#but also sad because my volumetric output has LOWERED LIKE CRAZY

[katzirra]

God I've been doing this meme for so long... I think next year I'm gonna change my format/layout. NEW TEMPLATE FOR MYSELF.

2024 was a... rough year in general. I had a lot of self conscious moments about my art, a lot of self loathing about my art, a lot of shyness about my art in general. Actually debating just.... not posting anymore honestly. I'm tired of chasing 'attention'

Rough.

On top of that I just had MONTHS I barely drew more than a handful of sketches. With most of those being "PLEASE, RUDY, JUST DRAW SOMETHIN'" screeching in my head from Chalk Zone.

I did a lot of traditional inking this year, found my pen I like doing it with and just getting myself to loosen up a lot more. I have like five things I was working on before uh surgery, that I don't wanna scan so DECEMBER IS JUST THE DHVARRIS COUPLE. I like how dad came out anyway so whatever.

I have a lot of... not so pleasant thoughts about this year unfortunately. January to April I was really enjoying traditional stuff, I was enjoying a lot of what I was doing for AU jokes and I still have a hell of a lot of Lokius stuff I wanna finish.

April to June I was playing video games and trying to fight depression over art and also chipping away at big stuff I wanna do - but my PC is FIGHTING these days for that. I really adore the piece I did for July, I did a value study for once and really like how the colors came out in the end. Like perfect atmosphere for Nightmare Syndicate finally. August is a BIG WIP I wanna finish god damnit ;;

September I finished a long standing commission and got myself to really finally remember what I love about digital art and coloring, and started to fix some part of my brain there lol

From then on out I'm on a Baldur's Gate kick, and a lot of my shit has been studys on like Astarion's hair or face, my own bb girl Ophira's horms and markings, or just doodles I don't feel are 'amazing' :T

October is making me so annoyed that's like ONE OF TWO DRAWINGS I DID THAT MONTH OUTSIDE DOODLES AND POST ITS I SENT MY GIRLFRIEND... but whatever. Yells.

Idk. When I get recovered I'm gonna be hopefully blazing through commissions, and personal stuff of Ophira and the gang because I just.... wanna do clean sketches of events I've written for unu so

WE'LL SEE. I say it every year but JFC here's hoping next year is BETTER and I can get my anxiety and bad vibes under control ;;