#but I'm still so unsure idk how to feel and it upsets me when i feel things that i shouldn't when i should be happy for her

[phantaloon]

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[lukolabrainrot]

That Damn Polaroid™ (and Some Thoughts on the Events in April/InStyle Stunt)

This polaroid... Nicola, Nicola, Nicola 😂

This polaroid still gets me today. Like, yes, this was for PR to some extent, BUT this was also SUCH a public statement. We know N has her phone ALL THE TIME. And (from what we know) the picture was on her phone for WEEKS (MONTHS technically). L appeared fine too with it being there (at least from what we know in the interviews where they talked about it). And that wasn't just like a cutesy little picture of two friends/coworkers. It was a 🔥/powerful pic. And as I mentioned here, N uses pictures as a way of communicating with others. And her excuse that she just "didn't have any pockets at the time", so she put the photo there (and proceeded to keep it there for MONTHS) 🙄 Sure Jan... So, with all of this context, I'm first going to talk about some of my thoughts on what was going on between L/A between the end of February to beginning of April, what was going on between L/N in April up until the Italy stops (including thoughts on the InStyle Stunt), and then at the end I will talk about my thoughts on WHY N had that photo on her phone for such a long time and the deeper meaning it might have had then just promoting the show.

Heads up, this is going to be a longg post...

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I think this post from @newghlan pretty much sums up what I think was going on between L/A during end of February to early April. There was MAJOR flirty energy between L/N during the VDay event and BAFTAs. I talked a little bit here about how there was a very brief clip from the BAFTAs where they look like they got caught when they were embracing each other. I highly recommend checking out the video if you haven't already, because the noverbal cues speak VOLUMES. And it's just interesting that they would look like they got caught at this public event? It read to me that for SOME reason, they did not want that small clip to be captured and put out to the public 🤔

My theories are that by the BAFTAs, A was NOT happy about L/N's chemistry and connection. Maybeee L promised to redirect his attention to A, which is why L wasn't seen at/didn't go to the Big Mood premiere, and why L took A to LA with him and agreed to the InStyle Stunt to appease her. I've never doubted that L has probably had feelings for A (although I still think it was/is fairly casual), but like tbh, I'm CERTAIN his feelings for N are SO MUCH DEEPER. So when those feelings came flooding back when they did reshoots in December 2023, and then had to proceed right into working on promotion in January (which I think just made all the feelings stronger), I feel like he probably had some guilt because he was TRYING to explore his relationship with A. BUT L was reconnecting with N, and I think emotionally, that's where his heart is at. And A noticed this, so she was upset (which honestly, is understandable imo- some of A's actions though because of these feelings she was having I definitely don't agree with). I think L was unsure though about going there again with N, and so he wanted to prove to A (and SPECIFICALLY to himself) that A was the one he wanted to be with. So he focuses his energies on A, agrees to the InStyle Stunt so she gets SOME kind of public acknowledgement (which was a BIG goal of hers in the relationship), and tries to distance some from N. That didn't reallyyyy work though, and then we got what we did for the rest of the tour between L/N.

Before I get to my thoughts on April between L/N, I want to list some specific timeline things around the InStyle Stunt:

L does the InStyle interview (in LA I believe?) near the end of March (so that's when L/A were in LA)

A posts the LA photos on her IG on April 7th and April 14th (and L likes these posts)- I believe she has since deleted another set of these LA photos, so idk what date she posted those photos (sometime in early April though I believe)

The InStyle article comes out on April 29th (with the accompanying Polaroid pics that prove A was in LA with him- this also confirmed that L had coordinated these photos with A to acknowledge (without publicly acknowledging) that he and A were an item)

L posts the non-polaroid photos from the InStyle article on his IG on April 29th (and N likes the post and comments (on April 29) "Yess dude!!")

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April/Early May Between L/N

L/N attend the Bridgerton Season 3 London Photocall on April 12 (which is where the photo above was taken AND where the infamous polaroid was taken). Earlier that day (I believe), L/N also did a series of interviews for the show, and those interviews had some SERIOUS flirty/sexual energy to them (including one of L's (not so subtle) butt pinches with N). I would highly recommend rewatching those interviews if you haven't. If anyone has the links to these particular interviews (N is wearing the same necklace, and L the same tank top and jacket that they are wearing in the picture above), please link them in the comments below.

L/N are at events in Bowral, Australia from April 21-23

L/N in Milan May 9 (with the interviews where they are disconnected and likely beefing)

L/N in Verona May 10 (and they are all cutesy with each other and seem back on the same page)

So here are my thoughts (and why the InStyle Stunt/article might have come into play as to why they had been beefing in Milan):

As I mentioned, I think L was TRYING to distance himself some from N in March and refocus his attention on A. However, I think that pull with N was still really strong, and BTS they were still having to see each other and communicate in order to prepare for their upcoming promotional events. My guess is that all this sexual/flirty tension was building up between them BTS in March, which is why they were soooo unhinged in those interviews before the London Photocall on April 12. I also think early April is when L was starting to realize that his feelings for N were coming back full force, and was maybeeee getting a little green light from N that the feelings were reciprocated (but they weren't actually addressing it because I think they were scared/nervous). However, I think they continue flirting with each other in April (maybe secretly through messaging, and also when they were in person).

Note: We also have to remember that L gave those polaroids to InStyle (most likely) at the end of March when he did the interview. Therefore, the InStyle Stunt was set in motion by that point. I've been wondering though recently, if he had known what was going to happen between him and N in April and early May, if he might not have gone along/set up the InStyle stunt 🤔 Just some thoughts I've been having...

Then we get to the Bowral events near the end of April (BEFORE the InStyle article comes out though, confirming L had coordinated this with A), and it seems pretty obvious to me that L is trying to test the water with N and see how she's feeling about them (they are both being a little publicly flirty, but L much more so imo (N still seems to have a lot of her walls up in public)). It makes sense L might be hesitant to open himself back up to N when, as I talked about here, I think he got his heart broken a little by N. However, I think N was starting to open herself up to the possibility of really trying with L (because I think she has ALSO loved him for a while, but just was never in the place to really commit to the relationship for various reasons). I think she was finally feeling though that she was ready to give this relationship a serious shot, but knew L was kind of in a relationship. I think N was under the impression though that it wasn't super serious, so I think she was hopeful she and L might be able to figure it out.

A lot of people have been commenting that the InStyle Stunt/article wouldn't have upset N because she would have already known about it because of the pictures A posted in early April. I disagree. Now, we obviously don't know 100% if N knew that L was going to add those polaroids to the article. Tbh, we also don't 100% know if she even knew about the pictures that A posted of the LA trip (because I don't get the sense N exerts a whole lot of energy and time following what A does). Yes, N commented and liked L's post on April 29 related to the InStyle article. However, that does not confirm that she had already read the article. And she wasn't going to unlike and remove her comment, because fans would have noticed and flipped out. I am more inclined to believe that she really wasn't aware that this was all going to go down, mainly because I think L didn't want N to know/was trying to be sneaky about it. I think once N figured it all out after the article came out, the thing she was most upset by was how this article proved L had coordinated with A to indirectly publicly announce that they were an item (while L was continually putting out to the press at that point that he was single). Therefore, I think N was pi**ed because she didn't want this to impact their tour/her (their) public image. And secondly, I think she was upset because of the feelings she was having for him, and how flirty he had been with her the last few months. I think it all caught N off gaurd, and her walls went WAY back up. And we have to remember that this all happened just a few days before the Milan event, so I think that energy between them just spilled over and resulted in their very disconnected nonverbal cues in Milan.

I talked a little bit more about my thoughts on Italy here, but I think after L/N got back on the same page emotionally, it was pretty much game over emotionally with A for L. His heart wasn't really in it anymore (and tbh, I don't think it ever really was). Also, I've said this multiple times, but Italy is when N starts posting the "boyfriend pics" of L (which L obviously agreed to). Personally, I think N (and indirectly L) were sending a message to a certain someone 🤔 But just a theory... I have also already talked about it here and here on my theories on why L was never going to be able to publicly untangle himself from A for a while, regardless of what was going on BTS with L/N.

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What Could be the Deeper Meaning Behind the Polaroid?

So, my point with everything is this. I think early April was a MAJOR turning point for N in terms of her feelings/emotions for L. Here are my thoughts (outside of PR) on why N put THAT Polaroid on her phone from the London Photcall event on April 12 (and for MONTHS):

First, we need to acknowledge that L obviously approved of this photo being on her phone (or at least was complicit to it), which I think speaks VOLUMES about where L was at emotionally with N at the time (and where L WASN'T at emotionally with A). This confirms to me that things just weren't that serious with A, even if he was TRYING to refocus his attention on A. L's heart was still with N.

N wanted people to know that they were a unit through this experience, and that N truly loves him and their friendship/connection. She wanted to share to the world how special he AND their experience on Bridgerton is to her.

I think she put that SPECIFIC picture on her phone because her feelings were STARTING to change for L around this event/that general time period. I think N was starting to see L in a bit of a new light (in a positive way), and was seeing some real potential between them.

Lastly, I think one of the reasons she kept the photo on her phone for so long (outside of the PR), is because her walls were starting to come down, things were getting more serious between her and L, and she was happy (and she wanted the public to know 😉). And L/N could kind of hide behind this unspoken public narrative that it was just for "PR" (which I NEVER bought).

Now yes, she has since changed the polaroid. However, we have NO idea what the photo is of now (or if she is consistently changing it out/or completely changed her phone case). She knows our obsession with the Polaroid though, so I think she likes to tease us about it. She knows what she is doing 😉 That OG polaroid though during the PR tour had a MUCH deeper meaning than just promoting the show, and was a significant public statement about her relationship with L. Just my theory though...

[bau-drabbles]

haunted

emily, one of your close friends in the bau, comes back and after months of crying over her death you're not sure how to feel. it hurts the most when the deception also comes from aaron, the man you've loved for so long

a/n: idk how i feel about it. it's very rushed because half of it was deleted and i couldn't be bothered to go back and rewrite it properly.

aaron hottie angst again because his pain is so beautifully upsetting. kinda long so enjoy 🤍

part 2 :)

"everybody, have a seat" aaron's voice is more tense than usual, as if he was about to announce some bad news. your heart races but you walked in, grabbing a seat next to morgan. jj stands beside hotch and she looks almost worried, toying with her fingers. your brows knitted in confusion, wondering what was so urgent

"why, what's going on? everything all right?" spencer asked, his brow raised.

"seven months ago, i made a decision that affected this team. as you all know, emily had lost a lot of blood after her fight with doyle," hotch began

"but the doctors were able to stabilize her and she was airlifted from boston to bethesda under covert exfiltration. her identity was strictly need-to-know. and she stayed there until she was well enough to travel. she was reassigned to paris where she was given several identities, none of which we had access to for her security" he finishes but there's pin drop silence in return. his arms had folded over awaiting a response but everyone was shocked to say a thing

your heart feels like it's plummeted at the bottom of the earth, the breath completely knocked out from your lungs. you hope someone announces its a big joke but hotch looks at all of you expectantly. jj has her head slightly bowed, unable to make any eye contact and its then you realise she knew all along.

"she's alive?" you didn't even think you said it out loud but aaron looks at you, his brows in a tight frown. you see the truth spilled on his face and it stings immensely knowing how he saw you in your vulnerable moments and still decided not to say a thing

he knew all along

"but we buried her" someone else says but at that point you completely blank out, sinking further in your seat. hoping the ground would swallow you whole and remove the burden crushing your heart.

"as i said, i take full responsibility for the decision. if anyone has any issues, they should be directed toward me" aaron looks at you again but you don't bother looking in his direction.

all those times, every single tear, every second of sadness, all of it was.... fake?

"any issues?? yeah, i got issues-" morgan started, standing up towards hotch. but he doesn't go far for garcia speaks again. her eyes are brimmed with tears, walking quickly towards the door

"oh, my god" and you turn, unable to register the vision in front of you

"i am so sorry, i really am. not a day went by that i didn't want to...really, i... you didn't deserve that and i'm so sorry" the voice you thought you'd never hear again in this lifetime spoke. there she genuinely was, in the living breathing flesh. garcia grabs her in a hug and they share a tearful laugh about something you can't hear.

"there is so much i want to tell you guys and-and i will, i promise" the woman you spent crying in private about for weeks was now alive, like nothing had even happened.

garcia embraces her tight again and jj, morgan, rossi and reid followed suit.

it doesn't comprehend there she genuinely was, actually physically standing there. so many emotions had run through you, unclear of which one it was. all you can think about was her in your arms actively dying and you crying as you screamed for medics to come.

so you remained silent, while everyone had hugged her you stood just looking. unsure of what to feel, unsure over how to act. it felt foreign and you get lost in the reality of the situation, not realising she had made her way towards you

"y/n..." emily walked closer a smile on her lips but you couldn't reciprocate it. how could she so... nonchalanant about everything? those nights you spent crying, the nights your heart had felt so hollow in your chest, all of that burned in your mind.

the anguish, the pain, the guilt, all of it was an illusion.

and aaron, the man with whom you had trusted with your whole life glanced at you through the corner. he doesn't know what to say, what could be said? unintentionally he had lied to you, comforted you through pain that didn't even exist. he saw you vulnerable after her death, he was the one that pieced you back. and now it felt like all the parts he held together were coming undone.

"emily" you nod, a tight lipped smile on yours. even just being in her presence is enough to tip you over the edge so you distract yourself, holding the file. how strange, a mere seven months ago you two were the closest of friends.

and now you barely even knew her

"i-" she opens her arms slightly to embrace you but you open your hands to give her the information. touching her felt too soon, you needed some time to think.

"this is the file with doyle and everything going on with the kid. we don't have time to spare" you nod, quickly hand it to her and walk straight for the coffee. it wasn't caffeine that was going to help you tonight but it didn't hurt to try

•••

"hey..." morgan finds you staring blankly at the wall with the pictures, trying to find the next step in the kidnapping. and no matter how much you tried to regain your composure, it cracked piece by piece. exposing your facade and your true feelings behind the matter.

you were determined to keep a straight front for your team but every time you saw emily and jj and especially hotch, it felt like a challenge you weren't sure you'd win

"hey" you continue to take through the information, trying to piece the murder but there's so much on your mind it all feels like its vanishing in the air. like nothing is registering in your brain.

"hey" jj comes in and you stiffen up, quickly catching some files and exiting the room. she calls your name but you simply walk straight for the hallway. true, it was a childish thing to do but you couldn't look at any of them without the overwhelming urge to break down.

aaron, however, catches you in the hallway and you step back not wanting to even touch him, unable to look at his deceiting face.

"i know what you've been through. i understand that you're angry but i hope that you understand that this is not about you or me. this was about saving emily" his tone is sharp, firm but you see the hurricane of emotions in his eyes.

the most dominant being sorrow. but that wasn't enough for you, you almost wanted him to experience the pain you'd felt.

"why do you care about what i think hotch? it never mattered before, evidently" you match his tone in return, trying to go about him.

"y/n i know you're disappointed how we handled emily but it wasn't in our control, we couldn't say anything" he stops you and you don't even want to look at him, he knew how hard it had been on you. and he still didn't breathe a word of her survival.

"you couldn't or you wouldn't?? don't pretend to care what i've been through hotch. i came to you crying for weeks on end and not once did you have the decency to tell me the truth. not fucking once. what did you expect? i'd hug prentiss and all would be well? give me a break" you scoffed, pulling away from him. he stood stunned for a moment, his brows scrunched in a confused frown

"i know and i understand-" "i don't think you do. we have a kid that's about to die hotch, now is not the time" you utter, glaring as you walked by him.

•••

the plane ride was silent, moreso than usual. you noticed the glances your team was giving you but as long as the job was done efficiently, there wasn't really anything to say, you'd talk on your own time. just you and your book was enough for now.

all that was interrupted when a voice cut in. a voice you thought you weren't ready to hear just yet

"declan is little shaken up but the doctor said he'll be fine" she smiled at you, eyes looking at you but you refused to make any contact

"good. we got there in time" you commented, turning the page.

"yes..." she taps her fingers on the table, unsure on how to continue the conversation. part of you hopes she walks away, not ready to listen to her just yet.

"well we're going to rossi's tomorrow night. i want to see if he really can cook. are you coming?" she asked hopefully, a small smile on her lips

"i don't know, i'm not so sure i can make it" you leaned your elbow on the armrest, continuing to read the same sentence until she left.

"look, l/n, i know you're mad at us because we didn't tell you what really happened, and... i understand that. but i promise you, we had no choice" she begins and she sighs a little before looking directly at you.

"you mourned one friend, i mourned seven" she chuckled lightly, trying to make you see from her perspective. but you couldn't, the betrayal rang far too loudly in your ears.

his especially

"it's not a competition emily" you put your book down, directly looking at her eyes. everything you had been bursting to say left your lips before you could even comprehend it.

"you didn't carry my coffin, you didn't cry over someone that was presumably dead. do you know how many times i was angry at myself for not doing more? i kept replaying that moment when i held you, near enough lifeless and completely covered in blood. and all i could do was beg you to breathe and stay with me. you didn't take medications because every time you closed your damn eyes, all you could see was your dead friend in her own blood did you? don't pretend we're the same emily, you have no idea what i went through" with every word, you could feel the anger boiling deep inside of you. the annoyance coursing through your veins like wildfire.

"you could've given us a hint, a sign, anything to indicate proof of life. but i had to hold the pain over your death for months. so forgive me if i don't want to go through that again" your tone was sharp, picking up your book back to indicate the conversation was over

"y/n i'm sorry i-" she began softly but you shook your head

"look emily, i appreciate what you're trying to do. really. and i'm happy that you're back but i need time and space too. i can't do this job efficiently otherwise. so please..." you indicated for her to leave and she reluctantly stood up, wanting to say a million words. but none of them seemed quite correct

you hoped no one would come and try to talk, just wishing this plane ride would end quickly and you'd be in the safe sanctuary of your bedroom

and for once your wish is granted

•••

the precinct was empty, dark and cold. replicating how you felt on the inside.

your bag was in your office and you hoped everyone was gone, you couldn't handle seeing their faces.

it was hard, because on the one hand your friend was back. you wanted to rejoice, and hug her so tight but the way it all happened... it felt wrong.

"y/n" and there it is. the voice you definitely didn't want to hear tonight

"aaron" you reply in response, turning around to face him. he looks dishevelled, almost as if he had to run to catch you back here. on any other day before, it would've made you fawn over his adorableness but it didn't stir a thing in you now.

"i know what i did was inexcusable. i know you're hurt, i know it could've been handled better. i realise that but you have to understand that this wasn't my order. if you had known, it would've put you in a compromising position too" he comes close until he's standing a foot away. his eyes are aligt with an emotion you've never seen him use before, pleading

"i just can't get over it hotch. i'm so happy she's back and under different circumstances i would've celebrated it. but i can't because you lied to me. for months and months" you want to fall in to his arms, to forget about everything that had transpired tonight but it would solve nothing. so you stay where you are, the ache in your heart growing by the minute.

"and for that i deeply apologise" before, this would have solved your problems. but now it felt like the gasoline added to the fire.

"you don't care about me aaron and i'm fooling myself if i keep pretending that everything is okay"

"i do y/n, i just need time. i just-"

"how much time?? how much longer can i be expected to wait?? how much longer can i pretend that you actually care about me-"

"i do care!" "oh you do?? you watched me cry for months. does that sound like caring? and you never want to progress further in this. how can i be with someone who doesn't care? emily coming back was just the icing. you'd use anything and anyone to get what you want hotch. you don't care about anyone, much less me"

"is that what you think of me?" he whispers, eyes narrowing at you

"it's what i know of you. from the moment i met you to now. i thought it was fine at first. but i can't do it. do you have any idea how.... hard it is to love you?" every word was a dagger to his heart, twisting and twisting until it was difficult to breathe.

"i'm done. i need a break. from you, from the bau, from everyone" you let out a shaky sigh, hugging your bag closer to your body. the man before you was your lifeline and now it felt like you were drowning in the depths of him. the only way to save yourself would be to remove yourself from his grasp, to pretend that he, your lover, never existed. he was aaron hotchner, your boss. he would never be the man you were so desperately and hopelessly in love with.

"y/n please don't-"

"i'm taking my holidays. don't contact me, don't find me. i just really.... don't want to see you ever" with that you stormed out of the room, away from him and his presence. away from his beautiful face you came to adore, away from all the memories you would forever cherish until your last breath.

but no amount of miles between you both could ever be enough

[maddy-k-reads-all-day]

Okay... so I'm pretty sure the "Play My Way" song is canon considering its an official Amanda 2 song and it's listed in the games credits.

So I'm also gonna consider the two animations the song is based on as canon, too. Bear with me.

If we consider all 3 videos canon then things get really interesting.

Timeline wise, I think all three videos take place before the first game.

The first where everything in the Hide and Seek tape goes smoothly where it's just a storyboard happens before Amanda and Wooly got trapped. I think this may have been a pilot to the animated series. It feels like it sets up what Amanda The Adventurer was supposed to be like. Amanda and Wooly are super friendly with each other, plus Wooly is missing his ears just like the games original pilot.

The second version might be sometime after they got trapped. Supposedly Amanda didn't originally remember her life as Rebecca in the first game right? I think this might be where she started to notice something off. When they replay the Hide and Seek tape, Amanda clearly gets the feeling they've done this before. I'm so sure about Wooly here tho.

Now let's talk about the song on its own, ignoring the timeline and just acknowledging that the characters find this tape familiar.

By the third time (the song), Amanda clearly notices that they've done this before and freaks out. And I think here if Wooly didn't notice something off before, he does when his part comes when he's repeating the lines from the animatics he sounds really unsure? "Right, you're the best... you must play this a lot." Like there's a weird sense of unease in his voice when he says this.

The chorus to me feels really interesting because I feel like we're getting Amanda's true feelings about this situation.

"Now watch us play our part. Now watch us dance and sing. Don't want to fall apart like kids who never seem to scream."

I love the puppet-like vibes these lyrics give off.

After this it seems like the tape resets cuz it's suddenly Amanda's turn again. And Wooly seems like he's really frustrated that he's not getting his turn. But Woolys verse is the most interesting to me.

"Now watch us play our part. Now watch us dance and sing. Don't let it break your heart just play along and-" He gets cut off.

This almost sounds equally passive aggressive as Amanda's chorus. There seems to be an equal amount of resentment. But the "just play along" part seems very fitting for Wooly. One thing I think about Wooly is he seems very avoidant of things that upset him. And it got me wondering if the reason he's always trying to redirect things isn't because it's some "job" of his, instead he simply doesn't like it. He doesn't like tragic stories he doesn't like talking about death or people you trust hurting you. But a lot of these things seem like things that Hameln intentionally wanted in the show so I'm really starting to belive that Wooly himself is the one who doesn't want to talk about it.

Another thing I find weird is how adamant Wooly was about wanting a turn and then how the moment Amanda was gone, he started to panic. As his verse continues after Amanda's chorus, he sounds more and more upset. I can't wait till the animation for this comes out because I really wanna know what Wooly was talking about when he says, " I don't wanna go in there." Omg. Didn't Amanda say that once?

Now, when he finds the "cat under the box," this time it's Mr. Fox? And then Amanda sings about killing someone. I don't think it's Wooly because, continuity wise, that doesn't make sense. We found out that killing Wooly does nothing he just comes back. So Amanda wouldn't try it twice, right? So I think it's Mr. Fox before the first game. Maybe Mr. Fox was a character similar to the opossum? Idk why Amanda would kill Mr. Fox unless if he was in their way. Actually, I know it isn't Wooly because Wooly is still alive at the end of the song- (imagine the music video comes out and makes me look like a fool)

I also wonder what Amanda's "it's you" is supposed to mean. Maybe Kate was the one watching this tape?

Anyway, these are my observations and theories. They are kinda messy and subject to change, but what do you think?

[im-not-samantha-im-samanta]

{♦️♥️♣️♠️🪱Asking Husk if he'd still love you if you were a worm🪱♠️♣️♥️♦️}

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A few words from author: Hello there everyone, welcome to my newest imagines!

So, it's pretty much a routine for me to constantly find new fandoms to add to my writing list, so yeah, here we are again, this time with Hazbin Hotel! ^^

I apologize for not really being active, life's been bad lately and I'm stuck struggling to make it through each new day without considering death lmao.

Tho I'm in the mood for something more on the hurt/comfort side, today I present you some light-hearted and short imagines to hopefully bring some laughs, not sure if these are any good, sorry...

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Settings: Romantic based

Genre: Fluff, light-hearted

!TRIGGER WARNING!: Some swear words, one suggestive line just for laughs, but that's probably all,

Sidenote: Gender of reader is not specified, but if the reader has more feminine feel, then it's purely accidental and I apologize,

Sidenote: These feel so bad and ooc omg end me, I hate my writing,

Sidenote: Am unsure if I'll actively write for Husk, but I just had to do this idea with him cuz it seemed so funny at first, but idk about the outcome,

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That should be all,

Hopefully you'll enjoy,

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"Would I love you if you what? Say fucking what now? No wait- no, I don't wanna even- whatever- sure, for fuck's sake- sure, yes"

Already so fed up with everything and everyone,

and you pull up with this, smh,

Cue to him giving an exaggerated sigh and rubbing his face in annoyance (like in the gif above),

Doesn't appreciate your question,

like at all,

At first he wants to question how'd you even come up with something like that,

or why you feel that question is important,

But he decides against it,

he's really not in the mood for such shit,

So, deciding to just get over with it and satisfy you,

he tells you a yes,

or more like a "yeah, fucking sure, whatever, yes,"

Yes, he'd love you even as a worm, now please leave him be or talk to him about something normal,

please, for the love of Lucifer,

If you don't stop there though and question him further,

he just gives another exaggerated sigh and starts to question why he's dating you,

but he doesn't actually have the heart to make you sad,

so, he goes along with it and answers a 'yes' to any other question you might have regarding you being a worm,

Would he still give you kisses? Yes,

Would he get you a little worm house? Yes,

Would he still talk to you even if you couldn't answer? Yes,

He doesn't have the heart or the energy to respond negatively,

- "Would you still get intimate with me even as a worm?"

"Fucking what- how'd that even- whatever- yeah, sure, fucking sure, yes,"

Just goes along with it,

And when you finally get your fill and you squeal happily at his answers,

and you hug him,

he pats your head with his claws and feels like the boyfriend of the year,

Like- look how he handled the situation without upsetting you,

doesn't he deserve some recognition for that?

At one point he does consider jokingly telling you he'd feed you to the crows tho,

but when he thinks about it more,

and thinks of you actually being a worm and him feeding you to the crows,

he'd feel disturbed and upset at his own idea,

cuz no, that'd be so awful!

he would never do that to you, he couldn't,

no, that thought seriously upsets him and makes his stomach twist and turn,

he may be an asshole, but he loves you too much,

yes, even if you were a worm,

So, he'd make it work even if you were a worm,

Yeah, maybe you were actually asking some real questions,

he'd have to give it more thought and plan out how he'd accommodate to you if you did turn into a worm someday,

Better be safe than sorry,

___________________________________________

[imrllytootiredforthis]

you know i listened to some nsfw audio like a month ago?... ig🤷🏻‍♀️and it was a puppy boy speaker trying the tail plug and the leash on for the first time😭he was eating the listener out in the end😭pls not only was it adorably cute like😭but also the voice of that guy sounded like jake's or i'm being too delusional at this point idk now🙂🙂

anyway this idea has been living in my mind since that day and oh god...it's def not making my life easier like...at all💀💀the man is just a dumb doggy personified idc,,,, the things i wanna do to him 🤯(i literally have no idea why i'm sending this but.. thought you'd find it interesting ^^)

...do you perhaps still have this audio??🙂🙂

he's pretty puppy. he's filthy mutt. he's dumb doggy. he's bitch in heat. all of which he'd probably 100% moan at being called😫

i'm just imagining finding out that he into it for the first time though, whether it's some kind of porn on his computer that he sucks at hiding or a pair of fluffy puppy ears hidden in his closet-the exact shade of his hair

you don't tell him you know right away though, instead you take this perfect chance-still slightly upset that he didn't tell you himself-to tease him😫😏

one morning waking up early in bed next to him, his body curled into yours, legs wrapped around your hips. clinging onto you like his life depends of it.

you lay there like this for awhile, watching him as he sleeps for a bit longer, small snores coming from it that make it all the more adorable.

you can hardly help but lightly drag a finger over his face, his cheekbones and lips and eyebrows, marvelling how a human being could be so fucking pretty. he's pretty always but especially like this. with dried drool in the corner of his mouth, features soft and a smile playing on the edge of his lips. his face is practically buried in your chest (he claims it's his favourite pillow)

he'd wake up slowly, muttering nonsense and rubbing his head against you. he'd probably reach down to grab your hand and pull it up to put it in his hair, encouraging you to scratch his scalp still half asleep and groggy.

he's so cute you could die.

but then you realize that it's the perfect opportunity.

wrapping an arm around his waist and pulling him in closer to you, slotting your mouth into the crevice of his neck, whispering to him.

"good morning~" the smile on his face is still tired, the window across the room annunciating the shine in his eyes when he looks at you. "you look so pretty puppy,"

he'd freeze at that, eyes wide, muscles tense. unsure of what he should do with himself. absolutely malfunctioning on the inside, trying not to squirm against you.

"u-I...thank-thank you?" his voice borders on breathless, his fingers getting tighter against your skin, nails digging in.

"no need to thank me, you're always a pretty puppy," you flip his body over and he lets you, enjoying the subtle manhandling as you perch him on top of you, his legs straddling your thighs, "a pretty puppy just for me, right?"

his boxers feel unbearably tight and his face is as red as a fire hydrant. all he wants...all he wants, well he wants a lot of things but this, this is by far at the top of his list.

he unconsciously begins to grind down against you, his head falling back as he lets out a long moan. "yes, yes, m' your puppy-just your puppy,"

you pull his head back to you by his hair, looking at the glassy sheen in his eyes, the way his nails dig into the palm of his hands, the way that whimpers escape from under his breath giving away just how needy he is.

fingers glide over the smooth expanse of his neck, a touch he welcomes. "good boy. and you know what good boys get?"

he looks almost timid as he replies, "...a reward?"

the smile that blooms across his face makes him feel so good, like he's pleased you some way, like he wants only to please you all the time. "good! now close your eyes for me puppy, want it to be a surprise for you."

he listens as he's told as you reach down into your nightstand, rifling through it's contents before pulling his reward out.

"open."

he opens his eyes to a simply black collar, a gold tag on it shaped like a bone with something engraved onto it.

'my good puppy'

[heart-shaped-pebble]

Market Day

@flufftober Prompt day 4: Market Day

Pairing: Sejanus Plinth x gen!reader

tags: FLUFF. Pure fluff.

Summary: Going shopping with Sejanus for your halloween party!

Note: I hope this is good?? I like it but idk, still a bit unsure on it. Enjoy cute Sej though (:

“Sejanus? Your mom let me in, are you ready?” You knocked at his bedroom's door, expecting him to come out ready and dressed up to go out. Instead, when he opened the door, you were met with the image of your boyfriend looking like he had just woken up - even if it was five p.m. - and still in his pj. “Sej…” You sighed.

��I love you but I don't think it's necessary that I attend tonight's party.”

“But it's at your house.” 

“Is it? I'm sure no one will complain if you have it at your place instead.” Sejanus tried to argue, walking back to his bed and launching himself on it, groaning when his head hit the pillow. 

You softly chuckled and went to sit next to him. “Sejanus, what's wrong?”

“I know we're using my house ‘cause it's bigger, but no one likes me at school. So either they're going to come and make fun of me, or they're not going to come at all.” 

You hummed and looked down, a sense of guilt suddenly washing all over you. You had the idea of hosting a Halloween party inviting all of your year's classmates, and you had asked Sejanus if you could use his house as host. You were so excited about organizing your first big party that you hadn't even bothered thinking about how Sejanus might feel about it. 

“I'm sorry,” you began apologizing, trying to find a solution for your - even if innocent - mistake, “I didn't think it might have upset you- I should have.”

Sejanus looked up at you confused, all red in the face for having it pressed against the pillow. “What? No, let me finish. It's not about me. I can take Arachne's insults, trust me. I'm just worried it'll ruin your party. You're so excited about it, I don't want to mess it up.” 

You smiled widely at realizing what he was worried about, and immediately snuggled in bed with him to comfort him. “Sej, I couldn't care less about what they say about you. And certainly won't care if they don't come to my party.”

Sejanus smiled sheepishly at you, “Yeah?”

“Absolutely.” You nodded, kissing his nose. “And… I'm assuming you not wanting to interact with Hilarious and the others has nothing to do with it, right? You just want my happiness.” You added, grinning, nudging him with your shoulder. Sejanus blushed in embarrassment, trying to hide his face from you.

“... Maybe just a little bit.” 

You smiled. “Lucky you I know just the thing that will cheer you up and get you in the mood for tonight!”

“Market day?” Sejanus said. You nodded happily and he groaned dramatically, resting on the pillow again.

“Hey don't make that face! You promised.” You reminded him, snatching the pillow from below his face and throwing it at him. “That's why I'm here, remember?”

Sejanus playfully rolled his eyes and sat up on his bed, leaning in to give you a chaste kiss on your lips. “You're lucky I love you.” 

×××

Sejanus squinted his eyes and checked the list. “Okay so, drinks and snacks: check. Bats decorations: check. Fake blood: check. Vampire teeth-” He stopped reading and sighed, meeting your excited eyes. Sejanus took the teeth out of the bag and put them on, giving you the best smile he could master. “Check. Are you sure they're necessary?” He asked, pointing at them. 

You nodded, turned around and kept on walking down Target's isles as Sejanus pushed the cart. “Of course. Besides, you look adorable in it, love.” 

“But I can't even kiss you with it! They keep clashing against yours.” Sejanus explained, moving in front of you and trying to kiss you to prove his point. “See?”

You laughed at your boyfriend and kissed him on the cheek. “I thought you loved Halloween, Sej.” 

Sejanus pouted looking offended, as if what you'd told him had truly hurt him. “I do. Just not a big fan of anything that stops me from kissing you, that's all.” You rolled your eyes and smiled, getting behind the cart to push it.

After another ten minutes of you and Sejanus walking back and forth around the store to complete your list, you only had one thing left to buy.

“How are we going to get that?” Sejanus asked, staring at the giant pumpkin you wanted to get in disbelief. There were three left available - the cons of buying it on Halloween day, you assumed - and they were all the same size. They weren't  the largest pumpkins ever for sure, but it still was rather big considering you only had a few small paper bags to carry it to the car.

“In my defense, I thought they were smaller.” 

“Maybe we can carry it by hand? You take one side, I take the other.”  

You raised your eyebrows and pointed to all the other food and decorations you had bought. Sejanus looked at the groceries and back at the pumpkin. “Yeah, too much shit to carry already.” 

“Can't we just use the cart?” You suggested, but Sejanus shook his head. 

“The car is outside the parking lot.” He reminded you, and you nodded. 

You frowned and looked around, your eyes landing on one shelf in particular. “I have an idea.”

×××

“I actually can't believe you bought a stroller instead of finding a smaller pumpkin.” Sejanus commented while pushing the stroller, where the pumpkin rested, to the car. 

You giggled at his comment and clinged to his arm, joining your hands, “It's the perfect one. I couldn't just give up on it!”

Sejanus looked at you and chuckled. “I love you, you know that right?” He said, kissing your head.

“I love you too.” You said, smiling, lifting your hands up and kissing his knuckles.

[andrwgarfields]

Hi. I'm new to the fandom and just started watching the show and already love it and the actors. I've been trying to figure out all the information myself but it's so confusing lol. I came across your blog and thought maybe you could help me out and explain some things. And I apologize in advance for my bad English, it's not my native language. 1) How and why did Kit come out? I mean, I remember there was a big uproar that he was forced to, but why did he decide to do it? Don't get me wrong, I'm sure a straight guy playing a gay character is nothing new in Hollywood and he's not the first actor who could be suspected of something. And if I remember correctly, he was in a relationship with a girl at the time. So why did he come out in the end? Was there dirt on him? I know that some stars who came out did so under this type of pressure. Was there a similar situation with Kit? 2) Are/were Joe and Sebastian Croft dating? From what I've found, it looks like they were dating from the start? But they certainly haven't talked about it openly. But what's up with them now? Did they break up? And I see a lot of hate towards Sebastian. Did he hurt Joe somehow? I read something about Sebastian being horrible to Joe, but is that true? 3) Are Kit and Joe really good friends? How close are they? I don't think they're together (I wish they were, lol), but I like their friendship from the few interviews I've watched. Are there any of your favorites that you could recommend? 4) Is there a name for Joe and Kit otp? I still haven't figured that one out 😄

aw these are such adorable questions and please don’t apologise for your english its literally perfect

1. There has been pressure on kit ever since he claimed as being unlabelled when it comes to sexuality, it was something he said he wanted to keep for himself and general public was surprisingly cruel about it saying he just does not want to admit he is straight cause he does not want to kill the fantasy or whatever messed up things. Then yeah i would say the pictures/videos of him with a girl (still unsure if they were in a relationship, they never admitted to any kind of relationship so idk what to say about it) kinda led to an increase of such queerbating comments (in which real people cannot do) and i guess he was sick of it hence coming out regarding his sexuality suddenly on twitter.

2. Joe and Bash never claimed anything regarding their relationship but fans have always assumed they were dating cause they were always hanging out together and bash went to joe’s hometown in the Isle of Man and all that but yeah no specific admission about it so I wouldn’t know either hahahha and i guess people have realised their interactions have been dead for some time hence assuming that something happened (aka breaking up which again nothing was said so 🤷‍♀️) there has not been any proof of bash being mean to joe so i feel like a lot of it is just projection? Bash was involved in some harry potter project so the fanbase was saying he is transphobic since HP was created by JK Rowling. And there were some comments by himself regarding his character Ben that made people upset, i cannot remember well but it was along the lines of how he’s kinda misunderstood or something and fans feel like he’s not being serious enough regarding how his character actually sexually assaulted someone so yeah

3. I would say they are from what I have seen on social media and their interviews. Joe admitted kit was one of the few who knew about his role in marvel first. I feel like you would not trust somebody with that kind of information hahaahah and they hang out, outside of filming with will and tobie so i would say they are good friends! Ouhhh the recent interviews for the promotion of heartstopper season 3 is so good! My favourite is the GQ best friend interview and the one with Ladbible where they tried food together

4. Hahahahahah fans are very strict about not shipping them so i would not say theres a name for them, fans generally combine their name JoeKit 🤣

[syndrossi]

what/when/how are you planning on getting jon and rhaegar to the north? bc i have this weird vision in my head of, in several years when the boys are older and the dragons ridable, something upsetting jon and causing him to run away to winterfell (in the night). maybe he was already having a bad week and something reminded him or arya, and he realized he hadn’t thought of her in a while, maybe someone insulted the north and he got tired of hearing insults directed at the place he grew up, idk. but bc he left at night and his dragon is black they don’t know where he went and rhaegar has to be like “don’t ask me why i think this but we should really go north”. but also when they get there jon could have a conversation with rhaegar about how he whatever he was looking for wasn’t there anymore ,and how can he know his way around the keep but have it be so unrecognizable, and was this how rhaegar felt for all the years they’d been in the keep? idk if this fits with what you have planned but it’s been stuck in my head for a while now, and i didn’t really know where else to let it out.

I don't want to spoil things too much, but there's an event 1-2 years in the future that would take them up north to Winterfell. Unsure if they arrive there some other way beforehand but they'll definitely make it there then. *squints* I'm guessing they'd want to wait for spring, so probably more like 2 years from now, barring other things occurring.

I like the parallels you mentioned of Jon experiencing some of those ghosts and uncanny same-but-not that Rhaegar felt at the Red Keep in Winterfell, because I think he absolutely would be feeling it.

On the "where to let it out" front, I've been pondering trying out the new Tumblr communities feature, as that would let people post things they want to chat about but don't want cluttering up their main blog without having to go the send-an-ask route. It's still in beta, though (and people might not even want/need something like that), so I've been holding off.

[pain-is-too-tired]

Am I the only one who's kinda getting bored of the "haha Percy is blonde like Will, the you're not my type scene is gonna be so funny" or whatever?

Specifically because Walker looks nothing like how I imagine Will?

Like yeah, he's blonde. But not the blonde I see for Will? It's a darker tone. Plus He does not have lanky cat stretched out in sun vibes sorry y'all

That, and Nico never specified he meant looks when he said Percy wasn't his type.

Cause if we compare Will and Percy they're different in a lot of ways.

Will's a healer, Percy's a fighter.

Will is described as laid back and appearing a lot more harmless then he really is. Why Percy is constantly being described as frightening and even godlike. He's a whole storm why Will's a cat stretched out in the sun.

Both are stubborn,but Will is a lot better holding in his more extreme emotions. It takes a lot more for him to be loud when going back and forth with someone. He can sound annoyed but he hardly ever sounds angry.

That and Will can calm down others like Clarisse, why Percy ends up matching them in attitude at some point.

Like I said, Percy's a fighter which often leads to impatience as usually in a fight its so quickly placed. You have to strike first before your enemy gets you. His adhd is a lot more hyperactive.

Will on the other hand has to balance patience and speed. Rushing can be dangerous, but you also can't be too slow or else chances of your patient dieing grows. It applies to how he interacts with others too.

And I honestly think that might be why Nico clicked more to Will. Will just has more patience to get through to him. He gets upset but he keeps his cool. Literally,iirc, they were in LITERAL HELL before they had their first true out right fight.

Idk why it urks me so much now. It was funny at first but it feels it's been beaten to the ground.

I think a lot it is also I feel Will is way too often chopped down to Nico's "hot therapist boyfriend". That y'all literally think of Percy was blonde that's all was needed to be Nico's type again. Like that's all that makes Will his type.

Heck, think about the fact Percy hardly ever defenseless. If he doesn't have his sword he has his powers.

Nico's thoughts on Will why he was literally going on about him in boo is that despite his harmless figure. Despite being a healer and not a fighter. Will rushes in to battle, even volunteering to scout on a enemy right after DELEVERING A BABY AT 14.

I think Nico found Will a lot more welcoming because Percy is just too much like him in some ways.

Sure, they can outsmart opponents, they're not dumb or completely dependent on their weapons and abilities. But without them they're a bit more unsure of their next moves. We see that Nico,despite being on the verge of dieing, still instinctively relies on his abilities. Though we don't see a similar case with Percy, his abilities is what makes him great enough to go toe to toe with literally gods. Nico's connect to death related abilities radiating from him was enough to scare back monsters.

Both need someone who isn't as use to being able to depend on weapons or godly powers strong enough to topple armies. They need someone to keep them grounded.

It's why Will and Annabeth click so well with their respective boyfriends. Annabeth constantly coming up with plans, she has only really her wits and a small blade to get her the upper hand. AND SHE DOES SO. I'm sure if Percy was in a situation where he couldn't use any of his abilities and either without his sword or couldn't depend on it as well, she would easily think of a plan and keep him from over doing it.

Will,like Annabeth, doesn't have the same powerful aura that his boyfriend does that keeps others literally backing away.

But he still managed to walk past Gemini without being stopped. I refuse to believe that he can't handle himself in battle like TSATS tried to say.

Anyway, really excited to see baby Will in the show in a few years fhdh

[yourtouchismidas]

I’m seriously missing all the ruins chat!!! Idk if you were still writing little bit for it but if so then I had a thought. Imagine matty having to deal with Gigi when she gets her period, maybe for the first time or just in general. I feel like he’d panic but he’d try so hard to help her out🫠

awww me too ruins was such an era!!

i think when she gets her first period, maybe ruins girl is away, and gigi locks herself in the bathroom. matty knocks on the door like, "baby what's wrong?" and she wont tell him but he wont let it go, he keeps knocking, and then eventually she yells to him, "i got my period okay dad, leave me alone."

matty is silent for a second. as he takes this in. it's his baby and she is growing up. he is so happy and yet so sad at the same time.

"i think mum has tampons in the cupboard" he yells through the door, unsure what else to say.

"i'm thirteen years old, matthew," gigi says, "i'm not putting anything... inside me."

matty laughs. puts his hands over his mouth to muffle it so he doesnt upset her.

"that's fair enough, baba," he says, "what do you need?"

"pads. please. not fucking huge scary ones."

"language!" matty says.

"oh fuck off, matty, i'm bleeding!!! i should be allowed to swear."

he muffles a laugh again. "fair enough." he says again.

"get me nice ones please. i'm fragile," gigi says.

"nice.... pads?" matty asks, confused. he should have read more about teenage girls. paid attention more in sex ed instead of sling-shotting condoms at hann's face.

"you know," gigi says, her voice breaking a bit, "the ones that smell like flowers or something."

she starts crying half way through the sentence and matty knocks gently.

"baby, what you crying for?" he says softly.

"i dont know!" she sobs, but she is also laughing. he laughs too. until they are both in peels of laughter. gigi still sobbing too.

"are you in pain?"

"no," gigi says, "but i'm worried i might be later. i've heard cramps can be awful."

"well we will take it easy today, okay? watch movies?"

"can you just hurry up and get my pads please. i'm stuck on the fucking loo."

matty laughs again. "course baby sit tight."

he runs to tesco. he gets a basket and puts in ibuprofen and paracetamol and then some actual period pain relief with a picture of a women with what looks like a burning uterus on the front. he buys a microwave hot water bottle that smells like lavender. dropping one his basket for gigi then going back and getting another one. you know. for his own comfort. for his own self care day. he gets a bunch of chocolate and sweets and crisps. then he goes to the pads. he stares at them. there is loads. she asked for nice ones. ones that smell like flowers? what the fuck? he thinks. do those even exist. he rings you but you don't pick up. busy at work. he thinks about ringing again but he doesnt want to bother you. he wants to do this on his own too. he's a dad. it's his responsibility. he tries to google it but the ones that come up aren't on the shelves.

"are you alright?" a woman says next to him. she's around his age. it looks like. she's wearing a big coat even though its warm out.

"my daughter wants pads that smell like flowers," he tells her helplessly.

the woman laughs. she reaches up to the shelf and grabs some.

"how old is she?" she asks.

"thirteen," he says.

the woman reaches up and grabs a few more boxes.

"get her these too. and these," she says, "for options."

"thank you!" he says. he wants to reach out and hug her.

he takes them all back to gigi, who emerges from the toilet five minutes later with a frown on her face so deep it makes matty laugh again.

"dad!" she whines.

"sorry," he says, "i love how much you are growing up. i love who you are now. and who you were and who you will be."

she rolls her eyes. "shut up," she says. but she hugs him and asks to watch movies.

"of course baby, whatever you want."

[marcusdoodlesalot]

Really sorry I keep bothering you with asks about Good Enough and the au surrounding that (the positive brainworms are persistent and I read that fic for comfort)

But in one of the final chapters of the fic, when the gays visit Ordon, Ilia mentions that she plans on moving to Castle Town and hints at bisexuality. Do you plan on her joining the main group? Is she gonna be shipped with anyone in the group? Because a pairing of her and maybe Ashei might be funny, like they're both fairly assertive and blunt people so even just talking it'd be interesting to see how they interact.

And also, she'd be seeing Twi open up and probably be more comfortable and open than he'd been in Ordon, and maybe she'd feel guilty and feel like she should've been able to provide that safe space? And also, there's the question of how she'd act in a place where she doesn't have the reputation of 'Major's daughter', whether she'd take pride in that or feel freed.

Idk, I'm just tired rambling, please don't feel forced to actually write all these ideas, I'm just in love with your fic and think too much-

Listen, I NEVER mind answering Good Enough questions, you think you have brain worms for that AU? I think about it all the time, so I will rant about it forever.

Also, yes! Ilia has some unrealized feelings about girls she doesn't realize is Not Straight. As for her and Ashei, that is, in fact, the plan! I love pairing those two up, especially in a relationship of like "Are they best friends? Enemies? Or in love with each other?" I plan on writing a short little fic of Ilia moving to Castle Town and realizing many things as she tries to not to get a crush on all the hot women that her gay best friend hangs out with.

Honestly, when it comes to Ilia not being the Mayor's daughter, its kinda weird. Like, shes a bit unsure of her place in the place she lives now and who she meets to be her friends, but that uncertainty is what makes her excited. She's nervous, yes, when she gets added into the group (what, you think Twi, much less SHAD will let her be isolated in the same city they live in? Fat chance.) but she also doesn't have the expectation of being "perfect".

And, yeah, she does feel kinda guilty but also a little salty. She's his supposed best friend (or at least, he's hers) and he didn't feel comfortable being himself around her? It hurts. She's salty but she also kinda gets it, so she doesn't mention it or let it control her emotions.

But, yeah! I have big plans or this AU, and im still having a lot of fun writing it! Right now I'm writing a fic where Shad tries to control two kittens and is, ultimently, failing. Have a little sneak peak:

“I am-” “MEOW!” “Just give me-” “MEOW!” “Would you calm down? I am-” “MEOW!” “-trying to get you-” “MEEEOOOOWWWW!!!” “-your food!” But Banjo listened not, circling around and around, screaming louder than Shad thought a cat could, getting up on her hind legs and trying to reach for them. Baby spade was not behaving much better, jumping up on the counter and getting a huge chomp of food before being dropped off of it over and over again, forcing Shad to hold the cat in one hand as he tried to portion out their food in the other. It didn’t help that Link insisted on only getting the best food with supplements and organs and toppers. Shad had agreed, after listening to the twenty three minute (he had timed it) lecture about house cat nutrition in the pet food aisle while shopping after Shad had asked why they couldn’t just do one big bowl of kibble that they would only have to refill every other day. Apparently, he was wrong and he did not know enough about cats to call the shots on this one.  But right now? Trying to rangle two hyper and wiggly cats as he tried to make their dinner? Shad was a little upset he didn’t try to push harder for the bowl and kibble. They could have just gotten high quality kibble but noooooooo, cats do better on wet food diets and don’t get enough hydration and all that.  “Ow, fuck!” He jerked his leg, glancing down to see the orange menace clawing her way up his leg. Clearly, her patience for his fumbling with both the food and her sister has run dry, now taking matters into her own hands to get her claws on some good chow.  He reached down, trying to gently extract her from his leg, hissing a bit to  himself as the claws dug deeper past the pant’s material and into his legs. He felt Baby Spade wiggle free onto the counter from his arm, getting in one, two, three big chomps before he picked her up. He picked them both up from their scruffs, cradling them in his arms with a sigh, trying hard to keep them from wiggling out, both now yelling in a chorus of meows.  He turned and headed to the bedroom, plopping them both down before hastily shutting the door, standing there for a moment to gather his thoughts and cool himself down. The sister protested, screaming and clawing at the door, little fluffy paws poking out from under it.  Right, okay, just keep them in there and finish getting the food ready. Goddesses, why didn’t he think of that before?  He walked back to the counter, finishing portioning and topping, even taking time to make them look nice as the two kitties screamed from under the door.  He set the bowls down and swifty walked down the hallway to release the problem children to their dinners.  Banjo hopped down the hallway as Baby Spade sprinted out, her paws sliding on the floor for a minute before she found her traction and shooting off to her dinner.  He blinked in shock for a moment before bursting out laughing.

Hell yeah, cats! Again, ask me about anything any time, I love answering questions about this and just talking in general, I'm quite the yapper, you see.

[hopelessromamtic26]

My thoughts about Bridgerton season 3 part 2 & Polin.

I am going to be honest it was beautiful I loved every part of it but there are some disappointments too. First of all, im going to start with the things I loved. This post is going to be long so bare with me.

1. I loved polin's first time scene it was beautiful made and sexy. Colin was so gentle with her and made sure she was enjoying herself rather then him getting his pleasure.

2. The wedding I thought it was beautiful as well. Especially Penelope's dress. She looked like a princess.

3. Of course I loved it when Cressida got put in her place once Pen wrote down she's the real Wistledown.

4. I also like that Lady Danbury sort of knew Pen was Lady Wistledown. I liked that very much.

5. I don't know what was wrong with me I kind of like that Colin was angry maybe because I expected some angry sex. But I was a little disappointed we didn't get that but I understood why it didn't happen.

6. I loved that Colin told her he loved her early on instead of like in the book. In the book it took him forever to figure out that he loved her. But show Colin was more aware of his feelings for Penelope and I liked that.

Now to the things I didn't like. I was expecting something like it the book. About once Colin found out I wanted Penelope to snap on him. Like it's my turn to talk and you to listen. Here in the show she didn't do that which I wanted. I also didn't like when Colin was yelling at her about why she ruined Miss Thompson. She tried to tell you several time buddy. You wouldn't listen to her as just Pen. So she had no other option but to put it in Lady Wistledown. Same with Eloise. She told her many times to stop seeing Theo and she wouldn't listen either so once again to save her so the Queen wouldn't ruin her family. Pen had to put her being unchaperoned with theo on Lady Wistledown. It was Eloise fault in the first place because she was so obsessed with uncovering Lady Wistledown that she slipped up. I am going to be honest I didn't really like Eloise this season. But I was glad she stopped being friends with Cressida again she had to learn the hard way. She became good in the end to me though. Eloise not Cressida. I liked how she was basically the same like in the book.

Now to other things I didn't like how they made Benedict have a threesome. I thought that was totally unnecessary. He got more sexy times then polin when it's their season. I don't get the writers sometimes. They spend more time on other side plots then the main one. I wanted to see more. How Colin was feeling when he was sleeping on the couch. I know once she woke up you can see that he wasn't sleeping. But I wanted to see him trying very hard not to go in their bedroom. I wanted to see his thought process more. I also wanted him to be more happy during the wedding he was still angry and sad. I did not like how they made it a sad wedding and Pen was unsure about it. I thought she wouldn't go through with it and just run out the door. I am glad she didn't and it seemed like he calmed down a little while they danced. Until the Queen interrupted. Also I didn't want Pen to tell the entire ton she was Lady Wistledown this season. But it was very beautiful regardless. Anyway it was a beautiful writen story I loved watching it. I just liked the book better in some parts. We still don't know who's season its going to be next. I hope it's not Eloise. I never read her book. I just don't care about her love story. I loved Eloise in the book though. I really hope its Benedict that was what I was looking forward to most of all. I also hope there are more sexy scenes with Polin next season. We barely had any because of LW revealed ruined everything. So another thing I'm looking forward to next season. I am also going to be honest I liked part 1 a lot better than part 2. Idk maybe it was the yearning and I love to see Colin yearning. I wanted him to do that a lot once he was upset. (Yearning for his wife) But it's okay still good however.

[autistpride]

Hi.. I hope you don't mind a bit of a long ask. So I've seen from your posts that you have autism, and I was wondering if I could have your opinion on something. More recently I've been questioning if I might have autism myself, but I'm really unsure about it and my family seems pretty adamant that I don't. The main reason that they think I don't is because they're used to stereotypes, and they don't think I could have it because I understand and use a lot of sarcasm, even though I've told them that it's a spectrum and everyone is different. Of course I know that your opinion won't make up for an official diagnosis, but as of now I'm too embarrassed to even mention that I MIGHT have it, because if I'm wrong I'll feel like one of those people who fakes disorders or something. So, if you're willing to listen, I was going to list out some of the traits that I've been called 'weird' or 'alien' over, and see if maybe you think they could possibly mean autism? I hope that's okay with you 😅

•I always get the exact same foods from restaurants that I go to frequently. If they don't have what I usually get, I most likely won't eat anything at all.

•Speaking of those foods, I always eat them in the exact same order. The burger, then the fries, then the nuggets. The breadsticks, then the fish, then the shrimp, y'know? I don't know when or why I started doing this, I've just sort of always done it.

•I have a huge problem staying still, something that I get very self conscious about in public. I'm always tapping my feet, rocking back and forth, clicking something in my hands, chewing on water bottle caps, and just generally refusing to sit in one spot. I also love to pace when I'm trying to formulate ideas, as I feel it really helps me think.

•I can't stand wearing jeans. I mean I won't go crazy if I have to, but they always make me feel restricted. I thought for a while that it was just how restricting they were, but I've found that other tight pants don't make me feel the same way?

•I DESPISE nail files. I can't explain it, but just the sensation of that sandpaper-like stuff rubbing against my nails activates my fight or flight response, I just feel like bolting it gives me bad goosebumps all over.

•I hyperfixate on stuff hard, I pick things up quick but also drop them hard. Recently I picked up DC/Batfam as a hyperfixation and I've been fully leaning into it ever since, spending pretty much all of my time making art or stories about it (Or at the very least thinking about the characters in some way). However back a few years ago I was hyperfixated on Markiplier Egos, and then one day I just.. Dropped it out of nowhere, and haven't been able to pick it back up since.

•This one's really iffy but I feel like I get irritated a lot super super easily, and I used to think it was just anger issues but for one: It's almost never something to get upset about, and for two: It usually happens when I've been talking to someone for a little too long or when someone interrupts my quiet time. So if we're going with the whole maybe autism thing, it might be overstimulation..? Idk..

•I'm super light sensitive, pretty much every time I go outside I say 'Wow it's bright out there" when I come back in. It's so noticeable that I used to not only notice, but attribute it to an eye injury I had once. Except that injury wasn't serious and is fully healed, so that's probably not it.

•I have a lot of trouble speaking sometimes. I feel like my words never come out the way that I want them to, and I often end up slurring them around so much that what I'm trying to say becomes pretty much incomprehensible, which always makes me frustrated because I get misunderstood a lot.

•I don't really understand what other people are feeling most of the time, and I get annoyed when they won't just tell me what they want instead of vaguely hinting about it and expecting me to know what they need.

•I'm always being told to speak up because I 'mumble', even though I think I'm talking at an acceptable volume.

•I ramble. A lot. (Sorry 😭👍)

But yeah, those are just some of the thing that I've been jokingly called 'strange' for over the years. Like I said earlier, I know that your opinion is nothing like an actual diagnosis, but hearing your thoughts on whether or not I might have it would mean a lot to me since you're someone who's been diagnosed!

Hi annon!

Let me preface this by saying I'm so proud of you for really taking the time to think about all this and dig into your life and behaviors.

Then to ask someone about it is very brave!

I wish there was a way to reply without showing your entire ask message. I feel terrible sharing your private thoughts with everyone.

I'm not a professional so I don't feel qualified to say yes or no. And as much as I want to give you some reassurance, I can't give you something definite. Especially when I don't know you in order to form a proper opinion.

Yes many of those things are things that indicate you could be autistic.

There is a lot of overlap and they could be things related to other Neurodivergent diagnosis such as ADHD, anxiety, OCD, etc and not just autism.

However, I will say if you're even questioning if you're autistic it's a pretty good chance you're autistic or some kind of Neurodivergent. Most neurotypical people often don't think this hard on if they could be autistic or not. 😉

You have put a lot of thought into this and my suggestion is to keep researching and doing what you're doing. Keeping notes also if you'd like. Why?

Because....

1. Keeping notes and continuing research allows you to have a record of everything.

2. The notes would also come in handy for if you ever seek an assessment.

3. With more time, you will become more self aware and confident in your thoughts on what you believe about if you're autistic. You can then sit down with your family and explain why you think you're autistic.

4. If the comes a time you'd like to try an assessment, you can talk to a gp or therapist if you have one and have them place the appropriate things for you to have that done. Your family needn't be part of the process if you're of legal age. But you may need adult permission for the evaluation if you are considered a minor.

5. Self diagnosis is valid in the autism community. Its valid because a diagnosis is very challenging for many to obtain, and in some situations dangerous.

This doesn't mean someone just wakes up one morning and says "oh I think I'm autistic today". No. They have done hours and hours of research and evaluated their own life, mannerisms, and behaviors, and said "I really think I'm autistic."

Self diagnosised individuals get the benefit of knowing themselves and finding support in the community without ever getting access to supports any official way. They can't get school/work accomodations, financial assistance, medical/mental health services, or really any supports put in place that require an official diagnosis to obtain.

Some would claim self diagnosis isn't valid due to exactly what you pointed out, making a claim of a diagnosis without qualifications and due to the huge overlap and other factors, but the wait times, cost, and unfortunately things like race and gender are barriers to obtaining an assessment and diagnosis. I know in the UK the current NHS wait time is 7-10 years unless you go private. I know in the US getting an assessment as an adult is challenging as most professionals won't evaluate people over 18 and the cost is upwards to $7k depending on location because most insurances won't cover it.

You are always welcome to continue messaging me. I'm happy to answer any questions and I honestly enjoy talking to people when I can.

And in case no one's told you

You're not broken, a burden, and there is nothing wrong with you!

Be your best and amazing self! ✨

[ednito]

Sorry I keep making these types of posts, I know I don't talk much here and really most if not all are mainly here for art but I just have big feelings about stuff that impact this blg that I feel it's only right to keep you guys updated.

I just mainly want to apologize for not posting art and not posting anything of really good quality. I've really been trying to even with the complications with my computer but I have just not been able to make anything in general, I just can't seem to form any ideas and when I do I am just unable to really draw it right, I can't even really draw the circles and squares I use as building blocks. It's been like this for awhile but before It was something I could work around but now it's really difficult. I'm unsure how I can fix this, I've been trying to draw in different media's and maybe try drawing in other fandoms but it's not really helping and admittedly I'm getting frustrated with it.

I don't want to upset anyone about this, I don't want to make people angry I'm not drawing spooky scarecrow house content, that I'm not drawing any DC content- so far I've had people in dms and in asks get upset at me for things, not just about art but other things and while I trust you guys wouldn't do that kind of thing I suffer horrible paranoia and idk my brain can't help but think that way.

I don't want to get too far into personal stuff (I don't want to upset anyone nor do I feel it's appropriate to really talk about most of this) but I guess I've just not been doing good mentally and that's really been taking a toll on things lately. I've really been trying not to have it affect me but its hard, especially when not really having the support I need and treatment with therapists.

I still want to open commissions, but it's difficult to do so obviously with these issues. I might just do simple doodles for 5 dollars but idk.

I know I have more to say but I'm finding it difficult to continue, I apologize again for making these posts I understand these are annoying to see and I don't blame anyone for choosing not to read this. I guess for the meantime I'll keep trying to get out of the mud but I can't promise anything.

I'm really really sorry for this, I feel really bad about it all. Thank you for understanding.

[emblazons]

I like reading theories here (and i like to theorize on my own too) but I just kinda wish there was more "realistic" Bylers here who theorize about what actually migh happen in terms of character arcs and story and relationships in the next season. Because when it all comes down to it, we will have to arrange our expectations regarding what is most likely to appear on our screens in S5. And I just feel like there are not many blogs doing or considering that. I especially agree with you on this-- reading Bylers' analyses and theories before vol2 really meddled with my expectations and it feels like the majority of our fandomside just went overboard and focused on what they wanted to see instead of what was likely going to happen or happening in story's direction and that is why the majority of Bylers misunderstood things or just got very disappointed or got shocked by what happened.

I feel like majority of the Bylers are still misreading some things in the plot (that being Mike's characterization most of all) and that because of that reason, many people will get blindsided again in S5 like they have in vol2. Because people expect and want to see certain and specific things about characters and plot, and they are setting themselves up, so it kinda feels like ppl just going to be disappointed again by certain things due to them not actually considering Duffers' intentions and writing style/choices.

That is why I wish there were more "realistic" Byler blogs in this fandom who do not go overboard or do not get too attached to their headcanons and do not build up way too specific expectations based on those-- i feel like it would honestly be the best way to get ready for S5 and arrange our expectations in this community for what is likely to come in the next season.

I agree! Honestly, I can appreciate people wanting characters to be the kind of people they can relate to or enjoy (or more specifically fleshed out than this ensemble cast of characters allots for sometimes), but when you combine that with a sense of "I know better than the writers" a lot of people have, it leads to either vast disappointment or bitterness, which...idk. Maybe I'm just good at managing my hyper-fixations with logic/ who The Duffers are as people, which makes me more lenient LMAO

Especially in terms of the Mike characterization bit / how a lot of theories don't really align with the narrative so much as their desired characterization of him...I can deeply empathize with why people think certain things about him, but the way I see a lot of people still analyzing based on single looks from Finn in S1 scenes or off of another post where someone cherrypicked 45 seconds of a scene without the whole episode or season as context...like, I just feel like they're setting themselves up for upset. I obviously also have my own preferred interpretations and I do definitely think some people are better at pulling and synthesizing important bits of the narrative / details into a sensical way than others, but...like I said in another ask, I'm not holding anything with an iron fist.

Lately I've just stopped waiting for other people's analyses for any new knowledge + have started working on my own Mike analysis (kind of a companion / extension of this concept I started for Will + Dustin) where I talk through the narrative setup of his character for S5, less so than whether or not I want him to be gay/bi/end up acting first etc (just because....be the change you wanna see in the world LMFAO). I've already written several posts about my perception of Mike's arc + his characterization outside of any strict interpretation of things like Finn's looks or his labeled sexuality, and...that's how I'll continue to process his character for as long as it makes sense to lol.

--I'm also entirely unsure how I became the spot people went to talk through their feeling weird about how theories are made in this fandom, but! I appreciate you all trusting me with your honest opinions haha