#but I am very curious to hear other people's opinions on this so please dont be shy

[zeldacd]

Link’s patron animal

Thinking about Link, more specifically, which animal he’s mainly associated as.

See, when you think about Zelda or Ganondorf they’re easy to pin down. More so for Ganondorf. Like, he’s associated with boars, right? Always has been. For me with Zelda I’ve always associated her with owls due to the whole Wisdom thing.

But for Link...? I can’t really say. He’s been literally depicted as a wolf and a rabbit, but I only think of those specific incarnations of Link that way. When I try to think of what animal screams “courage” to me (same way I thought of owls for Zelda) the first thing that would come to my mind is a dog, not really a wolf. But then there’s the problem that there's just so many different breeds of dog that its still hard to associate one with him, and I’m back at square one.

There’s also horses, cause Link is typically a “horse girl”, but the problem with horses is that they’re actually very easily spooked and don’t really evoke “courage” to me. There’s also skyward sword Link that brings to mind loftwings when I think of him, but same issue with wolves and bunnies I just think of Sky specifically associated with birds, rather than Links as a whole.

I dunno, maybe I’m just picky or over thinking it, but I am super curious as to what other people immediately default to when they try to associate an animal with Link. And also because I’ve hit a roadblock in my AU and need help/ideas cause I need to find an animal to associate both Farore and Link with cause I’m writing her to be sort of his “patron saint” as I have Nayru for Zelda and Din for Ganondorf, but shhhhhhhhhh you don’t really need to know that.

[tfc-gal-pal]

Tbh I know gay Eddie is the most popular headcanon but I think objectively he would be bisexual. Whether one wants to believe he was in love with Shannon or not (and I think the show wants us to believe it), he had a lot of sex with her and it was never implied he didn't enjoy it. A lot of people seem to either have convinced themselves that the Shannon plot didn't happen or that it doesn't count anymore since it was so long ago. That's not how sexuality works tho. So yeah, I wouldn't say we have all come to the same conclusion here.

Thank you for the ask!

That’s totally valid and that makes sense with what the writers have given us since we first met Shannon. She has been the only solid love interest. And yes, you are right, he did seem to enjoy hooking up with her. Based on this, I think there is a solid claim for him being bisexual.

As for him being not into women at all, the main argument I’ve seen has been his seeming disinterest in the women he’s dated. (except Shannon). I speculated somewhere else that it’s possible he formed a strong friendship with Shannon that he mistook for romance, but this doesn’t explain his physical attraction towards her. As you said, sexuality includes physical attraction.

There is, of course, the possibility Eddie is straight, but I dont think he is and i am extremely hopeful that the showrunners aren’t going to make him “come out” as straight.

As for the post i made asking when we’d decided Eddie was gay and not bi, the only posts i have seen have been saying he’s gay since i started actively following the 911 tag here about 2 weeks ago. It was a lighthearted way of basically asking how did the majority of people come to this conclusion im curious. i personally don’t have a strong feelings on it, my opinion is that he’s definitely queer and might go as far as to call him gay (as in a guy who likes guys but not necessarily restricted to them, i am bi also call myself gay sometimes, idk if anyone else does this) but beyond that idk.

Regardless, sexuality is very nuanced and every person has their own unique experience with it. I’m not sure how Eddie would choose to identify or if the show is even going to attach a label to him. I hope however they do (or don’t) label him, people don’t start tearing each other and the actors to shreds.

I hope this makes sense? Again thank you for the ask! This was fun to analyze. I’m really excited we’re getting to see these stories play out and to have the possibility of confirmed queer Eddie on screen, something that I think many of us can agree was almost nonexistent under Fox.

If anyone made it to the end of my jumbled thoughts, thank you, i would love to hear yours in the comments or asks. i know a lot of people have really strong feelings about Buddie and 911 in general and while tumblr isn’t the shitshow that is currently twitter, this is my first time wading into waters like these and i am scared so please be nice even if you disagree :)

[neo-zone]

I saw your post of the whole Giselle post and I have been asking around and reading how people feel about the censorship and how certain fans handle the incident.

I saw you other post about the Kubo interview as from bits and pieces from what I got Kubo said Giselle was originally a man before transitioning and another interview said its how his fans interpret Giselle, but please dont take my word for it that's what I have been seeing and reading. But if you are curious here's a translation. Scroll down on the Bambis

https://missstormcaller.tumblr.com/post/181594990562/bleach-jet-artbook-talk-vol-4-translation

But in your opinion with characters like Yumickia, Giselle, Chizuru, Soi Fon and Charlotte who are trans or lgbtq coded how do you think they were handle? Were they good, decent, could they improved?

Well, okay then. Thanks

Personally it's both decent and could be improved. I like Yumi [except his transphobic line and unnecessary outing, fuck him] (and Charlotte too), he's pretty fun but hella underrated in terms of power and utilization in plot (oh you don't know how disappointed I am with the very lack of Yumi W considering I dig the interesting premise of his power-draining zanpakuto).

Sui (Soi Fon, but I prefer calling her with her Chinese name) fortunately got more depth beyond the "obsessed with Yoruichi-sama" fanon (fucking thanks fillers and omakes) and some cool fights (before being casted aside later on, but hey W is a W).

Chizuru, on the other hand, kinda fell to the "queers are all pervert" stigma on some occasions, which icks me a lot. I need to remind you that queers are not perfect and also not obligated to be good nice innocent etc etc, but pervert is pervert. Doesn't matter the gender or sexuality. (honestly she's ok, but personally I hate how Kubo made her pervert and likes doing non-consensual touchings to others)

Giselle is ... complicated. Decent and could very much be improved. Like, there are so many way to imply her being trans, but no, let's make a queer-coded character outing her in an open space where a lot of people could hear that. Besides, she icks me for being sexually abusive, like bdsm gone wrong without consent, and how it kinda checks on the "queers are pervert" stigma. Such a shame honestly because I like her contrasting personalities and subtle strategist self

You might want to check on this post and the other parts of the series because the account did a good job covering on the topic of queer-coded characters in Bleach.

[beautifulpersonpeach]

Repost: Ask on Why I Think Jimin is the Best Dancer in BTS

Anonymous: Hello, I hope you are having a wonderful week. I have obviously been going through your blog and love it. It's baffling to me that Jimin is not your bias lol. The way you write about him comes across as though he is one of your bias lol. I love what you wrote about him or any other members. I do want to know a bit more about your opinion about their dancing as well as their performance skills. You mentioned that you think Jimin is the best dancer. Now this is obviously a subjective opinion and a lot of fans would come at you for it but I am really interested to know why you think that. What makes Jimin better than J-Hope even though more than half the fandom will fight you on it? I also want to know a bit more about your perspective on their performance skills. I personally think Jimin is the best performer in the group and most likely one of the best if not the best performers in Kpop. However, I don't think he is the best dancer. He is definitely a good dancer but I wouldn't rate him about JHope. In saying that though, I find him to be the most charismatic performer which sometimes if not often overshadows other members skills. People tend to look at him in performances and feel thatt he is the best dancer whereas I feel that he is the most charismatic one in stage. I dont know if he realizes that often after performances he becomes the centre of attention and has calmed down because of it. I have found him quieter in recent performances and am wondering why that is. It almost felt to me that he was willingly side lining himself which doesn't make sense if your job is to basically perform. However I have also noticed other members fans complaining about him standing out so maybe the members and company have had this discussion. Who do you think are the best performers in BTS?

I rate my performers as below:

1- Jimin

- JHope

3- V

4 - JK, Suga and RM but JK slightly above Suga and RM and more closer to V.

5- Jin

Just wanted to know your thoughts. Lastly, why isn't JHope as well known for his dancing skills or his performance skills as Jimin? I would say he is the best dancer in BTS and one of the best in KPOP but I don't hear as much about his dancing. Is the preference given to the better looking member? The first thing I noticed when I got into BTS is Jimins looks above everything else so does that give him advantage? Now I am not saying Jimin isn't a good dancer. He is equally as good but maybe JHope has an edge. Please note that this is not to shade any members. I am just curious about it.

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(this will be a long one for no other reason than me rambling a bit. Sorry everyone. :))

Hi Anon,

Sometimes it surprises me that people are surprised I can speak very positively of someone I don’t bias (lol what is going on in the fandom if this isn’t normal?) but on the other hand I kind of get it. It’s easy to develop tunnel vision to think your bias walks on water while everyone else is only barely decent.

I like Jimin. I’ve always liked him for his artistry, thought he was hot, and later came to like him as a person, but that latter bit took some work for me. I had to work through prior assumptions and narratives I had about him. So now, I kinda like showing off how much I like him, if that makes sense. Also, every few days I get asks from antis, taekookers, or just general weirdos that sometime give me added motivation to remind us all that Jimin hung the sun and moon in the heavens, Jimin turned water into wine, and that Jimin is an interesting, intelligent, and beautiful person whose face you should want to sit on.

Not everything I think about him is positive, obviously, just as I have my own quips about all the members. But as I said in my long-form post on hate (linked here), I choose not to highlight those things often all over the internet, based on my very subjective perception. Too many people seem to enjoy doing that already, and I’m not interested.

I noticed jikook about the same time, and I think it’s impossible to be into jikook, to see and appreciate what they are, without liking both Jimin and Jungkook. (Unless you’re a rival shipper - then seeing what they are might just trigger you.)

This might be hard to believe, but I struggle to articulate and write on things I really really like, to strangers. As I’ve said many times before, I run a separate music blog with some friends, and our process becomes a bit… inefficient when I have to write about certain artists I really like, such as Tyler Joseph. My friends help me a lot during those times, they take my blathering ramblings and make it coherent. I come off as a bit unhinged talking about things that really excite me, so the somewhat calm/coherent but perhaps excessively adoring posts you all see me write about Jimin, are quite possibly the biggest proof he’s not my bias. Lol.

Guess I’m just weird that way.

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Main answer:

Usually, the ‘best dancer’ debate is one I’m completely uninterested in participating in. I don’t think it matters very much who anyone says is the best dancer in the group. Most of us can tell BTS’s two main dancers: J-Hope and Jimin, are fairly equal in skill and better than most other dancers in the entire industry at the most basic level. And when it comes to comparing two members in any area, I don’t see it as a big deal. All our views are almost entirely subjective (“almost” because technical skill can be critically assessed, and is usually plain to see), and none of this is that serious anyway. Who cares if I think Jimin is a better dancer, like I’m nobody, right?

But you know, being a Hobi bias and talking about dance sometimes requires some delicacy, because aside from his skills which are objectively incredible, a lot of the narratives around Hobi are things he himself has actively crafted from scratch, or have been explicitly spoon-fed to fans over the years, from magazine publications, interview hosts and even BTS themselves. So taking an opposing view can be seen by some as being against Hobi himself because of how he’s expressed his own view of his dance skills, which is very different from how Jimin describes his relationship with dance, something that he too is obviously passionate about. For example, look at this interview and see how both Jimin and J-Hope talked about dance.

From Anan Magazine June 2017.

In case the text is too small to read, I’ll quote the relevant section:

“I hope I am behind no one in dance. I don’t want to lose to anyone in dance.” He’s basically expressing his passion for dance, but he frames it by first declaring how he wants to be the best and not be behind anyone.

Jimin by contrast speaks about it very generally but personally too, apparently unconcerned with how he compares to anyone else. Even later on in Jimin’s interview when he talks about singing, he says he wants to be a good singer everyone can approve of. The element of outranking people is not a sentiment that’s present at all in his descriptions.

Let’s look at some more interviews.

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Note in both cases, dance is alluded to, but for Jimin it’s only implied and towards the end.

(Aside, this interview is so interesting to read because it’s one of few that shows them all being very innocent and unguarded. For example, the boys have hinted here and there over the years that the most image-conscious member is V (which would make sense given his social intelligence), but in this interview they explicitly say it. And this contrasts with some more dominant views in the fandom that say it’s J-Hope that is most image-conscious. But it’s always been V, and the boys confirm it here. There are similar small but candid descriptions of other members in the interview too.)

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…and would still be told point blank J-Hope is the best dancer.

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Anon, one reason it’s taken me some time to answer your ask is because I was looking for a specific interview and I can’t find it. I vaguely recall in that interview, J-Hope is explicitly asked how he feels being the dance leader but having Jimin be more known for his dancing (despite all the times J-Hope is declared to be the best dancer in the group and this is something that the members have said louder and louder as the years went by…), and J-Hope replies that yes it’s sometimes hurtful to not be recognized for his work, but that Jimin is also a great dancer he’s learned from and I think he also said something about how that means he needs to work harder. I remember when that interview dropped the energy in the fandom was off for a bit, and maybe it’s only coincidence Hobi akgaes started becoming bffs with taekookers around the same time. I personally felt for Hobi in that interview and it was a bit hard for me to watch (I’ve previously written about how the hype around Jimin’s dancing was something that used to annoy the heck out of me). Anyone who knows the interview I’m talking about please help a sister out with a link (I can’t even remember the year its from).

Anyway, my point is, if we’re going to use Jimin’s good looks (as though Hobi isn’t objectively good looking himself), Jimin’s charisma, etc, as reasons people think he’s a better dancer, it’s only fair to not discount how there’s very deliberate, consistent, and unrelenting messaging from practically everyone that also serve as reasons some people think J-Hope is a better dancer, regardless of what we both see with our eyes. Some in the fandom have tried to make peace by separating the competencies of the two, classifying Hobi as a Hiphop dancer (which he is), but categorizing Jimin as a Contemporary dancer (which he technically isn’t, but because he’s Jimin, somehow is, but also is definitely more than a Contemporary dancer).

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J-Hope is one of the best dancers in the industry, but I’d also say he seems to be a very efficient dancer. He executes the moves in the most efficient ways while maintaining somewhat consistent energy throughout (look at his Go Go hip thrusts above for example), and sometimes that means sacrificing impact. Jimin by contrast, almost always goes all in, and that’s one reason I think he’s a better dancer. Jimin also has the most high-difficulty specializations in his arsenal, in my opinion, across all dance styles, and this is one reason he is irreplaceable to BTS. Without Jimin there’d be no Black Swan or Butterfly solos, there’d be none of those ads in 2015 - 2017 where he performed Contemporary style dances that helped build BTS’s profile in Korea and Asia, no b-boying aerial flips that till today helps establish BTS as a solid dance group despite most of the members clearly not being dancers, there’d be no Lie/Boy Meets Evil duet, and so on and so forth. J-Hope shines during dance breaks where he’s given free rein to do nothing but dance however he likes, Jimin shines more when there’s structure/choreography he’s perfected to the point it becomes an innate expression of how he feels the music. I just happen to like Jimin’s more.

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I’m not sure how sensible it is to treat performing and dancing as two different things. I see why some people might separate them, but I think to dance is to perform. And while J-Hope too is an excellent performer, Jimin has elevated this to both a science and art.

I don’t know what Jimin ate before their 2019 SMA performances but he needs to stick to that diet cause his dancing was ridiculous.

Cause what the fuck was this?

I’m not even going to post the fancam for IDOL because people died. It is that good.

Anon you asked for a ranking. Here’s mine:

Jimin.

J-Hope.

Jungkook.

Yoongi tied with Taehyung.

Namjoon tied with Seokjin.

I’m surprised you say J-Hope isn’t well known for his dancing, because he is. If nothing else, ARMYs have made sure of it. Hobi doesn’t need my help in that department, I assure you.

:)

Originally posted: April 24th, 2022 7:56am

[musette22]

Hi, darling (I hope it´s ok to call you darling) I´m starting to write ff so I am really curious to know more about your dont´s and any other advice about writing that you might have. I´m a huge fan of your stories and I think you´re an incredible writer so I will really value your opinion on the topic

Hi, lovely! It's absolutely fine to call me darling, you can call my anything you like as long as it's something nice 😘 Thank you SO much for your kind words about my writing, I appreciate it more than I can say 💗 I'm so happy to hear you're starting to write fanfiction as well, that's very exciting!! As for writing advice, I really don't feel qualified to dole out advice lol, but I'll do my best to tell you about a few things that I try to do and/or avoid myself when I'm writing! I'll put it under the keep reading tag for you, since it's a little lengthy 😘

1. Make sure you stick to one tense. I personally always write in present tense, but I know a lot of people who write in past tense as well, and that's just a matter of personal preference. Both are absolutely fine, as long as you consistently use one or the other throughout your fic (with the exception of course of when a character is recalling something, or in dialogue etc. But that speaks for itself, I imagine)

2. Make sure you stick to one POV within a single scene. Unless you're writing from the omniscient narrator POV or something like that, you always write from one person's perspective, meaning we are in their brains and looking through their eyes. It's incredibly jarring to me when within a single scene, multiple POVs occur. It just jolts me out of the story immediately, because that's impossible in real life, and it should therefore also be in fiction. It's fine to switch POV from one chapter or even scene to another, as long as it's clear that it's intentional POV switching.

3. Avoid the use of epithets and characteristics (i.e. when someone is described as 'the taller/older man' or 'the blond woman') to indicate someone instead of using their name or he/she/they. This does not apply when it's a character whose name we don't know yet. It makes sense to describe those characters by some of their characteristics, although if it's a while before we learn the character's name, I personally prefer it when people just give them a nickname (blondie, Hot Gym Guy, Sarah's dad etc.)

4. When writing dialogue, try not to use too many alternatives to the word 'says/said'. It's understandable to want to avoid constantly going "Bucky says" and "Steve says" etc. since that can get irritating too, but only using substitutes like "grumbles" or "sighs" or "whines" or "mutters" can also start to become tedious after a while. The trick is to find a balance, and to also write dialogue in such a way that it's often clear who's saying what without always having to indicate who is speaking.

5. Try to use a mix of shorter and longer sentences. I personally find it difficult to get into a story when it consists of only short sentences, but of course, when an author only writes very long sentences with lots and lots of commas, that can get a little tiring too. So the trick is to try and mix it up, but in an organic way (so not alternating or anything like that, but finding a balance that works).

6. Use proper punctuation. I can't stress this enough. Commas and full stops and hyphens all exist for a reason. Please use them as they were meant to be used as much as possible, and be economical with exclamation marks. In my opinion, it's almost always possible to show that someone is agitated or enthusiastic by simply using the right words, or sometimes some well-placed italics.

7. Pay extra attention to your opening sentence/paragraph. Make sure it's engaging, and draws your reader in. An easy way to do that is to open with dialogue, but if you do that, do make sure that you take the time to set the scene as well. Your reader will want to learn the who-what-where at some point during the first few paragraphs. It's sometimes tempting to open a fic by explaining what happened before this scene, how the character(s) got to where they are, and exactly who they are, but to me, that can feel decidedly clunky a lot of the time. So again, try to find a balance (but I'll admit it's a tricky thing to get right!)

8. Try to find a balance between exposition and dialogue. It's totally fine and understandable that some fics are heavier on one than the other (it depends on a lot of factors), but if a fic consists almost exclusively of descriptions without there being a good reason for it, I personally find that it gets less engaging. Similarly, if a fic uses a LOT of dialogue and rarely delves into exposition, it can kind of make me feel a little unmoored or stressed, and like I need to catch my breath. If possible, try to alternate.

So basically, it's all about balance 😅 I could probably go on, but I think these are some of the most important practical things I can think of when it comes to writing a story. Please keep in mind that I am not a professional author, and that I've only been writing for about three years, and learned through trial and error more than anything. I still struggle with a lot of the above - as you, as a reader of my fics, will probably know! But I do always try to pay attention to these issues, so I hope some of these tips can be useful for you too!! Let me know if you want me to elaborate on any of these points, and best of luck with your writing, lovely!! 😘😘

[felikatze]

hello hi! please ramble about lloyd-harumi roleswap au. how does harumi get along with the other ninja. what about her relationship with wu. my only knowledge of ninjago (aside from watching the first two seasons when they came out and then dropping the show) is through your posts about it so i am very curious to hear how you're constructing this au. it seems fun

yes another opportunity to ramble

gotta admit harumi and the ninja are like less developed than the harumi-lloyd-garmadon shebang but.

so in my previous posts about this AU i stated that harumi spends more time with pythor than lloyd does and the ninja only take her in when pythor ditches her after she finds all the serpentine with him.

as per her canon reaction to bad events she ends up being incredibly silent. she's just generally existing alongside the others without interacting at first and not saying a word. the ninja are frustrated by this for juvenile "cmon we saved you" reasons as they're all goobers but!! they're also concerned about her cuz dang the saw pythor turning on her Live They Were There and that must've stung.

they turn it into a kind of competition to see who can get her to open up first. kai shows her video games. jay shows her comics. cole tries to get her to go mountain climbing with him. zane bakes her a cake.

imagine instead of the episode where lloyd pranks everybody it's just everyone trying to win the friendship of this 11yr old girl pretending they dont exist

the competition doesn't last long until, because oh no, she got kidnapped after kai dropped her off at an arcade. i already said in the first post that curiosity was a big factor in harumi finding the serpentine in the first place, and that hasn't waned. she wants to know what they're up to! and whatever it is, she wants to stop them!

harumi per canon is i think incredibly petty. maybe her disguise and acting skills are better than lloyd's and she doesn't even get found out immediatly. who knows i'm vague on this so far.

the gist of it is that harumi does eventually speak to the ninja but only after kai rescues her from the volcano, because only when she sees kai choose her over the fangblade does she see that these people aren't going to use her.

she's not anyone's relative nor do they know she's the green ninja yet, so that does mean a lot to random orphan girl harumi.

overall i think she actually likes zane the most. zane knows best what it's like to be an outsider and he's really good about respecting her boundaries, and respecting her silence. he waits for her to talk first and she appreciates that!

this means zane's death in s3 hits her Hard. it dredges up the grief she still has for her parents and gives a whole "why does everything bad always happen to me" sort of vibe. she's frustrated she can never keep anything good in her life and everything has a catch. i think in whatever the s4 for this is she's ready to throttle chen flat out.

(chen is the s4 bad guy who kidnapped zane for blackmail reasons when everyone still thought zane was dead so fair tbh)

kai gets to come in second because he's a Bro. and also the whole volcano thing. he's smug that she talked to him first so she likes antagonizing him sometimes. keep him on his toes.

she knows jay means well but he talks too much in her opinion. meanwhile cole stole one of her candy bars once and she's never forgiving him /lh

i know you said you havent't watched past s2 but consider for me harumi morro parallels and how this affects wu.

basic gist for you: morro is a season 5 character and wu's first student. he was a Random Orphan (like harumi!) whom wu took in bcuz he thought morro was the green ninja (he wasnt). morro got upset at not being the green ninja so he ran away and Frickin Died.

and then he came back as a vengeful ghost in season 5 hellbent on destroying the actual green ninja and also wu, which is fun.

so wu is SUPER cautious around harumi, basically. later seasons tend to emphasize guilt in wu's character a lot and here it just shines earlier. he's afraid to let harumi near the golden weapons, he's not telling anybody about the green ninja prophecy, he's afraid of history repeating itself.

he's vry distant to her, so much so that still evil garmadon strikes up more camraderie than wu does.

but things still go according to canon and kai figures she's the green ninja, like actually. wu is. conflicted about this! because he doesn't want this 11yr old girl to have to fight his super evil warlord brother. and maybe die. because he already let one kid die, remember.

i'd imagine that after the cat's out of the bag, he doubles down on training her, hard. harumi, in return, dislikes him to a reasonable degree. wu still refuses to talk abt morro because wu has Problems (thank u s5 and s7 and s11 and literally every season for establishing this). it's not till the AU s5 that harumi finally understands why wu is Like That and that he's acting mainly out of concern

doesn't mean she automatically likes wu though. the girl's petty. wu got a long way to go till he lands in her good graces!

you can probably tell that for the main seasons this AU doesnt change much plot wise except for the specifics of character dynamcis and this is because i love character dynamics and i hate plot.

[koifishanonymous]

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i am very curious about this :3

I KNEW I COULD COUNT ON YOU LET ME GET MY PLAYLIST

uh a little content warning i get pretty personal and existential with some of these so

no particular order

1. love, me normally by will wood

''I was nothing before, so I couldn’t have asked to be born // I'll be nothing again, so what am I between now and then? // Is there nothing to fear? Cause shit's getting weird // So to God who made this man, you better have one hell of a plan // And I'd rather be normal, yes, so normal // I suggest that we keep this informal // 'Cause a normal human being wouldn't need, no // To pretend to be normal, to be normal // Well, I guess that's the least that I owe ya // To be normal in a way I could never be // C’mon, c’mon, yeah, I said c’mon, yeah // C’mon, c’mon, yeah, I said c’mon, yeah

C’mon, c’mon, and love me normally"

basically the whole ending to the this song perfectly encapsulate both mmy mental state and my feelings towards love. like this song is the closest thing i have to an explanation. also just the way its sung, desperately and angrily almost just makes me explode

2. i / me / myself by will wood

"I am quantum physics // My witness brings me into existence // I wish I could be a girl, and that way // You'd wish I could be your girlfriend, boyfriend // Am I pretty enough to love back // No not yet // I wish I could be a girl, and really // I'd prefer it if you would use I, Me, Myself // Am I pretty enough, am I pretty enough // To fucking die // Little old me in a big world // Well I would give you my whole world // Little old me in a big world //I wish // All identities are equally invalid // Don't you think that there's a chance that you could live without it? "

basically the same as love me normally, but for my gender! i scream these lyrics because i wish I was as simple as just being a girl but i'm not and i would rather we lived without the pressure to know who you are, or even be only one things at a time

3. black out days by phantogram

"if I could paint the sky // well all the stars would shine a bloody red"

i dont know how to describe the meaning of this other than that is i had eldritch being powere, i would do this

4. achilles come down by gangs of youth

"You want the acclaim, the mother of mothers (it's not worth it, Achilles) // More poignant than fame or the taste of another (don't listen, Achilles) // But be real and just jump, you dense motherfucker (you're worth more, Achilles) // You will not be more than a rat in the gutter (so much more than a rat)// You want my opinion, my opinion you've got (no one asked your opinion) // You asked for my counsel, I gave you my thoughts (no one asked for your thoughts) // Be done with this now and jump off the roof (be done with this now and get off the roof) // Can you hear me, Achilles? I'm talking to you // I'm talking to you"

i relate to achilles a huge deal and to her this song for the first time, was like both patroclus and agamennon were whispering to me. this bit especially broke me

5. iris by the goo goo dolls

"and I don't want the world to see me // cause I don't think that they'd understand"

pretty straight forward, I've tried to open up to so many people and ive only pushed back and made to hear their problems, so I genuinely don't think they understand. good reason to not show mysef, but also because i dont know myself

6. art is dead by bo burnham

"I am an artist, please God forgive me // I am an artist, please don't revere me // I am an artist, please don't respect me // I am an artist, you're free to correct me // A self-centered artist // Self-obsessed artist // I am an artist // I am an artist // But I'm just a kid // I'm just a kid // I'm just a kid, kid // And maybe I'll grow out of it"

i really like creating things, and usually jm not even good at it and I cant help but feels thatbeing an artists has lost all meanibg. people only seem to make art with some sort of end goal and i want to be able to make without the pressure of having a job or school or every other problem in the world

7. sweet hibiscus tea

"And I'm not your protagonist // I'm not even my own"

i can 100% tell you that this is not my body, i am not me. i want to be the main character so bad but i know i'm not

8. people watching by conan gray

"I wanna feel all that love and emotion // Be that attached to the person I'm holding"

i struggle with developing close connections with anyone, i hide nyself and only create a facade you cannot get close to because its a curtain with nothing behind it

9. cardigan by taylor swift

"And when you are young, they assume you know nothing"

this is lyric hits hard because whatever i say gets dismissed, blamed on hormones, or childishness or some other teen "problem"

that all hahah i went a little overboard, and somehow still have more

[uh--nope]

My thoughts and opinions of the new Para Live Groups

Now one thing that I love a lot about Paradox live is that the rap flows very nicely, each song that is produced focuses on each group's style of hiphop/rap. It's why I'm so much more obsessed with ParaLive than Hypmic, but that's an opinion for another day.

But one thing that I'm worried about is the songs feeling more like a pop song, you're free to disagree with me, in fact, please do. I would love to hear other people's thoughts about this. I know pop songs sell, but, I think what I really want is a clear focus on hiphop/rap. The lyrics/rap in PL is really good already. Like Sound of Voltage, Freakout, Back Off, and a lot more has some quality raps. But I dont think thats going to be the case as each group has their lyricist and composer for most of the time, so their sound is always consistant

With that being said, here are my thoughts on the new groups, the snippets of music, and the info about each member.

First Group: Visty

They really have some idol music vibes and it's not something I vibe with. They sort of set off this I hope we don't go too poppy with our songs, but like I said previously, they probably have songs that are more pop and happy, so I'm honestly not 100% looking forward to their music, but I am going to take a listen. Their members seem really interesting, I really like how bright and cheerful their colors and character designs are. I find it very interesting Aoi looks up to Anne. I look forward to learning more about him and Shogo

As for the other two, I'm so sorry, but I mean this is the nicest way possible but I've seen their character types before have I not??? I know I shouldn't be comparing, but I swear I've seen so many versions of Hikage in Japanese media, that I'm kinda over it??? Kantaro, I'm sure he's as a baby as Reo but I don't know a lot about Reo to draw a far comparison. I just know Reo would be a twitch streamer and Kantaro would be a Vlogger.

Second Group: AMPRULE

When I first heard the background music for Amprule, I couldn't help but think of visual kei music with the blasty organs but with a beat track. I'm so sorry but I ended up thinking of the kind of tracks that make remixes of your favorite show as a kid. Remember that? When little Einsteins got a remix that went crazy? Then every kid's show from the 2000s to early 2010s got a remix. That's what this track reminds me of but with visual kei.

Speaking of kids, WHAT THE HECK IS THIS PAIR???

I find it interesting that Hajun younger brother is joining the storyline, but I need about 3999 retraining orders on the butler. I... what...?.... NO, absolutely not. I don't like this group. I hate it with a passion, I refuse to type what is wrong with the butler, I just hate him, and he's a weirdo. If I find out their song slaps I'm gonna hate them even more.

Third Group: 1Nm8

I find it very funny that when I watched the preview I thought, "Oh they look like they escaped an experimentation facility" only for me to read the characters' info to see I was 2/3 right. I love their sound so much. I'm looking forward to them the most. They have this techno feel maybe with a side of house music, and I really dig their vibe. I've always loved techno music since middle school so I am indeed looking forward to their song.

I don't really care about the characters other than why and how they got in that facility. However, I am curious, is their group pronounced, "inmate"? If so, that is very interesting.

Fourth Group: 獄Luck

I look forward to hearing their song too. Although, please know whether online or not I am making fun of every character in this group. First off, I'm interested in hearing this group's Voice Drama to satisfy the curiosity I have with the baby cop. Dog boi and Anon boy are not really interesting, but MOTHEREFFIN PITBULL IS A WALKING CONTRADICTION.

How the hell are you gonna have the title of rap king but you can't express yourself with words???? Watch this dude get dissed by someone and just punches them in the face mid-song. I cannot understand what the hell is his deal therefore, I will clown on him the most.

ANYWAY THEIR BACKGROUND MUSIC. Their music reminds me of NEFFEX's song "Careless". It has some sick guitar riffs throughout the whole song, and I really dig that. I would love to hear a lot of Rock-Rap music from them, please. Gimme that sick guitar riffs and solos, YESS!!!!.

FINAL THOUGHTS

I hope to hear GokuLuck and INm8, AMPRULE is gonna terrify me and I don't know if I'm prepared. I hope everyone who stans Visty are just happy, they may not be for me. I may try them out but if you like them, I hope you continue to be happy. My opinion shouldn't get in the way of you enjoying what you like. I look forward to the translations of the new music.

Send the paradox live translators love here> https://twitter.com/paradoxlive_EN

What are your thoughts on the new groups? Think I said something dumb, tell me!

[yoursummerfrost]

For the character ask! If you haven’t answered this already, I’m so curious to hear everything you think about Jaskier 👀

Sorry it took me a few days to answer!! What is time, am I right? Answers under the cut <3

Send me a character to answer questions about!

Why I like them

Oh my god where to begin. I love that he’s a horrible little bastard, that he’s such an interesting foil to Geralt in terms of personality and morality. Like, Geralt is very gruff and noble and then here’s this chucklefuck who’s super cheerful and charismatic who’s lowkey down for murder and is very selfish and ambitious! I love characterizing him with ADHD. I love exploring what kind of person decides to follow a Witcher around for twenty two years. I just think his narrative themes, which I have basically made up for myself with the help of this lovely fandom, are super neat.

Why I don’t

Don’t assasinate your professional rivals, Jask. Also, book!Dandelion is uhhh kind of a sexist womanizer, from what I’ve read. Some of his behavior in the first book of short stories definitely rubbed me the wrong way.

Favorite episode (scene if movie)

Ooh this is tough. I’m gonna go with the dragon hunt, because I’m obsessed with the pining and I like to let it ache.

Favorite season/movie

I’ll be really interested to see what they do with him in future seasons lol. I haven’t read most of the books yet but I’m spoiled for most of the overarching plot and I think we could have some fun.

Favorite line

“Respect doesn’t make history.” Shut up you edgy bastard.

Favorite outfit

Absolutely the djinn episode. Obsessed w both the color and pattern of that doublet, and the stupid bum bow.

OTP

Definitely geraskefer, but a lot of my fic ideas have been more geraskier-focused so far. I’m really into the specific brand of geraskier softness and pining, writing-wise. And also ADHD/autism solidarity.

Brotp

Renfri & Jaskier is truly a thing of beauty, okay? Jaskier would write her all the ballads. 

Head Canon

Lol not to be redundant but ADHD!Jaskier is best Jaskier. 

Unpopular opinion

I can never really tell how actually unpopular things are in fandom, since I definitely follow my little subset of people and this fandom is super buzzing rn. But I know there’s a lot of inhuman!Jaskier fics out there and I have read some that I really enjoyed, but it’s not as much my jam. One part of Jaskier I really love is how human he is. How his humanness welcomes Geralt and Yen into a world they’ve been shunned by, how his life is comparatively so small and short and yet so meaningful. And I want Destiny to have nothing to do with him. Geralt and Yen have had so many choices taken away from them in the name of Destiny and in service of a Greater Good that doesn’t even treat them well (it never does, does it?) and to me, the beautiful thing about Jaskier is that his devotion is a choice.

A wish

Uhhh there’s a certain Yen/Jaskier interaction in the books that I really hope makes it onto the show.

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen

I mean, I’d be Big Sad if he died lol, but I’m pretty sure *knocks on wood* he’s got plot armor.

5 words to best describe them

Bastard, loyal, ambitious, creative, loquacious

My nickname for them

Jask is pretty much the only other thing I call him? And, I mean, “bastard” xD

[tardisbadwolfrose]

For the character thing, please do Rose Tyler

Ooo thats fun. I was not expecting a doctor who character. Ok. Lets go.

Why I like them: part of it is just because she was my first companion. I fell in love with Doctor Who through her. But also, theres something to be said for a perfectly normal, ordinary person with flaws and who probably doesnt think much of themselves, who is young and naive and loving, who ends up doing extraordinary things without some preternatural destiny guiding them. The only other companion who really hit on that was Bill. Donna had a bit, but there were elements of s4 that implied that it was all some sort of prophecy coming together. The DoctorDonna and all that. Rose really was so ordinary. Even Bad Wolf was born of something so ordinary, so human, this intense love and desire to protect. Rose was, in so many ways, such a perfect first companion, because from the beginning shes such an every girl. And she has so much compassion for so many. Everytime she interacts with people, especially people who work for other people, she treats them like people and like equals. Theres the mechanic in "the end of the world," gwenyth, etc. I just... Ugh. I love her. Bills still my fave, but rose is a VERY close second.

Why I don't like them: her selfishness. I dont know if its really that I dont like her because of it, because I like that she has a real, human flaw, and its a real reason that people might dislike them. It means shes well written, and feels real and human. But it still bugs me. Especially in s1, but even in parts of s2. She treats Mickey and her mother with this dissmissiveness, which is very immature. Like she thinks they only exist when shes around. She gets called on it though, and pretty early on. She never fixes it fully, especially where Jackie is concerned, but she makes an effort. But you can especially see it in school reunion, with her jealousy of sarah jane. She has a problem with the people she loves fully having lives outside of her, especially when those lives seem like a threat to the one shes creating.

Favorite Episode: the Parting of ways, fear her, turn left, or stolen earth/journeys end. Aka, im a simple girl with simple pleasures, and those pleasures are rose being a badass/saving the day. Special mention for the idiot lantern bc i must have watched it 20 times and they give me LIFE the doctor and rose in that episode.

Favorite season: 2. Shes starting to get more confident and sure of herself, but shes still human and flawed.

Favorite Line: whatever the hell she says during the christmas invasion, when shes trying to get the sycorax to leave. Its utter bull, makes zero sense, and its beautiful.

OTP: Doctor/Rose. Any doctor. Im a little desperate to see rose/thirteen. Also Rose/doctor/river. If ianto didnt exist, id say rose/jack/doctor, but alas, he does.

Favorite outfit: oh god. Either the one in the unquiet dead, the idiot lantern, the long game, or the doctor dances. There are so many more though. Her costuming was brilliant.

BroTP: rose and jack.

Headcanon: you mean besides time lord/immortal Rose? Ok here it goes.

So when Rose dropped out of high school for Jimmy Stone, she ran away. Went off on tour with Stone and his band. While on tour, she got.very close to the other band members, including the lead singer/lyricist, a very cute 20 yr old Welshman going through his rebellious phase named Ianto Jones, who helped her figure out she needed to go home and, in the process realized he needed to stop rebelling and start acting like a mature adult, leading to him eventually signing on with Torchwood. Meanwhile, Rose is stranded all the way in Paris because she won't stay on that tour bus with Jimmy, and she's terrified to call her mum, who had told her she'd never forgive her if she ran off and wasted her life on Jimmy. Penniless and desperate, walking alone in the rain, Rose thinks she's never going to make it back to London when she almost gets run over by a car after forgetting to watch where she's going and wandering into the street. The driver swerves and just barely miss her, and after pulling over, a man hops out of the car and starts admonishing her, when Rose bursts into tears. Feeling badly, the man insists on taking her home. She tells him home is in London, too far away for her to accept, but the man refuses to listen, telling her he was heading to London anyway, and here, why don't you borrow my cell phone and call your mum, I'm sure she wants you home. He's right of course, and Jackie cries from relief at hearing from her and is thrilled she's coming home. The man's name was Rory, she learned on the drive, and he was married to a wonderful woman who he loved named Amy, and they lived in Leeds but he was travelling around from work and he was heading from Paris to London because of it. It took six hours to gt back to London, and once they got there, her mum treated Rory to breakfast and he went on his way and rose never saw him again.

Yes, it was that Rory. He was with Amy and the Doctor and he got stranded in Paris in the early 2000's and he wasn't heading into London at all but he felt very bad about almost hitting the poor girl with his car and he recognized her from an old picture he found while he was wandering the Tardis and he brought it to the doctor to ask him about it and the Doctor got very sad and very quiet and walked very quickly away from the conversation and Rory figured that meant that he used to travel with her and there was a sad story in there somewhere and he was curious about the girl and how she'd inspire that kind of emotion from a man he'd rarely seen care about anything real.

Should I make this a fanfiction? I kind of want to make this an actual fic... Anyway.

Unpopular opinion: ...She is a very much not straight woman. I don't know if that's unpopular, but it isn't popular. Or at least, it isn't talked about.

A wish: That she comes back in S13 and we see a reunion. I am but a simple girl with simple pleasures and I have been WAITING WITH BATED BREATH FOR A ROSE COMEBACK FOR YEARS AND I AM O V E R D U E.

An OMG-Please-Don't-Ever-Happen: For a character that is no longer in the show there isn't much I can say. I'd be very disappointed if they brought Rose back and ruined it but that requires them to bring her back first.

5 words that best describe them: Kind, good, jealous, badass, loving

My nickname for them: I don't really have one

Give me more characters! I love this!

[sammy-gvf]

We get along (for the most part)

chapter 3

warnings : just some cursing

plot: the local rebel badass girl and lee bodecker have had some run ins, lets see how it goes, shall we?

Previous chapters will be linked, one is pinned on my profile

Climbing my way up the steep and creaky stairs of the chapel, I look up and start to see the sunlight leak through the glass stained windows, taking it step by step and looking at my feet as I walk. 

I’m taking my time walking up the stairs though, I really am not in a rush to get back to the hot box of a room they call the chapel. Stopping, I look outside to see Lee standing next to his cruiser. I find myself staring for a moment, I can't put a finger on why I’m in such a trance.

Lee is standing there drinking his coffee out of a plain white plastic cup, I watch as he lifts it up and brings it to his pink lips. His jawline is flexing every time he brings the cup up to take a sip, I can't help but stare. He suddenly turns over to his left and spits out tobacco, his eyes travel up the dirt to the window I’m absentmindedly staring at him through.

“Fuck” I whisper to myself as I duck down below the window. “ I hope he didn't see me”  I think to myself. I wait a minute to pop back up and then I suddenly hear footsteps coming from behind me. I look behind me and it's just Mrs. Bodecker, I softly smile and walk up the stairs alongside Ruth in silence. Entering the Chapel, the hot air instantly slaps me in the face and I instantly break into a sweat. 

As I slide back down next to my parents, I look back at the space that Lee was sitting in. His wife looks around to see where Lee could have possibly gone off to, so I decide to get up quietly and sit next to Ruth. People stare as I quietly get up out of my seat in the pew and walk over to sit in the empty spot that Lee occupied before he went outside for some unknown time. Ruth smiles and scoots over a bit to let me sit. For the remainder of the church service,  Ruth and I just exchanged quiet smiles and enjoyed each other's company. 

Standing up and saying a quiet “goodbye”, I step out of the pew and turn towards the door to find a rather pissed off looking Lee Bodecker waiting for me. 

 I slowly walk past Lee with utter precaution, I’m terrified he will touch me again the way he did not even 3 hours ago.

 Now that he has done what he has to me, I feel rather intimidated by him. I won't lose my attitude, not one bit but I'm a little scared of the physical power he could have over me. 

I book it over to my fathers car, it looks like I’m the first one out of church. Sighing and my head hanging low, I turn around to sit in the bed of my fathers truck when I bump into something. I look up and find that it isn't something but someone.  

Lee Bodecker towers over my tiny stature, as I’m only 5 foot 3. 

“You looked quite in a rush to leave the chapel, huh?” he  says as he leans up against the side of my fathers truck.

“Lee, I really don't want to talk to you.” I say as I start to turn away from him,  I only got a few steps in before he grabbed my arm.

“When your sheriff is talking to you, you answer.” He says with authority, turning me around to look him directly in the eyes

 quickly escaping his grip, I back away from him

“ Do you really think I'm going to respect you after what you just did?Also, dont fucking touch me again. Who do you think you are?” I spit at him as he just stands there with his hands on his hips and a smirk on his face. “Go to hell, Lee.” I turn away and start to walk towards the church again to meet up with my family, but he stops me by trailing behind and taking the space in front of me as his. 

He spits out the toothpick he had in his mouth and replaces it with a mint. Completely unable to move, he hovers over my ear and whispers “Darlin, you ain't seen nothin yet.” and he starts to stride away from me.

 I instantly get goosebumps and the hair stands up on my arm. 

Not knowing what to say until he is at least 6 feet away from me, I blurt out 

“By the way, met your wife. She's too good for you.” I say as I pop a cigarette in my mouth, I light the cigarette and take a few steps backward, distancing myself from him. Promptly as if complete rage took over, he starts to speed walk towards me and I just stand there watching with a smile on knowing that we won't be alone any longer.

 A group of people walk out of the church,chatting and laughing; including Lee's wife, Ruth. Standing on the porch of the church, I see her wave towards Lee and I, only I wave back. I take the last puff of my cigarette and put it out under the sole of my shoe. I cock my head to the side and give him a little “bye, bye” smile and a little wave

 Lee gives me a “I’ll get you” look as he slowly turns away to walk towards his wife.

“ Lee! Honey, where were you the last 30 minutes of church?” 

My eyes follow him as he walks up to his wife, he puts his arm around her waist and guides her down to his car. As she gets herself into the car, he turns around and gives me a stern look before he steps in. I can't help but chuckle out loud as he tries to look intimidating.

My brother and parents walk up to the car to get in and I see Lees police cruiser slowly drive past my family and I. Looking past the cruiser, I hop in the car and we start to drive away from the chapel. 

About 10 minutes later, we arrive home and I hop out of the car to head to my room. I immediately flop onto my bed and groan. I have so much work to sort out and do, college has had me absolutely exhausted.

I go to Knockemstiff Community College, as a business major. I usually prefer to do work at the library or the diner, I just can't concentrate at home. My father is always ramblin on about somethin, he’s a retired coal miner. Always goin on about the news or some drama floatin around town. Thinking about how my father will most likely try to talk about something stupid with me, I decide to grab my things and head over to the library. My friends know i'm usually there around 1 or 2 oclock on Sundays so they usually meet me there. 

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The town of Knockemstiff is not large by any capacity whatsoever, so anyone you see walkin around town, you most likely know. 

Looking out my car window, I watch as people walk to the same place I see them go every single sunday.  Some goin to the pharmacy, the butchers, the small grocery store we have here, it's all a repetitive process. 

Pulling up to the library, I grab my stuff out of the passenger seat and head inside to find my friend waiting patiently at the table we usually sit at. 

Knockemstiff has its quirks and this fine ol library is one of them. The gray building sticks out among the rest of them in this lil town. Stepping in, it never ceases to amaze me, the architecture of this library is nothing compared to the town hall. The high rise ceilings make the room look massive and the oak bookshelves give the room a type of glow. I always have enjoyed scanning the many rows and sections, getting lost without a worry in the world.

“Mags! Oh, girl have I got gossip for you!” She says to me and frantically waves me down to come sit with her.

Lilly-Ann Brighter has been my very best friend since high school, we did everything together and we still do. Her parents were not  too fond of me, bein the rebellious kid in school didn't give me the best reputation with her parents but they got to know me better and now consider me one of their own. It's been a long journey trying to get Mr. and Mrs. Brighter to trust me with their careful daughter.

I sit down hurriedly and wait for her to tell me,  I haven't seen her in 2 weeks so I'm curious as to what she has to tell me about. I get out my books and paper, set them up and wait for her to blurt out what she has to say, she's always been one to tell me all the gossip. 

“ You will not guess who moved in nextdoor to me!” She says whispering to me over the table, we may be in a library but  nothing will stop her from talking as loud as possible. 

“Who? Was it that boy you said you met in your classes?” I say as I open my textbook to the tiny tab sticking out of the top of it, the pages are torn from previous owners and many years of use. I had bought this from the school store, it was rented previously.  I grab the cup of coffee that Lilly had brought for me.

“ The Sheriff and his wife moved in yesterday.” Lilly says

 Immediately, the hot coffee I was drinking went down the wrong tube, choked a little bit and then started coughing, Lilly gave me a worried look as I slowly got up from the table to walk to the bathroom, just so I wasn't interrupting the other people in the library with my coughing fit.

Arriving to the bathroom, I instantly let out the suppressed cough i was holding in, letting all the liquid that got stuck in my throat come out. Practically hacking up a lung for 5 minutes, I go over to the sink and splash some water on my face and take a drink from the faucet. Looking up at the mirror, you notice bruises slowly starting to form on your chin, Lilly is for sure going to ask questions. 

“ Why the fuck are things happening to me like this” I say outloud to myself. 

I give my face one last look and I head back out to the main library to study with Lilly.

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finally chapter 3 is out! 

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@buckysdolls , @nerdy-depressed , @ladyfallonavenger , @do-not-pray-for-me​ , @not-another-fangirl​

[girlucifer]

aaa i really love hearing people talk about their ocs. yours seems so sweet and i really like the way you describe her. so for the ask game

👁️ EYE - what colour are their eyes? do people notice their eyes? is there anything special about them (shows emotion easily, literally magical...)?

💐 BOUQUET - create a bouqet for them! what do those flowers mean? are any of the flowers their particular favourite?

🙈 SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?

🎁 PRESENT - what types of presents would they be most happy to receive? are they good at gift giving?

📎 PAPERCLIP - a random fact.

sorry if it's too much i'm just really curious

[ask game]

👁️| what color are their eyes? do people notice their eyes? is there anything special about them?

they are just the basic indian girl. brown eyes, showing nothing ever. nothing special... but of course, brown eyes are inherently sexy on woc so its ok <3

💐| create a bouquet for them! what do those flowers mean? are any of the flowers their particular favorite?

pink roses- cute, innocent, plus my mom grows them in her front yard so. just something cute!

white amaryllis- symbolizes pride & strength, so you know where i'm going with this. my mc's primary vice they lean the most into is pride thus the bond they share with the prince of pride is one of self-recognition ☆

white chrysanthemums- november's flowers are chrysanthemums (bday is in nov!) and i suppose white mums symbolize loyalty and truth... something my mc thrives in and very much prioritizes!

pink asters- just a cute little one, i love pink if you couldn't tell!

🙈| what's a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?

naturally they hide much of themselves away in fear of rejection or humiliation- their true feelings, their thoughts and opinions... naturally being surrounded by these powerful demons, angels, and sorcerers alike, my mc is totally out of their league and will only continue to tuck away their feelings to win over these elite figures but over time -hopefully- they will learn to be more vocal and believe in themselves!

🎁| what types of presents would they be most happy to receive? are they good at gift giving?

they'd be happy to receive anything! the thought of a present makes them soo happy ♡ however they dont show it so every time one of the brothers gives them a present they are like omfg mc you hate it dont you ... :( and mc is like 😶 no i love it 😶 on the other hand, they are horrible at gift giving and rather provide their appreciation through acts of service and quality time together ♡

📎| a random fact!

my mc is now updated to have a scar on their left eyebrow due to me needing some stitches last month and my mc being. a mirror copy of me 🥺 so they have a lil cut there! they are like am i still sexy 🤧🤧 to lucifer who's like you never were. can you please get off my desk . . .

thank you soooo much anon this is soooo sweet that you like my mc! <3 and do not even worry about asking too much because i will talk forever and ever! thank you again and i hope you have a lovely day week month year etc etc you are everything to me right now! stay safe and enjoy today! <3

[sscactus5719]

Okay wow, alright time for my silly thoughts on the new Tommy lore stream because wow that was a lot.

Spoilers for Tommy's lore stream on 3/12/2021. Know that at this point I have only really seen his perspective and heard about others so I'll only be talking on his character and his reactions.

This is going to be long so prepare yourself, and know I am talking solely about characters the entire time, not the cc's.

(I am also very open for discussion because I am so curious to hear others opinions :) )

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My thoughts on Tommy & Dream

TW//Manipulation & Abuse

To start off, Tommy is free now. He got out of prison and is now physically free of Dream.

But he really isn't.

Dream still looms over everything he does, every action he takes paved in fear and trauma that he knows is there. I like to believe the theory that Dream is attached to Tommy, and in doing what he did and traumatizing him to this extent he has made himself irreplaceable in Tommy's mind. Even if that is in the way Tommy wants him dead(whether for the good of the server or just a personal vendetta).

Also this is shown in the trident scene once again.

The first time was in exile, Tommy whispering how he is "all Alone"

The second after Dream is put away, screaming "I'm Free!"

The third after he leaves Prison, trying to fly again and feel free, but only receiving pain as he lands hard.

This kid wont ever be free of Dreams influence until the man is dead, and probably not even that will stop him. Because the effects of trauma dont end after the abuser is dead.

I could go on for hours about their relationship now, but I'm going to stop before I get too rambly.

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My thoughts on Tommy and Tubbo/Ranboo

Dear lord the children have just received more trauma.

To start this one, I don't feel as if Tommy's character feeling replaced is out of bounds or a bad storyline. Tommy has always been a bit possessive of Tubbo, his loyalty and devotion to him only escalated due to the end of the disc war.

He no longer had to choose between the peices of a past life he missed so dearly and his best friend standing in front of him.

But now he feels replaced, and that is totally valid response, especially for someone who has felt like people move on or forget him so quickly. Even though it felt like months to Tommy, it had only been about 3/4 days he was thought dead if we are going with irl time.

Also, while I wish the flower was more cared for, that is the result of being trapped with an abuser for a long period of time, dying and being brought back to life shattered. He probably didn't even realize the sentimental value, or incorrectly guessed the value in a moment of panic.

Because you put flowers on a grave, a casket, and everyone was exclaiming Tommy's death.

(Ranboo also has everything Tommy could have wanted at this point[Tubbo's friendship, respect and acknowledgment beyond anger, a decent relationship with Techno.] To Tommy's knowledge, Ranboo is happy.

Miscommunication is the big thing here, and truely talking it out will probably solve a lot of issues with how Tommy feels, so HOPEFULLY Tommy(well basically everybody) gets some therapy and can take those steps.

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My thoughts on c!Tommy and c!Jack Manifold's.

TO PREFACE, I DON'T KNOW MUCH ON JACK (dont know jack about jack haha), I HAVEN'T WATCHED MANY OF HIS STREAMS.

But I don't see either side of the party in the right or wrong here. We're in that gray area most of the SMP sits in of, both characters acting out or not because of emotions unregulated.

Jack was angry Tommy was alive, saying he grieved even after all Tommy had done to him. He tried to visit in exile and Tommy forgot about him. He even brings up the nukes to kill him. He said Tommy should have stayed dead, and shouted about how the hotel should have been his. That Tommy is selfish and did nothing to deserve this.

Tommy shoots back with anger and frustration and desperation for Jack to see he has changed and bigger things are happening that he doesn't see. That he has changed in drastic ways because he DIED, but he interrupts and Jack takes it badly.

He says Tommy is making it all about him, "thinking he is all that" because he died. As if the server hadn't crafted him into the perfect soldier and perfect hero long ago and as if it isn't forcing him to play the role like a good little puppet.

Tommy is forced into the main characters role, but with all the consequences of a real leader. No plot armor can protect him, and Jack is a perfect example of that.

Anyways, this entire interaction was filled with terrible miscommunication and anger that hasn't been processed properly. Two parties that are hurting but not being heard out.

Therapy is definitely a must.

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My thoughts on Tommy's character now.

PLEASE GET SOME THERAPY

Honestly this child just needs to catch a break. He keeps setting higher goals for himself to reach to distract him from what he has faced, but he can't do it anymore.

Tommy cannot be a child anymore, he is being forced into the adult role, the hero role, so aggressively that he was forced to continue his life to continue it.

Tommy has experienced Trauma after Trauma, and been made to keep walking.

It's never his time to die if you remember.

Tommy has suffered, and while he isn't a perfect character, while he is flawed, he hasn't deserved the lot his has been thrown. The cards he has been given.

Maybe that's why they play solitaire in the afterlife. You don't get to pick your cards there, only where you play them.

But he honestly just needs someone to help him, he needs a support system he can rely upon. He needs someone there to help him keep going.

At this point, it'll probably be Puffy.

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My little thoughts for the continuing of Tommy

Just let him leave. Let him leave the main portion of the Dream SMP, alone or with Puffy(preferred). Let him just leave everything, forcibly taking himself from the story. Let him breath and not have to worry about the server's well being, or Dream or Wilbur.

Let him be the kid who has been traumatized but is getting help.

Therapy arc please??

Also I really hope Tommy and Techno become friends again. Or at least they dont hate each other(more Techno hating Tommy, because I dont think the sentiment is returned). I think I've included this in every post I've made, but their relationship makes me sad and I miss it :(

ANYWAYS

TLDR; Everyone needs therapy, even the therapist, and Dream is a terrible person.

If you made it this far, thank you for reading my thoughts! I have had a lot bottled up and this was a nice outlet. The Dream SMP is really fun to talk about, so I hope it keeps going like this. Please have a wonderful day!

[shijiujun]

this is very random but i’m feeling kind of frustrated/confused now and i truly regard you as fandom jiejie so i would like to rant a bit and seek your advice(?) recently, i found out that i got blocked by another tumblr that’s quite popular in the cql fandom for creating gifs etc. i don’t know who the person is and have never interacted with the blog; i only found out because i couldn’t reblog the person’s post (which i saw on my feed because someone i followed reblogged it). i was curious why but i realized that the person is probably against mxtx/danmei books etc, which i sometimes post about, for i guess homophobic/fetishizing reasons? but i’ve never followed or interacted so i’m really not sure why i got “noticed” like that. anyway, like i respect the person’s choices and rights to block people, but i haven’t been in the fandom for long and basically never encountered something like this before, so i’m slightly bothered by it. i’m guessing it’s quite common and i know i should probably just ignore/avoid the person (since they blocked me anyway) but i’m too easily affected. how do you usually deal with people like that? thank you.

oh oh hi! hahaha damn am i fandom jiejie?!?!?! sarah is my fandom jiejie ;-; 

anyway oomph sorry you found out about the block from that specific person and are feeling terrible about it! not easy to realize you’re blocked by someone

ehhh actually there can be a few reasons why ppl block i mean in general:

1. it could be an accident, tumblr fucks up q regularly

2. users have beef against each other (unavoidable, i mean we’re placing a lot of opinionated ppl squeezed into a room)

3. you just dont wanna see their stuff or opinions on your blog - i mean this is very understandable, whether out of like genuine like damn this is really not content i wanna see or i really hate the subject matter - both ways go and unfortunately-

unfortunately, it’s all part and parcel of being on social media and on an online space! i know this is hard to hear but everyone escapes to their blogs or accounts right and especially on tumblr where everything is slightly more curated, people create their blogs and create content for mostly themselves first - and we all do things to make sure our dashes stay the way we want them to look 

i for one use the block button very liberally - sometimes just because i disagree with someone and feel that there is just no way i can see their further posts on the matter, or you know, when i get triggered with pet peeves hahahaa sadly i am that kind of person XD i come onto my blog to be happy, and if anything makes me the slightest bit annoyed/uncomfortable, i don’t feel guilty at all about using the button 

i’ve also blocked for my own sanity for e.g. if a blog i see keeps reblogging the same post in the span of 48 hours (talking about like more than five times, and i’m personally totally okay if it’s a timezone reblog for fics or psas or infos!) for notes i mean, their blog, they can do whatever they want and i am in no place to judge, but it made me really competitive and i felt like it was really toxic to keep staring at notes so i blocked for my own sake because i have zero impulse control

and sometimes it’s personal, sometimes it’s not! in your case i think it may help? idk, because these things are stressful and i don’t deal well with like anger HAHAHAHA:

1. don’t take it personally and don’t think too much about it or about why or what you posted that could have made them block you - this blog is for you. and the ppl who follow you in a sense, so if anyone is unhappy that’s on them to block etc. - and don’t think about you getting ‘noticed’, posts turn up in searches all the time as well and it could just have been a particular post 

2. blocking in my opinion is so much better than the user coming to fight with you via anon or rallying other ppl to bully you for your posts online - trust me, this gets ugly, and if it ever happens you’ll wish they used the block button instead - we should be happy there’s a block button! in fact i’d like a mute button like on twitter - i like this blog but this blog’s posts for now idw to see but i still like their overall stuff just not during this period when this bij is gg mad over shan he ling (i’m talking about others when thinking about me btw HAHAHAHA) - blocking is like “i reject you but politely tyvm” rather than “here’s why i rejected you and you must hear all the reasons and i will add more once you fight back”

yep, not pleasant at all

*also gonna take the opportunity to remind peeps to pls block me if your other alternative is to sneak into my ask box for a fight or write a vague personal post hating on me tyvm, 慢走不送*

3. we can’t please everybody!!! idk either ppl ignore me, or at least half of them may have blocked me - i dont blame em hahahaa i do get into ask fights when anons especially come into my ask box looking for one HAHAHA - i mean, i use the block, can’t expect others not to, but just have to get used to ppl just blocking i think!

4. of course if a blog i follow and like blocked me i’d definitely be sad but... what can you or i do? 

5. all content is fine as long as it’s made with thought i feel - all opinions are good as long as they are made with thought and also you and i for that matter are able to stand behind it when someone comes knocking so like obviously if something hurtful is said, then the following angry responses may be expected, but also if you’ve put thought into your posts (i don’t mean like thought THOUGHT but more like when u post anything that can be controversial for e.g. or could potentially be hurtful it’s always good to kind of adjust a little before posting anything) then you should just stand behind your own posts and be who you are online

6. it’s too much to speculate on why ppl do anything, just blog and be happy :DDD

[dreaming-of-assclass]

I personally see Irina as a water bender bc of her redirection and nature to adapt, and karaduma as a fire bender due to his power and drive, with all three teachers being their bending masters. Can I ask why you placed these two in where you did? I'm curious 🤔please dont take this as a hate I'm just genuinely curious fjskjfjdjfk it's just air seems like too much of a passive element for Irina djsjjfj

No no you’re totally fine!! I love hearing other opinions and I’m completely fine with explaining anything!

I actually really was gonna make Karasuma a firebender! I was very tempted, but the idea of him being a non-bender who specializes in martial arts really appealed to me too. Like it feels fitting to me, he’s supposed to be an ordinary man but he goes way beyond those expectations and trains himself past his limit. And he gets a lot of respect as a non-bender, with his military knowledge, strategic skill, and of course, sheer strength and combat prowess.

But I can 100% see him as a firebender too, and I really love that idea. He’d be a grouchy and distant teacher, but very encouraging and protective of his disciples. And yessss I can see Karasuma the most pulling all those firebending moves.

As for Irina...I was super tempted to make her a waterbender too. Your reasoning is completely spot on, I agree!

I chose air because I really loved the idea of her suffocating her “victims” and sucking all their oxygen out when she kisses them. Like that would be her trademark skill and she teaches it to 3-E (the kissing move basically lol) except to incapitate, not actually kill.

Tbh besides that, I just liked the air vibe too. It’s a very flowy and seemingly passive, but forceful type of energy imo. I can’t explain it too well hahah. Also she’s a Libra, which is an air sign. I may be projecting. 

After reading your ask and thinking about it, I like both of these modifications to them a lot. Irina as a waterbender would be so badass, she’d constantly pull out the ice spikes on people. And blood bending?? 👀 Hella badass ngl. And Karasuma just totally suits firebending omg. They’d be such an iconic duo, I can imagine them standing together in a badass pose with their respective elements.

OMG THEY’RE LITERALLY FIREBOY AND WATERGIRL. Does anyone else remember that game or am I old?

[swynlake-spill]

Boba, please bully some of our shyer residents into posting selfies! I am dying for some Rarer Insta Content.

ok i’ll try here we go 

@vixey-chakraborty KEEP THE COW CONTENT COMING BUT ALSO LET UR OWN NATURAL RADIANCE SHINE!!! I LOVE U PLEASE IM ASKING SO NICELY BUT ALSO VERY LOUDLY SO EVERYONE CAN HEAR 

@rikuxnakayama sir  i cannot keep buying overpriced coffee from [name redacted] just for the ten seconds of eye contact we have i simply do not make enough money have pity on me and POST 

@vitani-blackwell u arent really shy so i dont understand how you are not posting daily thirst traps i have seen your body and therefore seen god please RESUME REGULAR CONTENT 

@melody-the-unwritten typing ur username just now made me cry. :( melody i MISS YOu. melody i dont think u understand u could be miss swynlake if u wanted... this is your YEAR

@princess-ting-ting you post extremely quality pics of your fish and family jigsaw puzzles and stuff and thats valid and good plz dont stop but also you are the qin i respect in this world and i think you deserve to be told how beautiful u are js 

@littlelectriceelduh ur mysterious and look like the boy my mum warned me about. plz indulge my worst desires and help me star in my very own all time low pop punk fantasy 

@arista-the-musical BLASPHEMY that i am tagging a triton wtf did your sisters teach u!! arista when i say that i believe if you post selfies tagged #stopglobalwarming that it could maybe inspire a movement im not even being hyperbolic i think the power is in your hands and you should use it 

@cinderellaashbourne HONEY PLEASE COME HOME tiana as her roommate why are you not instilling in ella the confidence needed to become a powerhouse insta mom im just saying she could build an empire off her smile 

@babettexdurand seeing u makes me go  🥺 🥺 🥺 🥺 🥺 🥺 sincerely do not think there are words... 

@evil--endeavors you want to be taken seriously as a business woman, totally fair! however, fourth wave feminism said stuff about idk owning ur sexuality or-- nvm dont do it for me do it for the young LESBIANS. also kick me in the face :) 

@one-lucky-lad small confession...i have a crush on this darling I KNOW I KNOW HOW EMBARRASSING however i am not immune to the specific charms of his beautiful blue eyes. im just saying haha what if we kissed 

@tink-bell tink used to post all the time but then she got her heart broken or something and i just think she needs to build up all that very valid fierce tink bell confidence she was famous for!! tink PLEASE give me the bed selfie i know you have! txt me u up ;) ? ask me to netflix and chill! also post on instagram obviously! 

@sanmononoke what is going on with this person real talk besides ofc being very hot as per swynlake’s hotness requirement. idk if she has an instagram. bet she’d post like feet pics and shit like that. think that we need a little bit of that spice in swynlake dont you!!! 

@moon-yeongjun frankly it is a crime that we are all collectively robbed of the journey that would be jun moon instagram experience. if you dont think he’s hot you’re lying to yourself!! new rule every time jun posts a petition he owes us a selfie its only fair idk im once again putting tiana to the task of making that happen

@notmuchofatail he’s been posting more lately but it is not enough for me. gregory eeyore is my past present and future. like im in love with him is what im saying. 

@a-merman-not-a-guppy stop pretending like you’re not a handsome lad its EMBARRASSING. what is the point also of designing ur own clothes if you arent putting up your wares on instagram. again this is just common sense i cannot believe im giving this immaculate advice for free. 

@notbad-justsungthatway again she posts decently but i think she should post more bc she is easily in the ten hottest people ever in swynlake. its a fact not an opinion and we’d all feel a lot calmer if she was active daily on instagram

@pinkpearlpark the coolest of the teens!! i need her to post so she can teach ME how to post. like idk what im doing teach me the ways of being an attractive rich cool person miss park! 

@bucktoothed--ice-prince again idk whats going on here he’s this very mysterious stranger who blew into town out of nowhere. maybe going without an instagram is the whole point but i would rather write dumb things on ur posts tbh

@trickster-knownas-pan AND A THIRD person who i know nothing about. maybe i am just nosy but also you are hot so you owe me something thats how survival of the fittest works maybe !!!!!!! i failed science three times!!!! 

@devyn-morey lol i know he posts a lot but obviously! obviously! 

@geehosaphat on the other hand martin has two posts on his instagram maybe and thats abysmal. martin you do realize you’re like. hot right. i mean it like you could be in a magazine. you’re hot. take off your shirt sometime maybe if you’re comfortable so you can flaunt it! 

@winndeavor again i know ur a serious business person who has a certain brand to maintain. on the other hand: you have abs. much to think about i know. 

@hclyghcst DISGUSTING that you could win jewel of the season or w/e and then disappear from my life. you owe me like ten selfies at this point! you’re cute kind and a good friend to people in your life! fuck im obsessed with u!! 

@vvinter-queen and now we shout out to her sister ANNA to help her. anna how is it that u have a moderately thriving bookstagram and yet elsa has no idea what a filter is. intervene. fix it. she’s beautiful. imagine how much ice cream u will sell. 

@gleamdncglow u dont have to post bc it might actually piss me off considering how pretty you are. but if you want to i guess (please please please please please please) 

@gabriella-marino you know what’s the best way to get to know ppl in town and make friends! yeah ur right, its thirst traps on instagram! i think you’re so cute on a serious note please tell me more about u...maybe in the captions on your thirst trap for instagram! 

@edwardandalasia honestly just curious how it would go if someone showed edward who is maybe suffering from some textbook case of amnesia how instagram works. you also have the best skin ive ever seen. send me ur tips. ok thank u!!!