#but I have been thinking about it nonstop for the past few days bc babies are so fucking cute and adorable

[wild-eyed-j0k3r]

Idk man, the baby fever lately has been insane

[theragethatisdesire]

Can we please get the backstory for ti penso 🙏 I’ve been thinking about it non stop for the past few days and just really want to see the events that led to their breakup. I love all of your Erens so much you write him so well ❤️

hello lucy :) so....i will not be revealing too much, bc if i do ever revisit the ti penso universe, i will be writing their break-up scene which is going to be.....brutal to get through. i can give you guys some hints, though!

reader of ti penso is a little oc, she has agency and feelings and ideas for her life, ideas that do not necessarily include being married when she's 23. she wants to travel, see the world, be a journalist, and she's already being courted by rolling stone for a music column while she's in her senior year of college, so the pieces are falling into place for her.

eren, on the other hand, had the idea of a traditional marriage and kids straight out of college drilled into his head by grisha (who, unsurprisingly, sucks in this uni) and he loves reader so much, okay?? he loves her so much it hurts and he's immature and his only solution is to talk to her nonstop about how he's going to tie her down for the rest of her life and all the babies they're going to have. his music label with zeke is starting to pick up larger clients with potential, too, so he can't frequently go anywhere outside of the country as the business grows.

whether eren actually wants this or thinks that's what's expected of him as the music label gains more and more traction is....up for debate

i don't want to reveal too much!!!!! but i'm sure you can see where we're headed.....

thank u for asking hehehe i hope u have enjoyed this little ti penso lore drop! i have....a funny drabble of the gang all at brunch the morning after part 3/eren and reader hooking up in jean's bed if anyone's interested, just funny fluff and more insight into the dynamics of the group that we don't get to see in the written parts

thank u for popping by lucy ily ily <3

[alohajun]

TREASURE'S HYUNG AND MIDDLE LINE REACTIONS WHEN YOU WEAR THEIR SWEATER / HOODIE

treasure x reader | wc: 2.1k words | content : possible grammar and spelling mistakes, lowercase intended, fluffity fluffy fluff | requested : will you possibly do hyung or middle line to so wearing their sweatshirt? (not really a request, but i will take it as one?)

CHOI HYUNSUK

🐷 hyunsuk didn’t expect you to be comfortable enough to wear his clothes

🐷 so seeing you wearing his hoodie when you were in the studio with him was a pleasant surprise

🐷 you were shivering the entire time, wondering how hyunsuk was functioning perfectly despite the air-conditioning in the room

🐷 you didn’t to bother him by telling him to turn it down either, so you quietly took his hoodie that was next to you, wearing it as you spoke to him while he did his work

🐷 “well, i’m done for the day. what shall we do?” he asked once he was done, turning around to see you

🐷 the cute sight of you hugging your knees while wearing his hoodie greeted him

🐷 and he couldn’t have asked for anything more

🐷 hyunsuk would immediately turn off the air-conditioning despite your protests, even going the extra mile to joining you on the couch as he hugged you

🐷 will def bite back all the compliments he wants to give you for looking so cute bc he thinks it’ll be annoying ??

🐷 “you should’ve told me you were cold, baby. i’m sorry for having you freeze like this.”

🐷 “it’s fine.” you’d shake your head, waving off his apologies as you snuggled into his embrace, feeling content with the warmth you felt

🐷 “but hey, at least i get to see you looking cute like this. we should buy you more hoodies.”

PARK JIHOON

🐼 one of those rare moments where he wouldn’t be teasing you given the situation

🐼 after an entire month of nonstop practice, the treasure boys finished their schedule earlier than planned, landing them with a week off before they could start practicing again

🐼 having been living at the dorms for a month, jihoon relaxed at the news, relieved he could finally come home to you

🐼 he avoided calling you since it was two in the morning and decided to surprise you instead

🐼 quietly sneaking into your shared apartment, jihoon walked on his toes, not wanting to wake you up

🐼 but luck wasn’t in his favor as he tripped over air, crashing against a table loud enough to wake you up

🐼 jihoon stilled in his place, waiting for a few moments before continuing his movement, thinking you hadn’t woken up

🐼 until he heard the soft pattering of your footsteps on the wooden floor, which made him turn to find you

🐼 his wide-eyed expression of regret contorted into a soft smile of adoration upon seeing the way you came to the living room

🐼 you had worn a sweater of his, since you were missing him more than usual — and the way it fell past your knees along with the way you rubbed the sleep out of your eyes made jihoon want to just smother you with all his love

🐼 when you smiled upon seeing him, jihoon simply hooked his hands under you, carrying you towards your bed bc he could see how sleepy you were

🐼 would softly trace your face with his fingers as he smiled to himself, feeling like an entire burden was lifted off him as he stared at you

🐼 “hi, baby. i missed you so much, you know? also, you look very cute in my sweater.”

KANEMOTO YOSHINORI

🐯 baby tiger-nori would have a field day when he saw you wearing his sweater

🐯 you two were planning on going to the park for a walk, and yoshi was searching for an outfit to wear

🐯 trying to pass time while he figured out his outfit, you looked through the clothes he had thrown to the side, wearing them over your clothes

🐯 upon finding a cool sweater, you threw it over your shirt, breaking into a fit of giggles as it looked like a dress

🐯 yoshi would turn around as he heard you laugh, a smile already on his face before he even looked at you

🐯 “what are you giggling about, angel?”

🐯 “look! the sweater is like a dress on me!” you found it amusing, twirling around for fun while yoshi looked at you with heart-eyes, finding you absolutely adorable

🐯 the walk-in-the-park date was going to have to wait bc yoshi immediately rummaged through his clothes, finding more that would look on you

🐯 your ‘date’ was spent indoor with you trying you absolutely every article of clothing yoshi gave you since according to him, you could pull off any look

🐯 “ah, what am i gonna do? you look amazing in all my clothes, angel. i’m just gonna have to give you all of them.”

KIM JUNKYU

🐨 junkyu could (and probably would) go into cardiac arrest upon seeing you in his hoodies

🐨 you were waiting for your boyfriend to finish his work in his room that was probably as cold as antarctica

🐨 “kyu, i’m taking your hoodie.” you’d inform him, grabbing the nearest hoodie you could find

🐨 and as the owner of multiple hoodies — especially treasure hoodies — junkyu didn’t mind, merely humming in agreement as he tried to finish his work as quickly as possible

🐨 after some time, he’d call for you, wanting something from his wardrobe

🐨 “there’s a book in the corner. could you please get that for me, babes?”

🐨 you nod, happy to help him out with anything he needed

🐨 junkyu would follow your figure as you went to his wardrobe, furrowing his brows as he had a fond smile on his face, watching how adorable you looked with his hoodie

🐨 when you returned with the book he wanted, junkyu would wrap his hands around your waist, pulling you to his lap, which took you by surprise

🐨 not much words were exchanged, and he’d just rest his chin on your shoulder, going on with his work — which really wasn’t a bother for either of you

🐨 you’d look through his work as he did it, not knowing how much of an effect you had on him as you softly questioned certain aspects of his work, genuinely intrigued, which would warm his heart

🐨 “my jagi is so cute. i can't believe how lucky i got with you.”

TAKATA MASHIHO

🐹 mashi would 11/10 have a meltdown upon seeing you in his hoodie, but will use his method of teasing to distract you from his blushing cheeks

🐹 his heart would go dugun dugun when he saw your sweater paws, smiling to himself when he saw you lifted your sleeves frequently, but it fell down before it was too loose

🐹 cute. he’d think to himself. very cute.

🐹 “hm, i spot a thief!” he’d announce as soon as he saw you, and you’d genuinely be confused, looking around to see who else was in the apartment other than the two of you

🐹 “where?”

🐹 mashiho would approach you, jokingly holding your hands against your back as he would clarify the thief was you

🐹 you’d play along, shaking your head in disappointment with the way your boyfriend acted

🐹 “stealing my hoodies, huh? how dare you? what a thief.”

🐹 “i had to find smth to compensate after you stole my heart.” you’d retort without missing a beat, knowing where mashi was going with his teasing

🐹 and two can play that game

🐹 “wah, look at this little cute thief stealing my lines too. ssh, thieves don’t get a chance to speak.”

🐹 you’d laugh, sinking into his embrace as mashi let go of your hands, wrapping his arms around your waist instead

🐹 “no, but in all seriousness, you’ve been stealing a lot these days.”

🐹 turning around to face him, you raise your brows, wordlessly asking your boyfriend to continue

🐹 “first, my heart. then, my hoodies. what’s next? my last name?”

🐹 you just stood there, genuinely shell-shocked at what you heard, feeling your heart beat at an abnormal rate

🐹 yeah, safe to say. mashi won the game

YOON JAEHYUK

🦁 jaehyuk finds happiness in the smallest things — even if it’s just you wearing his hoodie early in the morning bc the apartment was too cold for you

🦁 for some reason, you always felt like you were going to freeze in the mornings, so you usually grabbed the nearest warm clothing you could find

🦁 and on this morning, you just came across jaehyuk’s hoodie

🦁 when you trudged into the kitchen upon smelling breakfast, you wrapped your arms around your boyfriend’s waist as he cooked, quietly murmuring your appreciation for him

🦁 jaehyuk looked down at your arms, noticing the familiar clothing of his and turned around, hiding his smile as he looked at you

🦁 “wahh, so you are stealing my clothes now, huh?” he’d joke, trying his best not to laugh

🦁 “it was the nearest one i could find :( do you want me to take it off?” you were completely serious, pouting as you thought he was genuinely annoyed

🦁 jaehyuk’s hands would immediately go to stop you as he shook his head vigorously, giving you a wide smile as he cupped your face with his hands

🦁 would probably have a mini meltdown as he stared at the way his hoodie would look on you, making a mental note to take a picture secretly so he could make it his newest home-screen

🦁 “nope, don’t take it off. i don’t mind. you look cute. very cute.”

HAMADA ASAHI

🤖 ever since asahi started dating you, him wearing hoodies, sweaters and jackets has become more common

🤖 he wasn’t good at bearing the cold, but when he got to know you, he realised you sucked at handling the cold as well — more so than him

🤖 and despite feeling cold occasionally, your fashion never really accommodated for it as you always wore short-sleeved shirts — which always ended with you complaining about the weather and not your fashion sense

🤖 “you should wear a jacket if you feel cold, y/n.”

🤖 “and have it mess with my fashion sense? no, thank you.”

🤖 asahi would give up, opting to wear them (in your stead) so whenever you got cold, he’d be the first one take off his sweater, hoodie or jacket and hand it over you — bonus being he never teased you about it

🤖 sahi’s very observant, so as soon as you give the smallest hint that you are feeling cold — be it your reddening nose or your arms hugging yourself — manz would take off his outerwear and hand it to you without another word, going along with his day

🤖 in a way tho, he kinda liked the fact you never wore long-sleeves of your own, but his clothing — and that kinda made him feel good

🤖 the way he felt butterflies in his stomach whenever he looked at you in his clothes made him feel so fluffy on the inside, but he’d just maintain a normal expression on the outside, acting all cool and nonchalant

🤖 “my sweaters don’t mess with your fashion sense, love. you are lucky you look amazing in everything.”

BANG YEDAM

🦊 yedam doesn’t even notice you are wearing his sweater at first

🦊 usually, he has a keen eye and absolutely adores it when you wear his clothes — bc it makes him happy that you are comfortable to do smth like that

🦊 and most of the time he’s kinda smitten by you, so he barely even notices what goes on in his surroundings

🦊 literally has heart eyes for you, so even if you wore a chicken suit, he wouldn’t notice it until someone pointed it out

🦊 after practicing the choreo so many times, it was finally time to go, and you had never been happier — considering you thought you were gonna freeze to death in the practice room

🦊 you were standing outside, waiting for your boyfriend to come with his stuff while you talked with a few members

🦊 “hyung, have you seen my sweater? i thought i kept it here.” yedam would ask jihoon who was the closest to him, wondering where it had disappeared

🦊 “it’s over there. y/n has it. well, y/n is wearing it.” jihoon pointed it out, pointing to where you were so yedam could see

🦊 his gaze landed on you talking with his members, laughing about smth before curtseying, pretending the oversized sweater on you was a dress of sorts

🦊would approach you quietly, hugging you from behind as he greeted you with a kiss on the cheek

🦊 “there you are. i was wondering where my sweater went. but i guess it suits you better.”

🦊 “the practice room was freezing! i promise i’ll return it when we get back home.” you promised, wrapping your arms around his arms to gain more warmth

🦊 yedam chuckled, pulling you closer into a hug as you two began walking out of the building

🦊 “no, it’s fine. you can keep it. it looks really nice on you.”

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| 𝔲𝔫𝔱𝔦𝔩 𝔦 𝔪𝔢𝔱 𝔶𝔬𝔲 |     [Chapter 1] 

pairing; fratboy!wonwoo x reader

this chapter’s notes; fratboy!wonwoo, dom!wonwoo, dirty talk, masturbation, sex toys, mentions of sexting/sending photos/videos, baby this has hella plot lmao dkhf 🥴💕 WELCOME TO UNTIL I MET YOU!! THE MINI-SEQUEL TO CAFFEINE! A bit of a shorter chapter but I didn’t want to overload with too much everything in the first chapter, ykwim? 😎 Thank you so much for your patience with this sequel, I know there were a ton of people asking for a sequel for months after I said I would 💕😭😭 As always, inbox roundup tomorrow! And don’t forget, next chapter for UIMY goes up on Feb 26th! T|H ch 1 next Friday! 🥰💕 Enjoy ch 1, have a great weekend and I love you! 💕

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“Mmh… Wonwoo…”

His hands roam all over your naked body; warmth spreading all over when he digs his blunt fingernails into the skin of your waist.

“Feels good, doesn’t it? Did you miss me, sweetheart?” His voice is soft, gentle, yet teasing; barely above a whisper as your back bows off of the bed to lean into his simple touches. “I missed you, sweetheart. Missed your ‘lil cunt too.”

A choked sob falls from your lips, followed quickly by rushed, hurried cries for Wonwoo to move faster.

“Don’t you want me to take my time? We haven’t seen each other in months.” 

There’s a smirk on his lips, eyes twinkling with mischief when you reply back with a shaky whine. “Don’t you want me to slide my cock into your pretty ‘lil pussy nice ‘n slow? Let you feel every inch of me filling you up, just like it’s the first time all over again.” He stares at you dreamily; fixated on the way your body chases his hands when he drags them down to your thighs. “Or would you prefer it if I fucked you hard and fast? Your cute body squirming and trembling from how good I give it to you and my cock slamming into your tight ‘lil cunt.”

Wonwoo’s fingertips spread your folds as he licks his lips; appreciating how wet you already were for him.

“Bet your toys don’t feel as good as the real thing, huh?”

You shake your head ‘no’ furiously, “N-no, god, no! Wonwoo, p-please!” The male grins down at you, pouting mockingly at your desperate, pleading eyes. 

The wetness between your legs is unbearable and the sobs are caught in your throat when Wonwoo leans over you, lips ghosting across your own.

“Okay. Just say--”

You’re shocked awake by your alarm clock; chest heaving in deep breaths as you sit up in your crumpled sheets. “Oh, fuck...” Groaning, your clammy palms reach for the ringing device as you shut it off and sigh.

The clock reads 10:02AM; tired eyes trying to blink away the sleep that threatens to take you back to the dreamland you much preferred. Although, dreaming about Wonwoo was becoming a little bit too common these last few days.

Sighing once more, you move to get out of bed; already finding your panties soaking wet and sticking to you like a second skin when you stand.

“Ugh... Damn it.”

You press the vibrator harder onto your clit; teeth chattering with the pleasure that pours over your body.

“Oh, god, please, p-please…”

Images of Wonwoo dance behind your eyelids; sultry smirks and teasing glances bringing you closer and closer to the edge of an orgasm.

If there was anything that the last few months without Wonwoo taught you, it was that you couldn’t afford to lose him - in more ways than one. And despite his lack of calls or even text messages, you held out in hopes he still felt the same way that you did despite the distance.

You sent him pictures and videos of yourself often; teasing images half naked, toys in hand, and videos crying out his name while you came. And while he took the time to reply to those with praise and adoration, he almost never sent anything back. 

When he did, it was always short, clipped replies of how exhausted he was and how he didn’t have much time.

“Ngh, h-harder…” Your toes curl against the bedsheet; phantom feelings of his cock fucking you hard and deep making you cry out in desperation to be filled by his cock.

Your phone rings on the nightstand next to you as you cum - vibrator pressed so hard against your clit that your back bows off of the sheets while your thighs shake uncontrollably. 

And for the first time in a long time, it’s an orgasm that feels like it’s worth something.

‘Gyu: hey did wonwoo text u?

‘Gyu: he’s back next monday he said

‘Gyu: idk abt classes tho, might be out of commission for a while bc jetlag

‘Gyu: thinking abt throwing him a party on friday after he comes back...

‘Gyu: u wanna plan with us orrrrr? U got a private party or sth 🥴😏

‘Gyu: lmk

You’re nervous. Shy, even.

After you’d come down from your orgasm and checked your phone, your mind momentarily went blank from shock and the first thing you’d done was text Wonwoo to ask if he was really coming back that soon.

‘Ah, yeah, I was just about to text you. Prof said we can go home early if we wanted since we finished up classes. I’ll see you sometime next week? Jetlag and stuff.’, was all he had said and in your excited state, the only thing you had responded with was an, ‘Okay, great!’, without asking when, where, or what time.

You figured you’d give him some time to readjust instead of bombarding him as soon as he got in. But each second that you knew Wonwoo was home, you found yourself itching to just be in his presence.

You just had to be a little more patient.

Wednesday morning comes and you find yourself skipping your morning class to go to the library.

For studying, you tell yourself.

The male at the receptionist table shoots you a small smile to which you awkwardly smile back before ducking into an empty aisle. All you knew was that it seemed like Wonwoo wasn’t here.

Maybe he’s still at the frat house, you wonder.

Sighing slightly under your breath, you decide that maybe getting some work done would actually help distract you from looking for the male.

You find an empty table, setting your things down before pulling out your phone. 

In all honesty, you weren’t even sure why you were being so shy and nervous about contacting Wonwoo, especially when you so unabashedly sent him nudes every few days when he was away. 

Although, with how things had been before he left and the prospect of actually dating once he came back from his semester abroad - the butterflies in your stomach had been nonstop with the different scenarios that played out in your head. You’d even gone so far as to plan what happened if Wonwoo had decided he didn’t want to make an attempt at dating you.

“Sweetheart?”

The grip you have on your phone only tightens as you whip your head around to find Wonwoo standing behind your chair and you swear your heart stops beating the same time your breath gets caught in your throat. “H-huh?”

He smiles gently down at you and you can’t help but wonder how long you were spaced out to not notice him there. 

“Is this a dream too?” You wonder aloud - Wonwoo chuckling in response as he moves to collect your things for you.

“Have you been dreaming about me that much, sweetheart?” You stutter and stumble over your words; embarrassment eating at you every second that Wonwoo has a knowing smile plastered on his lips.

“C’mon, let’s go get something to eat since we both know you’re not really here to study.”

The version of Wonwoo that sits across the cafe table is… different.

Not bad, just different.

His arms are much tanner and definitely more muscular and the glasses missing from his face lets you appreciate his eyes even more when they’re not hidden behind the thick frames. He had even opted to wear a sleeveless shirt; something that you weren’t used to when he usually was around campus in long sleeves and sweater vests.

Although, you can’t and won’t deny the way your body reacts to this Wonwoo.

“Hey, I’m talking to you and you’re just spacing out.” Muttering, he leans over the small cafe table until his face is only inches away from yours and the smirk on his lips already lets you know that you’ve been caught staring.

“Listen, I know I’ve been gone for three months but you’re lookin’ at me like you haven’t had a fix in all that time.” Your lips press into an embarrassed firm line, avoiding his stare as he raises a brow at you.

“Wait, you didn’t fuck anyone in the three months I was gone?”

“No… did you?” Your voice is barely above a whisper; a little afraid that his answer will be ‘yes’ when he takes a second longer to respond.

“Nah,” He settles back into his seat, “I told you, didn’t I? I was willing to try the whole… dating, relationship thing with you when I got back. Although, I’m somewhat surprised one of the others didn’t try to seduce you while I was gone.”

You laugh slightly, cheeks warm as Wonwoo teases. “I wouldn’t have given them the time of day anyway.”

Your entire body burns hot, palms clammy in your lap from how giddy you were to be with Wonwoo and it made your heart do backflips knowing that he’d still been willing to try with you.

“Ah, how was it abroad anyway? You… didn’t really say much over the past few months so I feel like I don’t know how you were. Just some messages about how tired you were...” He takes a sip of his coffee; unintentionally making you internally scream when his lips form a pout while he thinks.

“Honestly? Other than the days we were excavating ‘n stuff, it was pretty boring. Really hectic though, and a lot of documenting which meant a lot of paperwork. I swear, I closed my eyes and I saw the inside of my textbooks.” He chuckles lightly, eyes focused on the cup of coffee in front of him.

“I just want to say sorry for my lack of communication. I really didn’t expect to be so busy that I couldn’t even pick up a call.” There’s a genuine apologetic look on Wonwoo’s face when he looks back at you. “And the time difference was really rough too. I didn’t want to take it out on you over the phone if I was stressed about not sleeping or the workload. I know we can get a little rough when we ‘play’ but this wasn’t that and it wouldn’t have been fair.”

Oh.

“T-that’s okay, I understand!” Your heart does somersaults in your chest, “I--thank you for thinking about me too.”

The feelings you have bubbling up inside of you make you feel like you’re falling in love for the first time, all over again. “Um… Sorry I sent so many pictures ‘n stuff.”

Wonwoo laughs, this time throwing his head back slightly before he tries to hide his wide grin. “Oh, sweetheart. Don’t apologize.” Your eyes meet his and for a split second, you see the familiar dominating look in his eyes before he leans over the small cafe table again.

“I might’ve not had all the time to entertain you those times but I thought about you alllll the time. I missed everything about you.” His voice is barely above a whisper - careful to not let anyone else in the cafe hear the topic of conversation. “Which, by the way…You piqued my interest earlier with your question. You never really answered my question about having dreams about me.”

You shift in your seat as you avert your eyes from his; eyes flitting down his toned body instead as you mentally curse yourself.

“I… kinda? I m-mean… not normally but just--just these last few days. It’s almost been every night… I wake up and--and it’s just… I’m...” You trail off; somewhat shy to say the rest of what you were going to say even though you’re almost certain Wonwoo already knows.

“Odd. Me too. I kept dreaming about you, which is, honestly, kind of why I thought to come back earlier.”

“Oh?”

“Mm, we still had 2 weeks left, technically. A bit of a spillover since my professor wanted us to explore the city once finals were over. But I just wanted to come home.” He finishes with a chuckle - a soft look in his eyes.

You pout back at him, “You didn’t come home early just for ‘lil ‘ol me, did you?” You say it jokingly, but deep down you do wonder.

“Would that be so bad?” Grinning, Wonwoo sets a couple of bills down onto the table to cover the meals you both barely have touched.

“Like I said, I missed everything about you, sweetheart.”

Wonwoo walks you back to your place afterwards; laughing and joking with you as if he hadn’t been gone for the last 3 months. 

There’s a certain playfulness about him that makes your heart bloom and part of you wonders if he’s opening up to you more now that there’d been some time apart.

“Are you gonna be working at the library again? Or is that done forever now?” “Mm.. I mean, it’d be kind of weird if I stopped, don’t you think?”

The grin of his face is telling and you have to mentally stop yourself from letting your mind wander in the middle of the sidewalk. “Y-yeah... Studying in my apartment isn’t really the same, y’know…”

Laughing, Wonwoo takes the opportunity to swing an arm around your shoulder as he tucks you under his arm. “I was actually at the library earlier to ask about my position back. I start tomorrow.” Goosebumps rise on your skin and the close proximity is enough to make you whimper.

“I’m only taking two classes this semester to give myself a bit of a break so I’ll be in the library more often to fill up the time. You can always call me if you need to know where I am. I promise I’ll respond this time, sweetheart.”

Before you know it, the two of you are already standing outside of your complex as Wonwoo takes his arm off of you.

“Will I be seeing you tomorrow?” There’s a hopeful lilt to his voice that has you nodding feverishly in return.

“I have a morning class but I’ll come by in the afternoon? I can text you to let you know, just in case.” You offer back.

Wonwoo licks his lips, tilting his head before leaning down and kissing you on the forehead.

The soft gesture momentarily throws you off as you freeze but the smoldering look in Wonwoo’s eyes when he pulls away lets you know that he’s already scheming.

“I’ll see you tomorrow, sweetheart.”

[dayurno]

okay so listen. about my taylor angst kandreil au. this isn't posted anywhere? i literally only write this for my friend and then we scream about each other's writing in our whatsapp chat. also, and that might be the more pressing issue, it's entirely in german cause, you know, i am german. i only started writing in english when i started writing smut cause ew, can't do that in german, but taylor came before that so. there's that. i am sorry, i would definitely let you read it!!

ALSO thank you SOSOSOSOSO much for those new years day snippets i am going to COMBUST????? this is. so them i wanna SCREAM AND DESTROY SOMETHING preferably myself

on reputation kandrew: i just wrote an entire thing about king of my heart kandrew cause

your love is a secret i'm hoping dreaming dying to keep???

the end of all the endings, my broken bones are mending???

i totally agree on your dress agenda, i have been listening to it nonstop these past few days and this is SO kandrew. may i offer you call it what you want kandrew as well? because:

my castle crumbled over night, i brought a knife to a gunfight, they took the crown but it's alright

loves me like i'm brand new

he built a fire just to keep me warm

all the jokers dressing up as kings, they fade to nothing when i look at him

OKAY this ask got way too long already, so i am stopping now, but i think you get what i mean. my kandrew brainrot is bad, and i adore it.

(one last thing.

my reputation's never been worse so you must like me for me)

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, time to learn german i guess ........... even though i am fundamentally against european languages on every aspect. "dont you speak portuguese" yes, BRAZILIAN portuguese, do not compete where u cant compare!

REPUTATION IS SOOOOOOSOOOSOOOO KANDREW ESP PRE-CANON ive been playing with the idea of a pre-canon long fic for a while now and i was just thinking abt how much reputation would Fit. i feel like it has such a slow romantic pace and has all that tension of liking someone a Lot but not it just being a very chaotic moment all around............ call it what you want specifically imo is just. LIKE IT DESCRIBES KEVINS FALL FROM GRACE SO WELL.. my castle crumbled overnight / i brought a knife to a gun fight / they took the crown but its alright? AND LIKE. AND!!! and i dont know maybe i just got issues but i have a thing about kevin praising andrew. i feel like he is a person whos as quick to scold as he is to praise (seen in: everything he does with neil) but with andrew specifically, when kevin thinks hes done good, andrew will know bc kevin isnt shy about it! so when she says shit like "my baby's fit like a daydream" its like. I DONT KNOWWW HONESTLY but something just clicks in my brain at the thought of kevin feeling that way abt andrew

also i know i know i know..... I want to wear his initial / On a chain round my neck, chain round my neck is not the most healthy thing to say about a man but. i think something i hold dearest to me is the idea that under deals and promises, after all is said and done, what andrew most wants is that the people he puts so much effort into choose to stay with him Willingly u know? not because of coercion or fear or necessity but because they really want to stay w him. and i feel like, for kandrew specifically............... isnt that the biggest thing? kevin being his because he really really really wants to be, and not bc he needs to be. (nicki minaj voice) i got issues yeah bitch i got issues

anyway hehe ahem. my apologies for the just as wordy reply

[vriki]

ive been playing pokemon sw/sh nonstop for the past few days so the cursed tdi this time is literally just diagnosing the og cast

this post got ugly long so its under a cut

chris is ex-champion. he got to be champion for a few years until some fucking ten-year-old came in and stole his spot, and being a petty bitch, he took to making the Bad Guy Group (debatably, Team Drama.) he has fire and dark types, majorly, but takes on anything that seems useful. (a sharpedo or.. few.. make for an interesting obstacle put in the way of some of those trainers out there.)

feral ezekiel is a ghost trainer. cryptic and confusing. he looks about as much akin to a pokemon as he does a human being, making for a pretty spooky atmosphere that fits in well with ghost-types. 

duncan, obviously, gets to be dark type. there is literally no surprise to this at all, the dark types are the edgy ones

DJ doesnt have a type preference, he’s a breeder! he helps run the pokemon daycare and always takes extra good care of the eggs nobody comes to pick up, meaning he basically has his own swarm of baby pokemon that he cares for immensely. (you know his partner is a bunny pokemon, im just not sure which)

Lindsay also doesn’t have a type preference, but she does contests! dj helped her breed and raise the perfect pokemon for them, and she loves all of her babies so much! she spoils them rotten with accessories and treats. (think lisia!)

tyler is a fighting trainer, which is a whole ass mess. he ends up in personal brawls with his pokemon sometimes, and on more than one occasion he’s managed to get into funny, but concerning situations with them. it doesn’t help that at least one of his pokemon is just as clumsy as him.

eva leans fighting too, but she’s the total opposite of tyler. her pokemon are dignified, strong, and make no mistakes bcs they practice hard and they follow a strict schedule. she also takes on some normal types, but they tend to be more casual or sacrificial to heal up another pokemon during battle

 bridgette and geoff both take on water types, as expected, but bridgette leansto pure water types whereas geoff leans to mixed types (esp water-psychic, those guys can learn moves that make for the SICKEST parties bro)

sadie & katie lean fairy, with a side of grass and normal. 

noah, not caring for battle, followed in the path of professor, so he kind of just has an ever-rotating supply of pokemon to study. sometimes owen can drag him out on an adventure, and noah just uses that time to study owen and his pokemon.

speaking of, owen has a pretty diverse team! (think rival- kind of just a mishmash of types.) A snorlax (raised from munchlax, thanks dj!) is his partner pokemon, but thats about all i got

cody, ever the man to try and get attention, doesn’t have a set type. he’s trying to fill out his pokedex to impress, and complete gym challenges in attempt to reach championship, so he’s constantly rotating whatever’s most powerful and what matches up with type advantages (that he calls noah to confirm, every time. ‘soo im about to head into the dragon gym, and its not that i doubt you, but are you sure that fairy types are the move here? because i mean- theyre just so small and dainty and dragon types are-’ ‘holy shit cody i dedicated my life to this, yes im sure, just go already.’)

trent took the route of normal types, and kind of just takes on pokemon that can sing. jigglypuff, chatot, and the rarity that is an eevee, able to carry a tune. he makes his career around music rather than battles, and loves to sing with his pokemon!

izzy took on grass (and bug) because she finds those ones the most fun! she likes to go absolutely bonkers with them in the forests, hanging out with wild pokemon of all kinds. (most of them shes actually not really officially caught,she just foraged berries, shared, and they followed her home.)

justin is, expectedly, also a contest participant more than a trainer! most of his pokemons movesets contain weather-related moves, so he can have watever weather he wants, whenever he wants. otherwise they tend to be cute, pretty, or graceful moves tbh. snooty pokemon on the dl.

courtney, fire. her passion and determination? could only be matched by fire types. she just works best with them out of all the types, so it kinda just happened

gwen is poison, mostly because its one of the edgy types and she’s gotta fit that Gothe Aesthetique somehow. 

harold doesn’t have a type, but he mostly definitely as a durant. a fighting type, yknow, cause of the ninja thing. (probably one of the bipedal ones). at least one electric type, and probably a flying type, too. 

heather? electric and dark! morpeko is her partner pokemon. she likes to do dramatic catwalks lit by nothing but the lightning bolts of her pokemon, ominous!

beth is a bug/ground type trainer! couldnt tell ya why if you asked, its just the vibes.

i was gonna be cliche and give chef food-themed pokemon, but then i looked at a garbodor, and i think you know what chef has. garbodor, muk, those types. he runs with chris in the bad guy group.

leshawna is unfortunately the only one im totally blanking on. i got absolutely nothing for her.

[naivesilver]

31, 56, 19, 78, 20, 16, 11, 12 , 10, 4, 1, 21, 36, 39. Sorry if this is too many 😅

Guys it’s NEVER too many you’re giving me the chance to talk nonstop about Sonic it’s the best thing that’s happened to me in days

also I had planned to answer them in the order you asked for but it was driving me crazy so I sorted them out thematically sorry alfhjkhljshja

I answered 1 here!

100 Sonic Questions

21.) Tell us a funny Sonic-related story.

This one comes from the depths of my very first months as a Sonic fan. Basically, I had watched Sonic X upon its first Italian release as a very very smol bean. By the time I got obsessed again in middle school, though, I had forgotten everything about it except a few shots from the Italian opening theme and ONE scene from a season three episode, where Sonic and Knuckles played chess on a spaceship and then Sonic began running around and fell into space.

The “friend” that had introduced me to the show again (not a nice person and source of about 25% of my trauma, I’m glad to say I haven’t seen her in years) didn’t believe me and accused me of lying. Repeatedly. Unkindly. For months. How could such a stupid scene be in such an amazing cartoon? I must be trying to fuck with her.

Fast forward to the end of the year. I’m minding my business and I see a Facebook message from this friend, and another, and another. I click on it wondering what she’d be going ham over, and BAM. This girl had been watching Sonic AMVs on Youtube and had caught a glimpse of that scene at the beginning of a video and was fucking losing it over the fact that WOW, I HAD BEEN TELLING THE TRUTH ALL ALONG?!

Now, you have to understand that I wasn’t the kind of kid that swore, back then. I had been brought up to think that swear words would send you to hell straight away. And while not a delicate little flower, I was much, much cuter and more proper than I am now because I couldn’t live out my butch dreams quite yet. But I needed to express all the frustration gathered in those months.

So please imagine this baby-faced, straight A student 13yo wait for her friend in front of their school and bellow at the top of her lungs “BITCH, WHAT DID I FUCKING TELL YOU?”

I still remember that scene fondly, though.

31.) Tell us a Sonic-related story that will give us feels.

Related to the experience I just mentioned, the problem I had in my first years in this fandom was that this person who had dragged me into it was obsessed with the thought that people would mock us for it. She said it was for kids, and when she got over it she gave me shit for clinging to my passion while she’d “grown up”, and she had me enjoy Sonic in secret and yelled at me for saying anything even vaguely related out loud where other people could hear us.

It got into my head so much that for a long long time I didn’t dare share anything Sonic-adjacent on any social media, long past when I’d broke away from her. I thought no one would ever take me seriously again. I felt ashamed a lot.

It got better, though. Slowly, I broke out of my shell and started interacting with this amazing fandom, and I found lots of people who didn’t give a damn about what the world thought of their passion. And I know tons of wonderful people outside the fandom, too, friends who encourage me to talk about Sonic even though they don’t know anything about it. Chats where any mention of Sonic has someone saying “wait we must tag naivesilver into this she’ll love it”. It’s - it warms my heart every day. Tumblr is a shithole, but it helped me in feeling free to do what I love in the fandom that I love most.

Thank you. To everyone that got me through that, thank you. You have no idea how helpful you’ve been to me.

19.) Favorite soundtrack

KNOCK KNOCK IT’S FUCKING KNUCKLES

20.) Least favorite soundtrack?

None I think???? There are some I don't listen to much, either because I haven't played the game or I just don't vibe with them, but there isn't any song that I particularly dislike. Almost all of them are genuine bops.

16.) (if you read fanfic) What are some fic tropes you love? Ones you hate?

FOUND FAMILY!!! Adoptive parents, siblings, friends taking care of each other, I want a shitton of fluff in my life. And kid!fic. I could read (and write!) kid!fic every day for the rest of my life and never get tired of it. That's why I enjoy Chaotix and Sonic Movie fics so much. Let's raise them boys well.

As for hating...I don't like high school AUs lmao I wrote one when I was younger but I never dared touch it again and I haven't read any Sonic one since 2014 at most. And most time travel fics. Sorry, Silver, I love you a fucking lot but time travel shenanigans are only funny in the two or three specific settings my mind lets me enjoy.

11.) Top five stages.

In no particular order:

-Press Garden (Mania)

-Casinopolis (Adventure)

-Casino Forest (Forces)

-Studiopolis (Mania)

Anddddd I haven't played much else so I'll have to get back to you on this ajshfkjfahlljha

12.) Worst five stages.

-IMPERIAL TOWER

-IMPERIAL TOWER

-Jesus Christ I died 78 times in that stage alone

-I'm bad at being fast and not falling off stuff and it required me to do both at the same time

-Also the Shadow DLC levels. Fuck me up a bit more will you

56.) In your opinion, what’s the weirdest thing any character has ever said?

I'm a simple girl, I see this panel and I lose my shit

10.) What do you like best about your favorite animated adaptation?

I only finished my Sonic X rewatch yesterday and I’ve been meaning to make some final comments about it (tho it’d probably be me rambling at thin air bc I doubt I can say anything that hasn’t been already said over and over and over) but the most compelling thing for me is and always will be the music.

Don’t get me wrong, what I’ve seen of the OG Japanese version had wonderful, heartfelt music, but the upbeat themes I grew up with still have me vibing day in and day out. I can dance to the Italian opening sequence at any given moment - no, you know what, here it is. Watch it and feel the serotonin drip into your veins.

(Some people will come at me for this, but I didn’t watch this show in 2019-2020 to make an in-depth analysis about it. I did it to have a dance off while Knuckles beat up some robots.)

78.) Post a scene that always gives you feels.

Sonic 06:

13yo me about to see her first ship torn apart:

4.) The last Sonic game you played is now your life. How awesome is this adventure gonna be?

Sonic Adventure - which means it’s a pretty cool life, unless it runs like SA does on my laptop and it turns slow and glitchy and grinds on my nerves even more

36.) C’mon now. How many ships do you have? :P

A FUCKING LOT my main ones are silvaze, vecpio and sonadow but I have many medium or small ones that I enjoy finding content for, like tikaze or knouge

39.) Which game is your golden standard?

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I’m not the greatest game fan as in I’ve only been actively playing for the past 2/3 years. Before that it was just gameplays on Youtube, so you should not take my opinion into any account since it’s not very informed.

However there was something about Sonic and the Black Knight that just felt...new? Peculiar? I know jack shit about the technical side of gaming but I remember being extremely pumped every time I logged in to see more of it. I'd like to feel that again, when a new game drops.

[hoodwinkedtoohoodvsevil]

sappy "i've loved my spesh for a year now" post

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one year ago today, i got into twrp.

that's not to say i wasnt familiar with them before june 3rd, 2019. my big love was nsp, so i very much knew and appreciated them! i remember when nsp played on conan i was so happy for all of them and hoped twrp was getting just as much credit as nsp because they totally deserve it! i remember listening to guardians of the zone a couple years back in david's car and latching onto rock n roll best friends (my first favorite twrp song and still one of my faves!) and listening to that a lot. i remember the third starbomb album coming out last april and thinking, wow, this is definitely their best album musically because of twrp's instrumentation! and of course, like everyone else, i was obsessed with starlight brigade when the video came out, and recognized it was twrp's song featuring dan, not just a dan project. but i didn't have their names memorized, and for whatever reason, i thought they were all silent performers? like, i thought none of them talked and sung only talked/performed with talkbox. (i mean, i was like 60% right? at least at the time.)

on this day last year, i was showing my best friend arin and suzy's (gg) hot pepper gaming videos and then i noticed twrp's in the related videos. i was like oh my gosh! i didn't know twrp did one of these! and you can imagine my surprise when sung and meouch started talking fhfhdjdlfj i was literally like WAIT THEY TALK??? I REALLY THOUGHT NONE OF THEM TALKED. it's always really funny to look back on. and even though they spent most of that video suffering i thought they were so funny and likeable that i was like. maybe i should finally actually get into twrp.

and holy shit.

there's so much to twrp that i know i didn't do it all in a day. it's hard for me to get used to a band by listening to all their music once, so i took it album by album. i started with guardians of the zone, because i was already very familiar with it. listened to that on loop for a while, then moved onto together through time since it was their most recent album at the time. then, i went backwards from there.

i searched for all the lore i could. i read wiki pages, spent literal hours reading reddit AMAs, watched every video on their youtube channel and the hour long compilation of their instagram videos. this all took place over the span of like? a few days? a week? it's hard to say really. i fell so fast.

from that point on, i have so many stories, we would be here all day. i remember listening to believe in your dreams on repeat the day i became a d*sney trainer, and the literal day after that, they released hidden potential. then of course, the release of return to wherever, which i listened to nonstop for ages. the album is my jam because i love albums with a cohesive theme and songs that blend into each other. it's hard to beat together through time, but rtw comes really close.

i saw them for the first time live on july 30th, 2019. unfortunately, something happened that night that changed my life for the worse. but that wasn't twrp's fault at all. the show itself was incredible. i'd never been to a general admission concert of one of my faves, it was absolutely surreal that they were all right in front of me. and of course, they put on a hell of a show. they always do. god, i love them.

on august 9th 2019, i went to my first sung stream. it was a party stream and i'm on the east coast, so i stayed up until 3 AM to hear sung give me my first talkbox shoutout. i recorded it and still have the video. it made me smile in the early part of a very dark time in my life.

i made a lot of friends in that stream, we all shared twitters and i'm still friends/mutuals with all of them! and i've only made more friends since, especially at nsp10. nsp10 was incredible for many reasons, but a big one was that the three hours my fiancé and i were waiting outside the venue to be let in, we were just walking around saying hi to my twrp friends, meeting a bunch of them for the first time. and i made new friends! i remember standing in a group, shivering in my heart boner cosplay, and one of the guys saying "you're artie, right? i follow you on twitter, i love your cosplay!" he seemed like he was really gathering the courage to say it to me, he had no idea how happy it would make me! (shoutout to logan! you're awesome!)

really, if any of my twrp friends are reading this, i love you to pieces. meeting you has definitely been a high point of the last 365 days.

again, i have so many stories. but since this is already so long i'm just gonna cut to march 5th, 2020. that was the night i met them. now, i'm not a shy person at all, and over the past few years i haven't really been very socially anxious. i'm able to carry myself in conversation, even with strangers. but i've never met a fave before. let alone four faves at once. so, naturally, everything i had planned on saying completely left my brain. but they're literally the best, so it was still an absolute dream. the first thing sung said when he saw me was "hey you look great!" (my outfit was clearly inspired by his own, fancy orange hat and all, so he probs wanted to Respect The Drip but he was right regardless and also HOLY SHIT) and i had my baby porg gary with me (the sunshine of my life) and they all interacted with him and it was super wholesome.

they played two nights in orlando, and i went to both shows because of course i did. first night was great, second night was even better even though that was my GA show. they played life party on night 2, which might as well be my favorite song of all time. it has carried me through every bad moment since i first heard it. big and small. i have a lyric from it tattoo'd on my arm as a constant reminder that i'm alive, and that is something to be ecstatic about. i also had more room to dance and move around on night 2, and dance and move around i did. then, when the show was over and scatman played, i got out everything else i had. august-november 2019 was actual hell for me, and i was still dealing with the aftermath of it all. but that concert high made me realize, holy shit! all of it is over! it doesn't matter anymore! twrp carried me through one of the roughest periods of my life, and met me at the finish line with a fucking gold medal. i fucking did it. now i have none of the bad, and all of the good. it was one of the best feelings i've ever had, and one of the happiest nights of my life.

since then, twrp continues to keep me going. of course the world has been a total shitshow, but everyone's streams (especially the twrp show) have been the highlight of my week every week.

i've always considered myself a very positive person, but last year was a very bad year for my depression, as well as traumatic at times. and i've always had problems feeling understood. i still do. but twrp said hey! literally nobody understands us. not even ourselves! but that's okay! we want you to be happy and feel loved and supported no matter what. and i really can't thank them enough for it.

this part is mostly for another longer post, but i wanted to mention it since it's also really important. i fully came to terms with being a mlm last year after years of compulsory heterosexuality, and twrp played a big part in me exploring and accepting that about myself. and i was already very secure in my gender identity when i found them, but hearing "this song goes out to all the ladies, fellas, and everyone in between" shook me to my very core. i've never loved a band that literally said "shoutout to trans/nb people" at every concert. god. i love them so fucking much.

so this was even longer than i expected (and i expected it to be long bc yknow. spesh.) but i just have so much love and gratitude for this band. every day of my life i'm so thankful that doctor sung, commander meouch, lord phobos, and havve hogan exist and are spreading all this love and positivity to their fans every day. i've never loved a band like this, and i probably never will. they are truly special.

and it's only been a year!!!!

[moldy-mold]

Diary Post: My Thoughts and Processes on Making “Silent Strength” It’s lengthy, taking place over long period of time. Mainly written for my future-self to remember what I went through, but also for anyone who is curious. Now that the project is over, I can post without reservations. There are certain things I need to keep secret though, so if I’m vague I do so intentionally!

Basically, a lot of number-crunching, physical labor, and psychological labor.

It started off as kind of a joke tweet I made. I had enough content to make a Tales Of art book and people were receptive to it. So… I thought maybe I could go somewhere with this. A few weeks later, I suddenly had a lot of Kratos art. Like. 80% of all my Tales art was Kratos. It didn’t make sense to make a broad Tales Of book when really most of it was Kratos.

I hadn’t made a book since I was in college despite it being one of my favorite things to do. They were never art books, just some editorial design projects that totally didn’t count. This book… would be my first-ever art book.

Several times, I came close to having enough art to print a book - the last time was my large collection of Yusuke Kitagawa, but the quality wasn’t where I wanted.  At that time, I was still experimenting with my iPad Pro and figuring out Procreate, so that was what I used him for.

NGL, I was pretty afraid of looking like a clown. After doing all this work, what if no one actually buys it? I was talking to some friends and they said they would buy it. It was enough for me. In the end, I’m creating something that I love. - The first thing I really wanted to work on was the cover. It needed to be epic but also mysterious (lol)… It was a good time to practice lighting and backgrounds. The cover had to be freaking Fantastic. I spent 3 days drawing nonstop. I was on vacation so I could spend full days just drawing. It was really intense. I would stop in the evenings to go for a run or else my legs would never get circulation again.

The hardest part was keeping it secret. I wanted to share it with the world right away bc I was so proud of it. Well, all I could do was show it to my parents and some close friends. They didn’t know who Kratos is, but it was obvious I was crazy about him.

Initially, I was doing some hand-lettering for the zine title instead of using a typeface. Tbh, I was so sure I was naming this zine “Blame Your Fate!” bc that is such an iconic line. But it just didn’t work with my cover, which looked… a little too serene for that. So… Silent Strength or Divine Strength? I asked around and got my answer.

But what size? All of my art has been on letter canvases. I wanted it to be large so you could see the details in the art. I’ll just start with that. - Luckily, I had all my Kratos-related art in one place. I started my InDesign file and threw everything in there just to see what it looked like. Man, I draw a lot of boxes… But I didn’t want them all next to each other. I also wanted to kinda organize it by the people Kratos hangs out with. There’s a Yuan section LOL… and a Lloyd section… and an Anna section. Idk, I tried to get some kind of order in there with a sprinkling of full spreads here and there to keep it fresh and interesting for the eyes.

I hadn’t worked with InDesign on such an intense level since college. I forgot all of the tips and tricks we learned in class. Spent some time reading on how to do things again… like adding page numbers. - I started drafting my pre-order form. It’s my first time making a google form like this. It’s kind of fun? I spent a long time on it, despite how simple it was. This was going to be my “Store” so it had to look and sound good. - My friend introduced me to charm-making. It seemed easy enough, and I wanted to give my zine more oomph. Besides, I’ve always wanted to make a charm.

I remember someone saying they’d buy a book of just the 4 Seraphim if it existed. I like them too and they lack art imo. In the end, I decided to do a polaroid charm. It’s not really that unique but I wanted Kratos to have actual friends to hang out with for once LOL.

She was going to do a group order to try to reduce the costs. I thought maybe 4 weeks would give me enough time. In the end she said I only have 2. I work well under pressure, so needless to say, I did make that deadline. I actually sketched the whole thing on the plane headed home. - After playing the game the second time, watching the OVA again, and reading “Offerings to a Star,” I have gained a real soft spot for Yuan.  My friend once said, “If you weren’t stolen away by Kratos, you would be in love with Yuan.” Lol. I’ve been in a “Kratos and Yuan hanging out” mood lately, so of course I needed something good for the zine. They’re so cute together! Now… what is the bro-est thing I can draw?

I was currently in Florida for my friend’s wedding. I was friends with the groom and his best man since high school, so that makes it 10 years now. Seeing how they’re still friends after all this time, despite living in opposite sides of the country, was really moving to me. Of course, me being me, I could see Kratos and Yuan’s long friendship being similar to this, if they had gone to school together. I just had to draw it. - When I got back from vacation, I did some research on zine sizes. Mine was HUGE compared to others. I just didn’t quite realize it until I held a magazine in my hands. It really is huge…

I settled for a medium size. 7x9. I really liked how it looked. Petite but not too petite. Unfortunately resizing my book had messed up my artwork placement so I spent hours rearranging all the text and resizing my images. I found out afterwards that there’s a way to retain the format while changing the document size. Gee, that would have been helpful 4 hours ago.

Sadly, choosing a custom size booklet makes printing more expensive. But I wanted it badly enough that I’d be willing to pay for it. Letter size is just too large… - I decided to stop dragging my feet and post a promo. I just really needed a deadline for myself to get this all done before July ended. I’m happy it was well-received. A lot of people like Kratos huh…

Anyway, the pre-order is due in a week and I still don’t know what all the costs are yet. I need a physical proof ASAP to weigh at the post office! - Something possessed me one day to do another drawing. I don’t usually do painterly style (mainly because it’s really difficult and takes 10x longer) but I just REALLY wanted to push myself on this Final Piece to the zine. I wanted it to be… radiant. Almost religious. I worked on it obsessively. From breakfast to sundown. The only time I would stop was at 7pm to go running or else my legs would give out on me.

Call me crazy, but I would save my progress on my phone so I could examine it for errors during my warmup. I also spend an hour examining it for errors before going to bed. It’s a miracle I hadn’t dreamt of the painting. - I sent my files in on Sunday in hopes that they start working on it first thing on Monday…. and it HAPPENED! They finished before I even woke up. I think they start work at like 6am…

Of course, I drove over there as soon as I heard so I can get a look. “Please… please let the colors be okay,” I prayed as I was driving. I barely remember driving there, I was so lost in thought. It would be another long ordeal if I had to fix all the colors.

Thank the stars. The press proof looked BEAUTIFUL!! I was screaming to the client coordinator how much I loved it. I mean, I worried for a looooong time that everything would turn out too dark (it usually does) but it was PERFECT. I was especially worried about the cover, which contained a lot of yellow and I def did not want it to come out mustardy… But it was great in the end!

The press operator is a quiet man. He’s got a scary face and never smiles but I think he’s secretly nice. He has done a lot of favors for me in the past without my asking. He was the one to print, bind, and trim the book for me. Obviously he had to have seen what I was drawing. I wonder what he thought of it…? He walked away before I could express how happy and thankful was. He didn’t need to hear it. It was like he already knew. So cool…

I immediately took it to the post office to weigh it. I needed as much info as I could get and plus, I was dying to know for myself. This is the week I was supposed to open pre-orders and there was still a lot I needed to do. Take pictures, create mockups, pricing, etc.

NGL, all of these costs were building up fast. It was so darn expensive to make a zine while also keeping prices down. But I wanted so much more for my baby. Extra glossy cover, perfect binding!! I knew by the end of this, I probably wouldn’t make much money. It hurt a little, but I tried to think that it was for the greater good. Learning experience and all that. And creating something beautiful. Especially something beautiful of Kratos. - Pricing was really the hardest part. I pretty much threw profit out the window. However, I definitely did not want to be losing money. My dad and I had worked together to create a spreadsheet of expenses to make sure my head was above water. I followed it… loosely.

My friend came to talk to me at the right moment. I was sort of panicking at the prices. She made me realize I was thinking way too hard about it and gave me some tips based on her own experience. It really put my mind at ease talking to someone who understands my woes.

The truth of the matter is, the book is wonderfully made and has a lot of pages - countless hours of drawing. There is only so much I can do about pricing. It is what it is… I just needed to come to terms with my own worth. - Boy, what am I going to do once the zine is done? My friend says that I’ll be so over Kratos that I’ll stop drawing him (but the love remains). It’s like… all of the intense planning, working, struggling nonstop will just suddenly… stop. TBH, I’m running out of ideas. I spent it all on the zine. - Photoshoot today. I had to paint my nails purple for this occasion. Unfortunately, I couldn’t get the look I wanted in the apartment. It’s just so naked without props. I think I’ll take it to a cafe for some nicer backgrounds. I talked it over with my friend and decided to do a quick flip-through of the zine as a promotional video. I used the most professional video program I had on hand… Snapchat. It actually turned out pretty legit and of course I slapped stickers on there because it’s Snapchat.

I had to tape/hide some of the pages for the video because I wasn’t actually done with the drawings. I had the printers print it anyway so I could examine it for color accuracy.

I’m really stressed about pricing now. It turns out I had a lot more international fans than I anticipated. I wish I took notes on interest earlier in the game to cater to them. I had a list of “possible buyers” and I only just now decided to check where they live? Foolish.

I did another cost analysis on paper to figure out what my goal was to make up for the charms. Right now they’ve cost me a fortune for something that was supposed to be giveaway. Other things that rack up are packaging costs, PayPal fees, and some other supplies I needed for this project.

Maybe I shouldn’t have made it 40 pages. It is an impressive number, but no one is really paying for quantity. I think 25 is a better number lol. If I had done that, I could have had my super-gloss cover like I wanted. :’(

There is hope though. And I’ve placed it in the hands of my followers to come through for me. I think I’ll open pre-orders on Saturday or Sunday, depending on what I finish. - “Losing your cool will only lead to poor decisions.” 
Thanks, Kratos twitter bot. You always know what to say.

I read this post today on what makes people buy zines. Very interesting!
 https://twitter.com/andythelemon_/status/1141469048653398019 - Photoshoot part 2 today. My friend and I went to a cafe nearby that had some nice atmosphere in hopes of finding the right shots. I brought all of my Kratos merch just in case. I’m glad I did though, since the tables were pretty sparse and it was difficult to capture the backgrounds without getting a bunch of random people in it too.

I would have been the photographer, but I definitely wanted my hands in the shots. In a way, it was meaningful - to show that this was made by my own two hands. Plus, I wanted to depict natural interaction with the product. It made it feel real.

The photos were cute! I feared it would look a little amateurish with all the merch in there, but I think fun was what I was really going for, not “professional.” And plus the flip-through was a Snap anyway LOL. As long as the photos have good lighting and tasteful composition, you really can’t go wrong with “fun.”

Now that I’ve finished editing my photos, there really isn’t anything holding me back from opening pre-orders. I’ve pretty much come to terms with my pricing. If I fail to break even, I’ll just have to open commissions to try to make up for it. I was telling my friend on the way home, “I gave this zine EVERYTHING I had to give. So at the very least, I won’t be disappointed in myself.” No stone left unturned, no detail left unchecked. It was perfect according to my standards. I really love my zine okay?!

I thought I was crazy for not only choosing a small fandom, I narrowed it down even further by picking ONE GUY to make this zine about. She replied, “Even if it’s small, those people who love him now must be EXTREMELY LOYAL to still be in love with a character from a 15-year-old game. All of them will want your zine.” - I went to bed that night with the intention of making the pre-order post live in the morning. I was so nervous I couldn’t sleep. I was wide awake until at least 5 or 6 am. Luckily, I was able to doze off for a an hour or two before I would shake myself awake again. It was a mixture of anxiety and excitement. It was the moment of truth - to see if all my effort made a difference. Was it going to sell? - The pre-order post looked really freaking good. I’ll give it that. I even made a YT account just to post that darn preview video on tumblr lol. It was definitely fun seeing everyone’s excitement and we all just freaked out together.

I broke even! That’s what really matters. Honestly at this point, I couldn’t care less if I made profit or not. I now know how much people really like the zine and that alone made me so happy I could die.

I was particularly fascinated at Google Form’s ability to transfer all the data collected into a spreadsheet. That is extremely helpful. I spent hours organizing the data. It was really fun…?! Now I can tell who gets invoiced and who paid and separate them into categories. IT’S FANTASTIC!

Stayed up late researching how much adding tracking could be. I had a slight panic attack thinking “what if my books got lost in transit?” It would really hurt me to have to reprint books and ship them again. And then I realized I will need to fill out customs forms for all international orders. Yikes, I’m gonna be living at the post office lol. You can print them out at home if you fill out the form online but there are still some things I’m uncertain about. I may visit the post office later this week to ask all my questions. - This morning I sent out everyone’s invoices. I gave the international people the option to purchase tracking. It’s expensive… but I need to provide that option just in case.

I received a nice message from someone who offered to advertise for me on Instagram. Of course, I gave them the OK! I’m really so shocked they would do that… They said the liked the zine so much it deserved more exposure. My dude… I love you… T_T

I thought about advertising on insta myself earlier in the week. For some reason I felt it was going to be fruitless since I don’t have an art account on there with a following. So, I gave up on the idea. Hey it worked out in the end.

I’ve never been so organized in my entire life. I want this zine experience to be perfect. The people have placed their trust in me, so I cannot mess up. - Edited some pages in the zine. The typography must be perfect… It made me think back to undergrad days in graphic design school. Man, if only I can present this as a project - photos, videos, matching accessories and all. I’d probably get an A lol. - Orders slow down after the first day. The rest is just about getting new people to see the post and giving other people more time to decide.

I finished my Kratos stationery today. It’s going to be so cute. My friend said people would want to buy it but I don’t have it in me to do more products at this time. Plus, I want it to be a surprise.

Why make stationery? Well my real job (no, I don’t draw Kratos all day for a living) is a stationery designer! It would feel really wrong not to put into practice what etiquette I’ve learned in this business. Plus, I felt that it was necessary to properly thank all those who ordered. And it’s fun?

I started designing the shipping labels for the domestic orders since I don’t need to fill out a customs form for those. I wish I had sticker labels but… it’s okay. It will still look good in the end. - Every so often, I would get nervous at the amount of money I’m responsible for. Perhaps, if I had a store with existing products I wouldn’t feel this way, but the fact that the books haven’t been printed yet made me scared. I know, I need this money to even print the books in the first place, but I’m just baffled at my customers’ trust in almost a total stranger. I felt pressured that I could not let them down and lose that trust. It probably didn’t help that I watched a documentary on Elizabeth Holmes (Theranos) that day.

So, I prayed every single day that nothing would go wrong. I’d check my spreadsheet constantly for any mistakes. It was a little obsessive, but I would rather be that than overlook something.

I began collecting cardboard boxes. My plan was to cut them up to protect the books during transit. I would have preferred hard envelopes but they were a bit pricey. If I have to do more work myself, so be it.

I’ve been getting nice DMs from some buyers. I think my invoice due date scared them… I really did not intend to be strict, but I wanted people to pay now if they can rather than forget about it. This happens at work all the time, so the best thing to do is have it due immediately. It would not look good to have to wait on stragglers when I close pre-orders, so I’ll probably reach out when there is one week left. - My Kratos stationery arrived! Aww it is SO CUTE!!! My babies… I have a lot of notes to write so I got started right away. It’s going to be a lot of work trying to come up with creative ways to say “thank you,” but I don’t mind. I said I was going to put my all into the zine experience so I will.

At long last, the charm order has been put in motion. My friend said it could take a while… I hope it won’t be longer than 3 weeks. I really do not want to keep everyone waiting. I may ship out the ones who did not win a charm first. I mean, there is no reason to make those guys wait. I should ask the charm winners if they still want to wait and see if anyone wants to give it up for someone else who is more patient. Hm. - I finally stopped by the post office today to collect customs forms. I have my work cut out for me since I’m filling all of them in by hand. D:

I’m not used to international addresses so I think I’ll ask for help in checking them for spelling errors and typos. Heaven forbid I mess up on the very last part of the zine experience.

In my nervousness, I decided to reach out about invoices early on. If someone wanted to cancel, I would rather find out sooner rather than later. Everyone was really nice about paying and thank goodness they’re still excited.

Feeling kind of overwhelmed by all the things I need to do, but it’s a good thing. If I don’t know what to do, I can either: cut cardboard, write letters, type shipping labels, draw more Kratos for a… possible volume 2? Someone I talked to today already said they’ll pre-order a second book if I make one. Omg I think I’ll die. But we’ll see. It’s just a joke right now haha… - Preorders end today. I had another nightmare last night that the books could not be printed properly and there was nothing I could do. Why do I keep getting nightmares about the zine! I had one a few days before about people canceling their orders when I asked them about the invoices. I’ll take these dreams with a grain of salt. I’m probably just stressed/worried but everything is going to be okay. When I open my eyes, nothing is on fire.

I received my final proof a few days ago. With all of the artwork completed and changes applied. The book looks good, no doubt about it. There was only one thing I was nit-picky about but it can be fixed. The press operator offered to print another book for me to inspect. I’ll go see it on Monday and then submit the rest of the orders. I also asked to to have a meeting with the press operator so we are on the same page. It would be beneficial to have an understanding of how my book is made so that I may be more helpful to him.

I spent the day preparing shipping labels. I hate to admit, I am not too familiar with the format international addresses so I had an address validator open as I was typing them in. For the most part, everyone was helpful in already formatting their addresses in the preorder form! - My parents called me the day after preorders were closed. They wanted to say congratulations on my success. No one thought it would do this well. I couldn’t be offended by that since I was also guilty of it. I’m happy though. It feels like my love spread across the world and was contagious.

I tried to think of what advice I would give to others. Obviously, genuine love for the subject and hard work were a necessity. But it would be good to consider value. If I were selling it at this price, I had to make sure my pieces and presentation looked the part. I ask myself, if someone else sold it, would I buy it?

I sent out messages to all the charm winners in the morning. I wanted to apologize profusely at the ridiculous amount of time it has taken to get them made. But no, I’ve got to stop apologizing. I stated the facts and left it at that. Everyone was really kind and patient⁠—to which I was thankful for. I don’t usually get that when I’m working customer service. - All the books were done printing in one day. Wow! I went to pick it up immediately of course. I can’t believe all of this is coming to an end. I finished preparing the mailers. All that was left was to stuff and seal the domestic orders. They were the easiest to do so I’m going to ship those first. The rest will need customs forms, which I haven’t filled out just yet. It’s going to be a while for those…

The mailers were quite sturdy with the cardboard cutouts I slipped in them. I have nothing to worry about. I’m sure my babies will be okay! - I took a whole box of domestic orders to the post office today. Wasn’t sure what to expect. But my clerk had to input every single address one at a time while I checked for errors. Omg, why are the post office shipping labels SO HUGE. I thought it was going to be half the size. And they’re ruining my designer labels! Slight panic but oh well…

I had a long long line behind me. I’m so sorry, people. Luckily there were two clerks or I would be really sweating. Despite my intimidating box of zines, the clerk and I had Synergy and we managed to ship all of these in about 15 minutes. I received a very long receipt and quite the bill lol. - Shipped the international orders today. I was kind of a mess since I had no idea what to do. I keep wondering if I can help speed up the process in any way but I don’t think I have the option to ship first-class at home.

When shipping international, keep the post office copy of the customs forms together with the package since they use that to type the address info into the system. Also, we get free tracking, which I did not know about. The other clerk told me that we did not get tracking for international first-class but I guess he was misinformed. It’s good to know for next time. - The charms finally arrived!! And THEY’RE HOLOGRAPHIC?! It was pretty awesome, but it makes picture-taking kind of difficult!! Anyway, I was a tiny bit disgruntled that they got my order incorrect, and I even asked for a reprint. But they said no, so I left it at that. Besides, it seems the holographic effect was well-received.

I like this size that I made. It’s really cute! Larger than your normal charm but not too huge. It’s almost like an Instax photo! - There was one customer who I found lives near me! I asked her if she wanted me to hand-deliver it to her in a public setting and she agreed (to my amazement). We finally met a few days ago and talked for hours and hours lol! I’m glad to have finally made a new friend here in this town but of course she’s moving away in two weeks. <:’3

We’re going to meet again to make the most of her time left. - I shipped the rest of the orders on the following Monday. I HAD to get these out. The poor guys have been waiting over a month! I think I picked a bad time to go because I had a huge line behind me and only one guy working. People in line were getting antsy or mad. The clerk at the other post office was super fast but not this guy…

For some reason shipping to the UK and Japan nearly doubled in price since the last time I checked. RIP. T_T - Omg I finally made a mistake. I wrote a letter to the wrong person. And the contents of that letter are too personalized!!! I am dying of embarrassment!!!!! Screams!! Had to apologize to both customers too!!! Luckily they were good sports about it but I’m seriously kicking myself AAAAAAAA!!!! - The most rewarding part after sending all my babies away is seeing the commentary on my project. It is so so nice to receive positive feedback. People are happy! Happy with something I created out of thin air. Everything was worth it 1000 times over. I can die happy!

I’m especially thankful to those who show understanding for how much effort went into it. It definitely wasn’t easy and I poured way too many hours into it… not that I regret that.

I don’t want to jump the gun but I would really love to make a volume 2. Because I know I can do better than last time. New and improved art and comics! But we’ll see if I make enough pieces for another book. I was against printing 40 pages before but now I kind of like it. It feels more worth it than a 25-page zine. If i’m going though so much effort, might as well bring in the entire package.

I’ll be printing more of this volume for Aselia Con 2020. Now I know people will appreciate it.

[ntecampbell]

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asa butterfield + cis male + he/him.┊ ❛ ━ hey, is it just me or do you hear seven days by alessia cara playing in the distance ? oh, that’s just captain awesome aka captain underwear, a neutral good member of the league of heroes. i suspect they might be nathaniel campbell, a twenty three year old intern at crystalline times with the ability of density control. according to my sources, he can be warm-hearted, but also too idealistic which is probably why they remind everyone of an unwavering smile as soon as the sun is up, newspapers cut out of a bright past attached to the wall, talking nonstop as though silence might be harmful so much. anyway, a superhero or not, crystalline city is keeping a close eye on them ! 

                           ( tw: hospital, violence, murder )

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loving is easy by rex orange county

seven days by alessia cara

humility by gorillaz ft. george benson

say anything by girl in red

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okay listen this is important to me, he’s named himself captain awesome bc he is a lil baby angel dumbass, but his costume is highkey a superman rip off with the underwear in front of the pants and all, so people might or might not make fun of him by calling him captain underwear

picture star-lord asking people to call him that in gotg vol. 1 sldfjasl like ‘my name is... // dramatic pause // captain awesome’ ‘who?’ ‘you know ?? captain awesome?? legendary hero’ ‘idk, man’

he doesn’t... stop talking....

been rich all his life. bad with money. buys things when he is sad

makes playlists for people/dates/situations. his spotify acc has like 55 new playlist in the last month 

knows bands you have never heard of

don’t be mean to him he Will cry

sucks at chess and it makes him very frustrated bc smart people are supposed to know how to play chess and he gets straight a’s, he was in advanced courses for bright children most of his life, but he can’t !! play !! chess !! will literally lose after three moves and he’ll be sitting there just confused.jpeg 

trying his best to learn how to use his powers. failing most days

can play the piano exceptionally well

everything is about him somehow. there is a fire across the city and it’s either his fault or his moment to be the hero. he can’t turn off the part in his brain that goes ‘this is nate’s time’

understands people go through different hardships but has a hard time seeing things from any other point of view

he is either right or right, those are the two only options

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personality type: enfp ( the campaigner )

moral alignment: neutral good ( the benefactor )

strengths: warm-hearted, intelligent, enthusiastic, creative, optimistic, generous, caring

weaknesses: too idealistic, gullible, over-sensitive, self-martyr, self-critical, self-absorbed, unempathetic 

fashion: sweaters over bottom-up shirts ties, overly expensive polo shirts, khaki pants, boat shoes.

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nate was born in 1996 to charlotte & chrsitopher lidell.

there is very little about his childhood that he remembers. a few all-too-wide smiles here and there, a consistent memory of being put to sleep with stories of an amazing non-existent older sister, breakfast midway through sunday mornings with the promise of never-ending games and fun

when he was six years old his parents were murdered. a few short months after, nate was adopted by a couple who had been wanting to have kids for a long while. 

although the campbells were a lot older than his biological parents. ( both already reaching their sixties by that time ), they had all the love ( and money ) in the world to give nate

no one thing was ever enough to give to their one and only son. 

they put him in the best schools and private courses there were around the city, made sure to give nate everything he wanted, whenever he wanted. 

it took a few years for him to catch up to the things that happened in his life, but slowly, nate started to understand. his biological parents' death, his adoption, the life his parents allowed him to have

he was always incredibly grateful for the privileges he’d been given ( all too aware more people in the world didn’t get to live like him ) and he always tried his best to give back to his parents whenever he could, in whatever way he could. — straight a’s. exceptional performance at every language and music course, perfect behavior. — that was of course only the least he could and it didn’t feel like enough. so he tried more. community service. more. extracurricular activities. more. whatever there was to show his parents that he was thankful for what they were had given him, that he was making the most of it.

nate found out about the life of his biological parents by accident, midway through a highschool project, and once he started to learn about them. it felt impossible to stop. 

he had notebooks full of all the information there was out there about them. — they were trying to make the city a better place, make the world around them easier to live in, just like the heroes nate had always admired. even though they didn’t have powers. 

then, nothing, no one thing he did could feel like enough. 

he couldn’t stop thinking about the good his adopted parents had allowed him, the amazing things his biological parents had done to the world. he couldn’t shake away the thought that all of that combined had to mean something for him, for what he was supposed to do to the world.

nate found out about his own powers by accident, in a fit of frustration, with the need to making the walls aorund him disappear so he could run somewhere else and then the sudden weightlessness of, one smal tug making the wall fall back to the ground. 

after that it was clear what he needed to do.

with a makeshift costume and no training at all, nate ventured out into the streets trying to save the citizens from the horrible deeds of the villain that roomed it. 

the first time, he had no success. ended up pretty beaten up, stuck to a hospital bed for a few too many days, with his mom desperately screaming at him for an explanation and getting none.

the second try was a few months later, after his wounds had healed, after he could try again, but it ended the same way. and again with the forth, fifth, eight time. he didn’t know what he was doing, but he couldn’t stop. he had to help, he had to do something. 

until silver knight came into his life and ( after fainting and then nerding out for a really long time ) recrutied him to the league.

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some villain that gets under his skin by calling him captain underwear and making him crying while he is trying to fight lol

hero friends ??

ordinary friends ?? 

idk bro. let’s brainstorm

𝐚𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬 ;; an unwavering smile as soon as the sun is up, newspapers cut out of a bright past attached to the wall, five different versions of the same costume, laughter coming from the other room, mansions so big and empty it echoes, the strange tug of loneliness in the middle of a crowd, talking nonstop as though silence might be harmful

[loving-ts-13]

hi hi hi !! ive mentioned it a few times on here over the past few days but i’ve been at a church camp that literally everyone from my school district does and we do like a session in the morning and then do a rlly rlly fun activity everyday. so today it ended at 4 and im back, it’s been a long day! took a nap on the way home from our activity (it was bowling today!) and i slept like a baby. im so glad the day is over tho, there’s so much friend drama between so many people and it’s all so weird. right now im in such a weird mood and i feel like crying but idek why ? there’s so many things that im thinking about rn that are making me frustrated and upset but im also supposed to get my period so i could just be having a mood swing. ill get over it tho. it’ll all be good ! i feel bad bc ive been nonstop busy since nash ss im going to catch up on all of that and be online tonight :)