#but bc of the song and also for not stressing myself out to hell i stuck w/ 3

[karmacharmeleon18]

I just saw a tiktok where someone said "Isn't it crazy that we have to wait for male idols to go to the military to finally seem them be a healthy weight?" and it got me thinking

First of all how fucked up that is of course

But also do you think idols feel some sort of relief when it's time to enlist? Because they get to be away from the cameras?

Or is the negative impact enlistment can have on their career just too scary for them to look forward to it?

I know as a fandom we see enlistment as a catastrophe because FUCK THE MILITARY but I'm really trying to look for positives and maybe idols being able to EAT is one of them... the bar is in hell.

I remember that back in 2022/Guerrilla on the official Ateez website Mingi's weight was listed as 60kg. Yeosang who is 10cm shorter than him was listed as 57kg. That sounds crazy to me

I am 165cm, 20cm shorter than Mingi, and I weight the SAME as him 🙃 part of my weight is muscles bc I'm a swimmer, but Mingi is muscular too? He's a damn athlete

It's absolutely insane that my healthiest weight is the same of that of a muscular adult man that's 20cm taller than me 🙃

So many fans look at idols in the military and are like "omg he's gotten huge" and I'm like?? that's an average muscular man, he's just getting FED 😭

I asked someone else and they were absolutely horrid in their answer, it turned out they're a bootlicker who loves the military lmao I hope I'm not still in enemy territory. "patriotic" people are terrifying.

Yo, anon, you were very lucky I saw this. Tumblr keeps eating my asks, I receive notifications but can't see them when I check my ask box, or I can see them but my answers don't upload 🔪🔪 if you see this, it means you got REALLY lucky lol

But excuse me, 60kg? Song Mingi? The Song Mingi that can pick up Yunho and Jongho and everyone in Ateez? Who practices for 3-4 extra hours on top of regular practice with all the members? Who absolutely owns the stage? That Song Mingi?

And... I'm the same weight as gym rat Kang Yeosang???????

Well, damn 🙃 I don't know what to do with this information.

As a fandom we talk over and over about how concerning this is, especially when Wooyoung and Seonghwa stress about their weight too much (Wooyoung eating one meal a day to lose weight?? Seonghwa not drinking water for fear of bloating before certain events?? Hongjoong and Mingi having to reassure him that he looks great?? Mingi taking care of all of his meals and making sure he eats?? And at the same time dieting himself for the Calvin Klein photoshoot?? What a mess. What a huge fucking mess. And Ateez is one of those groups that love food and enthusiastically eat in front of the camera. I wonder how many sacrifices they make off camera, afterwards. I really don't know what else to say about this. It enrages and concerns and frustrates me)

Now, I, as a European, cannot find any "relief", or any other positive emotion, in the idea of joining the military. Even if I try to put myself in the shoes of a Korean idol, I just can't.

Europe is currently setting plans in motion in order to rearm, and some countries are even talking about reinstating forced conscription. And the general feeling is as you said: fuck the military.

I think there is no universe where I would join the military of my own volition. Theoretically I understand wanting to protect your own land from an invasion (let's say Russia? Or the damn United States trying to steal parts of Denmark), but in general, the military in the West is not used as a defensive tool. It is used worldwide to oppress, torture, kill people (specifically brown and black people) in countries very rich in resources so we can steal them. We use our militaries to exploit other countries and people. So if we put it in these terms, absolutely fuck the military.

And yes, patriots are not seen in a good light. "Patriotic" tends to be a code word for violent, racist bigot who thinks people of color are destroying "European values", sooo... yeah, let's not go there. No patriots on this blog, don't worry.

Now, do I think that idols, who grew up in a country were conscription is the norm, and seen as good and something to be proud of (I assume?), might feel differently? A country, may I add, that is still at war? Because in 1953 North and South Korea firmed an armistice/ceasefire, not a peace treaty? Do people who grew up in this environment think differently than I do? Seems very likely to me lol

They might feel pride in it, because they're doing their duty.

I still don't think "relief" is the right word, though. I mean of course finally eating actual food instead of being terrified of gaining one gram of weight is good. Great, even. But it comes at a cost, you know? Your freedom is still severely limited, just in a different way compared to being an idol. Sure, you're not on camera every minute of every day, but you are still being watched. You know what I mean? You superiors are watching, your fellow men are watching and, above all, kpop fans are STILL watching. And haters too, are STILL waiting for you to make a mistake. The entirety of South Korea is, metaphorically speaking, watching. Just doing it in a less direct way, with less access to the idols (until the idols make the news for whatever mistake they made, whether huge or tiny *cough* Suga *cough* and get hated for it)

What I'm saying is that I think idols still feel the weight of the gaze, the expectations, the judgment of the people.

And on top of that, add the threat, the pressure of being part of an active military still involved in a war.

You know what I mean?

Being able to eat, rest, become a healthy weight, having people monitoring your health to ensure that you are, indeed, healthy, and not sweeping issues under the rug for the sake of a comeback, are of course positives. Don't get me wrong. I understand where you're coming from. But I don't think they make up for what the idols lose when they join the army. They have to put their whole career on hold for years. The career they sacrificed their whole childhood for. Blood, sweat and tears. The industry is so fickle, you can lose popularity in an instant. Peopls say even BTS will struggle to bounce back.

And how you join the military might affect your popularity too.

Like, when Suga was deemed unfit for combat training and became a social service worker instead, he got hate for it.

Or let's talk about Ateez. I've seen people (specifically from other fandoms and Ateez haters) speculate about how some members might not be eligible for military service, namely Jongho (leg injuries), Mingi (chronic back pain + a lot of ableist comments about his anxiety) and Wooyoung (autoimmune skin disease triggered by intense sweating).

If ineligible, they'd have to do alternative service like joining the police force or social services, places where they would not have to physically train so intensively. But they would not get to slack off in any way, and would still have to put their careers on hold.

And yet these people act like they'd be "dodging" the draft. Like they'd be cowards and criminals.

Conveniently ignoring the fact that the military has specific criteria you need to meet in order to join, and certain health issues might be a hard no. And that most idols don't have the connections certain rich, corrupt men have to fake ailments and actually dodge the draft (*cough* Trump *cough* for 5 times *cough* because as he told his advisors he was "just not going" *cough*)

You see how much pressure surrounds the whole issue of enlistment?

Some fans hate the idea because fuck the military, some hate it because omg I can't see my fave for two years, and some hate it because omg this idol is a crook and a coward for doing social services instead of learning to hold a rifle!!

See?

Now, my very personal, very biased opinion is that the vast majority of idols see enlistment as a necessary evil. It's something they have to do. So why lose sleep over it? It's coming, whether you like it or not. And it's what's expected of you, training to defend your country, so you might even feel proud.

Maybe you are right that they might feel some sort if relief? Like: finally I'm getting this over with and I'm not disappointing anyone, I also get food and sleep and health checkups as added bonuses.

I really don't know, I'm just saying shit lol but maybe you are right and I'm just too biased to see it.

It's my understanding that many Korean men enlist right out of high school, so they can get the whole issue "out of the way" before going to uni, starting a career, starting a family. Military service ends, and their life starts.

Most idols can't do that because right out of high school is the perfect time to debut, when they look young and innocent and approachable.

(Ateez is already hated enough in Korea for being scary/alternative/punkish, imagine if they had debuted buff and with a buzz cut 🙃 "Will you be my friend?" and people would be running for the hills)

But maybe when they day comes, relief might play a tiny part, because they can finally get military service out of the way and get a semblance of normal life for the average Korean man.

But still, in my opinion the cons far outweigh the pros.

As you said, the fear or losing your career must be overwhelming. Compounded by the fact that they are joining an active military.

Anyway, I sincerely hope no idol wants/is looking forward to joining the army specifically because they idolize power, violence, learning to shoot people, you know? People like that just unnerve me on a fundamental level. I understand it's my European bias speaking, I come from an environment where enthusiasm for the military means you're a violent asshole. Things are different in South Korea, a country that is still technically at war. But yeah, seeing the army as a necessary evil is very different that seeing it as something you just cannot wait to join.

I hope this makes sense lol it's 1AM here and my brain is fried because of uni and this damn exam I'm studying for. But this was a nice break, so thank you for you ask ❤

[waddingham]

20 Questions for (Fanfiction) Writers

hihi sage :) @broadwayfreak5357 thanks for tagging me 🥰

1. How many fics do you have on ao3?

50

2. What's your total ao3 word count?

744,207

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

leg fic 💀

wildflowers (which has slowly crept up this far? somehow?)

two sweethearts and the summer wind :)

it's a symptom of your touch (it makes me so happy this is still top 5 lol)

someday 🥺

4. What fandoms do you write for?

actively right now, just ted lasso. but i've written for schitt's creek, twin peaks, and written for but never shared x-files

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

listen. i'm just a severely antisocial girl, staring at almost 4,000 comments, wishing LIKE HELL i could be that person 😭 i did originally on my first tl fic and i so badly wanted to keep going because i am SO grateful for every comment and reader I get, but now I'm so behind I genuinely wouldn't know where to start

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

hmm. i don't do angsty endings really. maybe in the cracks of light just bc i was talking about it with a friend once and they said they genuinely didn't know which section was truly the dream section and i'm obsessed with that idea.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

probably someday? I don't know. i end most of my fics in a happy place. or at least a hopeful one.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

no, thankfully. i don't mind criticism but hate would piss me off

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

yes, i do. the sexy kind.

10. Do you write crossovers?

no. they don't hold much interest for me

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

no, but i had a joke from one of my early fics stolen which is honestly just funny lol

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

nope

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

no. that sounds so stressful fldndkdnd

14. What's your all time favorite ship?

it's gotta be mulder and scully. the way they ate my brain up for years on end......the way I read quite literally EVERY fic on gossamer.....most timeless ship on the planet

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

oh the western au. rest in peace my beloved </3

16. What are your writing strengths?

ive been told i write really gutteral emotions in a way that comes across very strongly. unfortunately i don't really know how I do that but I'm very glad people feel it when they read certain stories of mine.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

i can be too heavy handed and overwrite things. in my more recent wips, I've gotten a lot better at showing instead of telling and trusting the reader to understand the nuances rather than explain them. also if I overthink a plot, or the order of scenes, it literally all falls apart. if I do anything but flow along from one scene to the next, I can't put the story back together. (again — rip western au)

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in a fic?

I don't know why I'd have thoughts on this. if it makes sense, go for it. I've done it.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

x-files, but as far as posted fic, it's some twin peaks ficlets that you could not pay me to reread, but i can't bring myself to orphan lol

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

this is a hard question because in terms of how the final product came out, it's probably a song of mourning, but my favorite experience with posting a fic was most definitely the escort au, BUT my favorite ones to actually write have been the vampire au and someday (though she needs [and will soon be getting!] a major edit) so i don't know. it doesn't help that if I have even a slight dislike of a project I simply won't post it lmao so the things that have made it up are there because I really liked them

[fivewholeminutes]

Leaving this one here for whenever you wanna / are ready to talk about yesterday's show!!! |-/

Also hello, Doubt demo????? My favourite pre-Clancy TØP song ever???!!?!?!!? Good stuff 😌😌😌😌

HELLO HI YES i am finally back homeeeee (my friends were going straight after the concert to my house and now they're working while i'm chilling so i finally have time mehehehe) ty for the ask bby 🥺

So, under the cut, cause it's probably going to be a bit long, chaotic and with shitty photos

I AM FERALLLLLL I WASN'T FOLLOWING THE FANDOM SUPER CLOSELY SINCE AFTER TRENCH (mostly bc the tumblr side of it that i lurked in died) SO IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I WAS IN THE DARK ABOUT HOW THE SHOWS LOOK LIKE THIS ERA AND IT WAS SUCH A REFRESHING EXPERIENCE, BEING SURPRISED AT A GIG‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

On our way there i was wondering if they're still playing hoty. If we're still gonna get the backflip. What are they gonna finish with (after all this time i was afraid they're not finishing shows with trees anymore but THEY STILL DO AND IT MADE ME FEEL SO WARM AND HAPPY. IT WAS LIKE COMING HOME. DESPITE EVERYTHING WE STILL HAVE TREES PLAYED ON PLATFORMS HELD BY FANS‼️).

God, i am still so emotional, it was a good choice to Not Speedrun what i missed (i ALWAYS need to know everything beforehand, not only about gigs, but yeah. It's so nice to just Be Surprised).

When they started, literally everyone around us stood up and didn't sit their ass down till the very end and i got so excited to see them again i forgot i have my phone lying on my lap and i DROPPED IT AND BROKE THE BACK OF IT LMAO (the screen is okay though)

We had seated tickets, BUT!!!!!!! WE COULDN'T HAVE DREAMED OF A BETTER PLACE, THE SMALL PIANO PLATFORM WHERE TYLER WENT FOR HALF OF ROUTINES AND THE ENTIRETY OF THE LINE WAS LIKE. IDK, 15-20 M AWAY FROM US??? TWO SONGS WE AWAITED THE MOST. PLAYED RIGHT NEXT TO UUUUUUSSSSSSSS‼️‼️‼️

AND THE HELLO, THE TORCH BEARER JOSH APPEARED ON THE VERY STAIRS WE USED TO GET TO OUR PLACES???? THE PERFECT SPOT FR

I really love they keep going around the whole venue to be closer to the fans that are not by the stage 🥺

Tyler learned how to pronounce Łódź perfectly. He said that better than some Polish rappers we've had a displeasure to hear on a festival in this city once. (Displeasure not bc they're rappers, but bc they make very bad music.) I really wish they would stop coming to Łodź, though. WE HAVE BETTER CITIES, PLEASE STOP MAKING ME COME TO ŁÓDŹ, IT'S A CURSED PLACE (sorry if anyone's from there reading this. But also i hope you get better <3)

He has, however, fucked up a name of a little girl they invited to sing one refrain of ride with. IT WAS LAURA, TYLER. NAURA IS A NON-EXISTENT WORD, MATE (/lh, the girl was stressed and didn't pronounce her name very clearly. I mean, who can blame her). AND SHE WAS SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEE, SHE SUNG YAYAYAIDE INSTEAD OF PRONOUNCING THE R'S IN RIDE AND I WAS MELTING FROM HER CUTENESSSSSSSSSS

Also tyler got off the platform stage later for her to have the spotlight on her only 🥺

I'm sorry for crude blurryfacing(hehe) of the crowd

JOSH'S RED GRANDMA VEST WAS EVERYTHING TO MEEEEEE

Tyler got a few pokemon plushies thrown on stage, with a tag that said happy bday to his son!! He kept pikachu and KICKED charizard (or squirtle? Don't remember) back into the crowd. Rip pokemons. And then the crowd started singing happy birthday in polish, bc one thing polish crowds love to do is to confuse musicians with singing polish songs out of the blue. It's like my 2nd or 3rd happy birthday situation. Why are we like this. Are other crowds like this too?? (Side note. Looking at y'all at mystic festival at 21:37 before sleep token played. You Know What You Did)

TYLER CRIED DURING NAVIGATING. I DID NOT EXPECT THAT DURING NAVIGATING AND I ALMOST CRIED MYSELF IN THAT MOMENT.

One thing i didn't like is that tyler was straight up Not Singing A LOT of the parts. Like i get when you want the crowd to sing some lines, hell, i love that too, hearing how powerful everyone's voices sound. But mate, that was a bit too much of not singing!!!!!!!!!!

Then again. They played for over 2 hours (and i love them for that), that might strain the voice a bit. BUT STILL. NO EXCUSES, MR JOSEPH

Anyways. Have some extra photos

AND THAT DOUBT DEMO ANNOUNCEMENT??? HELLO???????????????????????????? I ALWAYS END UP ON THEIR GIGS WHERE THEY ANNOUNCE STH (last time tyler announced they're gonna have a baby with jenna and she came on stage 🥺) alex fivewholeminutes keeps winning 😌 AND THE DEMO ITSELF IS SO FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDD

But most importantly.

Tyler said we were better than the german crowds

(Again. Sorry for any germans reading this. But it's not my fault we're just better 😌💖) /lh again of course

EDIT: I FORGOR TO ADD I WAS SURPRISED THAT JOSH PLAYS THE KEYBOARD NOW. AND HE SINGS????????? THAT WAS DELIGHTFUL. THAT WAS EVERYTHING TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

[punktxctics]

pre relationship: 7

in love: 7, 12, 17

domestic: 1, 8, 9

wedding: 1, 5, 7

silly: 5

lovey have I ever told you how much I love you <3

pre relationship

7. Were you two obvious about being in love? Did your friends try to tell you?

answered here

in love

7. Do you leave notes for each other? If so, what do they say?

whenever we ACTUALLY see each other, he likes to leave little notes around my apartment when I'm at rehearsal <3 most of them are really cheesy like "if you were a fruit you'd be a fine-apple" type shit. and while not necessarily a note, I do like to text him at night and just give him a whole run down of my day

12. Do you have any insecurities about the relationship? How do you work through them together?

we are both chronically insecure...the thought of "they actually hate me" and "who could love me?" plague both of us a lot unfortunately :(( it doesn't help with the distance and constantly being busy sigh... but we move past it with a lot of reassurance, words of affirmation OUR beloved

17. Do you two gossip together? What do you usually talk about?

answered here

domestic

1. Groceries! Do you go together? What does a grocery trip look like?

we don't live together - YET!! but we will go out together whenever we visit each other and we have WAY too much fun in the grocery store. we're picking up snacks that our coach/instructor would DESPISE if they found out about it and getting way too much of them. we're also big fans of adlibbing people's conversations that we see in the store and making ourselves look like fools

8. Something they do that makes you look at them and go “I love them.”

he's insanely observant and sometimes I feel like he knows me better than I know myself. he can tell that I'm getting sick before I can, he knows that I stress myself out so much that I will not give myself a break until he says something about it oof. even though it's a little annoying in the moment (I have so much to do!!) it definitely makes me feel so loved that he notices the little things enough to see things before I do

9. What does your bedroom look like? Who decorated it? What’s in it?

again, we don't live together YET (we will eventually sighhhh) but both of our places have a blend of both of us in it if that makes sense?? he has crystals on his night stand now, I have jersey's in my closet (and hoodies with the name "karasu" on the back that make me melt when I wear it), we have toothbrushes for each other <333

wedding

1. What did your vows look like? Were they sappy or did you go with the generic ones?

this just in- karasu is actually a SAP!! (so am I who knew??) I feel like it's a mix between silly and down heart heartfelt and I can't decide whether to cry to start laughing (I do both actually)

5. What song played for your first dance?

(basic as hell sorry) sailor song by gigi perez

7. Did everything go well or did one of you do something silly like bump noses when kissing?

we are just balls of anxiety lovey, of course we hyped ourselves up so much that something happened lol. we bumped noses and tried it again lmfao, I may also add that he did the ADORABLE dip thing when he kissed me but I was not expecting it at first so I almost slipped <////3

silly

5. Snow Ball fight! Who’s winning? How did it start?

this is toxic of me, but I'm so competitive... if I don't win I'll start making him feel bad about it lmfaoooo but!! the cutesy part of me wants to say that one of us got stuck staying with the other because we got snowed in <3 he definitely started it though and honestly kind of regrets it bc I'm throwing HEAT at him

[practically-an-x-man]

🙋‍♀️🎃🎶

Thank you!!

Fanfic Writer Emoji Asks

🙋‍♀️ Do any irl people know you write fanfic?

I have one friend who knows, because I offered to help them with tagging and formatting when they posted their first fanfic (and I commented on every chapter of their fic for support, so they know my AO3 account), but as far as I know they haven't read any of my works and I'm comfortable keeping it that way

(I'm not embarrassed about what I write and it's nothing particularly raunchy or smutty or otherwise embarrassing to think that my irl friend has read it, it's just weird to think about someone who knows me irl having read my fics in any context)

🎃 Do you write fics for certain holidays? Which is your favorite holiday inspired fic?

I will write birthday and holiday ficlets (usually for the winter holiday cluster, sometimes also for Valentine's Day) as gifts for a few of my online friends sometimes, but aside from that I don't usually plan out fics for holidays.

A big part of it is that I don't know what my motivation and free time will look like at any given moment, so it's very possible that I could say "I'm going to write a Halloween fic!" and then get so busy that there's no way it would be done by Halloween. Hell, I've stayed up past midnight just crunching the last bit of writing just because I wanted the last chapter of my Star Wars fic to have been posted on May The Fourth (which then became irrelevant bc I added an epilogue... whoops)

It's tough enough getting those gift fics planned out for my friends' birthdays, it honestly causes me a lot of stress thinking I'll miss it and they won't have a gift, but it's easier to keep myself on track when it's a gift for a friend than when it's just me writing on my own arbitrary deadline.

🎶 Do you listen to music while you write? What song have you been playing on loop lately?

Answered previously!

[just-lndifference]

I'm convinced this year is just a dream or simulation or something because generally what the fuck is happening.

someone I looked up to for 5 years that I originally named myself after turned out to be an abuser and wrote the most chat gbt ass ""apology"" and only cares that shubble was brave enough to speak out. (SUPPORT VICTIMS)

taylor swift announced her 5th album in 5 years (not including re records) WHILE WINNING A GRAMMY. and then being the amazing woman she is became the first person in history to win aoty 4 times.

twenty one pilots not only announced a new album, but is open with the lore and released a single that is one of the best songs they've ever made. when clancy drops this whole fandom is cooked.

this is the first time I've genuinely been terrified because of an election. if trump wins I genuinely don't think I'll be safe in this country because of project 2025. I'm a bisexual nonbinary person, I will never have a chance to get gender affirming health care and will lose the right to get married. and that's just the stuff that will happen to me! I can't imagine how scared people that are in more affected groups then me feel if I'm this scared. I know he's a horrible option but if your seeing this and old enough to vote in america PLEASE vote for biden. independents just don't have a chance, yes he funds a genocide but trump will too, and hell do much worse things. as a minor I'm literally begging y'all to think of everyone who isn't old enough to vote yet.

erm this is very unserious compared to the last part of my rant but I like lana del rey now!! 😭 obviously not her as a person (free palestine) but her music. and this is a major unseen development I've aggressively trashed lana and her fans since midnights came out bc of snow on the beach (turns out that it's just a really shit song 🙏). idk shout out to the person who made me feel obligated to listen to born to die (album)

also my henry danger hyperfixation from when I was 10 just decided to resurface?? like yes I had it for like 4 years BUT WHY IS IT BACK HELLO??? idk but ray is like super hot now that I'm older and I really want to date his goofy ass 😭😭 I remember not liking him much for some reason but like.. he's just a silly little guy.. babygirl if you will.. just a little rat boy..

I accidentally convinced 2 people to read the forest fic (neither were clikkies and I just met one of them). I don't think anything more needs to be said I made 2 full grown adults cry over a band they've never listened too 😭🙏

on that note joshler is big on twitter again but it's widely accepted?? idk what happened there but a good chunk of the art on my tl is clancy x torchbearer and I honestly don't mind.

jason kelce retired. in my family it's a thing to hate the eagles but holy shit I cried so much. the edits literally fucking destroyed me. I had no idea how much of an amazing person he was until taylor started dating travis and I wish I had more time to be a fan of this wonderful man while he was still on the field. he's so goofy and always made me laugh, I genuinely love the guy now.

the chiefs once again won the superbowl, I was honestly terrified the whole time and cried a few times that was the most stressful game of my life. I'm so fr I tried to get a rep tv announcement date from the disney plus commercial, taylor immediately being shown when the game came back on with a chiefs jacket that magically appeared out of nowhere that had a number that wasn't a player I lost my shit 💀

I could go on for hours, and it's only March. genuinely so much shit has happened and I'm not ready for more.

[beautyofsorrow]

🎶✨🎢!!

🎶Do you listen to music while you write? What song have you been playing on loop lately?

not usually! sometimes i will turn on a george winston album (plains or summer or autumn, depending on the time of year), but lyrics distract the hell out of me. if my neighbors are being noisy (...all the time these days...) i will turn on rainymood to help drown out the tv/music/screaming

notable past exceptions have been "burning house" by cam which i looped the entire time i wrote a certain saffianna fic (and now cannot listen to OR read because of it) and "sweet but psycho" by ava max which has been an earworm since april 2022 and the soundtrack to like every saffi fic i wrote between 2x07 and 2x10 airing. for some reason i was able to write with those on

usually i just loop a song obsessively before/after i write tho. like yesterday when i looped "another kind of love" by amy grant for 5 hours and pretended not to see the religious parts so it coded as aro. or "tokyo sunrise" by LP which was the soundtrack to plotting the saffianna fic that ends origin stories. or that time i looped "soolaimon" by neil diamond while writing [fic i cannot remember because i write too much]. (update: i triangulated using ao3 and my youtube history and it's most likely "call me maybe") (no i did not loop that song while writing that fic but yes i have looped that song in the past) (it's catchy)

however. i think the song i have looped the most often aside from "sweet but psycho" is this ava max/avril lavigne mashup. tremendously good earworm. 257billion out of 10

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

u put so much thought into your titles and epigraphs. absolutely wild how they add five more layers to an already deeply layered fic. gonna be thinking about this for the next 5-10 business years <- things i have said aloud to myself while obsessively rereading a certain l'una fic

also your character voices are Impeccable <- thing i have been thinking A LOT because i have finally unlocked the secret to una chin-riley and i'm starting to get there with chapel and la'an

🎢 Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

it's the AU. we have not even begun to get to the wild parts, but anything that takes tamsyn muir as inspiration is going to be balls to the wall buck wild. unfortunately for you all it mostly lives in my head. but i can say with confidence none of you are ready. except maybe zanna bc they get my unhinged notes in DMs all the time

writing-wise i think that time i revised/expanded my seven/jay fic and typed a combined total of 23k in 1 week was. a lot. there was also the time i decided to write smut for the first time and i decided to do it at work and people kept coming into my cubicle to chat and i had to pretend i didn't have 1000 words of naked women on my screen. don't write smut at work, kids. it's not worth the stress

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[amiharana]

7, 22, 27, and 38 for the writing ask game, if you don't mind! :D

(ask game from here)

7. What is your deepest joy about writing?

best part about writing is i can just write the most self-indulgent shit ever and then i read it back later and i'm like hell yeah this is exactly what i'm looking for! i'm not kidding i frequently go back through all my documents rereading all the concepting i wrote like it's a little bedtime story. no one can scratch my brainworms better than me fr! ☝️😀

22. How organized are you with your writing? Describe to me your organization method, if it exists. What tools do you use? Notebooks? Binders? Apps? The Cloud?

mm i'm fairly okay about the organization of my writing stuff. after i got my first laptop, all of my writing has been on computers and kept in my google drive. i'm actually considering making another account to transfer all my stuff over so my personal google acc has more space kasjdfkjsdj

i love making so many folders and color coding in there though. i'm planning on retitling all my fic document stuff in a certain way to make it easier to find them, but i don't know what way works for me yet. there a quite a few documents that are out of place because it's either there's not enough of the same-fandom documents to make a folder or i just don't know how i wanna organize it yet. reorganizing is a process i have not had a time for recently hehe

if you're talking about actual writing, i have a couple fics where i make a separate document for the outline i wrote and switch between the outline and the draft, e.g. my docs "[revalink] crystal snow draft" vs "[revalink] crystal snow outline". usually i do this because the way i wrote it in the outline conveys the exact emotion or image i want and use that as a reference while i write the draft. also it's just fun to see my own brain on display! otherwise i keep one huge document for each ship where i braindump my ideas onto, e.g. my doc "_revalink concept reservoir" and then just add headers/outline in the document. the revalink concept document is currently 80 pages long LMFAOKDJFDJK but it's a bit messy at the moment bc i've been copy pasting a lot of stuff in there

27. Who is the most stressful character you’ve ever written? Why?

hmm of the fics i've properly finished and uploaded, i don't think i've ever actually been stressed writing a character KDFHKDJFD i've mostly written soft cute self-indulgent stuff so it's not too difficult to write them being soft.

i guess what i'll say instead is i actually had a difficult time in general writing the 'like crazy' fic. most of the premise and style of the fic was something i had a hard time conveying, particularly writing link's character in that first half. i try to get in the heads of my characters when i write and figure out what they would do and why they would do it based on what i know about their character. and it was just. really hard to write link in the self-indulgence of what the vibes/lyrical meaning of the song 'like crazy' was while also keeping him within the boundaries of the character i perceive him as.

if anyone else reading this has some time to spare, you can read 'like crazy' here or the link pinned on my blog! it was my revalink week d7 fic hehe 🤍

38. What is something about your writing process YOU think is Really Weird? If you are comfortable, please share. If you’re not comfortable, what do you think cats say about us?

i wish i could tell you something outright insane or outlandish but i can't 😔 my writing process just consists of me laying in bed with my laptop and youtube on my switch hooked to the tv playing videos while i stare at a google doc for a couple minutes until the words come to me, rinse and repeat for as many days as needed until the fic is edited and finalized.

maybe the weirdest thing i've done while writing was either laying down on my side in bed like. semi-fetal position but arranging myself in a way where i could still type on my laptop, or when i got up to lay down and cuddle on the floor of my room with my dog for a little bit to take a break from writing. sorry for the boring answer 🙏

[onlyswan]

hi art, I just read your recent installment and I must say that drunk art is just exceptionally poetic and I cannot stress it enough, you really now how to put such emotions into words that you know would deliver the sparks. I love every word you put into it especially these parts:

you don’t know if you’re blinded by love, putting your trust in jungkook when he said that he wanted to build a life with you; or if it’s arrogance, having the trust in your ability to stand on your own feet again incase a match is thrown in a puddle of fuel on the floor. the latter is more painful to think about, quite frankly. just because you can, doesn’t mean that you want to. you have to. you have to. with bruised knees from praying for a little more time, you have to. the earth doesn’t stop orbiting the sun when your house burns down.

you perfectly describe what it is like to be in a place where you cannot fathom how did you get in this place that is too good to be true yet so scary and that no matter how frightening it is you know you will never have it any other way and taking that big of a step and putting your heart in line with someone like THE jeon jungkook and making a home out of his heart, I must say that a person as beautiful as oc deserve him so so so much and it is so nice that oc seems to be mirroring a lot of people like us who carries baggage yet is experiencing such exqusitely beautiful love gives me comfort like hell yeah, we also deserved to be loved despite of it all.

the epiphany that he is doing this at 2am not because time has arrived to daunt him and he needs to leave your bed to go home. not anymore. whatever this is, it feels so fucking good. oh my god, he looks forward to spending the rest of his life feeling you breathe next to him, getting lost in how peaceful you look asleep when he randomly wakes up in the middle of the night.

also this... this made me swoon so hard that I just have to read it a couple of times to be able to absorb the power this thought holds. the domesticated feelings. looking at the love of your life and suddenly your future flashes in your eyes. oh jungkook, bless your sweet sweet heart.

I just love them both so much, they are both so playful yet they have the most genuine love for each other. Also art, I was listening to boygenius' album earlier when the song true blue played and it reminded me of in which! couple like:

You've never done me wrong Except for that one time that we don't talk about Because it doesn't matter anymore Who won the fight? I don't know, we're not keeping score

And it feels good to be known so well I can't hide from you like I hide from myself I remember who I am when I'm with you Your love is tough, your love is tried and true blue

I remember the previous installment and it's just so soft and so cute and so freaking wholesome like goodness, thank you for creating them. Anyway, that's all this is getting too long hehe Love, ♡₊˚ 🦢・₊✧

“hell yeah, we also deserved to be loved despite of it all.” 🥹🥹🥹 i cried

ngl it took me a while to answer this bcs i keep reading your words over and over again. i love when they’re talked about like this 🥲 it’s just soooo heartwarming to learn that the messages i’m weaving throughout the drabbles are well received. like it still feels surreal to me that you guys read read my works :,( and have come to understand and love jungkook and oc deeply as much if not more than me. literally feel free to analyze bcs i’m so interested in hearing your thoughts and how you perceive them !! thank you so much for your time and attention :") and i hope i never waste or take them for granted. i really am so grateful for each like reblog comments and asks 🫂💕

and bless jungkook’s sweet sweet heart indeed </3 baby is so happy to finally be living with oc

omg these lyrics and especially “you’ve never done me wrong except for that one time we don’t talk about“ holy shit??? 😭 so in which couple coded indeed. thank you for sharing i’ll be listening to it a lot !! <333

[1d1195]

Omg Sam you’re so sweet😭 sorry to have worried you :( but still that’s so kind of you! If I had to take a VERY long break I would let you know in advance! BUT I KNOW I FEEL SO GLAD THIS QUATER IS OVER!!! Rip to seeing the hot TA though lol

YAY TO ONE MORE WEEK!! Hope it will go smoothly and you can start break on a good-ish note! And omg that sucks that got sick!! But at least it was because of you niece so it can be to bad especially if she’s so adorable! And Sam YOURE ALLOWED TO COMPLAIN IF ANYTHING LIVE THAT UP! I hope you feel better bestie and recover soon 💕

Oh I get totally being in love with fictional men lol girl do you even know how many times I’ve literally compared fictional to irl?! It’s crazy😭

I agree with it’s so gross being ill and hot!! I’m on your side for this temp war though lol

I bet your tree looks so cute!! I think I’ve mentioned before how I can see you be so good at decorating! But so real about the spending but like it’s the holidays lol do you have like a go to recipe when it comes to baking? What’s your fave to bake?

Oh Traditional Harry would so not care at all and it’s kinda hot lol and i obviously need HIMMM badly for reasons beyond his money lol

It’s really amazing though how much care you put into your students and I’m glad you all made it out of the trenches lol but seriously it’s most definitely means so much the kid that’s so sweet 😭

Not the Christmas lights😭 but omg I totally get you, and honestly that seems very healing! I think I’m okay like idk I’m just tired and perhaps I’m still ignoring stuff but I’ve been worse lol but I hope so too!

BESTIE I FORGOT TO MENTION THE MOON PART!! SHES SO ME BC SHES A MOON GIRL😭 I definitely do like this approach you’re taking with the flashbacks and all, it definitely gives perspective of how truly SLOW burn can be and sometimes this happens irl! Gonna be lame and mention how it reminded me of the lyrics from a song by Hayley Williams 😭 “Would I do it all again? Oh yeah in a second. Might taken 30 years. But I was always on my way to him”. Anyways lol it’s so cute that you have Christmas related part! Hope you can have time to write but please don’t stress bestie!-💜(this is gonna be a two parter agin😭)

Omg I dread the day that happens, but you never have to let me know! Things happen! OMG I lowkey FORGOT about hot TA. I imagine by now he wears his button down unbuttoned or was just half naked.

I have recovered mostly from my cold! I'm hanging onto some congestion and a dry throat but otherwise thriving. I'm fairly tired though and that's annoying. I know I've mentioned my brain functions best early in the morning so I like CANNOT write right now. I feel so bad because ALL I want to do is update The Lottery (but tbh it's kinda not hitting, I don't think I can write series; I don't think people want to commit to them) but I opened my doc just now and BLEH. Nothing. So I don't think it will get updated tomorrow (Thursday) :( but I will be able to update by Monday or die trying lol

I'm a chocolate chip cookie girl for sure (Massachusetts state cookie of course.) But I made brownies from scratch too. I just used a recipe I found online and I've done it before but I tested one of the brownies (and like seven scoops of the batter) and it tastes better this time around. I am also my family's apple pie baker. When we go apple picking I usually make like three or four pies for family/friends/coworkers. Then usually two for Thanksgiving and at least one for Xmas. I also make a few for my AP Stats/Calc students for Pi-Day in March lol. the recipe is from a cookbook my mom has had since the 70s/80s? Idk it might have been my grandma's lol it's old as hell and my sister nearly destroyed the book pressing her wedding flowers last year so I had to type it up finally to keep lol.

ANYWAY. Cookies are my favorite to bake from scratch. I've never tried cupcakes from scratch so maybe that'll be a project for myself. The series involving my Basketball bf, the following book was the one with the baseball guy/nanny that I had to wait to read so I could finish Honey, the main girl was a baker (and turned into the nanny). If I wasn't so smitten with my basketball bf I would accept him as my baseball bf but that seemed like too much. Gotta spread the wealth, ya know?

I too am a moon girl! I was staring at it all weekend since it was full! And Mars was right next to the moon this morning on my drive to work 😍 I love the sky 🥰

xoxo

[irusanw4]

Uhh I recommend more by artists than genres, so here's some artists sorted into genres/groups?

Idk What These Are But They're Song Artists: Chonny Jash, Jhariah, Will Wood, Lemon Demon

Pop According To Spotify: Marianas Trench, AJR, Owlcity

(Indie) Folk According To Spotify: AJJ, Everybody's Worried About Owen, The Front Bottoms, The Mountain Goats, The Oh Hellos, The Crane Waves, Cosmo Sheldrake, The Arcadian Wild

I'd group AJJ-The Mountain Goats and then Oh Hellos-Arcadian Wild for folk, since the 2 groups have different vibes.

And bc I like music, here's my recs for each music artist:

Chonny Jash - start anywhere! if you want to ease in and know Will Wood, Tim Minchin, or That Handsome Devil listen to one of those power hours [covers of their songs] and then try another album. Albums will have similar sounds, so if you dislike the sound of one go to another. Chonny's Charming Chaos Compendium and the new still-releasing album themed around Majora's Mask have lore/a plot too! CCCC, TMPH, THDPH, WWPH, and Covered in Discontent are all cover albums; Gothic Whore, the before., the ongoing album, Chonny Jash Power Hour, The Ship of Theseus, and most singles are originals

Jhariah - I'm still getting through his discography myself but listening to his youtube channel's music playlist in order hasn't steered me wrong! His song RISK, RISK, RISK! was my first song of his that I heard and Whose Eye Is It Anyway? is a popular one so if you want a specific starting point these work well!

Will Wood - I recommend starting with his album Everything is a Lot because I like a lot of its songs, but honestly any of his albums works. There's no lore to stress over knowing to my knowledge, so you can just put a "all Will Wood songs" playlist on shuffle and see what you like. He has a lot of range in terms of speed, though, so while something like Skeleton Appreciation Day is relatively slow, he's also got BlackBox Warrior OvO'

Lemon Demon - I'd say go with View-Monster for a first album but honestly Lemon Demon is just.. Weird /pos. Start anywhere and you'll still go for one hell of a ride.

Marianas Trench - Masterpiece Theatre III, Haven, When Worlds Collide, Killing Kind

AJR - Maybe Man, Steve's Going to London, Burn The House Down, World's Smallest Violin, 2085

Owlcity - Gold, The Tornado, Fireflies

AJJ - Brave as a Noun, Bad Bad Things, Survival Song

Everybody's Worried About Owen - Gut Punch/Don't Meet Your Idols, The Soccer Journals, Screwing In A Lightbulb, To: Myself In Colorado

The Front Bottoms - Be Nice To Me, Twin Size Mattress, Father, Lone Star

The Mountain Goats - No Children, This Year

The Oh Hellos - Passerine, Thus Always To Tyrants, Theseus, Bitter Water, "Second Child, Restless Child", Constellations

The Crane Wives - Turn out the Lights, Down the River, Th Hand That Feeds, The Moon Will Sing, Never Love an Anchor

Cosmo Sheldrake - The Moss, Solar Waltz, Interdimensional, Old Ocean, Bathed in Sound

The Arcadian Wild - Liar, The Anthem of Mr. Dark

somebody give me a genre of music and ill listen to it tomorrow and ill rate it

i want new music to listen too

i love music its my passion and like the one thing im talented at

[bwooomscratches]

control, control, control, control...

[lovinkiri]

Hot Villain Deku smut! Quirkless hero S/O feels bad bc Deku has done so much for her, and she feels she’s contributed very little to him. So, she tries to make up as much as she could, like cooking him meals, cleaning his clothes, giving him massages, and so on even when she’s tired. She even dresses up in things like a maid outfit, a sexy gown, Neko ears, and even a female version of his villain get-up. What really got him was a naked apron, all while cleaning up in front of him…

Cater To You

Author's Thoughts: 🎶It's the least I can do, let me cater to you🎶 This reminds me of that song, hence the title. I'm a sucker for pleasing your s/o ☺️ Also, I decided to give each outfit separate headcannons because the different reactions will not be if ignored 😌

Maid Outfit

He comes home to find you dusting

And since he's a lil perv, he immediately notices the curve of your ass when you can't reach something

And he's on your ass (literally) in a second like "Need help?"

You try saying no but eventually you let him help you out cause he won't stop asking

So he lifts you on his shoulder

Does not matter how big you are, Izuku is strong as hell

You barely weigh a thing to him

Carries you around a bit so you can reach the highest spots

When he puts you down, you ask how "work" was while you go back to cleaning

"Huh? Oh, yeah, I caused a building to collapse- Could you come closer?"

"Zuku, I'm supposed to be cleaning."

"Seeing you like that has got me making a mess of myself and I need you to clean it up."

Sexy Gown

God this has gotta be the outfit you give him a massage in 😩

He comes home and now the lights are dimmed

The atmosphere was so romantic

But he left the lights off when he left

So at first he thought someone broke in and "just dimmed the lights so they could see better without attracting attention to the house"

Villain or not, he still over thinks everything 💀

It wasn't until he noticed he was stepping on rose petals that he realized it had to be you

Because otherwise, whoever broke in wanted to fuck him

He followed the trail of petals to his room and found you in the bed

And he looked you up and down at least three times

Immediately has his hands on your sides and hips, rubbing up and down

"What's all this, rosebud?"

You simply hush him and start to strip his costume from him

His hands are restless as you, fidgeting at his sides

You lay him down on the bed and he grips the sheets to hold back from getting up and laying you out on the bed

As soon as you start massaging, he's moaning

The man is stressed, all the time

And every knot undone forces out a broken whine

"O-Oh fuck rosebud, yeah.. R-Right there.. !"

Neko Outfit

Screw just the ears, why not a whole outfit?

Fake plug in or clip on tail

With a short skirt and a tight shirt

And some gloves and socks with paw prints on them

Yeeeeesh 😩

He can't take his eyes off you

He's on the phone with the league but he has no clue what they're saying

He's just going "Uh huh.. Uh huh.. Yeah.."

You cooked earlier so now you're just doing dishes

But Izuku notices how you've looked so sleepy all night

He asked about it earlier but you insisted on doing the dishes

So he muted himself on the phone and called for you

You walked in, eyes lidded and he beckoned you closer

You did so and he pulled you on his lap

"C'mere, pretty kitty. I can tell you're sleepy."

"No, Izu, I've gotta-"

"If you're that restless, I could put you to sleep. As long as you can be a good kitty and stay on all fours."

Female Deku Outfit

As soon as he sees you walking around in this?

He's frozen

Can't move, can't speak.

The only thing his eyes can do is follow you

But if you some into reaching distance, he will pull you by the waist after a moment

"Are you sure you don't wanna be a villain, Doll? So far, I like it when we match."

You aren't getting any cleaning done

He won't let you go, you're stuck in his arms

You guys start making out, which leads to riding him

"This is what you wanted right? Such a mischievous little villain."

The Apron

He got home and took his hero suit straight off

It was just one of those days

He plopped on the couch and called for you, just to see if you there and were down to cuddle

Then you came out only wearing an apron

And the man's jaw dropped

By now, he's seen you in tons of different outfits

But seeing you naked was better than anything

Because it was just you

No gimmick, no theme, just you

And he found nothing sexier than you

He watched you go around cleaning the living room

The moment you bent over pick up his hero costume, he was on you

You could feel his cock poking your ass through his underwear

"God, you're such a tease baby"

His fingers found your cunt and you gasped as he began rubbing quick circles into your clit

Made you cum on his fingers at least twice

Then he popped them into his mouth, savoring the taste with a quiet "Mmm.."

Bent you over the back of the couch and just 😩

Completely lost control of himself

I mean he broke the couch gripping it so hard

And he didn't stop

He just let his head fall beside yours and growled into your ear

"Fuckin' take it, take it"

[twstmemories]

HI NARUUU I HOPE YOU'RE DOING WELL <33 IM BACK WITH AN UPDATE ON MY ENSTARS ADVENTURES !!

sadly couldn't get the free five star from the tour event :'))))) i didn't have enough time n strong enough cards rip BUT i did get both the four star cards + the three star ones n a bunch of resources so i'm...at peace with it.

oh yeah, i've upgraded from doing only normal difficulty songs to hard ones >:DD (expert's still outta my league tho sadge) fav songs to play rn are acanthe, mystic fragrance, n dance in the apocalypse (even tho dance in the apocalypse makes my fingers CRAMP like holy hell why are there so many things to tap–)

OH AND YOU ASKED ABT MY FAVES LAST TIME...i forgot to answer you shdjfjf i've liked rei for a while bc i've heard of him before sbdhd he talks like an old man and claims to be a vampire, aka perfection. bUT i've added a few more ppl to the roster: tsukinaga leo n izumi sena ! i think this is driven by the fact that i got their cards so i ended up searching them up to get to know them better but yes they <33

this is getting kinda long so last thing is. gacha exploits. so izumi's banner came out like...yesterday ? n i was like ok there's no harm in tryna get him since he's one of my faves tho i've heard enstars gacha is a living hell–

AND THEN GUESS WHAT ? MY FIRST TEN PULL FLASHED RAINBOW BUT I WAS LIKE IT MIGHT NOT EVEN BE HIM AND THEN–

IT WAS HIM *SCREAMS INTO ABYSS* he looks so cute *sobs* he seriously took all my luck fr sbdhfjf but here's the rest of my cards so far ! (idk what's good or what's bad i've just been levelling n using cards and hoping for the best)

(LAST last thing: tysm for getting me into the game !! i've been having a blast playing the live stages hehe and it has reminded me of my love for rhythm games <33)

Under the cut since my reply ended up being pretty long!

It's fine if you don't get the 5* from the tour! Your cards will gradually grow and become stronger so there's future chances! This was also just the first tour out of 5 this year so there's plenty of chances!!

AHH LEO AND IZUMI I SENSE A KNIGHTSP IN THE MAKING !!! I myself am a ritsu and arashi producer along with mao! Knights is such a gorgeous unit and im so happy you like their newest song!! Arashi was the center for that (which i grinded the whole day for because i wanted to snag her the first day uwu)

But I'm so glad you managed to get Izumis second feature scout on your first 10 roll! Don't worry enstars have a tendency to really sike you out with it's gacha so don't be surprised if a 5* suddenly rolls by on blue lights OuO)/

And don't worry if you can't do expert stages yet! Rhythm games are mostly muscle memory and coordination which takes practice! If you want to however both full combo it and perfect combo it there are also cards that fully support those chances! Perfect comboes will give you more dias and some cards that has the ability to turn great/good notes to perfect is for example these two:

While some 5* cards that help you keep your combo are these two:

Feature scouts tend to be very powerful by themselves! Tour cards also have a very high rating that is usually everywhere between 91K-94k when fully filled even at one card!

But i see that you're already starting with the sparkle dash missions for Subaru! He's generally a very good card to have in the beginning since he's the first 5* that you can max out! The road gives you the necessity to get his percentage all the way up to 200%!

I'm glad i could make you like rhythm games again! They're very fun although stressful at times uwu I hope you continue to like it and feel free to stop by again when you have more to say or have any questions!!

[starsfreckled-archived]

I will probably delete this tomorrow when i wake up . but stuff about activity & all that.

i usually try to stay as vague as possible but ya know. sometimes you got no place to vent & just gotta write things out.

my mother had to be hospitalized. she is not... sick in the sense that it is smth like co.vid or another physical sickness. I was the one to make the call tho & who had to take care of everything, phoning the doctors for hours, giving them lists of stuff ...being guilt tripped by them for not noticing earlier when in fact her & I have a less than favorable relationship. woman put me through hell to say it nicely.

basically i am now in a constant state of stress & my ptsd just. through the roofs. i am not doing well, i never know who to talk to. i do not want to be a burden to people ever. so i quietly withdraw into either reading books or the game.

i also had an important meeting with my boss which kept me nervous but that one went quite well I think !! but it left me mentally drained too.

i think i just reached that point where i tell myself not to bother ppl, not to be boring bcs my brain usually handles stress by going full on “do not like yourself” however i will also say i usually am good at gathering myself up. may take a time but it’s an old song & dance . I just hate how i withdraw from people. 

i just wanted to apologize bcs i know my activity has been trash, mostly ooc or hc posts only or screens but my brain is just on low energy. I do however, sitll like to just. chat about plots & muses bonds on discord, it’s actually quite a nice distraction. I just withdraw with personal stuff a lot,,, 

I think I am just asking for ppl to be a bit patient with me & wanna tell people that I do love & appreciate them !! ‘m just all over the place currently.

[benryphobic]

tell me ur thoughts on... Darnry

DARNEY MY BELARNREY......HELL YES

💐 Who tends to worry the most?

Darnold. He has anxiety! He's very uncomfortable with sudden change, too, so anything extreme happening out of his schedule makes him freak out

💋 Who is the most physically affectionate?

Benry. he gives his *friends* kisses, man. he would give Darnold so much physical affection it would be annoying (sometimes)

⛈ Do they enjoy dancing?

They do! Darnold dances like an old man, just kinda swaying side to side, while benry dances like a teenage girl. they have really different tastes in music, but can come together with dancing to r&b!

🌹⛈Who has the most nightmares and how do they deal with them?

Darnold has the most nightmares. Mostly about being terrified and trapped. Benry helps him by just kinda playing games with him, cos neither of them are too good at talking about feelings

🌺 Do they go to sleep at the same time as each other?

They do initially, bc Benry just. never slept. he doesn't need to. But then Benry started to appreciate the fine art of being able to cuddle and doze with a comfy body in his arms

⚡ What are their nicknames for each other?

I can't really think of anything but benry probably calls him like. D. Arnold. as a bit. otherwise i can't see them using any nicknames

🍃 What do they do when the other is stressed?

play video games....if that doesn't work, then they just talk about nothing. if it gets really bad, benry uses sweet voice for him, but thats not super often. darnold helps benry by just being his friend (homosexual)

🌻 How do they spend time if the other is gone?

Darnold does his science shit, goes back to school to become a professor, plays video games etc etc. benry plays video games, listens to music, probably makes his own music, talks to his friends, etc

🎮 Do they have a favourite video game they enjoy playing together?

team fortress 2.....they both go medic and do this

💍 Would they ever get married?

probably! no big wedding or anything, but they would get a little dressed up

✨ Who proposes?

benry! he does it very casually but very heartfelt

👑 Who is the meme lover?

darnold laughs at minion memes and cat memes. benry does not go on the internet.

📚 Who likes to read?

Darnold! he's fascinated with his field of study, but also in a lot of different things. he reads a lot to calm down and as a hobby

🎩 Who bothers the other person while the other person reads?

haha benry. if benry needs attention (which is often) he'll bother darnold like an immature child.

🌼 How do their personalities complement each other?

i think both are very matter of fact while saying the craziest shit. the difference is you can kinda tell when benry is joking (unless youre gordon) , while you cannot tell at All when Darnold is. Plus i kinda see them both as quiet people, maybe ambiverts at most, so they just kinda chill most of the time. theyre absurd in different ways, and its great :)

🔥 Who will punch someone out if they are rude to their partner?

neither? i think benry would shoot someone just for picking their nose

💀 What would they dress up as, for Halloween?

oooohghuhghhhhh the cheesiest costumes ever. the first year theyre dating they go as a medic and solider duo, but years after theyd do like. cishet costumes bc they both think its funny (harley quinn and joker, Frankenstein and the bride of frakenstein, jack and sally, etc) they still really like dressing up as video game characters tho, so they do that too to mix it up

🌈 What are their favourite colours?

darnold likes green! benry........does not have a favorite

🌹 Who is the hopeless romantic?

Neither! Darnold is a man of science, a man of work. he was very happy being single, benry just kinda added a new dynamic in his life that he very much enjoyed. benry is just....not a romantic. if he has a crush on someone he's like "well.....lol" and usually pursues like a 5 year old

🎭 Who is the dramatic one?

benry. he sounds like he's eternally pouting

🎈 Who makes jokes during inappropriate times?

benry, duh. hes kind of a dick. darnold cannot take him to funerals

💝 What do they love about each other the most?

the sick gamer strats. idk this is a weird question cos when u love someone, i feel like u love....all of them? or at least a lot of them. theres not really a favorite trait. they just go "yo this is nice as fuck" when u spend time with each other and like. cuddle.

👓 Who googles everything?

darnold uses Google as a research engine for his work and hobbies

🌙 How do they comfort each other when they are helpless to do anything about the situation?

they r there for each other. if its truly helpless, i think that's enough.

🍂 What is an inside joke they have?

pyro airpoof.....whether or not Darnolds potions are g fuel bc Powerade is kinda close to Gatorade

💟 What do you think makes them perfect for one another?

i dont think theyre perfect for one another! benrys an annoying jackass, Darnold is a nice man. but i think if benry got a huge loser crush, hed feel the need not to pull on darnolds metaphorical pigtails. its respect

🌷 Are you nervous to talk about your OTP? Why?

kinda nervous! but only bc i have trouble thinking about their dynamic. my favorite genre of romance is just.....dudes that hang out and kiss. i also don't want it to sound like knock off frenrey. Darnold is the only one who seemed a little annoyed by benry too, in a very different, polite way, but i find it difficult to differentiate the dynamic. Darnold is a little bit of a straight man to the straight man. not to say he isnt absurd. but id find it reallt funny for benry to do some crazy shit and Darnold to go "uhm. ok."

Is your OTP Oc x Canon?

hmm difficult question. hlvrai characterization in general is making an oc and hoping it adheres to Canon. just by shipping darnold and benry im basically making some sort of oc x oc for myself, since their characterizations don't imply theyd ever end up in a romantic relationship

🎵 What's a song (or songs) that remind you of your OTP?

i need more songs for my darnrey playlist 😩😩😩😩