#but even if i didnt achieve the Most amount of things. im still so so proud

[bismuthburnsblue]

✨2024 makes wrap up! ✨

this ended up being a big year for me in terms of makes, though it didnt really feel like it at the time! im also realising how many of these projects i never did a proper wrap up post for, so i will try and do some more of those over the coming weeks!

Total sewing projects: 11 Costumes completed: 3 UFOS finished: 1.5 (one was a long-awaited alteration) buttons sewed for coworkers: 13 (ish)

and the full list, with links to posts as i write them!

Anne Pants

Anne Blouse

Anne Corset

Flora Dress

Janet Skirt

Record Bag

Ginny Skirt alteration

Ginny Vest

The Coat

Skirt alteration

Minecraft Guardian plushie

bonus mentions:

(things that werent sewing projects or didnt get completed, but felt important enough not to leave off!)

Anne necklace

Cross stitch progress

design a dress

swallow ita bag

below the cut ive wrote a little about the projects with pictures, if you wanna read more in depth thoughts!

Anne took up most of the start of my year, working from february to may on the parts of the costume. it took me outside my comfort zone in a lot of ways- my first time making pants, and the corset presented a whole bunch of new challenges, being in leather- any seam i made was impossible to fix. i made a whole bunch of mistakes, but im incredibly happy with the overall results anyway.

I took a break after Anne, chilled out, did some cross stitch, only to jump head first into Flora on an impulse (aka my friend said "do you want to?" and i said "say less") In spite of the time crunch, she was quite an easy build, following a pattern, not too much fitting, and most of the problems ended up being of my own making. after coming back to redo her hem in october, im super happy with how things came out!

I floated around for a bit over the summer, messing around with patterning the wing collar for the design-a-dress for a while, working on my Janet skirt, and patterning a couple other miscellaneous things before throwing myself into mcm prep again! as mentioned, i redid my Flora hem, and i also decided to learn a new type of skill! bag making!!!

Looking at my archive, i dont think i ever posted anything about the bag i made for Maggie, which is frankly a crime, because i love this thing!!! it was absolutely a learning curve & i didnt have all the best choice of materials (it was mostly scraps from my job and things from in my stash) but i really did learn so much that i can take forward into the future- which there definitely will be a future! i already have plans for at least three more bag projects, and im gonna figure out how to make ita bags too :D

then it was full steam ahead into november, and i decided i could finish another costume this year, and so it was time for Ginny! She was a mix of refashioning & from scratch work, but every fabric piece was made with recycled materials. I loved making this costume, it was super fun to mess around with techniques with no worry about how professional it looked at the end because she was such an obscure costume!

At the same time i was working on Ginny, i decided it was high time i finally finished the coat i started working on... two years ago ''':) this too was all about learning new techniques and understanding proper construction, and i am so, so happy with the results. theres definitely a couple pieces id like to come back and revisit at some point (looking at you, collar -_-) but i know those are mostly things only im going to see. im so glad i put it down for a while, i think ive done a lot better than i would have done this time last year- and i know when ive given it some time and come back again, ill do better then, too. but its wearable and cute, and i finally have a lovely winter coat :)

I thought i would be finishing the year with a couple of long overdue alterations to my favourite skirts, but i ended up only getting one done when my coworker asked for help making a christmas present for their friends kid. the second she showed me the pattern, i knew i could do better, and so i wrapped up my year with a mad dash to make a plushie guardian in a week before i finished work for the year.

You should know by now i love a challenge, and this sure was something different! i think id do things differently if i had more time, but im super happy with how this guy came out! it was great practice for satin stitching on my machine & working with tricky fabrics, and i think id definitely like to make another one, with a few changes to the design- and the colours of the fabric, as i had nothing to do with those! im telling the kid its a shiny guardian ;) either way, i hope the kid has a great time using him as a mace !!

and thats my year in review!! im hoping next year ill be able to do another one of these and be just as proud of everything ive achieved :)

[lady-sci-fi]

Hi hey hi so

I just finished your Electric Organisms fic series on ao3 and i just wanted to express some sentiments towards your work "^^

1. The fics are so damn good aaa it infected my brain so much i would regularly tell my best friend all about it even though she doesnt watch star trek

2. The fact you dug up unused scenes and scripts and wrote them into fics is so damn cool!! Also may i ask where you found those?

3. Your character writing is so well done, i was so disappointed they didnt explore Geordis personality more in the show. I love that you went into his family background and mental health properly also I honestly love that he just gets to be happy a lot of the time, the show constantly made him suffer for some reason

4. The drawings are such a nice addition to the fics and theyre sooo well drawn <3

5. The way u handled the Fajo&Borg queen assualt implications was so well written. Im still angry the movies and show basically dropped the whole thing and never went into what it would do to datas mental state

6. The romance was so well written i cant- i dont usually read romance but maaan was i invested in this one <333

I swear you basically rewrote the entire series while fixing all the shitty parts and making the good parts *sparkly*

Also just the raw amount of stuff you wrote is crazy impressive!!!!

Unrelated your blog is really cool ive been following for a couple of months or so and it delights me whenever you show up on my dash.

Anyways you're a great writer and artist and i hope my ramble could express that your work is very very appreciated :)

Thanks so much for telling me all this! It does indeed make me feel warm and fuzzy. 🥰

The full series link if anyone else is interested.

While I have written the start and end points for the series, there are still more ideas I'm going to write for it, so stay tuned.

1- That's a huge compliment.

2- It's great to find those little nuggets that were cut out from final script to aired episode for whatever reason. You can read them at Star Trek Minutiae.

3- I like to think I've watched too much TNG to get them too wrong in character 😜. I would've definitely appreciated more Geordi episodes.

4- Thank you. In addition to a fic list, I also have an art list, and DaForge is taking up most of it 😅

5- I'm glad you think so. I don't really blame the show for that, since mostly "one-and-done" episode stuff was the overall structure of shows in that time. A few character things get mentioned or used later, but not everything.

6- The boys deserve a well-written romance 😊It's great to know you think I'm achieving that.

Believe me, I'm also surprised how much I've written for this series since I started it in June 2022. I didn't expect a one-shot fic that came from Brent Spiner saying he much rather would've found Geordi instead of Spot in the Enterprise-D wreck to have led to all this.

It's nice to know you think I'm cool enough to follow on here 😜

Thank you again for saying all this. I'm glad you really like this series.

[neonsbian]

hi vinnie <3 since you’re like my resident writing oomf i gotta ask: do you have any tips on motivating & inspiring yourself to write and get through a writer’s block? seeing you post about your writing is so inspiring but i’ve been struggling for months now rip </3

hmmm tbh i dont rlly have a good answer for you other than teach yourself self-discipline. ive been writing for almost a decade (crazy to think abt lol) and in that time ive basically had to teach myself to commit to writing.

writing is just like any other artform, it's a skill that you build gradually by practicing consistently. the best way to do this is to come up with a goal in your mind and actually work towards this. i don't mean like, deciding you want to write a novel and just writing right away (though that does work for some people) but building steps to slowly achieve that goal.

let's say you want to write a novel. great! the first thing i would do is find time in my schedule to write. a lot of people assume that means sitting down for hours at a time and just typing away but finding time to do that in todays society isnt easy and personally, it's more effective for me to find gaps and short moments to just write for a bit. for me, the most writing gets done when im constrained for time. and you don't have to do it all at once! you can write a little bit at different points of the day too.

i also plan what im going to write before i write it. this doesn't mean i outline necessarily (i don't do that until the second draft) but before writing a scene, ill have a vague idea of what i want to happen in that scene. sometimes it changes as im writing but i never go into writing without a vague idea of what's going to happen.

i think setting a daily goal for yourself is really important. i know writing everyday seems kinda daunting, especially if you didnt do that before but like i said, writing is a skill you build gradually by practicing consistently and you have to be consistent. your daily goal can be a certain page count, word count, or chapter count. whatever works for you. i personally don't rlly like using quantifiable units as my daily goal bc that makes me like check the word count obsessively and prefer to use story markers as my goal instead. basically, i decide before writing i want to reach a certain point in the story by the end of the day. sometimes im in over my head and have to adjust, but it's more useful to think abt it that way for me.

also, if you're just starting out, i would make my daily goal relatively simple and easy to achieve. if word count is how you're counting it, then i'd set it to like 500 words. you might feel frustrated with how slow your progress is but it's more effective to slowly build a story than to write a huge chunk in a short amount of time and then never touch it again. and even if the progress is slow, at least progress is happening!

i know a lot of people have said this but you're also gonna have to allow yourself to write badly. i feel like this something that's difficult to implement into your mindset but it's essential to teach yourself this or else you'll never get anything done. shitty writing doesn't mean you're a shitty writer, it just means that your writing needs more work and the only way to achieve that is by working on it consistently.

i also personally think it's helpful to read the writing processes of other writers and try doing them yourself. lauren groff, for example, writes her entire second draft from memory which sounded absolutely insane to me but i tried it for one of my short stories. that method didn't really work for me but from her method helped me improve my own system. basically for scenes that were in the first draft but were going to be changed pretty drastically, i don't open my first draft at all and just write the scene. every writer's process is different and what works for one writer isn't always going to work for you, but it's still worth a shot to try it and one way or another, it'll help you understand yourself as a writer better.

to me, writing is self-discipline as much as it's art and building a system that works for you is going to take some time but it's necessary to achieve what you're hoping to achieve.

this ended up being longer than i expected but tldr: set a goal, do it everyday 👍

[abukhal14]

Looking back, it was probably one of the happiest moment of my teenage-adult life. Even though yall showed me that yall didnt gave a fuck about me since the start, ive always wanted to be a part of the group. Maybe ive never felt a sense of belonging before but i guess i grow up slower than normal people do to know that what we had wasnt it.

I know i never respected your boundaries and personal space but given the fact that the rest did it too left me clueless. The way you were aggressive with only me is bullshit and maybe i was the only one who you could vent out your pent up anger to. I know I havent been nice to you and i realised it way back but i guess why i did it was purely because it was fun. If only u knew the amount of times u were the topic and how people you gravitate towards to talked shit about you passionately would be disappointing for you. All the shit talking that they do and im always the one defending your name. Im proud of you the most for achieving what you secretly wanted. In all honesty, have a backbone of your own and stick up for yourself.

We go way back and out of everyone, im disappointed in you the most. We've been through alot together but you switching up on me is crazy just because you feel like he has more to offer than what i have to offer. Being opportunistic when it comes to work/school is great but doing that to our friendship is out of pocket. You love putting our friendship on the line multiple times over minute things but act like things never happened. It bothers me how u hate when injustice is happening to you but when the same injustice is happening to others, you act like its nothing. I hope you blossom in life and achieve all your goals and dreams and build a wonderful family like you wanted.

To be honest, i have no issues with you but i havent been the best of friend towards you especially how i tested your patience to your limit. You are probably the most matured but nobody is going to see it the way i do. I truly believe people who has unfortunate background have amazing mind. If there is a thing i could tell you, do things for yourself and never to prove to others that you have something to offer. Friendship is seen when you have nothing to offer and they would still do it for you genuinely.

You are the worst ever. Manipulating your own friend because you feel like are the alpha. That itself is a problem because you see yourself as an alpha. I saw through you but ive never open my mouth to talk shit about you. Nah, maybe i did. You do things to others but when the same things is done to you. You purposely fuck up the mood by getting upset and become the child who throws a tantrum and make sures everyone notice so that way, everyone would know i was the cause of the mood change. Ive been nice enough to you hoping ud change for the longest of time but i guess u become worst. The same people who you "treasure" are the same people you talk the most shit about. Ill pray for you to be a better person and i hope you keep achieving what you want in life.

I know im not perfect, i have my flaws too but im always thinking for all of yall but its never appreciated. I would have given up everything for yall even my last dollar but yall would fuck me over. Im honestly sad that i chose to leave but i feel like its the only way for me to get my peace that ive longed for. Im glad that we happen but ill pray from afar and i hope that ill be the last to break away and for yall keep the friendship strong and have each other to depend on. Thankful for the memories we created together but now i know i cannot trust nobody, i can just hope people dont fuck me over.

[rockkitferret]

About my AU series:

so a general description (this may sound kinda out there) is that it's a fairly lengthy animated series (gonna be posted on YouTube) with the main theme/premise of the kids' (who are now about 5-6 years older) journies of striving to heal from their pain and hardships along with discovering hidden superpowers tied to their ability to overcome said pain and battling against rising threats.

The main cast is like over 20 of the kids XD and they get substantial character exploration and stuff; especially the main protagonist Kenny/Mysterion, who also goes on a journey of life, death and mystery :D along with Butters/Professor Chaos who also goes through the wringer. Kenny and Butters are the main characters with their respective families having the most exploration but theres also gonna be plenty of character exploration and character dynamic exploration with other characters like Stan, Kyle, Cartman, Craig's gang and a bunch of others

In terms of comparing and contrasting with canon South Park, its got its own storylines and character arcs that largely build off of canon material as well as a lot of headcanons and fan concepts that I really wanna explore, multiple canon episodes/events will be adapted in some way or another; some of them being revisited and built off from, and some of them playing out with quite a different spin, but the series as a whole is still telling its own stories that build and connect with canon and fanon. tone/style wise i'm aiming for a mix of crazy over-the-top South Park shenanigans and dramatic emotional and epic vibes, also i'm aiming for an anime vibe/style, like a South Park anime adaptation mixed with a lot of headcanons and fan concepts. it's got an overarching story with a lot of plot, lore, world and character stuff going on, and there are 4 arcs within the whole story, each of them revolving around certain things that play out in the fan series.

also a bunch of fan ships are canon in this series like Bunny, Style etc. :3 also while I don't really view it in a religious light there is a huge focus on angel and demon related stuff

i've been developing this series for about 4 years i think? especially this past year, i've been typing a huge amount of notes and ideas for a bunch of the stuff in this series and so far arc 1 is planned to have 13 episodes, though i'm still on episode 1 right now ;w; but i have confidence in my abilities for storytelling, animation/art, character stuff, and all that.

sorry i didnt mean to type a huge amount, i was meaning to give a general brief description to sum up the basic gist while also explaining that there's a bunch more things to it as well, but somehow it became way more lengthy oops ^^; even though i still barely scratched the surface with my description cause i don't wanna give away too much yet ;w;

uhh i guess an actual brief description would be: ambitious self-indulgent fanime with elaborate storytelling and character exploration along with epic battles and a mix of canon and fanon/headcanon.

im hoping to achieve something that does the characters and their potential justice, i'm just also worried that the "epic battle anime" vibe is gonna make people think its inherently "cringy bad fake fan South Park fanfiction" or something even though I dont hold that opinion, and i'm hoping to create something that shows that South Park in anime style or with epic tones can still genuinely be true to the source material and have the characters be in-character (like just cause Kyle is in cute anime style doesn't mean he's suddenly gonna stop being a badass, for example) while also creating something of its own vastly different world as well, hopefully that made sense ^^;;

also if you want i could send some images from ep1 to give more of an idea, also feel free to ask questions if you want ^^;

everything ok? ^^; sorry i hope i'm not bothering you and Shirley with my asks or anything

No, you're good!! Sorry I haven't gotten back to you, I've been busy. I never got a chance to check out your AU thing and now I can't find it on my blog. Mind sending it again?

[blitzyn]

special attention

dottore x m!reader

request : none

Synopsis: Piquing Dottore's interest was something you never expected to achieve during your entire time as a Fatui Agent.

second part | third part

a/n -> omg im so sorry i was gone for so long i didnt know what to write and i was so tired pls forgive me

wc -> 2.2k

cw -> dubious consent, overstimulation, dacryphilia, vibrators, desk sex, slight mirror sex?, semi-public sex, accidental exhibitionism?, anal fingering, anal sex, reader is a fatui agent, reader is a masochist, dottore is a sadist, biting kink, slight blood, rough sex, no aftercare sorry

“You’ve intrigued me.”

Three words you never expected to hear, especially not from your Lord, Dottore. Compliments from him were not easily given unless the person in question had done something that truly garnered his attention - which was an incredibly rare feat. You filed through your memories in search of anything that could answer your question.

Nothing.

So why has he summoned you to his office?

“It is an honor, my Lord,” thoughts ran rampant through your head. “May I ask why I have gained your attention?”

You could hear him rise from his chair and walk over to you. His steps echoed on the cold, marble floor that grew louder upon his approach. He stopped in front of you, his black boots the only thing you could see from your kneeling position. “You’re the most impressive Agent that has worked under me.”

“You have captured and detained countless traitors and secured numerous bases throughout the nation. Not a single person has reclaimed those areas during your stay there,” he counted your achievements. “Yet, all of this has been done with not a crack in that calm facade of yours.”

“I have studied your methods of retaining information, and have been unable to decipher a hint of ulterior motives, or… emotions,” your eyes widened underneath your mask. He was watching you?

You fought the urge to flinch when his hand suddenly found itself on the top of your head to move your hood. “Not a sliver of pent up anger. Grief. Excitement. Nothing.”

“Naturally, this has brought a deal of curiosity to me,” he tightly held onto your hair to force your head back. His other hand removed your mask, revealing your face. “Maintaining a persona such as yours is no easy task, I imagine.”

He tugged on your hair to pull you up from your knee. He shifted himself behind you as soon as you got to your feet. “Of course, there must be some sort of weakness to it. You don’t strike me as heartless.”

His hand moved to your neck, palm resting over your Adam’s apple, feeling it bob when you swallowed. You stared straight ahead, ignoring the way his masked gaze bore into the side of your face. He slid it lower, down to your collarbones and chest. His hand rested on your left pec, smirking to himself upon feeling your racing heartbeat. But it wasn’t enough. He wanted to see you lose your composure completely.

He squeezed the muscle and pinched your nipple before sliding it farther down your body. He paused at the waistband of your pants. He noticed that you were no longer focused on the wall, but on his hand instead.

Were you anticipating what he was going to do next? Were you dreading it? What did you feel? The pounding of your heart was an insufficient amount of information.

He covered your cock - already semi-hard. “Oh? Excited, are we?”

He received no reply as he began to gently stroke you through your clothes. He saw your jaw tense, much to his hidden amusement. He was getting there.

To the average eye, it would seem as if you were bored; annoyed even. But he knew better with the way your dick twitched and throbbed from his touch, with the way a small spot of your pre-cum soaked through the fabrics.

He suddenly pulled away, much to your dismay. You dared not to move without his permission.

“Strip,” he demanded. You were still caught off-guard with the command, despite having predicted it. He crossed his arms at your pause. “Don’t make me repeat myself.”

“Apologies, my Lord,” you said, swiftly undoing all of the buttons and ties in your clothes. Your skin prickled with goosebumps from the cold air of the room, feeling your face heat with embarrassment as he inspected your bare body. He was most drawn to the numerous amounts of scars that littered your flesh. Did you react? ‘Did you scream?’ he thought when he spotted a particularly harsh one.

He placed his hands on your shoulders to guide you closer to his desk, bending you over when you met the edge. His gloved fingers removed the thin piece of underwear that was left on your person. You hid your face in your crossed arms, too humiliated from being completely nude in front of Dottore.

Your eyes shifted when you could no longer feel his presence behind you, watching as he walked behind his desk. He gave you an amused smile as he dug through a drawer, retrieving a small vial and something else before returning back to you.

You curiously looked over your shoulder, trying to figure out what the other item was. He poured about half of the fluid in the vial on his hand, slick noises filling the cold room. He spread your ass apart before pushing the tip of his finger inside you.

You watched intently, slightly wincing in discomfort with the way his finger felt against your walls. You suddenly gasped when it brushed over a spot inside you, tensing up in response.

He suddenly stopped on your prostate, pressing up against it with enough force to render it uncomfortable. He pressed the palm of his other hand on the shaft of your cock, a cold object making it twitch in response.

"Normally, this device would be used to dissolve solids in liquids," he briefly explained. "But I suppose it could be used differently."

You couldn't restrain the moan that left your throat when he activated it, the harsh vibrations traveling all throughout your body. He began moving his finger again, prodding your prostate repeatedly. He added another one to begin a scissoring motion. His other hand gently jerked you off, sliding the device up and down your shaft. You clenched around his fingers when he circled the vibrator on your tip, biting down on your arm to quiet your noises.

Your eyes closed in concentration, focusing on breathing through your nose. The coil in your abdomen tightened with each passing second.

“Fuck,” you whispered to yourself. “I-I’m about to cum, my Lord.”

“Don’t,” Dottore replied. You couldn’t bring yourself to speak, opting to bury your head in your arms. You lightly squirmed on his desk, trying to find something to distract you of your incoming orgasm. You tensed when his hand around your weeping cock tightened considerably to stroke you faster. Your heart dropped when the heat became far too hot for you to bear.

With a strangled squeak, you came, jutting your hips forward. Dottore removed his hands as soon as the first rope of cum spurt from your cock.

“I have never thought I’d ever see the day you’d disregard my order,” he said, pressing himself flush against your backside. You could feel his erection straining through his pants as you rambled apologies.

“Silence,” he demanded. “Though, seeing as you’re not one to disobey me to begin with, I suppose I can let it slide just this once.”

“Thank you, my Lord,” you said through shaky breaths. His hands caressed your hips, smearing your cum and fluids across your skin. He grinded against your ass before flipping you over on the desk, wrapping your legs around his waist. Your eyes widened when you saw your reflection on the ceiling.

“It was used back when I didn’t have a large enough laboratory. I instructed my subordinates, and they watched through the mirror. It’d take too long to remove, so I decided to keep it,” he explained while swiftly undoing his pants. “We find new uses every day, don’t we? How exciting.”

He brought the vial back out and poured the other half of the fluids on his dick. He rubbed it around before pressing the tip against your hole. You intently watched through the mirror as he slid inside, holding onto the tops of your thighs tightly. The stretch he made burned, but - god - if you said it didn’t feel good, you’d be lying.

The pain went straight to your cock as Dottore groaned and mumbled about how tight you were. Every nerve in your body was on fire, shooting sparks of electricity up and down your body. He was about halfway inside when he suddenly slammed the rest into you, forcing a low moan from your throat. He didn’t give you any time to adjust, starting at an overwhelming pace.

He did not waste a second to begin fucking you how he desired, every slap of his hips hard enough to hurt. His desk shook as various papers fluttered onto the floor. You dug your nails into the wood, leaving crescent imprints. You stared at your jolting body, or, more specifically, at his cock moving in and out of you.

Your eyes were half-lidded with steady, low moans - much to his disapproval. Having memorized where the one special spot was from his fingers, he angled his hips a certain way so his dick brushed against it every time he thrust. You tightened your legs around him in response, beginning to release louder whimpers and groans.

One of his hands snaked over your body to your chest, rubbing his thumb over your perked nipple. You clenched tighter around him and let out a choked moan when he suddenly pinched hard.

“Oh, you like it when it hurts?” he noted, adjusting his hold on you to lean forward. You could feel his heavy breath on the junction of your shoulder and neck before he bit down with enough force to draw blood, letting it leak through the sides of his mouth. The burning pain only merged with the onslaught of pleasure, amplifying it to send you crashing into your orgasm. Spurts of cum reached even to your chest.

Your hands tightly held onto Dottore’s shoulders, trembling pitifully. He helped you ride your high until you finally loosened your grip on him. He pulled away, a trail of your crimson blood rolling down his chin. He licked his lips clean and wiped the stream with his thumb to place it in his mouth. He removed his cock from you; much to your confusion.

He was still hard. What was he…?

Oh.

He retrieved the vibrating object from before and activated it. He shoved it as deep inside you as he could go with his fingers before quickly replacing them with his dick. Your back arched, feeling the vibrations reverberate through your entire body. His deep groan was drowned out by your surprisingly whorish moan, feeling him fuck the vibrator deeper than you thought possible.

He resumed his relentless pace, watching you intently. His cock twitched and throbbed with every unrestrained moan you made, using it as motivation to go harder and faster. His hand grabbed your aching dick and stroked alongside his thrusts. You let out a string of curses (that you tried to silence - you hope he didn’t mind) as the added stimulation sent your nerves into overdrive.

It quickly became too much, and, before you knew it, tears flooded your eyes and fell down the sides of your face. It sent an unexpected shock up and down Dottore’s spine that triggered his orgasm, rope after rope of cum dumped into you. His hips spasmed as he engraved the sight to memory. Your walls clenched tightly around him, as if you were milking everything he had to offer.

The vibrator ceased to stop as he slowly pulled out, strings of his cum and lube attached to his pelvis and cock.

“M-My Lord, please,” you sobbed into your hand. “Pl-Please turn it - fuck - off!”

He pressed two fingers inside you with ease, prodding around inside you before humming. “It seems I pushed it too far inside you to reach. You’re going to have to push it out.”

Your stomach dropped. If this wasn’t the most humiliating bullshit you’ve ever heard in your life.

You tilted your head back with a moan, the agonizing build-up to your orgasm was so slow but was the fastest thing you’ve experienced at the same time. You squirmed on the desk as he fixed himself, knowing he was waiting.

You tensed and pushed, but you were unable to get it out of you. You wanted it out, but your body kept it deep inside. With a moan that sounded more like a sob, your orgasm hit you like a ton of bricks.

“I can’t,” you cried. “‘M so-sorry.”

With a disappointed huff, he turned the vibrator off with a remote he had elsewhere and pulled the vibrator out. Although he wanted to see you push it out, he was satisfied with finally being able to see something other than your usual facade. He let you get your bearings as you stared at the mirror.

‘Holy fuck,’ you thought through your hazy mind. With a considerable amount of effort, you sat up.

He began picking up the papers that fell before turning to you. “I will grant you a day off tomorrow, but do expect to see me again soon.”

With a tired nod, you said, “Yes, my Lord.”

You put your clothes back on as fast as you could and promptly left his office. A few subordinates idly stood around, some with beet red faces, and others straight up refusing to look at you.

You rolled your eyes, trying to keep your cool when you felt his cum dribbling out of you.

You couldn’t wait to see him again.

cross-posted on ao3

[forgotten-daydreamer]

heya! i just saw your post on neos and how you find them somewhat stereotyping and/or offensive and i wanted to share ny opinion with you!

personally, i disagree. you probably saw a lot of cursed shit on tiktok, because tiktok breeds extremism. like i was genuinely shocked at the amount of kids (the youngest being like 12) who run neogender accounts while supporting zoophiles and procontact pedos ("MAPs").

but the thing is noun pronouns werent born on tiktok. tumblr was where the internet first homed these things, and especially now you see much more serious and less "mocking" gender coining blogs.

like you said, there isnt a right way to experiment and experience your gender identity. but I think youll find most neo users genuinely find more gender euphoria in pronouns like rat/rats/ratself. at the end of the day, most neos use them for themselves and genuinely don't mean any harm. i too was a skeptic of sorts, like i didnt get it either.

but today, i realise that no "normal" or neo pronouns actually fits me.

im interested in what you have to say, but no pressure to answer of course.

also im italian as well, so if there is anything you dont understand, ill gladly explain

if i have to be honest with you, i don't like your patronising way of talking to me, but i'll close one eye for now.

i am fully aware neopronouns aren't from tiktok exclusively, and i know and said multiple times that at the end of the day everyone's free to use what they prefer, of course. it's just that i personally don't like this kind of neopronouns at all because they feel mocking even if you say they aren't meant to be. gender euphoria is a crucial achievement, it's sacred, i agree. but still, "rat/rats/ratself" isn't something i can take seriously, it's not something i like. i will refer to someone with their preferred pronouns ofc, i'm not gonna argue with someone over the pronouns they picked, like, it's not that deep. but it doesn't mean i must accept those pronouns anyway. i'm always going to feel this way towards those pronouns. hope i cleared it up for you now, and i hope you find good pronouns for you

[hello-yue-here]

Yuetara, zukka, and maiko

yuetara

ship

1) its not one of my main ships. i dont rlly read fanfic for them but if i see a cute fanart of them ill enjoy it and i think i first started shipping it because of good fanarts for them.

2) i like yuetara because of how similar they are. theyre both women from the water tribe. they both understand the misogyny that they have faced. and they both said f sexism im gonna be a strong woman. i also love the tui and la parallel. moon spirit and ocean spirit parallel COME ON. YUE IS THE MOON. KATARA IS THE MOST POWERFUL WATERBENDER. THEY ARE THE OCEAN AND THE MOON. the push and pull they could give eachother. that dynamic ftw.

3) i guess if i didnt like something about this ship would be the fact that if i read a fic or see a fanart w yuetara then than means in that particular au i wont get any yuekka and yuekka is probably my second favorite ship. but then again if i get yuetara than i could get a plethora of other sokka ships to go with it so my sadness disappears in like two seconds. gosh shipping is hard sometimes until you remember ‘hey i have like fifty different universes in my head. all ur ships can coexist in ur brain olivia’ other than that i really see no downsides to this ship. maybe i wish it had more content. maybe if it had more content id ship it a lot more but its not one of the more popular ships so the content is kinda few n far between on my feed.

zukka:

SHIPPP

1) my boys. my babies. my loves. i watched this show for the first time when it came out on netflix and when it ended i really didnt ship anything other than kataang. i came onto tumblr to find fun atla content and one of the very first things i saw under the atla tag was zukka content. i was like oh? whats this? zukka? interesting... i was intrigued so i found a list of fic recs and i fell in love with the ship. the rest is history. its probably my number one ship because it was my very first ship here and im nostalgic

2) oh boy there is so much i like about this ship. i relate to a shit ton of characters in atla. but sokka and zuko may be the ones i relate to most. i relate to sokka because i tend to feel second best a lot to my friends. i try to stay positive but things rarely go the way i plan or hope for them too and while im happy for my friends and their achievements i oftentimes find myself thinking why cant that be me? and i see this a lot in sokka especially in sokkas master. i dont feel special a lot and idk seeing sokka feel the same way and then realizing he is special kinda helped me realize that im special too. on the flipside i relate to zuko because i have wild anger issues and difficulty dealing w my emotions a lot as well. i get broody and short tempered and insecure very often and i tend to push people away and i refuse to ask for help (the amount of teachers and adults and therapists who have told me its okay to ask for help ur not any weaker because of it is astounding. do i listen to them? .....im working on it.) and i saw a shit ton of this in zuko. book one and two zuko rarely asks for help as seen in the blue spirit and zuko alone and he pushes away uncle so many times and even when the gaang iffers to help him in i think its the chase he tells them to leave. when he finally has his redemption and joins the gaang and lets them kinda become a better person i was so happy. i want that for myself yk. seeing him finally win the agni kai and overcome his family that always told him he was nothing was such a win. my sister and i get along but when we were children we were very much like zuko and azula. it was extremely competitive all the time and there was so much toxicity and sibling drama to a concerning extent. we get along great now which im very happy about but yeah their sibling relationship hit a lil too on the nose for me. seeing as i relate to these character so much and want them ti be happy i want to live vicariously through them so seeing them together is amazing for me to project into them. i love projecting onto fictional characters and with them i can project onto BOTH so its a winwin. plus so many zukka fics are so well written and heartwarming and heartbreaking and emotional and fluffy anf UGH the talent here us astounding.

3) what do i not like about the ship? again the list is long. oops. mainly the toxic shippers. there are so many toxic zukka stans that sometimes make it hard for me to enjoy this ship but hey! thats what the block button is for:) i despise how often people infantilize zuko and completely ruin his character for the sake of making him a soft weak lil boy who needs protecting. thats just not zuko for me. and ive seen many many accounts even state that this kind of portrayal of zuko is rooted in racist stereotypes about asian men (now i am white so i personally have never experiences racism but i feel the need to bring that up because it is wrong and attention needs to be brought to it because a lot of poc fans have criticised this) and the same for sokka. some ppl rlly skew his character and make him a big strong brute and hypermasculine and once again poc fans have said that this take is rooted in racist stereotypes. again! these are just my opinions! this is my favorite ship! but i think its important to acknowledge some of the bad parts of our ships as well and be critical where criticism is needed :))

maiko

ship

1) I LOVE MAIKO. “i dont hate you” “i dont hate you too” BRUH. my little heart just burst into flames. im sorry guys but maiko is so cute. they hate everything except eachother. BRUH that is one of the cutest tropes. i shipped them the moment i saw them together onscreen and i was so happy when zukos face lit up in the finale when mai came back.

2) “i hate everything but i have a soft spot for you” TAKE MY MONEY I AM A SUCKER FOR THIS. they are so cute together. like zuko is rarely happy in a majority of atla but mai makes him happy and i- 🥺🥺 HE DESERVES IT. and mai is always so supportive of him. when hes stressing out about the war meeting she tries her best to comfort him. and zuko cares about her too. he may not be the best at showing it but oh my god hes TRYING HIS BEST. i think its a very accurate portrayal of teenage relationships because they arent perfect and they do fight but like,, every teenage relationship does that. and even after everything and how he left her in the fire nation she still had his back at boiling rock. she still risked her life against azula to save his butt.

3) the thing i hate about maiko isnt even about maiko. its about antis who think mai is toxic and that zuko deserves better. that has got to be the worst take ive ever heard. they had a fight in ember island. that is NORMAL. they are teenagers. they are not perfect. but underneath all the rough edges and things they need to work out they still care about eachother so freaking much. i genuinelt believe that neither of them would do anything to intentionally hurt the other and i think thats what matters the most. if anything mai is the best girlfriend in the entire world because zuko fucked up like,, quite a few times. he got rlly jealous and dumped her thru a letter and ppl always say that mai was toxic for being mad at him for those two things. umm she had every right to be mad at him for both of those. and while zuko is allowed to feel his emotions and be angry sometimes as well sometimes he needs to think things thru and realize that hey maybe some if this jealousy is unfounded. BUT EVEN THEN. HE RESPECTED HER FEELINGS AND DIDNT TOUCH HER WHEN SHE SAID DONT TOUCH ME. HE RESPECTED HER. so i hate toxic maiko takes because they are literally so wrong in my opinion.

again all of these are just my opinions!! feel free to agree or disagree but please be respectful!! i will respect whatever u think as well because this is all just for fun :)

[pinolitas]

what got you into running + what motivates you to keep doing it? i am really interested in starting but i don’t really know where to start tbh … so i thought i could just ask a pro!

my sister! she did cross country in hs and I just wanted to be like her and I immediately loved it and made my own friends once I joined!! the thing I loved the most in hs was that we grouped up with people who ran at a similar pace so we kept each other motivated and also had a reason to make friends lol

once I graduated, for a while I didn't want to run on my own bc I was so used to running in a group and seeing my friends was my biggest motivator but I'm at a point now where I can just tell myself to go out for any amount of time and be happy with that and get the endorphins and still call myself a runner lol

idk what keeps me motivated now I just like it and go when I want for however long and whenever I feel anxious or angry or just general shit I love to go on a run and come back refreshed. kinda like a shower but better idk it's actual serotonin and endorphins i can't explain but it is probably explainable. idk if i actually have goals now i just go for the fun of it but if i feel good ill stretch out for a longer time than usual and it feels good to have achieved it when i didnt actually plan to lol

new year new anon!!!! im glad youre getting into running i feel like its the best thing that ever happened to me. feels like shit at first but its so good for you mentally and physically! youre doing good by asking questions! so where to start is actually a lot of info:

like with anything else the hardest part is starting!! make it a habit to go on a run like twice a week and build up to doing either more days or more time. your first few days will be tiring if you're not used to expending that kind of energy so it's okay if you don't meet whatever goal you set for yourself! just listen to your body and rest when it's tired and eat when it's hungry. and walking is okay too! I actually always take a break at my half way point and walk around for like 3 min or however long it takes for my heart rate to settle and then run back.

here's a list for your first run:

1. eat (hopefully carbs)

2. digest (like an hr at least)

3. warm up/dynamic stretching (do some leg swings, high knees, butt kicks, etc anything that gets your heart rate up and your muscles loose) this is something I used to skip unless I ran with a group but I have found it does in fact make a difference bc now you actually feel the energy and you do in fact get less injuries like this

4. run with goals that make sense. make it to the end of the block or make it to the baseball field at the park or the next stoplight or one lap around the track whatever it is that makes sense to you and is an achievable distance to you specifically. and these are goals you can make up as you go along and start figuring out how much you can handle. running distances feel different from driving distances so don't worry about making a certain mileage and just shoot for running 5-10 minutes and then turn around. a 10 minute run is an easy goal for a first run but I think you can do 15 or 20 if you take breaks and walk in between!

5. hydrate. I mean hydrate before also but not too much bc then ur tummy gets swishy and sometimes I get stitch in my side from it lol most of my water drinking happens after but that's just me

6. static stretching! honestly maybe even follow a yoga video on YouTube. this is to prevent injury and soreness you will still feel sore the next day but not as badly if you stretch lol

7. lay down or sit on the floor. I feel too stinky to be anywhere that isn't the floor but I also don't want to shower yet so just be on the floor. it's good. feels good.

last thoughts on a couple of things: imo a watch with a stopwatch is better than a phone but you can also just get one of those arm strap things for your phone if you prefer and also if you want to listen to music while you run. get shoes meant for running! Mizuno, ASICS, Brooks (Brooks Ghost my beloved) are some brands I can think of that are good brands I've worn. you can prevent injuries with some proper shoes tho it can get pricey :/ I pull all the stops and go to a running store that does a foot scan and gait analysis bc it's fun and I run a lot but you don't need to do all that just go to any athletic store and try on some shoes and walk around do a lil jog in them I don't suggest buying them online bc it is good to feel them before you buy

AND LASTLY! EAT LOTS!! YOU'RE USING UP A LOT OF ENERGY HERE YOU GOTTA GET IT BACK SOMEHOW!

bananas are so good for you if you have a sensitive tummy or are short on time for food beforehand but please eat something anything before and after. food is love and everything and its especially wonderful to run while someone is cooking and arrive to some fresh food this is a hack to truly appreciate someones cooking also so i love it 

[thehopeelias]

More tutb art? Big shocker 🤣🤣

@maybemayura read the first half of tutb for her first time recently so I felt like I got to relive some of my favorite parts! One chapter that I ended up going on and on about was chapter 22 when Nathalie tried to leave. I realized just how much I loved this chapter and thought I’d share some of my analysis from it!

Before you keep reading, there’s obviously huge spoilers here so if you haven’t read Throwing Up These Butterflies by @mymayura then go do that first!!

The main thing that gets me is when she couldnt zip up her sweater bc she was getting so much bigger! its such a small detail but mm was able to make me feel so hard with nathalie’s inability to ZIP HER SWEATER. like there she was trying to leave the man she feels she is burdening and ruining his life. she wants to be capaple of at least sparing him her troubles. and she cant even zip her freaking coat because of HER mistake. HER stupid wish that caused all these problems to begin with. but how can she be mad at her stomach? she WISHED for it! she wants it more than anything! thats why the wish happened. its her deepest desire and the very reason she is leaving and the very reason she cant. zip. her freakin. sweater. its this endless loop of emotions that happen in such a meaningless task.

ive reread it quite a few times 🙈 and have focused on each of their sides during the scene. i love the complexity of nathalie’s side the most from that scene because of the overwhelming amount of emotions she is facing from all angles. she’s hating the man she loves on top of ALL of that. but gabriel’s side is incredible too! and reading it from his side, he is so desperate to keep her because he WANTS her. but he is SO afraid of losing her. she is walking out of the door because of HIM and if he pushes or does something wrong, the fear of her and his child dying is on the brig. not the right word but just right there. all he can think about. this scene was so pivotal because it became too much for gabriel. the fear of losing her from his house and losing her from his life just pushed him over the edge. in ch 23, when fu left and Gabriel was sobbing at her side. he was sobbing because this scene pushed him to it. all that emotion, the intensity, SO GOOD

So those are my general thoughts 😆 If you don’t want to read my line by line (nearly) analysis then yall can keep scrolling 🤣

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Gabriel running two steps at a time down the stairs. ive already mentioned his desperation to stop her but BRUH!!! and when he gets between her and the door! i can just picture nathalie glaring at him in frustration while he basically spreads his arms across the door keeping her from leaving.

Then him trying to stop her for “her own safety” as he claims, pisses her off because she thinks he’s lying! and not just lying but lying about having an ounce of care for her! she’s convinced she’s a burden and that he would be better off without her. to hear him lie about caring for her well-being just seems like he is mocking her. a glance at what she wants but thinks can never achieve.

when she calls him cruel. i know she means it but man that hurts. even now she still loves him and still wants his love but she thinks he’s humiliating her and trapping her and just being awful. seeing someone you love in a “cruel” way like this, hurts.

“She got your personal number?” “Yes, somehow. I wonder who could have given it to her.”

sarcastic witty nathalie still shines strong in such an emotional scene like this and i love it.

‘Nathalie, it’s not what you think.” She laughs bitterly. “Of course it’s not. Look, sir, I couldn’t care less about the implied infidelity as we’re not together”

THE SIR WAS ITALICIZED (i think... i read it that way at least) and if i remember right in ch 20, gabriel made it a point for her to call him ‘Gabriel’ as he is the father of her child now. but she SPECIFICALLY calls him sir here. she’s just like ‘lets cut the facade, the fantasy, the bs dream, and remember how this relationship works. ur my boss and thats all this is ever going to be” which im sure stung gabriel a lot seeing how he doesnt want her to think of him as ‘sir’

THE DATES!!! ok it was like a super dumb idea by gabriel but “good intentions with horrible actions” is kind of his thing 🤣 its so sweet tho thinking he was doing that to try and protect her! i also liked in another chapter he admitted to himself he felt bad for leading some of the women on. he was really using them but he still had that empathy and i thought that was actually sweet. Gabriel might be an idiot but he can still be sweet 🤣 back to the point, can u IMAGINE nathalie’s reaction to seeing those pictures? gabriel JUST found out she’s pregnant with his kid and she feels horrible about it. he’s never moved on from emilie and she never thinks he will. she loves his devotion to emilie afterall. so seeing the pictures, not only was it hard to see him with other women but also hard to accept that he CAN move on and HAS moved on. not only has he not moved on with her but he didnt even take his unborn child into consideration. Not to mention, Victoire telling Nathalie to leave and spare gabriel of her burdens just confirmed everything she had been dreading, crying, and fearing for 5 months.

oo oo i loved how gabriel said “You’ve had to deal with her before.” something i love about gabenath is that they have so much chemistry. YEARS and YEARS of chemistry. and u can see that here. Gabriel points it out cuz nathalie really has been apart of his life long enough to know victoire’s a snake.

Super small but: ‘Nathalie winces. “She paid a visit to the house.”’

I can visualize that wince SO much. the pieces are coming together and she’s starting to feel awful about assuming the worst.

‘“Exactly. Adrien and I have been trying for weeks to get her off our backs. We thought — I thought that...’

I love that he was about to have adrien share the blame but was like NOPE! this is all on me. im dumb and my son is wise. 🤣

she asks if the dates weren’t real. again with the dates. pretty much the biggest issue here. the unspoken conversation happening between them, we the audience can hear so loudly. yes she asked that, and she’d never assume he would be loyal to her in that way but we KNOW she wants that. we know that she doesnt truly want him with another woman. Gabriel denying it but also wanting to yell OF COURSE NOT BC IM IN LOVE WITH YOU! its just such a cool thing.

They FINALLY break the tension and “somewhat” resolve the tension. i feel like gabriel had ONE sigh of relief and then Nathalie’s coughing got out of hand and the tensity instantly explodes again. he was already blaming himself for causing her to be upset and now she might die because of it. like AGH SO GOOD!

And that’s the end of my analysis for the section in ch 22 😂

[kidhawks]

I know we're all interested in people seeing Hawks off his carefree, jokester persona, but consider! I was bored, the T.V was playing Rio, I caught the last couple minutes of it, and was thinking about Hawks watching the movie with me and reacting to it all, wing movements giving away emotion and instead wondered what it'd be like for the Pros to see Hawks actually act his age.

(+) You know, one where he isn't stressed by the burden of a low-success rate infiltration mission instead of Univeristy exams. Just seeing that smarmy, clown bird actually laughing genuinely, like a kid, the round pudginess of his cheeks that the older Pros don't have making his young age so apparent and knowing the work load that comes from being so highly ranked, but not knowing the REAL amount of pressure Hawks has behind the scene :(

(+) Look, is it so much for me to ask Horikoshi for some crumbs of the heroes being protective over their 'just got flambèed' co-worker? The hell is he gonna do after this. Does he have official academic records? Can he afford to go to University to get credentials for another job??? Doesn't Takami Keigo no longer exist in the system? Birth certificate? Hori give us some info. Meanwhile, I will continue to stubbornly hold onto my heart-wretching compilation of Hawks smiles thanks.

BIG EYES EMOJI.... hawks being genuinely carefree and happy is the best content out there precisely because idk if he’s ever truly been carefree in his life :’( a villain father, poverty, then straight into intense training until he was 18 and immediately running his own agency. hawks grew up so fast that it’s kinda difficult to imagine him acting like the actual young person he is. he has a specific brand of goofiness and at times he does speak genuinely through the veil of jokes, but he’s not relaxed, like, ever. bby boy 😔

tbh i don’t think hawks would want another job, not if he can still help people. it’d be so hard to just let go of the career he was trained for his whole life—and that most of all he wanted. he wanted to be a hero even if he didnt get to be the kind he dreamed of...... that said, his ultimate goal is that heroes will no longer be as necessary because society will be safer for all. if that was ever achieved i do like to think abt him trying a different career path (after spending some time off c’mon give him a break). he wanted to save people as a kid but he never had a choice in his path—it’d be nice to see him choose what he wants to do next, still probably helping ppl in some way!! just as a natural next step after hero work, something he’s at peace with doing. self care is imagining a happy ending for hawks :v

doctor hawks?? nurse hawks? detective hawks?? oh and him reforming the hpsc is still peak! idk im just throwing things out there cus the image of ex-hero hawks showing up in ur class first day of med school is cracking me up. something less in the public eye would be good for him though i think

[delicourse]

Hi!!!!! I'm so sorry for the sheer amount of spam you just received from me scrolling through your blog akfjakdnka your art is so beautiful!!!! Im trying to figure out what I love about it so much but I can't adfkkhdsdsajkgh the linework, shading, and colour are all so amazing ahhhhhhh I am trying to improve my art, and I was wondering how long you have been working on your art style??? Do you have any advice on how to figure out how to draw anatomy I'm really struggling with it skfjskakdka also for your shading, how do you do the ombre???? I hope you have an awesome day!!!!!!!! Font forget to drink some water!!!!!!!!!!

thank you so much!!

when it comes to my art style its super super hard to tell! ive been drawing people since 2014, but ultimately i was still learning basics there. styles tend to imho just be mistakes, personal laziness/disinterest and the things u Really Care Abt put together in a way that still looks pleasing! so that tends to just pop up naturally with time! its not until 2018/2019 that i actually Tried to change my style bc it ended up going in a direction i personally really didnt like, but there are still parts of the things i did there (mainly the base for my coloring process) that i still do today. so its super hard to tell! styles are ever-changing and mine change whenever i get into a new piece of media lol

anatomy is really one of those things where the only answer tend to be the textbook “study” thing with the anatomy drawing charts but other than that? croquis helped me a lot!! there are plenty of websites made for that since its hard to do in person now. i also feel like watching other artists draw really helps trying to figure out their thought process and solutions to problems and see how they “simplify” anatomy. i gotta admit that im not the most accurate and realistic with my anatomy though, i mainly focus on vibes and making sure there is movement in my art and im willing to bend and simplify in order to achieve that. im very much a style over substance kind of person lol. as long as it feels dynamic and flowy it checks out for me shdhhd

and for coloring; lock the layer, large soft brush! sometimes u can even just do a gradient. ill post some images soon

anyway have a nice day!! and ill make sure to drink some just 4 u

[ayzashl]

Pairing: Shoto Todoroki x Reader

Genre: Fluff, Crack (i think)

Also um, im new to these so sorry for possible gramatical errors or typos (i dont double check bc I literally was bored doing this and just, decided to share it on tumblr lmao)

Disclaimer, I made this out of boredom because I was thinking about exams and stuff and was wondering about how my husbando would react about my situation, having placed on high ranks barely putting efforts towards studying lmao (Not rlly bragging im sorry if it came out as bragging :((, i jusy rlly be curious and hopefully I portrayed it like how I expected for him to react, sorry im new to writing bc I mainly draw🌚👉👈)

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It was already sunset. The hues of yellow, orange and red envelops the dorms of U.A high school, its gradient tinting the windows of the students occupying the rooms shine bright, displaying its vibrant colors on the inside of each dorms facing the sunset.

You, who were sitting on your knees, switching positions time to time, searching for a particular pose to get comfortable while drawing on your boyfriend's kotatsu in his dorm, door leading into the balcony open, making the cold breeze of late October allow itself to enter the room.

Autumn has already arrived, and that also means midterm exams. It had just finished today. After a almost whole month of preparing for the exams, and the 3 days of taking it, the students of 1-A was relieved and relaxing in their rooms as the days of hardhips were finally over, plus its a Friday so the students were scattered on each others dorms due to the upcoming weekend.

You were taking a sip of your juicebox, almost emptying it now out of frustration for having a hard time drawing a hand. In your opinion, the struggle was equal or actually a lot harder than your midterms. Art frustrates you a lot and your boyfriend wonders why you still do it, yet never really ask you since he can also tell you're really passionate about it than your other hobbies.

He was sitting on his futon, leaning againts the wall as he stare at your back figure, watching you scribble something on your sketchpad and aggressively erasing it afterwards, making the papers crumble into the direction on where you rub it, making you groan in annoyance even more.

As he observes your actions, a thought runs up his mind, asking himself the same particular questions over and over again.

"Why?"

He asks himself. Why were you putting most of your effort into this drawing? Why were you more irritated in this than the midterm exams?

"Just..... why?"

Shoto had noticed you since the start of your so-called-library-dates, although its mostly just you accompanying him to gather resources for the upcoming exams while you just scan your notes or draw, or read a completely different book whose topic is not related to your exams.

Its always been like that everyday, he never really saw you offer a lot of your energy in terms of studying, like most of the students does, as he noticed the library being almost full as soon as October started.

He saw you scan your notes time to time, yes. But full on concentration on studies? no, never seen you. The most of what he saw were you fixate immensely on your math notebook before exams started, and that was it.

The exams ended abruptly on the second day but there was extra curricular on the Hero's Course on the third day before their final grade were posted. And yes, both of you did well. After the announcement, Shoto (and you) were shocked to find out that you were in 6th place and he placed in 5th. You both exchanged congratulations, you mostly squealing out of joy to actually achieve this particular rank.

Shoto on the other hand was, doubting?. Of course he feels happy for you, but at the back of his mind, he was a little agitated. You both got the exam results at the end of the third day and to his surprise (and also yours, but internally) your scores were high, almost having the amount of same mistakes as him, except your math which you devastatingly, almost failed (lmao), which merely affected your overall result since your scores were high anyways.

Your boyfriend wasnt the type to get irritated over these things, heck yeah he feels ecstatic over your accomplishment, signal the kiss he gave you on your forehead plus the soft look he gave you with a slight smile displayed on his face. But there was a faint thought of doubt running through the back of his head, how did you get such results when you were barely even studying? There was no way you would cheat right? He didnt want to accept it, he didnt want to doubt you, but it was the one of the highest possibilities that was mostly that likely happened, as he could think of right now.

He couldnt let go of this thought unless he confronts you about it right now, so he decided to ask you, waiting for a few moments, observing you, waiting for you to calm down a little from your work.

"Y/n...."

"Hmm?" you hum, not turning yout back at him, eyes and most of your attention fixated on the paper.

"How did you manage to get a high rank even though I barely saw you studying?" he finally asks, hoping you wont get offended by it, but this thought had been bothering him a little, and he wouldnt be satisfied until he gets his answer, as the stubborn man that he is.

"Are you doubting me?" you say in an offended tone, although you meant it sarcastically, turning your back, giving Shoto your full attention now as you crawl towards him, pencil dropping in the background as you make your way towards your boyfriend, offering him to lay down as you pat his futon. He complies so, already knowing you wanted to cuddle whenever you do that certain action.

You cuddle next to him, facing him as you give him a smile to reassure him that you werent offended by him back then. "Did you notice that in class, I always, almost bury my head on my notebook, writing on it almost 24/7 whenever lecture starts?" you ask him, as you start to fidget his hair on the sides which you and him really enjoy, making its way up to his bangs, and back and fort.

"You were.... writing?" Shoto asks, raising an eyebrow with the same stoic face who seemed not to show a lot of emotions, a little dumbfounded. "I thought you were doodling". You burst out in laughter from the small misunderstanding of your boyfriend.

"Of course I was. You see, whatever the teacher blurts about that sounds important to me, I write it down because, you know, its usually what appears in exams" you explain to him, closing your eyes time to time as if you were a philosopher, passionately explaining your beliefs, only with an added self-sense of humor. As he was on the other had was, fascinated.

I mean, who knew?

"Also just to clarify things, I do put some extra effort on, some of my studies"

"By some you mean just the science topic you reported you keep rereading everyday"

"......yes"

Shoto lighlty chuckles as he moves your head to his chest, placing an arm on your head, planting a kiss on your forehead, as a sign of affection like he always does. He feels a little guilty, assuming you were cheating but in the end, you were just and always has been the genius that you were. Heck if you actually put a lot of effort in your study, you might actually come out at the top in the class, but he's aware you have other things to focus and worry about as his eyes gaze at the table with a slightly crumpled juice box standing out.

"Were you mad?" you ask, out of curiousity. You had assumed he was maybe upset about the results because he gets a little too competitive or has the sentiment that he has to prove that he only isnt good with his powers, but in academics as well, considering his situation.

He lightly shook his head as he fully encloses you to his grasp, leg placed on your sides, locking you in as he settles his face on your hair, inhaling the sweet scent of your lavender shampoo in which he always adores.

You on the other hand, was relieved now that the matter was somehow resolved? Putting those thoughts at the back of your head, your perception of relief was shortly replaced by a wave of worry as you lightly chuckle of uneasiness.

"Shoto?" you tap his sides, body tightly secured onto his. This was the one that made worry. His hands tightly clutching you, but not too much, leg on your sides, locking you in so that you wont get away easily, to him it made him feel happy, knowing that you werent going away and draw for a while. You've had situations like these already and all you ever do is give up and shower him with affection, already knowing he was slightly, probably getting a little touch starved, craving for your attention and affection. But in your situation right now, it was, unpleasant, so to say.

Not after you just finished your juicebox.

-Disclaimer, uh, I made this from

He hums in response, head tilted a little more into your head's direction. He was sure you would have given up already, knowing that he will never let you go.

"I need to pee"

"..."

"Shoto..."

"........"

"Sho"

"All I can say is good luck getting out"

"......"

"Noooooooohohohoooo!!!" you exclaim, with a sarcastic crying in your tone. This was gonna be one hell of a struggle.

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Im bad at explaining things, hope you did enjoy reading this as much as I did though :))

[i-have-feelings-bitch]

some thoughts on ÉLITE s4 immediately after finishing it

MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD, obviously

so. i have some thoughts.

i really disliked how they kept on piling up problem upon problem and i’ve seen that a couple dozen times by now and it always ends the same - nothing gets solved. Not really, anyway. The solution usually is; another problem happens, but its bigger and far more important and severe than all of the other ones combined and it overshadows everything that had happened before.

on that note, and to be fair, this is a teen’s drama show. So i don’t mind it, just to be clear here. i enjoyed the heck out of this season, right now, it’s my favorite season of all. That might change later, as all of this still is so new and fresh and exciting so my mind naturally snaps onto it.

first things first; Omander went just like i predicted - they broke up just so they could get back together eventually, after some hardcore drama. (i cried anyway. a lot.)

there’s one character i liked throughout the whole season. no, wait, two actually. first is rebeka. i feel like her decisions made sense. i liked her story arch a lot. the second one is azucena. what a queen.

.........guzman has a really bad temper. always had and probably always will. (to the samu/guzman/ari drama; why couldnt they have a pretty threesome, ari was quite obviously polyamorous (but i guess nobody has ever heard of that lol) and samuel and guzman almost fucked any second anyways so what exactly was their problem)

surprisingly enough, i liked Patrick in a lot of moments, about 50%. i absolutely despised him in the other 50%. tbh im really not sure about his character like with him, i don’t see any reasoning or goal or whatsoever. i have no clue what he wants to achieve?? guess he just wants to be gay and fuck around and honestly? fair enough

Mencia. Oh, Mencia. i liked her a lot from the get go and i still think her character is cool as shit, but there were quite some moments when i wouldve loved to smack her across the face. i also cried a lot when it came to Mencia/Rebeka. when Samu said “Fuck, you two are cute”? i felt that. i very much cringed at the chocolate scene, but to each their own i guess.

Ari; about 95% of the season disliked her. i didn’t hate her, but she was like a knockoff version of Lu? listen, i know i’m being biased here and it’s very unfair towards her, but to me, it just felt like she always tried to be the mean girl but never really succeeded. my opinion of her skyrocketed in the last few minutes of the last episode, though. we love some good sibling care in this house. not like it had been like that in the beginning, mind you.

i. fucking. hated. Benjamin. like the whole time. i think there was legit one single moment when i thought like “okay hold on that was the first (and last) good move you made this whole season” and it was when he offered Mencia to listen to her anytime she wanted or needed to. otherwise. fuck him. his attitude, his way of talking, his way of acting, fucking everything. (in the very last scene, when he destroyed the table? like yeah, i get that you’re emotional and angry and shit but my dude, your youngest daughter just told you she basically got r*ped on a daily basis by the guy *you* invited to your house because you only saw his money. can you please show some motherfucking self-control and not scare said daughter to fucking death oh my god i hate this guy so fucking much) also because he kicked out azucena. on that note, ander being protective of his mom? absolutely living for it.

aaand Ander. here we go. oof. i did not like him for a good part of the season. actually, i think it probably started in episode one and ended in the last one, lol. i just felt like there were little things that made sense? i appreciated him telling Omar that he finds this other guy (aka Patrick) hot, but like some time later, they break up in this really horrible and heartbreaking sequence and a minute later, Ander goes whoring around like there’s no tomorrow? like, literally? huh? i found myself really torn between who to dislike more; Ander or Patrick. nice el desorden reference. (both the shot where he masturbated alone in the shower and the book, lmao)

as for Omar; can the writers just leave him the fuck alone please? what did he ever do to yall to ever deserve all this shit he has to go through constantly in this show holy fuck i HATE how he got treated by Ander and Patrick and Benjamin. This boy deserves so much better. he did seem a little out of character sometimes, i gotta say. not sure why tho. most times, he was the sweet, empathetic cinnamon roll we know him as. like idk man he does so much for his friends?? the thing with Philippe and Caye at the bar was adORABLE

which leads us to

Philippe. dude. what. was his character. most of the time, i felt kinda bad for him, like his so called friends literally all just saw the royalty in him (not that he made the impression that he didnt like that in the first few episodes, but yeah it’s a thing so i reckoned that would come up later on). also i was so happy for Cayetana ughguhghguhghh they were really cute together......but then he gotta pull this shit, like what??? in the actual fuck. he’s just like “yeah some girl tried to sue me, saying i r*ped her” and then later he’s like “so yeah i’m actually a r*pist, whoops, sorry, can you stay pretty please?” like ex fucking cuse the shit out of me sir. no. the problem is i *want* to like him because pol granch is a fucking sweetheart and i’m catching myself thinking stuff like hes kind of aware that hes a borderline r*pist and that hes also very aware that it’s not okay? but like? he doesn’t try to change? don’t even get me started on his mother. ugly ass bitch. that’s all i have to say.

so i didnt like Cayetana for a major amount of s3, like at all. but yeah, what can i say. shes just a sweet girl okay and now i have a soft spot for her. much like Omar i feel like, she gets a lot of shit, completely uncalled for and there’s nothing she can do against it she just like stumbles into the pile of crap and then is knee-deep in. i feel very sorry for her man i just wanna hug her.

just for the record, there was not a single second that i thought Amomrdm(shit i forgot his name lmfao) -the bad guy- was just being nice and helpful. tbh he just deserved what he got. whoops, there, i said it.

the build up in the last episode was very nice, i gotta say. it was low key obvious who would be the one to attack Ari, but it’s alright. i did not expect the thing with Guzman tho lol. You go man. (but still, aggression problems.)

side note; dude it really sucks that guzman and samuel were too busy fighting over Ari to actually notice her missing lmao

oh also - Rebeka’s ninja kick on the dock??????? HELLO????

guzman and ander leaving made me so fucking emotional?????? excuse me??? who gave them the right?????

edit; (a day later)

just noticed i completely forgot Samu, lol. hes just so far away from my type and i dont really have an opinion on him like yeah hes kind-hearted and cares for his friends, and thats sweet, but uuuhhhhhh. i was only there for the lil gay moments between him and guzman. there were a lot of them. i was really happy when he and Rebeka made up and talked to each other again, that was kinda wholesome. aside from that tho? idk hes just kinda [shrug-emoji] for me (like he had been from s1 all the way on to be quite honest)

that said, i’m sure theres lots more thoughts in my mind but the heat is making my head hurt lol ok bye

[aliceu]

will o the wisp sent shivers down my spine upon reading it. it is one of the most beautiful literary pieces that i have read here in tumblr. how you described each scene is so remarkably specific, it felt as if i was seeing the story physically right in front of my eyes. hyunjin was right though, he never mentioned about bringing the reader home. he only told of showing them the way. as a reader, that vagueness in his words already posed as a red flag. but the persona in the story is desperate after all; they clung on the hope that he means no harm and only wants to lend a helping hand out of kindness even if a thousand signs are already pointing towards their death. you were able to express the readers distress so perfectly. if i hadnt known better, i wouldve thought that you experienced it firsthand. thats how amazing you are at writing. if im not mistaken, other than it being defined as a ghost light, will o the wisp signifies a dream that is impossible to achieve. a dream of wanting to feel the warmth of home again that the reader did not obtain. all because of a certain hwang hyunjin.

your metaphors in moonflower got my eyes and mind widening in amazement! seriously, this deserves more attention. "Gnarly stems telling tales of centuries full of persevering against storm, ice and drought were writhing high into the sky with an almost odd gracefulness, sturdy branches appearing like inky brushstrokes against the midnight glow." how can you write a simple sentence but put so much emotions and creativity in it? remember, thats just the start of the story. i dont think i have to point out every single word you wrote just to show how much i really really love it. that got me thinking, is reader some sort of important person for time travelers to cross paths with? or is it just luck? reading this work of yours got me curious as well as to what is the relation of moonflowers and time travelling, if there is any. after all, you would have never emphasized the blossom if not for its relevance in the whole story. it would me bring much joy if you enlighten me more about it. if you dont mind, that is.

i honestly wouldnt be surprised if you publish a book soon. set the sails (and watch out for lullabies) is truly a masterpiece. i cant imagine how much research youve done just to compose a ready-to-be-directed-as-a-movie story as this one. the amount of knowledge of medicine and the 18 hundreds dialogues incorporated here in your work is extremely impressive. all of them were so realistic and as i said, it felt like i was a watching a movie. at first, i didnt expect the revelation of jisung being a merman. i thought that the readers attraction towards him on their first meeting was the cliche love at first sight. and as you can see, i am undoubtedly mistaken. i underestimated your god of a brain; a plot as simple as that wouldnt have been a doing by you after all. how calm he seemed even after realizing he is rather, in the presence of infamous pirates (given that jisung was previously aboard on a mere merchant ship) and the way you described his eyes to hold history should have been enough for me to deem him as suspicious. also, huge respect for the readers bravery. it doesnt matter if she did it for, i quote, " the peace of your mind", since the reason behind all of her actions are still because of her huge love and care for her hometown. by the way, another thing i would like to clarify. jisung stated that the goddess calypso does not turn her back against those who seek her help, right? if you dont mind (again), it would satiate the curiosity ive been feeling while writing this ask down if you were to confirm if the same thing applies to jisung. why did he kiss and comfort her if not for the reason that reader needs help? is it all an act? or is it driven purely by his true feelings?

i have another favour, im really sorry for having so many questions and for being presumptuous but i really would like to hear this specifically from you. does the poetic mind of yours have any experiences in writing non-fictitious literature, specifically auto-biographies? if so, it would help me so much if you were to list any tips as writing one is crucial for my academic life. a lot has said to list down the achievements ive attained, situations that bloomed my maturity and the like. but, what is necessary for it become interesting and memorable? ive thought about focusing it towards my love for music and how it helped me along the way but researching online made it seem wrong (?) my plan is to make it seem like a story but still about me, hopefully you understand my scramble of words. is it fine if i do it in a 3rd person perspective or a narrative-like way? in some way, i dont want to focus mainly on my awards but on the various things that helped me grow. i find it the easiest to do that after all.

lastly, your works deserves so much more love. im wishing you all the best! thank you for making my day through your writing, i really appreciate it. they were all an enjoyable read. im looking forward to your future works, alice <3

Hello dear anon !! 💗💗💗

First of all, I'm so sorry this took so much longer than intended TT what with uni starting again and all. BUT, here we go >:D ✨✨

(cut for a LOT of text hahaha)

will o the wisp sent shivers down my spine upon reading it. it is one of the most beautiful literary pieces that i have read here in tumblr. how you described each scene is so remarkably specific, it felt as if i was seeing the story physically right in front of my eyes.

THIS!! This right here went straight to my heart!! It's exactly that weird combination of spooky and beautiful that i wanted to achieve, so this made me very very happy!! 💗

you were able to express the readers distress so perfectly. if i hadnt known better, i wouldve thought that you experienced it firsthand.

Crycrycry this is such a big compliment, seriously. Luckily, something like this hasn't happened to me haha but i'm so so glad that the emotions could be conveyed this strongly (despite the small word count) 😭💗

will o the wisp signifies a dream that is impossible to achieve. a dream of wanting to feel the warmth of home again that the reader did not obtain. all because of a certain hwang hyunjin.

YES !! A dream, a goal (or maybe a hope), that will guide you so to say, but which you can never achieve !! There are various symbolisms connected to will o the wisps (e.g. that they're in fact lost souls who're looking for the way home themselves etc.), which is very facinating ✨✨ also, i LOVE that you recognised this. KISSES 🤩🤩

how can you write a simple sentence but put so much emotions and creativity in it?

Thank you!! Really, thank you so much for your kind words !! 😭💗💗 But to answer your question,, hmm i tend to think in impressions! So when i imagine a scene, it has a certain feeling to it? A certain vibe and/or atmosphere that i would like to convey on paper! Does this even make sense hahaha??? Therefore the many metaphors 😂😂😂

that got me thinking, is reader some sort of important person for time travelers to cross paths with? or is it just luck? reading this work of yours got me curious as well as to what is the relation of moonflowers and time travelling, if there is any.

set the sails (and watch out for lullabies) is truly a masterpiece. i cant imagine how much research youve done just to compose a ready-to-be-directed-as-a-movie story as this one. the amount of knowledge of medicine and the 18 hundreds dialogues incorporated here in your work is extremely impressive.

Hmm i'd say it's more luck tbh, though we can certainly not deny any directing of fate. As you might've noticed reader is very in tune with energies and the supernatural in general, which of course makes her the perfect person for a time traveller to meet.

There's less of a direct relation between the flowers and time travelling, it's more the result of the same cause. In the story i kinda described it as the time in which the moon leaves the sky and visits earth. It's a strange time, the energies work differently, everything is much more infused with the moon's power (the reason why moonflowers only bloom at that specific time,, they basically are the moon's power). A strange time that might make time travelling much easier for certain people :D

No because this gives me so much joy 😭💗💗💗💗 set the sails was truly very fun to write (it was originally intended to be like 6k words lmao but then the story wouldn't end), but also quite exhausting 😂 i did ... a LOT of research. Historical context, pirate speech, different kinds of ships and their (dis)advantages, drowning, "simple" stuff like antispetics and anaesthetics which was surprisingly hard to find reliable sources for, fashion, the floor material of houses at that time, how long it would take to cover the distance to the horizon with so and so many knots..... 😭 But it was very fascinating !! 😂✨✨✨

at first, i didnt expect the revelation of jisung being a merman

Hehehe i tried giving many hints without really giving anything away >:D his talent for singing, his silver tongue, that he basically cannot handle human work at all 😂😂 so i'm very glad that it came as a surprise 🤩✨✨ as a lovely person here on tumblr once said, Jisung is fishy~ I'm also very very happy that you enjoyed readers personality as she is a character who's very near and dear to my heart 💗

jisung stated that the goddess calypso does not turn her back against those who seek her help, right? if you dont mind (again), it would satiate the curiosity ive been feeling while writing this ask down if you were to confirm if the same thing applies to jisung. why did he kiss and comfort her if not for the reason that reader needs help? is it all an act? or is it driven purely by his true feelings?

does the poetic mind of yours have any experiences in writing non-fictitious literature, specifically auto-biographies?

Ohhh right into the juicy questions 👀✨ tbh when writing set the sails i had a bit of a dilemma. My hopeless romantic heart wanted a happy ending with true feelings etc. The way i set the story up, however, made that nearly impossible. Reader has trust issues and her relationship with jisung is based on one big lie: that he is, in fact, not human. Would it make sense for her to trust him (with her whole heart) even after finding out the truth? Especially since sirens are infamous for their luring nature and sweet talk. On the other hand, Jisung is who knows how many years old. Can he even properly fall in love with a human? Or is the most he'd be capable of curiosity, fascination and affection? Questions like that made me go for an open ending. We know as little as reader does. After all, sometimes only time will tell. And Jisung himself doesn't know tbh. He just did.

He is definitely on the reader's side, however. For now.

Sadly, i don't have any experiences with non-fictitious literature (well apart from essays for school or university lmao 😅). I'd really like to help but i'm afraid i can't do more than look things up on the internet--which you already did. Should i find someone who knows more about that topic, I'll definitely try to ping you on my blog though !! GOOD LUCK WITH WRITING IT ✨✨💗✨💗✨✨💗💗✨💗 Sending good energy your way, that I can do :D

lastly, your works deserves so much more love. im wishing you all the best! thank you for making my day through your writing, i really appreciate it. they were all an enjoyable read. im looking forward to your future works, alice <3

Thank YOU for not only reading and enjoying my stories, but for being such a wonderful reader, too !! Thank you for giving me feedback, for asking me questions (because that's simply delightful), for your many many kind words !! 💗💗💗 I may be a writer but i'm afraid i struggle with expressing just how thankful i am 😂

Have the best day/night, dear anon. And thank you again for this ask, mwah mwah

[rockkitferret]

aaaaa tysm!! ;W; i really appreciate it ;w;w;w;

i tend to get nervous when describing my creations to people cause even though i feel confident in them i still tend to feel awkward like "but what if this person that i really hope likes it doesn't like it or thinks the idea is stupid or something" ^^; hopefully that made sense ^^;

so a general description (this may sound kinda out there) is that it's a fairly lengthy animated series (gonna be posted on YouTube) with the main theme/premise of the kids' (who are now about 5-6 years older) journies of striving to heal from their pain and hardships along with discovering hidden superpowers tied to their ability to overcome said pain and battling against rising threats.

The main cast is like over 20 of the kids XD and they get substantial character exploration and stuff; especially the main protagonist Kenny/Mysterion, who also goes on a journey of life, death and mystery :D along with Butters/Professor Chaos who also goes through the wringer. Kenny and Butters are the main characters with their respective families having the most exploration but theres also gonna be plenty of character exploration and character dynamic exploration with other characters like Stan, Kyle, Cartman, Craig's gang and a bunch of others

In terms of comparing and contrasting with canon South Park, its got its own storylines and character arcs that largely build off of canon material as well as a lot of headcanons and fan concepts that I really wanna explore, multiple canon episodes/events will be adapted in some way or another; some of them being revisited and built off from, and some of them playing out with quite a different spin, but the series as a whole is still telling its own stories that build and connect with canon and fanon. tone/style wise i'm aiming for a mix of crazy over-the-top South Park shenanigans and dramatic emotional and epic vibes, also i'm aiming for an anime vibe/style, like a South Park anime adaptation mixed with a lot of headcanons and fan concepts. it's got an overarching story with a lot of plot, lore, world and character stuff going on, and there are 4 arcs within the whole story, each of them revolving around certain things that play out in the series.

also a bunch of fan ships are canon in this series like Bunny, Style etc. :3 also while I don't really view it in a religious light there is a huge focus on angel and demon related stuff

i've been developing this series for about 4 years i think? especially this past year, i've been typing a huge amount of notes and ideas for a bunch of the stuff in this series and so far arc 1 is planned to have 13 episodes, though i'm still on episode 1 right now ;w; but i have confidence in my abilities for storytelling, animation/art, character stuff, and all that.

sorry i didnt mean to type a huge amount, i was meaning to give a general brief description to sum up the basic gist while also explaining that there's a bunch more things to it as well, but somehow it became way more lengthy oops ^^; even though i still barely scratched the surface with my description cause i don't wanna give away too much yet ;w;

uhh i guess an actual brief description would be: ambitious self-indulgent fanime with elaborate storytelling and character exploration along with epic battles and a mix of canon and fanon/headcanon.

im hoping to achieve something that does the characters and their potential justice, i'm just also worried that the "epic battle anime" vibe is gonna make people think its inherently "cringy bad fake fan South Park fanfiction" or something even though I dont hold that opinion, and i'm hoping to create something that shows that South Park in anime style or with epic tones can still genuinely be true to the source material and have the characters be in-character (like just cause Kyle is in cute anime style doesn't mean he's suddenly gonna stop being a badass, for example) while also creating something of its own vastly different world as well, hopefully that made sense ^^;;

oops that response turned out WAY longer than i expected, sorry about that ^^;; im also nervous whether or not you guys would find it interesting or uninteresting, of course theres no pressure, i just tend to ramble about my nervous worries ^^;;;

also if you want i could send some images from ep1 to give more of an idea, also feel free to ask questions if you want ^^;

is it alright if I ask, are you and Shirley still invested in South Park fan content and is there any possibility South Park or the fandom/fan content will pull you guys back in someday?

I've been working on a pretty ambitious and elaborate South Park AU series that's basically like an alternate South Park world with it's own spin and story/plotlines/setting/concepts/lore and stuff and also character exploration and stuff, and I was wondering if you guys would be interested in checking it out when it comes out or not really?

Sorry I hope it's alright for me to ask that ^^; also sorry if i'm bothering you by sending these questions again, i just started getting paranoid whether it got lost in the shuffle i dunno ^^; please let me know if i'm asking too frequently or invasively ^^;

Of course it's okay to ask! I doubt there'd be anything that could get Shirley and I interested in the podcast again (the show has to do that), but we're definitely still interested in South Park content. Can I ask for more details about your AU series?