#but it seems like they mananged smth

[mulderscully]

lately i've been thinking a lot about how there tends to be a lot of discourse about cishet women, or women in general, enjoying mlm books and a few days ago popular queer author alexis hall announced he was cutting ties with his former publisher forever because they don't give as much attention and promotion to queer romance because they consider cishet audiences the target audience and only sign queer authors to say they did, and that a lot of publishers believe only queer people will read queer stories which hurts both readers and queer authors who need readership from people outside the community as well and reading his comments/replies about it was really interesting.

[faaun]

ive been on vyvanse like 2-3 years now and like everything u described in ur post kinda never goes away but i dunno. i feel like it’s the only medication that works for me so i kinda just find ways around the side effects. like eating big meals in the morning before they kick in and i lose my appetite. i also am either fidgeting or listening to music like allll the time to compensate for the underestimulated feeling.

also the side effects are a lot to take in at first, so u kinda don’t notice all the ways it is helping you. once you get used to it, it feels more helpful and less burdensome.

..omg ok im glad you mananged to get past the side effects/get used to them and tbh idm the appetite thing bc workarounds are there but...the feeling of dullness/seperation/not being quite "you" or like...just feeling like you're not perceiving the world quite right and everything is more muted etc...that's like hell to me tbh !! i would rather do worse in every other aspect of life than give up the lovely intensity with which i feel things and see things and sense things, so having to choose one or the other is such a terrifying prospect...

i rly appreciate this actually, i'm going to force myself thru it for a maximum of 2-3 weeks and if things still feel so simultaneously jittery and distant i will simply stop taking them. good to know it's still a strong possibility that this side effect just doesn't go away w time ! u seem so resilient for getting used to all this tbh omg

also yea eating big meals seems to be smth ppl are saying ! that and protein shakes/bars so im gonna try that tmrw too :) probably not eating pretty much at all today made things worse, we'll see what tomorrow brings ♡♡♡