Here’s the thing
I want to reread tlt but nona fucked me up so bad and something about these books HURTS and as much as I want to reread them now I also feel like I want to reread them in a like self harming way??? Like I know I have had very strong emotional reactions to them before and so part of me wants to read them again to feel that even though it’s not good for me and actually may just be intensifying feelings I refuse to face in real life
but then what if it doesn’t. What if I read them again and it doesn’t hurt as bad. What do I do then. Is that good? Of course it is but I fear it won’t feel like that. I fear that might almost be worse because then what do I do with all these feelings still locked inside me? What then?
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