#but getting back into dn i cant see watari as any sort of positive father figure anymore

[valfeathers]

One of the stories of L's backstory that I've created in the back of my mind that will keep me up at night is how L had (intially) GENUINELY thought that he'd be taken care of when Watari brought him to the Wammy's House only to be groomed unrelentlessly, bent in all shapes to find the perfect mould, stripped of his human rights and watch as other kids his age or younger went through the same cycle of abuse.

anon,, you GET IT. you understand it. how/when did you read my mind??

i cant help but truly feel for him sometimes. of course, he isn’t perfect but i truly 1000% believe he deserved normalcy & love instead of whatever half-assed guardianship he was given. a child is just that. a child.

child L wasn’t an investment or a new project or the next prodigy or justice incarnate, he was just a kid. i recently read L file no.15 and it just made me sad to watch the beginning of this kid’s life-altering ‘career’ when all he wanted was a challenging puzzle.

i read watari realising that L was intelligent beyond his years & thinking ‘i can do something with this’

quillish wammy wasn’t a father, he was an inventor. he invested in L, and that isn’t raising someone.

and ofc watching the same thing happen to other wammy children while watari & roger look for his replacement,, that screams ‘you’re expendable & replaceable’.

which i’m sure is a very interesting thing to internalise.

(ofc i interpret L’s whole induction into wammy’s & backstory as. well. tragic but that’s just my interpretation 😭 i just think about L too much for my own good)

i always include L among the Wammy Victims™️ for this reason, it’s just presented differently because he’s the blueprint for the others. but that still isn’t good. that’s still damaging.

and he didn’t deserve to go through that.