#but it's bad

[futurelabs]

guys if you fear clowns of any sort, DO NOT open tumblr from desktop

[menaceoffandoms]

...I'm gonna say it

I don't like LMK season 5-

*gets shot*

[its-not-rainingg]

I wake up coated in my insides. Sticky red fingers dug under my flesh and covered in warmth of blankets and hands always grabbing and holding and having and taking. Destruction for creation. Skin becoming white train tracks. Or destruction for nothing at all. The skin will never be the same. My mother bleaches my bedsheets and she feels nothing. What are we if not for falling down, spilling out, an open wound spilling out. Eyes squint and they're not doors like we wanted. I get lost in myself.

He just wanted to be inside something, missed the warmth pouring over him. And he was very beautiful and I wanted something tangible, skin under my fingertips that I could destroy without feeling it.

I tuned down my guitar to match my voice. I pretended to be drunk so I could talk. Not as a placebo but a mask. I put in the wrong punctuation, slurred my words, melted into myself. I've seen her twice but she told me I was pretty and I am very lonely, can hardly hold myself, and I've lost my muse. I can not be my own muse, I would make myself far too sad talking about my own life. I need to worship someone else. And she is the only person whose ever worshipped anything about me.

I watched the outside get darker. I would like to never see the outside again. I've gotten lost in my drifting. I have no anchors and sometimes that's the best thing about me but I feel myself leaving the port without meaning to.

I want to learn how to go home. I want someone to touch me like they mean it, drive themselves into me, throw our bodies into one another. Everything is art if you can love it enough to piece it together in a meaningful way. I don't know how to love myself in a meaningful way. This is all bullshit.

The train station is very quiet and I keep writing and picking up cigarette butts and mumbling to you about all the horrible things that I've done in the last two years and you don't hate me yet. Emphasis on yet. I'm still waiting. I'm still waiting. I'm going to bed.

[chaoswithstars]

I think I'm one of the only three people on earth who actually quite likes Paimon (barring some... interesting situations) and her voice.

So many people say she's annoying but I'm like. But I love her, your honor. She's so supportive and empathic, your honor. She's excited about everything and feels a bit like a little kid and I want to protect her, your honor.

Like idk. I like her. I think her voice direction is pretty neat. I'm in the minority, but I'm also pretty set on it, so.

(I'm playing Ei's second quest and just... Paimon's voice is killing me. I'm having cute agression feelings and nowhere to vent them so)

[emilnikos]

love it when my friends say "you would do numbers on Tumblr" buddy I am on Tumblr. and the number is 3

[izukuer]

characters have to be a little bit awful in ways that you cant defend. its good for the ecosystem. your honor he did do that. He did in fact do that

[hansoeii]

the honda odyssey, huh?

[sweaters-and-vertigo]

they could never make me trust cops

[vamprisms]

shut da hell up

[animentality]

[spitblaze]

[guy who doesnt watch shows voice] yeah ive been meaning to watch that show

[chiimeramanticore]

compilation of this type of post

edit: idk how much this is gonna do but since making this post i got covid and need some help, please consider it

[inkskinned]

please i love you i'm begging you bring back suspension of disbelief bring back trusting the audience like. i cannot handle any more dialogue that sounds like a legal document. "hello, i am here to talk to you about the incident from a few minutes ago, because i feel you might be unwell, and i am invested in your personal wellbeing." "thank you, i am unwell because the incident was hurtful to me due to my childhood, which was bad." I CANT!!!!

do you know how many people are mad that authors use "growled" as a word for "said"? it's just poetics! they do not literally mean "growled," it's just a common replacement for "said with force but in a low tone." it's normal! do you hear me!! help me i love you please let me out of here!!!

[junglejim4322]

Something that I have noticed is I know almost nobody my age that goes to a food pantry. I know people who regularly run out of money for food and in general have to eat an unsuitable diet because that’s what they can afford and they still don’t go to a food bank, im not sure if it’s because they’re embarrassed or maybe if you didn’t grow up going you don’t know much about it but if you’re financially struggling I really recommend it. And look into other options for food assistance too like community fridges and gardens and other programs that can assist you, where I live Salvation Army pays for an allotted amount of grocery delivery for low income people every month, in the summer farmers take excess produce to the library to be taken by anyone who needs it, etc. There are a LOT of resources for free food that you can look into especially if you are literally not eating because of your financial situation

[beebfreeb]

Messaging people for the first time is so hard. What am I supposed to say? Like, "You seem really odd and your blog intrigues me. Do you want to have philosophical conversations or perhaps talk about fictional characters?" What! Whatever. I will just follow you back and stare at your blog with my big beautiful brown eyes.