#but i dunno i've been thinking non stop about this since i watched it so i Had To write something

[stranger-awakening]

wrote an angsty zolu thriller bark fic if that piques anyone's fancy

[c1eepypas1a]

Can you do some dark Dean Winchester smut? With an age gap, daddy kink, and virgin reader?

A/n: I can only try, this is my first smut pls don't make fun, plus I dunno how to do the writing color change thingy, cringe ahh title name (plus: this is fictional, I know it's fucked up but honestly I've been through shit like this, and if you don't like it, don't read it, there are multiple fics like this, I'm just doing what people want okay?)

Parings: dean Winchester x fem! Virgin!sub! Reader (I can do a male version if it's not supposed to be fem)

Warnings: age gap (dean is 29 reader is 18, daddy kink, dean forcing reader to call him daddy/dean calling himself daddy, non-con, pain for the reader, forced oral (m!rec), tit palming/slapping, slight choking, kissing, swearing, obviously Dom!dean and sub!fem! Reader, nipple play (for like a second), crying, blood (slightly yk since she's a virgin)

"Please, don't...daddy."

*gif isn't mine I got it from Pinterest*

*readers pov*

Me and dean have been friends for awhile now, he thinks I'm stupid, that I don't know about all the staring or lingering touches when he's fixing up my wounds, I hate the looks, I remember when it all changed, when he changed

*flashback*

I smile as I walk into my house with jo, I jump as everyone shouts surprise at me,my dad, bobby singer walks up to me "wow kid, the big 18, do you feel older yet." He smiles warmly and I smile "uh, yeah I guess." I giggle, dean makes a backhanded joke about me finally being legal,

Sam rolls his eyes "dude, your almost thirty, stop being so gross, you knew her when she was in pigtails." Dean grumbles and hands me a present, telling me to open it later when nobody's around and his hand lingers on my shoulder,

That night I open the gift dean gave me, a fucking vibrator, in the shape of a rose and a photo of him, gripping his clothed hard cock, I quickly throw it under my bed along with the vibrator and I pretend nothing ever happened.

*end of flashback*

I walk into the motel room, I look at dean who's binging through channels on the tv "where's Sam?." I sit down next to him, "gone to get food." I nod and I continue to watch the tv, dean lands on a horror movie,

My eyes wander to the hand he placed on my thigh, I don't move it nor I say anything and I get back to watching the shit gore on the tv, "you know sweetheart, sammy's gonna be gone for a while." He says in his usual flirty tone, his hand sliding more up, I push his hand back down, "so what if he's going to be gone." I say feigning my clueless tone, bile rises in my throat as I feel his eyes move down from my face to my tits, "means we could find other things to do then this shitty ass movie." He grips my thigh tighter, borderlining on pain "d-dean what the fuc-" I'm cut off by his lips on mine,

I try to push him away and get up but he pins me down and he tsk's "no, your not going anywhere, I've waited to fucking long for you, I'm not letting you go now." He smirks and starts to undo and push down his jeans "as much as I want your cunt, I'm gonna use your mouth first."

He manhandles me so I'm on my knees, tears sting my cheeks and he smiles condescendingly, "oh baby, you started this, this is your fault, parading in your short shorts and your tight shirts, wearing no bra thinking I won't notice." He says, gripping my hair with one hand and palming my tits and thumbing at my nipples with the other, against my mind praying for this to stop, my body reacts, my nipples getting hard and my cunt getting wet, he smirks at me, pushing down his jeans, leaving himself in his boxers, the imprint of his dick visible,

He stops palming at my breasts and pulls his boxers down, his hard cock slaps against his stomach, leaking pre-cum at the angry red tip, "open up for daddy." He smirks but I don't, I keep my mouth shut and he gets visibly annoyed, he grips my hair tighter and then his other hand closes my nose, "c'mon baby, you gotta breathe soon." He says in a condescending tone,

I try my hardest but I finally open my mouth to breath, he quickly shoves his cock down my throat, I gag and spit forms around my lips and his length, he lets go of my nose and I try to breathe but its hard, "you know, this all could of been avoided if you didn't play fucking coy with me.", he says as he practically skull fuck's me, gripping my face and hair, thrusting his hips roughly,

After about 5 minutes he finally pulls away, I take a deep breath of air,tears streaming down my face, he roughly pulls me up against him, his cock against my clothed stomach, he pushes me down and sits in between my legs, trying to push my shirt up but I twist and I turn to get away, "c'mon babygirl, the less you resist, the less it'll hurt your little virgin pussy." I whimper at those words,

After what felt like forever of struggling, he finally gets my clothes off of me, leaving me in my panties, "lace...it's like you asked for me to fuck you.", I cry at those words "c'mon baby tell me how much you want this, tell daddy how much you want his big cock to stretch you open." He grins sadistically, I stay silent and dean doesn't like that, I feel his hand strike my left breast, "say it!." He shouts in my face, I whimper and I finally speak with a scared tone, "i-i want d-daddy's big cock to stretch me open." He smirks, "that's a girl.",

"please don't...daddy."

That's all I can say hoping that will please him but before I know it he thrusts into me, pain shoots through my whole body and I start to cry again "awe, baby don't cry, daddy's got you." He says as he fuck's me faster, taking away the one thing I thought I could control, but I can't, I'm helpless as he takes it from me, I feel liquid down at my pussy and I look down, I notice the crimson liquid leak down my cunt,

"I fucking knew you would bleed, don't worry sweetheart, it won't hurt that much anymore.", he says as he fuck's me harder, it hurts, no pleasure from it, I beg for him to stop, I cry to god that it'll be over soon and before I know it, I feel him pull out and his cum spurt on my tits and stomach, I feel dirty as dean kisses me before he flops down beside me and cuddles me, like he didn't just destroy me, exhaustion takes over me, before I slip into sleep I hear dean mutter something and I fall asleep.

*the end*

(a/n: my first smut, I hope it was good, if there is any mistakes or anything you didn't like please tell me, I'm sorry it's so short, I wrote this at 1am.)

[cushfuddled]

I wish I didn't hate Ed and Stede but here we are I guess

I didn't have time to put a section about this in my review (since it would add another ten minutes onto a fifty minute video hhhhh) but I just gotta take a second and vent about how much I dislike Stede and Ed in season two.

When I watched season two for the first time, I assumed I didn't ship Gentlebeard anymore because I'd...I dunno...gotten bored of the ship or whatever. But when I went back to rewatch season one, I was immediately sucked back into the Ed/Stede jet engine. I loved them through the finale, up until around the middle of season two...at which point I became totally disinterested again.

Even going back through season one clips for this review...the chemistry is soooo strong for me. The only time I got that feeling from season two was like, from the mermaid scene and the finger-stacking scene.

And I honestly think my disinterest stems from the fact that I can't stand Ed and Stede as characters anymore. They're dicks in season one, but ANNOYING dicks in season two, and I guess I just...don't ship characters who make me want to tear my hair out.

In season two, Ed behaves like a petulant five year old with a gun. It's so "say sorry to your friend right now!" "I don't wanna! :(" followed by a stint in the time out chair and a mumbled non-apology. For all of season two, Ed behaves like a spoiled brat, and I really can't stand it.

My friend pointed out that Ed is in a position where he needs to reparent himself. His emotional development likely stopped around the time he killed his dad (when he was still a kid). No one modeled healthy behavior and emotional regulation for Ed past the age of...maybe fifteen? So of course he's gonna behave like a kid. It's gonna be a long road for Ed to learn these regulating strategies as an adult, and I guess...hhhhhh.

None of Ed's trauma excuses Ed from torturing and traumatizing his crew. It feels shitty to find a deeply traumatized character's behavior "annoying," but...I mean. I say this as someone who's experienced suicide ideation myself: Ed isn't real, and I'm not Ed's friend, and so I don't really feel obligated to extend patience and understanding to a fictional construct when that construct spends 90% of his screen time behaving like a stuck up, self-obsessed, capricious, whiny, murderous asshole.

Add season-two-Stede to the mix and CHRIST...Stede—like Ed—was always a dick, but the way he encouraged Lucius to divulge his trauma only to react with cartoonish disgust, cower like a cornered animal, and then flee while begging Lucius to be quiet...

Then Stede decides to veto the crew's decision to ban Ed—their abuser—from the ship ("talk it through as a crew" my ass)...? Oh, and gotta love how Stede-"I've been the cause of death. It changes you"-Bonnet sets a guy on fucking fire and laughs, then kills a bunch of English soldiers with nary a backward glance. Okay. Would've loved some kind of exploration re: that major heel turn, but fine. And then Ed and Stede stand over Izzy's grave—the (mutilated) body of their dear friend and crewmate—and their combined eulogy amounts to "He was tense. Very tense." "Yeah, he was a fucking nightmare. What a guy." How endearing. Season two turned these two bastards (affectionate) into bastards (derogatory) for me and I'm still salty about it. God DAMMIT.

[solesurvivorkat]

...It's been a long time.

Being a mom of 2 young kids, I'm busy, like... ALL the time. Have been for a long time now. Ever since one of my coworkers retired, I've basically been doing the job of TWO people ('Oh we're going to hire someone to replace him, we promise'... yeah, okay...). It's been non-stop since... God, I don't even remember when.

I finally started getting a bit burnt-out at work, and - longer story short - applied for a different position within the company I work for. And I got it! Granted, I work for an insurance company - it's not wholly interesting (I think, anyway, lol)... but at least I (hopefully) won't feel like I'm on a treadmill, constantly working and not really getting anywhere worthwhile. I haven't started the position yet - I'm still doing my current job until... they tell me otherwise, lol. Supposedly I should be able to start my new job 'soon'... but I've heard that more than once, so who knows when that will really be. At least there will be an end in sight SOMEtime in the (hopefully near) future.

Even now, after all this time... I still think about my writing. About my fics. I know... it's been forever. No one probably even cares anymore, lol. I'm just a tiny bit bummed that stuff got let hanging on all 3 fics and was never finished. :-/ I had such plans for those stories, too. For the characters. Such 'storylines' that I thought were cool, clever.

...Life.

And I still think about the people I used to hang with online from time to time. I haven't forgotten anyone. ...I'm sure some have forgotten me. And that's okay... that happens in life sometimes. Sometimes people are part of your life for a short period of time, and then life just takes you in different directions. I was one of the 'old people' in the group anyway, so even when I fit in, I didn't really 100% fit in. ...But then again, I almost never 100% fit in anywhere anyway, lol. Kind of what happens when you're 'on the spectrum'... it's like being an alien, or being on the other side of a store window watching the people inside. You can still communicate with them (and vice-versa), but... there's still an invisible barrier there.

So... yeah, I dunno, lol. For the first time in what feels like a really, really, REALLY long time, I had a moment at work in which I could actually just sit in my chair and just... 'think'. Reminisce. Remember. ...Think about some of the stuff I miss. The people I used to talk to. The things I used to do. I don't regret having kids, of course (I adore my 'babies' - even in some of their worst, most frustrating & draining moments), but I can't help but remember as I walk by that imaginary glass window... if there's anyone that turns their head and looks back at me, remembers who I was. Wonders how I am. If I'm even a micro-second of a thought.

((So... in the rare chance that anyone comes across this and *IS* still curious - no offense taken if you're not - my son is now 6 & in kindergarten, my daughter is now 2, work & my kids take up almost all of my time. I'm perpetually busy, and don't feel like I have as much energy for 'extra' things like I used to. I still make magnetic glasses toppers - but haven't spent as much time doing that for a bit b/c I've been so drained on a regular basis. I still update my YouTube channel (and want to get back into that more), it's just been slow-going for now.

I'm not unhappy - just very busy and only have so many 'spoons' per day to spend... once I run out of those, I just don't have the ability to get much else done. I know things won't be like this forever - I look forward to changing jobs in the future (again, same company), with the possibility to work from home once I'm trained (someday), which I think will make my life QUITE a bit easier (saving some money on gas, being home more, not getting home from work as late in the day, having an easier time making appointments & such, etc). So... we'll see, I guess.))

[daniazakura]

Day 5 since Fionna And Cake's finale.

I've been thinking about the Pillow World episode lately. I dunno why, the episode got in my mind and suddenly, I just been thinking about it non-stop. Finn growing his whole life in a different world, for so long that he even began to wonder if his previous memories were even real. Not even knowing exactly what Jake looked like. And then watching his new family grow alongside him, until his last days of old, and then dying peacefully and encountering Golb and LITERALLY JUMPING OFF OF IT LIKE IT'S NOTHING just to be brought back to reality and... forgetting EVERYTHING and never having this show up again. Man, I love adventure time. lol

[safyresky]

Crystal Springs Chapter 21: now on ao3!

It's one of my favourite chapters, to boot! Check out some funky Frosty (and fiery!) sibling shenanigans right hecking HERE

Chapter 21: Jacqueline's Cat (Two Weeks Later)

Sibling shenanigans ensue two weeks later when Jack writes a letter to Santa and Jacqueline is adopted by a cat. Fino has a lot of questions. Meanwhile up North, Santa and Bernard make a deal.

Chapter's been cleaned up! Fixed some spelling errors and removed some redundant saids. Yuck. Said is NOT dead but my GOD it doesn't need to be so repetitive! Ah well. We learn and grow. Here, have my favourite part of this chapter for today's excerpt (it's long so feel free to click "J" to jump past the rest of the post):

"I'd duck if I were you, by the way."

"You'd what now?" There was a nasty thwack; Fino's head flew forward, a hiss as something cold and wet landed on his hair, rapidly melting down his back. "ACK!" "FINO SERAFINO FROST!" The colour drained out of Fino's face. "I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I DIDN'T MEAN TO LET THE CAT IN THERE IT JUST. IT REALLY LIKED IT, DON'T TURN ME INTO A PILE OF ASHES!" He scrambled around Jack, hiding behind his back. "You're lucky I've had the day to cool off," Jacqueline said with a huff, dodging the six red poinsettias floating behind her brothers as she caught up to them. "More flowers?" "We went downtown. Made a day about it. Picked up some more since Fino felt that there wasn't enough fiery holiday décor." "You've been harbouring this fugitive all day?!" Jacqueline sounded appalled. "What is it you say?" Jack said, feigning forgetfulness. "Oh, yes! That's it. I do what I want, Jacqueline. Besides, it was mutually beneficial. I needed a tour guide." "And I delivered," Fino said proudly, the three siblings turning the corner onto Evergreen Lane. "I am sorry about the cat, Jacqueline. I've been trying to coax him out all month but he's very stubborn." "What's his deal?!" she asked, cradling a litter box full of cat related toys and things in her arms. "He likes the cold but doesn't like the outside. Your room is like, his preferred climate. I was trying to strike a deal with him, that if he left your room I'd take him to Aunt Spring's, because I think the chilly spring weather may be nice for him, but he was adamant on staying put." "You were trying to strike a deal with a cat?" Jack asked, perplexed. "I can talk to animals," Fino said proudly. "Did I know that?" Jack asked. Jacqueline shrugged. "I dunno. Can't remember mentioning it. Or it coming up. This month's been a blur. Does the cat have a name?" "I've been calling him Catto." "Catto?" "Catto!" "I hope he isn't attached to it because that sure as sleet isn't sticking." "I don't think he is. I figured if he did get stuck there when you came, you could name him! I know you're not too fond of cats but you'll like him. He's a big sweetheart! And he's cuddly." "And sharp and pointy, so we'll have to take baby steps before cuddles." Jacqueline said. "And we'll need to work on him stealing my stuff! Speaking of which, Jack, did you manage to—" A battle cry rang out from the forest alongside them, cutting Jacqueline off. The siblings stopped, watching as a sooty child tumbled out of the forest, beelining for Jacqueline. "YOU'LL NEVER TAKE HIM ALIVE!" the soot monster screamed, rushing for Jacqueline's knees. With an eyeroll, she stepped to the side. The soot monster ran right past her, Jacqueline's slight tap of her foot going unnoticed by everyone but Jack. The soot monster slipped, squealing, and slid, finally falling over. A snowbank met them halfway, the snow poofing up with some soot, the monster laughing delightedly now. "Hot girl soot went well today, then?" Fino asked, grinning down at the sooty child. "Heck yeah it did!" she replied, wiping her face off to reveal a very flushed Fiera. "I think I've almost got hovering with firepower totally down." "Without exploding us?" "That's still like a non zero chance," she replied, stepping out of the snowbank (carefully) and dusting off her mantle coat. "But I'm CLOSE!"

Sorry it's so long! The whole excerpt is gold and I couldn't bring myself to skip ANY bits. Wanna find out what preceded this moment? Read Chapter 21: Jacqueline's Cat HERE on ao3, and HERE on fanfic dot net!

Wanna take it from the top? Check out the Prologue: An Encounter, here on ao3 and here on fanfiction dot net (which will have a freshly edited Chapter 21 later today! Probably after work. I'll reblog when it's up:) donezo! ayo!

Summary is below the cut, as per the uzhe. Two more chapters before FRESH CONTENT 🥳🥳

It's been almost a year since Jack Frost thawed and things are looking...well, not so great. Jack's powers are seemingly gone. Without them, the Dome that keeps the North Pole safe from the cold and its magic controlled is melting, putting everything and everyone magical at risk. Unable to hide his power shortage any longer, Jack is forced to admit the truth. Thankfully, there is a solution: enacting the Legate Law, bringing Jack and the sister that he hurt so many centuries ago back together again. But when Jacqueline starts experiencing destructive blackouts, the pair are forced to head back home to Crystal Springs, bringing Jack face to face with the rest of the family. Needless to say, between getting his powers back, helping his sister figure out what in the FROST those blackouts even were, reconciling with his parents, meeting the two even younger siblings he didn't even KNOW he had, NOT TO MENTION the ancient threat that's had it out for the ENTIRE Frost family finally making a move? Saving Christmas (regrettably) is looking to be a little bit...complicated.

[saintsir4n]

16

WARNINGS: MENTIONS OF WAR

1914

JOIN YOUR COUNTRY'S ARMY

God Save The King!

EDEN rolled her eyes at the headline in today's newspaper. It was all she saw for the last two weeks and it felt as soon as they entered the sixth month of the year, the papers were non-stop.

Sure she knew there was a crisis, but she couldn't imagine what the world would be like if every man enlisted and went and fought in this... war. She didn't believe it would be all fun and games like the papers said.

"You seein' this?" Eden put down the paper, looking up at Polly just as Ada went upstairs.

It was Sunday afternoon and the Dawkins woman stopped by to drop some medicine for the Shelby girl, who had a raging headache.

"Everyone's seein' it love, the boys won't stop goin' on 'bout it," Polly chuffed, placing a cup of tea down on the kitchen table for the nurse to consume.

Ever since Eden stepped through the door, the was something off about her, and Polly was determined to find out what.

"Tom hasn't said much to me," Eden murmured, rereading today's column.

"He won't, it's men's business as he puts it, the cheek of 'im'," Polly scoffed at her nephew's previous comment.

Eden hummed in agreement, "I've learnt to tune out his outlandish comments, if I didn't he would be rewarded a smack."

"Got a powerful backhand, Eden?" Polly asked, very amused.

Eden innocently shrugged, "John said I did."

"That boy," Polly tutted, "Martha's at her mum's again with Katie. I dunno what he said to her, but it can't be good."

"It never is," she knew how John could get, especially when he felt ganged up on or wronged, he would say anything and everything that came to mind. He has to learn.

"Now go on, drink your tea," Polly nodded to the cup that hadn't been touched.

Eden leaned back at the scent, "Can't drink much more, I've been pissin' like mad," she said and Polly leaned forward at that, "Woke Tommy up three times last night because of it".

"Sure that's the only reason he woke up," Polly jested, with an eye roll.

Eden gasped, "Polly?!"

"What?" she then insisted again, "Finish your tea."

Sighing, Eden picked it up, "Fine but the smell is potent."

Polly began more intrigued, "Potent ey?"

"Come to think of it, everythin' smells strong," Eden exclaimed, scrunching up her face, "Tom tried kissin' me in the Garrison yesterday, caught a whiff of his whiskey and I got up and left."

"Odd."

"Very. Let me finish the tea."

Eden reluctantly took a sip, then another, before forcing the whole thing down her throat.

"Been havin' dreams recently? No —" she shook her head, mouth full of the beverage, so Polly continued, "I 'ave,  dreamt of a little girl, little brown one. With a man holdin' her up whilst they watched the horses galloped by ain't that funny?"

"I guess," Eden breathed out, not thinking much of it.

All she felt was nausea.

Polly reached over, and dragged Eden's cup to where she could see, much to her confusion. Polly took one look and stared up at the younger woman.

"What is it?" Eden's eyes grew wide at the alert look on her face.

"Stand up," Polly said, doing so herself.

Eden whined, "My feet are killin' me."

"Stand up, side on."

She finally stood up, a bit too quickly, so she leaned against the table, Polly seemed very concerned by her fatigue after getting a good look at her.

Eden was caught off guard when the matriarch reached over and grabbed her breast, "Ow!"

"Eden..."

"I'm sensitive," Eden whined.

"How late are you?" Polly wondered, returning to her seat as the pregnant nurses stood there stunned beyond belief.

"A couple of days," she whispered, gulping at the thought, well she hadn't given it much thought to be honest,  "... a week I think."

Polly choked out a laugh, "Eden Dawkins."

"Two weeks," she added, mind running rampant, thinking back to all the times she'd been with Tommy.

It was mostly hate sex, hate on her part, even though it was very pleasurable.

Polly couldn't stop laughing, "You're a nurse."

"I'm aware of my occupation Pol," Eden muttered out of frustration, then quickly apologised,  "Sorry. It could just be stress, not pregnancy."

"You're pregnant," Polly spoke with indifference, despite hoping it would happen. Another great-neice she thought, but decided to keep that fact to herself.

"Stress, just stress," Eden tried to convince herself.

It's not like she was too young, her mum was twenty when she had her, but it was all too soon, she and Tommy only stopped arguing, their best friends were gone, (in different ways of course) and she just was starting to get the hang of things at work and she prayed he wasn't considering enlisting in that godforsaken war.

"You better tell him soon," Polly instead.

Slumping back into her chair, Eden sighed into her hands, "What if he leaves me?"

Polly softly scoffed, "Tommy looks at you like you're the sun to his moon, he'll marry you on the spot."

"I don't want him to marry me out of obligation," Eden rushed out and Polly gawked at her like she was mad.

"How can you be so stupid and yet so smart?" sorta like our Tommy in that aspect, Polly thought.

"Polly!"

"I should get paid for dealin' with a lot of ya," she muttered, rolling her shoulders back and shaking her head. "Tommy loves ya, he'dmarry you if you decided today was the day. That baby inside of you," Eden's gaze dropped to her stomach, "my nephew is a lot of things, but he's a man of his word, you understand?"

Eden meekly nodded, her eyes hadn't moved, almost as if she wanted to see some sort of bump, but she had to be sure, needed to be, but the thought of a baby was oddly comforting, half her, half Tommy... what a good looking baby, Polly noticed the smile tugging at her lips and grinned herself.

Footsteps approached them after the front door slammed shut.

Tommy entered the room and immediately smiled at the sight of his woman, coming over and pressing a chaste kiss to her cheek since her punishment was going strong, no kissing 'round people, not until you're forgiven.

"Well, I must be a ghost," Polly remarked, feigning hurt when her nephew ignored her presence.

"Pol," Tommy quickly greeted her with a forehead kiss, much to her amusement.

"Hi Tom," Eden mustered up a smile, all while sending a pleading look to Polly.

"You alright? Jeremiah said you were sick this mornin'" he said, rather worried, though slightly happy she stopped calling him Thomas.

Eden made a face, "How does —"

"He told your dad, he ran into Charlie and Charlie told me."

"And let me guess, the lads at the Marquis know too?" Eden murmured, irritably, earning a look of confusion from him, making Tommy return to her side,  "And I'm fine, just somethin' I ate."

Tommy eyed her just like he eyed him, the couple tended to communicate through expressions, which drove both families mad.

"You looked pale yesterday —" Polly quietly laughed at the look on Eden's face. Tommy cleared his throat soon after, "All alright, how's your day?"

"Not bad, you?"

Eden didn't see how his eyes nervously flickered to the headline of the paper on the tables but Polly did.

"Not bad."

__

Quietly shutting the front door, Eden rushed into her home, senselessly palming her stomach.

"Mum," she whispered, watching as Celestine prepared their Sunday dinner. She hoped her father in the next room didn't hear a thing, she couldn't deal with him just yet.

"You should've been here —" Celestine dropped her rant the moment she saw the worry on her daughter's face, "what's the matter?"

Eden nervously looked around, "I fucked up."

"Watch your language," Celestine gently cupped her daughter's face, "and what did you do?"

"I'm two weeks late."

"Fuck," Celestine muttered, despite herself, as her gaze dropped to her daughter's stomach, realising where her hand was placed.

"I think... I'm pregnant."

▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃▃

a/n:

yes, it seems both tommy and eden are keeping something from each other.

polly knows the gender of the baby, what names are we thinking, of course, I've already come up with one, but I'm curious what you guys think.

[spiteless-xo]

So, I take it you read jjk manga?

Just now I randomly came across a big manga spoiler in a youtube comment section re. Nanami.

I'm fcking devastated rn.

If you know - you know.

Where's Gojo when you need him??

I guess there's no choice but to read the manga if I don't want to spoil the whole plot before I have a chance to watch it unfold in anime.

Also, I know you love Geto, but I BLAME HIM. It's kinda ironic, in s2 Gojo was ready to massacre a whole bunch of people at one point, and Geto was the one to stop him then only to later become insane himself. Now idc, I just want Gojo to go absolutely berserk and take all these mf's heads off. Why Nanami, whyyy 😭

One more thing... You said Geto is like Eren, but in my opinion they are nothing alike. In jjk 0 (the movie) Geto behaves like a complete psycho showing no regard for human life. He enjoys torturing and killing people, he doesn't care. "Monkeys" he calls them. Eren is not like that, he's not crazy, he knows what he does is wrong and it kills him, but he is forced to do it anyway. I think that's why I can't really sympathize with Geto... He is almost as despicable as Mahito. No remorse. At least that is how he is portrayed in anime. And to add to all of this he broke Gojo's heart, because he was his one and only best friend. Even Geto's visual design went downhill after he lost his mind. I dunno, I guess I'm just mad and sad because of that spoiler that I read 😔

i actually haven't read the manga!! but, before getting into jjk, i accidentally found myself on jjk twitter (i guess i liked a bunch of fanart or something? idk) and so i've seen all of the major spoilers 😭 even up to now, i know what's going on with the major characters.

so! i know exactly what you're talking about.

i remember you saying that you've read the aot manga, but if i'm remembering incorrectly and you don't wanna get spoiled, let me know and i'll delete what i said about in here!

some jjk 0 spoilers & aot manga spoilers below

it's been a bit since i've seen jjk 0, but from what i can remember, geto doesn't kill any sorcerers, which aligns with his vision of how he wants the world to be. yes, he tries to kill yuuta, but for him, it's a necessary evil to help further his plans.

i still think geto and eren are similar at their core, but their biggest difference is how they "cope" with their decision.

geto dehumanizes non-sorcerers by calling them monkeys so that it's easier for him to wipe them out. whereas eren is emotionally destroyed by what he has to do and has remorse and guilt for his actions... but they're both still doing it for kind of the same reason?

eren is trying to kill all non-eldians because he's trying to save his friends from unnecessary death. after he sees life outside the wall, he's upset that the world allowed eldians to live with such death and horror for so long without doing anything about it.

kinda the same thing w geto. after failing the mission to save riko and then haibara dying and then finding the twins locked up.... he's literally bombarded with proof that non-sorcerers don't care about sorcerers and, in fact, non-sorcerers and their leaking cursed energy is the REASON WHY ALL OF HIS FRIENDS ARE DYING!! so he wants to kill them to save his friends

(also, geto's cursed technique of swallowing curses after exorcising them is just another form of a sacrifice made for ungrateful ppl, so it's an ongoing, painful reminder of that for geto each time he swallows a curse)

geto and gojo's morality flip is also really interesting to me. like you said, how gojo wanted to massacre all those people but geto said no. after that day, gojo works hard to become the strongest so that he doesn't fail (riko dying) like that again. where geto struggles to find meaning behind why he's a jujutsu sorcerer when non-sorcerers have such little regard for him/his friends' life (ie. the star alliance group ppl clapping when they saw riko dead).

i think that had gojo not been so focused on becoming the strongest, he probably would've been there for geto during his morality crisis. maybe gojo would've been able to save geto from "turning evil".... but also maybe geto would've "turned" gojo after talking with yuki. it's an interesting what if scenario.

also there are some things that happen in the manga that i think might change your perception of geto.

sorry if this is incoherent, this is mostly just key smashing all my geto/eren (mostly geto) thoughts ty for the opportunity to gush about my one of my favourite characters

[newtonsheffield]

What I need from this new au is Anthony's mentor mama meeting his real mama that's one duo I would love to see.

Ohh Maternity Ward Mum meets Anthony's real Mama. An epic duo

Violet Bridgerton would be lying if she said she wasn't at least a little curious about Mary Sharma. It was a name that Violet had heard almost non stop since Anthony had started working at the hospital.

Mary says-

Mary Thinks-

Mary bought me a muffin when I got stuck in a delivery

Mary invited me to tea this weekend!

And honestly, Violet couldn't help but ask the question.

"Anthony, Is Mary... How old is she?"

Anthony had paused for a moment, ducking out of her fridge with his brow furrowed, a pack of ham between his teeth to make a sandwich letting it drop onto the kitchen counter. "I dunno like... woman aged."

Violet had rolled her eyes a little exasperatedly, realising she needed to be a little more blunt. "Anthony, I'm asking you if you're interested in Mary."

His mouth had fallen open, laughing brightly, "No. I mean she's great, but she's... like my Mum. She's a fucking amazing Midwife, and I respect the hell out of her. She's like my Yoda."

Violet had hummed, watching Anthony go, and pretended she wasn't a little jealous.

And eventually, curiosity got the better of her. And after all, hard working health professionals deserved muffins did they not?

She'd tried to wrangle Hyacinth, who ran off down the hall screaming the minute the elevator opened. "Aaaaaaanthonyyyyyyyy!"

"Hyacinth! Christ!" Violet hissed, sprinting after her child down the hall, past curious mothers and staff, smiling a little at the tiny child.

"Where's my flower?!" Anthony's voice boomed from the nurse's station darting out to scoop Hyacinth up, settling her on his hip before he kissed the top of her head, then Violet's cheek. "Mum, what are you guys doing here?"

"I've brought you lunch and some muffins to share with your friends." Violet hummed, straightening his glasses for him, while his ears turned bright red.

"Mum! Please! I'm a grown man."

"And are we not friends Anthony? Sad." The woman sitting behind the desk sighed dramatically, her eyes laughing as she took a sip from her coffee. She was perhaps a little younger than Violet herself, dark hair pulled back, a kind smile on her lips and Violet liked her immediately.

"Mum, this is my mentor, Mary. She's my boss I guess."

"You guess?" Mary sighed, "Perhaps I'm not harsh enough with you."

Violet chuckled, "It's lovely to meet you, Mary. But you might need to watch this one. He's my boy who's most prone to ridiculousness by far."

Mary had hummed, smiling up at her. "Funny, my oldest is the same way. Katie. Edwina was born 75 years old."

"Anthony once hid all the pieces to Monopoly to stop his brothers beating him."

"I don't like this!" Anthony huffed a little petulantly, but Mary waved him off.

"Oh poor little Pup."

And it had been settled. She and Mary would be friends.

She was quick and kind and sensible and it was nice to have someone to shake your head at your children with.

"Katie's coming home, for her last few registrar years." Mary hummed one day and Violet's eyebrow had raised.

She'd heard so much about Kate Sharma over the last few years, her mind ticking over curiously, reminding herself to prod Anthony about her in a few months to see if her suspicion panned out , and apparently, these days Violet was even more a genius than she thought: Because it barely took three weeks.

Three weeks before Anthony sighed, rooting around her fridge.

"Anthony, darling, you've your own fridge to root around these days."

Anthony had sighed, slumping on the stool, his chin on the kitchen counter. "Mary's daughter is the new OB at work."

Violet hummed, watching carefully, treading even more so. "Is she? What's she like?"

Anthony groaned, "Well she's Mary's daughter so naturally she's amazing and talented and fucking... Stunning. Oh and she hates me, because I was a thoughtless twat."

"Why does it bother you?"

Anthony shifted uncomfortably, "I maybe... Um- she's just really nice."

"Oh Kate's nice is she?" Violet had hummed and finally she'd won. Anthony rolling his eyes.

"I am interested in pursuing being the the love of Kate Sharma's life, yes."

And Violet had sighed, smoothing his hair, "Well, maybe you need to apologise for what you said, start there."

"Anthony's in love with your Kate." Violet hummed the next week as she sat in the hospital cafeteria, Mary across from her.

And Mary sighed, "Yes, I thought he might be." She'd gestured across the room to Anthony, currently in a handstand for some unknown bloody reason, Kate Sharma looking on a little bemusedly.

"Christ that boy." Violet sighed, pinching the bridge of her nose.

Mary hummed, "Oh I think, Kate finds it more charming than she wants to. She'll get there."

And Truly, as Violet stood at Anthony's engagement party a few years later, grinning brightly with Kate tucked into his side, her nose pressed to his neck she couldn't help but tip her glass with a hum.

"That was neatly done."

Mary smirked. "I've no idea what you're talking about. I did nothing. I just gave them a tiny nudge."

[starlight-phantom]

Hmm... I dunno if you've been asked this before, but how about top 10 non-Persona videogame characters? :3

Oh boy, characters???? I've been asked about non Persona games but not characters... Uhhhh... Okay, these are gonna be in no particular order because I've no clue who'd be my favourite.

1 - Shadow The Hedgehog, to be clear: When he is written well, he is one of my favourite characters. Unfortunately he hasn't been written well in quite a long time.

But to summarise, he was an experiment created by Professor Gerald Robotnik as the Ultimate Life Form in his attempt to achieve immortality to cure his sickly granddaughter Maria. But stuff happened (aka the military got involved) which resulted in a conspiracy where everyone on the space colony ARK was killed to cover up the fact that the research ever existed. Due to his rage and grief, Gerald rewrote Shadow's memories to make him think that Maria wanted revenge for what happened instead of wanting Shadow to protect the planet they loved watching from the colony together.

So yeah, I think you can understand why Shadow is so angsty; especially since Maria was his best friend and she sacrificed herself to save him. Shadow is actually a really deep character and it sucks that so many of the games coming out now just boil him down to edgy, brooding rival. Sorry for sorta ranting but man, Shadow used to be such a great character... I miss that...

2 - Sebastian Debeste, there's loads of Ace Attorney characters I love but I went for one that's not as well known because the only way to play Investigations 2 in the West is to download the fan translation patch. But yeah, long story short, he's introduced as a bumbling buffoon who acts like he's the best (Get it?) But you later find out that his father's a high ranking prosecutor who bribed Sebastian's teachers to give him top marks and thinks of Sebastian as an embarrassing failure. And that final chapter where you basically use the logic chess segment as a therapy session for Sebastian and he finally stands up to his father? Perfection. Please play Investigations 2, it's so good.

3 - Luke Fon Fabre, I hated him at the beginning of the game. To the point that I wanted to stop playing. But everyone who has played Abyss knows that you need that opening part because it's a crucial part of his character arc and there's a certain scene that turns everything on its head. And after that, Luke goes from an annoying, whiny brat to one of the best written characters I have ever seen. Especially since he goes through three arcs:

1 - Atoning for his mistakes and growing from his weak, whiny past self

2 - Finding his own sense of self after discovering he's not who he thought he was, and

3 - Finding a meaning to his life after he comes to believe that he needs to sacrifice himself to stop the villain

It's insane how he went from one of my most hated characters to one of my most beloved. He's amazing.

4 - Hershel Layton, I've never really talked about the Professor Layton series on here but trust me, I love it. I haven't played the fifth or sixth games in the series because I seem to got dumber with age and had difficulty with the opening of Miracle Mask. But anyway, Layton's a fantastic character, he's fun, he's complex, he's like a second dad to Luke and Flora, and most of all: His story in Lost Future... I have no words, I was bawling at the end of that game, still my favourite in the series.

5 - Snake, ngl, Zero Escape characters are very hit or miss for me, I think it's mostly because of the multiple timelines where sometimes they're lovely and other times they stab you in the back, but Snake for me was the most enjoyable throughout the entire game. But my favourite scene with his is that one bad end where he finds out his sister was killed by Ace and even after being shot multiple times, he just clings to Ace and makes sure he's stuck in the incinerator with him. Such a great scene.

6 - Riku, ngl, it was tough to choose between Riku and Roxas because those two are pretty much tied for my favourite Kingdom Hearts character. The only reason Riku in on here is because I hated him in the first game and then he had some amazing character development... And I am a sucker for good character development. And Dream Drop Distance really cemented him as one of my favourites. Ngl we could get a game where we just play as Riku and I would be happy.

7 - 9S, Man I don't even know how to begin describing how and why I love 9S so much... First of all, his voice acting: Natsuki Hanae in the Japanese and Kyle Mccarley in the English. Both are fantastic, completely blew me away. Second, I think it's how he kinda has reverse character development? Like after the start of Route C, he (understandably) goes into a deep downward spiral and there's nothing you as the player can do to stop it. It's honestly quite harrowing.

8 - Harold 'Hal' Clark, first of all: Please play Astral Chain. It's amazing. One of the best games on the Switch. Anyway, another tech boy voiced by Kyle Mccarley, funnily enough. And you don't really get to see his face, you only really see him through holograms and a wanted poster. But you do get to see his drone and it's amazing how much personality you can see from the drone. But also, his personality is fantastic, I love the sections of the game where he's your partner giving you backup, he's so much fun to listen to.

9 - Dimitri Alexandre Blaiddyd, as I've said many, many times: I am a sucker for good character development. And here's the thing with Dimitri, he goes through the reverse character development I mentioned with 9S and then he starts to heal again and goes through even more character development. It's genius. Also, I am extremely weak for his paired ending. And it would be a crime if I didn't mention Chris Hackney's amazing performance.

10 - Bayonetta, ... D-Do I even need to explain why I love her so much? Like... Gorgeous? Badass? Sassy as hell? Could easily crush my spine like a soda can? Really engaging backstory? Entertaining relationships with her allies??? I could keep going on if you'd like but we'd be here all day.

[ceasarslegion]

Submitting instead of asking because I cannot express any idea in less than like 500 words lol

So I had been following WayneRadioTV for a while but had only ever seen one of his streams (chimps for charity) and nothing else.. Then one day I get yet another notification he's streaming and on a whim I go, "Sure, let's see what this dude is doing." And that turned out to be the very first hlvrai stream! [Insert meme of spongebob pointing at himself on TV, but it's me pointing at myself in the chat of the HLVRAI streams]  Having no knowledge of any of his similar previous streams or about any of his friends made it an incredibly weird/hilarious/surreal/surprising experience. I think part of the reason I got so into it was because of how blindsided I was by it.

Ironic or serious?

I was absolutely non-ironically hooked by the end of the first stream.

Twitch or Youtube?

Made sure to catch every stream from then on, and then watched the youtube videos when they came out as well. I tuned into the commentary too.

How passionate?

I was extremely obsessed with it for... I dunno, a few months, at least. I'm very passionate in general about the way long-form improv can coalesce into a unique and interesting story, and HLVRAI is no different. It's still my main fandom (or tied for it, at least?) but the super-fun, super-obsessed days are behind me.

Make/engage in fan content?

I drew some and wrote bits and pieces of fic here and there, but I didn't publish anything outside of my small discord until something like a year after the first stream. It's been... a steady but very slow output from me, as is usually the case with any fandom I'm in. I looked at a lot of art and fic for a good few months in the beginning, but mostly stopped eventually because the fandom was/is so horrendous that it wasn't worth putting up with it for the content. :') (Now 95% of the hlvrai content i consume is made by people in my private little discord)

Following content creators?

I followed Wayne on Twitch already, as I mentioned. I didn't know of anyone else in the crew beforehand (although their meme presence was certainly felt far and wide). I followed Gir, Holly, Baaulp, Scorpy, and Log afterward for quite a while, but I don't follow any of them anymore, including Wayne. I still follow Wayne on Tumblr though.

Favorite characters/moments?

My favorite character was always Tommy. Second favorite is probably Bubby. I really love Darnold but I don't think about him much since he has so little screentime. I actually found Benry to be a little annoying and tedious at first. He was definitely the character I was the least interested in. When I saw the emerging popularity of Benry/Gordon, I knew it was only a matter of time before I was Mere-Exposure-Effect'ed into liking him... And I was right, haha. I have to admit I love that sort of ship dynamic.

As for moments.. Gah, There are so many I love that just aren't on the top of my head right now. >_< Benry's monologue at the end is a classic, of course. Also the part with Coomer quietly saying, "None of this is real, is it?" And I love the parts where they're just sitting in a circle and talking.

One of the big reasons I looked forward to the streams was definitely because I wanted to see what would happen with the characters / I just wanted to see more of them in general.

Know anyone IRL?

I introduced my IRL friend to it, and she thought it was hilarious, but she didn't get into it in a fandom sense. Everything else has been online. (And mostly in small private discords.)

Other Stuff

Idk if any of the following would be relevant to the paper at all, but I don't feel like I've completely told My HLVRAI Story without it.

1) I got suuuper into half life through hlvrai. I had actually already played the HL series before, years ago, and it didn't really leave much of an effect on me. But for some reason I LOVE it now. Maybe it's because hlvrai made me think more deeply about the HL universe?

2) Cannot possibly stress enough how negative my experience of the fandom was. At this point I don't actually like seeing most content or even talk of HLVRAI from people I don't already know, because I have this pavlovian response of getting upset. I'm honestly very surprised I'm still into hlvrai with how thoroughly and irreversibly I've managed to connect it to bad experiences in my mind. -_- (That's kind of just what fandom in general is like these days, though... At least in my experience.)

Well... This ended up being way longer than I thought it was going to be, and that's saying something. No hard feelings if you don't wanna post it because of that, or because of the negative bits. ^^;;

[snarkwrites]

12 | gangsta; sweetpea

NOTES:

It's been a while. I've had these two chapters written for a while now but I haven't had time to sit down, edit them a little better and post them. Since I have time now, I thought I'd go ahead and do that, whether you guys asked for these next two chapters or not.

Sorry this took forever! Sorry I'm so slow, I've been settling into a new house and taking care of some IRL stuff / taking a little break. I swear, I'm going to update everything sooner or later. >.>

I love you guys.

WARNINGS:

NON/ LOOSE CANON COMPLIANCE - this is the biggest warning, so if you’re into things that follow exact canon plot you are… definitely not going to like this. ANGST & SLOW BURN, HEAVY SEXUAL TENSIONSTARTING NOW, ACTUALLY - this is just so everyone who started reading this thinking the smut would transpire in a hurry knows that apparently, it is not. VIOLENCE / SWEARING & FIGHTING, POSSIBLE UNDERAGE DRINKING AND OTHER SHENANIGANS- look.. it’s high school. shit happens. also apparently, my ofc Alyssa uses the word fuck like all the time?…EVENTUAL SEXUAL CONTENT / A VIRGIN ORIGINAL CHARACTER- this one is self explanatory. yes, i plan to write a smutty chapter in this at some point. when? i don’t rightly know. it’s got a while before we get there. STALKER TW - this chapter marks the true appearance of Alyssa's ex, Dave Novak. It's hinted heavily that he's a gross asshole who likes to play mind games.

If you're under 18+, probably not a good or wise idea to continue reading this series. Because there are going to be a few dark and adult themes within. I'll warn here, of course, but you need to understand that I don't control you. If you continue to read after having read the warnings and you're upset or don't like something... Totally on you, friend.

PAIRING:

Andrews!Sibling OFC x Sweet Pea.

TAGGING:

@brithedemonspawn is the only person on my Riverdale tag list. If you want to be added, the link to do so is below.

OTHER PARTS:

ONE - TWO - THREE - FOUR - FIVE - SIX - SEVEN - EIGHT - NINE - TEN- ELEVEN - soundtrack

OTHER STUFF:

[ about my writing - tag list doc ]

T W E L V E.

[773 - 589 - 7956] attachment

[773 - 589 - 7956] I think I decided how you can repay me, scarlet…

[773 - 589 - 7956] Better enjoy your quiet and happy little life while you still have it, scarlet. Because soon it’s all going to be ripped right out of your pretty little hands.

[773 - 589 - 7956] That boyfriend of yours isn’t even gonna be able to save you this time, scarlet. You’re mine.

[773 - 589 - 7956] See you soon, scarlet.

Each new text that came in had me tensing up. Careful to keep my phone out of sight of anyone who was nearby. My heart was about to beat right out of my chest and my stomach felt like it sank to the floor. I was barely listening to anything being said around me and I guess it was more obvious than I thought because Toni cleared her throat, nodding to the phone in my hand.

Gazing at me in concern.

“Everything okay? You look like you’re going to be sick.”

“Yeah,yeah. Everything is fine.” I lied. I think at that particular point in time, I was just trying to convince myself that this was all some kind of bad dream. Or worst case scenario, Dave was making empty threats.

Toni eyed me suspiciously. I tried to give her a convincing smile, but I’d have had to be an idiot to even think for a second that she believed me. She eyed my phone and reached for it. I managed to shove it in my pocket.

“Trust me.” I pleaded. She gave me a wary look and sighed, grumbling “Fine, okay. Alright.” under her breath.

And I did my best to push the texts out of my head. Jumping in the conversation she had going on with Cheryl and Veronica. Laughing and talking as if nothing were wrong.

Lying through the skin of my teeth.

XXX

“What’s got you so jumpy?”

The question caught me off guard. I wanted to tell someone what was going on, I really did, but… I didn’t want to worry anyone, either. I was at least 99.9 percent sure that there was absolutely no way that Dave would show up in Riverdale, at least that’s what I was hoping.

I did my best to play it off. Shoveling french fries into my mouth just so I didn’t have to answer right away. My cell phone lit up and I flinched before I could stop myself.

Toni reached for it and I quickly grabbed it and shoved it in my pocket. She gave me a concerned look and I muttered quietly, “Probably just Reggie...again.”

“Reggie’s with that new girl though?” Cheryl spoke up. Gazing at me thoughtfully. My breath caught in my throat because if anyone would catch on to there being something truly wrong with me or something off in the way I was acting, it’d be her or Polly.

So far, I’d managed to fool everyone else into thinking I was alright, even my dad and my brother.

,, Dave won’t come here, it’s not worth the hassle. He’s just playing mind games. That’s all this is. Pull yourself together.” the thought came and I managed a smile, shrugging.

“You’ve been acting weird all week, now that I’m thinking about it.” Cheryl was the one who said it and she gave me an expectant look. Waiting.

“I have not.”

,, I do have one secret I can spill. Maybe if I tell them about my crush on Sweetpea…” and so that’s what I did. Sighing as I reached for the shared plate of fries between the three of us. Raking my fries through my vanilla milkshake and taking a few deep breaths to kind of collect myself, both from Dave’s harassing texts and what I was finally about to get off my chest about having feelings for Sweetpea.

“You have. Start talking.” Toni spoke up, watching me. Sizing me up. If I had to guess, I’d pin money on her sitting across the booth, trying to figure out what was up with my jumpy attitude all week.

“Okay, alright. Fine. But what I’m about to tell you two does not leave this table, okay? It.. It can’t. If Sweetpea ever found out, pretty sure he’d start avoiding me and things would get weird.”

Toni and Cheryl exchanged a look and then Toni nodded. Chewing a mouthful of fries as she muttered calmly, “Go on.”

“ I may or may not have a crush on Sweetpea.”

“Oh, you definitely have a crush on him. It’s kind of obvious.” Cheryl gave a soft teasing grin and I sighed. Dragging my hand through my hair and taking a few seconds to let her words sink in. I almost dreaded asking, but I felt like I had to given that she said it was obvious. “Oh god.. He doesn’t suspect anything.. Right?”

“Oh, he’s the only one whose oblivious. But the rest of us, we’ve known a while.” Toni teased me. Then asked calmly, “Is that all? Why’s that have you so jumpy?”

“Because I know how bad I am at hiding things, okay? I was kind of… I dunno, freaking out I guess.” I eyed her, waiting. Searching her face in the hopes that she accepted what I said and didn’t keep pushing. A few seconds passed and she laughed softly. Took a sip of her strawberry milkshake and asked with a smirk, “Are you gonna do anything about it?”

“Probably not. Every time I even think about it, I manage to talk myself right out of it. He’d laugh his ass off, okay? Besides, remember all the flirting he was doing with Josie when they had to work together during the play?” I pouted as I pointed it out.

Cheryl and Toni exchanged looks and Toni laughed. “He was doing that to make you jealous. Or that’s what I think he was doing. Either way… I think you should do something. He’s not going to and trust me… I’ve known the guy my whole life. I know him well enough to say that I know he has a thing for you. Otherwise, he wouldn’t have been so cranky when you two first met?”

“I thought he was just naturally grumpy?”

“Oh, he is, but the way he was towards you was totally different. He’s only that grumpy when he’s trying to keep his defenses up.” Toni informed me before finishing off her shake.

The door to the diner opened and Sweetpea walked in, Fangs in tow. The two of them were laughing about something. I gave both Cheryl and Toni a pleading look and Cheryl seemed to pick up on my unspoken plea to change the subject thankfully, because she asked, “Are you going to F.P’s retirement party at the Wyrm?”

“Yeah.” I answered, finishing off my milkshake. Sweetpea flopped into the booth beside me, carelessly slinging an arm over the back of the seat. His hand brushed against my shoulder and I swear just the small brush against me felt like someone had taken a livewire and dragged it over my body real slow.

Toni smirked at me, nodding at Sweetpea while he was too busy wolfing down french fries to notice and I shook my head.

“I dare you. No… I triple dare you.. Flirt with him.” Toni gave a teasing grin as she mouthed the words to me and I swallowed hard.

She’s not playing fair. She knows I can’t turn down a dare.

I happened to glance out the window of the diner and when I thought I saw Dave standing there, leaning against a streetlamp, one hand in his pocket and a cigarette dangling between his lips, I nearly choked. This prompted Sweetpea to start hitting me on the back lightly as he laughed and looked at me in concern. “Damn cherry, are you trying to kill yourself?”

Toni’s brow raised and Sweetpea explained what happened earlier in the day, how I’d nicked myself with the scalpel in our first period class while doing a dissection. What Sweetpea didn’t know was that when it happened, it was because I thought I’d seen Dave standing outside in the parking lot, only to blink and the parking lot be empty.

I have got to stop letting his stupid mind games get to me. It’s just because he’s texting me again. It’s just because he knows how to work me up and get me all scared, he used to be good at it when we dated.

He’d never come to Riverdale. He’s just doing this to me for his own sick amusement and every single time I let him get to me, especially when I’m to a point where I’m so paranoid I’m imagining that I see him everywhere lately, it’s letting him win and that pisses me off more than anything.

I’m supposed to be stronger than that, damn it.

Toni eyed me suspiciously and I braced myself. When she didn’t bring up my skittish behavior, I relaxed a little.

I wanted to tell someone what was going on, but at the same time, why? I’m pretty sure this is just Dave, being an absolute bag of dicks.

It has to be that. It has to be.

XXX

He stood outside some podunk little diner right in the heart of town. The hazy red neon gave off a comforting and inviting warmth and he lit his cigarette, fuming in anger as he watched her sitting inside.

“I know you’re not ignoring me, scarlet. I know you’re not.” he muttered, mostly to himself as he turned the collar of his leather jacket up against the wind and started to walk towards the South Side.

Maybe it was time he paid his old buddy Eric a visit. Eric was out of prison. Eric was the one who’d told him where Alyssa was to begin with, though he didn’t realize it.

Dave chuckled and shook his head as he walked towards the shitty apartments on the opposite end of town where Eric lived. Eric owed him a few favors. He was coming to collect.

“Did you really think I was jokin when I told ya I have friends all over? That you weren’t ever gonna get away from me?” he mused to himself as he knocked on the door of a first floor slum apartment.

Eric opened the door, leaning in it lazily. Blinking at him in a daze and smirking. High fiving him as he asked him why he was in town.

Dave whipped out his phone, showing Eric a picture of Alyssa. At first he gave him some story about her running off while he was in the pen. Eric wasn’t buying it, he could see it written in the expression on his face. And that only made him angry. Eric owed him. He was here to collect the favor owed. All he wanted was for Eric to help him out on this one little thing.

Eric shook his head, chuckling in disgust. Gazing at him with a brow raised. “I think you need to leave, man. Now. You don’t want the heat this is gonna bring down on you. And I’m not about to get on a Serpent’s bad side, even if the Serpent in question is just a damn kid.”

“See, I’d like to just put this all behind me, man... but she’s the whole reason I even went to prison to begin with. Then I get out and find out not only is my girl not loyal, she’s also the one who snitched on me?” Dave eyed Eric. Getting irritated because this was not how he saw the conversation going.

“I’m telling you, you need to leave. Forget about Alyssa. I see her around all the time with some kid… Sweet Pea or Green Bean, some shit. The Serpents are not people you fuck with, man. Not around these parts.”

“You know the Serpents aren’t shit to me… Right?” Dave quipped, smirking. “I’ve got this under control. I just need you to help me out a little… C’mon, man. You owe me.”

“I don’t fucking care. I’m not helping you do whatever it is you’re here to do. What I oughta do is put a bullet in your fucking head for even thinking I’d be down for this shit. She’s a kid, man. A fucking kid... Favor or not, man… I’m on the Serpents side with this. Not yours. You need to leave.” Eric warned, giving Dave a firm glare as he folded heavily tattooed arms over his chest.

“Oh, so that’s how you’re playin, huh? Okay. Alright. All I wanna do is see her again. I’m not going to do anything. I just want to straighten things out. Get a little closure on the situation...”

Eric scoffed. “This coming from the king of overreaction. I don’t trust you.I’m breakin code of my gang by even talking to your ass. Nope. The answer is no. I’m not helping. Do whatever you have to do to me, but I’m not about to help you scare some kid. I’ve got better things to do with my time, buddy...”

Dave’s arm shot out and he pinned Eric against the door of his apartment. Smirking at him calmly. “I know you haven’t forgotten just how much your sorry ass owes me. Because that’s what this sounds like.”

“I guess that’s what it is then. Because I’ve seen what the Serpents can do. I’m not about to bring all that down on my head.” Eric stepped back inside his apartment, slamming the door in Dave’s face, leaving him to glare at the closed door and take a swing.

“Guess I’m doing this all by myself.” Dave mused as he turned and wandered down to a shitty dive bar nearby. He needed to have a few rounds. Come up with a plan.

And a little after midnight, after finding himself a few new talkative friends in some local Ghoulies, things were starting to look up for him. And he was slowly forming a plan.

Now he just had to wait. Pick his moment. Toy with her a little more.

“I’m so close I can almost touch you, scarlet. Soon… Soon you’re going to pay for running your mouth to mommy about me...” he smirked to himself as he unlocked his hotel room and stepped inside.

[sothischickshe]

3, 26 and 27 for the songs ask pls! :-)

THANK YOU FOR THE OPPORTUNITY TO YELL ABOUT MUSIC

3. three songs you were recently obsessed with

OK I will do 3 actual songs as I think I'm running outta time bombs 😂

Busta rhymes ft Janet jackson - what's it gonna be

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=hUxN0K1ykNo

I like randomly remembered the video the other day and was like no no I must be misremembering but it was exactly as thought 😂 but omg this song is so good!! I had forgotten how good!!

Odb - shimmy shimmy ya

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=h2zgB93KANE

Had not heard it for years, heard it on the 95 time bomb and it's not been out of my head since!!!

Suzanne vega - Tom's diner

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=6LpkWwXveqs

I woke up with this stuck in my head and I dunno why cos I've not heard it for ages. Can't stop humming it!

26. three favourite non-English songs

Jeff Buckley - yeh Jo halka halka saroor hae

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1lkWgpujSF0

 Pitch Black afro - matofotofoto

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kJuj3ysqCco

Tarkan - kiss kiss

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wN4Rbc6HSPY

27. three songs that you sing while drunk

Three songs (of many) my colleagues are prone to demanding drunk singalongs of:

Audrey Hepburn - moon River

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=QEdPe1SxitI

Fleetwood mac - the chain

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=JDG2m5hN1vo

Simon and garfunkel - the boxer

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=l3LFML_pxlY

[timeandspacelord]

I've thought about it and. Accepted it and the fact that our bodies will remain on Earth and decay calms me because it doesn't matter what you believe your body will feed the ground one day or if cremated my guess is at the end of the world or something any vase your in will break and will be a good use to the environment better than most people are doing and we have no problem with the fact were don't exist before were born so why not after we die

Hamlet ghost wrote this...

I mean, focusing on the physical aspect of it all, yes, the Circle of Life is comforting. Mufasa's whole thing about returning to the earth and feeding the grass and all that (idk it's been a while since I watched The Lion King, but I know this speech exists) is a Good thought, and Hamlet's point about kings' bodies feeding worms that feed fish that feed peasants stands up incredibly well, but that's all what physically happens to your body.

Your mind, though, that's what's actually you. Your personality, your experiences, the way you think and perceive the world. And if your sentience is gone when you die, you lose all that.

The birth thing is a good point, except that you don't have any memories or thoughts or senses before you're born. Or before before you're born, I guess. I dunno, I don't... actually know how to make this point? Like, you go from never having experienced anything, to your whole life's worth of experiences and your thoughts and then when you die if it's all gone, that seems like a waste? Sure, it's poetic to go from non-existence back to non-existence, but then really, what's the point?

And that's not even my main point lol My main point is that the idea of Not Existing At All is scary, especially because if that's actually what happens, then I'll have to Go Through That, which means I'll Stop Existing and Never Know Anything Again and there will be absolutely Nothing.

I realize it's dumb to be like arguing this point, but I genuinely don't know how to cope with this (usually I just pretend that it's not a thought in my head and pray that there is something at least after death) and I desperately want someone else to understand lol

I'm glad you could come to terms with this in your own way, even if this whole answer seems like me trying to contradict you. I'm just very scared of this thing that I can't explain