#but i am out of options otherwise 😔

[liliana-von-k]

Because I’ve lost my medical insurance—but am in the process of trying to get it back—I am having to pay full price for my meds, some of which cost $400-900 each. Obviously I have no way to pay for that, so I’ve started a GoFundMe and posted it at FB.

Since it has my real name on it, I don’t want to post it here, but I *have* enabled tipping, in case any of y’all wanna help out. While my GoFundMe goal is $2500 (which includes paying the ludicrously expensive insurance someone at CoveredCA switched me to without my knowledge), my immediate goal is coming up with $483.56 to cover my Savella, because I’m going to run out of it in a few days. I don’t like to imagine how my functioning is going to be affected without my primary antidepressant. And yes, btw, that’s the GoodRx price.

Muchisimos thankies in advance. {{group hugtiems}} ❤️

[f1byjessie]

HE LIKES MY AMERICAN SMILE ━━ OP81. [REWRITE]

he may not be a london boy, but you love him all the same, and you’re about to learn the hard way that loving someone can be a wild ride.

( oscar piastri x sargeant!reader )

━━ part one.

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yourusername me and london boy have made so many memories here together and i’ll cherish them forever ❤️. i love this sport and i love the people i've met in this sport. i'll always love it and them, but sometimes you have to take a step back and set your sights on new horizons. that said, neither of us will be competing in any events this year— endurance or otherwise. london boy will stay in richmond and continue to receive the best care possible from people who have grown to love him as much as i do, and in the meantime, i'll start looking to those other horizons.

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user wishing you the best of luck!! we’ll miss seeing you and london boy, but we know this decision wasn’t made lightly and we hope whatever you do will make you just as happy as riding does!!

user london boy lives a more luxurious life than i could ever hope 

↳ user real like why am i jealous of a horse 😭😭

↳ user knowing how well these horses are treated? we should all be jealous

↳ user some of these horses have rain coats that cost more than my entire wardrobe combined… the day i learned that was not a fun day… 😔

user honestly only ever tuned in to watch you both

user the events won’t be the same without you!!!

user I’LL MISS YOU LONDON BOY

user take all the time you need to explore other options! you can love something and still get burnt out on it. sometimes taking that step away can be the decision that allows us to continue loving something instead of growing resentful towards it. do what you need to do to be happy! 🫶

↳ user this is such a good way to put it!!

↳ user THIS. i did competitive jumping for ten years and towards the end of that time i started seeing it more as a chore than the sport i used to be so passionate about. you absolutely CAN love something and still get burnt out on it. taking breaks is so important.

user i’m sure london boy will miss you but you do you girliepop! take a trip or go on an adventure!

user oh to be a girl riding her horse across the beach at sunrise 🥲

↳ user IKR?!? talk about dream life, she’s literally living out scenes that i’ve only ever seen in movies

↳ user it’s london boy’s world and we’re all just living in it

user wait does this mean no more horse content???

↳ user i mean she’s not getting rid of her horse or even outright retiring, she just won’t be riding competitively for 2023

user is she leaving the uk or smth?? bc she said other ppl will be looking after london boy?? i know nothing about horses guys i’m sorry

↳ user london boy will be staying at the stables as per her caption! he will be looked after by many trained professionals who will ensure he is properly fed, watered, exercised, and groomed each day! it’s actually very common for people to board their horses at a stable since horses often need large fields to graze and exercise in, and not a lot of people have big enough backyards or own property to be able to provide that themselves. whether she’s leaving the uk or not, we don’t know, but it definitely sounds like her training with london boy will be put on hold for the time being!

user miss girl we’ll always remember you and london boy as the greatest duo in endurance racing history

↳ user REAL REAL REAL

user does this have to do with her falling off a few months back??

↳ user it could, she did mention the encounter leaving her pretty shaken

↳ user yeah but the possibility of something like this happening is so high that a lot of riders have accepted it as an inevitable occurrence in their career

↳ user even still, that doesn’t change the fact that she could very well be traumatized or experiencing lingering side effects

↳ user guys!! speculation will do us no good!! if she wants to tell us, she will!!

user YOU KNOW I LOVE A LONDON BOY 🗣🗣🗣

logansargeant wanna trade one paddock for another?

There’s a sort of terrifying uncertainty that comes with breaking a long-standing routine.

It’s like a fucked-up sort of package deal— you stop following the methodized schedule you’ve meticulously upheld for years, and in exchange, you receive more time than you know what to do with and an overwhelming responsibility to fill it.

The only question is: with what?

The muscle memory lingers, and you suspect that it’ll take some time for your body to un-familiarize itself with a sleep schedule that you’ve religiously held on to for years, but there’s no demands to maintain any of it and that makes any sort of attempt at continuing to run through the motions feel entirely obsolete. You may instinctively wake up at the ass crack of dawn, but without the necessity of a horse relying on your punctuality to get him fed, watered, and turned out to the paddock, there’s nothing you can do beyond filling the morning with something until your internal clock catches the memo and decides to let you sleep in for once.

“You know, when I invited you to tag along with me,” Logan begins in lieu of a greeting when he opens the front door and sees you standing on the stoep of his apartment, clad in athletic wear and a pair of well-worn running shoes, “I was under the impression that we both understood that to mean the traveling to races part and not necessarily the pre-season training.”

“‘My dearest sister,’” you sarcastically quip back in a mockingly deep voice, feigning heartfelt sincerity and pressing your hand melodramatically to your chest. “‘How good it is to see you after so long! I would be absolutely delighted if you joined me on my morning run today.’”

Your twin brother shakes his head in exasperation, but through the facade of annoyance, you can recognize the hint of a smile tugging at the corners of his lips.

“Honestly, Logie,” You pretend to wipe a tear from the corner of your eye and add in a sniffle for extra flair, “you're too sweet. What would I ever do without you?”

“We saw each other a week ago at brunch,” he grumbles, reluctantly taking a step back from the door and allowing you to pass over the threshold into the warmth of the apartment and out of the winter’s frigid morning air.

“When?”

“Last Wednesday—”

“—did I ask? Oh! Boom! Gotcha!” You whoop out an exclamation of victory as you continue down the hall. “Gosh, I am four for four now. You gotta step up your game, Logie-bear, or this is gonna end in a miserable shut out for you.”

He heaves out a heavy sigh that carries with it twenty-two years of suppressed brotherly rage and the exhaustion that can only come from being reminded at every chance that he is, and always will be, a minute younger than you. “You're the bane of my existence, and I do sincerely hope you know this.”

“Aw, I love you too!”

You step into the small kitchen at the end of the hall. With the exception of a little potted cactus sitting on the windowsill— a housewarming gift from you— it looks nearly identical to how it was the last time you visited.

A month ago.

When he moved in.

There's a woven mat on the floor in front of the sink, an ashy green that contrasts nicely with the off-white cream color of the cabinets and laminate countertops. You can't really tell if Logan actually bought the mat, or if it came with the place, but it's cute nonetheless and serves as one of the few pops of color in the otherwise monochromatically beige apartment.

“I see that my cactus continues to reign supreme as the only individuality in this place,” you comment, glancing over your shoulder in time to see him appear in the doorway.

He shrugs at your words. “Yeah, well, you'd be surprised how busy you can get when you're preparing for everything you've ever dreamed about. No biggie.”

“Logan,” you turn to face him, “you'll do great. There are two other rookies on the grid—”

“And I'll be in the worst car out of all of them.”

“You don't know that,” you chide gently.

This side of Logan isn't unfamiliar to you— the anxiety and fear of failure. It's always existed, and you've known about it since the morning of his first kart race when he confided in you that he was so nervous he felt like he was going to be sick.

The insecurities surrounding his own skills have persisted and thrived with every new track, every new team, and every new series, and as you've grown alongside him you've found ways to challenge his self-doubt, but you've also learned to accept that there's only so much you alone can do.

You can debate it and challenge the self-deprecating thoughts all you want, but the voice in his head will always be there, no matter how quiet it occasionally becomes.

So you choose to drop the topic for now.

It's too early in the morning for an impromptu therapy session anyway.

You turn back around and scan the countertops until your eyes latch onto the container of pre-workout tucked away in the corner, nearly hidden amidst the mountain of vitamin and nutrient supplements.

“I thought it was part of Benny’s job to make sure you didn't have to use all this shit,” you comment, picking through the jars and eyeing them each with unapologetic distaste.

Logan reaches over your shoulder and plucks a packet of vitamin C tablets from your hand, “Sometimes these just work better.”

“Yeah, maybe if you don’t have a nutritionist being paid to quite literally curate a diet specifically to ensure that you don’t need to use these,” you gesture widely to the assembled mass of supplements. “But, last I checked, dear brother of mine, you do have a nutritionist— and a very good one at that— who would be horrified to learn you’re substituting real fruit for…” you squint down at the nutritional label of another one of the jars, but there’s very little that you recognize amidst the scientific jargon and long, five-syllable words, “little gummies that taste like fruit.”

He huffs, “Get your pre-workout or I'm leaving without you.”

“You wouldn't dare leave without me,” you grumble.

“I've done it before and I'll do it again,” he snipes, giving a brief yank on your ponytail and cackling when you swat behind yourself in futility.

There’s more he isn’t saying— there always is, nowadays— but you recognize the deflection for what it is. You want to claw him apart with questions and demand answers that bare every inch of his soul so you understand what he isn’t telling you and why he feels the need to keep it locked away even from you, but you know better than to keep pushing at something Logan clearly doesn’t want to talk about.

It makes you nostalgic for a time in your life when he’d sneak down from the top of the bunk bed after your parents had tucked you away for the night and slip under the covers with you, a well-loved stuffed bear hugged to his chest. He’d curl up beside you and you’d pull the blankets up to your chin and watch him with big, curious eyes until he’d whisper out into the darkness of your shared bedroom what he was worrying about.

More often than not it was a byproduct of a hyperactive imagination still plagued by the fears of childhood. Something about the space beneath your bed and— “What if there’s something down there? And the only way you can see it is by its glowing eyes? But what if it knows when someone is gonna look under the bed, so it closes its eyes so you can’t see the glow?” Or the curtains and— “You have to make sure they cover the whole window because what if you don’t and then something looks inside and it knows I’m not asleep and then it comes inside? I always hold really still and pretend to be asleep even when I’m not if the curtains aren’t closed.”

But sometimes it was about anything and everything else like the fox sitting in the bushes by the bus stop on the way home from school and whether or not it had water to keep it cool in the Florida heat, or the purple glitter pen Mrs. Moore used to grade his spelling test and how the girl sitting next to him had gotten her test graded with the green glitter pen, or— “I forgot my coat in Mr. Garrison’s class yesterday, and you went and got it for me and brought it to the car with you, and I didn’t say thank you, but I always feel bad when I leave my coat behind because what if it has feelings and felt really bad because it thought I was abandoning it, so thank you for getting my coat so it didn’t feel abandoned.”

But that was then and this is now.

You’re both adults, and you live in different apartments on different ends of the city, and you work different jobs that separate you by half the globe at times. There’s no more talk of foxes by bus stops or glitter pens, and certainly no more sentient coats with fears of abandonment.

When you look at Logan now, he isn’t wasting away, and really you owe it to him after you announced out of the blue a week ago that you weren’t just taking a break from competitive riding, but rather taking a break from riding as a whole. He didn’t press you on it then— still hasn’t pressed you on it despite having every right to do so. The least you can do now in return is respect the boundary he’s trying to set.

You mutter a few curses beneath your breath— words your mother would throw a fit over if she could hear you— and feign a scowl, but some of the tension in Logan’s shoulders has released and that's all you can ask for.

“If you leave me behind, I’ll leak a picture of your pathetic kitchen to the tabloids and let everyone tear apart your design choices,” you threaten, digging your knuckles into the tender spot of his arm where bicep meets shoulder and taking pride when he squirms away and beyond reach.

He flips you off. “You’re just jealous I have a cool cactus and you don’t.”

“Hey!” You give a lazy kick in his direction, but he sidesteps it easily with a laugh. “I gave you that cactus!”

“Tomato, tom-ah-to.” He flippantly waves his hand in your direction, laughing again at the indignant squawk you make. “Just hurry up and make your damn drink.”

As he makes his way out of the kitchen, presumably to grab his shoes, you unscrew the lid from the container and reach for the scoop.

Only to find it entirely empty.

“You asshole! There's nothing in here!”

Logan’s cackle echoes from another room.

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yourusername day 14 without london boy and i have officially succumbed to the boredom and willingly subjected myself to the presence of my arch nemesis (love you logie 🫶)

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logansargeant in my defense, you just showed up

user you could not PAY me to go out in this weather

user as a florida girlie myself, this is my nightmare

↳ user REAL

↳ user genuinely seeing this makes me so glad i live in a place where there’s no snow cuz yea, the view is pretty and all, but not even a gorgeous sunrise would make up for me freezing my ass off and having to wear seven layers just to keep the feeling in my fingers and toes

user i wish the most stressful part of my day was going for a morning run 😔

user calling logan her nemesis is so real i just know that man is a menace

↳ user the f2 clips of him and liam are proof enough

↳ user logan sargeant was a menace back in f3 💀 have you SEEN the prema videos with oscar and fred? bro is diabolical when he wants to be

↳ user i'm so excited for the chaos he'll bring to the grid this year

user the snow man is so cute!!

user “14 days without london boy” OH I AM ILL 😭😭😭

user ok but that view is gorgeousness

↳ user ikr?! winter sunrises are genuinely so pretty

user i’m still so confused as to why she isn’t riding anymore?? can someone pls explain

↳ user to be entirely honest, i’m not sure really what there is to explain. first and foremost, we aren’t owed any sort of explanation as to why she’s decided to take a step back from riding. it could be a personal decision, a career decision, or something else, but whatever it is we aren’t automatically entitled to it just because y/n has previously been very open and vocal about her and london boy’s training. second, she never actually said that she isn’t riding anymore. she said she’s taking a step back from competitive riding to focus on other things, and the “without london boy” part of her caption implies that she hasn’t seen him, but she could just be taking a prolonged break, or she could be focusing on something else that has prevented her from going to see him. but again, none of it is our business and she doesn’t owe us any further explanation to what she meant.

↳ user THIS THIS THIS!! as sad as i am to not have london boy on my feed, y/n is a grown adult with her own private life and we have to respect her decisions!! if or when she chooses to come forward about the specifics of her future plans and goals, then that’s great and i’ll continue to support her endeavors, but for the time being we all just have to be patient

user the selfie logan posted with you on his story was so cute!! 🥰

user she’s a runner she’s a track star

user i’ve missed the twin content!

↳ user me too!! i really hope that her taking a break from competitions (as much as i love london boy) will mean we get to see her actually going to more of logan’s races, especially now that he’ll be in formula 1!!

oscarpiastri if the rumours are to be believed, i look forward to getting to catch up at the races this year

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━━ a/n: surprise! i've been working on this for a little while now (i got my wisdom teeth removed yesterday, so the time i've spent recovering has been spent polishing up the last few details for this first part) but here she is! as promised, the newly rewritten and revamped 'he likes my american smile'! i feel like i always say it, but the original genuinely holds such a special place in my heart because it was the first work i ever posted here on tumblr, so i'm really happy to take all that i've learned since then and apply it where i can in this new version. i really hope the changes and development is as loved by you all as it is by me, and that you all enjoy!

[formula-archive]

No return for Daniel to racing 😔

If you are talking about the speedcafe article going around, then it mainly just says a lot of the current rumours aren't true. And between the lines, they are denying these things because other teams were taking them as facts. Which to me reads as Daniel wanting to be in conversations with teams or at least wanting that door open for future conversations he might wanna have (otherwise I think it wouldn't matter much if they think he's tied up with another team).

Cadillac also doesn't seem at the point just yet where they are actively signing drivers. Meanwhile others, also listed in the article, are interested in Daniel.

I do also feel like they had to shut certain rumours down because rather than fun speculation, for example about a return to F1, everyone immediately takes everything as fact rather as "hey it would be fun if this thing happens"

It's one thing if fans do that, it's much worse when the media and teams do the same.

So I am definitely not ruling out a return to racing for Daniel, but I am course also not saying it's happening for sure. But the fact that he wants teams to know he's still available is a good sign to me for the future. Plus he clearly is eager to carve out his own path in life right now. His team are playing down a return to racing currently but I feel like he also just needs a break after how things ended in F1 and that he's very much still looking at his options. As much as I would love to see him race again, I would still support it if all he does is go to football games and have fun. I want him to keep that smile he's had recently. More than anything that's what he deserves.

I do think that if we see Daniel return to racing it won't necessarily be in 2025. And I don't think we'll know anything about his upcoming steps until sometime next year either.

Finally a link to the article (in case people wanna verify/come to their own conclusions):

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LISTEN. (cw torture, barb thirst, mc infofump, mentions of murder and devildm politics, a bunch'a spoilers for Barbatos live ★ & Tea time w you-, obey me whump, conditioning, rant about newer fandom this ask is a wild ride)

But I also like the idea of him discovering what you’ve been doing & then questioning you about your methods. Like he’s impressed you would take matters into your own hands, but he is also an expert and can teach you many things~

Cue you getting taken on as the torturer’s apprentice. When you tell Solomon, he just goes pale and stammers out a joke about how he doesn’t like sharing his apprentice lol.

I'm gonna interrupt you like the potato i am but like???yes????? you do not understand my obsession with torture. I always thought I'm a masochist but I've recently figured i was wrong and Boy it Was the best feeling in rhe world to figure out whats wrong with me-

also my mc is both Sol's apprentice in magic and Barb's student in torture and baking. mhmhmmm. I also Do Not Like the brothers so much my mc was never an exchabge student. I did some black butler shit back there and now he lives in the castle. like two years before the exchange program- (no my canon doesnt follow the game's canon caue thats so very badly written) and he also helps w murdering people who are against Diavolo. and people just ?? can't believe it- there has to be some sort of a war shit going on. Dia is too kind to do this- also, if anyone figures they don't. Barb has POWERS-

and BOY DO I LOVE BARB FOR THAT. Also dia but he isnt important rn sjsksk. in the new event's card he said smth like he would cross his own boundries for the sake of Diavolo and Devildom. althought he didnt say for mc so 😔 but thats hot af still. But buT BUT vvv

villain wannabe. wdym darkness?? you said itll be for the sake of devildom! idk im misinterpenting or no but this is so side ways I'm a bit ????ing rn

also in Tea time with you when you ask him what the fuck he did that even being a 24/7 slave butler to Diavoli won'y undo the mistake he had done?? he laughs?? HEEHEEE???? what are you Michael Jackson? and the other option he goes straight to anger so idk whats with the huge difference in replies-

anyway angry Barb is also best Barb i dont make the rules. also he's the butler of their PRINCE noone gets to harm mc. they'd dissapear. go missing. possibly either killed or very altered. Came Back Wrong™ ohoho, imagine if some of the castle workers/maids etc used to be high ranked nobles and demons and they've done smth so wrong that lowered them to this. and they don't remember it?? and noone else does remember too. just some lost names. okay not to get far-

BUT LISTEN Barb has definitly done some conditioning bs out there you can not prove it otherwise. also, Mammon keeps getting punished by Lu and hasn't changed so imagine the pain those demons have to go through for that-

JSKSKAJ!! BARB IS HOT OKAY- HES SADISTIC. I live sadistic demon butlers . also the fact that he has a torture dungeon- and who says there aren't demons in the hidden prisons waiting for their turn? i imagine Barb would randomly take one, do the things™ and leave for the next few months. the second the demons think they're forgotten/ theyre doomed. its also not in order so yep more stress. so wha i was goimg to say is imagine a very sadistic and mentally ill™ mc whos very angry tortuing some " innocent" souls in the dungeons. also, I tend to imagine Barb has taught Lucifer a few forms of torture when he fell (cough, Believer cough-) so-

Barb is such an interesting character (like Sol) and the older fandom used to really put those aspects in mind but the newer fandom is stripped completely from darkfic. like. can we have more darkfic i am begging I want obey me whump I dont want mc angst i want mc whump i want these bad boys dying of pain and being saved the last minute i want more stories on devildom politics i want more dark! demons/dark! mc aus- like can we bring that back??? can we stop w 24/7 fluff/comfort/angst thats just mc's death ?? no hate to those but can we bring back the dark shit i want to see demons getting their asses whooped in barb's dungeon or Dia being manupilative af--😭😭😭

ok ok ill shut up now😂

There is so much happening in this ask, but for some reason I keep coming back to "HEEHEEE???? what are you Michael Jackson?" because wow that made me actually LOL for real.

I'm always going to be for canon divergence. I say do whatever makes you happy! Your MC must truly have their hands full learning all that stuff with Barbatos and Solomon. But like if you're gonna learn those things, might as well learn from the best, right???

The thing I like about Barbatos is that he is very versatile. They've kept him very mellow in the game, but he has so much potential to go dark if you want to write him that way. I mean they don't even confirm that he actually has a torture dungeon in the game... I'm pretty sure it's just Mammon who says he's rumored to have one. But like by leaving it open ended like that, we can speculate all we like about it, you know?

And traditionally, wasn't that the point of demons? Aside from tempting humans, they're supposed to torture souls, right? I mean, I don't know how accurate that actually is, but it's interesting to think about.

I'm not especially obsessed with torture and I think it's pretty clear from my writing that I'm generally on the fluffier side of things lol. But it's interesting to think about, especially considering the types of characters we're dealing with here. And I really like the exploration of morality and inner evil and that sort of thing when it comes to heavy stuff like torture.

I thought it was very interesting in Barbatos Live how he calls MC his good conscience. 'Cause in Tea Time with You, he very much indicates that he used to do crazy stuff all the time, but then the Incident happened and now he doesn't. So wouldn't his guilt over whatever happened be his good conscience, like it has been all this time before MC showed up? Is he saying that MC just makes him want to stick to that even more?

Though he also says that it's like demon nature to have some darkness, so I don't know if he's talking about his specific experience necessarily. It's more like he's saying he wants to fight against his own nature? I dunno.

OH DANG but I love that idea about the maids and such in the castle! Demons that messed up so bad, now Barb keeps them at the castle to work??? What was that about not giving into the darkness???? lk;asdfkjlfd

I'm afraid I can't really comment on the amount of darkfic present in the fandom at any given time... due to being a Fluffster Extraordinaire, I'm faaaar more likely to read sweet lovey romance fics than Barb torture dungeon fics. Which isn't to say that I don't like the Barb torture dungeon situation because I do indeed find it very intriguing lol. I'm just usually like yo I want that guy to bake for me and make me tea, I don't care what he does in his spare time.

In fact, I really like the idea of a sweet and doting house husband Barbatos that pampers MC all day every day while being a ruthless and loyal demon butler the rest of the time. Like the dungeon isn't a rumor but as long as he washes off the blood when he comes back, MC is like whatever lol.

Oh but I also like the idea of MC being just as bad as him, now that I think about it. Like MC isn't ignorant, they don't turn a blind eye, they are right there with him, actively participating. The torture couple aadsflkjdfkjldf

I dunno, I think I'm considering it in more of a humorous way than a serious way, though.

Anyway, it's fun to consider all aspects of Barbatos because he has so many facets! And I think it's fun to explore the different sides of him.

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Indie KING CLAWTHORNE from The Owl House! NOT SPOILER FREE.

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[ added 11 june: REALLY emphasising the slow activity! ]

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MUN.

You can call me Forest, and I'm 20! I find it amazingly difficult to talk to people and keep a conversation going, so if we happen to speak ooc... I promise it's nothing against you! My social skills are just something else lol, but please let me know if I have said or done anything that upsets you - it'll never be my intention.

I am also perpetually in slow activity mode. My motivation and muse are very fickle, amongst other things in my life that might keep me from being here. This means threads/asks may be dropped over time (unintentionally or due to lack of muse), but you're welcome to ask me about it!

INTERACTING.

For the time being, I am not mutual exclusive; so anyone is welcome to send asks, unprompted or through memes (unless specified in the tags)! Starter calls will be kept mutuals only for my own sanity.

Asks and prompts are the best way to interact with me. Plotting isn't a strength of mine, unfortunately - but I'll likely be up for most things!

With replies, I try to do it oldest to newest, but I am so slow that it doesn't always work out. I also won't reply to every ask I get - this is always due to muse, whether I have inspiration or not... but please don't be discouraged from sending more! You can send as many as you like - the more the merrier, it gives me variety and options to choose from. -> Sometimes I will practise this when sending memes, just know that I'm never expecting you to answer all of them! If receiving multiple asks bothers you, feel free to let me know and I will keep that in mind :)

FOLLOWING.

Two of the main reasons I might not follow back: I'm unfamiliar with your fandom, or I'm not sure how our muses would interact. I prefer to stick to fandoms I know for that reason, but if you have an idea you're welcome to jump in my ask! A secret third reason: I didn't realise/forgot to check.

I guarantee I always read rules before following, if you have one available. I try to send passwords, but it does make me a bit uncomfortable so there might be occasions where I don't - but again, they will have been read! -> I do follow quite a lot of people, so I'm bound to forget rules sometimes. Please give me a little nudge if I break one of yours!

OTHER.

I have a tendency to write King's dialogue in uppercase - not because he's shouting all the time (though he is definitely a loud boy), but because it helps me find his voice better. However, if you'd prefer me to write his dialogue normally because it's difficult to read, let me know and I'll drop it in our interactions!

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Will be updated as needed, but if there's anything you're unsure about feel free to ask :]

[dejaruhe]

There's like. A part of me that wants to be ideologically pure and to abstain. I met an older woman in my new knitting group, her name is Raheli (I'm not sure how to spell it but that's how it sounds) and she's just a delight, I think she's in her 70s and she grew up in Israel and she *hates* Israel and she is definitely not voting for Genocide Joe because she's an anarchist!

And like. I adore her. I also love anarchism, philosophically. But I also love veganism philosophically and I still eat eggs 🫠 I am not ideologically pure. I always end up choosing the option that feels the most loving and beneficial to everyone in the moment. I choose eggs because I love myself and my roommate and it's hard to get enough protein otherwise. I will vote for Joe Biden because frankly, I love queer Americans (which includes me) and it's not like Joe Biden will be *worse* about Palestine than fucking Trump will be. My understanding of the most recent foreign aid bill that gave money to Israel is that it was the only way to get bipartisan support to get aid to Ukraine and Taiwan also. I don't pretend to understand global politics as deeply as I might like, but I do believe in supporting the continued independence of those countries, and like. Yes. Israel is doing the worst possible shit. But they will be doing that with full-throated instead of subdued support if Trump wins, and he will hand Ukraine to Putin, and maybe even Taiwan to China... And it's just. How could someone in our system make any other choices than to use the last sliver of power they have to try to save the last little shreds of this Republic? I always come back to the NK Jemisin quote from her broken earth trilogy:

And yeah. The US was built by slavery and genocide. It is also still being built by the survivors of those unforgivable original sins and those survivors deserve, I think, a chance to continue surviving. I don't see how letting a fucking christofascist into office will help. So once again I hold my nose and pleadingly vote for a ghoulish, corporate status quo because while money motives can certainly elicit cruelty, they aren't inherently only cruel. This is why rainbow capitalism is better than "we hate the queers" capitalism and we should go buy whatever pride merch we can find at whichever Target stores carry any. Or I suppose we should fucking lock and load some AK47s and do an anarcho-communist revolution! We would only need to like, get in shape and do some murder. 😔 It wouldn't be fun at all, guys. Revolutions are terrible bloody messes even if you're justified in shooting the tsars. Jill fucking Stein isn't going to win. There's a degree of practicality that must be acknowledged!

That said. Trump will clearly win again, maybe from prison 😭 all of our invective and pleading should really be paired with plans to survive that. We can beg people to vote and they won't, or they'll vote their stupid consciences and still not break 3% for the goddamn Green Party, and we will have Trump regardless, just like we did in 2016. I said it in June of that year and I'll shout it til the votes are in — we have to figure out how to survive a Trump presidency. A lot of us won't. A lot of us didn't. I don't even know where to start... I know I'm going to work to reconnect in my community with people who organize resource redistribution, and get back into shape, and maybe take some weapons training 😭 I suppose we "deserve" war at our doorsteps

Gonna need yall to stop putting Biden is Just As Bad propaganda on my dash. Had to unfollow someone because I don’t want to a start a fight with them over it, but I’m about to bite the next person who puts that shit in front of me.

If you don’t like Biden, vote in your god damn local and mid term elections for third party or further left candidates so that we get better democratic candidates for future elections. But this one is already fucking decided, and I’m NOT ending up under a Trump led dictatorship because yall value protecting your personal sense of moral purity over the collective good. Whether it offends your personal morals to vote for Biden is IRRELEVANT in the face of the alternative.

This isn’t a lesser of two evils situation. One guy sucks. The other guy is LITERALLY PLANNING TO OVERTHROW OUR DEMOCRACY AND INSTALL HIMSELF AS A PUTIN STYLE DICTATOR.

PLEASE look up Project 2025 and stop acting like abstaining is some kind of personal ethical decision!

[rarestnicole]

This was supposed to be for yesterday, but I just remembered my April writing list. 😂 So here goes…

Describe my personality…

Well. 😆 I’ll start with leaving my MBTI first. I am an INFJ. I haven’t checked it last year like I planned to do. I’m gonna take the personality test again this year, hopefully, when I remember it. 😂

So, yeah. I’m kind of complicated? At least that’s how it seems, but I’m really comfortable with who I am. I’m shy. I couldn’t really do a lot on that department. I tried. But it always defeats me. Trying to be more social, more of a take-the-moment kind of girl, more of standing out; all of this makes me a trembling or conscious mess. I know that’s unfortunate. I tried, but I’m not comfortable. Sad, I think, that that’s become my personality. Hehe. I’m really an introverted person, I choose who I interact with or when I am fine being social. Otherwise, I’m fine being by myself.

I think a lot. I may even be an over-thinker. I want to be prepared for most of the things that I want or have to do. I’m not comfortable if I’m not prepared. Huhu. I tend to panic and forget things, so I wanna be prepared prior to any commitments.

I’m kind of an organized gal. It’s sensory overload for me when my surroundings get messy. 😔 So whenever our place gets a lot of guests, I tell myself that it’s alright. I have to remind myself that I’ll eventually have time to clean up my surroundings. I feel light, better, and happy when my surroundings are neat. I’m feeling soooo down when my place is trashed. Huhu. I cannot function well.

Wait… I’ve strayed, didn’t I? 😂

Okay. Description, yeah.

My personality is warm, I guess? I’m compassionate, thoughtful, and caring. That’s my whole personality and even when I try to suppress it whenever I’m hurt, it will just eventually resurface. I do hate mankind sometimes because of how we’re treating our only home, our fellow living things, and our fellow humans. But at the end of the day, I’m just a compassionate human who hates cruelty and abuse of all kinds. Hay. My personality isn’t so bright, but I guess when I’m around people that I am comfortable with, I’m just a ball of sunshine. Maybe because I’m a people-pleaser or it’s just that I find it awkward when the silence within a crowd that I know of isn’t as comfortable as my solitude? There’s a comfortable silence and there’s that awkward silence that I couldn’t take. I’d rather be alone, though, that’s the best option or situation for me. Hihi.

I’ve been told that I’m a happy-go-lucky, but I think I’m not? But what I’m sure about is that I have commitment issues. When something piques my interest, I sometimes squeeze that interest to a pulp, because if I don’t, I may have to wait for a long time for that feeling again. I act on my extreme feelings. When I’m truly inspired to do something, I put my focus on doing that. I wanted to learn a language? I’d study that until I don’t have enough drive anymore. I wanted to express the pain I felt? I’ll put that into words. I’m sad? I’ll reflect that through words, through art, through consumable media. I’m feeling in love? I’ll play love songs that doubles that feeling and listen to it nonstop until I run out of that feeling.

I think I have a lot more… maybe because my personality isn’t that fixed or maybe because I’m yet to be sure of the personality that I know is authentic. Or maybe I’m just distracted by the songs that’s been playing since I started writing this…? Haha.

Oh, another pa pala. My attention span is kinda… short? Hehe. But maybe that depends on where I’m focused on? And how I’m feeling about that thing? Hay.

I’ll stop na muna. Haha. I’ll just draft what’s supposed to be for April 02 tomorrow. Hehe. I’m sleepy and I really want to reread something, so, bukas na lang.

[kimtaegis]

maybe i can never fly 😔 im grateful that my family lets me stay with them although im over 20 and i dont need to pay rent. but i work a part time job that doesn't pay much anyways, and im the only one that works. my other sibling that is also still here doesn't. and im always the one giving my mother money when she needs it. i feel its so unfair but what can i really do. i cant afford to live on my own (hell, i dont even drive or have a car) i just suddenly feel like i'd always be trapped in this space. cause im the only responsible one. im the only one that has money (they spend their $ poorly but somehow still manages to keep a roof over our heads) but the guilt makes me feel like i'd never be my own person. like id feel they'd hurt financially if im not around. i know its not my responsibility but it still doesnt make it any easier. even the thought of leaving one day (who knows when) makes me feel guilty. i feel suffocated. and im stuck. i hate it so much. i think seeing the guys show us their space makes me think about these things even more. i want my own space, i want my own life. sorry idk where im going with this i wanted someone to hear me out 😞

I do hear you sweetie and I can feel the distress you’re in because of it, I am very sorry that this situation makes you feel guilty and boxed in, I’m sending you a big hug 🫂 I’ve never found myself in similar circumstances so I can’t give much more than my sympathy I’m afraid… I don’t know if talking to your family about your worries and feelings is an option at all, but either way, I think talking to a therapist or doctor would be a good idea, I’m sure they can help you cope with this guilt. you don’t have to feel that way, it’s your life after all, and even though our mind might make us think otherwise sometimes – you don’t owe anyone anything, you’re not on this earth to pay some kind of debt to your family, okay? and gratefulness and independence can co-exist! please take care of yourself darling 🤍

[serenedash]

HOW did you make your Baldr cosplay. You've inspired me to wanna try and make one too, got any tips on doing it?

aaaaaa I feel so honored I inspired you!!!! ;0; my disclaimer is that I am the farthest thing from a professional lol, but I will show you how I did it! My cosplay philosophy is that I am lazy and want to spend as little money as possible ⭐ I always use clothes I already own, the base outfit I already owned I only needed to get the belts, hoodie and wig

This is long I'm so sorry I just went thru the whole process :')

Here is every part of the finished cosplay:

Boots

Black jeans

Pants chain (mine is just an old one from hot topic)

Blue belts x2 (got these on Amazon, $10 USD each)

Black shirt + vest (or you can do one black button down, in canon Baldr looks like he's wearing a black vest over a white shirt but I felt like my vest was too low it would've looked weird)

Black fingerless gloves

Hoodie (Amazon, $18 USD) + tassel (Joann's Fabrics $10 USD)

Mark of mastery by MadeByFjori on Etsy ($6 USD) I bought it unpainted to save money and just got some metallic gold paint :) its really good quality and shipped fast! I had taped a safety pin on the back of it to attach it to the hoodie (I had tried super gluing it but it mf broke off!!! Tape it is,)

Wig (mine is the Skyelar classic in silver from Arda Wigs!) If you have no experience styling wigs that's fine since Baldr's hair is so choppy that if you fuck it up it works LOL I always style my wigs while wearing them thats just me, I brushed the hair in front of my face and cut the bangs around the bottom of my eyes and went from there. I also cut part of the sides framing my face

If you have dark hair like me I recommend a skin colored wig cap!!! Dark hair spilling out from a white wig will look weird, they sell them kn the Arda Wigs site

Optional: Starlight keyblade from Spirit Halloween ($40 USD) it's solid plastic, lightweight and looks amazing! The only bad thing I've found is the keychain just. Is not durable. Last year it broke off at a convention and I lost it 😔

Optional: face mask by KumalatteCreations on Etsy ($16 USD) I wear it with all my KH cosplays lol I have 2 masks for cosplay from them, really great quality, fit and has a place to insert a filter. I have the OSFA teen/women size because my face is tiny :')

Okay but let's talk real shit: the Hoodie. It's a plain white sweatshirt from Amazon, size up to get that oversized look Baldr has. Also disclaimer: do NOT get a thick hoodie I tried my best to get a light weight one and oh my god. For something that is essentially Just Sleeves I was SWEATING TO DEATH okay anyway materials:

Hoodie base

Gold fabric (I bought 1 yard and had more than enough)

Black buttons x2

Black ribbon

Tassel

Fabric scissors, fabric glue, needle/thread, safety pins

Black and orange markers

If you get a hoodie like mine where the hood strings have metal around the edges, use white paint or white out (I did not have time to buy white paint,) to paint over the metal so its not distracting

Now the How To:

Pull out your hood strings if applicable, paint any metal like I mentioned above

Use fabric glue to add black ribbon around the sleeves, do this in sections not all at once, do the ends of the ribbon around the back of your armpit to hide the ends. On my hoodie there was a hem on the sleeves that I followed so it was easy to make it even on both sides

Crop sweatshirt in half and cut down the middle front but DO NOT go all the way to the top where the hood is, stop about 2 inches away from it otherwise you will be me having to sew that shit back together

Measure where you want the front to fold open, you will probably have to cut more off of the sweatshirt bc if its too big you will be pinning that shit onto the top of your shoulders, basically shorter in the front and longer in the back (I know mine is so messy I didn't measure I just guessed I know wtf @ me-)

Flip hoodie inside-out and add gold fabric to the inside of the hoodie, leave about half an inch room around the edge for hemming, yes the entire inside too, I found that when I moved around I could see the back of the inside and it looks weird when the gold fabric suddenly stops

If you have a sewing machine or want to do this by hand then fold over the edges and hem it on top of the gold (not me tho I was con crunching and glued that shit all the way around,) it cleans up the edges and adds the white border to the part you will pin open

What I WANTED to do was to sew the buttons onto the hoodie and add button holes on what would get pinned but I did not have the time so I sewed the buttons directly onto the front pieces so when I fold it open I used 2 safety pins on each side to hold it up

For the tassel: I colored it with a peachy/light orange sharpie and a black one. I measured how long I wanted it to be and cut the other end off and used fabric glue on the end to stop fraying. I wrap it around the buttons and do a simple loop knot to keep it in place

if you end up doing what I did irt the tassel, don't go in with a regular orange marker bc it came out so dark on the fabric its made of like I just happened to have this peach/skin tone sharpie that came out the right shade on the gold fabric

Finally, pin the mark of mastery in place!

Now you are Baldr :)

[normal-thoughts-official]

That description is pretty good! I'd just put the phrases taken directly from the meme between quotation marks, otherwise it's great. If you want me to help you write descriptions I'd be happy to! And there's the accessibility server on discord where you can ask questions and ask other people to describe images for you as well

Yes 😔 in my defense, my choices app apparently has a bug where I get a new key every 30min instead of every 2 hours, so playing became a lot quicker. Also I'm insane

There are more differences than I thought there would be! Like, when you're officially dating someone, there are lots of little tender details like ur LI kissing you before going separate ways, hugging you, etc. If you're not dating anyone sometimes they just erase those moments and other times it gets replaced with Diego doing some platonic equivalent, which I thought was pretty nice. Honestly I kind of enjoyed these moments More, like I love LIs as much as the next guy but the platonic bond between them is so important to me and it was really nice to see it prioritized. But yeah, doesn't get as much money

I didn't romance jake, my evil cis white woman doppelganger named bad taste bitch romanced jake. But yeah. I know that he talks more about Mike in the diamond scenes and I wanted to see gayboy pine. I still don't particularly like him but it was interesting to find out the Forbidden Knowledge. I did pay the price in the form of having to see his saggy tits tho. Also WHY IS JAKE THE ONLY LI THAT GETS TO BE KINKY. I WANT A REFUND. I AM MARCHING TO CHOICES HQ AS WE SPEAK

And yeah that's fair, honestly there were many times where I had to close my eyes before pressing the mean option. Especially the "that's the dumbest thing I've ever heard" thing u tell Raj when he tells you about his grandma and cooking. Like bro :( but it was also fun to see sides of the characters I hadn't seen before, and see what happens when I picked those choices. If you pick that one, for example, you get it confirmed that Raj speaks Hindi, so that's pretty cool I think

Also replied

That is fair, I don't think anyone Should romance him, just that he's objectively the most complex, best written one. So long as people aren't sleeping on him it's all good to me

ABSOLUTELY YES. God they are so in love with each other it's insane. Dunno why Choices invented Kele to be Quinn's weird LI when they could have just made Quinnchelle canon

Yes!!! All the relationships are great and interesting and well written and I really like all of them and the subtle differences depending on your choices. It's super cool. They're a family 🥹🥹 it's literally so beautiful to see how much they grow and care for each other

LILA AND ALEISTER FUCKED ON NEW YEARS

udhdidjdid thank you, it also took me many replays to realize that so im glad u thought it was interesting

YES. Like it's so funny because they're NOT toxic masculinity, especially not Sean, and Sean is like openly bisexual anyway since he's dating MC and he's nothing if not sweet and tender to him, but they are still Like This about each other. I figure it's mostly Craig trying to cover up his crush but it's sooooo embarrassing for them

shaking you by the neck. WRITE THAT FIC. please. please i need that fic so bad. please ill do anything. please please please please please please please it sounds so good i need it pleaseeeeee

no but actually for real i love the idea of craig like... slowly growing more comfortable around his crush, going from the crushing self doubt and inferiority complex to becoming more confident and comfortable loving sean, aaaaaaaa. And I think sean needs it too, you know, to be loved as an equal, to be loved without wanting to destroy himself and without the other wanting it either, to care and be cared for? Like Sean is king of martyrdom but Craig also died for him at least once and he's so ride or die for him. And it's nice to have someone at his back, you know? And just like Craig slowly growing more comfortable with himself so he grows more comfortable with his feelings for Sean, not in an "internalized homophobia" way cuz I don't think its about that, but in a "my love isn't a burden" sort of way

like AGHHHH they make me crazy!!!! And I think their journey towards finding each other would be so beautiful and interesting because they both have a lot of personal growing to do before they are able to be together but they'd do it together like always and their bond is just so beautiful regardless of relationship status

with that being said the idea that sean thought they were already dating is Hilarious. that trope works super well with them cuz sean was always, like, sweet and caring so not much changed on his part, and craig has his weird fratbro declarations of undying gay love thing going on, so it'd make SENSE that he'd just be like "yeah our dynamic hasn't changed but we are dating now". meanwhile craig has no idea

(god i just love craig so much too. i just. gently holds him. thank you for taking care of sean when I'm not around. but also stop pulling a sean for sean. ily. love yourself NOW)

9. UDHDIDNDI I DID NOT MEAN IT IN A HORNY WAY, EW LOWKEY. She's a lesbian, it would just feel weird to be horny for her. I just mean that she's really, really funny, and although I love how quickly she becomes ride or die for MC if she likes them, the fact that she holds that tightly to a petty grudge in the middle of the apocalypse just makes her hilariously delightful. Whether loving or hating that girl has NO chill, she's always at 100, and she acts on it on every opportunity. Like it's lowkey sad because it's probably because of her desperate need to be loved, so she latches onto people she likes and gives them her all, versus expecting people not to love her and so resenting them very deeply for it. And needing to lash out at every opportunity because she didn't get to when it mattered. This turned out sadder than I intended rip. IDK she's just interesting and like I said it was nice to see those sides of the characters I hadn't seen before

10. I do too! It was genuinely painful to be mean to him. He is so easygoing like you have to be actively mean to lose points with him and even then you don't lose many. Raj ily

11. Don't be silly. You are those friends now. You're getting subjected to my opinions whether you like it or not /hj

OMG CHILENON HIIIIIII

I missed you!! It might be a hot second before I finish replying (you probably know that by now) but I just wanted to let u know that I'm happy to hear from you in case you're anxious daiuhdsauidha

BTW if you'd rather I answer your ask privately you can let me know. I'm not sure if I should dauhaidsa

[alloveroliver]

Follow up commentary, My response

I wanted to answer everyone individually but didn’t want them too spaced out, since some of my comments were too long for tumby. And to keep the convo going if needed XD

These are direct quotes I copied and pasted below

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@littlelady-blackwell

you are not alone. honestly i didn’t even play these last three events and still haven’t finished vince’s route but don’t find myself in a hurry of going back to it 😅 i don’t hate ikevam but out of all my games i do find it the one i have most trouble staying focused on. doesn’t help that the events are so competitive too that the awards don’t feel worth it,, i just end up throwing the money at another game 😂

>>> Ash: I have to agree about the focus. I don’t typically think about Ikevamp outside of the app being open lol. I also feel that the events, especially from the start, were HELLA competitive! This was the first time I threw money at a game and didn’t rank! I was kinda shocked lol. I’m glad it’s popular cuz, for all intents and purposes it should be. It’s got all the right ingredients. <3 I appreciate you Avril! Thanks for your response <3

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@pianoperson 

Oh man, I just deleted IkeVamp a few minutes ago HAHAHAHA because I’m not even logging in now and it’s taking up space.

The stories and the translations are really good, but I can’t seem to get into it?

Maybe it’s because I am already attached to someone else from another game that makes it hard for me to like it, but I just don’t like it as much as others do to the point I don’t get the hype for it. 😅

And I’ve gotten really tired of the smut, especially in events…

Frankly, I’ve only played it for the attire because it’s pretty but otherwise? Yeah no thanks…

I’m sorry guys, especially to those who really love Ikevamp, but I really don’t like it. 😔 It does make me feel a little lonely because everyone seems to love Ikevamp and don’t play Ikerev while I’m the complete opposite. 🤪

>>> Ash: What are the odds that you JUST deleted it! lolololol. 

I actually did have a convo about how the amount of smut in the events does get a bit exhausting. It was exciting at first but after a while it lost its novelty. I would like to see more relationship building events like other cybrid games have BUT maybe that just isn’t for this context. Not everything has to be for everyone but I am super curious as to why, a game that seems to have everything I’ve ever wanted, does not interest me. 

Also, your apology hit home for me lol. I also feel really bad for not being super active in the ikevamp world??? but, I am here to say we do not have to formally apologize or pretend to be into it. It’s okay to be different <3 Love you Star!

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@justine-the-guillotine​

I was just gonna reply to your post lol but I was saying too much lmfao as I do so I have to reblog with my response but:

I enjoy IkeVamp howeverrrr I largely think it’s mostly sexy for the sake of being sexy with less substance than the other Cybird games and you can tell Cybird *knows* that people will pay for sexy with all the paid options they offer in the game. Ikerev is still the superior game to me because with that game I feel Cybird created a whole ass world with actual original characters (yes based on Alice in Wonderland but it’s pretty loosely based imo) instead of relying on historical figures and information to create a story for them. 🤷‍♀️ That being said I do love Leonardo DaVinci with all my heart and soul but it’s weird for me to have just a single, lonely bias to spend money on lmfao that never happens to me 😂

>>>Ash: They def know people will pay for sexy. Those events are so competitive and any promise of a shirtless guy or “sexy” in the name makes it that much more desirable lol. I like this break away too, cuz I also feel like Ikerev is a literal masterpiece! It’s such an amazing, intertwined story. I love the alice in wonderland theme and I LOVE Oliver but I also will pay and take time out for several of the other suitors. They are all so dynamic and interesting. The personalities are so well developed and their RELATIONSHIPS WITH ONE ANOTHER! I could go on forever lskjdflsdjf. I just like that they have history. Like, when you fall into wonderland its a whole world of 1000 working parts that are all interconnected and alive! 

I don’t have an obsession in Ikevamp. I like a few of them, and I got super into Sebs and Comte for a while lolol. Now I am eye Faust but at this point in the game I should have a very clear bae. and I don’t :( this is the ultimate rarity for me cuz I am a bae slhore. 

I love and appreciate you XD I also saw your other post about more talk about Ikevamp. I didn’t want to link it here w/o permissions cuz it was your own personal post BUT I will say if anyone wants any more commentary on ikevamp events you can go to her blog and see the post <3 She has it tagged as  #Steeni speak 🔊

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@dear-mrs-otome 

I think it's good that Cybird has so many games that appeal to a broad range of interests. I personally find IkeRev difficult to focus on - there's never any real angst or drama to the routes or events (unlike ikevamp where people nearly die/do die in events) and the sexual content feels watered down. It feels like a game made for a younger crowd. I also find the MC of Ikevamp/Ikesen far superior to Alice. I play Ikerev for Oliver and Jonah only, really :(

>>>Ash: I do agree with this! They have many many games, historic and modern styles. Lots of magic use or real life reflections. Plenty of stuff for everyone if you don’t like a certain type. I do have to say, the stakes always seem higher in Ikevamp. It feels more suspenseful when someone can actually (and does!) get hurt or killed and it makes my heart jump. That’s not to say people don’t get hurt or killed in Ikerev, it just doesn’t scare me when someone is in danger in ikerev like it does in ikvamp because everyone seems to usually leave the route unscathed and in one piece. I do like that about this game, a lot.

The sexual content in the routes is, well i guess what you said “water down” is really the best way to describe it XD. I love the MC in Ikevamp. Kinda wish she was a suitor sldimgayfjlsjdf. Oliver is an amazing reason to play ikerev XD XD XD I truly enjoy our kindred tsundere love, Mrs O <3

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@tadokorojin 

Leo not biting made me so angry… He is my absolute favorite!! Even if I understand why he doesn’t want to I wish we had the choice. It’s like um this is about vampires we expect and want to get bitten… y’all not going to the one thing vampires do is disappointing. I’m also mad that he always tells MC he wants to be with her forever, he did so in the current event. I was just like -_- THEN BITE ME THEN! Reading the other comments It’s nice to see we’re not alone!!

I did Vincent’s route both ends and loved it! However, I did speed read over the second to get the promo bonuses, rather than paying attention to the story. Although I wonder if me loving it and him is more so the art hoe in me and that I have adored Van Gogh for a long time rather than his story tbh. Mozart and Arthur’s routes didn’t really do anything for me tbh, I think it’s a preference more than anything. I kept kind pushing them off, took forever to finish one end. I haven’t done Napoleon yet and plan to but I suppose I just pushed it aside for a bit. I mean I’m so deep in ObeyMe! Hell so I have  other priorities  

I love all the canon smut who wouldn’t maybe we’re all just horny 24/7, I don’t plan on giving up on it I am still very invested and excited to read the other routes but I suppose the initial excitement dissipated.

I’m also waiting for Tokyo Debunkers!! Preregistered my number forever ago lol so that can’t come soon enough. 

>>>Ash: My first route was Leo and it was a terrible decision really lol. I kept getting ready for that bite scene! That nom nom ya know? I have my own turnoffs about some of the routes and why I don’t want to read them. Napoleon’s had that kiss that pissed MC off from the start and I just felt gross that Sebastian would send her in there like that knowing damn well what would happen. So then I didn’t like Sebastian as much lol. HOWEVER, if i were forewarned to have an open mind for all of the routes then I prob would have enjoyed it more. I don’t think its a horrible beginning to his route if you look at it as a manga story I suppose. I’ve seen worse starts to a route, I.e., Arthur’s. It was a hell no from me from the start lol. Don’t like to be forced and when someone says ‘no’ and the suitor keeps going, that’s a full stop for me in an otome game. It was too early on, and I didn’t know a damn thing about him. So they were relying on his looks and flirty attitude alone to get him out of that situation. I tapped through the rest of his route without reading.(UMM THAT PRETTY MERMAID DRESS DOE??? FAV) I don’t hate him, but I’ll have to come back to the route later when I’m in a different mindset. It’s odd, cuz I don’t mind a manga to start like this? and then slow burn kinda developed a relationship but idk, this one came out of no where for me.

I really liked Mozart's route and Vincent’s route a lot. I liked watching Mozart's shell fall to pieces and go from being scare to touch her to being possessive and scared of other people touching her. It was sexxxxyyyy. Vincent’s route was a breath of fresh air for me. I like how the relationship becomes established midroute! and the rest of the time it’s developing that relationship. The endings were a total surprise to me! I couldn't predict what would happen lol. I really liked Leo’s route a wholllllle lot and I love the man, but the fact he can’t bite MC literally taints him for me. RIP

Yes!!!! I preregisterd for Tokyo Debunkers too! They are supposed to release the game next month so we shall see. They have been working really hard on it PLUS there are a lot of VAs in the game that are also in cybrid games! Oliver’s VA, Sirius’ VA, I think some guys VA from MidCin and Ikesen. GAH im just super excited XD I love the art style and the developers seem to be very upfront and honest and active on social media!

Thanks for the response! <3

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Ok yes, Leo not biting was a hard pill to swallow even if I understand his reasoning. However as someone who fantasized about being off of by vampires it left a lot to be desired. That said, I have done all five guys both endings and some felt rushed and others the romance factor wasn’t up to par for what I expected. If Comte doesn’t feed either I will be disappointed but, they have 3 more chances to win me over. Theo, Isaac, and Charles.

>>>Ash: I wanted to end up Leo’s vampy thrall but ya know sldkfjsldjf lol. I hope that I hope that I HOPE Comte will have some way to feed off her without turning her. Some kind of technique he learned over the years or something idk. just but me bro.... just bite me.... I need itttttt. 

From what I hear, Theo’s route might be another one of my favorites. Also, I did play SOME of Issacs in the jp version and I wont say anything for spoilers BUT I will say that Im going to like that one very much too XD I know nothing about Charles but I LOVE his look with the shades of pink and red and the earrings. Faust is already in my basket. I’m saving all my stuff for everything daddyFaust for the future lol. 

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I think I got everyone! 

I appreciate the open discussion. I feel like I have a better understanding now as to why Ikevamp didn’t become one of my favorite games like I was sure it would. I don’t want to push it, but I don’t think I will be focusing on the game as much anymore. I feel at peace with this decision lol. Instead of making myself read all the routes and stories and ultimately being unhappy about it, I’m just going to read what I like and make sure I’m having fun. Make sure you are having fun too!!! That’s what life is all about <3

Hot take on ikevamp super late at night when I should be asleep 😴

I'm somewhat sad I'm not super into ikevamp like I thought I was going to be. I can't seem to put my finger on it, but it just doesn't hook me as other games have.

It's strange because it has all the makings of being my top obsessed 😅. We have vampires ✔, orgasmic biting ✔, very handsome men ✔, and a beautiful story to boot.

However, the men I want to bite me *can't* (i.e., Comte and Leo) 🙃 . Mostly Comte tbh. Lol. When I finished reading Leo's route, I was left feeling angry???? Lol. The whole route ended, and not a single vampire bite was given to me. Whats the point!?!? 😅 I went on and on in my discord server about who in the world thought to release a vampire route with no vampire biting was okay sjjsjxjd. CEO of not knowing their audience, tbh.

Now that I know it works like that, I'm not even excited for Comte's route. Like? It's all about that orgasmic bite, yo. Who cares if he lives forever and has nipples, I want to be his SUSTENANCE. 🤤

I appreciate the bites in the other routes, thank you for those <3. Just... idk.

Also, I found something else strange. I have 0 fanfic wips for Ikevamp... I have plenty for every other game I play, but I have 0 for ikevamp. That makes me question a few things. Do I genuinely enjoy the game if it doesn't spark some kind of daydream from me? (Like everything else does) Or is it that the cannon smut is enough to keep me from making my own story up? Could also be my own hang ups, like story's taking place in the past without technology are less inspiring to me, maybe???

I love the cannon smut! I forgot to add that to my check list ✔

I have given it a lot of time, I have. Read 3 out of the 5 routes, 2 I've read twice. I did a couple of events, but I just don't like the game enough to keep throwing money at it.

I'm not saying I'll quit, but it's going to lay on the back burner until Faust is released. As far as I know, he can bite us. If not, then...

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There's more I could say, sure. But, this is just a hot take and not planned at all lol.

I will be playing Tokyo Debunkers when it comes out this year and it mayyyyyyy knock ikevamp off my radar comepeletely, idk lol. (I do want Theo to bite me still 👀 I can hold out for that 🙏)

Id love to hear what yall think of Ikevamp thus far. Just out of curiosity. And If you are dealing with, or seeing others deal with the same thing.