#but it just happens a loooot to black ppl

[cherrysnax]

thinking abt how nbs use and interact with aave but when they hear actually aave they freak out

[juvederm]

idek if new ppl in the fandom are looking at my stuff, or if returning fans are seeing it either, but i wanna get something off my chest ,!??! in regards to how i draw josh and whatnot

i don't draw josh in feminine outfits with the thought "yas he'd totally wear this" i don't. like rly i don't. and if anyone thinks that, trust me i know. i do know he wouldn't wear it. but it's genuinely like a fun thing. i'm not rly considering his personality when i do it. i like this character, i like this outfit, put it together and boom

i'm starting to think the outfits were never the issue tho. sometimes i'm even second guessing very Simple outfits i draw him in before i post stuff. i'm like "this won't have anyone looking at me sideways right. he's just in a black shirt and jeans." and i'm so overly cautious about it, and have been for years actually. for as long as i've made content about this game, especially art, i didn't post it. i have a loooot of josh drawings that i haven't posted, most of them in physical sketchbooks. only reason i didn't post them was bc i somehow had a spidey sense abt being judged for the looks i drew for him

i mean, when i was in a public smg discord, they said my art of josh was "risqué", when it was just a tank top and shorts. if i'd drawn a cis character in that, there wouldn't have been an issue. and i draw josh as trans, and i have made a million posts and documents about this hc of mine, i'm not gonna bore anyone with the details of it. but yes, he does still have boobs. yeah, he's a trans man to me and yet, i can still draw him in feminine outfits

mostly bc i'm a feminine trans guy. honestly i'm not even strictly feminine, i lean more toward androgynous but occasionally i'll dress up, doll myself up and stuff. i'm not against appearing masculine either, and when i'm in public, i prefer to be masculine. but like, my exprsssion isn't limited to that. trans men don't have to be Strictly masculine or else they're not trans or men. like. if cis men can paint their nails and be praised for 'not caring about toxic masculinity' where is that energy for trans men. for real.

and yea this ties in w my art bc i project a shit ton. but in reality when i'm making like in universe fanart, i'll draw josh in fitting clothes. like no he's not gonna wear whatever Heavily Stylized outfit i drew him in that took under 2 minutes. i'll actually put emotion and feelings into something for the "real josh" or whatever the fuck.

i talk about this sometimes and maybe some ppl even saw it, but whenever that person was in my inbox saying "how did you make the heterosexual guy feminine" (that's basically what the question was) i was so confused bc... what does sexuality have to do w that anyways??? i mean the answer is as simple as "i'm projecting and having fun" but being straight as a man doesn't stop you from dressing feminine, there's a lot of guys like that

and i'm at a certain point where i'm starting to think it's bc i draw josh trans. like bruh. if i was to draw mike in his white tank top and posted that in that discord, it wouldn't be seen as risqué. but i draw josh in the same thing, who just so happens to have boobs, all the sudden it's risqué

like seriously what is up with that. and yeah i know right away you wouldn't think that it's him in any of the feminine outfits i draw him in, but again, that's me having fun. i don't really wnana keep drawing him in his flannel??? like can we do other things

for "real josh", yeah he's not gonna wear any of that. i know that. any time i've written for josh (usually an in universe, canon thing), he's not wearing anything too flashy. which is normally how i see him anyway. instead of like this overly stylized and accessorized outfit, i would actually see him wearing a simple tee and jeans. i just wanna have fun so i find outfits i like and draw him in them

idek why i'm saying all of this. it's just been on my chest for a while and i feel like i haven't been able to properly enjoy being apart of the fandom bc it just feels like everyone's constantly judging me. i don't even like tagging my josh stuff w the game's tag bc i'm scared of everyone in there lmfao

my friend rose can attest to this, i was nervous about posting my art anywhere bc i was convinced someone was gonna say something abt me drawing josh with boobs or something. and i was so nervous abt that i was like. Plz. Just don't ask about it. it's not a big deal to me so why is it for anyone else. like he's got boobs and what. what about it.

i'm tired and my mouth is dry so i'm just gonna shut up

[koguma-chan]

Everyone i know that hates on jcole are on that "mumble rap is the new wave, turn up turn off, if ur songs have meaning ur a tryhard" shit- They also dump on him because hes light skinned talking about racial stuff(which is stupid), and ig he says hypocritical shit (but i dont actually know what he's said, cuz im not in his business like that)

Damn I didn’t know that was actually a thing LMAO but actually seeing some of the new popular artists that come out makes sense. :/

Lol what…more black artists should talk abt racial stuff like….how is Jcole getting hate on that meanwhile Chris Brown is an actual abuser and also has a history of stalking and threatening women other than the situation that happened with Rihanna and a loooot of ppl are defending him saying they don’t care they just like his music and how he looks??? Stupid shit.

Honestly I’m not in Jcole’s business like that either buuuuut compared to shit like that^^ I think ppl need to chill and just say they don’t like his music instead of tryin to justify it :/ 

[warlockextraordinaire]

Character Questionnaire

Full name

Caleas Mirlyth

Preferred name/nickname

Cal

Generally referred to as

Caleas

Appearance.

FACECLAIM: n/a SEX: male HEIGHT: 5′11 WEIGHT: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ light? BUILD: Thin as fuck, this dude is a toothpick HAIR: Long black hair, generally pushed to the side and well kept SKIN: pretty pale, not a lot of blemishes EYES:  fel green NOSE: sharp nose features, as well as the rest of his face SCARS: nah CLOTHES: typically wearing robes, fancy or not.

Speech.

ACCENT: thalassian, whatever that is VERBAL TICKS: n/a ARTICULATION: he articulates things, and sometimes too dramatically EDUCATION: MAGE SCHOOL EDUCATION BUT HE AIN’T A MAGE NO MORE LAUGHTER: Caleas laughs lightly usually, though when he truly does laugh, he gets embarrassed and probably snorts

Mannerisms.

FACE: he shows disgust and judgement a loooot, especially judgement. one judgey bitch HANDS: he gestures from time to time, usually when he’s frustrated or very into the convo POSTURE: typically proper PERSONAL SPACE: he favors his own personal space but won’t like, die if someones invading it

Health:

SLEEP: he doesn’t get enough sleep thanks to dumb nightmares and general insomnia but he does his best to not have bags like a certain warlock (lorisia) ODOUR: incense always lingers, plus a slight hint of sulfur NARCOTICS: socially ADDICTIONS: fel i guess, the power fel rewards is encouraging but he’s well aware that it can be negatively effecting him INJURIES: not typically

Personal.

INTROVERT/EXTROVERT?: extroverted tho he gets exhausted OPTIMIST/PESSIMIST: in between, but he’s usually pessimistic SEXUALITY: whatever happens, happens! ROMANTIC: he’s more for receiving romance than giving romance MEMORY: he’s p good about remembering things, even the things that don’t matter or are long gone to being important GOALS: be like, actually important. caleas is very personally driven and knows that he’s not a great Grand Warlock or anything, but still considers himself important for whatever reason, which becomes more of a cocky vain thing than anything. having respect and being successful are longterm definite goals INSECURITIES: he’s actually pretty insecure despite whatever facade he might put on to say otherwise - he probably won’t talk about it unless he reaaally trusts / knows the person, and with that he’s very dramatic and whiney ACHIEVEMENTS: uhh warlockery ANXIETY: yes, he’s an anxious person. nothing really in particular other than maybe anticipating what people think about him (which is probably negative) and mapping out social situations in his head that never happen SELF-HELP: himself! friends! (lorisia) COMFORTS: solitude or ignoring it BAD HABITS: not sleeping, sometimes smoking/drugs while stressed, anticipating what people think / say, hiding things from others, being vain

The Past.

PARENTS/GUARDIANS: no bueno - have not been in contact with his parents since he was essentially kicked from the family for picking up the fel. he’s in contact with Vemril, his older sibling, but caleas often regrets interacting SCHOOL: not a whole lot. paladin school? ADOLESCENCE: [How did puberty go? Was it a hard change? What was particularly hard (or easy) about it?] LEAVING HOME: [What was it like for them leaving home for the first time? What prompted them to move out of the home they grew up in?] FURTHER EDUCATION: [Did they go to college? University? What did they study, and how well did they do?] FIRST JOB: [What was their first job? Did they enjoy it?] LIFE EVENTS: leaving home and becoming independent pretty much immediately was a jump but he became self-sufficient pretty fast which helped a lot. parents are still a rough subject as well as any functional family, but nothing is too jarringly traumatic WORST DAY OF THEIR LIFE: not happened BEST DAY OF THEIR LIFE: [What happened?] LESSONS: [What are the most important things they have learned through experience?] LOOKING BACK: maybe he shouldn’t have done the fel? nahh the fel is cool. right? right.......?

Relationships.

FAMILY: Vemril + select friends. As previously stated, Caleas generally regrets interacting with Vemril because they’re typically not serious and when they are, he doesn’t find himself enjoying their presence as much as he did when they were kids. FRIENDSHIPS: ya, he’s social. perhaps not as much close friends as he would want, but there are plenty of ye olde friends FRIENDS IN NEED: caleas becomes a distant fucker when people are in need of help / soothing. not because he doesn’t care, but because he probably doesn’t know what to do and ends up aloof NEEDING A FRIEND: he tries to deal with things on his own but that usually doesn’t work out. asking for help wounds him, but he’ll do it when the time comes ANNOYANCES: voices it ROMANCE: single and ready to mingle MARITAL PROBLEMS: [How do they deal with problems in their love life? Do they talk it through with their partner? Or do they bury their head in the sand?] ADVERSARIES: [What would turn them off a friendship or romance?] ENEMIES: enemies generally come from show of cowardice, lying, mockery, and honestly any bad intent shown towards him STRANGERS: if the strangers lookin to chat he’ll chat. FUN STUFF: reading (nerd), learning new spells (nerd), getting new grimoires (nerd), fancy parties, acting like he’s important DATING: [What kind of things to they like doing with a romantic partner?] BEST FRIEND: [If applicable - who do they consider their best friend?] LOVE: na, he had a steady boyfriend once ago but their personalities got the best of them and it didn’t work out WORST ENEMY: HIMSELF WHOA EDGY RESPECT: [Do they respect their enemies, even if they don’t like them? Is there anyone they disrespect? Why?]

Interactions.

MINGLING: hell ya get him in there put caleas in coach COMFORT LEVELS: he’ll try to comfort ppl and fail probably and then need comforting himself PHYSICAL: as caleas loves receiving attention, if touch is in the name of attention he’ll accept it. if people are just willy-nilly touching his hair? hell nah that took time to get ready in the morning to look that good bro. but in relationships / etc, he’s a real sucker for touch ,’:) GROUPS: he’s not really apart of any group OPENNESS: USUALLY closed, but is open to being open GENEROSITY: ehh... not too much. his vanity and drive for personal success usually overrides generosity. JEALOUSY: o hell yeah he can get real jealous, especially for being a sucker for attention. TEMPER: yeah, his temper can get bad but it’s not particularly explosive or groundbreaking. he can just get petty and heated. EMPATHY: a bit, yeah? not the most empathetic but not the worst either. AFFECTION: hell yeah ETIQUETTE: caleas follows sin’dorei traditions / etiquette fairly closely and berates Vemril for being a shit trash lord RESPONSIBILITY: he’s pretty childish when it comes to owning up to things - it’ll take a good long self realization for him to be like ohhh yeah I was wrong haha whoops. SELF ESTEEM: not the highest, once again despite facade CONFIDENCE: higher than self-esteem and definitely comes across as a confident person HONESTY: from the amount of judging he does passively and internally, Caleas’ honesty is surprisingly low from the amount of things he’ll tell people in what he’s truly thinking, typically on a smaller scale of gossip and petty things LEADER OR FOLLOWER: leader for sure PARTY TRICKS: behold! i’m not a warlock! what’s that? you can feel the fel around me? ha ha! nope! (he doesn’t really have any) PRAISE: fuck yeah give that attention yyyyyeaaaaahh CRITICISM: he does not take criticism well - it becomes personal fast and that’s not too great, and he knows he should chill from time to time INSULTS: if someone insults him, Caleas will probably insult back or figure out why they insulted and their motive EMBARRASSMENT: ya, he can get embarrassed in select scenarios but tries his best to play it cool. embarrassment probably mostly comes from romantic scenarios, or blatantly failing at something publicly  FLIRTING: it’s probably pretty apparent when done so, perhaps a bit subtle at start to see if he’s getting any bites ATTENTION SPAN: pretty good, especially since he reads a lot and practices magic

Life.

CAREER: [Do they have a career? Are they good at it and do they like it?] PROMOTION: [Are they hoping to advance their career?] BOSS: [Do they have a good relationship with their boss?] DUTY: [What kind of responsibilities do they have?] TECH: [Are they good with modern technology or do they prefer not to tough a computer?] POLITICS: sin’dorei snooty elf politics are seen as fun and a game and not all that important COMBAT SKILLS: thru magic, not physical. he’ll melt physically HOME: messy, tomes everywhere. ‘organized’ he says, to only him DAILY LIFE: depends! INDEPENDENCE: definitely COOKING: he’s... okay. not the best, not the worst, can definitely get some tips from someone. loves 2 be made food. BUILDING: [Can they put together an item of furniture or do basic DIY?] CLEANING: hygiene is 10/10 good  SHOPPING: [Do they like to shop? Or do they prefer to only go to the store when absolutely necessary? Are they prone to impulsive buying or do they shop sensibly?] DRIVING: [Can they drive, or operate any vehicle?]

FINANCES: [Are they in a good position financially? Are they good at taking care of their bank account? Do they usually pay their bills on time?] MARRIAGE:  KIDS:  PETS: DEPENDANTS: [Do they have anyone to look after, such as an elderly relative or a sick friend?] LAW: fuck the police COURT: [Have they ever been in court? Why? And what was the verdict?] PRISON: [Have they ever been in prison?] TRAVELLING: [Have they ever been on holiday, or would they like to?] MEDICAL: [Do they go to the doctor/dentist when they need to? Or are they afraid of going to see the doctor?] ILLNESS: [Do they have any mental illnesses that affect the way they live their life?] WORRIES: PEACE: [Do they like peace and quiet? Or do they prefer always to listen to the radio or playing their favourite songs?] PARTYING: social boyo HOBBIES: reading cos he’s a neeeeerd who loves to learn like a nEEEEEERD

[imanes]

do you think that "influencers" and celebs should speak out about "political issues"? (putting it in brackets bc. it's clearly an understatement n not accurate but idk how to word it) re: palestine? cause i've seen a lot of people be like "yeah they shouldn't talk about it if they're not educated or if they're just doing it for the trend" (even tho at this point its been so all over social media that ppl cant use the "im not educated enough" excuse anymore) n all and i guess it's a fair point and all but also? idk when i'm on social media and i see ppl talking about what's happening in palestine, and then i scroll down and see ppl be like omg new haul uwu! vlog with my friends! and thats just so???? idk. idk what to think bc on the other hand ofc performative activism is bad ykw? (like....re: blm ppl just posting a black square on their ig....) but i don't know what to think about it and i would love to hear your thoughts!!!

inchresting question to which i have no concrete answer to provide (except a lot of ramblings) because it is a thorny subject related to the ubiquity of digital society and the social weight we give to a certain class of people who frame their existence as something that could represent us but actually doesn't at all. and everybody and their mother - including me - has an opinion on it but at the end of the day it's just an opinion, not an empirical fact to be presented, and not even one i think about a lot bc it isn't a primary concern of mine on a day to day basis. so i'm like not looking for a debate with some random tumblr user (not talking about u anon, but talking about whoever might care too much about my inconsequential opinion) bc this is a question i'm answering, not a question i'm asking so to anyone tempted to "well according to the encyclopedia of pfppspfpsp" me, make ur own post!

i guess we can start with "should influencers/celebrities/people who are famous by virtue of being well-known even exist and should we lend weight to their words?" the answer to that may vary from person to person but social media accounts with a very large following can indeed turn tides with regard to socio-political crises, such as demonstrated by bella hadid who single-handedly educated a whole generation of south-korean netizens through her posts on palestine so we can see the good effects of that. now obviously bella hadid is personally concerned by the ethnic cleansing of palestine and has a lot more at stake than say rihanna with her all lives matter bullshit statement (someone said "saudi dick must be potent" but i think it has more to do with her contract with puma who is actually on the BDS list) or even jameela jamil who has a terminal case of "everything must be about me always".

people can say whatever they want about what well-known ppl are allowed to speak about or not but i'll just remind that these "influencers" and whatnot are people and they're bound to want to talk about stuff, especially when it is relevant or when prompted by their own following, because literally everybody with an account on a social media platform expresses their opinions about smt at one point or another in time. that includes random ppl on facebook commenting under news with their stale hot takes. famous ppl or "influencers" are no different.

I'll also say that "influence" only goes so far so I'm not *particulary* concerned with whatever whoever that i don't take seriously says. let me take the queen of talking out of her ass jameela jamil as a case study for this. people who agreed with her bizarre and narcissistic takes are already bound to agree with her because people flock to opinions that are similar to theirs. in my opinion that is not influence, that is attracting similar weirdos in your sphere and consequently creating impenetrable echo chambers of idiocy. did her stale ass take become a "consensus" amongst the indecisive? i don't know for sure bc i haven't run a survey but my assumption is that people who have critical thinking skills were rightfully put off by her rancid take and called her out publicly for it, providing sources and information, which i think is visible enough for anyone 2 look through. and people who like her talk and think out of their asses were like "wow preach i've been saying!" so they are themselves inconsequential.

so in my opinion it is less about influencing - because at this point i think someone can be influenced by a single person into buying a product but your fave singer is not going to make you buy into their ideology just because they released one lukewarm-at-best statement - and more about signaling where you stand. when viola davis and idris elba (amongst many others) stated that they stood by palestine, they made it clear that they stood against apartheid and ethnic cleansing and people who already agreed on these basic principles saluted their stance. do i believe they changed anybody's mind? not really, that is the job of well-informed people such as activists disseminating information and other people sharing the info. do i think that mark ruffalo lost all credibility with his flip-flopping? absolutely, and it doesn't reflect back on palestine, it reflects badly on HIM. we're in an era where people are bombarded with so much information from all sides that one person saying something is a drop in a bucket no matter how famous they are. this is also why we say that israhell lost the PR war. we were and are too loud 2 be ignored now and a few celebrities showcasing how inane they are doesn't change anything. the famous-ppl-market is too saturated for their opinion to matter a whoooole lot. support is appreciated but not hailed as the second-coming jesus u know what i mean?

to address ur final point about finding it weird that some people flat-out ignore some stuff while you are neck-deep into it, I think it's an understandable situation to find yourself in and as subhi taha said, it just looks tacky. i think it should be your cue to just unfollow whoever doesn't align with your interest content-wise. i unfollowed a loooot of people lately because of that like I really didn't give a fuck about Michelle phan's cryptocurrency peddling (which was already yikes on principle) in the midst of real-time live-stream decolonisation and liberation struggles against apartheid and ethnic cleansing, and at this point I don't think I can go back to caring about using social media for frivolous things (except cats and memes account bc they bring me joy) and following bigger accounts that are trying 2 sell me some shit, because I've changed in the past weeks, one could say I've become more "radical" (lol) and I'm ready to sustain an online space that caters to my concerns and abandon all content that I indeed find tacky in between two posts that talk about some serious shit. it's not to say I'll never post a pic of the sunset on Instagram again or that I don't consume content that has literally nothing to do with informing myself and disseminating information on decolonisation and anti-capitalism (I literally watch study vlogs from med students to unwind lol), or that "everybody should use their account in this specific way because it's the only one that is valid" (it's not and i don't care what other ppl do) but u are obviously dissatisfied with ur feed for valid reasons and while some ppl may not share your opinion it doesn't mean that you shouldn't take steps to make ur user experience less jarring.

it's again just an *opinion*, not a to-do list or smt that i'd ever want 2 present as a "fact", at the end of the day everybody curates their online spaces the way they want to and if you find your current configuration to be distasteful, that's understandable. and everybody is entitled to believe that celebrities/influencers/glorified sellers of products and lifestyles and disorders talking or not talking about certain things can be harmful or beneficial, as there are arguments and examples for and against it and i am personally not interested in participating the debate even tho i wrote a long ass text about it akjdlkfjgd I'm sorry about this u might be regretting ever asking me this question. hope i made sense!