#but i dont control the brainworms. they control me im afraid

[valgeristik]

in honor of the dragon age season and the fact that i plan on elaborating a lot more about my DAO ocs n how they connect to my rook. have this old thing from 2022 that i dont think i ever posted

these people should not be trusted to raise a baby. and yet.

[anachronistic-falsehood]

SO. ON THE TOPIC OF LOSS OF AUTONOMY. i am having the analysis brainworms now i hope u dont mind me going off in ur inbox. hi :]

there is something to be said about how vash's name is used against him constantly. that loss of who he even is as a person. i think about this so much. his name, his very identity is taken away from him. just the mere mention of the name vash the stampede is enough to send an ENTIRE town into a panic. it happens so much and its DEVASTATING to me. hes been labelled a monster across the entire world, and people who stick by his side after hearing his name are few and far between. theres been so much fear tacked onto his name, so much so that OTHER outlaws have used it on multiple occasions to make themselves more powerful. using his name to commit crimes that the real vash would be horrified to even consider. power in names and all that.

vash even. leans into it himself at a certain point. in order to protect the people of augusta he runs through the city shooting bullets into the air and solidifying his image of a deranged killer in the pursuit of. saving everyone. the only way theyll listen to him is if they think hes going to kill them all. if theyre afraid of him. theres also the part in hang fire (? i think its that one) where hes walking through the halls of the sand steamer singing about killing people in order to scare the bandits into not hurting the hostages.

and then you think about. eriks. how lina and her grandma took him in and accepted them as part of his family. how the town around them accepted him only because they had no idea who he actually was. he was a good guy... up until they learned he was vash. and then we get the conversation between the two men in the bar talking about how they should chase him out of town, despite living around him and knowinf him and seeing how good he is for . two years.

but lina and her grandma still accept him after that. theyre one of the only people besides milly/meryl/wolfwood who genuinely love and care abt him despite his name. they still want to keep him safe, grandma asks wolfwood to protect him and keep him out of trouble, even after learning hes the legendary outlaw gunman. because shes seen the true vash ans doesnt let the name scare her.

aughhh im rambling now i probably should have made this into my own post but this makes me SO fuckign crazy dude . give me ur thoughts id love to hear them.

I. YEAH. YEAH. OH MY GOD. Like. nothing is his own anymore. His name is used against him, his face is plastered on wanted posters. There is nothing about himself that he can truly call his. Not even his Plant powers! Because those are used against him time and time again by Knives in EVERY ADAPTATION!!!!

Like. Vash is no longer the name of a kid who once argued with his brother and laughed with his mother and celebrated his birthday and rolled around in grassy fields. It's the name of an outlaw who will kill at the drop of a hat. It's the name of an out-of-control human natural disaster who's leveled cities. If he doesn't even have his name, then what part of himself is really himself anymore?

AND THAT'S WHY I LOVE ERIKS! He finally has something of his own! He's got a name that attached to no one, and a life where he can settle down and stay out of the public eye. He finally has something that is truly his. And no one lets him keep that except for Lina and her grandma.

This guy really has no control over his own life doesn't he!!! He's a passive character in the story of his own life!!! He has nothing of his own, no identity past "humanoid typhoon" because everything about his identity has been stripped from him and morphed into something he's not. He has no say in anything in his life, not even who he is as a person, AND IT DRIVES ME BONKERS N FUCKING YONKERS!!!!

[hazbin-proship-central]

thoughts on valentino x charlie and vox x charlie (or maybe all 3 of them together... or add velvette to the mix and we have charvees...)

i can't help but imagine her in terrible situations 😭

especially a val x charlie scenario where she asks him nicely (and desperatly) what can she do for him to stop being so awful to angel, cause she cant bear it to see him come back to the hotel all beat up again. and val will maybe consider being a little nicer to him if she lets him fuck her sensless every now and then. and she'd do anything to help her people, even at her own cost 😵‍💫 doing the princess of hell is something he wouldn't be able to resist. maybe she wouldn't like it but be willing to make the sacrifice, of maybe she'd like it too much and get addicted by accident 🤭

(i like my charlie smart and cunning, but also she hasn't been making too great and calculated decisions in the show. be nice and ask an overlord to do something that isn't beneficial to him?? please that's just too naive, even for her. but im taking liberties even from my own headcanons here. and sorryyyy for that ramble but im controlled by charlie x vees brainworms rn aksjsshdkdh. if u want i could share my thoughts on vox and velvette with her too :3)

Oh my god! I love this!!! Dubcon like this is so good, Valentino is horrible and i would love to see him manipulate the fuck out of Charlie. Poor girl <3. Throw his hypnotic pink smoke stuff (idk wtf its called) into the mix, and... 🤭

Ooh! And to make it even more angsty, imagine how Vaggie would react, hearing about Charlie's situation. She would be pissed, of course; at both Valentino AND Charlie for agreeing to something like that in the first place. She tries to convince Charlie to stop, but to no avail. Charlie's visits to Valentino's place last longer and longer... starting off only lasting an hour or so, eventually lasting for days...

Dont apologize for your rambling. I am VERY HAPPY to read concepts like this, theyre delicious. Idk if you wanted me to rate the ship or just share my thoughts, but Ill rate it just in case :) dont be afraid to talk about the other ships you mentioned, Id love to hear about them!

9/10