#but :] reality strikes again

[nonokoko13]

Ok so today I found out Nanbaka ended some time ago so I spoiled myself and man, the ending was so rushed and angst for no reason and overall disappointing??? The author threw very important lore info and a plot twist that felt all out of the blue near the ending... I love angst but when it is well written, and this was not. Their friendship was real, even if prior to the series start wasn't I know what I read was real friendship and this ending ruins for me one of the main themes of this show.

I don't post a lot about this series because I started it before I even had Tumblr but Nanbaka was everything to me back then. Even after I was forced to move on because the english translation stopped and finding all chapters fan translated was very difficult I'd find myself thinking about these characters sometimes and I almost dare to say that it was a comfort series. Not being able to keep reading it without going through a Odyssey was already upsetting but the ending? What in the actual fuck is that. Is not even the fact it was a sad ending what bothers me the most, it's that it was sad and felt bad written or without proper building 🙁

This literally summaries my opinion regarding what happened to the main group:

Now I feel bad? Bad like when you receive bad news irl? Like I've received a punch in the stomach or a betrayal from a dear old friend

If spy x family or yuu & grim (including all of their friends in twst) separate in the end I'm losing all hope of being happy and relaxing with this trope without fearing the chance of getting backstabbed again forever

God please let them stick together or I'm going to make you the same thing you have done with me

[steelycunt]

all my uni rooms have had blackout curtains or shutters and it’s still really thrilling to me. i can bring the night back. you’ve got nothing on me

[casiavium]

Can't sleep again. Thinking about how I don't like knight/prince(ss) as a trope. Besides the fact that it's boring to me. This isn't "discourse" or a call out or anything it's just a personal interpretation and analysis

while yeah there's nothing wrong with that level of power imbalance in fiction, these tropes always act like that's a cute thing which I just find to be. 😬 y'know. Referring to a character as a "pet" for the royal one without understanding that that's. not a great dynamic to have. The "don't call them toxic or problematic!" When the relationship is inherently not equal and can never be without issues, but this can't possibly be discussed because then the person who ships it is a bad person 🙃

and for someee reason still bitching about the "more obvious" power imbalances like enemies, who most of the time end up being MORE equal because they're the same person same situation different fonts

It's fine to me when it's used as an insult (something something loyalty) and then there's discussion of "you know you mean so much more to me than that", or when there's a Very Obviously Fucked Up imbalance that is Very Obviously Not Normal and yet the one that gets the short end of the stick is like "fuck this I don't care that you think you're better than me. Your power only exists because I give you it, so be very careful how you use it" (and when they use it wrong there are consequences that don't get magically forgiven)

If the one with less control isn't very very aware of how much power the other has over them and could exert if they wanted to (but also the fact that the relationship and its genuineness hinges on their agreement) it gets a bit too concerning for me. If there isn't a certain level of meta intertextual analysis and understanding of the way the very much dominant/submissive dynamic works then it's just. Not interesting and often frustrating

Edit: this should have said intra-textual ("in the text itself", which I apparently not a word) not inter-textual (between texts)

[ghostmarmot]

The scales have fallen from my eyes.

My shit sucks. I thought I was a 4-ish on a 5 pt. scale. Nope, I'm a 2. 2.5 if I was really "on" when I was writing. I thought I was noteworthy, but I'm blah.

Finally, I can understand the rejection letters.

Finally, I can start to grow as an author.

Finally...

[elysiaskz]

js saw a woman with a skz jacket at the gas station and was so happy im very normal about skz can you tell 😍😍

[nando161mando]

The Metacrisis Strikes Again

[centralpark1981]

one fun thing about me is i furrow my brow a lot when i’m focusing/reading something and i don’t really outwardly express my happiness when i'm enjoy something so this is the face i make when i’m consuming something i’m interested in and having a fucking blast

[persimminwrites]

i wanna go back to the days where i wrote chapters and oneshots that were less than 1-2k words

[beyondthepleasureprinciple]

Hello, Windsor College residents, and welcome to episode two of Beyond the Pleasure Principle - don't worry, calm down. Nobody's dead. Not yet.

Now, some of you might be wondering why else I'm here. Oh, Acadia, we all slept wonderfully last night, oh, Acadia, we thought you were just here to talk about murder... and you'd be right, folks, but this little segment is just me checking in on you all. See, the chain of events I've got planned only works with the right people, and I gotta know you guys are it.

Western blocks - I know at least one of you dreamt about finding a body on campus. Don't freak out - it's not your time yet. You'll know about it when it is. Northern; I appreciate you're scared after 5C (sorry, Jack Wright, I suppose) kicked the bucket, but trust me, nobody dreaming of being attacked in the middle of the night... is going to be attacked in the middle of the night. It ruins my suspense, for fuck's sake.

Eastern blocks - you guys actually did have a good sleep. This ain't about you. Pass the fuck back out.

But our star of the show - Southern 7B. Let's talk about you real quick. Are you going to dream of drowning for a third night in a row tonight? I hope not, it's getting dull. I wear nice outfits when I come to see you and then I have to drag you outta the ocean and ruin my shirt. It's a tragedy. Stop it. Please. I'm damn near begging you to dream of, like, a sushi restaurant, or a coffee shop, or somewhere we can talk about your role in all of this, and we can't do that if I can't hear myself think over - you know - the sound of the fucking Pacific.

Okay? Okay. Great.

As for the rest of you - see you soon.

In your dreams,

Acadia xoxo

[death-rebirth-senshi]

Not to gush about my own characters again but I so adore the juxtaposition of the brutal look of the great stars as a weapon and the golden Erdtree armor. Poetic.

And patches is there because this was my first playthrough and I wasn't sure if I should join Volcano Manor immediately. Kind of unfortunate that you miss this encounter with him if you go to Volcano Manor immediately upon reaching Altus Plateau.

[steelycunt]

does sometimes make me sad that i dont have a better relationship with my sister especially when i see other people who do have good relationships with their siblings but then well i have one conversation with her lasting no more than four minutes and its like oh no i for SURE cant do this with you today 😂👍

[phantomdecibel]

Emitting a long and continuous high-pitched aaaaa over the fact that I just had a VIVID idea for something I want to draw

But.

I’m currently unable to get started on it. This is slaughtering me it is turning me inside out I am dying. I want this image to exist outside of my head SO BADLY but I can’t yet and now I am in pain.

Send help.

(y e s it was inspired by an Epic: the musical song leave me alone. I’ve been consumed it’s not my fault)

[delicatefury]

This is a Fantasy Story, not a grimdark tale of the suffering of the universe. A slave wins the race, a farmboy saves the day. Love convinces the monster to turn on his evil master. There is hope even in the darkest of times.

What a beautiful through-line in the 6 Star Wars mainline movies. Too bad Disney and its “creators” didn’t get the message.

I found a Filoni/Lucas interaction over the creation of Ahsoka, and I'm chortling.

Basically Filoni wanted Ahsoka to be a serious commentary on war and child soldiers and her lack of preparation because she's not trained for it

But then George basically told him:

So, in other words: She's got this, and lighten the fuck up :D

[daisyachain]

Great that Andreas has no option but to be an out-of-touch bourgeois

[euphorial-docx]

during the wga/sag-aftra strike, we may see:

film in other countries continuing as usual, but those actors/writers are NOT crossing picket lines! other countries unions often have rules where they can’t strike in solidarity with american unions.

new indie movies separate from hollywood studios. indie movies can continue as usual too, and may even use union actors if they follow certain guidelines and/or get permission from the union.

awards shows, although they might look different and may be postponed. if there are award shows during the strike, there’s a chance they will just be live conferences announcing winners with no celebrations attached.

celebrities will not be promoting their work during this time— that WOULD be crossing the picket line! yes, this includes social media. they can still post on social media, as long as it doesn’t pertain to their work.

a lot more reality tv. this happened the last time there was a writers strike, and it will certainly happen again.

actors will also not be able to campaign for awards. this awards season is going to be a strange one.

propaganda from hollywood. they are already trying to flip the narrative by claiming they can break the unions, but they can’t. the strikers have the power. stand with them for however long this takes!

[loycos]

ahh caitlyn my beloved.

let's talk about the trauma she has around jinx, in particular, in a way i think is more related to being targeted by jinx than just grief.

don't get me wrong- grief is a huge part of why caitlyn is all over the place this arc (season?). she probably came to the conclusion that her softer, pacifistic attitude from the first season is the reason she ended up hurt. clearly the rocky relationship she had with her mother adds a layer of bitterness and regret caitlyn is feeling regarding her death. alongside a million different reasons, which i might discuss in a different post.

but there's a clear difference between the anger and coldness we see from caitlyn when she discusses catching jinx and bringing her to justice, than when she faces jinx head on. in the latter, she suddenly loses her cool and acts all frantically, so unlike anything we've seen from caitlyn so far.

in her mind, in episode 1, she sees herself as collected and calm, aiming her rifle at jinx. btw, take note of how jinx is depicted here. her eyes are glowing.

but in reality, she's very much NOT cool and collected when she thinks that exact scenario is about to be replicated.

that's caitlyn's pov btw:

again jinx with the glowing eyes- caitlyn had seen what jinx looks like in other circumstances, but THIS is the version of her that she visualizes and then irrationally reacts to.

we see it again when she shoots jinx in the finger

no composure, no deep breathe, no thinking. she just shoots on instinct. it's nothing like she used to.

and then her frantically calling vi to move out of the way as she keeps firing, almost like shes blind to everything but jinx- the kid and vi, who are both in harm's way, don't stop her.

i know it's easy to just paint it as anger and grief here, but there's something about it that strikes me as almost like animalistic fear. she sees jinx and just goes feral mode, but its almost more of a prey instinct than a predator.

and i think it's because whenever she faces jinx, properly, it's not the grief and radicalized anger she's feeling, it just sends her back to this moment

with all the "jinx murdered her mom" talk its easy to forget that jinx also directly, and cruelly, targeted caitlyn, tried to kill her, kidnapped her and held her hostage for who knows how long. it's not just anger that caitlyn feels towards jinx. it's a trauma response. and like, welcome to the club, caitlyn! most of the arcane cast are acting out of trauma. but i better not see people think her trauma is somewhat lesser than some... other.. characters.