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voiceshearingyouloud · 11 months ago

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Finals really do something to me, especially fall semester finals. I’m not actively suicidal but I’m feeling the strong desire to just never have existed at all. So no one would remember me, you know, just like. Blink off this plane and not have to deal with stress and chronic illness and pain and the three separate fucking times I’ve got PTSD.

#well. gonna sleep now #I haven’t been eating well and I think my body is going into hibernation now I went out for dinner for a diner burger #I can still feel my blood sugar recovering an hour later #but I’ve been sleeping 4am-1pm so g-d knows if I’ll fall asleep or not #tw suicide #suicidality mention #like. I’m fine I just hate this feeling of having some horrible thing going on emotionally but I can’t actually feel it cause I’m so #dissociated from stress #like I’ll cry for a second often but I can’t get myself to properly sob for five minutes and get it out of my system #it’s horrible.#but as soon as I get this one essay done I’ll be free to see my friends and my partner after christmas #so that’ll be lovely and healing #anne speaks

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