#but I’ve at least saved the joints that could’ve been most affected

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If your back did/does hurt, advocate for yourself. Don’t let anyone ignore it hurts, if they say you’re too young, say “then shouldn’t that make this pain more of a concern?” because if you have back pain at a young age or symptoms you “shouldn’t have” then that’s *precisely* why it’s worrying and should be checked. I’ve had this as a hypothetical conversation because my mom had said “too young” before and when I framed it that way, she admitted that it was absolutely a very good point.

Though I will say: As someone whose back did hurt, get properly sized for a bra (obv if you wear one). You’ll be surprised by the actual instant relief leaving the store in a properly fitted bra (I almost cried).

Also I recommend working on your core strength, your lower back muscles might be what you’re using to keep yourself upright and working the lower abs and quads helps counter that and takes the stress off your lower back (sit in a chair that doesn’t rock with a solid back), lean back, and march your legs in place is the exercise I was given and it’s been perfect). Don’t go 32 years of that before correcting it, it actually sucks if walking puts you in pain when it didn’t ever have to. Sometimes you feel cheated over a simple solution when it’s like my issue but it just means you at east have a tangible solution, even if it comes later than you like.

why am i nostalgic for my teenage years bitch i didnt even have fun !!!

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TTS-Cass Character Analysis (My Personal Opinion) Part 1

There has been something I have been thinking a lot for quite a while. I’ve been thinking a lot about how views about Cassandra in the fandom are very polarizing, which I found to be super interesting that there are so many different interpretations about this one specific character.

I personally do not have a crush on her lol (my one only is my boy Eugene!!) nor do I romantically ship Cassunzel, Cassarian, or her with Eugene. But at the same Cass is a character that actually grew to not only be my favorite series exclusive character, but also has become my joint favorite character alongside Eugene and Rapunzel in the whole entire show (And believe me, I never saw that coming when I started the show because I was only interested in New Dream haha)! I found the amount of complexity that we see in her in S1, S2, and S3(to an extent) to be really interesting and enjoyable. It made her a very cool and well rounded character that I became so invested in her story, mostly in S1 and 2. But I wanted to reflect more on how I felt about this character throughout the show.

When I was first introduced to her in the show, I wasn’t really quite sure how I was going to feel about her like a part of me was like: Yeah! Rapunzel is finally getting a gal pal! Something we hardly see a Disney Princess getting! I enjoyed her in the Wind In My Hair scenes, her telling Rapunzel about the black rocks, and the scene where they tried several ways to cut her hair lol! On the other hand, I was completely mad at her whenever she interrupted New Dream scenes or when she pressured Rapunzel to keep a big secret which was negatively affecting her relationship with Eugene, but overall, it was more of a “Honey, I’m mad at you but I’m enjoying this kind of mad” lmao. 

I wasn’t entirely mad at her for insulting or picking on Eugene because I know my boy is strong and can stand up for himself, like he calls her names too! I personally don’t think she was mean to Eugene for fun, but it was more like she was very distrustful of him because he was the wanted thief that her father was hunting down and the fact that she thinks he’s “too laidback” or “self-centered” or a “freeloader in the castle” lol. (Just to make things clear, I’m the kind of person who can absolutely love a character, but still call out their individual flaws and actions, which are qualities that makes them more realistic and human, and makes me adore them even more). I for one enjoy Eugene and Cass’s sibling rivalry dynamic (My favorite friendship and platonic ship in the whole show haha!) I found it so hilarious and enjoyable how those two are throwing insults back and forth and annoy each other lol. I think I started liking Cass more than I did before in Rapunzel’s enemy and definitely Fitzherbert P.I. when she was actually rooting for Eugene against her dad!

Then of course, I was spoiled about Moonsandra!! Until this day, I hated getting this spoiler when I was still watching the show (I started about a year ago) and still in S1! I still wish I was surprised by it at the end of S2! Of course it didn’t help that the first episode I watched after that was none other than Challenge of the Brave! I was trying to keep in mind that this spoiler was going to happen much later and that I should enjoy the episode I’m currently watching but I felt so conflicted this entire episode I could hardly enjoy it lmao! I will get back to my thoughts on this episode later because it took me so long to re-watch it. 

Thank goodness Cassandra v. Eugene was the next episode because it helped ease the conflict I had about her more lol!! I found it hilarious how she and Eugene were locked in the cell and forced to work together but we see them bonding more! Overall, I liked seeing Cassandra’s arc for the rest of S1 and I liked seeing her grow a lot more. I felt like we got to see her be more compassionate, especially in Queen for a Day where she was willing to hug Rapunzel when Eugene and the guys were going to save her parents or when Rapunzel thought Pascal died. I loved seeing this side of Cassandra so much and has shown how much she grown since we first saw her! I also loved seeing her be a trio with Rapunzel and Eugene in a lot of latter S1 episodes where we see them working together more! I loved seeing Cass start to loosen up and not only be nicer and a better friend to Rapunzel but also seeing her start to get along with Eugene more while still maintaining their comical banter! I also liked seeing her and Eugene working together to help or save Rapunzel like in Painter’s Block and The Alchemist Returns. 

At the same time, I loved seeing more of her goals, like wanting to become a guard or proving herself to her dad. I loved that we also get some insight into her insecurity, which I felt like we got more of in Secret of the Sundrop, Under Raps, Great Expotations, and yes even Challenge of the Brave. The two latter episodes weren’t really episodes I liked or enjoyed, even when I rewatch them but at the same time, I felt like they do give clearer insight into her insecurity and COTB definitely does show a lot of what lead her to become Moonsandra. Cass is someone who wants to feel like she is noticed, appreciated, she wants to feel like she matters. While in that episode, Cass had done extremely shitty things and took it way too far, which I do not think is ever going to be acceptable like ever, I didn’t entirely see this episode as one sided conflict.

Now I know that people might disagree with what I’m about to say and I totally accept that. I decided to re-watch this episode a lot later while S3 was airing so I could get more insight into the whole Moonsandra turn. I felt like this episode showed so much of her insecurity and how she felt being looked down at as “Rapunzel’s Handmaiden”. This goes into that Cass wanted to be seen for who she is and for her combat skills, which is something that means so much to her. While I do love Rapunzel so so much (She’s the number 1 character I relate to and see myself in) I did feel like she was in the wrong as well, maybe not as much as Cass but still. Even though Cass didn’t talk about how much this meant to her, Rapunzel did notice signs of Cassandra being nervous and even told Eugene. Even throughout the challenge, there were several instances where Rapunzel could tell that Cass was bothered, but still continued anyway. I just felt that in this episode Rapunzel did act in a way that was inconsiderate and selfish (somewhat similar to Goodbye and Goodwill, but that played out differently), but at the same time, I don’t entirely blame her. She was locked in a tower for her first 18 years with no human interaction except with a horrible, abusive “parent” that never loved her. Of course she is going to lack a lot of social skills and knowledge about how friendships work, but over the course of the series she goes through many things that teach her more and I absolutely loved seeing her grow in this.

Back to Cass, while I do think that this was more of two-sided issue that could’ve been prevented by better communications on both sides, I’m in no way excusing what Cass did. However, what I did admire is that when they did talk and Raps apologized, and although Cass should have apologized and said she was wrong out loud, at the end, Cass at least came to realize that she was wrong and has owned up to her mistake, maybe not completely or in the most traditional way, but when she saved Raps from Wreck Marauder, raised Rapunzel’s arm up to declare her champion, and actually hugged her, that was her way of apologizing. Now I know that not everyone will agree with my interpretation of this episode but it’s just how I saw it and I tried to see it from the points of view of both characters and be unbiased as much as possible.

I personally don’t think of Cass as a horrible person or toxic friend, at least in S1 till the mid/end of S2 because on a more personal note I have dealt with so many toxic friendships in real life. In those toxic friendships, one major issue that has lead me to cut ties or create distance is that when the toxic friend hurt/used me (Which I really don’t wish to go into detail on atm), they NEVER and I mean NEVER admitted their actions were wrong or ever even bothered to see it, even when I called them out on it. I refuse to see Cass as a toxic or horrible person because even when she does something wrong, she’ll admit it, she’ll own up to her actions and accept the consequences, and eventually she actually started apologizing.

I know this post is super long but I really wanted to express my thoughts on Cass and still want to go over her arc in S2 (my personal favorite!!) and S3 (which might actually might be super painful! I would say I had overall mixed-negative feelings on that lol) But this concludes most of my thoughts on S1 Cass I wanted to reflect on!

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Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11, Part 12, Part 13, Part 14, Part 15, Part 16, Part 17, Part 18,  Part 19, Part 20, Part 21, Part 22

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Tagged: @hotemotionalmess, @justtolkienabout, @uservalkyrie, @writing-for-a-chance, @hufflepeople, @alexfayer, @guaibi, @cptnrogerssteve

Your arm hurt. That was the first thing that your cloudy head made sense of when you regained consciousness. The second thing was your location, which was not in the middle of a street in Manhattan. It was in a bed, in a faintly familiar looking space. White walls, a big window, and, very faintly, the beeping of… some type of machine.

You winced, struggling to sit up, to get a better view of wherever it was that you were. Your shoulder screeched in protest to this movement, but you ignored it. Something tugged at your arm, and you glanced down at it. Below a white bandage that was wrapped around your shoulder and bicep, was an IV tube, stuck into the joint of your elbow.

You huffed a little, and followed the tube of the IV to the bag that hung from a rack near the bed that you were laying in. The liquid inside of it was clear, and you determined it was probably morphine. Not that it was working very well.

After a moment, you realized that you were incredibly thirsty. You licked your lips, found that they were dry. You tried to say something, deciding on something simple, your name, and found that no noise was capable of emerging from your vocal cords.

You cursed, internally, of course, and slumped back down against the pillows behind you. Where were the nurses that SHIELD’s medical bay (since that was where you were positive you were) made sure kept an eye on the agents that were being taken care of day and night? You just wanted some goddamn water.

You allowed your senses to extend past yourself, and the things that were immediately being affected by you. Bed, check. IV, check. Giant window looking out on… Washington D.C.? Well, that was different. You supposed that most of SHIELD’s business had to have been transitioned there, however, considering that New York had been wrecked.

Shit. New York. The aliens. What the hell happened?

The good guys must’ve won, if you were here. Obviously, you’d been transported, which boded well for the overall outcome of the battle. Still, the very fact that you were in D.C. rather than New York was not good. It meant that the destruction of the city had affected SHIELD’s headquarters there.

God, I hope nobody died.

You turned your eyes away from the window, to look around the rest of the room. They scanned a table that was against the foot of your bed, where there was a jug of water and a glass. Your throat ached at the sight, but you weren’t going anywhere with the IV in your arm.

Your eyes kept going. They skimmed over a chair that was in one corner of the room, and the figure that was seated on it, arms crossed and chin resting against their chest. The door was closed, a clipboard sticking out of a pocket on the back of it. It probably had your vital chart on it.

Your gaze returned to the chair, and the figure that was sitting there. After a moment, the slowly moving cogs in your brain started to spin faster, and you recognized who it was.

You looked around yourself for a moment, unable to call out a name, but not unable to throw something. You decided on a pillow, and grabbed it in the hand that was not attached to your injured arm. Unfortunately, it happened to be your non-dominant, which meant that the throw was not the strongest.

It was, however, strong enough to send the light pillow across the room to the chair. It did not hit the person, as your aim had wanted it to, but it hit the wall next to them.

Steve made a noise as he was startled awake by the sound of impact, the pillow settling down on his lap. He frowned down at it for a moment, and then his gaze lifted and settled on you. His eyes brightened.

“Thank God,” he breathed, standing up and moving towards the bed. You made a face at him, and pointed towards the water on the table.

Steve, bless him, understood at once. He quickly filled the glass for you, and carried it over. You downed the water, probably more quickly than you should have, if the coughing fit you were thrown into as a result was any indication. Steve rested a hand on the bed, wanting to help but not knowing how.

Thankfully, he didn’t have to. The coughing spell passed, you finished the water, and then licked your lips again. Still cracked, but no longer dry.

So, you gave speaking another shot.

“Hey.”

Steve exhaled, his expression relaxing, and he managed a small smile. “Hi. How’re you feeling?”

“My shoulder hurts,” you said, and you wiggled the fingers on your injured arm, “but otherwise, I think I’m okay. Why’re we in D.C.?”

“Everybody is here,” he responded, settling down on the edge of the bed. “New York wasn’t really stable, so D.C. is the center of aftermath clean-up, for now.” His eyes darted over your face. “Are you sure you’re okay? You’ve been in and out for a couple of days.”

“Alien energy must be something else,” you replied, grinning a little. “No wonder SHIELD wanted to harness it. Let’s hope they learned their lesson.”

“I think they have,” Steve said. He was silent for a moment, his gaze turned towards the window. Your smile faded, as you realized that his demeanor had shifted.

“What?” you asked, softly, touching his arm.

He shook his head. “I should’ve - I don’t know. You shouldn’t have been with me, in the middle of that fight.”

“Where else was I supposed to go?” you queried, attempting to keep your tone light. “With you was the safest place for me, at least, accessibility-wise.”

“But it wasn’t,” he said, “because you got hurt. So many people were hurt. If I couldn’t protect them, I at least could’ve protected you, and I didn’t.”

“Hey.” You sat up, or at least tried to. He frowned at you, but helped you into a better position. When you were upright, you looked at him again. “You protected me as best as you were able. Really, I should’ve been taking better care of myself. The entire city was being destroyed. Besides, you got me out of there, didn’t you?”

“I shouldn’t have let you stay in the first place.”

You rolled your eyes upwards. You should’ve been expecting him to feel guilty about this, when he shouldn’t have. It really was all your fault. Actually, it was Fury’s fault, since you’d only been on the street because he’d asked you to check out Stark Tower.

Well, pointing fingers didn’t change anything. It had happened, you were here, and you were getting better. It wasn’t as though you were mortally wounded.

“Steve,” you started, squeezing his arm. “I’m fine, all right? That’s all you need to think about. What happened afterwards?”

Steve, although he still looked upset with himself, went on to explain that Stark had flown a missile into the tear in space, and had barely returned to Earth as a result. He had, however, and he was in better shape than you were. Loki and Thor had returned to their homeworld, Asgard, with the Tesseract in tow. Thor had said that Loki would stand trial in Asgard for his actions. You silently hoped that they kept him locked away for centuries.

Other than that, things were as expected. New York was facing clean-up. Tony Stark had worked with the government to create a new cabinet position, the Department of Damage Control, that was overseeing recovery efforts after the battle.

Well, at least something was being done by the government.

Steve didn’t seem to understand your reaction to this news, and you didn’t have the energy to explain it to him.

He seemed to realize that you were starting to get drowsy, because he shifted, and stood. “You should get more rest,” he said. “We’ll talk later.”

“Wait, wait.” You grabbed for his hand, managed to latch onto it. He looked at you, and you struggled to find something to say. “My cat.”

He blinked, and then he sighed to himself. “I should’ve brought this up earlier, I’m sorry,” he said. “He’s fine. I brought him to my apartment here in D.C., and I’ve been taking care of him.”

Your shoulders fell. “Thank God. Okay. Thank you. I’m sorry that you have to do that.”

Steve smiled. “It’s my pleasure, really. I - it’s the least I can do.”

You tugged on his hand, and he leaned over you until you could kiss him. He grinned through it, and when he pulled back, he said, “I missed you.”

“Yeah,” you said, smiling back.

Over the next few days, you slept, and healed. Nurses, and a doctor, paid you visits, but they were not as frequent a presence as Steve was. You thought that maybe he was spending too much time with you, considering he’d just helped saved the world, and most assuredly had plenty of debriefings to sit through, still, but he did not seem bothered whenever you brought the idea up.

“I wasn’t the only one there,” he said. “If there’s something important that I need to know, I’ll find out what it is eventually, right?”

“Sure,” you sighed, but you knew that Director Fury was probably getting grumpier and grumpier with the fact that Steve’s focus was on you, rather than on the aftermath of the mission.

This much was confirmed, when Fury came and visited you himself. Granted, he never looked happy, but this particular morning, he looked even more disgruntled than usual.

You did your best to pretend not to know why, and thanked him for the flowers that he set down on the table at the foot of your bed.

“Uh, how’re things?” you questioned, flexing your hand. Your arm was still stiff, but the size of the bandage had decreased, so you thought your injury was improving.

“Not great,” Fury answered, his hands in his pockets. “The council is still pissed that Stark diverted their missile.”

“That’s not good,” you said, and he eyed you.

“It doesn’t help, either, that Captain Rogers refuses to be present for the meetings in which we talk about what it means for him, now that the world’s been saved,” he said. “It would be a lot less stressful if I knew at least that was taken care of.”

“Well… he isn’t here right now.”

“Y/LN.”

You sighed. “I’m sorry, Director, but I’m not… I’ve tried to convince him to pay more attention to what’s happening outside this room, but it hasn’t worked. He feels responsible for what happened to me.”

Fury’s expression did not shift. You closed one eye, and examined your bandage very closely. “And… it probably doesn’t help that… we’re… in a relationship.”

When he did not speak, you spared a glance upwards at him. He was still watching you, the same look on his face.

You scowled. “What else do you want me to say?”

He shook his head. “Something that will make it less difficult for me to remove you from your position.”

You lifted an eyebrow. “Meaning what?”

“You can no longer work with Captain Rogers on helping him adjust to the 21st century.”

Well, you’d been expecting that.

“But you’re not firing me completely, right?”

He shook his head. “No, of course not. From a professional standpoint, though, it would be inappropriate for you to continue your work with him while also being in a romantic relationship.”

“Right, that’s… that’s fair,” you admitted, leaning back against your pillows. “My other job?”

“You will still hold your position as SHIELD’s liaison to Stark Industries,” Fury replied, and you relaxed your shoulders. “However -”

“Why does there have to be a ‘however’?”

“You’re going to have to live in New York.”

“Wait, what? But SHIELD’s centered here in D.C.”

“New York is closer to the Stark Industries headquarters.”

“Technically, I think their headquarters is in California, so -”

“Y/LN.”

You made a face. “But that… if Steve lives here -”

“Yep.”

“That isn’t very fair of you, sir.”

“I say we’ll have to give Captain Rogers a choice,” he responded. “He can choose to live here, in D.C., under the continued supervision and support of SHIELD, or he can return to New York, and start his own life there. He’ll still work for SHIELD, contractually, but he won’t have that same live-in support that he has had.”

You frowned at him. “Why are you telling me this?” you questioned. “Shouldn’t this be a discussion that you have with him?”

“Considering I haven’t seen him,” Fury replied, “I thought it would be a good first step to tell the person he spends most of his time with.”

“I guess that’s… that makes sense,” you admitted. “All right, I’ll mention it to him, and say that he should talk to you.”

“Good,” Fury said, starting towards the door of your room. “I’ll keep an eye out for him.”

And that was it. He left. You rolled your eyes to yourself. Didn’t even ask how I was feeling.

Later on that day, Steve arrived, lugging a tote that was filled with some things to help keep you entertained.

“I brought you those books you asked for,” he said, unloading several novels onto the bed, “and that DVD player, and the movies that you said you wanted to watch.”

You smiled at him. “Thank you. You’re the best.” You shuffled through the DVDs for a moment, debating on how best to bring up the subject that you needed to discuss with him. “Uh… Fury visited me, earlier.”

“That was nice of him,” Steve said, and he nodded towards the flowers.

“Yeah, it would have been, except he didn’t seem interested in how I was doing.” You paused, gazing down at Walk the Line. “Uh… I’ve been removed from my job position as your liaison to the 21st century.”

Steve glanced at you, his eyes wide in clear disbelief. “He can’t do that.”

“He can, actually. He’s my boss.”

“I’ll talk to him,” Steve decided, shaking his head to himself. “That isn’t fair.”

“There’s more, though, so don’t… get your panties twisted, yet,” you sighed. He looked at you again, and you hesitated a moment longer. “Uh, I still get to be the liaison to Stark Industries, but… I have to live in New York, because it’s closer to the main headquarters.”

“That makes sense,” he said, and then realization settled on his features. “Oh.”

You nodded. “Uh… which means that… if you stay here in D.C.,... it’ll be hard for us to see one another on a regular basis.”

“Where are you going with this?” Steve asked, sitting down on the edge of the bed.

“Uh… well, Fury gave me an ultimatum, to give to you,” you said. “He said that you can either stay here in D.C., under SHIELD’s supervision and support, or you can move back to New York. You’ll still work for them, but you won’t have that same support that you’ve been living with since you were defrosted.”

“Really?” You nodded, and Steve shrugged. “Fine.”

“Wait, what?”

“Yeah, I mean, I think I’m ready for that, to live on my own again. I can… it isn’t as though I can’t take care of myself. I - I’ve kind of been hoping for an opportunity to move out from under SHIELD’s watch, anyway,” he responded. He looked at you, his eyes softening. “And being near you is just an added bonus.”

Goddamn. You smiled at him, unable to stop yourself from doing so. “I - are you positive?”

He nodded. “Yeah, I think I am,” he said, and then he smiled as well. “I’m an adult man. I should be supporting myself.”

“Fair enough,” you agreed with a laugh, and then you held up Walk the Line. “I want you to watch this movie. It takes place… well, mostly in the fifties and sixties, but it’s about a musician.”

“Oh, which one?” Steve queried, pushing the rest of the things he’d brought out of the way so that he could move up the bed, and make himself comfortable beside you.

“His name is Johnny Cash.”

“... interesting.”

You chuckled, and tugged the portable DVD player closer. “I think you’ll like it.”

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by skiassurveys

1. How has covid affected you? It robbed me of few months’ worth of memories in my last year in college, my graduation, travel plans, employment prospects, a 22nd birthday with friends. Fortunately, other than a mutual friend, I personally don’t know anyone who has gotten the virus.

2. What is a comfort show of yours? Friends, without a doubt. If I need a pick me up I just look up a scene on YouTube and I’m bound to feel better in seconds.

3. Are you open about your past or do you not let anyone in? I’m pretty open about my past as long as people ask the right questions that would make me want to open up that can of worms lol. But I’m very secretive about the present and if I’m currently going through something, I tend to be selfish when it comes to opening up. I don’t like being completely vulnerable, and I leave those last few bits of vulnerability to only myself. I can’t even open up on Tumblr in certain instances; it’s just how I am.

4. Favourite fast food joint? Yellow Cab.

5. Do you think we were put on this earth for a reason? I don’t. I don’t put a lot of thought into this, either. It’s just not something I particularly care about. 

6. What is something you have done this year you’re proud of? Finish my thesis. I used to think it was some colossal, nearly-impossible requirement and I never thought I was capable of creating my own. But I got through it and it was such an amazing feeling to see myself and Andrew wrap it up and write our acknowledgments at the very end.

7. Do u ever feel like surveys are usually the same questions? There are definitely questions that come up more often than others, but I’m never super bothered by them. I just try to answer them differently then move on.

8. What were you doing 10 years ago? I was 12, in sixth grade, friendless, suicidal, and was in the biggest mental health slump of my life thus far; so, not doing well.

9. Do you call out Karens when they’re harassing a cashier? I don’t call them out but when it’s my turn to be served, I make it a point to greet them and smile and give them the change, like I do with any cashier – except amplified this time around so they can feel better and not think that every customer is an asshole.

10. Animal crossing, yay or nay? Yay. I don’t play it but I’m certainly not gonna dampen people’s enjoyment by thumbing it down lol. It looks so cute and the challenges look wholesome; that game just can’t hurt anybody haha. But I guess it helps that my favorite characters to play on Mario Kart are Animal Crossing characters, so there’s that.

11. Why do you like to do surveys? It’s a safe space. And I’m very talkative in my head but not in real life, so surveys always serve as an outlet for my thoughts and feelings.

12. Did you ever have a MySpace? I did but I caught they very tail end of its popularity. By the time I joined people were already starting to flock to Facebook, so it wasn’t like I was ever able to do anything fun or worthwhile on Myspace. It was also never as popular in the Philippines too; we were into Friendster a lot more.

13. Do you think breaks are toxic in a relationship? I don’t think things like that work in absolutes. I’m sure breaks work for some, but for others they could also just create more distance and cause a couple to grow apart over time.

14. Do you have a YouTube channel? If no, would you create one? If yes what’s your content? I have one but it’s only so that I can support my favorite channels and subscribe to them, and so that YouTube can tailor my homepage to my interests. If I had to start posting videos, I’d prefer to take it easy and just post chill daily vlogs, nothing that tries too hard; and maybe take part in a taste test every once in a while because I enjoy watching those.

15. Are you a math person? Only up until advanced algebra or geometry. I’ll have to bow out if we have to get into trigonometry or calculus.

16. What’s the worse thing someone has said to you? I’ve been told I was a headache to deal with, heartless, unlovable, ungrateful, lacking a brain. All courtesy of my mom.

17. Have you ever befriended someone because you felt bad? Just once. In Grade 7 there was a new girl who was a bit of a loner, so Gab and I started talking to her so that she wouldn’t be alone during lunch. She didn’t really mix well with us and our dynamic though, so we slowly stopped hanging out with her. I felt bad, but I also didn’t want us to keep faking it with her because it would’ve been unfair to her – at least we tried. I was glad when she finally found her group, which didn’t take long.

18. Would you ever date someone online? I’m not open to it.

19. Have you been ghosted before? Would you ghost someone? I’m pretty sure what I did with Mike is the equivalent of ghosting...oops. I haven’t been ghosted.

20. When do you think things will be normal again? For a second this sounded really accurate about my life and I almost started crying :’’’’)))))) but now I realize you meant to ask about Covid lol. UHHH idk man. I remember back in March thinking this was gonna be over by April, and I had never been more wrong lmao. It’s so hard to tell.

21. Do you watch anime? No.

22. Biggest goal you wanna reach before 2020 is over? Be happy.

23. How old did/do you turn this year? 22.

24. Do you like tiktok? I don’t have the app downloaded but I’ll watch TikTok compilations on Facebook sometimes, and I’ve never had anything bad to say about them. I loooove the ones where people show what they do in their workplace like cleaning laptops, making ice cream cakes, doing pottery, etc., or showing projects that they’ve been working on like cleaning their swimming pool or renovating their bedroom. Those are the most satisfying to watch.

25. Do you ever miss vine? OMG yes. TikTok is entertaining, but the sense of humor that Vine birthed is on another fucking level. Only Vine could’ve made hurricane tortilla, a child, two bros chilling in a hot tub, and no head funny.

26. How are you doing, seriously? Today was one of the easier days. But I’m still hurting. It was just more manageable to breathe today.

27. Is there someone you want to talk to but you know you can’t? Yes.

28. Do you make jokes to cope with your problems? Sometimes, if I’ve already accepted the problem. It’s harder to make light of a situation that I’m still grappling with.

29. Have you ever had someone call you their best friend but you didn’t even consider them a close friend? I don’t think so.

30. Have you ever dealt with a pathological liar? Sure.

31. Long or short surveys? Medium-length to long.

32. If ur in school, are you doing it on zoom or in class? I’m not in school but I can definitely tell you that there aren’t any physical classes happening any time soon, at least in this country. It’s just not safe enough yet.

33. Would you ever have a pet rat? Nope.

34. Favourite memory with your best friend? I like laughing fits with Angela and spending hours at her house doing nothing. With Gabie, I always enjoy eating out with her.

35. Favourite type of content to watch on YouTube? I’ve mentioned them a lot on surveys recently, but it’s definitely Good Mythical Morning. I always turn to them when I’m going through depression so I’m really grateful that they have 1500+ episodes on their main channel and have a bunch of secondary channels with hundreds of videos in each as well. They have no idea how many lives they’ve saved. Other than that, I also like watching Korean reality shows, mukbangs that double as ASMR videos, soothing baking videos, and vlogs from local celebrities heheh.

36. Are you allergic to anything serious? No allergies for me.

37. Dream job? I don’t really have a dream title for now; I just want to eventually end up at the top of the ladder in my chosen career path which is PR.

38. Do you think dreams mean anything? No.

39. Fave clothing brand? Mango or Zara.

40. Do you miss anyone? Painfully.