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sanasanakun · 10 days ago

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Jimithon Mouthwashing is such a good representation of untreated, enabled NPD like it makes me want to squeeze the life out of him. I'm endlessly fascinated when watching him interact with his crew, surroundings, and himself because he's so fucking lost in his own sauce. It's insane. If I'm being real, it makes him my favorite character in the game.

It's a little scary to say, but watching Jimmy is like seeing a mirrored version of myself two years ago before I truly committed to treatment for my NPD. He's like a shadow. The opening line "I hope this hurts," which I believe comes from Jimmy right before the crash, is such a poignant statement. It's a simple line, but I can tell you from experience that the desire to hurt others when in a narcissistic rage is overwhelming. It's such a good line to sum up Jimmy's character in that moment. Luckily, in the real world, I had my friends and family there to catch me when I hit my lowest, even though I'd hurt them so many times. Jimmy probably could've used friends to force him into therapy (cough cough Curly cough cough)

#also I don't mean we're similar in any way when it comes to rape or SA. Please don't twist it that way at all.#I mean like in terms of the jealously resentment revenge hurting others to feel thrilled not taking responsibility not seeing flaws etc #I'm diagnosed with NPD also but pls know my experience will be different from others. We're all different people obvs.#also Jimmy has like wayyyyyyyyyy more things wrong with him not just untreated NPD lol #I would say that untreated NPD is a hell most can't describe #you barely feel anything except rage boredom and jealousy (in my case)#love is a form of ownership and control because you can't really feel it the right way #so your -person- is an object of intense obsession and also a tool for you #if that makes sense? I see that with Jimmy and Curly for sure #You want to tear others down and hurt them because it makes you feel good to put them below you #there's a constant feeling of insecurity and it drives you crazy fr #kind gestures from friends feel insulting #and oh my god achievements made by friends and family in my case feel like I've been shot like I hate when they achieve things #It's not logical obvs but that's something I instantly noticed in Jimmy so i was like .....oh brother lol #and also if they achieve something my brain needs it to somehow be tied to me or I'll make it tied to me so they can be thankful #they should always center their attention on me and if they don't I immediately resent them #these are just some of my thought processes on the matter so I can show the similarities I feel with Jimmy #the KEY DIFFERENCE is all of these thoughts I have are left in my head and not exhibited in my actions (any more. took a long time)#but he is such a nasty human with ZERO introspection that he prob never even thought about treatment #also doesn't help that the hot blonde he's friends with never did anything to help with that #idk sorry for oversharing but ahhh this game is so well written I gotta yap about it lol #also kind of a funny unrelated story to show how weird the achievement thing can be lol #my friends announced they saved up enough to go to Vietnam (their dream trip) and I was happy for them (I really was)#but of course my delusional ass immediately also took it as a threat #and I booked a month long trip to Europe a few days after so I could also announce it LMAO #that is a kind of innocent incident when compared to Jimmy but it just shows how annoying NPD can be #Jimmy mouthwashing #mouthwashing #mouthwashing game #NPD

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