just putting it out there) like a month or so ago. i hate crying in front of people, i turn into such a hyperventilating snot monster which is not suitable for human gaze and thats the real tea :/

felix this took like 2 hours of my life i will never get back i hate you and i hope you’re happy with what you’ve done <3 <3

also anyone who wants to stalk me, enjoy this information that im handing to you on a silver platter :)) <3

[peaches-writes]

rating my own fics on a whim bc 500 followers &

i enrolled in college as a writing major but i rlly dont wanna do the actual writing rn dont b like me

oh also link to my m.list since im too lazy to link them one by one in this post 👉 m.list

fist fight w me on inbox if yall want im always down to fist fight 💖

channie fics

syncopated - 3/10 messy af alludes too much on my pre-pandemic love life therefore embarrassing 

history - 7/10 i think im funny but yall didnt think so when i posted this also i havent listened to any nostalgic music in a while

sweet disposition - 8/10 everyone likes this so uh sure also i rlly do love the song

wedding doves - 9/10 i pretend to not like this one but in reality im trash for fluff that attracts all the ants & mice in the house

before one a.m. - 10/10 i thot it was trash while writing it then yall gave my libra sun ass an ego boost still wont make a pt. 2 for this one tho 

minho fics

eighteen - 7/10 personal comfort fic wouldve been funny if it was longer tho

d-day - 10/10 not to be a libra but i peaked here this is an underrated gem idily the movie it’s based on also still slaps for me lol 

genuinely - 4/10 couldve done better w this one but im too lazy to re-write duh i mean yall im making this long ass post instead of acads or my wips yall see how lazy i am

unbothered - 8/10 only flaw is that it was supposed to be a full fic but then i didnt rlly know where it would go if it was 

binnie fics

pierced - 8/10 i should donate this to a spicy account or summ if yall into that lmao waht lskfjdslk i meant tattoo artist changbin rights

giddy - 7/10 i iwas young i didnt know any better jk 

polished - 10/10 yes i would still like to paint changbin’s nails hmu binnie i paint nails well apparently 

hyunnie fics

hwang’s guide to gardening - 6/10 cheesy af jesus christ wtf was i doin in the summer 

drift away - 5/10 syncopated, drift away, & eighteen r all based on similar life experiences but i laugh at this one all the time more than the other two

space buns - 10/10 wHY DOES NO ONE BACK ME UP ON THE HYUNJIN SPACE BUNS AGENDA IT NEEDS TO HAPPEN

11:08 PM - 4/10 this rlly did happen but i cant show yall the pics so the fic didnt turn out well lol

shared spaces - 5/10 ur welcome fellow short ppl 

11:57 PM - 6/10 if this was longer what wouldve happened idk yalls 

seven hundred and one - 7/10 (thats not a pun) wtf happened w this one i rlly shouldve cut the last two parts & adjusted the timestamps but i got lazy lolololol 

sungie fics

meeting points - 10/10 only bc i miss the outside world this was a mess

soft lens - 5/10 i dont think im funny anymore

okay without you - 8/10 guitar player jisung deserves everything in this world but this is so cheesy

how to appease ur asian aunties - 6/10 im too lazy to write the next part these days lol 

lixie fics

in other futures - 7/10 should b longer tbh but whatever i think i wanna watch charlotte the anime when im not stressed out w school anymore lol 

8:02 AM - 10/10 my humor peaked here but yall arent ready for that conversation

brownies & blankets - 10/10 bc i rlly did ended up spending money from feeling this fic too much 

roll call - 10/10 its my comfort fic 

mongmong fics 

sunshower - 8/10 will re-write this in the future idk i jUST FEEL LIKE WE NEED A REDEMPTION ARC 

3:06 PM - 10/10 i miss being in love 

touch - 7/10 should be a series but im not smart enough for writing mystery fics trust me on this one ive alr written a detective movie in high school i rlly cant do it well 

innie fics

relax im nervous too - 9/10 i miss the place this is based on like i rlly miss goinG OUT LOL

10:28 AM - 7/10 should b a longer fic boo vivi 

according to flora - 8/10 should also be a longer fic i got lazy i cant think of any more flowers boo sldkfjsdklfj

[wherethewindtakesher]

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the biggest thank you to @caws5749 for sending me all 134 questions 🥰

1: Name Lorena

2: Age 20

3: 3 Fears drowning, the ocean, and fishes.

4: 3 things I love my dog, my friends, and mangoes.

5: 4 turns on humor, charisma, telling me how much you want m-, and moaning.

6: 4 turns off being full of themselves, disrespectfulness, afraid to be themselves, and not showing a care about the well being of others.

7: My best friend k, f, and @brownmantwo.

8: Sexual orientation bisexual.

9: My best first date i’ve never been on a date!

10: How tall am I 5′2

11: What do I miss being fucking skinny-

12: What time were I born 10:45 pm!

13: Favorite color red.

14: Do I have a crush uh...

15: Favorite quote “I got STDS they make my coochie itch” SKSKSKDKSDKAD.

16: Favorite place my house.

17: Favorite food rice.

18: Do I use sarcasm 99.9% of my vocabulary is sarcasm.

19: What am I listening to right now “everything I wanted” by billie eilish because ya girl is depressed.

20: First thing I notice in new person how they hold themselves.

21: Shoe size 8 or 8.5 sometimes a 9.

22: Eye color dark brown.

23: Hair color black.

24: Favorite style of clothing baggy clothes or dark bold colors.

25: Ever done a prank call? yea. I use to call those numbers where it takes you to a different number to prank.

27: Meaning behind my URL its not necessarily an interesting story I just came up with it in my head one day.

28: Favorite movie too many to count.

29: Favorite song literally too many.

30: Favorite band three days grace.

31: How I feel right now fucking sad.

32: Someone I love my friends.

33: My current relationship status single.

34: My relationship with my parents its good! but there is a lot I tend to not discuss with them.

35: Favorite holiday halloween!

36: Tattoos and piercing I have I have two tattoos, both on my left arm. my finger tattoo is of a rose and my bicep is a ghost wearing a witch hat! piercing: septum, conch (but it closed) and my two lobes.

37: Tattoos and piercing I want a bunch more of tattoos and I want to get a few more ear piercings.

38: The reason I joined Tumblr to be cool like my older niece.

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? no we do not. lots of love and respect left in between us.

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? not really.

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? NO BECAUSE @domromanoff and I ARE BASICALLY SISTERS AND THATS INCEST.

42: When did I last hold hands? years ago.

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 10 minutes to get up from bed and 5 to actually get ready.

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? yes I have because I like smooth legs.

45: Where am I right now? my kitchen.

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? no ones because they'll just leave me behind and laugh at my misery. jkjk but my dear friends.

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? L O U D.

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? I do because rent in LA is fucking e x p e n s I v e.

49: Am I excited for anything? to go to bed.

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? I have 2 of them.

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? too often tbh.

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? a few weeks ago I believe?

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? they should because thats their baby momma.

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? yup.

55: What is something I disliked about today? waking up.

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? lady gaga and scarlett johansson.

57: What do I think about most? what tattoo to get, if I should get another dog, how to annoy @caws5749 that day, etc etc.

58: What’s my strangest talent? I can move the bones in my wrist.

59: Do I have any strange phobias? im scared of fish!

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? behind because I am a nervous mess and I like taking control of such.

61: What was the last lie I told? “im okay”

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? both honestly! I love video chatting with @domromanoff and my friends!

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? yes and yes.

64: Do I believe in magic? hell yea I grew up around all that shit.

65: Do I believe in luck? not really.

66: What’s the weather like right now? its chilly.

67: What was the last book I’ve read? jesus christ I forgot the name but its currently under my bed rn.

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? YES.

69: Do I have any nicknames? clown, wueej by @caws5749, pi- prin-, bottom by @domromanoff, lore, lorecha, whore, hoe.

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? I pulled my thigh muscle recently and OMG I WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN.

71: Do I spend money or save it? I SPEND IT HONEY YASSSS.

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? sadly no.

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? my water bottle c:

74: Favorite animal? I fucking love cows.

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? crying lmao.

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? nikolas is it not??

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? “Judas” by lady gaga.

78: How can you win my heart? just be yourself and believe wholeheartedly of what you want and desire.

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? “madi did it”

80: What is my favorite word? fuck.

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr @caws5749 @domromanoff @dailyavengers @ravenforce andddddd @supercorpbechloe there’s so many more I’m editing this rn AKSJSHSHSHS I love each and everyone’s accounts here!

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? GLOBAL WARMING IS A REAL THING YALL.

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? i think so 👀 but im not close to them.

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? maybe like telekinesis or some mind power.

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? what goes on in your mind?

86: What is my current desktop picture? a winter forest.

87: Had sex? if oral sex counts then sure.

88: Bought condoms? I haven't bought them I just magically obtained them.

89: Gotten pregnant? oh god no.

90: Failed a class? yUUUUP.

91: Kissed a boy? yes.

92: Kissed a girl? yes.

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? back in middle school lmaoooo.

94: Had job? yes im on my second one rn.

95: Left the house without my wallet? all the damn time.

96: Bullied someone on the internet? no because im not a fucking asshole.

97: Had sex in public? not yet.

98: Played on a sports team? yea I was in track n field and cross country!

99: Smoked weed? I haven't but I once wanted to try it but I was to much of a pussy to skip class.

100: Did drugs? nope.

101: Smoked cigarettes? ew no.

102: Drank alcohol? y’all Ive gotten so fucked up on here so of cOURSE. my friends think I have a drinking problem ksjlksdjlkjds.

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? I am not.

104: Been overweight? yea.

105: Been underweight? No.

106: Been to a wedding? I have when I was younger.

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? sadly yes because of video games.

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? yea when I binge watched the walking dead.

109: Been outside my home country? yes!

110: Gotten my heart broken? yeah.

111: Been to a professional sports game? Yes because everyone in LA has possibly been to a dodgers game.

112: Broken a bone? nope!

113: Cut myself? oh man..I have and I deeply regret doing so but its a part of me now and i’ve accepted it.

114: Been to prom? YES! best night of my life.

115: Been in airplane? once and that was it because fuck planes lsjdkjlksdjs.

116: Fly by helicopter? nope!

117: What concerts have I been to? daddy yankee and some other guy I don't remember heheheh.

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? duh im gay.

119: Learned another language? I tried (and failed) to learn japanese.

120: Wore make up? a couple of times. i’m not the hugest fan of makeup.

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? nope!

122: Had oral sex? once.

123: Dyed my hair? too many times.

124: Voted in a presidential election? no but I will this upcoming one for sure.

125: Rode in an ambulance? no but I want to!

126: Had a surgery? no but I did have to get stitches on my lower lip.

127: Met someone famous? I meant jenni rivera’s brother at a movie theater once!

128: Stalked someone on a social network? yes? but not to a weird extent.

129: Peed outside? only because no one was around to open the door to my apartment complex and I couldn't hold it in-

130: Been fishing? I am T E R R I F I E D of fish so no.

131: Helped with charity? yup! I bought a shirt from one of @markiplier‘s livestreams that donated all the money to a charity.

132: Been rejected by a crush? yea.

133: Broken a mirror? I think maybe once??

134: What do I want for birthday? I want a tattoo.

[evarenity]

Eyy I got tagged by mah girl @shima-draws (σ°3°)σ

Rules: Answer these questions and tag any blogs you’d like to get to know better.

1. Nickname: Ciela. :3c

2. Zodiac: Capricorn!

3. Height: 5’4”. ;w;

4. Time: 4:14 PM.

5. Favorite band/artist: Uh, Utada Hikaru and Kalafina are some of my favorites. :3c

6. Song currently stuck in my head: Does the Super Mario World theme count?

7. Last movie I saw: The Princess Diaries. Watched some of it with my sister. :’)

8. Last thing I googled: The lifespans of pit bulls and west highland terriers lol.

9. Do I get asks: Not really. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

10. Other blog: @ask-the-mystican-sages is my OC blog and that’s about it. :3

11. Why did I choose this username: I go by Ciela on the eeenternet internet and at the time I wanted a cooler username and the word “lumen” kinda sounded cool so. Here we are.

12. Following: 57. :3c

13. Average amount of sleep: Hmm... Maybe 6-8 hours? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

14. Lucky number: 7. Everything is 7 for me lol.

15. Current outfit: Some old Girl Scout shirt and pajama shorts. Nothing fancy. :’)

16. Dream job: Not entirely sure. Something that has to do with computers. ^^

17. Dream trip: Hell I dunno? Maybe Canada? :3

18. Fave food: Chicken. Chicken. CHICKEN. And rice. :3

19. Play any instruments: Clarinet. CLARINET. Good for concert band but not so much for marching band. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

20. Eye color: Dark brown. :3c

21. Hair color: Dark brown also. (People actually argued whether it was dark brown or black lmao.)

22. Describe yourself as aesthetic things: Space. Maybe forests? They’re cool. Um...Victorian fashion? :3c

23. Languages you speak: English. I also understand Spanish but don’t speak it. :’)

24. Most iconic song: Uhh...? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

25. Random fact: 12 years in school and still no one can pronounce my last name right. Half the time people can’t even write my real first initial correctly. :’)

If y’all want to do it... @sunflower-maiden-love @its-mamoru @noova-art :3c

[siribear]

sera and sunny + ib and eph

4:22 PM - iron bull is my precious son: my sister: after playing video games where you drive, i realized i became a worse driver because i keep thinking i can do all the twisty stuff and can hurt pedestrians 4:22 PM - iron bull is my precious son: thats sera tbh 4:23 PM - X-Reyes: everyone has slowly stopped letting her drive if they all go out 4:23 PM - iron bull is my precious son: t b h 4:23 PM - iron bull is my precious son: im sure they are really afraid shed do a hit and run 4:23 PM - X-Reyes: they are! 4:24 PM - X-Reyes: even with eph in the backseat like, 'sera i might be off duty but i'm still a cop' 4:24 PM - iron bull is my precious son: sera's like bc ur a cop and u have to drive boringly, im giving u excitement 4:24 PM - iron bull is my precious son: then she gets a ticket and ephs co worker is like 4:24 PM - iron bull is my precious son: bro 4:24 PM - iron bull is my precious son: what r u doing back there 4:24 PM - X-Reyes: eph is the SAFEST driver 4:25 PM - X-Reyes: he just has his head in his hands like 'i'm sorry' 4:25 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i feel so bad for eph bc IDK HOW HE DIDNT LOSE HIS JOB BEING AROUND SERA 4:26 PM - X-Reyes: bc he's the only one that can reign her in really 4:27 PM - X-Reyes: like so sera gets caught running a red light but at least she wasn't speeding 4:27 PM - iron bull is my precious son: id be surprised if she didnt get like 3 tickets trying to drive to a  7/11 to get a slushie tbh 4:28 PM - X-Reyes: eph's on duty one night and catches sera speeding to like a walgreens or a corner store 4:28 PM - X-Reyes: and he pulls her over ofc and he's like 'what now' 4:28 PM - X-Reyes: 'sunny's sick and i'm getting her medicine.' 4:28 PM - X-Reyes: and eph is just like :||||| 'get in the car' and he turns on the lights and they speed to the store and back 4:29 PM - iron bull is my precious son: IM CRYING 4:30 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i love their relationship so much tbh????? 4:30 PM - X-Reyes: team gay 4:30 PM - iron bull is my precious son: team gay!!!!!!!!!!!! 4:30 PM - X-Reyes: i just imagine bull and sera are excellent wingmen for each other at bars and try to see how many people they can win over in one night 4:32 PM - iron bull is my precious son: so tru, no one knows how the two most chaotic people met but there sera and bull are 4:33 PM - X-Reyes: eph's just glad bull doesn't get into too much trouble 4:33 PM - X-Reyes: that doesn't mean he doesn't egg sera on 4:33 PM - X-Reyes: but only having to keep an eye on one person makes his job easier 4:34 PM - X-Reyes: (and bull keeps her in check sometimes. barely, but sometimes. the last time she tried to burn a building down, it didn't go so well) 4:34 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i cry 4:34 PM - iron bull is my precious son: sera's like fuck u authority fuck u rich people but bull is like rich people suck but at least im getting paaaaaaaaaaaaaid 4:34 PM - iron bull is my precious son: so bull tries to calm sera down 4:35 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i'm hashtag sorry but i still ship eph and bull deep in my heart 4:35 PM - X-Reyes: 'i don't think ephraim's boss will appreciate you doing that' 4:35 PM - X-Reyes: 'effie can handle mr. tight pants' 4:35 PM - X-Reyes: 'not after what you tried to pull earlier this week.' 4:35 PM - X-Reyes: 'shit.' 4:36 PM - X-Reyes: i'll probably do another ephraim run where i romance bull. maybe. 4:36 PM - X-Reyes: see if i can deal with his romance 4:36 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ;) 4:36 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ;) 4:36 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ;) 4:36 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ;) 4:36 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ;) 4:36 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ;) 4:37 PM - iron bull is my precious son: it's cute i h8 the kinky shit but his romance esp with male inquisitors makes me go :D 4:37 PM - iron bull is my precious son: it's cuuuuuuuute i ship it 4:37 PM - X-Reyes: lol 4:37 PM - X-Reyes: just 4:37 PM - X-Reyes: sunny: iron bull? 4:37 PM - X-Reyes: and eph ducks his head and blushes and sunny just ruffles his hair 4:37 PM - iron bull is my precious son: C U T E HOW DARE U 4:38 PM - iron bull is my precious son: sunny teases her bro all the time lbr 4:38 PM - X-Reyes: she's def the more teasing between the two of them 4:38 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ok but come on. ephs face during th escene where the adivsors come in????? HOW IS THAT NOT ADORABLE 4:38 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i love those lil scene im cryin 4:38 PM - X-Reyes: that's my fave scene ngl 4:39 PM - iron bull is my precious son: SUCH A GOOD 4:39 PM - X-Reyes: eph is so vanilla tho idk how he'd feel about bdsm 4:39 PM - X-Reyes: it'd take him a bit to be okay with it 4:39 PM - iron bull is my precious son: vanilla eph 4:39 PM - iron bull is my precious son: thats 2 cute 4:39 PM - iron bull is my precious son: eph is really cute he's my son 4:39 PM - X-Reyes: lmao 4:40 PM - X-Reyes: cassandra goes to sunny later like 'so your brother and iron bull' 4:40 PM - X-Reyes: sunny: 'ah. i told them to lock the door next time.' 4:40 PM - iron bull is my precious son: /SUNNY/ 4:40 PM - iron bull is my precious son: it 4:41 PM - X-Reyes: sunny @ eph: am i going to have to make you a charm that locks all of your doors whenever you take your clothes off? 4:41 PM - X-Reyes: and eph is /morified/ 4:41 PM - X-Reyes: mortified* 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: it's always sunny in skyhold 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i just love the facct how easy eph gets embarassed 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: it's so cute??????? 4:41 PM - X-Reyes: it runs in the family 4:41 PM - X-Reyes: eph gets her back 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: theres something super endearing abt eph/bull i cant get over it 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: 8))))) 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: well i mean 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: sunny gets herself back 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: she's fucking solas 4:41 PM - X-Reyes: lmfao 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: thats enough embarassment, 4:42 PM - X-Reyes: just. if sunny's with cullen, and cullen walks in on bull/eph 4:42 PM - X-Reyes: or. if sunny has a crush on cullen and eph knows 4:42 PM - X-Reyes: and eph goes up to his sister (after she teases him) and he's like 4:42 PM - X-Reyes: 'cullen /did/ say there's nothing wrong with having a bit of fun' 4:42 PM - X-Reyes: 'you're terrible.' 4:43 PM - iron bull is my precious son: SIBLINGS 4:43 PM - iron bull is my precious son: this kind fo stuff makes me smile so big idk why 4:43 PM - X-Reyes: it's all so cute and fluffy 4:44 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i still cant believe bull is an actual kinkster 4:44 PM - iron bull is my precious son: sometime si forget bc i dont actively think of my faves sex lives 4:44 PM - iron bull is my precious son: but g e e z  e 4:45 PM - iron bull is my precious son: a fucking kinkster 4:45 PM - iron bull is my precious son: my son 4:45 PM - X-Reyes: lol 4:45 PM - X-Reyes: your son turning your other son into a kinkster 4:45 PM - iron bull is my precious son: all my faves are kinksters im happy 4:45 PM - X-Reyes: i can't believe 4:46 PM - iron bull is my precious son: im rewatching bulls romance and he si just 4:46 PM - iron bull is my precious son: so head over heels i love it 4:46 PM - iron bull is my precious son: he legit gets giggly 4:46 PM - iron bull is my precious son: /iron bull/ 4:46 PM - iron bull is my precious son: p l e a s e 4:47 PM - X-Reyes: lmao 4:47 PM - X-Reyes: how does that dragon tooth scene work out 4:47 PM - iron bull is my precious son: https://youtu.be/EQCekHf036o?t=9m40s 4:48 PM - X-Reyes: eph: sunny take me dragon hunting 4:49 PM - X-Reyes: sun: excuse me? 4:50 PM - iron bull is my precious son: im just saying bull is head over heels in luv with eph and thats the cutest i cry abt it all the time 4:50 PM - iron bull is my precious son: his romance minus the sex is just? too cute? 4:50 PM - X-Reyes: why do you ALWAYS do this to me 4:50 PM - iron bull is my precious son: he's so in love i cry all the time 4:50 PM - iron bull is my precious son: <3 4:50 PM - X-Reyes: amna: x is so in love with [sibling] 4:50 PM - X-Reyes: me: oh no 4:51 PM - iron bull is my precious son: HA 4:51 PM - iron bull is my precious son: but it's TRUE?? 4:51 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ok first how can they not love those kids 4:51 PM - iron bull is my precious son: but also look at bull's face and body language like come on!!!!!! he's always like <:) and legit giggle 4:51 PM - iron bull is my precious son: s 4:51 PM - iron bull is my precious son: that dude is in love 4:51 PM - X-Reyes: sunny and eph literally grew up with no one loving them but each other and now they've got so much 4:52 PM - iron bull is my precious son: they just had to find the right ppl <3333 4:52 PM - X-Reyes: an odd twist of fate 4:52 PM - iron bull is my precious son: and the no matter how far apart comes to play here 4:52 PM - iron bull is my precious son: dun dun dun 4:52 PM - iron bull is my precious son: odd twist for sure 4:52 PM - iron bull is my precious son: look @ who's in their beds 4:52 PM - X-Reyes: mama trevelyan hates it but oh well~ 4:53 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i will fight their mother 4:54 PM - iron bull is my precious son: https://youtu.be/EQCekHf036o?t=16m27s 4:54 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i cry all the time 4:54 PM - X-Reyes: i can't get over ib's voice i'm sorry 4:55 PM - iron bull is my precious son: LOOK 4:55 PM - iron bull is my precious son: sometimes i like it 4:55 PM - iron bull is my precious son: most of the time i loathe it 4:55 PM - iron bull is my precious son: but its my son! 4:55 PM - X-Reyes: lmao 4:56 PM - X-Reyes: i still can't get over cullen in that scene 4:56 PM - X-Reyes: 'do you see this?' '(covering face) no' 4:57 PM - iron bull is my precious son: cullen 'totally straight' rutherford 4:57 PM - iron bull is my precious son: cullen is me @ kinksters 4:57 PM - X-Reyes: eph totally teases sunny over it 100%

[yeoldontknow]

Warmth

Author’s Note: merry christmas @kpopandlock <3 i love you and i hope you enjoy your gift <3 this takes place in the Did You See universe and is an update to jongin’s story. ~you do not need to read each story to understand this one. Pairing: Jongin x Reader (oc;female) Summary: In early December, Jongin plans a date night for you. What started as plans for dinner quickly becomes a night full of surprises; what started as plans for dinner, quickly becomes the start of the rest of your life.  Genre: fluff Rating: PG Word Count: 3,974

FiaNini sent a Link FiaNini[3:22 PM]: reservations made! FiaNini[3:22 PM]: we have a table reserved for 7 Y/N[3:26 PM]: !! Y/N[3:26 PM]: im so excited i haven't been there in 170000 years FiaNini[3:28 PM]: lord FiaNini[3:29 PM]: you're spending FAR too much time with yeol

Y/N[3:41 PM]: i only sent 2 !! Y/N[3:43 PM] - Message sent with Fireworks: WOULD YOU RATHER I DO THIS FiaNini[3:44 PM]: oh wow FiaNini[3:45 PM]: i love how long it took you to find the screen effects FiaNini[3:45 PM]: i thought you were typing a novel Y/N[3:46 PM]: i know :c Y/N[3:46 PM]: im ancient Y/N[3:47 PM]: so should i meet you at the place at 6.45? i can stay later at work and prep for the meeting tomorrow FiaNini[3:49 PM]: no actually can you meet me at 6.15 somewhere FiaNini[3:50 PM]: i need to pick something up first and want your opinion Y/N[3:51 PM]: oh is it that ted baker scarf you wanted? Y/N[3:52 PM]: i still stand by my opinion Y/N[3:52 PM]: burgundy brings out your eyes FiaNini[3:54 PM]: you're still on about the scarf? Y/N[3:55 PM]: YES FiaNini[3:55 PM]: it is not about the scarf Y/N[3:56 PM]: goddammit FiaNini[3:56 PM]: it's better than a scarf Y/N[3:56 PM]: ARE WE FINALLY GETTING SILK SHEETS FiaNini[3:57 PM]: what no Y/N[3:57 PM]: and why not?? Y/N[3:58 PM]: im trying to elevate our life Y/N[4:01 PM]: jongin Y/N[4:03 PM]: my love Y/N[4:05 PM]: my heart Y/N[4:09 PM]: king of pajamas Y/N[4:13 PM]: prince of chicken FiaNini[4:15 PM]: sorry for pulled into a meeting FiaNini[4:15 PM]: prince of chicken?? lmao Y/N[4:16 PM] - Sent with Gentle Effect: *whispers* silk sheets FiaNini[4:17 PM]: omfg lmao Y/N[4:17 PM]: how long were these effects here without me knowing wtf FiaNini[4:18 PM]: if i want silk sheets i'm putting them on the wedding registry and making other people pay for them Y/N[4:19 PM]: i love a genius FiaNini[4:20 PM]: ANYWAY FiaNini[4:23 PM]: im sending you a location to meet me. it's just a hallmark store. shouldn't take too long just want your opinion on a thing and then we can move onto the main event FiaNini sent a Location Y/N[4:25 PM]: oh wow i had no idea this place was here Y/N[4:26 PM]: ok! FiaNini[4:27 PM]: i adore you duchess Y/N[4:28 PM]: gross Y/N[4:28 PM]: i adore you too

Hours later, fingers gently warmed by the heat of a peppermint coffee, you wait patiently outside Jongin’s specified location with a small smile. The cold chill of the air kisses your knees, makes your skin feel somewhat tickled by December, or perhaps it's simply the season that makes you feel wrapped tightly around bliss.

Life carries on around you, gliding over and through your stillness as though you are not even there: volunteers ring bells for donations, surly men and women pass with brisk steps, and the noise of it all makes you feel somewhat connected. You’re separate from the chaos, observant and living life at a pace different to those around you, letting yourself kiss the magic and see the wind, the breath from your lips becoming a warm frost as it reaches the cold.

The night does not smell special. There are no lingering whispers of pine or spice in the air; people on their phones do not wish one another merry this or happy that. Truly, the only sign it is the holiday season are the window displays reminding you that it is so.

But you feel it, down into your bones, a kindness that cannot be silenced and a love that refuses to be kept to itself.

Against your cup, you tap your ring finger and giggle at the sound of your ring against the cardboard. Your favourite chime, you think, muffled and quiet and totally yours. Briefly, you're reminded it is a symbol and not motion of a change. This is not your first Christmas with Jongin, simply one of many, but the sentiment is different, the importance of your gift choices heavier merely because you are promising always, not just with words but with actions.

Bringing the cup to your lips, you smile to yourself once more, secretly and with private delight, sipping gently to savor the taste. Your phone buzzes in your pocket, an urgent noise for such a timeless moment, and you frown slightly at the intrusion. Not rude, not uninvited, merely unexpected.

HoHoYeol[6:11 PM]: DUCHESS!!!!! HoHoYeol[6:13 PM]: tell me what you think of this font for the save the dates HoHoYeol sent a Photo HoHoYeol[6:14 PM]: also look at the pics my talented, beautiful, perfect, gorgeous countess took of you for the mailer HoHoYeol sent a Photo HoHoYeol sent a Photo HoHoYeol sent a Photo HoHoYeol sent a Photo HoHoYeol[6:15 PM]: ISNT SHE AMAZING??? HoHoYeol[6:15 PM]: you look good too!!!!!

‘Always so early, Duchess.’

At the sound of Jongin’s voice, your body and soul stand to attention, spine tingling simply from the way his tongue kisses syllables. The richness of his tone drips over your skin, warming you down to your toes like liquid gold poured down and deep. Lifting your gaze from your phone, you both smile as your eyes meet, his own pulling wide across his face as though he were ascending dawn. Odd, you think, for he so often reminds you of the sun.

He approaches you with casual grace, delicate steps that appear almost weightless, carried towards you on the wings of desire. Behind him, his coat flaps in the wind he creates with his movements, and you are briefly reminded of flight, of motion, and of the day he asked you to marry him.

Absentmindedly, you tap your ring finger against the cup once more.

‘Aren't you cold?’ he asks as he approaches you, arms outstretched and aching to hold you.

You reach for him, body moving forward naturally in on its own as though he were your moon. ‘Not anymore,’ you murmur softly as you burrow into his neck.

No, you were not cold, but any moment without his touch feels brutal enough to numb you.

Stepping back slightly, he tucks two fingers under your chin to tilt your gaze upwards. For a moment, he hesitates, eyes scanning over your features as though memorizing you and this moment. Something like adrenaline begins to flare in your blood, but he does not give you long to ruminate over the feeling.

He presses his lips over yours and hums into the kiss, chaste and soft, but warm with delight. Leaning into the kiss, you smile against his lips, both of you beginning to giggle for seemingly no reason - overjoyed by the feeling, the season, each other. Through your coat, you feel his fingers pressing and rubbing circles against your waist, a habit he he adopted the first time he kissed you.

As you release a contented sigh, the noises around you begin to dissolve, the sound of your own heart beating serving to ground you in the moment. It reminds you you're alive, that this is living, and time moves only when you will it so, as long as you're with him.

But almost instantly, the moment is broken and fractured, the buzzing of your phone piercing the moment with a sharp, upward ding.

‘Yeol again?’ Jongin asks, moving his lips over your jaw to rest his head against your shoulder.

Peering over his head, you lift your hand to glance at the screen. He's sent more pictures, more praises, mostly for his girlfriend but many for you.

Laughing at all his enthusiasm, you step away from Jongin to scroll through his texts.

‘Yeah, with the pics for the mailer,’ you say distractedly, stopping on a rather jovial picture of you and Jongin. Turning your phone to show him, you beam. ‘Aren't we cute!’

As Jongin studies the picture, you study him, watch the way his gaze seems to pause and linger. Visibly, he seems to soften, impassive expression overruled by the one he reserves just for you, one that's easy to miss and lasts only for a moment.

As though remembering himself, he pulls back with a grin and shakes himself free of awe.

‘I like that one,’ is all he says, but weight of his words, the gentle and smooth way he says it, means his heart has been set. He turns towards the door, gesturing for you to follow him. ‘Sometimes I think he's more excited than you are about this wedding.’

Tapping out a reply, you glance up to see Jongin holding the door for you. ‘You know he likes to be involved,’ you remind him, walking quickly through the door and scrunching your nose slightly at the abrupt scent of cinnamon. ‘I just want to be married.’

‘I know,’ he says, following behind. ‘I just can't imagine what he'll be like when it's his turn.’ Pausing beside you, he does a quick once over of the store before nodding his head. ‘Over there.’

Putting your phone in your pocket, you move with Jongin and answer his rhetorical question. ‘A mess,’ you giggle affectionately. ‘Like, even more than he is now.’

As though magining Chanyeol on his wedding day, Jongin barks out an endeared laugh. ‘Well, rest while you can.’

With brisk steps he leads you over to a section devoted to ornaments, the wall lined with rows and rows of choices ranging from comical to sentimental. Fondly, you smile at each, remembering briefly how you selected ornaments for your first shared tree. Jongin was anxious with excitement then, jovial but keeping it contained beneath his skin so as not to make the wrong choice. He was careful then, as he seemingly is now, his arms crossed cover his chest as his brow tenses in thought.

You eye him quizzically, waiting for an explanation as you already selected ornaments weeks ago, with slightly less diligence. Lost in thought, he does not turn to meet your gaze, and you bring your attention to the wall before you. Almost instantly your eyes settle on a small, plastic ornament in the shape of an airplane. A sinking feeling opens in your stomach, your heart clenching in regret. This was not the ornament you selected for this year, but it should have been, it could have been, had you only seen it when you were looking. Reaching out to touch it, you let your fingers gently graze the plastic, remembering.

‘Okay,’ Jongin announces brightly, bending over quickly to pick up a box. ‘What do you think?’

Straightening, he shows you his selection with a satisfied grin. He’s proud of this, wrinkles forming around his eyes and a laugh threatening to spill over from his lips, cheeks puffing with the strain. Lightly, he shakes the box, jiggling it happily as he watches you take it in. You glance at the ornament and then at him, silent and still, feeling slightly shellshocked.

Chewing your inner cheek, you read the words on the box over and over as you try to quell the thousand questions burning on your tongue. It’s not a mistake, you realize as your cheek begins to bleed. You did not read it wrong. In plain letters, the words BABY’S FIRST CHRISTMAS are printed in cursive, and etched into the glass moon of the ornament.

Finding your voice, you step back slightly, giving yourself a bit of distance from the object. ‘Do you know something I don’t?’

‘No,’ he shrugs happily. ‘Just, what do you think?’

Nodding as you keep your eyes trained on the words, you keep your expression impassive as you struggle though disbelief. ‘I think I’m not pregnant,’ you state plainly.

‘I know,’ he nods eagerly, not seeming to give in to your confusion. ‘But what do you think?’

‘I think it’s lovely, but -’

Jongin cuts your words off with a delighted laugh. ‘This is the one!’

Bewildered, you watch him move quickly to the counter, and wait patiently for him to say it was a joke, that he is kidding. But the clerk scans the box and he reaches for his wallet, nonchalant and without any heaviness or hesitation in his fingers. It’s when the cashier smiles at him, offers words of congratulations, that you feel your body moving while Jongin accepts her well wishes with glee.

‘What is happening?’ you murmur as you reach his side, words sounding more like a hiss than a question.

He rocks back and forth on his toes, his hand rubbing gently along the hem of your coat. ‘I’m buying an ornament,’ is his simple reply.

You huff, leaning your weight onto one foot as you watch the cashier bag the item. ‘You’re not just buying an ornament.’

‘I know,’ he says, suddenly serious. ‘I’m buying the best ornament. I’m so glad you agree.’

‘Jongin -’

Once again, he cuts you off, holding out his arm for you to take with a wide smile. ‘Shall we?’

You’re silent as Jongin leads you away from the shop with confident steps, hurried and impatient. Beside him, you move quickly to keep up with him, mind racing with too many questions for your hands to catch. This, you know, has been planned for ages, whatever this is. Always, he’s been like this, perceptive and observant when it comes to gifts, the objects themselves ranging from small to grand, nothing selected without careful, devoted thought.

But when he is like this, excited and anxious, eyes narrowed and heart on a mission, he is standing on the precipice of monumental change. The first time you saw him like this was the night he kissed you, and then again when he proposed. When his jaw clenches and his fingers hold yours a little too tightly, that’s when you start to brace for a shift. The world is moving around you as you move within it, and you cannot help but feel unprepared.

Children was not something you discussed, not with any serious intent. In passing you’ve discussed your desires, teased casually with each other about the future, but you had assumed the notion was a long way off, an undertaking for a different day. And while the light in his eyes when he’s like this makes your heart swell and your soul fall a little bit more in love, the confusion gathering in your veins makes you feel overwhelmed and somewhat frantic.

‘The restaurant is the opposite direction,’ you offer after a while, studying his reaction to the words.

He does not turn to meet your gaze, instead leads you around a corner of an unfamiliar street. ‘This is a shortcut.’

‘Jongin,’ you say sharply, wincing slightly at the harshness of your tone. Unphased, he simply chuckles at your side. ‘What the hell is going on?’

‘We’re having a date!’

‘Why are you so cheery about my confusion?’ you pout, trying unsuccessfully to surrender to surprise.

‘Because it’s adorable,’ he beams, turning finally to gaze at you. Propelled forward by his motion, you bump into his chest and let yourself become enveloped in his embrace. ‘You’re so pink and frustrated.’

You cling to him, hoping for reassurance and understanding, trying to let yourself feel surprised with this date. Somewhere, excitement begins to build, and you try to focus on it, to release the disappointment of a meal at your favourite restaurant, and to give over to trust. Breathing in the scent of his cologne, you steady yourself, let your fingers wind tightly in the fabric of his coat.

Jongin would not make a choice this large, not without conversation and certainly not without you. A simple fact, a heady truth, and one that makes the tension in your muscles relax.

‘I’m not pink,’ you whine into his chest.

His lips come to the crown of your head, pressing a kiss to your hair before pulling into a smile. ‘You’re very pink,’ he whispers, and you grin at the sensation of his breath moving individual strands, tickling you with his non-touch. ‘We’re here by the way.’

Stepping back to look at him, you study his expression momentarily, taking in the flush at his cheeks and the emotions that glisten in his eyes. Wherever he has taken you is meaningful, heavy, makes him suck his bottom lip between his teeth to keep from explaining everything all at once. Bouncing slightly, he studies you in return, willing you to want this gift as much as he does, and you think seeing him like this, boyish and wild, makes you limitless.

It does not matter what he gives you because it is an extension of his love, and his love makes you boundless.

Glancing up at the storefront, you realize with a start it is not a store at all. On a vinyl awning spanning the length of the building, the letters ASPCA are printed in blue letters. It hits you all at once, and paradoxically does not come at all, your mind blanking as your mind rushes to form words.

‘Jongin,’ you whisper, not taking your eyes off the letters. ‘What is this?’

It is not the question you want to ask, not even the question you meant to ask, rather it is an amalgam of every question, every thought you are able to formulate. Memories swim, some vivid and some faded, formless things you can no longer entirely recall, but all containing the wish of something to love. How long had you talked about it, the silence in the house that could be filled by such a small thing? Years, you think, perhaps from the moment you moved in together. Perhaps, from the moment you met.  

‘I know it’s super early, but…’ Jongin’s voice leaves him, emotions turning it thick before it disappears completely.

Turning your gaze back to him, you see how relieved he is for you to know the truth, a weight seemingly lifted from his shoulders. It’s the most relaxed you’d seen him in weeks, the giving over to wonder and bliss.

‘Jongin.’ His name on your lips feels like enough, feels like a gift in itself, and it’s all you can manage before he breaks from you to head inside.

‘Hi,’ he says as he reaches the reception, ‘I’m here to pick up Abby?’

The sound of the name sparks something within you that traverses the line between terror and elation, and you briefly think on how those emotions feel the same, relying entirely on context.

‘I’m sorry,’ he explains, turning to see your somewhat blank expression and starting to panic, words coming in a rush. ‘I know we should have talked about it and chosen together, but I saw her and thought she was perfect. And then I came here two weeks ago and met her and she’s completely perfect. I just - ’

Your gasp of surprise cuts of him off, the sight of a kind looking young woman carrying a Corgi puppy in her arms. Abby wiggles excitedly at the sight of you and Jongin, as though recalling Jongin and wanting to be with him once more. She’s a flash of tan and white, small and beautiful.

Moving past Jongin, you greet her with wide, wet eyes.

‘Hello,’ you coo, running a finger over her snout and laughing at the softness.

‘Sit with her,’ the assistant says, lowering Abby to the floor and handing you the lead as she turns to Jongin. ‘We can finish up the paperwork.’

Lowering yourself to the floor, you let Abby walk around you in circles as she sniffs. It takes a mighty effort, not reaching for her and simply letting her learn you in her own time. But she takes to you quickly, just as eager as you to be in your lap and in your arms, her tiny body trying to climb over your legs.

‘Let me help you,’ you laugh softly, lifting her gently to rest in your lap.

The warm of her fur feels like holding a small sun, and your heart skips at the familiar sensation, just like when you hold Jongin close. Immediately, you see her as family, as the missing piece of a life with him you did not know had been absent. As though she cannot get enough of you, she crawls up to your chest, paws pressing into you in earnest to get and remain close. She yelps for your attention, happy and excited and desperate to love you, and so you lift her, cuddle her into your chest and laugh as her warm tongue glides along your jaw.

Like this, you fall into your own world, eyes closed and falling in love all over again. Abby’s heartbeat races against your chest, fragile and delicate like a hummingbird, while your own heart opens and makes room to fit her inside, easily and without question.

Rustled movement catches your attention, and you open your eyes to see Jongin settling to kneel before you. Eyes wide, he watches the way Abby turns her attention to him, conflicted, as as though she is eclipsing two suns, unable to discern where her focus should lie. His expression matches your own, one of pure love and adoration, a flush creeping up his neck as he struggles to keep his composure.

Reaching out to stroke her head, he speaks quietly, reverently. ‘I know how much you always wanted a Corgi, and -’

‘She’s perfect,’ you whisper in response, unable to tear your eyes from her small form.

For a while, he remains silent and lets the world fade, wrapping you both in a bubble of protective adoration. ‘I know,’ comes his eventual, quiet reply.

‘Is she really ours?’ you ask, looking up at him finally.

Wetness runs down your cheeks, making your brow furrow. You don’t know when you started crying.

‘Mostly,’ Jongin hums, scratching under Abby’s chin. Luxuriating in his touch momentarily, she walks between you and he, eager for both of your hands. ‘She’s yours.’

Ours, you think, the love you feel for them both unable to be contained by the confines of your heart. ‘You couldn’t wait, could you?’

It’s unlike him, really, to give gifts so early. Tradition consumes his actions, making meaning behind every gift and every thought, but this, you think, is how everyday with him will be. Unremarkable days suddenly becoming extraordinary simply because he makes them so. This gift was yours as much as his, a readiness to call you his family and build it further consuming his every thought.

Like this, he is no longer able to contain his love for you, his desperation to keep you in a perpetual state of bliss bordering on urgent.

‘Do you really think I could?’ he says, sheepishly.

At this, you laugh, letting Abby nuzzle into your palm The softness of her softens your entire reality, your voice filling with warmth. ‘You’re turning into Yeol.’

Shaking his head, he lets his hand rub circles over Abby’s rump. ‘It’s you, Duchess,’ he urges, gently, peering at you bashfully through his eyelashes.

Cocking your head to the side, you hear his words and let yourself swoon. ‘It’s you, too.’

No, you think. It’s us.

[prodyoongi]

tagged by @mostlymin! Thank youuu!!  I’ll tag @jimincubus​ @sweetopiaa​ @uchyu​ @clairelions​

LAST

1. drink - sprite 

2. 📱call - my brother bc I lost him in Target lmao

3. text - mom

4. song you listened to - So What, BTS (lmao it just came out on SSBTS, so I played it)

4. time you 😢- honestly idek. I don’t cry often.

HAVE YOU EVER

6. dated someone twice - no

7. 😘 someone & regretted it - oh my god yes, I had 1 kiss open the biggest can of worms in the world and it was not worth it

8. been cheated on - nope

9. lost someone special - my soulmate :(

10. been depressed - yes

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - I’ve gotten drunk a few times, but only once to throwing up. That’s.......a story lmao.

FAVOURITE COLOURS

12. mauve

13. pale pink

14. olive green

15. black

in the last year have you

16. made new friends - Mhm :)

17. fallen out of love - I haven’t been in love this year, so no

18. 😂 until you 😢- I did on Sunday

19. found out someone was talking about you - yeah lmao 

20. met someone who changed you - umm....does a boss count? I guess?

21. found out who your friends were - I found out who they weren’t

22. 😘 someone on your facebook friends list - nope

GENERAL

23. how many friends from your facebook friends list do you know irl - all of them except for like 5 or 6

24. do you have any pets - my puppy Kevin

25. do you want to change your middle name - No, sometimes I wish it was my first name

26. what did you do for your last birthday - nothing really *shruggg* had some cake. 

27. what time did you wake up today - 9:30 am

28. what were you doing last night at midnight - watching a KDrama with my sister

29. what is something you can’t wait for - KCon & the BTS concert!

30. what are you listening to right now - no music, master chef on TV

31. have you every talked to a person named tom - yup, and I have a new baby cousin named Tommy

32. something that gets on your nerves - people chewing, esp ice

33. most visited website - this, youtube, and twitter probably

34. hair color - dark brown

35. long hair or short hair - long, sometimes when I sit I feel my hair tickling the inside of my waistband

36. do you have a crush on someone - yeah and it’s literally pointless, so I redirect the energy to my biases

37. what do you like about yourself - my personality/discipline, my hair, my lips, and my skin

38. want any piercings - I have my ears pierced but I want more ear piercings

39. blood type - I think A or AB, I don’t remember

40. nicknames - Jay is a nickname actually. some work friends call me queen/queenie. 

41. relationship status - single af

42. zodiac - sagittarius (capricorn moon & scorpio rising, which are more accurate than sagittarius sun imho)

43. pronouns - she/her

44. favorite 📺 show - south park

45. tattoos - none but Im developing one. It’ll be bts themed and double as a memorial to the above mentioned soulmate that passed away. I also want one that says bapsae in hangul, for a few reasons.

46. right handed or left - right handed

47. ever had surgery - yes, eye & oral surgery

48. piercings - lobes

49. sports - I watch baseball p much every day and played & coached softball

50. vacation - my best vacation was my month long tour of England. My friend is trying to organize a trip in 2019 to vietnam, korea, and singapore for us though.

51. trainers - I think this is referring to shoes lmao. I have a pink suede pair of adidas.

MORE GENERAL

52. eating - nothing. I haven’t actually eaten today and it’s 10 pm. something I take in the morning curbs my appetite heavily and I forget to eat every day unless I’m made to.

53. drinking - nothing, but I’m gunna get some tea.

54. i’m about to watch - I’m gunna watch a kdrama with my sister soon

55. waiting for - kcon

56. want - hm....something cold to drink. The thing I take also gives me dry mouth.

57. get married - ive always imagined myself getting married at 28. Idk why. I’m single tho so. idk, marriage isn’t high on my priority list.

58. career - advanced english teacher :)

WHICH IS BETTER

59. kisses or hugs - kisses. I had a kiss dream last night andddddd yeah.

60. 👄 or eyes - I’ve noticed that lips/smiles were the first think I noticed on all my biases (yoongi, vernon, yukhei) so lips

61. shorter or taller - everyone is taller than me so its not even a question. 

62. older or younger - i don’t care. I’ve actually only dated people younger than me.

63. nice arms or stomach - arms

64. hookup or relationship - relationship.

65. troublemaker or hesitant - troublemaker.

HAVE YOU EVER

66. 😘 a stranger - nope

67. drank hard liquor - yes.

68. lost glasses - uhh...idk if I’ve ever lost sunglasses, but i don’t have regular glasses

69. (oof). turned someone down - many times.

70. sex on a first date - hard no

71. broken someone’s ❤️- many times. not proud of it, but it’s all people I’ve given fair warning so i’m not stressed over it

72. had your 💔- yes.

73. been arrested - lmao no

74. 😢 when someone died - more than I’ve ever cried in my life

75. fallen for a friend - kinda? no close friends tho.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

76. yourself - yes

77. miracles - yes. they aren’t common, but yeah.

78. 💛at first sight - nooooo. maybe attraction at first sight, but definitely not love.

79. 🎅- no

80. 😘on a first date - uhhh, depends honestly. especially depends on how I knew the person prior. Like if it was someone I had been pining over for a while, and it was the first time on a date, sure. If it was like a blind date, prob not, but who knows?

81. angels - 200000% yes, it’s like the foundation of my religion and identity. I couldn’t cope if I didn’t.

other

82. best friends name - her name was harmonie, and she won’t stop being my best friend just because she’s no longer on earth.

83. eye color - almost black

84. favorite movie - the godfather

85. favorite actor - leonardo dicaprio

[panrich]

I was tagged by @mikecalledfor353days n @elevenstrash ya lil cuties

1. last drink: water

2: last phone call: a friend ringing me to wake up lmao

3. last text message?: I’m glad to know you’re okay

4. last song you listened to: ozone by chase atlantic, my sister’s white boy music but this song is actually good

5. last time you cried?: Like a month ago maybe

6. dated someone twice?: no

7. kissed someone and regretted it: no,,

8. been cheated one?: no

9. lost someone special?: yes

10. been depressed?: let’s be real

11. gotten drunk and thrown up?: Unfortunately lmao

12. Fave colors?: Black, yellow, red

15. made new friends?: yehh, and I’m sorry that I haven’t been on /talking to you guys but I’ll try change that

16. fallen out of love?: yes

17. laughed until you cried?: Definitely

18. found out someone was talking about you?: In what way cos, maybe

19. met someone who changed you?: yes

20. found out who your friends are?: yes

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list? yes

general:

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl?: M ost of them

23. do you have any pets?: 2 family cats

24. do you want to change your name?: Yes and no, i’d rather something more unique

25. what did you do for your last birthday?: House party at my house, a truely wild night

26. what time did you wake up today?: 2:30 pm

27. what were you doing at midnight last night?: Talkin to a beautiful girl

28. what is something that you can’t wait for?: Summer. Gonna be so fuckin lit

30. what are you listening to right now?: One earphone in, twin talking to her friend beside me, other sister is talking about Millie Bobbie brown and Jacob satorious n how scandalous it is

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom?: I went clubbing at my friends uni last weekend and one of the guys we did pre drinks with was called Tom. Funny guy

32. something getting on your nerves?: Oh hell yeah

33. most visited website?: pornhub, definitely

34. hair color?: pink

35. long or short hair: longish

36. do you have a crush on someone?: Yes

37. what do you like about yourself?: Idk my quirky humour and self awareness

38. want any piercings: yes, need to find a time to do it

39. blood type: AB or B I think

40. nicknames: mel, toulouse

41. relationship status: single

42. zodiac: libra

43. pronouns: they/them

44. fave tv show: the Office, big bang theory, stranger things

45. tattoos: nope but I want em

46. right or left handed: right

47. ever had surgery: no

48 . piercings: ears

49. sport: i like rounders, volleyball and football

50. vacation: ? i want to go to germany, the netherlands, Japan. Everywhere

51. trainers: checkered vans

more general

52. Eating: chinese

53. drinking: water

54. im about to watch: the office

55. waiting for: next friday, clubbing f un

56. want: tommy hilfiger coat, a payed job, more hours in the day

57. get married?: Ah not likely but

58. career: script writer, counsellor, novelist, who knows

59. hugs or kisses: kisses ;)

60. lips or eyes: eyes but its close

61. shorter or taller: taller

62. older or younger: older?

63. nice arms or stomach: uh i don’t ,, mind

64. hookup or relationship: depends. relationship I guess

65. troublemaker or hesitant: I’m a good mix of both

66. kissed a stranger: yes

67. drank hard liquor: yes

68. Lost glasses: yeah sadly

69. turned someone down: yes

70. sex on the first date: no

71. broken someones heart: yes

72. had your heart broken: yes

73. been arrested: nearly lmao

74. cried when someone died: yes

75. fallen for a friend: yes

do you believe in…

76. yourself: sometimes

77. miracles: yes

78. love at first sight: not love but u know

79. santa claus: no but i wiSh i did

80. kiss on a first date: yea a

81. Angels?: No but is a nice thought

82. best friend’s name: yulia

83. eye color: eye

84. fave movie: rush hour

85. fave actor: h m too many but maybe cillian murphy

Tagging: @officiallyreddie @softboyuris @kaspsbrak @wheezyboykaspbrak @delicateloser @80sgeorgiedenbrough @reddie-my-gay-heart @tozierbrak

[bartholomaus]

islanda topic

trupe de rock islandeze: dimma, katla, solstafir, kontinuum, krauka, skalmold, Næturdýrð, Ég brenn

Þorfinnur Kalrefni, Brennu Njáll is one Icelandic figure I like also, and Gunnar á Hlíðarenda

Check out Bárðar Saga

Tough question, I had to remember the name as I it's a long time since I read the book. He is Danish but was king of Iceland for a short time. Jörundur Hundadagakonungur.

I'd say Völsungarsaga, and of course hávamál and völuspá I've read several times.

[7:52 PM] Dómsdagur: Around 1500 my great great grandpa wrote a book called "Bjart er yfir Breiðafjörð" and it's his life story and older and it goes back to his great great  great grandapa It's so cool reading the book

[7:53 PM] unknown: i would like to read it if i could know icelandic haha so cool for real very interesting

[7:54 PM] Dómsdagur: There is a chapter around 1800 where his father and grandpa are out in Látrabjarg getting eggs from birds and stuff and then there come french ppl and try to steal so they kill them all and then there come more french ppl and it's basically a 4 v 18 and they win all of them and then the French come and try to sue for the murder but like since they came illegally they couldn't do anything so the case was dropped it's really fun too read

[7:55 PM] unknown: no way hahahaha what an amazing story. I would buy 10/10 - take my money please

[7:55 PM] Dómsdagur: hahaha There is not much said about the battle other than before they started fighting 3 of them are arguing with the french while the fourth goes and destroyes their guns so they can actually fight and then the guns are destroyed and he gives them the signal to start fighting and his grandpa grabs the beard of one of the french and rips it all off from neck to nose thus killing him lmao

[7:57 PM] unknown: so hardcore I like this fighting the filthy invaders haha :valor: :mjolner:

[7:58 PM] Dómsdagur: Yeah it's realy fun 2 read the book I've read it three times now

[7:58 PM] unknown: well it's a fact that Icelanders 1-10 publish a book in their life but this one is so cool so cool to read what your ancestors did... they went to hunt and then they killed some french, cool asf and they say some info about your first ancestors that its documented? Like what he worked, stuff like this?

[8:01 PM] Dómsdagur: mmm, not sure really My whole father side was raised in the country land so idk

[8:02 PM] unknown: I remember a scene from an old Faroese documentary when a guy with a rope on the cliffs was taking the eggs from birds. So your story came like a glove with the images I saw haha you like to live on the country side or at city?

[8:04 PM] Dómsdagur: That's exactly how it was they were on the cliff tied the rope and go down and grab eggs from the bird s like we have a house in Laxárdalur 20 km from Búðardalur if you check the map and I reallly like it there but I also like being in the city I was raised like 70/30 city and country side

[8:06 PM] unknown: wow  I also found Eiríksstaðir and his reconstructed house

[8:06 PM] Dómsdagur: And also not far from Búðardalur there is Hlíðarendi Where Gunnar á Hlíðarendi lived it's really cool visiting that place it's so nice

[8:07 PM] unknown: also the house you have in Laxárdalur is an old one? I saw just some ugly modernistic cabins that I dislike not a big fan of modernism so to say I like the old things

[8:08 PM] Dómsdagur: there are many houses there little towns many ppl live there

[8:08 PM] unknown: the view is great what's the best view you ever saw in iceland? from where?

[8:10 PM] Dómsdagur: Check out Reynisfjara

Týr The only god who dared to feed Fenrisúlfur

Grafarkirkja was built in 1680 otherwise there is Víðimýrakirkja built ca 1300

[1:29 PM] Dómsdagur: Bárðar saga, Brennu Njáls saga Grettis saga Those are the main ones You can check out http://sagamap.is It’s a really good website with all the books and a map So you can see the location of each event I use it for school and really reccommend it

ogfalkinn book

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[2:19 PM] Dómsdagur: If you really want to and have the ambition you could

It's a hunting trip for the whale "Grindhvalur" - grindadrap

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[2:56 PM] Dómsdagur: Faroese language is probably the funniest language I've heard or read It's like listening to a autistic Icelandic person

[2:57 PM] Dómsdagur: If you  haven't seen or heard it before you think they're mentally ill and first time reading faroese, you think to your self that you may have a concussion, forgot how to read or have dyslexia or smth Like How are you doing in icelandic Hvernig hefur þú það? In faroese Hvussu gengur tað? Hvussu = Hvernig = how Gengur = how something is going in that expression how are you doing like yeah it's retarded if you don't know it's faroese You think to yourself you think to go to a mental hospital

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[2:51 PM] Dómsdagur: I can take out words but the sentence doesn't make sense for me It's like reading a retarded poem there is a secret meaning behind it

[2:52 PM] Dómsdagur: but The first one I understand Þykir mér ekki þess vert að deyja Vert is interesting so yeah ekki vert = not interesting or like it says doesn't mind

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[2:38 PM] Dómsdagur: Also a old one and it came in the shows Vikings Það mælti mín Móðir old icelandic is Þat mælti min moðir I htink poem after Egil Skalla-Grímsson but it can be sung https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=

here is a calm version

[2:40 PM] unknown: I came across once on this song

[2:40 PM] Dómsdagur: I really like this one Since Egil Skalla-Grímsson is one of my favorite ones of the icelandic legends

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[8:23 PM] unknown: Hello! Have you ever used  islendingabok.is? I saw it on a site that you can trace your genealogy and stuff like this. Just asking, since you are an Icelander and you can use it haha

[8:24 PM] Dómsdagur: yeah we use it everytime we meet someone new I legit almost use it daily

[8:24 PM] unknown: I see, but did they trace your genealogy since a Clan or somethin

[8:24 PM] Dómsdagur: uhmm just dna rolling back I can see that Ketill Flatnefur who went with Hrafna flóki the founders of icealnd are my ancestors

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Ahh yes, the mythical viking. Just a side note, the show Vikings is just awful.

Icelandic people emmigrated from Norway around the year 800–900, because Norway with its many kings and communities was at war and war is not cheap, so you had heavy taxes and war and killings. So they packed everything, and I mean everything, all sheep, cattle, cats and dogs, as no such animal was on Iceland back then, only fish and birds. They even took down their houses and barns.

Iceland is both a very giving country and then it takes everything you own and crushes it. Like a bully that gives you a piece of gum, and then sends you to the hospital because he beat the living daylights out of you.

Good summers are plentiful, so are harsh winters. Over the years Icelandic people had to break apart their ships so they would not freeze, and build and fix houses. There were most likely no big forests back then. So we became very isolated until around 1200, when the Norwegian king decided that all Norwegians should be under his rule, by then Norway had become one kingdom, no small feat. Then a big civil war broke out. Mainly two large factions, the Sturlas and people following Gissur Þorvaldsson (Thorvaldsson). No Icelandic person came out healthy after this, a lot of people died and suffered fate worse, missing hands and legs. A lot more work for fewer people. In the end, we surrendered to the Norwegian King.

Yes, Icelandic people were Vikings, meaning they were from northern Europe and they were mostly farmers, that’s all.

The Vikings depicted in all the stories and are claimed to have attacked Scotland and Ireland, even England were mostly Norwegians. There are a few stories of a handful of Icelandic people who joined such travels. This is all Norwegians. Swedes on the other hand in the Viking era, they built churches in other countries and as far as I know, never went raiding.

So. Are we the real vikings ? If you consider people who were stuck on a rock in the middle of the Atlantic ocean, working like dogs in the summer and freezing and starving in the winter, vikings, then yes, we are. If people who almost died out because of volcanic outburst when the whole island almost ripped in two and a huge volcano burst, in the middle of an extreme frost winter which killed more than half of the population, then again when the plague and other sicknesses came and visited which killed large portion of those who did not starve to death. Many summers where there was little to no harvest. If that makes us vikings, then yes, we are vikings.

We did find North America if that is a thing, there were people there who had found it before but did not tell anyone.

Vikings on TV and in reality share nothing, I am sorry to burst that bubble. People were very hard working, all the time, all days, every day, men, women, kids, no vacation, no mercy. These raids were not that many and were often done as a last resort to get land, money and crops, something that starving people do.

Real vikings are people who were covered in lice, were starving, dirt poor, taxed and required to join a battle just because the king was in a bad mood and freezing during winters, all in all, we were very similar to people living in Europe, just living on a rock that really wanted us dead.

[aroihkin]

The saga of Sapphire’s fucking idiot light.

[8:37 AM] Aroihkin: I have to at least bitterly enjoy the irony, that Sapphire only failed smog due to the check engine light being out -- it passed everything the light would come on for [8:38 AM] Aroihkin: I've wrestles it onto functionality but a damn light lmao [9:05 AM] Aroihkin: they're taking a while to find the reason damn(edited) [9:18 AM] Aroihkin: hhhh [9:19 AM] Aroihkin: lays on the floor I'm trapped at a mechanic shop while they figure out my dumb check engine light [9:20 AM] Aroihkin: which makes me think it isn't something I could have tackled in the weekend bc it's been about an hour :< [9:34 AM] Aroihkin: Weh it's the fucking instrument module [9:34 AM] Aroihkin: the bulb isn't serviceable the whole thing has to swap out :I [9:35 AM] Aroihkin: fuckin modern cars and their over abundance of electronics lmao [9:35 AM] Aroihkin: dude: the funny thing is this car is pretty basic that way [9:35 AM] Aroihkin: me: not as basic as my festiva [9:36 AM] Aroihkin: dude: yeahhhhh [9:36 AM] Aroihkin: lmao [9:37 AM] Aroihkin: non serviceable parts drive me nuts(edited) [9:38 AM] Aroihkin: I saw the module too it's sealed af [3:54 PM] Aroihkin: hh [3:56 PM] Aroihkin: this fucking light that I don't even need because I pay attention to my car, has already cost me 175 dollars and it ain't done yet [3:57 PM] Aroihkin: but it has to be able to light up, by law [3:57 PM] Aroihkin: so since I'm registering and transferring it [3:57 PM] Aroihkin: it has to pass this idiot check [3:58 PM] Aroihkin: or it won't be road legal mid April :'] [3:59 PM] Aroihkin: it's kinda infuriating considering how well I maintain my shit [3:59 PM] Aroihkin: they won't give me CA plates without the ffff-light [4:01 PM] Aroihkin: I feel like a car that has OBD2 which is all of them newer than I believe 1996, shouldn't legally require the check engine light in order to pass smog [4:01 PM] Aroihkin: bc you can get a $20 scanner plug it into the OBD2 port and your car will dump info on your head lmao [4:02 PM] Aroihkin: I mean I understand why it's a law, I really do [4:02 PM] Aroihkin: I'm just :'))))))) save me [4:04 PM] Aroihkin: most of my frustration is like... thanks daewoo for making parts that aren't serviceable and have to be replaced completely because one tiny bulb blew out I appreciate your choices as a manufacturer [4:05 PM] Aroihkin: it's like if every time a headlight bulb went out we had to get a whole new headlight, and can't even get it used because this part has to be assigned to my VIN by the manufacturer [4:05 PM] Aroihkin: what a fuckin scheme [4:06 PM] Aroihkin: they soldered the bulb straight into the PCB and then sealed the unit and VIN stamped it like why [4:07 PM] Aroihkin: we know why, it's $$$$ [4:07 PM] Aroihkin: but fuck [4:08 PM] Aroihkin: this is why no modern car will replace Jack for me, the serviceability is on point [4:10 PM] Aroihkin: Jack is a resurrected a/c, new brakes/suspension swap, new lights, and an installed power steering motor away from doing everything just as good as Saph which is 13 years younger [4:10 PM] Aroihkin: which granted is a lot of work [4:10 PM] Aroihkin: but it's all shit I can do myself over time [4:11 PM] Aroihkin: and guess what I can say about all them upgrades once they're on? all of it will be serviceable [4:11 PM] Aroihkin: I'm not even like truly mad just resigned and annoyed [4:12 PM] Aroihkin: Saph is a good little car I just wish its engineers weren't a bunch of fucks(edited) [4:14 PM] Aroihkin: it was a cheap car new, but so was Jack :I they added more features in the economy market but made it harder to maintain [4:15 PM] Aroihkin: which obvs it's for turnaround [4:16 PM] Aroihkin: no one wants people to keep the same car past a decade or two, then they don't get as much money [5:16 PM] Aroihkin: according to my mother a lot of people trade in their cars after like six years and start their loan debt over again [5:17 PM] Aroihkin: like holy hell [5:17 PM] Aroihkin: talk about the endless cycle of debt

I trimmed out the other person since I didn’t ask if they were cool with me posting this but basically this is what’s been up with Sapphire’s registration. The Monday before last, I had the shop order the sealed module, and I’ve gotten up early four different days when it was supposed to be in and ready to be installed, only to find out today after a few calls that oops the place they’re getting the part from had to manufacture it and it should be in tomorrow.

...

All of this for a fucking check engine light I’m screaming. :]

Oh and the module is $105, installing it is $125, and a new smog check for it to pass will be about $60 so this one stupid LED will have cost me a hair over $400 when it’s all said and done. Just for that light that will probably never come on outside of a second when starting the car.

It’s frustrating but at least I have the money to cover it. And it’s not a repair I can do myself because of the very nature of the sealed module. I’m :]. I’d be so much less annoyed if this was like, to fix something functional.

At least everything else passed. I don’t think it would have when I first got it back, but I’ve been wrenching on it a lot.

The photo I posted earlier with the speedo/tacho in my hand was my morning of pulling things apart looking for the fucking module with the idea of going to pick-n-pull in Modesto and yanking the thing out of the 04 aveo they have there and hoping it fits an 05 and that it works. Which is still my plan tomorrow if they don’t actually receive my part! It won’t have my VIN but I doubt anyone will tear into the dash to check it.

And yeah everything went back together fine lmao. I lost a few screws into the dash but they just hold plastic trim so I don’t care right now. This one piece of plastic trim can deal with three screws in it instead of five, I think it’ll survive.

[atsumus-left-tit]

92 Truths

RULES: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you; at the end choose people to be tagged

i was tagged by @sapidsuga (my god this is the longest one you made me do lmao)

tagging: @religion-agustd @joy-bangtan @baeby-hyun

so much happening bellow here like damn 

last

1. drink - water 2. phone call - My dad, idk man I call him all the time he misses my sister an I.  3. text message - “YOU MEAN I GET TO HANG OUT WITH MY TWO LONGEST STANDING FRIENDS?!?! SOUNDS LIKE A FUCKING PLAN” lol my friend asking if she can hang out with me on my birthday because my other friend from Georgia is coming :DDD 4. song you listened to - Tightrope - Greatest Showman  5. time you cried - I think two weeks ago? panic attack, haven’t cried since because I habitually suppress my emotions :DD

ever

6. dated someone twice - nope 7. kissed someone and regretted it - Maybe? not so much regret I just hate PDA  8. been cheated on - nope 9. lost someone special - yea, but they ain’t special anymore  10. been depressed - :DD can you see the pain in those little eyes? yes.  11. gotten drunk and thrown up - no man I can’t do alcohol. Like just not my cup o tea

fave colours

12. green 13. blue 14. red

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes thank god  16. fallen out of love - nah?  I had a deep crush and that ended but I didn’t love em 17. laughed until you cried - yes, fucking you have no idea  18. found out someone was talking about you - nope 19. met someone who changed you - not really. Unless you count my therapist, then yea?  20. found out who your friends are - yes, let me fucking tell you.  21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - I don’t have FB

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - NA 23. do you have any pets - yes my dad has my dog pebbles while I am a sad bean in college  24. do you want to change your name - Okay so like I always have wanted to change it but idk what to. Katie always seemed too boring and Kathryn is nicer (probably because I never here it) but even then idk  25. what did you do for your last birthday - real talk, I cant fucking remember. I think my friends (the one I sent that text to) took me out for Korean food and I ate a lot of cake and watched a movie with my dad.  26. what time did you wake up today - dont judge me but like 1:30 PM its 2:30 now and I am still in bed lol... 

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - Watching Legends of Tomorrow, knitting, and petting my sleeping friends head. 

28. what is something you cant wait for - my period to fukin end. also maybe not be depressed? goals 30. what are you listening to right now - my roomate is asleep so I guess her breathing? and the AC is real loud.  31. have you ever talked to a person named tom -sad fucking life man Tom passed away 3 years ago now I am sad. 

32. something that’s getting on your nerves - so Liars is a big one, people who speak like they are better than you, people who play dumb to avoid talking to you directly lmao am I describing my abusive mother and my old friends? you bet I am :D

33. most visited website - youtube or tumblr or insta

34. hair colour - red/ strawberry blonde I like to let it fade. 

35. long or short hair - long af  36. do you have a crush on someone - nope 37. what do you like about yourself - my hair and my eyes 38. want any piercings? - fuck yes but I am also lazy and can’t be bothered to actually get it done.  39. blood type - awko IDK 40. nicknames - Katie  41. relationship status - single 42. zodiac - Aquarius  43. pronouns - she/her 44. fave tv shows - List could go on forever so I will just say currently watching Legends of Tomorrow to catch up to where I am on the Flash and Arrow.  45. tattoos - I plan on getting one with my sister and I designed my sisters tattoos.  46. right or left handed - Right 47. ever had surgery - no but I have sat in a MRI/CAT scan for several long and horrible hours.  48. piercings - nah 49. sport - nah 50. vacation - Literally anywhere. Rome and Seoul are my top two. Need to return to both.  51. trainers - Nike

more general

52. eating - A banana  53. drinking - water, that’s literally all I drink 54. i’m about to watch - Legends of Tomorrow but also I have too much homework 55. waiting for - My friend to figure out what the fuck she wants like damn I cant keep running circles around you.  56. want - My BFF to get here faster ;; Friday is so far 57. get married - not for a longgg time 58. career - IDK man something im comfortable with 

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - I hate physical contact, but I guess I like hugs?  60. lips or eyes - eyes 61. shorter or taller - Taller 62. older or younger - older 63. nice arms or stomach - Don’t matter? both? neither?  64. hookup or relationship - relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant - somehow both? Like I hesitate and then regret so the next time I fuck around and anxiety and just yes bad cycle. 

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - nah 67. drank hard liquor - yes it tastes like hand sanitizer fucking nasty  68. lost glasses - I don’t have glasses. but I lose sunglasses a lot.  69. turned someone down - nope 70. sex on first date - nope #virgin  71. broken someone’s heart - I hope not 72. had your heart broken - Romantically no? but in other ways yes.  73. been arrested - no that shit scares me 74. cried when someone died - hell yeah 75. fallen for a friend - nope

do you believe in

76. yourself - yes! If i don’t who will? 77. miracles -100% yes

78. love at first sight - hmmm I want to believe in it. 

79. santa claus - nope 80. kiss on a first date - sure why not 81. angels - yes

other

82. best friend’s name - AMELIA MIA WENJUN MINJI MUST I GO ON (this is all the same person lol @baeby-hyun ) 83. eye colour - greeeeeeen!! 84. fave movie - Greatest Showman 85. fave actor - It changes like my bias changes for BTS lmao

Random

86. if i could only eat 1 food for the rest of my life i’d choose salads

87. This is too fucking long I wanna go back to sleep 

88. seriously need to pee but nah

89. i love being alone but also dont wanna be alone ya know?

90. i love taking naps, more than going to sleep at night

91. I love the moon and staying up late

92. I have a lot of hatred in my heart

[i-mweakforchangkyun]

30 Questions Tag! 👌

I was tagged by my Dad™��� @officialyanan lov u lmao Rules: Answer the 30 questions listed and then tag whoever you like to answer them too!

Nicknames: Rom or Romcom are the main ones

Gender: Female

Star Sign: the ram my guy ♈️ an Aries 

Height: 165 cm the family shortass

Time: atm its 2:57 pm, optimal nap time

Birthday: 10th of April

Favourite Bands: M o n s t a x, NCT, Gorillaz, Florence and the Machine, the Pretty Reckless, Vixx, The Internet theres a lot sajkbkjfe

Favourite Solo Artists: yA  bOI D E AN WHAT A MA N, Hyuna is a god damn queen, Jessi, Loco, Jay Park and Heize

Song Stuck In My Head: currently its Calm Down by Monsta x holy shit what a jam jooheon gives life

Last Movie I Watched: u n f o r t u n a t e l y it was the Netflix Death Note movie, I’m,,, they,,, they're trying, I guess,, 

Last Show I Watched: Finally getting back into game of thrones, can't remember why I stopped tbh?

When Did I Create My Blog: A year and a bit ago wooooo

What Do I Post: a lot of stuff tbh it doesn't really stick to anything super specific, just things I like I suppose 

Last Thing I Googled: G Dragon sushi hair

Do You Have Other Blogs: Yeess I have a pastel aesthetic blog :) 

Do You Get Asks: lmao nope

Why Did You Choose Your URL: because one day I came to the realisation that I am weak for Changkyun

Following: 253 blogs~

Followers: ahh only 64 sjknfdskjrg

Favourite Colours: greeeeen~!! blue and purple too

Average Hours Of Sleep: uhh, anywhere between like 4 and 7? I think??

Lucky Number: 8 was usually a luck number for me idk

Instruments: I used to play the clarinet until my hands were too small to actually hit some notes bc some of the holes were just too far away even with all the metal things they put on it to help you IVE GOT REALLY SMALL HANDS MAN

What Am I Wearing: black shorts and a training top

How Many Blankets I Sleep With: Only 2, it changes in winter tho  

Dream Job: I’d love to work for a comic company, whether its helping draw the comics themselves or actually creating a story for them hjebsfsjrg

Dream Trip: A trip through Japan tbh, always wanted to go

Favourite Food: probably chocolate, could just munch through all of it

Nationality: am an Aussie 🇦🇺 

Favourite Song Right Now: S W E E T L I E S EXO HAS SNATCHED ME B A L D 

I tag: @artificialskyway @prince-soulee @soonyoungswife @fluffyyeollie @ravyeolii ❤️ feel free to do it if you'd like and if not thats all good :33

[tokyoknj]

a load of tags! ✨🌟☀️

lmao i was busy doing uni stuff but now i finally got round to these so Enjoy !

obviously u don’t have to do all of them just do whatever u feel u kno? anyway

i’m tagging u all up here lmao so i’m tagging @namsieur @wingscomeback @sugaegyc @sugasideup @sheloveskook @cryptidhobi @gaycypher @namjooniewifey @iluwonho @jiminsarroz @stigmz @dreamjimn @mochiminii let me know if u don’t want to be tagged in stuff like this !! 

get to know me tag

answer the 20 questions and tag 20 followers that you would like to know better.

i was tagged by @monnyoongi​ thank u zuza!

name: alice

nickname: i don’t really like any of my nicknames? lmao

zodiac sign: cancer

height: 5′8″

orientation: A Whole Bi

nationality: british

favourite fruit: mangos! 

favourite season: either summer or autumn

favourite flower: either roses or tulips

favourite scent: like just a fresh summer evening lmao

favourite colour: pink, red + orange

favourite animal: sharks !

average hours of sleep: i think 9?

favourite fictional character: clarice bean

number of blankets you sleep with: always just the one

dream trip: either dubrovnik, mykonos or the amalfi coast

blog created: last april

get to know me again

rules: answer 30 questions & tag 20 blogs you would like to know better

tagged by @yoongicrew​ thank u rena !!

1. nicknames: still none lol

2. gender: female

3. star sign: cancer

4. height: 5′8″

5. time: 4:24 pm

6. birthdate: july 21st

7. fave band(s): bts, blackpink, red velvet, lany

8. fave solo artist: gallant, Queen CRJ, kehlani

9. song currently stuck in my head: saw you in a dream - the japanese house

10. last movie watched: spiderman homecoming and i Loved it

11. last show watched: first dates

12. when I created this blog: last april

13. what I post: 95% kpop, 5% aesthetic

14. last thing I googled: “that flute song” still don’t know what the song is. its not mask off tho

15. any other blogs?: my aesthetic blog dadcrisis that i’ve had since like 2012... christ

16. do you get asks?: not very often but its all good

17. why I chose my url: i love mister rap monster

18. following: 919

19. followers: 809

20. fave colours: pink, red, orange

21. average hours of sleep: 9

22. lucky number: 8

23. play any instruments?: drums

24. currently wearing: my pyjamas xoxo

25. how many blankets I sleep with: just one

26. dream job: oh idk. charming radio host probably

27. dream trip: just v scenic places across europe

28. fave food: any cured ham... Hell Yes

29. nationality: british

30. fave song currently: you better know - red velvet

kpop q’s

tagged by @teambusan​ thank u sabes xoxo

1. who was your first female bias?

i think it was jennie i was very late to girl groups lmao

2. who was your first male bias?

namjoon.... what a guy

3. who are your current biases? other than the above:

johnny, jinjin, rosé, jiwoo, wonpil, dahyun, luna, jooheon, shownu + dean

4. in the entire kpop industry, who is the closest to your ideal type?

probably shownu... like he’s a sweet n humble dad who is just also fine as hell... thats what i’m about ! also jennie like she’s just Gorgeous™ like i would lay down my life for her in a heartbeat tbh

5. have you ever attended any kpop concert / fanmeeting / fan sign?

How Dare You

6. if yes, which group / artist? how was the experience?

i cannot believe this disrespect

7. which group /artist would you like to see live?

bts, blackpink, monsta x. day6 !

8. how did you get into kpop?

my friend showed me fantastic baby (lmao) when we were like 15 and then i dropped it for a bit but then i saw a dance practice for no more dream like last year so now i am Here

9. who are your otps?

whom????

10. when did you start to ship them?

🤔🤔🤔

11. what is your favorite fanfic genre?

honestly i’ll read whatever turns up on my dash as long as it’s not involving furries or anything Truly Nasty

12. what is your favorite music genre?

pop has and always will be my fave but i like other stuff too ofc xoxo

five things tag

Rules: you’ll have to tag 15 people at the end of this challenge

tagged by @cypherpart420​ thank u linsey ily!

five things you’ll find in my bag: purse hand sanitiser keys vaseline water

five things you’ll find in my bedroom: Trash Mountain nik naks fan approx. seven 1d posters radio

five things i’ve always wanted to do: go to glasto ! go on a trip just to look at palaces across europe lmao see bts ! adopt 2 dogs and live my best life go somewhere with a really clear view of the stars and just Cry

five things that make me happy: family dogs my pals xoxo listening to music baking

five things i’m currently into: fake nails crafting my Brand lmao big brother hydration arrested development

five things on my to do list: embark on my Fitness Journey get my professional blog going plan what i’m doing for my bday get a skincare routine get money

once again, get to know me

i was tagged by @parkmochibean​ thanks natasha!

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

THE LAST: 1. drink: water 2. phone call: my sister 3. text message: my friend explaining exo sub-units to me lmao 4. song you listened to: young & free - xiumin and mark 5. time you cried: probably looking through val from bake off’s insta she’s just the cutest 6. dated someone twice: no 7. kissed someone and regretted it: yep ! 8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: yes 10. been depressed: only my whole uni career 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: only twice i know my limits now lmao

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: 12-14. pink, red and orange

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. made new friends: yes 16. fallen out of love: no 17. laughed until you cried: ofc! 18. found out someone was talking about you: yes lmao 19. met someone who changed you: yes 20 found out who your friends are: yes  21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: no

GENERAL: 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them 23. do you have any pets: no :’( 24. do you want to change your name: no i enjoy her 25. what did you do for your last birthday: went for afternoon tea w my family 26. what time did you wake up: 11am its summer now i do what i want 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: idk chilling i guess 28. name something you can’t wait for: my birthday !! 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: like an hour ago 30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: idk if i’d been confident Forever i think that would be pretty good? 31. what are you listening to right now: faking it - kehlani, lil yachty, calvin harris 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes 33. something that is getting on your nerves: my older sister she’s just so Loud 34. most visited website: this or youtube 35-37. lost questions?? 38. hair colour: brown 39. long or short hair: i want long but i’ve got medium rn lmao 40. do you have a crush on someone: no 41. what do you like about yourself: i’m good 2 my family and i think i’m quite nice? tbh? 42. piercings: ears + nose 43. bloodtype: idk yikes 44. nickname: none lmao 45. relationship status: Single™ 46. zodiac: cancer  47. pronous: she/her 48. favourite tv show: bojack horseman, rpdr 49. tattoos: just one (1) 50. right or left handed: right 51. surgery: on my hand and i was awake for it but they played me some 1d so it was chill 52. piercing: ok i literally just answered this 53. sport: thats cute 55. vacation: just various fancy places across europe before brexit ruins that free movement 56. pair of trainers: i only wear my adidas but they’re on the verge of death now rip

MORE GENERAL 57. eating: werthers originals i’m a nan 58. drinking: water 59. i’m about to: go tf to sleep 61. waiting for: my birthday lmao 62. want: money and ideally a job that looks promising 63. get married: Who Can Never Be Sure? 64. career: either radio or social media 

WHICH IS BETTER 65. hugs or kisses: hugs 66. lips or eyes: eyes 67. shorter or taller: don’t really mind 68. older or younger: older 70. nice arms or nice stomach: also don’t mind lmao 71. sensitive or loud: sensitive 72. hook up or relationship: relationship 73. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. kissed a stranger: yes 75. drank hard liquor: yes 76. lost glasses/contact lenses: my first pair of glasses... rip 77. turned someone down: yes 78. sex on the first date: no 79. broken someone’s heart: probs not? i hope not 80. had your heart broken: no 81. been arrested: no  82. cried when someone died: yes 83. fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. yourself: Always ! 85. miracles: sure why not 86. love at first sight: no 87. santa claus: he’s doing his best 88. kiss on the first date: sure 89. angels: idk?

OTHER: 90. current best friend’s name: robin 91. eye colour: green/blue 92. favourite movie: i’m basic it’s love actually

shuffle tag

tagged by @kpopeyton thank you !

rules: you can tell a lot about a person based on the type of music they listen to. put your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people. no skipping!

wake up alone / amy winehouse

first love / bts

pyramids / frank ocean

i didn’t just come here to dance / carly rae jepsen

girl girl girl / triple h

21st century girl / bts

you better know / red velvet

wolves / one direction

coffee / miguel

view / shinee

[theweepingmonk]

tagged by @shortjohnsilver ty :D!

LAST

1. Drink: A Capri Sun 2. Phone call: My dad telling me to help with the groceries 3. Text message: fb told me to try out this game called gigantic 4. Song you listened to: Rose colored boy by Paramore, I can’t stop listening to it and a few other songs off After Laughter

5. Time you cried: idk

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: i haven’t even dated someone once lmaoo 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: ive never kissed anyone soooo 8. Been cheated on: nah  9. Lost someone special: no 10. Been depressed: like always tbh 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: I don’t drink

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. Blue 13. Red 14. Black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: yeah 16. Fallen out of love: nah 17. Laughed until you cried: probably i laugh all the time 18. Found out someone was talking about you: nope 19. Met someone who changed you: nope, still the same old loser 20. Found out who your friends are: i already knew 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: no never kissed anyone

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: I went to school with most of them so 24. Do you want to change your name: Nah, I like Jayla too much 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: go to dinner, but my best friend bought me an xbox one, I got $200, a harely quinn blanket and a twenty one pilots shirt so it was a good day

26. What time did you wake up: 3:30 PM

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: idk reading fanfiction? writing? I dont pay attention to time when im doing something 28. Name something you can’t wait for: to find a job and stop disappointing my dad lmaoo 29. When was the last time you saw your mom:  like not long after i woke up 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: wish i wasn’t a ball of anxiety and depression lmaooo  31. What are you listening right now: friends. i put it on all the time when I need background noise 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yeah he was like 4ft tall and adorable in elementary. i saw him recently when i was in college and hes about my height now and still cute 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: me

34. Most visited Website: probably this blue hell site or twitter tbh 35. Mole/s: .idk is that what you call these little brown dots placed randomly on my body?? 36. Mark/s: just the brown dots and this light brown mark that idk how to describe on my arm 37. Childhood dream: police officer, firefighter 38. Haircolour: dark brown 39. Long or short hair: long 40. Do you have a crush on someone: just celebrities 41. What do you like about yourself: i can guess plot points and twists 42. Piercings: none 43. Bloodtype: idk 44. Nickname: Jay, Jaylalala, Twin, Jaybird, Jailbird 45. Relationship status: single 46. Zodiac: Virgo

47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favourite TV Show: it changes a lot, but usually the show that reflects my url so Merlin atm. but it might actually be my all time fave show if i watch it for the third time,  49. Tattoos: nah they dont interest me 51. Surgery: none 52. Hair dyed in different color: no 53. Sport: none 55. Vacation: i liked spring break last year, but i dont really care for leaving my house with all my nice technology unless its somewhere chill with a chill person 56. Pair of trainers: what

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: nothing atm. tragic. 58. Drinking: nothing rn 59. I’m about to: idk make a gifset, read, write, finally catch up to the flash idk man 61. Waiting for: walmart to call me back 62. Want: a job i guess 63. Get married: maybe one day  64. Career: idk but i need money 

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: hugs tbh 66. Lips or eyes: both 67. Shorter or taller: taller

68. Older or younger: older/same age is preferable 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms!! 71. Sensitive or loud: what does this mean? 

72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant i hate getting in trouble

74. Kissed a stranger: no i dont even talk to people how could i? 75. Drank hard liquor: no i dont drink 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: don’t have any  77. Turned someone down: nah no one’s liked me like that  78. Sex in the first date: not unless they’re really hot, but i hate their personality and dont wanna see them again 79. Broken someone’s heart: no lmao 80. Had your heart broken: nope 81. Been arrested: nah 82. Cried when someone died: no 83. Fallen for a friend: no thank god ive been watching my bestie be in love with her other bestie and man does that shit look painful lmaoo

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: sometimes. not often. 85. Miracles: eh 86. Love at first sight: idk anymore 87. Santa Claus: nah 88. Kiss on the first date: if i like them 89. Angels: no 

OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: Mariah 91. Eyecolour:  brown

92. Favorite movie: currently, wonder woman

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