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Hits are not the people who read.
This is very important.
What is a hit?Hits are a counter of how many times a work has been accessed. A hit is registered every time a visitor navigates to a work's page, with the following exceptions:
If two visits in a row come from the same IP address, only the first one is registered.
Moving between chapters in a work will only register one hit in total, not one hit per chapter.
If you're logged in, hits are not counted when you visit your own works.
I've been seeing a lot of people being disheartened by the lack of ratio hit/comments but a hit isn't someone who read. It's someone who opened the page of your fic. Maybe they saw the blurb and thought, nah. Maybe they opened 53919381 works and then narrowed down. It's entirely possible that out of the "hits" you get, only a small, small, baby portion actually reads your fic.
Which isn't like, "good news" for you but it DOES mean that your perception is skewed.
I strongly recommend, for your own peace of mind, if that kind of data matters to you, that you focus on the people who are kudoing.
A kudo is most likely someone who DID read your fic.
And you can be sad that your work got 186 kudos and only 3 people left comments, but it's a lot less crazy in terms of stats than 1800 people reading your fic and 3 people leaving comments.
If I make sense.
Your feeling is 100% valid but you can't focus on the hits as a reference number my dear, it's going to crush you.
And I'm going to go further than this but this is all my own personal opinion and I realise not everyone thinks the way I do, so take it with a grain of salt.
Rare are the hobbies that get you interaction at all.
I never get kudos for finishing a puzzle. For bookbinding a project. For doing anything that I consider a hobby.
But I do get kudos for writing a thing and posting it on the internet, which is kind of wild. And by my estimate, the reward I get from writing it is enough. And finding people who write things that I like. And sometimes making friends with them.
AO3 isn't a website meant for validation. It's great when it happens but that's not its first purpose. It's *becoming* that because people are now deciding that AO3 is a social media website, which it isn't.
I'm actually so saddened that people are comparing hits and kudos and comments to others and I realise that it's the human condition (and when I'm weak, I do it too, I'm not better than anyone) but it's such a harsh thing to impose on yourself.
Writing is one of these mediums where you CANNOT COMPARE. Here's why.
Writing is a common hobby.
As a hobby, it has to remain a pleasure, a challenge, something exciting. And that can't be measured by how much people love your work. It has to be measured by how much YOU LOVE YOUR OWN WORK.
The trap of comparison is real, especially in creative fields like writing. But every writer's journey is unique, and no metric can quantify their value.
The moment creativity becomes a competition (even with yourself), the whole thing implodes.
The moment we start weighing our worth by the number of hits, kudos, or comments, we lose sight of why we started writing in the first place.
Feedback is fantastic, but it shouldn't be the sole reason you write.
Not everyone who appreciates your work will leave a kudo or a comment. Some might not know what to say, and some will simply move on, touched by your work but quiet about it. Their silence doesn't diminish the impact your writing might have had.
So, write because you love to write. Appreciate the kudos & the comments but don't let the lack thereof discourage you.
Your worth as a writer isn't determined by public validation. It's determined by the amount of joy you get from it.
not to be That Person but when people are like “why isn’t there a big fandom culture anymore?” umm…

maybe this is why???? That an author can spend hours (if not days or weeks or months) on something, have 1,800 people read it, and only have THREE people willing to take a few extra seconds out of their day to comment. Not even something as simple as “thanks for sharing” or “second kudos” or “❤️”
I’m not the internet police. You decide what you do with your time. Just don’t be surprised if the result is that creators leave your fandoms. I’m not writing to scream into the void. If that’s what I wanted, I wouldn’t bother posting. Fandom is a community. It’s an exchange of enthusiasm over this thing we all love. And who’s gonna keep showing up at your house with a goodie basket if all you do is take the basket, slam the door, and leave them outside to watch through the window while you eat?
#I went on a tangent#and you're right it can be upsetting#but it's entirely out of your control#so you can't#you can't#you can't do this to yourself#you'll drive yourself mad#fandom#ao3#ao3 writer#hits and kudos#fandom culture#marauders fandom#archive of our own
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If I saw a nutcracker nobody could stop me
#I don't know what's happening to me I usually draw only my own characters this is scary. Unprecedented behavior from me.#beebfreeb art tag#ms paint#lethal company#lethal company nutcracker#My wifi has been going out regularly so I haven't actually been able to play in a bit autism taking over controlling me or whatever.#I hear that metal clunking I hear that 400+ lb footsteps I giggle and twirl my cables like hair. I don't know. What are your pronouns ba-#*I am kicked with incredible force and slam into a wall which destroys my spinal cord and many of my bones as well.*#Something about it makes me put my entire soul into shading#Because it is just so darn cutes *coughing up blood*#nutcracker#lethal company fanart
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rewatchng tfatws, and i don't trust ANY of you people in the "john walker did nothing wrong" camp, he killed a surrendering man in a fit of rage, lied to lemar's family about it, then tried to kill sam too, when he felt that his status as captain america was being threatened.
#'but his best friend died his reaction is understandable!!!' actually i don't think it is#explainable sure#but killing someone because you couldn't control your emotions and attempting to do it a second time is not understandable in the slightest#the falcon and the winter soldier#tfatws#anti john walker#the fact that this man even needs an anti tag is insane but whatever#thing is i actually like him as a character i think he's very well written and makes for an interesting antagonist#but the fact that people are defending this man is so baffling to me and frankly suspicious as hell#the show could not have made their intentions with his character more clear#and yet people are still out here missing the point entirely
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when i said i wanted to understand whatever’s going on in ivan’s head, i didn’t mean like this 😭😭

#alnst ivan#alnst till#ivantill#alien stage#ooooh boy turns out ivan’s self esteem is pretty low in terms of love#makes total sense but it’s not what i expected from someone who looked so in control of what he wanted and was willing to pursue from till#he loves humbly which was my first intepretation of him before we even got round 3#it’s changed since then with more (mis)information leaked by vivinos to misdirect our understanding of him#so to get this clear dialogue of his final thoughts is really… clarifying#and terribly sad in a way#ivan loves till so much and is entirely aware that he hasn’t been the most gentle of suitors#god i have many thoughts about this#ahhh ivan baby your feelings aren’t shallow at all
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it's like looking in a tiny, 8-bit mirror. weird, huh?
#this genuinely might be my favorite scene from the entire game so far#youre telling me the video game character who hates being controlled#was playing a video game and the character they were controlling walked out of the game and up to them?#i could FEEL how kris jumped and backed away#deltarune#deltarune spoilers#deltarune chapter 3#deltarune kris#kris dreemurr#deltarune fanart#Crab Doodles#shoutout to all the small details i included in this that pretty much got covered up. you will be missed
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Toothless's little face fell incredulously. "What do you mean, you don't know who I am?
“I’m T-t-toothless."
#httyd books#how to train your dragon#hiccup the third#toothless#hiccup horrendous haddock the third#book!hiccup#book!toothless#how to fight a dragon’s fury#my art#still not entirely satisfied with how this one turned out#Hiccup seems a bit too young? Though he was only 14 then#and not battle-worned enough (like the way he was during book 12)#but charcoal pencils can be SO hard to control. I didn’t want to risk messing up the drawing#and I still cannot draw freckles for Thor’s sake.#anyways I’m rather satisfied with Toothless here#btw I sort of experimented with his wings here(?)#drawing them like the books did#and headcanoning them as rib-derived wings(?)
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I HATE editing movie screenshots because it’s such a hassle to make your drawing look like it belongs in the scene, but I just had to after I remembered that Sonic was in the Wreck it Ralph movie.

Original scene + references under the cut!



Look, I’m pretty sure that I got a bunch of timeline and game details wrong while drawing this thing but please allow me some leeway, I hade very little references and there are almost no clear screenshots of the movie with the full Sonic cabinet on display :’) I didn’t even know SEGA made Sonic arcade cabinets! Ever!
Besides, I’m pretty sure the people who worked on the movie took some (albeit anachronistic) creative liberties when adding Sonic into the movie since he has the modern design rather than his classic one.
My personal headcanon is that there was two Sonic cabinets at Litwak’s, and the old one with Classic Sonic either got unplugged to be replaced with a new Sonic cabinet, or they just have two Sonic games in the arcade now and Classic Sonic just happened to not appear in the movie. In any case, very fun concept.
#Can you imagine the chaos and panic of Sonic getting unplugged tho#the most beloved character and franchise in game history and suddenly some NPC is busting through Tappers one Friday night like#‘GUYS- THEY’RE UNPLUGGING SONIC’#Everyone else: ‘WHAT’#the whole concept of ‘unplugging’ is kinda fucked up in this movie…#the existential dread of being a video game character who’s existence entirely depends on whether or not you’re entertaining enough#and even that is sorta out of your control since you don’t know when your game might lose popularity#tbh Litwak might have kept the old sonic cabinet going knowing him#he seems kinda sentimental about these cabinets#my art#screenshot redraw#sonic#sonic the hedghog fanart#sonic fanart#sonic the hedgehog#sth#sth fanart#wreck it ralph fanart#wreck it ralph#wir
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Do you ever think about how horrible of a title "Batman's Greatest Failure" is? How degrading and dehumanising? Everything you achieved in life is forgotten and reduced to the way it ended.
You aren't a person. You are a failure. Your whole life is pushed aside and made a part of someone else's life story. You never mattered, if it weren't for that person you would have meant nothing at all.
Aren't you glad? Aren't you glad you are remembered as something? Even if that something is just saying your whole existence equals just to a mistake in someone's life? An old page that everyone is so desperate to forget. A lapse in judgement. A regret. The people you saved, the people you loved, what you did in life, none of that matters. All that matters is how another person was affected by your death. That is all you will ever be. Everything you did and didn't do will always be irrevocably tied to that person, for better or worse.
You are unable to exist without that person and the only way for you to exist is through his perception of you. The only way for others to see you is to look at you through his biased interpretations of who you were.
You weren't a child or a hero or a martyr or a son or a victim. All you ever were, and will be, is someone's "Greatest Failure".
#can you tell im having Thoughts about jason again#it just came to me all of a sudden#your entire existence is described as another person's greates failure#you don't have a voice in how he tells your story#you can not correct him because yiu are dead. and even after you arent#he will never listen to you#you cant control your own story#your narrative is puppeteered by a narrator who paints you as a mistake#who HAS to paint you as a mistake because otherwise he would have to answer questions that he cannot answer lest they break him#works both in and out of universe#bruce lied abt him bc he would break otherwise#and dc lied bc otherwise ppls would start questioning batman mythos#jason todd#red hood#aditf#robin#robin jason#character meta#meta#jason todd meta#batman#batman comics
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hey yeah i had another bad idea . for eucerin
#body horror tw#ask 2 tag#ive been thinking for a while on the concept of objebraliens being a fusion between an algebralien and a regular object#seeing how exclamation mark could go hand to hand with animatic for a bit why wouldnt you want to take that power and add it to yourself#and with algebraliens already having the ability to combine and divide with their own kind the 'fusion to become objebralien' thing doesnt+#+seem TOO far-fetched to me#ab eucerin#animatic battle#ab exclamation mark#art#yea#more power enough to take back what was once yours . etc#uhh not good for him .becoming basically an entirely different species out of one more powerful than your own is not generally comfortable#especially while you are already decomposing . use udndertle power of determination to not let your mind be consumed over the other#cause like there would be a mental battle to be the one in control of the body . in this scenario exclamation mark is no longer#tho he may have Some influence on how actions/decisions are made . but thats also just how algebraliens are : strange
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Kinda in regards to the Empress & BodyGuard 2-
Is Zaphira (sorry if I spelled her name wrong) an elf or do humans have pointed ears in your universe? If no elves, how do the pointed ears happen? Are there different length of ears and if so do they mean somethin?
Love your art & use of colours!

Thank you! and thank you for asking! (this sketch took me way too long .. and the colors still look washed out on my desktop screen but im not editing a third time ..)
Zaphira is human, there are no elves, as such, in this world, though humans tend to live longer than IRL and have differently shaped ears-
the shapes are rather diverse (example above) and culturally (so far) they have no significance, they are merely a trait just like different nose shapes or fantasy hair colors
the worldbuilding reason is that these are extremely diluted demonic influences- in the past demons were frequently in the human world, though largely in secret/disguised, and long time exposure to demonic presences can have varying effects, the most immediate and common being a longer life or wounds healing faster than normal; there might have been other long time effects but the only trait that stayed even after their disappearance is the ear shapes
(there was a mass extinction event of demons that wiped out all above a certain age, since demons generally dont die of natural causes their life neither depends nor revolves around reproduction so there were extremely few left and those were too young to keep most of their knowledge and culture alive, as they rarely wrote anything down; Shargon is of the current oldest generation and witnessed it happen, just like most now adult demons, Thor and Eadrya are both a bit older than him and thus the oldest living demons, which doesnt mean much considering the technically endless lifespans of them)
and to explain me including Shargon in a human appearance- hes the only demon that spends as much time in the human world as at home, largely to escape the others since they are not interested in going there and would otherwise attack him any chance they get (the human world is rather uncomfortable for demons to be in and they have better things to do than to chase him that far), while hes generally very weak compared to them, something he is very good at is shape shifting, mainly the speed of which, being able to shift between full demon and the smaller more humanoid form extremely quickly, or even mid forms that are a mix of both - even in motion! while for the others it takes them quite a bit and forces them to stop which is the main reason he keeps escaping them not able to keep up with his rapid shape shifting (though it does take its toll .. also a reason hes so skinny)
he is the first (only?) one that at some point will learn how to shift into a much more human looking one (depicted in the sketch) too, but its rather dangerous since it involves supressing and compressing his demon heart and system... which is what keeps demons alive (its somewhat like holding your breath for way too long) so the only time he would make use of it is in extreme situations, like avoiding detection by maschines that can pick up demonic energy or escaping shackles made of celestial silver (which drains their energy and can scar/hurt them permanently, like silver to vampires(?werewolfs?) in a way)
....the point is that if he shifts into a human form he has very long ears, meaning that is basically the extreme form that doesnt occur in humans and hints at the origins for those ear shapes being demonic exposure in the past
#ganondoodles#art#original characters#original art#oc#ocs#oc lore#man i cant ever keep it short can i#its 1am again ............#welll i hope that answers your question njdflndflnjlsd#also as a sidenote- zaphira and midas are siblings but not biologically#she was adopted into the royal family and is good chunk older than midas as he was born a while after shes been there#he was supposed to take the throne after their parents died in an allegedly accidental fire but he was like ... 6 at the time#and begged her to take up the throne instead despite the people not being very fond of her due to her agressive nature#.... which was proven correct in a way given she waged war for many years after taking up the crown#(.. bc she found out their parents were killed by a neighbouring country and the fire placed to get rid of traces)#(no one but her and a few officials knew of that being the real reason she attacked that country and not just a lust for power)#(midas still doesnt know -even now)#( though it got out of control and she ended up taking over multiple countries .. hence her title)#(after her wife died she swore to never engage in war again and been spending the last .. 20?30? years trying to repair the damage she did)#just adding that again bc its kinda central to her entire problem of everyone and their grandmother wanting her dead#and her being determined to do as much as she can before midas has to take over and pick up the pieces#..............though none of it goes as planned of course#ANYWAY i need sleep#sorry for the long text spam#i cant help but yap about my special lil guys
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my covers for my alan wake 1 and alan wake 2 playlists respectively :> you listen to the first in order and the second in reverse !! second one is still a wip cause i havent made it very far in the game (i think)
#alan wake#wails forever. alan :(#mine#my art#fanmix#just wanna talk about symbolism here#i chose the black splash for the aw2 cover to symbolize the lake/ocean/dark place#its purposefully obscuring alan's name. rendering it incomprehensible#its in black and white because of how long alan's been in the dark place#and also to reference the black and white title screen of the show night springs#the aw1 playlist is listened to in order which is something you can easily do#something that can happen naturally#but aw2? you have to actively switch songs. you have to be in control of the story. you cant let it get out of your grasp you NEED to be#aware of it at all times.#because at best it will annoy you#at worst it will show you an entirely different part of the story#out of order out of context#sorry for being pretentious about this. idgaf i love meta shit
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sorry i’m on my bullshit again but i CANNOT imagine taking the line “i loved him” —past tense lol—and making that the basis of proof for my endgame ship.
like yeah “loved him more than i will ever love anything” blah blah. she’s clearly saying it in an extremely emotional moment trying to appeal to her friend who also loved someone a lot. (not to mention dawn the sister she sacrificed herself for instead of put a sword through to save the world is RIGHT THERE.)
still past tense! still “loved” as in not love presently.
still ends her own story saying “i love you” —meaning actively right now loves— someone else directly to his face.
#spuffy#anti angel#anti bangel#anti cookie dough#i fr don’t usually need to even mention ang*l in in spuffy conversations#because it’s unnecessary#buffy loves spike#period it’s right there she said it she showed it#but this just kind of Gets to me#talking about the wild out of control love you experienced as an emotional hormonal teen just… doesn’t mean much about your adult life#fortunately buffy is allowed to and able to move on from the boyfriend who broke up with her when she was still in high school#i think she’ll always have some amount of love for him#(mostly because she does NOT know the real him and so much hidden info would change how she see him if she was shown the truth)#but she is not beholden to the destiny narrative angel creates entirely on his own
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it is so extremely underutilized that Nico is heavily implied to have powers of just. anything ghosts are reportedly able to do.
we know canonically that he can drop temperatures to freezing/to the point where it creates frost, and does so involuntarily or unknowingly at times. We know he can project emotions and memories out onto others, just in general and with physical force - both his own memories/emotions and general emotions as well, such as radiating an aura onto his enemies so that they would fear him more. We know it's heavily implied he can straight up create illusions and inflict madness upon others. We know he's eerily silent when he moves and seems to just appear in places. We know he can control/walk through/mess with dreams. We know he can become intangible and pass through solid objects and terrain without even realizing it.
like, that alone is so much! but the fact that it's implied that's not it? there's MORE?
Where's Nico fucking with EVPs and speaking through radios or static or TV. Throwing his voice. Nico remotely setting things on and off, or draining batteries, or making cell service fuzz out. Nico totally turning invisible (also a Hades' Helm of Darkness thing, so double reason for Nico to be able to do that). Where's Nico inflicting sleep paralysis. Where's Nico straight up making the walls bleed. Let him do more ghost stuff!
#pjo#riordanverse#nico di angelo#headcanon#headcanons#he's a dramatic lil shit and you know he loves fucking with people#i demand more content of Nico doing movie-level haunting/demon-possession stuff Just Because He Can#just him going ''oh haha yeah i can float ominously but like. only stationary and in whatever would scare/frighten you the most''#''not very practical but hilarious when you wake up at 3am and i'm on your ceiling''#nico scratching his friends from an entirely different room but like. the way cats do when they want attention#the argo II crew looking like they live in a horror movie because Nico got lonely#the gang walks into the common room of the Argo II to find the blood scrawled on the walls#but it just says ''WE'RE OUT OF PAPER TOWELS''#they ask what he wants for dinner and turn on the TV between channels and he just tells them his fast food order through the static#nico knocking cups off of counters just to fuck with people#nico remotely controlling a ouijia board but he's just spelling out swears
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there's a self-help/mental health adjacent post that's going around and it seems to be really helpful for a lot of people which is very good. I also personally hate it with all my fucking heart
#it's the anhedonia one btw lmao#if i. have to be exposed to one more goddamn cbt-ass advice post in my life. I will start tearing throats out with my teeth#and I will have earned the right to because I've been through the fucking TRENCHES over the years man#I think it's the appeal to urgency at the end however ruefully humorously packaged that ohohoho. really grrrrinds my gears.#this is obviously not what the person is trying to do with that but the unavoidable implication that the reason you might still#be suffering is that you just haven't tried hard enough to change to like things to open your eyes... hey. respectfullly. fuck off#peak advice for mild to moderate symptoms of mental illness thoughtlessly presented as universally applicable#without any consideration for the deeper thing you're saying -- that if someone is in a real bad way and DOESN'T get better#it's their own responsibility and they just haven't tried hard enough. in trying to be kind you are being so desperately cruel#to the people who are struggling the most. bitch I am fucking GREAT at liking things! it's one of my best skills!! I'm generally curious!#my capacity for enthusiasm and intellectual joy over any old thing that strikes my fancy is legendary and often I suspect quite annoying!!!#so when anhedonia completely envelops me I know it's a sign of something else and bigger going on in the background#it's not a choice. the brain is not solely a cognitive machine!! you cannot fix everything that can go awry with it by Thinking Better!!!#cbt must be great for the people it's great for and I'm sincerely genuinely glad for it. less suffering in the world is great#but it is a way of thinking that is a hammer and you just have to hope like fuck your problem is a nail. because otherwise#you're bruised from being beaten with hammers and the additional shame of what's wrong with you that it's not helping#and again I recognize very keenly that this is not a space meant entirely for me. people sharing resources that amn are not about me#is not only fine it's good it's great! however. it'd also be nice to not get thrown under the fucking bus for once#because my presence fully expressed is an uncomfortable reminder of the things we *cannot* control about our own brains lmao#I'm lucky that I've been in the game long enough and have enough resources to start to smell the bullshit here but...#the pain 'losing years' induces in you when you don't have *a fucking choice* -- because it's not a matter of willpower#or positive thinking or changing your mindset. you're just sick. in a way medicine hasn't quite figured out how to help yet.#well. maybe. maybe don't put that on someone huh. maybe don't make their 'lost years' to depression and doomscrolling or whatever#'their own fault'. I kind of think that's possible to do without submitting to doomposting. is all.#(I feel the same about the 'resting vs. rotting' idea. well friend sometimes the best I can hope for is some gentle rotting#thanks for introducing this layer of disgust and condemnation to the general despair. it's added a patina)#this might actually be the first time I've managed to hold on to my own anger about this rather than it getting drowned out by shame tho#which as steps forward go. *sigh* it's not a moon landing is it. but a small step for man nevertheless I suppose
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What matters is controlling your heart.
#CHILLS#I cannot believe we get to see this animated#mha spoilers#mha s7 spoilers#and yeah I’ll tag bakudeku#because the control your heart thread was ALWAYS about Izuku and Katsuki#we’re all freaking out about ‘kacchan and the others’ but that has literally been the case this entire story#when izuku came back he found Katsuki first#then all the others afterwards
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alcoholic bruce. i think he should drive drunk while his kids are in the car. i think he should say things that are frightening and kind of perverted that everyone ignores because it’s not really him, right?
#simultaneously he should be entirely in control of himself (“of course im sober enough to drive”)#and also allowed to do anything without consequences(“you know he doesn’t mean it when he gets like this”)#i think he generally doesnt let himself drink ever because he gets so out of control. maybe like a week long bender each year to get it#out of his system (not how it works but it’s b so I think he would do it anyway). hmm maybe around jason’s birthday or death day#birthday is especially fun because we can get some dialogue about how old Jason really is#(something something especially sorry to have missed your 18th)
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