#but if i found proof that it exists maybe it could seriously back trans people with scientific evidence

[buggbuzz]

my gender is like meat leaf i think. boy materials in the structure of girl. like im a girl made out of boy things but not in a transman way like i like being female im just. a girl-leaning boygirl. maybe??

[jenniferdiazisatransgirl]

A Platform

So yesterday as you guys know a TERF blog took screenshots of myself and other trans women without our consent and posted these on the internet calling us “transwomen” in quotation marks, making out we were faking being trans and saying “you can smell the XY chromosomes from here”.

I interacted with this blog to say how disgusting I thought her actions were and the typical rhetoric of we only transition because we like dresses and make-up came out. She also claimed I have never experienced misogyny or being suffocated by the patriarchy. I decided to take this opportunity to try and educate her, but while completely skipping over the clear examples of misogyny I have faced, she then moved onto the science backing up trans people claiming it had “already been debunked”. Given there was only just something in the news recently, clearly not true but at this point it became evident I was wasting my breath and I proceeded to block her.

Now some of you said I should have just blocked her in the first place, which in the past I would have done but over the past 2 years you guys have given me quite the platform by following this blog. I have the ability to reach quite a lot of people via what I post here. And standing back and letting this person attack people who might not have this same platform, who might only just be building their confidence - it was sad to see in some of those post the women had put stuff like “finally feeling happy about my appearance” - and then them being shot down like that. It feels wrong to sit back and ignore it.

And I’m a big believer in education, I won’t automatically block a person if I feel like I could maybe educate them. This is not my first time interacting with TERF and over the years I have one actual success. A long time ago, I entered a discussion with a twitter user who was attacking Laura Jane Grace of Against Me! and while in the end this person still remained TERF, we manage to come to an agreement that we were all victims of the same system of oppression. That trans people and cis women both suffered from that same system of oppression. It would be nice if they would have dropped the TERF ideology completely, but the fact that we found a common ground and she even in the end recognised that trans people suffer from this same system of oppression that cis women do felt like a break through.

And while I have only ever made this break through once, I feel that as long as a person seems somewhat receptive, I will always try and educate and try to push towards finding that common ground. And while some you say, “But Lily, in the end that person still remained TERF.” I have this to say;

Yesterday, as you guys saw, the user on tumblr had a very different response, there was no common ground to find. They had this absolute dismissal that trans people suffer any form of oppression and with most members of TERF this is the driving ideology. Trans people don’t suffer from the patriarchy, we are enforcers and spies. We don’t suffer from misogyny, we are perpertrators. And somehow, when we transition, somehow trans women seem to hold onto their male privilege which seriously? Lets pretend trans women are men, for the sake of argument. According to TERF rhetoric, the patriarchy means that all people have to stick to their assigned gender norms, so it seems hard to believe that a trans woman in a dress, being by TERF logic, a man challenging those gender norms the patriarchy enforces would be held up as some hero of the patriarchy and not suffer from its wrath by having their male privilege stripped. And of course, as we know, even if trans women grow up with male privilege, the second we transition we lose it. Plus, growing up I find it hard to see what male privilege I had, as I was either too feminine to fit the patriarchial ideals of what it meant to be male. And if and when I was perceived as your typical cis male, that person was going by the stereotypes that I was about to punch or rob them.

I don’t exactly consider the latter of people fearing me, a “privilege” and not to mention it is another example of the patriarchy not just impacting how trans women are viewed but how cis men are viewed.

And I’m gonna start bringing this to a close, but someone also mentioned how polite and civil I was yesterday in my discourse. As trans women we are always caught in this weird conflicting perception within TERF ideology. If we are docile, subserviant and civil we are upholding the patriarchial ideals of what it means to be a woman but then if we show any sign of anger or aggression, it is treated like automatic proof that trans women are just men.

And I was going to leave it here, but within all this is the group that often gets forgotten in the TERF ideology or who are treated as docile and innocent victims of the “trans bandwagon”; trans men and over the years I have heard various ways TERF have tried to justify the existance of trans men and they end up being the victims of trans women brainwashing them, I once heard them be called “colateral damage” by a TERF member and to this day I don’t know what she meant by that and in the end they often get dismissed as innocent victims who are too dumb and innocent to realise when the patriarchy might be taking advantage of them. Almost feels like TERF view trans men as docile women which again is projecting yet another patriarchial standard.

And look, while I’m not gonna actively seek out TERF, if anyone from TERF comes to my attention I’m not gonna sit back and let their poisonous ideologies continue. Their ideologies which are in fact the ones which uphold the patriarchy. You guys have given me a platform and I’ll be damned if I am gonna let that platform go to waste and let this shit go ignored.

Yesterday, knowing I have this platform, I actually felt an obligation to fight this shit.

[trans-l-lawliet]

Can I have some trans mikami headcanons?

First, I am Terribly Sorry to keep you waiting for this. I don’teven know how long it has been, so that means it has been quite a while. I’malso assuming you’re the same pal that asked for that Trans MikaLight, so I decidedto put them together! I don’t know if the wait will be worth it, but I surehope so! Enjoy!

Mikami had always been a solitary child. He had a strong sense ofjustice, and he tried to live his life in the most honest way possible. So,when he realized that he was, in fact, a boy, around age 15, he was completelyhonest with his mother about it. She went to various doctors, and helped himthrough all the process of getting a diagnosis, which he was grateful for. Hismother had always been kind and fair, one of the very few people who was good.

But when he also tried to live his reality at school, that’s whenthe bullying started. The fights, the abuse… He went through some incrediblyrough years. No one stopped the people who kept hurting him; some of hisclassmates supported him, but were too scared to stand up. His conviction aboutthe cruelty of the world completely solidified.

His mother, scared that one day he could get seriously hurt, andrealising that changing schools would give the same results, asked him to tryto live as a girl and start using his deadname again. Mikami, feeling betrayed,got into a big argument with her, and refused to do so. That made him realisethe hardest of truths: he was completely alone; no one was virtuous in thisrotten world.

Shortly after, the accident that ended with his abusers, and his mother’slife, happened. He took it as a sign that maybe Justice was a real force in theworld. That maybe, he could help Justice. That was the pivoting point of hisdecision of becoming public prosecutor.

He fought his way through legal documents to get his legal identityright, through medical procedures that he managed to afford thanks to the lifeinsurance his mother left behind, and worked his hardest in school until hecould study law in Too. He graduated first of his promotion, and shortly after,he managed to become the youngest district attorney that had ever been in thewhole Tokyo prefecture. Very few people in his new job new that he was trans.He knew that, due to the many prejudices existing in Japan about these issues,him being private about it was the best course of action. If anything, Mikamihad always been a pragmatic person.

He noticed the pattern of criminal deaths way before the existenceof Kira was confirmed on the media. After watching the broadcast, he wasecstatic. Finally, Justice decided to show its presence, make itself known tothe world. Of course, his support of Kira was a thing he kept private. That is,until the public opinion started to shift. 

When he was chosen by his God, hecried for the first time since his mother’s death. He made the Shinigami’s eyesdeal in a heartbeat, and started to help the glorious mission that Justice hadplanned. He would be Kira’s hands and eyes, and help in building the new world.

The first time he spoke with Kira through the phone, he wassurprised to hear a young man’s voice. His words were clear, precise; his wayof thinking was intelligent and meticulous… everything Mikami admired in aperson, and everything he hoped God to be.

Since he now knew that Kira wasn’t an omnipotent force, Mikamiwondered if he would think differently about him because he was transgender,maybe decide to take the notebook from him. He assumed that, since his God wasa force of good, that was unlikely.

Mikami chose Takada, and everything went down the same way, except,he never went to the bank to kill her. He used one of the sheets he had readyto send her. The SPK never learnt about the false notebook. Light Yagami, Kira,finally won.

When the Task Force and the SPK died, Mikami walked to his God, andwhen their eyes met, they just laughed the tension away. Light advised him togo back to his workplace, since he would have to deal with the police and explainwhy he was the only surviving member of the Task Force. Before leaving, theyexchanged phone numbers, and Teru was instructed to keep executing thejudgements until Light called him.

Light explained everything to the police with tears in his eyes. Hesaid he arrived too late. That Kira was waiting for the Task Force and the SPKto be reunited to strike, unaware that Light was also part of the group. Kirahad won. Politicians were already openly supporting him, and after that strike,it was clear for the heads of the police that they couldn’t keep investigatingany longer. They couldn’t afford to lose more agents to the hands of thekiller. Ryuk once again admired Light’s acting skills.

After waiting for a month, in case some other so-proclaimed L’ssuccessor arose, Light finally contacted Mikami. They went to a fancy restaurant,and discussed what was to come. With Mikami’s eyes, and both him and Lightworking together, judgements could increase in speed, purging the whole worldfrom evil once and for all. Once that was out of the way, and since theirpersonalities clicked so well, they started talking about their lives withoutrealizing. The fact that they were both trans surprised them. Mikami could onlyinterpret this as just further proof that they were destined to meet and punishEvil together.

Without the pressure of an investigation over their heads, Lightfinally allowed himself to relax. He left his relationship with Misa, no reasonto continue that charade, and moved into a small apartment on his own. Dinnersbetween him and Mikami became more and more frequent. He found in theprosecutor all he could admire in a person, and they quickly developed afriendship. Teru, finally seeing the human side of who he considered a God,started to substitute his feelings of religious devotion for a different, moredown-to-earth feelings. He deeply admired Light, and as their friendshipprospered and they saw the results of their work, they both started to see eachother as equals.

None of them weren’t sure when their feelings shifted, but tenmonths after the Warehouse incident, they were walking on the street when asudden storm broke. They found shelter into a roofed alleyway, and in a moment,they were kissing each other passionately. 

Both Light and Teru couldn’tremember a single moment that could surpass the happiness they felt after thatday. They were cleaning the world, making it so good people like them wouldnever have to fear what they had to face and witness.

Ryuk almost broke the rules to tellthem that their time together was short. He almost felt sorry for Light as he begged for Teru to come back every night the months that followed the accident. Almost didn’t agree to Light’s request of killing him after he found another person he sent the notebook to so Kira’s judgements wouldn’t die with him.

Almost.