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fineghkst · 1 year ago

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Too late (part II)

Once Rhysand invites Eris to the winter solstice, you got all the attention from the heir of the Autumn Court, making a jealous Azriel.

i almost gave up posting this bc idk if it’s good, but here it is 😖

warnings: a little angst and kinda suggestive at the end

if you find any mistakes please let me know!

part I

[masterlist]

No one knew where Azriel was.

He simply disappeared after the disaster during the winter solstice. All his clothes and weapons were left in his room, except the Truth Teller. Eveything was untouchable, exactly where he left it before leaving Velaris.

You could feel Rhysand and Feyre were trying to hide something from you. They told you not to worry, that Azriel would come back soon, but you didn’t believe them. You could sense they weren’t sure if Az would actually come back.

You couldn’t understand why the inner circle was acting so weird, even Cassian seemed to be more careful with his jokes when you were around. Like you could break if something wrong was said.

You two got closer over the years, especially after you started training with him during the mornings. You got used to being woken up by him, calling you lazy for still being in bed. Azriel's calm face became the first thing you saw as soon as you opened your eyes, with the shadows always prowling around him.

But now, as the Spymaster, no one would find him unless he wanted to.

During that week, which seemed to be the longest time of your life, Eris sent a lot of letters and gifts. At that point you received a hole collection of jewelry made from fire stone and an invitation to dinner with him at the Autumn Court. Still, you couldn’t feel excited to see Eris. So you ignored all the letters and left all the gifts abandoned under your bed.

The only thought in your mind my was Azriel.

Sometimes you felt like your heart was being crushed, and it hurt like someone’s pain was being added to yours.

You’re feeling miserable and didn’t understand why Azriel’s suddenly disappearance was affecting you that much. You two were only friends, that was all. Even if you felt a deeper feeling for him, you knew he would never like you that way.

When Eris started to give you attention, you saw a chance to get over Azriel. But even with all your efforts to love the male, your feeling for Az didn’t go away.

At some point, you started to have nightmares. You keep dreaming about Azriel being hurt by someone, Azriel being killed or simply never being found again, leaving you alone in this world forever.

Today you woke up scared, letting a cry of despair escape from your mouth. You still could see the image of your dream in your head, of Azriel’s lifeless body laying in a dark forest.

Panic still spread throughout your mind. The image refused to leave. You wanted to scream, you wish to go back in time and fix everything, to tell Azriel how you felt.

“(Y/n)?” The familiar voice said, making your heart beat faster.

Azriel was standing in front of your door with a worried look on his face. He walked in your direction with caution, like he was scared that you would disappear if any sudden movement was made.

“Az?” You asked, afraid that was just another dreams and you would woke up at any second just to find out he was still missing.

He sat on the edge of the bed.

“I heard you screaming” He asked with a low hoarse voice.

“I’m fine, it was just… a nightmare.”

“I understand.” Azriel looked at you, trying to find the right words to say next “I’m sorry to enter in your room like this, I just… I just thought you could be in danger.”

“It’s okay.” You wanted to get closer to him, to talk everything that was running your mind. “I was worried about you, why did you left like that? What happened at the winter solstice?”

The questions left your mouth before you could stop them.

Azriel’s shadows were dancing around him, slowly approaching your body, as if they were happy to finally see you again.

“I’m sorry for that as well” Azriel let a sigh left his mouth “I left because I’m a selfish bastard. I wish I could say I have a honorable reason for it, but I don’t. The truth is I left because I couldn’t see you near Eris anymore”

You tried to digest his words, finally starting to understand.

“Honestly, at that point I wasn’t giving a shit for Rhysand’s alliance with Eris. And I should, because he’s my friend, my brother and my High Lord.” He finally looked inside your eyes “But I can’t watch my mate with another male, especially him.”

The shock spread throughout your body.

Mate.

That’s what he said. You’re his mate.

“Azriel.” You said, breaking the distance and taking his hands with your own.

He felt a shiver go through his spine. The way you hold his scarred hands without hesitation, your eyes carried with affection. Even if they’ve caused only pain and suffering in the last few centuries for the others.

For the first time, he didn’t felt like a monster, like a villain of someone’s story. He could be the villain to a lot of people, but not to you. Azriel would never be able to hurt you.

“Let me finish first.” Azriel interrupted before you could say anything “I’m back because of you, to fight for you. I don’t want to believe it’s too late for us.”

“Why didn’t you tell me before?” You said “I’m so stupid, if I wasn’t so scared of telling you how I felt, none of that would’ve happened”

“How you felt?” He looked confused. “You have feelings for me?”

“How can the Spymaster be so oblivious of what is infront of your nose?” You said, laughing “Yes, I do have feelings for you, but I never thought you felt the same way. I was so blind that I didn’t even felt the bond.”

But it was there, filling your chest. Uniting your soul to Azriel’s. That’s why you felt so miserable in the last days, you could feel his despair echoing with yours through the bond, almost creating a sad melody.

“(Y/n)… please don’t tell me that I got into the biggest existencial crises of my life just because I was too scared to tell you about the bond. When I could have you long time ago.”

“Don’t feel bad, because I’m afraid we both did the same thing.” You said and he laugh.

Hesitant, he lift one of his hands and slightly caressed your face. His shadows touched your soft skin, moving around your arms, making you feel a tickle.

“You’re my mate, Azriel. And I’m only yours.” You finally said the words and he looked at you with a indecipherable expression. “I’ve always been yours. And you’re right, it’s not too late for us”

“(Y/n)” A groan left his mouth “Since the first time I put my eyes on you, you’ve conquered me in every possible way. I’m yours and you’re mine, and I won’t let anyone get in the middle.”

Azriel moved his hands to your neck and you instantly whimpered in anticipation. His eyes darkened when he heard it, and he finally broke the distance between you two, kissing you deeply. He quickly pushed you to his lap, trying to get you the closer he could, and put his hands into your waist.

“Time to claim what’s mine, love.” Azriel said with a lust in his eyes.

#azriel x you #azriel x reader #acotar x reader #azriel

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sketch-guardian · 3 months ago

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IMAGINE THE ANGEL STUDENTS WITH A MONSTERFUCKER MC (I don’t know if that’s the right word, this isn’t meant to be nsfw! But I’m talking about people who really like non humans and think they’re adorable and love everyone no matter their species! So sorry if that’s the wrong word, I don’t really interact with a lot of fanfics out of platonic child reader ones!!) AND LIKE MC WANTS TO GIVE THEM A LITTLE KISS WHILE THEYRE IN THEIR BIBLICALLY ACCURATE FORM, ESPECIALLY IF ANY OF THEM ARE INSECURE ABOUT IT, LIKE LITTLE REASSURANCE KISSES WHILE MC SAYS THEYRE BEAUTIFUL EVEN WITH THEIR SCARY APPEARANCE (SO SORRY IF THIS REQUEST MAKES YOU UNCOMFY, I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO CALL IT.)

Don't worry, I understood what you meant☺so for this occasion, to make it clear that these headcanons are SFW, we'll use the term "monsterlover"✨(I like monsters, demons, angels, aliens and robots as well, so perhaps I can consider myself a monsterlover🤣). Also aw, it sounds like such a tender scenario💜I'll try to do my best with the headcanons💖(I should draw the New exchange students' true celestial forms sooner or later🤔but it's hard to find some free time to both draw and answer asks😖perhaps I should close the askbox for a few days in order to start the sketches, would that be okay?🙈):

"NEW EXCHANGE STUDENTS WITH A MONSTERLOVER MC DOTING ON THEM IN THEIR TRUE CELESTIAL FORM"

REMIEL

Remiel's true celestial form, as the Archangel of Hope, is quite intimidating to behold, in all its fearsome glory, it's quite majestic, standing around four meters tall, with her face completely obscured by a hood, a void filled with eyes, no mouth, with tufts of hair coming out from the shadows. Remiel, in that celestial form, wouldn't have legs, only torso and arms, instead of the lower limbs, black smoke would be visible from the bottom of her black robe. Remiel's torso would be open, resembling an exposed ribcage, with a bright silver spark inside, shimmering as if to represent hope amidst darkness. Remiel would have eight wings and hands with pointed talons, her weapon would also be a long scythe with a blade at both ends of the staff. Remiel wouldn't be able to speak in her Archangel form, she would only make otherworldly noises. The angel of death would be hesitant to show her true celestial form to MC, after all she would only use it for matters of life and death, she would know that for the human mind, her sight could be overwhelming to manage, however with some kind encouragement from MC, Remiel would change into her true celestial form, towering over MC, terrifying as ever, however her baby blue eyes would be innocent as always, showing she's still in there. Remiel would have to hold MC in her hands for them to reach her and, not being able to kiss, MC would stroke her wings or hair, to reassure her they aren't afraid, while Remiel would respond with a soft guttural noise, sounding almost like a whale, it would be her attempt to communicate her relief and fondness

NATHANIEL

Nathaniel in his true celestial form as the embodiment of Patience, becomes about two meters tall, with still six wings on his back and six arms floating, very thin pointed legs, arrows of blue light floating around him, slightly longer hair and a large mask covering half of Nathaniel's upper face, mostly hiding his several eyes. Nathaniel's weapon in that form is a bow and his form would be graceful, yet he would be able to land deadly punches with his six arms. Nathaniel would prefer not to show himself in his true celestial form, because usually he only transforms when he snaps, which is rare, it would be a bit difficult for Nathaniel to show his true self at will, however with a little insistence, he would sigh and warn MC not to be afraid, because while he might turn into a creature they might do not expect, it would still be him. Nathaniel, in his true celestial form, would cautiously lean closer to MC and nuzzle them, returning their caresses with his several arms, a little surprised by their lack of fear, but also relieved to be accepted for who he really is. Nathaniel's voice in his true celestial form would be more boomy and whispery

URIEL

Uriel's true celestial form as the embodiment of Justice would be rather powerful, buff and bulky, about three and a half meters tall, with jaws similar to those of a lion and half of her face covered by a helmet, obscuring her eyes, she would also have four muscular arms and four rather large thick wings. Uriel's armor would be even sturdier, her sword too and her hair would be longer and thicker, almost as a bright mane. Uriel isn't ashamed of her true celestial form, however she would suspect it could overwhelm MC and therefore she would ask MC if they're truly sure they want to come face to face with such a majestic being, there is a reason why angels say not to be afraid when they show themselves after all. After some convincing, Uriel would transform into her true celestial form and hesitantly lean towards MC, allowing herself to be examined by their hands, she would greatly appreciate their kisses and praises, basking in their affection and trying to cradle MC with caution, as if they were made of glass. Uriel needed to be careful in order to control her strength in her celestial form. The demonstration should happen, as in others' cases, in a fairly open environment, because Uriel's weight and size would risk accidentally breaking something

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onsunnyside · 2 years ago

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I was summoned 😈 not only is there a thot but I have a special little video attached to it if you’re more of a… visual learner ☺️

…

Maybe you shouldn’t have let Andy know that you were ready for something different in your sex life. Not in a bad way or that you weren’t being satisfied because that was far from the truth.

But since you and Andy had began dating and gotten sexually intimate, he was a bit too… tame.

Sometimes you’d leave the door open for certain things to be done and a certain energy to be had but it seemed like Andy was holding back. And you weren’t a fan of it.

The only thing that remotely pushed the boundaries was calling him daddy and maybe even giving your neck a soft little squeeze during sex.

But your approach was a little too bratty for Andy’s liking. Letting out a frustrated sigh, you push on his body to get him from on top of you. He frowned.

“You okay, sweetheart?” Putting a hand on the side of your face, Andy insisted, “did I do something wrong?”

“Yes!” You blurted without thinking. Andy’s confusion only deepened. But he allowed you to speak your mind, and that you did.

But all you had leftover was a man that was finally ready to snap. He was ready this entire time, he just waited for you to say the word.

That’s how you found yourself face down in the duvet of his bed, your legs spread wide to accommodate his wide form, and the thickness of his cock spearing into you wildly.

You cried out as Andy fucked you, his pelvis clapping loudly against the backs of your thigh. He fucked you like he hated you.

“This what you wanted, huh?” Andy barked out, his large hands grabbing roughly at the flesh of your ass. “You better answer me or you don’t get to fucking cum”

You whined in both agony and pleasure, your own hands clutching at the sheets, trying to take everything he was giving you. “Y-yes, daddy!”

Chuckling, he slapped your ass, his pace not wavering in the slightest. You wanted mean, he’d give you mean.

“You fuckin’ better. Daddy’s been holdin’ out because he didn’t wanna hurt you.. been real patient with you because he didn’t wanna break his china doll. But you pushed me, so now, you better shut the fuck up and take my cock. Let daddy feel his pussy”

The pleasure was intense and it had tears burning in the brim of your eyes. Andy had no signs of stopping until he was ready to. Lacing a hand in your hair to yank you up, he whispered hotly in your ear.

“And I’m gonna cum in you, fill you till you can’t fuckin’ stand it. So, when I’m close, don’t fuckin’ touch me to push me away, you’re takin’ my cum too. You got it, slut?”

Weakly, you nodded, the tears rushing down your cheeks. You knew you wouldn’t be able to fight him or his demands.

“Yes, daddy”

That earned you a hard slap to your ass and a ‘good little bitch’ under Andy’s breath, his cock shoving itself deeper into you.

This is what you wanted, right?

…

I hope this helped 🥰😈

GEENNIEEE YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME FERAL 😣😖 IT'S LIKE YOU READ MY MIND BC I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT ANDY, THE SOFT SCRUFFY FLUFFY HAIRED LAWYER DADDY, LATELY 🫡 AND THIS !! THIS HELPED MORE THAN YOU WOULD EVER KNOW

me just thinking of Andy being so much more dominant after that: kissing you with a hand around your throat, pulling you onto his lap as you pass by, warning you with a sharp spank if that bratty attitude makes an appearance again, and even dipping into free use 😵‍💫 oh but you like being a brat bc then he's always meaner, spitting on your face, bullying your clit, and edging you until you beg for relief 😫

#tw nsft link #spicy videos #genie<3 #ask sonny #andy loving hours

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waitingformyfavoritesongs · 2 years ago

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13 Friday Jan u ary 2023 8:04 pm pdt

I’ve had a lot of stomachache and PAIN and diarrhea that smells like vinegar. If you ever used vinegar, you will probably experience some stuff deteriorated because of it... 😭😱😞😖🥵😤it gives me a lot of fear. He is 😖😭😖😭😖😭😖😭🥵😤🥵😤 really destroying me. I have no real reason to believe that it’s for any other purpose than to kill me. A lot of times my throat has been dry especially the last 2 years. He is making me drink 🍺 it I believe. Like a doll 🧸. A puppet. I believe that is how he has been breaking down my bones 🦴. Was that usher? Sang so many ways to love you ... break you down.. oh my gosh I’m so inlove you make me wanna say oh oh oh oh. Didn’t realize until last year how demonic it sounds. Incubus and him are friends, right? On the voice together? 8:13 pm pdt. I almost have no moment now. I used to hold it and procrastinate going to the bathroom 🚽. It’s been continuously coming many times this week. I had a small break when I moved a few days ago to a worse location, same place though. 8:17 pm pdt

8:40 pm pdt I’m afraid 😱 of my new location. Too much high powered fast velocity stuff acidic pee not feng shway. 8:43 pm pdt. Incubus I heard likes to fake out a lot. incubus has probably made my whole life complicated and difficult to make and keep friends, even with relatives. He made me think 💭 I did the worse things in the world 🌎 and deserving of condemnation? Suicide crossed my mind several times. I was too scared 😱 though to follow through. That I would do it wrong. I had tried to prepare for in case something happened to me: I tried to minimize paper 📄 and I scanned a lot. And ironically I think I lost all of it??? When I ran away more than a year ago. But now we moved back in with relatives and it’s difficult again. Movers basically swindled us these last 2 times we moved. I have already told my mom that the furniture 🪑 needs to be moved first. It didn’t happen. Everything is disorderly and furniture is piled on top of the other. I caught 4 movers, 2 on each occasion doing bad stuff: moving light weight empty containers instead of the furniture 🪑. I talked as kindly as I could to him telling him he needs to move the heavy stuff, and the previous movers did a similar thing and even moved my shoes 👟 so I had no shoes 👟 to wear and had to borrow from my aunt. My mom and aunt let them off the hook 🪝 and my mom paid $1000 the previous time which they charged us a lot for a moving truck 🛻 we didn’t need because we only moved downstairs 😑. I think it would have been nice if the movers could have had a procedure that helps all their clients such as moving furniture 🪑 first. I literally am living in a fire 🔥 and earthquake 🌍 hazard now. We have away a dining table and a tall ikea hermes? Dresser to them without seeing what happened in the new apartment. 9:01 pm pdt my aunt and cousin moved first days ago but seem to be too busy with work to help much. It would have been nice if cousin helped more than pack a few boxes 📦, we probably could have gave her more money 💰 if she helped more. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ her well unfortunately bcz relationships have always been difficult for me - probably bcz of my Saint Lucia /chavah/Jesus/ apocalypse desolation curse. Please read previous posts. 9:06 pm pdt. I guess in this life Adam is the new god and divorced eve bcz the previous god said eve is bad bcz she ate his fruit without his permission. So instead of sharing the consequences and being kicked out of eden, he divorced eve. 9:09 pm pdt

so much for in sickness and I’m health through thick and thin. I also bought a guitar 🎸 from a white guy prob in his mid 40s married and lived in a 2 story house in scotts valley . I paid $600 for it stupidly. I looked it up a few years ago, not BEFORE buying it, and found out it’s only worth $200. I relied on my mother’s boyfriend at the time he found it on Craigslist and I trusted him with everything. And then he tried to get me to spend more money 💰 on it at a store 🏬 that makes it’s own guitars 🎸. He also looked like a white guy. I used to think white guys were so attractive and wanted to date them. I have not yet met one to fall in love with. I’ve fallen for a half white guy, at least once, maybe 2 times the same guy, but we didn’t survive an argument? He was usually hard to get, too, but whenever we hung out I 98% ? Of the time enjoyed his company even (pain 😖🥵😤😭 hot acidic in flesh front again ) though we never kissed or did anything sexual with each other and I used to believe that he would eventually be my man. But there always seemed to be some other woman 👩🏻 more worth his time Bcz he didn’t make many plans with me ahead of time. Whenever it seemed he was pushing me away he said stuff like someday “you will have blonde babies” he said something like that. And when my first real boyfriend broke up 🆙 with me he said something like “you will meet a handsome blonde guy soon.” I think that’s what I recall. These 2 guys know each other and we all went to the same high school 🏫. Weird similar themes. Both these guys are half Asian half white, but both have brown eyes and black hair. 9:25 pm pdt.

10:54 pm pdt time goes by fast 💨 everyday... when did I do scanning of my documents ? I did it I think 🤔 2014? Or 2015? Until early 2017? And I think I was thinking 🤔 about suicide 2015? And I was watching Inuyasha on Hulu while feeling like my life was over. Some people even commit suicide over grades I heard many years ago? I really believe that there is no heaven, now. (Gurgle? 😞) 10:59 pm pdt. I’ve always had pain in my life since I was a kid 👧 from scratching myself in my sleep making myself bloody 🩸 and scabbed up 🆙 up and down both legs 🦵 and arms when I was 6 or 7 years old, irritable bowels, and chronic eczema from 7/8 years old forward, and then this chronic bone 🦴 and muscle and flesh and eyeballs 👀 pain from ≈July/august 2017; and also occasional? pain (including whole body pain at least once) from 3 seasons of running 🏃🏻‍♀️ sports in high school 🏫 and whole body aches that made it difficult to move and breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️ December? 2014, I think I also remember feeling like an old person in probably 2013? And after my parents separated my mom once commented that I look 👀 like a sick old woman 👵 and she said I should get a hair cut 💇🏻‍♂️. When I was very young maybe 6 or 7 years old my grandma 👵 on my dads side took my hair and with her fingers she made a snip snip gesture and said snip snip. I’m not close to any of my relatives. Even the ones we had visited many times in SoCal. 11:11 pm pdt I heard this evening something about ecstasy, interesting. I cannot see maryka’s Instagram anymore. My mom canceled the home 🏠 internet. and she blocked my friend on Instagram. 11:14 pm pdt.

12:15 am pdt 14 Jan u ary 2023 Saturday

(12:27/8 am pdt note 📝 for 12:15 spiky sharp acidic pain in anus when was in bathroom 🚽 )

incubus is faking us out as apocalypse pestilence and faking us out again as if it is not???? Incubus does not like. He got back what he wanted from us. He swindled us out of our strength by making us wait. He will never let us have a happy life. 12:18 am pdt he has no intentions of anything resolving. He probably only has intentions of letting cases become cold 🥶 and unsolved. And innocent men will die in prison. Some innocent men live half their life time in prison before found innocent??? Some men who rape and murdered women with children 👶 say about themselves that they are good people???? How do we (pain 😖😭😤😫😩) know what is true? They confuse me. I don’t know if I can even believe in myself bcz they mess with me all my life. Even football 🏈 players are strong 💪? And wear helmets ⛑? But still! Are very affected by body collisions in the sport. I read once that we are still very affected by concussions and maybe 🤔 they said (gurgling a minute ago 😞bad signs 🪧) 12:28 am pdt unfailing love of god .... kings will forfeit? Their crowns 😭🤕 surrender their crowns. 🎹 I was advised to give up 🆙 the case against the incubus and Sierra Lamar stuff in consequence goes with surrendering to incubus. Bcz incubus is bad and powerful like god and Merlin 🧙‍♂️ king of kings = lord/god? A happy king 🤴 he is. 😑😵 12:33 am pdt Jesus is king 🤴 Jesus is lord Jesus is worthy= stuff found online and then n songs. (Gurgling 😞) 12:34 am pdt expect only weakening and death ☠️ bcz Godzilla incubus is a double crosser. Crossing a line is double crossing your wife. Et cetera. My own family won’t 👂 hear me out when I talk about stuff related to incubus like back in 2015 one-of my cousins started talking online to a guy she didn’t know. They were on webcam but he was sorta hiding himself behind a hat 🧢. I wrote a letter trying to tell her some of my experience of chatting online with guys you don’t know and at least 1 out of 2 was a liar 🤥. Please read previous posts? I might have to write more here. 12:40 am pdt both my cousin and aunt deleted my letter without reading 📖 it. I suspected incubus sent them vibes ? To delete it. 12:41 am pdt 12:56 am pdt I sent it via Facebook.

2:03 am pdt I am completely in the dark, out of the loop 🔁 , not part of the incubus’ plan. This diarrhea is non stop 🛑.😖😭😞 clan not plan. 2:05 am pdt

2:21 am pdt incubus will use the softness of your heart ♥️ to lie to you. He is cunning and conniving? His lies have no boundaries. It’s a trap 🪤. 2:22 am pdt

2:24 am pdt in the apocalypse the whore of Babylon falls. He will rob me of my legs 🦵. 2:25 am pdt he has been giving signs 🪧.

2:29 am pdt we are all connected in a circle ⭕️? A hoop ? That never ends?? 🎶🎼🎵There’s probably an end. Dominos?? There’s a very loud thunderous sound been going all night. I cannot believe no one has complained. It’s the second? Time I heard 👂 it. It’s eerie and frightening. Everything and everyone is strange. God is a grater? Beer is good??? People are crazy. 🎶🎼🎵. Gurgling 😞2:35 am pdt

2:44 am pdt incubus wants me scared 😱 of everything. And doesn’t like it when I write ✍️ type or talk. He makes me feel guilt about everything. He gave signs 🪧 he might throw a car 🚗 at me, make a train 🚊 derail if I ride it, but he’s eating 🍽 away at all the hard materials in my bones 🦴 with vinegar and fire 🔥... lake of fire 🔥. I’m not 23, (but sumner is???) and I’m probably in the verge of spontaneous combustion woe is me 🎵🎼🎶😞 hans Christian Anderson?? Little mermaid 🧜‍♀️. Anderson elementary school 🏫. Everything has been decided before conception. Aries ♈️ ram 🐏 = Japanese 🇯🇵 “r” pronunciation like “L”. Sacrificial lamb 🐑 of Abel. Anne ? Or Anna? Was virgin Mary’s mother’s name I learned last year I think 🤔. My mom’s name is Annabel. And virtu is part of my grandmas maiden name. A lot of psychology to keep me quiet? 🤐 or to keep other sacrificial lambs quiet and complacent? As they weaken. Song of Christians Jesus is defender of the weak. 🎶🎼🎵😞 my middle name is my mom’s maiden name which is like nature’s bathtub 🛁. 2:54 am pdt in the apocalypse it tricks you into thinking rams will be saved when they aren’t. In my dads old dictionary it says goats 🐐 mean lecherous man 👨. Today it means greatest of all time. So I’ve been tricked. And so have many others. 2:56 am pdt god is incubus to Virgin Mary . Incubus is lecherous rapist murderer pestilence. God likes things the way they are, status quo. He prefers white peoples over Philippinos and Asians, but he needs only some of them. During COVID disproportionately??? More philippinos have died in California??? Was it? Sam Diego article. 2:59 am pdt incubus does not prefer Filipino but he will use them so he will make them pay 💰 high prices for concert tickets 🎫 probably when they are still relatively third world 🌎 country? Last time I went you still have to bring your own toilet paper 🧻 with you even at the nice new mall, and he will tell them sweet NOTHINGS. 3:01 am pdt

3:07 am pdt I don’t know much about the Philippines 🇵🇭 they have a lot more conveniences now, but it still in some way retains a sort of third world 🌎 feel? There a lot of dirt roads still, maybe shacks? I’m not sure now. More reading 📖 to do if this diarrhea ever stops. I’m pushing my luck now. 3:10 am pdt haughty? unfortunately?. 😞 3:10 am pdt

3:31 am pdt 3:33 am pdt he did it again to the time. Skipped a minute. Please read previous posts and watch his music videos. You will see why I believe this. 3:34 am pdt

3:37 am pdt can a rose 🌹 rose 🥀 by any other name smell 👃 Hana as sweet? ... Juliet is in the east, and Juliet is the sun 🌞 ouch hot 🥵 don’t want to be the sun ☀️ 😭😰 Susanna ... su... close. I can not trust anyone yet I’m typing 💬 all this. 3:41 ehi = pee. Everything is a con I don’t like it 😭😖😭 3:42 am pdt too big = water 💦. 3:43 am pdt gurgled 🥺😞😖😭 it won’t stop! 🛑 3:43 am pdt 3:45 am pdt god = pain.

3:52 am pdt I feel sorrow. I have had a lonely bitter painful life. It will never get better, I will never be well. If I do have a biological child s/he will probably be sacrificed very soon. I anticipate nothing good from those fiends. 3:54 am pdt 3:56 am pdt that or they have actors pretending. They are always pretending. I hate it. Making me believe this then trying to make me believe that. I’m tired. Extremely disappointed that I feel it the sorrow. 😭. I at some point in my life I was afraid to be alone like dad. So I tried too hard to like som people. Some people I think I start liking them and then my feelings changed to the point of feeling sick 🤒🤕😵 when I try to like them again. 4:01 am pdt

4:43 4:44 am pdt also bcz of all my problems I rarely wear makeup 💄. So maroon 5 sugar is not a romantic song 🎵 for me. 4:45 am pdt in the beginning I think incubus tried to trick me , 2017, and sorta when it came out with the music video bcz my dads bday is around the day that’s printed at the beginning of the music video gurgled I’m doomed. I’m not okay! Either. 😵 4:47 am pdt

5:11 am pdt this vinegar they keep putting in me is probably not good for all parts of the body. I anticipate dying soon 🔜. 5:12 am pdt

5:12 am pdt there was a time in my life I really wanted a best friend. Someone once kept telling me we were best friends but I could not consistently reciprocate the feelings. When she said it though I don’t think we hung out that much. I m not sure if she was being honest anymore at that time. She had a lot of friends. There was one woman she seemed very affectionate 🤗 to and she seemed to reciprocate without being lesbians but close? I guess? A lot of best friends are probably like that without crossing that line. And then she found a new woman 👩🏻 to hang out with, then that friend of hers confided in me and another that she felt she was being shut out and what she should do. All I could think of saying was maybe it is time to hang out with more people. 😬😵 feelings are fickle. Unfortunately. And later on the other woman told me that she Had started dating that woman. So essentially, she probably was being shut out, a third wheeler she became. 5:20 am pdt.

5:45 am pdt b4 that woman tried her new lesbian relationship, we had both expressed interest in the same guy. We at the time 5:56 am pdt

5:58 am pdt I don’t trust a lot of people now . I don’t trust people I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ and that’s basically everyone now. Trust is earned. 😞 sometimes I want to trust but if I see something feel something experienced something then, you know. Maybe 🤔 my flaw was I trusted the wrong people too easily. 6:01 am pdt continued: we didn’t tell one another to back off. But I didn’t exactly stand in her way if she wanted to take a picture with him, I let her, we took turns. Then she says she wants to do an artsy company with another guy 😭 and that’s how I ended up 🆙 with Sagittarius ♐️ incubus’ friend Scott (gurgled). 6:04 am pdt

6:21 am pdt I told her we had s*x (gurgled & heard 👂) 6:23 #3

10:25 pm pdt god enlightens who he wants to enlighten. God gives strength to who he wants. God gives and takes away. Nothing is impossible with god. If you know, you know. Sometimes? You don’t know until it’s too late. A lot of movies/tv shows back in the day used to have stuff in it such as a line that sounded like “now that I’ve told now I have to kill you” #3 gurgle 😵 10:29 pm pdt

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latinokaeya-moving · 3 years ago

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i think it’s kinda funny how every now and then that post abt the origins of the term white passing and what it actually meant back then wrt actively choosing to live ur life pretending to be white to try n access things that would’ve been barred from u otherwise n everyone reblogs that post n nods n is like ah yes i get it now, That is what white passing really Means, n then not even a week later everyone goes back to using the the watered down/modern version of the term again

#x #lol #like it’s pretty convenient shorthand i suppose so i’m not saying it doesn’t make sense but idk. just smth i’ve noticed #like i’ve deffo done the same wrt straight up using white passing on the colloquial online context everyone understands it as #but in the back of my mind i’m always like i’m using this WRONG 😖#anyways. this just came to mind bc i was thinking abt the fact that i still don’t know exactly where on the racially ambiguous to #(modern day version) white passing scale i’m rlly on lol #here in the uk at least ppl never seen sure of where i’m from unless they hear me speak spanish. otherwise ppl have guessed pretty much #every ethnic background for me before it’s actually a fun game i used to do in college #but pretty much no one ever just assumes oh yeah ur native british like. that doesn’t happen ever. So 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️#ANYWAUS. it doesn’t matter twas just thinking now that i have free time 2 think abt smth other than my uni work…. feels good… feels organic

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hyunjinspark · 2 years ago

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Hi love ❣️

How have you been ?!

Thank you ten thousand times for the new chapter, it made a mess of me to say the least 😭 The flash back was very interesting, I love the insight it gave to the groups’ dynamic as a whole as well as it’s separate parts! Getting to experience the time when Yeonjun (so sorry if I spelt that wrong 🤧) was around was heart warming, he’s definitely someone who always saw Y/n for who she was and I love his character a lot 🥹

Speaking of characters I love, Minho has always been one of my favs in this story, I love his suggestive jokes/comments, with his quick wit and smart ass comments, I feel the way you’ve written his character is like Minho irl! It was so so nice to have Y/n share a moment of conversation with just Minho, the fact that he told Y/n he loves the way she is now, and basically reassuring her that she has simply changed her behaviour from when they were in high school and that’s more or less the reason why Felix and Hana have been treating her differently, to put it nicely. (Aside from Felix’s hidden -but not so hidden- feelings for Y/n that has made him react certain way to Y/n and Hyunjin together).

OMG the bomb that Minho unknowingly dropped about Felix knowing Hyunjin’s name for all these years blew my mind…. Like excuse you Lix but you’ve got some explaining to do 🤨 I really don’t feel that he simply forgot to tell Y/n after he found out… There’s no way he would, when he brought it up to Y/n in chapter 8 and it shocked her that he made the connection… Little did Y/n or any of us know he’s known for years and kept his mouth shut, presumably in hopes Y/n would forget about the boy in the art store and never see him again? I’m eager to find out what he has to say about it in future chapters !

God love Y/n and her soul for the way she cares for Hyun, but I cackled during her texts to him about going to the event, once she stopped herself from sending him more messages 🤣🤣

Let me just say the Wine and Paint event was so so spectacular, I mean Y/n and Hyunjin teasing each other on the way there ??? Made me smile at my phone like a goofball 🫣 And I just about expired when Hyunjin asked if she could take off her coat and proceeded to helped her out of it 😮‍💨 Just a side note but I would love to attend a Paint and Wine event, i paint with watercolour, gouache and acrylic, it would be so so fun 🤩 I was so so excited we got jealous Hyun while Key spoke to Y/n…. Like yes punch this man in the face and get yo girl 😈

The shared moment outside under the stars was so so precious, the cuddling and the convo they had was everything 😭 Also I love you for referencing the time Hyun spoke of looking out over the city at night and imagining it was a concert full of stays 🥹 Also, was that moment perhaps a little nod to the title of the story?! I know Star Lost is a song from skz but I couldn’t help but feel that moment was a connection between the two.

Okay almost finished 😅 When they’re alone in the Château… oh my heavenly goodness……I’m loving how much more bold and accepting Y/n has become with her feelings toward Hyunjin 👀 It was delicious and I’m so happy that the kiss (and more 😈) finally happened 🤧 You’re ending me with Hyunjin loving the word please cause goddamn what an array of possibilities she will be able to use that 👀

But alas…. The heart break at the end when they had to stop and Hyunjin said they can’t, that unfinished sentence that he “shouldn’t have…” OH MY GOD my stomach dropped 😖 I have never felt such a quick switch of emotions when reading Istg 🫠 I felt for Y/n so much as she left the Château, I mean to pour so much emotion into someone and a show of those emotions in such a intimate way, just for the other person to say something like that, it’s soul shattering 😣 I hope Hyunjin can explain himself soon, cause we readers know that he was avoiding the kiss so he would fall for her more than he already has but our poor Y/n has no idea 😭😭😭

P.s I sent an ask with my thoughts for chapter 8 a little while ago, I was curious if you’ve received it ? Let me know and if not I will write a new one before I send more for chapter 9 and 10 ❣️❣️

All my love to you darling and I can’t wait to talk with you soon, I love talking with you 🥹❣️

hi love ! ive been good, just super tired with uni work 😳

im so glad you liked the flashback, it definitely was important to show their group dynamic when they were younger and how he’s always been there for her, even if unknowingly.

writing minho’s character is so fun for me too, but i didn’t want it to be a one dimensional that it may have been in the earlier chapters since his role isn’t too big but yeah he definitely cares a lot about yn :(

you want him to punch key 😭🫣 oh well…and yeah the stars moment is a direct nod to the story title too, and its a pivotal moment in their relationship !

hahahha definitely so many possibilities for yn now that she knows his “weak spot” ☺️

you’re so right 😭 yn does not know if hyun regrets it genuinely or not, and it is pretty soul shattering to hear that after such a special moment with him,,,,

i did receive your ask, i will be answering it soon as i have quite a bunch in my inbox 🥹 thank you so much for this review and for telling me your thoughts, love !

#star lost with you

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lavender-annd-lilac · 2 years ago

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Huh? What’s that you hear at your window? It’s me!!! With another obnoxiously long comment!!

(⚠️For real this is super long, like “Karen ranting on Facebook” long. I literally had something to say about every sentence I’m so sorry if OP feels obliged to read this looool⚠️)

His openness to improve was what made your relationship so special.

Awww he’s a little puppy for us to train 🥰

She’s always hovering around me, and so incredibly clingy, almost every single day, - like I never fucking asked to be her host of which she is a nuisance for,

This is so me talking to myself in the mirror tbh

Lol jk haha 😂 but after I finished reading I actually went back and re-read this dialogue to see if reader could have known Ransom was talking about his mother and I agree like without context this would totally seem like he was talking about his gf especially after he says “she’s home” 🤔

Was secretly hoping for a Ransom/Bryce/Reader love triangle bc I’m just that kind of bitch 😂

Ok but like what if Bryce is reader’s ex, or they kind of had a thing for each other before she started dating Ransom, and then when she thinks Ransom is trash talking her, she goes running to Bryce for a shoulder to cry on

…and he doesn’t tell her Ransom was talking about his mom on the phone, and instead lies like “oh yeah he was always saying the worst stuff about u, he never appreciated u, etc.” so he could get back with reader…

but then Ransom doesn’t know that Bryce is lying to her about their convos, and he thinks she’s just moved on, so he gets all pining and angsty like what does that guy have that I don’t 😭😖😵‍💫

“I swear they overwork you. No way is it normal to be working seven plus hours each day. It’s just plain cruel if you ask me.”

Bro… I’m not the best at math but a 9-5 job is already 8h and that’s pretty standard for most jobs I feel?? Lmao Ransom is so out of touch with us peasant folk

“Oh, just Bryce. You know, the grandson of Ogden Osbourne who Harlan can’t shut up about.

he’s 13 years younger than me. I didn’t get my own villa until I was like, 24 or something.”

Ok diving back into my daydream world for a sec lol what if like Harlan had always favoured Bryce as kind of “the grandson I wish I had” bc he thinks Ransom is incompetent, so Ran already has this low key inferiority complex about Bryce being like the golden boy, while everyone thinks of him as a trust fund prick even tho it’s not fair bc Bryce is actually even more spoiled than Ransom hahaha help me

😩

You completely dropped your routine of continuously showing Ransom physical affection, hoping he would be happy about it and not have any further complaints behind your back.

Omg I feel like any non-confrontational, passive aggressive person (like myself) will understand this EXACTLY.

roommate says I have crap taste in movies? Guess I’ll never suggest another movie night ever again.

Family thinks my interests are boring? Cool I’ll never initiate another conversation for the rest of my life lmao

Being affectionate was a big part of your character after all. It was hard to make sense of why he apparently despised one of the things that defined you.

AND YET, despite being all ugh whatever guess I’ll just stop my “annoying behaviour” 🙄 you are still stewing over it in your head ..

It’s very like “not that I even care… but their complaint was stupid in the first place and they’ve actually done much worse/more annoying things…. “😤😤😤

He would put your hand on his chest like where it usually was when you were curled up in bed.

You had noticed Ransom would pull a hurt face every now and then, as if he expected something.

MY FUXKING HEART IS BREAKING I CAN’T 💔💔💔 bc like in his mind he did nothing wrong (for once in his life lol 😆) but now reader is all distant 🥺 and she’s prob the only real supportive person in his life too

🫠

Aaand he got used to her being touchy feelly so now he’s like legit going through withdrawal someone get this man some methadone, stat!! 😳

😬😬😬

Omg also so saaad and so tragic when he threw his little tantrum like neither of these idiots knows what is going on I feel like I’m watching the library of Alexandria burn down or some equally devastating event 😅

If he has something he wants to say, he will have to say it on his own and not have me beg for an explanation, you thought.

DUDE, this is so ironic bc Ransom is prob thinking the same thing like “well if she wants to tell me something, I’m not going to ask, she should just say it” 😑

he was trying his best to remain stubborn and nonverbal.

I’m hyperventilating haha this situation is so immovable object meets unstoppable force 😵‍💫

Ransom scooped your body up carefully as he placed himself beneath, having your body on top of his and placing the blanket to cover both of you.

Fffffff he’s so touch starved 😣

He stroked your hair a couple of times, whispering; “I love you…you know that, right?”

BUT SAY IT WHEN SHE’s AWAKE U SILLY MAN

😠

Ok ok I have to say tho, I’m glad he confronted her about the “cheating” instead of being like oh well if she’s cheating behind my back I’ll just do the same thing 😤

BLESS BAPHOMET 🙏 that this did not happen

You had almost forgotten his mother even existed as Ransom had sheltered you away from her, not wanting to have her throw insults at his lover like she always did at him.

This also makes a lot of sense bc if reader wasn’t aware of how intrusive his mom is, she would have no reason to believe he was complaining about her on the phone

🤔

Also this is so sweet like him protecting her from his asshole fam:

He hid his embarrassment with a scoff and lowered his gaze, not wanting to showcase his growing red cheeks.

Cuuuuuuuuute 😍😍😍

Whew oh boy 😮‍💨

welp I guess I just used up all my sympathy resources on a fictional character so no more empathy towards real people for a while until I recharge 🤷‍♀️

Haha if it wasn’t obvious I’m like obsessed with this and I love it. 😍 ty for writing and sharing!!

Misreaders

Pairing: Ransom Drysdale x gf!reader

WARNING - The following fic contains: Nothing crazy, needy!Ransom, misunderstandings, awful communication skills from both sides, lots of fluff, mild angst, affectionate gestures, cuddles, kisses, mention of sex, mention of possible cheating.

Summary: You deny Ransom the attention and affection you used to give him all the time after overhearing him complaining on the phone how annoying he finds you.

The lights were on when you pulled over to the front of Ransom’s villa, which to you meant Ransom was home after doing business at the Blood like Wine company with Harlan and Walt.

You have been living together for 2 months now after being a couple for a year, and you both thought it went amazingly well.

You were opposites, which somehow made you all the more compelling. You were sweet, overly affectionate, expressive and a little shy, - while Ransom was blunt, graceless and more quiet about his emotions. Over time, he had gotten better at expressing them for your sake, as he knew you deserved to be told how much he loves you. He had improved at making vocal and honest apologizes as he had come to learn you weren't easy to please through gifts. His openness to improve was what made your relationship so special.

There were no complaints or major issues from both parties, - until now apparently when you stepped into the house quietly and heard Ransom talking loudly on the phone with someone, his voice sounding unnerved.

“The woman can’t seem to catch a break, Bryce. She’s always hovering around me, and so incredibly clingy, almost every single day, - like I never fucking asked to be her host of which she is a nuisance for, -

- It’s so fucking annoying.”

Your heart sunk when you comprehended his words. She? Clingy? Every single day? You were the only woman he was with most of the time. Could it be he was talking about me?

You didn’t mean to listen in, but he was talking so loudly - it was hard not to hear. He obviously hadn’t heard you come in with how confidently he let his voice roll in full volume. You had already heard enough and decided to do the old trick of opening the door with little subtlety and close it back harshly.

Ransom cut himself off, audibly muttering to his friend over the line; “You know what, - let’s talk about this later. She’s come home.”

You took off your coat and hung it up, along with your handbag and scarf. Ransom came by the corner with a smile on his lips. “Darling…” he purred the petname with delight as he approached you.

Your lips threatened to wobble with glossy eyes as realization had hit of what you had listened to. You were good at holding your composure just this once as you put on a fake smile and let your boyfriend kiss you hello before he led you to the living room.

“How was your day?” You asked casually.

“Busy. But not as busy as yours.” He said. “I swear they overwork you. No way is it normal to be working seven plus hours each day. It’s just plain cruel if you ask me.”

“Well that’s just how it works…” you sighed with a shrug. You sat on the couch, eyeing Ransom’s phone on the table and it made you swallow down a lump that had formed in your throat.

“I heard you were talking with someone on the phone as I came in. Who was it?”

“Oh, just Bryce. You know, the grandson of Ogden Osbourne who Harlan can’t shut up about. We’ve been catching up lately.” Ransom explained. “Get this, he got his own villa by the coast of New Jersey. If people think I’m a trust fund, they should get familiar with him first because he’s 13 years younger than me. I didn’t get my own villa until I was like, 24 or something.” Ransom said, the rich people business being little to your understanding, but you still listened.

You left it at that about the phone call. He was obviously going to keep his loud back talk a secret, and you thought maybe it wasn’t the right time to bring it up either. He seemed to be in a good mood despite how aggravated he sounded when on the phone.

Maybe he had gotten his frustration out, you guessed. You weren’t going to build it up this time.

You completely dropped your routine of continuously showing Ransom physical affection, hoping he would be happy about it and not have any further complaints behind your back.

Truth be told, you knew you shouldn’t be accepting how awful he talked about you, but you more blamed yourself for not considering how he felt about it.

In the past you had complained to your girl friends about minor things too, - like how you sometimes find Ransom’s use of curse words unnecessary. However you would argue Ransom’s complaint was much worse. Being affectionate was a big part of your character after all. It was hard to make sense of why he apparently despised one of the things that defined you.

You had kept up your new resolution as much as you could, only opening your arms when Ransom approached you with his own wide open. He was being more touchy with you than ever as days passed by, now being the one to engage cuddle sessions. He would put your hand on his chest like where it usually was when you were curled up in bed.

This must be the way he prefers it. Being touched only when he wants to.

You had noticed Ransom would pull a hurt face every now and then, as if he expected something. You had asked about it once when he stared at you as his head rested on your lap while you were watching an episode of your favorite show. He only muttered, "Nothing..." before he turned his face to look at the screen too.

Strange..., was all you could think from that interaction.

Days went by quicker due to your long working schedules, with the evenings almost skipping right to the early mornings.

Saturday was when you worked from home, - same was it for Ransom. He put the laptop down, finishing much earlier as he didn’t have a lot on his plate for the day.

Ransom approached you who was sitting by the kitchen island on one of those bar seats as you typed on your computer. He came from behind, slyly wrapping his arms around you and rested his chin on your shoulder. He was being incredibly touchy with where he put his hands, and it made you feel a little hot and bothered.

“Ransom, we can’t have sex right now.” You laughed as you tried to focus on your work.

“I don’t want sex.” He muttered against your skin as he gave a smooch on your shoulder and tightened his grip around you.

You weren’t having sex nearly as often as you did in the beginning of your relationship, but Ransom was completely fine with that.

The reason why you had so much sex back then was because he didn’t know how else to show affection at the time. It was before he was comfortable using the phrase ‘I love you’ because he had through his whole childhood grown resilient against those words. Back then he didn’t hug or cuddle because he wasn’t used to that kind of affection at all.

That changed when you continued being in his life and had your body against him all the time, your hands stroking his hair and face, your head on his chest or arms wrapped around his waist with your face nuzzling against him so lovingly.

You thought he loved it and that you had broken the ice, but from the conversation you heard almost a week ago, you were assuming you had done more than you should.

“Then what is it, honey?” You asked. “You’ve been acting rather odd. Is there something you want to talk about?”

You could practically feel his jaw tick against your skin, and you frowned when you looked behind. Ransom had already let go of you by then.

“If you don’t want me around, just say that!” He shouted and stormed away to your bedroom upstairs without glancing back.

You were so confused. You didn’t know what this man wanted anymore. First he insults you behind your back on the phone with some friend of his, and you stop being all over him as he had complained about, - and now he’s pulling a tantrum with the assumption that you don’t want him around.

You sighed, not bothered to walk after him as you were afraid it would only become a messy argument.

If he has something he wants to say, he will have to say it on his own and not have me beg for an explanation, you thought.

You worked on your computer until late at night. Ransom hadn’t come down since his outburst, which already told you he was trying his best to remain stubborn and nonverbal.

It was past 11:00 PM, and you were too tired to change into comfier clothes and take a night shower. You took a blanket from the basket under the table and made yourself comfortable. It had been a while since you last slept on the couch, usually from watching late night films, and you had to admit you missed it. The couch was way too comfortable to only be used for sitting purposes.

An hour later into your sleep, you hear footsteps coming down the stairs to the living room where you were. Before you know it, you feel a figure in front of you. Your eyes barely hold up as you see Ransom standing there silently, staring at your form.

“Come to bed, darling…” You heard him whisper to you as he carefully shook your shoulder.

“No, I wanna sleep…” you mumbled drowsily.

You heard him sigh, but your mind quickly wandered back to dreamworld again, leaving him to be payed no mind.

Ransom scooped your body up carefully as he placed himself beneath, having your body on top of his and placing the blanket to cover both of you.

He looked beneath him where your face was resting on his chest, some drool was coming on his night sweater but he didn’t care. He stroked your hair a couple of times, whispering; “I love you…you know that, right?”

Ransom didn’t expect a response as he was aware you were fast a sleep, but he thought it didn’t hurt to say it. He stared at the ceiling for a good while before he was able to close his eyes and rest.

Your eyes flickered open, and you yawned when you woke up. “Finally, Sunday again.” You chirped as you stretched yourself a little. Sunday was your day off, which meant you could take it easy.

You climbed off of Ransom which made him groan and you left his embrace to get your morning coffee. You had slept well tonight, like you always did when you slept with Ransom so close to you. Your morning mind had already forgotten about yesterday's ordeal.

When you returned to the living room again with two mugs in your hands, you halted as you saw Ransom had sat up, looking up at you with bloodshot eyes.

“What…- are you okay?” You asked as you walked towards him.

“You’re cheating on me.”

You froze and blinked, “What?”

“You’re cheating on me, aren’t you? That’s why you don’t touch me like you used to. You’re done with me.” He began to state his last two sentences as facts.

You put the mugs on the table and sat beside him on the couch, immediately denying his claim. “No, I’m not cheating on you, Ransom. Why on earth would you think that?”

He shook his head, not even looking at you as he was still in denial. He stood up and continued, “You found someone else to pour your love into. There can’t be any other reason why you suddenly stopped being intimate with me. You don’t kiss my cheek in the morning or hold me close anymore. You didn’t even stroke my hair when I rested my head on your lap two days ago!”

“Because you didn’t ask!”

“You don’t need to!”

You crossed your arms and stood up too, annoyed by now. “Well apparently I do because otherwise you are talking behind my back about how clingy and annoying I am!” You raised your voice to his level. “I heard what you said on the phone with that friend of yours. I’m giving you a ‘break’ like you wanted.”

Ransom processed it for a minute, unsure of what you were referring to. Then it hit him about his last week’s phone call he had with Bryce, and he let out a sigh of relief as he held back a humored smile. “You heard that? Is that what this is all about? That’s not, - fuck’s sake, you got it all wrong, darling.”

You frowned. “Do I? Explain then.”

“Did you even hear the whole conversation? I’m guessing you didn’t because if you did, you would know I was talking about my mother.”

You had almost forgotten his mother even existed as Ransom had sheltered you away from her, not wanting to have her throw insults at his lover like she always did at him.

Still, the pieces didn't quite add up and you narrowed your eye with suspicion. “You used the word ‘clingy’ though, - a very convenient word to describe someone who's always on you. A-And you said you have to deal with 'her' every day. I’m the only woman you’re with every day, Ransom.”

“What are you even, - Yes, my mother’s the clingiest bitch in the world and she practically bothers me everyday with her nonsense. She’s a damn tick on my skin, sucking the life out of me and always in my business - our business. Last week she bothered me about some high class bitch she wanted me to meet. Old hag’s disrespecting our relationship and you, my girlfriend. ” Ransom explained genuinely, his eyes looking intensely into yours.

"Oh..." was all you could utter as your mouth stayed open in awe. It all made sense now as to why Ransom sounded so annoyed on the phone but was carefree when he welcomed you home.

His mother really is a bitch, you also thought when you heard what she had planned for Ransom.

“I was talking about her, not you, kitten. I would never think of you that way. If anything, you’re clingy but for the best reasons.” Ransom insinuated with a smirk growing with the way he formed his lips. “I missed your touches so much. I don’t think I can live without them. Please stop holding yourself back and give it all to me again.”

He approached you and took your hand to give your dainty knuckles a kiss with his lips. He felt blessed when your face rested on his broad chest and wrapped your arms around his waist tightly.

“I’m sorry, I should have talked to you and asked…I didn’t mean to assume the worst from you.” You apologized. "I'm so sorry..."

Ransom laughed and shook his head. He didn’t blame you. After all, he had earned the asshole title for many reasons prior to your relationship. “You should have beat my ass if that was the assumption you were left with. Yet you still stayed around like it didn’t hypothetically happen. Why?”

You shrugged as you felt silly, but you did have a reason. “…I mean, it should be kind of obvious by now. I love you, and we both know you are too honest for your own good sometimes. But by the end of the day, you’re my jackass, and I wouldn’t let go of you so easily.”

“That’s cute of you, kitten.” He cooed as he kissed the top of your head with care. “But seriously though, don’t put up with shit, -especially from me. Put me in place if you must.”

You hummed, agreeing as you had learned your lesson. “I still can’t believe you thought I was cheating on you. You were really broken out about my distancing, weren’t you?” You said as you led him to sit back on the couch again.

He hid his embarrassment with a scoff and lowered his gaze, not wanting to showcase his growing red cheeks.

You laughed softly and pulled his shoulder while reaching out for his face, pulling him closer to you. “My poor man…I’m so sorry, honey.”

He hummed, ultimately forgiving you. “Guess you need to make it up to me. You’re going to do nothing else other than wrap those cute hands of yours around me and mean it. No half-assing anymore. I want it all.”

“Handsom’ Ransom wants to be held, huh?” You giggled humorously.

“Tease me all you want,” He snickered and grabbed you by the hip, his hands sliding down to grope your ass as he leaned into your ear to seductively add, “We both know who’s name you’ll be chanting this evening, darling.”

N/A: Probably like my 5th fic about Ransom being touch starved but idc, it’s my therapy guys. :))

Hearts & Reblogs are very appreciated! <3

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Holy. Shit… I’m going to need 3-5 working days to recover🤯🤯

I’m going to be talking about the whole fic so it will contain spoilers!! DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU HAVENT READ IT YET! YOU HAVE TO READ IT ON YOUR OWN SO YOU CAN BE MIND BLOWN LIKE I AM!!

I say this every time but I am always absolutely blown away by your fics, your writing skill and style is so incredible and even tho you’re great at writing fluff and cuteness…you dark writing it astonishing🤩

I loved that you don’t find out if it is Steve or Ransom right until the end it kept me so on edge and added to that spooky/suspenseful halloween vibe! I fell right into the trap of thinking that it must be Ransom right from the start…Mob boss…slightly controlling and abusive… fucking feral when it comes to sex… all signs that point to ransom right?? WRONG…well half and half right 🥴 I’m thinking during the whole time in the toilet that it’s defo ransom. They got in a little fight she’s was then teasing him the whole time, quick fuck, make up, back home and in bed before 10😊

I COULDNT BE MORE WRONG! I was still convince when he walked out that it was ransom and that she would go back slap him like she did and they would go back to the sexy mob couple they are🥵 but as soon as she got home and he was dressed in comfies and doing business I thought something ain’t right… he was so taken back by that slap and when he said he never even went that’s when I did a complete 180 and I knew what had happened🤩🤩

Slight side note thought to acknowledge her and ransoms cute domestic life, from her asking about his mum and him being concerned when he could tell something was up 🥺🥺 please ransom I want you to rail me then hug me….please?

But back to the creepiness…. When he mentioned his brother I threw my phone across the room in the hopes that what I had in my head wasn’t what had happened and him having a CREEPY EX CONVICT TWIN BROTHER was just a coincidence 😖As soon a that message came three I sat there for a moment hesitant to read the last line not only to try and delay what had happened but I just know what you are like I knew you would leave us on a creepy cliff hanger!! But it’s fine I’m fine that doesn’t bother me (it does bother me I’m not fine don’t do that to me😭)

I can just tell she is in such a fuck up place now, she’s filled with so many emotions and thoughts and probably the feeling of guilt, in her mind she has just technically cheated on the love of her life whose a softy mob boss at heart💔 but the reality of the situation is that she didn’t consent to WHO she was having sex with and now she feels guilty and defiled/dirty😢

Out of all the halloween/spooky fics I’ve read so far this year…this has to be the best! The way you fully capture and engross me into the story it so incredible and I loved the dark/creepy/fucked up suspense you created🤩🎃 This just proves that no matter what you write I will instantly fall in love with it and get completely captivated! You have aced the halloween creepiness this year and I cannot wait to read the next one!…okay im done I’ll stop typing now x

Better The Devil You Know

Summary: The Human face is, after all, nothing more nor less than a mask…

Warnings: Bad language words. Smut. (NSFW 18+) Contains Dark themes which may or may not be triggers. I can’t be specific, because it will give the plot away so if ANY DARK THEMES trigger, please avoid or message me for specifics. I’m happy to provide them over PM.

Pairing: MOB Steve Rogers x Reader or is it MOB Ransom Drysdale x Reader- see if you can figure it out!

A/N: So, after advice from a few of my trusted fellow writer friends (you know who you are, thank you!), I came to the conclusion that a GENERIC DARK WARNING was the best way to go with this to avoid ruining the plot. PLEASE PLEASE, if ANY DARK THEMES trigger, either avoid or PM me (don’t send an ask, as I won’t answer it on my blog). I will HAPPILY provide you a warning over PM or discuss with you. If you choose to read after the warning and this AN…then…don’t send me abuse or call me out, as I’ll block or ignore you!

Disclaimer: This is a pure work of fiction and classified as 18+. Please respect this and do not read if you are underage. I do not own any characters in this series bar reader and any other OCs that may or may not be mentioned. By reading beyond this point you understand and accept the terms of this disclaimer.

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