#but i mean people do have work and school or don't wanna wake up at ungodly hours like i do haha
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are you ever training someone and eventually it gets to a point where you just like
give up on them lol
#she's well past probation and has received the most targeted organized training effort I've ever seen in my 9 years at this clinic#like my training was the equivalent of Uncle stew throwing you in the deep end for swim class#now we've got fucking hand outs. we have a training calendar. we have one designated trainer. we have meetings. we're all nice. all mapped.#everyone has made such an effort for this person#but she has the most trouble focusing of anyone I've ever worked with#and yes she has adhd and is upfront about it. but in this work adhd doesn't mean you get to wander off from active medical procedures.#either you find a solution that works or you accept your limitations and find a better environment#i can't go into the five months trying to work with her but it's been a very frustrating very defensive very unsuccessful process#the event that triggered this rant was: she was getting trained on sedated shave downs. a pretty entry level procedure.#even though the sedation is quite safe it IS still sedation. you have to monitor and have full focus. I've had patients crash under sedatio#so she's getting trained by our lead who's demonstrating the shave on one side then she's let trainee do the other#during the demonstration the trainee is constantly in her notebook. lead assumes she's taking notes and asks about it#turns out she's DRAWING. DRAWING DOGS. PRACTICING DOG ANATOMY FOR HER DRAWINGS. she said as much. that it was for-#-drawing purposes. not learning or monitoring purposes.#she then said she was using it as a focusing tool because in the five minutes they'd been there she'd wanted to walk away three times#from boredom and distraction#lead immediately (and very gently as we were all in the same treatment area and witnessed this from afar) starts breaking that down#it's unacceptable to be drawing when you're supposed to be monitoring. i get what you're trying to do. i get it. im also a focused doodler.#but this animal is literally at your mercy right now. whether or not they wake up is ON YOU and unless you're drawing their fucking-#-vital signs i don't wanna see your nose in a book. like come the fuck on. come on.#she argued but the lead eventually said listen if you are constantly fighting the urge to wander away from an anesthetized patient-#-then i will never allow you to do surgeries. full stop.#this turned into a very defensive conversation after which she shut down because she insisted that's how she learns. which. again. i get.#but this isn't school. and you can't walk the walk. and we've tried to accommodate and train in a variety of ways for 5 months.#the level of reliability she's at is so so low for how much training and experience she's received#any criticism is interpreted as bullying no matter how gentle#and if it's too gentle it doesn't fucking work. we've all reached points where we resort to nagging just to make sure she's doing her job#and i understand why she's frustrated and feels singled out but again#if you are putting an anesthetized patient at risk i am not going to be nice about it. distraction during surgery can get patients killed.#there's always a level of confliction over getting so frustrated with people like this because i've been there but seriously..
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words i used | sirius black
summary: Sirius learns the consequences of treating people he loves bad. content: angst, fighting, crying, one use of y/n note: part 2 - do i wanna know? (sirius black)
You knew from the beginning that this relationship was not one made to last. Sirius wasn't the relationship type. Yet, you let yourself get excited anyway. You let yourself get excited over when he'd hold your hand in the hallway, and sit next to you during meals, and go out of his way to hang out with you when there were other things he could be doing.
But with excitement comes disappointment. Disappointment when you see him flirting with another girl in the hallway or when you'd catch him hanging out with his friends while you were supposed to be together. There was always a counteract that threw you off. Did you mean anything to him?
The final straw was seeing him pressing some sixth-year against the wall during a party, lips attached to hers. It's like any and all hope was drained from your body, leaving you feeling unusually empty. Even walking out of the common room was a feat.
And the trek to find somewhere private was even harder of a journey. Slinking down against some wall in some abandoned hallway, you can't fight off the burning feeling in your throat anymore. You bring your knees to your chest and cry. He was never yours but you really hoped that maybe one day he could be.
It hurts too much to put any more effort into the dead-end of your relationship. By the time you finally will yourself to pull things together, your eyes are puffy and red. You don't want anyone to know. It's embarrassing. Especially when everyone had warned you not to get your hopes up but you brushed them off, blinded by the boy.
Sometimes, you'd have sleepovers where he would hold you close and run his fingers through your hair whilst you talked quietly. He would tell you how much he liked you and wanted to be with you. But it was never real. Just another check on his never-ending journey to make out with every girl in school.
It feels like a completely different world when you wake up the next morning. You wouldn't say that the world is brighter or duller, just different. It's like you have been forced to finally open your eyes and see things for how they are.
Breakfast is the first noticeable change. He comes in late, taking his unassigned-assigned seat next to you.
"Good morning," he smiles, plucking a piece of toast from the pile. You hum from your position next to him, not turning to look at him. You chew on your lip and he swats at it like usual, telling you to knock it off but you can't. You can't be around him.
If the bench below you was able to move, it would be halfway across the room with the way you stood up so abruptly.
"What's wrong?"
"I just, god-" you cut yourself off. He doesn't deserve an explanation so you storm out, leaving him even more confused. Sirius wants to follow and beg you to tell him why you're upset with him but he's never seen you this way before. He's not sure what you need him to do, if you need him at all.
He's sure that something is very wrong when you don't show up to class, one that you sit together in. Racking his brain, he's trying to figure out exactly what caused you to turn so cold to him out of nowhere. There's not much work being done in McGonagall's today as the only thing on his parchment is a list of things that could've upset you.
You're hidden away in a secret alcove that Sirius had shown you. Maybe it's not the best place to go when you're trying to get over him but it's the only place you know that the teachers won't be able to find you. This used to be one of your favorite places to go. Sometimes you and Sirius would sneak off here to make out at random times throughout the school day.
The memory of his hands tangling themselves into your hair as he pulls you closer onto his lap floods your mind. It's cruel. He was never officially yours but for a little while you could have your fantasy that he was.
Sirius isn't stupid, maybe it takes him a little longer to come to conclusions on things but he's not an idiot. Well, not a total idiot. His list of things he's written just keeps going and even if he can't pinpoint the exact reason for why you're mad at him, he has several that showcase how bad of a friend he is. He makes it his mission to fix whatever is wrong.
"(Y/N)-" he starts when he sees you passing by in the hallway. You glance over with a thin, tight-lipped smile on your face as he gets cut off.
"Sirius! I had fun last night, I was thinking that maybe we could go to Hogsmeade together this weekend?" a random girl interrupts, driving the knife further into your heart. His face and your face fall as he turns to the girl.
"Oh, uh no," he states rather bluntly, following after your figure with his eyes before trying to catch up with you. He has to shove through the crowded hallway so that he doesn't lose you.
And when he finally does catch up to you, he grabs your shoulder and pulls you off to the side. Your breathing is heavier than usual and he realizes you were really trying to get away from him.
"What?" you grit, anger evident in your voice. You're blinking more than usual to try and keep the tears from falling and he's not sure what to say. "Don't you have better things to do with your time? Things that don't involve leading me on and then making out with someone else?"
"I'm sorry," is the only thing he comes up with. You laugh at him because that's all he can say. He looks like a hurt puppy as you rub your hands over your eyes. He doesn't get to be the hurt one in this situation.
"I tried, Sirius. I don't understand what else I can do to make you like me. Do any of those girls mean anything to you? Was I just one of them?" you spit. His gaze is fixed on the ground and you know you'll never get anywhere. He doesn't care. "I can't be around you anymore. I can't look at you."
"Please," he mumbles, "I'm so sorry. I don't know why I act like this. I like you so much. I shouldn't have made out with her or anyone else when I knew all I want is you. It's like I only know how to ruin things for myself."
"D-don't turn yourself into the victim here. That's not fair. You hurt me and you're trying to make me feel bad for you. It's not hard to not make me look like a fool. All you had to do was not go after other girls. Did you think I never noticed until now? Maybe I didn't see all of them but I saw too many for it to be a one-off thing."
"I'm sorry, really. I want to be with you but that scares me. Will you please give me a chance to show you how much you mean to me? I want you to be my girlfriend."
It's the words you want to hear but the circumstance is wrong. Why couldn't he have realized this before? Why did he have to make you feel so shitty?
"I can't, Sirius. None of your words mean anything to me when you go and do the opposite almost immediately. I know you'll make someone really happy one day, but it won't be me. I can't put myself through this again."
"No, please. Let me prove it to you," his words fall on deaf ears as you walk away. Staying any longer would just increase his chances of you saying 'yes.' And he doesn't get to recover that easily. Your hands are shaking and your body aches. "Please."
part 2 - do i wanna know? (sirius black)
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I need a harem of yandere sub headoverheels men so bad like wtf. I wanna spoil them give them kisses and fuck them so good. Letting them discus the schedule and stuff, if watching as they argue but taking control when things get too out of control, letting them know who's boss like,,,
Head over heels! Pretty boys who are so in love with you it's not even funny. They're all success men too,,, You being a above average man, working in some sort of high end company. Your daily life is regular, come to work, smile, chat with customers, etc. But your home life? Heh..
CEO!bf who is one of your longest subs, he's been with you since middle school! Practically stuck to the hip. Such a cute boyfriend he is.. So powerful, a strong and charismatic man. He's an amazing guy, an even amazing CEO. The girls in the company or even outsiders love him! You can always hear people saying "gosh is he single..??" "Shit! He's coming do i look good?" "What can i do for just one night.." "You think this aphrodisiac will work on him??" Etc etc, it'd funny really, you try your best not to show pity to them. Especially hard to not show pity when you see the hopeful gaze of his secretaries.
Because you know just how much of a slut he is for you, and you only. Pretty boy won't even eat if you don't allow him to.. Such an obedient man, you make sure to spoil him lots at home, kissing his tears of happiness away, looking at his fucked face, tears slipping down from how happy he is to be with you..
Pretty boy ceo! Bf who tries so hard to please you. He's a confident man. He knows he looks good. Immediately buying that pretty lingerie he saw your eyes trail down on a second too long the other day..Ceo!bf who doesn't mind having to share you! As long as he can be yours!
Ceo! Bf is not a crybaby by any means, he's just so happy, and when you embrace him, you bothering to make time for him between your many boyfriends makes hin really happy he can't help but cry when you fuck him so sweetly, kissing his lips so tenderly.. Spoiling him with handmade cheesy gifts, romantic dates, a delicious meal. Even though he can easily buy those things (and much better quality one can argue) himself but the fact that it's from you makes it priceless. You often go out and buy him things too! He'd try to deny it, saying he feels bad because he can use his own money and doesn't want to be a burden on you but how can he say no when you look so dejected like that...
Taking the gifts and kissing you as thanks, only for you to wake up with money 3x the price of said item in your bank account. Oh boy...
Ceo! Bf who invites you over to his luxurious suite after a hefty argument with the other boyfriends on why he gets to have you for a full week. Surprising you with a romantic candel lit dinner, pouring you the wine that you wanted to try yesterday.. What surprised you most is the fact that he offered to try something new that night, showing you a bottle of something you've never had before and telling you that it might have. Intrigued, you agree, trusting him fully.
He smiled, pouring said drink into both of your wines. Guiding you to the baths with a soft kiss on the back of your hand, putting the dirty dishes on the sink for the servants to deal with.It seems that the drink worked well, perhaps too well on him as it worked faster than he had expected. He could feel himself getting hot and uneasy, his body feels like it's burning.
Looking back at you with glossy eyes he can't help but want to sob when he saw how unaffected you are, just massaging his back as if you didn't know his intention with that drink!
Ceo!bf who couldn't take it anymore when you ask him if he's sick on the bed. He's panting, face red and sweaty with a huge hard on goddamit! How could he resist begging when you're cooing on his ear, telling him to be honest to you.Oh how sweet it was.
Ceo!bf apologized over and over, begging you to touch him. Yet you didn't even need to touch him, telling him to cum and he's already having a dry orgasm! Though, it's not like you can hold yourself back much longer, afterall he gave it to you too. <3
Doctor! Bf who's a renowned doctor for many years, he's a nonchalant man, who smiles warmly giving patient's hope even with the scariest conditions. Everyone loves him dearly, and his skills makes him all the more loveable and amazing. His good looks makes him a trending doctor, making people line up just to see him it's kind of funny. Many people hope to win his heart one day, flirting with him and becoming his regular. Though, like CEO! Bf, he never wavers. He just smiles softly and politely declines. He never bothered on following with their advances.
Doctor!bf who is also your primary physician. Doctor!bf who's especially warm to you, making sure you're comfortable and happy. Kissing the back of your hand whenever he's about to leave or when he meets you again (and if you prefer to keep things a secret he'll happily do it in private for you) And when you're sick at home he makes sure to take care of you, even when he's busy he always makes sure to give proper instructions to the others on what to do so you'll be healthy again. Doctor!bf who sometimes can't get enough sleep because of the demands for him on field. Who still tries to take care of you and make sure you're well even when he's tired. Who lets out soft tears when you kiss him so warmly, kissing his chest, his cheek, his body, everything about him. Who you spoil everytime you can, who you spoil by massaging his body even though he refuses but gives in anyway because he can't say no to you.
Doctor bf! Who can't help but smile when you kiss the back of his hand in return or when you'd let him rest while your hands work it's magic. Who lets you do as you please, surrendering himself to you and letting you do anything you want to him, who will just take it and smile even when you say something like "what if i make you fuck a stranger? Or someone that hates me so much, letting them who wants to hurt me, fuck you. Hm?",, You know he doesn't want to, he only wants you to touch his body but he wants to make you happy. (Not that you'd let just about anyone touch your boyfriends anyway as if. They're your precious.) Still, it's kind of endearing to know that they'll do anything just to make you happy! (He wonders if you'll make him have a toy inside one day while he's at work, though he knows you'll never do that to him when he's working.)
Doctor!bf who is offered a special drink by you at the date you planned for him, a glossy pink-purple mocktail you apparently made with a secret ingredient (one that you apparently got after your week out with Ceo!bf). Saying "cheers, my love" Before he gulps it, complimenting you for it. He's so happy right now.Though that happiness turned into pure want and need when he struggles to stay still in bed, waking up from a wet dream with his body feverishly hot and a very visible hard on. He's not dumb, he immediately could tell what the reason for his condition was.
But still, he couldn't help but think if this is the ingredient that ceo gave you, what did you do with him? Did you softly kiss his neck as your hands tease the male's nipples? Your maybe putting him in a mating press as you fuck him roughly under the effects of lust,,,, ah fuck he came by just the thought of you..
Model!bf extremely pretty and insanely popular and has a high demand. Very picky about who he works with and is bot afraid to reject people (no matter if it's big brands or popular people). He also prefers to ask your opinion on thing, is he too revealing for the photo shoot? Should he tone down his sex appeal? Should he eat this today? Can he meet with x or work with y? He trusts you that you want the best for him!
You're not his manager but he prefers you to take control over his manager anyday, often asking you for things then telling the decision to the manager.Model! Bf is not rude by any means, he's well liked but he's just aloof most times. The thing that makes him care for others is the fact that you care for them, which means if he wahts your affection he has to show you he can be kind like you. So he does just that.
Model!bf who gives you sad puppy eyes. Saying that you've spent your days with the other two and asking you to spend time with him too. who takes you out to a fancy dinner and gets ready for you, inviting you over to his suite one night, only for you to be greeted with your sweet boyfriend in a sexy Lingerie and tied up with silk to the bed frame as soon as you got off the shower. Sex toys layed for you to choose and abuse him with.
Oh how he loves that primal look on your eyes, especially because he knows you can't hold it in much longer. Especially not with the effects of a certain something in your system..
Oh how he's grateful to ceo!bf for telling him this..
I need this sm!~ just imagine each day of the week having a different boyfriend to bend over and use like a toy! Sending the doctor bf a video of how good you were fucking CEO boyfriend just to get him all jelly and pent up at work coming back home in a silent huff actin like he doesn’t even want you….well until you walk out of the shower then he’s all over you he can’t possibly handle seeing how good you fucked CEO boyfriend I mean how could you be so cruel to him? He wants the same treatment too! ₍ᐢ≧ x ≦ᐢ₎
And poor Model boyfriend is just a little pillow princess for you, bent over drooling on himself in a slutty pink thong making a sticky mess (≧▽≦) half pulled aside with his cock pressed to it all hard but you’re far to busy fucking CEO boyfriend to give his slutty hole the cock it craves…how unfair!….his thumbs can’t help but rub and prod his little rose bud squealing in the back stage of one off his shoots, guess he’ll just have to tell his real manager sorry!….whats that white stain on some of the modeling clothes?…oops ᕱ⑅ᕱ
During your week stay with CEO boyfriend you were having this man any and every way you could! If your face wasn’t buried between his two cheeks eating him out like a rabid bunny then what were you truly doin?….maybe even getting some ideas from your Model! Boyfriend and get CEO boyfriend in a cute bunny but plug!.. /(˃ᆺ˂)\ havin him all bent over his desk or pressed up to the window in his own company~ turnin him into a little slut for your cock biting at his neck having your phone conveniently recording on his desk?….gosh he can’t even think what it’s for, tsk~ what a dumb little bunny ain’t he…. ₍ᐢ.‸.⑅ᐢ₎↝
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TEENAGE SUMMER (12-16yo)
so summer has finally arrived and school has ended. and ofc, we want that hot girl summer with the perfect body, mindset, habits, holidays, and a great time in general but what if we have sorta strict parents who are just.. parents. so here are some tips to have your dream summer and glow up but also make it family/ teenage friendly!
GLOW UP:
external glow up tips:
numero uno: WORKOUT. yes, ofc this is on here, what did u think? work.out. decide why u wanna workout first: healthy body? dream body? abs? being stronger? for happiness? for fun? then, you can find a workout on youtube / pinterest for the one you want. (also what i love doing is the workouts on pinterest where its related to a tv show- or just search up [movie/ show name] workout)
smell nice! perfume, scented shampoos/ body scrubs, etc.
SUNSCREEN. trust me, u DO want to put it on.
skincare! moisturiser, lip gloss/ lip balm, exfoliation, etc.
put cold spoons under your eyes in the morning to reduce puffiness.
u dont like something? fix it! i didn't like my teeth for a while, so i got braces. you can't fix it? stop worrying about it and just give it to god cus u got better things to do
MANIFESTING:
affirmations!! affirmations in the mirror, listening to them, repeating them, thinking them, they helped me SO much!
Believe you’re hot. As simple as that.
Visualisation. Imagine people giving you compliments and staring at you all day long
internal glow up tips:
confidence. duhhhh! heres a guide to self love& confidence
abundance mindset. everything works out in YOUR favour.
detachment. stop taking shite so seriously. honestly, if someones hating on you then pity them or laugh then move on. like ur too busy to spend even a second of your day to make someone feel bad about themselves or argue about something pointless.
keep learning! educate yourself, expand your knowledge and your mind.
HAPPINESS. the real glow up starts when you're genuinely happy with who you are and where you are. be a light, carefree, bubbly girl but also remember to set standards and boundaries. when you're just genuinely happy, life truly does start to get better.
hotness is a mindset.
other tips:
channel your little kid energy
take a bunch of photos! (at the end you'll basically have a pretty summer mood board)
don't be on your phone all the time. try to ✨socialise✨ your time on earth is limited don't waste it on crusty, unhot stuff. ur parents will thank you for this as well
romanticise it. (laugh. smile. wear nice clothes, talk to people, get lost in a daydream. appreciate the beauty in stuff. even if its just a sofa.)
be positive. quit complaining. be happy and focus on what you have. spread love and happiness! you're privileged and you are a privilege. act like ittt!
stay present minded. live here, now.
listen to groovy, aesthetic-themes music. to get u into the moooddd!
become a better person. a better daughter/ son, sibling, friend, person in general.
GET OUTSIDEEEE!!!! TOUCH SOME GRASS. its sunny, its summer, why tf r u staying indoors????
sleep girl. sleep. just because you don't have to wake up early tomorrow, does not mean you can stay up till 2am watching netflix. sleep makes your skin glow, makes you look prettier, makes you happier and 10000 more benefits. so sleep.
channel your creativity! (paint, draw, sketch, write, poetry, music, etc.)
play. you're still young!! have fun and do silly and embarrassing things while you still can!!!!!!!
create a summer mood board!
channel a certain era- barbie summer, blair waldorf summer, hot girl summer, etc.
bucket list ideas:
go to a park
redecorate your room
spa day (w friends)
girl slumber parties! (face masks, girlie things, movies)
volunteer somewhere
beach day!
write letters and kiss them (like those pretty pinterest summer!)
go biking (i love doing it in the mornings)
bake! (cakeeee)
get back into some old hobbies (childhood nostalgia)
gardening. care for a plant (then talk to it when you feel sad ur won't be insane i promise)
look at the sunrise / sunset
read dude. just read and romanticise it with a pretty comfy space
make a goal. then work on it so hard that you get it!
learn something new (for me i rly wanna learn crochetting)
scrap booking
do a workout with friends
video diary!! (film everythinggg)
make jewellery (u can sell them after if u want. also there are tons of jewellery making kits on amazon or toys r'us!)
donate / sell stuff (like books and toys)
flower press (with printer tho)
dance with your friends
wear jewellery!! summer necklaces, bracelets, etc!
go for walks (w friends)
get your nails done. (you don't have to go out to get them done. you can do it yourself. i dont have nail polish but my friend does so we love putting it on together)
make some new friends! (join clubs, visit new places, talk to people, join classes,)
go to the beach
"what makes life so beautiful is the fact that it ends"
#agirlwithglam🎀✨#vanilla self improvement⭐️#it girl summer#summer#summer glow up#hot girl summer#hot girl energy#summer!#it girl#it girl energy#self improvement#becoming that girl#girlboss#girlblog#self development#girlblogging#glow up tips#glow up#dream girl
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"Murder." (Home part two) Simon Riley Ver
Warnings: MAJOR DEATH, LOTS OF BLOOD, anything and evrything to do with murder (dont do it seek help if you have thoughts like this) and uhmm yeah. just rlly bad. uhm...IF YOUR UNDER FIFTEEN DONT READ!!
tags: @seconds-on-the-clock @skauni @writing-with-moss <333
Simon looked over the paper he had taken from his son. He cracked a grin and shoved it back into his pocket. His wife's exes, huh? Fine. He'd let the kid go and take out his anger on them. After all, too much pent up anger turns you into something of a monster to other people.
He heard his wife getting up and quickly started mopping. She walked into the kitchen and quirked a brow up. "I'm guessing I'll have to go through the drive through for my coffee then?" she joked. Simon forced out a dry chuckle. "yeah, sorry. Came home with mud on my boots. Didn't want you yellin' at me."
His wife laughed softly and tapped his bicep. "Oh, it's fine, Simon. Thanks for cleaning up after yourself." and nodded, his stomach twisting with guilt. He forced a smile onto his face as his wife pulled him down to kiss his cheek before walking in the dry spots and as soon as he heard the door slam shut he dropped the mop.
Kids have school soon. Need to cook. Wake them up and get them out of the house-onto the bus. Watch bus leave. Make sure it's the same driver.
He cleared his throat for no reason and started to clean up the mopping supplies. Washing the mop in the sink-bleaching it so it was still white and not stained that dark red. How did his wife not see it? Fuck-sometimes he felt like he wished his wife wasn't so blind. No fuck-shut up Riley. You love her for her blindness to what you do. If she was any smarter, she'd fine you out, divorce, take the kids, get you in the loony bin-
Ahem.
"Papa? What's on your shirt, papa?" Simon froze. He couldn't think-his brain wouldn't think. He opened his mouth, then shut it. "Papa...why is your shirt-" "Don't worry about it love-I just hot home from work. I forgot to change, Lovie, that's all." and his daughter huffed.
"Why won't you quit, dad? I mean...the local pound shop's hiring." Simon felt better-sort of. He lied to his kid, sure...but he's done that for so long now..."Yeah? Well...your mummy deserves the best-and so do you kids. My job makes me enough money to provide the best. No go get reay for school."
And his daughter groaned and walked away and back upstairs. Simon quickly finished up and went upstairs himself. He walked into his room and hid his bloody shirt and pants into a small bin he had hidden far far away in the closet.
Y/n would never find it. He eldest walked in and mumbled something about no feeling good. Something about his head. "Take yer pills yet, boy?" he asked gruffly, Sam shook his head. "Mum's gonna bring me some at school 'round one. I ran out." and Simon hummed gently. "Well...Right then, you can stay home..." and he lowered his voice, "That excuse is bullshit and you know it, Samuel Austin Riley."
Sam just shrugged and the grinned. "We need a plan, Pop. How else to plan-" Simon slapped a hand over his son's mouth because Y/n walked into the room. "...Love." "Simon...what's going on? The bus just left-"
"Samuel, you skipped the bus?" "Uhm...i don't feel good, Mum. Head's banging and-" Y/n handed him his pills. "Well. Take these then and I'll drive you to schoo-" Simon cleared his throat. "I'll take him to school. We need to talk, me an' him." Y/n frowned. "What did he do this time?"
"Don't talk like that about my son. He's done nothing wrong...I jus'...wanna catch up, is all. As much as I miss you an' the others, I missed my eldest too." heartfelt bullshit. Y/n's one weakness in a man. Y/n smiled and whispered, "Fine...don't keep him too long though." Simon nodded and took the pills from his wife, opened them, and gave two to his son. "Only two for now. You can take the rest later at lunch."
Sam nodded and took the pills. "Yeah, alright, Pop." and he took the pills, no water. Y/n grimaced and Simon just sighed. "Loony, this one." Sam rolled his eyes. "I'm not crazy, Dad. Just a little...prone to chaos." Y/n quirked a brow up. "So trying to make a bomb during science class was you being prone to chaos?" Sam grinned and nodded. "I would've made a damn good one too if Vinnie hadn't told on me!"
Simon sighed softly. "Right, get your pack. We're leaving." Sam huffed and nodded. "Okay...bye Mum. Spaghetti, right?" Y/n nodded. "Yup. Grandma's recipe. Your favorite. Have a nice day, Sammy." And Sam groaned loudly and dramatically.
But now it was dusk and Sam hadn't gone to school. Simon had called and said he caught a stomach bug. Principal said that it was okay that it was best he stay out of school for about a week. Simon said yes, write him out for the week. Sam couldn't have been happier. Ofc Simon told the same thing to Y/n-over the phone. Said the poor kid asked him to pull over and he puked-the pills must've been the wrong kind and Y/n was going back to the doctor's then.
Simon had ended the phone call with that's a good idea Love i'll see you soon, gonna take him to see your sister, she's a medic right? plus were just a street away. and Y/n was non the wiser.
But now, they really were at her sister's. But not for medical reasons. Sam was just going there real quick to get the pills he needed for proper sleep and nothing else-like every other month. Then they would head out onto the highway and locate Y/n's first ex.
Simon let the kid handle his shit himself and when he came back Simon put the car into start and said, "You know where these guys live right?" Sam nodded. "I'll guide you...don't want it in your GPS-the FBI can trace that." Simon barked out a laugh. "You really did plan this out-didn't you?" "A little different but yeah."
They got onto the highway and Sam told him to take the next exit. So. Y/n dated a farmer once? No-not a farmer, a bull rider who was a huge jock back in high school. Simon didn't like him. Simon didn't play sports-wasn't allowed.
Simon parked at an old worn down looking barn. And it was old, water damaged and if the wind blew just right it would fall down. Perfect place to park. Yup. He and Sam got out and Simon couldn't help but feel a little...wrong for this.
"Sam. I-We should go home." Sam stopped dead in his tracks and looked his dad dead in the eyes. "Why?" "I-I just don't think an fucking teenager should be doing this-what if we're found out one day? I'm fine with goin' to jail-but you? Yer jus' a boy..."
Sam laughed. "Dad-I've killed before. You recall a girl called Daisy?" Simon quirked a brow up. "...No?" "My point exactly." and Simon nodded. "Fine. You kept my secret, I'll keep your's...but you owe me now, Boy." "Owe you what?" "...Do all o' me chores." Sam gasped. "Your joking-" "Nope!" "Ugh, fine!"
and Simon laughed softly. "Naw, jus' joking, kiddo. C'mon. I'll let you sever his tendons or somethin'..." and you could see Sam's blue eyes light up. "FUCK YEAH!" Simon huffed and said, "Quiet, son.." "yeah daa..."
Fuck. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck-"Sam-i said gently-not all o' yer strength!" "I'm stronger than i knew i guess, sorry!" Blood was all over the both of them, they'd have to use this guy's shower. Simon sighed before saying, "Fine. It's fine, Son...just...find something to change into and take a shower yeah? I'll clean this up as best as i can."
Sam nodded and ran off to the upstairs of the house.
Simon was then alone, the guy still alive, he could tell. He sighed. "Sorry mate...but you see...gotta teach 'em young...gotta let them get their anger out, y'know? ...Hm, though you did cheat on my wife back in the day...Not one to let that slide."
and poor guy nearly choked out the name, "Si-Simon!?" before he took his final breath. Simon nodded. "That's m'name...Simon mother fuckin' Riley. and Guess what? Now your old ex is Missus Riley. Innit nice, Mate?"
Never beat a dead horse...never beat a dead horse...there's no use in beating a dead..."SAM, GET DOWN HERE!" and Sam ran down-his shirt off but he was back nonetheless. "Take up yer knife and stab him. Keep going until I tell you to stop. Get all your energy out, Boy."
and Simon nearly regretted the words. His son snatched up his knife and went to town. Rose it over his head again and again and again and again. And again. "Sam-" "no. This is fun!" and Simon's heart stopped, turned cold and dropped all the way to his ass.
"Samuel-" "I SAID NO!" ...dear fuck. What had Simon provoked?
Same wasn't Sam. That much was clear. Simon grabbed his son's wrist and said, "...at least let me give you some tips." and Sam nodded. "So err...stab his stomach for a shit ton of spewing blood."
and Sam did. and Blood did indeed spew. Simon nearly puked. He was feeling how he used to around his dad. Scared. Afraid...Sam wasn't a boy anymore. Simon had let him do this...He wasn't like his father no...he was worse. Much worse.
but then it hit him like a sack of bricks.
and it felt good.
It felt so so So good to have someone to share this little hobby with...and even better that it was his son. Father-son bonding time, it could be...huh. Wow. It was twisted and fucked up but then again...what in his life wasn't? He had even sorta corrupted his own Wife at some point...fuck.
He liked this.
Murder.
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Pit Stop - Sun/Reader
Oh hey I wrote a thing! Just some stress-related fluff.
You are currently running around the Pizzaplex with all the fervor and grace of an over-caffeinated emu.
The Pizzaplex has been understandably busy lately - it's Summer and all the kids are out of school and piling into the Plex instead. It's something you foresaw, but not necessarily something you were prepared for. Because more patrons means more messes to clean, more damages to repair, more potential animatronic-related accidents to prevent. (People REALLY don't like being told not to use flash photography on the animatronics.) And so, for the past few... weeks? Has it been weeks now? The days are blurring together. For the last few fuckin' whatevers, it's just been go go go go from the second you clock in to the second you clock out.
It's... not gone unnoticed. Freddy's been awful worried for you lately, always checking in with you whenever he and you get a free moment together - an increasing rarity. But he's always got a big ol' bear hug waiting for you when you need it.
Chica's always sneaking snacks into your supplies. One time you found a little pack of cookies she'd somehow managed to sleight-of-hand into hiding in your uniform's hood in passing.
Roxy's invited you to come hang out in her room with her for a bit. She says she needs someone to listen to some new keytar riffs she's been working on and "you'll have to do", but... you can tell she really just wants to hang with you for a bit.
Even Monty's eased off picking on you lately. He tried busting your chops one day recently, and you're pretty sure you gave him a cold death glare that could turn even an animatronic to stone. He's been giving you an easier time since then. Even offered to take you golfing with him in case you needed to get some of that stress out.
And when your job brings you to the arcade after hours, you can't help but notice a certain giant DJ playing some nice lo-fi beats for you while you work. You'd be lying if you said it didn't help chill you out after a day of unrelenting frazzlement. If that's even a word.
And then... there's Sun and Moon. Your best friends in the Plex. When it comes to Moon, he's noticed how bone-tired you are at the end of each day, because he's quite literally hard-wired to notice such things. And so, if you want to have any hope of getting any work done during the night, you have to keep an eye out for a certain mechanical jester who wants to scoop you up, have you stop what you're doing, and tuck you in - pillow, blanket, plushies, good night head pats... the works. He's managed it a few times now. The fiend. The blackheart. The dastard. (Buuut... you do always wind up waking up feeling a lot better. And your work always seems to be finished up where you left off - shout out to the STAFF bots, heh...)
And Sun. Sun, who is currently watching you hustle and bustle around like that aforementioned caffeinated emu through the transparent panes around the daycare. You've got a million things you need to do today - so many messes to clean and repairs to do and customers to deal with and bots to supervise and--
"Hoooold it!!"
A familiar yellow mechanical arm lowering down into your path through the open daycare doors as you begin to hurry past them interrupts your frenzied train of thought and blocks your path - like a barrier gate in front of a toll booth. One with jingling bells attached.
You stop in your tracks in front of the arm, glancing up at its owner - your solar-themed robotic jester buddy, grinning down at you, bouncing a bit in place. "Attention, citizen! I'm afraid your weary travels have led you to the Superstar Turnpike! You've gotta stop and pay the toll if you wanna keep going!" He says with a chuckle.
You blink, processing this for a moment, before your tensed up body relaxes just a smidgen, putting your rush on hold for a moment, though you can still feel it buzzing in your chest - like a big electric ball of anxiety forcing you to stay on high alert. You give Sun a small, weary smile, and one of your eyebrows raises as you play along with him. "Oh, yeah? And what's the toll, then?"
Sun giggles at that, pleased as punch by you giving his antics a moment. He holds a finger up in the air like he's making a grand declaration. "The toll is, of course, one great big snuggly hug with yours truly!" He answers proudly... before more meekly tagging on, "I-If you'd like one. No worries if not."
You look him over for a moment, then sigh, a fond, grateful smile coming to your lips. Your arms raise outward in invitation. "... Bring it in, big guy." A quiet chuckle leaves you, soft and warm even in the weary sound of it.
Sun's rays spin around a quick moment, his hands taking a second to flap, getting the excitement out, before you're scooped up off the ground effortlessly. You're pulled in to be gently tucked against his mechanical shoulder, his arms wrapped around you, keeping you securely aloft, holding you safe and steady and warm. One hand smooths up and down your back, in a slow, comforting rhythm, as your head rests against his neck ruffle. "Theeere we go, friend." Sun hums, his voice quieter, gentler than usual - toned down for your sake. "Is that good? Are we comfy?"
You nod, giving a little hum in the affirmative - that buzzing in your chest a little quieter, and that racing train of thought in your head slowing down for a pit stop. "Mhm..."
Sun's chin rests itself on your head, nuzzling against you just a smidge as he rocks side-to-side, slow and easy. "Glad to hear it! Now... I need you to take a biiig, deep breath for me. Okay? Can we do that?"
You nod once more, then draw a deep, slow breath in through your nose, feeling the air fill your chest up... And then you let it out just as slowly, feeling the air leave you, like it's carrying your tension, your rush, your anxiety with it. When you've finished that breath out, your shoulders slump, calm and at ease. Maybe not entirely relaxed, but... certainly much more than you were just a minute ago. You're okay. Everything's okay. Everything's still going to be there waiting for you when you're done taking a breather. And it's going to be easier to handle after you've given yourself a moment of rest.
You close your eyes and snuggle into the hug a bit more, focussing on your breathing.
After a few moments of that, Sun holding you and rocking you back and forth, quiet for a moment while he lets you sort things out in your head, you pull back a bit. And he pulls back as well, holding you in front of him so that his bright, grinning face can look you over.
"Well, gosh, buddy, you're looking better already!" The hand that was petting your back comes up to lightly brush some hair out of your face. "Now let's see here... Hug, check. Deep breaths, check. Oh, something's missing here, I just can't think of what!"
He makes a big show tapping his chin in thought, his rays retracting and extending again around his head in a wave, making him look like some kind of loading screen symbol. That earns a little giggle from you at his goofiness, which, in turn, immediately makes him brighten up.
"Oh, oh, oh! That's it, friend! There's that wonderful little smile of yours! And my favorite laugh in the whole wide world! Of course that's what was missing, silly me!" He laughs, turning around on his heels with you in his arms to give you a gentle spin, earning another laugh from you, before he sets you down on your own two feet, a little boop on your nose for good measure. "Sooo. What's the verdict, friend? Are we ready to get back out there?"
You nod, still with a little trace of your giggle fit not having quite left you.
"Are we absolutely, positively certain, friend?" He rocks back and forth on his heels a bit, letting his arms swing back at fourth at his sides in a steady, bouncy rhythm.
"Sunny," You put your hand on your hips playfully. "We are absolutely, positively, one million percent certain. I... I got this now." You say, and... you do really mean it now. Everything feels a bit more manageable. You can make it through today at least. Just... one day at a time, one thing at a time. You can handle that, you think. You'll try, at least. And, well... you know you don't have to go it alone. Yeah. You've got this.
Sun gasps dramatically. "One million percent?! Well, goodness gracious, friend, you really mean business! All your tasks oughta be shaking in their boots!" He gives you a big, goofy salute. "Go give the rest of this day what for, then! Godspeed!"
With that, he gives you that salute and closes the door with a grand flourish.
... Only for it to open back up a few seconds later.
"... also hi do you think we can hang out later? I really wanna hang out." He pokes his head back out, fingers tapping together bashfully.
You can't help but chuckle again at that, nor can you help the warm, genuine smile that spreads across your face. "Yeah. I'd like that, Sunny." He gives a giggle of excitement, his rays twirling. "Now... you and I both have jobs to get back to, yeah? Let's get it done, big guy. And I'll see you again when we're done." You give him a nod, picking your forgotten supplies up once more. "... Love ya, Sun Bun. And thanks. For being here for me."
"Aww, love you too, bestest buddy. I'll always be here for you. Always and always! Now... I'll see you tonight!" And with a big, excited wave, the door closes once more, for real this time, your friend skipping away to get back to work.
You watch him go with a smile. Then you look back down at the supplies in your arms.
One more deep breath. In... and out.
Okay.
Let's do this.
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cox - August 25 - @wolfstarmicrofic - word count:516
Sirius always confident about his experiences with girls and relationships stuff.He doesn't have to brag about it,because everyone in the whole school have at least once heard about the "Famous & Hot Sirius Black".
He's the Love Expert,who give James useful information to keep going on his journey to Lily's heart.Sirius is the one every Gryffindor would ask for love advice because they know that he'd be willing to help.He also earns a few galleons from it since they have to pay if they need some tips about "that",which Sirius had done before and have some nasty tricks.
But what they don't know is that he's never tried it with boys before.It took them nearly a month for Sirius to work out his feelings with Remus,eventually they agreed to be together.Since then,they have snogged,cuddled but still haven't tried "that",which led to Sirius' decision to give it a chance because everyone is currently asleep.
Suddenly,all of his confident bit by bit turns into air and float out of his manner.He feels frustrated with himself because he had done it a million times before.Why can't he figure out the next step,It's just "that" and he's a boy, it's supposed to be easier with Remus.Would Remus feel disappointed with him,Would they break up after this.His body go numb and the air seems too taut to speak,all he could think about right now is his unexperiences or Remus' disappointed expression.
"It's ok,we don't have to do it now"Remus voice faintly filled the air as his gaze dart the streak of moon light slightly draped on Sirius' face.
"But.."He feel like there is a big lump in his throat,stop him from saying anything in he's thinking right now."How couldn't I-It's absurd I mean I have tried 'that' with people before.How am I look like a failure boyfriend."He croaks out while some tears are running down his cheekbones.They are half naked now,why he couldn't continue.
Remus gently pulls him to his lap,slightly runs his hand through Sirius' hair.He's slipping his finger through every small mole on Sirius' pale skin,give each of them a peck."We have months to try,I don't wanna rush if you haven't ready yet.There's going to be a right time,when things are just going smoothly without any plans.I don't have any experiences with boy too,it’s okay”Remus voice coursing through Sirius’ paranoid like a warmth assuring
“But what if I disappointed you,I don’t know what to do”
“Then I’ll be your cox,I’ll navigate us to the right berth.Don’t you remember that I’m a bookworm,kind of good at reading and doing the instruction.”
“Okay.So I guess we’re just going to cuddle and have a good dream then.”Sirius voice fills with mischief,no longer worry about anything.
They tip-toeing to bed,careful not to wake the other two.Sirius entangles his body with Remus’ like he’s done this a thousand times.
“Goodnight Love”
“Goodnight.”Then he secretly mumbles after sure that Remus is already asleep. “Anything for my Moony.”
Sirius falls asleep as he sure that he’s going be okay,They going to do ���that” when the right time come.And he’s ready to do anything for his Moony.
#wolfstar#remus lupin#sirius black#remus x sirius#remus loves sirius#sirius loves remus#moony x padfoot#figure out together
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OFFICIAL NOVEL: Kiseki Dear to Me Rundown From Start to End (A PRETTY LONG POST)
I briefly shared a brief read through of the last two chapters (and also what we can expect will happen in episodes 9-13) for Kiseki Dear to Me yesterday, and now that I have a bit of time, here's a slightly more detailed look through the novel! The drama was adapted from the novel so I think we can more or less expect some of these details in the novel turn up in the drama as well, although I've already seen some differences, mostly due to timing.
Also another thing to note is that the novel's protagonists were clearly Bai Zongyi and Fan Zherui, so the others really don't feature in terms of deepening relationship at all, but disclaimer that I'm still doing a skim through for now, haven't had time to read every word ;-;
Title: Kiseki Dear to Me (same name) Total: 1 Prologue + 10 Chapters + 2 Extras + 1 Special Feature (?) Author: Lin Peiyu, who's behind quite a number of well known TW BLs, including H3T
NOVEL SPOILERS IN FULL BELOW
(1) Prologue
Ai Di curses as he and Bai Zongyi leave the prison, and he makes the mistake of looking back as it's considered a taboo for released prisoners to look back at their place on incarceration (because it means you're gonna go back)
BZY: Well if you obey the law from now on you won't have a chance to come back, and Ai Di goes: Who the hell do you think I am of course I'm going to get into trouble and how can you say that to me, I protected you for a year!!
Chen Yi picks Ai Di up in a sports car and Ai Di scolds Chen Yi because how's he gonna give BZY a ride in a two-seated but Chen Yi doesn't want to bring BZY any more potential negative trouble, and drives off
Ai Di is like why is it so depressing when I should be happy and Chen Yi said: That your damn problem and Ai Di is all: We haven't seen each other for a year and you're still so nasty to me
(2) Chapter 1
Mostly the same as the drama, BZY meets FZR who's injured for the first time, Ai Di goes crazy hitting people when they lose FZR
Chen Yi teases Ai Di saying if he smokes any more he's not going to grow taller to which Ai Di says, "Are you so damn great just because you're 180cm?!"
FZR cooking > All these are the same, the only thing is they packed eps 1-3 all in the first chapter
In the car when FZR is picked up by Ai Di and Chen Yi, they talk a bit about how FZR is someone that Chen Dongyang passed to Chen Yi to protect and that's why he puts so much attention on him, and FZR is like "oh so anyone who matters to Chen Dongyang you'll protect? oh, i forgot, except for Er-Ye (second boss, Zhou Minglei) and ISTG Chen Yi is so damn wild?! He goes, "He's (Zhou Minglei) is still alive, that's as much as I am tolerating him" (because he's jealous he gets to be with Chen Dongyang) > THIS IS WAY MORE OBVIOUS HERE THAN IN THE DRAMA
(3) Chapter 2
Technically when FZR leaves BZY's house and intends not to see him again, they next meet in the school in drama with FZR as a teacher, but in the novel, FZR comes back to the house drunk with BZY cuz he missed BZY unconsciously and also because BZY was working at the place he got drunk at, and also got into a fight at
Ends with scared-of-the-rain scene with FZR comforting BZY
(4) Chapter 3
WHEN THEY WAKE UP IN BED THE NEXT DAY THEY ARE ALREADY GETTING SMEXY WITH EACH OTHER like cuz they're in the same bed from FZR comforting BZY who was scared of the rain the night before, and when they wake up, they couldn't help it and FZR basically pounced on BZY - they don't go all the way tho, strictly hands only until Ai Di calls and interrupts them
Ai Di treats FZR's wounds and we can really see how great friends they are because Ai Di is lived as hell that FZR is hurt and cursing up a storm and FZR is all "if I die, do you wanna bet you'll be the saddest out of everyone?" LMAO
And we get the student framing scene, but FZR is not a teacher AT ALL he's there as BZY's cousin, and he comes to school all decked in like riches and everyone is like OMG IS BZY A RICH BOY
After that we get the same thing i.e. FZR asking BZY if he did well at defending him, the hug and the likes
Difference is BZY gets home that night and gets a fever because he was burnt by the chemicals from the incident in the classroom with the girl who framed him after not handling rejection well
FZR takes care of him really well and they're really attracted to each other and can feel that deep connection and are super drawn to each other idek how to put it
Ai Di ends up at a "part-time job" without telling Chen Yi
(5) Chapter 4
Gangster boss meeting NOT in the bathhouse but in a regular meeting room and everyone is present, and obviously Zhou Minglei is scolding Chen Yi but Chen Dongyang is obviously protective over Chen Yi and excusing his actions (same as drama)
Chen Dongyang tries to convince FZR to go back to his family
FZR goes back to BZY after a while (at least a few days or weeks because everytime they reunite in this chapter and past few chapters, FZR makes a comment about how he's now taller etc.)
BZY confesses, and wishes to grow up faster so he can have FZR
(6) Chapter 5
FZR avoids BZY and asks Chen Yi why they all keep asking him to go back to the Fan family (same as drama), then he runs back to BZY's place because of the rain and BZY is hurt (same as drama too)
And then yes same the drama they sleep together for the first time (and a few times after lol)
(7) Chapter 6
The morning after, unlike the drama, they do get their second morning round in
And then some time after BZY actually gets to orientation at med school, and somehow finds out that FZR might have something to do with the Fan family, and realises he's not FZR's match in terms of status
FZR talks about his past, and then BZY tells him again that he loves him for him, and then FZR says "you're my man" and BZY goes insane obviously
After they confirm their feelings again, FZR decides that he can't keep living the half-gangsta life and decides to leave the gang and head back home
He bids farewell to Chen Yi and Ai Di quite formally like with a cup of tea and they don't say goodbye because from today onwards their paths are different and will never cross again (WTS?!?!! drama much?!)
Chen Yi tries to look for Zhang Teng
(8) Chapter 7
BZY's fam comes to visit, and then they stay over
FZR suggests that BZY moves in with him and same as drama, all the sweet promises and trying to build a future together
While they're rolling in the sheets, FZR threatens BZY and say if he dares to break any promises to him he would kill him LOL
(9) Chapter 8
Chased down by Zhang Teng's men just after they move in together
There's no backstory for Zhang Teng and FZR either, ZY just plain hates Chen Yi and co, and the same thing where he ends up dying too
As FZR is undergoing surgery, BZY asks Chen Yi and Ai Di if they're cops or gangsters and Ai Di is like oh the latter, and then FZR's grandpa, dad, younger brother and mother come
They meet but don't say much to each other and then afterwards BZY is no longer able to see FZR, and FZR's parents sell the house and tell BZY not to cling onto FZR anymore etc., and FZR basically realises what a shitty ass home FZR lived in and why he wanted to run away and join the gang
BZY's dad ends up in the hospital and he's at the hospital when Chen Dongyang finds him and convinces him to take the rap for FZR, and BZY himself realises what grandpa Fan is doing, he wants to break them up
But he agrees anyway because if FZR wakes up and turns himself in it might be a death sentence
Chen Dongyang is super unhappy he had to pass the news to BZY like this under grandpa Fan's requests, who he owes a favour too, and really hates and regrets that he ruined BZY's future, and he scolds Chen Yi and tells him that they would forever owe BZY one till the day they die
Ai Di goes to the hospital, sneaks in and whispers the news to FZR hoping it'd wake him up, so turns out Zhang Teng went after FZR because he realised he was from the Fan family (wtf is the link idk, they don't really say it here) after FZR's third uncle let the news leak to him
He tells him BZY is in jail and what grandpa Fan did to him and FZR finally reacts, but he asks who Ai Di is after he wakes up
Ai Di: SERIOUSLY?!
(10) Chapter 9
BZY gets out of jail, returns home to his dad and sister, and poor bb is depressed af. They urge him to go back to med school since he doesn't have a record anyway, but he tells them that he hurt his head in jail and has severe short term memory loss, like he can be saying one thing one moment and forgetting it the next and saying it again, he needs his notebook to help him remember
They both know why he went to jail and dad is guilty af and angry af at FZR but BZY told him he doesn't regret doing it for the person he loves
Dad tries to creep up on BZY but BZY reacts very badly, because he had to protect himself in prison from terrible people
And while his brain can't handle med school anymore, BZY takes the money that grandpa Fan and Chen Dongyang promised his four years ago and opens a dessert shop to sell the desserts he promised FZR he would make for him
FZR at this point is getting scolded by his grandpa, and his younger bro, heir to the Fan family, is speaking up for him
Once FZR leaves the room, grandpa Fan tells younger bro to make use of FZR and squeeze him dry because that's all the use he is
But once the younger bro leaves his grandpa, he meets FZR outside and tells him not to give too much of a shit about what grandpa said, and that's when it's revealed that FZR has NOT lost his memories
Younger bro has been hiding it for him all this while and they're working together - FZR wants revenge against third uncle and also his grandpa a little, while younger bro doesn't want to sit at the top of the family but still be subject to grandpa's control
Younger bro was also the one who told him all about BZY and what grandpa did to him the moment he woke up from the accident four years ago, and that's how he managed to pretend to be amnesiac in time
FZR is filled with guilt and self-blame and pain because where BZY is that's his home, but now he's ashamed to see him, but he still can't see him either because he needs to revenge first, makes sure it's safe
A new cafe opens near a university, and BZY makes the best desserts - his sister asks him why he doesn't go find FZR, and he just doesn't dare to anymore because of the way he is now, broken - AND SIMULTANEOUSLY FZR and his younger bro are seated in a car outside the bakery and younger bro is like "miracles don't happen just by you sitting on your ass here" and FZR also doesn't dare to go in and see BZY
He threatens his bro and makes him go in to buy desserts for him, and tears up when he realises all the desserts are familiar to him, that BZY was keeping his promise, but still doesn't go in
BUT SNEAKY LITTLE BRO!!! On the note he gives BZY, he writes a message "FZR didn't lose his memory, if you wanna see him come to xxx place tomorrow"
And BZY is convinced by his dad to take the leap
BZY goes to the address as stated the next day and realises he knocked on younger bro's door, and younger bro is like he's NEXT DOOR thanks
BZY goes in and sees FZR asleep, and a bottle of sedatives next to the bed. He wakes him up, and FZR thinks he's a figment of his imagination in his dreams because FZR, through the four years, has been using sedatives to fall asleep because that's the only place he sees BZY
They sleep together, FZR still thinking it's a dream, and only a bit later when he feels pain he realises that FUCK IT REALLY IS HIM
THEY ARE FINALLY WHOLE!!! THEY open their hearts to each other again and tell each what they're thinking and how scared they are etc., and they've found their way back to each other again
(11) Chapter 10
FZR and BZY are seeing each other again with FZR running between Taipei and Taichung, and then he finally runs into FZR's dad again
He's apologetic and regretful and ashamed, but dad is now understanding and gives his blessings
On the TV, news of Taiwan's imminent gay-marriage bill is on and BZY plans to propose and marry FZR, and FZR promises that in the future, he'll write in his notebook for him, he'll remember and make memories for them both
BED TIME! Happily ever after
(12) Extras + Others
Extra 1 is the scene in the drama where BZY's sister sees them kissing in FZR's living room
Extra 2 is between FZR and his brother, and his younger brother basically tells him that he's always known what FZR's mother was doing but he never cared about it because no matter what she or FZR did, whether he acted stupid or smart or whatever, FZR's brother's status at the heir would never change, and FZR is like wtf bro firstly, that's hurtful, secondly, you're telling me I could have just been less emo all these years, and then FZR's bro drops a bomb that HE IS GAY TOO and he's seeming someone and FZR is like "omg is grandpa Fan going to have a heart attack you've got two gay boys here huh"
Special Feature is just a routine day between dessert maker BZY and busy businessman FZR, a sweet, sweet day <3
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ALRIGHT AND THAT IS IT!
Okay I'm honestly not at all surprised at the loopholes in the writing in the novel it's quite characteristic of quite a number of the authors' books LOL and I'm so damn happy the drama decided to take it up a notch and give colour to Ai Di, Chen Yi, Chen Dongyang and Zhou Minglei because DAMN the novel treated them like third-class citizens ok barely like a handful of mentions I'm like WHY DO YALL EVEN EXIST HERE IF NOT TO BE GAY AND BECOME CPs
Sad Zhang Teng too, he was literally just a token villain CAN U IMAGINE
HAPPY WATCHING THE REST OF THE KISEKI DEAR TO ME DRAMA YALLLLLL <3 No need to be scared of extended dual amnesia plot pain UNLESS we get a drama canon deviation
#kiseki dear to me#kdtm#kiseki: dear to me#chen yi#ai di#fan zherui#bai zongyi#nat chen#jiang dian#hsu kai#taro lin#lin yutong#kdtm novel#for all the peeps who need to know the novel#but can't and there's no tl#kdtm spoilers#spoilers
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Okay here's the whole thing I filled out with boyf in-character enjoy his one total braincell if he's lucky. I'm putting zero effort into formatting this bc tumblr is glitchy on my phone blank template is here
(cw: sexual humor. also a bunch of intentional typos and gratuitous swearing)
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1. Okay, first question: what’s your name, age, and gender?
- they call me boyfriend im 19 and i sap the gender out of the music
2. How would you describe yourself, personality-wise?
- fuckkk man idk. im p chill i think ig im pretty cool. pretty swag pretty gamer
3. What’s a typical day like for you?
- welll I wake up at like. 11 usually at earliest and I hang out w one of my partners sometimes I watch movies w em or work on music. not a lot going on usually
4. How do you wind down at the end of the day? Do you even wind down?
- most of the time i literally just wait until i crash out sometimes gf and peeks gotta drag me to bed lol
5. What is your earliest memory?
- UHHHHH oh god uhhh. I think. When I was like five we went to a festival or smth and we went on one of those twirly things and I made my dad spin the thing so hard I threw up LMAO
6. What is/was your relationship with your parents?
- i mean p good i think but we dont rly tlak anymore thats mostly my fault tho
7. What do you do when you’re bored?
- succumb to the madness mostly
8. Do you regret anything you’ve done?
- i mean not like currently
9. Do you dress to be functional or fashionable?
- bro i wear the same exact fucking outfit every day to be honest with you lol. It's not like I'm fuckin going anywhere
10. Who are your best friends? How did you meet them?
- DUUUDE assuming my partners don't count gotta shout out my man darnell we've been workin on a collab ep recently it goes hard as fuckkkkk. we met back in the stupid therapy program back in middle school he introduced me to pico n nene
11. Have any siblings? If so, what is your relationship?
- yea got a big sister and a lil bro. they're both sweet but kinda clueless tbh. technically got other stuff goin on too but im kinda worried that ill get like the government on my ass if i talk abt it
12. What is your job? Is it tiring or difficult?
- closest thinf ive got to a job is music ig and nah. really wouldn't rather be doing anything else even if it payed more tbh. when I get burnt out I wanna die but thafs not a big deal lmao
13. When you’re going through a rough time, do you seek help or consolation from others?
- on a scale of liek paper cut to nearly died how rough are we talking
14. How easy is it for others to gain your trust?
- ive been told im pretty trusting but i feel like any person whos meant to hurt me was pretty upfront abt it so ┐(´∀`)┌
15. What is your sexuality, if you don’t mind me asking?
- all the time all the time
16. Do you have a significant other? What are they like?
- "a" singular. lol. lmao even. bros asking if I got one singular partner lmao try two bitch and thyere the best most important people in the world
17. Have you ever lost a loved one?
- not like perminently
18. How often do you act on impulse? Does it ever backfire?
- lsiten if i do it all the time then like statisicly it only backfires like 40% of the time okay
19. Do you believe in ghosts?
- I believe in everyone bro
20. How about aliens?
- aliens are hisyorically very mean to me but ig i can just then believe that they can be better people. or aliens
21. What traits do you value the most in others?
- uhhh probably like being just nice ig? idk i think it can take a lot more effort than people think to be considerate and stuff I appreciate when people are nice even if they have a reason not to be
22. Do you dream often? What are your dreams like?
- i used to not to but somethings happened and now I get them all the time. don't really want to talk about it they're mostly just weird
23. Are you a light or heavy sleeper? Do you sleep in?
- my partners say im such a heavy sleeper that one time i slept through gf falling off the bed in the middle of the night but I was asleep so I can't cofnirm
24. Okay, this is a bit personal, but… Have you ever (uh) “done the do”?
- dude like u wouldn't believe
25. Do you have any pets?
- nah but I think it would be cool to have a guinea pig they seem chill and I appreciate their vibes
26. Ever been drunk before? How often do you drink?
- i try not to toooooooo much but i think i have a hard time telling when too much is too much. dont tell my parents
27. Are you respectful to authority figures?
- they only have as much authority as you give them. manipulate a landlord today
28. What kinds of movies do you like you watch?
- https://youtu.be/HgjyQ0_coJo?si=L5Bzhey5cxaoNpWU
29. Do you have any guilty pleasures?
- ██████ █████ █ ███████ ████ ███ ████ ███████ ███ ████ ████████████ ██ ███ ███ ████ ██ one time nene found it in my dresser and I almost DIED wait was this question not about sex stuff
30. What would you say is the happiest memory of your life?
- ohh thats hard uhh. happiest is hard to qualify i think. I think I'm happiest whenever I think abt waking up next to my partners
31. How about your worst memory?
- thats a good question
32. What did you aspire to be when you were young? Did that dream change as you grew up?
- i didn't think I'd be fuckign anythang
33. How far would you be willing to go to get what you want?
- u gotta quantify what I want here tbh. is it like a chocolate bar or one billion dollars. cuz id kill someone for a billion dollars. honestly i might also kill someone for a chocolate bar but like not as badly
34. What is sure to ruin your day?
- idk nearly dying again probably
35. Do you have any nervous habits?
- uhhh sometimes i mess with my hair and when i get rly upset i pull at it til it hurts. i used to scratch my face a lot when i was upset too but it freaks ppl out so i try not to if i can help it
36. Play video games often?
- i tryyyyy but i get distracted so fast i play a game and im like oh shit this reminds me of another thing i was gonna play n then i go play that and then I never FINISH ANYTHIGN
37. What kind of things do you laugh at?
- https://youtu.be/47EOSLWu-EI?si=kuzPv2Vndl91Oj3C
38. Favorite genre of music?
- BROOOO ok gonna be basic as shit and say breakcore. also a huge fan of speedcore and drill & bass but breakcore is my home. i wishhh it wasn't called this but my favorite like subgenre of breakcore is probs lolicore not for any fuckin weird reason but just bc the way the vocals are usually mixed scratches my brain sooooooo fuking good. listen to various types of ads by loli in early 20s and youll get it. i fucking love experimental breakcore my favorite album rossz csillag alatt született mixes breakcore+dr&b w classical and it's sooooo fucking good it's SO good i need to learn more fuckin instrument plug ins so I can make shit like that. in general i just love music that feels like it's fuckin drilling it's way into youre brain and rewiring it i want the music to fuckin labotomize me fr
39. What do you think your spirit animal would be if you had one?
- idk maybe a rat i like rats. dude imagine if i was a rat like ritz we could have cheese together. we can do that anyway but it would be more awesome
40. Have an accent of any kind?
- yea autism
41. Chess or checkers?
- checkers i have no idea how to play chess but it sounds convoluted as fuk
42. Do you feel sentimentality toward a particular object?
- i love my laptop even if I get a new computer and this thing breaks completely im keeping this laptop ily laptop
43. Are you generally pretty secretive, or are you an open book?
- im like accidentally secretive i dont even try like wtf do you mean im supposed to talk about shit
44. What are you most embarrassed about?
- i feel like this was addressed in the nene thing
45. What are your deepest fears?
- have you ever seen that fuckin brony stuff where people get teleported to pony world as horses gf is obsessed with that kinda thing but that's TERRIFYING if i woke up as a horse id fuckin die of a heart attack
46. How desperate would you have to be to lie to, steal from, injure, or murder another person? Do you do any of those things regularly?
- i like the implication that i would admit to murdering ppl on a regular basis
47. Do you have any scars? How did you get them?
- it's so fucked up i got this scar on my face and it's so bad bc I don't even scar that easy like i get into fights my entire life but i only got one scar just bc some weeb tried to kill me. like ok
48. Say someone has mistreated you in some form. Would you immediately lose your temper, hold a grudge, or simply let it go?
- you wouldnt believe my epic power to do all of those simaltaneusly
49. How do you deal with physical and mental pain?
- max volume noise nothing can hurt me if the Loud
50. What is your ideal place to live?
- never thought abt it tbh ig anywhere with my partners
51. What was your childhood like?
- just 18 years of stupid therapy programs and stupid special ed classes and ppl telling me how to think and how to act and like I was 4 years old forever i don't careeee
52. What is your favorite kind of weather?
- i think snow is pretty
53. How important to you is friendship? What about romance?
- i think they're both pretty great but idk i feel like urself should be most important bc idk shit happens and ppl leave so if you dont like yourself youre just gonna be stuck with some miserable loser who doesnt have any friends as ur only company
54. Have any disabilities, weaknesses, or allergies?
- i feel like in a hypothetical situation i would be pretty weak to godzilla
55. What’s your favorite thing to eat?
- SPICY FOOOOOOOD my spice tolerance fucks hard i will drink hot sauce. right now holdbon
56. Do you have kids? If not, do you picture yourself ever having them?
- could you fucking imagine.
57. How well can you sing?
- idk but i like it
58. Are you particularly confident? Does your confidence level change if less people are around?
- if nobody got me i know i got me
59. Do you like shopping?
- delivery apps were invented for a reason
60. How do you interact with strangers?
- tbh i usually just tune out anyone that's not talking to me LMAO
61. Have you ever been betrayed by someone you loved?
- not like perminently
62. If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?
- don't like this question
63. If you could meet anyone from the past or future, who would it be?
- fuckkkkk my gf isn't home rn can I pick her
64. If a genie granted you three wishes, what would they be?
- money bigass house and then I wouldn't use the last one so we could just vibe forver
65. Do you like attention?
- ask pico
66. Are you glad I’ve run out of questions to ask?
- ig bc im puttin off chores ily though
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i feel like oversharing today.
it's an odd feeling to be moving out at 30. i'm doing what i "should" have done over ten years ago and i keep going over and over how i ended up here.
there is the basic element of the pandemic & the housing crisis but for me, i cannot help but feel like my family failed me and i don't feel like me saying that is pity seeking or asking for sympathy. it's just true and i deserve to say that.
when i was 16 my mom died, she had been terminally ill for THREE years. my aunt and uncle knew she was going to die, they knew they would take me in. they promised her to take care of me.
the summer after my mom's death was one of the worst years of my life, but the summer after my senior year was even worse because that is when the situation genuinely became abusive and i just couldn't see what it was.
until i graduated high school at 19 (yes, i was always a little old in school for some reason) i was allowed to keep my mom's social security benefits, so i would recieve about $200 a month for my needs. at the time $90 of that would go to a storage unit that held all of me and mom's stuff from our old apartment. it got to the point that i couldn't keep paying it so me and my family decided to empty it out.
it gets messy here because my aunt is a hoarder, and i did not understand the gravity of that til that day. she didnt want to donate anything. at all, we physically had no space for the stuff so we went against her, this ended up in her throwing herself at me in the car and kicking me onto the street, grabbing me so hard she ripped my bra and i had to wait for my uncle to come and get me.
i did not understand this was abuse.
that night she jumped at me and choked me until my uncle pulled her off me.
i did not understand this was abuse.
because we threw "her" stuff away that entire summer she was a constant ball of fury that i have never seen. i would sleep and wake up her banging on my door, screaming to let her in.
i would feel dread when i was walking home cause i knew she would be yelling and throwing things because i "betrayed" her.
i did not understand that this was abuse. i JUST let myself start calling it that.
somehow as time went on this stopped happening as often. a lot of other things happened, my aunt also assaulted my uncle and my cousin and was arrested multiple times. but i just... got used to it? because i did, and DO love my aunt and felt like... i owed her bc she took me in.
so when this calmed down, and would only happen every few months, i stayed because i was so depressed. i would sleep until 3 pm every day. i worked nights around that habit. my bedtime was 4 am. i didn't ever wanna be awake when everyone else was. i did not understand how fucked up i was. no one asked me if i needed help,
it wasn't until right before the pandemic when i was 25 that i was like... finally waking up. the pandemic was hard because i had to be in the house all the time and the hoarding got worse bc all of us are too defeated to help now. the house is swallowing me. i come home and feel like i want to go anywhere else. i have a constant stomach ache that i fear is cancer but logically is probably just stress.
i cannot live like this anymore and i will not anymore. i never thought i would actually say i'm moving out and mean it but it's happening. i had to crawl my way out of the grief of my mother's death for thirteen years because my aunt considered her own more important, because she abused me.
i don't know how to even explain my life to people without them looking horrified, but i'm excited for that to change.
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Rampages Archive! (Because I love them.)
Notes: "Manifest it, finesse it."'s are usually kinda mean to other people :[ So the 'script' I write is usually slightly tweaked. And I do it so im able to not listen to her's since again, they're mean and I don't love her channel (NO HATE!!)
Competition just does not exist by Manifest it finesse it. Competition just does not exist, it can not possibly exist because I am the operant power. How can you be in competition with someone that controls everything? It’s like a worker, and employee being in competition with the founder of the company that doesn’t make sense, it’s not there. It’s me, it’s always been me, it’s always going to be me and it always will be m, it’s just me, I am the answer. It’s literally me, you cannot possibly convince me that someone else will get chosen over me, do you know why? Because that will never happen, I am the operant power, I’m the one in control and why would you not choose me? Why would you not choose a birkin bag, who doesn’t want 10 million dollars? I am 10 million dollars. I am one of a kind birkin bag, I’m custom, I am so confident within myself, I know my worth. I know I’m deserving of good things, I know who I am and I know that everyone wants me. I know I’m wanted. I know that I’m desired. I am the competition, it’s me or it’s no one else. It’s you choose me or you don’t want anything. It’s you wanna go on a date with me or you don’t wanna go in a date at all. It’s you wanna choose me for this job or there’s no point in that job. I know that there is a circumstance where I’m going to be chosen, and that’s the only outcome. I am chosen when I walk into a room. I am chosen before I even walk into the room, I am the perfect fit. I am the perfect fit for everything. I am my sp’s dream partner. Every single detail of what they look for in a partner, I have it and I am it. I never sweat anything, because, are they me? Is he me? Is she me? No, they’re not. So I already won because I am. There’s no competition because it just doesn’t exist. Okay she’s funny but she’s not funny like me. Okay he’s pretty but he’s not pretty like me. It’s just me as a winner, it’s always going to be me. I know I’m the operant power, so if I want something I get it. Threat doesn’t exist, a threat cannot exist in a reality that I create p. You do what I say, no one has free will. I get what I want, because I’m the operant power. So I’m getting what I want, and that’s it, that’s the only outcome. It’s not my way or the highway, it’s my way or my way. There is no possible sliver of a chance where I’m not getting what I want. I’m always getting what I want 100% of the time. Every single time, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, getting what I want. Twelve out of twelve months I’m getting what I want, 356 days out of 356 days, 24 out of the 24 hours I’m getting what I want. Because I’m the operant power, competition doesn’t exist, I’m the only winnner. There’s no such thing as 3rd parties in my reality, I am the only choice for everyone. I’m every party, I’m all the parties, it’s me. I am chosen, I am the prize, the prize does not have competition, the prize is the prize, the prize is wanted by everyone, the prize is desired by everyone. I am a gift to anyone in my life. I am a gift to any job I work at. I am a gift at any school I study at. I am a gift to anything I am part of. Why would I compare myself? I’m lowering myself when I compare myself, because no one can bring what I can bring. I don’t even want to compare myself. I am rare, I am the most rare thing on the multiverse, I am unique. By just existing, I win.
Smart by 7kendall Smart I wake up every day knowing that I’m the smartest person in the world. I have an excellent memory, it’s too easy to remember everything I study. I always pass all my exams. I’m capable of doing anything. I always get A’s, I always get the perfect scoring in everything. I’m amazing at remembering information. I have photographic memory. There’s nothing I can’t do, I’m a god. I wake up every day knowing that I’m the smartest person in the world. I have an excellent memory, it’s too easy to remember everything I study. I always pass all my exams. I’m capable of doing anything. I always get A’s, I always get the perfect scoring in everything. I’m amazing at remembering information. I have photographic memory. There’s nothing I can’t do, I’m a god.
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Can you make something with this clip please? https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Sa_CSGfC3f4
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Jaune: What do you mean she's not bisexual? She's dated more girls than I have, and some of those girls dated the guys that she dated!
Coco: Look, I don't care what kind of kinky crap you kids got up to in your first years, but sleeping around with a bunch of people doesn't make you bi.
Yang: I... Look, I'm not saying I know what you're talking about or that I get why you're so frustrated, but it sounds like you think that if a girl likes another girl, she's a lesbian, and that's it. Right?
Coco: You're young, Ruby. And if you keep pretending that you won't date another girl after meeting Jaune, then you're just lying to yourself.
Ruby: But that's what Dad did after he met Mom! He met her, and he chose not to be with anyone else!
Coco: Okay, but whatever feelings you have that tells you dating Jaune is what you want, that's just you trying to live up to what everyone else wants you to be.
Ruby: You mean like what you're doing?! It's like you don't believe bisexuality is real! It's the B in LGBTQ!
Coco: I am aware of the L-G- (Sarcastic) B- (Normal) T-Q.
Jaune: What the hell is that supposed to mean?! Why are you so biphobic?!
Coco: Oh, I am not!
Jaune: THEN ACKNOWLEDGE THE B!
Coco: I refuse to acknowledge the B! Bs and Qs just haven't figured out what they want in life yet!
Jaune: ...Yang, you don't think that, do you?
Yang: (Scratches head) Ah... I think... A lot of what people is just us figuring things out.
Coco: ...
Ruby: ...
Jaune: ...What does that mean?
Yang: I don't know! I read it in a blog post! Ruby, I'm sorry, but from what I've had in my experience, a lot of what Coco's said is true.
Coco: You're just confused, Ruby.
Ruby: Did anyone ever tell you that? When you first came out? "You're just confused"?
Coco: Yeah, and I know who I am! That's what I told that asshole!
Ruby: Well, I know who I am, asshole.
Coco: Yeah, but that... No, but see... That's... Shit, I can't argue with that.
Ruby: I love Jaune, and I love girls, too. Whether you "approve" or not doesn't matter to me.
Jaune: I know you guys are just looking out for us, but some of your ideas are just kind of... old school.
Yang: (Clutches chest) D... Don't say old school like that. I'm still young.
Jaune: It's just how you grew up. Like how you drink espresso every morning.
Coco: Yeah, but it's home-made.
Yang: I need it to wake up.
Jaune: We gotta go.
Yang: Where are you two going?
Jaune: Weiss is holding a get-together tomorrow, and I wanna be well-rested for helping set up the slip-and-slide.
Ruby: And watching my man work hard makes me wanna slip-and-slide~.
Jaune: Ruby, that's such a Yang thing.
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Lmfao N says fuck fic how original
[SNAP]
"So, N..." Uzi sits down on her Spinny Chair Of Genius™, as she likes to call it, as N sits on a beanbag. "Since i am your new apparent admin, this means i have some form of control over you and V, yeah?"
"I guess?" N shrugs "I mean- i don't know, i'm not the human that made me, i don't know my inner workings..."
He suddenly has a small thought start to grow in his head, and immediately lets it slip out of curiosity. "Wh- what are you trying to do?? Are you gonna look through my settings..?" He scratches his head in a bashful manner, blushy as it's literally some very delicate and probably private stuff.
Uzi grins like the absolute gremlin she is, sharp teeth shining like the blade of a knife, as she fidgets with her fingers at the most chaotic thought she's had so far. Key word being: so far.
"I'm just gonna make a test, nothing harmful~" She giggles. N looks at Uzi with a metaphorical drop of sweat running down his visor as he thinks of the times Cyn giggled back in the mansion. She definetly made giggles way less scary than Uzi's.
Next day...
It started with Uzi's alarm going off. She slaps her own visor, turning it off, and promptly gets up. N seems to be deep in his sleep... Wonder what he's dreaming about? She kinda hopes it's her, but it's not something she'll reveal to any one schmuck at ALL, so thank me later.
i don't want to kill you. i don't want to kill anymore. i need you. don't go. don't leave me. please. i don't want to kill you. the universe is at risk. i can't lose more people in my life. i have to protect the universe. but you are my universe. please. no. don't go. please. i love you. i'm sorry.
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M1S5 M3? :)
"N!!" He wakes up screaming, startling Uzi who's sitting conviniently really close and in front of him. On top of his lap. Like in those bits in movies where the love interest is uncomfortably close to the main character. Like that. Yeah.
"Hi Uziii...??" N whispers in bashful surprise as she processes the situation. Okay so i'm sitting here right in front of him and he just woke up and sat up really close to my face it's looking like something else is gonna happen and oh my robo-god i am going to fuckin' pass out hhhhh-
"aaaaaooOKAYWEGOTTAGOORELSEWERELATETOTHEFUCKINGSCHOOLSHITAAAA" N yelps Uzi pushes him away by the face in a rush. N gets back up to yell (but like- not angry or anything, more like yelling so she hears him clearly) "Language! Your dad's around, you know?? It's why i say"biscuits" instead, i don't wanna be rude!". It's a long pause of silence as he thinks, realizing... "How can you even swear at all by the way???"
It started with a horrible, terrifying, traumatic, very lore heavy nightmare along with a scare and rush to school. This day is certainly not gonna go all too well and i am here for it he's boutta SNAP lol.
Next it was Lizzy doing her usual popular girl spoiled brat bullshit, and N cannot kill her because murder as a whole is wrong and it's no solution to anything at all. Uzi knows this and it bothers her so much more than i can describe.
Next was the teacher being this smug idiot doing whatever, giving the class a dumb thing to do without caring about anything, only looking through his phone either busy with other work or straight up messing around. Uzi and N are very much bothered by this and Uzi wants to speak up... Which she does. To no avail, as the teacher ran out of fucks to give. N just tolerates and tries to lighten up the mood by being his friendly self (got a dude and a chick head over heels for him and he doesn't realize, thinks they're just extra friendly), but it's mostly very little effect. All because he doesn't wanna be rude. It's gonna get real soon enough though.
Next was the discrimation towards N, as he is a Disassembly Drone and they're pretty scared of him... Well at least it's not ALL of them, some are very much enjoying his presence. Why that is i'll tell you in the dms because i don't think i can say it here lmfao.
Next was the teasing. Yes some drones in the school figured out the whole Nuzi shebang and are now teasing them about it. "Hey purple girl, how's the biting like?", "How does your murder buddy kiss? I'm just curious~", "How's it like living with a small girl like her? Bet she likes it when you pick her up~", "N you are so much better than her, there's that other murderous girl out there that killed Doll's parents, she seems right up your ally!", and it just doesn't stop. Ever. N is genuinely bothered by this, he's very uncomfortable.
Inconvience after inconvience, minor and major, impactful and not, it just doesn't friggin' STOP.
Luckily that's all there is, they're going home! Albeit not very happy but they're going to their comfortable space of a home nonetheless!
But i did say he's gonna snap at some point.
"Uzi, have you seen my glasses? I gotta read something important" Says Khan, not actually needing glasses as he's a robot, he can see just fine, but everyone in Copper 9 is all mimicking humans so Khan doesn't realize that and needs glasses anyway.
"I'm getting them, Mr. Uzi!" N chirps, happy to help like all the time, as he jumps up from his seat and walks around, looking for Khan's glasses. "Thanks, Uzi's very lucky to have you as this potential boyfriend!" Uzi lets out a very UNHOLY screech of embarrassment as she yells "HE'S NOT MY BOYFRIEND". N does sigh at this, but he's too busy looking for Khan's glasses to care.
"Ooh! There you are!" N whips out a pair of glasses from inside... Uzi's wardrobe?? Does she prank him often??? Anywho, he found the glasses!
"I got 'em Mr. Uzi!! I found them in Uzi's wardrobe which is very weird and raises a few questions but i found them nonetheless!!" Khan processes the statement and wheezes as a response.
"What? What's funny??" N is very confused. Khan chuckles as he pats N in the back, "What just happened while i was sleeping was that Uzi just hid them away as a prank of sorts, she's very mischievous!" He's giggling as he explains, and so does N because come on it's funny how could he not?
Oh and N drops the glasses in his giggle fit. Resulting in them breaking upon landing. They stop laughing as they notice this.
N's eye twitches as his hands vibrate.
"N it's okay, i'll just get new ones-" says Khan, immediately interrupted by the next paragraph under this one
"MOTHERFUCKER!!!"
Khan is startled and frozen up in shock. Uzi heard that from the other room and is also shocked. If there were birds in Copper 9 they would fly away in flocks.
"Are you- are you okay-" Khan's interrupted again. "NO I'M NOT OKAY SHIT JUST KEPT HAPPENING AND I'M FUCKING PISSED ABOUT THAT AND BECAUSE I COULDN'T FUCKING DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. SON OF A BITCH THEY KEPT ON TEASING ME AND BEING WEIRD AROUND ME AND OH MY FUCKING GOD WHY CAN'T I JUST BE TREATED LIKE A NORMAL FUCKING DRONE?!?!?!"
Khan is frozen in shock as Uzi silently giggles to herself from the other room. "It worked! I turned off his filter holy shit it worked eheheheheee!"
"I'M... I'm going outside for a breather, be right fuckin' back" N storms out through the front entrance, as Khan holds a hand out trying to stop him, "it's sunny outside, careful-" but it was too late.
"FUUCK!!" And so N storms right back in, with burns on his casing, "I'm going to Uzi's room then"
"I DID IT!!" Uzi whisper-yells to herself. Somehow.
Twas a very loud and messy day, hope you enjoyed this lmao
#murder drones#serial designation n#uzi doorman#nuzi#khan doorman#lizzy murder drones#tw swearing#like a LOT it's really scary#spooker's writing#also yeup lotta Nuzi in there lol it's fucking adorable and funny as hell haha
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Hi Eli i hope you are doing well and i hope you see my questionits quite different from what usually others ask... i have been meaning to ask you this for a long time since it has taken a toll on me but i kept delaying it so i am in my last year of high school just few more months left before my main exams and suddenly the thought of my career hit me suddenly and i ended up overthinking . I really dont know what is right for me and not and what i really wanna do with life and this has put me to an depression as i keep feeling down lately and have a lot of emotional outburst i also came to realisation that i have passion for nothing and also i have 0 hobbies it put me to further depression knowing that i really dont know what to do anymore i was wondering if there is any way my mind can guide me to find my passion and hobbies and also guide me to find the best careers for me to pursue that are really meant for me and i wont regret ... is it possible and how ?
Hello dear!
Oh well you're the same as me, i'm Also in my last year in high school and it getting me so stressed, but knowing the Law is a bless for me.
At first when i was 15 i didn't know what to pursued and what career i wanted since the only hobby i had was being an artist, but i Saw no future for that, since being an artist in my country means no future, no money, (i was Lost) so i started looking for things i was good at.
I noticed that i was more interested in video games, and i noticed i was a Quick learner in things that Specialize in computer, so i thought, why not be an engineer in programming? That seems cool and plus i Can create apps, video games,..ect.
So i'm working hard to graduate from high school with the highest grade.
So i don't know what the major or specialities you have in your country, but try to think with yourself, do you find this career interesting? Do you like it? Does it require for you to work hard?
And you have a plus! You know the Law of assumption, so you'll achieve your dreams.
You Can even Ask your subconscious mind what is the best path you should take, just Ask it before you fall asleep, and it will answer your question in whatever way, it Can be Dreams, signs..etc.
Or
If you want to be rich and have a stable job, you Can choose to Pursued to be a CEO, a doctor, a business woman, an infirmary, a teacher, a social influencer, a youtuber..etc.
But the only problem is that i don't know your passions, your Dreams, your goals.
But let me tell you that you Can achieve them all, now that you discovered the Law of assumption, there's no turning back, you HAVE to manifest that dream life of yours, you were meant to know for more, you were meant to live a better life.
You Can manifest to literally receive money without working.
But it's illogica- SHHH, in imagination there's no such thing as illogical or impossible.
You Can even wake up in a mansion, with your dream family,SP, being rich, having your dream face, body, wardrobe, digital devices, and ANYTHING YOU WANT.
Many people manifested crazy things!? With just imagination!? Can you believe that?! You don't Even have to lift a single finger to literally have everything you ever wanted.
Creation is already finished, there's many versions of you that have your desires, they exist, for Real.
Here's this post, where you will find every post that will make you understand loa really well.
If you want to see success stories check this blog @loasuccessarchive @loaschool
I Hope you'll find the answer you wanted, but remember to not give up, because in the end you'll feel so thankful that you persisted and got the dream reality you desired to have.
Have a nice day! (人 •͈ᴗ•͈)
Xoxo, Eli
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Some advice about choosing a career (from a burnoutee in her 30's)
I kinda talked about this already on my X/Twitter, but I figured I'd bring these thoughts here too.
If you don't know me or this is the first time you're seeing my content, hi! I'm Fuku, and I'm a criminal defense attorney irl.
Earlier this week, I suffered a pretty heavy loss at my job. Without going into any details, something bad happened to one of my clients when this person should've been taken care of by the institution they were being kept in and I wondered (like I always do when these types of things happen) if it was my fault.
You know, law school and med school are still seen as very safe bets to have a financially stable future. I cannot talk about med, but I can, from experience, talk about law -- I got to the 10-year mark now in 2024 working in law, ranging from internships, to public service related to law, to being a lawyer.
Law still is, to a great extent, a very safe degree to get -- you do have a ton of options from it. You can become a lawyer, in some places you can become a govt employee, or even teach if that's your thing (it is mine, and I already began my transition into a college teaching profession).
Now, I wanna address this... The most important thing you've gotta ask yourself if you want to be someone that is responsible for other people's wellbeing (such as a doctor is responsible for someone else's health, or a criminal defense lawyer is responsible for someone else's freedom) is this:
Are you prepared for the heavy mental load of having this degree of responsibility?
There is an extent to which everyone can make mistakes in their jobs. However, in my profession, a mistake can mean someone will be imprisoned for years, and we all know how awful life behind bars is. If the person comes out, they'll be forever marked as an ex-con, their life will NEVER be the same. From one mistake -- failing to observe a deadline, for example.
I'm not the one to suffer the dire consequences of my mistakes in my job, because my job is about other people's freedom. If I lose a deadline, it's not me who's gonna be behind bars for the foreseeable future -- they are.
That level of responsibility over other people's wellbeing constantly drives me to exhaustion, because I double, triple check everything I do to avoid having someone else losing their freedom because I did a poor job and failed them. It has taken a heavy toll on my mental health and a lot of therapy to not blame myself for things that weren't my fault. They were systemic issues within the criminal justice system itself.
Loving your job is important, it is. But loving your job isn't enough, especially when it drains the life out of you and has you panicking 24/7. I am transitioning careers because I can't stand being that heavily responsible for other people anymore. I wake up terrified and go to sleep just the same. Sometimes I dream of just being responsible for pushing meaningless data into spreadsheets and have the worst that can come from it be a roasting session. That's it.
So my nugget of wisdom for those who are still choosing a college/career path is: if you want a job that involves other people's wellbeing, take some time to consider how that will affect you, and how well do you think you'll be able to handle the losses that will inevitably happen in the future.
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I need a harem of headoverheels men so bad like wtf. I wanna spoil them give them kisses and fuck them so good. Letting them discus the schedule and stuff, if watching as they argue but taking control when things get too out of control, letting them know who's boss like,,,
Sighs..
Head over heels! Pretty boys who are so in love with you it's not even funny. They're all success men too,,, You being a above average man, working in some sort of high end company. Your daily life is regular, come to work, smile, chat with customers, etc. But your home life? Heh..
CEO!bf who is one of your longest subs, he's been with you since middle school! Practically stuck to the hip. Such a cute boyfriend he is.. So powerful, a strong and charismatic man.
He's an amazing guy, an even amazing CEO. The girls in the company or even outsiders love him! You can always hear people saying "gosh is he single..??" "Shit! He's coming do i look good?" "What can i do for just one night.." "You think this aphrodisiac will work on him??" Etc etc, it'd funny really, you try your best not to show pity to them. Especially hard to not show pity when you see the hopeful gaze of his secretaries.
Why? Because you know just how much of a slut he is for you, and you only. Pretty boy won't even eat if you don't allow him to.. Such an obedient man, you make sure to spoil him lots at home, kissing his tears of happiness away, looking at his fucked face, tears slipping down from how happy he is to be with you..
Pretty boy ceo! Bf who tries so hard to please you. He's a confident man. He knows he looks good. Immediately buying that pretty lingerie he saw your eyes trail down on a second too long the other day..
Ceo!bf who doesn't mind having to share you! As long as he can be yours! Ceo! Bf is not a crybaby by any means, he's just so happy, and when you embrace him, you bothering to make time for him between your many boyfriends makes hin really happy he can't help but cry when you fuck him so sweetly, kissing his lips so tenderly..
Spoiling him with handmade cheesy gifts, romantic dates, a delicious meal. Even though he can easily buy those things (and much better quality one can argue) himself but the fact that it's from you makes it priceless. You often go out and buy him things too! He'd try to deny it, saying he feels bad because he can use his own money and doesn't want to be a burden on you but how can he say no when you look so dejected like that...
Taking the gifts and kissing you as thanks, only for you to wake up with money 3x the price of said item in your bank account. Oh boy...
Ceo! Bf who invites you over to his luxurious suite after a hefty argument with the other boyfriends on why he gets to have you for a full week. Surprising you with a romantic candel lit dinner, pouring you the wine that you wanted to try yesterday..
What surprised you most is the fact that he offered to try something new that night, showing you a bottle of something you've never had before and telling you that it might have. Intrigued, you agree, trusting him fully.
He smiled, pouring said drink into both of your wines. Guiding you to the baths with a soft kiss on the back of your hand, putting the dirty dishes on the sink for the servants to deal with.It seems that the drink worked well, perhaps too well on him as it worked faster than he had expected. He could feel himself getting hot and uneasy, his body feels like it's burning.
Looking back at you with glossy eyes he can't help but want to sob when he saw how unaffected you are, just massaging his back as if you didn't know his intention with that drink!Ceo!bf who couldn't take it anymore when you ask him if he's sick on the bed. He's panting, face red and sweaty with a huge hard on goddamit! How could he resist begging when you're cooing on his ear, telling him to be honest to you.Oh how sweet it was.
Ceo!bf apologized over and over, begging you to touch him. Yet you didn't even need to touch him, telling him to cum and he's already having a dry orgasm! Though, it's not like you can hold yourself back much longer, afterall he gave it to you too. <3
Doctor! Bf who's a renowned doctor for many years, he's a nonchalant man, who smiles warmly giving patient's hope even with the scariest conditions. Everyone loves him dearly, and his skills makes him all the more loveable and amazing. His good looks makes him a trending doctor, making people line up just to see him it's kind of funny. Many people hope to win his heart one day, flirting with him and becoming his regular in hopes to win his heart.
Though, like CEO! Bf, he never wavers. He just smiles softly and politely declines. He never bothered on following with their advances. Doctor!bf who is also your primary physician.
Doctor!bf who's especially warm to you, making sure you're comfortable and happy. Kissing the back of your hand whenever he's about to leave or when he meets you again (and if you prefer to keep things a secret he'll happily do it in private for you) And when you're sick at home he makes sure to take care of you, even when he's busy he always makes sure to give proper instructions to the others on what to do so you'll be healthy again.
Doctor!bf who sometimes can't get enough sleep because of the demands for him on field. Who still tries to take care of you and make sure you're well even when he's tired. Who lets out soft tears when you kiss him so warmly, kissing his chest, his cheek, his body, everything about him. Who you spoil everytime you can, who you spoil by massaging his body even though he refuses but gives in anyway because he can't say no to you. Doctor bf! Who can't help but smile when you kiss the back of his hand in return or when you'd let him rest while your hands work it's magic.
Who lets you do as you please, surrendering himself to you and letting you do anything you want to him, who will just take it and smile even when you say something like "what if i make you fuck a stranger? Or someone that hates me so much, letting them who wants to hurt me, fuck you. Hm?",, You know he doesn't want to, he only wants you to touch his body but he wants to make you happy. (Not that you'd let just about anyone touch your boyfriends anyway as if. They're your precious.) Still, it's kind of endearing to know that they'll do anything just to make you happy! (He wonders if you'll make him have a toy inside one day while he's at work, though he knows you'll never do that to him when he's working.)
Doctor!bf who is offered a special drink by you at the date you planned for him, a glossy pink-purple mocktail you apparently made with a secret ingredient (one that you apparently got after your week out with Ceo!bf). Saying "cheers, my love" Before he gulps it, complimenting you for it. He's so happy right now.
Though that happiness turned into pure want and need when he struggles to stay still in bed, waking up from a wet dream with his body feverishly hot and a very visible hard on. He's not dumb, he immediately could tell what the reason for his condition was. But still, he couldn't help but think if this is the ingredient that ceo gave you, what did you do with him? Did you softly kiss his neck as your hands tease the male's nipples? Your maybe putting him in a mating press as you fuck him roughly under the effects of lust,,,, ah fuck he came untouched at just the thought of you...
Model!bf extremely pretty and insanely popular and has a high demand. Very picky about who he works with and is bot afraid to reject people (no matter if it's big brands or popular people). He also prefers to ask your opinion on thing, is he too revealing for the photo shoot? Should he tone down his sex appeal? Should he eat this today? Can he meet with x or work with y?
He trusts you that you want the best for him! You're not his manager but he prefers you to take control over his manager anyday, often asking you for things then telling the decision to the manager.
Model! Bf is not rude by any means, he's well liked but he's just aloof most times. The thing that makes him care for others is the fact that you care for them, which means if he wahts your affection he has to show you he can be kind like you. So he does just that.
Model!bf who gives you sad puppy eyes, saying that you've spent your days with the other two and he wants to be with you too. Who takes you out to a fancy dinner and gets ready for you, inviting you over to his suite.. only for you to be greeted with your sweet boyfriend in a sexy Lingerie and tied up with silk to the bed frame as soon as you got off the shower. Sex toys layed for you to choose and abuse him with. Oh how he loves that primal look on your eyes, especially because he knows you can't hold it in much longer. Especially not with the effects of a certain something in your system.. Oh how he's grateful to ceo!bf for telling him this..
I really need to be sedated this is not even half.
responed so late oml but ur brain is so wrinkly ml-
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