#but i dont want to have a dog that ends up mistreated like the last few dogs that i have spent time with

[grimmthorne]

i love pitbulls and genuinely cannot wait until im able to take care of one fully because i truly do love dogs and pitbulls have always had such a soft spot in my heart. but god damn college is crazy and i need to get my degree and a good place first before i go and adopt a pittie

[doberbutts]

i hope this isnt weird to say but i really appreciate your dobeposting, especially about the history & current disposition of the breed. my mom has had dobermans my whole life and it led me to kinda... really dislike them for years, her last three and current youngster all were/are so nervy and quick to bite unprovoked (thankfully the young girl is coming around pretty nicely, no actual aggressive bites, just still learning to take things gently)

anyway, getting to the point, reading you explain about the breed's history, who dobermann actually was & how they were created & what they were originally bred for, and the way unfortunately the temperament has gotten messy due to that mixing of people wanting dobes to be family pet dogs and one-person protection dogs at the same time, or just try to make them into a pet dog they just aren't cut out to be (my mom is very much one of the former lol) really helped me understand and appreciate the breed. my dad has american akitas, and imho they have a similar issue of people trying to breed them for social, cheery pet temperaments which just tends to go very badly for a very large, high aggression, high prey drive, not suited for the average suburbanite breed like them, and realizing dobermans basically have a kind of more severe extent of the same issue (albeit I'm oversimplifying here) really helped me understand them.

i dont think I'd ever choose to have one, but I've definitely got a lot more respect and appreciation from afar.

so, sorry for rambling and probably being repetitive, hope i made some kind of sense, just wanted to say thank you for being a great breed advocate :)

here's a dobe tax, my mom's ~18 month old little girl, kira. she looks like that because, from what the rescue told my mom, she was from a backyard breeder and had to be removed from her first two homes due to mistreatment. still manages to be a real sweetie most of the time

Hey thanks for the compliment and the dog tax!

It really sucks because I think dobermans can be fantastic pet dogs... to people who want a doberman and all that entails. But a lot of people in the outcross groups I'm griping about want something more like a gun dog or a retriever in a doberman costume, and it's very frustrating to explain again and again that that simply is not what a doberman is.

I'd be all for a doberman outcross that actually respects what a doberman is for! The problem is that there have been very few of those, and most of them started with junk and ended up fairly lackluster in what they produced because you can't shine a turd and call it gold.

Dobermans don't have to be nervy, loose cannon, fear aggressive, bite risk demons. My doberman is not! My doberman before him was scared, but that was largely a socialization problem caused by living 2 years of her life exclusively in a box, and she wasn't dangerous, she just shut down and shivered. My doberman before her wasn't like this. And my doberman before him was, but again with the known abuse in his background from being a court case dog it's likely that he didn't start out that way and didn't need to become that.

It is possible to have a doberman that is actually a really fun dog to have and be around. You just. Have to understand that they are a doberman. My best friend @khayr has a doberman that's a pet, that does not do any sort of protection work. Her dog is very safe to be around! She's a lovely creature and I think well matched to my buddy's needs. But! She's also a doberman! That means she doesn't like the mailman or the UPS drivers! It means when missionaries knock on her door, her dog throws a fit! It means when she's out late at night and someone rapidly approaches her, her dog puts herself between her and the oncoming stranger! Because she's a doberman! She's supposed to do that!

[lissalizzie]

Ok, after the angst thing I decided to do something a little... easier to read. I had to change a bit of Chishiya's personality to match the plot and I explored that Arisu's brat personality from the beginning of the season. Again, I'm sorry for any eventual mistake. Enjoy

+18 (but not NSFW or anything like that)

ARISU X CHISHIYA - WEAK POINT

Since what happened at the beach Arisu and Usagi were working with Kuina and Chishiya. Kuina, actually was demonstrating to be a very kind person, but Chishiya was still... distant.

Kuina was always saying he was like this, that he never seemed to be really present, except for the games or their plans. She never really knew anything about him, or how he felt about that place and what they had to do for surviving.

After that talk Arisu just couldn't stop thinking about Chishiya. It was already hard for Arisu when he was always talking, specially with Usagi, about how much he missed his friends and how he felt guilty about their deaths... About how the image of Karube dying just wouldn't go away even with the time. Then he thought about how lonely Chishiya must've felt for all that time since he never really had any friend... It was not like he didn't feel anything, Arisu imagined, he just thought there must be so much inside his head... That not necessarily began at that place... That he couldn't stop to think about things such as relationships with people... Trusting was already hard in the real world.

Arisu couldn't sleep at that night, things as the games, his friends, how the real world was and... Chishiya, for some reason, wouldn't come out of his head. He forgave him a long time ago for what he had done at the beach not because he was innocent or emotional, but because Arisu understood being angry would just make him more vulnerable and also he understood that, as selfish as seemed, Chishiya was only trying to get out of there just like him. They weren't close but they had to deal with each other almost every day so they eventually talked and did somethings together, like finding food.

Well, the thing is Chishiya was specially away those days... Like he was avoiding Arisu's presence. And the poor boy wouldn't understand cause... It wasn't like he even had the chance to do something to bother him.

The hours was passing and Arisu was focused on anything on the wall of the place they were sleeping on. Suddenly he heard a noise and found out it was... Chishiya...

- I'm sorry, I didnt meant to wake you up - Arisu wasn't making any noise, but... He really didnt  want to bother him. He didn't want a best friend, he lost his best friends... But it was terrible to be everyday with a person that acts like he doesn't want you there.

- You didn't. - He said as he drank a glass of water. - Ok, why are you looking at me like a puppy who was shouted at ?

Arisu rolled his eyes, god he hated how fucking insensitive that boy was. He tried to deal with it, but sometimes that really got him on his nerves.

- I don't know, maybe because you've been treating me like a dog the last days for no reason? Not that you could possibly treat anyone good aparently... But you know, usually when you avoid someone it's because this person did something for you... You barely talk to me...

- Arisu... You really think because you're good at the games the world is all about you, dont you? - He supported his weight on the wall behind him with a side smile.

- You really wanna talk about thinking the world is all about me? You Chishiya? - Arisu usually wouldn't talk like this but he was so annoyed by his childish attitude. - You almost killed me for your own interests

- My own interests? Oh yes... If by keep breathing and coming back to my fucking life you mean my own interests then... Yes, I dit it. You wouldn't do this for me, would you Arisu? This is not one of the games you used to play on your phone...

- Then why are you treating me like this ? - He got up, standing right in front of Chishiya.

- Like what?

- Like you wasn't seeing me. Like I wasn't there... I don't understand.

- No, I dont understand... Why do you suddenly want my attention so much? - His smile got bigger and Arisu got... Red. - Oh... I See, That's why...

- Y-You know I didn't mean it, Chishiya... I just... Dont like being mistreated... Specially when I did nothing. - Chishiya walked in Arisu's direction, who took some steps back till he was on the wall. Silence - Is... It me that wants your attention... Or is it you that wants to prove that to yourself at any cost?  - Arisu wasnt good with eye contact, specially being that close to him, but he wouldn't miss the chance to say that... Specially when he kinda already knew he was right.

- Again... the world is not just...

- Just spit it out, Chishiya... You're not on a game... I'm not gonna a disappear just cause you're afraid of facing me. - That was it... Saying the word "afraid" was all that Chishiya really feared... Cause that would meant Arisu was noticing his sudden interest on him and that... That was failure, that would be opening a giant door to get vulnerable...

- You wanna hear it? That's right... You're hot, Arisu... And I have fucking eyes... That watches you everyday... I'm just trying not to - He breathed in and out... deeply- You are... a fucking... God Arisu I dont...

- So you're telling me... After all this time... I'm your weak point? - Chishiya's eyes got twice the original size.

- No I definitely didnt said that... I'm just saying...

- You're saying that you're feeling something... It doesn't matter if that's emotional or sexual... But you cant control... That's why you're running away. The guy who avoids any kinds of feeling that is not strategic... Is feeling something and it is out of his control... And it involves me - The more Arisu talked, the more he smiled

- I'm not...

- Stop trying to convince yourself... You havent event looked me in the eye the past five days... You're not doing this to try to kill me again, are you?

- You're not going to forget that so easily, are you?

- Would you?

- I would never fall for that Arisu - He laughed

- But you fell for me - Arisu tried to hold his on laugh.

- I didnt fell for you... This is just sexual tension

Arisu then, suddenly, got closer to him, laying his hand on the other's arm. This same hand ran to his face and their eyes finally met.

- Repeat it... - Arisu whispered... Chishiya didnt answered cause he was too busy with Arisu's lips moves. He couldn't handle it anymore so... He got a little bit closer, like asking... And then... They kissed.

A hard kiss, the kind that could take all of the stress away. Chishiya wanted that so much... Well Arisu wasnt thinking about wanting that... But now that he was tasting it... He definitely knew he did want it really much.

They smiled when they stopped. Arisu felt like winning from him for the first time... Like advantage on something, and he would damn use it.

- I shouldn't have opened my mouth. This... This wont happen again - Chishiya tried to said firmly. - You dont talk about this with anyone, do you hear me?

Arisu smiled. - Well you better keep my mouth busy, then- And then, they both went to their rooms knowing that was far from ending.

[violentviolette]

i’m not reading all that but as two final points if you think that game was made for queer people you’re dead wrong, it reeks of fetishisation by fujoshis, and thank you for taking the time at least to read the blogs

valid. I did rant for like 5 whole paragraphs but frankly those blogs rly fkn killed me

I dont think it was "made for queer people" in the way that nothing created under capitalism with the intent to generate profit is "made for queer people" but reguardless of motives, the outcome was that I got to be gay in a shitty romance game and that is a rare occurrence. at the end of the day it's a queer inclusive game. u get to not only be gay, but be nonbinary. reguardless of the sincerity of the intentions on part of the dev's, the result is still a queer inclusive romance game.

and like. the points u make are valid, but other people are allowed to feel differently about things. u can find the content inherently fetishizing because it's coming from cis women and not want to engage with it, and that's fine and the right thing to do for u, and I can be used to consuming shit media because I came from a time where we lived off crumbs and sasunaru was Peak Representation so I'm desensitized to bullshit and can still enjoy it. those are both valid things that can coexist

my problem comes not neccesarily with u anon but with people like those blogs. they loose all sight of what's a worthwhile critique of a piece of media, and devolve into grasping at any possible thing that they can coat in sj language and make "problematic" so they can justify their mistreatment of other people and police their fandom space. creating this impossible standard of purity that makes failure inevitable and tearing something apart the goal of consuming it. no human can pass the "six degrees of problematic" that happens these days where if uve ever even liked a tweet by a person who follows someone who's friends with someone who once said something racist than ur a sick freak and disgusting person and u need to be run off the internet. like. every fucking person fails that criteria. but people like this will devote so much time and energy into hating something in a morally superior way and hunt that shit down and then use it to justify harassing other people. and like that's not okay

and the arguments they fall back on are almost always conservative reactionary rhetoric. theyve taken "look at these filthy queers kissing in public. these freaks are exposing minors to sexual content. were just trying to protect the children!" and just replaced "queers" with whatever fits their agenda better that day. couple that with the constant push for stricter and stricter censorship based on arbitrary moral values (because who decides what's not okay to depict? who are u giving that power to? and who has suffered under similar restrictions the most in the past?? because I'll give u a hint, censorship laws never did shit to stop people depicting men beating and raping women but it sure as shit did mean every gay character up until the last 5 years ended up dead or unhappy) and u literally just get conservatives banning books and censoring movies

it's like people really forget that "pedophiles and rapists" used to be dog whistles for queer ppl. and now that same rhetoric has people using them as dog whistles again for content they dont personally approve of and it's absolutely not a coincidence that the content that gets these vicious hate campaigns are always ones that include queer characters. Especially queer characters that are sexual in any way. triply for if theres characters of color, and it's like how are u guys not seeing this??

but I mean, at the end of the day u do u man. i get it if u didnt read all this either but I appreciate u having at the very least a civil back and forth about it. I just cant get behind that level of zealous conservatism, even when it wears a libral hat

[cryptidofthekeys]

Here’s the second TF2 oc, the Medic bab!

Name: Hedwig (according to what I’ve seen so far in German it means something alone the lines of: Fighter, strong one) | Alias: Medic/The Medic, Dr. Hedwig Lange, or just simply Hedwig for short (usually only close friends call him Hedwig)  (Lange from what I read means "Tall" so both his names are fitting) | Gender: Male | Age: 49/50s | Species/Race: Human | Height: 7'0" | Eye Color: Mocha Brown | Hair Color: Dark Brown (he keeps it slicked back and v tidy, his hair can be poofy if not kept taken care of) | Appearance: Wears the typical medic coats, mostly consisting of the typical white, but he does have brown and grey ones as well that he really likes to wear, he NEVER wears his normal clothes while he's working, while he doesn't mind getting his hands dirty n stuff he... he doesn't want his NORMAL clothes coated with blood or whatever, he DOES have his standards! His usual clothing usually consist of turtlenecks and sweaters, he really seems to enjoy wearing those kinds of clothes (their c  om f), he does have a lot of scars on him as well, on his chest are a ton, his back, arms, legs, etc- there's scars almost everywhere. He usually wears long combat/punk looking boots when he's on the battlefield or just, sometimes he wears them bc a e s t h e t i c~! He wears what he wants, he also has a bit of a five o'clock shadow as well, nothing t o o major facial hair wise n stuff. | Personality: He's not exactly insane/mad or anything like that, hell, he's not even that bad ...to his teammates really, their not his guinea pigs for experiments or nothing but now he DOES love a good experiment or two, he isn't afraid to get his hands bloody n messy or anything like that ya know, you hurt or try to experiment on his teammates/friends and- weeellll we're going to have a little issue there.... Although! He is more than happy to watch the other Medics experiment on their own teammates or enemies or whatever, hell if they need! He'll even help out with said experiments, usually he's pretty friendly (he can just say intimidating sounding things and hell he even kinda l o o k s intimidating, but he's not ALL bad so long as your not the enemy or target for a potential experiment! He's very outgoing although sometimes he tends to spend a bit longer than he needs in the lab until Amour or the Sniper (I MIGHT make a Sniper character tbh, three faves right there, Spy, Medic, n Sniper- might as well complete the support set amIrite?) forcibly drags him out and makes him get some sunshine) He ABSOLUTELY loves animals, dogs mostly actually, he has a few small dogs in his lab and a few big dogs to guard on the outside, last time he let a big dog in- it stole a rib from one of his "patients"! he couldn't stay mad at them though they looked so happy and adorable munching on the rib. (tl;dr: He can say some rather unsettling things, he seems VERY intimidating but to his teammates and friends he's as sweet as can be, just to the enemies and experi- AHEM- P A T I E N T S of his he's just very unsettling and intimidating which rightfully so, he's going to do horrible things to them without any remorse or care in the world! He gets along fairly well with his team and he seems to care a great amount for them so messing with them isn't the smartest thing you could do although a lot of his team are unfortunately terrified of him and his scary lab but he assures them he'd n e v e r hurt or experiment on them or whatever!) | Side Facts: He REALLY loves dogs, like if he had a big enough place he'd honestly run a dog sanctuary, just a place where all the dogs can run and roam freely, of course he'd need a LOT of money to do that but it'd be his dream one day, there's nothing that pisses him off more than seeing an injured or mistreated animal, and whoever mistreated said animal, weeeellll... Let's just say he has Amour or the Sniper (yeah fuck it, imma make a Sniper bab BUT- that'll be later on) help track them down, whoever hurt the poor doggo will NEVER get away from him and he'll be sure to make them r e g r e t EVER dumping a poor animal out, like if they don't have the funds or they can't physically take care of said animal the LEAST they could do is put them in a shelter to find a good home OR give them to a potential family member! Sheesh! Dummkopfs they are... He actually has taken the time to name ALL of his dogs (I say that, as I myself, dont know what to actually call them but for the sake of his character n stuff, im just saying that), he sat down one night when he couldnt sleep and decided to name all his dogs and he's memorized them all, he has a few that look v e r y similar to each other but he knows which one is which, the others are... a lil impressed with that actually, that he managed to memorize some of the similar dogs when they legit can't even tell half of them apart. In his spare time when he's not working h a h, working or experimenting is usually what he does ALMOST 24/7 lmao, but in his ACTUAL spare time, he usually tends to read a few good books, or watch some videos (which, he um, the modern technology like laptops, phones, etc- fuckin e s c a p e s him- he can work a phone to an extent which is just to call someone or whatever but he's gotten BETTER with laptops, he keeps a bit of information on them or what he's written down like- findings or some shit ya know) or he'll listen to some music, his taste in music is... it can vary depending on his mood truth be told, usually for holidays he'll bake some cookies, he'll give most of them out to his teammates but then suddenly, you'll see him gathering up t h r e e certain ones and carrying them off somewhere, wh...whats he gon do with them you reckon? ...Eh! What does it matter! He's fiiine! He's a v e r y excellent cook n baker, although he's frustrated sometimes that he has to reassure his team that he did NOTHING to their food! okay- last paragraph of things, bc I think he's good for now, but he really does care for his teammates and friends, now sure sometimes they can irritate him to ungodly ends and on some days maaaybe taking a bonesaw to them wouldnt be such a bad idea (he would never, dont worry), he does still care for them in the end, and he'll t r y his damnedest not to let them die or get hurt so easily as well.

[humanhotdagaproject]

mod doppio’s promised taglist

[[ok off the bat lemme just say that I apologize in advance for inconsistent post schedule and exploiting the queue sometimes but school is a bitch so here we go—

Every post of mine will be tagged “buzzfeed unsolved”; “bfu”; “buzzfeed unsolved supernatural”; “buzzfeed unsolved true crime”; “the hotdaga”; “the hot daga”; and of course, “Human HotDaga Project”. The rest will be a mix of Category, or content, tags, and Character tags.

THE CATEGORIES::

[ Data and Analysis || The Reference Section ]:: text-based shit — introductions, updates, timelines, etc.

[ Masterpieces and Mantlework || The Art Section ]:: pretty self-explanatory lmao; character art, pose references, any artsy stuff that isn’t the actual story goes here

[ Preservation and Upgrades || The Story Section ]:: again, pretty self-explanatory; scenes, comics, animations, anything directly connected to the story

THE CHARACTERS::

[ Weaver of Tales Twice Told || Mod Doppio ] oh boy it’s me :D

[ Knowledge-Keeper; Guardian and Guide || Mod Diavolo ] honest to god i dont know where this man came from someone call child protective services we have a loose alter acting like a tour guide over here at hhdp—

**NOTE: for the actual foods I always use my personal tag along with a tag of just the character’s canon name, and one of the character’s canon name with “bfu” tacked on the end, just cuz idk if there are common enough character tags yet to settle on just one

[ If you Love Me; Let Me Go || Daniel Hodder ] dan the hot dog

[ Caretaker of the Future’s Hopes || Rebecca Hodder ] rebecca

[ Black Heart; Three Sizes Too Big || Pamela Drönjak ] pam

[ Prodigy || Brandon Hodder ] brandon

[ Mad Doesn’t Have to Imply Insanity || Dr. Lisa Wurst ] dr. bratwurst

[ Drifter in the Wind and Waves || Melba Dill ] melba 

[ Bass-Boosted Doesn’t Always mean Sound || R. B. Stevens ] steven rootbeer

[ For the World is a Little Quieter Now || Gene Frye ] gene who was french  fries

[ Heroes Aren’t Always Recognized Soon Enough || Maisie Corr ] maizey 

[ Girls Love Girls just like Boys Do || Geborah Frye ] gebra 

[ Apathy Wins with a Royal Flush || Michael Soup ] mike soup

[ Fallen Down || Ernesto Goondis ] dr. e.g.g.

[ The Prettiest Rosebuds Always have Thorns || Joblet Protz ] joblett

[ Misunderstood; Mistreated; Misled || Garce Protz ] garce 

[ Devourer of Shades and Spectres || Chili IX ] the dark master

anyone else ill add as they come up lmao

THE TIMELINES::

[ War Zones and Wedding Venues || Pre-01 ] chili wars, everything mentioned in flashbacks that doesn't directly happen in season one

[ Totalitarian Tyranny || Bad End Future ] where "gene" and brandon are from, the timeline where dan lost and witches took over cuz fuck you I have hcs for this

[ The Glory Days of Giving Up || 01 ] events in season 1 that can't be classified as flashbacks or Bad End

[ Say You Want Me Back in Your Life || 02 ] events in season 2 that can't be classified as flashbacks

[ First Contact in Off-Road Vehicles || 03 ] events in season 3 that can't be classified as flashbacks

[ Repentance and Recognition || 04 ] events in season 4 that can't be classified as flashbacks

[ The End of Days Begins Your Stories || 05 ] events in season 5 that can't be classified as flashbacks

[ Beyond "What we Have" to What we Need || Post-05 ] uhhhhhhhhhh idk part 6 predictions, theories, and headcanons fall here

Last Updated 03 Oct. 2019

[uberfluss]

1-97 xoxo

1. What’s your middle name? i forgot i needed one

2. What are you listening to right now? this baby dont cry by K. Flay!

3. What was the last thing you ate? oatmeal

4. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? my aunt

5. Do you drink? occassionally 

6. Do you smoke? nope

7. What is the first thing you noticed in someone? usually their affect

8. What is your hair color? naturally dark brown currently fire engine red that wont fucking fade

9. What is your eye color? blue green grey 

10. Do you wear contacts/glasses? both

11. Dogs or cats? cats!

12. What’s your favorite animal?cats oscars or ferrets

13. What’s your favorite television show? myth busters or how its made

14. What’s your favorite movie? beetlejuice!!

15. What’s your favorite band/singer? Billie Eilish Grandson Kflay and Mallrat have been the most recent

16. How old are you? i literally dont know half the time

17. Do you have a crush on anyone? not to my knowledge

18. What’s your sexual orientation? bi

19. What’s your favorite color? honestly i think pink

20. What was your most embarrassing moment? i literally dont know 

21. Do you ever wish you were someone else? all the fucking time

22. What were you like when you were a kid? annoying as hell never shut up and never stopped moving

23. What would your dream house be like? a small little apartment that i could safely afford

24. What last made you laugh? shaving cream in a crock

25. What is your favorite word?idt i have one 

26. What is your least favorite word? not sure

27. What turns you on? no

28. What turns you off? someone being a fucking asshat

29. What is your star sign? triple sagittarius

30. What are your favorite books? hunger games, illiad, mary shelly’s frankenstein, les miserables, and donte’s inferno.

31. Do you have any siblings? too many

32. Do you like to dance? only by myself

33. What is your definition of cheating? starting a relationship with no intent to tell your other partner(s)

34. Have you ever cheated on someone? no

35. Do you regret anything? loads

36. Do you have any phobias? driving through farmland gives me anxiety if that counts

37. Ever broken any bones? i’ve only fractured my rib the rest have been just dislocations and subfluxes which are daily occurances 

38. Ever come close to death? we all do

39. What is your religion, if any? a mess

40. Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist? yep currently seeing one

41. Are looks important in a relationship? not really?

42. Are you more like your mom or your dad? hopefully neither

43. What is your favorite season? summer!!!

44. Do you have any tattoos? like 2

45. Do you have any piercings? like 9 hopefully gonna make it 11 soon

46. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? three

47. Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character? lydia deetz when i was like 7 

48. Who is your celebrity crush? winona ryder 

49. Are you a virgin? not answering

50. Do you get jealous easily? i literally cant name a time i’ve been truly jealous

51. What is your favorite type of food? sweets

52. Do you ever want to get married? i see no point in signing a legally binding document that ties me to a person for the foreseeable future. if anything it sounds like really bad dangerous idea.

53. Who was your first kiss with? a girl named maggie in the 6th grade and not the maggie that i post about

54. Have you ever been cheated on? no

55. What is your idea of the perfect date? sitting on a rooftop of a parking garage downtown at night taking photos and enjoying the view of the buildings around eating fries from some fast food place

56. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? extroverted introvert

57. Do you believe in aliens or life on other planets? i wouldn’t be suprised

58. What talent do you wish you’d been born with? a way with words that doesnt make me seem like an asshole half the time

59. What is your saddest memory? when i lost contact with my parter for two and a half years

60. Do you believe in love at first sight? no

61. Do you believe in soul mates? yes

62. Have you ever dyed your hair? all the time

63. Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you? no

64. Would you go against your moral code for money? no

65. What are three things most people don’t know about you? 1 i have a kid 2 im partially deaf 3 im in mensa

66. Who are you jealous of? no one really

67. Do you sleep with a stuffed toy? a plush heart from my partner

68. How long was your longest relationship? dont know

69. Is the glass half empty or half full? the glass is half full of air and half full of liquid and therefore completely full

70. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? no

71. Who is your most loyal friend? Maggie Lizard U.

72. Are you in a relationship?  yes

73. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? everything

74. Are you a bad person? it feels like it some days

75. Are you a lover or a fighter? lover

76. What did you do on your last birthday? i dont do anything for my birthday ever

77. What is your favorite quote and why? 

“ there are 7 billion 47 million people on the planetAnd I have the audacity to think I matterI know it's a lie but I prefer it to the alternative”Because you do have to convince yourself there’s value to your life. even if you know deep down there’s nothing because if  you dont you’ll walk down a very dark and dangerous road with only one end. and its not a very pleasant one

78. If your best friend died, what would you do? given she’s the reason im alive i’d probably be completely unable to cope 

79. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be? i dont even know

80. If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you do? i’d call the people i love and tell them i love them and try to hang out with them if i could

81. What is the strangest dream you’ve ever had? the only dream i can remember is sitting on a curb with maggie playing some jenga like game next to a crashed helicopter surrounded by terrified people with guns and we were just smiling watching a giant giant gaint ship come barreling towards us and i KNew that it was the start of the end of the world. 

82. Are you happier single or in a relationship? i think the same. depends on the relationship.

83. Who were you in a past life? some Victorian bastard

84. What is your happiest childhood memory? driving around around midnight through downtown milwaukee after a death cab concert at the rave

85. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? yes

86. Have you ever had an imaginary friend? no but my sister had an imaginary friend called mr fork taht she never questioned and she thought when she got older he’d turn into mr knife. she didnt like mr fork and she wanted him to leave

87. If you were the president, what would you do? step down

88. What is your ideal career? i plan on going into phsychology and becomning a therapist ideally i want to run a shelter for run-aways or kids that got kicked out that would provide a stable enviroment and gave kids a place to stay as long as needed and if possible get the parents into therapy with those kids and resolve the home conflicts while the kids are still in the care of the shelter to ensure that they’re not mistreated as a result of anything that was said 

89. What is your political affiliation? socialist at minimum

90. Are you conservative or liberal? liberal

91. Is the male or female body closest to perfection? what the hell is perfection??

92. Do you like kissing in public? depends on the place

93. If you could change one thing in the world, what would you change? create healthy equality 

94. Where would you like to live? in the middle of a giant bustling city like new york or hong kong or in a secluded pine forest running on solar pannels and well water and being completely sustainable

95. Where would you go on your dream vacation?

everywhere

96. Describe yourself in one word.

headache

97. Describe yourself in one sentence.

a dumbass who is really trying their hardest and it just doesnt wanna work

[cybernightwanderer]

...

I wake up early, i make my breakfast and i start a game of league of legends TFT match, i eat my breakfast fast because i dont really feel like eating , and nowdays food just makes me nauseas and i barely have apetite. I finish eating, but im still at the start of the game, at that moment i was kinda chill just doing my game. My mom knocks on the door agressivly and tells me to go take out the trash, like she’s comanding a trained dog. I tell her, im doing something and as soon as im done i will take it. And she yells, “ Take it now, you better take it now, TAKE IT NOW, its not later, its now, i told you “ At this point im filled with anxiety, and feel like trowing up. Around 6-8 minutes later she bursts into my room , almost getting in my face, yelling and yelling non stop, and threatning me. Take the trash now, its not later, you never take it, take it now, i want you to take it now. Note : I am the one that usualy takes out the trash, we recicle , so around the mid of the week i take the full recicable ones, so we dont waste as much bags. The normal one i take ocassionaly, when she doesnt , i do and vice versa, usualy take every 2 days. The day before yesterday i took the trash out normal and recicable. Yesterday i took the normal one. She goes out everymorning to run, and never takes any bags, so they end up acumulating, because i cant take them all. Yesterday we only had 2 bags, plastic and normal one, but the normal one got really full because she trew a lot of stuff out and cutted vegetables, so i woke up this morning and there were 2 garbadge bags and 1 plastic still. And everytime we have a fight she goes into dog trainer mode, in wich im the dog, and she gets me all sorts of last minute chores to do and she will mistreat me  non stop and threaten to beat me if i dont do it right away, even if i do it she persists on the atitude. Like me washing the bathroom one day , and the next day she wants me to wash it again , and the day after just because she is mad ( note she hasnt washed that bathroom for years now, im always the one to do it ) I dont think i can deal with this any longer, too many years suffering emocional, physical and verbal abuse. How does a person live like this? How does a person live? I dont want to die, but at the same time , i dont want to suffer anymore. I really need to die, i cant take this any longer..... I’m really struggling not to kill myself, im trying to convince myself not to, but its getting harder and harder by the day...

[azazeldream]

what do i fucking do? he's killing me, ruining perfectly good days of mine, im getting such ptsd from my ex, i never thought he would make me feel like this

i just want him to love me again, literally it was so random, just bc he's in a bad mental place i deserve all of this?

indifference

lack of love

everything i feared

i just want his love back

it's killing me, ruining me

im barely alive

he's making me feel out of control.. making me loose control

i know this feeling.. my last relationship, nonononono

i give everything, everything, everything, the kind of love people crave, specially when they're down or lost

he gives me..

nothing

nothing

nothing

what do i need to do? ill do anything? do people change? he changed, he'll change back, how??? how?

fuck

i thought i got out of the circle

im here again, hi, im Isaac, i love my partner, they mistreat me, im still here, doing everything for them to love me back. it's driving me crazy. i always end up doing this. :) always, always, always, always. everytime i love this much

when the fuck is someone gonna match my energy jesus christ, and not just for a couple of months and then break my heart and my sanity, like always jesus christ

what is it with people and fixing me just to end up breaking me? fuuuck

throw me to the dogs, then give me a flower, and leave me behind, bleeding, in limbo, with no choice but to cry in pain, am i supposed to try better? noo, he LITERALLY wont let you ahahah, am i supposed to move on? well he LITERALLY gives you no fucking answer

so im in limbo, bleeding, and bleeding, all my bones are broken, i cant move

i cant move on, i mean wtf you're the perfect man for 3 months, we make plans to go to england together, you tell me you're never letting me go, and all of a sudden.. i have to let you go?

literally almost all my friends say we're gonna get back together

daniela was completely cold with me

i might not get into uni

daniel has been so rude to me

i might not get into uni

i miss eliise with every broken bone of mine

i might not get into uni

i dreamed that kasper said hi to me directly and smiling..

i couldn't go to res with my friends.. bc im trans and my name is not changed yet :) yup

i didnt want to kiss her.. i had to, i feel disgusting and i do not know how ill look her in the eye ever again

im getting anorexic behavior again

my family.. jesus christ, yesterday i was all day trapped in this house, today is gonna be the same

i couldn't move out of bed, even if someone dragged me, i couldn't eat, even if i tried, i only peed once and i didnt even drink water, i just watched the same tv show, cried, and cried, and cried, and hurt, im trapped in misery and pain, today if i had woken up with a message like you usually leave? i would've cried of happiness, that's how sensitive and hurt i am

(im crying, yey)

im always moping around, my sister is so worried, and i cant tell her anything, or she will be so disappointed with me, that i put myself in the same situation over and over again, when it's not with the same person it's with a new one

im sorry sister, im sorry friends

i dont even feel like cutting, i feel like dying

[herokind]

RULES:  List five tropes applicable to your character, then tag others to do the same. (Tropes Wiki) REPOST! DO NOT REBLOG.

Tagged by: @pearlfectionate​ & @psychop0mp​ Tagging: @mizismallshy​ @doctorgneiss​ @fridgestuck​ @bunjijumping​ @sapphiredrop​ @voidofair​ @justicescales​ idk who else to tag but @ anyone who wants to do this b/c it looks fun u have fun u do what u want u dont let the man tell u want u can and can’t do this is a people’s country we fight for the right to eat pizza for breakfast

THE DOG BITES BACK

vriska serket has paralyzed tavros from the waist down, killed one of his friends, demanded he kill her, forcibly kissed him, demanded he apologize for his disability, and watched him get rejected by his crush, consequently laughing in his face for it. he takes all of it believing to be her ‘friend’. the last straw was her grand plan that could potentially kill them all, to which tavros did not stay silent. in homestuck, just after the canon point i assigned him, he takes up his lance and hunts vriska down, hoping to kill her after years of mistreatment and to finally rid the party of her looming threat. he ends up skewered by his own lance.

OBLIVIOUS TO LOVE

and he’s received a lot of loving. he was completely unaware that both gamzee and vriska were attracted to him, and became immediately uncomfortable with both instances when they came to light. he is as oblivious as he is ignorant, unaware of the implications his double entendres may carry, and unaware of how to actually court the girls he likes. it’s a wonder that tavros in the city has a genuine matesprit, really. took him long enough.

BACK FROM THE DEAD

in every (main) timeline known to homestuck, tavros is resurrected as a sprite. we see tavrisprite in the game over timeline, an arrangement that lasts about 2 seconds before blowing up in everyone’s faces. in the alpha timeline, tavros is resurrected as his own person, then forced to live as an entity he’s allergic to for the rest of his life. even in the city, i’ve pulled tavros from just before his death, ages before the canon point of most of the homestuck cast, surprising everyone with a tavros that is very much alive. 

ACTUAL PACIFIST

tavros makes it through sgrub, an rpg where you are immediately accosted by aggressive monsters upon entering the actual game, without killing a single entity. instead, as the enemies are all some part fauna, and he has the power to control all any any beasts with his mind, he commands his enemies to carry him around and assist him in solving puzzles. this is attributed to the fact that tavros hates any form of actual violence. after the game, he does try to kill vriska and indirectly causes the death of his crush’s grandfather believing he was an intruder-- and in hive city, he does kill several people, including his alternate self-- but let’s just give him the title since it’s a pretty amazing feat for a comic like homestuck.

THROW THE DOG A BONE

after multiple timelines worth of suffering from the abuse of vriska, tavros one-ups her in the endgame by managing to amass twice the army vriska lost herself pre-retcon-- simply by befriending everyone in the dream bubbles. tavros was formerly mocked for being a troll of ridiculously nice proportions, but proves in the end that being nice has its uses. he also has several panels worth of a victory dance to celebrate this massive feat that vriska was unable to perform. however, his potential as a page of breath was unfortunately discarded, and, still, he ends up bestowing his entire army to an incarnation of the troll his ancestor rebelled directly against.

[tumblunni]

The big post about how i love my sneasel who is great

Welcome to that post. It might get long.

Reaper the level 100 Naughty nature Sneasel with Keen Eye who experienced pokerus once and has contest ribbons from too many regions oh my gosh Leeeeeeets get going on how much I adore my little guy!

Okay, the story behind him. He is kinda unofficially my starter pokemon?

Cos of course there was no way to keep your mons from RBY and GSC back then, but I’d kinda only had one pokemon anyway. I was a dumb kid who just solo’d both games with my raichu Chuppy. And sadly I ended up losing them even before the whole transfer issue, someone stole my Gold cartridge during school and when I found it half smashed in the playground all the data had been corrupted. It did actually play though, just with some colour issues I think? I never really restarted cos it felt cruel to Chuppy to do it. So I’m happy that the virtual console rerelease let me reincarnate Chuppy and even make them a cool new alola form! (though they had a different gender this time, but meh i get to headcanon my chu is trans like me, haha) So yeah thats the story of my official first pokemon, but Chuppy didnt really have any personality or headcanons back then cos I was so new to the franchise. And Reaper ended up lasting way longer and sharing every single other region with me, so he kinda took the spot of ‘starter’ even if he wasnt ‘first’. (I still was really happy to welcome reincarnation Chuppy home tho!)

Reaper actually came from Pokemon Colosseum, of all places! His OT name is the completely-wrong ‘Tom’ cos he was from when I restarted my game after getting stuck and just buttonmashed one of the default names out of frustration. I actually caught him in a master ball just cos I was that excited to hug the lil guy! Sneasel was my fave gen 2 mon but i never managed to catch one actually in GSC, i didnt know it was limited to a rare encounter in the very last area. And even before I caught him I knew sneasel was in this game via guides, so i was waiting with baited breath and establishing headcanons even before i found him. Then I just COULD NOT WAIT, hence the master ball! XD I kinda preemptivel based him on the iron mask marauder’s sneasel from the celebi movie, cos shadow pokemon are similar to his brainwashing stuff. And I always liked his sneasel, scizor and tyranitar, for such minor roles they are. It was a nice nuance for the bad guy’s pokemon to be shown as VERY MUCH not evil, just enslaved by magic brainwashing and mistreated. It warmed my heart seeing them freeing each other and escaping in the end once the control was broken! But also it established sneasel as a really cool badass fighter that I wanted to have someday, yknow?

So yeah I got this guy from colosseum before I even played RSE, and he ended up being my ‘starter’ in that game so much that i cant even remember which one i picked. I boxed it right away and never thought about it again, I was a callous kid! It was actually really interesting playing ORAS and finally getting to see what the hoenn starters are actually like, lol And Reaper remained my best friend across like ELEVEN OR MORE REPLAYS of every single gen 3 game except emerald. Cos at that time in my childhood i literally did not have any other games. i spent around three or four years with just sapphire, leafgreen and final fantasy tactics advance. (Oh boy that game’s script is stuck in my brain for all time) And getting attatched to the characters and making new ones all the time was how i kept from getting bored this way ^_^ Buuuuut... it kinda meant that I just discarded most of them super fast to make more. the only other pokemon that migrated to sinnoh with Reaper was Nether the sableye, who was kinda his rival/best friend. (Tho I mispelled it as Neava so he’s stuck that way, lol. And both of them are in all caps forever...) Nether is kinda the basis for my recent oc Malachi, so he’s like an entirely different story for another time. But he was my Sapphire buddy and Reaper was one region older via the power of spinoffs.

And oh man yeah i totally loved the shadow pokemon plot lol! I just headcanoned his plot with regards to that was the same as the marauder’s mons. Perfectly nice tiny sneasel boy is kidnapped and experimented upon by evils, but my love saved him and now he is soft once more. He didnt really have much angst from it, but it helped such a wild spirit grow to trust my hero and trust humans in general after such a rocky introduction to them. I imagined it was like training a dangerous dog to be a police canine, with that arm guard thing that they bite! Shadow pokemon training must be WAY more tough than it seems on the surface! So like ash’s charizard plot, where it ends up with really fire forged family love after all the hardship. I think that before he met my trainer he was just like a loner robin hood type character who valued his freedom and thought that tamed pokemon were all wusses. But alas, he was forced to experience human hugs, and now he’s addicted! but he’d still be quite rebellious and wild and have a lot of goofy cute interactions as he tries to learn all this complicated stuff about being a pet. Why cant I pee on the carpet?? Why do I have to eat pellet food? Why are you mad when i bring you dead mice and pidgey eggs?? bad bad influence on the other mons, but also a softhearted big bro who WANTS to be a good influence. He pretends to be all aloof and stoic cliche angsty antihero, but always messes up and looks cute instead! And he gets crushingly sad if any of his lil siblings actually does get afraid of him. Noooo the grumpyness is for the humans! Not for you!! No-one is allowed to pet the sneas except the other pokemon. It my duty to protect my new pack of strangely shaped sneasels! Oh and he likes booze. In human terms he’d be around 25-30, but still its not good for animals to drink human liquor. Never stopped him though! He’d always find ways to sniff it out and swipe half-finished cans from the trash and stuff. Bad angstman! I know thats part of your archetype but stop it!

So... basically he was like.. cloud? original version from ff7 where he was sassy and goofy sometimes, except reaper is like that all the time with less angst and pretty much zero ego. He’s just like a kind yet not completely competant fun uncle who tries his best to put up a cool guy front to impress the kids (and push away scary humans) but his innate sweetness means he always messes up. And he’s super tsundere about the fact he considers his trainer part of his infinate pack of children, even if every other human is DANGER MODE. Must protect this human from the other ones! Must teach them the ways of the sneas! Oh, and I imagined his appearance as a gijinka would be kinda like Squall from ff8. cos he actually started off as a parody of that unlikeable angstman archetype, and i didnt even know Cloud existed until yeaaaars later. (Played the ffs completely out of order...) So i figured he’d be like squall but with dark skin and a kinda sirus black hairstyle. (Cos that guy contributed the kind uncle part of his inspiration!) Oh and of course a sneasely colourscheme for the fur coat. And I ended up making him hold Blackglasses so often that it was an in-joke that he actually wore shades 24/7 even in normal pokemon form XD

When I first got him in Collosseum he was really useful for his Brick Break move, and im actually really happy that the brick break image on bulbapedia is the collosseum sneasel using it! It was very very good as one of the few mons available with that move in the very limited choices you had for that game. But his signature move kinda ended up being Surf, even though his stats would have been awful for it even if I’d ev trained him properly XD I just found it so bizarre that sneasel of all things could learn that HM! I imagined he formed a surfboard out of ice to carry the trainer, cos there’s no way you could stand on the back of a 30cm tall weasel...

And man lets just have some random sneasel headcanons now!

* Their feathers exist to sense wind fluctuations, which are useful in their natural environment to anticipate snowstorms and track prey in low visibility.

* The ear feather is just for this, its the more sensitive one. The tail feathers are more for manipulating objects and other day to day life. They’re more matted and dont really have the same hearing ability, but the joints are way more flexible so they can be moved independantly like three actual tails. Sneasels can pick up small delicate objects by brushing them up between the tails, then rolling them down their back to reach their mouth. they also use the tails to brush away dirt, hide their tracks in the snow, form surprisingly intricate igloo-like nests and groom their fur with the utmost precision.

* Sneasels will outright resent any attempts to groom them by anyone but their closest human friend, since inevitably humans cant do as good of a job. But humans can scratch behind your ears and give cuddles, so it all works out!

* In the wild, sneasels eat primarily eggs, some nuts and berries, scavenged semi-rotten meat and not so much live prey. Even though they’re very skilled, they’re also very fragile and cautious because of it. They’ll only hunt in extreme situations, instead preferring to confuse and mislead their way to dinner. Sneasels are very social and loyal to each other even if they’re not to anyone else. Their most common strategy is the whole pack wards off a dangerous foe while one lone unit sneaks past and robs that pokemon’s food stores, to share with the family. Even if they’re forced to hunt their own prey, they still follow these strategies and try to just outrun the enemy until it dies of exhaustion or freezes in the blizzard. They’re experts of making cuts that disable but don’t kill- going in close enough to deliver that final blow means risking a valuable pack member’s life!

Not really a headcanon now but back to reaper himself, I always kinda imagine him looking more like a real weasel. I like sneasel’s design but the bipedal humanoid proportions arent exactly the best thing, yknow? i feel like it should have had shorter more pawlike back legs and just been top-heavy with the super claws. Like.. I imagine kinda a furret? just the appeal of actual weasels and stoats plz. I love sneasel but when i looked up weasels as a kid i was like MY HEART!!! they’re sock puppet babies with lint fuzz faces Also I think sneasel’s claws are kinda comically short and boring considering theyre like its Big Feature. I liked when they were drawn a bit longer in older artworks, and i always imagined reaper had longer ones like scyther-y level. Thats why I named him that! Crescent moon claws of awesomeness, striking in the night~! ...he would be really cool if he wasnt such a cuddly dork. I love him so much, he’s my baby. And my dad. And my uncle?? he’s just a very good friend and im happy videogames can touch my heart like nothing else let me love my nonexistant magic weasel from cyberspace forevermore~!

[chinon]

Can you please do 1-20 on the over sharing ask thing I'm nosy

fcjdxjdss thats So Many im cryin but ok i got nothin else to do anyway so

1. Who hurt you the most?

hm oh boy probably either the people who traumatized me during my childhood or this girl ive known since kindergarten tbh

2. Who have you hurt the most?

gosh idk ive hurt quite a bit of people i think ?idk about who’s gotten the worst of it....i could be edgy and say myself lmfao,,i think thats pretty accurate i guess

3. Who do you miss the most?

ive never missed a human ive only ever missed my dog so her lmao

4. Who do you want out of your life the most?

lol i dont stick around people i dont like so ??no one really...me from a year ago would say my moms husband bc i hate(d?) him but now its like,,hes not going anywhere so i decided to stop wasting that energy on him you know i just live with him now

5. Who had the biggest positive impact on you?

hm on an emotional level probably my last friend group bc i grew up real cold and mean and nasty bc trauma stuff but i realized that after knowing them ive really softened up and like,,tbh they kind of taught me how to love and how to at least somewhat access those types of feelings

6. Who had the biggest negative impact on you?

probably those who traumatized me tbh

7. Who do you wish you could be honest with?

no one im perfectly fine with lying about the things i do to the people i lie to lmao

8. Who have you harbored (any kind of!) secret feelings towards?

probably those i love but tbh its not really a Secret its more like Idk How To Express Emotions Or Feelings so the people i care about never really know just How Much i care about them

9. Who would the world be better off without?

yts

10. Who do you wish you’d treated differently?

ive mistreated a lot of people in my life but the ones i kind of wish i didnt are the people i cared about/loved that ended up leaving

11. What was the worst day of your life?

i have no idea lmao my brain represses a lot

12. What’s your greatest fear?

really my only fear is being stalked lmao

13. What’s your biggest insecurity?

my brain doesnt really function in that way like quantifying/ranking things so theyre all kind of equal lmao,,my height, my teeth, my body, how my skull is really crooked l m f a o 

14. What’s your biggest regret?

i really only feel bad about hurting those i love/care about and the one that sticks out the most is probably what i did to the people in my last friend group

15. Describe your ideal world.

no humans just animals living peacefully

16. Describe your personal hell.

in theory? legitimately being stalked

17. What’s a hopeless dream you’re still holding on to?

im still trying to get over my ex

18. What’s the most embarrassed you’ve ever been?

guaranteed that shit has been Repressed(TM) lmfao

19. What’s the angriest you’ve ever been?

idk maybe that night the girl i share a wall with was being loud asl on the phone or something from like 11pm-2am while i was trying to study lmfao wooo boy that was A Night

20. What’s the saddest you’ve ever been?

id have to say the first couple months of 2016 tbh

[the-devils-weakness]

I am starting a story. They guys in the story are based off of the sexy Leto brothers.. Hope yall like it.. Please be nice just starting this up.

This is a story about best friends , Langston and Lyric... Music brought them together. Welcome to their life of love, music ,and a little madness and darkness..

THE FIRST PART OF THE STORY IS HOW THE GIRLS FEEL ABOUT EACH OTHER

Lyric oh goodness she is my partner in crime my rock. I watch her as we are sitting outside on my porch.. Shes my dark beauty her Raven like hair in a mess singing our song " Cuts deep "by Inferno... I think... What the hell i would do without her. We came into each other's life at the perfect time... she's my soulmate my shoulder to cry on. My best friend til the end of time.. We have been best friends since we were 16...i love her with all my heart.

My little Lang.. Langston my rainbow bright straight from hell... Shes my everything... She has saved me she is my riot,my soulmate..without her i wouldnt be here i watch her download new songs from Inferno... Huge smile on her face our story is just beginning ooh what a ride it will be...

chapter one

7am Saturday , Lyric will kill me for waking her up this early. But oh well its my right as a best friend to attack her with awesome news! I open the door of her house run and jump on her bed RIC WAKE UP!!!! she screams and kicks me off her bed . Dammit Lang what the hell? Why are you trying to kill me? I have to laugh she's so dramatic at times.. Well buttercup your bestie has won us tickets and backstage passes to Inferno. Before i can say anything else, she jumps off the bed and wraps me in a huge hug. Oh Lang im sorry for kicking you. Her trying to sound sweet makes me laugh.. So darlin in 3 weeks we will be in front of Inferno!!!!!!

Our screams make her older brother Sam, and his friends Nick and luke, run into the room. They are watching us freak out . What the hell is going on in her Lyric? We stop our happy dance, Sam why do you care? And if you must know Langston won tickets and backstage passes to Inferno in 3 weeks ! He looks at us like we are crazy, his asshole of a friend Luke looks at Langston, like she some kind of science experiment. I knew he was going to say something horrible, and i was right he slowly walks over to her and then it happens..

Wow what the hell are you? Did Halloween forget you when the holiday was over? You look like a part of the addams family,that a rainbow puked on.. Couldn't just pick one color? I see you love skulls ... I watched her face as he broke her down her green eyes filling with tears that she holding back. She plays with her bracelets that hide the scars from her past .

i look at my brother begging him to do something about his friend , he just stands there laughing he knows about her past , he was there the last time she cut , he was at the hospital . she looks at me like she is lost and i begin to cry for her. she looks at Sam and starts to yell at him

What the fuck is wrong with you sam ? i never thought you would be this much of a asshole! he looks at her and dont say a word, luke thinks this is the best thing in the world and he is now laughing right in her face . then i see it the look of no return she is going to freak out. she looks a luke and without warning she punches him right in the face , he falls to the ground . i ran over to her and wrap her up in a huge hug lets get out of here Lang .

we sit in her car for what seems like hours , she finally talks , lyric can we just run away ?i am sick of this shit i am so done with your brother and his friends . your brother can kiss my ass i dont want anything to do with him at all. i know she is hurt he has been like her big brother she loves him to death and he treats her like she is nothing when he is with his friends he dont care much for me either and i get why she is hurt .

she wipes her tears and smiles that smile that makes my heart happy. guess what i did darlin. she hands me a set of keys , i look at her kinda lost because she is the type to do something without warning . what the hell are these to ? well my dear they are the keys to our new apartment i signed the paper work last night and wanted to surprise you . we move in this weekend you little creep when did you have the time to do this without me knowing ? Lyric i am just that good she laughs ..

moving day moving day bitches look out we are here i cant help it i am so excited. Lyric is trying not to drop a huge box she claims she didnt need help with. i get my cat carrier that is far to large for no reason with my cat who is less then impressed to be in it . Oh Cinder we are home , she makes a noise to which i take as get me the hell out of here .i walk up the stairs cussing myself out for getting this huge cat carrier . i finally get get to the door i walk in and set the carrier down . the second i open it Cinder runs out and jumps in the window. The diva has found her spot Lyric, and she is pleased with her new home . lyric comes out of her room.

she looks at my cat , yes she looks very happy to be out of her hell box . she walks over to her and pets her , Lyric got her for me, three years ago for my birthday she was a little black fluff ball with a big red bow . Both of them help me thur the hardest times and i dont know what i would do without them. hey Lang before i forget i have to tell you we have another four legged critter in the house .oh really and who would that be? she smiles and says come her boy the next thing i know her huge black great dane beast dog knocks me over . Well hello Zane so happy you are here , Zane we got out of a shelter last year he was mistreated and Ric had to have him . he gives me a million kisses and goes over to the window by Cinder she licks his nose and goes to sleep . They are besties as well we finish getting the place unpacked for the most part . we end up passing out in the living room watching friday the 13th .

fucking nightmares , i get up to go get some water , i hope lyric didnt hear me she wishes she that there was something she could do .i havent been the same since my step dad told me he wanted nothing to do with me .he has been in my life since i was 3 years old . he could careless if i was dead or alive. i have always had issues with myself but him saying he didnt love me hurt alot . the day he wrote me off was when the cutting got worse . i wish i wasnt fucked up. i really dont know what i would do with Langston. i have my mom and my awesome sisters that are always there for me , and my real dad and his wife are amazing. i dont want to sound like a some sad girl with no family, but Lyric is different . i just wish i wasnt out of my mind , i know she would never leave me or stop wanting to be my best friend. damn sometimes i just wish i would just stop over thinking everything . i am wide awake there is no way i can go back to bed . i sit in the window with a book and turn the music on, Inferno's song "devil within " fills the room and i am relaxed i love this band to death they are how me and Lyric met . we know every word to all of the songs , we have Inferno stuff all over the house .. And we are in love with the singer Jace and his sexy drummer brother shane.

out of the corner of my eye i see a guy with and pink mohawk and ripped up jeans , going into the upstairs apartment across from me . i see him in the livingroom window the lights are low and he is talking to someone sitting in the livingroom with dark hair . then it hits me .. i am going crazy ! that it not Jace and Shane what the hell why would they have a place here ? its 4:30 in the morning . the more i look the more i freak out. no fucking way i must have said this way to loud and they both look out the window right at me and smile ... i wave like a huge nerd and run into Lyrics room. wake the the hell up! i think i am going insane . she looks at me like i have lost my mind , What is wrong Lang ? Dude i swear on everything i believe in that Jace and Shane Morgan are staying in the upstairs apartment across the way from us !!!! i tell her what i saw and she is looking at me like i have really lost it . please Ric come see i swear i am not seeing things . i take her to the window look babe please tell me i am not insane . she looks and sees Shane outside with no shirt on , she looks at me like she has seen a ghost .he notices and waves she looks at me and drags me into the hallway.

Langston what do we do now they are right there. i look at her and smile we get them to notice us more .

CHAPTER 2

4 days before the concert , langston and i havent seen the guys since that night we stayed up hoping to see them again . its midnight when i finally have a idea , Lang get the dog we are going for a walk . we change into one of our awesome outfits , langston is in her famous ripped up jeans that and her skull tank top . i am wearing my new skirt and red lust love shirt , we are gonna see the guys again if it kills us, we get zane outside and walk around grass area between the buidlings . Zane is running around like a lunatic langston has his ball but before she can do anything he runs at her and knocks her on her ass , and i start to laugh . she is on her back with the beast of a dog standing over her . then i hear them, nice dog sweetie, there Shane is standing there in his army pants and his black hoodie. I forgot how to talk so I just smile. Langston Relazies what is going on and gets off the ground and is met by jaces hand to help her up. She take it and looks at me in shock he smiles and walks her over to me holding her hand he is still holding it when Shane brings Zane back over he hands me his ball, and he grabs my arm and says how about you ladies come hang out? I smile and say sure I am sure I am sure I have a insane look on my face . Jace brings Langston to me take the dog home and come over. He smiles and they both walk away .

We run back to the apartment,we stand there looking at each other. Lyric please tell me this isn't a dream.. No Langston it's real I can't fucking believe it. I look out the window and there they are watching us and smiling. I give and shy wave and we walk out the door. We  walk up to the door and knock and I feel i Am going to puke.  Jace opens the door with a killer smile and let's us in,  Shane is on the couch he also smiles,  hey Lyric come shot next to me she moves over just enough for her to cuddle up next to him I.  I still can't believe this is going on.,  I feel  a arm around my waist come sit with me Langston Jace says in a low sexy voice.

So ladies how are you doing today?  Shane asks as he puts his arm around Lyric.  She turns her self against him well Shane we are pretty good got everything finally unpacked and now we are here with you guys   I would say we are pretty good.  And we are actually seeing you guys play in a few days.  His eyes light up well I am happy you will be there Lyric we will have to hang out after the show.   I couldn't agree more Shane she said,  her and I make eye contact she knows I am freaking out but hiding it very well.  She looks down at my wrists and seeing me playing with my bracelets. She winks at me silently telling me i got this,  I look at Jace who has moved a lot closer to me.  You excited about the show Langston?  He says my name and makes me wanna say take me now.  I can't wait for the show we actually won the tickets and backstage passes.  So it looks like we will have some one on one time for  a few minutes  .  He smiles and whispers I am looking forward to it.  And he holds my hand,  we hang out for hours talking and getting to know each other  .  It's 5am when we realize the time. 

Oh wow I can't believe we talked all night Jace says.  It feels like you ladies just got here,  thank you for having us over guys we say we needbro get going, men and lyric have to work in two hours and need lots of coffee.  Sorry to keep you ladies all night Shane says his arms still around Lyric.  It's more then alright Shane she smiles.  Jace pulls me into a huge.  See you later Langston and they both give us a kiss on the cheek. 

We walk in the house we are greeted  by cinder and Zane who act like they haven't seen us in years. We feed them and we get the coffee started.  lang look out the window lyric says softy,  Jace and Shane blow us a kiss and wave.

I can't believe this is happening and the look on lyrics face she can't either.  Can't wait to see where this goes.. 

Work is going by so slow , we are so hyper off coffee and just thinking about last night, i cant believe  

we hung out with jace and shane. Me and Langston dont tell anyone at work about the night , they would not believe us any way, We work at HIdeaway its a cool little shop that sells everything from music ,clothes and  jewelry ,  we have been the managers here for two years . we love it here we also get to look at Jace and shane all  day this store sells the most Inferno merchandise . The only bad part about this store is Lacy and katie , they think they run the place and think they are hot shit . they are only fans of guys in bands for the looks and money the kind of girls you want to punch the fuck out , and i have to say i am so shocked that Langston has not kicked lacys ass yet . Lacy and katie will also be at the concert and they are dead set on hooking up with the guys and they like to tell us what they have planed all the time just to piss us off. 

the phone rings 

 Hello this is Lacy , how can i help you? OOOH LANGSTON , you have a phone call.

Hello this is Langston , what can i do for you today ? hmm well that is loaded question, i can think of a few things you can do for me, right away i smile  well  hello you how are you doing ? I would be better if you were next to me  i bet you are tired from being up all night .Well you  amd your brother kept us up til 6am ! The second i say that Lyric looks at me with huge eyes  and smiles  lacy and katie are watching us and trying to figure out what is going on . Well we are sorry about that how about we bring you ladies some lunch? You guys wanna come here are you insane ! Jace laughs , well yeah  is that alright? Oh yeah it is you know where we work just be ready for the madness .  Everything will be okay baby  Shane and I will be there in like a hour , Shane is making sure he is all sexy for Lyric . Dude shut the  fuck up , i hear Shane yell  i can not help but laugh. See you guys soon we can eat lunch in our office text me when you guys are almost here . will do babe see you soon  . i hang up the phone 

Lyric is looking at me like she is dying to now what is going on . Lyric we have a lunch date in a hour , she looks like she is going to jump out of her skin  they are going to let us know when they are almost here . 

who is coming to have lunch with you freaks ? katie says in  her stuck up voice ,Lacy laughs . Ladies if you keep up being little brats i will treat you both like one and you wont be working here any more. You dont have to be so mean Lyric katie wines ,  A hour passes and still no word from Jace  i hope that everything is okay .Lyric is folding shirts in the corner and  i am tying to hang up posters, i am short and need a latte i cuss for having short legs , katie and Lacy are acting like they are working . i hear the front door open but dont think to much about it , i look over at Lyric just in time to see Shane wrap his arms around her . Hey Sweets , miss me she turns around and hugs him back , i am in a panic i dont see Jace at all ,  i get off the latter turn around and i am face to face with him , hey baby he picks me up and i wrap my legs around him. At that moment Lacy says . what the hell is going on here ?  she cant see Jace  his back is facing her and shane has Lyric in the corner of the store kissing her , katie is watching them in shock. I roll my eyes lacy our lunch is here we are gonna close up for lunch see you back in lets say two hours ?

Aww how cute Katie look  they need alone time with their fake dates . whats the matter guys dont want to be seen with the little freaks . they bust into laugher , jace holds me tighter and he turns around so now he is facing them. Do i look fake ? he says they have no idea what the hell is going on . Shane walks over holding Lyrics hand , what is going on man? katie and Lacy look at Shane then at Lyric . lyric gets a huge smile on her face she holds shanes hand tighter. 

jace kisses my neck still holding me against him, 

I will be writting more very soon... The next few days there will be more added

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Gremlins

Welcome to the 'highglossfinish' room. thenightetc: What... is this Knock Out: Excellent question. BBB: ö---ö thenightetc: That sure is a necklace he has there. Knock Out: It sure does exist. Knock Out: If the humans of Toronto have to live with this, so do you. BBB: good that I dont have to hear him.... seing that is already haunting enough..... Ö_ö Knock Out: Is the sound not working? thenightetc: It's working for me. thenightetc: Ahhhh, a nice wholesome christmas movie :) BBB: it surely is, I just can't turn it on at work.... could wake up a co worker ;P Knock Out: That would require some explaining. thenightetc: ...You know, considering what happens later in the movie, I would think that nearly everyone in the city has a story a LOT like this one.  Only with less explanation. Knock Out: ...When you're right, you're right. thenightetc: oh god. BBB: nothings better than greamlins at a dead nigh shift :D thenightetc: Always Be Closing

thenightetc: a tarantula! :D thenightetc: He should have gotten that instead.  Kids love spiders Knock Out: The town probably wishes he'd gotten him the spider, too. thenightetc: Right? Knock Out: I like how his idea of responsibility is locking it up in a box and leaving it where people can see. thenightetc: Right with all the stuff that IS for sale. thenightetc: Maybe the kid should have explained the other two rules. BBB: Well the ddad is not better... buying his son a present? SURE go for the shady chines guy with the strange things XD" Knock Out: Or should lied and said "It will die if you do any of these things." thenightetc: I mean, "don't feed him after midnight" is one thing, "if you feed him after midnight he will literally turn into a chaotic evil horrobeast" is another Knock Out: *Straight up thenightetc: Yeah, but then when he DID get wet and didn't die from it, they'd have known he lied. Knock Out: At that point, what does it matter? thenightetc: They might decide to test the other rule! Starscreamapillar: What is all this then? Knock Out: True. thenightetc: ...On the other hand, I wonder if the kid didn't know the reasons for the last two rules, either. Knock Out: Gremlins! thenightetc: Guy buys his kid a pet at a dodgy store with mysterious rules surrounding it, then everything goes bad. Starscreamapillar: I see. Mysterious pet rules rarely bode well. BBB: but honestly.... tell a kid 'dont do that your pet might multiply AND/OR turn into a monster' might get things just sped up... like.... kids aint smart agoodidstraction: what did i miss thenightetc: "Keep him out of bright light; he hates it and sunlight will kill him.  And keep him away from water and don't feed him after midnight, for reasons I'm not going to tell you." thenightetc: It might have made the guy think twice about buying it in the first place, though. thenightetc: Nobody wants to buy their kid a pet that'll turn into a literal monster! Starscreamapillar: And if you cannot sell a monster to some unsuspecting sucker, then what is even the point? thenightetc: Well, the store owner told him it wasn't for sale.  It was the store owner's grandkid who, suspiciously, got it for him. thenightetc: What the *** is her problem, anyway. Starscreamapillar: I am fairly certain torturing animals to death is not legal. thenightetc: You know from the way the dog just went after her, I have to figure she's been mistreating him in some way already. Starscreamapillar: Likely. BBB: THAT TV..... Starscreamapillar: I am going to predict those swords will be used later to hack up the consequences of poor decisions. thenightetc: Honestly, after the FIRST time that happened, I'd have mounted the swords more securely agoodidstraction: what kind of ant is that thenightetc: god it's like a Furby Starscreamapillar: So it is.... thenightetc: ...Hang on.  He can talk Starscreamapillar: What horror cannot? thenightetc: And he was just being kept as a pet? Knock Out: Oh no. He was being kept in a box in the corner. agoodidstraction: can other ants talk too?? thenightetc: God no. Knock Out: There's no proving they can't. thenightetc: These are purely fictional. agoodidstraction: ants are fictional? thenightetc: These aren't ants. agoodidstraction: that looks exactly like an ant Starscreamapillar: Not enough limbs for an ant. thenightetc: Are you kidding, he looks nothing like an ant. agoodidstraction: like a sugar ant mixed with a snow ant Starscreamapillar: . . . . Knock Out: Sugar snow. Sounds edible. agoodidstraction: Yum thenightetc: That seems like more juice and pulp than one orange should have. Thebes: Hello--oh, hey, Gremlins! thenightetc: Yes! Starscreamapillar: Did he not warn the child about the weird monster in his bed? thenightetc: yikes, that looks... painful. Thebes: well somethimes fantastical creatures in movies come with only just enough warnings to make ignoring those warnings sound like no big deal thenightetc: Uh oh thenightetc: STripe. Starscreamapillar: If they breed this easily, why is Earth not over-run? agoodidstraction: uhhhhhhhhhhh thenightetc: Well, sunlight kills them. thenightetc: Cute.  Yes. thenightetc: TBH it seems like Gizmo.... knows. thenightetc: Like he's the last survivor of what happened last time, and we know there was a last time because otherwise where did the rules come from. Thebes: It's implied he's... been through this before Knock Out: Possibly many times. Starscreamapillar: Hence being locked in a box in a corner in a junk shop? thenightetc: Yes. Windchill: *That feel when you appear at precisely the right moment.* Knock Out: And he was so happy, sleeping in a proper bed and watching his little movies, daring to hope it wouldn't happen again. agoodidstraction: reminds me of school Knock Out: Something wicked this way comes. thenightetc: you didn't "invent" those, dude. Knock Out: Hello, Windchill. Thebes: also how are you going to make money on anything that multiplies with tap water thenightetc: yaaaargh agoodidstraction: ahhh Windchill: *Pocahontas wave* thenightetc: poor puppy agoodidstraction: why are humans addicted to anxiety Windchill: Ew. agoodidstraction: how do they live like that Starscreamapillar: That looks like the sludge the medics drink. BBB: its fun? caffienatedconfetti: what are we watching? thenightetc: dude no Windchill: Well. Windchill: That's disturbing. agoodidstraction: ants Starscreamapillar: Bad decisions in motion. caffienatedconfetti: no but seriously thenightetc: He's gonna regret that later. Starscreamapillar: Gremlins, I hear. caffienatedconfetti: oooooo caffienatedconfetti: no please caffienatedconfetti: no thank you caffienatedconfetti: furbies Thebes: honestly the furbies aren't that bad! Windchill: Oh no, Furbies are on a whole 'nother level. Thebes: relatively Windchill: Way worse than Gremlins. caffienatedconfetti: demons agoodidstraction: how can they be worse? agoodidstraction: these are the weirdest ants i've ever seen Starscreamapillar: I lived through the Furby craze. They didn't multiply that quickly. Windchill: Just see what happens when they run low on batteries. caffienatedconfetti: ants????? BBB: or turn on at night thenightetc: He.... drives places in a tractor? agoodidstraction: alright i'm gonna start a furby collection Starscreamapillar: It is an American tractor. caffienatedconfetti: why ants Windchill: Man. thenightetc: I don't think they're made for street speeds, though agoodidstraction: you know, small furry things Windchill: If people stood outside my house and howled like that, I'd shoot 'em. thenightetc: Now I'm picturing it caffienatedconfetti: ants dont have fur????? caffienatedconfetti: they're tiny bugs Starscreamapillar: Aah. That makes more sense. caffienatedconfetti: they're suder duper small caffienatedconfetti: and also someof them bite thenightetc: Apparently that's not true. thenightetc: ^about the suicide rate caffienatedconfetti: who told you that about ants tho agoodidstraction: i had a fire ant and she bit a lot Windchill: But it WAS super edgy to say. thenightetc: (Anyway this is a furby :) https://img00.deviantart.net/e6a1/i/2004/136/8/2/dissected_furby.jpg ) caffienatedconfetti: ....dude fire ants are smaller than a human's fingernail how did you 'have' a fire ant???? Windchill: Um. Knock Out: Liar. BBB: ouch D: Windchill: Typical. Knock Out: That needle's the size of his entire arm. agoodidstraction: don't ask me, it was anon magic. they gave me a fire ant. Windchill: You're a huge seed pod. agoodidstraction: No you thenightetc: So what does this "fire ant" look like caffienatedconfetti: you don't alk about ants in the singular agoodidstraction: I'm the one with the mohawk caffienatedconfetti: they're always in groups thenightetc: ...You've seen this before, haven't you. Starscreamapillar: Yes, who wouldn't want a box of screaming creatures in their house as pets? agoodidstraction: no agoodidstraction: he looks like me caffienatedconfetti: what' thenightetc: ...just you wait. BBB: thats SO gross BBB: every time... Windchill: That's a little too close to home. thenightetc: oh my god, they have like.  human teeth. caffienatedconfetti: ewwww caffienatedconfetti: oh lorf caffienatedconfetti: no thank you agoodidstraction: lorf Windchill: Who just leaves their sandwich just laying around overnight? Starscreamapillar: A bad scientist. agoodidstraction: I leave my sandwich just laying around overnight all the time thenightetc: Someone unconcerned with food poisoning? Windchill: A lying scientist. BBB: and someone without pets roaming around... BBB: (or roommates) agoodidstraction: ?? whoa caffienatedconfetti: those are some big doo doos Windchill: They look like poops. Starscreamapillar: . . . That never ends well. Smash those immediately. BBB: kinda reminds one of the alien movies XD" Windchill: They look like the eggs in that notoriously awful Godzilla movie. Windchill: 'Cept this film came first. caffienatedconfetti: we oughta watch alien sometime caffienatedconfetti: ripley is badass and a 10000/10 agoodidstraction: why does the phone sound haunted caffienatedconfetti: because its old thenightetc: One of their dad's inventions. thenightetc: He invents stuff that's broken and buggy. Windchill: To watch any of the Alien films is to sit through several hours of people discussing their oviposition kinks. Starscreamapillar: They have their own Que. Windchill: No thanks. agoodidstraction: what now caffienatedconfetti: ewwww Thebes: wait there's movies on the internet that don't result in people discussing their kinks? Starscreamapillar: Failed inventor who won't stop making garbage. Windchill: ...Probably not. caffienatedconfetti: starscream's throwing shade thenightetc: Accurate description agoodidstraction: hey garbage to greatness Windchill: Who's this, the Wicked Witch? thenightetc: Pretty much! Windchill: Fantastic. caffienatedconfetti: welp i have something importaant tomorrow, i'm just dropping by Windchill: Gross. agoodidstraction: see ya caffienatedconfetti: and it seems im leaving at jusr rhew right time thenightetc: Goodnight! agoodidstraction: don't let the ants bite caffienatedconfetti: goodbye Knock Out: Goodnight! thenightetc: I feel sorry for Gizmo.  He knows what's coming, but he can't communicate it to anyone who could do something about it. Starscreamapillar: Why couldn't he? He speaks. Windchill: Maybe he's just stupid? Knock Out: He's incapable of saying anything that isn't adorable. thenightetc: Yeah, but he only seems to know a few phrases.  Maybe he doesn't fully understand the language, or maybe he isn't physically able to say more words than that. Windchill: Maybe...it's for plot convenience. BBB: maybe like a parrot? Windchill: Turn on the lights you absolute madman. Starscreamapillar: I feel this man is being reckless in handling his unknown monster. Knock Out: I'm surprised he didn't rat them out when they were making a fuss for food. Knock Out: He clearly knew it was after midnight, he turned down the chicken. agoodidstraction: caca BBB: horror movie rule 2: never turn on the light, it might be a good idea... Starscreamapillar: Admittedly, they know that these things dislike the light. thenightetc: Yeah, they seem to have a sense of when midnight is and know what happens BBB: .... but when does the midnight rule end? Starscreamapillar: Surprise surprise, the black man did not survive the movie. Knock Out: Sunrise, maybe? Windchill: It's like Jurassic Park all over again. thenightetc: That would make sense, although who knows really. Windchill: 'Cept this film is older. BBB: would make sense! Thebes: probably goes from midnight to sunrise, since, you know. light kills. Windchill: Wow. thenightetc: My theory is they're some kind of fairy, and operate on fairy-tale logic. Windchill: At least she's thinking ahead, but I doubt that's gonna be enough. Thebes: listen to the distressed muppet, 80's mom! Avoid! agoodidstraction: too high for this thenightetc: At least he managed to tell her the important part first Starscreamapillar: That fist. Windchill: Someone's got the right idea. Windchill: If it were me, first thing I'd do was eat all the cookies too. agoodidstraction: what Knock Out: It's got its priorities in order. Starscreamapillar: She could have fled the house by now. They have a front door. Thebes: ... so I'm sorry in advance but--THIS WEEK, ON DOES IT BLEND agoodidstraction: oh no agoodidstraction: ahhhhhhhhhhh Windchill: She's doing a number on 'em so far. agoodidstraction: yeah two knives agoodidstraction: swish swish *** Starscreamapillar: But she is alone. All it takes is one slip up, and she is without backup. BBB: aww missed the fun part XD Windchill: I think the cookie pan shield and a knife was a better loadout. agoodidstraction: there i am Windchill: I always knew trees were bad news. thenightetc: Swords prominently in ferame thenightetc: YEP Starscreamapillar: I was right. Windchill: Wow. agoodidstraction: me Windchill: Grotesque. agoodidstraction: bye Windchill: He's gone. Windchill: You could hear the sound of his little feeties. Windchill: Vanishing into the night. Windchill: So...he went back alone? Starscreamapillar: He's stupid. Windchill: Moron. thenightetc: can hear him thinking like, "jesus christ mom" as he looks over the carnage Starscreamapillar: Walking the street with a sword, and a monster in your bag. Yes, that isn't suspicious. Starscreamapillar: No one has called the police about the corpse still in the school. Windchill: *Temptation to sing Y.M.C.A. rising.* agoodidstraction: me going for a swim thenightetc: And there's you having a million evil babies. Knock Out: If a glass of water was agonizing, I can't imagine how much that one hurts. Starscreamapillar: Apparently worth it, to spawn an army. agoodidstraction: i'm a proud daddy Knock Out: A million clones of yourself. agoodidstraction: just what i need agoodidstraction: more *** clones Windchill: Amazing. Thebes: KID, BRING PROOF Starscreamapillar: He's got a few dead ones at home he could use as evidence. thenightetc: Yeah, that's true.  He could have brought those Windchill: It's already dark in there, what the heck. agoodidstraction: yum yum Knock Out: Wheeljack hitting the town. agoodidstraction: me n my clones Windchill: Nice ride. thenightetc: I love this music, though. agoodidstraction: party Starscreamapillar: Death by failing to actually flee. Windchill: Did...they not have a back door? thenightetc: "Monsters, you say?" Starscreamapillar: "Accident" Windchill: *SNORTS* Starscreamapillar: Of course, she has cats. thenightetc: Hey!  Cats are actually great. Windchill: They better be nice to the cats. thenightetc: It's not THEIR fault she's a horrible person Windchill: What a reaction thenightetc: Wait is she saying she thinks they're literal demons, from hell thenightetc: Hhahahaha agoodidstraction: frag hahadls agoodidstraction: aaaaaaa BBB: wtf O___o Starscreamapillar: *Snrks* Windchill: Oh my god. BBB: santa!!! agoodidstraction: hahaaha Windchill: As usual, the police are useless. Starscreamapillar: Yes, leave the man to die. Thebes: to be entirely fair, pirahna-muppets are outside most people's experience agoodidstraction: wow Thebes: to the degree they probably didn't check the trunk, for instance agoodidstraction: that's a lot of dead people Starscreamapillar: A fine holiday massacre. thenightetc: "Hey!  You're not Rockin' Ricky fans!" thenightetc: oh my god thenightetc: here he goes again Windchill: Amazing. Windchill: These guys know how to party. agoodidstraction: oh yeah Starscreamapillar: Reminds me of the Nemesis, before it crashed. agoodidstraction: ha Knock Out: I wish. agoodidstraction: that's what it's like at knock out's place thenightetc: ...I wonder how they can drink beer without multiplying. Windchill: It flashed her. Windchill: Indecent. Starscreamapillar: The same way the snow isn't working? thenightetc: ...I didn't even think about the snow. thenightetc: I wonder if they're not warm enough to melt it. Knock Out: That one's Bumblebee. agoodidstraction: hahahaha BBB: pfffft Starscreamapillar: What is your Bumblebee like?! agoodidstraction: he's cute Knock Out: And chronically stressed, as of late. agoodidstraction: big optics Windchill: I'm surprised nobody's gotten shot yet. agoodidstraction: yeah BBB: aaaand finally work, have fun guys. bye agoodidstraction: see ya Starscreamapillar: Goodbye. Knock Out: Glad you could drop in! Windchill: There we go, her brain's working. thenightetc: Goodnight! agoodidstraction: were they paying? why was she serving them hahaha thenightetc: So they wouldn't attack her. agoodidstraction: tiny guns Starscreamapillar: Not so threatening when they can be defeated with a good flashlight. Knock Out: Where did they even get the tiny guns? Starscreamapillar: Tiny gun store. agoodidstraction: hahaah the whole town jvhfdlashjfkds Knock Out: Checks out. Starscreamapillar: The security on this bank is just atrocious. Windchill: *Raises brows.* Starscreamapillar: . . . . thenightetc: *wince* Knock Out: PFFTHAHAHAHA! Windchill: What kind of moron tries to climb down a chimney. Starscreamapillar: Ha! Knock Out: Gizmo's jealous because they know how to party. thenightetc: ...I wonder what "mogwai" actually means.  Is he just, like, a pokemon that keeps saying his name?  Or does it mean something. Windchill: Look at them, they're so excited. Starscreamapillar: It seems to be Cantonese for 'Monster'. Knock Out: "Monster." thenightetc: Ahhh Knock Out: Or spirit, demon, and so on. Starscreamapillar: Why do they like the movie? thenightetc: They like music. agoodidstraction: ME agoodidstraction: gotta have candy Windchill: That's any sane person's reaction to seeing "CANDY" in big neon letters. Starscreamapillar: It is traditional to explode one's problems. agoodidstraction: ^ thenightetc: Is this the time? Starscreamapillar: Bleck. agoodidstraction: wow Windchill: Heh. thenightetc: It sounded like he was trying to say something, there thenightetc: But couldn't quite pronounce it thenightetc: Wasn't it night just a few minutes ago? Knock Out: I like how his voice bears a striking resemblance to Megatron's. Starscreamapillar: Indeed. agoodidstraction: yep Windchill: Is that a  Barbie car. Windchill: *Snickers.* Windchill: Me. Starscreamapillar: Yes, those department store guns. Starscreamapillar: Loaded department store guns. agoodidstraction: glug glug Windchill: Ugh. Thebes: snow shovels DO NOT WORK THAT WAY agoodidstraction: oh agoodidstraction: uhh agoodidstraction: ouch thenightetc: It's you! agoodidstraction: me when soundwave takes my soul Windchill: *Snickers.* Windchill: *Again.* thenightetc: Uhhhh, kid.... Windchill: Leaping Skeleton? agoodidstraction: primus Windchill: Called it. Starscreamapillar: Well, that looked painful. thenightetc: Maybe they're undead. thenightetc: Yes.  Mass hysteria. Starscreamapillar: 'Accidents'. There's a fair number of dead people that need to be accounted for. thenightetc: That explains all the monster corpses. Knock Out: "Moolah!" thenightetc: Ha! Thebes: because clearly, this is the big problem thenightetc: that's not a gift Windchill: "Nature's gifts." Starscreamapillar: He's not really wrong. Thebes: HEY MAYBE IF YOU EXPLAINED WHY NOT TO DO THOSE THINGS, LESS PEOPLE WOULD BE DEAD agoodidstraction: aw Knock Out: I like how he calls the old man "Baba." Starscreamapillar: Sorry does not raise the dead. thenightetc: Pfffffff thenightetc: Or rebuild everything they destroyed. Starscreamapillar: Matrix dust, now that is what raises the dead. thenightetc: "...Well, it's probably my fault" Windchill: I thought that was Dark Energon. Windchill: And Mad Science. Starscreamapillar: I wouldn't know, we do not have Dark Energon... Yet. thenightetc: How ominous? Windchill: There was a sequel. Thebes: Someone attempted to market them again. Violence ensued Knock Out: It's not terrible. We'll have to watch that one someday. agoodidstraction: please agoodidstraction: night everyone Knock Out: Goodnight, everyone. Thank you all for coming! thenightetc: Goodnight! Starscreamapillar: As always, that was weird, but enjoyable. Thank you for having us. thenightetc: Thank you for hosting!  This movie's a good time. Knock Out: My pleasure. Thebes: thank you! Windchill: *Another wave.*

[kaertrolde]

i put this under  a read more bc its super long and i went on a total rant on something i didnt really mean to. but my whole topic is pets arnt disposable, so if you dont care just keep going. i mean you dont gotta read it at all, it was mostly just me venting to try and help me feel better. but in the end a pill seems a better more realistic choice.

i seriously just cant seem to win with my dad. everything right now is about the cats. HE SAID YES TO TAKING THEM!!! bc he wanted to put them outside when we lived in the country and i preferred them being inside bc its safer and ive lost way  to many cats out there. and also he would put them out when he left for work at like 4:30 am and then they would cry and cry at my window until i let them in. i found one of them cowering in a bush once and the other was next door where they have a big pit bull(this isnt a slam on the breed, i love pit bulls in general and i genuinely believe its all on how they are raised and socialized, just like any dog) who wasnt very friendly. and i said i didnt think we should take them bc i didnt want or feel comfortable getting attached to an animal and then just to force them outside where literally anything could happen to them. and my dad knew i would get attached, i always do. and now the liter box is his issue. it s “reeks” he always says and yeah sometimes it smells but that word i hate it. its just like he (and everyone else) “you gotta find a new place to put that stupid box” but then they dont offer any solutions. so its in my bathroom which is the front bathroom and my dads like no body will want to use that bathroom with that smelly shit box in there and im like okay well they know we have inside cats so they gotta have a place to shit. and i have a dog crate in the door way so my stupid dog doesnt go in there and look for brownies to eat. i hate how older generations just think of pets as disposable. we went from 2 pets to 4. from 0 inside or outside cats to 2. and he was just like we gotta get rid of them. and he still says we gotta get rid of stella all these years later. and its like no you cant just get an animal in the moment and then when they dont act how you expect them too or they dont serve the purpose you wanted them too, you cant just chuck them out like trash. im on the edge all the time bc of it and i dont know what to do tbh. ive been trying to find better literboxs and solutions but idk. i just gotta put it in my room and deal with it. and its just like he says do this do that and when i ask how or any other question he just says figure it out. 

and dont get me started on my moms new dog. he fucking treats that turd muncher like a freaking princess. my mom is gone from home about 9 hours a day. which is a lot i know but also she is a dog and they get used to things and when shes out she gets alot of attention and a lot of play time. shes not mistreated whatsoever. but i gotta walk the half mile everyday to let her out bc how would you like to be trapped all that time. again, shes a dog. they sleep for like 18 hours a day. shes got toys and bones and a big crate and a nice bed in there. shes got a yard to run around in when my mom gets home. its just so freaking stupid that . 

i love dogs and animals in general, just sometimes people gotta realize they have their own personalities and while some cats may hunt mice and gophers all day long some might not. while some dogs are super friendly around people and other dogs, some arnt friendly to other animals but love people. a lot of it is training and exposure but some are just predisposition to be a certain way. stella was very crazy until like maybe two years ago when she started to calm down. but through all the barking and jumping and otherwise crazy behavior i stuck with it with her, shes such a smart dog and picks up things so quickly, she loves walks and tennis balls and always lets me hug and snuggle on her. but my dad wont let me bring her inside. part of me is like i understand she sheds a lot. shes dirty bc we dont have grass in the yard, shes not fixed, and shes kind of small animal reactive. but i know she can be a good dog, and once i get a job and have my own money i am going to take her to the vet so she can get shots and get fixed bc she deserves it. 

the only animal i ever asked my dad for was my current small dog, we adopted her about a month after my old dog passed. and i just couldnt handle not having a small dog, roxy 1 slept with me almost every night for onwards of 9 years. she ended up getting an inoperable tumor right on her soft pallet that made her have nosebleeds and started loosing her eyesight on one side and could barely eat. and the last few days i sat with her and helped her eat soft food and tried to stop her nose when it started bleeding and i knew it was time to let her go but my dad just went and took her and i didnt really ever get a chance to properly say goodbye to her. i know it was the best thing for her and i know it would have wrecked me to know it was coming but i still would have liked to been able to say goodbye. 

when we got stella hes like oh craigs dog had some puppys come on if there is a black and white female we are gunna take her. so that was his choice. i was a teen i didnt choose her. i got to pick the puppy and all that but in the end it was his choice that i never asked for.

the same with the cats, my moms friend couldnt keep them after having them for 7 years and my moms like do you want them and i said of course i do but if they gotta be outside all the time i dont think its a good idea so i would rather not put them in danger if someone else could keep them safe inside. and then she went and asked my dad and hes like yeah we need outside cats. so again that was his choice. 

and when he says that we gotta get rid of them or do something with them it just breaks my heart bc i love them all so much that ive been sitting here crying while i type this bc i miss roxy 1 but at the end of the day i know she had a good life that she got to live entirely with us, not getting rehomed or sitting in a shelter or dropped off on a corner. and i dont think i could emotionally handle having to get rid of any of them. 

im sorry this rant is so long, sometimes i think tumblr is the only place i can really vent like this and not really feel guilty about it. im fine and im going to stand my ground and not let him get rid of them. 

my entire point of this was that pets are not disposable.