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[fairestwriting]

title: level up!

word count: 3610

summary: Azul tries to further his relationship with Idia — emphasis on tries.

a commission for therealdoxian on twt, again not the usual content in this blog but i was proud of it and im sure at least a couple of you like idiazu so i thought itd be worth to share here too.

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Azul would die before he admitted this, but since Idia invited him to come to his room after the club meeting, he’d been jittery with excitement.

Everything had been going according to his plans. The whole dating thing was going… rather smoothly, much to his surprise. With how Idia acted, he worried over a million times that things would just get awkward, but, it was all going fine? Idia is still shy and doesn’t know when and how to give affection, but Azul believes that if he keeps up his efforts, he can shape them into a proper couple.

...though, now he was having some trouble getting them to go past just rare, shy, chaste kisses, which was no good at all, and the reason why it felt so exciting to have Idia make literally any moves whatsoever, like the uncommon invite to spend time with him in his room after extracurriculars. Azul is certain that maybe today, they’d get past that base, as they should. It was the very next thing on his to-do list.

(And why didn’t he make the first move himself? Well, that’s because, you know… he can’t just do that, and it’s not like he’s had any examples from the past, besides, it doesn’t make much sense, and… it just feels off, doesn’t it? For him to be the one taking initiative. He’s the one whipping Idia into shape as a partner, essentially, but… part of that is teaching Idia how to do this. Does that make sense? Ah, whatever, trying to explain it doesn’t matter. He’s not saying any of this out loud anyway.)

“So, um.” Idia starts, fiddling with the sleeves of his jacket when they walk in. Azul takes a good look around, it looks the same as the last time — Messy from the floor to the ceiling, scattered pieces of machines and homework alike. He narrows his eyes. Something would have to be done about that sometime, not now, but eventually. “Y-You can sit wherever you want, just make yourself...at home? I guess?”

“Yes, of course.” Azul immediately brushes off his displeasure, plastering an amicable smile onto his face. “Do you have anything in mind for today, Idia?” He asks as they step in some more. His loafers make a quiet clack against the floor. He’s careful to not step into any of the objects lying around.

He is going to lure Idia in today, or so help him.

“Uuh…” He mumbles, looking around. Azul’s heart beats a little faster. Would that be a good start to push Idia into getting a bit more intimate with him? “I, well, kinda have to work on a project now, so if you don’t mind waiting a little…” He gulps. “Maybe we could watch something later? If you wanna.”

Azul feels his eyes sparkle with victory, containing a cheer in clenched fists. His heart still beats fast.

“Of course, it’s no trouble at all.” Azul chimes, and — Mind going back to research, he lets his eyelids fall some, looking at Idia just a little differently. “Then I will be waiting for you on the bed.”

Idia goes a little pink, wide-eyed. “Um, s-sure! I promise I won’t take too long.”

So, he’s pretty sure this will work.

He sits on the bed politely, legs crossed as he nods towards Idia with a small smile. Idia laughs quietly, awkwardly as he takes steps towards his desk. The jittery excitement in Azul just grows.

Achievements had been reached easily when it came to things like school or business, but when it came to love, well… obviously, there were a couple more barriers to be surpassed there, being something dissociated from profit graphs and numbers on papers. But Azul had a vague idea of how he should start, a vision he wanted fulfilled, you could say, and he’s read up on all sorts of things, so maybe this would make up for lack of practice? He’d been able to ace tests only by reading theory, so…

Azul sits on Idia’s bed like a doll neatly placed on a shelf. Idia pushes something aside on his desk to grab something else — Machine parts aren’t Azul’s forte (yet) so he’s not sure exactly what all these mean. He does know, however, that it’s great his boyfriend has some unique talents of his own — and he watches with all the patience he can muster. His thoughts swirl around his mind in the way Floyd stirs cocktails.

...he wonders how Idia would be like, if they went further than they are right now. He wonders what sort of things he likes. It’s hard to know what about Azul he finds appealing, because they never do anything, so, he—

Azul’s shoulders drop from their upright position a little. Ah. Was that it? Did he just not find Azul appealing at all? The thought gnaws at him rather viciously. One would assume Idia isn’t experienced, because of his personality, but he was still one year older. Maybe he actually was. Maybe he just didn’t like Azul that much.

Ugh. Now that was a bad thought. He stares at Idia’s hands as they work, taking something apart, putting something back in place. It’s all so quiet? And Azul is literally right there, not even doing anything. He dropped that innuendo even! If Idia’s busy, he understands, but…

(Hell, he’s cleared out his schedule to spend time with him so many times! He practiced those games Idia liked to play with him, from the dice-throwing one to that racing thing he kept losing on! He actually closed Mostro Lounge once so he could come over and have a special dinner, and, what has Idia given him? Nothing? Is it so hard to just hold him a little and—)

Azul finds himself so, so compelled to bury his face on Idia’s pillow and just whine. And because of that, he’s very compelled to hit himself with it too. Can’t you just keep it together? Just wait to get what you want…

No, that doesn’t really work with someone like him. He just gets the urge to grab more. Why did Idia have to be so slow? Waiting for him to just give Azul the smallest bit more of attention isn’t doing him good. If at least he said anything—

Oh. He’s been here for a while, Azul sees on his wristwatch. His hands had been clenched over his thighs, so he tries to relax them.

Glancing at Idia once more, he just sees him working again. So he takes a deep breath.

“You know, Idia, I’d been under the impression we’d be spending time together here.” He says, every ounce of effort coming towards not sounding huffy, and Idia jumps in his seat, like he’s startled out of a trance. “I don’t mean to rush you or anything, but it’s been almost an hour, and you do know I’m quite the busy person. If you’re doing something so important, then, perhaps I should leave.”

“N-No!” Idia squeaks as he does, loud and high pitched enough it even startles Azul a bit. “I just got distracted, uh. I’m really sorry. I think I finished what I needed to do today.”

The furrowing of Azul’s brows softens. “Ah. In that case,” He murmurs. Jittery feeling comes back — He has his attention now, though that hadn’t been a good way to get it, what should he do? “Do let me treat you? Since you’ve worked hard just now. You can pick the show we’ll watch.”

Yeah, that was a good save.

He musters up a smile, scooting away on the bed, tapping at the mattress to signal that Idia should sit there. He blushes a bit, but takes steps forward.

“Um. Okay.” He laughs a bit awkwardly as he sits down. They’re close, but not enough. Even though Azul can feel their knees touching like this, the glow of Idia’s hair emitted so much more clearly. He hopes to see how it contrasts in the dark one day. “It’s… kinda weird to see us doing all those… c-couple things, huh?” He murmurs in the middle of his laugh.

“Well, we are a couple.” Azul retorts. There’s a beat — Idia’s face beginning to look pinkish again. He has such a hate-love relationship with this shyness. Of course it’s part of his appeal, but, if only he knew how to take initiative… “So, Idia, take your pick. I’m happy with anything, since I just wanted to spend time with you.”

He bats his eyelashes a little, and — That was embarrassing to say, but with how Idia’s expression begins to look more frantic, maybe it’s actually working — decides to be just a little bolder, try to goad him on just a little more, so he slowly leans in some more, their shoulders touch—

“...Azul-shi, do you want a favor from me or something?”

Azul pulls back like he’d been burned. What?

“W...What gives you that impression?” He’s offended, honestly, and that’s without mentioning the irritation… was Idia genuinely that blind to his intentions?

“Just… you’ve been acting really weird? L-Like you’re trying to be really nice all of a sudden. And we’re just alone so it’s not like you have to act like you’re trying to sell me something…”

Azul hears something like glass shattering in his mind.

“I’m—” He sputters. Really. Really? Is that the impression he gives off? That of all things? “Idia, I’m trying to get your attention.”

Idia blinks multiple times, eyes going as wide as saucers. Azul’s face feels hot. Not a good confession, not nearly as smooth as he had wanted it to be, but… whatever got them past this phase, whatever at least showed Idia he had the possibility of giving him anything more than a tiny peck on the lips once a blue moon.

“...um. Have I been a bad boyfriend?” He asks, and it’s so genuine Azul wants to die. Hands, half covered by his sleeves, are clasped together, fidgety. “I’m trying to raise our affection points properly, but if I’m doing it wrong…!”

Azul can’t believe him. Really. Was it that hard to understand? This is so unnecessarily frustrating. Should he just throw everything away and say it outright? But he really didn’t want it to come to this… it’s just embarrassing, but even then, he finds himself leaning on the decision. Was it that important? Somehow, it seems so…

“Well, for one, you invited me over and ignored me for an hour.” His arms cross. That much he wouldn’t be ashamed of scolding him for, at least. But the rest…

How does he even word it? You’re not touching me enough is too needy, his true intentions way too blatant. Might scare him off even. You’re acting like you don’t like me that much is guilt-trippy and makes him sound insecure, even though a part of him feels that way. Anything that could be considered an implication apparently gets lost in him, no matter how sweetly said, how the double entendre isn’t a double entendre at all.

Frustration builds up, bubbling like boiling water—

“...can’t you just kiss me already?” He blurts out, Idia blinking at the statement. A beat passes. Two. Three.

It feels like they’re both buffering for that moment, Azul is embarrassed enough to want to run, but — They’re close to each other already, so Idia gets to lean in, and their lips meet…

...for not much more than a single second.

“Is that what you wanted?” Idia asks, laughing quietly with shy amusement. His smile is awkward but sweet, head tilting just a bit, and he remembers that this is more than just an attempt at a relationship. Azul’s fists clench in frustration.

He really likes him, this world be damned—

His entire face feels like it’s beginning to sizzle, but it’s his chance. Maybe if he gives Idia just one more push now, something a bit more obvious, they can get past what felt like the obstacle of the century. “...no. It’s not.” He says, slightly rushed, and then swallows. “I mean… a r-real kiss. We’ve been dating for so long already, and you haven’t…”

Say it, just say it, but the words don’t really come out. Azul purses his lips and hopes the message gets through. Knowing his luck it might not, but trying once is better than never doing it.

“You know what other couples do.” He murmurs. Idia shrinks a bit at that.

“A-Are we at that level yet, though?” He stammers. “I thought we’d need to… go on a date out of campus, before that?”

Azul’s eyes narrow. That’s so specific? Where does someone even get an idea like this...

“We don’t even have much of a chance to leave campus.” He says. “And… I don’t mind.”

Idia makes an embarrassed noise. “But… I d-definitely don’t have the skills to do that, yet!”

Would they just be stuck here forever? Azul can’t allow that—

“You can… I’ll show you how you do it, then you’ll do it yourself.” He grits out. Heartbeat fast enough he could feel it on the fabric of his shirt. “Just stay still and pay attention.”

That’s… ugh, not nearly as cool-sounding as he imagined it as. But if it’s just a little push he needs to give Idia, then it’s fine, right? He knows how to teach people how to do things.

Yes. It’s just like showing new Mostro Lounge employees how to do their job. This should work, right? Since he’d spent all that time on research.

Idia stills on command, face flushed and contorted on worry. Azul’s hands feel sweaty inside the gloves. He doesn’t want to take a deep breath because he’d look like even more of a mess, but it’s almost like there’s thick glass between them, it’s so hard to just get moving.

But he’d have to get it over with.

To the best of his ability, and hoping that whatever technique flaws that come up get lost in Idia due to his own experience, he leans in for the kiss. That much he knew how to do. Their lips touch softly, and… he’s nervous at this point, but he lets his mouth open just a bit more.

Please, for the love of everything holy, just take a hint—

And he does. Finally. Idia makes a surprised noise, but even though it’s tentative, his tongue ends up in Azul’s mouth. It feels so odd, he can taste the sickly-sweet of candies and energy drinks, but somehow that’s the nicer part of it. Calculating moves becoming less and less necessary…

“Like…” He pants when they pull away. Idia looks at him, dazed. “Like that. Did you understand?”

Idia stares almost blankly, breathing also coming out in soft puffs. He nods shortly. “Yeah, I… think that’s okay.”

He leans in hesitantly — Stops halfway through before he lifts his hands along, and kisses Azul again. Just the way he’d taught it, of course, with a hand tentatively placed on his cheek, keeping their heads close.

Idia fumbles a bit, their noses bump and the too-sharp teeth feels strange in a million different ways in Azul’s mouth, but they’re making it work. Just the way he’d been planning.

Warmth starts prickling over him, closed eyes open to search for where Idia’s other hand would be, and it’s placed on the bed, that’s no good—

Then something tips Azul’s balance, before he could even think about it happening, and he’s pushed onto his back, against Idia’s bed. They pull away, staring at each other with wide eyes.

Idia clearly hadn’t expected to do this too, even though he looms on top of him quite nicely — The hands that used to be so careful now on his shoulders, pinning him. Azul blinks. His heart leaps.

“You’re… hasty, aren’t you?” He breathes out. Idia pulls his hands away.

“S-Sorry! Is this bad? It’s just… it’s what usually happens in dating sims, so!” He squeaks. Azul glances towards his shoulders again. He finds that he misses having Idia press him there— “Is this not that sort of scene after all?”

“N...No, you just took me by surprise, is all.” Azul mutters. “...I don’t even know what you’re talking about with that. It’s not any sort of scene. This is real life.”

“R-Right.” Idia nods quickly. “Um, can I keep going, then?”

The tip of Azul’s tongue darts over his lips shortly. “Sure.”

Idia turns out to be excitable, and it’s not a bad surprise. They kiss again, slow and gentle but building up fast. Maybe they’re getting the hang of this — And Azul didn’t even have to really disclose his lack of experience, which was definitely a win, counteracting how clumsily this had started.

Lips meet, clashing, almost, and he feels just the slightest hint of teeth on his, which may have been a mistake, but makes him shiver nonetheless. He wonders how it’d feel like when they escalated this. He’d heard the twins talk about bites before, and, seeing how Idia had that similar sharpness…

They pull away to breathe, one of many breaks they’d been taking. A wordless moment passes, eye contact exchanged. Azul’s thoughts go a hundred miles a second. His lips feel tender, they’d gotten this far—

Without following any possible train of rational thought, he grabs Idia’s hands and leads them to his waist, maintaining eye contact. Hopefully, that’s enough…

His arms wrap around Idia’s neck when he kisses him again. There’s a tangible desperation there, but as long as it’s shared, it’s good. Idia keeps his hands where they’d been placed for a good couple of moments, the room filling with quiet, soft noises that slipped from both of them.

Azul pulls him as close as possible, greedy as ever. Signaling for more now that he’s found out he could get something out of this.

“Is this okay?” He asks, still so near and warm, thumbs tracing meaningless patterns over Azul’s waist, felt in too many details even through the fabric. “Am I doing good? I haven’t done this before at all, Azul-shi…”

The way he talks sounds more like words spilling than being allowed outside. Azul himself has trouble sorting out the things he wants to say.

“It’s working.” Is what he decides on speaking. “You can… touch me a little more. If you want.”

Idia nods, feverish. But he doesn’t move.

“Did you hear me, Idia?”

He’s really running out of patience with this.

Idia squeaks, jumps as he’s startled. “I’m t-trying to decide where… a-and how I’m gonna do it!”

Azul chews on his lip. Is he supposed to teach him that too? But what does he say? The things he’d read didn’t really give specifics regarding that…

“Just do what you want.” He says, voice small. Maybe that’s what he should have been saying since the beginning, if he wanted Idia to make a damn move—

“Uh. Um. Okay.” He sputters, eyes darting around. He looks all over Azul’s body, and he does it so analytically, but it’s still so embarrassing he turns his face against the pillow. Why is this so hard? Everyone makes it seem so easy. “S-So do I have to undress you now, or?”

Heat rushes to his face. “Just what do you think we’re doing?”

“I don’t know!” Idia screeches back. “I’m just going by what I see in games! I’ve never done this before!”

“Why do you even… ugh, of course you are.” Azul sighs in built-up exasperation. At this point he wonders if it’d be less taxing to just hide and wait out his stupid desires.

“S-Should I stop then?” Idia questions, trembling hands hovering in the air, trying to decide if he places them on Azul or not. “A-Azul, do you even know what we’re doing?”

Ah, so he’s going all out, dropping the honorific, pointing fingers at him. Of course.

“You idiot, of course I don’t! Do I look like the sort of person who’s done something like this before?” The dam breaks, so he shouts out, moving to sit up. He’s just going to go to his room and hide now. This was a massive failure. “J-Just forget it, okay. You don’t have to do anything. I’m going…”

He gestures vaguely. The frustration grows so much that words become nearly impossible to grasp. Teeth chew at his own lip.

“Have fun with whatever you’re doing.” Azul huffs, even though he really doesn’t want to, and hops off the bed. They’re done with whatever this is. Just let him rot in his room now.

“Wait!”

Barely one step away from the bed, he does.

“Um, I’m sorry if I did anything bad. Really! I didn’t wanna make you upset.” Idia rushes to say, big eyes focused on him. The stiffness on his shoulders drops at the words. “If… you wanna try that again, but maybe taking it slower, I’m gonna do my best to… you know. If you just give me another chance…!”

He sees Idia’s throat bob, face glowing red. Eyes shiny with hope as he looks at him.

And Azul…isn’t a strong man at all.

“...okay. Sure.” Is said softly, and the step between him and the bed is recovered. He sits there again. “Let’s… retry this, then. From the beginning.”

When he thinks about it, maybe he’d overreacted, but… it’s fine now. It doesn’t seem to really matter anymore, not when Idia perks up with a hopeful grin.

So he’s not letting said chance go to waste. Good. Just as he should do.

[herakosmos]

matchup exchange w/ @sobawithshoto! 𐐪𐑂

im so sorry this took longer than expected :(( but ty for doing this exchange with me though!! 🥺

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i match you up with . . .

tadashi yamaguchi!! 𐐪𐑂

✰ you guys were definitely childhood friends before anything. this shy kid took a while to confess, but you guys were the type of friends where EVERYONE knew were gonna end up together somehow😭😭

✰ i feel like tsukki said something to him to make him confess to you because poor guy needs someone to help him figure out why his heart beats so fast whenever you make eye contact with him or why he feels the need to always want to know what you’re doing🥺

✰ tsukki honestly had to help him do everything with the planning, flowers etc because yamaguchi didn’t want to do it alone

“would you please be my girlfriend..?”

✰ when you said yes omg the boy had a smile plastered onto his face for the rest of the day lmao

✰ you guys definitely are magnetic towards each other. I wouldn’t say obsessively clingy, but the affection in this relationship is so adorable!

✰ since either one you guys had never experienced actually being in a relationship, everything is a first timer for both of ya’ll (AWHHH)

✰ i could just imagine yamaguchi looking up how to kiss someone and when the tutorial says to practice on his hand, he’ll be so into it he wouldn’t even notice you at the door 

“yams..?”

✰ HE THREW HIS WHOLE PHONE AT THE WALL I KID YOU NOT HAHSJDJDJ

✰ imagine explaining to the people who has to fix his broken screen about how and why he broke it omg😭

✰ to add, he actually looks up A LOT of things especially how-to’s because he just wants to be the best boyfriend ever :((

✰ he tried learning “twinkle twinkle little star” for you on the piano and although he made a few mistakes here and there its the THOUGHT that counts 

✰ he also learned how to use those rollers for your bangs, so that he could help you put it in when you want to do your hair🥺

✰ the fact that you’re such a good conversationalist is super beneficial towards yamaguchi since he always needs someone to support him. of course he’ll do the same for you and honestly feel like the happiest man alive when you come to him for help, but there are those times when you just don’t and he’ll respect that :(( 

✰ sometimes these convos could go on until midnight and afterwards you two would feel so much better afterwards. like the feeling of lifting the burden off your shoulders

✰ when wanting some advice he 100% only goes to you because you’re so honest and cut throat with it. even though sometimes it could be harsh, he knows it’s only because you want the best for him

✰ whenever you guys hang out with tsukishima aka salt shaker, he always finds a way to tease ya’ll and yams gotta depend on you to make a witty comeback and of course you always shut him down because you ain’t backing down until he does

✰ (queen energy✨💅)

“that’s my girl🥺🥰”

“simp”

✰ honestly you bouta beat tsukki up at this point😭

✰ lets PLEASE talk about how this man gives the absolute best cuddles!! he actually wants to be the smaller spoon, but of course would be the bigger spoon if you wanted him to be

✰ in this relationship, i think the physical affection is gonna pretty awkward at first since both of ya’ll are inexperienced, but overtime you guys would get the hang of it!!

✰ spending time with each other is a MUST

✰ you guys have a scheduled date every week and it could range from staying at home or going out! he really doesn’t mind, so whatever you want to do, he would do it as long as it’s with you🥰

✰ morning jogs is one particular date you guys do on occasions and a little break stop at a nearby park

✰ (ok but yams with sweatpants🌚)

✰ BACK TO THE MATCHUPSBNDJF

✰ a shared airpod bud in each of your guy’s ear blasting a shared playlist which includes both of your guy’s favorite songs 

✰ his hand never leaves yours while strolling around the park

✰ when finally reaching home, you guys would just binge watch anime and eat all of the spicy foods you want on the couch until your eyes grew heavy and felt tired

“babyyyy carry me to the bed”

✰ whenever you felt sleepy that’s when your clingy side starts to really show and boy did he LOVE that sdbsldkjhsbadlkj

✰ the way you cling onto him while he bridle styled or piggybacks you back to your room makes his heart pound rapidly🥺 he’ll gently place you onto the bed while placing a light peck on your forehead

✰ pet names made him turn so red, but the more he used them, his usuals were “baby” “honey” “munchkin” and sometimes when he’s feeling super bold “baby girl” ;)

✰ yamaguchi absolutely adores your height. instead of teasing you about it he admires the height differences and says how cute it is. whenever you can’t reach something he’s always there right in back of you grabbing it for you, then looks at you with his loving eyes :(((

✰ there’s a bunch of stuff you guys have a lot in common and honestly helps you guys lift each other up

✰ for example, you having a fear of failure and always beating yourself up for it, yams totally understands this since he’s been there for his first attempt at the jump float serve. plus you being insecure about yourself, he can relate due to the fact he was bullied as a kid having freckles/acne on his face :((

✰ lastly, the stage fright and having all of the attention on yourself AGAIN yamaguchi can relate too due to the fact he literally froze on court in the middle of a match :((

✰ all of these connections really help you too relate to A LOT of things and help each other build one another up for it (if that makes sense)

✰ you being a capricorn and him being a scorpio = a great match!

✰ this is a very harmonious blend of water and earth. both signs seek comfort, security and consistency. “this is the kind of relationship that can even begin in primary school or college, then last throughout adulthood” UHHH COINCIDENCE???!

bonus!

heres an anime relationship type gif that i just think you two would do 🥺

[kkaebsongtypo]

Swing Set // Huang Renjun

(A/N: This is the first secenario I’ve ever posted so I’m pretty excited. I think I’m reletively okay at writing, you might think otherwise but that’s okay! I do hope you enjoy though! Also, this is a headcanon, but I also have another blog with my best friend where I’m going to post a story version. So if you prefer that kind of story, I’ll have a link to it all the way at the bottom!)

pairing: renjun x reader

genre: literally all i can write is fluff

warnings/notes: idk there’s some language i guess??

word count: 1716

(I didn’t proof read this so im sorry for any mistakes)

(Side note: the swing set isn’t actually in the scenario that much but I can’t title for shit aha)

Theme/Summary thing:

highschool!au

soulmate!au

if one is drawing or writing on themselves, the other can feel the pen/marker/etc. as it’s writing

random tattoo needle pains lmaoo

if one soulmate gets a tattoo it shows up on the other

pen drawings fade/wash off

if you didn’t get the tattoo, it fades to a very faint tattoo, like barely noticeable

little back story type thing

you grew up in Canada

at the end of grade 10 you moved to Korea with your family because your mom got a real cool job there

and you end up at the same school as renjun for grade 11

and reunited with your childhood best friend Mark :))))

basic, i know

you could understand and speak it to an extent but you needed to be a pro

but Mark even still helps you a little at school too

OKAY START

for your 17th birthday you got a tattoo

the exo lucky one logo on your left wrist

(sorry if you don’t like them, i used exo because renjun loves exo and i actually have this tattoo in real life)

so randomly one weekend, while Renjun is drawing at home

(if you don’t know what getting a tattoo feels like: it feels like the tip of a sharp knife slightly cutting into your skin,,,,,,it’s not that bad,,,, and that was a shit description im sorry)

so he turns his wrist to see what’s going on

lo and behold there’s the Lucky One logo being etched onto his skin

‘why do i have a thing??? can you get your soulmates tattoo??’

he concludes with, yes, you can get your soulmates tattoo

‘hm, my soulmate must really love exo’

it isn’t that bad though

it would also get kind of dry so

whenever it would get dry,,,, you mosturize it

so when you do that it feels like heaven for renjun

(after a few days,,, he started writing 'please moisturize♥’ whenever he needed it)

and you feel the writing appear on your skin

so you lift up your sleeve and there’s that cute little sentence

you take out your little tub of lotion and roll up your sleeve completely

you????? have???? a????? tattoo?????

so you explain when you got it, and why and stuff

then the bell rings

and a few minutes later,,,,,

heyyyyy

(they’re friends with the boys but you’ve become a bigger part of the friend group recently)

(though you’re stilll closer with Mark and Donghyuck)

so y'all are like heyyyy

and you go back to moisturizing your tattoo

Jeno and Jaemin notice

'OHHHHHHHPPP THAT LOOKS LIKE THE THING RENJUN GOT LAST WEEK’

'hey dude,,,,, her wrist

so he looks down and his eyes go wide

(you annd renjun are secretly hoping you’re soulmates)

(because y'all like each other)

(but y'all don’t act on it because like,,,,, y'know,,,,, you have soulmates)

(but there’s this undinaiable connection between the two of you)

(but oH SHIT)

(LITTLE DO YOU KNOW)

(YOU ARE SOULMATES OHOHOHOH)

(okay moving on)

'heyyyy,,,,, y/n,,,,, when did you get that?’

and that cutie just pointed to your wrist

'oh,,, I got it last Saturday’

whiCH IS WHEN HIS APPEARED

'ooHHH SHIT YESSSSS WE’RE SOULMATES’

'oh cool, it’s really nice’

'ah, thanks jun’

giving him this adorable smile that makes him melt

and then everyone just carries on with their convorsations

'why didn’t you say anything???????’

to which Renjun just shrugged and looked down

almost as if he was guilty of something

so now it’s almost the end of the day and you’re in class sitting with Renjun

'hey y/n, do you want to hang out after school,,,,,, maybe like go out for bubble tea?’

'sure Junnie’

(oh yeah, you’re the only one that he lets call him that)

so when the bell rings you two go to your lockers because you’re kind of locker buddies

after talking with the other boys about weekend plans

when you turn around,,,,,, Jeno and Jaems give Junnie some goodluck thumbs when he looks back at them

and he asks if you’re hungry

so you two share some food

ignoring your protests and paying anyways

you changed in the cafe’s restroom before eating because school uniforms suck for dates- IMEANWHATTTThanging out

along with Renjuns beanie that you stole off his head on your way to your seat

which made him blush like crazy

but you didn’t notice

now he’s wearing a grey crew neck over his white t-shirt

and black ripped jeans

ohp yeah y'all bring a change of clothes to school because uniforms are uncomfortable after hours

which is quite large

but like no one’s around

like it’s friday so

everyone is at home sleeping or something

you two are just walking and talking about your day

you two come across a little playground

and you run over to the swing set with him following close behind

not that it took much begging at all

beacuse y'all are both children

and obviously he complies because he loves youuuu–WHATTT

just enough so you’re having fun but you’re not like flying away

or almost kicking him

he gets kind of warm

so he rolls up his sleeves

s o he’s not pushing you for a few swings

and you see him reaching into his bag to get some water

he’s holding his bag with his left hand

so you see the tattoo

and you’re like

,,,,,,,,?

and you look at your wrist too

'hey Junnie, can you bring me my water too please?’

he nods and goes into your bag and grabs your water

you get up from the swing to sit on it the opposit way so you’re facing him

he walks back over to you

with that fucking smile

the one that m e l t s you

that melts him too

now you’re both just sipping your waters

lowkey admiring you, with a small smile on his face, as you look at the clouds in the sky

thinking about the same thing

the tattoo

but neither of you know how to bring it up

after a few minutes,,,, you broke the comfortable silence

'hey Junnie, what’s that?’

you stubly gesture the tattoo on his wrist

he looks at it and starts blushing

showing it to you before mumbling a quiet 'um,,’

before he could say any more

'Renjun,,, are we soulmates?’

letting a small smile appear on your face

then he looks down beacuse he’s a shy and embarassed boy

and you grab his hand

so he raises his head to look at your face as you look up at him

(for this scenario and most of the ones I write,, you’re gonna be like 5'0 to 5'3 because I, the author, am 5 feet tall)

you see the tattoo,,,,

the moisturizing message from earlier that day,,,,

even the faded Moomin he drew for you the day before

all in the matching places as your own arm

and stand on your tippy toes to wrap your arms around his neck in a hug

but finally he wraps both of his arms securely around your waist

taking in your scent because he loves it

you close your eyes and lift your head so you’re closer to his ear

'Junnie,,,,’

he hums in response

'I’m really happy we’re soulmates’

he loosens his hold on your waist and pulls back slightly to look at your face

(and finally stand flat on your feet)

and he kisses your forhead before gazing at you with adoration filling his eyes

'me too’

holy shitttt

now you see

Renjun is probably my bias in nct

like I love all of the members but I have a super special place in my heart for Renjun

gosh, this sweet boy deserves the world

now,,, if you liked this

feel free to send requests because I love writing

also, Mark is next in this little nct soulmate series

yayyy

story version: to be posted

~ Jae☾

[despairforme]

i would try giving ulquiorra a shot, but then lose interest. recently i was thinking of opening up a blog for him again, and i see that you're still as active as ever. how do you maintain motivation for one muse? do you usually hang onto muses for a long time?

     [ YO ANON! I think it’s a pretty common thing for people to lose interest in their muse. I’ve had a LOT of muses who I’ve deleted. Not really because I didn’t have the muse for them, but because Nnoitra takes up ALL my time. 

     Speaking of! 

     How do I maintain my motivation for him? ( thank you for noticing btw! ). With Nnoitra, I don’t NEED motivation / inspiration to write. He gives me both those things. He is my muse ( muse, definition: a person or personified force who is the source of inspiration for a creative artist. ). I am always, always excited to write him. I have a million ideas for things that can happen to him. If my health was better, I would be writing a lot more. Nnoitra is so important to me, and I love him so much I can’t even— So, yeah, it’s not really about ‘ maintaining ‘ motivation, since it’s something that is constantly being generated. Nnoitra doesn’t take energy from me. I GET energy from writing him. It makes everything about my day better, and I have no idea what I would do with my life if I didn’t feel this way about him.

     I do think there are a few things that would help anyone feel motivated about their muse though ( stuff that come ‘ natural ‘ to me, because I have so much inspiration for Nnoitra ).

Don’t do the same threads over and over again. Those ‘ first-time-meeting ‘ threads can get very repetitive ( especially for us who roleplay Espada ). Like, if Nnoitra meets a Shinigami, he’s going to want to try to kill said Shinigami. Actually - he pretty much wants to kill anyone he meets in his canon verse. This doesn’t open up for much progress. That being said, I love a good fight thread. If a thread is boring, drop it! Or pull it into a direction that you find interesting. Your partner will think that’s hella fun too!

Do pre-established relationships. This can be anything. It doesn’t mean that it has to be a big thing. It can be something as simple as Nnoitra having met Shinigami x when Nnoitra was just an Adjuchas. This skips the repetitive ‘ first meeting ‘ part, and opens up for new things to happen.

MAKE AUS !!!!! Not everyone likes AUs, but for me, they are essential. I have 3 verses and 21 AUs for Nnoitra ( will be 50 once I have made the rest on my wishlist ). This allows me to try out literally anything I want. I feel like a lot of the times when people lose interest for their muse, it’s because they want to try something new. Want to try your hands at writing a vampire? Make a vampire!au! As for me, my main verse it set in a modern!AU. This makes it a lot easier to interact with human muses ( and Ocs! So much fun! ). I also had a great time coming up with Nnoitra’s backstory.

Approach people for interaction! This is SO important. I used to be super shy, but after I started writing Nnoitra, I didn’t have that problem anymore. He gave me so much confidence ( another thing he’s done for me, bless ). Because I’ve reached out to people, sent them asks ( even if they were just silly, crack ones ), popped into their IMs, tagged them in stuff, liked their starter-calls, I’ve been able to write a lot of different things! And I’ve made so many cool friends. I can’t imagine it being fun to write a muse if nothing happens on the blog. And it’s your responsibility to make sure that you get interactions. I know it can be difficult, but just try to send asks to your mutuals, and I guarantee they will be excited to see something in their inbox!

ESTABLISH A SHIP!!! Now this is something I would recommend, like - for everyone. My ship with Lexie is my favorite thing to write on here. I highly recommend considering being a single-ship blog ( though mine is dual-ship, it hardly shows since my other ship partner is inactive ). It gives you the opportunity to develop a relationship to be deep and meaningful. You can make AUs and have them meet in 100 different scenarios. I could not wish for a better ship or better ship partner. I am truly blessed with Lexie and Lexie’s Grimmjow.

The little things - Care about your muse. Do you love him? Make a post saying that! Did something you saw outside today make you think of him? Post that shit!! Do you have a headcanon, even a small one? WRITE IT OUT! Do you have a super cool thread idea that you just need to try out? Ask someone if they’re game! Reblog aesthetic posts and add in the tags why it made you think of your muse! How does your muse feel today? Bored? Angry? Happy? Nothing at all? Make a M O O D post and challenge someone to change said mood. Put effort into your replies: add details about what your muse is thinking, seeing, hearing. Maybe he’s having some flashbacks? All these small things ( at least to me ) makes the muse seem more alive, and that makes him or her more fun to work with.

     For me, doing all of this with Nnoitra goes without saying, because I love him and we have SO MUCH FUN together. I am truly blessed with this muse and I would never wish for another one, and I am never going to stop writing him. ]

[lizardswithoutlegs]

HOOOOOWOWOAH BOY

ART ASKS

when i walk into a building i get to eat everybodys pencils and they cant say no

do it 

( also thanks for asking ! ) 

itd bother me a lot less if everybody came to my apartment and took one of these beautiful eggs

YEAH UNFORTUNATELY IM STILL..... WORKING THROUGH THE SAME WAITLIST but im comparatively REAL CLOSE to being done with it and i should be opening up sometime later in...... the Year

Boy Have I

theres This messy thing from a while back and then also

THIS, from even FURTHER back, when i didnt realize how fucking RED all the outlines on my things were because of the monitor i was using, two for the price of one

why not both

i do Not but it you ever see me walking on the street please throw handfuls of teeth at me theyre the only things my wretched body can digest and im always hungry

OH MAN ok so, an art telephone game is based on, of course, the game telephone, where one person says a phrase and then whispers it to the next person, and so on and on until the person at the very end says whatever they heard and if its done right the final sentence is wildly different than what you started with

an ART telephone game is the same kind of concept, except one person draws out a scene or character, and then other artists draw THEIR interpretation of whats going on, and so forth until the last person can end up with something COMPLETELY different than what the first scene was

youd think thered be less room for error with drawings, but as each person ONLY sees what the person ahead of them has made, they can get PRETTY OUT THERE - im gonna be a part of pythosarts game, and theyve done a couple of em before - for example one round started with THESE as the first two drawings

and then fourteen interpretations later, ended up with these as the final two

its good its real good

I Cant Control Where Bigfoot Goes, I Can Only Take Note Of Where Hes Been

YEAH, sort of ! on the main, iguanamouth, i have a bunch of different tags for art depending on what they are but not really a catchall one, BUT i do have an art only blog where everything gets tossed over ! 

HONESTLY THE ADVICE i got is basically what all art advice is gonna boil down to eventually - you gotta just. do it. you gotta DO it

absolutely nobody you know who draws things well started out at the level theyre currently at, and putting down the things youre visualizing onto paper is a combination of getting the the technical aspects down as much as getting the idea in your head

and that goes with figuring out anatomy and how bodies are put together ! ive got to use references for a Million things,. especially the dragon hoards - theres absolutely nothing wrong with using references for your drawings ! and being able to create accurate representations of things without looking is something that comes more with drawing something over and over and memorizing the body shape more than just, feeling like you should KNOW how to do something

so dont beat yourself up for needing references. if youre trying to shy away from them a little bit but still cant make something look nice without em, try using several different reference photos to put together an entirely different pose ? 

theres ALSO the SHRIMP METHOD, which is great for practicing and getting good at one particular thing - this probably isnt SUPER HELPFUL but good luck ! 

god i tried. exactly ONCE maybe fourish years ago but it wasnt art, i was trying to stream the lion king movie and i had no idea what i was doing, i didnt realize i needed to wear headphones so the sound wouldnt snowball into a feedback loop of my own voice that never ended but i kept laughing and it kept distorting worse and worse, like the audio version of saving and resaving something as a jpeg

it was just me and my friend ronni in the stream and ONE other person who never left and never said anything and i kept addressing them out loud like WHO ARE YOU and that only compounded the noise problem and eventually i gave up

anyway i havent tried since

i uhhhhh dont think i COULD, really - fear especially is something thats kind of subjective and one persons Big Terror could be neutral or even cute to another person

like for me i used to have a lot of childhood fears about the ocean, and how deep and dark and vast it was, to the point where i couldnt play a lot of water levels in video games, even ( but i had almost drowned several times when i was Very young which probably had, a little somethin to do with that )

maybe sometime ill try to explore things IM afraid of, but its hard to encompass a psychological response in an image !! could be a fun experiment, though ! !

a few PLANT ANIMAL AZKZ, HUH, DONT HAVE A WORKING Z KEY

SHIT DUDE THESE ARE... SO GOOD thats the official name EVEN IF i didnt use. a daffodil as the flower base. it doesnt matter 

yes

i got A BUNCH of flower and plant themed suggestions and theyre all REALLY GOOD ( way more than these ) but straight up im taking a break from em for a while - if anybody is else is reading this though you should definitely tackle one of em

WASABI ASKS

Do Not Feed Animals The Paste

i keep going back to read this ask because you could replace wasabi with my name and its the exact same. its the same. i feel like i have to hide somewhere

this was real and this is the award they gave us

there were other awards but the judges refused to give them out. they burned them in front of the other dogs. we won

it depends on the age ! wasabis pretty much an adult, so her sheds are pretty infrequent ( usually once every 7-8 months ) BUT when she was still growing back like 6 years ago, she would do a full-body shed every other month !

wasabi accepts tokens of appreciation in the form of : fruit, green beans. No Exceptions

i would never seperate wasabi from her hands

absolutely..... not. not even a little bit h h hh a this isnt a disney animal companion, i dont even know what “kind of like a dog” means with , a lizard who cant make any vocalizations or get up on their hind legs or NOTHIN sometimes if i hold a piece of fruit on my hand and she reaches for it she gets confused on whats what and tries to bite my fingers instead

ONCE WHEN SHE was attacking her reflection in a mirror i put my hand in front of her face to break eye contact and she SUNK HER TEETH RIGHT IN THERE but immediately let go like “oh whoops”

lissten . . .  wasabi is so sharp, just absolutely everywhere, and these are the sharpest. the grabbers

heres a lil battle damage from earlier today actually

this is pretty tame BUT the long long lines are from claws, and the thinner, closer together ones are from holding her and her scales scraping against the skin. so not even just the Body is completely safe ! this is not an animal youre gonna wanna get your face real close to if theyre in a walkin mood

she doesnt even MEAN to scratch the shit outta me, its just kind of a byproduct of being a big tree lizard. her tail is absolutely the worst thing to get hit by though. the WORST. lucky me she doesnt attack anything that isnt a dog or a vacuum cleaner or her own reflection

ahhh i got her when i was 16 ! and i dont know her exact age but she was somewhere between 3-6 months when i get her - SHES probably closer to 9 years, but ive had her for about 8

LENGTH THOUGH...... the last time i measured her she was just barely under four and a half feet, but that was a few months ago and its possible shes. Just Slightly larger. shes currently sleeping as i type this so i guess we will never know

duel me

too late for coats..... its all tail action now

ROCK ASKS AND ALSO ASKS ABOUT PUTTING ROCKS IN YOUR MOUTH

oh MAN i feel you . . . . . . . . . . i dont think i could actually Bear To Eat any for real but some of em. just. they. i gotta. just. bite on em a LITTLE just a little bit, a tiny bit, a nibble

when i was real young i used to tap things against my teeth to tell what kind of substance they were made of based on the feeling/hardness/density WHATEVER and i still sometimes do it when im checking stuff out and. it uhhhhh sure is interesting finding out not a lot of people did that

a handful of these delicious raw agates, just for you

please stop spying on me

i DO NOT but you may eat this piece of bornite

meet me at the airport and ill cover your bus fair

theres a lotta different ways to figure out what kind of rocks you got but when you have absolutely no clue on where to start your best bet is to search for the biggest distinctive features of it, and try to narrow it down based on the results

like for something like these pieces of chalcedony, you could try “waxy green translucent mineral”, and from the search results find a few candidates that might be what you have on hand, and then look into each one to see if you can get a definite answer 

ive got a handful of rock and mineral guide books that i always pick through whenever i snag something im not sure of, and if youre REAL into it those are always something you could start keeping an eye out for 

now this is a REAL superficial way to telling what something is and wont be useful for a good chunk of minerals ( as a lot of samples can look really close to something else ) and THIS is a much more in depth way of telling something apart, but its also a lot more time consuming ! so good luck. and good eating.

Just Try And Fucking Stop Me

ANIMAL ASKS THAT ARENT............ ABOUT MY LIZARD

im married to this one actually

fuck. ok. heres. a secret. a In the ask Post secret. wasabi goes through a period that lasts a month every single year where she carries eggs in her gut, and spends that month not eating and digging around in everything, trying to find the right spot to lay these eggs. and. when it happens i never know what to do with them, and i dont want to just THROW THEM AWAY so i. eat them. i eat the eggs. i fuckin eat the eggs dude

Theyre All Goddesses

unless you plan on having your lizard roam around outside whenever they want, the outside environment doesnt really matter much for most reptiles as long as you set their habitat up right ! BUT i do know that australia has bans on certain reptiles ( iguanas are one of them ) and so youre gonna have to look up whats actually available in that area 

 bearded dragons are native and those are always a good option, but so are a lot of geckos - its really gonna depend on what youre into ( but i dont really recommend anoles if thats an option, because theyre fast as Hell and dont like being handled )

what the fuck is a bee

oh geez im sorry ! i remember going through this with spiders a lot when i was younger to the point where looking at photos of em used to be a fuckin, TRIAL 

you could try a really gradual exposure deal, where you start off with getting comfortable with just images, and slowly working your way to dealing with one in a controlled setting ( like a petstore, maybe ? not HANDLING em or anything, but just being near one in a way where its absolutely impossible for them to touch you )

the shitty thing about this kind of phobia is that even if you KNOW its irrational theres sometimes not a lot you can do about it, but if you can stand looking at photos of them you could try learning up about them, and finding out the types of species youre likely to encounter around your house, and seeing how many ( if any ) are ones you should avoid ?

i know some people that have major problems with snakes are because theyre unsure if the ones they find are poisonous or not, and it might go a long way to confirm that the reptiles you meet wont be able to harm you even if they TRIED ( which is gonna be the case with a lotta house geckos, they cant do SHIT youre a GIANT )

very VERY few lizards have venomous bites, and the worst most of em can do is give you a bloody finger if theyre large enough, and even then its usually not much worse than a cat scratch !

still though, if youre really serious about trying to get past this, dont force yourself too quick into what you think you SHOULD be, and take tiny steps outta your comfort level when you can

this probably isnt uhhh SUPER helpful hh hhah but good luck !  shit im going through this post and its like ALL reptile photos. im sorry

i feel about them, with my hands

MMM it shouldnt HURT them unless theres something Really wrong, considering its a natural procession of growth, BUT its definitely itchy as hell, to the point where reptiles trying to remove it will drag their bodies over stones or walls tryin to get it off

sometimes wasabi drags her whole hind foot over her head like a dog to get it off and it is. a Sight

ahhh honestly there arent a lotta reptiles thatre gonna do much more than TOLERATE the touch and not really, enjoy it, like a dog or cat or bird

but speaking from experience with wasabi, youll probably want to avoid most the head and stick with the top of the back near the sides - wasabi doesnt enjoy having her tail messed with much either, but shes ok with her dewlap and feet being touched

the most important thing to keep an eye out for when youre touching one is their body language, because  THATS gonna be a dead giveaway for whether you need to back off or not

closing their eyes is a sign of stress, not enjoyment ! same with tilting the head back, but if thats ALL theyre doing then youre probably not gonna face any retaliation

B U T if theyve got an extended dewlap with a raised body or tail off the ground, not a good idea to interact with em ! thats a defensive posture, and you risk getting hit with a tail or even bitten if your hand gets too close

youve got more to risk with males, who are way more territorial and generally larger, but if they seem pretty chill when you approach and dont stand up and stare at you, youre probably in the clear

COCK of the ROCK

I HAVE im so jealous of anybody whos got to see one in person - actually handling one is a level beyond that which i could even comprehend

OTHER THINGS.....

no but i was bit by a pigeon once

this is the only joke i know

i fuckin WISH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ayy im into it - honestly i havent been following the band so much as just kinda, picking up whatever anybody else mentions and so my knowledge on Gorillaz Lore is pretty uhhhh h hh h scattered but im definitely interested in seeing where this goes

i remember watching the first and second season and it being pretty good - some of the episodes and jokes are hit and miss but you absolutely got me with the creature and alien design

havent seen any of the third season yet though !

i mean the fruit ones could be pretty up there 

how bout. an abstract concept. who cares about physical forms wheres the dragon of melancholy 

why come theres nothing to eat in my apartment but bread. im good otherwise but its all just bread

i havent watched either of em in YEARS and YEARS but i distinctly remember. these lil dancing mushrooms

oh wait FUCK 

FUCK !!!!!!!!!

no... NO.... she is not allowed to eat ANYTHING from the plan shelf, try as she MIGHT

im a little mad that this sill isnt bigger because the only other one that gets sun is in my room and wasabi WIll... absolutely eat those. no doubt. a convenient and expensive salad, for my awful gremlin 

god im looking at these and its all jade plants isnt it

little golden books taste the best but they can make you sick if you have too many at once. my favorite genre for snacking is sci fi fantasy but anything over 300 pages tends to get a little tough if you dont break it up with smaller chunks. non fictions always a gamble because the taste is wildly different each time but you can usually tell how ripe it is by the cover color

ayy im already a big fan of some of their stuff, ive got a couple songs from them in my music tag - im especially into i miss you and their shut up and bring it here remix

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this is barely related but once i filled up a bathtub with water and then dumped about ten bags worth of mint tea into it and then just. soaked around in the tea. listen it was really nice. id try the cheese

i dont have any ships but i was on one of those model pirate boats once for a school trip. our boat was named naruto and the other one was named sasuke and the captains shouted “make them kiss” and ran them into each other. everybody on board drowned

youre trying to trick me into googling yoshi without shoes and its not going to work

me reading this message from the safety of my apartment :

nice try, but wrong again ! : )

THIS IS GOOD info, thank you

oh SHIT the other side of paradise, take a slice, life itself, and season 2 episode 3 are all my Big Faves

the way you phrased this makes me think you already have a strong opinion on it

hey uh. coming from a person who was absolutely CONVINCED that theyd be dead in the future when they were 12, a not insignificant part of that was me feeling that there was something irreversibly wrong with me for not behaving or acting in certain ways based on what was going downstairs

and obviously im still HERE but it means i can understand how devastatingly terrible it can feel when youre that young and it seems like the way you behave and feel are flawed, or dirty, and anything that can lessen that feeling and make you comfortable in your own body is huge, can save your life

not that im saying its always a LIFE OR DEATH decision !

i guess if youre viewing it as adults forcing a child into making decisions that you dont think theyre capable of understanding its easy to be hesitant about getting behind it, but nobody is forcing a child to be trans. nobody has tricked them into feeling this way. you cant just walk in and get started on treatment on an immediate whim - some programs require 2 YEARS of concrete evidence before theyll even consider it

i feel like you should try speaking to the parents of trans children before you really put down a concrete opinion on whether this is a good or bad thing, and seeing the difference ( if any ) its made in their lives 

people whove detransitioned, or found they had ultimately a different identity than the one they were exploring could also be an avenue to look intto ! i have several acquaintances who, after a period of years, found they werent trans but wouldnt take back the time where they were figuring out if they were, and i know this doesnt invalidate the friends i have who ARE 

ultimately this is what it boils down to for me : Its Sure Gotta Beat Being Dead

i WILL give you that ive definitely seen a lot of overreactions to seemingly innocuous topics on this website

but youve also got to keep in mind that everybody who is saying these things MEANS them, and to them theres a completely reasonable explanation to why they feel that way

im not saying you should blindly accept any criticism you get, but to instead try to get a grasp on WHY theyre responding the way they are instead of immediately dismissing it

its because i cant drive and they wont let me sit in the front on account of the smell

NICE THINGS

AHHHH I GOT.. a bunch of other really sweet messages to the point where id feel weird about putting em ALL UP BUT... IF YOU SENT ME SOMETHING i can promise i absolutely saw it and it made my day better and just, holy shit, thank you for taking time out of your life to say anything to me at all

because you didnt have to, even a little bit

youre all beautiful and im kissing you on the mouths all at once. no take backs