#btw i said it at the beginning but I’ll say it again im not an expert all of this is based on my experiences

[harapeveco]

any tips for writing fanfics? (or writing in general?) 😔

Hmmm well I’m not really an expert when it comes to writing tbh so idk if this is gonna help that much but for the little experience I have ig I can suggest some things?

Btw these are only fanfic related bc surprisingly enough writing a story and a fic is not the same LMAO

Anyways here are some tips!

I think the first thing you should consider is what your fic is gonna be about. It can be something very plot heavy or plotless whatever you feel more comfy with!

Write about what you want to read! You want to read about your fave dying horribly? Write it! You want to read about your ship kissing? Write it! You want to read about your fave having an existential crisis while their partner comforts them? Write it! Just write what you want to read! Do it! Do it!

I think it’s important to note that when you write fics it’s not about doing it for others, what I mean with this is that yeh sharing them and getting the engagement is rewarding as hell I love seeing them kudos and comments on my fics but remember that you are actually writing them for yourself bc you are writing about what you like and makes you go uwah. If you write thinking about the expectations or wants of others the writing just won’t come out or you will struggle with it…so! Write what you want! It’s your story! Indulge in it! (As long as it’s not problematic)

I think this one is obvious but you need to read fics and books before you start writing, this really helps with vocabulary and how to describe certain things too. I’ve used a lot of fics and even some books (the ones I was forced to read at school) for reference on how to describe certain situations

Sometimes you may feel your writing is not good enough but there’s always gonna be someone out there who likes it. Also don’t feel bad if you write about a topic that has be written about before, readers will be happy to be fed with the same content if that means they have more options, for example you want to write about your ship kissing but there are 69 fics about that? Trust me bestie we will need a 70th fic on that list

Cliches aren’t as bad as everyone makes them out to be! As long as you have original ideas to throw into the mix cliches can be quite enjoyable!

Writing is like drawing it’s all about practicing. Maybe you will feel like the first few fics will come out with some mistakes or even have an awkward writing but that’s oks! It’s something you learn the more you do it

Research is important no matter how unimportant something can be, for example, most of my fics take place in japan so ofc I have to do my research on some Japanese things. A few examples of this can be like if you want the character to drive you have to keep in mind the legal age for driving in the country it takes place, if you want them to drink you need to know the legal age, if there’s an emergency and they need to call an emergency line you need to know the number…they are really small things but they help a lot making it believable. I remember I wrote this oneshot about reinochi on a supermarket and I had to research the average prices for food in Tokyo (bc apparently prices are different in every prefecture) to make the fic work. Research can be really fun too if you are writing about a topic you like!

Try also not too make the characters too ooc or indulge too much on your headcanons. The reason why people want to read fics it’s bc they want to see their guy put into a situation but if you change their personality too much and write them using your headcanons as a base that’s not the guy the readers know that’s a different person. Now I’m not saying you can’t include headcanons you sure can but make sure they aren’t the whole center of it but more like a passing comment or something they do in a scene or two but like don’t make it the whole focus

This is a pet peeve of mine so take this one with a grain of salt sjfjjdjf but try not to repeat words in the same paragraph. To me at least it can be very confusing, in this case I recommend you Thesaurus.com! It’s has both synonyms and antonyms

Related but if you have trouble making your writing sound good I recommend using Quillbot! It’s a page that paraphrase paragraphs and can even help you make them sound more fancy! Since I write in Spanish and then copy paste the writing into a translator some sentences end up sounding awkward so this thing has helped me a lot THO never put dialogue on it it will make it sound awkward as hell

Something that can help a lot too is a beta reader! If you don’t know what that is it’s basically a person who reads your fic to point out grammar mistakes or tell you if some things on the story need changes. Make sure you ask a person you trust tho! I’ve heard stories of beta readers who have stolen the fics their were supposed to help fix 😔😔😔

Outlines are a good idea too! Something I do when planning multichapter fics is to write a general summary of what I want the story to be about and then write mini summaries for each chapter. Keep in mind the first outline won’t be perfect and it could change over time or even be dropped entirely, it’s part of the process so don’t feel bad if you have to give it up to make another one

This is more for multichapters but writing is a long process and it takes time. Take as much as you need to finish your story even if it takes years, don’t let others pressure you bc then the writing won’t come out. If you don’t feel like updating it rn you can do it later and your readers will understand that, if they don’t then don’t listen to them, after all they are getting the content for free so they better wait for it

It’s good to also write things that are out of your comfort zone every once in a while, that way you will know what works for you, what you like, etc

If you are gonna post on ao3 remember to tag everything! The tagging system exist so people know what they want to read and what they want to avoid so make sure to check every topic you are going to write about so you can tag it properly! A thing I do with tags is that for example my fic is about death and I want to tag it with it I put “death” on the tagging thing and every tag that contains the word “death” will appear there. This is helpful if you need more specific tags

I feel this one is the most important but you will definitely experience writer’s block, you will feel burnt out and frustration and that’s oks just take it easy and take your time with it. If you force yourself to make more chapters or making more oneshots without really feeling it they won’t come out the way you want them to which will make you more frustrated. Take some time off of writing if needed

And last but not least DO NOT let people tell you how to write your story. You can take suggestions sure but write what you envisioned, don’t let readers tell you what you should write and what you should change for them bc the story is for you and what you want

That’s honestly all I can think about! Idk if this is helpful or not but I hope it can at least give you an idea! And if you want feel free to send me your fic when it’s done! I would love to read it! uwu

[lidiasloca]

more than this (azriel x reader)

summary: after Azriel and reader had a summer together, the last thing Az was expecting was to face her again. (angst).

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The light-heading heat of the summer was to its end. And so were the days and nights of love with Azriel.

You remind yourself that that had been the plan since the beginning. Just a summer thing. After summer, no more seeing each other.

That’s what the both of you had agreed. Yet you had broken one rule already: It wasn’t just a summer thing for you.

And now, you are breaking another rule. You are going to begin the Valkyrie training. Meaning: you are going face Azriel, everyday.

The reason why you are enlisted to these training sessions wakes you from distant thoughts. “No, y/n, Azriel is not one of those; I promise.”

“Not one of those? Mor,” You echo. “So what? You think he’ll kiss me once I enter the training ring?” She doesn’t miss the hint of sarcasm in your words.

Your friend turns to you, now fully dressed, and says, “no, smartass. I’m not saying he will kiss you and tell you he wants forever with you. I’m just saying that he won’t ignore you. He’s not one to pretend nothing happened.”

You hum, processing her words and trying to ignore the hurt you feel about the part where she says Azriel will not want to be with you forever.

He had explicitly said he wanted nothing serious, yet you… Gods, you had it bad.

“At this point, I’m not sure if I’d be better off with him ignoring me.” You know for certain that isn’t true. At all.

“I think that’s quite a big lie,” she laughs as she walks to you, looping her arm with yours. “Come on; you don't want to be late and thereby draw Azriel’s attention, huh?”

You give no answer as she leads you to the living room, where Rhys is waiting to fly you. Rhysand and someone else, you suppose, since it’s both Mor and you that have to be flown. Someone else-

Before Mor opens the door to the living room, his scent hits you like a slap. But before you can react, the door is already open, and Azriel is there in front of you. You’re sure your heart misses a beat.

He’s wearing his usual leathers, his expression is usual, calm, and yet… yet you deem him ethereally beautiful, more beautiful than you remembered him, even.

You can’t help but smile as you enter the room, hoping he’ll smile back.

But when he turns to look at you, his eyes are bored. Unimpressed. Like he doesn’t know you at all.

Something breaks in your heart.

“Y/n.” You turn to Rhys, realizing he is here, too. He says friendly, “are you ready?”

You glance swiftly back to Mor, and she gives you a look that you assume means pity. The tension between Azriel and you must’ve been quite obvious if Mor noticed.

You try to swallow your hurt and make yourself say, “Yeah. Let’s go.”

Rhysand smiles at you in answer and turns expectant to his spymaster, waiting. But Azriel says nothing. Greets no one.

The high lord turns back to Mor. “Well, then...”

She takes a step to him, but stops when Azriel’s voice rings brusquely. “No. I’ll fly Mor.”

He doesn’t even want to be near you. He doesn’t even want to touch you. And of course, he’d rather fly beautiful and smart and talented Mor rather than a summer hookup.

You stop your intrusive thoughts before they make you run to your friend and sob and pray to stay in the house. To not go anywhere outside your bed.

You look up at Mor, who is awkwardly standing there. You feel her internal debate about what to do.

And though you want to curl in yourself and cry, you decide you have to be mature. “I’ll go with you, Rhys.”

You try to not think too long about how you have a whole day ahead with Azriel.

-Characters by Saraah J. Maas

Have I, by any chance, been listening to august by taylor swift too much? Maybe… Oh, and btw, this will be a series. The first series I write, actually. Im mad exited. wow, well, hope you feel my exitement through this incoherent text with too many comas. And hope you liked this too ofc.

[ritsufeet]

stay with me.

longing [ ft. m. kaiser ]

i don’t want u to leave… in which kaiser longs for you more than he thought he would.

k by cigarettes after sex heavily recommend to listen to while reading!!

all works from luvmouche & ritsufeet on tumblr.

𒁷 sfw, (forced to) made for ivelle (@n6gi)

𒁷 cw// hurt comfort(?), kaiser is too busy for u (dickhead), but it gets better i think, mutual longing, kissing smooch smooch, umm idk what else, kaiser tw🤓, “m” is his nickname given by the reader, rly short fic btw, slightly ooc kaiser but yk what idc!

i made this for ivelle this is literally yhe only bllk fic ill ever make (maybe) also i dont even like kaiser (kurona bwtter) i originally made this in my notes app i had to decide whether or not i eveb wanted to post this on tumblrHelp

synopsis: michael kaiser is a cruel, busy man—yet he finds himself pining for your warmth more than he expected.

not proofread!!!

kaiser, michael

your boyfriend, michael kaiser, who’s a famous, up and coming athlete, never has any time for you.

“i’m leaving, i have a meeting today.” he says, hurriedly pushing his shoes on with heavy sighs. you look at him and frown, “again? m, you never have any time for me anymore…”

“i know, but i’ll make it up to you, i promise. just not today, i’m busy.” he huffs, frowning right back at you, his blonde hair sways messily in front of his face and his fingers coming up to brush them up and out of the way again. you frown deepens and you sigh.

he looks up at you, his eyebrows furrowed. “what? what’s wrong with you?” his question only makes you sadder.

“can’t you stay?”

“no, i can’t. you know this. i said i’d make it up to you, didn’t i? trust my word.” you know this, you already know… but you can’t help but already begin to miss him.

he’s often gone for long hours, sometimes it’s more than just hours. it’s hard loving him when he’s absent majority of the time, and when he’s not gone, he’s doing something else that doesn’t involve spending time with you. what could be so important, anyway? of course, you love him, you love his career and support him with everything you can, but he could at least love you a little back.

you slowly walk over to him when he’s finished putting on his shoes. he looks at you with soft eyes, a face that he doesn’t show often. vulnerability that doesn’t come easily to him, something he only shows to you. “i’m sorry,” he says, his hand cupping your cheek. you relish in his touch, leaning into his palm. “i really wish i could stay too. you know that as well as i do.” he caresses your cheek, sliding his thumb over your skin.

“i get it… you should go, you don’t want to be late, right?” you look at him giving a reassuring smile. “i’ll be here, like i always am.” his heart aches as those words leave you, and the urge washes over him. he brings himself to your lips and kisses you—sweet, quick, and loving. he lets himself linger there for as long as he needs to. he doesn’t want to be late, yet he finds himself not wanting to move a single inch away from you. he wants to stay, wants to be here with you and the comfort of your kisses.

you pull away instead, you put your hand right above his—the one caressing your cheek so gently and longingly that you fear that it’d break his heart if he tore it away—and squeeze it. his face is solemn, his gaze wavering. he’s staring at you, but he looks away, as if hesitant to say anything. then, he looks at you again, and purses his lips. “..i love you.” your reassuring smile turns into a genuine one. “i love you too, m.”

he pulls you into a hug, holding you longer than just a few seconds, and he can hear himself the moment he decided to just go ‘ah, fuck it.’ a barely audible chuckle comes from his voice leaving you wondering what’s so funny.

“on second thought, i don’t think they’ll mind if i miss a day or two.” he says, smiling.

a/n: i hope ur happy ivelle. k bye im tired fuckkk

[hard-core-super-star]

Hey!! How are you? I hope you’re doing well. Since it’s world cup rn, is it okay if I request a Hailee steinfeld x soccer! Player reader? Reader played in England their whole career and got back home to play for L.A. They’re an energetic person, but also really dorky and awkward, especially when they first met Hailee at a party. Reader gets all mushy and blushy around her and Hailee makes first move after one of the reader’s games since the soccer player was so shy to do so. I don’t have any preference for the ending, so you can choose!

Btw, I love your work!!

my thoughts will echo your name [H.Steinfeld]

pairing: hailee steinfeld x soccerplayer!reader

summary: you meet your biggest crush at a party and let her slip past your fingers. thankfully, your feelings aren't as one-sided as you thought.

warnings: none; hailee being a flirt, R trying to match energies (and failing a little); light mentions of being outed; light trauma dump?; me not knowing shit about sports and pretending like i know what im talking about

wordcount: 2.4k

a/n: once again, let me reiterate that i know basically nothing about sports, soccer included, but i tried my best and hopefully the descriptions don't feel forced. i do have to admit i loved writing this and you can probably tell by the length. it got away from me a bit by the middle but hopefully its not boring. anywho, thank you for the request, lovely anon. (and for the support) i hope you like it <3

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You weren’t sure how you ended up here.

A casual night out with some of your old friends somehow turned into you being roped into going to a party fit for a famous actress, not a soccer player. Then again, getting to crash Hollywood parties was one of the less well-known perks of the job.

A perk that was beginning to backfire on you.

You don’t know how Zendaya managed to get the information out of you, maybe it was the drinks or the genuine joy of getting to have a conversation that didn’t involve discussing game stats or strategies. You’re not sure how it happened but you somehow let it slip that you’ve always had the biggest crush on a certain Marvel actress who caught your eye the second you walked into this stupidly crowded party.

You thought it was a harmless comment that would stay between two friends but of course, life had other plans. And by life, you meant your 5’10 friend.

You had gone to get another drink from the very inviting bar and by the time you had gotten back to your friend, she was in the middle of a conversation with said crush. You were about to turn around and head the other way when Hailee’s brown eyes met yours once again. Except this time it’s not from across the room.

This time, she’s right in front of you…and you’re definitely about to make a fool of yourself one way or another.

Zendaya notices the way the brunette’s attention shifts toward you and she steps in, giving you no chance to walk away. (You don’t know whether to be upset or grateful about that) She waves you over with a bright smile. “y/n, there you are. Have you two met?”

You shake your head and take the few steps that were left between you and them. You tell yourself the warmth on your cheeks is due to the wine you’ve been drinking and not Hailee’s bright smile. “I haven’t had the pleasure. It’s nice to finally meet you.”

“Finally, huh?” She replies with a perfectly arched eyebrow. “I didn’t expect you to be a fan.”

Her words make your blush grow stronger and you’re suddenly incredibly glad for the lack of lighting. You rack your brain for something interesting to say and maybe it’s the drinks or the easy confidence the actress oozes but you end up sounding flirtier than you expected.

“We all need hobbies, right? I hope that doesn’t ruin your opinion of me, though. I’d hate to lose out on my chance for an autograph.”

“Hmm…” You feel weirdly exposed as her eyes trail up and down your figure. “I’ll think about it.”

She doesn’t give you a chance to react, much less reply, and instead walks away to strike up a conversation with someone else. You wait until she’s far enough away before turning to Zendaya with a dumbfounded expression on your face. “Did Hailee Steinfeld just check me out?”

“Yup. And I think she liked what she saw.”

“I’m gonna pass out.” You’re technically joking but you’re pretty sure your legs have turned to jelly from the brief exchange.

“I’m not carrying your drunk ass home if you do,” she replies with a laugh.

“Fake.” You playfully punch her shoulder, which earns you an eye-roll and a glare, before handing her your untouched glass of wine. “I’m gonna get some air.”

She gives you a nod in response and you walk away in search of some privacy to freak out over the fact that you seriously flirted with Hailee. And she...liked it? What were you supposed to do now besides overthink every second of that interaction?

For now, you settle with stepping out onto a somewhat secluded balcony and letting the silence fill your mind instead. You walk over and lean against the railing while your eyes take in the twinkling lights in the distance. You’re in the middle of admitting how much you missed L.A when you hear footsteps approaching. You don’t look to see who it is, assuming it’s a random influencer or something like that.

“You look like you’re having fun.”

Your heart skips several beats at the sound of that soft voice. You force yourself to keep your focus somewhere else, knowing the second you look in her eyes you’ll lose the last remaining bits of your calm demeanor. “Yeah, I love being alone while everyone’s in there partying.”

You can feel the warmth of her body as she comes over and leans against the railing with you. You fight back the urge to scoot closer to her.

“I have a song about that.”

“I know.” Your eyes widen once your words catch up to you. “Shit, I didn’t mean for it to sound like that.”

“Well, you did say you were a fan.” She lets her comment hang in the air and you can basically hear the underlying question she’s waiting for you to answer.

“I, um, I watched Bumblebee right before I was sent over to play for England,” you explain. “Let’s just say it struck a chord.”

You try not to think about the overwhelming loneliness that accompanied you that first year away from home. A loneliness that only got more and more severe when you came out to one of your teammates just for her to out you the second she got a chance to. The mere memory of it makes you shiver.

You can feel her eyes on you. You even catch a small glimpse of the understanding and concern hidden within them out of the corner of your own eye. “Let me guess, you feel like an outsider too?”

“Doesn't everyone?” The question slips out before you can stop it. You don't know why your heart is so insistent on spilling out all its secrets to this warm and ethereal riddle of a woman but you can't find a way to stop it from happening. And maybe you don't want it to.

Maybe a part of you believes you'll find what you've been looking for in Hailee freaking Steinfeld of all people.

“Is that why you came out so soon? To feel less alone?”

You shake your head and force the truth out of your mouth. “No, I, uh…I was outed. My manager said it was better to release a statement myself before the news spread too far but the damage was done. I got shoved out of the closet before I even played a full season.”

“I-”

“Don’t say it. I don't want your pity.”

You fear you've come off harsher than intended when she doesn't reply immediately. You're about to turn and apologize for being a sensitive jerk when you feel her hand brush against yours. You wait with bated breath, almost not believing she’s even real.

But then her hand gently grasps yours and you swear the lights in the distance grow just the tiniest bit brighter.

“It’s not pity, by the way. I’ve been there too.”

That’s all it takes for you to throw caution to the wind and finally turn to face her. You’re almost expecting her to laugh and tell you she was kidding, that despite all the signaling and the hairpin drops, she’s nothing like you. And yet there’s nothing but absolute sincerity in her gaze.

It sort of feels like she’s taking you apart and putting you back together at the same time.

You try to keep your focus on her eyes and not the tiny gap of space between your faces but you fail miserably and sneak a glance down at her lips before you can stop yourself. You’re standing so close together that if you leaned in just a bit more you could-

“y/n! There you are!”

You jump away from Hailee at the sound of another voice, successfully dropping her hand and putting space between your bodies in one move. You’re not sure why you react that way but you do your best to ignore the way your movement wipes that gorgeous smile off of her face.

One of your teammates approaches you, rapidly telling you way too many details about the arrival of another cluster of soccer players. The last thing you want to do right now is walk away from Hailee. Especially after the reaction you just had. But unfortunately, you don’t get a choice in the matter.

Your teammate grabs your arm and starts to lead you away before you can attempt to protest. You turn back to say something, maybe to tell Hailee to come with you or wait for you or anything at all before she slips away, but by the time your eyes are searching for her, she’s already gone.

You swallow down your disappointment and force yourself to smile despite the storm of thoughts brewing inside of you.

You keep your eyes peeled even as you’re pulled from one meaningless conversation to the next, hoping against all reason that you’ll catch a glimpse of Hailee before the end of the night. You don’t get your wish and you do your best to act like it doesn’t bother you when it’s really the only thing you can think about.

You think about it even once you leave the party and go back to reality. A reality you’ve grown to love but find absolutely tiring at the moment. A certain type of tiredness that doesn’t come just from training for hours every day.

You feel borderline insane with how much time Hailee’s been spending in your mind lately but no matter what you do, you can’t shake off the feeling that you messed things up before they even started. It would be so easy to just pick up your phone, go on Instagram, and send her a simple message.

You don’t do the easy thing though and instead, fill your Instagram stories with cryptic song lyrics and game day announcements. You tell yourself you’re doing it because it’s part of the job but you know deep down you’re just doing it with the hopes of a certain brunette stumbling upon your announcements and showing up to your first game back in L.A.

You tell yourself it’s just wishful thinking up until the day of the game. You make a habit of not checking your phone a few hours before you have to be out on the field which means you miss a certain someone’s reply to your story telling you she’ll be cheering you on from the stands.

Despite your lack of knowledge about Hailee’s appearance, the excitement coursing through your veins is palpable from the second you step foot outside the locker room. The chaos that greets you on the field is one you love more than anything else in the world. The ear-ringing cheers, the smell of the grass beneath your cleats, the beautiful L.A sun shining down on you, everything about it makes you feel more at home than ever before.

It’s like your mind turns off and instead allows your body and instincts to take over for the entirety of the match. Time seems to fly by while you’re playing and it’s not until after the game is over (a game your team won by two goals) that you return to yourself. Which more than anything means you manage to catch sight of Hailee right before you head back into the locker room.

You almost think you hallucinated her due to your exhaustion until she walks in a few minutes later. You suddenly understand why your teammates decided to run off to clean up and change on the other side of the room.

That does mean you’re alone with the one person who’s been running through your mind all week…and you look like an absolute mess.

You try to channel the easy confidence you pulled out of thin air the night of the party but your mind goes totally blank and you end up making an awkward joke while wiping the sweat off your flushed face with a towel. “I didn’t know they gave backstage passes.”

She shrugs, clearly amused by your flustered response. “One of the perks of the job, I guess…and my brother knows a guy.”

“Right.” You let out a humorless laugh before burying your face in your towel. “Ugh, can we please just pretend I’m still funny and charming?”

She doesn’t respond and you fear the worst when you hear the sound of footsteps. You don’t realize she’s walking toward you and not away from you until you feel her fingers wrap around your wrists. “I don’t know, I kinda like you like this.”

You groan, feeling your face grow hotter, if that’s even possible. “That’s not helping, Hailee.”

She laughs before pulling your hands down and away from your face. “Are you always this difficult?”

“It’s the trauma,” you reply.

You finally gather enough courage to look up at her and your breath catches in your breath as your eyes meet. That same feeling from your conversation on the balcony creeps up your spine once again.

Hailee looks at you in a way you’ve never experienced before. Like she’s pulling away all the debris you’ve placed in the way of your real self. In the way of your heart. Somehow, she sees past all the bullshit and the excuses, and for some reason, it doesn’t scare you. It excites you more than any soccer game ever could.

You swear she can read minds because the corners of her mouth fully lift up into a breathtaking smile the second that last thought crosses your mind. She leans forward a little. Just enough for you to feel her breath against your lips before she speaks again. “Kiss me.”

She doesn’t need to tell you twice.

You lean forward in an instant and replace the space between you with your lips. The kiss is slow and gentle and full of feelings you can barely comprehend.

A part of you is worried you're feeling way too much way too soon but then you pull away just enough to be greeted by that same smile that stole all your thoughts away the first night. It's a smile that tells you you're not alone.

And it's like you're finally able to breathe for the first time in years.

“I'm gonna go so you change,” she says in a soft voice. “Come find me when you're ready so we can go celebrate. I'll buy you a few drinks.”

“Only if you let me buy you dinner.”

She gives one more quick kiss before stepping back. “Deal.”

You watch her go with the goofiest, most dumbstruck, grin on your face. Hailee Steinfeld will probably be the death of you and you have absolutely no problems with that.

[hanlimz]

JUNGWONSPIDERMANAU

cass. pls dont say that and just. LEAVE. expand. i would like to hear your thoughts 🎤

bc truly spider-man/peter parker was my first love and personally i have had the idea for a jake as spider-man au for quiet a bit now but it has never really taken off but now i NEED to hear all your thoughts.

(also if u have any good spider-man au fic recs pls send them my way thnx 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩)

PLSSS I COULD TALK FOREVER!!!! BUT OKAY—here are some bullet points plus a small blurb/summary/idk? i literally am going to write so much im so SORRY??? (this has convinced me n i will be writing a fic LMAOO)

(+ two vvvv good spiderman fic recs!!)

it’s safe here (with me) by @enhypenandpaper !! | very cute story, well-written, i love when writers can put their own unique spin on scenes that inspire them it’s rly motivating and wonderful (i need to rb this on my fic rec blog asap) (jake x reader)

i’ll save you (again) by @jayflrt !! | amazing stupendous wonderful show-stopping ,, literally one of my Favorite reads on this app .. this author manages to encapsulate both spiderman And jake sosososo well .. they also make it a point to rly flesh out the other friendships mentioned and I Love That (jake x reader)

general hcs (?):

won is the dorkiest spiderman ever .. stutters over his quips, never has anything cool to say to the villains he fights, doesn’t know how to respond to ppl thanking him

one time someone he saved tried to ask for his number and he panicked and said he was banned from both t-mobile and verizon (he’s not btw)?? 

another time he just got done saving a group of ppl n said “no thneeds necessary” ?? bc he was trying to say “no need to thank me” n “no thanks necessary” at the same time

but he’s also the sweetest .. any time someone asks to “repay him” he’s a double it n give it to the next person kinda guy .. he always tells them to stop by the soup kitchen or donate old clothes to thrift stores or just be kind to someone else

also ,, on another note ,, won has the Biggest crush on u and knows u like to help out at the local preschool, so he always tells ppl to buy and donate extra school supplies

sometimes when he’s out patrolling late at night, he’ll see u on ur way home from the library n quietly follow u to make sure u get home safe

tries to talk to u once after seeing a spiderman article open on ur computer and u indulge him for a moment, saying how bad u felt abt the daily bugle’s tabloid pieces .. won’s p sure his heart exploded

but overall, he’s very gentle and kind .. ever the king of duality tho .. he can beat a bitch up when need be, but most of the time—won’s just a high school senior trying to get into MIT and make the person he’s been in love with since the beginning of fall semester feel the same way abt him

ANYWAYS in a high school!au setting i see a lot of ppl like to hc jungwon as class/stuco president, but i think he’s definitely more on the quiet side .. he’s popular, yes, but not too popular if that makes sense. for him, though, this is perfect ... he flies under the radar, and him missing school a couple days in a row every month or so goes virtually unnoticed. HOWEVER, you’ve always had a sneaking suspicion .. it’s not like you and won are Rivals—there would be no merit in picking an unnecessary fight with the boy who volunteers at the soup kitchen on the weekends and feeds the stray cats near the gym and asks the lunch ladies how their days are going—but, there’s something strange going on. you’re sure of it.

jungwon comes into school one day w a busted lip and a black eye. everyone is fawning over him, asking him what happened—did he get mugged, did his face hurt, did he give the other person a run for their money? you don’t bother checking in on him when he takes his seat next to you. you just hand him his calculus test (he did better than you again n it’s infuriating) and clench your jaw, willing yourself to disappear. that familiar, green monster hangs in the shadows behind you, and its breath fans across your neck as it attempts to coax a physical manifestation of jealously from your lips. eventually, you excuse yourself to the nurse’s office and skip the rest of the day.

later that night, you’re trying to study in your room, but you keep getting distracted by the daily bugle’s twitter updates. spiderman is out and about again, and they won’t let the poor guy’s good reputation rest. it’s all “spiderman fights villain and knocks over streetlight onto local man’s car” and “spiderman forgoes saving lady’s churro to destroy half of grand central station”—and, honestly, you feel a bit bad. he’s trying his best. but, as rain patters against your window, the sound threatens to lull you to sleep. exhaustion overtakes your body, your eyes are drooping, and your head keeps falling from your hands. and then BOOM—the loudest noise you’ve ever heard startles you from your fatigue-induced trance. with a look of fear in your eyes, you glance over your shoulder to look at the window and the sight that greets you is enough to freeze every molecule in your body.

the aforementioned hero is clinging to the side of your building, banging his fist on the glass and practically begging to be let in. his movements are frantic and a bit scary. you open the window as quick as you can and let him slide through the small gap you’ve created. there are copious tears in his suit, blood flows from a nasty gash on his shoulder. rushing around on some crude form of auto pilot, you grab a clean shirt from your closet and press it into his wound. you tell him to hold it there and instruct him to sit in your desk chair. he's sopping wet from head to toe, and all you manage to think about is how glad you are that your parents are away for the weekend.

eventually, after only almost vomiting once, the cut is clean and bandaged up. "you're so lucky that i've been trying to get rid of this shirt forever, mr. spiderman," you scoff as he perches on the sill of your window, preparing to swing away into the night. "if i had grabbed one of my favorite outfits, i would've killed you before that wound could have."

a giggle escapes from his lips, and for a moment, you find yourself taken aback. he sounds like a high schooler—young, lively, and everything but the twenty-something year old man you thought he would be. "sorry about that ... i'll have to swing by and drop off some laundry detergent one of these days," he laughs. his voice sounds so familiar, but your mind is still reeling from your recent discovery. the hero offers you a wave and gestures toward his previous seat. "sleep well—and, good luck on that calculus homework."

the next day at school, jungwon is nowhere to be seen. you thank whatever happens to reside in the sky that he can't see the bright red 67 at the top of your most recent calculus test. the next next day, however, jungwon comes in with his arm in a sling. as his seatmate, you're the one that has to help him out for the rest of the week. but, when you're sitting in free period, you happen to take another glance at the bandages around his shoulder as jungwon naps next to you. a sharp column of ice pierces through your lower abdomen; under jungwon's sling, the lowest layer of bandages are covered with dried blood and sweat.

they look eerily familiar. almost like the ones you used to patch spiderman up over the weekend.

but, jungwon couldn't be spiderman. he couldn't be—he's too sweet, too gentle, too kind. peeking over at his backpack, you note that it seems a bit bulkier today; a recognizable purple cap winks at you from the unzipped main pocket. a chill tickles the length of your spine as you register what happened to be resting against his class notebooks.

laundry detergent?

you pause for a moment.

oh.

oh god.

[pixiecaps]

Pix im so sorry ur like my go to person for asking what happens cause ur always watching 😭 but if u can can u please tell whats been happening in lore these past couple of streams 😭 /nf btw!

i’ll go as fast and short as i can

DISCLAIMER i have bad memory my chronological order of these past few days is not the best some things may be incorrectly placed so just keep that in mind. some events may be not 100% perfect chronological order 👍

eggs wake up completely dirty one day. all of them. nobody knows why. the eggs don’t remember why or how. but for some reason they were covered in dirt and their cracks looked worse.

around this same time. theres a voting poll going on for a new rule. and basically someone went around stealing all the furniture from everyones bases. leaving only a tiled magma block. they also left black and white couches arranged in numbers and codes. when they deciphered it it resulted in to phrases “I see you” & “Tomorrow”

next day. they all disappear. they are not in their beds when the first person (fit) goes to check for their egg. all thats left on their bed is their little accessories so for instance chayannes bed only had his floatie, pomme only had her berret, and so forth. everyone begins panicking because they were most likely kidnapped and taken again. and some of them from their highly protected bunkers. theres only no note or anything so there is no hints as to where they went. when people ask cucurucho all he would say he classified.

also on this same day all the popular waystones get stolen like ones that’d go to spawn etc etc. they get placed on a platform above the presidents base with a warning not to break them or hell would break loose and also a bunch of binary that translated to viva la revolución. to clarify the eggs disappearing and all these puzzles seem to be separate occurrences.

at some point cucurucho tells qcellbit to investigate some shit and he begins solving enigmas again.

people at this point were pretty fucking fed up including the president who was ready to blow everything up from his anger. until he woke up the next day wearing a white suit and had a wide smile on his face. he keep saying how happy he was and how he couldn’t wait to see richas. there was also a clock that would tick louder and louder when the drugs began to fade. he would become hostile and violent. and then he’d take another dose and become happy again. people began logging in and talking to him particularly antoine was the first to speak with him and later spoke with bbh cellbit. they all agreed something was very wrong and began investigating. they found a secret room in forevers base and that led to a small house in that room with blue walls to represent the sky and fake png flowers and when they went inside they found what appeared at first to be richarlyson. until they walked closer and saw in the place where richas would be was instead a big gray boulder and stones. so they clocked quickly that the “richas” qforever kept talking about was likely given to him by cucurucho and him hallucinating his son on that bed due to the effects of the drugs. they began scheming a plan to get him off the drugs and save their friend. qpac also witnessed qforevers behavior and had an idea himself. he was going to willingly let them inject him and feed him those drugs so that he could find a way to create an antidote before the effects became too strong. while investigating qcellbit overheard a conversation qforever was having with the fake version of richas and he interrupted and tried to snap qforever out of it. however he this only caused a big argument as qforever would not budge so qcellbit did the one thing he thought would work and he broke the fake richas bed. instead of a lucid moment qforever only sat in the corner of the room facing a wall and said that he’d get cucurucho to fix cellbit too.

phil also arrives this day ^ and earlier after learning about all the eggs disappearance and all the shitshow thats been going on he decides with the help of two others masked individuals (tubbo & fit) to lava cast the entire federation building. the one that was creates during the election. and they did they completely covered it in lava then placed water over it and it was lava cast. phil then left a note at the top that read “we want answers. we want our children back. we know you know what happened to them. stop the games. you have until the end of this week.”

also that same day foolish found the missing capybara mr mustard and became king of the capybaras officially.

meanwhile all that was happening (honestly i may be mixing up what events happen on the same day so please excuse my chronology here) tubbo noticed two fed workers appeared at spawn who he swiftly dubbed fred and jed after speaking to them a bit. he became relatively closer to fred and taught him what a friend was however fred said he was new to the federation and didn’t know anything he was talking about when he asked about the eggs.

so the next day comes around and qpac is under the effects of the drugs. same thing white clothes big smile. fit and tubbo are the first ones to log on and see their friend in this state to they help and talk to him as much as they can. and sorta realize that when qpac is slowly losing the effects of the drugs he becomes depressed rather than angry like qforever did. he also has more lucid moments than qforever and sometimes broke out of the effects shortly before going back under. later cellbit logs on finds his friend in this state and decides he will not be leaving today until they are better. cellbit speaks with bbh and phil and they begin setting up a trap to secure a way to take the drugs off qforever. cellbit meanwhile starts investigating for some answers. in his base he finds a note left from qpac detailing his plan to take the drugs to find a cure and that it was in qcellbits hands now. so he goes to chume labs and reads a bunch of books and diaries that eventually led him to chume labs island. on this island he found another diary from qpac that wrote about the antidote and needing to use fermented spider eye on the drugs. and coincidentally two of the pill bottles in that same chest with the book. so cellbit immediately rushes back to phil and bad telling them about the cure and they begin brewing. and to their success it worked the cure was called reality dose which description was “A mixture capable of bringing back those lost in dreams to what is real.” so then they devised a way to get them to use the cure. and i won’t go into it in detail cause i was like half watching and i’m not the most informed in what happened next but i think qpac after some talk with the others and being reminded of his purpose in taking the drugs willingly took the cure. then qforever was harder i know him and qcellbit were screaming at each other and i think after they made qforever take the cure he began hallucinating that qcellbit was cucurucho

small edit here: ive been informed both qpac qforever took the antidote willingly and that qforever took it first.

and said that cucurucho told him that the eggs RAN AWAY because there is something on the island that is far worse than the codes or the federation. so the eggs were so scared they fled without saying anything. qforever then fell unconscious and is resting in the orders hospital.

outside of his enigma solving for cucurucho. qcellbit goes back into the abandoned adoption center room in hopes for some clues as to where the eggs went and he finds a map for what appears to be a maze. with code at the bottom translating to A1 and also he found more code somewhere else i cannot remember that said “the answer is not in the center.”

so then this same day tubbo gets visited by FRED the federation worker which gives him a book with a code and leaves. the code translated to “tomorrow 1pm pst” and so we wait for tomorrow to arrive

AND IT DOES tubbo is freaking the fuck out cause he thinks hes getting kidnapped. he tells pac and fit something is gonna happen to him at that time. fit has an encounter with the code entity and it drops a clock in front of him and leaves.

and so 1pm pst arrives and tubbo noticed at his base theres weird black concrete placed around and a black chest in the middle with a book saying not to tell anyone, go to spawn, and an x coordinate. around this time roier and slimecicle log on and also show up at spawn with their own books. after some time they figure out they need to put their coords together and go to that place so they do! its near the wall and they find fred standing there with a gun. he signals to them to go into the cave behind him and they follow. he tells them to keep quiet and once they reached the end of the cave he tells them he cannot go on further with. they see and it seems to be the entrance to a labyrinth. they go through making their way occasionally spotting fred who then they’d chase. until they reached a room which appeared to have two observations decks in the walls above. one with a black couch and the other with a white. there was also a room with a locked door. also what appeared to be a hidden underground section with iron bars and through the iron bars tubbo and slime spot. a cucurucho. however instead of white it was fully black and instead of the usual black pixel face the face was red. when they spot it it immediately runs away deeper into the underground section it was in. the three decide to go in and they reveal a round room with a roulette wheel in the center with all the accessories of the eggs around the wheel.

there was barrier blocks around the roulette wheel. tubbo saw that and glitched himself through with an enderpearl. realizing after he only had one and had successfully trapped himself in there. he also realized he put himself in the predicament where he had to spin the wheel without knowing what it’d do. tubbo began panicking because he didn’t want to be the reason any of the eggs died. all roier and slime could do is watch. after more panicking tubbo spins the wheel and it landed on 5! the room immediately begins flooding with lava with him in it trapped. the. egg accessories begin to cover with lava. tubbo begins pleading to the others to find a way to get him out of there but there is none. the room outside the barrier blocks also begins to flood with lava and mobs begin spawning so roier and slime begin panicking. at one point slime goes down and roier does a sick clutch save‼️ tubbo realizing once he uses a totem he gets fire res and is able to warp out. slime is able to warp out and roier stays a little behind to see if he could open the locked door. he isnt able to. he leaves but once theyre all safely out they decide to go back in to figure out how to open that door. more lava begins flooding the maze more mobs begin to spawn and mines begin to blow up and coincidentally one of the mines blows up the entrance to that locked door. and they go inside and reveal it is a simple federation office with a desk and computer. with nothing else really. they once again leave successfully and around this time cellbit logs on. they tell him everything and they decide to go back and show him the maze because turns out he had that map for it from the puzzles however they once they reach where the room was inside it is completely blocked off. but what they do find is a bunch of federation posters placed inside talking about order and happiness? and also a timer that had 24 hours on it ticking.

later this day we see a streamer tweet out an image of the roulette wheel from today and a went live twitch link. we see streamer bagi in minecraft. her character in an unknown rather empty building with a tree in the center. she walks further into the building and finds a chest with a book inside and a roulette wheel. the book says “let the wheel decide. you will have to follow the light.” she spins the wheel and it lands on two. the floor disappears and she is immediately is dropped below into the overworld. shes in the ocean its raining when she reaches land its snowing. she follows the light which appears to have chests with books that detail how cold it is and if shes getting closer. she follows the trail and we notice more and more black concrete surrounding the biome shes in. interestingly enough first watching i thought they were spruce trees until i realized it was all black concrete. similarly scattered to where tubbo roier and slime found their books. so then she reaches the end of the trail with the final book stating “they should be here any time soon :)” and next to the chest a quartz table with a ticket laying on top of it with her name on it.

and so shes kicked and thats her introduction for that day. quackity tweets out this

and so WELCOME TO THE QSMP BAGI🫶

there you have it you are now fully caught up to speed! that is almost a full week of daily lore recapped:) i hope i did good. sorry for any typos i literally woke up at 10:30 am saw this ask and did not stop typing until i finished. it is now 11:51 am LOL

oh and two upcoming events. today mexican independence and whatever that timer leads to and whatever “huge event” means.

[winterchimez]

describe your relationship with your moots using tbz ships!!

weeee i haven’t done a moot game in a while and i do miss it!! im gonna just tag the ones i talk to often so im sorry if you’re not on the list ><

@sungbeam (sangyeon & changmin)

im not saying this just cs ive assigned both of us to our biases, but yknow how sangkyu are always real sweet to each other thats us 🥺 but at the same time yall know how changmin is always hitting his hyung thats beam when she bites back 🤓 and the way how changmin always say “ah hyung!” when he gets annoyed thats beam to me when the *cough* horny thoughts are at its peak ✨ but i always imagine us as the sangkyu piggyback vid from the b-zone cs you’re my precious lil 妹妹 🥺💕

@juyeonszn (sangyeon & haknyeon)

remember when sunwoo said sanghak is the best ship in tbz, thats me and fawn periodt ✨ never in a million years would i have expected to get close to her (cs god i was admiring her works sm 🤧) but now we’re like long lost sisters 🥺 you’re the hakkie to my yeonnie, and i’ll protect you forever 🫂❤️

@from-izzy (jacob & kevin)

who would’ve thought i’d find my soulmate all the way in australia? its crazy how we went from just getting to know each other, and then finding out we have so much in common (i’d say almost 99.9999% of the things we do & enjoy) like its crazy how we’re not placed in the same continent 😤 we’re basically moonbae and nobody can tell me otherwise 💅 btw pack your bags bcs i might be able to visit you next year along with j either in mel or syd!!!

@daisyvisions (sangyeon & eric)

we all know how sangyeon basically cares for his lil baby eric 24/7 and thats daisy to me 🥺 but then we’re also super chaotic behind the scenes which also screams sangric to me LMAO trust me the day we meet irl the world would not be ready for it 😤🫂❤️

@aimeecarreros (sangyeon & hyunjae)

we just gotten close recently and omg i can’t believe i was able to click so quickly and well with elena like she’s so funny & chaotic and I LOVE IT 🤣 sangmil will forever be one of my fav ships and that’ll be me and you 🥰

@snowflakewhispers (sunwoo & eric)

my fellow SEA moot who lives so so close to where i am 🥹 its funny how we gradually got close after that sangyeon fic you dropped and the rest is history 😌 i think the way we relate to so many things is actually what made us become to close & chaotic (god i love our dms i love the mess and we singing gimme gimme more) we’re sunric fs 😘❤️

@flwoie @hanniluvi (sangyeon & jacob)

you two are literally the sweetest lil cuties ever 🥺 from supporting my work since the beginning of my journey like im floored im beyond grateful for you two always 🫂💕

@heemingyu (chanhee & changmin)

we literally have an ongoing series tgt + that way we just clicked from the start is insane. we’re newkyu. i said what i said. sana is WILD which makes me give her the side eye 24/7 but then its what made us close, and the way how newkyu are always tgt thats also me & sana 🤞🏻

@cloverdaisies (hyunjae & haknyeon)

omg where do i even begin!! we go wayyyy back during summer when i was still in EU and when i found out we live literally next to each other i was just????? im sad i didn’t get to know you earlier cs i would’ve come visit you when i was there!! but i promise i will do everything i can to come back UK one day fs (i said what i said so dont come for me again vajfbrnrhrjd) you’re literally hyunjae. sweet but also likes to tease & like seeing me lose my shit 🙄 but i love hyunjae so that also means i love you so i’ll let it pass 💚

@justalildumpling (jacob & sunwoo)

ahahahaha the chaotic parent and child duo is here 🤪 j is literally the sweetest to me when we first met, only later down the line when we got closer that i found out abt her chaotic ass (but i love it so keep it coming LMAO) my little dongsaeng ilysm, i’ll always be here whenever you need me (gurl for you i’ll stay on call with you for 24 hours again 😤😤😤) counting down the days i come visit you & izzy!! 💪

@zzoguri (sunwoo & changmin)

i was debating to put jacob but then i think sunkyu works slightly better for us? pls moni is so sweet but also REALLY FUNNY AND CHAOTIC shjendnrnd i love their reactions i love going through your stories all the time cs they make me laugh 😭 and you have such a good taste in music just like changmin 🥺 you can interchange between these two and you always have a special place in my heart my moni 💜

@itsbeeble (younghoon & hyunjae)

yknow how in tv shows they put this gold light or smth with the audio for the main charas/good looking ppl lmao bsjfbekrm thats bbangmil and that would be us so yall better make way for us 😤😤😤 we’re as chaotic as the two, esp with how reese is always getting me to sleep early BUT THEN I DONT 🤓 and we’re both swifties ugh love a fellow good woman who listens to good songs 💕💕💕

@kimsohn (younghoon & eric)

its only ever since coming back to asia that i got to spend more time talking to you in the gc!! (timezone sucks in EU 😭) and god you are so funny and chaotic too lmao bandndm you’re just like eric, but then yknow how younghoon is always the first one to support and care for the maknae thats me to you 🥺❤️

honorary mentions:

@daisyvisions @aimeecarreros (the lee bros)

make way for the 3 grand sangmil girlies ✨💅 our everyday dms are always loud, chaotic, fun, and a sprinkle of msg aka sexiness 🥰✨ the day the 3 of us meet it would make history in deobiland istg watch us get a ring on our finger by the lee bros themselves bcs delulu is free and it’s the solulu 😚

@cloverdaisies @heemingyu (the kyeopmuda line)

the OG trio ✨ it went from me being moots with clo, and then sana being clo’s biggest fan, made a gc and the rest is history 😌 the 3 of us could talk for hours and often times way past our bed times (esp clo im looking at you pls fix it) just like how close kyeopmuda line is, thats also the 3 of us, we’ve always got each other’s back, and always ready to text and vc anytime 🫂 looking forward to the holidays when the 3 of us are free and we’ll vc for hours fs 😤❤️

[ohthejealousy]

well. im not sure where to begin so i’ll just say what i want to say.

i do not label myself as a lesbian anymore. i don’t label myself at all now actually. i don’t need it.

my previous label wouldn’t be right anymore.

long story short… my partner came out as transgender and. i still love him :) he means the world to me and even though i never thought i could be attracted to a man… i am. his label change didn’t just make my feelings for him disappear.

i love him more than anything in the world…

i’m dropping the lesbian label for obvious reasons then. it did bring me lots of comfort and made me feel understood yes.. it was an important part of my identity because, well, that’s what i thought i was, but as i said to my partner, nothing could ever replace the safety and comfort his love gave me :) i couldn’t leave because of a thing like this, i am still madly in love with his heart and soul… he is still the sweetest person i’ve ever known.. he loves me and i love him and at this point nothing else matters to me

i just don’t think i need any label at all ok that is what i’m trying to say. the madly in love + non native english speaker + bad with words in the first place combo is kicking my ass yet again…

btw lesbians still mean sososo much to me. y’all are still my sisters ok 🤝 thank you for everything

[dreamsclock]

THE ULTIMATE DREAMSCLOCK UPDATE!

hello. hi. as most of u are probably very unsurprised to hear, i have bit off WAY more than i can chew in terms of personal projects. this is now something i am beginning to belatedly realize is A Problem for many reasons. mainly a) i am chronically overwhelmed esp with the biggest exams of my LIFE next months and b) i can’t take on any more projects realistically that i want to begin.

poll + more info under readmore bc i have chronic can’t-shut-up syndrome (adhd)

SO. in order to actually produce content for you guys i am Cutting Back Which Fics I Work On. at least until july. this SHOULD allow me to finish at least some fics and hopefully move on in the summer to other ones, but since im indecisive i thought i’d let YOU guys decide which fics i continue to work on!!! so here’s a poll.

the top five will continue to be worked on, and i plan to finish checkmate + hold him close in the next week anyway. so vote for your next five faves, and from there i’ll figure out which ones i’m gonna continue

this SHOULD help me make a good dent in these fics while also working on stuff that makes people happy :]

IN ADDITION TO THIS. i am also only streaming three times a week. ‘only?’ you might be thinking. ‘sparrow dreamsclock, you don’t even stream ONCE a week!’ to which i say Be Quiet. kidding but i’ve been putting way too much pressure on myself to try and stream every night and then beating myself up when i’m too tired 😭 so hopefully limiting myself to three times a week helps!!

STREAM DAYS: Monday, Wednesday, Saturday

I could stream more than this!! But at the very least you’re promised three streams a week unless something goes horribly wrong.

AO3 UPDATES: Wednesday, Sunday

AGAIN this is to try and give you guys some kind of consistency 😭😭 i know im very erratic + unreliable when it comes to uploading so i wanted to try and provide a schedule. no idea WHAT updates these will be, but you know Something will be posted there which is awesome

YOUTUBE UPLOADS: Beginning May

‘but sparrow!’ you may be saying. ‘you just said the most important exams of your life happen in may!’ to which i say Be Quiet. Yes. I Know. I’m An Idiot. but i wanna start providing youtube content Too!!! whether this be dsmp analysis or stream highlights or original minecraft choose-your-own-ending games i’ve made, i’ll be uploading (hopefully consistently) beginning may!!!! more info to come. unless i forget of course.

ANYWAY. if you’ve sat through all of this then HELLO HI!!!!! sorry. this announcement sounds self important and dumb but honestly even writing this out has eased like a load of my anxieties. ever since the end of 2021 i’ve been so overwhelmed with the frankly dumb amount of projects ive given myself, and it’s most of the reason ive been burned out since then too :’) thank u for being understanding and thank u for being such a source of inspiration for me and thank u thank u THANK U for being the best people ever muah ily

this starts from TODAY Btw!!! will be uploading a chapter of checkmate tonight and also streaming which i’m looking forward to. we’re gonna Chill until summer and then i can go crazy with projects again. but this feels more manageable!!!!

tune in for my stream tonight at 9pm (fnaf time FUCK YEAH) and thank u again :]

[lqfiles]

omg omg omg omg omg omg im here im here!

“baby” BRO IF HAECHAN DOESNT STFU OMG HIS ATTITUDE IS SO UGH (hot) KARINA BETTER THROW THE ROCKS AT HIMMM

also i wanna know what haechan asked jaemin bc wdym he just gave him y/n’s @? 😭 no wait but the at the same time, he probably thought he was probably playing matchmaker… idk jaemin cracks me up tho 😭

“but it’s quite cute” “you know where my room is” ugh im in love with them already but seeing how haechan is, ik the angst is gonna go crazyyy 😭 (if it involves all of us throwing rocks at haechan, karina calls dibs)

BUT YES I REMEMBER THAT about your friend and tbh sameeee rn (a little lore about me 😈) i have a situation with this friend who is great btw she’s very talkative, very friendly, well, extremely friendly, and lately she’s been having a thing with this guy and mind you, i used to live with her for a bit in her dorms (i commute which means i don’t live in uni) and she would drop me if her then bf came over, but we got closer after she and that bf broke up

but she’s been talking with this new guy, i have been encouraging when she is overthinking it, and lately… it’s all she’s been talking about 😭 i try to talk about my day and it gets dismissed when she tells me something about the guy and believe me, im happy for her, but we haven’t talked for two days now and when she does text me, it’s to let me know what the guy did

okay that’s it 😋

but it’s just like… i love our friendship but previous friendships before ended bc my friends would make their partners their entire personality and would drop their friends. like what is going on 😭😭 idk but thats enough lore 🫡

But i totally get not feeling excited…

i hope everything is okay tho! hope youre taking care of yourself and are staying well hydrated. thank you so much for the update! your brain just goes crazy and i love it 😋

- 🫧

(bella is getting a new harness with a little bow and she’s very excited! she’s also getting shoes bc it’s getting hot and i don’t want her paws to burn)

(also! She’s a maltipoo right? but we’re starting to notice she spots like a dalmatian and it’s kinda cool and so pretty 😭)

(and yes, we got compared to satoru and suguru out of nowhere 🥲 like damn… it makes me sad tho hearing that comparison 😭😭)

WELL YES jaemin is the biggest ynhyuck shipper of course he’s gonna give y/n’a @ to haechan (he had no idea of his motives), bless his clueless heart, he’s so silly 😭

i love how we all want karina to to fr throw rocks at him like we need this to happen one day, karina WILL call dibs when it comes to the angst and hurting haechan you already know she doesn’t play about y/n!!!! even jaemin might throw a small rock

OMG NO…. i’m so sorry to hear that 😭😭 i can tell that this is the beginning stages of her crush, so i advise (definitely not saying you SHOULD because i know confrontation is scary even if it is with friends 😭) that you genuinely have a talk with her about how all she does is talk about that guy and how you feel like conversations w her are starting to become pointless because they revolve around stuff you’re not interested in. its an extremely shitty situation to be put in and i’ll honestly never understand why people can’t seperate their friends and relationship and not bring one into the other.

i think your friend might understand if you bring it up tho, since you said she’s very friendly, if you say that you’re saying this from a malicious stance but rather in a way where you’re trying to improve your friendship, im sure she’ll understand. and if she doesn’t, then it really isn’t a friendship you should waste your time on because it shows where her priorities are (men over friends)

anyways yeah i’ve been well i actually saw her for the first time today since she reached out to me again and it was surprisingly.. really nice.

I FIND PEOPLE WJO PUT THEIR PETS IN CLOTHES AND ALL SO CUTE LIKE YESSS PUT HER IN CUTE LITTLE SHOES PLSSS, i bet she looks rlly cute w her spots, but wouldn’t that maybe mean that she might be a hybrid? either way i hope she is gonna be happy with her new shoes and harness, a little early (?) birthday present!!

[lovebvni]

confession sunday — i feel like a fake christian

hi!! so i rlly wanted to start making confessions on my blog as a way to let go and put down the thoughts and feelings im having. most of them r toxic and things i shouldn’t be thinking.

this is also an invitation for others to send their issues and let them go and put them down — simply tell me what it is and i’ll try n break it down to explain to u why u need to let go of those ideas! ofc, anons r opened <3

anyways, let’s get into mine bc.. yeah.

i feel like a fake christian.

this is something i’ve been struggling with my whole life — but it is resurfaced when i had a conversation w my friends abt witchcraft n the bible n whatnot. she said something along the lines of “you’re not a christian because you believe witchcraft is okay.”

first of all… what? right before this my other friend said “a lot of people in the bible pick and choose what they believe. for example — christian’s aren’t allowed to eat seafood bc it’s seen as impure” and the same girl from earlier agreed n said “i still love my crab legs” 💀 LMDAOOA

im friends w everyone mentioned in this convo btw, so dont worry. no hate to any of them.

during this conversation, i js agreed with the one, let’s call her sarah, that said believing witchcraft is okay makes me not a christian.

sarah made me feel bad — invalidated in a way. i remember walking out that class feeling fake, like i am wrong for what i believe and i need to remove everything that isn’t said in the most common places in the bible from my life.

FALSE ❌❌ WRONG ❌❌ INCORRECT ❌❌ SEE ME AFTER CLASS.

DUDE TO BE A CHRISTIAN U ONLY HAVE TO DO TWO THINGS

1 believe jesus christ died for our sins and rose again (some say jesus christ only died and rose again)

2 have a RELATIONSHIP with christ

if it isn’t clear already, i have both of these. i’ve known and believed the stories ik the bible since i was so young, and even now i believe them.

and i have a deep rooted relationship w jesus n god — i mean how the hell do u think i even found out abt other deities 😭 about shifting?? through him dude! it’s only by him answering my prayers that im here rn

what im trying to say is that the “normal” isnt always right. i hate churches — they feel like cults, nd i hate when ppl say ur required to do things — ur not. it’s if u want to and between u n god.

i said this to my friend nile earlier — “but like christianity is supposed to be individuality — it always has been that way. hell, even jesus says it. he flipped tables in a religious place bc they don’t have a relationship w god, they r js acting”.

they didn’t want it — they just wanted to b superior. and that’s not what i want — i want to help others and be happy.

that’s it for my confession. i hope this helps and encourages someone else to begin doing the same! sending my love.

[eluminium]

I posted 1,473 times in 2022

That's 1,184 more posts than 2021!

137 posts created (9%)

1,336 posts reblogged (91%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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@the-king-of-lemons

@impulsesv-but-everywhere

@luigra

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I tagged 1,105 of my posts in 2022

Only 25% of my posts had no tags

#dose of impulse - 535 posts

#dose of skizz - 272 posts

#dose of bdubs - 81 posts

#impulsesv - 63 posts

#el rambleth - 51 posts

#dose of tfc - 43 posts

#el answereth - 36 posts

#dose of gem - 35 posts

#dose of tango - 33 posts

#double life spoilers - 32 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#i love grian as much as anyone else but honestly i'd rather not have him be involved in any resistence plot because we've already done that

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

appearently Joe said "maybe ive been instructed to make a sign to passively-aggressively shame impulse. no im just kidding i dont think impulse does drugs" in response to someone asking them about the "Winners don't do drugs" King Ren screen on the arcade. Which, while hilarious on its own, just made me think of like, soup group seeing that screen.

Like they see the king ordering them not to do something??? He dare extend his authority like this???? Well no king can tell THEM what to do!

Cue a meetup at the little research office in Pearls mushroom where Impulse is crying on the floor because he can't roll a blunt right, (Grian and Ren rolled all his blunts in the Hippie era, his hands were and are too big and clumsy for this) Pearl is trying to mix weed into a soup they're gonna give to the king but shes not familiar with the plant either so shes also struggling, and Gem is blazing it up with absolutely no problem. Shes a nature Elf, how the fuck did the others ever think she didn't know her way around plants like these

(weed is also legal in Canada. Its not in Australia but it IS in Arizona. Impulse is knowledgeable about the drug its just been so long since the Hippie days, hes been too much of a good boy lately. Hes lost the little blunt rolling skills he had :[ he was bragging about it to Gem and Pearl too and now hes made a fool out of himself :[[[)

Shoutout to @potionofinstantdamage for reporting that Joe quote and indirectly causing me to create this post.

527 notes - Posted September 16, 2022

#4

Useless Facts about ImpulseSV: the post

Welcome to “Useless Facts about Impulse”. The title says it all. I am Eluminium, that one fuck who decided to watch every single Impulse hermitcraft season and actually fucking did it, and I have a bunch of completely useless knowledge from it now. AND I SHALL SHARE IT WITH YOU SO YOU TOO MAY ALSO BE ENLIGHTENED! Also cuz i’m bored as shit (Btw i’ll probably keep adding onto this post as I remember or gain more useless knowledge) People who’ve blessed this post with more facts: @bucket-of-amethyst  @tsukinouta  LET THE FACTS BEGIN! First addition of facts: August 7th 2022

-Out of every single base Impulse has constructed on Hermitcraft, 3 and a half of them have featured water as a major design element. These would be the City of Atlantis (S5), iBay (S6), The Pyramid (S7), and the half is his “starter base” temple (S3).  (I count it as a half because he spent a considerable amount of time designing it but it isn’t his main base so to say.) -Impulse has two seasons of Hermitcraft that are the exact same lenght in terms of episodes, these being S3 and S4, both having 57 episodes. -Impulse’s longest season is S6 with 113 episodes, and his shortest is S8 with 35 episodes -Out of every base Impulse has built, only 2 of them do not feature his logo on the inside or outside in it’s final design. These are iBay (S6) and The Pyramid (S7)

-Impulse is shorter then Bdubs IRL. Bdubs claims to be 5′10 while Impulse claims to be 5′8. This makes fanon extremely hilarious

-In S4, the safe rooms Impulse and Tango constructed in the Wither Skeleton farm were called “The Sissy Room”, but only for one episode. After that it’s never mentioned again.

-Impulse’s wife (Ms. Impulse) has never touched Minecraft because she’s an interior designer and would most likely disappear off the face of the Earth if she ever let herself play the game. It hasn’t stopped Impulse from trying a few times though.

-Impulse has a habit of biting off more than he can chew. In 4 out of 7 seasons he’s been in there have been obvious projects that were never finished. These are in order: The roof of his and Tango’s shared Mega Base (S3), A fair amount of The City of Atlantis (S5), The missing farms on the Phinias Board (S7) and the interior of The Candy Factory (S8)

-Impulse’s current keyboard (At the time of writing) was custom made by his son

-In both S3 and S7, Impulse used the exact same floor desgin and armor stand gimmick for his Patreon Monument.

-One of the reasons Impulse and Skizzleman remain such close friends today was because he found a book on networking on Skizz’s bedroom floor when they were both looking to go to a new collage. They both went to the same Networking class after Impulse suggested it and have been glued together ever since. -They absolutely hated that networking class though

-Impulse has had 4 piercings in total. One in the tongue, one eyebrow one, one nipple, and one in the ear. Both the eyebrow one and the nipple one were taken out after they got caught on various zippers, and the ear one was something he did together with his drumline. None of them survived to the present day though.

-Impulse has sold enchanting related things in 4 out of 7 seasons (S4 S5 S6 S9)

-Impulse used to be completely bald and beardless until he grew out his hair and a beard for a No Shave November challange and people said it fit him. He hasn’t returned to baldness since that (At the time of writing) -Every since their introduction, Impulse always carries a totem on him. Although he has a resource pack that makes the totem invisible in first person so it won’t block up the screen as much.

-His Guardian Goodies shop building in S7 is an exact replica of a Guardian “shop” (everything was free) xB designed in S3

-Impulse has won every single “How to Kill” compitition, and with the exact same concept to boot. In “How to Kill a Doc” he made a bunch of traps that looked like the final blow but weren’t, instead having the killing strike be deliver by Impulse himself. In “How to Kill a Tango” he did the exact same thing, although the final blow should have been delt by a Magma Cube instead. Both of these killing machines also share similar surprises. Both involve fire charges (One from dispensers, one from a live Ghast), anvil launchers and TNT. If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it i suppose?

-Impulse actually bought the “copyright rights” to the “i” brand from Iskall in S6 so he could keep iTrade open without confusion. Never got something similar from iJevin thought.

-When S6 updated to the villager update, Impulse managed to obtain a glitched Farmer Villager who never locked up his trades no matter how much you traded with him. Although he did lose a fair amount of villagers in iTrade too, so it was more a soul for a soul.

-The only season Impulse was part of that never had Elytras was ironically S3, the one with amplified terrain.

-The first time Impulse properly tested out the Elytra, it lagged so bad he died from fall damage by falling into Xisumas Guardian Farm. The elytra refused to open.

-Impulse and Tango has had an agreement since Impulse joined in S3 that they can take certain resources from each other’s storages and farms without asking before hand. They call this “Mi casa, Ti casa” or “My house, your house”.

-In 4 out of 7 seasons, Impulse has had at least one entire video that centers around either a request from xB, or featuring xB himself. (S3 S4 S5 S7)

-The “SV” in impulseSV could be read as “impulsive” but it actually stands for Impulse’s IRL initials

-Impulse was introduced to Minecraft via his son, who wanted to get into gaming. Impulse mostly played shooters but he didn’t want his kid to play those types of games at his age, so a coworker suggested Minecraft. Although his kid didn’t know anything about the game, so he had to hop on and learn too.

-Impulse plays Minecraft with an inverted mouse. This is because he got so used to flying helicopters in various shooters it made more sense to his brain that dragging the mouse down means up, and pushing it up means down.

-Impulse started out as a fan of Tango’s until he learned that he and Tango are pretty similar in age and in video style. So he e-mailed Tango about a collab and he accepted. Later they learned they lived incredibly close to each other and went out for some “sodas” (aka BEERS). The rest is history.

-The name Impulse along with the black and yellow colour scheme is something Impulse stole from his drumcore’s name and colour scheme. His favourite colour is actually purple.

-Impulse and Skizz live in the same neighbourhood (at the time of writing)

Second addition of facts 9th of August 2022

-Impulse has a dog (specifically a Border Collie) named Prim and a cat named Luna. Luna was a gift for his older daughter. Impulse wasn’t the biggest fan of cats until his wife got one, and he fell in love as well.

-He and Skizz have been best friends for over 25 years (at the time of writing)

See the full post

818 notes - Posted August 7, 2022

#3

“There’s only two genders, MCC winner and non MCC winner” well damn Impulse congrats on your transition!!!! 

1,253 notes - Posted November 18, 2022

#2

Impulse: does an entire week of recording, including two videos, one of which for a major server event, and then an entire 4 hour livestream that was an EVEN BIGGER server event WHILE SICK ENOUGH THAT HE SKIPPED AN ENTIRE WEEK OF STREAMING

Impulse, the day after:

Oh wow. How did this happen. What a mystery. (Affectionate)

1,747 notes - Posted October 24, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

IMPULSE JUST CHUCKED THE QUEST RULEBOOK INTO THE OFFERINGS PIT LIVE AND DECLARED ANARCHY  HES DOING IT. HE’S GOING OFF HIS ROCKER! IT’S ALL I’VE EVER ASKED FOR-

2,367 notes - Posted August 22, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

[clarabowmp3]

fave red lyrics (For it's OG anniversary)?

TOP 13 LETS GOOOOOO

1. All we are is skin and bone trained to get along…..forever going with the flow, but you’re friction (NOTHINGSAFEISWORTHTHWDRIVE)

2. Cause there we are again 👩🧑on that little town street 🛣️! You almost ran the red 🚦cuz you were looking! over! At me!!!!!! + cuz there we are again when I loved you so. btw. if you even care

3. I DONT KNOW ABOUT YOU 🫵🤷‍♀️!!!!! BUT IM FEELING TWENTY ✌️TWOOOOOO ✌️YOU DONT KNOW ABOUT ME 🤭 BUT I BET YOU WANT TOOOO 😉😝 (throwback to 9 year old me watching the music video on Nickelodeon like 👁️👄👁️ you can jump into pools??? You can DO THAT???????)

4. We made quite a mess babe :( it’s probably better off this way :( and i confess babe :/ in my dreams you’re touching my face 🥺…and asking me if I….want to try again……..with you………………and I ALMOST DO!

5. And all the times i let you in just for you to go again disappear when you come back. everything is better (ouch ouchhhh)

6. I SAY “HOLY GROUND” YOU SAY “IWASREMINISCINGJUSTTHE O THER DAY WHILE HAVING COF-“

7. I stood right by the tracks…your face in a locket……good girls, hopeful they’ll be, and l o n g they will…..wait.

8. I’ve said it once I’ve said twice I’ve said it a thousand times TAXI CABS AND BUSY STREETS THAT NEVER BRING YOU BACK TO MEEE

9. Dear diary I’ve been spending the last eight months thinking all love ever does is break,,,and burn,,,,,,and end,,,,,,,,,,,,but on a Wednesday, in a cafe, I watched it begin again + but you throw your head back laughing like a little kid 😭😭😭 (me and who me and WHOOO) + for the first time…what’s past is…past

10. All i Know is pouring ☔️ rain 🌧️ and everything! has changed! All i know is a new found grace 🙏 all my days 📆 I’ll know your 🫵 face 🧑‍🦱 all I know since yesterday is!! Everything!!!! Has changed!!!!!!!!!

11. You called me later, and said “I’m sorry I didn’t make it,” and I said I’m sorry too. And that was the moment. I. knew.

12. Call 📞 a cab 🚕 lose 😕 my number 📱you’re about to lose?? Your???? Girl???? 👧 🤷‍♀️

13. We are alone, just you and me, up in your room and our slates are clean 🤍

[undergaunts]

Call Me Baby (Chapter 3) (Chapter 1 here, Chapter 2 here)

Sebastian Sallow x Ominis Gaunt (Modern!AU)

Summary: The text chat logs between Sebastian Sallow and Ominis Gaunt during their 6th and 7th year at Hogwarts. (or Sebastian and Ominis can't bear to be apart for longer than 5 minutes, so spend their entire summer, winter and spring breaks texting and calling each other)

Rating: Explicit (sexting!! very h*rny wizards!!!)

Word count: 4.5k

Recommended to read on AO3 as the layout is better but it’s also below the cut <3

Ominis is calling sebauble

Call accepted

Call ended, 22min

10:24am

sebauble

sorry i won’t be long

Ominis

Take your time. 

10:36am

sebauble

ok back

i have to go again in like 10 mins sorry

she was like ‘i can’t peel potatoes and carrots and cook a turkey at the same time’

WHY NOT ANNE I HAVE IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO

Ominis

Help your sister, Sebastian. It’s Christmas. 

sebauble 

but i want to talk to you

more about what we were talking about

which by the way

hi

Ominis

Hi. 

sebauble 

:D genuinely can’t stop smiling haha i look like an idiot

Ominis

Probably, you usually do.  But I can’t stop smiling either, so I also look like an idiot. 

sebauble

ur my idiot and im urs

see before i wouldve written that then deleted it

but now i can acc send it which is crazy

Ominis

I’m honestly still in shock. You’re absolutely certain?

sebauble

dude

i need to stop calling u dude now lol

but yes im certain

when we can talk more i’ll tell u more but

im stupidly in love with u, don’t even question it

there’s no question it’s just fact

Ominis

You’re sure?

sebauble

STOP

YES SO MUCH

SO MUCH LOVE U DONT EVEN KNOW IT FULLY YET

Ominis

You’re a madman. Weirdly that’s one of the reasons I’m in love with you.

Wow, I can’t believe I said that.  I truly think I’ve died or gone insane. 

sebauble

BELIEVE IT BABY BOY

omgs

i can call u that now in a romantic way

i mean i always meant it that way even before i knew i did

and all the other names

perfect, gorgeous, lovely etc

Ominis

And I can call you sweetheart and you’ll know exactly how I mean it. 

sebauble

YES

gods anne is asking me what im smiling at

should i tell her?

Ominis 

You can. What will you say?

sebauble

that we have declared our love for each other, finally!

she already knew i liked u btw

Ominis

She did? 

sebauble

yeah she sort of worked it out back at the beginning of summer

Ominis

Oh, that makes sense now. 

I remember her saying you had something you needed to explain, and that she couldn’t explain it for you. I never pushed to find out. Of all things, I never thought it would be this. 

sebauble

ah yeah well im sort of glad she didn’t tell u

but also we could’ve gotten to this a bit sooner

the dating thing i mean

sorry i haven’t actually asked u yet if u wanted to date me or anything

no labels if u don’t want haha

Ominis

What if I wanted labels?

sebauble

Would you?

Ominis

Maybe. 

sebauble

what kind of labels? basic label or proper label?

Ominis

What’s the difference?

sebauble

well i guess basic is like we’re dating

and proper is like 

boyfriends

Ominis

The proper label sounds like something I’d like, I think. Would you like that?

sebauble

at least let me buy u dinner first 

jk i would very much love that

Ominis

At least then you can give a good description of what’s happened to Anne. 

sebauble

oh yeah, totally, the label is just to help anne understand

Ominis

It just makes things a lot clearer if we say we are each others boyfriend. 

sebauble

it does sound quite nice as well doesnt it? what do u think

Ominis

I think I’d be up for that, it really rolls off the tongue. 

sebauble

yeah cool me too

decided

Ominis

We can shake on it. 

sebauble

*shakes ur hand* lol

cool

I enjoyed that discussion with you Ominis, my boyfriend. 

Ominis

And I you, Sebastian, my boyfriend. 

Oh that was so strange to say out loud. I loved it. I would like to say that a lot more.

sebauble

FUCK YEAH

when i woke up this morning i was NOT expecting this

no offence i think this is a better gift than the jumper

the jumper that my BOYFRIEND got me

fuck that’s so good

i still love the jumper tho btw

Ominis

I think your gift was on par with this. But as it was a gift from my boyfriend, I may be bias. 

sebauble

ur so cute

gods

ok ok my sweet lovely boyfriend i must go

I DONT WANT TO BUT ANNE IS SHOUTING

I WILL RETURN TO YOU SOON MY LOVE

WAIT FOR ME I LOVE YOU

BRB

Ominis

I think you’re mad. I love you. 

December 27th, 2:09pm

sebauble

3 days!!!

well, 2 days, 22 hours

all the 2s 

Ominis

I think I’m more excited to see you than ever before. 

sebauble

Rude. But same

Solomon is already off in London and Anne said she would let us be on our own for a bit :))) if that’s alright with u

Ominis

That sounds pleasant. Do you have any plans for us while I’m there?

sebauble

do u mean for when we’re on our own? 

Ominis

I did mean plans such as Hogsmeade for lunch and shopping, or taking a walk down to the lake. But you could also tell me about your plans for when we’re on our own, if you’d like. 

sebauble

i don’t know, maybe i should keep that a secret

there’s quite a few things i was thinking we could do, but if you’d rather just go to Hogsmeade…

Ominis

I’d do anything if it was with you. I mean that for both circumstances. 

sebauble

don’t talk like that or my brain is going to explode

if u could see my face rn i look like a tomato

Ominis

:)

I look forward to touching your face. If you’d let me. 

sebauble

yes please

i can’t remember the last time u did that

Ominis

We were fifteen. You’d just got your first facial hairs and you wanted me to feel. But then I spent a long time touching your entire face because you felt so different to the time before. Which was when we were twelve and I’d finally gathered the courage to ask if I could, so I could know you better. 

sebauble

wow. how do u even remember ???

Ominis

When you’re hopelessly in love with someone you are certain will never love you back, you end up carving those sort of moments to the inside of your brain. 

sebauble

did you love me in fifth year then?

Ominis

Don’t be silly. 

sebauble

oh

Ominis

I’ve loved you since our first year. 

sebauble

WHAT

really?

Ominis

I can’t quite pinpoint the exact moment, but outside of my sister and Aunt, you were the first person to show me real love. It was always inevitable I would fall for you. 

Only I never imagined I’d be able love you in the way I wanted. 

sebauble

:’)

gods i love you

im so sorry i didn’t see this sooner

and then when i did that i didn’t do anything about it

Ominis

It’s quite alright. I think it’s happened the way it was supposed to. I had some much needed character development during that time. 

sebauble 

LMAO between all this and ur family idk how u survived

tell me ur secrets 

Ominis

Pure determination. 

And spite. 

And you. 

sebauble 

<33333

December 29th, 1:47pm

sebauble

u kno i was thinking

Ominis

Madness!

sebauble

wot?

Ominis

You, Sebastian Sallow, thinking?

sebauble

ha ha. very funny

Ominis

<3

sebauble

<3333

ANYWAY

I WAS THINKING

u know there’s a muggle tradition that on new years eve at midnight people kiss 

idk why but

it sounded interesting

opinions?

Ominis

That does sound quite interesting. I wonder why a kiss. 

sebauble

….

hmmmm

oh look ur gonna be here for new years eve!!!

but hmmm if i was going to partake in a new years kiss i wonder who i would kiss…

Ominis

I wonder such things too.

sebauble

…hmmm

oh i have an interesting idea!!

now tell me if this is good or bad

but me and u could kiss?

Ominis

That’s certainly interesting. I’ll have to think about it. 

sebauble

oh

Ominis

I’ve considered it and my answer is yes. Yes please. 

sebauble

:D

and if there was an opportunity to have a practise of this kiss beforehand, would that also be something you’d consider?

Ominis

Well I suppose a New Years kiss must be absolutely perfect. And they say practise makes perfect. 

sebauble

to get it absolutely perfect we would need maybe a day of advanced practise 

how about we start tomorrow at about 1?

Ominis

Well, I’m arriving at 12. So say 12:05?

sebauble

i like the way u think

December 30th, 11:52am

Ominis

I’m just about to leave. 

sebauble

!!!!!!

i keep having to piss lol

Ominis

Don’t be so crass.

sebauble

WHAT

IM EXCITED 

I CANT HELP IT

MY BOYFRIEND IS COMNG TO SEE ME

Ominis 

:)

See you soon. I love you. 

sebauble

I LOVE YOU

<33333333

SPRING

March 24th, 9:23am

sebauble changed their display name to seb♥︎

seb♥︎

morning my love <3

9:51am

Ominis

Good morning sweetheart. Are you alright?

seb♥︎

missing u

but surviving </3

Ominis

I miss you.  I’m sorry I couldn’t stay. I truly tried. But apparently I must be here. 

seb♥︎

ik baby

but ur like an adult now i don’t get why u can’t do what u want

well i know ur gonna say ‘im a gaunt’ but still :(

Ominis

That’s exactly it. If my father tells me to jump, I must ask how high. It’s always been this way, and I can only assume it always will be. 

At least until Marvolo marries. Then perhaps they’ll focus more on him to produce the heir. 

seb♥︎

:(

hopefully soon

there has to be another pureblood family that wants to marry a GAUNT

i know of a guy from a pureblood family that would marry a gaunt

a specific gaunt

one with blond hair

nice ass

good with his mouth and i don’t mean talking

Ominis

Stop it. 

seb♥︎

;)

u love it

Ominis

I really don’t. 

seb♥︎

liar

Ominis

I’m moving swiftly on, Sebastian. 

Remind me how these ear things work again? 

seb♥︎

the earphones??

u basically put the two little end bits into your ears and then the other end plugs into ur laptop or ur phone 

hahaha u totally aren’t moving ‘swiftly on’

i told u why i got them for u for ur bday, so no one can hear what im saying to u when we’re on the phone

ur fucking horny aren’t u

Ominis

How dare you, it’s not even ten in the morning!

seb♥︎

i can see right through u

we’ve been apart for one day and ur already desperate for me

smh

Ominis

I’ll turn my phone off if you keep speaking like this. 

seb♥︎

alright alright

but we’re gonna have to do it at some point u know

loads of people do it over text

and I’ve got a raging hard on

might be worth having a go

:)

Ominis

I’m glad I put these things in my ears in before you started talking like this. Hold on, I’m getting my laptop so I can type.

seb♥︎

argggghh u don’t sound like u when u type

but fiiinneee

we could always call thooo, at least then we could hear each other

10:07

Ominis

no

don’t want to risk anyone hearing

mortifyin

seb♥︎

fine, i can imagine u anyway

ive seen u plenty of times

r u still in ur pyjamas?

Ominis

yea

u

seb♥︎

yeah

well it was a warm night i took my shirt off

just the flannel pyjama pants on

u kno the ones u like that feel all soft

what ones r u wearing

Ominis

silk ones

isnt anne there

seb♥︎

stop being nervous

she’s out until this evening

i promise im on my own

please

Ominis

ok

ok

seb♥︎

:)

i like those silky pyjamas

theyre so easy to slip off of u

especially when we’re trying to be quick

before anyone wakes up

i know we shouldn’t do it

but u know i can’t do anything until ive touched u

Ominis

tht y i woke up hrny 

waiting for u to sneak into m bed

used to it now

seb♥︎

can’t say i don’t treat u well baby ;)

making u cum before we’ve even thought about breakfast

Ominis

id rather u for breakfast 

seb♥︎

damn

wish i was there with u

i bet ur really trying not to touch urself aren’t u

Ominis

hard to not

when ur like this

seb♥︎

if i was there we wouldn’t have to rush

id sit in front of u

then take ur shirt off first

over ur head so ur hair is messy

just the way i like it

id touch u with my hands first

over ur shoulders and ur chest and ur neck

then id lean in

kissing ur neck, ur jaw

then down over ur collarbone

before licking over ur nipple

Ominis

fuck

can i touch u?

seb♥︎

no

only me touching u

id lick and suck ur nipple until u shiver the way u do

then move to the other one and do the same

i love teasing u

i know how hard it makes u

knowing u could touch me if u wanted but me not letting u

Ominis

not fair

u get to touch me

want to feel u

seb♥︎

but u won’t

cos u kno i’ll stop touching u if u do

so then id want to get closer

id push u back against ur pillows and climb over u

pushing my knee between ur thighs and pressing it against ur hard on

because there’s no way ur not practically poking thru ur trousers

Ominis

so hard

hard not to be when u tease me

when u so sxy

when i can feel how hard u r too

seb♥︎

u make me this way

u would grind urself against my knee wouldn’t u

desperate for some friction

as if i wouldn’t give it to u

and id kiss u until ur whimpering

wish u could see how u look when ur like that

all pink cheeks and puffy lips

ur the most gorgeous thing ive ever seen 

Ominis

fuck 

need u to touch me

propely

pleas seb

seb♥︎

since u ask so nicely 

id sit back and unlace ur pyjama pants then pull them down off ur hips

r u wearing boxers

Ominis

no

not now

seb♥︎

fuck

that perfect cock of urs would be right there then

hard and leaking and ready for me to do whatever i want

Gods i wanted to tease u more but i don’t think i can

id just pull ur trousers all the way off so ur fully naked

and then lay down between ur legs

id take u in my hand and then lick up from ur balls to the tip

tasting ur precum

fuck it’s so good u have no idea

Ominis

seb

i have to touch u

put my hand in yr hair

feel ur face while u have me like tht

seb♥︎

u always pull my hair when i go down on u

i love it

feels so good

fuck

r u touching urself

Ominis

yes course i am

wish i could feel u n ur mouth round my cock 

so gd

seb♥︎

yeah

id take u fully in my mouth

all the way back

ik how good im making u feel when u can’t stay still

even if i hold ur hips down ur still trying to fuck my mouth

moaning my name

Ominis

can’t blame me

too good

i bet ur aching for me rnt u

seb♥︎

more than u fucking know

id get u so close to the edge 

then pull away

my turn

id sit back on my knees and pull u to sit up

then bring ur hands to my pants

so u can feel how hard blowing u makes me

let u pull my bottoms and my boxers down

Ominis

i have to touch u

can’t bear it one mor secnd

wrap my hand round u and stroke u

ur always telling me hiw good i make u feel

bet if i leant down n lick ur dick u wld tell me how much u lov me

seb♥︎

fuck

tht fcuking tongue of urs

so wet

i bet u would hold back when all u really want is me to shove my dick down ur throat 

Ominis

u can fuck my mouth

plese

seb♥︎

of course baby

i bet ur so pretty right now

getting urself off

imagining me using u like that

Ominis

i need u so bad

seb♥︎

baby boy

i bet if i had my cock in ur mouth u would be touching urself anyway

but i can’t have u cuming yet

i want more

Ominis 

more ?

seb♥︎

would pull u off me

much as i want u still on me

push u back down and then flip u over

god ur ass is so perfect u know

idk how i haven’t yet but

all ive wanted to do is fuck u

im gonna

Ominis

seb

we havent

seb♥︎

i know

but i want to

i have this lube stuff tht I bought 

would need to use that

Ominis

o fuck

i

seb♥︎

would u want that

would u want me to fuck u

Ominis

yes

ples

fck

seb♥︎

good

need to get u ready for me

stretch u open

fucking hell

bet u would look so good like that

on ur knees for me

moaning as i finger u

hitting just tht right spot that makes ur back arch

Ominis

seb

please inneed this

need u inside me

seb♥︎

yes baby

when ur ready to take me i would line myself up and push my cock into ur pretty hole

gods i bet u feel so good

so tight

taking me so perfectly

all the way until im buried in u until i can’t go anymore

Ominis

im so close

please fuck me

i need u

seb♥︎

i will baby boy

ill pull out until it almost aches without me inside u

and then push back in until u can’t think straight

ill fuck u until the only thing u can think of is me

pull u up against me so I can suck on ur neck

telling u how good u are

how perfect

stroke ur cock until u the only thing u can say is my name 

Ominis

gnna cum seb

seb♥︎

fuck me too

im gonna fill u up 

cum for me baby

Ominis

rf./,b 

seb♥︎

brb

Ominis

     ,, .

seb♥︎

r u ok?

Ominis

oop

yeh

wow

am i dead

seb♥︎

i hope not

Ominis

i think im live

feel alive

also feel ded

seb♥︎

did u like it that much?

Ominis

i would prefer if u were actually here but yes

gross im a mess 

seb♥︎

cleaning charm 

thts what i just did

i also made a mess

Ominis

oh yeh

seb♥︎

lol

Ominis

ok clean

wow

thank u

seb♥︎

so after ur protesting u really enjoyed it?

was i right or was i right

Ominis

don’t start

seb♥︎

:D

that was so hot 

just thinking about u getting off to all of the things i want to do to u

feeling smug lol

Ominis

next time i c u

u r going to fuck me until neither of us can walk

ok ?

seb♥︎

gods ominis 

yes sir

March 25th, 11:03am

seb♥︎

hi lovely

wanna call?

Ominis 

Yes please. 

:)

seb♥︎ is calling Ominis

Call accepted

Call ended, 1hr 52 mins

March 26th, 1:17pm

seb♥︎

beep beep

Ominis

Ring. 

seb♥︎

yeeee

seb♥︎ is calling Ominis

Call accepted. 

Call ended, 3hr 5min

March 27th, 10:22am

Ominis

Home alone. Thinking about you. 

seb♥︎

mhm in what way?

Ominis

Don’t act dumb. 

seb♥︎

fuck

call me baby

Ominis is calling seb♥︎

Call accepted. 

Call ended, 2hr 9min

March 28th, 12:37pm

seb♥︎ is calling Ominis

Call accepted. 

Call ended, 4hr 15min

March 29th, 10:39pm

Ominis

image

Did that work?

seb♥︎

oh fuck look at u

gods

is that from rn?

Ominis

Yes. I was just thinking about some things.

Like the first time I got to touch you. 

And you touched me. 

seb♥︎

fuuuuuckkkk baby boy

what i wouldn’t do to u

call?

Ominis is calling seb♥︎

Call accepted. 

Call ended, 2hr, 44min

March 30th, 4:18pm

seb♥︎ is calling Ominis

Call accepted.

Call ended, 4hr 28min

March 31st, 10:53pm

seb♥︎

gods u have no idea how bad i need u

want u to ride me 

gripping ur hips til there’s bruises

so everyone knows ur mine

want to see ur cock bouncing as u move on top of me

fuck u would look so pretty

Ominis

coud pull ur hair like tht

bet u would cum in me just from tht wdnt u

would hardly be fucking me for 2 mins before u cum

but id keep riding u til im done

seb♥︎

shit 

i really need to hear u ominis

please

im begging u

Ominis

yes

ok

Ominis is calling seb♥︎

Call accepted. 

Call ended, 1hr, 19min

April 1st, 6:25pm

seb♥︎

love u

miss u

wanna kiss u all over

then fuck u into the mattress

Ominis

I’m about to have supper, don’t start now. 

seb♥︎

Not starting anything

but i bet u i could make u cum in like under 5 mins

Ominis

I doubt that. 

seb♥︎

want to try?

Ominis

Please. 

seb♥︎ is calling Ominis

Call accepted. 

Call ended, 4min

6:32pm

seb♥︎

told u

April 2nd, 9:26am

seb♥︎

hi gorgeous

dreamt about u

would love to tell u what happened ;)

11:42am

seb♥︎

damn i fell back to sleep 

ofc dreamt about u again

wasn’t a sex dream but we went on a date :D

was cute

love you

1:34pm

seb♥︎

where r u :(

miss u :(

3:00pm

seb♥︎

baby boy

3:41pm

seb♥︎

Ominis

4:14pm

seb♥︎

Ominis?

4:39pm

Missed call from seb♥︎

5:01pm

Missed call from seb♥︎

5:22pm

Missed call from seb♥︎

5:57pm

Missed call from seb♥︎

seb♥︎

Please answer

I’m worried

6:23pm

Ominis

sorry here

hate it here

seb♥︎

thank merlin

r u ok? what happened?

Ominis

one of the house elf

reporting to someone at the ministry abt marv

he been doing something bad can’t say for sure wht, no one would tell me

it was horribl

i wantto leave 

seb♥︎

I can come and get you, i can be there in seconds

Ominis

No then they wld kno I told you

seb♥︎

I’m not going to tell anyone

I only care about you

You being safe 

Ominis

scared they would hurt u

seb♥︎

I can hold my own

Ominis

not against them

seb♥︎

You underestimate me

Ominis

u underestimate them

seb♥︎

Please Ominis

I love you

Please

The thought of you being stuck there

I hate it

It’s not right

Ominis

dnt have a choice

seb♥︎

You do

Look

Move in with me

When school ends

You can live with me and we can work it out

We can get our own place 

Wherever you want

I’ll follow you anywhere 

Ominis

they wldnt give me the money to do tht

seb♥︎

I can take a job in Hogsmeade until we have enough money to get our own place

You don’t need anything from them

I know we aren’t sure what we want to do

But we’ll get there

All i know is i want to be with you

I promised u I got u and that id make everything ok

let me

Ominis

r u sure

it’s so soon

seb♥︎

No it’s not

Are you kidding?

Ominis you’re my best friend

We’ve been best friends for seven years

Every single moment I’ve just loved you more and more

And now you’re mine, entirely 

It’s not soon

I think we’ve wasted enough time actually 

All I want to do is be with you, love you and spend my life with you

Let me do that, please

Please just say yes

Ominis

ok

yes

ur all Ive ever wanted

seb♥︎

please let me come get u

i can apparate straight into ur room

we can be gone before anyone has even noticed

can u pack a bag?

Ominis

yes

5 min

seb♥︎

i’ll be there

love u

so much

2 YEARS LATER

April 2nd, 11:14am

Baby Boy

Where are you?

sweetheart

still stuck in the queue

sorry

Baby Boy

Did you get the flour?

sweetheart

yes

Baby Boy

And the eggs?

sweetheart

yes

Baby Boy

And the strawberries?

sweetheart

yes omi i got everything on the list

Baby Boy

And the sugar?

sweetheart

….

fuck

brb

Baby Boy

I should’ve gone myself. 

11:20am

sweetheart

I got the sugar. 

back in the queue

Sorry

Baby Boy

You’re an idiot, Sebastian. 

sweetheart

:D

u love me

Baby Boy

I just want everything perfect for when Anne comes to visit. 

sweetheart

ik!!

that’s why im back in the queue just because i forgot one thing lol

i don’t think she’d be mad if we didn’t make her a cake tho

Baby Boy

Well, I would like to. 

I want her to see that not only have we successfully been able to find our own place together, but we are also able to look after ourselves and actually cook without ruining the food. 

sweetheart

that was ONE TIME we almost burnt down the cottage 

when she wasn’t there to help us

Baby Boy

One time too many. 

sweetheart

true

ok just paying now brb

11:25am

sweetheart

success

starting to head back now

it’s hot out here

not as hot as you

Baby Boy

Stop. 

sweetheart

;)

how long is it until anne is supposed to arrive?

Baby Boy

A few hours. Why?

sweetheart

is that enough time to break in the new bed?

Baby Boy

I don’t think you can break something in more than once. 

sweetheart

alright fine

to check it’s still working?

Baby Boy

It was working perfectly well last night.

sweetheart

hmm that’s true

but what if it’s stopped working since?

Baby Boy

I don’t think a bed can stop working. 

sweetheart

fine

i’ll just get back and we can make the cake

and that’s it

Baby Boy

Actually, I’d like to check if the kitchen counters are sturdy before we make that cake. I think one area might be a little wobbly. We might have to use our body weights to check if it’s stable enough. 

sweetheart 

oh

i like the way u think

would it be better if we were leaning against it or if u were sitting on it?

Baby Boy

Hm, just to be safe, why don’t we try both?

sweetheart

:D

today was a bad day to wear sweatpants lol

running home

Baby Boy

I’ll be waiting in the kitchen. I was preparing to make the cake so I’m wearing an apron. 

Only an apron. 

sweetheart

fuck ur gonna be the death of me

love u so much Ominis <3

Baby Boy

I love you more Sebastian. <3

[intergalactic-deathray]

I think my social anxiety is getting bad again

I thought it was okay, and I mean, I’ve gotten a lot better about certain things—ex) self expression, confidence, and fear of judgment (ish). I do still have a hard time talking to teachers, walking in front of the whole class, and holding/initiating conversations. That said, something’s beginning to change or unravel as it were.

Im terrified to hang out with my friends because what if we have nothing to talk about and what if they don’t really want me there? What happens if they have strict unspoken rules and I break one and them and their family all hate me forever? What if I get excluded again? What if my parents can’t come pick me up to save me if something does happen? I’m trapped. I’m so scared and I’ve pretended I’m not for so long. It’s only when I had a panic attack an hour before my first scheduled small event in two years that i realized how bad it’s gotten (on accident). I managed to make up an excuse to get out of it but that was not a fun realization.

Also my parents hate driving me places and I can’t burden them with my social life/lack thereof. So I’ve also convinced myself that once I can drive I’ll be better about hanging out, I think deep down I know that nothing will change because I’m so scared.

I also have had issues with eye contact recently. Went to the store today w my dad and although I wasn’t doing the checking out, I could not look the cashier in the eye. Same when my mom forced me to stop by the neighborhood gathering she was attending. She wanted me to tell them how I was doing after the surgery and I managed to (thank fuck), but i could not pick my eyes up off the concrete. I’m worried about starting school again. Legitimately.

I’ve also lost touch with all my friends. I would say I’m trying…but I’m not. I may actually be subconsciously distancing and isolating myself from them bc I’m so fucking weird about everything. It’s toxic, but I just assume that because they haven’t texted me they don’t want to talk to me—something I wholeheartedly believe btw. Let’s just say I have a lot of work to do in terms of rethinking how I go about making and maintaining relationships…😅

[graysnetwork]

Listening to the other women rn so lemme js write rq

Btw I’m working on ur guy’s requests, I write slow I’m sry

Happy thanksgiving to the people that celebrate btw❤️🙏🏼

KYLE “Gaz” GARRICK x F!READER

It was the end of the day, Kyle was in the shower, I was sitting on our shared bed just putting on some lotion because my skin felt pretty dry. I was cleaning my hands and noticed Kyle’s phone screen light up which was weird because he never got calls or texts during the evening, I knew it wasn’t “captain price” since his captain never bothered him especially when work was over.

I walked over to the night stand grabbing Kyle’s phone checking what the notification was,

“So are we still getting drinks tomorrow?”

I read, the contact said “Kate” , a million thoughts went through my head all at once. Who was Kate? And why was Kyle getting drinks with her tomorrow? And why didn’t he tell me about her, or these plans with her?!

Was he cheating? No! Kyle would never cheat on me, would he? Another message came

“Hope I get to see you tomorrow, goodnight Kyle”

Noo Kyle wouldn’t cheat on me, I hope not.

I heard the water stop, I stared at the messages for a little while longer, I kept re-reading them trying to find an explanation to calm myself.

Kyle walked into the room, I put down his phone quickly “what is it?” He asked me, I was frowning lightly “uhm, just a text” I said, not sounding like I was upset. “From who?” He asked drying his hair, “oh, says it’s from Kate” I answered, Kyle quickly walked over to the night stand snatching his phone; checking the texts, he looked worried. Maybe he was cheating, he looked like he was hiding something.

“Who’s Kate?” I asked him, my brows furrowed, my light frown coming back to my face, he looked relieved now, turning his attention to me, I assume he caught on quickly to what I was thinking

Kyle could always tell if I was sad, angry, or worried, it never took long for him to realize what I was feeling, that’s what I liked about Kyle. He understood me. He understood me better then I understood myself.

“Y/n.. kate, Laswell, it’s Laswell.” He said shaking his head lightly, ridding any of my thoughts of him cheating. He got down on his knees “I would never cheat on you Y/n, never think that again please” he said; he spoke softly, my frown disappeared, a smile replacing it.

“I was gonna tell you I was going to meet with her and Price, but I forgot. I got distracted” he continued “I’m sorry darling” he finished “no Kyle, im sorry. Im sorry I doubted you.” I said looking down into my lap, not wanting to make eye contact with him; I was so embarrassed. His hand landed on my chin, pushing it up to look back at him. “I’m sorry.” He said, beginning to get up and giving me a kiss on the lips and walking back to the dresser to close it.

I rolled over to my side of the bed getting under the blanket feeling better.

-

Kyle turned on his phone

“Yeah, see you tomorrow Laswell, goodnight”

He texted back. Putting his phone the dresser and getting into bed.

—

(The next day: At the bar)

Kyle sat down at the table where Price and Laswell had been waiting for him for at least half an hour.

“Hi Kyle” Kate said “Hi” he replied getting comfortable, “please, never text me at night again Laswell” he asked her “why? I was just making sure you were still coming” she said furrowing her brows.

“Yeah well, Y/n checked my phone, and thought that I was cheating, so!” He summarized the whole story. “She thought I was hiding something cause I took the phone from her, I thought you were talking about the ring” he said. Kate sighed “well you gotta be more casual Kyle” John told him.

“Whatever, I’ll make sure not to text you late ever again, now please Can we get back on track” Kate asked; both men nodded “Alright Kyle! Let’s see what this ring looks like!” She said. Kyle took a box out of his front pocket, he opened showing off a beautiful diamond ring

He specifically said he wanted it to be simple and modest but noticeable enough on your ring finger.

“Wow” John said “Wow, she is going to be one lucky girl(person)” Kate said. Kyle smiled feeling confident and proud that they liked the ring.

He couldn’t wait to ask you to be his wife.

—

Sorry if some things are written wrong 😐