#but also its soo fun to write characters who hate vulnerability bc u have to get creative when writing them being vulnerable and the angst
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something i find tragic and messed up is how XL's worst trauma and HC's worst trauma are the same event - XL being stabbed 100 times. why that was traumatic for XL is self-explanatory. for HC, witnessing that was so traumatic that it single-handedly turned him into a supreme ghost king. it was the trauma of being powerless, watching his beloved go through hell unable to do a thing to stop it.
this trauma directly parallels HC's original childhood trauma, of being powerless as a child who couldn't defend himself from his bullies and abusers. he hates himself and judges himself very harshly for being "weak" as a child, blaming himself for his own trauma. just see the way he treats e'ming (who i believe represents the emotions of his child self), the way he drew himself in his mural, and the way he treated the statue of hong hong-er in the extras, and you can guess how HC views his child self.
HC's trauma response was to spend 800 years becoming the strongest possible, extremely wealthy and powerful so that he can protect and provide for his beloved the way he never could when he was a human kid or a small ghost. he also wanted to be as strong as possible so that he never has to feel like that "weak" child again. the trauma of powerlessness truly shapes so much of HC's personality
#tgcf#hua cheng#tgcf meta#my meta#just crossposting twt threads#he hates vulnerability so much and has so much self loathing sometimes#but also its soo fun to write characters who hate vulnerability bc u have to get creative when writing them being vulnerable and the angst#mp: tgcf#i need to rmb to crosspost my twt threads more bc stuff on twt is impossible to keep track of lol#theres more to say about this topic but im too physically tired rn
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