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not another.... book f/o......
#Proship Selfship#waaaaaaaaugh fuck my stupid baka life#but I loooooooooooooove her#the book has a movie adaptation but her character is DRASTICALLY DIFFERENT IN IT#if you follow my main you know what I'm talking about#suffering suffering all alone in My F/O has no content to reblog hell#I'm going to stop reading this is getting upsetting#....#I could never stop reading I checked out more books today after returning hers I love you library
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16. Fav Agent
HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF AGENT 4
#splatoon#splatoon oc#splatober#agent 4#SHE IS MY EVERYTHING#Agent 4 I loooooooooooooove you#All the base ink colors in this art are ink colors from the base 2 campaign!#Please bring back lavender and soda (seafoam green) again I'm begging you (and glittery ink!)#All the base ink minus pink (that's her preferred color lol)#LoR's art dump#agent 4 (chloe)
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Hicvember 14: Embarrassed
You know, you'd think this one'd be easy for me, right? 'cause I'm into embarrassment so I write it all the time. But that's the thing, it almost feels redundant to try because of that. So rather than any of the poly-techhic girls (only two of whom are capable of being embarrassed anyway), have a doofus flying too close to the sun and getting made fun of for it.
Content: Hiccups, burping, embarrassment (duh), teasing
"*BWAOOOOUUUUUUUURRRRRRRP!* Hwoof! That was a good one!"
"Anyone ever tell you you're gross as fuck, A?"
C watched as A grinned at B, his lips still wet with either soda or spit, she wasn't sure which. "Nope! Believe it or not," he took a few swigs from his can of hyper-carbonated, hyper-caffeinated soda, slurping it noisily and surely swallowing even more air than was already dissolved into it. "All the ladies—" his voice was audibly strained and he half swallowed before opening his mouth again. "—*loooOOOOOOOOooove* me!"
B rolled her eyes. "As one of 'all the ladies', I disagree. What about you, C? You love this dweeb?"
"I..." C genuinely didn't know how she was supposed to respond to this situation. She'd never been party to a conversation even remotely similar to this. "...have no possible answer for that."
"Taking that as a ye–*eeuuuuurp*–eees. Woof!"
"Seriously, dude, knock that shit off, you're breaking her brain," B said, wadding up a piece of paper and throwing it at A.
C didn't want to seem as prissy as she apparently did from the way B was trying to defend her, but it was true that she was feeling very adrift here. Eventually she decided to redirect. "Are you sure you should be drinking so much of that? Overcaffeination is dangerous, and that much carbonation could cause severe indigestion."
"Naaah, it's fine." A gave his slightly bloated stomach a few smacks, knocking up a short "*beurp!*" that he laughed at (and that C's brain seemed conflicted about in a way she didn't fully understand). "I'm a to–*ooouuuuugh* guy, I can handle anything."
"I don't care if you make yourself sick, but if you keep burping like that you'll give yourself the hiccups and be even more annoying." Hearing B say that, C felt her face light on fire and hoped that her companions were too busy bickering with each other to notice it.
"Pfff, you think this isn't annoying enough? Alright, how about this?"
"Oh christ, what have I done?" B massaged her temples as A slurped up all that was left in his can, then cracked open and switched to a second one. "C, I am so sorry for whatever this dickhead's about to do."
C opened and closed her mouth, trying to figure out what she could say, but before any of the words in her head could congeal into something like a sentence, A pulled his lips back from his second empty can and let out the loudest, longest belch that C had ever heard. She swore that even once it had finished, it was still echoing in the cafeteria. "HWOOF! New record!" A yelled, thrusting his fists in the air, and C wondered just how many people must have been staring at him. She couldn't bring herself to look around and see.
B had slammed her hands over her ears and glared up at A. "I hate you so much." A burst out laughing at that, small burps popping out of him between cackles as he did. But then at one of those burps, he abruptly froze and covered his mouth. B pulled her hands off of her ears and arched her eyebrows. "What? Finally realize that you're not funny?"
"Mmn...*HMNK!*" A weak little close-mouthed burp growled out of his throat after that, but the initial noise was absolutely nothing of the sort. C's brain realized that immediately, and her face went even redder than it already was. A's face had gone red too, and another "*MMNK!*" squeaked out of him from behind his hands."
"...ha." B seemed to be the only one at the table who wasn't mortified, and a smirk spread over her face. "Hey, A, remember how I'm always right about everything?" A made a plaintive, desperate little noise before another jolt knocked his head back and left him whimpering. B's grin got wider and she dug her elbow into C's side, speaking far louder than she needed to. "C, check it out. This dumbass burped so hard he gave himself a case of the hiccups."
"B! *HIURK!*" A had pulled his hands down to yell, but slapped them back over his mouth when an unmuffled hiccup echoed almost louder than his massive belch. He whined more from behind his hands as B stood up and started mussing his hair.
"Whaaaaat, you think it's fun to burp loud enough that it registers on the Richter scale, but then a few little hiccups and you're blushing like a schoolgirl?" B said. "Come oooon, where's your sense of humor?"
"I-it's not funn–*IURK!*–ee-eeeeek!" Apparently, from B's continued snickering, she disagreed. It seemed she disagreed enough to walk around the table so she could poke and prod at A, trying to get him to laugh or squeal or otherwise be unable to hold back the hiccups that kept knocking his chest and his head back and rocking his whole body in his seat and...
C was very glad that B was paying attention to A's embarrassment instead of her own.
#hiccup kink#hiccups kink#my writing#eli's kink writing#hicvember#One off#Burp kink#More serial numbers filed off#Just as well since I don't think it's especially in character
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the way he would whine into her neck, gripping her chubby thighs snd rut inside of her. “d-does this feel good?” he whimpers, trying so hard to please you :( he just wants you to know how much he loves u
MOONY STOP!!!! (don’t stop ever pls) it’s too much! i just- ugh here’s a TMI about hp!!
i loooOOoOooooOoove …vulnerability? i love pregnant women, i love taking care of my partner when they’re sick, etc. i genuinely get a lil..turned on if my partner is sick and i get to take care of them lol. damn straight we fuck hard when they’re sick and yes i know that’s disgusting!! but that’s who i am 😤 it’s the service top in me ig
but the IDEA (bc i’ve never actually done it, even my first time was w a non virgin) of being someone’s first..makes me giddy down.
and y’all KNOW i’m on the romantic jjuni train. i just think he’s such an ooey gooey loser and is a love making god. and if he’s like … a little nervous???? that’d be so fkn amazing omfg
and yeah he just wants to make sure you feel amazing and that you know he loves you and makes u feel beautiful :(
#is this too much personal information to share??#sorry yo#inbox!#moon!#hp's hard thoughts ☁️#yeonjun smut#yeonjun hard thoughts#yeonjun hard hours
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Tonight I dreamt I drew this on the train, so I drew it in real life instead because how often can you say a piece of art came to you in a dream?
Anyways, I entirely blame you and your Tsumugi art for this, which means that you are getting it
OUAOUFHUHUGHUHGHUGUOHOGHGH OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD SHE LOOKS SO CUTE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE THE WAY YOU DREW HERRRRRRR AURHGUH AND THE TEXTURE/SPARKLES ON HER TAILLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!! I ABSOLUTELY ADORE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING HER WITH ME................!!!!!!!!! AND YOU MANAGED TO GIVE IT A SOMEWHAT MAGICAL FEEL THROUGH THE TEXTURES AND COLORS ALONE THATS SO GOODDDDDD!!!! oughhh this drawing is just SO comforting to look at i adore everything about it SOOOO MUCH ❤️❤️❤️❤️
THANK YOU AGAIN FOR SHARING THIS WITH ME I WILL BE THINKING ABOUT HER ALL DAY
#and the bra-strap being slightly off the shoulder GODDAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#AND THE BUBBLES TOO OUGH I LOVE THE COLOR CHOICEEEEEEEEEEE#AND HER TUMMY SHE LOOKS SO HUGGABLE I NEED HER#AUGRHGNJHJU#ask#not mine#femstars
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heyyyyyy how's holidays goin for my fav author! hope u r doing fine if it isn't too much of an inconvenience can I ask you something hope this isn't a vibe killer so I was thinking about the relationships in Trouvaille the boys are into y/n and our girlie is into each one of them too this is ot7x reader I get that I was just wondering whether there was any chance it was gonna be like a polyamorous relationship in the future where like everyone is into everyone and they become a one huge pack but on second thoughts since they all are predators and as Yoongi said they don't like sharing and all it kinda feels like that won't work out too it was just a passing thought (cuz obviously Trouvaille lives in my head rent free) and I was kinda curious don't mind me too much if it rubs you the wrong way feel free to ignore too I don't want to make you uncomfortable 🥺 I just loooooooooooooove Trouvaille and i must say your characterization is just out of this world I love each and everyone one especially Y/n!!! hands down this is one of the best stories I have ever read and my favorite. I still remember the day I first came across the story in march the whole year had passed by just like that! Thank you so much for making the beginnings of every month so exciting with your amazing updates 🖤 Here's to an early toast to the New Year! Wishing you happiness, health, and all the best in the coming year. Luv yaa bubs take care ❤
Heeyyy darling how're you doing! I hope you had a lovely cozy holiday season! 🧸 Not a vibe killer at all, I love getting any kind of message from you alll!
I was planning on just having Trouvaille OT7 x reader, but like you said about them all becoming like a big "pack", I think that's were its heading. As time goes on, I think that the hybrids will view each other as family/brothers, and since they all will end up caring for the MC so much, I think they'll work together to protect her and put her well-being first (meaning, trying not to be jealous of one another around the MC, limiting the fighting, etc) Don't worry about making me uncomfortable, love, it's a great idea-- and there IS a fic that comes to mind that plays with some of the dynamics you've mentioned that is also OT7 x reader AND hybrid!AU -- @angelicyoongie 's Abundance so I definitely recommend checking that fic out if you're interested! I really really love that fic and Maggy is a wonderful author. 💞💜
AHHH thank you for loving the characterization of Trouvaille's Y/N! She's definitely a fun main character to develop, and I hope that over time she continues to become more confident in herself. You're so kind and I'm honored that you've been here since MARCH 🥹 !!! It makes my heart so full. Thank you for sticking with me and Trouvaille for so long, you make posting this story a blast and worth every second writing. Happy happy new year to you as well! I hope 2024 is full of all of your favorite things. Lots of love to you darling!!💜😘
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more unpopular kate/kathony (kanthony?) opinions! - bridgerton 2.07 review
1. I’m watching this like, wow Edwina doesn’t get a happy ending. Hell, even in the Directors’ Cut of LOTR, Eowyn gets with Faramir!
2. Oh great, is Kate going to masturbate to the memory of her kissing Anthony the Mouse?
3. She looks so stiff in that kiss though.
4. Yes.
5. This entire situation reminds me of this part of Poor Unfortunate Souls
6. They’re so going to change the lyrics in the live action. Anyway, off-topic.
7. And Kate just looks annoyed that Edwina won’t talk to her rather than contrite.
8. I just find the Bridgerton family extremely annoying.
9. “Reputation! Reputation!” Oh my god, Anthony is a man, he’ll be FINE.
10. “I give credit to your imagination, Miss Danbury, a bigger story I cannot foresee.” Lmao, maybe don’t speak, Kate?
11. AND THEY GAZE AT EACH OTHER ACROSS THE PROMENADE BECAUSE THEY ARE IN LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE.
12. Even though Edwina is right there and all of the ton is watching because looooooooooooooooooooove.
13. I just don’t have time for Olitz-like ships.
14. This Eloise scene is long.
15. “A ball.” Ha, Edwina’s eye roll, she deserves her own show.
16. NOW THAT ANTHONY IS NO LONGER LIVING A LIE, THE DOG FINDS HIM SUITABLE AND DOGS ARE GREAT JUDGES OF CHARACTER. TRUE LOVE WILL ALWAYS SET YOU FREE.
17. Lmao, sorry, I find this love story insufferable.
18. omg guyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyys, he just can’t HELP but stare at her
19. I just feel like Edwina deserves to do the Regency version of this to Anthony
20. Their love and attraction is SO POWERFUL that they’ll have to stay on OTHER SIDES OF THE ROOM DURING THE BALL.
21. Ugh.
22. I don’t know if I can live through another Kathony dance.
23. Derry Girls Clare should just be Belle.
24. Mouse Man Mouse Man
25. HE GOT A WHIFF OF HER PERFUME AND NOW HE IS IN HEAVEN, RELISHING THE SCENT OF HER.
26. And this is the other thing too, Kate is extremely passive. Like, OK Edwina doesn’t want to talk to her but if she’s supposed to want her happiness more than anything, if this is supposed to be killing her inside, then at least try to make amends but she’s just standing around looking wooden and maybe sometimes catching Anthony’s eye.
27. Oh jesus christ are eloise and whatshisface going to kiss now that they’re arguing?
28. No. Good.
29.
I mean has it though?
30. “I am reaping the consequences of destroying it” girl, you’re masturbating in bed. Like just be HONEST.
31. “Happy endings do not exist, Kate” well, not for you, Edwina, but they will for her.
32. Anthony is so fucking shameless.
33. “We should be ashamed of what we did” and there’s going to be a speech about how he’s not ashamed or how she’s not ashamed, a Delena “I’m not sorry” speech. I don’t care.
34. WHY is Colin a character? WHAT DOES HE DO.
35. He gives sooooooooooo much more than she does. He carries them, honestly.
35. Oh yes, sniping and arguing, which is just their foreplay. I’m bored. We’ve done this already.
36. Yes, yes, consume
I feel like the only time I’ve ever been like I get it, they didn’t even use the world consume
37. Oh they do make him do the “Do you think I want to be in this position” McDreamy “DO YOU THINK I WANT TO LOOK AT YOU” the more they drag this out, the more impatient I become and not in the way they want. I feel like Garrett from Superstore but instead of affair it’s get together
38. Anthony: I’ve lived my life for my family. Kate: OMG SAME. Me
I had to see it. All I’ve seen is both of you complain.
39. I don’t think a stylized sex scene worked here but that’s just a personal preference, if they’re all like “YOU CONSUME ME” “I CAN’T ESCAPE YOU” “I LIVE FOR MY FAMILY LET’S LIVE FOR OURSELVES” and they kiss and he fingers her then he’s all i’ll stop and she’s like don’t, I want to see/hear the frenzy, the heavy breathing, I want it to seem as organic as possible, like I would want a Shameless sex scene at least at first and then they can do the stylistic one during round 2 or something
40. KATE. I’M SICK OF THIS.
You fucked him. OWN IT. Because I don’t find the “journey” to her just allowing herself to be happy well executed at all because they don’t delve into Kate (or any of the characters) enough for this to be anything other than by-the-numbers and superficial so this just comes across as disingenuous and that’s the other problem with stylized sex scenes, they’re deliberate and don’t give off the impression of impulsivity or the heat of the moment so I’m just like IT’S TOO LATE FOR THIS.
41. This is why I like Cersei-like characters they just fucking own it.
42. AND ANTHONY IS SUCH. A DICK.
43. OH NO, SHE’S GALLOPING IN THE RAIN.
44. Lmao, I am not watching anything Bridgerton EVER again.
45. It’s done.
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here are some semi final 2 second rehearsal clip thoughts for you guys
1) reiley’s new outfit is SOOOOO cute where can i find it
2) he’s also got a pretty good voice!
3) BRUNETTE MY QUEEN
4) armenia’s staging is by far one of the most aesthetically pleasing ever
5) romania…babes this was not it but i like the pink better than the yellow
6)Alika looks and sounds good, but the song itself is so boring to me sorry
7) i think Gustsph needs to wear more color because he’s starting to blend into the stage
8) BUT THE BACKING SINGERS AND DANCER??? THEY ATE IT UPPPPP
9) CYPRUS OH MY GODDDDD
10) stage is kinda boring but ANDREW IS SERVING VOCALS I NEVER WOULD HAVE IMAGINED
11) diljá has so much energy, but it isn’t enough to save the song methinks
12) sorry i like greece. even though the outfit is giving UPS driver/Safari tour guide
13) does greece’s song sound like it may have been revamped??? because i LOOOooooOoooOOOVE it
14) idk if still might not qualify :/
15) poland is better than expected
16) the dancebreak is another example of classic polish esc editing
17) slovenia…my boys
18)the stage itself is a tad boring, and the boys are really trying to connect with an audience that simply isn’t there…but i know when it’s time for semis, it will be a huge party
19) idc all five of my slovenian boyfriends ate it up
20) LETS TAKE A MOMENT FOR IRU
21) GEORGIA DID NOT COME TO MESS AROUND
22) i’m the biggest piqued jacks stan so obviously i’m living for Like An Animal
23) “the WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY” is sounding good (idc that my mom says it sounds like screaming)
24) Teya and Salena are sounding and looking great…but the slow walk to the front stage during the most energetic part of the song is not it for me
25) albania exceeded every expectation….they are qualifying i fear
26) i don’t love monika’s new dress, but we got another flawless vocal performance from her
27) australia looks fun, loving the choreo, it’s just so DARK and why is there a car 😭
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Zoé x Marinette is ammmmmmmaaaaazzzzzing Ship!
I loooooooooooooove how in adoration, Zoé came out to Marinette about being a lesbian or sapphic and how she likes her but Marinette made it all about her, she such a good person. Zoé x Marinette for best ship in the whole show!!! And Marinette good character and everyone should love her for that alone!!!
(I’m kidding of course and yes this means I don’t ship Zoé x Marinette and I think Marinette is really bad character at least in the canon. So happy April fools!)
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SHES LIKE A LITTLE MARSHMALLOW I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE HER
❀ SABRINA CARPENTER short 'n' sweet tour | september 23, 2024
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im being crushed by 3 big math classes in the summer and having to get up at 4:30am for them. my head hurts and i had a dream last night about the elden ring dlc even though i havent finished the game yet.
im on the godfrey fight but im scared to keep going i need more game. the longer i sit on it the more i yearn for godwyn fia i will care for your baby. i loooooooooooooove him. also i beat malenia my one true gamer moment was dodging her waterfowl move in phase 2 And i guess not getting hit by the clones but mostly the waterfowl. black blade carried me. speaking of i really liked the maliketh fight i didnt even think he was still around but why is he my caelid grampy and also not grampy because grampy is still around. why would they force me to live the black blade hp drain in a scary boss fight where a man goes so fast. the parry was so cool but i could only rarely get it off. i scrum so loud
they need to stop making ashes so funny because sometimes im like well itd be fun to fight this alone but then i go no. i love hugues. ive been calling him hughes this whole time out of lack of care but to know he is pronounced more like Oog makes him literally the funniest guy of all time. i summoned him for gideon after multiple failed attempts and he just shoved him into a corner and continually smashed him over the head with a hammer and it hurt how bad i was laughing. GET HIS ASS
i cant believe i saw messages around gideon saying they cant believe he betrayed you when the whole time hes been rubbing his hands together like Heh... I suppose we can work together for the time being...............................my oomf got a little excited that you had the medallion and tried to kill you but dont look at me
the game is good i miss mohg
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Just finished reading TLC Pt. 2 and I just have to tell you how much I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVED IT!!! 😍🥰🥹 I was so excited for this but since I had errands today, I had to read it in batches and it also took twice as long cause you know I HAD to read the first part again 😏 And reading it revived my love for this couple cause they were just so smitten and soft for each other 🥺 and when they got reunited? It’s been three years, but their feelings remained. The hopeless romantic in me just swooned 😭 but after i finished, I found it really funny how the timeline of their relationship was: (1) met again after 6yrs -> (2) found out they were attracted to each other and had a weekend of “fun” 🫣🥴 -> (3) resumed their whirlwind romance after being apart for 3yrs 😅 Since it’s fiction, you kinda get swooped in to their romance, with Yoongi, who is MC’s childhood crush, looking at her differently after meeting her grown up self. It feeds my love for stories about childhood sweethearts being endgame (even though they aren’t technically that, they atleast knew each other since they were younger) If you look at it, I kinda get Yoongi not pursuing MC after that weekend. Cause she kinda just became of age and is still quite inexperienced while he’s already an adult. If it were me, I’d feel quite hesitant to pursue her given that it’s only been 2 days so I’m not sure how I actually feel, especially since she’s my bff’s younger sibling and someone I care about. Initially, I felt that as the older one, Yoon should’ve made sure to talk to her after he left that night but I understand that both were at fault. They both had doubts and insecurities, along with being worried of Joon’s reaction, that no one made the first move to try to talk it out. And I also get Joon initially not being okay with them together cause he didn’t really know that they actually had strong feelings for each other and it would be awkward for him if they dated or even hooked up and it ended badly. But I guess him finally being in a serious relationship made him accept their relationship, especially since he actually saw how they had been pining on each other even before. The closet scene was so hilarious, the eye contact killed me 🤣 And her revealing that they “kissed” after her hs grad. In my head, I was like 👀 yup… amongst other things …. 🥴 I just love how this couple is just so freakin adorable and a total simp for each other and I am so happy with how they can finally stop sneaking around and be the couple that they want to be. I also love Jimin and Tae here as her bff and how they’re so protective of her as their baby 🥺 and was ready to confront Yoongs after what happened. So jealous.
Sorry for rambling for so long, I just really love this story and this couple that I kinda got carried away 😅 Anyways, I loved this update. Thank you so much for it, I hope we get to see them again someday through drabbles perhaps 👉👈 lol Ofcourse only if you want to, no pressure 😊 This is such a great surprise for Yoonie’s bday. I just hoped he would’ve posted something just to see how he’s been doin cause he’s the only one that’s really silent but I guess i also understand cause that’s so Yoongi of him. As long as he’s healthy then I’m happy 🥹 I hope you are doing well and taking care of yourself 💜
Hey! I’m so glad you got to read it 💜 they’re so cute together 😭 and ofc the brother invited Yoongi bc he was at the last graduation so he said come to this one too 🤣
Yes 😭 MC was definitely still head over heels for Yoongi so waiting for him wasn’t a big deal time wise bc she’d had a crush on him for so long but she never expected to talk to him again after that night.
Yoongi should have definitely reached out first and he wanted to but he just couldn’t 😭 they both wanted to but then the brother was always on their mind 😭
I’m sure the brother wouldn’t have been so accepting if it had happened 3 years ago bc she was 18 and just graduating plus it was bad enough they wouldn’t be in the same room together and all they did was “kiss” 👀
The closet scene was my favorite lmao I had that planned since the beginning, moving in the brother to the same building was planned later bc I needed him to be around 🤣 but on a different floor.
Ah I adore Jimin and Tae, they were ready to fight Yoongi at a moment’s notice 😭💕
Ofc, I can write drabbles later on or during drabble night or if you have anything you’d like to see lemme know 👀👀
Your messages make my whole week, I get so excited to post bc I hope you’ll be dropping by 💜 it means a lot to me 💖
I hope Yoongi is doing well 😭 I miss him a lot but I hope he had a good birthday and I hope he’s healthy and maybe he saw some of the birthday signs or something 😭
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some delirious ramblings (emotional)
*in the "blink-182 dude" voice* YEAH DUDE IT'S PMDD WEEK DUDE THERE IS NO ESCAPING IT DUDE LET'S GET DARK LET'S GET DESOLATE LET'S FUCKIN DIE DUDE (not really)
It's just hitting this week. F in the chat for Jess in her teens and 20s who had literally no idea what was going on and every month thought her life and every single relationship in it was falling apart. She had no fucking idea what was happening or how to help it. The speeding, the Vicar, the promiscuity. Fucking ANYTHING to escape that hell.
It's still hard but I can hold space for it now.
I literally want to go meditate in Rothko before or after work tomorrow. Jesus christ. It is not a want it is a need. Fuming nostrils emoji.
Also, just now, I thought I was slipping back into my fever dream until I realized my house temp had risen to 76. I set that hoe to 74. Jesus christ.
And I think of him... again.... of course.
I think he's giving me what I asked for. I never asked for anything in particular. But I did, from the end of my wits, lament all the lost sleep and pounds (6 of them lol) and declare I had to get back to a routine. He probably heard that as "fuck off my guy I have had too much of you" -- maybe. I hope not. But he's probably giving me the space he thought I asked for. What did I even ask for? I don't know. But I don't like this. But just in case he is having 2nd thoughts and pulling away, I don't want to chase after him and make it worse. So I will suffer in silence and simply pass away.
I had a moment in the shower (as I often do), I think before I sang out "Into the Ocean" by Blue October completely unassisted (I let my phone die with gratitude and did not have shower jams tonight), and I was like "Steven wouldn't do that. Even though I get scared he's just another of THEM, he's not. He wouldn't ignore me on purpose." I felt a little better but still cried to my own rendition of "Into the Ocean" because that shit just hits every time. It hits without end. Amen.
He did ask what he could do to help me during this time when I first brought up PMDD. I said I didn't know. I'm so dumb. I just loooooooooooooove to sabotage myself as much as I love microplastics and red 40 lake mmmmmmmm delicious . d i v i n e d a r l i n g . [ me to me: CAN U NOT DO THAT-- CAN YOU JUST LET SOMEONE BOTH SEE AND HELP YOU ]
Maybe I'll finally do the online course I bought for like $118 about core negative beliefs when I quit residency. The content is still there. I definitely mapped out the lessons and time commitment (long before I met Steven).
Look at me journaling again, though. I would have had a good meal and worked out too but that god damn CLINIC ugh. As much as I want to take a pill (AND RUN ! JUST AS FAST AS I CAN ! TO THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE ! TO MIDDLE OF MY FRUSTRATED FEARS AND I SWEAR !) and go to sleep right now, I should try to eat something. I just wish it wasn't fucking TEN PM WTF
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im literaly just Sitting here.In love
#yoomtah if ur reading this i loooooooooooooove uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu#tobi.txt#my GOD i love her
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i love my girlfriend so F*ing Much and I really miss her a lot but I will rest well knowing September will come quicker than a flash and also knowing that shes out there living her best life being a cool camp counselor for a bunch of little kidlets
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