#but ig in the context of that ss that's like. right at the end of the movie. anyway

[aru-art]

mhin's moving castle...

[kobiiioo]

complicated.

brief summary and context for the hanpunk animatic i posted:

tbh,

the whole lyrics of the song pretty much explains how lihan feels towards hobie like there’s not much to really talk about ig ?? but actually ☝️🤓 if yall want a better description of the situation,

the whole scene takes place in HQ (wasn’t it obvious) and it’s one of lihan’s routine to sit at a random table with her morning coffee and just watch other spider people passing by, spending her afternoon in peace.

after a while being part of the SS, she starts to get along better with other people, meaning getting along with him.

she’s conscious of how she behaves around him and how she feels towards him. she’s not so obvious with it since she’s an expert at hiding her emotions and she’s definitely not the type to tell ANYBODY that she has a crush on someone in general (nor does she know how to express herself)

bUT she guessed that he probably already caught her many times being all flustered, clumsy and annoyed by his teasing and that he pretends to be clueless about it (which is true) since she’s just really silly and sometimes gets nervous around him AUAUAU ☹️

anw she then spots him being surrounded by people, seeing how everyone looks at him with sparks in their eyes, their gaze filled with admiration and intimidation.

and in that moment, she starts to feel a strange feeling she’s felt once before. she hates it because she exactly knows why others looks at him that way.

i mentionned on my previous post that lihan has always been envious of her brother.

that’s how she feels towards hobie too.

he’s just so cool, so confident, charismatic, clever and especially honest. he’s everything that she could never be. and this reminds her so much of her brother but it’s srsly not new since she kinda saw it coming.

she also realizes how often she zones out when watching him and forgets the fact that she’s literally staring unbothered like-👁️👁️ and hobie sometimes would catch her and just stare back at her as well so they’re just staring at each other like 👁️👁️ and then she snaps out of it before turning away all flustered LMFAO idiots 😔

anw this is not what i wanted to talk about but basically while she’s zoning out, she gets reminded of one specific event (will talk about this on another post as well) that made her realize that she totally had the wrong image of him, only seeing him as annoying and as a silly guy. and it’s this part where she’s staring up at him as he’s facing his back and then looking back at her.

the fact that she’s down and staring up at him is also a way of showing that he seems to be untouchable and unattainable to her, someone she can never truly hold in her embrace, someone she can only look at from afar and appreciate their beauty, someone she can never call “mine”.

this emphasizes with the only part where there are no blue shade (it’s kind of like a flashback) where they’re just smiling at each other and their hands are almost about to touch but as you can see, only lihan’s hand moves but not hobie’s.

yall know what that means ?

yeah.

it’s one sided. it’s not reciprocal.

but who knows what he feels towards her ? right ? as she’s walking away, hobie reaches his hand out to stop her, to hold back and maybe catch something that’s more important than he thought, slipping out of his hand.

but did he ended up catching it ?

nope.

and yes,

that’s exactly why their relationship is a unrequited love (i have a very serious problem with this trope)

and thus she knows. she knew from the beginning as soon as she sensed that she started feeling something stronger towards him.

she sensed the tension between them and that whatever they had and whatever it was, it could never happen.

she didn’t even had expectations in the first place. she never even imagined she’d fall for someone like him. and even though it’s hard for her to even believe this truth,

she loves him.

so dearly and wholeheartedly.

and she doesn’t want to love him just for the hope to become something more than what they are. she’s satisfied with what she has and she’s simply grateful to have him around.

she doesn’t want to complain because whenever she did, she always lost something. (suhhan *COUGHS*)

even though it does make her sad that they’ll probably not (unless 👀) be more, what truly agonizes her the most is that until the end, she’ll never have the guts to reach her hand out to hold his.

(ps: she’s such an idiot i hate her ugh she makes me so freaking sickkk AAAA💔 this is so stupid she is me i am her we are the same person ahagshhs 😁)

[starklore]

Okay I know I said no long posts we vague like men but you asked so I delivered:

So the basic gist of it is that Steve never moved on from the 1940s. I’m giving Avengers a pass for this bc it takes place like...a week after he came out of the ice or something, but from TWS on he’s both defined and driven largely by his relationships with Bucky and Peggy. 

He’s driven to join, or at least not quit, SHIELD by Peggy, he still has his compass, and his arc in TWS is largely about not being able to let go of Bucky (which, I’m not saying he should have been, but that was the choice the writers set in front of him, and within the larger context of his roles in the MCU it becomes part of a pattern ig.) 

When Sam asks him about the change, you see him try to be optimistic about it, but it’s all superficial shit. The internet is nice, the food is better, nothing indicates that he’s actually put down roots in his new world. Then the whole sequence where he goes to the museum about his own life in the 1940s. 

I could write a whole other essay on why Steve’s Scarlet Witch vision in AoU didn’t work (and frankly I don’t think J*ss Wh*don is very good at writing Steve as a character that has ANY definition or motivation beyond “do the right thing” which is why Steve is inevitably so boring in his movies) but here’s how it connects to this:

Steve’s vision is...to be generous, I don’t want to say it was about Peggy, exactly. Ultron tells Steve that he’s “pretending he could live without a war” and I think that’s the crux of it, his fear is that he can never escape the fight, but Peggy is still his symbol of normalcy, she’s still the symbol for everything he wants and is afraid he can never have. That’s defined by Peggy, for him. 

Then you have Civil War where again he’s driven in part by his love for Bucky and his desire to honor Peggy’s legacy, and then IW he doesn’t really have a character arc bc the movie is so cluttered. 

And then Endgame, where we find him STILL carrying around the compass with the picture of Peggy, and almost blowing the time heist because he saw her in the past, and and and. 

And then in the end he goes back in time to live in the past with Peggy, and it’s like...a completely logical choice for him to make, if he’s getting out of the fight, that’s where he’s going. That’s where he thinks he belongs, where he was supposed to end up.  

And does Steve really change from movie to movie? Is Steve really a different person at the end of Endgame than he was at the end or even the beginning of TFA? The most dynamic thing about Steve is really his relationships with others and how they change (Natasha, Sam, Tony come to mind)--

And in the end, did any of that matter? Steve walked away from it all in the end and he didn’t have any regrets. Everything he built, he gave away. Even Bucky, he gave up Bucky in the present to go be in the past--

It’s not impossible to write dynamic stories about *neutral good boy scout characters, Superman writers have been doing it (and sometimes not doing it) for decades, the comics have been writing Steve Rogers in interesting ways for decades too (and also sometimes failing, see hydracap) but I really feel like none of the MCU writers were really equipped to write those stories so he ended up being pretty static as a character. 

In a functioning story, if Steve even tried to go back and be with Peggy, he wouldn’t be able to, because he’s a different person than he was in the 1940s and he wouldn’t fit right back into that role. But because he never really changed or grew in any way he’s able to step back to where he was at the beginning of his story basically seamlessly. 

*Steve is arguably more chaotic good than neutral good which would’ve been interesting if they had actually explored it, but w/e. 

Tl;dr: Steve never moved on from the 1940s so him ending up back there makes perfect sense. However, it’s bad writing for him to have not moved on because it waters down the impact of everything that has happened to him in the present. It didn’t change him as a character, in fact he doesn’t really change as a character at all, which is also bad writing. 

This isn’t a hate post bc I do like the character a lot actually, I wouldn’t be writing a long-ass Steve/OC fic if I didn’t, but I’m coming to terms w the fact that I really love the potential of him more than the canonical version of the character that we got. 

No hate just my onion peace and love <3

Rewatching EG w my family and it reminded me the conclusion I've come to is that Steve's ending just brought into focus how broken his general story was...it wasn't an illogical ending to an otherwise good story, it was a logical ending to an already bad story.