#but becoming a boy-*girl* sounds hard... how will i be a femboy then!! no one will take me seriously smh

[ziotithe]

i think im realizing i may have unironically become an egg. for the second time in this body 😭

[gndrfluideggtooth]

Have you considered u might be into forcemasc/forcefem? You have this fixation with being an egg/“in denial”/etc, I just think that may be something you’d be interested in if you aren’t already aware that it’s an actual thing

Yes!

It only seems I have a “fixation” on being an egg and in denial because, well, that’s the point of this account. Hence the name “eggtooth”, which is explained in my pinned post. Idk why I feel like this. Don’t know if it’s a gender thing, or something else. It probably is a gender thing, I’m just having a hard time due to internalized transphobia. Probably. Idk.

But this account is to 1) write about my feeling reguarding gender/trans-ness/autoandrophilia/forcemasc, and 2) maybe make posts that people who like autoandrophilia and forcemasc might like.

I have been making posts that are tagged as forcemasc and autoandrophilia, as I found those two terms on accident multiple months ago. I asked Google why I wished I was a gay guy despite being a girl, and it talked about being trans, autoandrophilia, and forcemasc. It’s certainly not a fixation on mlm people in general, but being myself as someone in an mlm relationship, which is not normal for cishet girls. It’s not being “weird” about transmascs in general, but about me being transmasc.

Liking autoandrophilia and forcemasc is not the only reason I think I am genderfluid. It’s just the easiest concept to hold onto at this second for me. I have had many moments in the past where I realize could have been me trying to tell myself I am trans (genderfluid) but didn’t have the language for it yet at the time. Then those memories grow silent on the timeline around the time I was petrified in fear of going against my parents, who are homophobic. Then the memories start up again afterwords, but they have a strange fearful (guilty/shameful?) tint. Hence why I think it’s just internalized transphobia. Or maybe not, idk.

Onto forcemasc/forcefem itself…

I love it so much. At least forcemasc, since that’s the only one I know much about / have explored. However, since I am not masculine at all, I have considered myself more of a forcemasc in a forcefem way.

forcefem -> become girl

forcemasc -> become boy

whatever I’m into -> become soft gay boy (maybe sometimes femboy, but more so “soft boy”)

Not sure how I feel about 100%-cis girls being into forcemasc and autoandrophilia, but they do what they do as long as it’s not hurting anyone ofc. I’m not gonna tell them they can’t be cis girls. But like… if it’s not just for the bedroom, and does hang over you like a cloud outside of the bedroom, I feel like something queer might be happening to your gender.

Anyway,

Thank you anon for trying to help me by informing me! If I hadn’t known, this would be very helpful. You are 100% correct, I am into forcemasc. (this sounds sarcastic, but it’s not supposed to be; I am thankful for you trying to help)

[valeriehalla]

so much of my personal experience of gender is outwardly-directed: managing what i look and sound like and how i describe myself, not necessarily because it's what most accurately reflects the parade of Inner Truths in my clowncar of a brain, but out of a need to manage Other People's expectations. this isn't necessarily a problem or a bad thing, it's just an act of convenience! i look at you and say: I'm Girl. but what i mean is: well strictly speaking i'm boy well specifically i'm like kind of a dress-wearing she/her fag but obviously "femboy" wasn't an option on the intake questionnaire at my gender health clinic because there was no such thing i mean i sort of just started ordering gray market titty pills until a local endocrinologist agreed to write me a prescription if i'd just cut that shit out but anyway the tits ARE great and you SHOULD look at them though also whenever i see a hot guy and i go "that's hot" that's still definitely a gay thing however on the third hand when i see a hot girl and i go "that's hot" that's also kind of gay though it's also kind of aspirational like i'm incapable of seeing cool girls without wanting to be more like them so like that's pretty trans of me and i'm not gonna sit here and tell you i'm not trans because i definitely am though at this point it's hard to even say what i'm transitioning to because every year my aesthetic sensibilities and feelings about my own body and sexual desires and social aspirations become more and more decoupled from one another to the point where gender just kind of doesn't exist for me and that's fine because if i'm honest with myself it was always the "trans" part of "trans woman" that interested me the most like all of me is just a kind of project that i'm working on and that doesn't mean it isn't deeply meaningful in fact that's exactly what makes it so meaningful because that's just the kind of person i am like i'm the freak who picked storytelling as my profession so is it any wonder that my Self would also become one of the stories i like to tell anyway this is all getting kind of heady but before we wrap this up i just wanna say i feel like i've gone a couple hundred words since the last time i called myself a boy so i gotta get that in there one more time just because it makes me feel really good though you're not allowed to say it unless you mean it in the right way and as we've just established the right way to mean it is extremely complicated which is why it's so convenient to just say i'm girl

[sohin-ace]

May I request Brunos gang headcannons with a new transgender male member? It doesnt have to be romantic and id rather it not be. Please message me if you have questions. Some details id like to see: He is around the same age as Trish and no longer can live with his parents. He doesnt have much money so he binds his chest with bandages and fabric he can find. He hasn't transitioned at all and his gender isnt obvious. his hair is cut poorly due to cutting it himself. i hope this is okay!

This was hard to do. Trans identity is tricky to write as a non-Trans writer. Hopefully I did you justice!

Non rom.

Bucci gang w/ a Transgender male member HC

Bucciarati

The most understanding of the group.

He's horrified that such a young person has to live by themselves, especially if your gender identity is the reason you have no caretakers.

He makes sure to introduce you properly to the team and makes them understand your situation, so that you feel comfortable around everyone.

You're part of the family now, it doesn't matter what you look like or what you identify as.

Will ask you if it's okay for you to go undercover as female for specific missions, or it's that's too uncomfortable.

If you'd rather not it's okay, Fugo will do.

He comes back one day with a package on one arm.

Turns out it's a custom made binder, all perfectly fitted to your specific body type and size!

So that's why he was so insistent on taking your measurements, without ever explaining why... That sly man.

Still, you couldn't be more grateful. Those things were so expensive.

"As long as you feel comfortable and stay in good health, I'm satisfied, Y/N."

Abbachio

He's the last one to care.

If anything, the thing he hates about you is that offensive hairstyle, are you kidding him?

Boy, girl, mischief, he doesn't care what your gender is or what's in your pants, he just doesn't want you to disrespect his eyes with such a horrendous haircut.

Like, seriously, who hurt you?

Takes you apart and forces your ass on a chair to actually give you a proper cut/shave.

Bucciarati is here too, to give advice on what looks good and works for your face shape and hair texture.

Abbachio has a fairly feminine appearance himself and hardly ever follows gender norms, so he's not fazed by your own neutral or 'confusing' physique.

Just tell him your pronouns already, or else he'll call you 'Brat' out of doubt, that's pretty gender neutral.

Would appreciate it if you trusted him enough to confess about your dysphoria, as he is victim of it as well.

Yes, even a Cis-man can feel dysphoric from time to time. Please pull each other up.

Giorno

As expected of him, he is very respectful.

The very first time he mistook you for a girl, but immediately apologized for his mistake and never got it wrong again.

In fact, he was so kind and polite about it, it's impossible to stay mad at him.

Afterwards he asks a lot of questions to be sure to know the boundaries you set, what is okay and not okay to talk about or do.

Will help you style your hair in the prettiest way and adds a lot of flowers on top of it.

He is a very feminine boy himself and will make you feel handsome and confident about your more feminine traits, just the way you deserve to be treated.

If he can rock the long hair, pink clothes, cute flowers and ladybugs ornaments and still look handsome as hell, then you can perfectly rock whatever physical traits you have. He believes in you.

Uses Gold Experience on you when you're on your periods so that it last shorter.

Helps you bind your chest until you can get a proper binder, and makes sure to be very gentle with you.

Has stolen Testosterone for you, and will do it again.

Mista

The most oblivious to your gender at first.

He can't tell if you're a boy or a girl and asks you a bunch of dumb questions without really thinking of the behinds of it.

If you get offended he'll just tell you he's trying to understand and is so confused.

It takes time and a lot of explaining, but he eventually gets it and, even though he still has a lot of questions, he decides to shut up.

Hey, you were pretty nice and funny and your Stand powers were dope, so at the end of the day, who cares?

He may be a bit of a dummy, but Mista is kind. He teaches you to shave in case you grow facial hair in the future.

He'll tell you all those grown up advices about how 'You start off with small peachfuzzes and before you know it, you got a full grown ass beard'.

Goes full Big Brother™ on you.

In fact, he barely calls your name at all, only calls you 'Bro', 'Fratellino', 'Mini me', 'Bambino', 'Big guy', or anything of the caliber.

Makes you workout with him to get those big ass guns and broad shoulders (or just... Your desired body type).

Narancia

Oh god, you don't have to fret about a thing.

He's just like you and gets misgendered All. The. Goddamn. Time.

His appearance is effortlessly androgynous and he sounds fairly prepubescent as well, so you're in the same boat here.

He doesn't really care and would love it for you to not care as well. He's used to it anyways.

It's not like your gender identity is gonna stop him from dragging you into his shenanigans and make you bust the sickest moves he knows.

You two are out together and get cat called by some obnoxious dudes on the streets.

You have to stop him from blasting them with Aerosmith because, as much as he's used to being called a 'She',

He WON'T stand other people misgendering you.

"HEY! SHUT THE FUCK UP! I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU! Y/N, tell him to go suck your dick! Oh- you don't have one yet? Huh... Well uh... SUCK MY DICK, ASSHOLE! Sorry about that Y/N."

Tells you you're lucky you don't have balls because those hurt really bad sometimes.

Fugo

Is too shy to ask too specific questions about your body or sexuality, but would love to know everything about it.

Especially the more psychologic aspect of your gender identity. How it affects your mental state, how you feel, what made you realize you were trans etc.

He may seem insensitive about it, but he's really not. He's just interested and takes it with a very scholar approach.

He pretends he really doesn't care at all, but he does a lot of research and harasses Bucciarati with questions about you.

You ask him to help you bind your chest one day and he becomes a blushy mess.

He'll help you anyway though, trying to be as neutral as possible out of respect for you.

He doesn't want to get flustered and let you imagine that he sees you as 'a girl', so he plays it cool.

It's... It's just a chest right? No big deal...

He slipped up one day and almost called the wrong pronouns and when he does, he just screams. Loud.

"Let's go ask Y/N then, where is sh-hhhhhhiiiaaaaaaAAAAAAAAARRGGHHHHH!!!!!"

He doesn't know how to come back from these mistakes and he's so embarassed.

Trish

You two have so much in common, surprisingly.

You're both young teens and your parents have left you down. You could only lift each other up.

She immediately knows you're a boy and gets so confused when people misgender you.

I mean... You look a bit feminine, yes, but there were plenty of men like this. And more so than you'd ever imagine. Especially at only 15.

Also, you introduced yourself as 'Y/N', that's pretty much masculine, or at the very least, gender neutral.

"Pfft, don't listen to them, Y/N. They're so darn stupid."

Helps you voice train, e-v-e-r-y-d-a-y.

She knows a lot of vocal warm ups and exercises to not strain your vocal chords and helps you get that perfect deep voice you try to achieve.

It's just like singing in a way, right? She helps you find your vocal range to expand it and lower it to your prefered pitch.

She's so proud of you when you manage to finally use a much deeper and manly voice!

She has very short hair herself, and she'll defintely help you style yours properly and take you to her personal hairdresser (a very kind femboy who's super funny and who's gonna love you to bits)