#but i have a bit before it gets to that point to figure it outttt

[muckyschmuck]

Yo

Your comic is getting me inspired to start my own. I'm starting out with a word document just creating a numbered list (each # is a page) and listing the content I want on each page in order. It feels easier to organize my ideas into a story without forgetting details this way, especially since I don't have much time to draw.

What does your creative process look like? Is there organization in a roughdraft-type format? Or is it a more spontaneous process?

Thanks, dude.

-Cake Tester

sorry if this is rambly but i did. the same exact thing basically for the first two chapters (writing each page/panel while working off like, a rough draft of just general stuff i wanted to happen) but for the intermission i’ve kinda been using it to just experiment w different styles of lining and stuff (trying to find out what’s easiest on my hand before i proceed w the actual third chapter basically) so i’ve more or less been rawdogging the dialogue and actual writing and stuff? ive still been keeping track of the different years and general stuff thats occurred in each one but mostly i just have have a bunch of scenes in my head that i cross my fingers and hope translate well into drawn format. i use my notes app to hastily scribble stuff down if i need to remember specific stuff but other than that it’s absolutely gotten way more spontaneous. i’ll probably go back to having an actual script for each panel when i get to chapter 3, idk yet

[tracingdreams]

Daiya no Ace: The Dramas #9: Musical Tastes

An explanation… To keep my brain from rusting I started a project to translate the drama tracks that came with the character song CDs and other stuff relating to Daiya no Ace (because I love them and they’re all hilarious). My disclaimer - I am not a native speaker of Japanese, but I will do my best!

Character Song CD 12 – Kanemaru Shinji Drama 02, featuring Kanemaru, Toujou, Shirasu and Nori.

Scene: Probably in the dorm canteen. Kanemaru has borrowed a music CD from Shirasu, as it turns out they have similar taste in music. Which Kanemaru is happy about, until he hears some information from Nori…

Translator’s Note: I think Nori is trolling Kanemaru a bit in this drama, because we all know Shirasu is a sweetie. This is also the only drama I can find that has Shirasu on it, so I thought he deserved some inclusion. *pats him*.

Toujou: Huh? This CD…from Shirasu-senpai?

Kanemaru: That’s right! He was good enough to lend it to me.

Toujou: Shinji, you guys get along well, huh? That’s unexpected. I don’t think I’ve ever seen you two together before.

Kanemaru: No, it was a coincidence. We ended up in the bath together randomly a while back.

Toujou: Huh? Just the two of you?

Kanemaru: Yeah. I was really surprised. I thought that all the senpai would have finished by that point, but he was still there.

Toujou: Weren’t you freaked out? That guy doesn’t speak that much, right?

Kanemaru: It was really uncomfortable. But I remembered someone saying he really liked music, so when I tried raising the subject, we had a good conversation going.

Toujou: Ahh. Finding something you had in common – lucky for you.

Kanemaru: Honestly, it saved my ass.

Toujou: So that was the trigger for this?

Kanemaru: Yep. He recommended it to me, and then loaned me this CD.

Toujou: How was it?

Kanemaru: It was awesome – totally met my criteria. Now I really want to talk to Shirasu-senpai more about rock music!

(The door opens. Enter Nori)

Nori: What was that about Shirasu?

Kanemaru: Huh? Ah, Kawakami-senpai?

Toujou: Shirasu-senpai lent Shinji a CD.

Nori: Shirasu did?

Kanemaru: It’s this CD.

Nori: Let’s see, what is it?

Kanemaru: He said, when I finished listening to it, I should return it, so I was waiting for him to finish his weight training.

Nori: This is one of Shirasu’s favourite albums. Kanemaru, it seems like he likes you.

Kanemaru: Really?

Toujou: Lucky for you, Shinji! It seems you made a good impression in the bath!

Nori: (confused): In the bath?

Kanemaru: I coincidentally ended up with Shirasu-senpai in the baths. We got talking about music.

Nori: I see, that’s what happened.

Kanemaru: It was really fun talking about it in so much depth with him.

Nori: Huh? This case…has a crack in it, I think?

Kanemaru: Huh?

Toujou: Where is it? (Nori apparently shows him). Ah, yeah, so it does.

Kanemaru: Maybe it happened when…

Toujou: Do you remember it happening?

Kanemaru: Mm, when I was doing English homework, yesterday, I accidentally put my elbow down on the CD.

Toujou: Did you hear it crack then?

Kanemaru: Only faintly, though…

Toujou: Well, it’s only a tiny crack. I guess it probably won’t be an issue.

Kanemaru: Right? It’s just at the edge, after all.

Nori: (Suddenly very serious): No…this is bad, Kanemaru.

Kanemaru: Huh?

Nori: Shirasu is said to be the most precise person in the Seidou baseball club. The most extreme aspect of that precision is how he separates and organises his CD rack by genre.

Kanemaru: That sounds pretty intense.

Nori: The thing that that precise Shirasu hates the most is the idea of CDs being treated casually.

Kanemaru: (Sounding a little stressed): Then…this crack…

Nori: Definitely no good.

Kanemaru: Even though it’s as tiny as that?

Nori: If I were you, I’d resolve yourself [for consequences]. There was once another guy who borrowed a CD from Shirasu, and treated it casually, and Shirasu got super pissed at him.

Kanemaru: (Now really worried): Super pissed..?!

Toujou: Even though he’s usually so taciturn? That sounds pretty scary. What are you going to do, Shinji?

Kanemaru: What do you mean, what am I going to do? I can’t even imagine him getting angry. This definitely isn’t the time to think about being on good terms with him.

Toujou: He might stop lending you CDs.

Kanemaru: No, he might not even ever speak to me again!

Nori: Not that he’s very chatty to begin with.

Kanemaru: What can I do to make him forgive me? Will he forgive me if I just apologise to him properly?

Toujou: I haven’t talked to Shirasu-senpai much, so it’s hard to know.

Kanemaru: What should I do, Kawakami-senpai?

Nori: I’ve never had him get that mad at me, so I don’t really know.

Toujou: That’s what it means to be his music buddy, I guess?

Kanemaru: (Angry) :I want to be one of those as well!

Toujou: In the interests of honesty, how about you return the CD with a new case to replace the broken one?

Kanemaru: There’s no time! Shirasu-senpai will be here any minute!

Toujou: Then is there a way you can fix it yourself?

Kanemaru: You mean, with superglue?

Toujou: It’s just a little crack, so I wonder if that would do the trick.

Kanemaru: Then I could use tape?

Toujou: That would show too much.

Kanemaru: Then a plaster (band-aid)?

Toujou: It’s not a cut, you know.

Kanemaru: Then what should I do! (He’s freaking out).

The door of the canteen opens, and Shirasu enters.

Shirasu: Kanemaru.

Kanemaru: (in panic mode now): S..Shirasu-senpai!

Toujou: Ack, he’s here! And we haven’t thought of what to do yet!

Shirasu: (oblivious): Kanemaru, can I ask you to wait for a bit? I want to go and wash off the sweat from my weight training regime.

Kanemaru: Of course! You’re a regular on the team, after all! What would happen if you caught a cold?!

Shirasu: I’ll be back here as soon as I can.

Kanemaru: No, please, take all the time you need! If you want to, you could even take an hour or so having a bath!

Shirasu: If I did that, I’d get light headed.

Kanemaru: Ah, yeah, that’s true (he laughs awkwardly)

Toujou: (to the rescue): But we can wait, so, really, you can take your time.

Shirasu: I see. Then I’ll go have a good bath.

(he leaves).

Kanemaru (sighs): That’s really bad for my heart. Thanks, Toujou. Thanks to you I feel we’ve bought some time.

Toujou: Mm. Right now, we need to figure out what to do.

(The door opens again, and Shirasu pokes his head back around it).

Shirasu: Ah, I almost forgot, Kanemaru.

Kanemaru: (panic): He came back!?

Shirasu: About the CD I lent you…

Kanemaru: Ah…well…about…what should I say about the case…well…

Shirasu: (confused): The case? What do you mean?

Kanemaru: Huh? Ah, nothing. Nothing at all!

Shirasu: I meant, about the contents.

Kanemaru: Ah, that’s what you were asking? It’s exactly the kind of music I like to listen to! It hit right into the strike zone for me!

Shirasu: (sounding satisfied): Ah. I see.

(and he leaves again).

Kanemaru: I was freaking outttt…

Nori: He seemed really happy, Shirasu, smiling and everything.

Toujou: Huh? You have an unreadable expression on your face right now.

Nori: I do not!

Kanemaru: Toujou, hurry up and help me think of what to do! It’s not like I have time to obtain a new case.

Toujou: Well, you could always give the CD back with some food that he likes?

Kanemaru: That’s it!

Toujou: But what kind of food does Shirasu-senpai like?

Kanemaru: Come to think of it, I’ve never asked him. (He turns to Nori). Kawakami-senpai!

Nori: I’m pretty sure his favourite food is o-den. (Translator’s note – a stew type dish with a whole bunch of ingredients in it)

Kanemaru: Oden?!

Toujou: Radish, konnyaku, chikuwa, small sausages…which one of the ingredients does he like best?

Kanemaru: I have absolutely no clue. Kawakami-senpai!

Nori: You’re really frantic, aren’t you? I don’t know in that much detail.

Toujou: What should we do…

Kanemaru: In any case, it’s o-den, right? So I should go buy o-den! I’ll go to the convenience store!

Nori: It’s forbidden to leave campus without permission.

Kanemaru: AAAH! Then I need to find someone who already has some o-den?

Toujou: There’s not going to be anyone who’s bought it and kept it on one side.

Kanemaru: Then I can make some!

Toujou: Without the ingredients, that’s not going to work, Shinji!

Kanemaru: (Falling apart now): AARGH! So WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?! KAWAKAMI-SENPAI!

Nori: Just apologise properly!

[raelenel]

The mean reds

05/08/19 So this morning, I woke up with Avalanche by Bring Me The Horizon in my head. This is starting to get a little weird that small quotes or lyrics are just immediately on my mind when I wake up for seemingly no reason. No dreams that I remember. Didn't listen to that song or BMTH at all yesterday. I've been pretty sick with the plague of a cold the last week or so and last night was the first night I haven't taken what is probably way too much Nyqil to sleep. I also relieved some stress if you catch my drift ;-). Lets look at this song, maybe we'll have some profound reason it's in my head. Sidebar; I never figured out why that GoT quote was in my head yesterday so heres to hoping. The hook of the song goes: It's like an avalanche I feel myself go under 'Cause the weight of it's like hands around my neck I never stood a chance My heart is frozen over And I feel like I am treading on thin ice And I'm going under I know there is likely a meaning to the songwriter himself (Ollie Sykes) because of his struggles with ADHD and whatnot but, what does it mean to me? I mentioned before I have depression and anxiety and it can sometimes be debilitating. Maybe my subconscious is trying to tell me something. My axiety overpowers my depression by a longshot. I really am just a ball of nerves 94% of the time. So. Maybe I've been in my head lately and I don't even realize it. A case of the mean reds if you will. Points to you if you know what movie that reference is from!!! The mean reds are like the mean cousin to the blues. The blues are when you're just down or sad. The mean reds are when you're afraid and you don't know why (ANXIETYYYY). I don't really think i've been anxious lately but maybe my spirit is. One silly thing that stays on my mind a lot is my relationship status. Which yes i know i know, pathetic. "You're so beautiful, and such a good mom and you're so funny, and you have so much to offer blah blah blabhhhh" I hear some rendition of this constantly. Constantly. But here I am, still alone. Back to the song. Maybe my subconscious is telling me that I really am struggling with something. A particular thing I'm anxious about and whatever it is, is going to take me down here soon. I guess only time will tell. Anxiety is a bitch. Like a big one. It sometimes leaves no survivors and can push some of the best people away. I'll never forget this one time I was just beat down. My then boyfriend was living with me and he was off work that day so we'd been texting back and forth all day but he could tell sometihng was off. I'm a talker, big talker if you haven't noticed. I guess I was just being short and monotoned with my responses and the conversation which isn't like me. He kept asking what was up and of course I'd say nothing. By the time I got home I was just defeated, the mean reds had won. I kissed him, grabbed a bottle of wine, and went upstairs to our room and ran a bath. I cried in that tub for over an hour and then cried more when I got out and laid in the bed in my robe. He finally came up and was panicked at what he saw. I'm a small girl. Chubby but very petite. And he said I looked even smaller laying there with tears in my eyes and snot on my face. He laid next to me and tried to hold me and console me. When I get low like that, I can't be comforted, I can't be loved, held, kissed, talked to, I just need to get it out and then let it go. Bless him for trying, really but I eventually told him to go back downstairs and I would be down soon. About another hour later I was makeup and hair done and downstairs ready to go out like nothing happened. Why was I low? What triggered me? I couldn't tell you. This is anxiety at some of its worst for me. Last night my bestie came over to blow off some steam and talk for a bit and I tell you, those are my favorite times. I love when we're out and being social and having a blast but being able to talk about everything and unload is such a relief. You can't do that with just anyone nowadays without the fear of them spilling your demons and secrets to everyone else. We joked that I am the best at giving relationship and marriage advice. Like literally top notch but I can't manage a relationship or marriage of my own. It's like all that solid advice goes out the window or something. Or maybe I end up attracting the wrong guys. Is there actually such a thing as a "wrong" person? I was talking to this guy for a few weeks recently and when we went on our first date he told me that he was a recovering meth addict. Yeah with my history and my very weird need to fix everyone broken, I had to end that. So once, again. Allll by myyyyseeeelllffffffff. Did you sing that to yourself as you read it because I definitely sang it as I typed it haha. The remainder of the day was relatively uneventful. My oldest, Kenadie, has therapy on Wednesdays so Emery and I get to goof around in the car for an hour while she's in there doing her thing. I also decided to give the old online dating a try again so I made those profiles for the Tinder and Bumble last night. I swiped for a minute and then passed outttt. This cold is legitimately kicking my ass. Yay for no immune system!