#but even with forever: the only people he can ask about phil who know he's gone are tubbo and fit
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both q!fit and q!tubbo keep explaining away q!phil's absence in ways that dismiss any possible alarm, tubbo with meta (phil playing hardcore) and q!fit thinks he's on a vacation again and keeps calling him lazy,, i knew q!phil was going to have to escape on his own regardless of if anyone noticed his absence or not because there's no way for anyone to even guess where he is, but now he'll be escaping alone only to come back to no one worried about him and calling him lazy for being away for so long
#qsmp#qsmp philza#philza#tubbo lacks the q! in that one spot for a reason because cc!tubbo is a chronic metagamer (light hearted)#my hopes rely on forever or cellbit noticing now but my hopes aren't high#only way for cellbit to notice is if fit or tubbo comment on phil's absence#but that is getting unlikely because they both have their own ideas on why he is away#and neither of those ideas are a cause for concern for them so there's no reason for them to mention him unless there's something#that's hinting at his absence#forever i hold a bit more hope for because he Wants to see phil again so that he can thank him#so he has a reason to ask about phil#cellbit's only reason to ask about phil is if he wants access to the vault so we'll see#but even with forever: the only people he can ask about phil who know he's gone are tubbo and fit#i wonder if they'd dismiss any concerns he has like they are currently internally doing themselves?#another problem: timezones#in order for anyone to notice and Care about q!phil's absence#they have to go through an uphill battle of asking and questioning and expecting the worst#i feel like the highest bets on anyone noticing and worrying is etoiles actually#his timezone overlaps with tubbo and fit enough to be able to ask#he expects the worst#he knows phil enough to know this is unusual#unless he also goes the vacation excuse#i feared the likely chance no one would Care (they notice but brush it off) about q!phil's absence but god. it hurts to be correct#it's only wednesday but i have low hopes#earliest they'll start ringing the alarm bells is next week i think#unless it's already too late#shey rambles#anyway i am: unwell#i hope he stays locked up on friday solely because i'm touching grass then and don't want to miss lore hehehoho#best thing about any character phil plays is how subtle they are and how fun it is to pick up on that subtlety
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I'm weak for Phil/Missa with a worship focus
Think about this:
We're looking at the angel of death and a reaper of death.
We are seeing the guy who has survived everything since the beginning of time and the guy who keeps dying, and coming back, choosing what he always wants to return to.
They are united more than they should while one wields a sword to defend those he loves, the other clears the clouds in their loved ones path because he loves them! He wants them to be happy!
They will both forever remember those who were in their heart, The Antartic Empire and Team Vacío Legal lives forever, no matter how much time passes because they were loved by Philza and Missa; the most loyal immortals.
Oh! And something more; the focus on their immortality is so unique! When did I meet him I was told that; “The only thing Phil knows is that he has not died yet” But Missa I think is very aware of his death, he died, he died and he came back with a fourth chance when the others had until the third chance to return and he came back from the dead a fourth time. time, he would do it a fifth, sixth and seventh time he would do it all over again because he cares about.
While Philza in life gives everything of himself for people once they earn his loyalty, trust and appreciation. He won't stop being the same emotional-constipate-crow-dude but God knows he will follow his closest friends to the end of the world, he took the world alongside Technoblade and then he would destroyed another next to him! He is a patient crow, domesticated by death herselft (for whom he is waiting patiently to be with her) staying home and being domestic? He can do it, chaotic raiding dungeons and loting everything that makes his “shiny!” Brain go?, he won't say no. This man can do both if the people he cares ask him.
We have years of lore about Phil, I'll be honest. while we don't have much information about Missa but what we do have comes from HIM and US (his community) do you want a prince-ish son of la Santa muerte? He can be, do you want an labor overexploited reaper? poor thing lmao but here him is! Do you want him to be 26 (or more) meters high? well, ask the admins but no one will deny you //I have seen him ominous, savage, bear hybrid, anguished, violent, etc, the limit is in the imagination!
(You have so many styles)
They worship each other by the way they complement each other. Just by thinking of Philza as the one who has not died, silent and anxious, waiting almost patiently for his complement, his missing half, the father of his children and his husband to return to him after literally being in the center of the end, the end of their life together, the end of watching his children grow and grow, until grow old (even though the mere thought of them aging beyond them breaks him)
After literally being in death and its domain only to choose to return, Missa would never believe in taking away Phil's free will so he's prepared to not see him there, he'll be fine; It is his right. Someone like him with the eternity in front of him would get bored of waiting for a guy like Missa.
Only to arrive and be absolutely adored and hugged till death (again) by his husband. He is happy to see him, he is so glad to see him waiting for him, Philza is happy that not so much of that so-called “time” has passed since the last time he had him in his arms (where Missas belongs to), so happy that their life together is not over yet. A life he loves and a husband he would fight for until he dies.
Obviously he drags him into the house where Missa is absolutely delighted to be welcomed (he always will be) like a crow carrying a new treasure to adore to its hiding place, only that Missa in his soul shines brighter than many of his shinys.
Missa is a reaper of death, literally a part of him feels explicitly built to respond to Phil as his angel or to BBH as a companion of duty, but it's too much, almost too instinctive and natural for him to worship Phil, not that he has a lot of experience but it is nothing like the crush he once had with Quakity, this is more real and deeper than the kiss he shared with Roier.
It's almost like nature for him to adore Philza.
And he doesn't make it any easier for poor Missa, so great and kind, Missa will always be vocal about how incredible and charming his husband is, how much he wants to spend time with him despite the adversities and hazards of the job that he does. prevent, they are worth it as long as he can be under his presence like a cat with sunlight.
It doesn't matter if Phil doesn't want him anymore because Missa is his because he decided it for himself/the skeleton isn't going anywhere, Phil is patient but as long as they are on the same earthly plane of life he is not going to let go of Missa, simply because he is loyal to him (hes also a little chaotic, not above dragging Missa around like putting a collar on a wet kitten)
En conclusión:
DEATHDUO KILL ME YAIIII :DDDD
❗️How we interpret their relationship does not change that Phil took the name “platonic husbands” correctly. (Pissa AND deathduo are totally valid, don't worry, we can get both :D )❗️
#pissa#death duo#qsmp deathduo#death family#qsmp tallulah#qsmp#qsmp missa#qsmp philza#deathduo#analisys#kinda;?#qsmp eggs#qsmpblr#i dont know how to tag this#in general lol#qsmp etoiles#<—-#mentioned#qsmp pissa#long post#so normal about deathduo#queer platonic marriage hits hard#also could make them kiss
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jam. listen. i know its a joke in the new dapg but dan asking phil ”would you say you’re a man now” and phil Strongly replying ”no!” is doing something to me
SAME! god. i have so much to say about the ways phil fails gender actually. it's a different way of navigating gender than dan's, which. i think i have made it deeply clear how much dan's way of navigating and exploring gender means to me. but like!!!
gender is socially constructed. man and woman are categories that most people fall into, and the way those categories are defined is decided collectively. and like—the most broadly accepted definitions of man and woman in western society include heterosexual attraction and presenting gender in a way that is appealing to the opposite binary sex/presenting gender in the way most acceptable to patriarchy. that makes all queerness gender nonconformity.
there's different degrees of it, of course—i'm not saying there's no cis queer people, or that all lgba+ people are actively gender nonconforming. there's self determination in claiming trans & nonbinary identity! that's not something i'm going to apply to people who don't claim it. and there's assimilationist lgbta+ people of all identities putting a lot of energy into conforming to cishet expectations of gender performance.
what i'm saying is that in the eyes of many, to be anything but cishet is inherently a failure to perform gender "correctly". on a really base level, that's why the misogyny, homophobia, and transphobia can't be effectively fought against in isolation, and why our liberation can only be acchieved through solidarity.
which like. this is perhaps not the point of my reply to this ask, but it's the framework that allows me to articulate WHY i'm so insane abt phil and gender, even if his is a quieter transgression from expectation than dan's?
like phil's emphatic "no!" on whether or not he's a man? it makes sense! he's not, not in the way manhood is defined by so, so many people. phil's gender is that he's gay. i don't think he personally registers that as something besides cisness, but like, it's something deeply relatable to me in my transness! it's a cool queer way of existing and identifying!
idc if it was a joke in the video! that's also some real shit! welcome to den does gender studies about dan and phil. please keep talking to me about these things forever.
in conclusion. wrow. phil's gender is faggot just like me 💛
#jam replies#anon#amazingphil#phil lester#phan#<- tagging all my original posts this this year#g?#anyways i haven't actually taken any gender studies classes. i'm just stoned and also smart
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Unforgettable night – an unfortunate visit to bar Aurora
Summary: Paying a visit to Aurora, since Jake has given no signs for months, and suddenly free alcohol doesn't sound that bad after all
Characters: Lyra Ambrose (my Mc from The afterfire), Phil Hakwins, Jessy Hawkins
Warning: use of alcohol, sexual related content, vivid description of intoxicated state
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"It's only a two hours car ride." Lyra paced the living room as she nervously tried to convince herself. She won't deny, the thought of a persuasive PowerPoint slideshow have crossed her mind, but that might have been a bit too sick, even from her. She ran a frustrated hand through her hair and stared out into the late afternoon sun that completely covered the street.
"Let's think rationally. What reason do I have to go there?"
What reason does she have? Jake hasn't given a sign of himself in months, not even that he's alive. She was aware of what had happened that night in the mine; the news was full of it, just as the German government itself was puzzled by the incident. The thought, the guilt that she should have been the one to be there didn't let her rest. Richy wanted her to come. All these thoughts embedded themselves in her everyday life, even at night, and dreams suddenly turned into nightmares full of terror.
She couldn't take it anymore, no matter how much she convinced herself, or even Jessy, she started to give in under the weight. The redhead was the only one who knew about it; she shut herself away from the others, refused to hear anything about them. Everything took a toll on Jessy at least as much, and on top of that, even keeping a secret fell on her shoulders. This also made Lyra feel terrible. She would have preferred to escape from the world.
And what was she about to do? Go to the very place all her problems originate from.
"This will be just one night..." She picked up the car keys from the dresser and put them back. "I can't hide here forever, waiting to wither away."
But you know well you deserve it. The evil little voice in her head spoke. This voice had guided the longest six months of her life so far, and before she could surrender to it again, she grabbed her jacket and bag, shoving the key in hee back pocket. She calmed herself down the whole way with the thought that nothing would go wrong, and suddenly the promise of free alcohol didn't sound that bad after all.
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The woman pulled into the parking lot next to the building in total darkness. Even from the road, the illuminated sign was clearly visible; the Aurora welcomed those who wanted to have fun with open arms tonight. Carefully pulling on the worn-out jacket, she started towards the entrance wearing the blouse she had just put on for the first, and most certainly for the last time in her life.
Uncomfortable and too cut out, she thought. She sneaked through the door and immediately stopped, all she could manage to say was: "Damn thing this is."
The music was louder than it should have been for the ears, she could almost feel the blood rushing in her eardrums. At some places, the lights were as blinding as on the sign outside, the inhalation of the smell of alcohol and people was unavoidable. This wasn't a nice little bar where you sit at the end of the day, Lyra realized, but a party place. Why though, hardly any young people live here!
She ventured inside, since she can't stand leaning against the door. She fought her way through the people – not many, but there were noticeably enough to block her way – and reached the bar, where a man was wiping the glasses deep in thought. Lyra plopped down on a chair and waited patiently for him to notice. As she did so, she scanned the tattooed black haired from head to toe. All his movements were measured and determined as he placed the whiskey glasses one by one. He looked quite like a bartender, she came to the conclusion.
"What can I give you?" He asked without looking at her. Lyra watched from the side as his Adam's apple bounced up and down his tattooed neck. It's pretty scary that someone can stand someone drawing it full on there. The guy must be a sociopath.
"Something pretty strong and a lot."
At that, he suddenly turned his head to the woman who was resting her elbow on the counter. He, too, studied her, brows narrowed in thought. Or maybe he was surprised? Did he find her question unclear?
"Lyra, am I wrong?"
"Nince meeting you in person, Phil." She held out her hand for him to shake.
"Surprising you found your way here after all these months."
Lyra watched as he set to make her drink, trying to answer with a good composure. "I remembered your invitation. Would've been rude to forget about it." The silence was long, so before it got awkward, she quickly asked, "Have you talked to Jessy?"
"I should've?"
She stared back at him in disbelief. "She's sister! She's in a terrible state because of the loss of a friend, you emotionally cold prick! Of course–"
"Quiet," he hushed, nervously running his eyes over the crowd. Even if they wanted to, they wouldn't have heard anything. If it wasn't for the music, then because of the alcohol. "And don't call me a prick."
The woman forced herself to calm down. "I'll call you whatever the fuck I want since I take better care of her than her own brother."
Phil shrugged and reached for another bottle, but Lyra didn't even have time to finish the first glass. "What are you doing?"
"A drink." He pointed at the ingredients. "This is my job."
"I didn't ask for a new one."
"You're my guest, drink as much as I make. Drink as much of them as you can, of course."
As if this were a challenge, Lyra took the half-finished cocktail from him and drank it up with two sips. Phil watched in amusement how that woman whom he just met in person – a rather pretty one, he had to admit – was so easily offended.
"Better give me a shot. Or two. This," she pointed to the now empty elegant glass, "was nothing."
And it went on like this for long hours. Phil didn't talk to anyone all night except the increasingly talkative woman who was drinking alcohol like others eat sugar. As the numbness began to take control over her body and soul, she began to feel better and better, and she didn't understand why she hadn't done this before. It seemed much easier to forget about Jake and the problems, even the fact that she was very much in Duskwood, from where she would have to drive home.
All she could see was Phil and the liquids floating in the lights, more and more of which she was putting into herself than it was in the bottles. The glasses just piled up in front of her, Phil after a while watching her in concern, which easily faded as he listened to her words.
"Tell me," she tried to swallow, but her dry throat didn't let her, "is this place always like this?"
The man laughed and looked at the woman and the dancers behind her. "No, not at all. As a matter of fact, you're in luck today, because I don't often organize such fast-paced evenings. But I did it by popular demand, you actually just wandered into a guy's birthday party."
The realization crept into her brain so slowly it was ridiculous. She lowered her head to the counter in shame, muttering a line in annoyance until two warm hands lifted it up.
"Get your pretty head up from there ."
"I'm sorry, I–"
"There's nothing to be sorry about, I was already bored to death here. They aren't very talkative with the bartender. But you," he poked a finger at her forehead, Lyra going cross-eyed to see what's there that he needed to point it out, "you came and saved me, love."
"I'm not love." She grimaced, watching the fingers move away.
"Well, we can easily help with that."
She hummed and nodded, as if she understood anything from Phil's complicated words. She reached for another shot, the sips traveling down her throat more and more slowly. What time was it? She needs to go home.
"I'm now... going home now– okay?"
"You're not going yet, Lyra, stay a while."
"I'm not going? Now... why wouldn't I go?" She looked at the grinning man in confusion.
"Because I don't want you to yet."
The bartender again turned the woman's gaze towards him, which had been wandering towards the exit. He was out of the counter in a few long steps, plopped down on a chair next to Lyra, taking a sip of a drink. Lyra looked at him with interest, since he shouldn't be there now, he was standing somewhere else before. She found another glass in her hand, this time for unknown reasons. Without thinking, she chugged it, an unpleasant feeling running down the back of her neck, burning into her lungs. Then another one. She could barely swallow the honey-colored liquid, a new one was already there, like some kind of miraculous magic, recharging itself.
"Maybe I should, some water–"
"Shush, we don't give that here."
Oh. So no water, okay. Okay. Okay?
She felt fingers on her own, but they were definitely not hers. One, two...six, nine, that's twelve, she counted the body parts to herself, the rising warmth that made the hair stand up even where it didn't touch. Eagerly, ever higher.
Phil stroked the flushed face, the touch seeming both soft and hungry, far from tender... Lyra stared down at the remaining brownish drink in her hands, debating whether to drink it, when she heard a deep voice so close to her it felt like it's coming from her very own body.
"You're such a lovely young lady, such a waste you come from so far away. We can't let you drive tonight, can we?"
"No..." she mumbled, because honestly, even that one word seemed hard to articulate properly. Intoxicated not just by the alcohol, but that something dusgustingly creeping through her body. She focused so hard on trying to figure it out that she didn't even notice the screeching of her own chair. Something wrapped around her legs that hold her close, a feeling of warmness and strong, strong grip, and suddenly she had four legs. How the hell did she just get four of them? Where did they come from?
The fingers continued to map the skin incessantly, burrowing into the freshly washed hair at the base of her neck.
"Olive, am I right?" The voice hummed in her ear. Olive? That's not delicious.
Something sticky and moving traced itself along her jaw, and that was the last straw the drunk woman could take. The new legs around her were acceptable, but this new thing – a bug, fingers, lips? – on her face was too much. The chair creaked loudly on the floor and she nervously began to search for a way out through the heaving crowd. An arm grabbed hers, spun her around a few times, then let her go again, finding a better dance partner. Lyra, on the brink of an impending panic attack, stumbled on until she felt something solid and cool under her fingers. She pressed the doorknob hard, and she stumbled out of the bar, all tipsy and halfway unconscious.
She took a look at the parking lot, scanning the cars shrouded in darkness with the brown eyes, desperately searching for a grey one. She found it, then another, and then one more.
Okay, then we're not going by car.
In the cool night, where not even the Moon nor the stars decided to come for her help, Lyra ran and ran until her lungs collapsed inside her chest, heart pounding louder than the shoes against the gravel, and her legs felt like they might give out at any moment.
As if this was the way her body wanted to cleanse itself of the unpleasant alcohol, she felt tears on her burning cheeks, but she continued to jog. To where, she didn't know, but far away from there, to a place where there is no excess of people and alcohol, no intrusive touches, and no Phil Hawkins.
Even the rain poured down, pelting the ground with all its might. Maybe it also wanted to cleanse itself of some terrible, disgusting feeling? Or is this how it punishes those who cannot protect themselves from this?
"What did I do to deserve this?!" She shouted, staring up at the sky, her words lost in the night. She just stood and cried in the middle of the road, not a soul in sight to hear her obvious suffer from the pain she didn't ask for. She has no car, no dignity, Jake left her just like that, Richy ruined lives, she's a horrible person, and she's too drunk to walk to the side of the road to avoid being hit by a speeding driver.
Sobbing, she took out her phone and called the first person on the list.
"Hello? Lyra– why are you crying?"
She took a deep breath as she explained everything to Jessy. She drove to Duskwood because she's totally nuts, and there's no denying that. Also went to the Aurora, where she found herself uninvited at a guy's birthday party, and that made her feel even worse. She drank, talked, and her brother is a total jerk for whom she can't find a better adjective at the moment. It's too dark and raining and her whole life is crap.
"And I've got this bloody blouse on, and those extra two legs! Jessy, I don't want it on me!"
"Lyra, listen here," she tried to get the brunette's attention, feeling that this was not the right moment to discuss why she thinks she has four legs. "Look around and tell me what do you see, okay? A house, sign, bench, flowers, a car, do you see anything?"
Lyra sniffed and looked, but she couldn't make out much in the cloudy night. "Well, there's a nice house here, oh how I'd like to live in one like that! There are more next to it, and two black cars on the right side... I'll go see what else there is."
"No! Don't move from there, Lyra, do you hear me? Stay put. I'll be right there to get you, understand?"
Feet rooted to the ground, she was standing on the road, just blinking in the rain. It was pouring without wanting to stop.
"There's also a nice looking rose bush," she said suddenly. "Oh, there's more! Dark flowers, Jessy, they look like black flowers! Can you imagine such?"
For long moments, there was only shuffling on the other end of the line. Lyra checked several times to see if the line was broken, but she didn't understand much of the words, and the flickering screen was quite painful to look at.
"Wait, I see you! You're in front of my house!
And really. A woman stood in the window, waving at her. The movement seemed too fast for Lyra, dizzyingly fast. The figure suddenly disappeared and a warm light flooded from the front door, a woman in pajamas clutching an umbrella rushing towards her. Muttering desperate words, she ushered her in, and in no more than a few moments she was standing in a hallway dripping wet, as the tousled redhead rushed around her.
"You're drunk! What happened, Lyra?"
She didn't get an answer, but she didn't expect one either. Jessy dried her off and changed her into more comfortable clothes. While she spread the soaked clothes on the chairs, she pressed a glass of water into her hand, telling her to drink it until she returned. Lyra felt like a small child again, fearing the wrath of her strict mother and doing everything she was told.
Jessy soon returned and took the glass from her with a satisfied nod and they sat – Lyra collapsed – down on the couch. The redhead wanted nothing more than to have her tell everything that happened to her, but given her condition, she just pulled Lyra close and held her.
"I thought," she whispered by herself into her neck, "if I came here, maybe it would be better. But it didn't get better. I went into the bar, you know."
Jessy hummed in understanding, but she didn't stop, the words just kept rolling off her tongue.
"I drank one glass, then two, after the third I don't remember how much more, but I didn't even count. It was really bad, but for some reason I was still sipping the alcohol. Then... your brother... You know exactly what he's like..."
"I know." She placed a small kiss on the top of her head. "It's okay now."
"I'm constantly afraid and nervous." She looked up into the pair of brown eyes with her own tearful ones and she saw in them all the sadness in the world, including what Lyra hadn't said yet. "I miss him. I want Jake here, just this one thing. I want to know… I want to know everything so I can die peacefully."
"Oh Lyra." She held her close, which was almost impossible, since there was not an inch between them. "Don't be dramatic, you dolt."
"I'm going to die someday anyway."
"Yes, but not now. By then, Jake will reach out and the two of you will have reconciled nicely, all the truth will be revealed and there will be no more secrets."
"Do you seriously think so?" She looked up hopefully at the smiling face. She smiles so reassuringly…
"The most seriously."
And Jessy was often right. Not always, but when Lyra felt she was right, it usually was the case. And now she felt it. Two can't be wrong, can they?
That night, she ended up falling asleep in Jessy's arms. For the first time in seven months she felt safe, so she spent the next seven one there; most of the time with quiet nights, next to Jessy, in secret, knowing nothing about Jake.
#is this even considered sad?#prepare for worse ones#phil hawkins#jessy hawkins#mc duskwood#jake donfort#short story#oneshot#duskwood
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FML again
Pac realised he really isn't a good person.
"Do you ever... want to tell someone something but can't?" Pac asks, looking to the stars with a distant expression. He doesn't seem all there tonight, something has been bothering him. Fit can tell.
"Not really. Why?"
"I just... I wanna tell you something but I know that if I do, everything will get worse." Pac's eyes drift from the sky and over to the side, away from Fit.
They've been sat together for some time. It's something they like to do sometimes, to relax. Together. It's nice. It's always calm, just the two of them, usually at night. A single lantern shared between the pair. Foolish called it romantic.
"How so?" Fit prompts, watching Pac's expression carefully.
"It's... hard to explain." Pac hesitates before he continues. "I know this is something you want to know. It's something you deserve to know. I just know I can't tell you."
Fit hums. "Sounds complicated."
"It is." Pac huffs. "It's so... awful. I hate it. I can't do anything about it."
"What do you mean?"
"Well... I think I could have. A while ago. It's too late now." Pac's voice trembles slightly. "We laughed when we found out. Our friend was being hurt and all we did was laugh. We could have done something but didn't because it just... didn't matter to us."
Fit can't quite figure out what Pac is talking about. "What?"
"We got told that something awful was happening and we all laughed. Me, Mike, Cellbit, Felps- and Forever! We- we all laughed about it." Pac reiterates. "We watched someone be mentally and physically destroyed and laughed about it! We did nothing because we didn't care."
Fit grows more concerned with every word. "This... sounds really serious, Pac." he says, unable to keep the nervous tremble out of his voice.
"It is! It really is but I can't... we can't do anything." Pac cards his fingers through his hair, making it messy.
"Why not?"
"I told you. Everything will get worse. People will be hurt, you might get hurt, I might get hurt! I don't want that!" Pac raises his voice and finally turns to look Fit in the eye as he finishes. His eyes shine with unshed tears.
"Pac-"
"I just want to protect the people I love." His voice is quiet again as he pulls his knees up to his chest. "I feel so guilty. Sometimes, I feel like I'm no better than the people we're fighting. Y'know, at least the Federation look for their kidnapped workers. They don't laugh when one of them gets hurt. They do something about it."
Fit hesitates. "That's... Only partly true. You're a great person Pac, you have nothing to worry about..."
"I'm not. I've changed a lot since being here and I just... I was... I am an awful person, Fit. For what I've done to him... Even if I haven't directly hurt him, I let it happen. I watched his life be destroyed and laughed about it!"
Fit can't help but wonder what he's talking about. It could be a lot of things. It could be something from before the island. Fit really has no way to know. He wonders, though, what it could be if it was recent. What could it be? Who could he be talking about?
It takes a while for it to click. It takes a few days before Fit makes the connection between what Pac told him and Phil.
When he comes into Cellbit's castle to talk to Pac and sees him with both Cellbit and Phil, everything seems to make sense again.
"Pac... Can I talk to you?" Fit asks, after a cautious apology for barging in unannounced.
Cellbit and Pac share a quick glance.
"We'll be okay, I think...? Cellbit gives Phil a questioning look, silently asking for confirmation. When Phil nods, Cellbit looks back to Pac, "You can go."
Fit takes a second to take in what he's seeing. Something is wrong with Phil. His leg. There's a golden apple, bandages and a potion next to him on the bench. Cellbit and Pac seem to be tending to whatever wound he's gotten. Fit is still somewhat angry with Phil, he never got over what he did. It still hurts. Still, he feels bad. A part of him wants to go over and help, the part of him that worries that what Pac said was about Phil. The rest of him feels too bitter.
"Warp over to mine?" Fit suggets, pulling out his warp stone.
Pac nods as he takes his from his pocket. They warp and Fit can't wait more than a few seconds before he speaks.
"Pac. The other day. Were... were you talking about Phil?"
His companion is taken aback for a moment too long. "I-I can't tell you... I'm sorry."
Fit isn't sure if he should take that as confirmation or not. He's worried. Unbelievably so. Pac seems so sad, so upset and worried and scared and Fit can't stand to see it. He's worried about Pac and he's worried about Phil. Despite everything, he's worried about the stupid bastard. This was the only thing that could make him stop worrying but it's only made it worse.
"I want to tell you, Fit. I do, I really do. I know it would make you feel better if I could but I can't. Please, understand."
"I do. I get it. I'm just... worried. I'm so worried. About you and Phil."
Pac is surprised, "I thought you hated him?"
"No... I was just angry. I'm still angry but he was my friend and I do care. If you were talking about him... I don't think I'd ever forgive myself..." Fit feels his heart sink at the thought of it.
"You should. It's not your fault." Pac doesn't hesitate for even a moment before he responds.
Fit is almost certain he knows what that means.
He was right.
#qsmp#forever my love au#philever#forphil#qsmp pac#qsmp fit#hideduo#tw abuse mention#tw abuse#qsmp fic#qsmp fanfiction#qsmp au
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Fit lore!! I’d love to hear about your thoughts for Phil figuring out fits secret if you’d like to share, the same thought has been floating around in my head as well lol
OHOHOHOHO friend I love you /p I'm putting this under a read more because I. Ended up writing a lot more than intended–
So the thought came to me the day before Fit's lore, when Fit asked Phil if he'd be there the next day. Obviously it didn't mean anything else than "will you attend the event/will I see you tomorrow my friend ?", but my brain immediately went "what if Phil was involved in Fit's lore"
This, combined with the fact that I've been hoping someone would find out about qFit's secret or at least get sus of his behaviour, led me to believe that qPhil would be the best person that could find out about it, actually
'cause like– first of all, qPhil is probably the person qFit's closest to, without counting Ramón or any of the eggs. I mean, he's friendly towards most people, and gets along pretty well with qBad, qPac and qMike, but qPhil has literally given qFit access to his eggs' bunker, which, to my knowledge, he'd only given to qMissa and qWill, the fathers of said eggs, before. qPhil, who would probably have earned the #1 paranoid dad crown if qBBH hadn't been around, fully trusts qFit with his children.
And like I said, I really want someone to find out about qFit's secret, but like. Wouldn't it be more interesting if it were someone qFit is close to ? Someone qFit trusts, but also someone who trusts qFit ?
Also, as much as I want someone to know at least part of the truth, I don't want everything to be revealed to everyone yet, and I feel like most people, if they found out about qFit's secret, would reveal it to the others – some others, at least. Would qCellbit or qMaximus hide it from the Ordo Theoritas ? Would qBaghera, qForever or qBad hide it from each other ? Would the people actively investigating the island keep the existence of a third, unknown party to themselves ? Well... maybe. That is up to discussion. But they'd want to tell, at least, and that's not what I wish for.
Now qPhil ? qPhil is a lot less involved in the lore, or even in the RP itself (no shade, I love ccPhil, his character and the way he plays him) – he isn't even part of the Ordo Theoritas. He's not really interested in solving the island's mysteries – his priorities lie with the eggs and their safety.
I truly think qPhil would be a friend qFit could confide in. Because let's be real, qFit could probably use one – mans has been lying to everyone on the island for months, and the only one that knows part of his secret is Ramón, his 3 months old child, who he hasn't even told everything. Between that and the growing pressure (for real, what's with the cats appearing around him,,) qFit is under, he can't keep it all to himself forever.
I don't think qFit would tell him himself, though – and neither do I think qPhil would ask. I mean, even if he thinks qFit's chat messages are suspicious, he isn't the type to inquire about it.
... But accidents happen, y'know ?
[As he jumps down the elevator shaft, Phil can't quite shake off the feeling that something's wrong. That whatever Fit's doing down there, it isn't any of his business, and he should probably just go back up and tell Fit to meet him at his gym, or anywhere, really.
But, well. He's already there. Might as well go further.
The trail of torches leads him deeper and deeper, until it finally stops, in a tunnel like any other. But Phil isn't a fool. He can hear the faint tapping of keys.
It only takes him a few seconds to find the hidden entrance.
Fit stands up as he comes in.
The room is small, barely big enough to breathe, and dark. Its only light comes from the computer screen sitting on the wooden desk, in the middle of the room, between the two men.
Neither of them speak.
Phil can see the thoughts flashing behind Fit's eyes. He's certain of it now, he's found something he shouldn't have found, and Fit has yet to decide how to react. Unconsciously, his hand has moved closer to his trident; consciously, Phil prepares himself to grab his sword.
But Fit doesn't attack. He simply places his hand in front of himself and gives Phil an awkward yet friendly smile.
"Hey, Phil ! Didn't expect to see you there... !"
Phil wishes he could just return his smile and pretend like nothing’s wrong. Ignore what he’s seeing and go back to Chayanne and Tallulah.
... but it's a little too late for that, isn't it ?
"Oi, mate," he calls out as he crosses his arms. "What are you up to."]
... something about leitmotivs and Phil finding out people's secrets by walking into their secret underground rooms...
So yeah, TL;DR: I want someone to find out about qFit’s secret because it’s a shame such a huge share of the lore is kept, well, secret, and I think qPhil would be a perfect first confident because they’re really good friends and he wouldn’t just tell anyone :] Plus I love their relationship and I’d love to see it being explored more please I’m begging
(Also I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one who's been thinking about it and I'd love to hear your own thoughts if you're willing to share them 👀)
#sorry I went full fanfic mode there I just had such a vivid image in mind I had to get it out#also for some reason when I'm imagining qPhil finding out about qFit qPhil tends to be Bugza. idk what to tell you#but yeah#I don't think Phil and Fit even have a duo name ? which is a shame#... thinking about it I don't think Fit has a duo name with anyone. pensive#qsmp#qsmp fit#fitmc#qsmp philza#philza#lb originals
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5k-10k Words (9) Masterlist
part one, part two, part three, part four, part five, part six, part seven, part eight
10x10, a hundred images of loving you | 9k | (ao3) - silentOrator
Summary: Dan and Phil at Christmas through the years.
A Dance With Death | 8k | - botanistlester
Summary: Dan is the God of Death, who helps people to the Underworld when they pass. One day, he randomly pops up at a masquerade ball for Prince Philip's coming of age ceremony. He doesn't know why he is there, but it's hard to focus on his job when the prince asks him to dance.
As He Comes, So I Come | 8k | (ao3) - cloej88
Summary: Dan and Phil have just returned from Chicago, where they finally sorted themselves out. They’ve slept a full ten hours under their own roof, and now they have an uninterrupted afternoon to rediscover one another’s bodies.
The companion piece to As He Goes, So I Go, in which they have proper reunion sex after they haven’t fucked for ~a year. It's basically just smut. I would apologize for the title, but the opportunity was just too good to pass up.
As the World Caves In | 7k | (ao3) - cosmic_angel_writes
Summary: Dan and Phil vs The Zombie Apocalypse
All I Want for Christmas is You. | 5k | (ao3) - scifi (orphan_account)
Summary: it’s almost christmas and all it takes is a cup of mulled wine for dan to realise he has been in love with phil all along
All Signs Point to Us | 6k | (ao3) - RyRyCaptain
Summary: When the queen and king gives birth to Daniel, they soon learn that their son is deaf. In order to let Dan express his opinions to those who haven't learned sign language, they find him a translator who happens to be the son of the King’s advisor, Phil. Soon enough, Phil starts to realize thAt he fallen in love with the younger boy.
Babylon | 6k | (ao3) - ottertrashpalace
Summary: Just a little story about two boys realizing that they can make their own rules, and even if it's hard, they are worth it.
backstage, baby | 5k | (ao3) - baroquen
Summary: Dan's a theatre kid doing his first show at university, Phil does theatre tech, and they fall in love backstage.
Bear | 5k | (ao3) - Mysticallykai
Summary: As a child, Dan was easily frightened and needed comfort; that was when his Nana first gave him his Pooh Bear plush, as something that could keep him safe. Over the years, the plush became his absolute comfort, even into adulthood. When Phil comes into the picture, he makes Dan even more comfortable; through the good times and bad.
Boys on Fire | 5k | (ao3) - transdimensional_void
Summary: Dan is visiting Phil for the second time ever and a little Buffy viewing session turns into sexy times.
Buffy Movie Nights are Life Changing | 5k | (ao3) - angelbats
Summary: Things get steamy between Dan and Phil during their nighttime Buffy streaming session in 2010; featuring a confident yet bashful Phil and a shy Dan who learns how to drive Phil crazy.
Coffee by Chappell Roan | 9k | (ao3) - danswideslit
Summary: someone on tumblr mentioned needing a dnp fic with the narrative from coffee and I felt inspired because I love that song a whole lot
Dad Wars | 9k | (ao3) - SylvesterLester
Summary: Or, 5 times Dan and Phil fought over one dramatic school year, and one final battle that would change them forever. Probably.
Daydreams | 10k | - placingglaciers
Summary: Nothing like a Christmas-in-July party can’t fix for two shy office crushes!
Don’t be scared | 5k | (ao3) - danisnot3131
Summary: Before agreeing to go on Tour for Interactive Introvers, Dan is hit with the realization that he’s been in love with Phil for years.
Don't Blame Me | 9k | (ao3) - ForeverJustAnEmoKidAtHeart
Summary: When Phil gets a new job at the Tops Only Bar, he's just looking to make ends meet over the holiday period. He doesn't expect how he'll feel about one of the performers or how hard that'll make his job.
Electronics and the Phil’s that break them | 9k | (ao3) - Fictropes
Summary: The first time’s an accident, a proper accident— a Phil forgot how to hold his cup and now he’s watching his coffee seep into his keyboard type accident.
Experience is key | 7k | (ao3) - ottertrashpalace
Summary: On a fateful late-night walk, Dan happens across two oddly familiar young men in the park.
Help Taking it Off | 5k | (ao3) - cats_with_no_tails
Summary: I don’t know if Dan helped Phil pick out the phlonde-launch outfit, but I certainly imagine he helped take it off.
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Set the day of Phil’s blonde hair announcement - Dan comes home to him in that cunty little midriff and wants to devour him.
Hotel del Luna | 8k | (ao3) - writingfunstories
Summary: A mysterious hotel for ghosts. What can go wrong?
(i'll give you) anything, anything | 5k | (ao3) - Anonymous
Summary: It’s just something he’s never really thought about all that much, because it just became one of the things they do over the years. He’ll offer Dan bites of his food most of the time, really, and it does always make something spark a little in his chest when Dan lets him feed him, but it’s– it’s a normal thing, normal couples do it all the time, and he and Dan are. Well. Not normal by any stretch, really, but that’s hardly the point.
(Maybe Phil likes feeding Dan more than he should. Maybe he always has.)
i’m electric, a romantic cliché (me and you were meant to be in love) | 6k | (ao3) - nardfx
Summary: “i really don’t know if i can do this.”
“you can do this.”
“okay, but what happens when everyone’s eyes are on me and they all know all of my secrets?”
or
dan and phil go to prom
In this moment, you are everything | 9k | - wavydanrises
Summary: Dan was just wasting time on the Internet when he stumbled upon a post that might mean a change of plans for the holidays, for the better.
just a little bit closer | 5k | (ao3) - possumdnp
Summary: Dan and Phil have a deep conversation, leading to them trying something new together.
(Set during the week Dan spent up north at Phil's house in December 2009.)
Lester87 | 10k | - placingglaciers
Summary: In which Dan works as a part-time online fashion stylist to pay for university and he’s determined to get to the bottom as to why his favorite client continually needs first-date outfits.
names of collision in the dark | 7k | (ao3) - Anonymous
Summary: Of enemy kingdoms, Prince Dan and Prince Phil meet one fateful night, leading to a surprising friendship that evolves into something more. As the looming threat of a major battle grows stronger, both princes grapple with their roles and the burdens of leadership, all while their growing bond forces them to confront their own kingdoms’ expectations and the possibility of peace in the chaos.
(aka the dan and phil royal au fic they wrote for the gaming channel but taken seriously)
"oh great, now im a furry" | 5k | (ao3) - cloej88
Summary: This is a fic about Dan getting off on his giant teddy bear… Yeah. But it’s also a fic about trust and connection and vulnerability!
so I will share this room with you | 5k | (ao3) - jonsaremembers
Summary: Phil hadn't meant to end up here.
an exploration of the aftermath of meeting your soulmate when you're still so impossibly young
some of the most normal pictures | 5k | (ao3) - natigail
Summary: Phil took many photos of Dan. It was second nature. To capture this life that they shared and this man that he got to share it with. Each moment precious, captured when Dan was his most relaxed and at ease. And they're completely normal. Of course.
SPI: A Dan and Phil Paranormal Investigator AU | 5k | (ao3) - trancelover99
Summary: So I made a TikTok where Dan and Phil were Paranormal Investigators, and I decided to make an AU based on it. (my TikTok is @nothoughts_onlytrance if you wanna check it out!)
the angel in the marble | 6k | (ao3) - ivylakes
Summary: “Can I just say,” Dan says, pulling away to look at Phil. His hand has drifted from Phil’s jaw to his hair again, because of course it has. “I took a risk with the angel thing. I didn’t think you’d like it that much.”
Or, Phil dyes his hair blonde, Dan calls him angel, and neither of them can get any work done.
the only way to make it to ohio | 7k | (ao3) - buskingalbatross
Summary: A coincidental concoction of events catalyzes a series of abnormal dreams for Phil Lester.
#phan#phanfictioncatalogue#phanfic#phanfiction#dan and phil#masterlists#5k#5k masterlist#10k#10k masterlist
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Fav artist for Garth?
I have been thinking about this ask for multiple hours, and I am unsure if I can pick a true favorite because there are so many wonderful artists who have drawn Garth over the years! However, I think I built a pretty solid list of my top 5 artists for Garth (oops!), so here goes:
#1: Phil Jimenez
I have so much love for the way he draws (and writes) Garth! Of every artist out there, I feel he has the most love for drawing Garth and I can feel that care and attention to detail in all his work. I am absolutely in love with the way he draws Garth's expressions too! He allows him to have exaggerated expressions and really allow us to feel the emotions of the story through the art. He's not afraid of showing him in painful and less than idealistic moments, and allows his face to reflect that. I think it's something that a lot of current comic book artists shy away from for fear of making characters look "ugly." But Jimenez goes all in on it and still makes Garth look stunning 24/7!
#2: Ramona Fradon
Ramona Fradon was one of the co-creators of Garth, and was, in my opinion, one of the most incredible people in the comic's art industry. She sadly passed away last month at age 97, and she only just announced her retirement from art a month prior to her passing. Her influence on the industry, especially for female artists, was monumental, and her art style stood out so uniquely amongst others. I've always loved how fantastical her art is. She creates fascinating underwater creatures and has an absolutely precious way of drawing Garth. I appreciate that she made the decision to draw him looking as young as he was at the time, especially since a lot of other teen sidekicks were drawn to look older. I feel very lucky that I was able to get a piece of art from her (the first pic in this section!) around the time of her passing. I will treasure it forever!
#3: Nick Cardy
There is something so charming about the way that Nick Cardy draws Garth! There's a simplicity and retro feeling to it that comes off as so fun! I don't know exactly what it is about his art, but it always makes me smile!
4: Mark Buckingham
Buckingham's style is like if "stretch and squash animation" was a static art style, and I LOVE it. It looks so funky and bouncy and expressive! It's one of those styles that I don't think everyone loves, but it really works for me and makes the comics extremely enjoyable to read for the art alone! It's not super polished and has some rough edge qualities, but that's precisely why I like it!
5: Lucas Meyer
Meyer is a newcomer in the scene of comics, but WOW! I am not immune to how gorgeous his art style is. I'm so happy that he's been named the ongoing artist for the current series! (Even if I can't get good writing, I'll at least take the nice art!) I think his style is so clean and pretty. I do wish that he went more "all-in" on expressions sometimes, as I do feel that his characters all look slightly generically pretty and don't emote particularly much. That said, the art is undeniably gorgeous, and he's already skyrocketed himself up onto my personal favorites list despite only starting with DC in 2022.
I do have a few honorable mentions as well, which include: Ivan Reis and George Perez.
There have been plenty of artists who did a great job, but these are my personal favorites! Thank you so much for the ask!
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I can imagine that the new island members might not feel As threatened by phil being a code- as the only ones to have really met the code head on would be mouse with the battle of the roses, and tubbo when he watched etoiles fight it in order to get the sword :0 everyone else has only heard of the codes endeavors from word of mouth but everyone else has actually experienced battles against it- heightening their fear. tubbo is a very tricky one here though as he's heard horror stories from phil about the code but to learn he's part-code too ? would def mess with him a bit as he trusts phil the most outta the whole server, but I think he'd trust the actual experiences he's had alongside phil over the words from the rest of the island dictating how he should treat him. who knows tho :0 him having witnessed the fight etoiles had to gain the sword may put his position in a weird spot but if etoiles says its chill then this whole thing may be no big deal to him 🤷♀️ very fun :D - 💿
Oooh very true 👀
I personally agree that Tubbo would be in a tough position about finding out that Phil is a partial code. On one hand, he knows that Phil is a safe person and can be trusted based on his personal experiences, but on the other hand it‘s again a whole ‘what if?‘ situation in my opinion if it comes to like, a moment where Tubbo could potentially start overreacting and his thoughts just spiral. On an entirely other side I could also see Tubbo straight up be like „Woah that‘s so cool :O“ WHEEZE
I could probably even imagine Tubbo going around asking People for their thoughts around Phil being part-code, especially those that are closest to Phil, such as Fit, Missa when he‘s around, maybe even Etoiles and eventually Forever, etc.
With most new People I‘d say that unless they experienced the Code Monsters for themselves, they probably sway towards whatever direction the people they hang around with & trust lean towards.
I haven‘t fully thought out yet how exactly everyone finds out about Phil and his Code aspects - like they do notice some odd things about him that I want to get into more eventually, but I‘m uncertain about the moment it just clicks, y’know? Especially since not everyone will find out at the same time - some people find out only by being told about it by others and all
Many silly thoughts tho :D
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(I feel like you'd like this ask game!!)
Ask game so we can tag phan!! shuffle your favorite playlist and post the first five songs that come up + if you think they can be related to DnP or not. Copy/paste this ask to your favorite mutuals!!
Okay! Here it is!
This is one of my all-time favorite songs by Laura Brehm. The lyrics to the song remind me of Dan's journey through embracing his sexuality and accepting his true self. Especially the lyrics to the chorus:
"I lay awake and I dream about/a place I can call home/where I am free and I can be myself/and I won't give this up for anything/not anymore/I am awake and dreaming"
This song is in Tamil, but the translated lyrics are really wholesome. It's about (according to the official music video,) "traveling on your own path (or river!) to seek out your dreams." It really speaks to how Dan and Phil followed their own paths through life and how they budded into a successful career. And through those paths, they ended up meeting each other! 😊
I think my favorite lyrics from the song are the pre-chorus:
Thinam thinamum yengi (Each and everyday I yearn for you) Kan moodi kaangiraen (I close my eyes and see you there) Thudi thudikkum nenjai (Within the steady beats of my heart) Un nizhalaai paarkiraen (I feel your shadow) Thirumba thirumba malaradhey (It blooms again and again)
Another one of my favorites! Dierks Bentley's Cover of "Pride(In the Name of Love") is probably one of the only country songs I'll even listen to (I'm not a country music fan lol) I think it definitely applies to Dan and Phil in the sense of how the song is about people who have lived their life with pride, not caring how the world views them. It really speaks volumes, especially how Dan and Phil don't care what others think about them and are living a true authentic life now that they are out and proud! 🌈
This song was the opening theme to the anime Kiznaiver and really holds a special place in my heart. (I never watched the anime, but when I first heard the song, I fell in love with it) Kinda sad fact, but this was the band's final record before the lead singer of the song, Michiyuki Kawashima, sadly passed away due to leukemia. The lyrics really tell a message of staying by someone's side no matter what and never leaving them, even when they are far away, and remind me of how Phil has always been there for Dan through his life, both the positives and negatives.
"Caught up in circles/All dreams and bright lights/Wait I'm here always/ brighter than sunshine"
THIS SONG makes me tear up EVERY SINGLE TIME because every single lyric reminds me of how Dan found his forever home with Phil. Before he met him, he felt he had no other reason to keep going in life, but when they met that fateful day in 2009, he found a "family of [his] own."
I think one lyric that really represents this is the second verse:
"Watching you go through all that you do/I never knew until I felt it too/But now I know that love is beautiful/There's so much more that I want to find out with you"
brb gonna go cry now 😭
Well, that's it! Highly recommend all of these songs, so you should give them a listen! Thanks for the ask @serendipnpipity!
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A/N well this as taken me forever to post I wrote it then life just got on the way as usual I had completely forgotten all about this until I was recently reminded. Well here it is I hope you enjoy it's something completely different from what I've written before as this one focuses on Phil. I don't think he's a bad guy no one will ever convince me otherwise.
Things are not always so black and white a lot of people think I'm this womanizer that doesn't care about. There is a lot that no one knows about me, a part that I have hidden from people, even the people closest to me I hadn't ever spoken about that day until a very dear friend of mine moved to duskwood and I told her everything.
3 years go:
Phil's POV
I wake up everyday with a smile on my face ready to start the day. I've never felt like this before the day I met her everything changed for me. The day I met Ashley I fell head over heels in love. We have been dating for 3 years now and today is the day I ask her to marry me. I have already picked out the ring. It's a perfect white gold diamond ring. I've had the ring for a couple days now. I've been planning everything I want the night to go perfect. I've booked us a romantic table at the black swan for tonight. Pulling myself out of bed I walk into the kitchen to the wonderful smell of coffee and the biggest smile spreads across my face. I see Ashley standing flipping pancakes dancing around in one of my t-shirts and a pair of shorts.
I wrap my arms around her and place soft kisses along her neck, she always smells so beautiful. “Good morning my angel” she turns round in my arms and wraps them around my neck. I see that beautiful smile forming on her lips the way the twinkle in her ocean blue eyes shines makes my heart beat only for her. “Good morning sweetie” everything about her just makes me who I am. She's made me a better man. I wouldn't know what I'd do without her in my life. She just lights up any room whenever she enters it. “I was thinking we could go to the black swan tonight for dinner. What do you say?” she leans in and kisses my lips and smiles. “I'd love to babe”
My heart still feels like it's going to leap out of my chest even now after we have been together for 3 years. She's the only love I will ever need. She's my soulmate, my one and only true love.
Later that night we finished getting ready to go out. Ashley always looks stunning in anything she wears. I stand and watch her as she puts her earrings in and sprays some perfume on her bare neck. The dress she's wearing hugs her curves in all the right places and she looks breathtaking. I take her hand and pull her close. I can smell her perfume, the smell of summer invades my nose. As we only live a couple of streets away from the restaurant and it's a nice summer day we decided to walk to the restaurant. We walk hand in hand talking about everything and anything. We make it to the restaurant and we get seated by the waiter. The ring box is in my trousers pocket.
After we finish our food I decide that now is the time to ask her. I take her hand in mine and look into her eyes. I see so much love in them. I take a deep breath and I get down on one knee. “Ashley these past 3 years have been incredibly amazing. I never thought I could feel like this about anyone I love so much. Will you marry me?” I see her face light up as I ask her the question. I opened the box and let her see the ring. “yes, yes I will marry you I love you so much” I take the ring out of the box and place it on her finger it fits perfectly. Everyone in the restaurant is clapping and cheering, the smile on my face just doesn't want to ever leave.
After we finish at the restaurant we take a walk around the town. It's such a beautiful evening. Suddenly we hear the sound of tires screeching. Within a split second the car comes flying around the corner and hits Ashley sending her flying into a shop window. I rush over to her as fast as I can. I dial 999 and an ambulance soon arrives and takes her to hospital. She has a big piece of glass sticking into her heart. Blood is everywhere. “Stay with me baby, I'm right here I'm not going to leave you I promise I love you”
Ashley gets rushed into surgery where the surgeons work on taking the large piece of glass out of her. I'm forced to wait in the waiting area every time a doctor or nurse walks past my heart drops. I can't lose her. I don't know what I would do without her. 8 hours later the surgeon comes into the waiting area and I jump out of my seat waiting for news on my love. “I'm so sorry Mr Hawkins I'm afraid Ashley didn't make it she had lost a lot of blood and the damage to her heart was beyond repair”
It's been 5 years since I lost the love of my life. That day a part of me died, a part that will never be able to be fixed again. It doesn't matter how close a woman thinks she's going to get, no one will ever be able to hold such a special place in my heart. I visit her grave side every single day and tell her about my day and what I've been up to. I tell her I miss her everyday and how much I love her. I promise her that one day we will be reunited.
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i'm sending this from a sideblog sorry, but i saw your question about forever and the happy pills, and since his character and that arc are very important to me, i wanted to give you the info you requested. forever never discloses that he was forced to take the pills before the coma. the ambiguity, at first, was on purpose. the hints he gave us through the cinematics, like him being trapped in a cage inside his own mind, were deliberate. his subte movements with his head and short explosive outbursts begging others not to take the drugs. it was to showcase a running theme on forever's storyline: lack of consent and loss of control. now, briefly after waking up from the coma, he tells bbh very clearly that he was forced to take the drugs, as cucurucho saw him as "a problem", a danger to be neutralized, it was never a choice. bad understands this very well. (you can watch this conversation on his vod, just paste this after the youtube url: si=PTo-WvXEQLcDIFaW&v=0W1yqvHlmrs 4:52:02 is the exact timestamp). then he also tells cellbit in subsequent conversations, but unfortunately i don't remember the exact vod where this happened. i believe he talks with phil too. and then pierre as well, as you already know. this isn't secret information, he's told anyone who was willing to hear that he was forced to take those drugs, but unfortunately it kind of landed on deaf ears most of the time, except on very few occasions. this whole situation wasn't treated with the care it warranted and more often than not people would joke about it, even exchanging pill bottles as if they were toys. this specific treatment subtly led to forever isolating himself and bottling up his feelings, which ended up being a huge problem when he got infected by dark matter in the nether. he saw himself as a nuisance, a bother who only brought problems, although any hurt he might've caused upon others during this period was exclusively the federation's fault, as well as his infection and possession. this isolation was encouraged by cucurucho multiple times; forever was threatened not to tell others about his nether mission or else he would lose his last chance of seeing richas, and then when he got infected, cucurucho asked him again to keep the spread of the disease a secret. he's an often misunderstood character, story-wise and fandom-wise, whether that is because others are unwilling to hear him out or because of a language barrier (that was the case on the elections arc), or unfortunately sometimes due to xenophobia and racism (on the side of the fandom). i know this is super long but i wanted to give my two cents :]
No worries about it being from a side blog/being super long! I like super long! And i very much appreciate all the info and will be watching those clips (and searching for the cellbit one) some time soon. Again thank you so much!!
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Idk what the jornus au is, I think I missed it? Wanna splurge about it so I can absorb your knowledge?
Also I posted an angst thing earlier and kinda wondered if it could even be turned into an ask game if I was given a sentence and characters...or even just the sentence on its own...that I would either draw or write something for. Interested?
Okay one: the world hates me because I ask for asks, and then all my time is immediately stolen to answer it.
And two: thank you both for asking
So Just out of Reach, but Never out of sight or Jornos for short because it’s a long title lol, is my first Au
The story follows a borrower Tommy who was outcasted by his colony who was always treated poorly for being ‘different’. He is trying to find his forever home when he finds his way into the household of 3 beans: Phil, Wilbur and Techno Craft.
Abiding by borrower rules, he watches them from a distance and only takes what he needs and stays out of sight. But Tommy is lonely and more than anything wants to be apart of the Crafts family, which is impossible because a borrower must never be seen by a human, or else the worst will occur. He’s heard the horror stories of what beans can do if you’re caught.
But on a borrowing trip gone wrong, he accidentally gets trapped in Phil’s bag and is taken unknowingly to his work place, where he desperately tries to not get seen, but not leave the bag. Because if he does, he’ll never make it back to his home in the walls. The first home he’s been happy in for a long time.
But on the way home, Tommy accidentally falls out of the bag and tumbles to the ground. Only one thought in his mind. Phil’s walking away. If he loses sight of Phil, he can’t get home and if he can’t get home, he’s lost forever. So disregarding every borrower rule there is, he runs after Phil.
The thing is, Tommy’s a sizeshifter and just doesn’t know it, and grows to human size and without realising crashes into a street lamp. Lucky for him Phil comes back and takes him unknowingly back home.
So now not only is Tommy human size, he has no idea how to shrink back down and is utterly freaked out that he’s sitting in the crafts kitchen. The people he’s literally been dying to talk with and be with since he first came upon them. But he can’t possibly have a life with them. Right?
And that’s pretty much the premise of the first chapter and where it’s going to be leading too in the next chapters. More or less I wanted found family au with secrets and such so that’s what you’re getting.
Thanks @da3dm and @orchid-harmony for asking ❤️
And 3D yes. make the ask game. I will send you an angst line for axel >:3
#just out of reach but never out of sight au#it’s jornos for short lol#da3dm my beloved#orchid my beloved#thank you for asking about it. I’m not really sure how to sum it up better lol#my au#mcyt gt#mcyt g/t#tiny!tommy#sizeshifter!tommy#giant!phil#giant!philza#giant!techno#giant!wilbur#beckyu answers
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One More Step Out of the Pit: Chapter 13/26
Summary: It had been Tommy and Tubbo for practically forever. They clawed their way out of hell together. They discovered their superpowers together. They started working for the Superhero Guild together before even coming of age. Tommy probably owed Tubbo his life ten times over. So, when the three supervillains he'd been assigned to bring in managed to take Tubbo hostage, well, there was really only one thing to do.
He knew, of course, he was signing himself up for torture and death by offering that trade, but that was okay.
It'd have to be okay.
AO3 Link (See AO3 for Warnings.)
(This story is finished and has been posted on AO3 for a while, but I'm posting it on Tumblr so it's somewhere else too (considering the day AO3 was down a bit ago). The author notes will all be kept as well. If you are following the blog and don't want to see these posts, block the tag #backlog.)
“Technoblade,” a voice called, causing Techno to jerk awake from a deep sleep. His eyes landed on the figure hovering at the end of his bed. “Technoblade, hello,” he said, waving when he saw Techno was awake.
“Ugh. Do you have to watch me sleep?” Techno asked.
“I’m not watching you sleep,” Ghostbur said. “I’m waking you up.”
Techno sat up, rubbing his eyes. “Why?” he asked tiredly.
“You need to watch Tommy,” Ghostbur told him.
“Wilbur was going to watch Tommy,” Techno said with a stifled yawn.
“Yeah,” Ghostbur said, “but then he fell asleep.”
“So?” Techno asked. “You watch him then.”
“I can’t,” Ghostbur said with a frown. “I need to go do something.”
“Schlatt can wait one night. I’m sure he won’t fall back into alcoholism and make a deal with the devil that fast.”
“I’m not going to go see Schlatt.”
“Then what?” Techno asked. “All you do is talk to Schlatt and stare at me or Phil while we sleep.”
“Tommy asked me to check on his Tubbo?”
“…His what-o?” Technoblade asked.
“His Tubbo,” Ghostbur said, as though repeating the word clarified anything. Techno gave him a blank look and he started his ‘bouncing’ which was really just him hovering higher and then lower in a rhythm. “His friend! They’re really quite close, you know. Tommy’s worried he might be sad.”
“Tubbo,” Techno repeated. He was not quite awake enough for this conversation. Or for Ghostbur in general. “Tubbo is… the hero we kidnapped?” he guessed.
“Uh huh. I promised Tommy I’d check on him!”
Now, Technoblade’s brain was still in the process of waking up, but something in what Ghostbur had just said struck Techno as odd. “You know his friend’s name is Tubbo,” Techno said slowly. “And you somehow know where this Tubbo is to check on him.”
Ghostbur must have realized his mistake because the bouncing stopped abruptly until he was almost sitting on the bed and his glowing eyes went wide.
“Ghostbur,” Techno said patiently. “Have you been keeping secrets?”
“W-well you have to understand Technoblade,” he started to babble. “It really is Awakebur’s fault. He can be quite stubborn you know and kind of mean, and well, I did follow Tommy home from HQ the first time because Awakebur wanted to know more about him, but you see Techno he was really sad. And he is quite little, just a baby really. Did you know he’s only 16? And actually 16, 16 not like me or you at 16. Far too young to be doing hero work. I don’t know what they were thinking. And he lives in a little dirty apartment and doesn’t eat nearly enough. He and his Tubbo leave notes around for each other because the heroes were mean and don’t let them work at the same times, so they barely see each other and Tommy gets the bed all dirty because he’s always too tired to shower when he gets home, but Tubbo never says anything because he knows Dream is far too hard on him. And, and Alivebur would be mean, because he decided he doesn’t like him very much. You know how people who are alive can be oh so testy about things. It’s really silly, you know. So, I decided to forget about those things when I’m awake. He is tiny Technoblade.”
“…Will” Techno sighed, pinching his brow.
“And, and, you living people are so vulnerable when you’re sleeping. He’s awake right now, but what if he falls asleep and he’s alone. He can’t be alone. He’s too little. You have to watch him Technoblade. Please?”
Techno could tell Ghostbur was not in the mood to listen to reason. Even if Tommy was 16, that was definitely not too ‘little’ to sleep alone, especially when locked in a secure underground facility no one knew the location of. The ghost clearly did not see it that way, but to be fair, he had a hard time letting Phil sleep alone some nights. “Ugh, fine,” Techno groaned, resigning himself to his exhaustion. He reached over to flip on his lamp.
“Oh, thank you Technoblade!” Ghostbur cooed. “You are such a good little brother.”
Techno’s head whipped around to face him. “Don’t start that shit. We are not related! I have lived longer than you.” Probably. Ghostbur just gave him a mischievous smile. “You’re lucky I can’t smother you with a pillow again,” he grumbled.
Ghostbur just chuckled, sounding for a moment more like he did when he was awake. “Go babysit,” he requested as he faded out of sight.
“You stained my sheets blue!” Techno realized when he vanished. “Why do I even bother trying to have pink ones?”
After pulling on a green hoodie that was actually Phil’s and deciding contacts were definitely not worth it at this time of night and thus forgoing the mask in favor of glasses, Techno took the steps downstairs, grumbling all the way.
Tommy looked up from his place on the bed when Techno shoved open the door to the cell, seeming surprised. Techno had to pause at the sight of him. Ghostbur had apparently gone wild because blue stained his nose and forehead as well as his bedsheets. Apparently Ghostbur had taken it upon himself to decide the Will-please-not-the-face rule was not in place for Tommy because there was clear intent behind the kiss shaped mark above his eye. He might as well have written the word ‘mine’ across his forehead in permanent marker. Fucking, possessive bastard. That wouldn’t be coming off for days.
“What are you doing here?” the kid asked.
“Ghostbur said you were awake and that I should keep you company.”
“I don’t need company,” he grumbled.
“Too bad,” Techno said airily. He eyed Wilbur’s slumped over form leaning against the bed. Idiot. He’d complain all day if he woke with a kink in his neck from sleeping like that. With a shake of the head, Techno turned to the large pile of pillows and blankets Phil had panic gathered in fear Tommy might be cold and began spreading them all out in one corner of the room. He kicked the pile around until it looked comfortable enough and then walked over to where Wilbur sat. He carefully scooted the chair back from the bed, catching his body as it tried to fall forward. He made a confused sound in his sleep. “Hush you, it’s just me,” Techno told him. “Stay asleep.” He carefully slipped one arm under his knees and the other under his shoulder blades. Despite the bit of jostling maneuvering him so he was clutched to Techno’s chest caused, he headed Techno’s order to continue sleeping. He carried him over to the corner and laid him out on the pile of blankets, tossing one over him.
Tommy was staring at him when he turned back. Techno waited for whatever thing he wanted to say, but nothing came.
“What?” he finally asked, tired of the unplanned staring contest.
“You forgot your mask.”
“Didn’t forget,” Techno said. “Didn’t want to put my contacts in.”
“Don’t you have, like, a secret identity?”
Techno shrugged, unconcerned. He honestly wore the mask more for the aesthetic and Phil didn’t even wear one. The only one who really wandered around the city and could possibly be recognized was Will and that cat was out of the bag thanks to a certain ghost. The kid started gnawing on his lip again. “Stop that you’re going to bleed,” Techno scolded.
“Fuck you, I do what I want.”
“You want to bleed?”
“Is that a threat?” Tommy asked, bristling defensively to Techno’s confusion. “‘Cause I’m pretty sure Philza said you can’t hurt me right now, and he might be your dad or whatever, but you still shouldn’t piss him off.”
“It’s not a threat,” Techno told him, resisting rolling his eyes. “I’m not planning to hurt you. I was commenting on you hurting yourself.” The words seemed to sooth him a bit. “Also, Philza’s my friend, not my dad.”
Tommy tilted his head. “Ghostbur said Phil adopted you when you were six.” Fucking Ghostbur.
“Legally,” Techno said, “but we’re actually just friends.”
“You were six.”
“It’s complicated,” Techno said. “What else did he tell you?”
“Not much…” Tommy said. “Just stuff about how being a ghost works… and his name… and your name.”
“Of course.”
“Your supervillain names all suck, by the way,” Tommy informed him. “Having your name in the supervillain name doesn’t make sense. It’s supposed to be a secret identity. What is SBI all of your middle initials?”
“God, I wish.”
“What is it then?”
Techno looked at him. “No.”
“Aw, but what does it matter?”
“No.”
Tommy pushed his lower lip out. Techno stared at him, unimpressed. “…You look weird without the mask,” Tommy said.
“Mmm,” Techno replied, unconcerned. He walked back over to the bed.
“Seriously, no one’d be scared of you if they knew you looked like that under the mask.”
“Oh, trust me,” Techno said. “They would be.” Without warning, he flopped himself face first onto the free side of the double bed, ignoring how his glasses poked his face.
“Hey!” the kid said, sounding surprised. “This is my bed.”
“Ghostbur woke me up in the middle of a sleep cycle at, like, 2am,” he said into the pillow. “Shush.”
“Aren’t you, like, afraid I’ll murder you in your sleep and escape?”
“I’m not falling asleep,” Techno said, his eyes closed, “and no, not particularly.”
“I’m dangerous!”
“Mmm.”
“Bitch.” Techno felt him shuffle around a bit on the bed. He hissed when the movement jostled his injury and Techno opened his eyes and turned his head to look at him. “Your hair’s weird.” Techno was starting to think ‘blank is weird’ was just the way Tommy demanded attention.
“Okay.”
There was a pause. “It looks cool though when it’s all braided and you’re wearing the skull mask.”
“Thanks.”
“Why do you wear it so long though?” Tommy asked. Techno wasn’t getting out of conversation, was he? “I mean, it’s awesome and all, but your main thing is close combat.”
“Used to wear it short,” Techno admitted. “People used to shave it. Then, I’d cut it short with a knife so it wouldn’t get tangled. Phil taught me how to care for it a bit after I met him. I started to like it long when I knew how to take care of it, so now I just let it grow.”
“Well, it’s very pog man.”
Techno rolled his eyes. “Thanks,” he said again.
“Is it naturally pink?” he asked.
Techno snorted at the question. “No,” he said.
“Well, I don’t know,” Tommy said, affronted by his amusement. “Sometimes people with powers end up with weird shit like wings!” Which… was fair enough.
“It’s white naturally,” he said. “Not sure if it was when I was born or if it happened later. I’m due for a dye, see?” He tapped at his roots which he’d noticed the morning before were starting to peak through white.
Tommy leaned over to look, careful to keep his hand on his own pillow.
Techno sighed. “You can touch it.”
“Huh?” Tommy asked.
“My hair,” Techno said. “You can touch it.”
“Really?” he asked.
“It’s basically Wilbur and Phil’s favorite pastime, so it’s not like I’m not used to it.”
With the permission, he reached out a cautious hand to touch a few of the strands on the pillow, his head cocked in curiosity. “Wow,” he said, “how the hell do you get it like this?”
“Lots of time and lots of product.”
He grew a bit bolder, though he did not take near the amount of liberties Wilbur often did. He just basically pet it against the pillow so Techno could just barely feel it. His distraction gave Techno a chance to really look at him. He did look quite young especially now. Ghostbur had said he was 16 even though that made no sense. What was the Hero Guild doing if that was the case?
Sixteen, Techno contemplated. That was young, wasn’t it? Did Techno even know what it was like to be 16? He’d been 16 once, twice, and never.
Sixteen was a home made out of an old, abandoned train car and Phil always bringing back something extra when he went out for supplies, sometimes these things were functional, but often they were not, and he really did not understand. It was a white stuffed bear Techno never understood the significance of until an 8-year-old handed a much newer version of it to him years later saying he could have it. It was being on the verge of trusting after almost a year and a half, but not quite there yet.
Sixteen was also Will’s eighteenth birthday and Techno pinning him to the ground of the living room in the house upstairs, because he wouldn’t stop mocking Techno for still being a child when he was an adult even though Techno had been an adult first. It was Phil ignoring them to cut ice cream cake in the kitchen trusting Techno wouldn’t actually cut off his son’s oxygen with the pillow he’d placed over his head.
Sixteen was lost like water slipping through a drain never to be recovered. It was lost in blood and death: his own, his own, his own, until he managed to make it someone else’s. How could he possibly know when he’d existed for 16 years when for every stumbling two steps forward, he took one back? Did it pass in the blood-soaked arena or on the cold street or in a prison cell? There was no way to ever know.
What was sixteen for this boy? Techno had to wonder. He worried silently that with the gash on his stomach and the pallor to his cheeks, it might linger somewhere closer to the first or third than Techno was comfortable with.
“Why are you looking at me all funny?” Tommy asked.
“How am I looking at you?”
“Funny,” Tommy answered.
Techno rolled his eyes. “Helpful.” Tommy kicked him and Techno narrowed his eyes. “Don’t you want to sleep?” he asked.
“I apparently have had too much caffeine, so sleep is not an option right now.”
“Fantastic,” Techno said, shoving his face back into the pillow.
Tommy gave him about two seconds of silence. “Do you have a superpower?” he asked.
Techno sighed. “Yes.”
“I’ve never seen you use one,” Tommy said, “and we’ve fought a lot of times.”
Techno took his head off the pillow. “It’s not one I use often anymore.”
“Why not?” Tommy asked with a frown.
Techno turned to face him. “If you’d ever given me cause to use it, you wouldn’t be alive.”
He must have accidently done something with his voice because Tommy’s already pretty pale face went a bit paler.
Techno tilted his head. “It wasn’t a threat,” he said. “Just a fact.”
“I could kill you right now if I decided I wanted you dead isn’t a threat?” Tommy asked.
“No because I don’t have a reason to want you dead.”
“You don’t?” Tommy asked, seeming genuinely surprised.
Techno squinted at him. “Kid, what exactly do you think is going on here?”
The kid started biting his damned lip again, his hand clenching his pillow, but he didn’t say anything.
“You are aware we aren’t planning to kill you, aren’t you?” He just stared at Techno. “Shit kid, we’re not going to just murder some unarmed child in our basement. You’ll be ransomed back to the Guild eventually.” Well… at least, that had been the plan, he thought, looking at the blue marks adorning his face.
“But I’m your enemy,” he said with a frown.
“Being a general nuisance and kicking Wilbur in the face a couple of times isn’t quite enough for us to want your head on a spike.”
Tommy was looking at him all confused. Shit. How had Phil explained the fact that most people actually didn’t want to murder people indiscriminately? Technoblade was not equipped for this. Uh…
“Is that…” Tommy interrupted his thoughts.
“What?” Techno prompted when it was clear he wasn’t going to continue his sentence.
“Why didn’t you kill me that one time?” he asked quietly.
“When?” Techno asked.
“You know,” he said. “That one time I found you in the alley. We fought and you had me at sword point. I thought you were going to slit my throat then, but you just walked away. We were alone and I’d attacked you. I always wondered why you didn’t.”
“I thought that’d be obvious,” Technoblade said, but Tommy just frowned. “Did you forget the rest of that fight?” he asked. “You thought you’d snuck up on me and I didn’t notice until it was too late. You’d grabbed my sword and held me at sword point on the ground. You’d thought you’d won.”
“Yeah, but I hadn’t,” he grumbled.
“You hadn’t,” Techno agreed. “In fact, you didn’t even really find me. I lured you there on purpose.”
“Why?”
“It was a test. We’d fought a few times and I wanted to see if you were a threat.” He shrugged. “You weren’t.”
Tommy looked unhappy with that statement.
“It’s not an insult,” Techno said.
“It sure fucking sounds like one,” Tommy replied.
“It’s not,” Techno said. “It’s a compliment really. The first person I ever registered as not a threat was Phil and he’d actually just beaten me in combat. It has nothing to do with skill, though yes, obviously I could beat you in hand to hand considering I wrestled the sword away from you after.”
“I don’t get it.”
Techno hummed. “You asked me why I didn’t slit your throat. Well, why didn’t you slit mine?”
“Well… because I’m a hero,” Tommy said, “and I’d already won or thought I did, so I should just call it in to the Guild. That’s what I’m supposed to do.”
Techno snorted. “Funny joke kid. Most heroes would love to put a sword though my chest,” not that it would end, had ended, well for them, “especially with no one watching.”
“So, you didn’t kill me then because I didn’t try to kill you?”
“I give people back what they give to me,” Techno said. “It’s why Phil has my loyalty, why Wilbur has my protection, why many people are dead and buried, and it’s why you don’t need to fear dying at my hand.”
“Oh,” Tommy said. “That’s nice of you.” Like he’d just offered to give him a ride home on a rainy day. Like it was a favor he didn’t expect.
This kid was fucked up.
They were silent for a while and then Techno sat up with a sigh. He fished his phone out of the hoodie pocket. “Well, neither of us are sleeping. What types of movies do kids watch these days?”
Tommy blinked at him. “I don’t watch movies.”
“Right.” He fiddled with his phone for a bit and then handed it to Tommy. “I locked you out of everything but Netflix, so don’t even try it,” he said.
Tommy spent about 30 minutes just scrolling through Netflix, reading the titles, before he selected a horror movie seemingly at random.
He proceeded to refuse to back out for the entire 2 hours of the movie’s runtime despite the fact that he was clearly not built for horror movies. Hmm… maybe the R rating did mean something; he was only 16 after all. He ended up curling into a ball the best he could with a cow stuffed animal clutched to his chest and jumped at everything that happened on screen. Ah, so that’s what the stuffed animals in Wilbur’s room were about.
Techno tried not to laugh at the jumpy boy. He really did.
“Dickhead,” Tommy spat when the movie ended. “Stop laughing at me.”
“We could have backed out at any time.”
“No! I’m a man! A big man.”
“Sure, Tommy. Next time you’re watching a G rated movie. Animated animals only.”
“I do not like you.”
“Is that why you’re trying to cuddle me for comfort?”
“I am not. Shut up.” He pressed his forehead into Techno’s shoulder. “When is Ghostbur getting back? I like him better.”
“We could wake up Will.”
“No. Ew.”
Techno chuckled and Tommy sat up, still holding the cow stuffed animal.
“Hey, Technoblade,” he said, looking over at Wilbur’s sleeping form in the corner. “Do you have any shaving cream?”
Techno blinked at him. “What? Why?”
Tommy shrugged, his eyes cutting to Techno and then back to Wilbur and then back to Techno.
Oh, Techno thought. “You know what?” I have a better idea.”
“Technoblade, I’m going to be rather cross with you,” Ghostbur warned from the bed. He’d returned while Technoblade was sneaking up to the kitchen. He didn’t know what they’d discussed while he’d been gone, but it was likely about Tommy’s friend.
Despite his words of warning, Ghostbur didn’t move to stop Techno, likely because Tommy was full on giggling over his small bowl of chocolate ice cream topped with strawberries and whipped cream.
Technoblade shrugged. “Meh. Worth it.”
Author Note:
Ghostbur: Ah, but you see Technoblade. He is baby.
Techno: *rolls eyes*
**1 hour later**
Techno: Oh no. He is baby.
(This conversation was illustrated and you can find it here!)
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"before Forever, before the island. Who was he and why is Etoiles so interested???"
oh my god ow the fucking shot through the chest this was omgggggggg not only asking about what happened from the source (phil) but who he was before- when he had an isolated identity AAAAAAAAAA THEMMMMM ETOILES THE FUCKING GOAT AS PER USUAL NOTHING LESS TO BE EXPECTED OMGGGG also the idea of him being his best friend in this au is so like emotional to me- to have phil be put through so much pain all the time at all angles, emotionally and physically to have at least Someone just One person to turn to who sees past the servers lies and rumors omg the agony this is amazing they're my roman empire too I literally brainrot abt them all the time
The song Milk by Jack Stauber is pretty much exactly what they have
The song is technically about death, thinking of a dead person you didn't know but I feel like it works so well because a part of Phil is dead. The part of him that really matters to Etoiles
Etoiles doesn't care about what Forever forced Phil to be. He cares that somewhere, there's a person who used to have friends and a family and a nice little house that he made with his own hands
What kind of life did you live through? Did you know love? Will you rest in peace? Did you have a family?
Who was Phil before Forever changed him?
That's all Etoiles cares about.
It's okay that Phil can't fight things! He used to!! He used to fight and laugh and help people, he used to explore and build and discover!! That's who he really is. Etoiles can see that, even when nobody else can
He even manages to get some of that back. Phil, finally, has a way to get back a part of himself that he lost through Etoiles. He can laugh and explore and make things again and he doesn't have to worry about what Forever will think because he's not here!! He's not here and Etoiles would risk everything for Phil because they're FRIENDS!!
Phil can't hold a weapon anymore but he can hold Pomme and tell her grand stories about the man he used to be, the empire he built, the world he created for himself, his friends and his family. He can hold Etoiles' daughter and tell her how to build things, how to properly shoot a bow and arrow or how she should always avoid ravines!
Etoiles sees this man for the first time and goes "I want to know you" and when he's told what happened through other people's perspectives he says "NO. Nonono I want to know YOU." and he ASKS and he CARES!!! He hears the rumors and says "There has to be more to Phil than Forever."
Cellbit pulls him aside to explain everything properly and Etoiles turns away and says he doesn't believe in secondary research and he's going straight to the source, thank you!! If this is not an invitation to kill Forever for what he did to Phil HE DOES NOT WANT TO KNOW!!
Etoiles knows that somewhere, in another world, where none of this happened, they're best friends. They're besties and they play fight and do dungeons together because that's what they like to do.
Etoiles will settle knowing it could have been.
#FML would be fixed if etoiles and phil got married#qsmp#qsmp philza#qsmp etoiles#qsmp codebreakers#they are everything to me#id kill and die for these boys do you hear me#forever my love au
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1, 2, 5, 6, and 9 maybe?
You can choose to answer one or two of these if you'd like but I am curious. And also the question about what languages you speak, I don't remember the number.
One or two? What if I answer them all? (trick question, I am going to)
ask meme here
1. favorite theory Honestly, I am a big fan of the theory that the Code is a failed egg experiment (eggperiment). I sort of had that thought for a while, that it was just lashing out because of jealousy, and Phil also having that theory made me happy.
2. least favorite theory The one that the new people are only being added to kill the eggs. I hated it from the very moment someone came up with it, because the announcement of new people coming happened due to Jaiden's quest, which was to protect the eggs. And no, killing them all isn't a valid way to keep them safe, which is an idea I saw someone say once.
5. favorite headcanon Catboy Cellbit (even though that is pretty much canon lmao) and werewolf/dogboy Forever. Also, even though it's kind of an au, I really like the Bluebird thing where Jaiden (and occasionally Foolish plus the Quackitys) are Federation experiments.
6. favorite duo, trio, ship, etc. Tazercraft even though I can't watch much due to my schedule, Phil and Fit cause old men flirting is funny, Bad/Max/Forever as just a trio is hilarious but I'm not too fond of them as ship. I adore the ship potential that Pac has and I am 100% rooting for him to just have a harem/poly with most of the Island lmao.
9. your favorite egg & why? I suppose it would be Chayanne. I am mostly a Philza watcher which is part of it, but also an older brother who is a warrior for the sake of protecting his siblings is peak character. Also I really like how he has started to calm down in recent times, finding an enjoyment for cooking and developing a liking for the simple life that Phil enjoys.
36. how many languages do you speak? which ones? I only fluently speak English (though that could be debatable lmao), but I know basic Spanish by which I mean mostly swears lmao, some Japanese is still rattling around in my head from learning during school so I can say some things and can read a little bit though I have an easier time with hiragana, and I recently (as in on Thursday) started doing Portuguese on Duolingo.
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