#but in a one is his default personal state the other is a impersonal persona shaped by nescessity trauma and other influence used to
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this-should-do · 2 years ago
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i think i might genuinely be a genius for using "gordon" "freeman" to refer to different aspects of gordon and using "gordon freeman" to refer when the two aspects are functioning in tandem i feel so smart for it, i hope it comes across as impactful and clear for readers as i hope lol
#the descision was inspired by reading so many diff fics where authkrs use either name and how jt changes how u#i terpeet the character and vice versa#so i wanted to use both becuz i like both super serious hardened freem@ns and softer kinder gordos#so i decided id try to represent both and becuz im a lil fucken goblin its done in one of the angstiest ways possible lol#it also allows me to have a i ternal monilogue that contradicts the enternal actions becuz its one part of gorson winning out over the othe#but not in a these are two seperate people#but in a one is his default personal state the other is a impersonal persona shaped by nescessity trauma and other influence used to#protect his own psyche#but it is kinda maladaptive and neither are good at careing for the self in the long run but is better at immediate sutvival but they also#lack self preservation becuz of the outside influence of being needed by others to save them#its complicated#i love coming uo with ways to reconsile the many different interpretations of gordon i have and making my own fucked up guy#oh god im so excited to finally show anybody this fic#cuz im thinkjng once i get sum people to beta read it i guess is what it is?? ill post it on a03#and its great cuz the way ive co structed it is that since its bases on the interior and exterior face thing of how people interact with#the world i can still use it for prerescas just how the personas act is different and they combine and shift and change#doubt ill ever write all that tho but its solidfying in ny brain and i can see it so clearly#iwillspeakincessantly
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matoki-project · 8 years ago
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B.A.P Primer [Link Saved Version]
-- Updated last 6/17/17 -- (Updated with Party Baby Links!)
Who is B.A.P?
B.A.P (Best Absolute Perfect) is a six member Korean k-pop group under TS Entertainment that debuted on stage on Jan. 27 2012 with their first mini album Warrior. They are best known for their strong messages and signature powerful style of music. | More info here |
| Official Facebook | TS Ent Twitter | TS Ent Youtube | Official Fancafe |
V Live Channel  [Follow on V App as well]
The official fanclub name of B.A.P is BABY (plural Babys or Babyz) and the unofficial fan color is spring green.
Hiatus?
To catch new fans up with the previous development of events, in November of 2014, B.A.P announced they were filing a lawsuit against TS Entertainment to nullify their contracts due to unfair conditions and profit distribution [x]. Since then,they went months into inactivity, attempting to hold a trial throughout. On August 1st, 2015, B.A.P and TS reached a settlement [x]. B.A.P returned to TS, prepared for their next activities and promoted with “Young Wild & Free” from their Matrix album and now recently released “Wake Me Up” from their Rose.
Yongguk’s hiatus and return
Due to Yongguk’s recent health (diagnosed with panic disorder in October of 2016 x), the five remaining members promoted for the Skydive/Noir comeback. Himchan took the leadership role and filled in for Yongguk during their Skydive performances. Following that, Yongguk was revealed to return to activity for their Wake Me Up comeback and so far is active in promotion again.
Members:
Bang Yongguk  | March 31 1990 | Leader and Main Rapper |  | More Info | Twitter | IG | Soundcloud
Yongguk is the stoic, and shy, yet caring leader of B.A.P. He is responsible for many of B.A.P’s album lyrics and more recently their song productions. His deep cave-like voice is well-known and impersonated by many. He’s also known for his vast amount of charity work and fondness of children. His favorite things, besides working on his music include ramen and his favorite character, tigger. He’s easy to embarrass, but he has a childlike side to him as well. Overall, he’s a strong leader and a strong believer of justice.  
Kim Himchan   | April 19 1990 | Sub-Vocal and Visual | | More Info | Twitter | IG
Himchan is B.A.P’s resident “mother” figure. He brings the group to life especially during variety shows, as his outrageous humor and outgoing charms are a crowdpleaser. He is known for his talent with the janggu, a korean drum and knowledge of traditional Korean music. On top of that, he originally was an emcee for MTV’s “The Show”, so his abilities are diverse. His favorite things include fashion, food and iced americanos. While he can be quite strict and teasing towards the other members, he’s very caring and sensitive. He especially shares his positivity with Babys.
Jung Daehyun  | June 28 1993 | Lead Vocal |  | More Info | Twitter | IG
Daehyun is infamous for his high notes heard throughout many of B.A.P’s songs. True to his vocal position, Daehyun is one of the more talkative members, even assuming the role as reporter for the group. Besides his voice, Daehyun is also known for his intense appetite for food (his favorite is cheesecake). He enjoys teasing and rough-housing the other members, especially the younger ones. Like Himchan, he shows a lot of love for the fans but can be sensitive himself.  
Yoo Youngjae  | Jan. 24 1994 | Lead Vocal |  | More Info | Twitter | IG
Youngjae is the group’s energetic spirit and he is the huskier vocal that melodically holds together B.A.P songs. As the group’s “brain” he’s a wisecracker that enjoys trolling the other members and especially the fans. His laughter is extremely contagious and he’s best known among fans for his silly faces and reactions. Some of his favorites include R&B music and photography. Just like Himchan and Daehyun, he’s another talker and fan of the fans. Despite his often sassy to moody nature, he is quite caring over the other members.
Moon Jongup | Feb. 6 1995 | Sub-Vocal and Main Dancer |  | More Info | Twitter | IG
B.A.P’s ball of sunshine, Jongup excels in heightening the group’s stage performances with his effortless dancing ability. And since B.A.P’s return from their hiatus, he’s been able to showcase his impressive vocal skills as well. His many loves include pokemon, hamburgers, chocolate milk, Frozen (particularly Olaf) and Chris Brown. One of the quieter members, his clever sense of humor is his best charm, and he never ceases to remind fans or the group of that. When he’s not smiling he’s in a perpetual state of judgement and even babys aren’t safe from his troll-like jokes.    
Zelo (Choi Junhong) | Oct. 15 1996 | Lead Rapper, Lead Dancer and Maknae | | More Info | Twitter | IG
The youngest of the group, Zelo impressed with his famous LTE rap. He is also an immensely talented dancer, and his fluid style compliments their stronger dance styles very well. Despite his age, he’s also the tallest member, at 187 cm, and he’s quite conscious about it. Including rapping and dancing, he skateboards a lot and is often seen carrying one around. He also has a liking for interesting fashions (socks) and strange animals. Another of the shy members, he’s coy when put on the spotlight outside of the stage, but a very playful and curious person at heart. 
Matoki
The mascot of B.A.P are a species of alien masked rabbits, from the planet Mato, called “matoki”. The B.A.P members have corresponding matoki and each has a color that helps designate their respective member. Their personalities loosely reflect B.A.P’s alien personas introduced in “Ta-dah It’s B.A.P!” Matoki are heavily used for promotional purposes (like album covers or graphic logos) and are frequently seen in their merchandise and products.
Original release photos | Group Photo
Shishimato (Yongguk) | Red | Intro Vid
Shishi can be described as the most soldier-like of the matoki (he’s fascinated by war tanks, fighting, destruction, and of the such). He looks after Tototmato often. Sometimes he’s seen looking at 19+ material.
Tatsmato (Himchan) | Pink | Intro VId
Tats is a laid-back, high maintenance, tatted matoki. He’s often seen drinking wine or lazing about. Tatsmato is also the only matoki wearing the default matoki mask (in logo form, the matoki symbol looks like Tatsmato).
Kekemato (Daehyun) | White | Intro Vid
Kekemato is the only matoki that is actually in a suit. Keke’s real skin color is pink, and he wears a mask with a heart on it. When in suit, his mask is white/gray (This brought a lot of confusion to fans when first released, but Keke’s/Daehyun’s representing color is white. Since white isn’t visible over light colors, fans will sometimes use gray, pink, purple or other lighter colors as a substitute in their posts/subtitling). Because of the suit, Kekemato has a secretive type of personalty. He has a fascination with Batman and superheroes.
Jokomato (Youngjae) | Yellow | Intro Vid
Joko is the brains and jokster of the group with a clown-like face. He often tries to come up with ideas and schemes but fails at executing them. In their “Goodbye” short, Joko and Keke work together to leave planet Mato. However, they crash in on the remaining matoki in their own spaceship, causing them to veer off course to Earth.  
Dadamato (Jongup) | Green | Intro Vid
Dada is a playful, tough, and active matoki with tire markings over his body. He fantasizes of riding a motorbike and is often seen making the noises as he pretends to.
Totomato (Zelo) | Blue | Intro Vid
Toto is a robot matoki (named after Zelo’s love of cherry tomatoes in Ta-Dah It’s B.A.P!). Because he’s a robot, he’s needs to recharge himself every so often. He often follows Shishimato’s lead in their adventures. Since he’s still a baby, he is very curious about everything around him.  
Earthventures Comic (original comic strip series featuring the main matoki)
Discography
Warrior    [1st Single Album]    |    2012 Jan. 26
Power    [2nd Single Album]    |    2012 April 26
No Mercy    [1st Mini Album]    |    2012 July 19
Crash    [1st Mini Album Repackage]    |    2012 Aug. 29
Stop It    [3rd Single Album]    |    2012 Oct. 23
One Shot    [2nd Mini Album]    |    2013 Feb. 12
Badman    [3rd Mini Album]    |    2013 Aug. 12
Warrior [Japan 1st Single Album]    |    2013. Oct. 9 | Limited Edition Tracks: [x] [x] [x] [x] [x]  | Type A Tracks [x] [x] [x] [x] [x]   |  Type B Tracks [x[ [x] [x] [x]
One Shot      [Japan 2nd Single Album]    |     2013 Nov. 13
First Sensibility    [1st Album]    |    2014 Feb. 3
No Mercy    [Japan 3rd Single Album]    |     2014 April 2
Unplugged 2014    [4th Single Album] |    2014 June 3
Excuse Me [Japan 4th Single Album ] |    2014 Sept. 3
Matrix    [4th Mini Album]    |    2015 Nov. 16
Carnival      [5th Mini Album ]     |      2016 Feb. 22
Best.Absolute.Perfect   [Japan 1st Album] |   2016 March 30
Feel So Good   [Japan 5th Single Album]   |     2016 July 13
Put ‘Em Up   [5th Single Album]     |     2016 Aug. 8
Noir     [2nd Full Album]        |       2016 Nov. 7
Fly High    [Japan 6th Single Album]    |    2016  Dec. 7
Rose   [6th Single Album]   |     2017 March 7
Wake Me Up [Japan 7th Single Album]     |   2017 April 26
Daehyun x Jongup Project Album [Party Baby]     |   2017 June 8  
Music Videos
Going Crazy (Predebut - Yongguk & Jieun)
Shy Boy (Predebut - Appearance by Yongguk, Himchan & Jongup)
Starlight Moonlight (Predebut - Appearance by YG, HC, JU & YJ)
I Remember (Predebut - Yongguk & Yoseob)
Never Give Up (Predebut - Yongguk & Zelo)
Warrior
Secret Love [TS Ver,] |    Ta-Dah Version
Power
Goodbye (Animated Short with Matoki)
No Mercy
Crash
Stop It
For a Year (Appearance by Yongguk) 
Everything is Pretty (Youngjae & Sunwha)
Rain Sound
One Shot
Coffee Shop
Hurricane
Badman
Warrior [Japanese]
One Shot [Japanese]
1004 (Angel)
No Mercy [Japanese] 
Where Are You? What Are You Doing?     |    NG Version
Excuse Me [Japanese]
AM 4:44 (Yongguk personal work created during the lawsuit)
Young Wild & Free
Feel So Good
Body Lotion (SLEEPY feat. Yongguk)
Breakaway (Braclet feat. Zelo)   Band Version  |  Drama Version
Kingdom [Japanese]
Feel So Good [Japanese]
That’s My Jam
Now (Jongup MV)
Skydive | Director’s Cut |   Dance Highlight
Wake Me Up [Stream to increase views!]
Wake Me Up [Japanese]
Shadow [Daehyun Special Video] 
Try My Luck [Jongup Special Video]
Past Live Stages
Warrior Era  |   Secret Love Era
Power Era
No Mercy Era
Crash Era
Stop It Era
One Shot Era     [Himchan was absent due to a hand injury]
Badman Era
1004 (Angel) Era
Young Wild & Free Era
Feel So Good Era
Skydive Era      [Yongguk was absent due to hiatus]
Wake Me Up Era     [Himchan was partly absent due to a rib fracture]
Performances (starting from recent)
Miscellaneous performances to check out
Other Song Works/Features
Mine - Bang Yongguk for The Star
Sexy Clap - Bang Yongguk & Himchan
Q - Bang Yongguk
T - Bang Yongguk
Sacramental Confession - Bang Yongguk
Hallucination - Bang Yongguk
Curxe - Bang Yongguk
Vintage - Song Jieun feat. Zelo
No Title - Zelo
R(x)play - V-hawk feat. Zelo
Young Wild & Free (Mozaix Remix) - Bang Yongguk
X - Bang Yongguk
Feel So Good (Remix) - Bang Yongguk
Drunkeness - Bang Yongguk
Photo - Jongup feat. Bang Yongguk
How About You - Daehyun
Dark Light - Daehyun
Song recommendations list (songs mentioned by members)
B.A.P Must Watch Shows
Ta-dah It’s B.A.P! (Their first show in 2012 and the introduction of their “alien concept”)  Ep. 1, 3 - 9 Eng Sub  |  Ep. 2  Eng Sub
B.A.P Diary Ep. 1 Eng Sub  |   Ep. 2 Eng Sub
Killing Camp Ep. 1 Eng Sub |   Ep. 2 Eng Sub  |  Ep. 3 Eng Sub (Starts at 7:11)
Go! B.A.P Full Eng Sub
B.A.P Attack! Ep. 1 - 12 Eng Sub
B.A.P’s One Fine Day Ep. 1 (P1 P2 P3) |  Ep. 2 (P1 P2 P3)   | Ep. 3  |  Ep. 4  |  Ep. 5  |    Ep. 6  |  Ep. 7  |  Ep. 8
Other Shows to Watch
Weekly Idol 120822 No Sub (beginning is cut out  |  130904 Eng Sub   |  140305 Eng Sub
After School Club 130817 Ep.    |     140219 Ep.   |    151124 Ep.
Gurupop Full Eng Sub
Star King cuts130831 Cut No Sub |  130907 Cut Eng Sub  |   131102 Cut No Sub  | 131109 Cut No Sub  |   140405  Cut No Sub |
B.A.P HeyoTV Private Life
Hello Counselor160321 Eng Sub [Himchan and Daehyun] |   161114 Eng Sub [Himchan and Youngjae]
Some misc vids to check out (these are out of order)
B.A.P The Star Interview and iconic aegyo Eng
B.A.P Workplace Song
B.A.P Day Cut Eng
B.A.P Egg Song
B.A.P Egg Song 2
B.A.P and Miss A visit Nursery
Youngjae & Sunhwa at MTV Waiting Room Eng
DFLA X B.A.P Interview
B.A.P & A Pink for Skoolooks Eng 1 2 3 MV
Miss & Mr. Idol B.A.P Cut
B.A.P Safety Song
B.A.P Elevator Safety
Himchan wrestling
131003 B.A.P Interview Eng
Daehyun plays reporter in this Show Champ Interview
Yinyuetai V-charts Awards Interview Eng
B.A.P struggle with aiming in this game
LOE Special Memory In Japan Eng
B.A.P interviews B.A.P
B.A.P make Valentine’s chocolates
140530 B.A.P Interview
DFLA Live on Earth Interview
Ice Bucket Challenge Himchan Eng
Ice Bucket Challenge Youngjae & Zelo Eng
B.A.P’s first video as 6 after lawsuit is dropped 
B.A.P Vring U trailer and debut of giant matoki heads Eng
The Qmentary Eng
Chemitest with B.A.P Eng
5 Second Interview at The Show Eng
B.A.P plays pepero game
B.A.P play dance practice
B.A.P Young Wild & Free dance practice
B.A.P are warm and pretty in this Star1 photoshoot
B.A.P Be Happy dance practice Christmas special
B.A.P reacts to Kiss Scenes Eng
B.A.P Fan Heart Attack Idol Eng
B.A.P Heyo TV
Youngjae and GOT7′s JB in Celebrity Bromance [look in playlist]
Mato TV On-Air Zelo CF Parody
Mato TV On-Air Daehyun and Jongup Drama Parody Eng
Mato TV On-Air Yongguk Lotion Parody
161223 Idol Battle Likes Eng Daehyun MC
B.A.P vs Teen Top in Overwatch 1 2 3
B.A.P are helpless in this VR roller coaster game Eng
B.A.P do the limbo Eng
B.A.P Bingo Talk Eng
More English Subbed Content
Behind the scenes vids
B.A.P photobook and past calendars info
Other stuff to find
B.A.P support for comeback!
Voting Tutorials!
Follow those links for everything you need to help B.A.P in music shows and more! I will do my best to update this section with more tutorials as B.A.P’s promotions continue.
Tumblr Blogs
itsbap (main source for updates) |    B.A.P’s schedule
bapdirectory  (collection of B.A.P blogs/some may be inactive)
bapsubbers (for B.A.P’s translated video content)
baptrans (for B.A.P’s SNS translated content)
bapnet (Network for B.A.P fans)
bestabsolutestyle (B.A.P Fashion info)
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