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Actually, one of the first things I thought of when learning that Liam had passed away was that he was Nora’s favorite. Liam to me was never the most interesting member of all the 1D lads but the way Nora talked about him on every single album had me appreciating him way more. I do think some of his qualities, both musically and personally, were a bit overlooked during the band.
This makes me want to relisten to the 1D related Every Single Album episodes anon.
I've just finished listening to the latest Every Single Album, and I enjoyed hearing more of Nora's perspective. I liked how expansive they were with what they talked about, the way that they emphasised the importance of 1D culturally and musically, and that they started by putting it in the context of fame.
As always it gives a sense of how differently people understand celebrities. I really want to interrogate Nathan about the idea that it's Taylor Swift's work ethic saved her. I think there might actually be an argument there (which is bascially - the fact that she always needed to work meant she always had people with her, and the hardest part of fame is the isolation from others in time), but it reminded me how easy it is to draw obviously untrue causation lines from success to wellbeing. When they basically asked 'is Harry Styles too dumb to be fucked up by fame?' I thought 'here are people who are less obsessed with what Harry has said to and about his therapist than I am.
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I'm going to articulate something that has been rolling round my brain, and which I haven't said yet. She mentioned again the clip about being locked in their rooms. Each time I've heard it, I've thought how much I think fans missed the point when they use that as proof of the evil of management. And I do think it's important to talk about the way the music industry is profiting is suffering in that example.
But by focusing on (or pretending to focus on) and literalising the quote (I've never been in a hotel room that you can lock people into). Fans miss the point - what was it that 1D was being protected from? Why couldn't they just go outside? How could 1D have been kept both safe and free while touring?
There seems within fandom a real unwillingness to look at the fact that was our actions that did harm. I'm sure the decisions by people with power did harm. It may not fully be that Eric Andre meme, but there is an element of it. Fans damaged Liam. Fans trapped him in his room with just a minibar. The damage was a result of aspects that were central to what fans love - they weren't avoidable just if better people were in charge.
I sometimes think that fandom's rush to blame someone is a way of avoiding the role we played.
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writingmochi · 1 year ago
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what do ur moots remind you of?! (ex. places, color, song, etc)
lissie: hey anon! sorry for the late reply! I'll try my best to answer your question because this will be long...
@kookthief : the setting summer sun that is a body of ocean away going down beyond the horizon from where you can see from the beach. maybe because ellie has mentioned the summer i turn pretty tons of times, seeing photos of the sunset by a beach reminds me of her!
@ujunxverse: the strobing lights in a small concert venue where an alternative rock band is playing. viv's music taste and little mentions of music she listens to give me recommendations for more artists to listen to in the future. i also realize that our music taste venn diagram is more connected than i realized (cassiopea, have a nice life, radiohead, etc)
@heartandfangs: the narrow aisle of a warm-colored old bookstore. i think because of how amazingly P writes her stories it makes me think of that. one shelf is apocalyptic (the world ends with you) and another is erotica (i owe you and not if it's you)
@euphor1a: the smell of freshly baked vanilla cake in a pastel bakery on the corner of the street block. i mentioned to aleyna how she reminded me of sugar cookies before. with this, i'm expanding what i said before to the whole bakery :D
@jeongwins: an aesthetic-looking list on letterboxd. i know it seems random, but the way lin writes reviews for fics they recommend is how a film critic writes a review for a movie. in a way, it also shows the people what kind of fics they like and how others can expect from the fics by their reviews, just like how people on letterboxd make list for movies they like aesthetically or story wise
@s-ngh8n: open parasols on the sandy beach with the glittering waves in the distance. kinda like their name, lemon has a sense of freshness that i can't fully articulate using adjectives. so, here i am using a description to fully said what i meant
@boba-beom: xing fu tang's brown sugar boba milk tea. other than the boba theme being similar, smiles to me seems very refreshing and warm in the way she speaks and interacts with yours truly
@dim-sun: a cottagecore-themed pixel art. probably because zu had one of them for their banner one time, but every time i found a forest pixel art, it always reminds me of them...
@it-rains-blue: a rupi kaur-style book full of short stories. condensed yet emotionally rich, that is what the vibe of yerin's writing feels like for me. her range also contributes to it as short stories in one book can make you feel so many emotions; throwing the book against the wall or seeing tears fell on the pages from how it got you to feel.
@heart2beom: the smell of salted popcorn as you sit inside the cinema seats. another random one but jazmine makes me feel that way. i haven't read much of her work but i know that it'll give me a good time just like a good movie does.
@tyunlatte: a litter of kittens walking towards you as you sit on the carpeted floor of a cat cafe. seeing illustrations of cats reminds me of alex so much + the cafe aspect is definitely the kind of vibe if i open her blog. you're always in for a treat!
@lovejoshua: the colors: rose quartz and serenity. iykyk ;) but in all seriousness, i'm happy to see svt's content in my timeline from time to time because of ilem (literally every time i wake up and check the blr, it's gonna be either josh or seungcheol gifs. and i am in for that)
@junniieesbby: an emoji of a heart. as her previous moniker for her time as anon, every time i see a heart of any kind, both the symbol heart or a heart that looks accurate anatomically, it reminds me of angie!
@hanniejie: the song "can you feel the sunshine?" from the video game sonic r. using the sol as their aesthetic, lex gives of a very warm and optimistic vibe whenever i see their name or username, kinda like this song whenever i play them.
@txt-yaomi: ateez's yunho. ever since i learned that sof ults him, i kinda feel almost the same vibe between the two of them. both can be calm and excitedly chaotic at any time >.<
@talesofyuan: a shelf full of multi-volume manga series. remembering yuan's dream as a mangaka, every time i see a manga illustration, it always reminds me of her.
@choistick: the words "Musik" and "Kunst" . knowing where she comes from, thinking about saph really makes me want to revive my knowledge of the german language after not using it since i graduated high school lmao guten tag saph!
@robin-obsessed: txt's hueningkai being the ningdungie that she is, lee gives off the same vibe as hyuka whenever i think of her + her tumblr banner and discord username don't help either in making me think that she and kai are connected in some way...
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monstersandmaw · 1 year ago
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Hey, first off - I LOVE Gabe and Odessa's story. Gabe's POV is the preview is just SO GOOD! Would you object to me writing some fanfiction from Gabe's POV for some parts of season one? I wanted to run it by you first since this is your series, and I didn't want to step on any toes.
Eh, I'm in two minds about this, and I'm fully aware I come off as a hypocrite either way, so please be gentle with me. Also I'm quite tired when I'm answering this so I may not be as articulate as I'd like.
First of all, thank you, and thank you for asking. I'm deeply honoured that you like Gabe and Odessa's story enough to be inspired to create, so please don't forget that with the rest of this, and take it all with a pinch of salt at the end of the day.
Basically, I want to publish this story formally to sell it as a complete novel (once it's had another full edit and tidy up). I therefore don't want to muddy the waters by having more 'Gabe & Odessa' content out there, even if it's fanfic, which is the main reason I'm not 100% behind there being fanfic of them.
However, there is an interlude from Gabe's POV that I published, and some of Season Two is from Gabe's POV, so I'm also protective of his POV in a way I really should probably just let go of... This is mostly because you haven't really got to know Gabe yet (since S1 was all Odessa's POV), and there are a lot of details about him and his character and backstory that I've deliberately saved for 'Season Two' (and beyond!!💍)...
Thirdly, it was posted by me on here for free, with love, and I'm weird about there being fanfic (i.e. content in the same format) based on something I shared with you just because I loved it. Fan art is different (for me) because it's a different medium, but I don't know if I have any right to be protective over any kind of fan content really... I have a weird and hypocritical line in the sand that if it's an OC that I posted for free as a passion project, it's not super cool to write fanfic for them, but if it's something that's been fully and finally released in its entirety (especially if there's a commercial aspect to it) then it's ok to write fanfic for it??? I have no idea. Basically, you're welcome to write fanfic for it after I've published it on Kindle and finished the project, but not on Tumblr when it's still ongoing?? How weird is that?? Ughh. I hate my brain and my heart. That's the bit I meant seemed hypocritical. I fully support the production of fan content online, but not when it was just 'my random blorbo whom i love and shared for free with you'??
Ultimately though, if you want to write it, I can't and won't stop you.
I'd really prefer it if you didn't post or share it publicly, and honestly it really is mainly because I don't want there to be more G&O content out there that could lead a future publisher to say 'hey, we looked into it and there's G&O content out there, and it's gonna complicate the process of publication..' but also for the other reasons listed above.
Thank you for asking, and since you asked, those are my thoughts on it.
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twin-wolves-123 · 27 days ago
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i am genuinely so tired of my own life
it's a little hard to articulate everything exactly as im feeling but i guess we'll start with what spurred this
the other week, i failed the only final round job interview i've been able to get all semester
big deal
but, for me, it kind of was
4th year cs student here. the tech job market is, apparently, not as great as it was pre-2023. if you've been keeping up with certain news, the repeated rounds of layoffs at every big tech firm is a symptom of this. I'm not the best person to explain the entire thing because frankly I never fully understood it myself while it was happening nor took the time to learn every aspect of it, but to my knowledge the biggest contributing factor was the pandemic. When everything got locked down and life in general became way more remote and online, this actually led to lots of tech companies expanding very quickly to keep up with the sudden increase in needs for the services and technologies that enabled this or benefited from this. The pandemic overhiring combined with the fact that the tech sector for years had been slowly oversaturating itself with graduates/prospective laborers/anyone else looking to get into it in large part due to being an industry with anomalous growth also for years has led to waves of layoffs and much increased difficulty in getting hired to begin with in the past couple of years, where the unprecedented growth of the pandemic has been replaced by decreased needs as life slowly turned back to normal. The AI/ML sector, what with ChatGPT and its derivatives and whatnot, is a little bit of an exception here, but has actually only made it worse for tech workers not going into AI or lacking experience with it. (im not trying to justify or defend my own lack of skill here with it, and im aware that this is just one example of something that is actually quite normal in an industry. just pointing out that, being the hot new thing that may or may not fizzle out sooner or later, not having it right now is considered a strike against you for a lot of positions, especially ones that generative AI itself or the usage of it is poised to replace)
But, it's not that bad. Sure, lots of people are struggling but lots of people are thriving! Almost all (and, in fact, maybe all. I fucking hate talking about this with people which is why i try not to bring it up every conversation, but this means i don't actually know for sure how it is for a couple of people) of my cs friends in my year at uni have managed to secure jobs, some being through intern return offers and some by interviewing in traditionally (and for a lot of them, I'm not surprised. A lot of them are people who I know for a fact are just way better at this than me and have way more impressive resumes e.g. been doing this for longer than me, interned at more prestigious companies, etc). I have not been as fortunate.
The company I interned at for two summers did not give a return job offer. Unbeknownst to me and a lot of my fellow interns, our office froze hiring very early on in the process this year (which we found out through other people), in large part due to overhiring from the intern pool last year where almost every intern secured an offer. Out of the group of 5-6 people I befriended, none of us made it through before the freeze happened, and instead of offering us a position at another office that we didn't specify, we simply all got rejected. Which was a pretty surprising kick in the dick considering the process in past years had more or less been guaranteed.
the thing is, i actually kind of can't stand cs. i was pretty neutral toward it at the beginning of university and declared my major due to not really having an interest in anything else, either, but 3.5 years of uni later, i hate it. Whether it's burnout or i do genuinely just detest it, haven't figured out yet. But I only have one semester left til graduation and it's a little late to pivot.
I didn't actually know what it entailed. And, at this point, I'm not sure if I was capable of it to begin with. I wasn't prepared to spend most of my time padding my resume with skills and projects. I mean, I handled class during the semesters and I interned during summer break. I don't know where other people found the time to learn 10 different development technologies or build applications front to back. The reason I stomached cs for so long was actually due to an interest in game development, and while I've made a couple of projects there, it's not the same kind of experience as making a web or mobile app, nor are most game companies even hiring entry-level developers right now. And the company I interned at is not particularly high ranking or well regarded in terms of tech.
So, my resume is not the strongest. Which, yeah. Skill issue. But I don't know how I'm supposed to better it if I can't get more experience. I've spent the entire semester filling out job apps. The majority of which either result in ghosting or rejection, and the majority of ones I do get past the resume screening for I don't pass the online assessment for. Not for lack of trying or lack of practicing. This interview was with the only company out of a couple hundred that passed me for the initial behavioral as well as the online assessment. So yeah, it was kind of the only thing I had going for me. And the technical round really took me by surprise. I'd gone in expecting algorithmic problems and those were what I'd spent the past week preparing for, but it started out more like a behavioral than a problem-solving one (which to my knowledge is a little more typical). the dude asked me questions about something i'd worked on while i interned as well as a basic, Java-fundamental question that i didn't remember the answer to. it'd been a while since I'd even used Java. during this section, I kind of just blanked and froze up. I rambled and talked in circles about the thing I worked on (which wasn't actually that big or impressive to begin with) and made up an answer to the Java question which was incorrect. Needless to say, I failed.
The interviewer thought i wasn't concise. Which was correct. I probably should've been a little more prepared for a deeper interrogation into my resume and I should've brushed up more on fundamentals (that really made me want to kick myself, because it wasn't even a hard question. it wasn't a programming/algorithms problem. it was something you talk about early on in a very early class and I wanted to fucking die for forgetting it).
So I'm back to having no prospective interviews and I essentially have one semester left to get hired. And moving back home after graduation is not really an option. Living at home unemployed with my dad is probably the quickest way to drive me to kill myself. Not going to get into all the details there. But with cost of living inexorably rising in lovely corporate America, it's a hell of a lot of pressure to find a job that I can both actually land as well as support myself on. My sister offered me to let me move in with her while I job hunt if I can't get one, but the reasons I don't want to do that are two-fold. One, I don't want to burden her like that because she is the last fucking person who deserves it. Two, every day would be another reminder that I couldn't fucking do it while other people could. While this is probably the option I'll take should I need it, obviously I'd prefer to not have to.
And I've spent most of this semester pretty miserable! This is nothing new, but I've done a pretty shit job making friends at uni. These days, most social events I go to are those of my dance group. And while they're nice, it's hard to actually be close with that many people in a big org. Outside of the couple of friends I was close with who convinced me to join, the people that I did become close friends with have all already graduated. And out of those couple of friends in my year, one of them is graduating early a semester and won't be around for our final semester. I've fallen out of touch with a lot of people in my own year over the course of uni, but the one that hurts the most is someone i actually considered one of my best friends I'd ever had. We used to hang out and talk all the time last year, but he got a lot more distant with me this semester and every time I asked to he'd give an excuse or was busy or something, and these days we barely talk at all.
I myself have withdrawn from a couple of people as well this semester, but mainly with people I wasn't really that close to (ie. i was definitely not high up on their list of friends, i was usually more someone they'd ask to hang out with when their other plans fell through). I spend a lot more time playing online games with some friends from high school and a couple of uni alumni friends (one of whom I met through dance), but even that hasn't really happened lately since one of my high school friends went on a trip visiting extended family and the dance friend went on a trip visiting a friend, so it's been really fucking lonely these past couple of weeks especially.
I don't know. on top of being feeling frustrated, inadequate, and lonely, I'm so fucking bitter. I was miserable in high school and I'm miserable now. Working to get into this uni was fucking grueling. Obviously I didn't fucking enjoy studying my ass off for AP exams, SATs and late nights practicing an instrument for auditions that I don't even play anymore but kept competing on for the sake of extracurriculars that would bolster my college apps. yeah it's not harvard nor is it a tech industry feeder like carnegie mellon but it's ranked high enough to the point where now that I'm here I'm at the bottom of the pack I guess. I'm angry that I believed growing up that this would be worth it. Not that I had anyone else to listen to but my parents, but. A better uni means better opportunities! College will be the best years of your life! CS will be easy to find a job for! None of which actually turned out to be true. I'm eating shit in the job hunt and college itself was fucking grueling. Good friends were not something I even had until the tail end of freshman year. Scrambling for an internship was also fucking miserable on top of classes that I didn't even enjoy taking. Not that I even know what I would've gone into outside of cs, but god damn. I don't really have any other skills I can use to get a job, either. And if these are supposed to be the best years of my life, I can say wholeheartedly I don't even want to see the rest of it.
I don't know. I wanted so badly to believe it when "things would get better". it wasn't true getting into uni, it's not true now, the only thing that's changed is things just suck in a different way because as it turns out, i've spent this whole time being spoon fed a pile of empty promises. thank you to anyone who reads this. i don't really expect solutions or posting this to even really help. this was just meant to be cathartic. but regardless, to whomever does take the time to go through it, I appreciate it.
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Project 4: Introduction
I've decided to further develop my Identity project because I felt like my graphic outcomes were the most interesting and I enjoyed exploring it the most. For this project I made a box that looked like my skin (complete with tattoos) with jars inside that pick apart aspects of my identity. (Images below)
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I enjoyed how morbid this piece was and that I could explore aspects of my identity that are hard to articulate for others at times. I also liked how I could incorporate some of my non-illustration hobbies (crochet, sculpting, beach combing etc) into this piece.
I want to develop this by specifically looking at how the body is used in art. I thought it would be interesting to look at performance art, as a lot of it hinges on this concept, but also I wanted to look at Mark Quinn and his head sculptures made with his blood and I could look at the animations of Jan Svankmajer.
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For the graphic project I plan to make a couple larger, more refined organs/body parts and hopefully make a stop motion animation featuring them. I plan to use yarn/buttons/other textile mediums as "gore" in the animation to keep with the previous usage of crochet. (I also think it would be more interesting texturally than trying to make it any other way.) The organs themselves will either be clay or papier mache, maybe both. I haven't planned that fully yet.
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impalementation · 5 years ago
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"Here it comes. Rewind that. Let's see that again." -Spike, 2.06 Halloween
buffy season two imagery series: voyeurism, part 1 (part 2, part 3)
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It’s tricky to articulate what exactly this voyeurism imagery is doing in season two. Because I recognize that it’s a fundamentally “creepy” kind of visual language to use, and it can be hard not to feel like it’s simply being deployed against the female characters in a fetishistic way. After all, there are many voyeuristic shots of men looking at women in a covetous or malevolent way. Say, Spike’s lurking in School Hard or his amateur videography in Halloween. Or Angelus in Passion and Angel in Becoming. Or Eric taking pictures of women in Some Assembly Required, or Daryl watching Cordelia through the bleachers. It’s imagery that highlights the danger of men, but could also be read as simply appealing to men. Still, if that was all that the season was doing, there would not be so many shots of Buffy herself looking at things. Buffy in season two is equal parts the subject and the object of gazes. In Lie To Me, she watches Angel have a conversation with Drusilla. In I Only Have Eyes For You she watches people dance from the Bronze balcony, and later watches James and Grace dance through the music room window. In Killed By Death she walks through the hospital looking through windows and into other people’s rooms. In other episodes, she spies on villains as they commit misdeeds, and at the end of Becoming she stares at her friends from a distance as they wonder where she is.
In part, I think this motif exists for the same reason that it exists in season six. It’s about how fiction itself is fundamentally voyeuristic. When you consume fiction, you’re experiencing emotions by proxy, via characters who have no way to know what you’re doing. Art allows access private things, extreme things, unlikely things–things one would never get to witness in real life. To create or consume art means to invade the privacy of fictional people. And perhaps, by extension, to plumb one’s own private emotional depths.
There’s also this idea that you can’t experience emotions via fiction and also participate in those emotions. You can read a love story as many times as you like, but you’ll never be a participant in that love story. There is an insuperable distance between you and fictional events, by virtue of the fact that they are fictional. And this echoes the way that yearning for an ideal can make it impossible to live in reality. If you want life to be a story it will always disappoint you, because too much about life is outside of your control. Moreover, trying to control people like an author controls their characters would be completely unethical (see: Willow, the Trio, Ted, Angelus). It’s the idea that you can want something perfect until the earth falls into the sea, but the moment you try to have something perfect—“perfect happiness” perhaps—it will disappear. Because perfect only exists in the imagination.
So the season is about that tension. The tension between wanting and having, and observation and participation—especially when it comes to romance. And voyeurism highlights that tension by differentiating between the roles of observer and participant. But one of the things I like best about the voyeurism motif is that what it means to be an observer or participant is constantly changing. When Buffy watches Angel and Drusilla talk in Lie To Me, you become aware of how outside of Angel’s life she is. How little she really knows of him. It parallels the way that Ford watches vampire movies, but knows nothing of what it actually means to be one. When Kendra observes Buffy and Angel in What’s My Line, it’s a similar case of a character not knowing the full story of what they’re looking at. Whereas Angelus is the idea of weaponized voyeurism—the idea that it’s easy and sadistically fun to inflict pain when you don’t have to participate in that pain. The idea of observation not as a matter of lacking information, but of scary detachment. This is contrasted with Angel’s fear of participation (of “being someone”) in Becoming. His hidden observation of Buffy in Becoming highlights the way that he is on the outside her life, and life in general, instead of being someone who “helps”.
(So to connect to season six again, the Trio are voyeurs partly because they’re malevolent men like Angelus, but also because they’re nerds. They’re irresponsible and cheat at life, and watch Buffy do her thing instead of doing anything that matters themselves. They’re detached. Both in the Angelus sense of “not caring what happens to people”, and in the Angel sense of “not participating in life.” Which is what makes them such great dark mirror for the other characters that season, as Willow struggles with the consequences of manipulation and irresponsibility, or Buffy struggles to fully participate in her own life. This choice to have the Trio act as mirrors, instead of simply antagonists, is what makes season six an update on season two, instead of just a rehash. In season six, the protagonists run the risk of falling prey to the same flaws that were previously associated with villains, instead of just being victimized by them. And that’s the conflict of the season.)
Then the back half of season two is about Buffy being pushed to the outside of her life, but this time with full knowledge of what she’s losing. When Buffy watches James and Grace dance in I Only Have Eyes For You, she knows exactly what it’s like to be in love, and cannot have it (there is something to say about how Buffy and Angel get to literally participate in another person’s love story, and how this breaks the rules of the participation/observation divide the same way that Grace forgiving James breaks the rules of how their story always goes). By the end of Becoming, Buffy cannot even participate in the basics of her life: her family, her friendships, her education. She is forced into the role of the observer, to watch her friends from a distance like Angelus watched them in Passion. And in light of the entire season, we know exactly how tragic that is.
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BTAS, Gotham, Arkham Jervis has a crush on a Scarecrow assistant who also likes disturbing stuff and people feel weird around her.
"She's just a little quirky!"
I had a lot of fun messing around with this one. I hope you like it!
Tw: taxidermy, dead animal mention, gore/violence mention
For the sake of my own fun, let's make up some interests and background for our fake assistant. Neurodivergent, socially clumsy but tries to be friendly- her home is decorated with grotesque horror memorabilia, articulated animal skeletons, taxidermy and preserved bugs. She did at least half of them herself. Naturally attracted to many of common fears or things that make people grossed out. Wants to talk about them anyways. With that said-
Btas
- Ooooooohhhhh my god please don't stab him.
- HAHA HE MEANS HELLO HOW ARE YOU? Always exceedingly polite and it's only partly because he's nervous.
- Shes so beautiful and uniquely herself and terrifying and-
- His crush is really confusing at first because she's intimidating to him? Yes, absolutely fitting for someone working with Scarecrow. But besides some darker quirks, he's rather... whimsy.
- It's when she's so kind and genuine to him that it falls into place and he realizes that he's in trouble. There's a moment where he has to come to terms with the fact that he is also kind of strange and makes people feel weird and uncomfortable- and she doesn't judge him for it!
- Once he actually works up the nerve to tell her and she actually accepts him? That changes everything.
- Expect him to fully divulge in all his weird special interests and do his best to indulge in hers! It's not so scary once he sees the process. He had to do a lot of necropsies and anatomical studies to become a neuroscientist, after all.
- Will get very defensive if anyone acts nervous around her or rude. She's better than all of them!
- If you haven't seen "Red Flags" by Tom Cardy (ft. Montaigne) on YouTube, you should because it's the vibe for this pairing. Slight warning the red flag in the song is that the dates favorite movie is Human Centipede so if that's a trigger, avoid.
Gotham
- We're going to assume both Scarecrow and his assistant are older/adults for this scenario.
- It might bother him to see the amount of dead things all around her space. Yet he's seen enough mansions of old money to be familiar with pieces like these.
- At first he finds the horror memorabilia a bit over the top. But he sees how quiet and dedicated she is. To... everything, really. How she actually listens to him when he speaks. What others might think of as a "creepy stare" is her giving full attention, which he actually appreciates!
- When he does realize his feelings, he decides he's going to court her in a gentlemanly fashion.
- First he seeks to gift his crush something special. It's a piece he has to really search for at auctions and antique stores until he found the perfect one- a special display cabinet to fit on her shelf. The start of her own cabinet of curiosities!
- The second is asking her out where he can take her to see all the wonderful little holes in the walls he's discovered around Gotham... finishing off with a projector movie in his home. Tonights show? 1960 horror classic "Eyes without a Face" with subtitles!
- He keeps his hands to himself unless she initiates. And then, very politely, he takes her to her home after and kisses her knuckle as he says goodnight.
- He wonders if she likes hypnosis? He supposes he'll find out it anyone is ever mean to her because that is definitely what's going to happen.
Arkham
- 100% ready to be a freak about this.
- He was already pretty dark both in his actions and mentally before he got locked up in iso in arkham and then his brains served scrambled by Strange. The disturbing aspects of her interests don't startle him in the least.
- If anything he watches her with hearts in his eyes as she handles the specimens on her "work" desk when he comes to visit Scarecrow to discuss plans.
- "You must have soft hands to work with something so... delicate. Delicate, delicate, you look affectionate to your creations. Just how do you go to development?" Tell him all the details!
- If she isn't aware, Jon definitely mentions that his friend has got a crush. To be wary. And that he can "crush" it if needed. She simply smiles and waves it off.
- She gives Jervis a taxidermy white rabbit dressed in waistcoat with a little pocket watch- just like the White Rabbit from Alice in Wonderland... yes, he gets emotional. It's SO thoughtful! He's going to have to find a special place for it to display!
- They are going to assists each other in murder and villain plots. Couples bonding! He gave her teeth he made his enemies yank out of their own skulls ♡
- If anyone were to mock her or make her feel poorly because of the wonderful person she is, well... they'll just have to play a role in his next tea party, won't they?
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ryusxnka · 4 years ago
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I don't know if you ever got this question before but if so just ignore it. I was wondering about Toshiro's bankai. I haven't seen a bankai on another captain was melts with the captain like Toshiro's does (his feet are literal ice claws). I wonder what you think why that is. :)
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            I’ve already spoken about it, yes, but I don’t mind repeating myself for you, Hanji. -- Toshiro and Hyorinmaru are, indeed, an interesting pair of wonders and phenomena. Their type of Bankai is what I called a Fusion type. It differs from Rukia’s Bankai: who transforms her physically and lowers her body temperature. It affects her, but she is still one individual. When it comes to Toshiro, he does not fight alone. The Ice around his feet, his right arm, his dominant one, and the Ice wings all represent Hyorinmaru.  I believe since Toshiro is still very young, Hyorinamru’s physicality subjugated more of his body.  Which during the mature Bankai form, It is Toshiro’s physicality that takes most form aside from the Iced shoulder blades, which resembles that of military pads, ‘round his neck which, to me, presents equality, mastery, and authority. 
             Toshiro and Hyorinmaru fight not individually, but together, which is fascinating on how Kubo shows us exactly that when he fights Bazz-B. His Ice becomes a lot thinner, lacking in density and strength compared to it being the norm when he still had his Bankai. Toshiro had to quickly re-learn the basics of wielding a Katana cause he’s always fought with his fierce comradery. -- For your actual question though, of his Bankai “ melting “ such symbolizes maturity. An adolescent dragon to a celestial guardian. In fact, and I’m sure many who have seen the Zanpaku-to filler arc have missed the connection, when he fights ‘gainst Hyorinmaru in an attempt to retrieve him, there was foreshadowing. Toshiro threw a Shakkaho towards the other for it to be caught and instantaneously froze to a block of Ice. Kido is pure spiritual energy, and it froze in seconds ‘pon capture -- Much like Toshiro’s mature ability Shikai Hyōketsu,  Four World Freeze, which allows him to freeze anything and everything within seconds. Which solidifies my headcanons that he does not fight by himself, but with Hyorinmaru. He can use all the same techniques without him, but they are, unfortunately, a lot weaker. Hence onto why he had Rangiku aid him in creating a new technique, among a few other tactics, that would proffer him some sort of advantage.
                   I could also compare his Bankai to a Lotus flower for  Daiguren Hyōrinmaru literally means great crimson lotus ice wheel. Normal Bankai, Toshiro is covered by Ice as protection, much like a lotus in mid-bloom. But once fully matured, it outspread and unsheltered, for its pedals do not surround it from within, but from outside, from the world, much like Toshiro’s Mature Bankai form. A big quantity of Ice protects him less. The progress of such development is timed by the flowers he normally has hovered over his head ‘pon the utilization of his Bankai; those pedals run out and boom, mature Bankai triggered. I’m not sure if anyone notes this particular detail but when Toshiro fights, there are times where he’ll eye those flowers to make sure how many left there are. He hates his Mature Bankai form as personally confessed, knowing it is not entirely his powers but that of the other for he has yet to actually hit maturity, himself, and that the aging up aspect of it is, in fact, Hyorinmaru’s projecting onto his body, thus he tries his best to finish a battle before they’re all gone. // This is a mess But I hope you get the gist of my answer. I’m terrible at articulating my thoughts and writing them down via explanations. djfhdjkfh But thank you for the ask!!!
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