#but being a queer teenager really is exactly like that. so i can't even complain

[shimmerluna]

The fact that Nick was willing to come out at a noisy, chaotic bonfire full of people suggests that he’s really rushing coming out. He wants to get it over with before Paris so badly that he’s not thinking about whether he’s ready or how he’d be most comfortable doing it.

I think he views coming out as more of an obstacle than anything else; he just wants to be with Charlie, but he believes he has to be properly out before he can have that.

Even if he understands that he doesn’t owe anyone that information and he can wait as long as he wants to tell people, he doesn’t understand that he doesn’t have to announce anything to reach his end goal. He could just be with Charlie and let people figure it out themselves, and I wish someone had given him that advice at some point

[verdemoun]

for once I’m not asking for angst 🤞 what kind of music would the modern au characters like? Like genres and bands :)

completely biased because i listen exclusively to musicals and late 00s teenage angst black parade is forever BUT

arthur: country music. including white girl country-pop music. can be caught doing little shuffle steps as he discreetly tries to dance along to a song stuck in his head while mumbling the lyrics under his breath. has main character moments smoking outside at night listening to need you now by lady a.

lenny: really into remixes. likes the extra pep it puts in his step, will accidentally walk to the beat and look like a dork. surprising amount of rock. but anything that's super lyrical, songs that tell a story, he will add to his playlist. duets what you own from rent with sean on karaoke nights.

sean: could not name a single band or genre he listens to because it's just anything with a high enough bpm to make his brain buzz. honorable mention to the cranberries and flogging molly but will do a fully choreographed routine to jailhouse rock without a single drink in his system.

hosea+bessie: any old timey easy listening ballads, occasional swing. hosea can't sing to save his life bless him but will still sing the really cheesy romantic lines to bessie as they slow dance in the living room after a few glasses of wine they're so in love please. anything that would be a first dance song at a wedding they have in their playlist

dutch: opera and orchestra forever. exact same music he listened to at camp will go on about kids these days and the hippity hop they dare call music. it takes him exactly 3 seconds after being introduced to cds and digital downloads to become a vinyl purist even complains about record players over gramophone.

annabelle+susan: annabelle is probably the most adapted to modern era she will listen to anything radio popular and susan is the same way inclined thanks to her job at at the local pub. but they both particularly enjoy bonnie tyler, kate bush and a sneaky bit of abba. think mamma mia is a cinematic masterpiece.

molly: mitski. boygenius. phoebe bridgers. aurora. any indie female lead who sings about broken hearts/betrayal/angry break up songs. listens to a suspicious amount of queer artists too.

kieran: the definition of 'i'll just be here listening to my tunes' only for the speakers to immediately cut to screamo. occasionally they can hear the bass through his headphones and gently remind him to turn it down to protect his hearing. despite this he will always get the mlp theme song stuck in arthur's head at the worst times.

javier: disgusted that disco was dead by the time he timewarped. just wants to boogie to that 70s funky beats. definitely has a playlist dedicated to john marston that is just any song with a reference to wolves. thinks he's hilarious. is the reason john can identity hungry like the wolf within two seconds of it starting (he walks out) (javier learned it on guitar. and both in english and spanish)

jack+isaac: mcr, panic, fallout boy. they will forever be on that angsty teenage bullshit. isaac may have designed them fabulous killjoy ocs and jack proceeded to write a 100k word self-insert fanfic about them. and they have matching mcr lyric tattoos. and mutually agree the kids from yesterday was actually written about them. play that g note and they both collapse with sorrow.

[becaexists]

Gonna vent for just a second because I literally have no one to talk to about this so y'know turning to the internet as one does

All over my social medias like Twitter and tiktok (I know they're bad but sometimes they're designed to trap you) everyone is talking about Brianna Ghey, the 16 year old trans girl that was murdered on Saturday. She was a year younger than me, I have friends that are the same age, and all I have seen all day because I've been travelling thus had nothing better to do than to stare at my phone, is so much of the same thing, the same kind of posts, just talking about how this sweet young girl was murdered, potentially out of hate for our community but they're "not sure", and it is really fucking getting to me.

I know it sounds selfish as hell to because it sounds like "oh there was a trans girl murdered and I have to complain about seeing it everywhere" but it's not that, it's the things people put in and under the posts about it. So many of the people trying to spread awareness are trying to be reassuring by saying shit like "to trans youths, we stand by you, this should not be happening" but that doesn't help, because I'm terrified out my fucking mind that if I start trying to be myself, I might get fucking murdered too. What's worse is all of the horrible things transphobic people are saying, like "she's a boy", and "she deserves it" and "example of what should happen to all those trans freaks" because those are actual things I've read today.

And it's not just her case specifically, it's the constant despair I feel as a trans person where my right to exist are constantly being questioned by the only government I've ever known. I open twitter and see stories of how trans rights are being stripped back all over the western world, how people were abandoned by family after coming out as trans, about how being trans is so incredibly awful with little silver linings of "at least you're yourself". So I open tiktok to distract myself, where I see more people talking about the same things, about how the people in government hate us so fucking much. This whole corecore thing is important to highlight the awful shit but when that's the only thing you're seeing with maybe a few cat videos and stupid family guy or movie scenes while someone plays with slime makes to split them up it really makes you feel nothing but despair.

I just wanna get away from it all. I want people to stop talking about it but that's not exactly what I want? I want it to have never happened. I want to live in a world where these things don't happen. I want to live in a world where I can leave the house without being terrified of being hatecrimed or murdered for being who I am. I didn't come out as a trans guy until this year even though I knew for ages I wanted to be a guy, I didn't come out because if I came out in high school, my "all girls" high school where I was already severely bullied for being autistic and queer, I would be fucking dead right now, either from being murdered like she was or from suicide, which I was so so so fucking close to doing after some girl publicly berated me for asking one of my teachers to not call me my deadname (I was going for a fem NB approach to my transness at the time and thought that Bee was the start of something much more fitting for me) because she was right, no one would ever see me as anything other than some pretty but unpopular girl trying to somehow both escape the torture of womanhood and make myself more intriguing

If I could choose anything else, I would. I would not be trans. I would be a regular teenage girl who likes parties and stupid roadmen and skipping lesson to smoke and vape. But I'm not. And my mum, my own mother, has said "if you would choose not to be this, why don't you? Why don't you just go back to being my girl?" And I want to. But I need to be a boy to live. If I don't transition, I might just die from all the self hatred of what I have to pretend to be. I just can't do it.

Sorry this was long, I just have many many emotions and if I said this anywhere else I might just be on the receiving end of some of the same stupid shit people are saying about Brianna. I hope she finds peace somewhere where there isn't so much hatred.

[autumn-foxfire]

^^ Exactly. At this point there isn't even any effort put in by Shinichi to actually be nice and romantic to Ran. He's just angry or jealous when it comes to her and it is not a good look for the main character. Even them getting together "officially", they only did so because Ran dared speak with another man and that upset him because she's not fawning over Shinichi 24/7.

Meanwhile Ran basically does everything to avoid the topic of him. Sonoko brings him up? She changes the subject or dismisses him. When she sees a romantic relationship in front of her, Shinichi isn't what comes to mind, she's more invested in everyone else. She spent a long time not responding to him and even when she "does" it's a non-verbal answer. Almost like she can't actually voice it.

It's no longer romantic, it's concerning, especially as another woman watching a young teenage girl go through what in any other media would be seen as a very toxic and abusive relationship. However, as you say, Gosho started this series with them as endgame, he built an audience and expectation that they would get together and now he can't back out of that decision. Just like how he can't back out of Ran not knowing because the premise of the story was him hiding the fact to protect her but now he's done so many horrible things to Ran to hide his secret, it's no longer about protecting her, it's about trying to keep a relationship (which is also pretty gross).

Ai was interesting because there was a period where it was highly implied there could be something more between them. Yukiko, the OG shipper of Shinichi and Ran as we know, even thought so. But he dropped it (probably because he was getting backlash for it) and he sometimes lets it show up again but not often.

Sera is also a really interesting development because, as you know, she's the most queer character in the series without saying she is so. There really is no other way to interpret the movie saying she wants a chance at gaining Ran's heart other than her being interested. I can be quite cynical about Gosho but I have to wonder if he and the writers were giving the audience something to play with with her and Ran.

It's why I use my blog space to complain about canon because it's my space to vent. But ultimately, when I've calmed down after the intial annoyance caused by a moment in an episode, I don't care, I'm too busy trying to spin the episodes into something fun for me and right now that's exploring Ran and Shinichi with a strong platonic bond as two queer kids with bad parents who are too nervous to share that they are because of comphet expectations for them.

I'm so cynical in my live blogs when it comes to the romance. I know I see the absolute worst interpretations of his writing but I share it as I just need that place to vent, you know?

It's hard not too, especially when you've been spoiled by romance done good in other media or romance done horribly but in a way that's intended.

I adore an enemies to lovers ship that is the picture definition of fucked up and twisted but the reason I can is because even the media they're from acknowledges it and uses it to make the characters interesting.

My issue with the romance in DCMK is that it genuinely believes it's romantic and because of that the many flaws the characters actually display can't be used for them to grow. I don't need it acknowledged because "abuse bad and author and readers should know" as I know the audience and the author (or well I hope the author) know that, I want it acknowledged because it could actually produce interesting moments in the story if the characters are forced to acknowledge it.

[one-hell-of-a-bi]

your post about not blaming teens really spoke to me tbh, bc that's pretty much how it went in my case (except that it wasn't exactly about shipping the wrong ships, bc different times). like, i remember reading about people complaining about how teenagers ruin everything, write the worst fics, can't take criticism, only like x character bc they're pretty/angsty etc and i hated being a teen and felt like i had to prove that i wasn't like that just to be respected a teeny tiny bit.

Yeah like overall I think the whole ageist argument goes both ways and I’m getting sick of seeing it. It’s kinda like how we shouldn’t blame baby-boomers for all of the problems in the world, we should blame bigots, because anyone of any age can be shitty! 

Teens can be pro-shippers and anti-anti and inclusionists and queer-positive, just like some teens can be antis and exclusionists and anti-queer. That goes for adults too! So I feel like people saying stuff like “teens can’t tell me not to ID as queer” and “teens are ruining fandom spaces” is missing the forest for the trees. Maybe these problems are mostly caused by teens, I can’t say for sure, but if we ignore the fact that adults can be all of these things, and often are the ones trying to win teens over to their side, we alienate said teens and aren’t really fixing the problem. 

Like when vampire//apologist made that post about being an anti, it took like two minutes for the discussion around it to turn into “I’m sick of kids in fandom” when the OP is an adult!! How does that make sense??? 

I just think instead of blaming teens, we should blame antis. Don’t make age a factor, don’t say all antis are teens or adults, just say antis. It prevents us from dividing our side and alienating pro-shipper teens, and helps us focus on the problem as a whole. 

And I’m sorry that happened to you. Teens are a great addition to fandoms, and their age has nothing to do with the quality of their writing. There are tons of teens here on tumblr who write amazing fics and draw fantastic art, and that’s awesome! Besides, who cares how bad the fic or art is, if the person who created it had fun and was able to contribute to their fandom I think that’s something we should celebrate! 

Also something I’ve noticed is that while I ADORE angst and angsty characters, I have moved away from it some as an adult, and I think that for teens who are going through hell characters and fics like that are cathartic and help them work through their negative emotions, I know it did for me. So like what you like and create what you want to create and anyone who wants to kick teens out of fandom as a whole can eat my ass. 

Besides...adults who have nothing better to do than make fun of teenagers need to get a life. Not to be that person but holy shit if you are over the age of 20 and can’t think of a better way to spend your time than mocking teens then I don’t even want to know you.