#but isn’t that self awareness without any meaningful and sustained action to change more evidence of how pathetic i am? | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

vagueiish · 6 months ago

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look, i cant even strike up conversation and begin forming connections with people i indisputably have things in common with and who (ostensibly) find me agreeable (or at least not disagreeable enough to unfollow/not follow back) under the thin veil of semi-anonymity i have on this hellsite

how am i meant to find My People in meatspace if i cant even figure out how to do that here?

#i could in theory give it a go and message people here right?#but a) nobody wants *me* to talk to them. guaranteed #and 2) i dont know how to talk to people who message me first. the fuck am i gonna do if i’m opening??#ofc everyone following me ignores me lol #understandably - i’m a broken record at this point and it gets kind of tedious doesn’t it?#i dont necessarily want to be like this either #if i did i wouldnt want to. yknow. die all the time #if i had evidence disproving my suckitude i wouldnt be inclined to wallowing in this shit. but. alas #all signs point to me being….right. im right about me #people can try and give me that bullshit about people running different races and progress being different #but if i werent as sad and pathetic as i know i am. then id have friends. people would want me around #things would be different if i was wrong. is what i’m saying #like. im not trying to ignore evidence to the contrary lol. it simply doesn’t exist #but then im the one manufacturing and presenting and examining the evidence aren’t i?#but isn’t that self awareness without any meaningful and sustained action to change more evidence of how pathetic i am?#genuinely though who cares?

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