#but also i hurt everything hurts my back hurts my neck hurts my tummy hurts from the whole box of comfort biscuits i'm about to devour

[psalmsofpsychosis]

me sitting here rocking back and forth like a catatonic disastrous lab experiment as i open Gotham 3x07 before i even got my breakfast like "nothing happens to Nygma and Pinguin nothing happens to Nygma and Pinguin they're fine they're okay i'm fine everything is good—"

[quantum1mmortality]

could u write sfw/nsfw hcs of raiden with a size kink maybeee👀

I had to look up how tall Raiden is bc in the new game he just looks like a short king THIS BITCH IS 6'2??????????

Frothing at the mouth rn

Tw/cw: AFAB reader, size kink(obviously), overstimulation, dacryfilia if you squint, nsfw and sfw, mirror sex mmmmm, belly bulge

Not proofread go fuck yourself

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Sfw

Raiden is the type of guy to constantly put items on higher shelves so you can ask him for help.

He's also the type of guy to want to compare hand sizes whenever he can. He loves seeing how his rough, much bigger hands look in comparison to your small, softer hands.

God he'd love cooking with you. He'd adore standing behind you and and guiding your hands with his.

He's obsessed with the way he can pick you up and throw you around like you weigh nothing. To him, you don't.

He'd really enjoy getting matching couples pajama sets and then have you wear his set from time to time. Why? Because he likes seeing how big it is on you.

It's like that with all of his clothes, really. His shirts are like night gowns for you and he'd be lying if he said he didn't love seeing you in them.

You borrow his clothes so often that your wardrobe is practically his wardrobe. And he loves it.

Because of how he towers over you, he often just, touches you. Anywhere he can, really

He loves holding you by the waist and resting his head on your shoulder, though. Does his neck hurt like hell afterwards from bending down so much? Yeah. Is he gonna do it again? Absolutely.

Nsfw

He'd be SUCH a gentleman in bed, but he does lose control sometimes

I feel like he'd be very neutral on most sex positions. He doesn't have a preference, but he love the lotus

He'd love how your back is pressed against his chest while your thighs are on either side of his. Its the perfect position for him to feel every part of you.

The only downside, however, is he can't see your face. He loves seeing how your face contorts in pleasure as his thick cock drags it's way in and out of your pussy, but he can't in this position.

How does he solve this problem? Mirror sex. He isn't adamant on getting you to watch yourself while he's fucking you, he knows it must be embarrassing, but he's obsessed with watching you.

He can see everything thats happening, your face twisting in pleasure, the white ring forming at the bottom of his cock, but most importantly, the belly bulge.

Oh

My

God

The belly bulge.

Once it starts forming, he can't take his eyes off it. The thought of you being so small in comparison to him that his cock is making imprints in your tummy makes him lightheaded

This is where him losing control comes in. On rare occasions, usually when he comes back from training and missions, he'd be so worked up over the fact he couldnt see you, touch you, feel you.

You're doing you thing, getting into position, and he sees it. The belly bulge.

He goes beast mode dude.

He's instantly flipping you on your back and fucking you in missionary. I think he'd be a bit rough, mainly coming from his harsh pace, but nothing leaves his mouth except pleasurable moans and praise

His pace gets so fast and him constantly pressing down on said belly bulge makes you cum. Don't worry, he's right behind you, but he doesn't stop after one round

How can he when you look so good writhing underneath him?

You get overstimulated after a while because of how many times you already came. Raiden would feel bad, but he knows you want this, you'd use your safe word if you didn't.

So he continues. He usually only stops when your body goes limp and falls asleep from exhaustion. Hed kiss away all your tears that formed both during and after each session followed by him cleaning and dressing you.

Dressing you in what? One of his shirts. Nothing else. He likes it that way.

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A/n: I'm getting so many good requests UGH if you guys do request anything pls remember it's taken me a bit to get to it 🙏🙏

[leaentries]

🙏🏼 sex with kirby while ur already pregnant 🙏🏼

➛ good lord this is..everything

➛ this also turned into longer than a blurb, i was just so in love with this request

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Changing from your pajamas into your day clothes proved to be a challenge this morning, and not just because you were 7 months pregnant.

Stripping from your clothes by the mirror, you could easily see the giant hockey player who watched you with meticulous eyes. His blue eyes danced with desire at the sight of your swollen tummy, a certain aspect about you that sent his libido spiraling.

Maybe it was the pregnancy glow or the fact that your were carrying his child. Whatever it was, watching you struggle to slip your shirt up was sending shockwaves to his hardening cock.

“Need help, baby?”

Your face was red, body glistening with sweat as you attempted to relieve yourself of the tight clothing. And no matter how independent you wanted to be, the child inside of you wasn’t gonna let that slide. So, begrudgingly, you nodded your head “yes.”

Chuckling, Kirby lifted himself off the mattress to stand behind you, his hands delicately tracing around your wide hips. He rested his palms on your stomach, fingers gripping the hem of your shirt. He slowly peeled the shirt up, exposing your bare skin to him.

He groaned lightly at the stretch marks that adorned your tummy. As he pulled off the material the rest of the way, he felt his cock leak as your plump breasts spilled from their confinements.

“Fuck, baby, you’re killing me.”

You furrowed your eyebrows, blissfully unaware of the effect you had on him.

“Why?” You laughed lightly.

Kirby leaned down to place a sensual kiss on your neck, “Because you’re so fucking beautiful.”

You felt a whine bubble up as Kirby pressed his body into yours. The aftermath of his staring was prodding evidently into your cheeks. After a bit more groping from Kirby’s end, you found yourself, inevitably, naked and dripping for your boyfriend.

He sat, leaned back on his knees, taking in the view of your very pregnant form, paired with your swollen cunt. He couldn’t have imagined something hotter than this.

“Please, Kirby,” Your whine ripped him from his thoughts, “I need you.”

Kirby had to swallow a growl at your sultry, begging tone. His beautiful, pregnant girlfriend was pleading for him. Who was he to deny you the pleasure only he could provide. His fingers ran from your ankle, slowly up your thigh. His thumb pressed into your clit, applying gentle pressure.

You felt your breath pick up, your hyperactive hormones making the experience much more intense. He dipped two fingers in, your wetness already soaking your thighs.

“So wet, always so wet for me.”

The feeling of his fingers was pleasurable, but not enough to suffice the burning sensation of your pure want for Kirby. You pushed his hand away, shaking your head. Kirby’s eyes shot up, scared he hurt you.

“What’s wrong? Did I hurt you? Is the baby okay?”

His rapid fire questions brought a smile to your face, “I’m fine, I just need more than your fingers.”

At your statement, all of Kirby’s worry drifted away, replaced by cockiness, “Yeah? Just need my cock?”

You nodded desperately, shuffling your hips closer to his straining bulge.

“Okay, okay,” He chuckled at your eagerness, “I’ll give you want you want, baby.”

He quickly stripped himself of his boxers, taking his place back in between your thighs. He gave himself a few pumps, before lining up with your core. With one hand rested on your stomach, Kirby sunk into you with one move.

“Oh, fuck!” You screamed, the delicious stretch of his cock muting out the rest of the world.

Kirby had to hold himself back, your pulsating walls making his mind malfunction. Taking deep breaths, he grounded himself before settling into a steady rhythm.

Your head lulled back, the stimulation from his cock dragging against all your favorite spots. Succumbing to the heat of the pleasure, your body slumped further into the plush pillow.

“That’s right, mama,” Kirby encouraged, “Give it to me, baby.”

He continued his abuse on your pussy, his hips repeatedly slamming into you. The sounds of moans, paired with skin slapping and the squelching of your soaking hole.

With the way your hormones have been raging, you knew you weren’t gonna last very long. The familiar burn of your climax began to build rapidly. Each stroke Kirby gave sent your nerves exploding.

Through your thick whines and whimpers, you managed a warning, “G-gonna cum.”

Kirby picked up his pace, one of his hands rubbing your bump reassuringly.

“Let go, sweetheart. Cum all over my cock.”

With his words, you obliged, back arching as your orgasm hit you like a bus. Blazing ecstasy coursed through your veins. The only sound you could muster were screams of Kirby’s name. The feeling of your tummy pressing up into his tense muscles sent him over the edge, painting your insides white. He panted as you spasmed around him.

Your mind went hazy in post-orgasm bliss, only coming to at the feeling of Kirby’s soft kisses on your face.

“There you are pretty girl,” He smiled lovingly at you as your eyes met his, “Though I lost you for a second.”

You gave him a dopey look, still not completely present. He kissed your cheek once more, lying down to pull your body into his. Kirby rubbed his hands up and down your bump soothingly.

He placed a kiss on your temple, “Did such a good job for me, mama. Get some sleep,” He whispered.

You felt your eyes close with tiredness, the activities taking a toll on your working body. The warmth Kirby’s chest and palms provided lulled your raging hormones and guided you to a peaceful slumber.

[moirasdolly]

Junker Queen Relationship Headcanons (N/SFW) ᥫ᭡ ˖ ࣪

Contains: NSFW, relationships, possessiveness, trans jq, breeding kink

Listening to ♪ ིྀ: Heavy Metal Lover - Lady Gaga

Notes: Trans Odessa is so real to me guys… she makes me giggle and kick my feet i just want her so bad. Also I went overboard with the NSFW portion ummm I just want her so bad.

❥ SFW

• First of all she would be sooo protective and possessive over you. She’s the queen of Junkertown and you’re her girlfriend, so naturally there are people who want to get to you to hurt her, but she’d protect you no matter what.

• She calls you her princess all the time… even more than your own name sometimes.

• “C’mere Princess.” “Princess, yer just the cutest.” “Oi, let me please you Princess.”

• She loves to have you on her lap whenever she can. Especially on her throne.

• Odessa is handsy. She would grab you by the hips and pull you close to her just to feel you close and prove that you’re hers.

• Now onto dates… I don’t think that she’d be one to take you out to a fancy restaurant, but I secretely think she’d be a good cook.

• She’d prepare you whatever you’re craving for that night to perfection <3 No matter how complicated the dish is.

• I think she’d love to watch movies with you because it give her an excuse for you to sit in her lap or for her to be the big spoon.

• Horror movies are her favorite specifically because you’re such a scaredy cat and she takes advantage of that.

• A particularly horrifying scene comes on in the movie you’re watching and you can’t help but bury your head into her neck, waiting for the scene to pass. “I got ya Princess.” Odessa runs her fingers through your hair and places a chaste kiss on top of your head.

❥ NSFW

• She has a huge dick,,, she fills you up real good every time. It stings so good, and you can’t get enough.

• Despite her being very gentle with you almost all the time, she gets rough in bed very quickly.

• “Fuck…” She pants as she slides into your tight cunt giving you just a moment to adjust before pulling out slowly until just the tip is inside before slamming back into you.

• She’s a huge fan of dirty talk. Not big on calling you mean names though. Prefers to call you Princess still or baby during sex.

• “You take me so well, baby.” “Just like that… your cunt is squeezing me so tight.”

• Her favorite position is her over you obviously with your legs thrown over her shoulders. She loves having complete control over you.

• She’s so very strong too <33 No matter how tall or how much you weigh she’s loving to pick you up and fuck you like she means it.

• Did I mention she definitely has a breeding kink?

• She loves filling you up with cum and she loves hearing you beg for it too.

• “Please!” You whine loudly bucking your hips up into her bruising grip. And she gives you exactly what you want. You feel her thrusts slow down and her cock twitch inside you. She plants a soft kiss to your knee as she releases into you. You sigh quietly as you feel the warmth of her arousal and a moan is drawn from you once she pulls out finally.

• She watches as it drips out from between your thighs and she takes those thick fingers of her before shoving it back into your cunt.

• Your body writhes in overstimulation as Odessa continues to work her fingers back into you. “Wouldn’t want any of that to drip out. Right, baby?”

• She is more than capable of being gentle with you in bed as well.

• She’ll let you ride her, but she wants to hold your hands while you do it.

• She’d kiss your knuckles and praise you to high heavens. Telling you how well you’re doing, telling you just how pretty you look on top of her.

• She genuinely thinks you’re breathtaking during intimacy (and all the time). She gets so mesmerized by your breasts, your soft tummy, your squeezable hips, just everything.

• She’ll make sure you feel gorgeous during sex too. Odessa makes you say it.

• Afterare is amazing with her. She’d scoop you up into her arms and carry you all the way to the shower and make sure you’re all clean before bundling you up in her arms and taking you to bed.

• She would definitely tease you afterwards about how needy you were, but it’s all out of love.

[jupiter-va]

Omg I also never thought of Abby with a gun play thing but now it has me thinking thoughts as well…I need to hear yours!!

Okay I've had a nap and I'm a bit more energized so here we go. These are SFW and NSFW btw (This got long I'm sorry, also, I'm better at dirty talking than I am at writing about sex lol)

✧˖° ‧Abby and her Guns ✧˖°

CW: talks of guns/consensual gunplay, mean!abby, degradation (kinda)

||MDNI

❥I completely agree with the ask I got earlier saying that Abby has sort of a fixation on them. Not in a weird way, she just kinda likes knowing how they work, how each part connects to the other, etc.

❥I'm not much of a gun girly, but I am southern and a lot of people I know have guns so based on my limited knowledge, I think her gun of choice is like a hybrid of a Glock and another pistol, can't recall the name (canonically, it's just called the "Military Pistol" in the game, correct me if I'm wrong but that's what it looks like). But I'm thinking she like's compact pistols for everyday use in general cus they're smaller than a full sized handgun, but they pack a punch and are easy to conceal which is useful for obvious reasons

❥I imagine she keeps them in the best condition she possibly can, of course she does, she needs them almost daily

❥It's one day when she's taking guns apart and cleaning them that you notice just how good she looks doing it. She looks good doing everything, but with this, the look of concentration on her face, combined with how swiftly she takes them apart and puts them back together without fumbling or breaking a sweat. The confidence and precision in her movements is enough to make you squirm and she notices

❥She's quick to break her concentration for the sole purpose of teasing you, asking you to come closer as she rattles off her knowledge about each separate gun to you.

❥She innocently "shows" you the best places to aim for when shooting someone. Slowly dragging an (unloaded) pistol from the waistband of your pants to your midsection, and applying a slight pressure to your stomach with the barrel of the gun

❥She'd notice you squirming/whining and honestly, I think she'd be a little mean about it

"You're sick, you know that baby? Making those pretty sounds for me, all because I've got a gun to your tummy?"

"You do realize how fucked up it is that you're into this, right?"

❥You're more than aware of how fucked up it is, but as she drags the gun from your midsection to your chest up to your neck, until she finally stops, resting the pistol up under your chin, you honestly can't bring yourself to care

❥Someone brought up the idea of Abby fucking you while holding a gun up to your stomach and honestly, whoever it was ate with that, I agree wholeheartedly, however, for the past 20 minutes I've been thinking about her having you get on all fours while having the gun to your back. You can't see it, but you can feel it and you hear the click each time she pulls the trigger and it just ups the sensation you feel by 100

❥Of course, the gun isn't loaded, but that doesn't stop Abby from taking you from behind and dragging the pistol down your back, stopping every so often to pull the trigger. It can't hurt you, but each click of the gun sends chills down your spine in the best way

❥Despite how fucked out and overstimulated you get, it's almost like Abby can't help but to fuck you harder, making sure she drags this out for as long as she can. She loves watching as each click of the gun jolts you back into reality and listening as your now incoherent murmurs grow louder and more desperate with each thrust.

Yeah, this is gonna have to be an audio lol, I have more things I wanna say but I'm much better at articulating them when I'm speaking as if I'm actually in the scenario rather than writing it down.

[honeytama]

thinkin about best friends to lovers movie night w/ matty d

goofy fluff n smut 18+ w fem!reader under the cut

i’m just thinkingggg like,,, watching YOUR favorite movies and rotting on the couch with him one night. ofc we know you’ve had to endure (you love it) watching lotr with him, but finally he agrees to watch your favs bc he’s your bestie (he’s in love with you)

it’s like the princess diaries and tangled and selena or smth, he says he “doesn’t think he’ll like them” pfft

now i’m thinking about crying in his arms watching selena no one touch me

anyway,,,,

you guys make popcorn and eat your favorite snacks and sip on caffeinated bevs.

he’s surprisingly well behaved, but he has to throw in some snarky comments about the plot/music/anything

“why doesn’t she just—,”

“matt, shut up”

“y/n, this song 🤢”

“MATT, SHUT UP”

for the first movie, maybe you’re on opposite sides of the couch and he gets to use the chaise because “he lives there” 🙄. but you just kind of attract to him, like a magnet, and by the middle of the 2nd movie your legs are propped up and intertwined with his

you’re used to touching each other. he likes to rub his feet on yours,,, and you kinda hate that it gives you body tingles.

he’ll also rests his hand on your bare thigh; he never realizes but he likes to tap his fingers on your skin while you wait for the next movie to load

or when he likes the beat to one of the songs

“i knew u liked the soundtrack :D”

“it’s just a habit,,, no one likes this! 😒” keeps tapping anyway

… 🤨

back to his hand on your thigh *ahem*

something you’ll never get used to is how sexually frustrated matt will make you feel. it HURTS

and you know that he knows he does it on purpose but he just never actually acts on it. he could’ve had you in his bed, anywhere really, SO LONG AGO

but tonight he’s insatiable, and he wants to be big spoon and cuddle w his hand under your shirt on your tummy,, he wants you with your legs in his lap and your arm around his neck,, he just wants your body as close as possible and it makes you dizzy and your cooch is on fire

…and his dick is hard,,,, you can’t help but notice the pressure under your calf as your legs are in his lap.

he *coughs* to cover up moans when you readjust yourself or reach over him to get popcorn so he can peek down your shirt

once he’s had enough of your teasing yes you do it on purpose…

“ok, that’s enough,” he says assertively. gives you that classic matt glare, “you are going to get on top of me or not?”

you practically scramble to straddle his thighs.

you get to kiss him for the very first time; his lips are plump, so soft, and salty from the popcorn. they taste so good. everything just feels right with his tongue in your mouth.

matt grips your hips and guides your heat over his cock, straining in his shorts. of course, you take the lead and grind down on him while making out with him feverishly

“take these off” he pulls at your bottoms

“matt, my movie ;-;”

“y/n, this is your one chance to ride me don’t ruin it for sleeping beauty”

“her name is rapunzel 🙄☝️”

— — —

I COULD SAY SO MUCH MORE SIGH

what’s ur fav movie u think matt would hate (actually love but would not admit)? 😚

[spideryuu]

HUGE ME, PLEASE || SUKUNA ; ONE-SHOT

🖇ᘎ warning(s): f!reader, smut, dirty talk, pet names (baby, darling, doll, princess...). 🖇ᘎ summary: you go to your boyfriend's house to be comforted, but he seems to have a different idea about how to comfort a person. 🖇ᘎ words: 1,2k

➥ spanish ver. here

— a/n: ik i said i wasn't going to write anything smut rn, but idk, inspiration comes to me at 4am and here i am, finishing writing this. ik it's bullshit but i'm really not used to writing this kind of fics. and sorry if there's any grammatical mistake. T.T

You were outside in front of the front door of your boyfriend's house. You had doubts about whether to call or not, but the cold penetrating your bones was beginning to bother you, which made you decide to finally choose to call.

You waited a few seconds that seemed like years, and when you saw that no one came to open, you sighed and turned around, but you stopped immediately when you heard a squeak.

"Honey?" a deep voice asked behind you.

As soon as you saw Sukuna's eyes, you couldn't hold back your tears for much longer. This action worried him, but his pride was too big to just go and hug you.

"What happened?"

"Can I be whit you?" you asked, sobbing. "I can't be alone at home right now."

Sukuna nodded his head, allowing you to enter. You thanked him quietly and passed. The first thing you did was sit down, but not before taking off your shoes, and then you let out a long sigh.

The tears were no longer came out, but you were still sniffling and you felt like at any moment you were going to look like a running faucet again. Your boyfriend had sat next to you, in silent. He assumed you wanted your space and that's what he was trying to do.

“Thank you for letting me in.” you broke the silence after a few minutes.

"Y/N, you know you can always come here. Your panties are still in my closet, by the way"

"You fucking dummy." you laughed.

Some might say your boyfriend was an insensitive piece of shit, but he knew damn well that all you wanted right now was to forget about everything and just laugh until your tummy hurt.

"But you're my dummy, so I guess that's fine."

Sukuna couldn't help but smile slightly, making you nervous.

"Do you want to drink som-?"

He couldn't finish the sentence when he felt something in his arm. You huged him so bad as if he were the only thing that tied you to this world, squeezing your eyes tightly so that no tears would come out again.

"Y/N?"

"Just, let's be like this, please."

"Okay." he sighed.

He didn't like physical contact but when it was you, he always tried to make an effort knowing how much you liked to express your affection through that thing.

You both were like that for a few minutes. You still had your eyes closed and didn't try to open them until Sukuna spoke again.

"Hey Y/N."

You raised your head only to notice that a shy reddish color appeared on his cheeks, something that surprised you. You turned away immediately, thinking you had done something wrong.

"I'm so sorry, did I go too far?"

"No idiot, it's just that you've been whit your tits on my arm for too long" Sukuna said, making you now also embarrassed and understand what was happening.

“My God, I'm sorry.” you apologized again without being able to see his face.

You stood up, ready to leave and stop feeling like if you were bothering, but Sukuna grabbed your arm and asked:

"Where are you going? You don't want me to take care of this alone, do you?"

You had your head down. You couldn't understand how your boyfriend with a simple phrase could make you from extremely sad to extremely nervous; maybe a fuck was what you needed to get all those thoughts away.

Sukuna could see your desesperation, which gave him the green light to continue. He was a terrible psychologist, but when it was about your body, he was an expert.

He got up and stood behind you. You could feel his slow breathing hit your neck, warming it. With one hand he played with some of your locks while with the other one, he gently caressed your hip.

"Y/N..." he whispered again.

You could tell how desperate he was to rip your clothes off right there, but he didn't want to be so rude.

You turned around and looked at his eyes. You didn't know why, but that was enough to make you cry again. Sukuna was about to ask you, but you didn't even let him open his mouth when you put your lips against his. Surprised but not disgusted, he returned your kiss, completely forgetting about the question.

You were still crying, and it was all very strange, but you needed him to cheer you up in the best way he knew how.

You pushes Sukuna on the couch, breaking the kiss, while you stood there, staring at the noticeable bulge in his pants.

"What's wrong? Why do you stop?" he asked, holding your wrist.

"Do I seem attractive to you? I mean, do you feel like my body is okay? "

Your boyfriend looked at you, surprised to hearing such a question.

"Y/N, if I'm honest with you, the only thing I want right now is for you to sit on top of me and let me fuck you for hours. And all because of that body. Do you really think you disgust me?"

You were speechless at that response. You didn't think he was going to be, well, that honest, but now you were even more nervous.

You wanted to believe him, but something told you no, and you needed that something to shut up as soon as possible.

Sukuna gently guided you to his lap. You rested your head on his chest because it was impossible for you to see his eyes.

"Move."

But you didn't obey him.

"Y/N please, I feel like I'm going to explode if you don't move now."

"And you're not going to take off your clothes?"

He didn't answer, he just grabbed your hips and did the work for you. You let out a soft moan as soon as you felt his cold hands touching your skin, a moan that Sukuna enjoyed. He needed to hear more.

He continued moving your hips while all you could do was keep your head in his chest, feeling your pussy throb. You didn't think you could hold out like this much longer, but Sukuna seemed to enjoy watching you squirm and silently ask for him to do even more.

He wanted to hear you say it, say that you needed him. Normally at this point he would have discreetly forced you, but he was being patient since you were still bad. If it weren't for that, he would have made you have at least one orgasm by now.

"Sukuna..." you whispered between gasps.

"Hmm?" was the only thing he answered while he played with your nipples.

"Can you just?"

"Can I what?"

"Hug me. You can do it?" you asked, moaning weakly.

Your pussy was wet enough to not want a lube. You needed Sukuna to make you moan and come until you couldn't think about anything other than his cock entering and out of you roughly.

“Are you sure you just want me to do that?” he asked caressing your back and playing with the closure of your bra this time.

"Yeah..."

"You're such a hot liar, but it's alright princess. But then you will have to take care of this mess you've made down here" he smiled, wrapping you in his warm arms.

[queen-of-roaches]

Sigh.

How BROZONE will react to you on your period.

Kill me.

Warning: nothing, just fluff and comfort

Request for more, idc what you want I’ll give it.

Hopefully I have enough sanity.

Theres also some curse words, so beware <3

Let’s start with the man himself,

THE MAN, THE MYTH, THE LEGEND

JOHN DORY.

Good luck.

Dude literally freaks the HELL out once you tell him your in pain

Do you REALLY expect him to know what a period is? He’s been living in the middle of nowhere for like 20 years with no social contact with anyone.

Once you say “I’m on my period” he’s confused, once you explain it to him (however you want idc) he’s disgusted but also concerned for you

I mean who wouldn’t after being told you piss blood every single month and have terrible cramps all day.

I would like to imagine once you explained, he would take care of you. Like give you cuddles, give you whatever you need, medicine, food, chocolate, water, etc etc.

After giving you everything you need for the day he comes into bed with you and snuggles with you

He probably suffocated you during the night on accident when you both were sleeping

The pressure on your stomach felt nice since he’s all warm and stuff.

SPRUCE/BRUCE

:/

Spruce? Well he isn’t as worried as JD, but he’s still a little concerned

Once you tell him your cramps hurt like hell, he’ll give you stuffy for your tummy and water and food that you requested for

He would lay next to you in your bed, you on your phone and him holding you from behind. His chest against your back.

He would rub your hip as he snuggled against you

The plushie against your stomach kinda helped a little.

The plushie had a little pressure against your tummy which felt kinda nice.

He has like 13 kids, ofc he knows what a period is.

He would go to the store and get you pads, tampons, or whatever things you need.

He just lets you sleep in for the week instead of working in the restaurant

You can’t lie he’s pretty cute when it came to comfort ❤️

CLAY

Baby boy Clay is a little worried.

I mean he’s used to Viva having her period I guess

But he’s just a little confused on how to take care of you.

He went to viva to ask for help-

Once he got some info, he asked what YOU wanted.

You told him you just wanted him to be with you through this, or whatever

He would sit on your bed, his back against the head board

He would lay your head on his lap and talk about one of the books he read in the sad book club

You listened to him speak sadly about the book that was about a black widow who ate her husband-

He’s weird in books

You could tell by this conversation.

He would also make you food if you want, and give you some water or a drink of your choice.

While your head laid on his lap he would rub your back, slowly going up

Resting his hand on your neck, his hand scooted up and played with your (long, short) hair.

FLOYD!

Jesus. Floyd is the most baby emo boy when it comes to you already.

When you said you were on your period he melted and started to tell you words of encouragement.

He got extra blankets and shut the windows, closing the curtains.

He turned the lights off, gave you water, soup, a heating pad, rubs on your thighs and tummy, and turned on the tv watching ‘the Lorax.’

He would be in between your legs, his head on top of your stomach as he caressed your thighs.

It felt nice to be touched by Floyd, he was always so gentle and soft when it came to comfort.

He placed a soft kiss on your tummy, saying “it’s okay…” and “I’m here”.

He’s such a sweetie boo ✋🤨

Idk if I should do Branch or not. I’ll work on it tho

[princeoftheeternalbog]

Marco brainrot :( he's so kind and handsome and strong I WANT TO BITE HIM

Im sorry if hes ooc im still getting used to writing.

SFW!

Marco the phoenix x reader

You presume your downfall can be attributed to a Mr. Portagus D Ace.

You don't know what he said but considering how drunk he was last night when you caught him whispering to Marco and the way he's now avoiding you, it must've been something. And the way Marco is staring at you right now is a pretty big indicator of the topic(your big fat crush).

Seriously though, it's really distracting.

You think that if you don't acknowledge it, maybe he won't either and then everything can be normal and fine and the same.

This is what you tell yourself as you retie the same knot you've been trying to tie for the last 3 minutes, Marco's gaze burning on the back of your neck. The sweltering heat of this islands climate doesn't really help the anxiety tummy ache you have but it's not like you can go visit the ship's doctor because he's- oh right behind you apparently.

"I'm sure I taught you better than this"

And then he's right in your space, strong arms curling around you, caging you in and he hooks his head over your shoulder. He starts pulling the knot apart.

"Distracted-yoi?"

His voice is lilted, you think he's teasing you but you can barely hear what he's saying with how the blood is rushing to your head. You do a half hearted little nod as you watch his hands move, muscles and tendons flexing, you wonder how strong they are and how they would feel holding you and you really hope also that you aren't drooling.

When he's finished, he doesn't step away like you expect. Instead his hands come to rest on your waist, gentle but firm, and you feel like you're going insane.

He hums lightly behind u, tightens his grip ever so slightly and then presses a barely-there-kiss to your shoulder before moving away. By the time your brain comes back online and you turn around he's nowhere to be found on deck.

"What the fuck"

Your whispering feels very loud now that you're alone.

-

With how distracted you are, you end up getting sent to your room by one of the assistant doctors to 'cool down'. You proceed to spend the next 2 hours before dinner alternating between frantic pacing and staring at the wall.

How are you actually supposed to proceed from here? Does this mean he reciprocates your feelings? Did he just think it would be funny- no he's not like that and pops wouldn't allow someone to do that. But how the hell are you supposed to bring that up??

The chaotic stream of thoughts are interrupted by a light tap tap tap on your door.

"Heyy... can i come in"

Its Ace. He sounds scared like he's worried you might hurt him for his little slip up.

He's right. Murder is on the to-do list.

"Sure but you waive your right to safety" Your tone is bitey but not cold because even though he snitched, you did get a kiss out of it.

His sigh of relief is loud as the door swings open,

"I really thought you weren't gonna let me in after-"

"Don't remind me."

"Yep right sorry" He looks pale and you decide to give him some grace.

"...He kissed me"

"WHAT"

"DON'T BE SO LOUD"

"HOW CAN I NOT BE WHEN YOU DROP SOMETHING LIKE THAT"

"JUST STOP YELLING"

"YOU STOP YELLING"

"OKAY THEN"

"OKAY"

You look at each other. He's grinning at you and you finally let yourself feel just the giddy butterflies.

"He kissed me"

"I knew it was gonna work out"

"No you didn't"

"No I didn't"

"I don't know what to do now though"

His brow furrows, "What do you mean, he kissed you so that's like a confession right? you're like dating now"

"Well it was like- he kissed my shoulder"

"If anything that sounds more intimate, I'm not seeing the issue"

"Well he didn't say anything about it"

"So you say something"

"NO"

"DON'T SHOUT"

"I'M NOT"

"OKAY"

"But seriously what would I even say, 'oh hi, you know when you basically cradled me against you on the deck and kissed me did that like mean anything or were you just trying something different?' No way, I'll sound stupid"

His face softens and his tone is a lot more reassuring when he says, "I'm sure it did mean something"

"How can you know" Your voice wobbles and this is so embarrassing.

"Just- why don't you sit next to him now at dinner?"

"But that's your usual spot?"

"I'll move up a bit"

"No I don't want to cause you problems too- AND people will definitely point it out"

"No they won't"

"Yes they will"

"No come on just- hey slow down" You're speedwalking out of the room like you can't hear him.

-

Nobody does point it out but you still wish you weren't pressed side to side with your division commander right now.

Ace had somehow managed to distract you enough that you didn't even notice Marco was the one moving to sit by you. It had ended up with Ace in Marco's usual place, you in Ace's and Marco in yours. What's worse is that Ace is now stuffing his face, paying no mind to conversation, so you have no distraction from the heavy, warm hand that's settled on your knee.

It's so hard to eat when you feel likr you heart is about to burst out of your chest. Still you manage to choke down a fair amount, 1. because it's your favourite and 2. because if your mouth is full then you don't have to talk to Marco.

You tilt your head to look at him and lock eyes, his mouth lifts a bit at the corners and he squeezes your knee gently before turning back to whatever conversation he was having. His calm demeanor is not at all helping.

By the time you've eaten your fill, you feel like you're vibrating. You're quick to stand up from the table and rush to put your plate in the pile before practically sprinting out of the hall. You know he's watching you go but you honestly think your blood pressure is hitting a new all time high.

-

The next few days or so go pretty much the same. Marco doing something that is heart attack worthy and you running away but trying to make it seem like you're not.

In this timeframe he has; caught you bridal style after the ship rocked too harshly, given you his shirt after a wardrobe mishap on an island(not mentioning the way he covered you up with his wings to protect your privacy), licked some spare icing off the corner of your mouth- which nearly made you faint- and that's only the half of it.

Coincidentally, you are now also dealing with another problem. A new recruit seems to have taken quite a liking to you and is apparently making it their mission to bother you every spare second of the day.

-

"Goodmorning!"

"...morning"

"Ah your sweet voice is such a good mood booster...though I would like to hear it even earlier"

Their tone is- well it's attempting to be sultry and the smirk on their face tells you that was definitely an innuedo but before you can reply with something in the realm of 'thats inappropriate', a strong, stern voice cuts through the air.

"Then how about you take the second late shift tonight."

You nearly laugh.

"W-well I don't uhm- I didn't- yes sir"

Their voice is defeated as they return to their duties but you won't lie, you don't even feel a twinge of empathy because thank god you don't have to deal with that anymore.

You turn slowly, because despite the rookies comment it's still barely daylight, and you are tired.

"Thank you. I could've dealt with it though" You can't help the way you smile when you look at him god you must look so silly.

"I know"

He's grinning lazily at you, posture relaxed and open.

"But you're important to me, I can't risk losing you to someone else-yoi"

You feel a rush of butterflies in your stomach and you cant help the giggle that escapes your mouth. You cringe, slapping a hand over your mouth because you don't giggle, you're not a giggler, how are you always embarrassing yourself. His grin widens more and he steps close to you,

"Cute...but let me see your pretty face hm?"

His hand is gentle in the way it grabs your wrist and tugs but you still didn't expect the strength there so you stumble forwards slightly. He seems to use this as an opportunity and his other arm curls tight around your waist and pulls you flush.

He clicks his tongue at you,

"Careful"

He somehow pulls you even closer together, your chests are touching and his thigh is brushing the inside of your own. He's so close to your face and he's leaning in and your lips brush and-

"Commander!"

You can see the way Marco's mouth twists in displeasure and to be honest you feel just as disappointed.

You feel dazed as he steps away from you to talk to whoever had decided to interrupt. You just keep replaying the moment in your head, the way he held you like you were everything. You don't even notice his conversation is finished until a warm hand brushes your cheek.

"huh"

"Lost in thought again-yoi?"

He looks slightly less irritated now but the lines of frustration are still noticeable in his face.

"I have to go back to the med bay now"

"Okay"

You still feel hazy to be honest, the fact that he was so close is just melting your brain. But you're cognizant enough to recognise the way his face drops ever so slightly and then you make up your mind.

Before you can chicken out or throw up, your hand comes up and grips the front of Marco's shirt and you yank him towards you. He doesn't have time to react before you're sliding your mouth over his, sweet and smooth.

You pull back,

"I'll see you later then yeah?"

He looks like he's been struck dumb.

"...Yeah"

But by the time he's responded you're already bouncing off inside to continue with your chores.

-

Welp okay that's the end because im not sure where else to go with it but i hope its good. I just get so sad there's not that much Marco fics😔. If you want a part two i can see what i can think of, but if you have ideas feel free to share also! I will write nsfw but I don't know if it'll be good so fair warning :)

[hyunniiees]

"princess, please turn over"

soft!dom seulgi me thinks. (ik she's talking about the pc but if i hadn't known that fact, i'd think she's asking me to turn over and get on my [REDACTED] and [REDACTED].)

for one, i think soft!dom seulgi loooooves to eat you out. arms around your thighs as she toys with your clit and you can't help but to squirm under her with how good her mouth and tongue feels. not only that, she's a sucker for eye contact. you'd tilt your head down to catch a glimpse of her in between your thighs and you're met with the moooost sexiest eyes ever. eating you out while looking at you with those ferocious eyes of her will immediately tip you off and toss you into an orgasmic state. and baby, she'll gladly lick it all up. 🤤

as you're trying to recover, she hovers over you and begins to press kisses on your skin, cutely giggling as she nuzzles her face in the crook of your neck. she pulls away to look at you and pecks the tip of your nose (atp you'd think that she's done with you but nope!)

with the softest smile on her face, she'll move back and pat your thighs before asking, "princess, be a good girl and turn over for me, please?"

girl... can you even say no? of course not so you'll turn to lay on your front and basically let her do anything and everything that she wants to you. ❤️ she'll fondle and admire your ass, giving it a few light slaps. (light slaps cause she's a cutie and she's scared to hurt you even though you don't mind it at all)

she'll also press kisses on your shoulders and your back while whispering sweet nothings to you,

"you're sooo pretty, my baby."

"i'm yours and.. you're mine."

once she has admired your ass enough, she'll spread them apart and teasingly rub the tip of her cock/strap on your pussy before coating the whole length with your wetness then pushing it into you, letting out soft groans as she praises you with her deep voice.

"you're doing amazing, princess. you're such a good girl for me."

she'll then raise your ass a little higher to place a pillow underneath your tummy before grabbing onto your hips, slowly beginning to thrust into you. at one point, you're just so done with her going slow so you'll try and push your ass back against her but her strong hands will hold you down and she'll tell you to behave or she'll stop. whining softly, you comply and she'll praise you once more before starting to fuck you into the bed, leaving you breathless and drooling onto the pillow.

as soon as you've reached your climax, seulgi will grip harder onto your hips and continue to pound into you, overstimulating the shit out of you.

"take it, princess. take my cock."

all you can do is cling onto the sheets and let out moans after moans, mouth hung open as you begin to feel your legs shake. she'll hover over you and press her body against yours, turning your head as she leans down to kiss you while still thrusting into you.

returning her sloppy kisses, you both come undone, letting out muffled groans as she fully collapses on top of your sensitive body. she will then start to plant more kisses on your skin as you try to catch your breath before softly asking if you're okay and if you need anything.

"you did so, so good, my princess. i love you."

she will give you the best, best aftercare. will pamper you, treat you like a queen, makes sure that you drink enough water, clean you up real good and you'd do the same to her cause she deserves it as well. once you both have settled, she'll pull you into her arms and shower you with so much kisses. will let out the softest giggle and cuddle you tightly until you both fall asleep.

[emojellyace08]

♡ 𝐋𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐦 𝐌𝐞𝐧 𝐱 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 (𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐤𝐬) ♡

𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞: 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐥𝐮𝐟𝐟 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐞𝐬 (𝐩𝐥𝐮𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐨𝐟𝐜)

"My love? You alright?" you heard that familiar, comforting voice of your boyfriend. Him placing the plate of fresh fruits on the coffee table as you were slumped on the couch, blanket all over your shivering body as you are over-thinking again.

"Yeah, I was just... thinking about stuff." you bitterly responded as you tried to make up a lie, but when it comes to your lover you can't help but to feel vulnerability. Not because you fear him, but because you fear that your personal issues and insecurities can be a burden to his now stressed state. You not wanting to add up on his problems even though you're far from being a bothersome. But that familiar vulnerability that you are feeling is because of his ability to comprehend and understand your situations and issues. Like putting himself on your shoes. That's one of the reasons why you adored him out of all the long list about why he is an amazing boyfriend.

"Darling, can we talk about it? Come here babe." he sat down on the soft mattress, tapping the space beside him as he coos you, making you sigh while smiling and cuddling next to him to add up the warmth on the chilly morning. "Babe, what's making you upset? I'm not going to judge you." he softly assured as he strokes your soft hair. You gulped as you were hesitating to open up. But you knew him for a long time, and you have the hopes that he'll listen to you.

"Well, um I was thinking about the day at the beach when we hang out with your friends." you started as he leans to your direction with your head on his lap, a sign that he's interested and listening while you lying down making him your personal pillow. "Hm, what about it? Did they do something offensive to you?" he curiously asked as you gathered your courage. It's now or never. "I was just thinking about your female friends. They just look so attractive on their... bikinis. I couldn't even have the guts to wear one because of..." "Your stretch marks? *Sigh* My lovely and gorgeous girlfriend, sit up straight." You groaned as you sat up, face to face with him as you made eye contact. The bastard didn't even gave you a warning as he fills your face with his affectionate and heart-warming kisses and pecks, making you giggle and warm up as you forget about your worries.

"Jesus Christ! Stop! It tickles!" you stated as he finally sees you crack a smile on your pretty face. Lying back on the mattress, he fills kisses on your face then to your neck, down to your tummy. Looking up back at you as he asks permission to lift up your over sized hoodie. "Can I?" You were a bit hesitant, but you gave all of your trust to him, making you nod. Lifting up the clothing, he smiles as he stares at your beauty marks. It's a piece of art of him. You're like a tiger whom she finally received her marks. It's not the only thing that makes you so unique & breath-taking to him. Your personality, the way you treat others, fighting-spirit, talents, your looks, even your flaws are so beautiful and mesmerizing to him. "Ah, so pretty." he complimented making you feel butterflies in your stomach. "My friend says that I look like a zebra with these." you half-joked as he chuckles softly, not intentionally wanting to hurt your feelings. "If that's the case, then you are my cute zebra." he mumbles as you roll your eyes because of his cheesiness at times, you replying with a playful "Oh shut up." as you both laughed softly at each others' silliness. He closes his eyes as he leans closer to your skin, exchanging eye contact with you between breaths before kissing your stretch marks as a sign of assurance that you're not only pretty on the outside. And for your information, he also loves everything about you even at your worst. He's your sweet, sweet, boy.

𝐃𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐞𝐥 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐤, 𝐉𝐚𝐲 𝐇𝐨𝐧𝐠, 𝐙𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐋𝐞𝐞, 𝐕𝐚𝐬𝐜𝐨 (𝐋𝐞𝐞 𝐄𝐮𝐧 𝐓𝐚𝐞), 𝐉𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐤, 𝐄𝐥𝐢 𝐉𝐚𝐧𝐠, 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐧 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐞, 𝐉𝐨𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐒𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐠, 𝐉𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐊𝐢𝐦, 𝐒𝐢𝐧𝐮 𝐇𝐚𝐧, 𝐉𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐊𝐰𝐨𝐧, 𝐁𝐫𝐚𝐝 𝐋𝐞𝐞, 𝐉𝐚𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐘𝐨𝐨𝐧, 𝐃𝐮𝐤𝐞 𝐏𝐲𝐞𝐨𝐧, 𝐉𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐠 𝐊𝐰𝐚𝐤, 𝐉𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐊𝐢𝐦, 𝐘𝐨𝐨𝐣𝐢𝐧,𝐘𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐠, 𝐉𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐋𝐞𝐞 (𝐃𝐆), 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐉𝐢𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐤

"Honey, you okay there? You've been there for an hour now the others are waiting for you." you tried to stand up on the cold, marble floor of the shower stall as you tried to put on your swimwear but you couldn't do it. You admit that you're not only unattractive but you're also weak. So weak that you couldn't even brush off the comments and blabbers behind your back about your stretch marks and how you weren't up for today's beauty standards. You keep hearing about harsh whispers like this that you couldn't even bring yourself to stand up for yourself.

"Y-Yeah I'll be there in a minute." you wiped off your tears as your breath hitches, unable to hide the pain that has been lingering on your chest and mind for a while now. "Wait, are you crying? Darling what's wro-" "I got this I promise!" you unintentionally hissed back as your own partner as you gulped harshly. You didn't mean to be rude. But you want to be alone for now, even though you yourself now that brushing off the topic and hiding your insecurities and shielding yourself from criticisms won't help. But you weren't in a stable mood and thinking right now.

"Love, I know there's something that is making you upset right now. Please, can we talk about it? As partners? As, your first best friend too?" It's true that he's not only your entitled lover, but he also felt like a family. Not only your romantic soulmate but also the platonic one. That's why he feels like home, almost like paradise as how he comforts you at your worst days as you do the same for you. But he also has other things to work on. So you didn't want to be a burden to him.

Opening the door, he notices your red-swollen eyes that are tired from weeping quietly on the cold space and you weren't on your swimming suit either. "Love, what happened? Did somebody hurt you?" he leans over to your figure which is more smaller than him, cupping your face as you sniffed trying to find your words. "I'm fine." "No you're not. Please tell me what is wrong, I'm getting worried and I want to help." He's always so understanding and patient with your episodes like this, he's almost like your guardian angel despite his intimidating face and figure at times. "I-I'm scared. Going out there. There's so many people and I'm so self conscious about my body, my stretch marks. It just sucks". you finally let your emotions get to you as you covered your face, trying to hide your crying but he gets closer to you. Catching you on his firm arms as he kisses your head, rubbing your back and hugging you to soothe your emotions. You stayed like this for moments as he faces you "Babe look at me. You're the most beautiful woman I have met. And do you really think that I only care about your body? For that thing other men lust for? I know, I'm a guy. I get attracted to big butts, big boobs, smooth skin, pretty faces but it's not just a fundamental to start a relationship. See now?" he smiles as he cheers you up. Yet you were a bit afraid that he is sugar-coating his words. "D-Do you really... mean that?" you confronted him but he sighs as he gives you a sweet kiss on your lips for reassurance. He taste like his favorite fruit soda with a mix of bubblegum he's been chewing earlier, so intoxicating. "As long as your happy and healthy, I'm happy too. Cheer up darling."

𝐆𝐮𝐧 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐤 ( 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐛𝐢𝐭 ), 𝐓𝐚𝐞𝐬𝐨𝐨 𝐌𝐚, 𝐉𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐠 𝐊𝐰𝐚𝐤, 𝐒𝐞𝐨𝐤𝐝𝐮 𝐖𝐚𝐧𝐠, 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐓𝐨𝐦 𝐋𝐞𝐞, 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐆𝐚𝐩𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐊𝐢𝐦, 𝐉𝐨𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐒𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐠, 𝐃𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐞𝐥 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐤, 𝐙𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐋𝐞𝐞, 𝐕𝐚𝐬𝐜𝐨 (𝐋𝐞𝐞 𝐄𝐮𝐧 𝐓𝐚𝐞), 𝐉𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐤, 𝐉𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐊𝐢𝐦, 𝐒𝐢𝐧𝐮 𝐇𝐚𝐧, 𝐋𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐧, 𝐊𝐮𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐚 𝐑𝐲𝐮𝐡𝐞𝐢, 𝐕𝐢𝐧 𝐇𝐨 𝐁𝐢𝐧 (𝐕𝐢𝐧 𝐉𝐢𝐧), 𝐌𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐨𝐤, 𝐇𝐮𝐝𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐀𝐡𝐧

"You don't want to post your bikini on your Instagram? It can get a lot of followers." he stated, him reading the newspaper of the day with his fresh and hot cup of Americano as you sat on the dining table, cringing at the idea. You keep seeing those Insta girls posting on your for you page about their flawless body. No traces of stretch marks, heck even a single scar on their body. Compared to you, who doesn't only look like a stressed and over-worked panda with you eyebags but also your body doesn't seem like attractive to today's standards.

"HELL NO! IF I DO THAT MY DIGNITY WOULD BE HUMILIATED!" you yelped as he scrunches his face, him having a negative reaction of your too loud voice in the morning. "C'mon give it a shot. It may work y'know." he half-teased as you mumbled something under your breath, being slightly offended about his statement. He can see your eyes water but you keep forcing yourself to not cry about it. "Hey, what's wrong? It's just a joke y'kno-" "YOU ALL KEEP SAYING THAT WITHOUT CONSIDERING MY FEELINGS! DON'T YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO FACE THE CROWD WITHOUT EMBARRASSING YOURSELF JUST BECAUSE THE SOCIETY EXPECTS TOO MUCH FROM YOU?" it clicked on him when you snapped. You are feeling insecure about your stretch marks again. "I didn't mean that-" he was cut off by you slamming your bedroom door. How can he make up to you?

He left you crying on the bed for hours, not because he doesn't care. It's in fact the opposite, he wants you to take your time to compose yourself. Gather your emotions as he gathers his own thoughts. He doesn't mean to insult you about it. It's almost a habit of you teasing each other as a joke, almost a flirting and love language between the two of you. But it looks like you're not in the mood to share his humor now, with you feeling blue.

"Babe, can you unlock the door? Please I want to talk about it." "Go away" you mumbled as you closed your eyes, trying to distract yourself from your negative thoughts with your music blasting on your ears again (yet you can still hear him despite your headphones). "C'mon. Can we talk about it? Talk my side as I also listen to you?" He may be a complete douche bag at times, but you can feel it when he's being sincere. When his voice softens. It's so weird, yet comforting too.

You groaned and grumpily opened the door as your teary eyes met with his worried orbs. "Baby, c'mere." he opened his arms, welcoming you in his touch. As much as you want to be mad at him, you can't help but cry and hug him back as warm tears fall from your face. "I'm being overdramatic again... I'm sorry." you apologized as you tried holding back your tears but his comforting touch is just making you more emotional. "It's okay. Your feelings are valid. I'm sorry too, I didn't mean to offend you y'know." he apologized back as he kissed your head. "You know what, you're actually pretty hot in that bikini". you can feel him smirk as you get out of his hug and slapped his arm, earning a laugh from the both of you. "Shut up you're at it again." "I'm just trying to make you smile. Besides my queen is the sexiest woman in the world and no other person should make you insecure, or I'm going to beat their ass." he smiled as he is comforting you making your gloomy mood better. "Isn't that person you?" "Wait wha-" "I'M JUST KIDDING!" you chuckled as you leaned to him, toes curling as you kissed his soft lips as he melts under your touch.

𝐆𝐨𝐨 𝐊𝐢𝐦, 𝐊𝐮𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐚 𝐑𝐲𝐮𝐡𝐞𝐢, 𝐕𝐢𝐧 𝐇𝐨 𝐁𝐢𝐧 (𝐕𝐢𝐧 𝐉𝐢𝐧), 𝐉𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐊𝐢𝐦, 𝐒𝐢𝐧𝐮 𝐇𝐚𝐧, 𝐘𝐨𝐨𝐣𝐢𝐧, 𝐆𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐞𝐨𝐛 𝐉𝐢, 𝐉𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐋𝐞𝐞 (𝐃𝐆), 𝐒𝐚𝐦𝐮𝐞𝐥 𝐒𝐞𝐨 (𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐛𝐢𝐭)

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crush crush crush | steddie X reader

eddie likes steve. he's not subtle about it. he's also brave about it, unlike you, and development: steve likes eddie back. you like both of them. well, ain't that just your fucking luck?

warnings: canon divergence, brief mention of homophobia/lgbtqphobia, polyamorous relationship, gn!reader (use of they/them pronouns), buckley!reader, fluff. and my already known absurd use of italics word count: 7.6k author's note: this one has been a long time coming! i started writing it so, so long ago, and it's finally ready! i really hope you enjoy it, and if you do, don't forget to reblog! comments are always appreciated as well ♡

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Eddie was not very subtle.

Well, you actually weren’t sure he was even trying to be subtle, but, if he was trying, it was definitely not working.

Not with all the stolen glances, and the closeness and proximity every chance he could get. Not with all the pet names, and the cat calls, and with the ‘getting nervous and panting and kind of sweaty’ every time he saw more skin than just arms - like a little stomach when a shirt lifted, or a neck when a head was thrown back in frustration.

And you got it. You could definitely understand the appeal. Steve was very handsome.

When he took off his shirt to dive into Lovers Lake to find a portal, while Eddie lit up a cigarette you looked away because you saw the way Robin glanced suspiciously at Nancy - honestly, Robin was the only one not appealed by Steve's lack of shirt - and you did not want that kind of glance being thrown at you too. And after Steve was bitted by those fucking demobats, you saw it in Eddie’s eyes how he wished it was him bandaging Steve up instead of Nancy - and you also kinda wished it was yourself. He got way too serious about throwing his vest at Steve ‘for his modesty’ too.

And when Eddie called Steve ‘big boy’, Harrington was not the only one who got flustered, because suddenly your head was filled with many images that were not appropriate for the running-from-the-cops-and-also-from-a-interdimensional-monster situation you were all in. Eddie seemed so proud for making Steve lose his words. You just stood in the back of the RV and tried to ground yourself instead of giving into the little green feeling growing inside your chest when Nancy sat at the seat beside Steve while he drove. You heard them talking about kids, for fucks sake.

And when Steve looked so worried about Nance, did everything he could to wake her from her trance, even started singing a song he thought she liked, and was later so focused on listening to her plan. When he gave you a tight hug right before he left with the girls to the Creel house, you almost melted into a puddle. Then he looked so worried about Eddie, asked him to not play the hero when the actual plan was about to start, you could understand if Eddie's heart skipped a beat because yours definitively did - and you were sure the metalhead wanted to say something else when he called out for Steve, but he settled for ‘make him pay’ instead.

And you actually thought it was a one-sided thing, but when Eddie woke up weeks later in a hospital bed, in a different state, after literally almost dying in your and Dustin’s arms; you, Dustin, and Steve were there to see him wake up, the huge smile plastered on Steve's face was enough to light up the whole room and Eddie's own smile reciprocated. And you looked at Dustin feeling like you were interrupting something. And they shared a hug, and Steve was cautious not to hurt Eddie's tummy filled with bandages and stitches. And you and Dustin said you were going to grab a coffee, and when you came back they looked a little pinker in the cheeks than they were before and their hairs were all out of place - Steve’s hair was never out of place.

So, yeah, you could understand Eddie's crush on Steve. With his brown soft hair, all prepped up with too much Farrah Fawcett hairspray (Dustin couldn’t keep a secret for his life), always smelling so good. And his caramel soft eyes, worried about everything and everyone around him but himself. And his preppy, stupid polo shirts and jeans combo, always ironed - you were pretty sure he ironed them himself. The freckles that went all the way from his neck down his torso and his back, splattered in such pretty patterns you kinda wanted to connect them like dots in a kid’s play. With your tongue, to be more precise.

But! YOU, specifically, did NOT have a crush on Steve. You just understood why Eddie did.

When all dust had settled and you were able to go back to Hawkins - thank god for Hopper coming back from the dead and giving Eddie all the alibis he needed, and thank god for their FBI friends for covering everything up as they did with the mall situation the year prior - Steve was very eager to have Eddie staying at his place while the metalhead (and his uncle, of course) searched for a new home. Because his trailer was destroyed, of course. And he was still recovering from all the injuries, of course!

Steve was very smart when he needed to be.

Not everyone in Hawkins was entirely convinced of the whole made-up story, and some people were still very rude to Eddie and the Hellfire boys on the streets, but Hopper was definitely more respected than Powell. So no matter what some people thought, the truth installed was that Eddie was innocent after all. Everyone just had to accept that.

After a while, as life went back to normal - as normal as it can be when you’ve saved the world more than once and half the town was under restoration because of an ‘earthquake’ - you started noticing how the boys were always together. Like when you’d pass by Family Video to see Robin (to see Robin, okay!) and Eddie was also there, leaning on the counter with a soft smile as Steve registered someone else’s borrowed tapes.

Or when you’d go downtown and see them together sharing a banana boat on the new Scoops Ahoy franchise that opened up again on Main Street. Or when you’d volunteer with Robin and Vickie to help those whose houses were destroyed and both boys were also already there, following each other around on their assigned tasks. Or when you went to parties or threw your own parties and they always came in together, never left each other’s side, and went back home together too, always just the two of them.

One day you went to Eddie’s work at the music store and Steve came in behind him as he stepped out of the ‘employees only’ door.

I mean, there’s only so much someone who’s not an employee can be doing with an employee inside a ‘employees only’ room. We all know that.

“Hey, guys,” you greeted, faking obliviousness as you went straight to the New Wave session that was slowly growing as more bands went famous across the country - famous enough to reach Middle Of Butt-Fuck Nowhere, Indiana.

“Oh, hey babe!” Eddie smiled as he came to your side. “What can I help you with today?”

You pretended not to shiver with the nickname. “Well, aren’t you employee of the month,” you mocked, looking at Steve (still behind Eddie) from the peripheral, whose cheeks just went pink. “Do you have New Order’s latest?”

“Oh, I think I saw it back there!” both yours and Eddie’s heads turned to Steve as he enthusiastically revealed, and if you thought he was pink before, he had just created a new shade of pink just then.

“I’ll go get it for ya,” Eddie gave you a smile trapped between real and fake and left for the infamous ‘employees only’ back room.

You smiled at Steve, your own smile trapped between soothing and teasing, and turned your attention back to the vinyls in front of you. A few moments passed in silence before he decided to talk again.

“You’re going to Robin’s this weekend?” you looked him straight in the eyes after his question. He could not be serious.

His prolonged silence made it clear that he was serious.

“You do realize it’s my house too?” you asked.

“Oh Jesus fuck, yeah, no, of course!” he waved around and you couldn’t help but smile. “Yeah, I know, you’re siblings and all, I keep forgetting that, ‘cause you’re nothing alike, of course it’s your house, it’s just, I was wondering maybe you had, like, another commitment, maybe a date, I dunno, can’t hurt to ask right!” he was babbling.

God, he was so cute.

No, scratch that. Forget it, you’ve never said that. Forget it right now!

“No plans at all this Saturday except to hang out with you nerds. Don’t worry,” you winked at him and he let out a sigh as he smiled.

Eddie came back from the inventory room, New Order’s ‘Brotherhood’ in his hands and that typical huge smile on his lips. “There you go, babe.”

You rolled your eyes playfully and paid for the vinyl before leaving, waving at them through the huge glass windows of the storefront. They waved back just before you saw them running to the ‘employees only’ room again.

Guess they were in their honeymoon phase.

You were completely fine and not envious at all.

-x-x-x-

Saturday arrived, and as you were serving soda to the kids playing board games on the coffee table in the living room, Steve and Eddie walked in knowing there was no need to knock. You walked past them as you went back to the kitchen to fetch some chips.

“There you are!” Eddie sounded excited, a six-pack in one of his hands while he pulled you in for a tight hug with the other one.

You smiled. “Where else would I be, doofus? Hey, dingus.” You waved at Steve through the cloud of Eddie’s frizz.

The boys followed you into the kitchen to put their stuff in the fridge. Nancy and Jonathan were intertwined leaning on the island and only let go of each other to say hello to the newcomers as you poured potato chips onto a big bowl and went back to the living room. Everyone else came back with their drinks in hand, including Robin and Vickie who were in the garden for some reason, and chatter began.

This was something you tried to do at least once a month, reunite with everyone including the kids - especially since Hopper and Joyce joined forces and decided to stay in Hawkins, god knows why but you were grateful for it.

That month the reunion was set on your and Robin’s house, your parents finding it weird that their adult offspring were friends with so many high schoolers when you explained that what you were having was not a party, but a friendly get-together. They let you host it anyway, even with the weirdness of it all, when you promised to clean the whole house - not just the living area where you’d all be at - afterward. And they went for a date that night, to give you the full house - very nice of them, and good for them, you guessed?

Everyone had been busier, with the younglings busy with high school and the young adults attempting at adulting, but you all felt the need to check in on each other every once in a while, and just hang out together in peace instead of trying to fight bullies, or Russians, or interdimensional assholes. Shared trauma was a great bonding experience!

A few hours later you, Mike, and Erica were fighting to decide which movie you were all going to watch when Steve and Eddie came back from the kitchen with a chocolate pie they had brought and several plates and forks. Eddie cleared his throat loudly and the room went quiet, looking at them.

“I, uh, we wanted to share something…” Eddie said as Steve put everything on the coffee table. You adjusted yourself in the bean bag you were lying on. “Me and Harrington, we, uh. It’s just, like. I don’t know, I don’t think you’ll be mad or anything. I mean, it’s not like it’ll be a first-time thing, I know you’re all cool with it, considering Robin and Vickie, it’s just. Uh.”

“We’re dating,” Steve went right to the point.

There was a loud silence for at least one whole minute before Dustin spoke up.

“Okay, and the actual news is?”

Eddie and Steve blinked at the same time.

“What,” was more of a deadpan than a question out of Harrington’s lips.

“You really thought we were all this dumb?” Lucas asked gesturing around to point at everyone in the room. Everyone was nodding along.

“Neither of you is subtle. Like, at all,” Max wasn’t even looking at them anymore, sharing a She-Hulk comic with El.

You couldn’t hold your laugh any longer and saw the unexpected couple looking at you immediately. “You knew too?” Eddie sounded really offended for some reason.

You laughed louder, almost falling out from the bean bag. “Are you not listening? Everyone knew! I went by your work this week and you came out of the back room together! Your clothes were all crumpled,” you pointed at Eddie and heard everyone giggling along.

“And we saw you coming out of a dressing room in that fancy store Steve likes. Also together,” Mike pointed at him and Will, who nodded enthusiastically, a shy smile growing on his lips.

“Eddie’s not even trying not to flirt with you in front of our other clients anymore,” Robin stated.

“You were licking on the same popsicle when we went to the lake the other day. At the same time,” Nancy pointed out.

“Nothing serving as a barrier between your tongues besides a very thin strawberry popsicle,” Jonathan concluded with a smirk.

Both boys looked actually astonished as if they were so sure they were hiding something. They looked at each other again before sighing and sitting down in the only tiny space left on the couch, Steve almost in Eddie’s lap. You turned your eyes away.

“So is this our celebratory pie? For our fist man-on-man couple of the group?” you asked, already diving in to get your piece. “Here’s to many more to come!” Mike choked on thin air, you pretended not to notice.

The conversation was easily shifted back to the movie discussion, the couple ‘news’ soon forgotten as you all settled back into your domestic routine, pies in hands, beers and sodas being shared (age appropriately!), and screaming about terror versus action. Again.

-x-x-x-

Robin had called your work in the middle of your (and hers) shift to invite you to come with her, Steve, and Eddie to the movies after all of your duties were over. You’ve said yes and thanked the gods you always took a change of clothes with you to work so you wouldn’t have to show up to the theater in your ugly uniform.

Not that there would be anyone there you wanted to impress. Of course not.

As you arrived, the boys were already there, but your sister was nowhere to be seen. “She’s in the bathroom or something?” you asked. They shared a glance.

“I thought you’d talked to her?” Steve questioned. You raised an eyebrow. “She wasn’t feeling so good, so she went home. Said she’s sorry.”

“Something about diarrhea,” Eddie grimaced and you sighed.

“Great, love being the third wheel,” you murmured under your breath. “You wanna go do this by yourselves? We can reschedule. Invite Jon and Nancy next time too.”

“No, we wanna go with you!” Steve stated quickly and Eddie coughed loudly. “We promise not to go overboard, okay? We’ll put you in the middle seat.”

“Also, not everyone in Hawkins is nice. Mostly no one, to be honest. So we’re not adept to PDA anyways,” Eddie concluded, shrugging. “Basically no one knows we’re dating except for you, our friends,” his voice was in a very low tone, almost whispered, to not draw attention.

You empathized, also keeping your voice low. “Yeah, that sucks. Robin and Vickie are always complaining about it, and they’re also not openly affectionate to each other in public places. And honestly, I’m really scared for them sometimes. I know Robs can stand up for herself and Vickie, but they’re also so tiny. Little babies,” you brought your thumb and index finger together, showing how really smol your younger sister and her girlfriend were. “And people are mean.”

“What’re some bigots in comparison to a real-life D&D monster, babe? Don’t worry,” Eddie put his arms around your shoulder, Steve on your other side, guiding you to the ticket booth.

Eddie paid for the tickets - something about a fly, yeah, the bug - and both you and Steve fought for the right to buy the popcorn, but while you were bickering Eddie went and bought those himself too. As you finally went to the screening room and took your seats, Steve was serious about you being in the middle. Eddie went to the bathroom while the trailers didn’t start.

“So that’s what he’s like as a boyfriend? Doesn’t let you buy stuff?” you curiously asked Steve while shoving a handful of popcorn into your mouth. You kept your voice low again so no one would easily hear you talking.

He smiled dreamily. “Yeah, especially since he’s been getting ‘clean money’, as he calls it, with his ‘grown up’ job.” He made quote marks with his fingers. “He’s a really thoughtful guy. I mean, that was already obvious before, but as a partner… it’s different, you know?” you nodded and asked him to continue. He was getting flustered, talking about the boy he liked made him look so cute… You just had to. It was all you would ever get from him, anyway. “He’s very affectionate, as you could guess. He has to always be touching me in some way. I thought I would get annoyed at some point, but it still hasn’t happened and, honestly, I don’t think it will. I like touching him at all times, too.

“He also likes to do everything together, even silly minor tasks like getting groceries or something. Gets me little gifts almost every day, and not always stuff he buys, but things he sees that remind him of me. Flowers that he steals from other people’s gardens, he once bought me a heart-shaped pebble. It’s so stupid,” he giggled.

Giggled!

“And I love it. He’s so kind. People treat him like shit most of the time, and he’s still always as polite as he can. Only fights back the really aggressive ones. Kids are scared of him because of their parents’ closed minds, but he approaches them and tells them not to fear, and plays stupid magic tricks to get them to like him. Helps old ladies cross the streets and shit. He’s probably the best person I know,” he was rambling. Your heart was so full. “And I had no idea, you know. That I could feel like this for another guy. Eddie calls himself my bi awakening,” you both shared a laugh.

“You deserve it, Steve. After Nancy…” you gulped lightly, and so did he. “I didn’t think you would ever get over her. And she wasn’t able to give you the love you deserved, not her fault obviously, but still true. It wasn’t meant to be between you two. But you and Eds really fit together. Pieces of a puzzle, Dingus and Doofus. You give each other the love you don’t give yourselves with those annoying low self-esteem of yours,” you nudged him with your shoulder and he looked down to laugh, but you saw his eyes watering.

After a while, he looked up. “Yeah, I guess that’s true. I’m really, really happy.”

His smile was really brighter, and his eyes sparkled more. He looked lighter as if part of the huge hero weight he carried on his shoulders had been lifted. You could imagine that the fact that your lives not being in constant danger helped, but love… Love gets you through anything. And you were really, really happy too - for them.

When Eddie came back from the bathroom, bowing for a girl to walk in front of him to her seat, the trailers were already starting. And the bright light from the screen enveloped him in a kind of aura, and his hair looked so fluffy, and his Motorhead shirt sleeves were rolled up to his shoulders, his arms covered in tattoos for show. His shredded jeans, and his chain belt, and his funny wonky walk, and the way he fiddled with his rings. He threw himself at the sit beside you, his arm instantly coming to the rest of your chair behind you while the other reached for the popcorn bowl on your lap, his huge trademarked smile plastered on his face and his beautiful calf eyes looking into yours. You gulped. Something inside your belly swirled.

“Ready for the film, babe?”

Your heart almost leaped out of your chest as you nodded and smiled back at him.

Shit.

You had a crush on Steve.

And you had a crush on his boyfriend.

You were so very screwed.

They gave you a ride home, even though your house was way off their own route, and made you sit between them in Eddie’s van too. Steve’s arm was around you and Eddie’s hand occasionally touched your arm or knee and they let you choose the songs - even though none of you shared musical taste by any means - while you commented on the movie. They even got off the van to give you hugs when you arrived home.

And although you had one of the best afternoons ever, you were also mentally exhausted.

Apparently, finding out you had crushes on two people who were dating each other and then spending your whole day trying not to make heart eyes at their every move was very draining.

Robin was in the living room, a random rom-com on the TV that she and Vickie were pretending to watch, while they were actually attached to each other’s mouths. They let go when they heard the door closing behind you though. Your parents were still not home from their jobs.

“Hey, how was the movie?” your sister asked excitedly. You raised an eyebrow.

“The movie was fun,” not that you had paid a lot of attention. “The being a third wheel part, not so much,” you got closer to them and messed up Robin’s hair. “I actually realized I have a massive crush on both of them and kinda wanna throw myself off a cliff right about now.”

You and your sister had absolutely no secrets between you (that’s how you ended up with her, Steve ‘The Hair’ Harrington, a random middle-school nerd and a very sassy ten-year-old trying to break into a secret Russian base under the town mall Summer of ‘85). So it was a no-brainer that you were gonna tell her about your crushes. And you knew she was gonna tell Vickie anyway, so you just said it with her there and then.

Vickie’s eyes widened with your confession, but Robin didn’t seem to bother. “Yeah, honestly, I had that figured out. I know you too well, ya’ know. Can’t hide shit from me anymore. I’m glad you uncovered your truth, though.”

“Fair,” you shrugged. “You look good for someone with diarrhea, by the way,” at that, she did look guilty about, while Vickie laughed loudly, but you wasted no more time before heading to the bathroom.

You needed a long, calming bubble bath to realign your chakras and rest your stupid, stupid little head.

Later that night, contradicting your expectations Vickie went back to her house, and Robin knocked on your door with a PB&J sandwich for you that she left on your nightstand. You were already under the covers, your head buzzing with so many thoughts and feelings that you were no closer to understanding. And apparently, your sister knew that. She laid down beside you, both of you on your sides facing each other.

“How you feeling?” she asked, basically whispering.

You whispered back: “Like shit. I dunno what to do.”

“Do you wanna do something about it?” her hand found yours under the covers.

“I don’t think there is something to be done about it, Robs. They’re dating.”

You both went quiet for a few minutes. You were trying not to cry, but your sister’s caresses on your palm and the warmth of the blankets around you were making it very hard.

“I really thought Steve liked you, you know?”

“What?”

Robin smiled sweetly at you. “Yeah, he would constantly bring you up on random conversations at work. Wanted to include you in every plan we made,” she paused just for a minute. “But, in hindsight… he did that with Eddie too.”

“Well, Eddie reciprocated him faster. And made his move, so there’s nothing I can do about it now. And I’m happy for them, I really am. They look - they are! So happy together. This,” you gesticulated around yourself, “just some goddamn sour grapes. It’ll pass.”

“Yeah, it will,” she got closer to you and hugged you, and you finally let your tears drop.

“Might take some time. Might take some distance,” you sniffled. “But it’ll pass.”

-x-x-x-

You were serious about the distance.

So you tried to steer clear of Family Video, except on days you knew Steve didn’t have shifts on. You thanked every god and the universe that none of the bands you liked released anything so you wouldn’t have to go to Eddie’s work to buy new vinyls or tapes. You’d see them on the streets and take a detour, a longer route home, walked into stores so they wouldn’t see you back.

Robin noticed, of course, she knew you like the palm of her own hand, but she didn’t comment on it. She would invite you to movie sessions with her and Vickie and would hold herself so they wouldn’t be too touchy and accidentally make you feel bad. Not that you would actually care. It wasn’t them you were in love with, your bitterness was not that big.

You even tried to go on dates of your own, tried to force the crushes out of your system. People who’d ask for your number at work, one of your coworkers, even someone that started a conversation about mayonnaise on the market aisle once. But none of them were nice enough, or funny enough, or sweet enough, or snarky enough, or caring enough, or Steve enough, or Eddie enough.

You felt like the biggest idiot in the County.

You couldn’t hide from them forever, though. You couldn’t hide from them at your monthly get-together. Especially when it was being held at the Munsons’ new apartment - mostly financed by government hush money.

And you were avoiding Steve, Robin - his other soulmate - wasn’t. Therefore, it wasn’t a huge surprise when he pulled up on your driveway to give you and your sister a ride to his boyfriend’s house that night. You tried your best not to act like an asshole, but as you sat in the backseat you knew you were quieter than normal. You could feel Steve’s eyes on you through the rearview mirror at every stop at a red light. He didn’t ask, though. He just kept listening to your sister’s rambles.

But, after he rang the intercom and Eddie opened the gateway and Robin ran up the stairs, you tried to follow her but Steve stopped you with a weak tug on your arm. You turned to him.

“Are you alright?” he asked, his hazel eyes filled with worry. You softened.

“I’m good Stevie, can’t wait to see Eddie’s apartment, shall we?” you tried to get past the conversation, but he didn’t let go of your arm.

“You know you can talk to me if something’s wrong, don’t you?”

“Of course I do. Seriously, don’t worry. Let’s go, Eddie must be wondering where we are already,” you pulled your arm with strength enough to be released from his grip and went up the stairs without waiting for an answer. You heard him sigh, though.

When you reached Eddie’s floor, he was standing in the doorway. “There you are! For a second I thought you’d bail on me, babe,” he said, and if you had ever heard him call Steve babe you could swear he was talking to his boyfriend. But he only ever called you babe.

He pulled you in for a hug, and you squeezed your eyes shut at the smell of his cologne, the way his hair tickled your nose, the way his cold rings felt against your warm skin, and how he was tracing circles with his thumb on your shoulder.

This was way too hard.

You gently pushed him away, ending the hug faster than you really wanted it to end, and looked at his face. “Give me the tour, will you?”

He grinned widely at you, but you didn’t miss the questioning look he threw Steve behind you before he turned and started showing you the apartment. Dustin, Max, and the Sinclairs were already there - Steve picked them up before he did it with Robin and you.

It wasn’t a huge apartment, but it was enough for Eddie and Wayne. They had a fairly big living/dining room, separate from the kitchen, and two bedrooms now. Eddie’s room was already filled with posters on its walls and ceiling, the usual mess the boy used to make already scattered on the floor. Sweetheart had her special spot on the wall too, looking as beautiful as ever.

As you went back to the living room, complimenting and congratulating Eddie on the house, Nancy arrived with Mike and the Byers siblings. As a heartwarming gift, you had all agreed to participate in a campaign that day, even Steve, Max, and Nancy went for it - after lots of bribery, but still. You had always been curious about it, so it didn’t take much to convince you too.

So you all gathered around the dining room, pulled out your character sheets - the kids helped you create your own characters along the month - and settled for what you knew were hours of adventure. And some (a lot of) bickering.

The one-shot campaign was a success. Eddie was a great DM - not that you knew a lot about that, but it felt like he was a great DM. He said he had some insights from Will, who looked very proud of the help he provided. Everyone seemed to have a good time, even Nancy, Steve, and Max who reluctantly smiled their way through the campaign. Dustin had a blast that his favorite humans were together and enjoying the same things at the same time. Your characters saved the day in the end and it felt rewarding.

Mr. Sinclair had passed by and taken both his kids, plus Dustin and Max, home. Vicky was on her way there to get Robin and you. Nancy and Jonathan, in the living room talking to El, were waiting for their brothers, who were in Eddie’s room talking to both him and Steve.

As you were coming back from the bathroom, you couldn’t help but listen to the conversation.

“…so yeah, Will, it’s absolutely okay to like boys,” Eddie’s voice wasn’t loud, but you were just by the door so it was clear enough for you to hear.

“And how did you know you liked both?” Mike asked.

Steve cleared his throat and before you could pry even longer into their conversation, you passed by to the living room, sitting beside your sister on the couch, arms crossed.

“Okay?” Robin asked, and you nodded. El looked at you in that curious stare she had, and Nancy pretended not to notice. Jonathan was staring at the wall. Probably high out of his mind, and missing Argyle.

You poked on your cuticles until the LGBT lecture for the baby gays was over, and the four boys walked out of Eddie’s room. You smiled as sweetly as you could at Will and Mike - Will smiled back, but Mike seemed kinda shocked and so his smile was more of a grimace. Poor boy needed time to settle into his self-discovery, apparently.

“Shall we?” Nance asked and El and Jon got up from where they were sitting on the floor. They all said their goodbyes to Steve and Eddie before getting out.

A few minutes passed by in awkward silence, you and Robin sitting on the couch, the boys standing up in the middle of the living room, no sign of Vickie. You could see your sister and Steve having a weird telekinetic conversation, you knew he was the other third of her soul, and was already fearing for your life because your sister was known to make stupid-ass decisions.

“I’m gonna take a wee!” aaand there she goes.

She got up way too fast and you couldn’t hold her arm to force her to stay, and so you saw yourself alone with. The boys you liked. It was like your body was preparing itself to ignite into explosive inside-out combustion, a mantra rolling in your head repeatedly ‘calm the fuck down, breathe in-breath out, calm the fuck down!’, not helping very much but you still tried.

Eyes closed, you felt the couch sinking as they both sat beside you. You took a glance and Steve was directly to your right, Eddie beside him, both of them sharing another silent conversation before Steve turned back to you.

“So-” your attempt at cutting the ice was cut out.

“I like you,” Steve blurted. Your eyes almost popped out of their sockets.

“Steve, what the fuck, Eddie’s sitting right there,” you discreetly pointed at the other boy, your voice somehow caught between a yell and a whisper. Eddie wiggled his fingers at you.

“Yeah, he’s part of the conversation?” Steve answered, sort of asked, and you couldn’t be more confused.

“What.”

“We both like you,” Eddie joined, scooting closer to Steve, making Steve scoot closer to you, making you scoot a little backward.

What the fuck was going on.

“You. Both? Like me?” they just eagerly nodded. “Well, that’s fucking weird. Like, not normal. At all.”

“Is it, though?” Steve asked, no malice in his voice, eyes full of affection. “You like the both of us. Is that weird?”

“WHAT-how-what-no?! What! ROBIN?” your eyes went straight to the little corridor leading to the bathroom where your apparently betrayer of a sister was, and you could swear you heard some thumping coming from that direction.

Steve stretched out his arms, ready to touch you before he gave up. You couldn’t decide if you felt grateful or sorrowful. “No, your sister didn’t betray you. She didn’t have to tell me, I can tell when people like me.”

“You couldn’t tell with me,” Eddie pitched in, and you suddenly remembered he was there. Quieter, probably for the first time in his life. Why was he so quiet?

Steve rolled his eyes at his boyfriend’s remark. “Yeah, okay, I said people, not big ass confusing nerds.”

“Are you telling me they’re not big ass nerd?” Eddie pointed at you, but you were still in too much shock to even process what he was saying.

Steve looked at you again, his eyes going back to that affection you saw before, and he called your name sweetly, and you had absolutely no idea what that conversation was and what you were supposed to tell them because, yeah, you liked them, but what? They liked you? And what the hell were you all supposed to do with that?

You didn’t have to answer, though, because Robin got out of the bathroom and Wayne walked in through the front door, and Steve and Eddie scooted backward again, and you got up faster than your sister did with her ‘wee’ whatever.

“Robin let’s fucking go goodnight mister Munson nice to see ya bye boys what the fuck!” you didn’t stop to hear any of their answers, nor for Robin to catch up to you, nor to take a fucking breath, and just bolted down the stairs.

You had a lot of thinking to do that night, wrangled up in your sheets, a PB&J sandwich by your nightstand, Robin probably cuddled up to you.

What the fuck.

-x-x-x-

Two whole weeks passed by.

You continued on your ‘avoid them at any costs’ plan, even though Robin was all up in your ass bugging you to talk to them, even though you told her you didn’t know what to say, even though she practically gave you a scripted speech, even though she tried to convince you it couldn’t go wrong, even though she was most probably right, even though she kept saying Steve and Eddie were in sour moods, even though you felt like shit for making them sour. Because you still had no idea what to say.

But you were also in a sour mood, because you missed them, and because you didn’t understand but you wanted to understand, and because your crush was probably more than a crush, and you really wanted to see where all of this could go even though you have never heard or seen anything like this. Deep down in the confusing fortresses of your heart, you were willing to be a pioneer on that matter. Even if you very likely wouldn’t pioneer shit.

And so when your feet automatically walked six blocks from your work to Family Video on a random Tuesday after your shift, and your heart unclenched a little bit when you saw both Steve’s bimmer and Eddie’s van - and no sign of Robin’s bike -, and when you walked in and saw it with our very own two eyes that even though they were clearly happy to be around each other - Eddie bugging Steve in his closing shift - it felt like something was missing there, and you desperately clung to the idea that what was missing was you.

“How’d you talked about this?” you asked, their heads turning to the sound of your voice, Steve instantly letting go of the broom he was swiping the floor with, Eddie instantly standing up from where he was all slouched over the counter.

“This… what?” Steve asked, his eyes avoiding yours for a second to look outside from the glass doors. You turned around and switched the plate from ‘open’ to ‘closed’. Fuck Keith if he complained Steve closed half an hour earlier.

“This. You liking me. How did you get to that subject, and then decided to bring it up with me?” you pointedly looked at Eddie. He was way too quiet last time. You needed to hear him saying.

He apparently understood you just fine, “I brought it up. Even before we agreed we were each other’s boyfriends, I asked Steve something similar, how did he know he liked me, and he told me how confused he was because he liked both me and you,” he said.

You gulped and tried not to deflate.

“And Eddie said, quote-unquote, ‘fuck yeah they’re the best, I really think I like them too’. And we didn’t do much about it, because we didn’t think there was anything to be done, and soon we were serious about each other. Until Eddie took us to a gay bar he used to go to in Indy,” you think you remembered Robin talking about this to Vickie someday, their plans on going too.

“And we talked to some of the people I knew from other times, and we ended up talking about you a few drinks down, and. Apparently, there are people who date more than one person. And it’s okay,” Eddie shrugged as if it was nothing, a shy smile on his lips, and you hadn’t noticed but you were all a few steps closer to each other. Steve’s broom forgotten on the floor, both of the boys’ eyes on you, adoringly, sweet as fucking candy, a whole conversation they had about you with strangers at a gay bar in Indianapolis.

“I need to sit down.”

Steve brought you a cup of water, and Eddie was sitting beside you on the ‘employees only’ room couch in the back of Family Video. Fucking ‘employees only’ back room. Eddie wasn’t sitting too close, but he wasn’t far, and that was comforting.

You gulped down the water in practically one go and settled the cup on the side table. Scooted a little closer to Eddie, patted down on your other side, Steve followed your command and sat down too. You couldn’t look at them, though, not yet.

“You did your research”, your voice was quieter than you wished.

There goes being a pioneer, you guess.

“We weren’t even looking for it, the information just literally landed on our laps,” Steve said.

“We were just rambling on and on about the person we both like. A lot,” Eddie smirked, but there was no real danger in his smile, never was. Your shoulders decompressed a little, and it was like they were both waiting for that to scoot a bit closer. Eddie’s hands just beside your thigh, Steve’s arm draping behind you on the couch.

A few minutes passed by, your mind a whole mess of a race, but they waited patiently for your next question. “How would that even work?”

“Like any other relationship. Except it’s three of us instead of two. And we can have dates, no one will know it’s a date besides us, it’s what Eddie and I already do, people think we’re just two guys being bros. We will look like three friends hanging out, but we will know.”

“And we can sit next to each other and hold hands, hidden under the diner table, we can have a whole schedule,” Eddie joked, you chuckled, and he held your hand. You let him. Squeezed his fingers with your own. “And sometimes we can go to Indy and we don’t have to hide there.”

“Or we can have home dates, and Eddie can cook, and I can bake, and you can just sit there and look pretty as you do,” Steve’s fingers grazed on the nape of your neck. You got goosebumps.

“Are you saying I can’t cook?”

“Well, last time your lasagna was not that good-” you let go of Eddie’s hand to swat at his thigh, and he laughed out loud. “Just kidding, babe, it’s just cause we wanna treat ya,” you quickly held his hand back.

“You know how Eddie likes to treat the ones he cares about,” Steve said, and you remembered your conversation at the movie, that day.

“Did you plan that movie? When Robbie had ‘diarrhea’?” Steve’s cheeks turned instantly pink, and you and Eddie both snickered at that.

“Stevie might have begged your sister to leave,” there was so much fondness in Eddie’s voice, and you noticed just then, how much fondness was in the voice he used to talk to you, too. “You make him nervous, you see.”

Steve’s ramblings made more sense.

“You make him nervous too, he’s just the weird kind of nervous,” Steve remarked, and now Eddie’s quietness the other day made more sense too.

God, you had been oblivious.

“And we can make this work? You really think we can make this work?” you asked, still unsure. Okay, you weren’t a pioneer, but you still had never heard of this before.

“We can totally make this work, babe. I swear to you is not as complicated as it seems. Is just-” he interrupted himself, thought for a second, his eyes staring intensely into yours, vulnerable, a little pleading, decided to go with it: “Well, it can be just love.”

Eddie’s words echoed in your head for what felt like a long time. Not a fucking crush, oh no. You knew them too well for that. You knew yourself too well for that. All of the fear washed in a wave out of you, and you sighed a happy sigh.

Just love.

Felt right.

“Feels right,” you said, feeling Steve’s forehead thumping on your shoulder, his fingers getting lost in your hair, he was closer than before.

Eddie was closer than before, you looked at him, his nose touching yours, his breath tickling your skin, suddenly his lips on yours, and your whole body collapsed into him, your fingers still tightly holding onto his, your free hand searching behind you for Steve’s hand, Eddie’s free hand in your face, cradling your jaw, so gentle, his lips so soft even though you knew he had a habit of picking on the skin there, but he was so soft, so soft, so soft.

Steve’s lips were on your neck, and suddenly you switched it up, let go of Eddie’s lips, turned your head, now Eddie’s lips on your neck, your lips on Steve’s, he was soft, you knew he liked Chopstick, he was real soft, but his fingers on your neck, tugging on your hair, his hands on yours, he was a bit frantic, not as slow, not as gentle, just as sweet, sweet as fucking candy, and you were going into a sugar-coma, head spinning, breath caught, couldn’t wait to do this over, and over, and over, and hiding in a diner, and in a gay club in Indy, and in your house, and their house, in their beds, or your couch, and over and over and over again, dizzy with all the expectations because you felt it, right through those kisses: you could make this work.

You would make this work.

It was working already.

[tsumtsumrry]

hi babe!!! love your work so much:))) on your old blog I think you had a blurb ab h helping reader through her period. do you still have it?? hope you’re having a great day love<3

hii. thank you so so much 🤍🤍 my day is going really great thank you and i hope yours is amazing too!! and yes of course. here you go 🤍

more of a blurb than anything (1.0k words)

there's subspace involved and a daddy kink.

She woke up in the middle of the night squirming around, pressing onto her stomach in hopes of deadening the pain radiating through her body. She was whining and whimpering softly, trying her best not to wake Harry but also wanting him to be awake so he can make her feel better.

The pain is just becoming too much, those damn ibuprofens aren’t doing anything to help her and she hasn’t been able to go out and buy any Motrin ― which is her only saving grace when it comes to period pains ― she just can’t take it any more.

“Baby?” she jumps when she hears Harry, his deep raspy sleep-filled voice already making her feel a little better.

He moves behind him to turn on the lamp and looks back to her.

“Hurts…” is all she whimpers before Harry is raising his eyebrows, both at her saying she’s in pain and the tone of her voice.

“What hurts, love? Gotta tell me” he looks down at her hand kneading her stomach and puts his hand on top of hers adding extra pressure making her moan softly, “s’here, pretty? Hmm?”

She nods and whimpers while Harry kneads her tummy with his strong big hands. She opens her eyes slightly to look over at him, he’s got his eyebrows furrowed with concentrated eyes, staring at his hand kneading her abdomen like he’s giving everything he has into it. The somewhat stern expression on his face and how he’s taking such good care of her is pushing her further into that subby mood she fell in when she woke up.

“I hate when you’re in pain, baby love.” He brings his other hand up to softly caress her cheek.

All these nicknames and affection is really not helping her situation, with every knead to her belly, soft touch, and affectionate whisper she feels herself being pushed deeper and deeper into that mood where she just wants to be taken care of.

Harry has been anticipating it. He knows she usually goes under when she’s on her period, he’s surprised it hasn't happened sooner. He loves it though, when all his gorgeous girl wants is to be taken care of.

“You’re slipping aren’t you, pretty girl?” he says softly, looking her in the eyes and seeing that usual doe eyed glint she gets in them when she’s like this.

She just nods and moves to nuzzle her head into his neck but he stops her softly. She whimpers and he pouts, feeling sorry for her.

“Don’t you want me to go get you some pain medicine, baby?”

“Just wanna cuddle, daddy. Please.” She whines.

She’s really slipping.

“Hey, hey. It’s okay, sweet girl. I’ll cuddle you.”

She’s mumbling nonsensical words and Harry is absentmindedly smiling at every mutter that comes out of her perfect lips, that he’s dying to kiss.

“Want a kiss, pet. Gimme a kiss.” he says softly and she moves her head from being tucked safely under his neck to position her lips in front of his. He puckers them slightly as they’re leaning in, wanting so badly to kiss his girl.

He takes control of this kiss, kissing her slow and sensual, moaning faintly into it every so often, when she comes up for air his head tries to reach for her lips barely even aware he’s doing it.

“Baby love?” Harry whispers, his face still in front of hers and his eyes still closed gently.

“Daddy?”

He opens his eyes when she says this, trying his best to read her expression, or try to get a grip on where her head is at.

“S’Harry, baby.” he corrects, but she just stares at him, blinking, “does it still hurt, my love?”

She nods meekly and tries to tuck her head back into the safe haven of his neck but he stops her for the second time tonight.

She whines dramatically and pouts at him.

“S'ok, pretty girl. Just wanna ask you something.”

“Hmm, daddy?”

“Harry. It’s Harry, my sweet girl.” he corrects but he knows it’s no use, she’s going to be like this for a while and it’s not that he has any problem with it, (he loves when she’s like this) he just wants to make sure she’s aware of everything that’s going on. It’s important that she feels safe.

“Would you be alright if I go down to the store and get you something for the pain, love? It’ll only be for a little bit.” he says, his hands cupping her face and softly rubbing her cheeks.

“Don’t wanna be by myself, daddy.” she grumbles and he frowns.

“Harry.” he corrects again.

“Hmm?” she hums.

“It’s Harry, pretty. And I’m only gonna be gone for a little bit. If you need me you can call me, right?”

“I want cuddles, H.”

H? We’re getting somewhere, he thinks.

“We can cuddle when I get back and it’ll be even better cause you won’t be in so much pain anymore, my love. That sound good to you?”

“Cuddles sound good to me.” She grumbles in annoyance and even though Harry can tell she’s a bit cross with him at the moment he smiles.

“There’s my girl.” he says softly. She's slowly coming back to him.

“Good? M’good right?”

“Always good. My sweet, perfect, pretty, good girl.” he says with a smile and it’s almost like Harry can feel the heat rise to her cheeks on his palm.

He slowly gets up and detaches herself from her getting dressed to quickly go get something that’ll take his girl out of her misery. She whines and pouts but soon figures out that he comes back just as quick as he left.

“M’back, angel. Got you some Motrin and a glass of water. Drink up. Want you to feel better.”

She takes the pills and slowly drinks the water all while Harry is attentively watching her, wiping some of the water that dripped down her chin.

“Good girl. You should feel better soon, kay?”

“Can I please have cuddles now?” She grumbles with a pout and Harry mocks her expression for a second before his lips break into a smile.

“‘Course you can, baby love.”

Harry doesn’t think anyone could possibly be as adorable as his girl is.

[selfpositiveundertale]

Long post.

TW: car accident

Hey everyone. I'm not doing great.

I've already been having a hard time with migraines getting absolutely out of hand and interfering with literally everything in my life, but yesterday I had my first car accident. The meme I just posted is relevant. It was my fault but thankfully only me in the vehicle. Other than bruised knees(I'm short so I had the seat pulled up close so I could reach the pedals) and some mild rug burns where the air bag got me on my left hand and my neck (I had instinctively raised my arms to protect my face), I don't think I was injured in any way my chiropractor couldn't fix. Definitely jarred my entire skeleton and dislocated some ribs and messed up my neck but what else is new. I didn't hit my head and nothing hurts in any way I'm not already deeply familiar with. Surprisingly I haven't gotten a migraine yet but I'm fully expecting one soon.

Really good thing I wasn't wearing my sunglasses. I lost the pendent off my necklace though. It must have broken off when the air bag blew and then fallen into the road when I got out of the vehicle.

My vehicle is totaled. Not a great loss since the thing was on its last legs anyway but it sucks not having my own transportation now, even if I could only drive in town and couldn't leave town because it wouldn't make it far on the interstate. It would start shaking like a leaf any time I went over 50 mph and I didn't like that. I'm really sore and tired and shaken up but I'm getting through it.

My husband came immediately when I called him and he talked to the car insurance company and called his boss to take the rest of the day off work so he could be with me.

The people in the other car were mostly okay other than the man having a cut on his forehead and his wife having a scraped knee but both of their babies were completely unharmed, thank goodness. Nobody was mad at me, possibly because I was hysterical panicking inconsolable and kept apologizing and asking if they were okay. They were also on their way to the car dealership to see about getting a new vehicle anyway, so I think they'll be fine.

I made an appointment with my chiropractor this morning and he checked everything and basically said I was in pretty bad shape but not really any worse than usual, which was a great relief but not surprising. He fixed the ribs, my shoulder blades, neck, and hands and gave me some samples of a supplement he said might help the soreness. I'm also taking my painkillers, OTC pain medicine, and applying arnica cream to the bruises.

I've been so tired and sore and haven't been up to doing much of anything except eating my feelings but I'm making sure my pets get fed and helping my husband get ready for work in the morning. I don't think I'll be able to meal prep anything for him like I normally do and he says it's okay, he's not expecting anything of me if I don't feel up to it and he doesn't mind buying his breakfast and lunch.

I fear the financial repercussions of this, especially since things have already been very tight due to several sudden veterinary expenses. The cat gods looked at us and went "kittens upon you and your household" so in the last 4 weeks there have been 2 vet visits for a tiny baby runt of a kitten my husband found alone and abandoned at his workplace, one for a very pregnant stray kitty that followed a family member home and popped out 7 babies, and one for my dog when she caught a UTI. We think she's over it by now but I'm taking her back to the vet Friday for a recheck. It's been hard with her because she's been refusing to eat her dry food and we've been having to buy wet food as well as chicken breast and white rice and alternating between the wet food and a bland diet when the antibiotics made her tummy upset. I'm really hoping that by Friday I'll be brave enough to drive. The vet isn't far and my mom is going to let me take her old car for whatever I need until we manage to get me another used vehicle.

I know the car insurance is going to go up because of the crash even though now there's one less vehicle on it, and I'm praying to the heavens that I don't have to actually go to a doctor and get checked out because of the crash.

I need to see a doctor anyway about the migraines that are now coming several times a week and affecting me in unsettling ways like impairing my speech, making me nauseous when I use my eyeballs for their intended purpose, and even made me collapse once. But the clinic I usually go to because the price is income based is in the next town and I'd definitely have to have my husband take time off work to take me. I also fear they'll refer me to a neurologist. I'm certain I need to see one but since I don't have health insurance and the process for getting financial assistance at any given specialist office is (probably deliberately) incredibly difficult and tedious and almost not even worth the effort, it just doesn't seem feasible at this time.

I am trying to make things to stock my Etsy shop so I can make some money but at the moment I just don't have the energy for it. But maybe I should try anyway. The simple repetitive action of crocheting while listening to a book or Old Gods Of Appalachia might help me settle down and feel more normal. My hands ache but my compression gloves might help.

Things are just extremely scary and very painful right now. Staying determined is hard but I'm trying. I'm trying so hard.

❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜

[nayeonie99]

Nayeon’s POV

I knew it was a mistake as soon as the question left my best friends lips. But it was Sana, and I'd do everything for Sana, even if it hurts me in the end.

Sana and I have been best friends ever since she moved from Japan to Korea.

We met in Highschool and we just instantly clicked. She is my soulmate and I'm hers. We also have matching couple rings we always wear. We even sleep and shower with them.

I'm in love with her.

I've always been, ever since I saw her for the first time. It just took some time for me to realise it's more than a crush or more than a friendly bond I have with her.

The problem is, that Sana is in love with someone else.

Hirai Momo.

I hated her. I wanted Sana to look at me the way she looks at Momo. Every time Momo enters the room she turns into a nervous, blushing mess and I envied Momo for making Sana feels this way.

I wanted it to be me who makes her feel this way. I always had to hear her rambling about how perfect Momo is. It hurt me, but I had to pretend that it didn't affect me.

My heart was aching every time she talked about her. But she was my best friend and I was hers. I knew we will never be more than that. I just didn't wanted to accept this fact. I was still hoping that somehow, someday it could be more than a friendship.

"Can you kiss me?". Sana asked me while she was laying on my bed with her head on my tummy. My fingers stopped combing through her hair and my breath hitched a little bit.

"What?". I asked shocked and she sat up to look at me.

"I heard that Momo is planing to ask me out". She said with the biggest smile on her lips, while my smile was fake.

"And since I don't have a lot of experience I want to train a little. I mean, I kissed some people already, but I'm not that confident yet. And since we are best friends and are comfortable with each other, why shouldn't we try ?". She asked with her innocent looking cinnamon eyes.

"Sana, I really don't think that this is a good idea". I said and felt my heart beat picking up in an instant.

"Why not? Just pretend I'm the person you like. Plus, our eyes are closed anyways, so it'll make it easier for you to pretend it's not me". She said and I let out a sigh.

That's the point. I'd imagine you.

"Come on, please Nayeonie". She said and pouted.

I rubbed my temple and sat up on my bed as well. I mean, I always wanted to kiss her, and not only kiss but more. I always imagined how it would be, and it was definitely not like this.

I looked at my hands and saw the ring around my finger. My finger rubbed over the cold metall and I mean, what do I have to loose?

This will probably be the only chance for me to be this close to her, to feel her, taste her.

"Alright". I said and you could see the surprise on her face.

"Really?". She asked me excitedly and grabbed my forearm. I looked at her hand and my eyes landed on her ring as well.

"Yeah, let's do it". I said and she smiled at me.

"Wow. I really didn't thought you'd agree this fast". She said and giggled.

"Yeah". I said and fake laughed.

"Okay so can we- like". She stammered and I sat next to her.

"I'm nervous". She said and I nodded my head. "Yeah me too". I breathed out and grabbed the back of her neck to pull her closer.

"Are you ready?". I whispered, when she nodded her head, I closed my eyes and leaned forward.

Sana's lips felt exactly like I imagined them to feel like.

Soft, plump and gentle.

Her lips tasted like the vanilla balm she always put on her lips. When she started kissing me back, every thought that was running through my mind was gone.

Her sweet scent filled my nose and I felt like I'm on cloud nine. At first the kiss was just lips, but when her tongue licked my bottom lip, I lost all the control I still had over me and pushed her down on my bed to hover over her.

I could her a tiny gasp, but I instantly shut her up with my lips again. Her arms slid around the back of my neck and I grabbed her hips in my hands.

When I bit her bottom lip and she let out a quiet moan I felt my cock turning hard. Her nails scratched down the back of my neck and I let out a quiet moan as well.

When I felt like this will escalate soon I pulled away from her. She grabbed the back of my neck though, to keep me close.

"Please don't stop". She breathed out and when I looked into her hooded eyes, I didn't give a single fuck anymore. I wanted her for such a long time and I will use this chance.

My fingers started to open the buttons of her shirt. When her shirt was gone, she slid her hands behind her back to take off her bra.

When her naked chest was revealed to me I gulped. She was the most beautiful person I've ever laid my eyes on.

"You're so beautiful". I breathed out, and when I saw her blush I felt my confidence increasing.

Momo was always the only one who made her blush like this. But this time...this time it was me.

I unbuttoned her pants and slid them off her legs, just like her underwear.

I almost started drooling at the sight I had in front of me.

"You have to undress as well". She said and tugged on my shirt. I smirked and took off my clothes as well.

When I pressed my naked chest against hers for the first time, she let out a sigh. I slid some strands of hair behind her ear and pecked her lips before I started kissing down her neck.

When I sucked on her sweet spot, her hips bucked up slightly. My lips moved further down her neck, to her collarbones and breasts.

I took her nipple in my mouth and played with the other one. She was watching me the whole time, and it turned me on so much.

When I bit into her nipple, she let out a moan, which made me smirk against it.

I moved lower and lower, until I was face to face with her pussy. She was soaking wet already.

"Fuck". I mumbled and parted her lips with my thumbs.

"You're soaking wet already". I said and rubbed my thumb over her clit.

Her mouth shot open and her brows knitted together. I could get used to this sight.

"Please". She begged and I felt my cock twitch.

"Please what?". I asked and she let out a groan.

"Touch me". She huffed and I smirked. "I am". I said and she rolled her eyes. "You know what I mean". She said and I blew against her clit, which made her hips buck up.

"I want to hear it". I said and gave her a teasing lick over her clit.

"Fuck please eat me out". She moaned out. "Hmm good girl". I said and instantly sucked her clit in my mouth.

"Mmm fuck". She gasped and grabbed my hair with her hands.

I hummed against her clit, which made her legs shake. My jaw was moving up and down quickly, the grip on my hair was getting tighter and tighter.

"Fuck Nayeon". She cried out.

I let out a moan when she said my name. This means she's not picturing Momo. She is thinking about me.

"Is that good baby?". I asked and she nodded her head.

I pushed two fingers inside of her and started flicking my tongue over her clit, while I was fucking her with my fingers.

"Holy shit". She moaned out and threw her head back.

"Mmm look at how tight you're getting. Are you close?". I asked and she nodded her head again.

"Yeah? Are you gonna cum for me?". I asked and she let out a groan.

"Yes fuck, please". She breathed out.

"Yeah, cum for me Sana". I said and picked up the pace of my thrusts. After a few more thrusts I took her over the edge and she came all over my fingers.

I was watching in pure bliss. When I slowly pulled my fingers out of her, I slid them in my mouth to lick them clean. Her eyes never left mine.

"Nayeon". She breathed out and I looked at her. Her chest was moving up and down quickly, because of her heavy breathing.

"Yeah?". I asked and she completely opened her legs for me.

"Break me". She said and I nearly let out a growl.

I moved back up and grabbed my cock to position it against her pussy. I collected her slickness with my tip and slowly pushed inside of her, to fill her completely up.

"Oh my fucking god". She breathed out and scratched down my back.

"Fuck, you're so tight baby". I moaned out and started thrusting in and out of her. She grabbed the back of my neck to pull me down into a kiss, which left her moaning into my mouth.

I picked up the pace, you could hear our moans and the wetness of her pussy echoing from the walls of my room.

"You feel so good". She whispered against my lips and I let out a moan.

The way she was looking at me was sinfully good.

Her opened mouth, her knitted eyebrows, the sweat forming on her body and the way her titts were moving with my thrusts got me addicted.

Sana is a drug and she got me addicted.

The taste of her, her scent, her face, her body, Sana in general is a drug I will never get away from after this is over.

But I was fine with the consequences. I'm fine with dealing with the pain afterwards, if it means that I can have her like this right now.

I started to pound her as hard as I could. Our skin was slapping together and she was screaming for me by now.

"Fuck, yes just like that, please don't stop". She cried out and clenched her hands in my hair.

"Mmm fuck, are you gonna cum for me again baby?". I asked and she nodded.

"Good girl, cum for me". I said and rubbed her clit with my thumb, to take her over the edge.

She came with a loud moan, I almost came myself. But I wasn't done with her yet. I pulled out of her and turned her around, so she's on all fours with her ass up in the air.

Without a warning I instantly pushed back deep inside of her. I saw her hands clenching into my sheets and when I spanked her she let out a gasp.

My hands grabbed her ass and I instantly started jackhammering inside of her. She pressed her face into my mattress, to tone down her loud moans, but you could still hear her.

I spanked her again and then pulled her back by her hair, to thrust even deeper into her.

"Oh fuck yesyesyesyes". She squealed and I spanked her again.

"Don't stop, please don't stop". She cried out and I pulled her back by her throat to choke her and hold her head against my shoulder.

"Look at me". I panted out and she looked at me, while I was pounding inside of her.

"I want you to cum all over my cock baby". I said and her eyes rolled back when I said it.

My hand slid down her tummy, to rub her clit with my fingers.

"I'm gonna cum". She moaned out and I kissed her neck.

"Yes cum for me". I panted out and it didn't take long until she came with a loud scream and shaking legs. She instantly fell onto my bed. I pulled out of her and came onto her back.

We were both panting and completely out of breath. After we calmed down a bit and drank some water we got clean and dressed.

It wasn't awkward or weird at all, which surprised me, because I would've thought it would be a weird atmosphere, after we were done with what we've been doing a few minutes ago.

When Sana's phone rang, and she looked at who it was, I instantly knew who was calling her by the big smile which started to form on her lips.

"Hey Momo". She said and twirled her hair around her finger.

What a cliché.

"No, I'm not busy, why?". She asked and it got quiet for a bit before her eyes shot open.

"Oh my god yes. I'd love to. I'm at Nayeon's right now, but I can send you the address so you can pick me up". She said and I was just sitting there.

"Okay cool, see you soon". She said and hang up.

"AAAHHHH". She screamed and started jumping up and down.

"What happened?". I asked.

"Momo asked me if I want to go to the cinema with her, and to a restaurant afterwards". She said and the familiar ache in my chest came back.

"Oh that's...that's awesome Sana". I said and fake smiled at her.

"I'm so excited". She clapped her hands together.

"Yeah I can tell". I grabbed my phone, because I needed to distract myself.

We just sat in my room for the rest of the time and when Sana jumped off my bed I knew Momo was in front of my door.

I walked her to the door and opened it, to see Momo leaning against her motorcycle.

She waved at us and I gave her a short wave back. When Sana turned around to look at me, she gave me a hug and a peck on my cheek.

"Thank you for pretending earlier Yeonie". She said and rubbed my hand. I looked down to her hand and my eyes glanced at the ring again.

I didn't need to pretend. It will always be you.

I gulped and put on a smile.

"Yeah no problem. Have fun on your date and be careful". I said and she smiled at me again.

"I will keep you updated. Bye". She said and jogged over to Momo, who gave Sana a tight hug.

I watched her getting on the motorcycle, her arms were tightly wrapped around Momo's waist, the same arms that were wrapped around the back of my neck a few minutes ago.

She looked at me one last time, gave me one final wave and then Momo drove away.

It felt like my heart got ripped out of my chest, but I knew what I would get myself into, when I accepted her stupid request earlier.

I watched Momo's motorcycle getting smaller and smaller in the distance. Tears started filling my eyes, when I felt them streaming down my cheeks, I let out a shaky breath.

"I love you". I breathed out into nothingness.

When the motorcycle made its final turn, I made my way back into my house.

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do you have any bsd fic recommendations ive reread your works 39299292 times i need sometjing new 😭

RE-READING MY STUFF IS CRAZY WHAT THE HELL . . . THANK YOU SO MUCH I'M SO GLAD I COULD CREATE SOMETHING YOU COULD GO BACK TO THAT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME YOU HAVE NO IDEA.

oh gosh, fic recommendations. let me pour myself a cup of tea and ponder.

I'll call your name by caramelt - comfort fic, sskk sillies, i go back to this one time and time again.

for a little while by ninanna - also sskk, pre-relationship ( also. tea. what is wrong with me oh my god ), the kind of fic I read while clutching a pillow and lying on my side in bed.

where your loyalties lie by writingfromtheshadows - Yakuza AU. to me, one of the best skk fics out there. impressive attention to detail ( especially with regard to the original characters ), amazing action, and excellent pacing. I think it's been almost six years now, but it just gets better with age. the ending is incredibly satisfying. - writer's envy

i feel obligated to include the bsd fandom classic that is

I was screaming your name through the radio by electricsplatter - teen soukoku in this one has my entire heart. their shenanigans, heavier moments, and the construction of the AU are so good.

Take your heart by riley_writes - phantom thief dazai / detective chuuya AU - comfort fic, writer's envy, a mystery that kept me on my toes, and skk banter that kept me smiling the whole way through.

and last but most certainly not least, I love everything I've ever read by halfbloom.

not a super long list. these are just some of the ones I've got from off the top of my head, and unfortunately, most of the fic I read is not BSD-related ( I'm neck-deep in Star Wars fic at all times. there's DUNE wips and clone-wars fix-it in my writing-dump-google-doc too. it's a disease. )

I'm actively trying to get out there and read more stuff in between writing my own, especially since I've met so many amazing writers since becoming more active in the fandom.

just, before i end this. thank you so much. i truly never fathomed someone re-reading/revisiting my works ( especially WIA which makes my tummy hurt just thinking abt it ) so this is just absolutely insane to me.

i hope you enjoy the ones listed here. they deserve SO much love.