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*starts doing heroin to get off kratom*
#its jokes#but I feel like it cld actually work#im rlly good at getting off ov drugs but kratom is a dissociative and therefore Weird#was way way easier 2 stop doing everything else (meth valium/xanax nd phenibut) than kratom#bcuz it kinda fucks w u in a particular way
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#rick and morty#the morty one is a joke but also might end up being an actual copium take#also uou alresdy know mine. bitchhhh#im tryyyyyying my best to keep my expectations lol. failing#ooooooh s7 finale give us Anything#ummm my opinion on these.#i actually kidna dont want prime back. i think it wld detract from ricks arc unless they did it some special way#BIRDRICKKKKK. i dont thinkit will happen 💔💔💔 but if it cld at least get mentioned in passing i cld die happy for now#also not a huge believer of swap theory… ive seen like one or two moments where it works well but idk#i dont quite understand what the point of that wld be …..? but who knows maybe#diane… i wlddd like to see her but only in a flashback or smth. and give her some personality#i think theres been enough reminders of her recently …. like her ghost u know. lets get smth Real#altho a possibilty to undo the omega device wld be interesting. but unrealistic i feel#um. yeah. i actually just really want morty to get to Do smth this season#like u know i love rick lore. but we are in DESPERATE need of a morty arc#rnm spoilers
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u ever seriously wonder if ur gonna make it thru the year
#im#not even sad abt it.#just thinking.#i saw my aunt today and she bought me alc like every time i see a family member. lolololol i am mentally and physically ill i absolutely#failed at resisting temptation#mainly bc im a WRECK due to my period#i did not break the cycle of addiction that runs HEAVILY on both sides of my family 💀💀💀#maybe one day but that isnt today.#i actually havent drank in like a month whixh is awesome for me given. The Tendicies.#anyone else also feel like theyve taken a stimulant on alc????#like i have so much energy and joy but without the horrific heart racing symptoms#it’s bc it works on gaba receptors that seems to be what im lacking#bc neurontin (gabapentin) was the psych med that worked WONDERS for me and i’ve been on 10+ other meds that haven’t done SHIT#my doc wld not prescibe me last time i went despite being prescribed before and ir working wonderfully#she just upped my paxil which didnt do jack fucking shit#then i lost insurance so i havent been able to follow up w her But im working on that#it just sucks so much that the only time i feel relatively happy is on drugs#then i think well. at least im no longer in my benedryl phase like when i was younger💀#and im like wow it rly cld be worse. i guess.#tendencies*#oh jesus i am NOT proofreading this. sorry
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I've been listening to exile and the last time (tv) back to back all day. why am I doing this to myself?
#that being said the last time would be great for ikepri angst#we've already talked abt exile#but emma and the suitor feeling like they arent a priority or even close to one#and dealing with it bc 'its ok to be busy' but it comes down to 'idt you actually still love me or even care for me anymore'#gilbert and emma wld definitely have major political components#silvio/sariel/chev only working and ignoring emma even when they have time or cld make it#it wld work for a lot of the princes actually lol#i think gilbert wld be the more interesting version#text#taylor swift#ikemen prince#ikepri#ikesen too#mostly nobunaga and kind of yoshimoto if they fell back into old habits#ikemen sengoku#ikepri gilbert#gilbert von obsidian#ikepri chevalier#ikepri sariel#ikepri silvio#ikesen nobunaga#ikesen yoshimoto#cybird#the last time taylor's version#exile
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i'm so tired. i'm tired beyond tired. i can't even sleep i'm too tired to sleep
#what winter does to a mfer#literally today i made meals and worked out and cleaned and did dnd prep and played video games and embroidered and read#but actually i feel like i did nothing esp cause i was mildy exhausted the whole time i did all those other things#woke up at 7am today even though it's a weekend and cld only languish in bed for like 45 minutes until my cat forced me out#saturday is my doin' stuff day so i did stuff but also i did it tired. it was rainy today
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sometimes im like well i shldnt blame thme we juswherent working together anymore and thats not their fault but then i remember 1. how very obvious i made it again and again tht if theres issues they can talk to me abt it and ill wanna fix them and if anything wasnt working for them or i was putting too much pressure on them and they easily could have in time to fix shit and 2. they told me stuff like ill always be here for you and love you which fine tht hurts but it happens making promises like tht at one point in a relationship then that changing later but also they said literally in like. fucking late july tht "youre my best friend and i dont want you to ever doubt tht" smth that meant a lot to me and made me feel so happy to hear when there was like literally no pressure on them like i said id be patient with them calling me there best friend however long it took and i meant it never put any pressure on them and then early september like three months later they took it back and also took back our whole fucking friendship. so yk yes it had issues but also yk what. im sure im responsible for some of them but so r they im also so so sure i tried more with it and would have tried more to fix it in their shoes. so fuck them a little bit .
#and actually i did often talk abt my issues and things with the relationship while making sure not to blame them#and make it clear its just my issues i wanna communicate with them nd im not blaming them (theres like one time i rly blamed them#but thts smth we move past afterwards and they fucking said they forgived me for like the million times i apologized after#so they shldve been honest then if it was still an issue)#so they easily cldve had done the same. and its THEIR FAULT they didnt early enough. and its THEIR FAULT they told me smth#no one was making them say just to take it back a few months later. and its their fucking fault im hurting like this#when they easily cldve done this in a better way. and i still love them but yk what im so godamm mad at them too.#they owe me a good godamm apology. or an explanation of what terrible thing i somehow did tht hurting me like this wld be justified#bc its one thing it they thought the friendship shld be over but there r sm things they cld have done better#like actually communicating propery with me when they ended it. or communicating properly before it#so we could work thru the issues early enough to not loose the good part of it.#whatever man. it sucks i feel like theyre just so fine rn bc they where being selfish. it is bc they wehre being selfish#they did this in a way tht was easier for them but so so painfull for me instead of one tht required a little more effort from them#but easier for me to work thru which is the definition of being selfish. they didnt even think they owed me a little selflessness#if they where gonna drop me like that#i have too many memories of their kidness to say they *are* selfish but they def acted it towards the end#whatever man#flappy rambles#vent#kinda idk
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my skill is making nonsense out of nothing fr 👍
#🌙.rambles#reading some old rambles from years back is quite endearing actually#n i. rlly would love to tell me younger self how i love how she thought through those stuff abt my wol well#i wonder though what's the extent of which i cld write or imagine smth i've never experienced before#n likely at times perhaps i force it in a way in my head while knowing it is entirely like. yk fiction just so i can 'feel' it for the sake#of yeah just. expanding my knowledge n understanding of stuff#i think i definitely did that before in late 2021 w that one old ffxiv friend#i mean ofc there's some pain that comes w it but it's all for the sake of learning 🥺#actually i'm not talking abt anything rn i just want to ramble to myself abt random bs before i sleep#tbf i did have nice ideas when i'd use random stuff or create fragmented realities or idk what it is in my head#but i cld always yk differentiate what's actually real or not#being sleep-deprived sucks though i do not think right#i shld sleep. i'm gna get less than 3 hours of sleep like this 😭😭#just have to work on the speech tmrrw n do quite a lot of research bcs of the topic i chose sob#maybe i cld've done something easier n i cld always change it but No i find this interesting n i will pull through#mostly just that n i cld play some ffxiv n fix the fc server c: n farm more gbf bcs i did not play much today#I GOT EUSTACE SUMMER THOUGH !!!! this anniv i have barely gotten anything new but 🥺 eustace is cool. n i got lucifer hehe from 100 <3#as long as i don't lose sight of my passions n like. yeah the love i have for sm things in my life n then hope n always striving to improve#yk i'll continue to thrive. succeed 🫶🏼🫶🏼#i'm not sleepy rn i feel motivated but no i shld rlly goddamn sleep#i came across some notes too of how i wrote my wol like exactly two years ago n.. funny how it still hits now :^)#but yk reading that reminded me of how much time has passed but like. more in a 'ive managed to accomplish so much more since then' way#i'm proud of myself. & i'll continue to do what i can so i can continue to be proud of who i am at heart#n like fuck social anxiety but i'll find a way to yk get through it all anyways. ofc. yeah#i will fix my account next week for sure.
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hey!! popping in to say stay the morning was just 🧎♀️perfect. cld i request for some boyfriend ceo cheol hcs? <3 cant get enough of that trope omg.
LOVE UR WORK SM BAE
heya! thank you so much for the nice words! and sure i can, it would be my pleasure🫶
CEO! Seungcheol Boyfriend Headcanons:
• (sfw headcanons)
met you at some fancy dinner that you were accompanying your friend to, literally saw you across the room and couldn’t look away, literally stopped listening to whoever it was that he was talking to, said a brief “excuse me” before he immediately approached you to ask you for your name, the rest is history❤️
boyfriend or a sugar daddy? well- both actually. he literally gets mad if you even dare to think about paying for something with your own money, his black card has its first and foremost place in your wallet so you better be using it
although he indulges in buying you expensive and extravagant presents, cheol is actually all about small actions of affection. randomly ordering you food while you are at work, sending you flowers, tying your shoes when they come undone, holding your hand while you walk down the stairs in heels to make sure you don’t fall-he does it all and does it without even having to think twice about it, that’s how much he loves and adores you
has his kitchen filled to the brim with all the sweets and treats that you absolutely love, you definitely will put on a bit of a healthy relationship weight when you start dating him
never lets you drive to his place, always either picks you up himself or has his driver pick you up, not because he thinks you can’t but because he’d rather not risk it and just because he thinks it isn’t necessary, his princess shouldn’t be doing anything except look pretty and give him tons of kisses❤️
definitely books and pays for all the activities you have always wanted to try like your dream concerts, sky diving (if you are into dying like that lol💀) etc- just anything to make his girl happy
didn’t even ask you to move in officially, he just hung an extra key to your keychains, started insisting that you stay the night (every night actually) and eventually…your place was empty and his place was filled with your things and that made him so so happy❤️
behind the cold and moody persona he puts up as a cover is the clingiest, babiest boyfie seungcheolie ever :(( will text you all the time, asking when you will be back so you can cuddle him, “its been so long since you cuddled him last :(“ (its been 3 hours���.)
is absolutely miserable when he has to go away for some business trips, literally counts the days until he comes back home to you❤️
• (nsfw! headcanons)
definitely provider both in and outside the bedroom, he will always put your pleasure first, refuses for his bedroom life to be just something quick and simple, will always spend hours just making love to you until he knows that you are 100% satisfied
LOVES spending his money on lingerie and expensive jewellery for you to wear in bed, he thinks there’s nothing hotter than you clad in red lacy lingerie and with rubies hanging from your ears and neck, he finds it so hot that HE was the one to buy all of that and finds it even hotter that HE is the only one who has the privilege to take it all off (read: rip it all off)
possessive as fuck, is always asking you “who is my good girl?, on nights where he is jealous and feeling pissed might even let the words “who do you belong to?” slip out, but like not in a misogynistic and egotistical way, but more so in a “i can’t live without you in my life so i need you to remind me that you will want to be with me forever :(“ way
doesn’t want to risk it with shower sex because you almost slipped and fell one time and gave him a mini heart attack, bathtub sex however? lets just say he always has to clean up the water that has splashed outside the bathtub while you rode him to the point he saw heaven
not really into bondage but loves to restrict your movement with his hands alone, gets him off knowing he’s strong enough to manhandle you in ways he desires
loves your ass more than anything else in the world, his favourite position is 100% doggy or fucking you in front of a mirror with your back turned towards him so he can see both your face and your ass
big on leaving hickeys all over your body, he just wants to mark what is his so everyone can know to back. the fuck. off. of his girl (loves it when you do it to him too, he just wants the whole world to know that you two are each other’s person, even if it’s because of the hickeys littered all over his collarbones
low-key into voyeurism, likes the danger of being discovered (and getting into a scandal apparently smh bro doesn’t care about his public image he’s just thinking with his dick)
i said it once and i will say it again- my man has a praise kink and that’s the end of it, he just loves reassuring you and praising you how good you are doing and how good of a girl you are being for him, would never call you the b-word, you are his princess, his baby, not…that word :(( (well unless you insist to-)
thats all i got for now😭 hope that you like it! love you mwah💋
#seventeen#svt#svt x reader#fypシ#tumblr fyp#fypage#scoups#choi seungcheol#scoups x reader#svt smut#smut
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doll | l.n
summary: ‘i’m not even joking when i say i’ve fallen in love w the way you write lando you have me giggling every single time and i love it - i’m not sure if your requests are open rn, but cld i request a lando x reader enemies to lovers kinda vibe? honestly whatever you wanna go with is fine but i need need tooth rotting fluff rn so maybe he has a nickname for her that only he uses and there’s a lot of oblivious-ness from both of them over the fact that they like each other :’‘)’ - @mars-dreamworld
warnings: fluff, language, enemies to lovers, female!racer, just overall a whirlwind of emotions. strap in.
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lando norris was absolutely, most definitely, 100% the most insufferable person you had ever met.
in the beginning of the year, mclaren had announced that you’d be joining the team as a third driver, and of course people men took it to social media to express how they felt women didn’t belong in the sport. that racing was a ‘real man’s’ sport.
and now you needed to prove them all wrong, prove you were worth your spot on the team. you know you didn’t have to, that it wouldn’t necessarily change people’s minds, but you worked hard to be here. countless sleepless nights, crashes, tunings, everything, was worth this moment.
and now it was your chance. oscar had ended up with an injury after a crash in one of the practice races over the weekend, ultimately giving you his spot until he was recovered.
you and lando hadn’t really gotten along. you had found yourself battling with him on the track, the two of you going head to head in the garage after practices. you had thought his ego and his sarcasm was unattractive, whereas he simply just saw you as a threat.
but, deep down, he had a soft spot for you that he kept buried under the fake hatred. he didn’t actually hate you, who could? he admired your hard work and dedication, but be couldn’t help but feel like you were trying to take his spot.
“what the fuck, norris?!” you yelled, throwing your helmet to the ground as you stormed over to him. he wore a smug look on his face that you would’ve found attractive if it weren’t for the fact that he felt the need to cut you off in turn 5.
“what?”
“are you thinking with your brain or your dick?!” you shoved his chest, but he didn’t move a muscle. he didn’t even budge, just looked down at you with those stupidly gorgeous green eyes.
“you’d know if i was thinking with my dick, doll.”
“don’t call me that.” you gave him a hard look and he put his hands up in fake surrender, shaking them like he was scared.
and that’s where it all started, that stupid fucking nickname. every time he said it, it made your blood boil, made you want to connect your knee with his crotch. now that he knew how to press your buttons, he wasn’t ever going to let you live.
right now, your face was red as your blood boiled, sitting in the drivers room as your leg bounced. the two of you had it out again today, the crew immediately separating the two of you and telling you both to knock it off.
the embarrassment from your crew telling you to quit acting like a child replayed in your head the rest of the day and as you sat in drivers room, and slowly your anger turned into sadness. you sucked in a shaky breath, trying to keep your composure, but you failed. the tear rolled down your cheek and you sniffled to yourself.
but of course, the door opened at the wrong time, causing you to wipe your cheeks quickly before looking at who decided to barge in. your eyes met lando’s green ones, which immediately softened upon looking at you.
“can i help you with something?”
he licked his lips, his brain going a mile a minute. why were you crying? was it because of him? fuck.
“i uhm,” he stammered over his words, letting out a breath before speaking, “are you crying?”
you shook your head, wiping your cheek on the shoulder of your race suit, “no.”
he knew better, though. the door closed behind him as he sat across from you, “you don’t have to lie, y/n.”
the way your name sounded rolling off his tongue with that stupid accent made your stomach do flips, but you refused to give in. this is what he wanted, right? pull you close enough to destroy you and prove to everyone that you’re actually not good enough to be here.
“why do you care?” you asked, an eyebrow raising, “it’s not like you actually give a fuck, so can you go somewhere else with your fake sympathy?”
he immediately got defensive, “what makes you think i don’t care about you? would i have run over to you the other day at practice when you crashed if i didn’t care about you?”
you thought back to last week, your car going into the barrier on the track. lando had seen the crash, immediately following the crew onto the track and ignoring the drop in his stomach. you had climbed out, shaken up but okay when he reached you. he grabbed onto your shoulders after you tugged your mask and helmet off, your eyes distant as he searched them.
“y/n?” his voice was laced with concern, “y/n, are you okay?”
you snapped out of it, meeting his eyes before you looked down at your body, “i think so…?”
he grabbed your face into his hands gently, turning your face side to side as he tried to examine you. the medics pulled up, rushing over to you.
“it’s okay, we’ve got it from here.” the female said to lando. he hesitated before he let go, letting them lead you over to the back of the ambulance to check you over. you looked back at him, the feeling of his hands on your cheeks lingering as they ushered you in.
you looked back at the brit, shrugging, “i dunno.”
he chuckled, but it wasn’t laced with humor, more like disappointment, “okay,”
“why would i think that when you’re always trying to prove that you’re better than me?”
he didn’t say anything, looking down at the tile floor, “because i’m threatened by you.”
you scoffed, “tell me something i don’t know.”
“no, you don’t get it,” he said, sitting up again, “i’m threatened by you because you’re good. you’re insanely good. you race well, you train hard, everyone here loves you, the fans. you’re an inspiration. something i’ve always wanted to be for someone.”
your attitude shifted, looking over at the boy across from you. he wore a sad, regretful face as he played with the zipper on his suit.
“you’re an inspiration, lando,” you said, “the little boy who dressed up like you the other day? the one who said he wanted to be just like you?”
he shrugged, “one boy compared to thousands of little girls who see themselves in you. i know i shouldn’t be upset, you’re literally changing history, but seeing it makes me wish i was someone like you.”
“you’re right, you’re not like me,” you said, moving to sit next to him, “you’re lando norris, the one who got P2 in your home grand prix a few weeks ago, the one who goes out of their way to say hi to literally all the fans and take pictures with them. you’re literally someone’s ray of sunshine.”
he smiled softly, letting you continue, “be like you. don’t be like me, lan.”
his head snapped up at the nickname, “did you just call me ‘lan’?”
a smile spread across his face and you let out a soft laugh, “i guess i did.”
he smiled back, “thank you, though. i needed that. and, i’m sorry for how i’ve been towards you.”
you waved him off, the smile still playing at your lips. you tried to bite it back with your lower lip tucked between your teeth. he swore his heart skipped a beat at the sight. you nodded your head softly, “we’re cool. just pipe down the ego a bit, yeah?”
he let out a chuckle. being this close to him made you realize there was a hint of blue in his green eyes, the short stubble growing back from where he had shaved his facial hair. he was undeniably pretty and you were getting wrapped up in him and distracted. he was doing the same, his eyes scanning over every single one of your facial features as he tried his hardest to memorize them.
you smiled softly, “why’re you looking at me like that?”
he smirked, “you mean the same way you’re looking at me?”
you blushed, turning away from him but his eyes were still locked onto you. you went to stand up, smiling softly at him as it was nearing the beginning of the next race.
“i’ll see you out there.”
he smiled, “see you out there, doll.”
you shook your head, letting out a soft laugh as you let the door close behind you, the nickname no longer making your blood boil but suddenly making your stomach do flips.
lando norris was going to be the death of you.
#lando norris#lando norris x reader#lando norris fic#lando norris request#lando norris blurb#lando norris x reader fluff#fluff#blurb#formula 1#formula 1 imagine#formula 1 blurb#mclaren#mclaren imagine#imagine#lando norris x female reader#lando norris x fem!racer#enemies to lovers#lando norris enemies to lovers
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I've been doing T by injection for 4 years now !! you might already know, but injecting into the stomach/other fat/subcutaneous spot is actually so painless sometimes I can't feel my injections at all besides the small pinch of the needle going through my skin. blood draws hurt waaayy more than my weekly injections ^_^ I also do my boyfriend's injections for him, and he has maybe only 10% body fat and his are painless too, if you're someone who doesn't have much stomach fat. if that helps you feel better at all !!
thank u ^_^ idk that i cld ever do it myself and idk who i'd get to do it for me....but also in general i hope t gel works because I like the more even day to day distribution if that makes sense....it taking a little longer to get going is also smthng i enjoy....I just hope im able to access that option and that it works for me honestly....
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omgg i started following you because i loved your motogp posts and i did not expect to get emotionally attacked about my tennis fave like this. you've lit expressed everything ive felt abt tennis lately like daniil's return game has developed so well these last few years if only his shoulders were still functional he wld be soo unstoppable (i remember like last 2 year-ish when his serve suddenly went to shit and i was like wtf is going on?? but then it turned out his shoulders don' work anymore😭😭😭) ngl i did not expect him to make it to the ao finals this yr at all but then he did and i started getting hope again and then well uk what happened next... (i actually went to bed when he was up 2 sets because i alrdy had premonitions for what was abt to happen and i didnt need that experience twice 😭) anyways i finally quit watching the men's tour reguarly middle of this yr-ish because mostly because my biggest opp started winning big tournanments/slams consistently and i cld not take it anymore (part of why i got into motogp ig, i needed a new thing to fill in the hole)
also ur thing being having to be the chosen one in men's tennis is soo true but i wld argue it cld even be broadened down to being in the chosen generation... every 90s born player doomed to be seen as the weak links of the sport, both forever destined to be surpassed by those who came before and those who came after...
anyways mostly i also just wanted to thank you for writing all your super information motogp posts!! not only is ur writing style super informative/consistent, all the topics u've written abt feel super unique like i doubt i wld ever randomly stumble elsewhere. i'm not that good w/ words so idk how to fully express my appreciation, but your posts are the main reason i started delving into more past motogp races and interviews instead of just sticking to current ones which has 1000% made my experience of becoming a motogp fan more enjoyable!
🥺🥺 such a nice ask from a fellow sufferer... I actually tried to sleep in for the ao final and managed for like. maybe a set. it's so funny to have a whole fanbase quite literally begging their player not to go up two sets to love, zero hindsight needed I was HORRIFIED by that second set going his way... especially since I noticed the balance of play in the actual games had changed and meddy wasn't winning any return points anymore, just relying on an earlier break to seal that set iirc. and then I started going for increasingly desperate tactics to distract myself when the inevitable happened in the next three sets (including rewatching marc marquez: all in, it was rough man, like I get what you're saying about getting into motogp to escape because generally I too have fled to this sport whenever tennis has most been pissing me off)
and obviously that final was very trauma flashbacks to my definitive sports trauma, a match I'm STILL not over and at this rate have accepted I'll be miserable about until the day I die. but this time I couldn't even BLAME him because it was an insane effort to even get to the final, he'd done such a fantastic job given his tennis really wasn't there at the start of the tournament, he just kept figuring out ways to win... the hurkacz match where he basically ran out of fuel in the fourth, that crazy semifinal where he just refused to know when he was beaten, and then taking two sets off sinner in that final!! the resilience and the grit but also the tactical acumen, like my god when he blindsided hurkacz by radically altering his return position RIGHT AFTER doing that post-match back-and-forth with courier where he explained in detail why he favoured his regular return position. the cleverness and the bravery he showed in clutch points in that semi, something that zverev is completely incapable of (monte carlo 2023 still lives rent free lol), like the psychology of that match slapped. how he took it so sinner, completely caught him off guard by mixing up his game, and it was WORKING. really managed to change the dynamic of that match up... he lost that match first and foremost in his legs. just so cruel after everything. we had the guy who easily disposed of an admittedly rubbish djokovic in the semis on the ropes. and it still. was. not. fucking. enough. one of the best slam final runs in recent memory and it still wasn't enough!! he's already far outperformed what he SHOULD have been capable of in his career and somehow he keeps developing a game style which should have plateaued ages ago and I have so much respect for the work him and gilles have done post-2022... and he really should have more to show for it
anyway yeah I remember the serve decline in 2022, back when I was really in the weeds with analysing meddy's game. and that was also the year it felt like his legs completely deserted him. his deciding set record that year was horrific after ao, very rarely even got it that far win or lose and when he did so almost always lost (karatsev was cramping, let's not talk about the other third set win)
scorelines from the tour finals genuine miracle i did not throw myself into the sea
only one four set match post-ao and he also lost that, incidentally. and obviously that was partly because his brain was fucked, BUT I also wondered whether it was the aftereffects of the hernia operation that year affecting both the physicality and the serve. and I can't remember if he confirmed that anywhere but the theory's certainly cottoned on to help explain the serve decline, even if his endurance obviously has massively improved again. and then add in the shoulder... it's so brutal because it used to be such a key pillar to his game, like the whole magic was tied together by being able to whizz through his own service games while making his opponent's return games hellish
and like,, the thing I really admire about him is that there was a period in 2022 where it did feel like he'd been 'figured out', like there was increasingly a game plan that could be used against him. serve and volley, etc etc. but to some extent, he's managed to resist just being written off when facing elite competition BECAUSE he keeps coming up with ways to throw his opponents off-balance. what he's been doing this year, for all that it hasn't gotten him great results, has been so much fun to watch - really reminded me of his summer/autumn 2019 stretch where he'd played so much he should've constantly been at risk of keeling over of exhaustion but adapted to it by just becoming a completely different player. wawrinka uso 2019 match still goes crazyyyy, one of his most underrated performances. serve and volley in the uso 2019 final I wanna run to u. it's such a wonderfully unique game that's frankensteining all these unique parts together that all sort of shouldn't work but all sort of do, harnessed and constantly reinvented by (let's face it) the smartest top player currently in the game. and it really does piss me off that he hasn't been rewarded more. he's been the best of the rest since 2019, he's absolutely maximised his game for someone who doesn't have that stratospheric big three-level of talent and I WANT it to actually matter. but men's tennis will always see talent triumphing over guile I fear, and meddy has consistently been a victim of poor timing
and yeah, the generational aspect is true, where the entire ''''''''nextgen''''''''' cohort has essentially been doomed - partly because they just weren't good enough, but partly because they arrived at just the right time window to still be thoroughly traumatised by the big three without getting any kind of a break before the next super talents showed up. until 2022 I really did naively believe we were getting a chaos era of SOME kind until that decrepit spanish ghoul showed up in australia to trample all over my soul and give me depression, and then immediately another bloody spaniard started going at it. how can you not be a little bit bitter that alcaraz got to swan to his first slam title without having to face a single member of the big three? idk man like sometimes it really is the magic of sports that the anointed few don't just have talent on their side, they are also fantastically lucky. you see it with how the big three all secured their first slams... things just seem to work out somehow. infuriating and existentially horrifying
anyway. lol. as you can see I do always have a tennis rant in me. will always be a major part of my life, obviously something I have a far far better understanding of than any other sport, still keep up with the women's game fairly closely... where icl it helps that the players I'm most invested in have dropped off SO badly this year, partly due to injury, that I can merrily ignore their existence. plus, and this bit is crucial, I don't loathe the players who actually win things. so I'm in a happy place where I just enjoy the sport and (if anything) want Certain top players to do better than they currently are... but also don't lose any sleep over the results. like, have I been massively frustrated with iga this year? yes, but it's also not made me stare at a wall for five hours. also, it's just been a way better product than this predictable basher servebot shit from the men. women's wimbledon semi day THE best tennis day of the year, prove me wrong. they've had actual classic matches, which the men have been noticeably short on. just sort of been an odd season for the men, with djokovic shrivelling and alcaraz patchy outside of two slams and sinner doing his whole 'I'm not a cardboard cut out I'm a REAL boy' routine on his way to fifty hard court titles and everyone else irrelevant. as I've already said... it's fine. whatever. hope the sport enjoys fifty thousand alcaraz/sinner slam wins as the earth keeps turning around the sun and eventually we all turn to dust. it's fine
and seriously, thank you for everything in the ask... always happy to hear I've made someone's fan experience like. better. and that I add something a little bit different to the mix lol, also literally no compliment I like to read more than anything to do with my actual writing. because this ask was so lovely, here's my personal favourite moment as a tennis fan this year:
still think that australian open title should be restored to us
#“my biggest opp started winning big tournaments/slams consistently” REAL that bit kinda broke me#athletes who are super good and u get no real sense of why they care whether they win or lose like?? i hate u#when he said he was thinking on the flight back from ao what he should've done better in the first two sets... literally fuck off#'oh he's just introverted' iga's also introverted and she seems to take severe psychological damage every other week. as it should be#//#batsplat responds#but do have to confess: before late last year i did generally root for him against alcaraz out of a sort of enemy of my enemy impulse#remember when he used to be our pigeon </3#last time sinner was funny was when medvedev yawned while walking past him during changeover as the italian crowd went nuts#medvedev's fuck southern europe tour of late 2021 u will ALWAYS be famous#getting the french the italians AND the spaniards to boo you within like a month? last time i felt alive#he was dropping banger after banger back then... remember his 'it's easier to enjoy life when you have no brain' monologue about the french#the record books may write him off as a single slam champ but the streets will NEVER forget
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AITA but i dont wanna use reddit
ok you know what here is the situation. my (only recently) 20 yr old friend (i met them four years ago when we both worked at mcd) lived with their strict, emotionally abusive, overprotective parents until recently. their parents would confiscate tech for yrs at a time, wouldn't let them get vaccinated (i had to help them do that), guilt and shame them, etc. also obviously homophobic and my friend is transfem nb and queer. theyre also the eldest sibling of quite a few and had to handle the pressure of that responsibility and their parents never wanted them to do normal things like getting a car and moving out. i was always there encouraging them even when we stopped working together bc i was like fuck this naive gullible homeschooled kid has no one and they remind me of my younger sibling and im gonna be there for them as much as i can. the only reason they even got a car eventually is cus i kept telling them to so they cld move out
cut back to barely a year ago, they're still so naive and gullible they've lent like 1k+ to ppl who won't pay them back, but they still have like 10-20k in savings and now their own car. they also get into digital art with my help and get into furry porn or whatever. im like ok i guess ur an adult now do what u want. and then theyre like "ive got an online partner from CANADA!!! (we r australian) don't freak out i know it's bad but he's 30." i'm like oh god. they've been together 3 months ish and my friend RLY wants to visit their fuckass boyfriend and i'm like please be careful, please wait at least a year, i know u wont wanna listen to how i rly feel about this but at least just take these precautions. i'm also like when you do meet irl he should come here ur barely 19 and he's 30 like it only makes sense. and theyre like "thank u i promise i will do that"
and then maybe 10 or 11 months into their relationship i find out my friend is in canada with their bf, and has been for like a month, and i only know this bc they're asking if i can pick them up from sydney airport. im like errr that's pretty far away but take the train and i'll pick you up from the station and they're like ok sure! and i ask a bit more about it and find out they believe their parents have been hacking into their laptop because why else would they be suspicious that this canadian guy is their boyfriend, i'm like actually no offense but it's really fucking obvious i don't think they did that... and they're like "yeah anyway my parents are no longer picking me up which is why i need a lift, i admitted i have a boyfriend and they're calling him a pedo (and i almost agree but i just smile and nod) and so i'm not going back and taking their bs anymore, i'm gonna sleep in my car if i have to" so i offer for them to stay at my place for a few weeks.
they go get their stuff from their place, i buy them a pizza cus they havent had dinner, i help them get their stuff inside, set up a temporary bed. they tell me they plan to be out within a few days, i tell them they can stay longer if they need to, but currently their only job is doordash and they should focus on getting a real job so they can find a place and i'm more than happy to help them find somewhere. theyre the type of person to say sorry for everything and not let themselves ever feel comfortable, so i make sure they know they can use the kitchen and bathroom and everything while they're here and to not feel like a huge burden, im gonna be charging them a tiny bit of rent anyway so yeah.
now tell me why it's been over a month, they've applied to only a few places, i specifically put in a good word with them at my job and told them to call back and ask about the application and they just haven't, they've just been doordashing and filling my entire fridge and cupboard with their food, i tell them to use the laundromat cus we don't have enough space for their washing too and they end up asking if they can use our washing machine anyway (i reluctantly say yes), they destroy all my kitchen sponges on washing this one shitty pan i have cus they have to cook an entire grand meal from scratch for breakfast lunch and dinner, they wash up but i'm the only person who cleans the floors and the bathroom so now i'm feeling cramped and stressed out...
i ask my mum about what to do, she says give them 2 weeks to move out, my mum is a guarantor on my lease so in the group chat i explain the situation and say they have 2 weeks, they NEVER RESPOND and start not coming home until late at night... i'm considering moving into another place with a friend atp so i'm like yo maybe you can get on this lease and THEN they respond and start showing up again... and today i called and updated mum on the situation and her partner got on the phone, me and my sibling only got this place cus he apparently called in a favour cus we were rly struggling to find any fucking housing, and so he says "tell him i mean THEMMM if theyre not out tomorrow i will forcibly remove them" and so my sibling makes sure to tell them this face to face so they cant avoid actually responding. i also find out today that this whole time they've been flat broke (to the point they had to borrow my money just to get petrol despite doordashing like 40 hours a week) because they HAVE BEEN HELPING. PAY. THEIR GROWN ASS. SHITTY FUCKING USELESS. PARTNERS. RENT. THIS GROWN ASS MAN NOT ONLY HAD THEM PAY TO GO SEE HIM AND SUCK HIM OFF AND COOK FOR HIM. NOT ONLY WAS LETTING THEM GO BACK TO AUSTRALIA AND JUST BE HOMELESS. BUT HE IS ACTIVELY TAKING THEIR FUCKING MONEY. despite all of this i am deep down INCREDIBLY GLAD that my mum's partner put his foot down to get them out of my house and i feel guilty about it despite risking eviction cus im breaking my lease agreement by having them here loooll
tldr my 20 yr old friend has been living in my house illegally for over a month bc they refuse to go back to their shitty parents, they are however broke and don't have a stable job and their 30 yr old boyfriend is leeching off of them, and now i'm essentially kicking them out of my place within 2 days because my own housing security is at risk
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idk if u ever answered this before but if u cld change nahidas canon design in any way whay wld u do? for me while a big part of sumerus whole deal cld be just skin color and physical features being broihht to represent swana peoples, i think nahidas clothes kinda work but i wish they represented more of either hindi or other cultural influences. my biggest wish is four arms. and a bindi. wouldve been so cool
ohhh man. yeah obviously skin color is a big thing for me, not just in sumeru but in all of genshin... even outside of the Very Obvious Racism, having every single character be the approximate color of milk is just bad character design. even among the things that i think make genshin character design in general not that good skin color is easily the biggest one.
you know i've never seriously considered 4 arms but that would totally rule i want that now. that would fuck so hard. but as for what i would really want to change - outside of skin tone, mostly her clothing, honestly? i tend to really like and go for iranian influences when i make edits to sumeru outfits (though i've found it a little hard to find good trustworthy references online, if anybody knows any please tell me!!). i think traditional iranian women and girls clothing have some really fun and interesting cuts on their dresses that i would really love to see in nahida's design! i also think that being more explicit with iranian dress cuts would feel more like nahida and make her design more representative of sumeru as a whole. i took a couple cracks at this a while back (see second image in post), though disclaimer: it consisted of pretty fast doodles and if i were to do an Actual Redesign i'd want to put a lot more deliberacy into it.
i also just really don't love the dress she has in canon LOL. i don't like the cut, i don't think it has a lot of immediately substantive things to show about sumeru & its culture like the other archons' clothes do, i think it's weirdly short and the way it flares doesn't feel natural to me, and i just! really wish it was different! when her design first leaked, i told a friend that nahida's design felt almost celestial instead of sumeran, and i still feel that way. banger palette though at least there's that. i like the colors. you may notice that even in my nahades piece i made edits to the dress to lay a little more naturally, because i cannot stand it. incredibly tragic that this is the situation for my favorite character and Most Special Girl
#THANKS FOR ASK !!!!#i want to find a really cool long video i saw ages ago on her real life influences and go back to it and maybe i'll add onto this then#but for me the biggest thing is very much The Dress i really don't like it i wish it was different sooooo bad#if you get me going i'll bitch for ages about the dress#you may notice that in a LOT of doodles for her i give her different outfits and this is why 😭#asks#nahida#lbf.txt
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hi! i see that you make alter packs! i was wondering if i could get your most detailed pack type? brainmade, mostly creator's choice with these few guidelines: not super feminine (preferably masc or xenine), no younger than 16, no one who would harm the body or system themself! ty in advance if you do this.
— @roses-bah-garden
First alterpack request! A little nervous since I had so much creative liberty, but I hope you like hxm! Feel free to change or swap out anything!
MASC / XENINE GRUNGE SKATER ALTERPACK
Adam, Adrian, Alex, Brayden, Bruise, Bryce, Caleb, Dom, Dominic, Ed, Evan, Grime, Leon, Jason, Julian, Lukas, Mason, Miller, Morgan, Nate, Noel, Pierce, Preston, Rust, Ryan, Scotty, Scrape, Silas, Slash, Skrrt, Theo, Tripp, Tucker, Tyler, Wren, Xavier, Zander, Zach
Wheels, Skrrt, Zan, Xay, Tumble, Fall, Ads, Ry, Beats, Shredder, Tear, Sonny, Tony, Sy, Wolfe
He/Hx/Th-y/Vae/Thing/Bite/Hit/Haze/Bark/Loser/Dude/Hunt/Wolf/Being/Grime/Bruise/Scab
Age: 20s - Source: Brainmade - Humanflux, Creaturekin
Potential Roles: Overrider, Brother Figure, Absorber
Potential Signoffs: 🌪️, 🔧, 🛹, 👖, 🥤,
Masc & Neu Terms - 🐺, 🦴, 🎧, 🎸, 🎶, 🥁
Titles: (Prn) with (prns) headphones on, the loner boy, (prn) that’s tightly-wound, the opinionated boy, (prn) who plays air guitar, the one with the drum solo, the skater, (prn) who wins at video games, the hot-headed thing, (prn) with scraped knees, (prn) with ripped jeans, the one drinking soda, the outcasted thing, the one who shreds guitar, (prn) who drinks soda, (prn) who pulls all-nighters, (prn) who procrastinates, the one listening to music, the one that skates, (prn) that rolls through the neighborhood
Cremascept - Boyxenine - Mascthing
Patheticboyloser - Adxenine - Dinary Man
Bisexual Cepturomantic Stag
A 20-something guy with dark, messy hair, smudged eyeliner, and dark circles. Dark brown eyes and light tan to medium brown skin— baggy skater’s fashion taste with large t-shirts, ripped jeans, Vans, and thick hoodies.
Personality: Hx is tightly-wound and hotheaded with lots of opinions that th-y think are right. He tends to not like other people that much, but he’s more loose and laid back around people vae’s familiar with. With close friends and those thing views as family, being is extremely protective and will fight someone if it’s needed. Despite being a grungy skater, wolf actually prefers clean clothes. They can look dirty, sure, but bark hates smelling bad and wants to be a clean level of dirtiness when he’s out skating.
Habits: Music-related stims (air guitar, drumming on things), chewing on hoodie strings, doodling, procrastinating work, being too aggressive, not cleaning
Hobbies: Skating, listening to music, playing video games, practicing instruments, hanging with friends
Likes: Video games, skateboards, soda, heavy metal and rock music, making songs, drums, headphones, long skating trips, people who aren’t annoying, clean clothes
Dislikes: Loud people, curfews, school, homework, doing chores, broken drumsticks, nerds, the internet going out, losing games
Typing Quirk: Lots of shortening/abbreviating words, 2000s slang, lowercase, and double letters. Prefers emoticons.
“th qck brwn fx jmps ovr th lzy dg.”
“the qquick brown ffox jumps oover the llazy dog.”
“ugh th rrents r being so aannying. we shld g sk8 l8r, yeah? mayb wwe cld g get ttrashed aftr. mmega! alrght, cu l8r. B-\”
Pos Triggers: Alternative music, skating, being out late at night, comfy clothes
Neu Triggers: Free periods at school, graffiti, outcasts, loud music of any kind
Neg Triggers: Homework, arguments, seeing haze’s friends get bullied, being inside all day
Aesthetics: Olderbrothercore, Skater, Alternative, Grunge, Minivan Rock, Gamercore
#🍎 … slices do requests !#alter packs#build an alter#make an alter#build a headmate#headmate creation#headmate pack#alter creation#alter
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Hii liaa ! („• ֊ •„)੭ i'm grace but you can call me gracie or maybe just grace ! (TヮT) i just wanted to let you know that I'm a big fan of your work! It's always such a joy to read your writing, and I feel like I can escape into another world ! (๑/////๑" )
I was so excited when I saw the notification that you had followed me back! I seriously almost burst out with joy, haha. But honestly – I feel so lucky and grateful for being moots with you (っ- ‸ - ς) And seriously, seeing your name among my followers just made my day! Thank you so much liaa ! ଘ(੭◌ˊᵕˋ)੭ ily !
omg hii gracie!! firstly YOU ARE SO ADORABLE WTH >< ur so cute i just want to pinch your cheeks rn >< and secondly thank you so so sos so much, that means a lot to me!! AND OMG i'm also SOOSOSOS happy to be moots w you >< i actually love u sm rn wth >< also!! do you have disc? maybe we cld chat there >///<
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the post (and tags) about you wanting to be married is #real. i'm a lovergirl at heart and there is something so... sweet, serene? about the concept of marriage with your love. i have been with my boyfriend for what will be 8 years in february — and it is getting to the point now where everyone is like "so y'all married now right?" (but due to some external circumstances and. uh. finances. we cannot!) being in love is one beautiful concept and marriage is such a pretty sparkly bow to tie around it, methinks!
Yeah 🥺 and celebrating that love with family… I def yearn for it on days like this where I’m with my family and idk I just want. To build the kinda life my parents have. Or continue to build it. And it takes time and effort and I’m working towards being able to do that but I’ve been getting a bit antsy lately JDNFKNDF I don’t rlly talk abt it much on here but I’ve never actually rlly explored that with anyone (I’ve only had one sorta-fling that fell through after our first date bc I freaked lol) and on one hand I want to be the kind of person who can be fulfilled and satisfied without anything external but on the other I wld like the experience of romance and kissing someone and building a life w them………. I just need to be patient lmfaooooo
Anyway u def don’t need me to validate it but marriage obvi has no time limit/timeframe🙂↕️🙂↕️ i feel like if i were in ur position id also wanna wait until i cld have the right wedding there’s no purpose in rushing in when the result will be smthn that was only done to appease others…….
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