#but i will also habitually reblog media about and feel a small spark of joy about every piece of hannibal or undertale or death note fanwor | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

mister13eyond · 1 year ago

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also please forgive my unhinged rambling attempts to explain how i can feel exactly as positive about something as i did previously but it no longer occupies the Hyperfixation Zone, i know it's probably incomprehensible and i always feel like i'm Letting People Down when the hyperfixation ebbs into normal enjoyment

especially since i Still Love a lot of the things I was hyperfixated on, I just don't have that same Creative Itch about them? like 'wow this piece of media will stay with me forever and shaped me as a person. but the imaginary switch in my brain that fueled the unhinged creative machine about it has now clicked off through no decision of my own and i can no longer Make Stuff about it.'

#i mean thats how hyperfixation Works i know #but i always feel a little ashamed #that being said i still Love and Adore those pieces of media and hold them close to me #diavolo and doppio are just going to rest in the same place that hannibal and will or sans and gaster and alphys or bb and mello are restin #where my blorbos go to retire and vacation #but i will also habitually reblog media about and feel a small spark of joy about every piece of hannibal or undertale or death note fanwor #that i ever see for the rest of eternity #so you know #but i always feel like i have to Apologize #like 'sorry the thing you followed me for is no longer actively rotting my brain'#'now i just like it like a normal person'

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