#but i like humiliation and degradation. its so fucking hot when a cocky men gets payback in some way

[selamat-linting]

that reminds me, when i was deep on stanning this boy band, one of my bias was acting on this scifi made for tv movie. the premise was there is a brand new technology that can make criminals felt what it was like to be their victims. my bias was acting as a serial killer that is sacrificed to be the first test run of this new type of punishment. and the movie spend its an entire hour questioning the moral ramifications of this.

ngl, it was a bad movie. it was very much pro punitive/carceral justice, the side who is against the torture nexus being used is portrayed as unpopular and always lost the argument and its obvious the writer doesnt actually delve deep into asking why someone would be against it. in the end they do discontinue the torture nexus tech, but the reason why they portray it as bad came from a very vague and unsatisfying argument, that is, the uncomfortable feeling of seeing someone scream and beg for mercy. its completely toothless as a social critique and the premise doesn't dare to actually touch real world problems and instead only linger in the abstracted far off future. imo its pointless to talk about ideals like justice and human rights if you dont point out to the material conditions and the problems society actually faces in the present.

but i have that movie on my hard drive. i watch it so often. at my peak fangirl i was watching once a week, saving it as a special pick me up before bed. why? because my bias was playing both a villain and victim. my bias was a kpop idol, its a once in lifetime opportunity to see him playing the heel. he was laughing and grinning at the murder he caused, and then he was screaming and begging for his life. he looks such a mess its cute. the way he starts off smug and cocky to tired and terrified until finally dying in agony, it was really hot and i jerked off to it more often than i'd like to admit.

anyway, thats how i am with the cumhouse movie. the marble scene where don pleads "why are you doing this to me" while his left eyelid is swollen with marbles and he carved out a chunk of his own leg, it was hot. it made me so fucking wet. not necessarily from the blood, i dont think gore turns me on, but the degradation and bodily grossness that comes with it was good enough to be personally appealing.