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immortalsins · 2 months ago

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im so so tired jsjdhbj an engineering employers panel just scared me half to death with their startups and innovation and investment and passion commitment linkedin networking etc etc etc i hate it here

#i can't do it #this kind of thing is not meant for people like me #i came here and suffered through it to get myself some niche skills so that the kind of person i am doesn't matter #but i attend an employers panel and they're saying that they don't want your skills #they want you as a person #you need to be networking and making connections within the industry and building soft skills AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #i can't do this i'm genuinely too disabled #should have been a vet fr #i don't want to move to cambridge and work in startups until i decide to do a phd and go straight back to [current redacted uni] i canttt #need to get a job and then find something to live for but unfortunately for me #those two things are separate #yet i'm in the field of people who act like they're not #ksjhgdcksjd i don't understand why it can't be about the work #and why it has to be about me #times like this when i want someone to take charge of my life entirely. which is a really bad thing to want #but at the same time i can't deal with it alone #and that's what i am right now !!#tangent on this rant but my dad should theoretically be great to have around to help since he's also an engineer #should be great in general tbh. i have a dad isn't that cool #but he doesn't really love me #and hasn't for a long time #yet i am completely reliant on him #and if anything goes wrong - which it easily could in my current state - my mum can't support me #hgjvsfdtycu;ioakljshdgvfctjyulaisdkjchg that's enough of that sorry #what a shit day #started so nice and went down like a lead balloon

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