#btw these are all sooo canon i know this because they told me so themselves

[jarchivussy]

ok so like. to me. vash and wolfwood and meryl and milly are all dykes who r dating each other in complicated ways. they're all different flavours of dyke gender also

[justabunchofdragons]

HI i dont know anything about doctor who and also THERE ARE MULTIPLE DOCTORS??????????? but ummm who is your favorite doctor ? why? AND who is your least favorite doctor ? why ?

JGKFHFKDJ THESEUS ILY YEAH THERES MULTIPLE DOCTORS ok holdon im literally going to be so autistic about this dw is my specialisest interest ever maybe even above minecraft. we stay winning

SPOILERS AHEAD !!don't read if u wanna watch. but also i'll try not to say too many things that could ruin stuff. hopefully.

uhhhh ok i feel like i wanna explain the multiple doctors thing JKGJFKF how do u not know this.......,,, no matter! i will. explain >:] so there's one Person. the doctor ys? they are an alien from a planet very far away. it has two suns is very pretty. also its destroyed rn but thats a whole storyline i Don't want to get into. also their species (the timelords) treated them horribly so they have an attachment to earth and humans because we are :] nicer :]

um so because they can't keep one actor being the doctor like . forever. its going to have its 60th anniversary next year so like. they couldn't have stayed kgkgjfkfj. they give each one like 3 seasons roughly? and a few christmas specials etc etc and then the doctor regenerates into a new incarnation of themselves. they can't control Anything about this which is a uhhhhhh .genetic defect because the rest of the timelords Can. or could. they're sorta dead. lol. but because the show started 60 years ago + some of the older writers are a mix of racist and misogynistic, historically the doctor has been played by a bunch of white men. BUT . when the doctor regenerated on screen for the 12th time (going into the 13th incarnation) here we start winning . the first female doctor!!!!! the backlash was stupid misogynistic and literally so bad that ppl Stopped watching. also they complained that the writing was shitty which was kinda fair but also !! u can live a little. maybe shitty writing is how we stay grounded. i love my shitty little show with its bad special effects. gimme a tardis sound and ill go insane for a month im a simple guy. BUT ANYWAY first female doctor. (she's my favourite btw. and then after her its nine :])

look at her. she's a lesbian (canon)

NO LIKE LITERALLY CANON !!!! she was in love with her companion yaz (yasmin khan literal beloved . she's the best) but they didn't do anything bc . time was running out and the doctor had been told Multiple times that she was going 2 die soon. and neither of them wanted to hurt themselves that badly but i am so sidetracked rn lemme just go agonise over whos my least favourite. holdon ill be back in 3-5 business days.

ok just kidding. maybe 12? i feel rly bad saying that bc he was so... theatric. like some of the biggest speeches came from him. like his episodes Stuck with me and bc he was played by an older looking guy compared to 10 and 11 he just. felt so cool. 12 was so cool actually i changed my mind. no i didn't. OUGH this is so hard ☹

i kiiiiinda wanna say 10. but maybe thats because of the recent mess surrounding him. i don't wanna get into it my brain is so fried from thinking about it all kgkgjfkfj. cries. um. least favourite is sooo subjective. i watched 10 seasons in a month? so they all felt Revolutionary to me i can't pick 😭 theyre amazing. but definitely 13 then 9 are my favourites

that was so long i apologise. in my defence u unlocked autism brain

[selanpike]

A drawing of my OC Clovis, from Evil FTW, and an aside about his asexuality and my own journey to understand and express my own sexuality, as told through how I write this jerk:

When I was a teenager, I was asexual. But Selan, you might say, aren’t you bi/pan? Yeah dude. When people say your sexuality can change over time, they’re not lying. The whole reason why I didn’t come out of the closet until my mid-twenties is because I was ace before that.

And Clovis here is ace. But I haven’t established that in canon, which I’m annoyed about, but I didn’t fully understand him at first. I wasn’t really sure you could, you know, have an ace character without some weird explanation for it. I knew the word “asexual” from like, high school, but my friends--the LGBT “experts” of my school--kept telling me no, asexual is just something you describe sponges with, or stuff like that. 

And they were saying that about me, btw. Not about the character. Cue all the tired jokes about “do you reproduce with budding??” So I got convinced asexuality wasn’t a real thing, because if the kids who made it their business to know everything about sexuality didn’t think it was real, that was that, then.

(and let’s not even go into all the toxic shit they fed me about gender identity, HOO BOY, that’s a rant for another day)

So I didn’t see my identity as real. And I struggled with that. I hid behind my religion, saying no, I’m just avoiding sex for moral reasons, and sometimes I believed it. If you go through my old writing (don’t) you’d see all the weird, toxic ways I tried to understand sexuality, without fully understanding that that’s what I was trying to do.

With Clovis, in his original story before EFTW, I had this dumbass backstory where he was abducted by aliens and castrated and now he can’t have/doesn’t want sex and it was SOOO TRAGIC. I had thoughts about that a lot. For all I’d insist that you could have a fulfilling relationship without sex, I felt there was something deeply tragic about me, and whenever I saw relationships like in media or whatever where one person was like, idk a ghost or whatever, I felt like they were doomed.

The same way Clovis was doomed, the same way I was.

By the time I got to EFTW, I realized that backstory was bullshit, so I threw it out. He still has a traumatic thing in his past, but it’s unrelated to his sexuality. I still didn’t clearly establish him as ace though. I had pairings I kinda liked for him, so I wanted to keep that open but……. No man none of that ever worked. Listen, I got ships like nobody’s business for my own characters, but they decide for themselves what actually works. Clovis never clicked with anyone.

I like to think he probably struggled with that for a while, feeling like sort of a failure as a person for a while (hi my own feelings), but it was likely wrapped up in all the rest of his issues, so I’m not sure he ever recognized it as a sexuality thing rather than just, you know, an extension of his overall post-traumatic shit.

And I, now, understand that there was never really anything wrong with me, and my being ace was okay. My being bi now is okay too. Sexuality is weird, but something not being permanent doesn’t mean it didn’t matter.

By this point in the story Clovis definitely knows he’s ace and is okay with it. But I… still haven’t said it in canon. Because he’s such a private person and come on dude could you please talk about yourself more

aNYWAY THE POINT OF THIS RAMBLING IS THAT ACE REPRESENTATION IS IMPORTANT and I wish I’d had access to the sort of info that’s more common today, back when I was a baby ace. The fact that I only understood my asexuality after I stopped being ace is frustrating, and I spent so many of my formative years feeling broken, and gdi I will find a place to say in canon that this boy is ace so people know and so I’m contributing to the dire need for ace characters.