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pov you're me in the dms of an artist im commissioning

#there's no context for this i was just thinking about it and thought it'd be funny#starry posts#me: okay so first before i tell you about the commission i have to lore drop first so you have some context--#me: okay now that im done lore-dumping. here's the four page reference sheet i made for the commission up to and including vibes#for the character. the scene. and like three different angles of the pose reference including an attempted doodle i did myself just in case#and also these are the colors i was thinking i even included the hex codes just in case you arent able to color drop them or smth#almost all of the commission i've requested were one of my dpxdc aus so a lore-drop felt necessary to get the proper vibes across#i wouldn't be caught dead walking into the dms of an artist without first preparing what the hell i wanted beforehand 🙈
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MOVING TODAY MOVING TODAY MOVING TODAY!!!!!!!
#in case you didnt catch it. im moving today#out of my parents house. into a nice ladys upstairs#i havent been preparing at all whatsoever#im looking at my room thats not really packed at all#but its gonna be fine#im an expert at both procrastination and moving#tomorrow i have a day to chill and unpack and see the town more. and then monday i have my first day at my new job!#i wanted to get started asap because now that im paying rent again i need. money#but then tuesdays and thursdays i have designated for my remote job which only takes a couple of hours#so i can do a little of that and some more unpacking and exploring#thank god for this new beginning#i need it so badly#i need to get away from my parents and i need to breathe and i need to be alone for awhile#i need this major reset and a chance to just be myself away from family away from a partner away from everything#its gonna be good#im going to join yarn club st the library. and go to some of their weekly movie showings. and to some book clubs#some concerts. volunteer with girl and boy scouts#get a chance to breathe#its gonna be good. its gonna be so good. im excited#theres a really cool nature preserve im so excited to hike. and my favorite tourist attraction#i just need to get out of bed and pack now
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sent in my ~3 weeks notice for my weekend job! ive discovered that i don't actually enjoy painting
#looking forward to having days off again#looking forward to maybe seeing friends sometimes and also doing chores and errands and seeing family and maybe ohh. political involvement#and perhaps also resting#im planning on using weekend time for all that plus house hunting just in case i get accepted to a program and also job hunting bc#well. in 2 months or so i will be ~Eligible~ for ~Up To~ a ~40 cent~ raise 🥰🥰#shoutout to ryan for s heduling me for as many hours as a part timer can be scheduled for. but also i need more than that#ive become a sort of unpleasant person to be around with my weekend job and i hope this is a positive change in all those ways#50-200 per pay period is i think not worth the stress and bitterness it fills me with esp when like theres not a lot of consistency in hours#ive wrestled with this for like months at this point#and part of me is like well the year mark at this job is just 2 months away i can do it.#but the other part of me is like i will be learning my fate for the next 5 years around that time and i need to prepare for ANY outcome#so maybe it would be more financially prudent to keep the job?#but i miss feeling like a person and i need one or two guaranteed days off for that i think#bc i am at my main job 5 days a eeek. only 6.5h per day but :)#maybe ill enjoy painting when i leave this job but it is not a creative endeavor to which i have felt myself drawn since. middle school#it was genuinely almost comical how badly the painting i was instructing yesterday turned out#the ladies had fun but i hated how it came out lol so i had to really fight to keep a light and bright energy lmao#okay thats. doesnt matter#blah blah blah
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#been experimenting with singing & i figured out the other day that rhiannon by fleetwood mac is all in a range i can sing#at least reasonably well lmao idk if im hitting all the notes but it sounds pretty good#anyway interestingly enough my voice sounds way more masc on the HIGH notes. not the low notes#like i recorded myself & listened back b/c i was curious#''rhiannon rings like a bell through the night and wouldn't you love to love her'' is in androgynous gets-ma'amed-on-the-phone voice#but ''all your life you've never seen woman taken by the wind'' is very clearly like. this is a man covering this song#maybe just because i was really going for it? or maybe it's actually something about the higher notes. not sure#in any case it's nice & i really like rhiannon. really good song#i want ONE famous song i can sing confidently in case anyone ever invites me to karaoke lol#girl guide motto. be prepared#personal
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the expensive ass burger ended up being really good :)
#no almost throwing up this time!#im a lot more calm now#i dont think george is some irredeemable predator and i dont think he did it maliciously#but the best case scenario is that he genuinely apologizes and works on himself out of the public eye#in that case i can see myself consuming their content casually sometime in the future#but for now i prefer to just distance myself#hope for the beat prepare fpr rhe worst#love u guys 🫂❤️#days.txt
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How normal are we feeling about ISAT?

this ^ normal. perhaps even less
#was tempted to edit sif onto this as the thang being chewed but i Do Not have the energy#i just opened it again .. yknow that part of the main theme where everything comes together. so so pretty it makes my heart warm#we are almost 60 hours in w this playthrough and i need to mentally prepare myself for the next act bc. yeah <3#one of the few games where i genuinely need to do that tbh#and preparing myself for the epilogue thingy ........#admittedly. i technically know what happens bc ive seen a lot of spoilers. but i dont know Everything and how much it connects exactly#and i still have to play sasasa after this bc ive also been spoiled on.. some things.. that make it evident that its uh#more important narratively than i expected#BUT for now. focusing on the current horrors <3#ask#asquared-ohgodnotthehorrors#accurate username for this lmao#isat spoilers#< even tho im being vague on purpose. just in case
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All the mindfulness and self-improvement in the world isnt going to help me express my feelings and interact with other people without shame
#even after accepting and internalizing that potential with my crush is not a possibility i STILL struggle at all to talk to her!!!#hell even thinking of an ex (do situationship partners count as an ex?) makes me ache with want. and we're friends in both cases!!#i just feel. seperate from anything I'm doing or any connections im making. like its not really me there#and it makes any feeling I have feel foreign. like it's been strained through even before its mediated through my thoughts and words.#and it makes me scared to express sny strong emotions I have to others. like suddenly while im talking something will burst through me#that no one is prepared for or asked for. even me.#i know part of this probably means I just need to focus on myself more but. it feels more natural to see myself through a warped reflection#than as i am. but I will try.#personal
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#probs goes without saying but i think im yoo obsessed with him NDJDNNDDNDNDNNDDN#maybe i should cool it#get it together..... ya#bc i feel like its gonna make me rush and thats not great#but ik i also dont like Have Forever so JDJDJDJDJDJDJD#hhhh whatever. im kinda tired of talking about this bc ik what i have to do (ask him to hang out) but im scared to do it !!!!#and like when i do it i gotta be at Peace bc god if he says no when im in the Wrong headspace. thats like. detrimental.....#but what im Not gonna do is preemptively prepare myself for rejection 'just in case' bc god thats so unnecessarily painful???#but its also such a fuckin habit... god.#i also have way too much time on my hands now. i hope i dont go crazy.#personal#***too !!!! yoo JDJJDJDJDJDJ
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idk why, but with the last couple of tattoos ive gotten, ive had this deep and visceral Regret - which i find interesting because it's recent and ive only had it happen with like, 2 tattoos. (i have 10+) and like, i LIKE my tattoos! i got them for a reason! i also felt this when i cut my hair recently (not even much - 4 inches bc the ends were dead). but also, one of the tattoos i got, i was like, "omg how could i have done this" blah blah and at some point that faded and its just Part Of My Body Now. i have no idea why this is happening lol i LIKE altering my body i LIKE tattoos idgi !!!
#having it rn which is wild bc like i think it will pass but its just ... Really There#i think in this case it might be that the time between deciding on a design -> booking -> actually getting it was shorter than usual#so my brain just didnt prepare/adjust? not sure#i have another one coming up and im gonna be So curious to see if it happens then too...#katertalks#the times this has happened in the past... ive just needed to put another tattoo Near the one thats distressing me#and then i feel good lolol#like the first tattoo i ever got was one i did myself and i Did Not Care For It and wanted to cover it and etc etc#but then i put something next to it and now im like wait this rules actually im keeping it forever#its just a matter of time but im impatient!!!!
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fluoxetine time (once cvs actually fills it lol) 🤩🤩🤩
#my new psych np is chill thank god probs gonna have her handle my adhd meds too tbh#hopefully it just works and i dont have to cycle through a million things or take even more stuff in conjunction lol#like im mentally preparing myself for that to be the case. but i Do feel optimistic about this ive been p lucky so far#alex lore
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Did all the upper layer core suppressions in my second playthrough today 👍 I still stand by that Netzach's healing bursts are maybe a bit too generous, but it did also happen to be the only one I didn't first try so who am I to talk ig 😔
#rat rambles#lobotomy posting#to be fair. it had nothing to do with the lack of healing and everything to do with me not double checking if my guys were actually going#to deal with the violet dawn I thought I ordered them to suppress#this is the problem with refusing to assign suppressions using the menu I always select right click to suppress#and while I theoretically Could have supressed dimensional refraction variant half my upper floor guys got magic bulleted so I decided to#just reset since it was early on enough anyways#everything else went smoothly tho except for a censored scare I had during malkuths but my boy noah is too powerful#bro walked into a 30% success rate and got 23 boxes hes again and again proven himself as my best nugget this save#to be clear I did deliberately set myself up each meltdown to sniff out insight fast in case censored melted down#but that time it had been bound to repression#so yknow. rip bozo. and I didnt know what the other three were so I just had to full send hope for the best#wait I think I knew which one was repression so I was able to avoid that at least because then Id truly be fucked#but yeah just continues to prove how vital a high temperance stat is it can and will save you#except for when it doesnt and it instead fucks you over but yknow#one thing Ive realized during this playthrough is that while Im more confident generally I think I was Way more confident with pushing my#luck with abno work during my first playthrough I was sitting here with my all around 80s stat employees and being like -12%? no problem#which is crazy to me in hindsight because holy shit are these fuckers so fragile in the early game#tbf in the case of censored I was much more willing to chug the double white damage to skin prophecy my way to not dying#which I do think is smth I should have done this time around too but at the same time the vast majority of my facility does white damage#I dont even know how much it helps but I think it helps? its basically the one reason I think its worth taking skin prophecy your first run#censored can bea gnarly first aleph (not the worst mind you but still rough) and skin prophecy is I think a reliable way to help#again I say I think because I'm not quite well versed enough in the panic system to say for sure#but Im pretty sure it's just a flat percentage of your max sanity and in that case then yes it definitely helps#and white damage isnt something rly seen outside outside of abnormalities so its fairly risk free usually#just not as much if you have censored and blue star in the same department and only so many guys who can deal with them#but now neither are even slightly a problem sinceI got blue star gear and that basically turns off censoreds danger#and blue star is piss easy it's just that noah was at the time the only one who could deal with the damage#little red gear pog#anyways I could have done tiphereths core supeession too but I decided I wasn't ready yet and did a day one reset to prepare better
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bruh y am i acting like i dont have this interview/presentation in . 12 hrs 😀
#i'm debating just getting ready for bed and doign the prep stuff in bed#aka completely figuring out this presentation and planning what i'm saying TT#and doing more research into the role and trying to prepare for interview questions and shit ;-;#altho i don't rly see a like 1:1 interview on the agenda thing but there is a case study 😀#which if anything i think i'm even less prepared for bc i've never done that before 😀😀😀#but whatever i just need to prepare my presentation and everything but i'm just sitting here procrastinating TT#i'm so annoyed that they put me the day after i said i was unavailable :\ ig i just should've given myself an extra day#i didn't do shit today rip#i mean yesterday i was in cars/planes/airports from like literally 2am to like 8 or 9pm 😀😀😀#so i was in bed until like 1pm today LOL altho part of that was phone bed time but ya know#and didn't do shit today#and now i have to figure this out and i rly don't want to#also idek if i can even get this bc it requires relocation#and im not relocating this next year#and i put my start/available date as like sometime next summer bc of that#so ig they shoud have that in consideration lmfao idk#s;oighiepurgbqoehwfbowboairughsiof whatever i'm gonna try to get ready for bed and do this in bed and try not to fall asleep#jeanne talks
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The Nightingale Family-DC x DP prompt
(Shameless Addams family inspired prompt)
News travels fast in Gotham, especially in affluent circles. A new family has arrived in the city, old money at that. They had taken up residents in the old mansion overlooking the Historic Gotham Graveyard.
The Nightingales had a way of letting their presence be known. They were rarely seen in public. The eldest Jasmine Nightingale however had made waves working at the Gotham Asylum as a psychologist. She was often escorted by her younger brother Dan Nightingale. The public really started talking when Jazz was seen talking with Harley Quinn.
There were two children that lived in the Nightingale manor. They were elusive to say the least as the family didn't attend the parties of Gotham.
It wasn't until Damian Wayne got an invite from his classmate Danielle to visit their manor that someone saw the lives of Nightingales. This invite had been received after Damian carefully befriended the youngest Nightingale to investigate their connections.
That's how the Waynes ended up at a dinner party.
The manor was bleak to say the least and that's saying something in Gotham. The buildingbwas made from black stones and gargoyles perched on the roof. The garden was wilted and full of thrones that crept up the walls.
Bruce felt a sense of Deja vu as he approached the door and rang the bell. Tower bells rang out as the face of Jasmine Nightingale appeared. She was dressed in black dress pants and blazer. Her lips were painted to match. Her red hair had a striking white streak through it which had become a fashion trend since the family's arrival to girls wanting to seem mysterious.
"Good Evening. It is so nice to meet the infamous Waynes." She shook Bruce's hand. Behind her, the sounds of clanking metal was heard. "That is just my younger siblings playing. You don't you boys join while I talk to your father.
Despite only being a fresh-faced 20 year old Jazz carried herself like a confident adult. A certified genius in psychology who graduated early she also handled the inmates at the Asylum well enough that escapes are at an all time low.
"She's got it all" was what Harley said.
Bruce's admiration of the young lady was only matched by his suspicion. The house the Nightingales lived y had once belonged to the Al Ghouls. There was no telling yet if there was a connection.
He took a seat in the living room with Jazz tea already prepared. She poured two cups of black tea. Not black as in the type of tea but the color of the drink. Bruce cautiously sniffed the black liquid, it smelled earthy and acidic. Poison.
"Do you like it? I made it myself. I added the belladonna myself. It has a sweet taste so you don't need sugar. The kids have sweet tooths but we avoid added sugars. They love nightshade." She smiled drinking.
Bruce put the cup down. So they drink poison at a young age. They must be part of The League of Assassins. But why are they here?
"If you don't mind me asking. Why did you move to Gotham? Your parents-" Jazz put a hand up as she finished her cup.
"Mr. Wayne I'm sure you are no stranger to parents leaving before their time nor the concept that not all parents deserve children. Now I can't confirm or deny if that is the case for use but you can understand that it's a private matter." Jazz said sternly.
That wasn't an answer.
Upstairs Danny and Danielle played with Elle's new toys. Swords from Dan's trip to Portugal. He even sharpened them. They were currently tearing through the mansion.
Tim and Damian caught them while Danny had successfully pinned Elle to the ground.
"Dami! Help!" Elle yelled catching Danny off guard as Damian tackled Danny to the ground.
"Alright, alright. You can go next." Danny rolling Damian off him and passing him the sword. "Im taking a break."
Danny loved playing with his little sister but baby games are tiring.
"They let you play with swords," Tim exclaimed. This wasn't something he expected, sure it was normal for Damian but Damian is weird and was raised by assassins. Damian didn't do it for fun, it was training.
Damian and Danielle ran off while fencing.
"You must be one of the Waynes. Elle has been excited to have your brother over." Danny said politely if not a bit dismissive.
"Eh, yeah. Your sister said we should join you." Tim said a bit awkward. " You have another brother right?"
"Oh, yeah. He travels alot but he's relaxing right now. He's probably swimming." Danny shrugged.
Tim had heard of Danny. They went to the same school but Danny was part of a program that allowed him to come to school when he felt like it. The program is for young engineers who want to work for Wayne Industries. He mostly worked on small experimental projects. So far Danny's superconductor tech was revolutionary but impossible to replicate. Danny somehow managed to make a more effective coolant than anything they had created in the lab.
"You have a pool?" Tim knew that the mansion didn't have a pool.
"Of water? No." Danny shrugged but gave no further answer.
"I see, so what do you do?" Tim tried to sound normal like he was talking to his friends and not someone he was trying to probe.
"Anything, everything. I was going to recalibrate my telescope but I have a laser to test." Danny walked off expecting Tim to follow.
Testing was just cut a bunch of things in half. Tim got some great info on making an explosive ice canister and foam bombs. Tim made sure to get his number to hire him to make some gear for him.
The Nightingale kids were absolutely lawless. They destroyed everything in their path.
Elle had dragged Damian to her room to show off her toys. She used to travel with Dan until she started school. She picked up a bunch of items. Cult artifacts, shrunken heads, voodoo dolls, cursed puppets, knives, swords, and the homemade taxidermy Elle made from roadkill. She also had a pet dodo bird named Ernesto who had a bed next to her bed. Ernesto took a liking to Damian and sat on his head. The way he shows his affection
Soon enough Dan came upstairs to check on Elle and Danny.
"You kids, need to get ready for dinner. Sharpen your nails and teeth." He said before going back to the kitchen.
"What does that mean?" Damian asked.
"You don't sharpen your nails. Well good luck at dinner." Elle said bemused.
Dinner was...horrifying. Watching the family chat happily as they ripped apart the moving food as it came to life. Damian was actually excited as he skewered the cheese and broccoli casserole that screamed at him.
"Father, why can't we do this at our home?" He asked.
#dc x dp#Dan was swimming in the Lazarus pit in the basement#dpxdc#dc x dp prompt#dp x dc prompt#danny fenton#danny phantom#batman#tim drake#damian wayne#bruce wayne#dark danny
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Leg pain has progressed from annoying and exhausting to somewhat concerning. I can deal with my knee aching if I keep it bent for too long and I can deal with the whole leg aching down to my toes and I can deal with a bit of discomfort and pressure when I stand on it. The shooting pains up into my hip when I stand and walk are new and a bit concerning.
#I have a dr’s appointment on Tuesday after work#at this point im worried I won’t be able to stand or walk at all by that time#given how it just seems to get worse no matter what I do#I keep telling myself to prepare for a Worst Case Scenario#whatever that could be#even though im sure it’s nothing#I always think of those people who are like#‘yeah i thought my pain was nothing and it turned out to be a tumor and I would’ve died if I waited any longer’#like damn. I’d be the fool who waited longer.
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Missing the happy hormone | S.R.
Pairing: Spencer Reid x fem!reader
Content warning: emotional reader, period mention, fluff
Word Count: 1.8K
Summary: Apparently Spencer Reid could make anything better - even the emotional disaster of being on your period
A/N: First, huge thank you to the cutie that sent in this request, you literally caught me while on my period so this was born. Also, here’s to my inability to write short fics, this is your only warning that i can make and will make anything long, lol. Also, my titles suck omg. And shoutout to my crazy bestie for making me a Mamma Mia girly, she rocks.
But also, happy one month to this blog! When I carved out this little space for myself a month ago I wasn’t really sure how I’d feel being back here and writing again, but so far it’s been a treat. A huge thank you for all of your support and love and thank you to my mutuals and everyone that interacted with my blog. 💕 Here’s to many more months to come!
Request: spencer x fem!reader on her period/ovulating and shes in tears all the time?? Im ovulating and have been crying for hours and keep calling my mom lmaoo he’d been so lovely and sweet I know it I can feel it in my bones
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It was a slow day at the BAU. The most exciting thing in the 6 hours Spencer had spent at work was Rossi’s invitation to dinner the following weekend.
Paperwork had piled high after their last 2 cases, so every team member was hunched over their desk, writing and revising reports. It was a never-ending cycle - finish a report, close the file, open a new one, and start all over again.
His eyes had started getting tired after four and a half hours, his hand had started cramping and he was down two pens so far, yet there was still a prominent pile on his desk.
He suspected Morgan and Emily might have pushed a file or two from theirs onto his load, seeing as he was getting done the fastest. Regardless, every few hours JJ was bringing even more to pile on top of everything that wasn’t finished, so buried in paperwork they stayed - no matter how fast he wrote or read, or how used to the load he was.
He was just thinking about getting up to prepare a fresh pot of coffee so he could function properly for a few more hours when his phone started ringing. He felt around the pockets of his suit jacket, where it sat draped on his chair, and then pulled it free.
His display showed an incoming call, a picture of you as he hugged you, hands around your middle and face almost buried into your neck, a soft smile gracing both your faces. A scenery rich with reds, browns, and yellows stood behind you, the beauty of fall was nothing short of spectacular.
The picture you’d taken last year when the team spent a weekend at Rossi’s cabin in the woods, surrounded by the beauty of landscapes and leaves, nature for miles.
He accepted the call right away, a small smile on his face.
“Hey sweetheart.” His voice was gentle, if a little raspy from misuse. He hadn’t talked much in the last few hours - just a distracted short answer here or a hum there. He was happy you were calling, though, welcoming the reprieve from the most recent report.
It was silent for a few seconds, and he wondered absentmindedly if maybe you hadn’t called him on accident, and then there came a tiny little sniffle from your side.
“Sweetheart?” He prompted, “Are you there? What’s going on?” Worry was starting to creep into the base of his spine, but he still remained calm and kept his voice gentle.
“I’m here. Hi.” Another small sniffle, “All’s good. Just…I was just wondering how much longer you’d be gone.” Your voice was small,like you thought you might upset him by asking, and a little crackly, like you yourself were upset about something.
His eyebrows furrowed, and he checked the time quickly - 3:57 pm.
“Probably about two more hours, there’s a lot of paperwork we need to go through.” His eyes met Emily’s as she sent him a curious, questioning look.
“Oh, okay.” The resignation was clear in your voice, “I’ll see you later then.” The call ended abruptly, and it took him a second to catch up.
He couldn’t help but feel like not everything was as good as you claimed it was. For one, you rarely called to ask when he’d be home - you knew his work could span into the late hours, or even stretch for days. You let him update you on any changes in his work schedule.
In your interactions, your voice was usually upbeat and teasing - especially on the phone. Your kindness was always evident in your voice, as was your mood. You were a sunshine person, if he ever met one, that’s probably why you and Penelope formed such a close bond upon meeting.
There was something that nagged him - a change in your mood he could pick up on just by your voice - too low, too small, and the cracks that he could now identify as he replayed your conversation in his head. You were keeping yourself from crying out, and yet there was nothing more apparent than the tears in your voice. And that made him worry.
“Reid, are you okay?” Emily’s voice snapped him from the hard stare he’d been giving his phone in the last several minutes since the call ended.
“I…I don’t know.” His eye twitched, and he cleared his throat before he tried and failed to articulate exactly what was happening - he himself had a hard time understanding. One thing he knew was that he needed to get home. “I..um, I need to go. Can you, please?” He asked, gusting at the remaining three files on his desk before he pulled his suit jacket on and grabbed his satchel.
Morgan and Emily shared a mildly concerned look before they both nodded their heads, “Yeah, go. Text to let us know if everything is okay.” Morgan reminded him before he exited the bullpen with a fast step and tried to keep calm.
He was aware the situation wasn’t anything that he needed to be incredibly worried over - if something was really wrong, he knew you would have let him know. Yet, he couldn’t help the way his heart constricted by the sound of your voice, or the overwhelming desire to come home and gently hold you, see what could have caused this behavior.
You were curled up on the couch, watching as Donna helped Sophie get ready for her wedding, the gentle melody of “Slipping through my fingers” filling the empty apartment. Your eyes were watering, to the point that everything was starting to get blurry. A shaky exhale left your lips.
Today has simply been a rollercoaster. Kissing Spencer goodbye this morning was the highlight of the day. What followed was nothing short of an emotional disaster.
You’d teared up during breakfast, images of picking berries with Spencer flying through your mind. The desire to make it a reality was strong.
Following that had come the overwhelming urge to bawl your eyes out, for no apparent reason whatsoever. Just cry and cry until you had it all emptied out and you could take a deep breath and continue with your day. So, cry you did, and then you’d finished with your chores for the day.
Apparently letting it all out and emptying your tear supply hadn’t happened. Seeing as around 3:30 you’d started missing your boyfriend so much, the need to hear his voice had won out, so you’d called him. You felt the need to have him home to hold you because this month’s visit from mother flow was making you feel like a crybaby.
But then there was disappointment at the notion that you needed to wait close to 3 hours before that could happen. So you quickly ended the call before he could pick up on the tone of your voice, and then you shed a few tears.
Now here you were, rewatching Mamma Mia because you really needed a pick me up, and once again, eyes shining as the tears started falling. At this point, it was a losing battle, so you let them fall, humming to the song with a broken voice.
That’s exactly how Spencer found you, not a minute later. His keys were in his hand, the satchel on his shoulder, and he was just a little bit out of breath.
The moment his eyes met you, they softened as he dropped everything and sat down next to you. His hand reached up and he cradled the side of your face, wiping your tears away.
“Hey, sweetheart. What’s wrong?” He asked in a whisper.
“Look at Donna painting Sophie’s nails, it’s...” You hiccuped, another wave of tears washing over you. “And you’re home, why are you home?” Your question was met with a furrow in his brow, as his thumbs continued wiping underneath your eyes.
“You called.” He answered simply.
“But you said-” He stopped you before you could finish your sentence.
“I did, yes. But you sounded off and sad, so. Want to tell me what’s going on?” He prompted you gently as he pushed your hair back and pulled you into his lap after, feeling like you needed the physical contact.
You weren’t ashamed to admit it, per se, but you were ashamed that your hormones had caused him to leave work and race home to be with you.
“It’s my period,” you mumbled, hands wrapping around his neck as you hid your face in his chest, too tired to prevent your eyes from watering again. “It’s been going on all day. Randomly, I’d just get so emotional, and the tears would start. I was missing you so much too, and then hearing the song, bam, tears again. I’m so done with this Spence.” You sounded barely coherent, with your face pushed as close to him as possible.
It all made sense now, you’d been cranky a few days ago, and then you’d told him last night your cramps were unbearable, so he knew you were on your period, but right now he felt like an idiot for not figuring it out himself.
“It’s okay, everything is fine. The drop in estrogen and progesterone, following your ovulation triggered this. This in turn reduced the production of serotonin, your happy hormone. So, we just need to boost it a bit.” He whispered into your ear as you played with the hairs at the nape of his neck.
“How?” You sighed into his chest, almost being able to pick up on the sound of his heartbeat.
He got deep in thought for a few seconds as you breathed in his scent, and a sense of calmness slowly overtook you now that he was home and holding you. One of his hands was running soothing circles on your back as the other held your hand, fingers interlocked.
“How about we take a trip to the store and get you some snacks? We’ll pick up dinner on the way home and then I'll hold you some more and you'll pick a movie for us to watch.” He suggested, kissing the crown of your head once, twice, and many more times until you gave him an answer.
“Yeah, yeah, I think that would help, but just having you here has done wonders.” You finally laid your head against his chest, looking up to meet his eyes. He smiled, and so did you. Having him here really had helped immensely, and when had it not? He was your other half, your rock, and even when your emotions ran rampant or you were feeling down, just his presence, his touch, and his understanding were enough to make it all okay.
Later in the evening, Penelope sent you a photo of Sergio sleep-hugging a little plushy you’d gotten him, and the waterworks started all over again. Luckily, Spencer was there, wiping your tears and kissing your head, saying a thousand things without actually speaking a word.
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Your latest fic destroyed me (in the best possible way, im weak to angst) and I've been binge reading the other stuff you have here in order to console myself lol (love it all btw!!)
What I wanted to ask is, what features do you think lads' kids would inherit from them? In the case of the guys that want kids ofc. I have this hc that Caleb's genes are stubborn af, and all his kids have his eye colour copy paste. (If you're open to requests, that is!!)
[ Thank you for your kind words anon! 💕💕 I'm always happy to hear that you guys enjoy my work! For those who are curious, this is the fic anon is referring to!
Your request ended being quite short though bc there really wasn't much for me to elaborate (^~^;)ゞ I've mentioned before I don't see some of the boys with children, but I did them anyway for you to make up for the length! ]
⊹ His physical traits gene is like a Russian roulette, but his personality genes are unbeatable.
⊹ If Xavier was to have children they'd be as sleepy and clingy as their father.
⊹ They miiiight get his hair color, but the rest? A carbon copy of you.
⊹ I also feel like his children would be really whiny in a super cute, not annoying-toddler way.
⊹ The most adorable puppy eyes and pouty face. It feels impossible to say no to them.
⊹ The strongest genes known to man.
⊹ His children are literal copy-paste of himself. White hair, red eyes, dragon traits, ECT.
⊹ They however have your personality plus are also very, very high energy.
⊹ He absolutely adores them of course, but Sylus would ask to keep trying until he gets a mini version of yourself. What can he say, he loves you.
⊹ Oh and they're super high maintenance, much more than most kids. The twins do very little to actually help and just add to the chaos for most part.
⊹ The perfect balance of the two of you.
⊹ The little girl would have his green eyes with your hair and is just gorgeous.
⊹ The personality is a mix of both, except she is as smart as her father.
⊹ If you're an extroverted then she might be more outgoing compared to Zayne, though still enjoys sitting and playing by herself.
⊹ Annoying father = Annoying children.
⊹ Okay okay I'm joking! Kind of. The children all get his purple hair and dramatic flair.
⊹ And that my friends results in the little ones and their dad to butt heads all the damn time.
⊹ The only person they listen to is mommy, including Rafayel.
⊹ The mermaid lineage is also very strong so invest in a much bigger bathtub and prepare your heart for the water bill.
⊹ I totally agree with you that this man's genes are very stubborn.
⊹ You get a literal duplicate of him when that sweet little boy is born, personality and all.
⊹ This extends to his obsession with his mama and their silly banter over who gets to cuddle you to sleep. (He lets the little one wins because his heart is weak)
⊹ Personally though? Caleb wants a perfect mix of the two of you if you're willing to keep trying.
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