#but i could probs get jt for free

[schizowitchic]

being a jjk fan is fun if you ignore shibuya and .... chapter 26whatever .... because actually there's jjk references everywhere like today i dyed my hair purple . like hollow purple . also noah lyles domain expansion infinite void . mad tsai sukuna halloween costume . special grade garlic sauce dip . EVERYBODY DANCE NOW (inumaki is a cursed speech user. his speech amplifies the power and compulsion of words. he limits his vocabulary to keep others safe) . judas lady gaga gojo vs. sukuna . I JUST FELT SUKUNAS PRESENCE WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING IN SHIBUYA . kfc. fucking. being genderfluid idk (kenjaku)

[satoruhour]

t!!! am dropping by to wish you a weekend that is full of light and love 🥹🫧💗

i am back w my curious sel glassies 🤓 (pls feel free not to answer if uncomfy) — what’s a habit you’re most proud of? what habit of satoru’s is one you admire?

HELLUUUU omg you sent this last weekend but jt's alr friday for me here so i hope THIS weekend will be even better than the last !!! 💟

lol yay i love curious sel - i think a habit im most proud of is maybe.. pushing in the chairs after eating? i guess it could be considered as etiquette but i do it at home as much as i do it outside ngl 😭😭😭 i also always wash my feet before i get into bed, idk i feel like it's nicer to have clean feet :3

i think gojo in our shared home is sometimes very lazy but without focusing on that he's def the type to need everything to be in order? i think he just enjoys seeing things to be put smallest to largest plates/bowls/etc, or in order in the context where his partner comes first so he probably puts your plate closer to to edge when serving food so you can take the plate first!! idk is that considered a habit?

another habit i love to see on him is simply his skincare routine. im not sure why but the way he cares about himself to have like a routine w a decent amount of steps. it's not crazy, ofc, he doesn't have much time but bc i just dont use skinscare at all (im afraid my skin will grow reliant on it and ill have to keep using it), it's so endearing and admirable to see him do his thing at the vanity table!!!

i think bc his senses are also very sensitive, they contribute a lot to how he lives, sometimes when he sleeps too - the thing that immediately comes to mind is prob a scent diffuser and he finds that he helps him to sleep deeper / less nightmares about curses, he rlly does fill in the water and drop in a few blobs of the fragrance every night bfore going to sleep!! i love that cause 1. im lazy and im always neglecting changing the water 2. it doesnt make much diff to the way i sleep but it's so nice to see satoru use the diffuser to help him sleep <3

[fatwh0relmao]

alright time for another vent + progress postttttt

ate like 2 hard boiled eggs my maid made me today, probs could have not eaten anything tho. I just feel bad when I don’t eat the food she makes cause like she works hard and stuff but tbh when I acc write that down it just sounds like an excuse. Most of the time I just find a way to dispose of the food she makes me but since it was just like 2 eggs today I figured it wouldn’t be that bad. Like ig I should just eat enough just to survive bc ljke what’s the point of being skinny if ur dead lmao. You could totally counter that with the “id rather die skinny than live fat”mentality which is like yeah that’s true too but dying isn’t my first priority rn. Like obv I’m depressed who isn’t on this app but I’d like to enjoy my skinniness when it comes preferably alive. But yeah what else have I done today? I walked for like 20 minutes (to my plugs house lmao) in like 45 c weather so not very fun. Another excuse I’ve been making for myself is that Im not exercising bc it’s hot asf where I live but like bro I could totes just workout in my room so that’s a dumb excuse. Oh yeah and I haven’t eaten anything else today besides the eggs butttt I did drink like a mix of 1 tbsp apple cider vinegar, 1 tbsp lemon juice and some water bc ljke I heard that’s good for weight loss. Anyways yeah I’m acc feeling rlly motivated rn I feel like not eating itself gives me something to do since I’m so fucking bored this summer. I usually travel to the us to see family over the summer but a bunch of stuff happened so I couldn’t. I don’t really enjoy going to the us since I go to the most boring place ever but like the food in the us is so good. Just like the shit they have at grocery stores omfg I cannot control myself there so maybe it’s a good thing I didn’t go. Tbh last summer I only gained like 1 pound from being in the us cause the only “us food” I would have would legit just be cherry coke I love that shit it’s so good. Idk if there’s a diet version of it but tbh if there was I still wouldn’t drink jt. Diet sodas taste nasty unlessssss it’s sugar free redbull that stuff tasted the exact same as reg redbull and it’s only like 20 calories. I feel like I’m gonna try to just post a long ass paragraph on here ranting abt my stupid life whenever I feel hungry as a distraction to not eat. I have not felt like eating today which is pog but I still wanted to write on here cuz like it’s funnnn and gives me motivationnnn. I’m totes gonna get bored later and write more but lmao. Anyways yeah I’m feelin good im chillin.

[prodigalsonfanblog]

Thoughts on Prodigal Son 1.16

“Free to live out her sapphic dreams” glad we cleared up that Jessica is bicurious at least

Jessica tricking Malcolm into talking to Eve is reminding me of how my mother gets me to talk to family members that I don’t want to talk to

I don’t think the team likes Vijay

But Vijay’s wink tho 😉

I see we’re back to guessing JT’s name

“Care to hear my thoughts about Medicare for all?” said by a serial killer doctor. This show just keeps delivering the perfect one-liners

The way Malcolm says “Gil” pointedly to Martin when answering the call

Holy fuck, she’s not dead!

Malcolm, why the fuck are you interrogating her in the surgery room???

Jesus Christ why does he look so good in a white dress shirt

Malcolm... when will you ever wait for backup?

“Identify yourself so I know how hard to slam the receiver” 😂 (me when I’m forced to answer the phone with a number that I don’t recognize)

Only Malcolm could look and sound so smug while tied up, threatened and accusing someone of murder at the same time

JESUS THEY ALL SHOT EACH OTHER!!

...

Eve wtf are you doing??

Is she the girl in the box?? But she’s too young! She’s prob related to the girl in the box somehow

Also, they never showed if the woman who got shot in the head and survived made it through surgery okay

[livinganddyingatdisneyworld-blog]

First Week+

Hey ya’ll.

So my first week here has come and gone. Monday morning was more hectic than I would have liked. I was so tired and was running late, I had to pack up my bags very quickly and I had my Mears driver waiting for me. He had texted me about 8:30 and I didn’t see that til 9, and I got down to him at like 9:15. 

My check-in was at 9:30, and there was a line of cars this time, so my driver had to patiently wait til we got to the front of the pack. I don’t think anyone ever looked at my Boarding pass lol (Just my itinerary). Check-in was quick. I had a nice lady help me with my documents and they took my picture for my housing ID. (Patterson’s are yellow this year, meh) Being back at Patterson feels pretty good. It feels like home (aw). I had feared I might be triggered into some negative feelings but nope. If anything being back makes me realize how much time has gone by and that time heals all wounds, things here have changed and moved on and so have/(or should) I. 

So this girl gave me my new program guide with my apartment configuration on it. It said 1 bedroom/3 person. I’m in building 3 on the first floor. I met my two roommates later in the day on Monday. It’s only been about a week and a half but so far we get along OK, there are still some things that will need to be worked out, but we’ll get there I think. I get along better with one than the other too. The nice thing is that again I do feel very comfortable here already so it wasn’t hard to adjust. My roommates are both very like me, mid 20s, white, American, etc so we’re pretty similar, they are both straight though. Which might be a good thing as long as they aren’t the “toxic” kind of straight I tend to keep at a distance. 

Casting at 11 was confusing because of the way they scheduled the buses and because of the construction around the casting building (yay third parking garage!) I had to figure out what bus to take and when to walk down to Chatham (my least favorite part of Patterson) but I got there eventually. I was like 20 min late to both my check-in and casting but no one said anything, I did the best I could! This lady at casting asked me for my Blue ID and I said I turned it in to my leaders and she said that was the correct thing to do so that made me feel good. There was a nice girl they checked my documents for me and then a guy there to do the “Disney Look” check. My fingerprints still didn’t work and they guy that did them was a little aggressive about it but whatever hopefully it will be like last time as far as that goes. Going back in the casting building is definitely an experience lol. Afterwards a group of us had to wait for the bus so I talked to them for a bit. I got back to Patterson and met my roommates.

Our apartment is nice, fresh and has new carpet. I wasn’t keen on the the 3 in 1 and I ended up taking the top bunk, which works for me but again isn’t ideal. It was funny because it took the confusion out of trying to pick a roomie/room/bed away. I like the building because it’s still close to the main area but kinda off in it’s own space too, just have to walk a bit further than last time. (laundry and garbage won’t be fun, it’s a walk over there). At least I have less roommies and still manageable rent. 

Monday night I made my return to Disney Springs and had Yesake, it was so good to be back finally! I also went to Walmart that night and got supplies. Tuesday I had the day off and went the Boardwalk Bakery(the food has changed, prob won’t go there again). but I still love walking that area at night. 

Wednesday I had my housing at 3 meeting which was the same as last year pretty much. Not a big deal. I stopped in the Grid afterwards and was surprised how low on stock they are. I ended up going back to Walmart for more supplies and went back to Disney Springs for dinner. I went to Earl of Sandwich and tried the wine slushie at Amorettes - it was so good! 

Thursday I had the day free and used it to stay in and rest. I had considered this being a resort day since I couldn’t get into the parks yet but I was tired and it was raining so I stayed in. 

Friday I had my Traditions class. I counted 9 other guys in the room and I sat with 3 of them. The ones I remember are Arvin, JT, Diego, and Steven. We were all Merch which was cool. The class felt pretty fast/tracked and went fast. There were some awkward moments but I knew there would be. I was nervous about going back to Magic Kingdom but it ended up raining and so we played games instead and didn’t have to go. I was relieved. I was nervous about getting my Blue ID but it was there for me. The pictures on both my ID’s are...OK. I changed my pic on The Hub though. They gave me another name tag but I plan on using my old one with my hometown on it from my last program. Overall I did get emotional at certain points in Traditions, (at one point my eye would not stop watering) but it was pretty quick and painless. I was glad to have a later in the day time (mine was at 2:40 and I had to be at the bus/stop by 1:15). I will always prefer a later in the day time. No one in my Traditions seemed to be going to Epcot which was interesting, maybe like 2 others that I heard. 

I decided not to go to the parks that night and instead went to Disney Springs for another slushie and more Yesake! 

Saturday I had free which was nice, I decided that my first park entry would be Epcot of course, and then later in the day I would have my first ride be Flight of Passage. I went to Epcot just to check-out Mousegear and get a feel for it. I felt indifferent to be honest. Like not super-excited but not scared or nervous either. Everything in my program was what I wanted or asked for basically. The Commons would have been nice, maybe I should have been more open to other roles, I probably would have picked the May 21st arrival date if it was offered to me. But Fall Advantage/Merch/June 4th/ and Patterson are all great with me. When I found out I was going to Mousegear I was surprised and happy. Like I just didn’t want to be in MK again, and getting to learn more about Epcot sounded like a great way to spend my 2nd program. (I did not spend much time in Future World last year, I always walked quickly through it to get to World Showcase). Mousegear is one of the biggest shops in the park which is intimidating but I do not claim to know what is best for me (lol). It actually has great reviews from other Cps/Cms that it’s a great location for alot of reasons, it seems very well orgainzed and staffed and it’s an AC/inside area only. You still rotate positions but you only have to learn one store versus several locations. 

After my sneak peak at my new home at Epcot I got on the bus to Animal Kingdom. When I got there I went straight to Flight of Passage, the wait was long and my phone had died (having trouble with the battery). Also I want to note before I forget that the bugs this year seem to be bad (gotten several bites so far, last year not an issue) and when I first got here I had this itchy rash on my arms and neck and apparently I must have done something because the skin basically died and peeled off in those places. Weird! I thought it was a reaction from a bug bite or something. These are just things I was struggling with the first week. As well as figuring out my to-do list and where to put my stuff and trying to stay organized. I definitely spent more than I needed to but I figure it’s my first week and I want to be happy and start out strong and hopefully continue that way. I want to be better about time and money management and this program is a great way to focus on that. I need to figure out how best to get food when I don’t have a car. It’s a struggle. I spent a lot of time before this week getting my body in a good place and I have to keep up with what I’ve been working on. Traveling took so much out of me I was worried I would regress and get to busy to take care of myself but I’m really trying to stay on it. Appearance is everything and then that helps my confidence! I tried to make my hair blonder before coming here and that was another nightmare - I probably wasted like 50+ dollars just on my hair color lol, but whatever. As long as my acne stays in a good place that’s the main thing for me. My spray tan is wearing off and I need to have a pool day still. Shaving everyday is a nuisance and keeping up with it but that’s what you have to do.

Anyway so I went to Animal Kingdom and waited for Flight of Passage - worth it obviously. I really wanted to do at least Everest but didn’t have enough time, so I had dinner at the Canteen, which I’ve been wanting to do for awhile (it was..OK. I mean I love Tofu but I was still hungry after) and I spent 10$ on a tiny little Sangria that I didn’t need....but whatever. I can say I did it and now I know I don’t need it again lol. 

Overall it was a good night at Animal Kingdom, still much more I want to do (I tried to make fastpasses but realized that wasn’t going to work). 

Sunday was my Discovery Day, I had to get up really early and be there by 8am. I was so tired this whole day because I didn’t sleep much that night. It was a really magical day. I won’t go into detail but the boat ride, the welcome, it was all very magical. When I was riding SpaceShip Earth for the first time, I realized some things (lol). It just made me realize how great it feels to be in a place that I feel like this is where I am SUPPOSED to be. How during my last program especially at the end how I said goodbye forever (maybe to MK yes;) but to be at Epcot and realize that maybe I had never done these things before because the universe had plans for me later. (I honestly don’t think I’d ever been inside Mousegear, I just walked past it). My group leaders (4) were very fun and made the day special, I got emotional with alot of things they were saying. Most of my group was people from other countries, very few Americans (my small group was all Asian) It definitely makes me feel a type of way when the only country I’ve been to is Mexico and I don’t speak other languages, but these people are world travelers and speak several languages. One thing that did stick with me was the notion that even we as Americans are considered “international” by tourists from other countries. They look at us (maybe sometimes anyway) with the same interest that Americans look at people from other countries. After my Discovery Day I went home and went to Disney Springs. Here I really splurged and got Yesake AND Earl of Sandwich. I also tried to go to Morimoto Asia but I won’t be doing that again. When I went to Earl the cashier kept complimenting me on my eyes and said I was pretty. It was nice! At this point it had been two weeks since I left Younkers (my last day was Sat May 26th) and one week since I left Sioux City (Sat June 2nd)

Monday I had my first day of training. My trainers name was Casey. She is a former CP and has been at Mousegear for about a year. She is leaving to go work at Toy Story Land which is exciting. I was surprised to find out that they were considering me a “Transfer” and that I would not have to go back to DU for anything. Traditions you have to redo after 6 months (I’m at about 10 months) Dday makes sense since Epcot is new to me, but one day of training? I’ll take it as a vote of confidence but I am not sure I remember everything on the register, and it’s still a new location, things work differently. Casey was great with me through the day and I was so tired and probably not always coherent but I learned alot and got to ask her alot of the questions I had. We ended up arranging for me to have another day of Training on Thursday (her last day is Friday) and then my first regular shift will be on Friday. It kinda feels like I’m her replacement in some type of way. hmm...I’ve met two leaders so far and they seem nice, I also found out one of the coordinators is from MSE (Hi Catie) so I’ll be seeing her. I got HUB access, still deciding if I want to do Food&Wine, took the days off my mom wanted me too, looked at Rostr and took note of the CPs currently staffed at MG. There are currently 30 including myself that are listed as American Cps so that’s cool. Very few guys.There are 5 other guys (Dalton, Grady, Aaron, Charles, and Raul) and one former CP also named Aaron. I do not know how many Cps are new or old or extended or leaving soon (SA, Spring Extenders, Summer Alum etc) I hope I can find some people that can be my work friends but we’ll see....I’ll know soon enough who my allies are and who is not. I’m sure there will be new Cps coming for the Fall program too. On Sunday I decided to try to open Grindr and see who’s out there. I will keep it open for a week and see how it goes. If there’s no one of interest I’ll probably just delete again and wait til August when there’s new people here. I’ve had some of the same guys hit me up which is pretty funny. It’s super disappointing about the lack of guys and options but I will not let guys bring me down. I know they are missing out on what I have to offer so it’s really there loss. (and once you’ve turned me down, do not thing I will give you second chance, I will ignore you)

The main thing is that the people you see most are the people you live with and work with. I’m sure I’ll be getting to see some familiar faces of other castmembers at Epcot, Cps and non Cps, which I am excited about because there’s a lot of cool people that work there! Getting on a routine and figuring out the timing of everything is what I need to work on. Casey showed me that path from the Cast building (I got a locker) to sneak out by Test Track and then walk into the CDS. (the only place you can clock-in) The tunnel is super interesting but the break area is ...underwhelming. Very few selections for food. I never used the temp lockers before but I might here, we’ll see. If it’s raining I might have an umbrella with me. The only bathrooms are down there as well. Another weird thing is that you can’t have water bottles on stage, you have to leave them backstage which might be hard for me, we’ll see. I’ll like the fact that the store doesn’t stay open as late as MK and CPs usually get 2 days off per week. I still need to get new shoes, more socks, and trading pins (I’ll wear the “Earning My Ears” badge as well I suppose. I got my costume and it’s cute! Had a hard time with the pants but found my size. The shirt can be awkward but you just kinda of have to let it hang I guess. I have Tuesday and Wednesday off. Tuesday I had a headache and stayed in all day, later I went to Epcot and watched Illuminations for the first time and got some yummy fishNchips at the UK. I did not know there was extra magic hours so I hung out there til about 11, even though you can’t do any rides. I still need to make a “Disney Do” list but I’m slowly working my through. I don’t plan on picking up shifts ever but we’ll see. I should be open to that I suppose. Not until I have Mousegear down anyway. One more day of training which I’m sure will be alot and then my first days of work will be Friday, Saturday and Sunday. with Tuesday and Wednesday off. We’ll see how it goes! Fake it til you make it I guess. I obviously don’t want to look stupid or awkward, I don’t want to bother anyone with a bunch of questions, or have a bad attitude or have a bad experience with guests. I’ll just do the best I can! So far here has been pretty good, my first week has come and gone and week 2 is fastly moving! My main goals here are to have fun, do a good job, be on time, not let myself get sad or lonely, do more things that I didn’t get to the last time, and try to focus more on the future and my career. I want to use the program to build myself up, not let it tear me down. A fresh start and a second chance is just what I needed, I will miss my mom and Sioux City but this is where I need to be. I can work on keeping my money in check and use my time wisely. My goal is to slowly get on a routine by July 4th ish, one month mark. For sure by the time the transition period happens in August. Summer is my favorite time of the year though so I really just want to enjoy June and July and see what the future has in store. I am sure there are many twists and turns in the road between now and January.