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oddsconvert · 8 months ago

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✂️ for august?

✂️ - What is one of your OC’s worst memories?

When August was a little baby vamp, he was deathly scared of humans - they were his biggest fear. His parents would spin tales about human hunters and mobs and tell August that the cruel, nasty humans would rip him limb from limb if given the chance. He believed that humans were vampires natural predator...not the other way around.

He lived in a big stately home growing up, and his family had MANY blood bags. August used to avoid them like the plague, wouldn't even make eye contact. But he did feel sorry for them. One day when he'd been 'naughty', his mother dragged him kicking and screaming and locked him in the cellar overnight, where their human blood bags were kept, to teach him a lesson. Poor August pounded his tiny fists on the door and was hiccupping/crying/screaming for his mother to come back and save him. He really thought he was going to die. That the humans could get their revenge for what his family has done to them.

He's never been that scared in his life to this day.

#it does have a nice ending to it #but it's still a horrible memory for him #thinking his mother had fed him to the lions and left him to be killed #and she wouldn't answer his cries and pleas for help #poor sweet thing #thank you for the ask!!!!!!#shattered #august crinamorte oc #vampire story #vampire caretaker #whump #whump writing #answered asks #whump community #whumpblr #whump blog #oc ask game

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late-to-the-magnus-archives · 2 years ago

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has anyone done this yet

#tma #tma memes #no for real though #I know why they did it #Jon is safe to go after - he won't kill you or put horrible memories in your head #STILL #they blamed him entirely every chance they got then were amazed that he felt so guilty his behavior went screwy #WHAT DID THEY THINK WOULD HAPPEN #anyway #jonathan sims #the magnus archives #tma spoilers #the magnus archives spoilers #tma funny #the magnus archives memes

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sluckythewizard · 10 months ago

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THEY could give me the surgurey i need (inspired alot by evojellys designs for em. GREAT STUFF)

#THE SUCKENING IS S O COOOOL GUYS VIV N VEX ARE SO FUCKING COOL AND FUNNY... CHARLIES FLAVOR OF DERANGED IS JUST #SO PERFECT FOR THIS CAMPAIGN.. I LOVE HOW HE DOES HORROR AND EVIL AND SCARY AND AAUAUUUGHGHGUUHGHG #their teeht arnt spiked like normal vampires but theyre sharp n smooth like a Beak. in my beautiful heart #ALSO UGHGHGH BIG SPOILERS FOR EPISODE 7 BUT #THAT THING WITH THE MAP. WITH THE DEMONS N VAMPS. THEYRE KEEPING TRACK OF THEM.#'so viv. was that one of mine or one of yours?' IS THIS A PET PROJECT OF THEIRS OR SOMETHING. ARE THEY PULLING MORE STRINGS THAN WE THINK #IS ONE TUGGING AT THE DEMONS AND THE OTHER TUGGING AT THE FANGS? PITTING THEM AGAINST EACHOTHER SO THEY KILL EACHOTHER?#AND THEN ITS EASIER TO TAKE THE BODIES FOR THEIR FUNNY CREATIONS?? IT PROLLY WASNT EASY TO GET SUPPLIES B4 EDWARD CAME INTO POWER #BUT OH MY GOD.. POOR EMIZEL.. THE MEMORY OF HIS CREW WAS TAKEN AND THEN HE WATCHES A BUNCHA THEM GET HORRIBLY DISMATNLED N DISTORTED #HE KNOWS HE CARED FOR THEM AT SOMEPOINT N HE KNOWS THE MEMORIES WERE TAKEN BUT HE JUST. CANT. AUAUUGGUAHGUAHGUAHGUHG #THAT SUCKS SO BAD FOR HIMMM EMIZEEEELL EMIZEL CMERE BABY BOY ILL SMOKE U OUT BOY. GET AWAY FROM THOSE EVIL GUYS I AM BETTER N CAN BE TRUSTE #viv n vex are so cool...theyre fuckin CRAAZYY N SCARYYY BUT ALSO. SO FUNNY... I LOVE A PUNNY JACKASS... 'LOOKS LIKE YOUVE BEEN: DISARMED!'#'IVE MADE THAT JOKE 6 TIMES AND ITS STILL FUNNY EVERYTIME' i gotta draw more of their bullshit...#im already doodling up the 'YOU CAN CALL ME MOMMY!!' bit. i gotta draw more o the monstors n the horrors too... especially emizels sire UGH #I LOVE VILLIAINS THAT ARE SO GENUINELY SCARY BUT SO FUNNY... charlie just does evil ppl like no one else idk what it ISSSS #okayokayoka y im normal im. relistening to the ep n im at the edward part. oh my god. i actually love him. he actually makes my skin crawl #IM DONEthats my rambles for tha day. back into my hole i go. also i have comms open. cmere pspspss i need moneyyy heyyyy cmereeeee #check out my main artblog. GO!!!

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daylighteclipsed · 1 year ago

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Y’all ever think about if Sora falls to darkness that inside his heart will look like the Destiny Islands falling again

#i do a lot #kingdom hearts #one of the biggest reasons i think we’ll see something like this in canon. briefly at least #not only would parallel ddd w ven’s heart/armor no longer there to protect sora #and roxas and xion gone from sora’s heart too. so sora would be alone #and actually there as opposed to in the RoL/awake when riku dives in #but also there is no way nomura’s gonna pass up the chance to bring us full circle like this. he loves making his characters revisit/relive #worlds and memories like this to make a point. and sora’s heart was sunset in ddd… following kh1 the dark and stormy night comes next #The thought of sora and riku reaffirming their love and friendship here when it broke the first time the islands fell #both of them having to in a way relive this horrible night for the final time #but riku doing the total opposite of last time. trying to save sora trying to stop the darkness from consuming everything #being totally honest with sora. reaching his hand out for sora but this time he’s not being consumed by darkness.#he’s become the light in the darkness. and they finally reach each other they finally grasp hands. I’m chewing on glass #i don’t think sora would ‘fall’ to darkness in the traditional sense #thematically i think it makes more sense for him to be faced w another martyr choice #though his own negative feelings would still be tangled up in there. and this would parallel kh3 #and if sora chooses to let darkness into his heart to save others it’d also parallel kh1 w riku choosing to open the door/let the darkness #into destiny islands at the risk of others #god it’d be just like kh1 but we’d be playing as riku and he’d be the one looking frantically for sora #a reversed dynamic. but now they understand each other’s pain and feelings so they can reach each other #figuratively and literally #i love parallels i love symbolism i love themes kick my ass !!!!

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pwurrz · 5 months ago

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being obsessed with yakumo is a job and baby i’ve never called in a sick day!!!!!

#nu carnival #yakumo ♡#you could not pay me to ramble this extensively about anything else #but yakumo’s trauma?? his childhood?? his growth?? his fears and insecurities and how they affect his current relationships??#his abandonment issues and jealousy and darker desires???#and how he’s so scared he’ll hurt others even though it’s far more likely he’ll be the one getting hurt??#how he’s not violent or scary at all but after years and years he’s been conditioned to think he is??#the significance of his relationship with eiden??#the significance of his ‘platonic’ relationships with the other clan members??#how important his grandparents were in raising him??#how his desperate want to hide his serpentine features and be ‘normal’ is a perfect allegory for autism??#the fact that he’s been treated horribly in the past and yet still chooses every day to be kind??#how he probably definitely has bpd??#the burden he has to carry just because of who his ancestor is??#the fact that it almost seems like what he does doesn’t matter because the actions of his ancestor will always be looming over him??#how he’s been hurt so many times both physically and emotionally and yet his heart is still so open to loving others??#how he has a tendency to push down his traumatic memories until he thinks they no longer affect him??#and how even when he’s suffering because of that trauma he would still rather suffer alone than bother someone and tell them??#how slowly but surely he’s unlearning all of the harmful ideas burned into him since his was a child??#and how he’s learning that people do love and care about him and he’s not a burden and he deserves love and care??#and that the serpentine traits he tries so desperately to hide aren’t as disgusting as he was meant to believe??#that his dark desires don’t define or control him and that it’s okay that he has them??#that just because he has them at all doesn’t make him a bad person???#why he makes soup for his loved ones so much!!!! yes that is important actually #i will sit and write about that for hours and hours for FREE #my favourite fictional character of all time he’s so so real #he’s so well written and his trauma and growth are handled with such care and consideration

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drpicklesart · 23 days ago

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I was just trying to figure out how I want to draw everybody but I had L04 on and it turned into the bit at the end

#mission to zyxx #it was just supposed to be a quick scribble but then i colored it #and i had a horrible time trying to figure out timelines #bc the mullet thing happened mid s1 as far as i can tell #but then alden apparently said the hair rejected him or smth #and this was between s1 and s2 so I just drew him like s1 pleck #(no stubble-alliance haircut)#but i still don't know how i feel about that #ooh and i forgot gap teeth here but i'm still debating that #pleck's base design and dar's design i feel pretty good about in terms of how i imagine them #nermut's is okay too though I need to work on angles #in my head he looks Kermit-ish. not cause the names rhyme. he just exudes that energy #c-53 i have no clue. i think he would've been in the enforcer frame here #and i suck at robots #so he kinda looks like someone was operating off a loose memory of shockwave from transformers #(because that's what happened)

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rustedleopard · 11 months ago

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So you guys remember how after Hinawa was announced as dead, Flint was immediately tossed into jail after he (very understandably) lashes out in his grief. And then by the time he breaks out of jail (not released by a fellow Tazmillian, breaks out with a nail file), the service is already over and she's buried six feet under the dirt with no proper goodbye from her husband or even a glimpse at her or anything???

That was fucked up

#mother 3 #sorry but the Tazmillians there did a massive massive blunder. like seriously wtf???#flint didn't even get to see her. the last memory he has of her is from however many days before when she went to visit her father #they should've let him see her one last time! that was stupidly unfair. no matter what your opinion on flint is you should at least be #able to acknowledge that that was completely messed up #even if they were worried about him lashing out again they had the whole village there in case something happened. he should've been #allowed to see her. even if she was so horribly mangled from the drago that people felt it would be best to spare him the sight #that's not their decision to make. that's his WIFE. canonically acknowledged as the love of his life. he should've been allowed to see her #and make the decision to look for himself.#i know i know these people aren't used to dealing with grief etc etc but ignorance is an explanation not an excuse #playing that part in the beginning of the game the first time immediately made me go 'oh. i don't like these people'#(yes i know retrospect changes your interpretation of this section but still)

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silviakundera · 5 months ago

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Haha I also used the dickless bore. I thought that only the two main characters came back didn't know he did as well. I still don't buy him ever being into her but that's just me I do wonder if he's going to try and kill her again. I do think Li Rong is treating him too well for my liking she should at least treat hit similarly or worse than she treated ML I want to see wet paper towel non stop suffer.

on one hand, imo a SRQ who is heartless doesn't work for the story the writer is trying to share with us. On the other hand, it's totally ok to decide to be a full-time hater towards a minor character, just because it's fun. I support haters! 🎉 \o/ 🎉

One thing that I think is relevant when comparing LR's reactions: if PWX had killed her, the motive would have been as part of his mission to have his childhood love Qin Zhenzhen's son become the next emperor. (Remember, he came over to threaten her life over that right before she died and called his ex Zhenzhen lmao) THE AUDACITY. In contrast, LR is viewing her murder at SRQ's hands as part of the revenge plan for the Su family's execution.

Some passages of Li Rong's POV:

After a few moments, she whispered: “Where did the scent on you come from?”

“If I say it, you might be upset.” Pei Wenxuan’s eyes had a hint of gloating at others’ pain.

Li Rong thought for a while and frowned, “Su Rongqing?”

“Yes.”

...Li Rong said nothing. She blankly stared into the fire.

Pei Wenxuan turned the fish over and looked at her with a smile, seemingly quite happy. Li Rong found that he had a fearless, unabashed look of enjoying a good play and couldn’t help but be a little fazed.

She believed everything Pei Wenxuan said.

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Su Rongqing was someone that she saved with her own hands.

That year, Prince Su rebelled, and Su Rongqing’s elder brother spoke up for Prince Su. Later on, he was falsely accused of colluding with Prince Su, implicating the Su clan with treason.

At that time, Li Chuan was so furious that he fainted. He put the entire Su clan in prison without going through the Joint Trial of Three Divisions first and put the men to death and the women into exile. She disagreed with this decision and rushed to beg Li Chuan before the Su clan received their sentence. After being subjected to ten planks, with Pei Wenxuan’s intervention, she was finally able to ask for amnesty for the Su clan.

Even if the death sentences can be forgone, it was impossible to escape punishment while still alive. Even though the men of the Su clan could live, they would be subjected to castration. The others couldn’t bear the humiliation, so they all committed suicide in prison. When she arrived, there was only one man “desperate for life and afraid of death” left among the men of the Su clan, Su Rongqing.

At that time, she had told Su Rongqing that she saved him without the intention of asking him to repay her. She could give him silver and a position, so that he could continue to live a good life in the future.

Back then, she didn’t have any special feelings towards Su Rongqing. It was just that he had saved her before, so after he took care of her, bit by bit, she felt grateful, and…vague sentiments towards him.

For the most part, she sought to save the Su clan for Li Chuan and her own conscience. The Su clan was a prominent, noble family. It was difficult for her to sit back and watch if they died in such an ambiguous manner.

At that time, Su Rongqing refused to go.

...It wasn’t that she had never thought that Su Rongqing would not take revenge on her. After all, it was Li Chuan who ordered all the men of the Su clan to be beheaded and exiled all the female family members. It was impossible for anyone to forget this blood feud, let alone the formerly first and most outstanding gongzi of that year?

For so many years, she had never dared to give him real authority, observing him and guarding against him while still trying to help him live a better life. She couldn’t actually kill him because of her own conscience, but she couldn’t actually trust him and give him power.

In the end, he still decided to act. He killed her first, then successfully took her authority in the name of eliminating Pei Wenxuan. If she guessed correctly, he would not leave with the advisors. Instead, he would borrow the excuse of taking revenge for her and enforcing the will of the people to join forces with the Empress, assist Li Xin in ascension, and fight to the death against the remnants of Pei Wenxuan’s faction.

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She had anticipated this possibility from the moment she took Su Rongqing in, but she couldn’t help feeling a bit regretful when it actually happened.

#honestly i think their relationship is quite interesting #and srq is a tragic character who just suffers 24x7 so no worries there #like just imagine: besides the horrible fate of his family #if he truly had always loved li rong #how cruel that would be #the only chance to be with her was this nightmare #and though they accompanied enough other and had some good memories #she could never trust him and could never return his feelings #and she SHOULDNT trust him #and now he sees no other path available than the one he is on #directly opposed to her and fighting on her enemys side #as he gets to watch her marry pwx again #and be increasingly affectionate together #and realize that this isnt young pwx who is too confused and insecure to have a functional marriage w lr #this is the mature adult who might actually make his beloved happy #and how to even feel about that #cdrama #the princess royal #my personal feelings about SRQ evolved a lot as the story progressed but tbh i still dont know #i feel sorry for him #i cannot sympathize with some of his politics but he is also so damaged that #like LR i guess i feel he must be opposed but i wish he could be saved #LR would say he has his reasons (and he has more reasons than she knows)#now the reveal that they are all from the future is clear #he does not come running to her to explain everything and defend himself #he isnt justifying himself #he actually isnt trying to make this all emotionally harder on her than it has to be #but also i DO consider him as someone who betrayed her #and i dont think he can have a place in her life anymore #(fwiw i get the salt about PWX murdering her: he blew up their marriage over ZZ + now warring w her at court over ZZ kid + kills her for it)

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unstablerk800 · 1 year ago

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Nines, I heard Gavin was looking for you

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"Gavin is never looking for me", Nines replied stiffly. "He's glad when I'm not near him. Yesterday, for instance, he said get lost 49 times."

#nonnie ask #nonnie #nonnie ask answered #reed900 #|| Imagine they lose each other during a chase and Gavin doesn't give a flying fuck #|| Nines is missing for two days exactly. On the third day Gavin receives a huge box on his desk.#|| And Nines is inside of it. In pieces.#|| Giving Gavin 5748383 tons of trauma and guilt right on the spot.#|| Even if Nines gets fixed (and the other androids make sure they fix him alright) Gavin still would feel a horrible piece of shit. 😊#|| He'd experience nightmares and flashbacks and the next time Nines runs off he SCREAMS at the top of his lungs I'M NOT ALLOWING YOU TO GO #|| And Nines's just like. ?¿??¿?¿#|| It's one of those days dear Nonnie nevermind me I'm having ideas #save tag #uploading to long-term memory [save tag]

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raytm · 6 months ago

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I’ve been missing him a lot lately.

#you have your best friend for 17 years and then every single day when they’re gone will feel horrible.#he was with me through every hard thing in my life and without him it’s just felt like I’m treading water or #waiting to wake up from a bad dream #as someone who doesn’t connect well with people rocky was my everything and losing him has left such a hole in my life #even like six or seven months later I still get sad and cry when I see photos of him #snap chat memories are cursed but god #he was such a good boy #ooc.

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skeleton-squid-boy · 9 months ago

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awesome so we can all agree those are the worst 5 seconds in all of dw. why did they make her say that. on her wedding day. in front of her husband. even though her memory is supposed to be back.

#even if her memory isnt supposed to be back (which it is) and jts meant to show her regressing to before her character growth #jts still terrible because it was gross originally #and its horrible to bring it back??? especially on their wedding day??#i love this ep and i love amy EXCEPT for that one aspect of her trying to fuck the doctor in front of rory #like the first time she tries to kiss him and hes physically pushing her off and she keeps going #will never forgive the writers for thinking that was a fun storyline #and just to reiterate #i love amy and rory a lot.#i just have to ignore that bit.#dr who #eleventh doctor #squids bullshit #🌌

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artekai · 1 year ago

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OC-tober (late) Day 7: Personality

Guess who finally watched ATLA

#oc-tober #bweirdoctober #bweirdoctober 2023 #oc: fross #oc tag #deni's stuff #deni's art #oc art #i believe artekai would find something to relate to in most of the gaang BUT would not like anyone from the fire nation #bc they're carja coded. yes yes artekai has forgiven the carja but it would still bring back horrible memories #fross tho. pretty sure he would latch onto zuko and only zuko like a leech #i like to think he watches it while in sirius with stanley bc. well. things get boring as an immortal.#so i like to think they start catching up on any old media they have in the apollo archives. just like in general. that's my headcanon #so anyways. they are watching a/tla but then they get to the moment when zuko realizes he betrayed the one person who ever believed in him #and fross is like ''hmm. don't like that.'' so he shuts down the holo and he's like ''welp! too bad there are no more episodes''#and stanley is like. what. it can't end like that. and fross is like hmmm well it does. it does end like that #and stanley is like. there are more episodes in the episode list. and fross is like. ah. well. those are the lost episodes #there was a fire at the. factory. in the archives where they keep the cartoons. they are no more we can't watch them #and stanley's just like hmm. none of what you said sounds right. fross are you okay? i know what happened to your aunt-#and fross is like SHUT UP YOU STUPID ASS!!! THERE ARE NO MORE EPISODES!!!!! sorry i yelled at you please don't leave me 🥺#and that night when stanley is asleep fross sneaks out and wipes out the rest of the episodes from the apollo database #anyways who do you think fross ships zuko with? i have three guesses #one is sokka bc he fits fross's perception of kai best. so it's like shipping frosskai to him #(which is funny because. while kai DOES relate to sokka he would INSIST he's way more of an aang. kai and fross get into fights about this)#the second one is mai because. idk. i see him being into it. can't explain it #and my third guess is just his own oc. he makes his own oc to ship him with zuko #i love the thought of fross having even littler guys of his own LMAO. come one he's lived 900 years he's GOT to have made ocs #oh ALSO i was going to draw stanley in the background but he wasn't turning out like i wanted him to so i just left the anime girl. sorry #OH I FORGOT i also wanted to add. very fitting that i made fross's shadow a prince huh. i think i really did something there

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lord-squiggletits · 2 months ago

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Orion's personal ship in phase 2 post-Death of Optimus Prime is called the Skyroller... like Roller...

#squiggposting #justice for my man he never found out roller was still alive #reminds me i wanted to draw a canon compliant thing of OP and co mourning him with an appearance from zeta too #and now i want to do a part 2 where they get back and tell ratchet #and ratchet has his own horrible feelings bc in mtmte saying bye to roller was one of his memories of a time he failed to say goodbye right

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xxxemilyg1996 · 2 months ago

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Happy dead dad day!

#my dad died 3 years ago today #I have a lot of complicated thoughts about my dad and have spent the past year very angry at him #but i miss him so much and not a day goes by that i don't wish he was still here #part of grief is allowing yourself to feel everything you feel about the person you've lost #my dad did a lot of shitty things and let me believe horrible things about my mother for 11 years #until after he died my mom finally defended herself because she didn't want me to hate my dad while he was alive #and i don't hate him. ive never hated him #but i think back on my childhood and the trauma his untreated mental illness inflicted on all of us #that no one outside of our house knew about #he was bipolar and had DID and was probably also autistic #i was terrified of my father until i was about 16. but i love him and loved him then #the amount of shit he put us all through and especially my mother. who stayed with him because he was her soulmate and also #would likely have killed himself if she left. he threatened to kill her on multiple occasions #we weren't allowed to walk home after school even though it's only about a mile to the school from my house #i realized after he died that its because my mother did not trust him to be home alone with us for our safety #all the adults in our life thought we were just lazy fat kids who couldn't walk a mile #and i think thats the hardest #people thought so negatively about is because they didn't know what we went through on a daily basis #his own family has his memory on a pedestal when they didn't even live with him during childhood #he lived with his grandma and they all lived with their mom #and they get mad if we say ANYTHING negative about him #YOU DIDN'T KNOW HIM YOU DON'T EVEN BELIEVE HE SUFFERED FROM D.I.D. EVEN THOUGH IT WAS DIAGNOSED!#anyways rest in peace to my chevy impala that the transmission died while driving from the hospital to see him #because he was in a coma. for the 3rd time that year #dead dad club #parental loss #grief

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llycaons · 2 months ago

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yeah wq and wn are both good choices (tho not perfect for different reasons - wq did end up giving in and sacrificing herself, in the end :( and I don't think wn would have the mental fortitude) but ultimately I've gotta go with lan wangji, reigning champion of self-repression for the 20th year running

#analyzing wq and wn's decisions and behavior is a little different than lwh's bc very often wq and wn are simply #not in a position of power TO act on their desires or what they want #and lwj almost always is #in the book only as an adult but still. he's got that mix of intense emotion/passion #and extreme self-control (while sober)#you could appeal to him by saying it would save wwx...that's def his weak spot....hm #but his mental fortitude and his strength of personality and as a character is like a huge thing in the series #it's an extremely significant aspect of his character and the story #like...he watched the person he loved most in the world die horribly in front of him and he continued to try to make the world better #in his memory. there's very little that would actually break him #as long as he knew wwx was okay #a lotr au cannot cast wwx as frodo I fear #cql txp

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kiwimetry · 3 months ago

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Alec: 😭 I just got a prophecy that I would father a child of no woman

Seregil: hmm... I agree that does sound unambiguously like you'll never have a child, but also, did you want a child? You knew I wasn't going to bear a child for you, right?

Me: congrats boys, you've just described a way to father a child of no woman (mpreg*)

*I don't know why I'm trying to avoid spoilers for a book that came out over 15 years ago, but for people who have no idea what I'm on about, I need you to know that the actual evental womanless childfathering method is. Worse.

#i love that the concept of mpreg seregil is literally canonical (THE CONCEPT NOT THE ACTUALITY)#and also how phenomenally terribly that would go. like. just truly awful.#anyway. as always. Alec is truly a character who has the Most happen to him...and then he'll do some manual labor and mostly get over it lol #this is a real tangent but I still cannot believe that my kindle has The White Road marked as read #i have no memory of that book. and also goodreads doesn't think I read it whereas it does know I read the first 4??#tbf I also only had vague memories of Traitor's Moon as well (they go to Aurenën and Alec impresses people w archery)#so who can say. maybe when I restart it more memories will return as happened w this one.#nightrunner series #cc #as always- to be clear- i love that alec is like 'yes this is my horrible abomination child born from trauma. and i love them.'#this is why I'm baffled that I supposedly read The White Road but can't remember it!!!

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