#but i understand if theres a bad association with it so i hope those tags r like the right ones

[keywhole]

if i have to pull an all nighter thats not exactly a bad thing bc my sleep schedule is fucked but imagine the moment you’re ready to Take Your Medication and go to Bed just to realize you are OUT to the point where you had to tear up the house for a random small vape of mystery weed and hoping it’ll make you tired and the results, while still pending, are odd.

i wanted to post this to see if i make anymore updates.

[smoosnoom]

moon moon moon moon moon!!

I can’t stop thinking abt that rb bait and your answer abt what character you associate w/ me. and while I can go on and on abt how I feel abt the Todd comparison (flattered and sobbing and shaking and-), what I’m actually referring to is “or maybe im just begging to be read idk”.

I have genuinely lost sleep just thinking abt that sentence. because maybe you are? maybe I am, and that’s why it feels so good to have it spelled out by someone else? im still not sure what the answer is, but I’ll take a fucking stab at it! (warning, this is being written after an 8 hour shift, on the back of 2 hours of sleep. vaguely incoherent rambling ahead)

let’s consider that we do make ourselves into books, pages splayed open in hopes that someone might take a second to read the scripture written there.

what’s the harm in that? that someone reads your book and doesn’t like it? that one day, someone will come along and read with fervor? delicately turning each page to get even the tiniest details of you tucked into the back of their mind?

to be read, it’s something good I think. if you choose it to be. if you do, in fact, want to be read.

and if you do, I think that’s great. I also think it’s a human trait. something we can all relate to at one point or another. whether you want to be deeply understood by one singular person, or understood by a group, to foster a sense of community. it’s so undeniably human to want connection and understanding and love.

something I think we have to acknowledge as well is the fact that you’re an artist. as an artist myself, I feel emboldened to say that all art is, is a means of connection. it’s saying, “yes, this is me. this is how I feel. this is how I love and how I hate. do you feel like this too? am I alone?” it’s a plea. “tell me I’m not alone”, and you aren’t. somewhere, at sometime, there will be someone who takes your art (be it a book, a painting, a song, etc.) and understands. understands the weight, the gravity, of your feelings so wholly that it takes them aback.

and hey, do you remember that photoset you rebloged abt Ethan Hawke? the one where he’s talking abt poetry? abt how art isn’t a luxury, but rather that it’s sustenance? these things we consume, that make you feel like we’re not so alone, that’s what makes us so, so human.

so do you want to be read? do I? probably. but who’s to say that’s a bad thing?

u know what elijah in those tags i also mentioned u are definitely the introspective thoughtful type and u HAVE COME TO PROVE ME RIGHT 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

"and that’s why it feels so good to have it spelled out by someone else" yes !!!!! that kind of thing where u just want to know how someone else sees u !!!!!! maybe in the fact that my sense of self is as firm standing as a boiled piece of spaghetti fluttering in the wind but . when people let me know their perception of me Oh a shot to the heart !

i think it maybe ties into that terrible human want to be seen and understood . sure its one thing to be noticed but another to be known, and i think taking the time to Read someone is all the more mortifying but i think its also because of that swinging pendulum of whether or not itll come to heal or haunt u, right ? yes yes i think so

also the mentioning of being an artist, ohh that reminds me so much of this one quote !!! i read it in passing and it goes along the lines of "shame is the opposite of art" and u know what . i think that somehow relates because sure theres this embarrassment at being seen but also the hope that someone else sees what u've made and goes Wow me too !

elijah of course i remember it i think about that photoset any time i open a book or reblog some art or share a poem !!!!!!!! of course i do

thank u for dropping this entire ordeal onto me, it gave me lots to think about :) i was very inspired !

[voughtcorsair]

hi i really like ur blog and u dont have to answer this if u dont wanna im not trying to get u in trouble and i have hyperfixations ik its hard to ignore them but im jewish ik its ww1 not 2 but context of that time considered u dont think all this about the red baron and ww1 germany is maybe not appropriate ?

i understand ppl hyperfixate and love ancient greece ancient rome which were awful societies but like ,,, idk maybe ww1 wasn't really that long ago and considering the context of the time like,,,, i dunno. ly hope ur having a nice day i just had to get this off my chest

uhhh i don't really know a good answer to this and im welcome to further discussion on this but like. i have tried to make my blog as filterable as possible for sensitive content irt that (im very bad at tagging in general so maybe i should tag m.ilitary content as whole additionally?) sorry this got long and took so long to answer. im having trouble with words today. btw i keep re-editing this to be worded better.

for what it's worth the wwi german books ive been posting about r some of the most anti-war literature i can think of, whether in english or german of any other language. i understand the german names + early 20th century period is not perhaps the greatest look but i can pretty confidently point ppl to remarques wikipedia page as an explanation.

re: the red baron None of my posts about him should be substituted for primary sources or be taken seriously unless i specify that it's like. 1000% serious. But for the vast majority of the world hes a guy from peanuts. additionally he is the patron of a wing of the german air force and i think if a military hero such as that is considered ok by them then he generally doesn't hold much like...negative association? i could be totally wrong but from everything ive heard theres not much association of him w anything at all & at the time he was considered an honorable enemy and given full honors at his funeral (by the allied soldiers that shot him down) & doesn't have any really negative connotations outside of kaiserboos or whatever the hell.

a lot of me rbing pix of the imperial german army is trying to understand the experiences of my great-grandfather and my heritage and all that. like i post funny things about sauerkraut or rhineland-westphalia but i grew up eating stuff like that and with stories and idk i suppose if it's bad then it's bad, but this is my justification and context for those sorts of posts at the moment.

there's also a fairly clear line between imperial germany, weimar germany, and nazi germany. im assuming ur also American ? our history classes really tend to skip over the exact specifics of wwi, the politics, how it started, etc (and how it set up for a collapse into wwii) but imperial germany went to one of the most progressive states at the time (see magnus hirschfield) and the nazi party wasnt started until ~1920 and wasnt in power until 1933 (tho the late 20s were kinda 😬) so that's a pretty clear delineation of a decade since the end of wwi.

I also really really don't want to be belittling about anything but there was a pretty significant german jewish presence in wwi. antisemitism wasn't a factor in the war outside of ppls personal prejudices

idk im open to correction and discussion and everything else and this is really messy so for that i apologize. i dont know really what else to do aside from explain my own reasoning on this so thank you for listening

[ohhstuffandfluff]

I think what people miss about the ao3 discourse is that moderating a site like that the way people want them to is damn near impossible. Lemme preface this by saying though, first of all, that obviously I don't support explicit works involving minors, CP, the glorification of rape, or anything like that, alright. I'm well aware of where the anger is coming from and I understand it, I feel it too. And while I view fiction as a tool for allowing us to explore themes and ideas that are maybe evil or taboo, fiction does have an impact on reality, and those evil or taboo subjects handled poorly can have lasting negative effects. With that in mind...

First off, how is AO3 meant to monitor and moderate these kinds of works? If they were to remove the tag and any tags associated with it, that's arguably more dangerous, as it prevents people for being able to filter out fics tagged as such, basically guaranteeing someone's going to wind up seeing something they don't want to see. Furthermore, if they just flag or delete any fics tagged as such, then you risk fics that cover those topics in respectful, narratively valuable ways getting deleted or removed, and again you end up with people just not tagging shit correctly and people not getting warned properly.

If you say to just not allow certain fics with certain characters above a certain rating, that would require IMMENSE LABOR, volunteer or otherwise. Do you know how many fics there are on Ao3 ? How many fandoms? How many listed characters? And what if there's dispute on how old a character is supposed to be (I'm looking at you, season 1 Sh*ro from Voltr*n)? Do characters who are lolibait (ex. "I look thirteen but am actually 1000") count? Trying to determine what fics are allowed by character is a logistical nightmare and leads into...

Who gets to be morality police? We've seen how this can break bad before, like what happened to livejournal. If mods gets to decide what content is or is not morally reprehensible, then what's stopping a mod from deeming any fic of X ship is wrong, or any gay ship is wrong, or any fic even mentioning rape or abuse is wrong. You're putting a lot of power and a lot of faith into mods that may not end up being on your side, which is why livejournal is now a dead platform.

A user-based reporting system is a good idea, and should definitely be taken into consideration regardless, but that also requires immense labor on Ao3's part, because you KNOW people will report fics for bullshit reasons along with the real ones, like not being the ship they like, or for having queer relationships and/or LGBT+ characters, or for just being poorly written. Not to mention the moderator would have to read said fic for the reported troubling content, which not only requires a decent amount of time but also knowledge of the source material and a willingness to sit through potentially horrible, triggering content. People like that need to be paid! This is true for a reporting system or for a dedicated moderation team regardless, and people who hate ao3 have made it very clear they hate when ao3 asks for money for any reason, so how are these mods going to get paid? You'd need a LOT of them for a site as big, diverse, and widely used as ao3 for the kind of content reporting critics are talking about. And as YouTube has shown us, a fully automated system is not only expensive but often doesn't work at all as intended, and malicious players can and will game the system.

So what's the solution y'all are hoping for? What kind of moderation system are you thinking ao3 needs to implement? I'd love to see any actual solutions to this issue bc I do think Ao3 needs SOME kind of content moderation for things that are straight up illegal, like CP, but I've not seen any Ao3 critic propose any sort of content moderation system they'd like to see. They mostly just tell people to rot for supporting the only fanfiction archive with ANY decent content filtering system. The tagging system isnt perfect, but at least it allows you to avoid fics tagged with triggers or underage ships. Proper tagging and the exclude feature allows you to make sure gross fics don't get hits aside from the freaks who actively seek that kind of thing out. It's not perfect, and I agree shit like CP shouldn't be allowed on the platform, but the only options I can think of to effectively moderate Ao3 either lack delicacy and nuance or would require large amounts of manpower and money, and even then some of those options put us at risk of another Strikethrough.

I would genuinely love to hear solutions for Ao3's moderation issues, especially if theres something I'm not seeing, instead of harassing people for giving a shit about a content platform that has provided hours of enrichment and entertainment for largely women and queer folks for ages now, and for protecting those same women and queer folks from legal retaliation. Ao3 has problems, no doubt, but it does a lot of good for a lot of people, and the critics I see don't seem to have a solution either. If anyone has ideas on how to make Ao3 a better place, I would love to hear them.

[babyyatusabes]

Mutuals as your favourite movie scenes

omg yes this is my favourite !! some of these are because of the cinematography, some are the content, some are the writing, some are the depth of emotion being portrayed, etc.

I may tag some of you twice

also some of my descriptions are of the scene’s feelings or what is happening and some are of how it directly relates to you. sometimes I do not associate the actual happenings with you guys or my description, I just connect the feeling or aesthetic with y'all (like if I say the scene is creepy, I'm not calling you guys creepy!) so just keep that in mind!

HAND FLEX PRIDE AND PREJUDICE SCENE HAND FLEX PRIDE AND PREJUDICE SCENE HAND FLE- - YOU - the utter romance of this !! the longing !! the intimacy !! I'm on the floor !

final scene of seeking a friend for the end of the world  - you again - just exactly what love is. “at the end of the day its all about who you lay down with when the lights go out”. this is you. my absolute favourite movie ending that made me feel better about everything in the world because guess what? love is enough.

it is happening again scene twin peaks (tv show but idc) - @brightdarkeyes the saddest (and one of the most beautiful) scene(s) in all of cinema for me, knowing that something is wrong and being unable to do anything in the face of it, feeling love and loss and pain and the connection between people and how we are all intertwined and affected by tragedy and sorrow

“I love you” cheer but I'm a cheerleader - @smoljoelito just so cute, really makes my heart feel a specific way

fish tank scene romeo + juliet - @virgatto dreamy, soft, how I imagine love at first sight must feel, the meeting of two souls

memories of murder final scene - @sunkissedvelez reflection reflection reflection, seeing and realization, everything comes full circle

!!! dance scene in pride in prejudice !!!! - @virgatto the intensity !! the tension ! the beauty of two opposing forces falling into a perfect rhythm

bread and roses pride - @hectorbeyerin “in the dark times will there also be singing?” “yes, there will also be singing. about the dark times.”, a moment of hope and connection, of solidarity so powerful that for a minute all you need are those who sing beside you

infinite perks of being a wallflower - @sunkissedvelez you are infinite

two way mirror bad times at the el royale - @ctrlcnco I'm obsessed with this atmosphere, this moment is when I decided I loved this film

ceasefire children of men - @yatusabess the power of life

“you get to exhale now” in love simon - @cnc-oh-boi relief, just pure relief, that there are people who accept and love you and you can finally breathe

dreaded pirate dances in drag in stardust - @cncopmhoe idk man its just really fun

pride and prejudice second proposal - @sunkissedvelez everything about this is stunning, the way the music swells, how he chokes on the love pouring out of him, how the sun rises between them, turning the mutual affection and understanding golden and warm

10 things I hate about you singing scene - @cncothoughts so sweet and so fun, always puts a smile on my face

cooper’s dream twin peaks - @ctrlcnco I'm sorry I keep tagging you in twin peaks stuff but its the vibe man. artsy, offbeat, interesting, complex, eerie.

tb scene parasite - @papichriscnco beautifully ridiculous and dramatic and oscarworthy but with an underlying complexity that is beyond the scope of many’s understanding

opening scene romeo + juliet - @marveling-under-many-skies neurotic, crazy, stylish, funny, exactly what Shakespeare would’ve wanted

come on eileen perks of being a wallflower - @smoljoelito theres nothing like being able to dance to your favourite song with your favourite people on a night where you feel genuine joy

when are you going to hug me? scene rocketman - @cnc-oh-boi moving past childhood trauma, learning that loving yourself is the most important love you can have, letting yourself forgive and let go and be alive

man up running scene - @glossedchaos beautiful chaos culminating in people coming together for love or the chance at it at the very least

elizabethtown free bird scene - @besosdecnco this is the beauty of family and of sadness, of embracing those around you and your own grief and realizing that this is not the end

Boromir death scene lotr - @salt-andmud I know this is nerdy of me but the sadness conveyed here, the level of feeling, of all hope being lost and you still fight because that is what you do in the face of the hopeless, the peace of forgiveness and love, the freedom of being released from this earthly form and being allowed to, finally, rest

Elizabethtown phone call scene - @pm-whipped this is falling in love, this is connection, this is understanding 

dance ending jojo rabbit - @zabdielmuch “what will you do when you are free?” “dance”, this is what separates us from animals

colin firth proposal love actually - @christophvelez​ love transcends language and countries and rationality and thats what makes it all worth it

furiosa’s scream mad max fury road - @yatusabess you can feel her despair and disorientation, the level of emotion able to be portrayed in just a few moments gives me shivers every time

seeking a friend for the end of the world the air that I breathe scene - @lostinzabdielito home

toddlers the gentlemen - @cncopmhoe just so random that there was a rap song (that was actually good?) but was so fun and honestly just showed the vibe of the whole film

I care more to be loved little women - @brightdarkeyes the fundamental experience of being a woman, the emotion in which she puts words to feelings I’ve had my whole life, the heartbreak of understanding yourself

pride and prejudice ending scene - @hoelpimentel the simplicity and beauty of the quiet joy that is true love

road trip with his father’s ashes elizabethtown - @besosdecnco sorry to tag you in two elizabethtown scenes but its one of my favourite films of all time. this scene makes me feel an emotion I can’t quite place-- the perfect blend of the sadness of death, the melancholy of missed connections, the nostalgia of what might have been and the beautiful difficulty of finding yourself amongst the pieces that lay where you last broke. knowing that love-- real love-- (in this case familial love) can always save you, even if the person is no longer physically here

special shoutout to the skinny love scene in Molly Maxwell, I couldn't find a clip because its not a super well known movie but essentially a student is over at her teacher’s house and skinny love by bon iver is playing and she strips down to her underwear and pulls his shirt over her head so they are both inside it and they just stand there for a while holding each other before she emerges and pulls her clothes back on - @anninhiliation the level of intimacy in this scene is almost unmatched, something forbidden and bordering on insane but for a single moment two souls share the same body

I'm sorry if I didn't tag you, I know I have more but I'm blanking rn and this already took way too long lol 

feel free to dm me if you have any questions!

send in film asks, mutuals as or ask for personalized film recs

[everythinghskin-blog]

(Feel free to delete this if u want) Positivity for a Bro who is just,, in the worst possible mood? Dysphoria hit me p hard, my depression kicked in, and I had some pretty depressing kin memories earlier. And Ive been shot down by six blogs when i requested some positivity, so I guess that dropped my mood a lot? Thank ya. - Bro

hey bro, its mod raven here. I just wanna say first of all your cool as shit. this is fact, no one can argue this with me and those blogs were due as hell for turning you down, I am sorry you had to deal with that. its a real issue in the community that should be dealt with and i am sorry that your suffering because of it. you are not your actions, not in this life and its unfair of people to treat you that way.

As for the dysphoria thing, that ones hard. I am trans myself so i feel you. sometimes theres not much that can be done. it just hurts but a few things i have learned help a lot are: makeup!! make yourself look however the hell you want! and if you cant youtube can teach you how! supplies can be hard to come by but if you have any that can be great.

Working out sometimes helps for me. the sting and adriniline  of getting something done and improving myself makes me feel waaaay better.

and hey if all else fails let me be the first to tell you that you are 110% valid however you idnify! you rock in any colors you bear!!

depression sucks major ass, theres no denying that. I am sure you have heard lots of things about ways to cope and some may or may not work but the few i would like to throw in are: self care fucking rocks, even if its just making your favorite food and rewatching your favorite show.as stupid as it is to hear, fresh air helps to. even just opening a window.

Kin stuff can be hard but a big thing to remember is that its a different life. that was in the. those pains cant hurt you here and those actions cant follow you. you have a change every morning to do, be and feel different then in any canon. memories can be hard, but thats all they are anymore memories. they cant control or hurt you no matter how much it may feel like they can so hold your head high and dont let them drag you down!

I hope this helped bro and hey if it didnt feel free to request for mod doomeddirk to do it. I just wanted to try and help!! have a good one cause you sure as hell deserve it!!

~mod raven

So as it turns out, both me and Raven had some stuff to say about this! So I’m gonna tag my bit of advice onto the end:

So firstly, for the dysphoria; I’ve got a couple requests in the past to deal with this, so I’d love to point your attention to these three posts. I’ve talked a lot about trying to deal with dysphoria when things are getting rough, so try taking what you can from those posts whenever dysphoria starts trying to kick your ass. Just remember to be firm in yourself and your identity; ask the people closest to you to repeat your chosen names and pronouns as much as they can, whisper to yourself over and over your chosen identity to make it stick in your mind, maybe look at some fanart you associate with yourself and keep telling yourself “that’s still me”. Anything can help, big or small. You’ve got this, dude. You’re badass enough to handle this and more, and come out the other side even stronger than before.

As for the depression… o h man do I understand that. Depressive slumps are the goddamn worst. I’m not sure how it gets to you most, but in general, remember to eat regularly, and eat well. Eating junk food at 3am usually makes your depression worse. Have people remind you and force you to abide by that if you can. Remember to bathe and change your clothes as often as possible - because That Depressed Feel when basic hygene gets too much, but it really, really does help to revitalize you after you’ve stared at the shower wall for half an hour, and suddenly you actually feel half alive when you’re in clean clothes. Watch things that make you happy, do any sort of self care thing you can think of, talk to people and take comfort in them as much as you can - anything can help a depressive slump. Even just going into rabb.it and looking at dildos for an hour while laughing at your friends’ reactions can help; it doesn’t need to be big or impressive. And make sure you sleep on time. Depression kicks your ass when it comes to sleep, and staying up late just makes it worse. Again, have people remind you and make you sleep if you need it. Looking after yourself is so, so important right now, Bro.

The kin memories suck, and sadly, there’s not much you can do about them. Don’t forget them. Forgetting them usually just leads to them rising up again at the worst time. Leave them to one side, and remember happier things instead. Focus on the good you recall - maybe not even from the same canon, if you have multiple; try and find the memories that stick out to you most as happy, and cling to them - and just quietly tell yourself that even if the bad was there, it’s not enough to outweigh the good. Talk to someone about them if possible - talking about them can help take the weight from them, the emotional drain - and honestly? If it helps, try to disconnect yourself from them. They’re just memories. They suck, they affect you, yeah, but they’re still just memories. Things in the past. Whatever happened in them, you can improve upon. You’ve got a whole new life to make up for all the crap that happened before - so every time you get a depressing memory, firmly tell yourself, “it’s okay. I can make it better this time”.

As for those blogs - and please excuse my language - but fuck them, honestly? I agree with Mod Raven. There is no reason why you should have been shot by down them, Bro. You deserve help and positivity as much as anyone else. You’re just as deserving, just as wonderful, just as perfect, as anyone else. Those blogs suck. Ignore them, ignore the way they shot you down, tell yourself “I’m just too good for them”, and focus on the people and the blogs who are there for you. We’re happy to help here, Bro. We’ve got your back, and we are more than happy to remind you of how awesome you are, how strong, for getting through everything you’re dealing with and still trying to keep going. Look at what you just told me! Dysphoria, depression, awful memories, and a mood drop because you kept getting shot down when you asked for help. And yet you kept going, you’re staying strong, and you got here. Dude, that’s way more than I could have done. I crack as soon as I get bad memories and depression at once, let alone all of that. You are so goddamn strong, dude. That’s hella admirable.

In the end? Bro, you’ve got this. You can handle anything that comes your way - have handled everything, and without blaming anyone for it, from the tone of this ask, despite you having every right to be mad/upset about being shot down by other blogs - and honestly? When everything settles down, it’s gonna be okay again. I promise, dude. Everything is gonna be better than fine.

And just so you know - we’re always here if you need anything. Anything at all.

- Mod DoomedDirk